#all that struggle and FOR WHAT lmao
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@kaarija-inktober day 6, prompt: trafik!
ok so art block was really art blocking today & the struggle was real to even get something this simple done 😭
#käärijä#käärijätober#all that struggle and FOR WHAT lmao#i would have just scrapped it but i didn't want to start all over again#i should have just given up and not posted this but pffffff i wanna see if i can complete käärijätober fully this year#so no sense in giving up on only day 6.......but who knows maybe it'll happen tomorrow instead 😂#anyway. yeah. jere and joost in kid toy cars that's it that's the drawing pfft
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(From the body swap AU)


Hii! I'm very happy to see that my body swap comic was so well received, so here's a little something as a thanks for all the support <3
I'm excited to keep sharing my drawings, I hope you like what I make!
#Aand that's how Rulie ended up insisting on keeping Lege's bag lol#They're besties your honor. He wouldn't trust his entire inventory to anyone else xD#This time I had less pages to worry about so I hope this feels a bit less rushed. I'm still figuring this out tho#I also need to learn how to properly draw them bc this has been a struggle lmao#Hyrule's also stressed about the situation he's just been doing a bit of a better job at hiding it lul#Oh they don't know what's coming <3.#Anyways it feels so wrong to draw “Hyrule” with a scowl 😭#I like drawing his hair mirrored specially since it helps make it more different from Legends but it's so hard to draw it from the long side#This is a mess I have no idea what to call them#I confuse myself sometimes while making these lmao#lu legend#lu hyrule#linked universe#lu fanart#body swap au#Ig I'll tag it like that#offmozzart#I thought about kinda spreading all my ideas over time so as to no overdo it so quick ig (+not going crazy over drawing the same characters)#but rn I'm excited to draw them out so I need to take advantage of that
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Out of reach
#heheehee still coping can you tell#fun fact this is one of the first pieces I started of levihan but I abandoned it cause I was intimidated by the gear but I did it woo!!#also odm gear is the bane of my existence#like it is hands down one of the coolest anime gadgets but boy do I hate drawing it#like the belts are fine but all the mechanical stuff rrrrrraaaaaa#first time drawing the new uniform too and it took a long™ time and a million references even tho it's JUST THE PANTS HERE XD#and I feel like it's still not entirely correct but I don't care it looks cool and that's what's important lmao#it sounds like I hated drawing this which is not true cause I had fun with their faces and the colours and the fire#the gear was just a struggle and I can't imagine what the poor animators had to go through 😭#levihan#levihan fanart#attack on titan#attack on titan fanart#aot#hange zoe#hanji zoe#levi ackerman#shingeki no kyojin#artists on tumblr#violetscanfly
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doing chibi is a good design exercise bc it forces u to think on shapes n essential details, essentially thumbnailing ur designs. its also a terrible design exercise bc it ends up looking cute no matter what
#dimension 20#fantasy high#riz gukgak#very specifically class swap bard!riz#fh class quangle#mm. I may need tags for all the asides Ive been doing lmao#riz's canon design is so coherent and thematically clean that I genuinely struggle to keep up...#bard!riz's whole thing is working out his identity through abject fear so it kiiiinda makes sense that hes got a different thing going#on every year I guess? like lmao the directive I go into each of these designs with changes vastly#freshman bard!riz has to look extremely nonthreatening. and also make you wanna pick him up and chuck him at a wall#annoyingly inoffensive. slides off your memory pretty much immediately. a void of an experience#crucially Does Not Show Teeth While Smiling#sophomore year bard!riz I have been keeping the like. cameraman direction for#I want him to be swimming in clothes a little bit... he kinda lands at like. 80s/90s shlocky horror protag too which I do like#bc what is season 2 to riz if not a horror story lmao#junior year bard!riz I want to be somewhere between clark kent and tintin#the journalist aesthetics is not so clear and easy to build as the detective or spy aesthetics...#but also I just. really like boy journalist lmao this is the BD blood speaking again#and! I actually do draw his hair differently than in my canon junior year riz stuff. its a bit shorter here so it doesn't#obscure as much of his face#its so funny actually going from drawing canon stuff to class swap esp. with riz bc he's smiling SO much here#and it's 100% trained like its crucial for u guys to know he is equally if not more fucked up as a bard#barely anybody can wrangle him in canon it's already been mostly him keeping himself on track. imagine if he actually learned how to act#mmm. I think these designs are still gonna soft change as I draw them. thats fine we have fun#drawing sophomore year bard!riz for those comiclets was fun as hell. I think on this factor alone I call it a success lol
