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initial sketches for this aaravi ref are Done, As A Treat
#all the care guide says is 'biomass'#monster prom#art#yeah im making a tailed version too because i like how she looks with a tail too much#i still have to fuck around with the back some more because i dont like how it looks but#yaknow!#all just a part of the process#also yeah no these are not getting finished by the time i post the first chapter of the fic#i really just wanted something down to have this on the backburner#i have a miranda reference and thats the big one. aaravi doesnt change as much.#this also doesnt include the mouth reference im gonna have to draw for her mandibles and teeth#maybe one of her doing her hair poof too
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Remember: The burning sensation is part of the process.
#Mouthwashing#blood#body horror#Emphasizing here that this is in reference to a media and character and not a cry for help on my end.#Mouthwashing is one of those games that tickles my brain and checks all the boxes for my niche interests -#-but it wasn't something that got the silly comic part in my cortex firing up. My analysis brain is eating well though!#What said...It is impossible for me to see this scene and not say out loud: “Me in the middle of my work day".#While there is a lot more going on with curly I personally resonated a lot with his struggles with burnout.#Burnout feels like mouthwash to me. That you keep rinsing out your mouth trying to get rid of the rotting smell#but it's just surface level solutions. The real cure requires something far more significant to actually make a difference.#The job 'is hard' and 'everyone struggles'. It's part of the process right? You're tired? Anxious? Depressed? Us too! Chin up!#Actually I resonated with a lot of things within Curly (this is a curly positive space - he's not perfect. He's just human).#One thing being his desire to see the good in people and believe in their potential.#Because here's the thing. Some people truly do just need someone in their corner who stands by them so they can grow and improve.#And some people will take advantage of your kindness. You focus so much on their humanity while you stop being a person to them.#The horrifically toxic relationship persists because Curly tries to see the bigger picture and believes in the good within.#Anyone who has lived through constantly trying to reframe the hurt as something else knows-#-just how many excuses your brain will make to avoid cognitive dissonance. It's human psychology.#Jimmy sucks so bad. But we the audience have the privilege of not having years of baggage associating him in our minds as 'friend'.
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When you're engaged in an intense stare down with damn near every vampire in town - and probably losing.
Featuring vampires by @itcrescentcrow, @fallstaticexit, @simsdaughters, @antiquatedsimmer, @vicciouxs, @moonwoodhollow, @skyalenesims, @living-undead, @moonfromearth, @queenmabsim, @mosquito-cove, @raye-sim and @evilgoof. Thank you so much for your contributions! I hope you don't mind my embellishments. And to everyone still waiting, I appreciate your patience and there will be several future opportunities! 🧛
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The Top Dog
Vladislaus Straud:
Founder of Forgotten Hollow, de facto ruler
Lilith’s estranged (it’s complicated) sire
Enjoys lurking (read: eavesdropping) from afar
Cagey about his past, claims not to recall his years as a human (if he ever was one?)
Rumblings of discontent with his antiquated ways
Empire may be crumbling (if rotting, junk-filled castle is any indication)
(Lilith: And that god awful crow! It’s got to be as old as he is. Christ, the racket it makes!)
Veronica Aurelius:
Straud’s new protege (niece?)
Related through a distant bloodline (Lilith: Allegedly.)
Accomplished artist, historian, medium
Dreams led her to Forgotten Hollow (Lilith: Doubtful.)
Lilith’s replacement? (Lilith: He wishes.)
(Caleb: She looks sweet, but there’s a vicious streak beneath that glossy veneer.)
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The Old Guard (Lilith: In other words, Straud’s minions.)
Elle DeVampiro, Inna Cents, Vlad Bloodvein:
aka The Nobles (Lilith: Fossilized Bitch, Slightly Less Fossilized Bitch, and The Inferior Vlad.)
Council of ancients who guard town’s borders from human trespassers
View vampirism as elite society: only most deserving should be initiated
Have hazing rituals to weed out weaklings
Never-ending blood supply flows from mysterious sources
Eternal life of ease has left them physically weakened, social status protects them
(Helena: Hazing rituals?
Caleb: Mind tricks. Intimidation tactics. Like humans, newborn vampires can be manipulated.
Lilith: Stop scaring her! A strong breeze could knock them over.)
