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queerstudiesnatural · 2 years ago

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guess who had yet another dream about a friend dying

#that one felt so real too #it just twisted reality #the friend in question just retired so i don't see her around much anymore #but i do still plan to hang out with her and her husband during the holidays #well instead of having her be retired my brain said hey what if she was dead #and i was still invited over but it was just her husband (whom i also love dearly) and we were supposed to try and idk #grieve together? find comfort in each other ?#all i know is i cried a lot #and it felt so real because my brain really utilised all the real memories and feelings at its disposal #real grief for other people that it just redirected #well fuck you too subconscious #rain.stuff #tw grief #tw death mention

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hinamie · 5 months ago

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10 years later

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #jjk fanart #jujutsu kaisen fanart #yuji itadori #fushiguro megumi #nobara kugisaki #itafushi #itafushikugi #jjk spoilers #jjk manga spoilers #least heterosexual group photo ive ever drawn tbh #u have the kings of subtle pda and their judgy lesbian third wheel #this does remind me a lot of the kind of art i used to do jhgdjghdfj #specifically that one furuba main trio piece i did forever ago. same vibe better art #anyway......i tried my best........ i tried so hard #i do not know how old they look . the goal was 25/26 but atp i've gaslit myself into thinking they look the same #especially megumi im so . throws hands in the air in defeat #but idk what else i can do cries at least i like it??? i think???????#i don't know!!! if they look younger than 25 whatever!!!!!!!!#why is it so hard fr me to make chars look older im gna slam my head against the door #maybe its fine. idc <- (lie)#in other news itfs are married fight me abt it . yuuji rockin the right hand ring fr Lack Of Finger reasons #also i am Eating nobara's fit . she might also look a bit younger than intended the more i look at her gDI why cant i have nice things #new hairstyle carrying tbh. i think she would a. grow it out and b. switch the side she parts it on to make Seeing easier #god just take it all tht really matters 2 me is low pony nobara and Rings On Fingers itfs #i did my time in yoi i know how to make wedding bands Work

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 3 months ago

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Happy one year anniversary to In Stars and Time!

#ISAT #in stars and time #siffrin #loop #I truly mean it when I say that this was the best game I have played since Disco Elysium.#It pulls off some of the best examples of Ludonarritive Harmony in a video game...possibly ever?#Not to mention just...wow. What a great story. What a tale of twists and introspection. What a tale about the need for home and connection #I know many of you have trusted me before with media recommendations. Trust me one more time.#Do you want to experience the torment of being in a timeloop? And *still* have fun and feel like your time is being respected?#PLAY IN STARS AND TIME!#Do you yearn for complex characters and love unravelling mysteries? PLAY IN STARS AND TIME!!!!#Please heed the content warnings; I took them a little too lightly on my playthrough! They are there for a reason! Don't be like me!#This game means a lot to me and so many others. On the small chance the dev sees this (they are on tumblr after all):#Thank you so much for all your hard work in creating this game and seeing the project through.#It has been a year for us fans but many years for you. So thank you!#I hope it has been a joyful year for you! Watching as people descend into shrieks of agony from playing your game.#It's good! It made me vomit blood. I had so much fun! I felt like I was torturing the protagonist when I played it. I loved it! I cried.

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micamone · 3 months ago

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hewwo

#stargate sg1 #stargate atlantis #neko atsume #almost cried drawing that cute little fucking tac vest on jack btw. look at him.#not in love with all of the atlantis team especially rodney and weir and tela i fuckim struggled with them #like i'm happy with how they look it's fine but short of sticking a maple leaf on rodney or something you know #it's the props #i couldn't figure out how to make who they were obvious. idk man they're cute and i know who they are I guess. felt the same with sam tbh #giving her a little math sheet felt a lil cheap but you know what it's done i'm not gonna keep workin on these the gateroom killed me dead.#also i woulda done the other sg1 members that show up later but I haven't gotten there yet in my watch-thru.#like i saw them as a kid when it was airing on tv but not yet while actually paying attention to things like the plot #my posts #my art #stargate #the sg1 one was done first so that's why i didn't end up putting a lot of detail into the planet they landed on vs how much detail #i had to keep leaving out of the fucking got dam gateroom why is there so much detail in that room hey guys what the hell is up with that r

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dont-let-me-eat-pears · 9 months ago

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things that are Too Much: both times lancelot dies, the last face he sees is merlin's, and the last thing he does is smile.