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💚💚💚 !!! Happy St. Patrick’s Day !!! 💚💚💚
#lackadaisy#rocky rickaby#lackadaisy fanart#lackadaisy cats#lackadaisycats#rocky lackadaisy#lackadaisy rocky#cat#cats#st. patrick's day#saint patrick’s day#funfairsundaes#💚☘️💚 SO MUCH GREEN 💚☘️💚#so I spend a good chunk of the day watching parades and felt the inescapable pull to draw something festive lol 💚#I’ll admit I struggled a bit with the color scheme and didn’t know what to do with it for a while#I’m so used to associating him with 💙 blue 💙 I get discombobulated when another color gets into the mix OOF#anywayyyysss#here it is lmao#I hope you all had a lovely St. Patrick’s day ☘️
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EEUUAAAAGGHH cold boy attack
#i'm really struggling to think of a caption for this one .#went thru like 6 shitty ideas before settling on this#equally as shitty as all the rest of my caption ideas but who cares#ummm. not my first time posting terror fanart but like. yah💗#the terror#oh boy there's a lot of characters in this one#francis crozier#harry goodsir#thomas blanky#george hodgson#james fitzjames#henry collins#william pilkington#solomon tozer#i dont wwnna tag ned cuz hes literally there only on a sticky noteb and thqt feels mean to tag him and then hes just barely there#fitzier#i supposeeee#idk what i was doin w that one i was listenign to bc;nr and started Feelin Things so i felt like being sad#also theyre labeled cuz originally i wasnt gonna finish the sketch LMAO#still is a bit scuffed but fuck it we baaalllll#tuunbaq#tuunbaq is there too#the terror amc#my art
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i was sort of wondering why exactly i've been sympathising with Eva so much, apart from, admittedly, bias- i did start considering that due to that, maybe i'd been internally exaggerating how Wolfgang & Co had been treating her. but i replayed some of Chapter 1, and honestly? now i'm of the opinion that Eva was justified to be afraid of Wolfgang, even if what she did in response was inexcusable.
because it wasn't just that Wolfgang told the others to be wary of Eva (and Damon) which caused them to feel othered. consciously or not, he literally attempted to control their movement on at least two occasions- when he attempted to stop them joining in on the exploration of the pharmacy, and then when he demanded to know where they were when they reached the dining hall last.
in his defence, i don't think Wolfgang was being malicious in doing so, i reckon he did genuinely believe he was protecting the others. but in doing so, for the two members of the group he disagreed with, he actively attempted to further restrict their freedom- in a situation where they're all already trapped!! i'm not surprised that Eva, with frustration, mentioned during the trial how much she'd been watched and suspected- multiple times, if i recall correctly. of course it got to her.
but that probably wasn't even the scariest part for her. it was probably just how easily Wolfgang had taken a leadership role within the group and how willing they were to listen to him without question. only Diana really spoke up against him on one occasion and got him to begrudgingly "allow" Eva and Damon to tag along. i mean, on that note, the fact that Wolfgang even casually commented that he wanted group decisions to be allowed by him, following the minor incident of Desmond taking initiative and checking the room locks, was extremely alarming!! like i mentioned, i don't want to villainise Wolfgang, but it does seem like he has the tendency to be rather controlling, whether or not he realises it. i would be willing to bet that the herd mentality implication was done completely on purpose, considering that Wolfgang's animal motif is a sheep and the writing team have done the symbolism in the game so well.
for all this, i can understand Eva's point of view. i know that, as Wenona had mentioned, there's a chance that Eva didn't actually feel threatened by Wolfgang, but i personally am willing to give her the benefit of the doubt. because if she was honest about being on edge, that would be a rather reasonable emotional response, in my opinion.
what else are you to feel when you're at odds with an honoured individual who effortlessly holds the power to turn so many others against you too and potentially put your safety at risk, if not terror?