Claudius and Marie Bouvet:
aka The Occult Hunters
Hunt spellcasters for their power
Hunt “exotic” occults (mermaids, aliens, fairies, etc.) to siphon and sell blood, consumed as an indulgent luxury
(Helena: Wait, you’re telling me mermaids and aliens are real?
Caleb: We exist. Is it really so hard to believe they do too?)
Hunt werewolves for sport (owing to centuries-long feud)
Sometimes hired to kill vampires if deemed a threat to community’s existence
(Helena: Werewolves!
Lilith: They smell like wet dog and taste awful.
Caleb: That hardly gives us the right to kill them.
Lilith: Oh, so we should just let them kill us?)
Elizabetha Bathoris:
aka The Gossip Hound (Lilith: She deserves a far nastier title. Sanctimonious cunt.)
Forgotten Hollow’s premier shit-stirrer
Rumored to bathe in virgins’ blood
Delights in spilling secrets that aren’t hers to tell
Loudly claims to be Straud’s “one who got away,” though unconfirmed by man himself
(Lilith: [scoffs] There’s only room for one delusional narcissist in that household.
Caleb: Lilith, please. At this rate, we’ll never finish.)
Carmela Castellano:
Owns sprawling private vineyard in countryside where Forgotten Hollow and Windenburg meet
Crafts exclusive (and expensive) blood vintages
Known for frequently dipping into her own supply
Hoped to raise adoptive daughter Pandora as protege
However, Pandora’s rebelliousness has led to household tensions
(Lilith: Nothing rivals the rush of feeding, but her blends come damn close.)
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The Enigmas (Lilith: No one knows shit about them, and that’s how they like it.)
Dorian Vasile:
Born vampire, not transformed
Agoraphobic recluse, never seen to leave ruined cottage
Once prominent member of vampire society with many friends — and enemies
Fatal end to human love affair rumored to have led to voluntary isolation
Griselda Oreolo:
(Caleb: I wouldn’t recommend wandering any graveyards at night unless you want to meet The Bride.
Helena: The Bride?
Caleb: She can be quite ruthless.
Helena: As if I don’t already have enough graveyard-related trauma.)
An aristocrat transformed on wedding day, fated to dwell forever on what could have been
Cemeteries are her favorite hunting grounds
Not one for friendly conversation
Defends self first and foremost, no allegiance to other vampires
Nyx?:
Origins, real name, language unknown
Lurks the forest like a cryptid - quick, silent, and deadly
Known to kill men, disposes of withered bodies like a cat leaving gifts of mice for its owner (Lilith: Honestly, good for her.)
Interrupt mid-hunt at your own peril
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The Challengers
Emet and Maxima Galvus
Obscenely wealthy tech CEO and “granddaughter”
Whispers they’re both much older than they look, by hundreds or even thousands of years (Lilith: I’ve yet to see any proof of that.)
Seem to purposely cultivate air of mystery, socializing little
Keep small coven as waitstaff
Emet fiercely protective of Maxima, though is he protecting her from world or world from her?
(Caleb: Don’t be dramatic, Lil. Yes, that stare of hers is unsettling, but-
Lilith: There’s nothing more aggravating than a precocious child. I don’t trust her one bit.)
Ulric Blüt and Herta Nacht:
(Lilith: I can’t believe you think they warrant serious inclusion. A delusional brat and his pathetic enabler are hardly a threat.)
A supposed demon overlord in the body of a child and his “14th Seneschal”
Taken deadly seriously by himself and no one else
Boasts Grim Reaper fears him, many assassinations dodged
Except his strangely devoted companion
Companion stealthily observant, formulating plans of her own?
Details of supposed coup TBD
Countess Maria Francisca Flores:
Mad vampire scientist (Lilith: [scoffs] An old woman doing science fair experiments.)
Claims to have transformed herself via scientific methods
Seeks to grow her “House Flores” with new vampires devoted to pursuit of knowledge
Unpublished manuscript on vampire anatomy
Old Guard disapprove, but for now human academics remain steadfast in denial
Currently studying cowplants, which scholars can admit do exist
(Helena: If she turned herself into a vampire, can’t she reverse-engineer a cure?
Caleb: I’ve asked. She’s incredibly tight-lipped about her findings.
Lilith: Because they’re non-existent!)
