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Eclipse Kings
Part Three: Wild Dawn
(Part One: Mountain Monkeys) (Part Two: Barbed Dusk) (Part Three: You Are Here)
(Extra One)
For almost all his life, Sun Wukong had never really known âwantâ, not for more than the few moments it took to decide he was going to pursue some fleeting and new desire.
The land itself seemed to conspire to his favor- he was borne to a thriving mountain of surplus and luxury, sparkling stream racing down each hill, bountiful orchards with boughs so heavy they dipper near to the earth. Even the horizon was generous, spanning sunrises to color his every lavish breakfast and hosting a banner of glittering stars to lull him to sleep.
He wanted for nothing, because when the world would not bend to his whims, he simply bent it himself- to the end result of power, luxury, and adoration.
His life was fraught with the inevitable turning of blades, stuffed full of motion, conflict, and inevitable triumph. His troop grew by the year, Flower Fruit Mountain knew nothing of suffering, and his treasury was brimming with relics.
A demon crowned eternal king of a flourishing mountain, untouchable and immovable.
What more could a monkey want?
Company, as it turned out. The varied little simians scattered all through the trees and bushes of his mountain were wonderful, of course- he cherished them all like his own children, and doted on each and every one of the little menaces.
But he still wanted more.
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âThat, little mortal, is when I joined my Sworn Brotherhood!â
The Great Sage Equal to Heaven smiles warmly at his recited memories, claws lightly sifting through a large collection of traditional clothing.
âWe were going to lead a siege on that stuck-up realm of Celestials, but my darling moonbeam had an even better idea- why not start our own kingdoms? Instead of teaching those stuffy old fools how to respect us, we could just show them up and take all their little worshipping mortals away!â
You donât say a word in turn, still bundled up in a fluffy towel, sitting on the nearest chair, idly watching through blank eyes. Since you hadnât been willing to walk or respond, Wukong had scooped you up with a sigh and hurried off to his and Macaqueâs shared changing room, given permission to pick out some old clothes of theirs to give you.
âOf course, all of the stuff that was supposed to be boring was, uh⊠a total mess. Yâknow, like deciding on territories, drawing borders, figuring out taxesâugh. Mortals do not like taxes. Sure like âem better than being eaten by demons, though.â He chuckles at his own words, shaking his head as if to dismiss the unpleasant memories of bureaucracy. Wukong pulls out a black ceremonial robe embroidered with purple thread and holds it up against you, squinting as if heâs considering how it might look.
ââŠno. My sweet moon wouldnât like you wearing this.â
ââŠsâit âtoo niceâ for me?â
ââŠyou mortals really arenât the best with self-esteem, are you? No, little villager- itâs because he wore something like this when we were married. After that, he started commissioning seamstresses to make him more clothes like that robe⊠the actual thing is framed in a glass box over our bed. I donât understand why Mac wanted that, but I canât ever say no to himâŠâ
Wukongâs voice trails off, tone softening as his gaze drifted to the ceiling. A smile plays on his lips, barely restrained, as heâs replaying his dearest memory of Macaque on repeat. You shift uncomfortably, unsure how to respond, the weight of his affection for his moonlit partner pressing against the silence.
He breaks it himself, but only after walking across the room and popping open lacquered wood chest, breaking the preserving sigil printed across it .
âYou know,â says the king, his claws tapping the gleaming pauldron of gold within, âI wore this when we got married.â
He turns to the side, catches the fact that youâve perked up even a little, and continues.
âIt was the nicest thing I owned at the time- most of my outfits were skinned animals and stolen rags. This is something my brothers had given me, so it was the nicest thing I had that wasnât my staff.â
Wukongâs fingers linger on the golden armor, tone rich with an ancient nostalgia. âI wasnât one for fancy clothes back then- still coming around to it now- but I was even worse with it back then. I wanted to go in my tiger skirt and my old boots! But my brothers? Oh, they insisted: âYouâre getting married- you canât just show up looking like a bandit on your wedding day!â So they gave me this, and a nice red robe with a ton of silly characters embroidered into it- itâs framed right next to my mateâs robe, now.â
Say something. You need to say something. You canât just mumble and mutter if you want to stay in a kingâs good graces, can you?
ââŠdo you⊠remember your vows?â
He perks with a smile, intrigued by the random question, entirely missing how dangerously close you are to cracking.
âWell, if thatâs want you want to know, how about I tell you about the whole ceremony? Here, Iâll lay out how it wentâŠâ
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Macaque shuffles in place for a moment, old meekness returning to him- his hands twitch, and the notes smoothly inked onto the sleeve of his silk robe catch in the light, drawing his aureate eyes downwards. The crowd all around is nervous mortals and drunk demons, dressed in red or black or gold, held at peace mostly by his eager âbrothersâ. On Azureâs lap and shoulders are several children, more interested in his blade and snout than the ceremony. Heâs smiling, more at ease than any other here.
The others for the most part are doing alright. Peng is preoccupied with their drink, casually allowing themselves to be marveled at by a blacksmith and a jeweler- though neither are allowed to touch, both mortals are fervently etching the gilded designs into their paper scrolls. The avian flaps those glimmering wings on occasion, causing streaks of light to flash over the modest venue, catching across the polished tiles.
Yellowtusk sits on a carved stone chair, marking the attendants in a neat ledger, made oversized to fit his hands. Several troops of Long-Tailed and Crab-Eating Macaques play on his trunk and tusks, their little fingers deftly taking hold in the cracks of his thick skin to ascend it. They donât ever distract him for more than a few seconds, even when the youngest cubs forget their manners and start chirping in his ears.
The largest of their Brotherhood stands at attention in the doorway, toying with the straps of his battle axe. His face is painted with a rarely seen apprehension, looking back and forth over the room on occasion. Sometimes his gaze stills on a veil-shrouded woman with painted lips, and then he smiles for a moment.
The Demon Bull King is not nearly as subtle of a man as he thinks.
Not that it matters- when, for all that (which is very much) his Sworn Brothers know heâs courting a Celestial Maiden, theyâve chosen to keep an oath of silence on the matter.
(âHeâs our big guy,â as Wukong had put it during one meeting months ago. âAnd we want that goofball to be happy.â)
(All of them- even Peng- had toasted to that notion, in the general direction of the bullâs empty chair.)
The mortals are safe. His brothers are content. He can do this.
Once more the dried notes on his sleeve catch Macaqueâs attention, snapping him from the venue and to his golden love.
One last time he goes over them, dedicating those practiced words to memory.
He takes a breath, and turns to the audience.
âMy mate-to-be is⊠molten gold, kissed by the rising sun. Beautiful is a shallow word to describe him- he is a masterpiece, a divine work of art carved by the heavens themselves. His eyes hold the all the worldâs fire within them, blazing with the brilliance of a thousand sunsets. His laughter is a hymn to freedom itself, a melody I pray to hear every day for the rest of my life. When I look at him, I donât just see a king, but the very heart of my existence, the axis upon which my world turns. He is my sun, my storm, my sanctuary, my everything.â
Several of the softer mortals are touched by his speech, lifting their cotton sleeves to the very corners of their eyes. Others only lightly clap, still uncomfortable at being called to the union.
Macaque does not have time to look away from before Wukongâs ginger-furred paws clasp onto his shoulders, holding tight.
There are no notes, no hours of reciting, no time spent with helpful Sworn Brothers to listen and offer advice, no matter how snarky- Sun Wukong simply turns from the crowd and offers himself.
âMacaque⊠I love you. I want you to be my mate forever. Until the sun goes dark.â Wukong's tail flicks behind him, expression softening with a rare blush. "Because... you're part of my story, bud. Youâve always been a part of it. And I'm tired of pretending like I can write the rest of it without you. Be mine forever and letâs be mates.â
The world is blurry, at least to Macaque. Nine and a half seconds prior he had thought thereâd be some disappointment to push through, delivered an insincere joke or a vow written by anotherâs hand.
But there was only been Sun Wukong, love of his life, smiling at him.