#Eva Tsunaka the character you are...#YES i do acknowledge that Wolgang's distrust of her was NOT irrational given her OWN actions. they're both flawed and that's great#aaaaughhhhh. Eva you're so interesting... haunt that narrative lass#ALSO this is just what i think about what she did to Wolfgang. if anything i personally reckon that harming Diana was her bigger crime#for that i DO struggle defending my girl. sorry Eva love that WAS in fact truly fucked. it must be so fucking tragic to be Diana...#if i were Eva carrying out this scheme i'd probably frame Kai for the murder. since he was bullying her the most after the talent reveal#and i'm a petty bitch LMAO#(Grace also did plenty of the mockery but framing her wouldn't really be possible considering she and Wolfgang were roommates probably...)#THEN AGAIN i guess choosing Diana specifically to frame made it less obvious that Eva was the culprit?#since it'd be suspicious if not one but TWO of the most hostile people to Eva ended up involved in the case??#i suppose if they were all trying to see the best in each other they wouldn't WANT to believe even Eva would frame her biggest defender...#HOLY SHIT. IF SO. EVA IS FUCKING SMART. that is SO clever and SO cruel my gosh#so MAYBE the choice to involve Diana was more than a simple feeling of betrayal/bitterness from Eva??#did NOT mean to ramble this much in tags oops#i just really really like Eva. i need to inspect her more omg#ace's random thoughts :)#project eden's garden#eva tsunaka#wolfgang akire#p:eg#project: eden's garden#project edens garden
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Favorite Seasonal Looks of 2024 - Poll Results










The results are in! 🎉 Thank you so much to everyone who participated and shared! 🥰💞
You can find the results of each poll in the alt descriptions! 😌
So, did your favorite look win? 👀✨️
#fields of mistria#fom#fom adeline#fom balor#fom celine#fom eiland#fom hayden#fom juniper#fom march#fom reina#fom ryis#fom valen#polls#ty all again! i really loved seeing what everyone had to say 🥰#also everyone who couldn't choose a fave? 🤝 we may have struggled but that's okay we just have a lot of love in our hearts! 🤣#oh! tbh i didn't put any beach fits in as answers cuz i think they would've swept the polls and it wouldn't have satisfied my curiosity 😂#maybe if no one else does it i'll make a poll for that? idk 🤭#i actually wanted to do fave look polls for all the characters but 1) i forgot LMAO & 2) i was worried the polls felt like spam 💧#anyway! i hope you all have a happy new year!!! may 2025 bring you joy and good fortune!!! 😘💗💖💞
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Tenth Lord in Jupiter Nakshatras
Thanks for your patience in waiting for the next part of the series - I’m glad you guys are interested. As always, recorded for my own benefit, published for yours. General disclaimer is in my bio. Credit to KRSchannel for inspiring this post.
Find your 10th lord here, and find your 10th lord’s nakshatra here.
The 10th house rules our life’s honor. It represents the services we perform for society as well as the reputation we earn as a result. It is associated with the father and the career because traditionally, this is where both our standing in society and the role we performed in society would come from - inherited through the father’s family line. However, in our contemporary world, this isn’t always the case, which is why it’s important to know the grander themes at play.
The three Jupiter-ruled nakshatras are Punarvasu, Vishakha, and Purva Bhadrapada.
Jupiter is a planetary object that represents ascension, expansion, and union. It is the aspiration that guides us to our greatest heights, and the intangible whole comprised of all pieces, parts, and individuals. Channeling Jupiter means to take the role of the collective in our capacity as an individual, such as sharing our experiences to better the understanding of others, or discovering, exploring, and sharing universal truths that connect everyone. This is why Jupiter is associated with the partner. Venus is like the practical partner, who represents our own earthly values, but Jupiter is the soulmate, who allows us to ascend beyond the self, uniting physical with spiritual. Jupiter obscures, elevates, and enlightens, offering both afterlife and a life purpose.
DO YOU HAVE YOUR 10TH LORD IN A JUPITER-RULED NAKSHATRA? THAT MEANS YOU…
Audrey Hepburn, Amelia Earhart, and Kendrick Lamar all have their tenth lords in Jupiter ruled nakshatras. Audrey’s is in Punarvasu, Anne’s is in Vishakha, and Kendrick’s is in Purva Bhadrapda.
… AND THE PUBLIC MUTUALLY TEACH, EVOLVE, AND MYTHOLOGIZE ONE ANOTHER.
This placement produces an individual who is not content to engage with either their vocation or their society as a means to an end. These natives rather prefer to approach their public life, and the concept of the public itself often enough, as deeply meaningful and containing a higher purpose. Here you find individuals who shake up their industry by introducing cultures of open-mindedness and experimentation, as often as you find those who pursue their far-flung, lofty legacies at the expense of their health, relationships, privacy, and even life.