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The Next Generation
Beginning in ‘60s and ‘70s, an influx of new vampires into Forgotten Hollow
Old Guard bristle at modernism but grudgingly admit transplants necessary to keep town thriving
Recent turnees or experienced vamps who’d rather evolve with times than stay stuck in past
Tend to form cliques based on shared subcultures
Enjoy mixing with humans, easily mistaken as such by undiscerning eyes (often a deadly mistake)
Less concerned with secrecy, hedonistic, impulsive
(Lilith: “Not coincidentally, shortly after we returned, what was once a trickle became a flood.”)
Example: Grunge Gang
Kiona and Nikan: trouble-making twins, street smart, book stupid
Vonny: stoner type, prefers when meals come to him
Clarissa: paranormal investigator turned paranormally investigated
Tara: wants to be good, surrounded by bad influences
Pandora: favors rock concerts over wine-making
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Lilith: Did you get all that down? Rest up! The hands-on portion begins tomorrow.
#ts4#sims 4#ts4 story#sims 4 story#story: hzid#blood tw#vladislaus straud#lilith vatore#helena zhao#inna cents#vlad bloodvein#elle devampiro#lord this was an undertaking!#taking the actual screencaps was so simple (mostly)#but getting all those vamps in-game and then adding all that text in photoshop tested me several times#and somehow the hardest part was leaving enough damn blank space to fit it!#(which you can definitely tell i struggled with on a few lol)#i know there's A LOT of information to process#i usually try to avoid making you zoom in to read but indulge me just this once!#transcript under cut for notes and dialogue!!! 😘
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Shen Yuan getting transported into pidw isn't "the system punishing him for being a lazy internet hater," but instead representative of "step 1 of the creative process: getting so mad at something you decide to go write your own fucking book" in this essay I will
#svsss#scum villian self saving system#shen qingqiu#shen yuan#the fact that people think scum villain#-a series that examines and criticizes common tropes in fiction-#is somehow against criticism or being a little hater is wild to me#especially since shen qingqiu never gets punished for being a hater#heck- he's still a little hater by the end of the series#he mostly gets punished for treating life like a play and like he and the people around him are characters#(or in other words- he suffers for denying his own wants and emotions and his own sense of empathy)#I think some of y'all underestimate how much writing/art is inspired by creaters being little haters#like example off the top of my head-#the author of Iron Widow has been pretty vocal about the book being inspired by their hatred of Darling in the Franxx#I think my interpretation of Shen Yuan's transmigration is also supported by the fact that this series is an examines writing processes#side note- though i understand why people say Shen Yuan is lazy and think its a valid take it still doesnt sit right with me#i am probably biased because my own experiences with chronic pain and depression and isolation#but ya- i dont think Shen Yuan is lazy so much as he is deeply lonely and feels purposeless after denying parts of himself for 20ish years#like yall remember the online fandom boom from covid right?#being stuck completely alone in bed while feeling like shit for 20 days straight does shit to your brain#the fact that no one came to check on him + he wasn't exactly upset about leaving anyone behind supports the isolation interpretation too#+in the skinner demon arc he describes his life of being a faker/inability to stop being a faker now that he's Shen Qingqiu#as “so bland he's tempted to throw salt on himself” and “all he could do is lay around and wait for death” (<-paraphrasing)#bro wants to be doing stuff but is stuck in paralysis from repeatedly following scrips made by other people#another point on “Shen Yuan isn’t lazy” is just the sheer amount of studying that man does#also he did graduate college- how lazy can he really be#he doesnt know what hes doing but he at least tries to actively train his students#and he actually works on improving his own cultivation + spends quite a bit of time preping the mushroom body thing#+he's experiencing bouts of debilitating chronic pain throughout all this#but ya tldr: Shen Yuan's transmigration is an encouragement to write and not a punishment and also i dont think its fair to call him lazy
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“They came back wrong” maybe they came back the way they needed to be.