âI will be your mate,â he chokes out, âforever. Until the sun goes dark.â
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âWeâve never been apart since then,â he purrs, dragging one claw over a hanfu the color of a sky on a gentle morning, toying with the white sash to untie it. âNot even for a day.â
Before you have a chance to respond, he plucks up the garment and holds it out to you. The size difference between him and the outfit is comical, and you wonder why these two demon kings have it in the first place.
âThis should fit you, bud! Here, letâs get that towel off-â
You scream.
Itâs not particularly loud or long, or even desperate- but itâs a scream all the same.
Worse still for yourself, you take this hysteric moment to lay on some shaky remand.
âNO! No more! Just stop touching me! I donât- I d-donât like it! Youâre- youâre twice my size and you keep- you and him are always getting in my face and- a-and putting your hands on me, and I- Iâm am so, so sick of it! I am not an o-object! I am a person! I am a person! I-â
âQuiet. Now.â
Wukongâs golden eyes narrow as he stands there, the weight of his presence pressing down on the room like a thundercloud ready to burst. His tail flicks sharply, but his voice remains measured.
âŠthere are tears rolling down your eyes now, lost in the fluffy expanse of the towel around your body, sopping uselessly away as the king takes two footsteps to your form, frowning.
Not that it does anything to settle the rapid beat of your heart, crushed by the newly oppressive atmosphere.
ââŠyouâre scared. I understand that. And maybe my moonbeam and I, weâve been a little too hands on. Thatâs on us. But this my pagoda, and I did not build it by hand so that a little guest could yell at me. You know that youâre not a prisoner here. The doors arenât locked, and there arenât guards stationed outside them⊠now. Iâll let you get dressed- alone- and then you can eat. AndâŠ
âAnd no more touching without your permission. Okay?â
ââŠmâsorry. F-for yelling.â
ââŠIâm not mad,â he lies, one hand shifting to condescendingly pat you on the head. âI forget- my brothers, and my mate, too- we yaoguai just arenât the same as mortals. You little things are scared too easily, and break so quickly.â
Something about hearing that is humiliating, but you donât dare argue with him. Instead, you hunch your shoulders and cling to the towel, sniveling down at the floor.
Wukongâs frown softens the longer he watches you cry, all the sharpest edges of his irritation melting away into something closer to pity.
âIâll leave it here. Call if you get lost looking for the kitchen.â
His words are painfully curt, and then the king is gone, golden beads and silk robes swishing behind him with each step.
You were never close, and only ever tangentially in the âgood gracesâ of these kings. Itâs not like youâve shattered some precious bond.
But you still feel bad.
You wouldnât, not usually. But as you unwrap the towel and begin to dress yourself in the lovely hanfu left draped over the chair nearest to you, the aches and pains of yesterdayâs chase down the mountain weigh on you, just as MKâs new identity and newer happiness strike a deep point of insecurity- that you simply werenât good enough to take care of him.
You werenât good enough to provide for him anymore.
You wanted to believe you were more than them- strong enough to survive on your own, to fight your way through the world with MK in tow. But the truth was harder to face: Sun Wukong and the Six-Eared Macaque were meteoric gods, and you were just a mortal caught in the tides of their myth.
And where MK was thriving in this ecliptic chaos, you instead were already cracking under pressure after only a day spent before the kings.
âŠthereâs a lovely silk pouch, dyed the color of new lavender blooms, hanging from the hanfu- you only notice it after tying the sash into a decent bow. The soft texture grounds your tumultuous thoughts, and a powerful aroma steadily drifts from within.
You fiddle with the tie and open the sash, revealing a dried bundle of orange blossoms tightly tied together, each stem marked with a glittering mystic sigil- æé«.
Whatever scent they wouldâve had already was amplified by the marking, causing a heavy flow of fresh floral scent to ooze from the little purse.
You lift it and take a deep breath from the bag, allowing the veil of citrus aroma to utterly cloud your mind, providing it a much needed fog to rest under.
The soothing haze is slow to fade, even after youâve pulled away and sealed the bag, but eventually you are left with only your steadied thoughts in the ornate chamber, amongst fine silks and polished wood, treasures of centuries past hung casually about Itâs beautifulâalmost too much so.
A reminder that this world of theirs is not the same of yours.
But you would not stop trying to survive in it.
You couldnât.
#Platonic Yandere#Yandere Lego Monkie Kid#Yandere LMK#Yandere Sun Wukong#Yandere Macaque#Yandere Father#MK#Azure Lion#Peng#Yellowtusk#Demon Bull King#Shadowpeach#Eclipse Kings#Not The Beloved#2K
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Don't come to see me again. Throw them away for me. There's no point in keeping them. It's all in the past.
KISEKI: DEAR TO ME Ep. 12
#kiseki: dear to me#kisekiedit#kdtm#kiseki dear to me#ai di x chen yi#chen yi x ai di#louis chiang#chiang tien#jiang dian#nat chen#chen bowen#userspring#uservid#userrain#userspicy#userjjessi#*cajedit#*gif#do you ever Ow.#because man. ow#i think a lot about chen yi apologizing for not coming to visit him sooner and how that means#for the better part of a year he was sifting through himself#figuring out exactly how he felt and what he thought ai di felt before he could confront him#and then ai di was like 'it doesnt mean anything :)'#AFTER ALL THAT?#ALSO 'youre supposed to spend your birthday with the one you like' AND CHEN YI HOLDING UP THE EVIDENCE#OF AI DI TRYING TO SPEND THEIR BIRTHDAY WITH *HIM*#AND AI DI HAVING TO FACE THAT LIKE. SHIT. shit. chen yi knows. and then still trying to brush it off.....??......godddddddd...#like damn if i had been chen yi i'd have cried too
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toji's not used to this.
the sweet nothings whispered into his cheek, the feeling of the newly risen sun soaking into his skin. his body is telling him to move, to get up, to just grab the money you left him on the desk and leave. but your arms tighten around his torso, and he takes a deep breath in, slightly relaxing into your hold. he reminds himself that there is no money and that there is no reason for him to leave. he's safe in your arms.
he hasn't had to leave before the sun's up in a while now. he's almost forgotten how it feels to be ashamed since he met you. you saw him like he was an actual person. really looked at him, past the hard exterior, and saw more than just a man to take advantage of.
it's taking time for him to get used to being cared for, to being loved. in the year (almost two) that he's known you, it has gotten infinitely better. he's got a roof permanently over his head, is in contact with megumi (the boy's set to move back in with his father just before his birthday) and has gotten a stable job with a decent income. you've helped him with budgeting and saving money (upon his request), and he's even started a small 'megumi college fund'.
he finds himself opening up to both you and his son more, sharing little snippets of the thoughts on his mind and his feelings. with the child growing faster and faster as the days go by, he realises just how alike him and megumi are. emotionally stunted, but both loving fiercely. he has his mother's smile though.
his wife's smile.
his late wife. she would've hated what he became after her death. would've scolded him for leaving his son with a random teenager. wouldâve despised the countless murders, her heart breaking at what heâs had to do for money and a roof. maybe it was a good thing she wasnât alive to see it.
he wonders if she'd be okay with him moving on.
in another life, you both would've been the bestest of friends. you're so alike but so different at the same time. you're both his respite too. she might've left him for you if he was being honest, the thought making him laugh dryly every single time it enters his mind.
toji feels like he can conquer the world with you cheering him on and his son right beside you, in his corner. he's getting better. he really is. but progress isn't linear.
there are still nights where he breaks down, sobbing into your arms.
he tries to be quiet, but his throat clogs up, and he can't breathe. he's gasping for air, trying to focus on the way one of your hands is sifting through his hair and the other rubbing his back. but he slips, and a new wave of tears run down his face. he's spluttering, and there's snot all over your shoulder. but you patiently hold him through it all, press kisses to his hair, gently telling him to let it all out.