Jupiter's fame is more particular to how its influence manifests than to the amount of or method by which it was accrued. Whether you're looking at canon-defining classics, the celebrity of subculture, or the first individual of a certain kind to succeed in this or that field, you're looking at a Jovian native whose legacy serves to teach the public, and expand how the public defines itself. Of course, anyone can push boundaries, but these natives are most likely to be remembered for the barriers they break, and the lessons they taught in the process.
MORE ON THE SPECIFICS OF PUNARVASU, VISHAKHA, AND PURVA BHADRAPADA BELOW!
IF PUNARVASU RULES THE TENTH LORD, YOU…
Sharon Tate, David Beckham, and Halle Berry all have their tenth lords in Punarvasu. Others with this placement are William Shakespeare, Aretha Franklin, Amy Adams, J. M. Barrie, Debbie Harry, Al Gore, Alannis Morisette, Naomi Judd, Stephen King, Tony Curtis, Eddie Murphy, Gisele Bündchen, Werner Herzog, and Courtney Love.
Take public responses to your behavior personally, even finding it difficult to separate your identity from your reputation at first.
Are likely to be known for your professional value on an individual level, as a matter of skill, rather than as a team member or leader.
May benefit from a mentor who takes you under their wing, or may play such a role to new incomers to your field or workplace.
Count on your inborn charm to buoy you through scandal.
Transform your persona with age to appeal to new expectations.
AND YOU MAY FIND…
Travel is an expected part of your job, and public service you perform in foreign places seems to leave a greater impact.
Early on in life, key marriages and romantic partnerships can interfere with your career and social status, or vice versa.
Engaging in social service, partaking in cultural traditions, and organizing society-wide events, is spiritually cleansing, and allows you to reintegrate your public persona and personal identity.
Others imbue you with moral authority you are not prepared to shoulder, potentially leading to unearned imposter syndrome.
A pattern of being publicly linked to 'someone else': a role you have played, a title you've been given, a superior who enhances your image, a teammate who steals your valor, etc.
PUNARVASU is the Star of Renewal. Industries and career types favored are those involving archetypes, exploration, drama, history, innovation, education, spirituality, relationships, care-taking, healing, delivery, narrative, articulation, influence, and transportation.
IF VISHAKHA RULES THE TENTH LORD, YOU…
Anne Hathaway, Usher, and Billy Idol all have their tenth lords in Vishakha. Others with this placement are Dodi Al Fayed, Steven Spielberg, Susan Sarandon, Winston Churchill, Giorgio Armani, Martin Luther, Patti Page, H. G. Wells, Martin Scorsese, Analeigh Tipton, Joel Coen, Megan Mullaly, Richard Strauss, CM Punk, Georgia O'Keefe, John Cleese, Monica Vitti, Ashanti, and Mary, Queen of Scots.
Naturally come to occupy positions of authority in the industries of your mastery, if not through literal rank than socially/morally.
May find yourself successfully introducing a new movement, genre, belief, or idea before it's celebrated by the mainstream.
Are generous in the world of public service, and will leave a legacy of having cared for and striven for the betterment of your society.
Know how to communicate your ideals and philosophies to a wide audience in a professional setting effectively, even artistically.
May be accused of elitism, pretentiousness, or arrogance, even when you try to cultivate an attitude of humility and modesty.
AND YOU MAY FIND…
Your early professional life is beset with competition, or your chosen industry is somehow affected by martial conflicts.
Members of the public will interpret you either as self-indulgent and petty, or as austere and enlightened, with no in-between.
Opportunities for romance are plentiful for you in social and legal settings, but resulting relationships must be extricated from those wider contexts to establish a happy and healthy marriage.
Your boss often partakes in social drinking with his subordinates.
Jealousy is a common theme, whether you have a reputation for being jealous, others are jealous of and threatened by you, etc.
VISHAKHA is the Star of Purpose. Industries and career types favored are those involving research, politics, competition, speech, ideology, agitation, immigration, criticism, trade, exchange, leisure, intoxicants, production, leadership, personal branding, and style.
IF PURVA BHADRAPADA RULES THE TENTH LORD, YOU…
Marilyn Monroe, Grace Kelly, and Sidney Poitier all have their tenth lords in Purva Bhadrapada. Others with this placement are Kurt Cobain, Laurence Olivier, Michael Jordan, Charles Dickens, Vincent Price, Armie Hammer, Franz Schubert, Gerard Way, John Steinbeck, Kurt Russell, Maya Angelou, Conan O'Brien, Bobby Driscoll, David Tennant, Jay Leno, Rik Mayall, Keri Russell, and OP.