#fake ass necromancers not expecting shit to change smh aint nobody doing it like me no more#this is abt farcille and other queer ships don’t bother me.#change is a natural part of life and the only constant and you expected them to not continue that natural process when reanimated?#bro who even are you and what magical scholar trained you cause y’all are LACKING#creatures yearn for natural familiarity and will always return to that the change was always natural and inevitable you just didn’t notice#tagging this w all my bbgs who came back quote ‘fucked up and wrong’#farcille#dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#marcille dungeon meshi#falin touden#marcille donato#marcille dunmeshi#falin dungeon meshi#dunmeshi falin#dunmeshi#locked tomb#the locked tomb#jason todd#jason todd kinnie#jinx arcane#arcane powder#red hood
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And I just have to tell you that I
Love you so much these days,
#homestuck#dirk strider#bgd#brain ghost dirk#jake english#dirkjake#hs2#homestuck^2#homestuck 2#hsbc#homestuck beyond canon#homestuck epilogues#candy epilogue#admin draws#fanart#i cant even pretend im normal about my own art or this song im sorry#im tryna think of something to say abour this and i keep thinking about the lyrics and i GRGRHHHHFHFJG#i dunno man. i love plastic beach. i cant say anything here that is not gallbladder-achingly cheesy#but just. i dont know.#jake keeping a little bit of dirk in his heart all those years. even if bgd is 'all' jake hes still in the memory he carries#when i listen i find myself stuck between which singer/verse should be jake and which should be dirk. but the answer is simple#theyre both both.#jake thinks hes the one singing abour getting abandoned. but really hes the one losing himself in the substance#and dirk. dirk is the one watching him lose himself. but since hes just a part of jake. yeah.#'i have to tell you that i love you so much these days' both as something jake is saying to dirk and what jake wishes dirk was there to say#hes so alone in that reality. even if he might not admit and go so far as to imagine dirk saying it. its something that deep down#he aches to hear. the man who has deemed himself unlovable and incapable of love. he still wants to hear it despite himself#he still wants to say it despite nnot being able to bring himself to even process that emotion#sigh. see what happens. i cant talk aboht it bc a single line turns intoTHIS
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Establishing shots. My beloved.
#wow this was surprisingly really fun to draw! I usually hate backgrounds#I'll be coloring it soon. But I just wanted to release my excitement onto you all :) It'll be at least 10-15 more days before I release the#next part. I think the “No Color” rule has really helped me speed up my process. I'm so happy it has :))))#deltarune chara timeline#my art#sketches#sneak peek
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quick painting of my inquisitor and her future-divine bestie while i get used to clip studio on ipad
#dragon age#the inquisitor#da ocs#adaar#vivienne de fer#art#my art#jib draws#my ocs#katallis#i know the vibes here look evil but they’re literally just unapologetic women in power who support each other#they’re besties which is insane for kata since Vivienne is a mage but she wuvs her fwiend#and kata is absolutely throwing her full support behind Vivienne to become divine Victoria#they’re very protective of each other#also GOD it’s so nice to be using clip studio for a full piece from start to finish again#procreate has been part of my process for like 4 years now#so it’s strange not opening it all to paint
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Minthara is a paladin of her word. She does not make promises, she makes vows. She makes oaths. Even as an oathbreaker, she heavily adheres to the tenants of it. Being an oathbreaker just gives her more flexibility and freedom to fulfill the oaths she makes. She never breaks a promise and she never breaks a vow, and when she says she's going to do something she is going to do it.
So when she says she will go to Avernus with or without Karlach, she means it. She will personally throw hands with Zariel, and the only thing that will stop her is Zariel's death, or her own. And it is one thing if Karlach does go with her, but a whole other thing if Karlach dies on that pier.
Not only will Minthara be grieving, she will be wrathful. And she's going to channel that wrath to the front to avoid feeling the grief (cause she doesn't always approach her emotions in the healthiest way). And she's going to take some of Karlach's rage and Karlach's fury with her. She will kill any demon or devil that gets in her way. There will be no distractions, unless the side quest gets her closer to Zariel or increases her chances in the fights to come.
Minthara is not doing this for power, she is not doing this for glory, she does not care for a crown or a throne. She is down there in Avernus to avenge the love that burned out too soon.
#bg3#baldur's gate 3#minthara#minthara baenre#karlach#karlach cliffgate#burnre#karlach x minthara#minthara x karlach#headcanons#and you know what - if she finds the time - she just might kill mizora while she's down there solely because karlach hated that bitch.#and when zariel is finally dead and minthara's knuckles are bruised and bloody#and her oath is fulfilled and the vengeance and the anger fades#she has to confront her grief and the fact that none of this was ever going to bring karlach back#minthara has always known the the world is unfair. but she will actually *feel* that all of this is unfair#but karlach never stopped moving and she never stopped finding beauty in the world - even when she knew her days were numbered#even with her grief - minthara will still get back up and keep living and keep fighting for karlach's sake#and try to discover whatever beauty karlach found in the world.#one of the hardest parts about shipping minthara with a non-elf or a race that doesn't have a long life span#is knowing that minthara is going to outlive them and she'll be alone#and she would *not* handle the grief process well at all#if you both are to die - she wants to die with you because she doesn't want to outlive you and be left alone with her grief#even if karlach did survive and found a cure for her heart - she was always going to die first
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"It's more than something. It's everything."