"i've got you toji," you whisper. "you'll always be safe with me."
when he's finally settled, you're holding a water bottle to his lips, letting him drink as much as he wants, gently dragging a cool, damp washcloth over his face when he's had his fill. your gentleness and unfiltered love make him want to sob all over again. he's undeserving, he thinks, but he'll never be ungrateful for your love or take advantage of it. he'd do anything in power to become deserving of you and cherish you for as long as he lives.
he'll never be the man he once was. his wife's death had affected him deeply in ways he'll never recover (and part of him doesn't want to fully); she was the love of his life. but he's working on reconciling with what he's becoming and the way you've impacted his life, too.
he feels guilty for loving you sometimes, the way he loved his late wife. you've experienced things with megumi his wife could only dream of. megumi loves you like a mother figure, and sometimes he finds himself loathing the fact. it's not your fault, though, and his therapist's words constantly play on his mind, forcing the negative thoughts out. it's getting better.
slowly but surely, toji is healing. his life wasn't always easy, full of hatred and anger. he's made so many mistakes, he has so many regrets (you'd never be one of them) and he's atoning for his sins. like sand during a storm in the desert, grain by golden grain, his life has been displaced with love. with his late wife's, with his little blessing's, and with yours.
he's loved and lost, and then lost a whole lot more. but now, he's been given the privilege of loving once more.
© ffsg0jo 2024 â do not plagiarise, repost, modify, or translate any of my work, in any way shape or form; i will piss in your cereal if you do. all work belongs to me and me only.
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The Daughter of Day (2)
Welcome back to The Daughter of Day, a series exploring a new Court and a triad, because why not!
I hope you enjoy chapter 2 đ
This story is set after A Court of Silver Flames.
My inbox remains open for oneshot/imagine requests.
Taglist: @fightmedraco @lilah-asteria @acourtofsmutandstarlight
A Reader x Feysand Fanfiction
Reader's POV
It had been over a week since my father had sent a request to Rhysand asking to host me as a visitor in Velaris, and we still hadn't received a reply. I knew it might take a while, with Rhysand being a High Lord and no doubt as busy as my father was most days, but I couldn't help the heavy feeling in my heart that I might be refused and I'd have to carry on living in Day. It wasn't that I disliked my home court - it had beauty to rival even the most glowing stars in the sky - but it was suffocating being trapped in the palace. Every morning I woke with no plans other than to walk the castle walls, hiding from the palace guards who would no doubt scoop me up and take me back to the safe confines of my bedroom if they found me. Every night, I'd fall asleep hoping my dreams would whisk me away to adventure, fun, freedom. Then, I'd wake up, and I'd do it all again.
Rhysand's POV
Rhys sat in his office sifting through endless piles of paperwork with a sigh. Azriel sat to his left, writing furiously into a notebook, his tongue sticking out slightly with concentration. Rhys chuckled inwardly, and rose from the desk, pacing around the office with his pen tapping against his thigh. He was feeling restless and couldn't quite put a pin on why. He was more than satisfied with his life as it was - he had a beautiful mate, a perfect son, a loving family, war had been won, and life was rebuilding. He had defied all odds and had come out stronger, despite the trauma that lingered below the surface. But, in spite of that, he felt like a part of him was missing. Like he had completed the puzzle that was him, his life, but there was one piece that he had overlooked and left the puzzle incomplete.
Shaking his head, he grabbed a handful of letters from the desk and began slotting through them, tossing the occasional one into the trashcan by his desk. Suddenly, one gold envelope caught his eye. He placed the pile back on the desk to hold the envelope with both hands, feeling the power of its author within. That heat, that sun, that all glowing all consuming power could belong to one High Lord, and one High Lord only - Helion. Rhys carefully opened the letter and reviewed its contents.
Dearest Rhysand, It was a pleasure to be hosted by yourself and your wonderful family this week; and the Day Court remains a staunch ally to you and your Court. I write on matters unrelated to alliance. My daughter, y/n, is finding herself lost amongst Day Court. I admit that I may have 'coddled' her, as one might say, but I did so for fear of her life and safety, and out of love. However, she now wishes to experience a world outside of my shining walls. Would you be so gracious as to allow y/n to visit Velaris for a period of time? I ask this as your ally, and friend, as I trust that y/n will be safe with you in your City of Starlight. Yours truly, Helion.
Rhysand was surprised at the request. Helion had kept his daughter hidden in the confines of the Day Court palace for 25 years, and was now allowing her to not only leave the palace, but leave the Court entirely? He shook his head, almost inclined to deny the request. He could not be responsible for y/n's safety, even if Velaris had the lowest crime rate of all Prythian. If something were to happen to y/n within his court, it could result in war and bloodshed. He took up his pen to write his reply, denying the request, but felt himself hesitate.
Rhys knew better than many what it felt like to be trapped. To feel as though your life wasn't your own to live because you were being held against your will, not able to spread your wings and explore, live, enjoy what this world had to offer. He sat as his hands touched the paper and he found his fingers moving on their own accord.
Dear Helion, The Night Court would be delighted to host y/n. She may stay at our River House for as long as she wishes. Please do send word of when we can expect her arrival and we will ensure that a room is prepared. Regards, Rhysand.
Reader's POV
With a sigh, you put away the book that was resting on your lap and head towards your bedroom. The book was a romance, one you had read so many times over that you were sure you could re-write it verbatim, where the protagonist pursues revenge against those who wronged him to win back his one true love. Whilst romance books were your guilty pleasure, a part of you would always feel sad that perhaps you might not get to experience romance like those you read. Although, maybe nobody did, and that's why the books were so popular - everyone pined to be desired in a way that could only be conveyed on the pages of a story, and not in real life.
As you rounded the corridor and headed towards your bedroom door, you were intercepted.
"Y/n, my darling! I have news from the Night Court".
Your head shot up to meet your father's eyes, your own no doubt full of hope.
"Rhysand has offered for you to stay at the River House in Velaris".
You felt your heart jump with joy and excitement. It was finally happening.
"When can I go?", you asked eagerly, already mentally packing your bags with your favourite dresses and shoes.
"Whenever you wish, my sunshine. I will gladly take you myself".
After giving your father a quick hug, you ran full pelt into your bedroom and grabbed a bag from the back of your closet. After packing a small bag of personal items, you gazed around the drawers and closets at your clothes and halted. The beautiful golden sundresses, flowing skirts and cropped t'shirts were perfect for Day Court, but you were almost certain that you might freeze in the Night Court, not to mention that you would stick out like a sore thumb. Feeling a presence enter your bedroom, you turn to see your father make his way to the edge of your bed.
"I will provide Rhysand with a stipend to cover the expenses of you living with them, and some extra to get yourself some more appropriate clothing", he winked. You smiled at him, grateful that your father somehow always knew what you were thinking without you needing to say it. You walk over to him and reach out to take his hand.
"Thank you, for everything", you say, as he pulls you in for a hug.
"Anything for you, my sunshine".
A moment passes and you find yourself wallowed by feelings of guilt. Guilt for wanting to leave the haven that he built for you. Guilt for wanting to explore without him. You were his only child, his pride and joy, and here you were wanting to leave the nest - and leave him behind in it. Sensing your change in emotions, Helion pulls back from the hug to stare sincerely at your face.
"You make me proud everyday, y/n. You have grown into a beautiful, wise, and kind young woman and I am so proud that you are my daughter. I want you to live the life you've always dreamed of, even if that means it isn't here with me. And, no matter what, I will always be here for you when you decide to return".
You can feel the tears falling steadily down your face as you silently sob. Even though this is what you wanted more than anything else in the world, it didn't make it hurt any less.
"Come, let's go now". Helion offers you his hand and you gladly accept it, picking up the one bag that you had decided to bring with you. With one last look at your bedroom, you offer your father a silent nod, and close your eyes as you feel his power surround you both and winnow you away from the Day Court. Away from home.
You arrive with a thump at the steps of the River House you had visited a few weeks prior, and Helion reached up to knock on the giant door. Waiting, you turn to eye to streets around you, watching the citizens of Velaris go about their days chatting happily and laughing. It was dusk by the time you had arrived, and people were bustling their way down towards the main town in search of food and entertainment for the evening.