Tempt others into rule-breaking and are tempted in turn by communities and livelihoods that circumvent or defy the law.
Signify a movement or change in social norms within your field.
Use your work to provoke others into changing their core beliefs.
Bring elements of the metaphysical, spiritual, transcendental, and philosophical into a more social and/or practical public setting.
Naturally uncover and grapple with a fundamentally darker side of public life and of the public in general, with too much exposure or attention more likely to pose a real, material risk to your health, security, or even life.
AND YOU MAY FIND…
Your look, attitude, and/or impulses are easily congealed into an image or symbol, one that is powerful but restrictive, and your depths may be shunned by the public or authorities as a result.
Anyone who tries to take a conflict with you public will suffer serious consequences as a result, from either your own ferocity when tested, or organized backlash from others on your behalf.
Introduction through the professional and public sphere makes others magnetically attracted to you; however, those who would already be attracted to you are at risk of becoming obsessive.
The pursuit of a specific career or end-goal, specifically through higher education or founding of a philosophy, actually puts you in contact with more opportunities and generates more success in a totally different field or toward a different goal than you plan for.
One of the most rewarding and effective means by which you can perform public service is through contributions to education and community outreach through mentorship.
PURVA BHADRAPADA is the Burning Pair. Industries and career types favored are those involving ideology, sensuality, speculative genres, music, investigation, nature, spirituality, research, administration, promotion, conflict, subcultures, rhetoric, death, and crime.
HOPE THIS IS HELPFUL. VARIATION IN REQUESTS MEANS WE’RE GOING OUT OF ORDER, BUT WE WILL RETURN TO THE OTHERS LATER. FEEL FREE TO MESSAGE WITH QUESTIONS, THOUGHTS, IDEAS, ETC. THANKS SO MUCH. PART 7 WILL BE FOCUSED ON MERCURY-RULED 10TH LORD NAKSHATRAS! ♡
#vedic astrology#house lords#jupiter#jupiter nakshatras#nakshatras#astrology#punarvasu#purva bhadrapada#vishakha#10th house#10th house lord#marilyn monroe#grace kelly#sidney poitier#anne hathaway#usher#billy idol#sharon tate#david beckham#halle berry#audrey hepburn#amelia earhart#kendrick lamar#mine#authored#ugh i want to wrap up this series soooooo bad lmao#i've loved working on it but i also am not satisfied with any of the posts 💀 the perfectionist in me hates them all#i'm at least proud of the photo edits 🙏#thank you all for your patience#it's been a real struggle what with moving and pet deaths and job changes and illnesses blah blah
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wrestling fic writers!!
i have decided to be the change i wanna see, so lets do a nice little thing for each other, as a community full of incredible and talented writers. yes this is writer specific only, but thats cause thats where the main problem of people not interacting with creative works lies in this fandom as far as i can tell and have seen people talking about it especially in the last couple of months
if you read this, please add links to your written works. it can be just a single fic youre really proud of, your writing blog, your writing tag, your ao3 account, anything where your works can be found
and if you leave your link here, PLEASE check out someone else that has left their works, and interact with them. leave them a comment, even just a kudos, REBLOG their fic, etc. interacting is the keyword i want to emphasize here, along with building a sort of a masterpost of where to find people writing in this fandom
and if you are not a writer, youre still highly encouraged to interact with this post and share it and show love to the writers in this fandom, obviously!! i think that should go without saying, but adding it in anyways
a bit more about my vision and resources and such under the read more, but thats the gist of it. happy linking and please be kind and supportive to each other!! 💜
nobody is too big or too small to add their things on this list. if you write and post anything in this fandom whatsoever, be it fics or drabbles or headcanons, any companies or any kind of ships or reader inserts or any content whatsoever no matter how 'dead dove dont eat' or hell even if its just meta, we welcome all here and nobody can say that one thing is less valid than another. just please tag your content accordingly, especially if theres content warnings, and feel free to mention what you write, who you write, any info you wish to leave that would help people before they click on your links. but even so, that should not and hopefully will not deter people from interacting, no matter what it is. someones trash is another ones treasure, i promise you
and unless the amount gets really overwhelming, im personally going to be checking out everyone that leaves something here. unless it squeaks me out, but even then, i'll spread the word. and i just wish as many people as possible will do the same, and not just use this as a potential board to only get eyes on their stuff. ofc thats also the point, but you should give as much, if not more, than you get. we need to be kind and supportive of one another (besides, from personal experience, if you show love to someone else, they are more likely to do it back than without you taking the first step, so... pay it forward)
as for resources, heres a few links that should be helpful in leaving comments and feedback. of course everyone does their own thing and no comment is too big or too small to leave, but for those who need them. if you have anything you'd like added to this list, dont hesitate to get in touch or drop it in the post yourself!!