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casualavocados · 7 months ago

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Don't come to see me again. Throw them away for me. There's no point in keeping them. It's all in the past.

KISEKI: DEAR TO ME Ep. 12

#kiseki: dear to me #kisekiedit #kdtm #kiseki dear to me #ai di x chen yi #chen yi x ai di #louis chiang #chiang tien #jiang dian #nat chen #chen bowen #userspring #uservid #userrain #userspicy #userjjessi #*cajedit #*gif #do you ever Ow.#because man. ow #i think a lot about chen yi apologizing for not coming to visit him sooner and how that means #for the better part of a year he was sifting through himself #figuring out exactly how he felt and what he thought ai di felt before he could confront him #and then ai di was like 'it doesnt mean anything :)'#AFTER ALL THAT?#ALSO 'youre supposed to spend your birthday with the one you like' AND CHEN YI HOLDING UP THE EVIDENCE #OF AI DI TRYING TO SPEND THEIR BIRTHDAY WITH *HIM*#AND AI DI HAVING TO FACE THAT LIKE. SHIT. shit. chen yi knows. and then still trying to brush it off.....??......godddddddd...#like damn if i had been chen yi i'd have cried too

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givemedamage · 3 months ago

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the credentials of a loser

#warmup but now its nine pm cries ok i told myself i was gonna #fill all those fucking sketchboojs i have today that have literally all like 3 oages left and i HAVE YET TO SOBS #not saying any misters or doctors or professors are losers just specifically him #blood #my art #digital art #oc art #anthro art #if you know the stupid reference i love yoy unless youre uncomfortable with being told that #in which case i just simply like you #i always feel the need to be like THATS HANCES DAD NOT HANCE because they look a lot a lik

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dreamsy990 · 1 month ago

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YAY I GOT THIS DONE ON HIS BIRTHDAY. HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAJIMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE YOU RUINED MY LIFE AND ALSO MAYBE SAVED MY LIFE. WHO THE FUCK KNOWS I DO LIKE YOU A LOT THOUGH

#hajime means so much to meeeeeee #hes the reason i started posting art online (not on tumblr at the time though)#so without him i wouldnt have made like. 80% of my friends #and i do not know where i would be without some of my friends ive met bc of that #like ive had some NASTY depressive episodes since then that im pretty sure i only made through because of them #hiii phantom specifically. looking at you. ilysm if you read this #anyways not to get so real on danganronpa art sdfvgfrde #sdr2 is one of my favorite games of all time like genuinely. it has a lot of sentimental value to me i guess #i was a big fan of the first game but i watched the anime (and several playthroughs) but sdr2 was the first dr game i acually played myself #i actually also watched the dr3 anime before i played sdr2?#and uh. so i went in completely spoiled for it #that being said i still absolutely adored hajime. maybe im basic but i always love protagonist characters #also johnny yong bosch's performance is so fucking good;;;; i cried at the end of the game and it wasnt even particularly sad #anyways. danganronpa was my first hyperfixation that i can remember and it was so meaningful to me. i dont know where id be without it #even if im not as interested in it now it still is really important #would i recommend it? i mean it depends. i think danganronpa is for a very specific kind of person which is the person i happen to be #ok no more tag rambling time to do normal art tags #doodles #danganronpa #hajime hinata #izuru kamukura

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nandermoenthusiast · 2 months ago

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The coffin lands with a crash, Nandor already out of it gracefully as his vampiric nature grants him.