s8e11 "Life Time"
painted screenshot. cannot give a time estimate, i lost track long ago. still gouache brush, my beloved, with blur tools to fade edges and so on
i have to go to the zoo now and will be making the version with the clock later [i cannot express how long ive been battling with hawkeye's face, gamers]. background went very fast like i said it would lol
version 2 [as in, w/ clock] will probably be done later today, and i will edit this and add it when that happens [and prolly make a separate post too, for celebration purposes, and will link them]. i will also compile progress pics for that post. they are terrifying early on lmao
"A lot of very touching songs came outta that war" previous painting
"It was pink, and perfect, and I tossed it in the scrap bucket" previous painting
everyone say thank you to bj to being a perfect painting subject today he was very polite and he looks about how i wanted unlike SOME PEOPLE
that was me to my sibling last night, and i stayed up til 1:10ish and still didnt finish the final pass over hawkeye's eye. everything else took like 5ish minutes
also everyone say thank you to margaret and nurse kellye for also being perfect and lovely and pleasant to work with
photo used blatantly stolen from this post thank you again @remyfire i owe you my life
update edit;
clock back
#mash#mash 4077#m*a*s*h#mash fanart#mash art#mashblr#hawkeye pierce#bj hunnicutt#margaret houlihan#nurse kellye#just so you know the working title for the last piece was 'detroit: become sleepy'#and the piece before that was just called 'teehee' because i couldnt think of anything clever when i saved the file#and the working title for THIS piece was 'heterosexual staring'#i also might post my layer names throughout the process just to show off how goofy it got#like i got one now just called 'crunch'. i dont even know what its for#not to mention 'hair shit debacle augh' and 'paint [real]' with its brother 'paint [imposter]'#anyway the parts im most proud of are hawkeye's clothes and his neck creases#and then bj's forehead and eyes and nose and hair#that lamp is also a banger that shit took like 40 minutes it was a great little treat#also shoutout to their ears wherein#once again. i put off the ears til the last minute and then nailed them immediately#i just hate doing them. i do well at it but i hate em#.update#.my art#not a screenshot#i used a screenshot to paint over it piece by backbreaking wristspraining piece but this IS a painting#anyway go check out my fic its somethin. i am a man of many talents. and they're all being used to give me the brain chemicals from MASH#.reasons my wrist is suing me
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Art for Donations!
Because I haven't seen any art for donations projects open for new artists, I'm just going to start this one on my own blog. There are so many fundraisers I see each day, and I want to make sure they reach their goals. I have nearly 5,000 followers on this account, and if each one donated just two dollars we could very easily complete this GoFundMe:
$3+ = a sketch
$5+ = a sketch + lineart
$10+ = coloured sketch
$15+ = coloured sketch + lineart
To get a sketch, just donate, then send me a screenshot of your donation email confirmation into my askbox. Give me what you want me to draw, and I'll do it once I've verified the donation :)
Lina is only 7,310 from her goal!!! Please, donate!
what i will and won't draw guidelines below:
WON'T:
gore
explicit NSFW
fetish/kink content (would fall under NSFW)
WILL:
backgrounds
comics! (but length will depend on donation. probably a $10 will get you a decent comic that's uncoloured)
furries (will warn: i do not have a ton of experience with them but I'll do my damn best)
anything else p much?
all my art is tagged under #op art if you want to see examples.
If you're unsure about your request, just message me and we can talk it out. Or if you donate and give me a request that is against this guideline, that's fine! Just put in another request, no need to donate again.