101 comment starters
ao3 floating comment box
kudos html
dont know how to comment? easy solutions
a quick hot guide to commenting (by yours truly)
an overall guide to appreciating fanfic writers
and just in general.. leave people comments. leave them asks about their projects. just go over and gush about their work. i know it sounds embarrassing but writers love nothing more than to hear that someone likes what they are doing. if you find a fic that hasnt been updated in forever, comment on it. it might just be the spark the author needs to continue. while kudos and likes are nice, and just as valuable to some, its definitely in the words the people leave for them that matter the most. im not saying this to put pressure on anyone, its just how it is, and i feel like unless people are writers themselves, and even then sometimes, thats just hard to grasp, especially if the writer is a smaller and less popular one who doesnt get a lot of traffic in the first place
i think thats all. just be nice and considered to everyone, reblog peoples works, this post with others add ons and so forth. and if i find anyone talking shit here or at other writers for something they share, you'll be blocked and im probably taking your kneecaps. be fucking nice. we are all struggling here and we need to stick together
happy sharing and commenting 💜💜
#wrestling fanfiction#wrestling fic#aew fanfic#aew fanfiction#wwe fanfiction#wwe fanfic#i hope this make some sort of coherent sense#despite being a writer im really bad at words lmao#i also dont know what to tag this with without clogging main tags so im going to trust moots to get this going first#just. this is a topic im passionate about. i love writing i love writers and having seen the wrestling fandom as of late really struggling#with this. we need to do something. even a little bit helps. actually get people leaving feedback and commenting again#supporting each other. we can do this together#dont let dreams be dreams lets fucking do this#just be nice and help each other out#im gonna stop now before i get overly emotional. if theres any questions let me know tho i think i got the main parts pretty clear here#again moots. im trusting you to get this started. im not gonna add my own shit here immediately this isnt about me#this is about the community as a whole#i also hope nobody is afraid of adding themselves here. you are all valid and worth the attention no matter what#just remember to also give if you leave something here. look at the previous links. look in the notes to find more people#okay thats it i need to make dinner now#lets just be kind and support one another. promise me that 💜#night is an absolute mess on main
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the fun thing about crippling imposter syndrome and ridiculously prolonged delayed gratification is that they do this cool combo move where they invent an especially ominous form of anxiety that is insidious and subliminal but reaches into me through to the tips of my fingers like an evil little poison impossible to ignore but also impossible to detect except in the way my jaw aches in the morning and the way i find myself unironically saying "this is the longest week ever" on a forking monday afternoon
#HELPPPPPP is it march 17 yet. HELP!!!! HELPPPPP HELP HELPhELP#this is a post about residency match. i WILL throw up if i think too hard about it#it's been so long since interview season that i can't remember the feeling of#'that went pretty well! i think they liked me! i feel good about myself!' even if rationally i know that i had those feelings at the time#the only thing left is repeated informational emails about what to do if you don't match#and the 13% of ppl who didn't match w the same number of interviews as me last year#and there is nowhere for me to seek validation that i'm overreacting bc this whole system is so nebulous and unpredictable#by the time march 17 rolls around i'll be so pessimistic that the expectation will be 'now i can start planning for re-applying'#which is such an insane thing to do. obviously it happens to people but to EXPECT it to happen with my application is kind of stupid#And Yet Here I Am#help.#it's fine. objectively i think my chances are reasonably high. i should be excited for friday.#i WILL be excited for friday if monday goes well. i just want to know NOW if monday is gonna go well bc this feeling is only getting worse#it's fine. thanks for reading. on the bright side it's 65 degrees today! gonna take a walk and then play biddy games and try to forget lmao#trust me you will all know how it goes on monday :)#text#nova shh#personal#academia#struggle bus
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Hey @rokurookajima I need your expert opinion on something Metalbanders related
So in ‘canon’, so to speak, Suiren has a pet moose lion. Why? Because Nia was 12 and thought it’d be cool. In the Modern AU I’ve replaced it with a huge fucking maine coon cat that Suiren can barely pick up at this point, because nothing else could compare in size to a moose lion
The question: Would Vaatu, Suiren’s certified only friend tolerable ally, get along with the cat, or would she hate his guts for no reason? Inquiring minds want to know
(Bonus questions: Is Mula a cat too, and what does she think of Vaatu if they’ve met?)
