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violet-jessop · 7 months ago

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i think that after spending $11,691 on my teeth in the last 18 months, if one of my front teeth falls out then killing myself can't be considered drastic or unreasonable action

#i've been hyping myself up since i noticed late this afternoon #like no i'm sure it'll be fine #i just have to call dr whyte in the morning and tell him what's happening #and we'll book an appointment and he'll adjust them #and then it'll go back to something less deformed and horrific and ugly #but fuck the more i look at it the more scared i get #what if it's already too late #the roots seem so shallow #i know my lower incisors over erupted #they're part of the reason i'm so fuck ugly #but the x-rays seemed fine #like the roots were all stupid long #but if i lose 32 it's over #all of this has been for nothing #i just wanted someone to look at me and tell me i'm beautiful or handsome or something #i didn't think this could make me uglier #at least long term #braces aren't hot #but i accepted that maybe if there was a chance i could be in 2 years it was worth the money and pain #this puts me right back in my aunt's granny flat in 2016 #when that temporary filling fell out of my first root canal #as if it wasn't bad enough to need a root canal at 17 #i felt so disgusting and deformed #and it's the same now #all the money in the world couldn't fix my fucking face #i take such good care of my teeth too fuck sake #brush 2-3 times a day and floss twice a day #but it has never made a difference #i'm so fucking tired of trying #if this tooth falls out i'm done with it all

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lotus-pear · 2 months ago

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on everyone's SOUL she's the least benched character in the entire game ‼️‼️

#two posts in 48 hours ⁉️⁉️ art block has NOTHING on me #i don't trust ppl who bench ann she literally hits like a truck and has the best status ailment inflictions aside from black mask akechi #she NEVER leaves my team my beautiful gf (real) 🙏🏼#i've been watching my friend play p5 and i was instantly struck again by how impeccable her character is i genuinely love her sm #forever hating atlus for giving her all that backstory and making her one of the strongest female characters in the entire series #just to reduce her to the fanservice archetype after kamoshidas palace and constantly objectify her in crude jokes for a laugh #she deserves sm better auughh my girl.....#persona 5 #persona 5 royal #p5 #p5r #ann takamaki #takamaki ann #lotus draws #also i did her outfit by memory so my b if it isn't accurate i couldn't be fucked to look at a reference image

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astraystayyh · 1 year ago

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They have since left four premature babies to decompose on their beds. They have since kidnapped, stripped, tortured civilians and tried to frame them as Hamas fighters for their propaganda. They have since shot people at refugee camps execution style. They have since targeted academics and poets and directors. They have since killed 86 journalists. Still no ceasefire.

psa: i know that many of us did NOT doubt this for a second, neither did i. this is targeted at the people who educated themselves for the first time about this genocide and discovered the absolute horrific things that Israel is capable of doing to Palestinians, with the unwavering support of its allies.

#i rem clearly that video of the first hospital that was bombed #how israel first denied it and said that it was a failed hamas rocket #then it said it attacked the hospital because hamas was hiding in there #and i rem thinking that this would get every world leader outraged #that they would do everything to stop this genocide #that was too many weeks ago #nothing has changed #this should terrify us all #this could have been us in that hospital #in that house in that refugee camp in that ambulance in that street #nowhere is safe in Palestine #nowhere #free palestine #palestine #free gaza #gaza

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zorangezest · 5 months ago

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thanks for listening

#look at me #look at m #i need you to ignore canon for a second and let them have this moment #it occured to me that soundwave would’ve been the only one who could hear bee after he got his voice ripped out #and i drew this so fast #someone called them ‘soundad and bumbleson’ aND THATS ALL IVE BEEN HINKING ABOUT HAHHUAHA #i have a lot of thoughts about these two #soundwave is probably really accustomed to liars and twofacers after being around characters like starscream for so long #so when he meets bee #and all he gets is this blind honest truth from everything he says #he’s probably blindsided by it #like this little guy. this little yellow guy #has so much faith and love and nothing to gain from giving it away #it’s not some ploy with ulterior motives or lie to win his favour like starscream or sentinel #nope. this little guy just radiates the plain honesty of his truth #that he adores him #and soundwave has never seen anything like it before #soundwave #transformers #maccadam #b 127 #transformers one #tf one #SORRY FOR THR PARAGRAPH RANT YOU CAN PRY THEIR FATHER SON DYNAMIC FROM MY COLD DEAD HANDS #and yes bee still calls megatron dee in his head #he never stopped #zorangetf