The door opened and you turned back to see Feyre, High Lady of the Night Court, standing before you. Her sister, Elain, stood at her side. Both women were smiling.
"Y/n! Welcome back to Velaris! Come in, come in", Feyre gestures to the house, moving out of the doorframe. You move to enter, but stop when you realise your father isn't following.
"This is where I leave you, sunshine. But know I am always here if you need me, and I will come and visit you in a few weeks to see how you are getting on". You can see through the smile on his face right to the sadness in his eyes.
You feel the tears pricking your own eyes but you desperately fight them back, not wanting to cry in front of Feyre and Elain. You lunge forward into your father's arms and hold him, squeezing as tightly as you possibly can, before giving him a salute and walking into the River House. You didn't trust your words not to give away the tears or beg for him to take you back to the comforts of Day; but it seems that nothing slipped past Feyre, as she reached out to pull you into a hug of her own, Elain quietly closing the door behind you.
"I know how hard it can be to make that first step to independence, y/n, you don't have to fight your emotions for our sakes", she offered, stroking your hair and letting your cry quietly on her shoulder.
"I'm so sorry, I'm so happy to be here, it's just harder than I expected".
You felt a hand rub your back and turned to see Elain, a sincere and kind smile on her face. You offered her a watery smile back.
"Come, let's get you cleaned up and then we can have dinner?" she asked, peeling you away from Feyre and guiding you up the stairs. You could hear commotion behind the various doors of the River House but Elain quickly led you to a door at the end of the hall. She opened it and you gasped, surprised to see that the room inside was decorated in the finest Day Court gold you had seen. You turned to Elain as she smiled.
"We figured it would be hard, leaving home for the first time, so we wanted to do something to help you settle. Helion sent us some furniture from your home and we added the rest, I hope it's ok?".
You nodded, completely speechless. Elain walked past you into the adjoining bathroom and began running you a bath as you emptied the contents of your bag. You placed the items around the room; the make-up on the vanity table, the books on your bedside, and the soft yellow blanket you'd had since you were a baby across the end of your new bed. You carried your few toiletries to the bathroom as Elain closed off the water, the smell of jasmine and honey wafting through the air.
"I hope you don't mind, I used my own bath oils as we didn't know what scent you'd like, but we have plans to go into Velaris tomorrow to buy you everything you need".
"We?", you asked.
"You, me, Feyre, and Mor!", she exclaimed excitedly. Her warming and happy energy made you want to smile.
"That sounds wonderful", you grinned back at her, "I haven't met Mor yet, she wasn't able to make the meeting when I was here last".
"You'll meet her tonight, she's coming to dinner. She's Rhys' cousin and lives not too far from here. She's also convinced everyone to go to Rita's tonight, but you don't have to join if you'd prefer to get some rest and settle in here".
"Rita's?"
"It's kind of like a club, Feyre and Mor love to go and dance, and Cassian usually causes some mayhem there. I don't often go but Feyre asked me to this time, she even went out of her way to get Amren to babysit Nyx instead of me!" Elain chuckled to herself. "I think it might be in case you wanted to come, they have a habit of drinking themselves into a bit of a stupor and might be a bit overwhelming to handle on your own".
"Nyx?", you asked, trying to remember the names of everyone you had heard of in the Night Court.
"Feyre and Rhysand's son", she paused, seeing the surprise on your face. "You know, maybe you should join us tonight if you're feeling up to it, you have quite a lot to catch up on!"
You couldn't help but return Elain's smile. Perhaps this would be a good way to get to know everyone and break the ice. "Sure, I'd like to join".
"Great! I'll let Feyre know and have her find some options for you to wear tonight. Speaking of, I'll go and find you some things to wear for dinner too - back in a moment" she smiled, and left the bathroom.
You undressed and climbed into the bath, big enough to fit at least another 4 of you in it, and sank down into the water, letting yourself soak away the emotions of the day. You couldn't help the smile that adorned your face, in spite of your lingering guilt and sadness at leaving your court behind. You had received such a warm welcome in Velaris and-
You heard a crash outside the landing, someone shouting and swearing, and a whole host of laughter as something transpired down the hall from your bedroom. You recognised the echo of Feyre's laugh and Elain's giggles, as a male - Cassian, perhaps? - swore like a sailor. You could pick out a few words; paint, prank, and glue.
You laughed and sank deeper into the water, regrouping your mind. It had been a busy enough day as it was, and it looked like it was only going to get busier still.
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Dig Two Graves - Idle Threats [vii]
Series Summary â Joel has watch duty with Jacksonâs twenty-year old, smart-mouthed brat and gets more than he bargained for.
Chapter Summary â Joel relives the worst moment of his life and finally reads your journal.
Pairing â Joel Miller/Reader
Warnings â Explicit sexual content MDNI (no smut in this part, but in almost every other in the series), brat taming, age gap, mean!Joel, religious imagery and symbolism, catholic guilt, angst, canon typical violence, joel and reader fight the rat king, reader has an added backstory to progress the plot
SERIES MASTERLIST
[cross posted to AO3]
Thereâs a certain sort of amazement in your horror. Joel watches you take everything inâwatches you sift through trashed rooms, taking what hasnât already been picked over. Scalpels, expired vitamins, and gauze all wind up in your pockets or your backpack.
You only encounter two clickers on the main floor, and they likely wandered in through the bomb-sized hole thatâs been blown through the side of the hospital.Â
He thought you were quick with the bow of yours, but itâs nothing compared to how lethal you are with that sawback knife. Before you even make it to the second floor, thereâs blood splattered on your cheek and a murderous glint in your eye. When you take down the second clicker and turn to see him with his rifle raised, you draw a new, crystal clear rule. âWe donât use bullets unless we absolutely have to. We donât use guns unless we have to. The less noise we make here the better.â
ââCourse,â he says.
But you narrow your eyes at him, unrelenting. âIâm serious, Joel. Iâll tell you when I need help. If you fire that thing every infected in this place will be on us in a second.â
He almost hears the echo of his own voice in your words. It makes him smile. Thereâs a sign hanging above the stairwell. Joel nods to it and says, âYou got that list of stuff you need for Maria? Can probably find most of it in the labor and delivery wing. Third floor.âÂ
You nod in agreement and find the scrap of paper youâve kept safely stored these last few days. Itâs crinkled but still legible, the smeared ink list covering both front and back. âYeah. Letâs go.â
There are spores on the third floor. Joel helps you secure your mask, tightening it maybe a little too tightly, and canât help but smile to himself as you look up at him through the clear glass over your eyes. You look so innocent, so sweetâand he might die today and so he says, âYouâre so beautiful, baby. You know that?â
You shove his shoulder playfully and scoff at his compliments, but your cheeks turn a shade of crimson heâs never seen before and he knows itâs gotten to you. âShut up.â
The two of you slink through the halls on the third floor, and at this point, Joel feels like youâve gotten too lucky on this trip. There haven't been any bad moments, any close calls. And you find a quarter of your list in just one room behind the nurse's station that Joel has to break into with brute force. But it works, and he tries not to think about how everything on the list for Maria had been easily accessible.Â
Heâs still bitter about this whole trip, in truth. Joelâs glad to have this time with you, glad to have gotten to know the most hidden parts of you. Itâs all made him understand you better, made him see who you really are beneath the bratty facade you wear.
Youâre different out here. And not just because of the inherent danger that comes with being outside the walls. Youâre different with Joel. And he knows itâs likely because your rigid exterior has kept everyone else in Jackson from getting too close to you. Everyone except Maria.
Joel wonders if she knows how lucky she is, how fortunate someone like you has decided to love Jackson as much as its creator. Because if it were him, if it were Ellie in your position, Joel would never let her lift another finger for Maria even if she begged on her knees. Youâre worth more than this. Your life matters beyond what you can provide.Â
And he vows to remind Maria of it the moment the two of you return. He promises to put an end to this parasitic relationship formed between the two of you.