#free palestine#gaza#op posts#all eyes on rafah#rafah#palestine#to make verification easier adding a special comment to ur dono that i can see on the fundraiser would be appreciated.#ive never done something like this before so! the process may be messy#also full disclosure i have a lot going on this month BUT i absolutely WILL get to all requests#and please... feel free to donate just to donate and help these people#and if anyone is a part of those projects that do art for donos pls contact me :) i would love to help
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Same spouse!!!
my personal headcanon is that every player with this item is married to every other player with it
that's hilarious. accepted
#personally i just mentally lump in every npc the scoundrel WOULD marry that isnt properly marriageable#the blind pianist is part of the procession. in my heart.#ask#fallen london#tbh the scoundrel has a lot of attachment and... shall we say. commitment issues. dedication issues.#they're probably a very hard to get along with spouse and im not entirely confident half of the procession arent like#random interactions they had one night and then drunk way too much absinthe and suddenly woke up married to them.#as you do.#but also there maybe is a speck of the capacity for love SOMEWHERE in their little heart. MAYBE. if you squint#rrrrrrrreeeeaaaallllyyyy hard. and pull out a microscope. and tune it all the way up. and use a second additional microscope.#there just might be a speck in there. it's like the grinch but they just get worse instead#also i think caeru is part of the procession probably solely for tax reasons or something and they're Both petty and squabbling over it#scoundrelventures
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@glowweek Day 1
DARK | GLOW
They stayed up until 5 am and now it's almost 4 pm.
Aahshsjgwgiashsh He's suppose to be blocking Connie's face from the sunbeam after he woke up from her stirring to cover her own face.
[edit] This was way too dark than I thought. Here's a brighter version.
#Yeah I partially got this idea from that time the light hit Connie's eyes on 'I Am My Monster'. :P#Yooo please don't think too much about where the light is coming from vs the sunbeam hitting them. 😭#When all else fail BLUR#connverse#Connie Maheswaran#Steven Quartz Universe#SU#glow week#connverse week#Aw man. I gotta get a new laptop as soon as I can. Rendering is such a#fun process and the thing lagging too early on just ruins the experience. 😑#my shiz#OH CRAP I forgot to check how this looks on my phone. I hope it's not too dark. I mean it looks fine from my graphic tab's screen?#I wanted to incorporate both dark and glow. So I did want the dark parts to be truly dark. But like. Not too dark hopefully.#glowweek
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I like when Kayne mockingly imitates Larson’s accent in “don’t forget to write” because it’s very funny whenever a voice actor has to mockingly imitate themself as a different character.
#the process here is that Harlan does a character that’s mostly just his normal voice with more manic energy#and then he does a character that has a slight southern drawl mixed with transatlantic#and then he has the first character mock that character by imitating the most obvious parts of the accent and exaggerating them slightly#so while even though technically he’s imitating a character he plays#the voices are still distinct#it’s good voice acting!!!#I know this is all very obvious I just think it’s neat!!#malevolent#malevolent spoilers#malevolent part 40#text
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Honestly I see Jimmy's refusal to put Curly out of his misery less about his weird feelings of envy or his delusions but the fact Curly is all but stated to be a shield to Jimmy from his actions and people seeing the worst in him.
The only characters that Jimmy really interacts with one on one before the crash are Curly and Anya, two individuals he has wildly different relationships with. It's likely that Curly really did most of the talking between them as the pilots and the rest of the crew as staff. They didn't know of Jimmy's more reprehensible behaviors cause they never really had the chance to and Jimmy is subconsciously aware. If they had disliked him more than Anya would have told Swansea earlier or even Daisuke when things got really bad.
It's why he takes the immediate opportunity to blame Curly; He's the shield. He's saved Jimmy's ass more times than he can count and more times than Jimmy would ever admit. Even when he can't really do it anymore, he mentally shields himself from his own faults by putting Curly between them. Letting Curly die puts too much on him because he doesn't know how to function without a safety net.
In the end Curly only lives because Jimmy needs the idea that Curly will inevitably make things better to stay alive, meaning Curly has to live, no matter how much it pains him to do so.