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egophiliac · 3 months ago

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So.... what are your thoughts on Ace's UM, if you haven't been asked this already?

sneaky magic for the sneakiest boy

no but really, I think it fits him really well! I had thought his UM would probably involve something kinda sleight-of-handy or pickpockety! and I looooved that it made such a nice loop-around back to episode 1. ❤️ I was. kind of half-expecting him to just run out and punch Riddle in the nose again. but instead this time 'twas he who offed the queen's head! it was great! and he did it while stone-cold terrified out of his mind! because Ace is the only remotely normal or well-adjusted person at NRC and therefore the only one who is like "we're going to literally die, this is super effed up". but he did it anyway!!!! I AM SO PROUD

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 part 12 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 part 12 spoilers #also love how it complements deuce's magic! they are two of a kind ❤️♠️#i do think bet the limit fits the 'uno reverse card' description more though #like...okay they haven't really said much on how joker snatch works #(literally ace went 'we'll talk about it later')#but i think it's not supposed to be inherently retaliatory if that makes sense #the japanese is something like 'put an ace up my sleeve'#which implies to me that it's not really an in-the-moment thing? i think he can steal it and hold on to it for a while probably #like he might be able to snatch it and then use it on someone else later rather than it being reflected back on the original caster #versus deuce's being that he punches you back with your own punch (and/or other various punches he's acquired)#(a connoisseur of fine punches)#i am 100% guessing though so who knows! we will find out later i presume #now the only one left to get their um is grim maybe 👀#(i mean i would also love to see some staff ums HEY TWST THAT WOULD BE COOL)#(but like. narratively speaking and all)#oh and maybe crowley's depending on how plot-important he actually ends up being #what if it turns out nothing's going on with crowley and he's actually completely irrelevant #he tears his mask off and he's just some random dude who has zero idea of what's happening #nobody's been orchestrating shit #everyone's just been getting radioactive poisoning from the stone adeuce replaced in the chandelier back in the prologue #this was all a cautionary tale about getting the blot levels in your school's hvac system regularly checked

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bacchuschucklefuck · 3 months ago

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january month of yuugi

#yugioh #ygo dm #yugi mutou #idk what was in the water on 2025 opening but it really got me thinking hm. I will finally draw yuugi #ygo has been in my dna for like close to a decade at this point and yet. I have never attempted to draw anything for it #until now. my audacity has finally reached quota #wishshipping saved my ass this lunar new year and its not even an exaggeration. thank you kazuki takahashi for the boys. rest in peace #mutou yuugi I love u.... u r my son #not mentioned in this stack but dsod's decision to thin yuugi's choker is the funniest shittiest character design decision on earth #like as a detail its so nothing. when u zoom out it just looks like a shadow dropped wrong somewhere. I have come to terms with #the other fashion choice for him in that movie but the tiny ass choker I don't accept. that's stupid. big it #I rly like the vision of older yuugi being like. obnoxiously polite and cheerful #specifically in a way that's not like ceding space for everyone else. like it's clear at all time that he's Like That #and nobody will be able to stop him from being Like That #and also tbh I can never imagine him leaving domino for long (<- definitely not projecting my city slicker ass on him)#I think the game shop's been where he's safe to be himself for so long that he'd want to keep it running and extend #that shade to other kids in the city too. his loyal customers are so scared of disappointing him for no reason #.... typed huge wall of text abt jou leaving domino for tournaments etc frequently but always coming back to hang out with yuugi #I am actually ill abt them huh.... maybe ygo was the progenitor honestly maybe it started me on the two blokes who do fuckall ships #yuugi is so cute but I do know in my heart tho he does Not cook. that kid has never learned and will never manage #I know he doesnt even have water in his office whenever he works. scared of spilling #its a good thing hes got friends galore now people are blowing his phone up wasting their sms toll telling him to drink water #(slowly tipping into mania) I just think he's so neat. love that boy he's so cute

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forgettable-au · 9 months ago

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PROLOGUE

FORGETTABLE-AU (Page 1-9)

AND SO IT BEGINS!

[CONTINUE] [MASTERPOST]

#So excited for this thing to finally start!#The prologue is an introduction to what Flowey is thinking and what he might be planning #But since flowey has always been a representation of the player...this also works to set the story for the readers and make them curious #don't be sad that the science squad isn't in the prologue #they're gonna be here for all of chapter one so you're seeing them next week!#okay I need to actually add tags to this thing #I don't like how page 7 looks but ig there's nothing I can do about it now #undertale #forgettable-au #undertale au #papyrus #papyrus is gaster #undertale comic #flowey #undertale fancomic #forgettable-au-comic

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hotcinnamonsunset · 1 year ago

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🎣lure me in, baby!