#I’m asking cause you’re the one with the cats lmao#all I have is a Honeybun and she loves everyone#cats can be a whole different matter though#for reference. her name is Lottie. she’s big brown and fluffy and fiercely protective of Suiren#she also doesn’t register that she grew A Lot in size since she was a kitten and can’t really sit on people anymore#it’s a whole Problem but Suiren loves her anyway#because that is her baby#idk haha it’s 2 a.m and I’m struggling to fall asleep so I wanna talk about Metalbanders#this happens a lot actually but usually I refrain#tonight though I’m extra bored so here we are#a.k.a I’m getting emotional over this tolerable allyship again. what else is new
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seeing how Atsushi was in the orphanage his whole life, I bet he went absolutely crazy for train stamps; like taking Ranpo out to the train and noticing the stamp booth and asking 'whats that?' and Ranpo explaining the system and Atsushi immediately buying a notebook to get his first stamp! (he downloads the app for the local line stamps which offer digital stamps) then him freaking out that the metro does stamps as well?? cue him always agreeing to go out with Ranpo and the other Agency members taking him along and bringing a page of the train stamp if they ever leave Yokohama without him
#bsd atsushi#bungou stray dogs#atsushi nakajima#im not sure why people forget how sheltered his was in his upbringing compared to the other characters#weird seeing fics where he's explaining things to Kyouka when she had parents and had freedom prior to the mafia#Atsushi was literally at the orphanage for 18 years and was kicked out#using suica? using points from at grocery stores?#what is that? how would he even know? unless that was basic knowledge at the orphanage#I bet he spent all night learning how to navigate his phone after receiving it from the agency#anything that seemed normal and ppl wouldn't think twice about im sure Atsushi was like hm yes Ive done that and I understand#he's probably bluffing and learning everything on a day to day basis#not trying to infantilize him btw#hes a full functioning (lmao) adult who can easily kill someone im just saying he deffo struggles with 'normal' things#liztalks#text
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macaque, denial is a river in egypt..
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#lego monkie kid#lego monkie kid fanart#monkie kid#monkie kid fanart#lmk#lmk fanart#lmk macaque#monkie kid macaque#blue and violet#the most hilarious thing about this is the fact thay yes Macaque can swim#but even he doesn't know what this means given the context of this ask#do 'I' even know what it means?#lmao no I just thought it would be hilarious if Macaque just blurted this out thinking he was making a point#if you want me to come up with a deep meaning behind this on the spot:#Macaque is indeed in a river of denial but he can swim so he is content and fine#struggling but he can still swim so he isn't too concerned on trying to escape the river#but of course this silly monkey can only swim for so long - just like any other person he will eventually get 'tired' or somewhat#swimming in denial won't get him anywhere#but hey he can still swim so...#eh what am I even saying#this is all bullshit
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things I wish I could relive for the first time again:
that magical window where you finish a new piece of media, having watched/read it all by yourself with no fandom contact whatsoever, and you are just so happy about it, and full of interesting theories and takeaways, and just in love with it as a gorgeous piece of art.
because I swear to god as soon as you join the fandom for anything, you're bombarded with how you're supposed to view characters and their arcs, how you're supposed to morally and ethically judge the plot and the ways it apparently failed to present the right message, and if you don't you'll either be shunned for not sharing the popular headcanons or you'll be harassed for not criticizing the source material enough.
like how is it that the fans of a piece of media are also the ones being the most negative about it? If I like a show or a movie or a book, well, I liked it. That's kind of the point. I'm actually not here to tear it apart and talk about how it didn't live up to standards other people had! I enjoyed it for what it was, and forcing myself to find negative things to say about it doesn't actually bring me more enjoyment of it or reap any benefit to me. Fandom's a double-edged sword; you want to join a community to share your love for a piece of art, and the price you pay for a modicum of joy is a mountain of negativity. that's one main reason that I never engage with fandom until I'm completely done with a show, because if I was plugged into all of that commentary and discourse during the process, I'd be completely colored by how I'm expected to interpret everything this piece of art is presenting to me without being able to even form my own opinions.