âHey,â you say. âLook.â You pull something from a drawer behind the nurse's station. Itâs an old folded paper, yellowed around its edges.
Itâs a map of the hospital. Joel stands beside you, so close he can feel the heat of your body through the sleeve of his flannel. He scans the map briefly, taps his middle and index finger against the lowest level labeled operations. âThatâs where we can find the rest,â he says.
âHow do you know?âÂ
He doesnât. Not for certain. âOperating rooms,â he explains. âThey were always stocked with supplies, oxygen tanks, stuff like that. There was a cart full of things for anesthesia. Could be someplace else but itâs likely there. Maybe secured in some closet or somethinâ down there.â
You nod slowly in contemplation. He watches your profile, savoring the sight, watches you gnaw on your bottom lip. He can tell youâre nervous. He is, too.Â
Joel presses a kiss against your hairline. âWeâre gonna make it back home,â he says. But he canât promise it, even though he wants to.Â
Something is weighing on you. Your eyes are far away, misty. He wants to prod for answers but knows better. âYeah. We will. Letâs go.â
The north stairwell past the third flood is blocked by rubble and debris, likely caused by the explosion from the bombings.
You end up doubling back, winding through the hallways down to the lobby and to the opposite side of the hospital. The south side of the building is in better shape but must have been where the quarantine rooms for Casper began because the infected are everywhere. A dozen clickers roam the halls, some hidden between solid steel doors or plastic sheets to section off makeshift rooms.
Thankfully, the task of eradication proves relatively easy. Until the last three, anyway.Â
Joelâs crouched low, knife in hand, stalking slowly behind a clicker with fresh blood on its mangy shirt when a test tube shatters beneath his boot.Â
The infected turns its head and lets out an ear piercing screech, gathering the attention of the other three clickers left. They descend upon him, and Joel is readying himself to jam his knife through the head of whichever oneâs closestâbut then he hears your voice.Â
âHey! Hey, over here!âÂ
And all three of them change course. Youâre like a magnet drawing in death. Joel feels everything slow in an instant.Â
Itâs like heâs right back in that capitol building, leaving Tess behind as if she meant nothing. And Joel had never told her otherwise because heâd been too afraid of caring and losing. But then came you, who obliterated all of his defenses and wriggled your way into his worm-eaten heart anyway.Â
And yet somehow Joel ends up in the same predicament.Â
He abandons his knife altogether in favor of his rifle. He looks through the scope, aims, and the shot echoes off the hospital walls.
Youâve got your knife in the neck of one clicker but it still thrashes in your grip. You just missed the spinal cordâthe first time heâs seen you miss any of your strikes.Â
Itâs too close for him to shoot without potentially hitting you in the process.
The other isnât, though, and Joel looses another bullet that pierces true.Â
He slings his rifle back over his shoulder and heâs only two yards away from you when you stumble backward, losing your balance, the clickerâs strength overpowering yours.Â
Youâve got both hands holding its mouth just out of range of your face, knife still stuck in its neck, and Joelâs ears begin to ring.
He doesnât remember reaching you. He doesnât remember ripping the clicker off of you and onto the floor. He doesnât remember shoving the heel of his boot through its softened, decayed skull.
All Joel can recall is the sound of your fearful scream in his ears.Â
But when he comes back and the color red bleeds from the edges of his vision, the evidence is there. The infected brain matter has splashed across the white tile and his boot is covered in blood and gore.Â
Your chest is heaving when he turns to look at you. Youâre still sitting on the floor, arms stretched out behind you as you try and fail to catch your breath.
His voice is calm, and steady as he asks, âYou wanna tell me what the hell that was?â
âMe? What about you, Joel? I said no fucking guns!â
He doesnât know what to expect when you speak. But it certainly isnât that. âI wouldnât have had to use it if you didnât try to get yourself killed,â he says, biting anger in his voice. Residual fear from the clicker, he tells himself.Â
But it feels like a lie even in his own head. His fury has nothing to do with the clicker and everything to do with your brush with death, Joel knows.
âI told you if I needed help I would say so! I had it!â
Joel leans down and plucks your bloody knife from the dead clickerâs neck and hands it to you. âDid you? Cause it didnât look like it from here.â
You push yourself to your feet furiously. âYes, I did! And I donât need you making decisions like that on a whim! Itâs too goddamn dangerous out here. What happened to my run, my fucking rules? Hm? What about that?â
Heâs never seen you this angry before. Even with Maria, youâd been more lax. It doesnât bother him, thoughâbecause heâs just as furious. âAÂ whim?â He scoffs. âYou wanna talk about rash decisions? Alrightâwhat about that stunt you pulled that got you into this mess in the first place? Yellingâ and hollerinâ like some banshee in the middle of a bunch of clickers and for what?â
âWhat was I supposed to do, Joel? Let them swarm you, kill you? Are you delusional? Iâ!â
He closes the space between you and takes your arm between his fingers, squeezing tight enough to bruise. Whatever youâd meant to say, whatever insult youâd had full intentions of hurling at him, lodges itself and stays stuck in your throat. âDonât you ever do somethinâ like that again, you hear me?â
âWhat am I doing, then? Protecting you? Oh, sorry! I guess thatâs my bad!â You raise your bloody hands in mock surrender. âNext time I should let them tear you apart, is that it?â
âNext time you donât put yourself between me and a threat,â he says firmly. âI donât care if itâs a clicker or the barrel of a gun. Your life fucking matters.â
You flinch as if heâd struck you in the face. It takes you a minute to come back from it, to gather yourself enough to respond. But the moment a crease forms between your brows Joel can sense a coming argument, and he cuts it down before giving you a chance to breathe life into it.Â
âIt matters,â he says again. âIt might not to you, but it does to Ellie, to Tommy, to everyone in that town.â He doesnât say Mariaâs name, but he knows you mean something to her just as well. His voice cracks as he admits, âYou matter to me.â
You search his face frantically, trying to find a lie when there isnât one. He watches tears well that refuse to fall, watches your throat bob as you swallow down that fight in you. Your silence speaks volumes to him.Â
Still, itâs not enough to settle the fear thatâs curdled in his gut. âPromise me,â he says. âPromise me youâll never do something stupid like that again.â
It takes a moment, but then you relent. âOkay. Okay, I promise.â
Joel releases his hold on your arm, and as his panic begins to subside, itâs replaced with urgency. He wants to get out of here, to make it back to Jackson. He wants to move all of your things into his two story colonial, wants to see you writing in that journal of yours on the porch while he sits beside you and strums his guitar. He wants to see you wearing nothing but his tshirt, padding barefoot into the kitchen while the moonlight streams in through the window. He wants to see you laughing with Ellie over a strawberry scone, wants the subtle sound of your breathing to lull him to sleep in the comfort of his bed.Â
He wants to live.
As if youâd read his mind, you say, âCâmon. Letâs get this over with, Iâm ready to go home.â
The south side of the hospital, while in better shape than the north, was still affected by the bombings. The descent proves treacherous, and more than once Joel has to hand you his rifle while he lowers himself down a steep drop in the rubble. When itâs your turn to climb down, he takes his rifle in addition to your bow and quiver, and stretches his arms out to ensure your safe drop.Â
It must look much more daunting for you, he thinks. You move slowly, carefully, wiggling the heels of your boots between the unwavering stones.
âIâve got you,â he promises, and gives a low grunt when you push yourself off the rubble slope and stumble into his waiting arms.
Once youâre on the lowest level of the hospital, youâre able to navigate through the building from the crumbled but still legible directories posted on the wall.
Your feet are silent as you round every corner carefully, an arrow knocked the whole time. Joel trails behind you, rifle poised against his shoulder, finger a hair's breadth away from the trigger.
The two of you clear the hallway that consists of only two runnersâand it raises a bit of a red flag when you realize theyâve been infected fairly recently. You slaughter them both with your knife silently and send him a weary look over your shoulder. Joel knows, even though neither of you speak, that youâre thinking the same thing he is.Â
What killed them?