#knitting #wip #knitblr #pattern is Lure Me In on Ravelry🐠#all of this started because I reblogged a photo set of fishing lures on here and immediately was taken aback by the sheer amount of fishing #wordplay there is out there. like. reel me in here if I get carried away. catch and release me if nothing else. i'll never stop baiting you #anyways! fun details! a return of the fibonacci spaced waves on the sleeves my signature fav. stitches that look like fish along the raglan #and fishing lure colorwork designed by yours truly who has only been fishing once in her life and was ultimately just as thrilled digging u #worms for bait because I sure as heck didn’t have sick fishing lures like these😅#fish art

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sciderman · 5 months ago

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well - webtoons is over, gang

#sci speaks #if everyone would please just read the blog at it's intended home on tumblr #and please stop getting me to waste my energy on all these other sites that i hate then that would be primo wonderful #tapas and webtoons are actual shitholes. convenient to read sure whatever. but i hate the format anyway #and how they treat their creators.#not to mention the way tapas gamifies their interface so you're like on a fucking gambling site?? like if temu were a webcomic service?#what happened to the internet being a free and fun place for anyone to post anything.#noo. copyright laws because we want to make money we can't just host anything out of the spirit of fun and freedom #what about the money??? what if we risk money??#internet used to be a better place. i hate the earth as it is right now. the internet is like a mine that corporations dug into.#and destroyed. right in front of my eyes.#it used to be a beautiful green pasture with wildlife roaming and now it has been flattened and turned into an ugly shopping mall.#the things i do for you guys who really. really wanted me to archive it somewhere else.#i''m not doing it anymore. it is here until tumblr dies or we all enentually die and all our efforts are lost to the sands of time.#nothing matters in a cosmic sense anyway. enjoy it while it's here.

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starry-bi-sky · 6 months ago

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on a completely separate note; shizun luo binghe with a disciple shen yuan who fell into the abyss??? *thinks about LBH canonically stealing SQQ's corpse for 5 years* he'd hallucinate i think. like, like visual and audial hallucinations.

Keeps thinking he's seeing SQQ in the corner of his eyes, or wandering between the trees, amongst a group of disciples. Thinks he hears him calling for him, but its just the wind or another disciple.

Gets Xiu Ya reforged but patently fucking refuses to make a sword mound. Because his disciple Is Not Dead :))) There was No Body. He's Not Dead. And If You keep Insisting That He Is, He's Gonna Skewer You :). He's holding onto Xiu Ya so he can return his most favored disciple's sword when he returns. It's on his hip right next to Zheng Yang where it's supposed to be.

Also this motherfucker?? does not sleep btw. He has the image of SQQ, wide eyed and hysterical and standing at the mouth of the abyss burned into his fucking eyelids. Can't use the dreamscape to escape it either because he keeps trying to save him and either he does and it's an incredibly cruel trick to wake up to, or he doesn't and he gets his heart broken in several different pieces again.

There is no convincing this man that Shen Qingqiu is dead. Absolutely nothing at all. He is buried so deep in denial that moles would be jealous of how deep he is. He keeps making tea for two in the bamboo house only to remember that it's just him. SQQ's fans are hiding everywhere, little reminders of his presence. He goes to wake up SQQ on the mornings he sleeps in-- only to find the room empty.