#this is currently about arcane but it's also every fandom i've been in since the dawn of time#there is so much political discourse about how the show handled the piltover zaun conflict and class struggle and i just#like i don't even know what to say besides. art doesn't have to provide the correct answer you know#it's not asking you to accept their explanation as the right one. it's just presenting a story. a scenario. a nuanced one at that#which of course the internet is the enemy of nuance as we know#especially in arcane i thought it was fairly clear that the end wasn't the bright shining future anyone hoped it'd be.#was anyone right in their actions? did anything turn out the way they wanted? or was it just as messy and gray as real life#we're living in such a myopic time for art where it's believed every story must take the correct stance or be invalid or even harmful#instead of just offering a perspective. a lived experience. a hypothetical. a story.#and when it gets to be headache inducing all I can do is take myself back to how I felt when I watched the show for the first time#and I came away from the whole thing being incredibly moved and captivated by the entire story and its nuance.#i had no qualms and no criticisms and i was very impressed with the depth of storytelling surrounding the political parts of the plot#as well as the character arcs. i guess people like to dunk on viktor's s2 arc nowadays and i just. shrug. i was blown away by it#for me at least i have nothing but pure love and admiration for art after i've viewed it. it's only after interacting with fandom#that the criticisms seep in and now i can't unsee it and even if i don't agree with it it still muddies my ability to enjoy the art#fandom is a curse in that sense. like i seek out art that i enjoy. i have no desire to make myself dislike that art. whats the point#why are the biggest haters of a piece of media the 'fans' of it idk.#me finishing a show: wow i love all the characters and the plot and the cinematography! I want to talk to others about how cool it is!#meanwhile the fandom hating characters to the point of death threats to their creators#after 13 years in fandom i can say this - if you don't need to join the fandom for smth then don't lmao.#you'll be able to retain your genuine enjoyment of the thing.#that whole 'if you didnt like what i made then make your own' philosophy people use on fanfic/fanart should be applied more#to actual published art too. you should be able to meet art where it's at and if you don't like what it's saying or how it looks then#just move on and find something else. another branch of the 'the greatest enemy of the left is the left' tree imo#a show has a lot of queer rep? bash it to the point of making the creators go into hiding for not doing it how you think it should be#no artist will ever be able to satisfy everyone's demands. they just want to put their experiences and ideas into the world#creators that try to do good get more vitriol than those who never try. they're scrutinized harder and judged more harshly#it's just. one of those 'real fucking tired of fandom' nights. the best cure is just going back and rewatching the source material#all on your own and falling back in love with it. just you and your genuine connection with the art.#anyway what happened to steven universe was unforgiveable and it really ruined fandom for me. like. yall don't deserve nice things
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one of my friends is a biologist & i was really amused hearing some of her stories yesterday because they put into context just how believable newt's kaiju drift is as Shit A Biologist Would Do. like my friend has personally met both a guy who got infected with a botfly larva and didn't do anything to remove it (because he just didn't mind), and another guy who identified a tapeworm species by intentionally exposing himself to it (he had it narrowed down to 2 species and needed to know if it was the one that would infect humans) (it was)
#newton geiszler#unscientific aside#drifting with a kaiju is on a whole different level of dangerous. but still.#he's an expert on them. he knew (thought he knew) what he was doing#can also confirm from personal experience that hermann is extremely accurate as a mathematician#like theres a whole range of personalities in mathematics so that part is just 'hes believable as an eccentric academic'#but mathematicians have A Thing about chalkboards#90% of the math profs i had used chalkboards and the 10% who didnt have chalkboards used powerpoint slides#cant remember seeing anyone use dry erase boards except one poor TA who had to fill in one time and was STRUGGLING#well and profs from my non-math classes#also if you ask math people why they like math i think roughly half of them will say something about the beauty of the universe#also his exhausted sigh when pentecost says 'i need more than a prediction' lmao. buddy i have BEEN there#oh and the fact that they have him doing some computer modeling & that he wrote code for the jaegers#extremely overlapping disciplines. i had mandatory computer science courses alongside algebra and stats and all that#& you need to be able to write at least a little code to do the predictive model stuff hes doing#anyway yeah i love them. best eccentric scientists#ask to tag#parasites
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