But you discover nothing remaining in the hall. And the first operating room you investigate proves fruitful. Joel clicks on the flashlight tied to the strap of his backpack and closes the door behind him. âThere,â he whispers, pointing to the cart behind the operating table. âAn anesthesia cart.â
Unease creeps up his spine because this trip has been made easy. Too easy. But the cart has everything you need, and heâs not in a place to question the hand of God. Not anymore.
You place your bag on the floor between your feet and begin rifling through the cartâs contents. Joel watches you place viles, needles, surgical tubes, and a container of some sort of compressed gas all into your bag. Twice you have to readjust its contents to fit more into it. And when youâre finished, he switches you and lets you fill his just as full.
It doesnât take long until everything on your list has been crossed off twice. Youâre placing one last glass vile into his bag, trying to wiggle it into the pocket on the side. But you fail, and the vile slips through your fingers, shattering on the concrete floor.Â
Thatâs the first time he hears it.Â
A feral, angry sort of screechâdeafening in the hospitalâs silence.Â
Joelâs eyes find yours, and he wonders if the terror on your face is reflected on his, too.
Itâs a foreign sound. Not runners or clickers or bloatersâand Joel has absolutely no interest in making a new discovery. He tightens his hand around his rifle and nods towards the door.Â
But the two of you donât make it more than three feet before the wall standing between you and safety erupts into pieces, revealing the most monstrous thing Joel has seen in all his life.
Itâs a massive, fleshy creature, and before the dust even settles he can see not one or two faces but fourâbodies all held together by overgrown masses of cordyceps.
Joel can feel the icy fingers of death wrapping around his neck. He has only his rifle and your sure-fired arrows, both of which donât have nearly enough ammunition for his liking. He knows, sure as rain, that heâs not getting out of this alive.Â
But that doesnât mean you have to die here.Â
âStay behind me,â he orders. âIâm going to clear a pathâdistract it, you go around and get out that door.â
He knows youâll fight him on it but Joel doesnât give you the chance. He aims for one of the heads and pulls the trigger.Â
The creature wails and thrashes and charges forward blindly, teeth gnashing in the air.Â
Joel fires again, but it barely registers. The first bullet seems to have made it somehow more lethal, movements harsh and angry.Â
He realizes youâve completely ignored his direction and instead have saddled up to his side, bow in hand with an arrow knocked. âYouâll have to shoot me, Joel,â you say over the clamor, and it makes his stomach turn. And then again, âIf you want me to leave this place without you, youâre gonna have to shoot me.â
Youâre not bluffing, he realizes when you loose your arrow and it buries itself deep within the creatureâs mangled form. He needs you safe, he needs you out of here, far away from this place. Joel turns his rifle towards you, heart hammering behind his ribcage. He tries not to think about the way your eyes widen as he turns and aims for your thigh.Â
But before he can pull the trigger the monstrous things charges towards the both of you. Joel surges to the left, pushing you out of harm's way and narrowly missing the onslaught himself.Â
In a second you're back on your feet with another arrow whizzing through the air, piercing true. In that moment you remind him a little of Tess, and the thought crosses his mind that she would have adored you but he canât linger in it long. Joel raises his gun and empties his magazine into the mass of infected.
He reloads and empties another. The creature slows but doesnât stop and Joel begins to panic at the rapidly dwindling amount of ammunition. His heart is beating so fast that he worries it might burst. His palms are perspiring, sliding against the cold metal of his gun.Â
âJoel!â Your voice cuts through the fog in his brain. âYou think you can distract it for a minute?â
âI got it,â he says. He kicks the hospital bed in the center of the room and the mass of infected turns its gruesome head. He fires again and again and again, aiming for the several heads stuck between clumps of cordyceps.
He canât see you but he can hear you fumbling with things on the anesthesia cart, can hear the soft click of a lighter through the cacophony. And then your sweet voice.Â
âHey, asshole!â An arrowhead drenched in blue flame flies through the air, landing true right in the creatureâs center.Â
It lets out a wail of agony, stumbles, and then charges towards you.Â
Joel sees you falter, watches you become a deer in the headlights in real time. It reminds him so much of the look on Sarahâs face when she witnessed Joelâs first kill in their front room when Jimmy Cooper broke through the glass door; frightened, terrified. His chest pulls tight.Â
He empties another round into its head, distracting it just long enough for you to come back to reality, to knock another arrow, light it, and release.
It takes every last one of your fiery arrows and all but six of Joelâs bullets before the creature falls to the floor in a mass of blood and flesh and fungus.Â
He slings his rifle over his shoulder and tries to catch his breath, tries to accept the impossible reality before him.Â
Youâre alive. Alive, and safe, and he is too. Itâs the first time in a long time Joel has felt this happy, this elated. His eyes connect with yours and youâre covered in blood splatter and grime but he thinks youâve never looked so beautiful as the moment that pretty smile stretches wide across your face.Â
You laugh, and he does, too. The sound fills the space with warmth and light and love. Joel swims in it, basks in it, savors the moment because itâs the best thing to happen to him in years.Â
But then a clicker peels itself from the mass of decay on the floor and itâs on you in a second.Â
Your laughter turns to blood-curdling screams, bow clattering to the floor and you tumble right along with it.Â
Joel runs to you, shoving any fallen debris that stands in his way. He angles himself just right, Aims. Shoots.Â
The clicker falls limp over you. Your screams stop. Joel thinks his heart does, too.Â
You donât move. Even when he finally manages to get to you and shove the clicker away, your eyes are misty, far away.Â
Your chest rises and falls with each ragged breath, which is a relief, but you donât look at him. He places both hands on either side of your face, eyes burning with unshed tears. âYouâre okay,â he says, more for himself than for you. âYouâre okay, baby, youâre okay.â
He begins to wonder if he was too late. Maybe youâve been scratched or bitten orâ
Thatâs when he sees it. The blood covering your shirt, pooled in the center of your belly. And all he can think is not again.Â
Please, God, if youâre listening, donât do this to me again.Â
Itâs all too familiar.Â
And suddenly Joel Miller isnât in a hospital at all. Heâs back in Austin, in the middle of that field, so goddamn close to the highway, so close to freedom. And that blinding light is being shined in his eyes again but this time itâs not his daughter dying in his arms, itâs you.
He must have missed. Must have shot right through the clicker. This is his fault.
Joel peels the wet cotton of your shirt up and doesnât see any injuries. No scratches, bite marks or bullet wounds. But thereâs so much blood it covers his hands now.
âSarah,â you choke out.Â
He freezes, trembling fingers still intertwined in the hem of your blood-soaked shirt.
It doesnât feel real. You donât feel real. Joelâs grip on reality is swaying. He must have heard you wrong, right? He must have.Â
But then you speak again, voice stronger this time. âMy sisterâs name was Sarah.â
He says nothing. What can he say, anyway?Â
Your eyes are still clouded when you finally look up at him. âMaria doesnât talk about her. IâŠI want to, I should. I donât want to forget her name.â The confession is broken in your mouth, breathless. âPlease, Joel. Donât let me forget her. Donât let me forgetââ
âI wonât,â he says. He swears heâll circle back, swears to let you talk about this later. Promises it to himself, in fact. But right now he needs to get you to safety, needs to get you far from here.Â
He helps pull you to your feet and doesnât look away from you for more than two seconds while he searches for both abandoned backpacks full of supplies.
Joel carries them both and then wraps a tight arm around your shoulders, half carrying you. The ascent back up to the street takes longer, but he manages. And when you come upon two runners just outside the hospital, Joel wastes them easily even with extra weight on his back.Â
Itâs not the weight or the runners or the two mile distance between the hospital and the house where youâd stashed your horses and supplies that bother him though. Itâs your complete and total silence that does.Â
He doesnât want to make things worse for you. Doesnât want to get involved if youâre not ready to share. But he can tell somethingâs weighing heavily on your shoulders and the urge within him to fix it chafes him raw.Â
By the time you make it half a mile from the hospital, it begins to rain. Itâs a spring rain but still cold enough to make you shiver. Joel gives you his canvas coat, but it doesnât have a hood. And youâre leaving a murky blood trail with every step you take. He thinks about clearing a house somewhere closer but knows even being away from the horses this long is a risk for thievery.