#svsss #luo binghe #svsss au #scum villain #scum villian self saving system #shen yuan #shen qingqiu #disciple shen yuan #lbh. visibly exhausted and with twitchy eyes: im fine :) | everyone else: ho no the fuck you ARENT.#SQQ was hysterical not because he found out LBH was half-demon but bc he was having a long-awaited mental breakdown over his autonomy :)#or (limited) lack thereof. he was having a sudden onset crisis of mortality and was handling at quite literally the WORST time. oops #im thinking very hard that LBH would never push his disciple into the abyss especially with no system to force him to. so SQQ either #had to goad him into it (failing always) or throw himself in. he ended up doing it himself but not before some very impressive hysterics.#BUT ALSO. IF THIS HAD BEEN WHERE SQQ WAS THE HALF-HEAVENLY DEMON INSTEAD IT WOULD'VE BEEN SO GREAT.#and by great i mean horribly angsty bc SQQ is NOT doing too hot and has. in very SY-like fashion. convinced himself that LBH will kill him #when he finds out he's a demon. so when it comes out i have this mental image of him lunging at LBH and LBH flinches back. but SQQ wraps hi #hands around the blade of Zheng Yang and yanks it up so the tip of the blade is digging into his chest where is heart is. LBH can't yank th #sword away without risking slicing into SQQ's hands. SQQ's hair has fallen out of its tail/bun and is now messily spilling down his #back and its NO helping the kinda deranged look he has going on. he's visibly shaking and his eyes keep flittering away and back at LBH's #face. SQQ is looking at the messages from the system warning him that he has to go into the abyss or punishment will occur. he's like.#rambling though. talking about how shizun doesn't *like* unclean things and there is nothing more unclean than a demon. like he is #INSISTING. LBH can't?? get a fucking word in. actually. SY isn't listening that much either anyways. too overwhelmed with the system and #the amount of stress he's under and his crumbling mental state and the innate and primal desire to live even when he's standing in front of #his own executioner. it all ends with him sitting on the ground at the lip of the abyss with his hair falling in his face. he looks so #unkempt and fallen apart and so distinctly *non-Shen Qingqiu* that LBH feels physically ill over it. tears are streaming down SQQ's face #and despite everything he is smiling. its not a nice smile. its a very frayed falling apart at the seams about to crack smile.#he tells shizun not to worry about staining his blade with this disciple's filthy blood because this disciple will take care of it himself.#and then he falls into the abyss before luo binghe can so much as grab him. the only reason LBh doesn't literally jump in after him is bc #he was numb with shock and the abyss was already closed before he could feel his legs again :]

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 6 months ago

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Burning Rotten Bridges

[First] Prev <–-> Next

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #mianmian #nie mingjue #jin guangyao #JGY is nothing but outwardly calm and carrying on his duties as the chair for the meeting #but in that small pause after Nie Mingjue commemorates Mianmian for leaving...you can feel the tension.#Because Nie Mingjue comes from a place of privilege. He's always been in a position where his legitimacy and political standing-#-were never challenged. He didn't have to fight for respect. He was born into this world respected.#For people like Mianmian and JGY who clawed their way up from the bottom...this is a huge deal.#Truth be told I have a lot of things to say about what it means and feels to be in a position where leaving is messy.#There are times where the situation is bad but to leave means that those years of your life will have been for nothing.#That all the other suffering incurred will be fruitless. So you just *keep going*. Because it *has* to be worth it.#Because going back to what you were before is even more terrifying than the hell you are boiling in.#My concrete example for this is post-grad academia.#Because that cohort will have spent over a decade pursuing a goal and leaving means...well...it means throwing away those years.#It means losing (likely nearly all) your connections. It means going into debt you'll never pay off.#It means putting up with some pretty heinous abuse from your supervisor because what are you suppose to do? Leave?#Leaving is for those with the privilege to have options.#And even if you do have options...#Ultimately we would rather love the pain we know than risk the unknown. Hoping it's worth it one day.#With that mindset established; never say JGY should have just left like Mianmian. He couldn't. This was what he dedicated his life to.#He never had the option. Even if it seemed like he did - no he did not. He never conceived this ending ever happening for himself.

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egophiliac · 1 month ago

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ANNIVERSARY GROOVY BOYBAND! THEY ALL LOOK SO GOOD, I also love the hades reference with idia! Ik ur probably really swamped with the book 7 brain rot but I wanted to know ur thoughts. I also wanted to mention that I am so card deprived I feel like I need a replacement event to take tsumderlands place

AUGH NO I LOVE THEM. 😭 UGH now I really have to think about if I want to try pulling for Grim again. dangit. heck. I already got his little pedestal to add my guest room shrine, but...now I kinda need the boss himself...

also, the implications of it not being an OB thing, Idia can just. Do That? apparently? do you think he ever just sometimes does it by accident? what am I saying, he absolutely sometimes does it by accident.

gosh though. this event has been SO cute in general! I was wondering who'd get the focus for year 5; I could not be happier that the answer is apparently EVERYBODY. :D all the dorms get their own special songs! so many cute little scenes!!! the lowest of stakes bringing out the highest of pettiness in everyone!!!!!! it's excellent.

(also, because I will make literally anything about my diaboys...I know these events are typically sorta, let's say chronologically unmoored with regards to story. but the further implications that this takes place pre-episode 7/Malleus' Big Existential Crisis, and yet...some of these lines?)