#in short Jimmy doesnt only care about Curly#he only cares about the securtiy that Curly provides him#and i headcanon that the reason he tried to kill everyone is because he knew it was only a matter of time befor Curly realized this wasnt#somethgin benign Jimmy did that he could smooth over but somethign that Curly would repremand and condem him for and take his security away#like yes Curly did not react fast enough or strongly enough to what Anya told him but you could see him showing more concern over it as I d#understand the psychology behind people and more specifically men like Curly as he is hearing something horrible his friend did to someone#he cares about but has less of a bond with. he feels the need to protect his crew as people first and sadly Jimmy is still the person he wa#closest too yet I still think everything happened too fast for Curly to process as would you not grapple with the fact your closest friend#is a monster you must personally deal with? or that he did something so vile to someone else you have become protective over? Would you not#think of the relative power that friend holds and how if you approuch this wrong it could end badly for everyone? He had all these thoughts#but not enough time to think about them. Also how Jimmy was one of the main people in his personal life he felt a need to protect seeing as#he got him this job. Like imagine the one person you are really trying to make good is still bad after everythign and now you have to be th#hand of judgment youve shielded them from for so long like I do not think Curly handeled the initial situation with Anya correctly I dont#think it was the case of him not believing but not really knowing what to do and feel about it as a friend of both parties the captain and#guy going through his own shit and it says so much that he was dealing with all that so well compared to Jimmy who got everyone killed cuz#he thought being captain would be like sitting on the thrown and not emotionally mentally and physically taxing like I cant say Curly is th#best person due to his inaction but he is a good person doing the best with the knowledge and shitty resources he has cuz like also Id just#be terrified that my suicidal and nilihst bestie who clearly has an inferiority complex around me is the copilot who has access to the most#to the most important parts of the ship and the means to kill us all if he feels like him or his security are being threatened like#Anya and Curly just deserved better because they get put through the ringer like just put him in a class to teach him to be less trusting#anya mouthwashing#curly mouthwashing#captain curly#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#mouthwashing curly#mouthwashing anya#mouthwashing jimmy#jimmy mouthwashing#mouthwashing spoilers
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Oh Oliver Oliver Oliver how I love thee!!
In flux you say
Dealing with changes you say
Velocity you say
A lot of possibility you say
So many most excellent things all in one answer!
Flux and change in the same sentence is so interesting and telling on several fronts (and not just Eddie’s moustache!). It’s very loudly saying bt bones sooner rather than later, but it’s also suggesting some things going down at the firehouse and maybe with Bobby (the working together during the plane emergency was very much giving me calm before a storm vibes) which I’m excited to see as I think it will be fabulous for Bucks development both personally and professionally. But it’s also giving me changes with Eddie vibes - and on a couple of fronts - the Christopher front, and the personal front.
The use of velocity is an interesting choice - when you think Bucks been stuck on that hamster wheel for so long and then got off one to land on another, the fact we’re now talking velocity is pretty interesting! It’s very much suggesting we’re going to get a huge amount of buck set up stuff in the next couple of episodes - on multiple fronts. So btw bones obviously, which I’m expecting to trigger some soul searching and figuring out - that his bisexual awakening has triggered buck knowing himself more than he ever has before but that Tommy has been holding him in stasis and as soon as he’s gone it will actually catapult him forward quite dramatically.
I mean velocity is giving me feelings for Eddie realisation vibes, but then, because I think in 806 Eddie is going to shave the stache off and then head off to Texas to try to fix things with Chris, things settling down for buck for a little bit makes a lot of sense to me. In combination with ‘a lot of possibility’ and the concept of ‘next step’ and Oliver being excited to see where ‘the story goes in the not to distant future’ it’s very much giving buck sort of pining era vibes. Eddie being physically gone (and working on his own stuff which I expect to take 2 episodes at most) giving buck some processing space would be great to watch - especially if we are shown them being in contact by phone and video chat etc. As the audience we’d get to see Buck actively knowingly in love whilst not being able to act on it - Oliver obviously wouldn’t know yet how that initial pining era is going to go from there because it would take us through to 808 - which is what they’re finishing up right now, so it’s all set up to be exciting because Eddie will then return and Chris will be back (he better or I will be protesting at the studio!) so focus will shift to that aspect for an episode or so, and we’ll have fully pining buck who’s also delighted Chris is back and that leads to a cliffhanger mid season on the will they won’t they front!
I can see it all so clearly and I’m very here for it please and thank you
#do you think I’ve been parasocial enough or do I need to try harder 😂😂😂#obsessed with this answer#it gives#me angst bt bones pining and excitement#bucks someone who processes and accepts things about himself pretty quickly#so it makes narrative and character sense for him to just suddenly (ish) know he’s in love with Eddie and to accept it#but with Eddie being gone and Chris being a priority - buck won’t want to do anything about it#so he’ll pine for a bit and it may even impact on other parts of his life#leading to a cliffhanger mid season and buddie canon for episode 118!#I’m so excited#911 spoilers#evan buckley#911 abc#eddie diaz#oliver stark#quotes#911 speculation#anti bucktommy#anti tommy kinard#buddie#all roads lead to buddie
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