So, he forces himself to power through it, to watch you suffer silently while he can do nothing. Even though exhaustion is heavy in your bones, on your face, in your heart. And when you do finally arrive back at the house, the ends of your hair are plastered to your neck and the majority of the blood on your clothes has vanished.
He orders you to sit with the horses as he rummages through the bedrooms in search of something warm and dry. Joel returns with a pair of black jeans, an oversized sweater, and two towels to dry you off. âStand up,â he says.Â
And you obey wordlessly, which breaks his heart because he wants to hear some bratty remark, some unhinged comment. But you give him nothing but compliance.Â
He strips you of your clothes, uses one towel to dry your skin and the other to ring as much rainwater from your hair as possible. He works slowly, gently. And then he maneuvers your limbs of his own accord, running two fingers over every inch of your bare skin.Â
Your voice is broken and you sound so tired as you ask, âWhat are you doing?â
âChecking for bites,â he explains softly. âMaybe scratches.â He can feel your gaze on the side of his face, but Joel doesnât stop until heâs satisfied with his inspection. He dresses you in the clothes he found. The jeans are a little tight and the ivory sweater has a moth-eaten hole in the sleeve, but your shivering lessens.
He knows itâs risky, but he breaks apart the crumbling oak dining chair and tosses the wood into the fireplace. Heâs already striking a match and trying to light it before you catch onto what heâs doing.Â
âNo fire,â you tell him, a frantic tone slipping into your voice. Itâs the first emotion youâve shown since the hospital. âJoel, what if someoneâ?â
âThen Iâll deal with it,â he says, leaving no room for argument. Youâre cold, and he has the tools to fix it. What kind of man would he be if he chose not to?Â
The fire catches, illuminating the dark room in orange and yellow hues. He doesnât want to leave you but he does for only long enough to feed the horses, bring them fresh water, and find dry clothes for himself. While sifting through one of the dressers he discovers more than just jeans and a black tshirt, though.Â
When he returns to the main room, youâve moved to sit in front of the fireplace, hands held out in front of the flames.
He moves the rickety old coffee table towards you and sits on the other side of it. âLook what I found,â he says, holding up the set of fifty-two playing cards. Theyâre no longer shiny and white, weathered and yellowed now with age. But theyâll still serve their purpose. Joel begins to shuffle the deck as he asks, âIs there anything you know how to play?â
You take your hands reluctantly away from the fire and tuck them beneath your legs instead. âRummy,â you answer quietly. âMaria taught me.â
Joel nods and begins to deal out ten cards to the both of you. He can feel your stare, heavy and weighted, but doesnât meet it until heâs lifted his cards to observe them.Â
Heâs got shit for luck. Always has. âWent out to a casino once with Tommy,â he says, smiling fondly at the memory. âPromised myself Iâd only spend a hundred bucks but ended up spending double and left with less than fifty cents that night.â
You start a discard pile. Joel picks up your eight of hearts. âIâm okay,â you say. âYou donât need to doâŠwhatever it is youâre trying to do.â
A crease forms between his brows. âAnd whatâs that, exactly?â
âDistracting me,â you tell him, drawing from the stack of cards. âTrying to make me feel better. Iâm just saying you donât have to. Iâd tell you if I needed to talk.â
He doesnât believe it for a second. Because you might have a foul mouth and a habit of thievery but youâre also the most selfless person heâs ever met. You didnât tell Maria you didnât want to go on that run for her pregnancy craving, you didnât tell him you needed him with a clicker trying to tear you apart, you didnât ask for a fire or dry clothes while you shivered in the dark. Joel Miller doesnât think youâd say a goddamn word even if you were drowning. âWould you?â
You donât answer. You discard a three of clubs instead.
Joel discards and draws. He inhales deeply and lets out a slow breath. âYou donât have to do things alone anymore,â he says. âSupply runs, life riskin,â griefâŠwhatever it is, Iâm with you.â
âEven back in Jackson?â Thereâs disbelief in your tone as you draw a new card. âPeople are gonna talk, Joel. You said it yourself.â
He nods slowly. âYeah, yeah I did.â He discards his ace of spades. âTurns out, I care less about them and more about you.â
You donât say anything. Joel wishes so badly that you would give him just an inch of an idea as to whatâs going on inside your head. You pick up his discard and get rid of the two of clubs.
âThat alright with you?â
âI donât care about what the people of Jackson think or say about me. I already told you that.â
âIâm not askinâ about them Iâm askinâ about you,â he says. Joel wonders how long youâve been forced to put all your wants and needs aside for them. Long enough that itâs become a habit, even here when itâs just the two of you.Â
âWhat about me?â Thereâs genuine confusion on your face, which only further proves his point. You discard a nine of hearts.
He picks it up. âIâm old,â he says, discarding his four of clubs. âGot a good fifteen years left in me, twenty if Iâm lucky. You gotta whole lot more than that. Anâ I donât live on the exciting side of things much anymore. That really what you want?â
You roll your eyes and Joel feels warmth bloom in his chest at the sight. Itâs something.Â
âYou could die tomorrow and so could I,â you say. âYou know that as well as I do. Something as trivial as age doesnât matter. Maybe it used to, but things are different now.â
He nods contemplatively and draws another card. âThatâs true enough.â
âAnd you wonât ever hear me complaining about monotony,â you say, a little quieter. âNever had much stability. Doesnât seem like a bad thing to me.â
Itâs not meant to provoke sympathy but he feels it anyway. Joel wants to provide that for you more than anything. But he doesn't want to be the kind of man that keeps things from you. He learned his lesson the hard way with Ellie. âMy, uhâŠmy daughter. Her name was Sarah, too.â Joel lays his cards down on the table, displaying a perfect ace through king run of hearts.
You donât even register the fact that heâs won the game. Your cards tremble in your fingers. He knows you wonât speak, so he decides to instead.Â
âI think Iâve known forâŠfor quite some time. Just didnât want to admit it to myself sâall. But the minute you looked at me and said her name?â He shakes his head in disbelief. âWhen I realized we shared this loss, you and IâŠthat we wereâŠconnected somehowâI knew thereâd never been another option. No goinâ back. Itâs when I knew it without a doubt.â
You lay your hand down this time, a perfect run of spades.
A tie.
âKnew what?â
âThat I love you.â It surprises him how easy it feels to say it, how naturally it flows from the tongue.
You tense up, muscles going rigid at his words. He watches the orange flames reflect and flicker in your eyes, watches you hesitate to speak.
He doesnât expect you to say it back. Doesnât matter to him whether or not you ever do, in truth. Because he doesnât love you for what you can provide, he just loves who you are. He just loves you.Â
You make a sudden decision and stand to your feet, crossing the room to rummage through your backpack. It takes you a minute, but you finally pull the battered leather journal from the bottom and then you return to your spot. âGoodnight, Joel,â you say, tossing the journal into his lap and lying on your side in front of the fire. âYouâve got the first watch.â
He spends it learning everything about you. The entries are vague, details omitted. But it fills in the gaps left behind by what he already knows. He gets a glimpse of who your Sarah was, and in those entries, he sees bits and pieces of you within her. He sees your distrust of Maria spiral into acceptance and then into attachment, sees your view of Tommyâs arrival and your apprehension to trust him, too.Â
He learns that ultimately it was a day you spent on patrol together that his little brother won your faith. Tommy told you all about his sibling he would kill and die for, a conversation that must have struck you deep enough to decide to protect Tommy the same way you protect the whole of Jackson.
One of the older entries shocks him. The first interaction you ever had with Ellie, it seems, was the night after they returned to Jackson when he followed her back to the hospital in Salt Lake City. Joel remembers very vividly how awful he felt back then. And Ellie, it seems, was much the same.