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #twst 5th anniversary #i hope that's the correct tag for filtering purposes #anyway gacha continues to have me in a bind #i have scrambled up enough keys/gems that i could hit the 100 pity mark on ONE pickup #so now i have to choose between grim or silver #with the caveat of course that i might end up not getting either #(or hoping i might magically somehow get another 31 keys to hit 150 on the anniversary medal pickup to trade for masqueralleus)#(this is extremely unlikely but if we don't have hope we have nothing)#uggggh i hate decisions #on the one hand. look at silver's card. just LOOK at it.#and i could absolutely use a void-typed attack card! especially with that duo!#but also my sweet grimbleshanks in his little sparkly blazer...#how can i possibly say no to the boss #i feel like if i had managed either platinum grim or armor sebek that would've decided it for me for collection reasons but NO #the pulls have just been an unmitigated disaster all around #the way this has been going i'm going to go all in on one of them and come out with yet another dorm trey #and then five minutes later they'll announce white rabbit rerun with froufrou fluffy bunnies leona and malleus #truly...f2p mobage is suffering #i had also kinda been thinking if i didn't get anything i might buy that malleus figure once it went up for preorder...#(i do not allow myself to spend money on gacha because. i know myself. but i will buy ALL the overpriced merch)#i forgot just how STUPID overpriced those figures are though #it is a really nice figure though...and it'll only be worse on the secondhand market...#i mustn't. i won't. but also.#hey twst feel free to make this up to me by giving me that fluffy bunny malleus after all okay

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suntails · 19 days ago

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small world

#wanted to do a sort of inverse to small world's original vibe. i want to showcase just how little silver's world has been till now #silver didn't visit the castle. he didn't go to primary school. he lived in the middle of nowhere. i dont think he went out into BV much #so his entire world prior to NRC was roughly 8 people. only diasom and sebek's family. homeschooled KING it makes me emotional #NRC mustve been such a culture shock. so many people from so many places and so much new to experience!!! i love him!!!#i wanted to do like a companion piece of a flat plane and buildings from all over TW to show the rest of the world but not enough energy #these geometric buildings are ANNOYING theyre satisfying as finished sets but i am NOT drawing more of them #i send you all nothing but love. silver sweep. ive been very lucky to experience such kindness in my 2.5 yrs here i cant wait to draw more #rumbling like a car. id like to draw his lab vignette again. its my fav story. i want to draw a beyootiful tapestry-style piece. i . sighs #twst is so ripe for artistic experimentation ive never been so inspired by a piece of media. i want to draw everything for my boy #twst #twst silver #twstファンアート #silver vanrouge #suntails #also something w intentional complimentary colors. shocking ik but i dont think ive done one of those for twst itd be tasty #i have an idea for one w him containing his dream world a lil abstractly. SIGHS. im a silver girlie first and Anything else second #im at the point where i cant see myself drawing twst pieces without him in it. its been almost a year since a non-silver piece #AND I FORGOT I HAVE TO DRAW AT LEAST ONE BDAY PIECE!!! i already have a comp idea for one. shaking like a LEAF

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zorangezest · 21 days ago

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how do you draw yourself?

ok, now how do you draw the others?

here’s soundwave’s drawings without the vandalism, I imagine he does little doodles!

#it has been #The Week Of All Time #I want to sleep for a day straight!!#starscream 100% ragequit and wrangled some poor artist to draw his #I STARSCREAM DEMAND MY PORTRAITURE TO BE INSCRIBED WITH TOP QUALITY #NOTHING LESS THAN I DESERVE!!!!#YOU SHOULD BE HONOURED YOU ARE RECORDING MY LEGACY!!!#megatron puts 90% effort into soundwave. he doesn’t have a favourite what are you talking about #shockwave inexplicably busts out incredible drawing talent no one knows how he does it #soundwave is like that one friend who has the neatest handwriting #transformers #maccadam #soundwave #starscream #megatron #shockwave #decepticons #zorangetf #tf art

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murtvets · 7 days ago

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bless everyone who leaves comments on ao3 . i wish you all the best for your entire lives

#the amount of times that ao3 comments have literally brightened up my mood like almost nothing else has #the amount of times i think about them...#i literally still think of comments i got on like my second(?) fic in early 2023 #it has in fact been 2 years #(second fic uploaded not in general)#i love you all #ao3 writer #ao3 author #ao3 #ao3 comments #i cherish every comment #text post

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heystephen · 27 days ago

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it is SO funny to me when a person’s climate change activism begins and ends with saying they want taylor swift to crash her private jet into the ocean and die because of her carbon emissions. and only her. like alright big dog. this is definitely about saving the planet and nothing else for you

#nothing to do w/ the m word at all..#this has been a post*

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