“Have you survived the fall Guillermo, are you allright?” he asks haughtily and with a barely concealed predatory grin at the yelping heap of limbs and clothes that is Guillermo right now. Of course he was never truly worried for his well being, Guillermo might be human, but he is no regular human, if his van Helsing blood has anything to say about that. Nandor just likes to tease.

“Yes master, im fine, i just wasnt prepa-“

Nandor offers him a hand out of the coffin, the way Guillermo has done so many times before for him. Nandor looks at him curiously, Guillermo looks all flustered right now, hes cute. Hes always cute of course, but damn. He hasn’t even realised the obvious parallel yet, just took his hand absent-mindedly as he was rambling about something. His hair is all mussed up too. Cute.

Probably the moment registers into Guillermo’s mind as Nandor hears his muttering protests suddenly cut short. He’s looking at their gingerly intertwined hands and kinda looks like hes about to swallow a frog, or maybe like he’s about to start crying again. This fucking guy. Always a theatrics with him. But Nandor has learned to lean into his little guy’s moods. He leaves him to his maybe horny maybe emotional thoughts and finishes helping him out of the coffin.

The air is thick between them now. He can sort of hear Guillermo’s heartbeat from this distance, the little guy probably has a concert thumping in his ears right now. Nandor enjoys playing with his food, always has, and today is no different. He takes a step closer. Guillermo takes an infinitesimal step back. There is a wall very close to his back. Right where Nandor wanted him.

“You know as i was saying about the cameras, Guillermo…” he starts feign-casual as he very not casually hovers over him, black eyes boring into him with the fire that only very rarely comes out in front of the crew. Guillermo looks like he’s a mixture between disbelieving and like he’s gonna pass out from hyperventilation at a moments notice. It’s an endearing mix.

“Y-yes, you -were saying something about your hair…” Guillermo couldn’t physically look away from Nandor if his life depended on it right now.

“And other reasons”, very seriously.

“- Yeah”, an exhale.

Just look at his eager little eyes. Should he put the guy out of his misery? Well come to think of it, should he put himself out of his own misery? He’s been in love with the guy for the better part of a decade now. Of course he’s not about to say that now. Let him play the part of suave vampire for his Guillermo, let him fullfill any fantasy he’s ever had, at the very least this very first time they do this dance. There will be time for the mushy stuff later. Come to think of it, what is Nandor doing?? Acting on years of pent up sexual and romantic tension, of course, but what is he setting himself up to? Heartbreak.

Violent, earth shattering heartbreak. Maybe not today, maybe not in 10 years, but soon. Soon to a vampire anyway. No- you don’t know that. If Guillermo loves me, he might find a way to not leave me like he always does. He always does leave. But then he also always comes back. Doesn’t he? Nandor loses himself in these thoughts for a moment, and Guillermo seems to notice his mind is suddenly somewhere else.

Oh, to be known so completely. Oh, to have a worthy partner, a partner who knows everything about you, a Lazlo to your Nadja, a Charmaine to your Sean, a Sire to your Baron. And to have to lose it in a matter of years. Just his luck. But also like Colin Robinson said, dont be sad cause its over, smile cause it happened.

Nandor’s eyes keep searching Guillermo’s as he draws closer and closer, eyes intensely registering every microexpression on his beloved’s face, the little crinkle between his brows and the small nervous smile that’s forming around his lips. His hands land seamlessly and delicately on either side of Guillermo’s face, and he feels his breath hitch. He really doesn’t give a flying fuck if he’s gonna suffer for a thousand years, Guillermo is here right now and he looks like he’s gonna break under his touch. One hand goes to cradle his head, thumb delicately swiping over Guillermo’s ear and pulse point, as Nandor brings their noses together and they breathe the same air for a moment. The other hand is held gently across his cheek, just there, a reassuring weight. “I’m going to kiss you now”.

And Nandor kisses him.