In the entry, you say you find her sitting beneath the willow tree across the street from your home. You find her crying, alone, and so frustrated and confused that sheâs barely making sense. You bring her inside, and she confesses all to you. Ellie tells you about the hospital, about how she both loves and hates Joel at that moment. She tells you about her friend Riley, about Marlene and Tess and Sam and Henry. She tells you sheâs immune.
And in the next sentence, you make a confession in ink that you would do no differently than Joel had. You say that you would damn everyone else if it meant the safety of this crying girl at your kitchen table, and Joelâs eyes begin to sting the longer he reads.Â
You document a run that happened seven years ago in which you made your first human kill at fourteen. You reference it in several other entries as The Dying. It takes Joel until halfway through the journal before he realizes you formulate several things in this dramatic metaphorical way.Â
Discovering Jackson is The Finding, you call your bow The Cursor and sometimes refer to Maria as The Director. Your sisterâs death is referred to simply as The End.
With less than a quarter of the journal left to read, he finds an entry dated the day before he was assigned to watch duty with you. You refer to yourself as The Wraith, comparing yourself to the dead, to a ghost. You express your longing to be a sibling again, despite that fact never changing even after enduring such a heavy loss.Â
And then the next entry, dated the day after your shift in the watchtower, is an almost blank page. In the center, thereâs a hand-drawn moth, the only thing within the journalâs entirety drawn in color. Below it, a single word is written.
Joel.
[part six] [part eight]
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Sometimes u just need Damian to hold u while u cry y'knowÂż??
I feel this with every fiber of my being, you have no idea.
Actions Speak a Thousand Words
summary: Damian was always a man of little words, but in moments like these, he wished he could do better to comfort you. word count: 1,280~ warnings: self-doubt, self-hatred, Damian sucks at emotions but he's tRyiNg. Light hurt/comfort In honor of summer classes sucking ASS and Damian's cameo in the Pride comic, here's this, because I feel like everyones a little bit tired right now.
You felt a shoulder bump into yours, effectively washing away all your thoughts. You hummed in question, your gaze barely lifting from where it was stuck.Â
âYouâve been staring at the wall for long enough that Iâve begun to think itâs personally wronged you.âÂ
You hummed into the fingers that nestled against your chin, it was subtle pressure but it was enough to keep you from floating away. The hum almost died in your throat, having gotten caught in the heat that taunted you.Â
When you didnât laugh or even budge, Damian grew worried. He attempted toâas you taught himâlighten the mood once more.Â
âI could fight the wall for you. It seems as though youâre mortal enemies.âÂ
You responded that time, but the attempt at banter fell short when your voice was nothing but a whisper. âWeâre in the middle of a staring contest, thatâd defeat the point.âÂ
It was Damianâs turn to hum, he tried to sound like he was on board with the idea but the tail end of the noise lifted into confusion. He slipped onto the seat next to you.Â
âAre you at least winning?â His gaze attempted to reach yours. Green eyes were at the edge of your vision if you just turned your head to look at him. He felt his eyebrows crease together when your eyes fell from the wall and onto the desk in front of you.Â
âI donât think so,â you whispered, much softer than the last time you spoke. If Damian wasnât inches away, the wobbles in your voice would have faded into nothing, to never be heard. The lips behind shaky fingers struggled to suck in a breath.Â
Damian sifted ever closer to you until he could feel your silhouette against his. He hesitated, if not for a moment. He wasnât good at this, he was trying to beâgod he wasâbut it didnât stop the lump in his throat from forming every time he saw you in hardship.Â
He started with the first step: âAre you okay?âÂ
That sentence alone felt like he had said it wrong. He could mimic the exact inflections as everyone, down to the last breath, and he would still feel so out of place saying it. He hated the sound of his own hesitanceâwhy couldnât he be good at this, just once? Heâd watched for years as his oldest brother danced through emotions so effortlessly, even his father had grown in an aspect Damian would never admit he was jealous of. Heâd seen itâexperienced it himselfâyet he could never navigate this as easily as the others.Â
You told him he was doing wonderful every time. You noticed his efforts and smiled at his mistakes, told him he was human and that it was okay. But damn, did Damian want to be better for you. You taught him what it was like to feel alive. He wanted to return that feeling tenfold until your body buzzed with his love for you.Â
He just didnât know how.Â
The silence between you too lingered for longer than he liked. Every fiber of his being itched to fix the problem, to make sure whatever was making you feel this lost was squandered. But he quieted that part of him; he told himself âlater.â Right now, that wouldnât help you. That wouldnât help you process this or feel whatever you were feeling right now. He had to give you time.Â
So he waited, even as the milliseconds stretched into seconds. He let your brain filter through his question and piece together a response.Â
âIâm just tired, Dames.âÂ
He picked at his pants, feeling the seams roll under his fingers.Â
âDo you want to take a nap?â died in his throat.Â
âWe could cuddle?â slipped from his tongue.Â
âMaybe take a break?â seemed impossible to say.Â
Those are solutions, they wouldnât help right now.Â
âFrom?â he settled on. The green from his eyes never left your face for a moment. He was sure you could feel it, the weight of his gaze. It slid from your temples down your nose and across your jaw, tracing each line over and over again so he could see when they shifted. He could analyze your face for hours, itâs how he knew the twitch between your eyebrows was a sign you were trying to form the words on your tongue.Â
He knew you. And he knew you wanted to smack a smile on your face and move on, to laugh it off and apologize for everything and nothing all at once. He often did the same, just with a different way of shrugging off emotions. He hid behind a stone wall where you hid behind a mirror.Â
It was funny really, how easily you could penetrate his walls and how easily he could see through a two-way.Â
âEverything.â Your eyes finally met his and the feeling of his heart sinking wasnât one he could ever get used to. The sight of tears forming constellations on your lashes was enough for his heart to lurch. He felt it deep in his ribcage and up into his throat.Â
He struggled on his next word. The words had to claw their way out of his mouth, enemies of hesitance and anxiety blocking their path. He wanted to tell you everything would be okay; he wanted to say it would get better; he wanted to say something that would helpâanything.Â
But Damian was never a man of many words, and oh, did he hate himself for it.Â
No matter how many times he was told his strengths, he could only ever see the weaknesses, the imperfections, and the traits of him that could be traced back to his grandfather. Even after so long of trying to be better, it was useless.Â
He was trying to be someone he wasnât.Â
So he let the words die. He let the resonance turn into a steady breath and did what he was good at: he held you. His arms wrapped around your shoulders and pulled you into his chest. You all but fell into his embrace, your head finding its way under his chin out of habit. It felt natural here, with you in his arms. Damian felt like he could breathe easier as if all his insecurities washed away.Â
He hoped you felt the same.Â
âI'm so tired,â you sobbed. Fingers clung to his shirt and pulled on the fabric but he stayed steady. He was, and always would be, your rock: the steady force in your life while all else seemed to swirl into chaos. He would always be there for you, despite everything. He was an immovable force and he slowly took pride in that fact.Â
His lips pressed into the top of your head, the words hidden behind those lips ached to break through. Instead, he wrote the words into your body and kissed them into your skin in hopes the message was received all the same.Â
The pads of his fingers squeezed consonants into your shoulders and slid vowels down your back and up again. His thighs carried the weight of yours and promised strength in return. His chest breathed in your sorrows and pressed affirmations into your heart.Â
âIâm here.âÂ
It was shortâthat much Damian knew. But it was all he had to say. Every single word trapped in his chest was released in two simple syllables. There was nothing else. It was so simple, yet he overlooked it everytime.Â
He could feel your body leaning into his, the way your hands had to convince themselves he was there. He knew you. And he knew this was enough.Â
He would always be enough.Â
As he was.
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Brothers' Beloved Bestfriend | Daniel Ricciardo (part iii)
part i
part ii
You chose not to wear the red dress, but that didnât stop Daniel from stealing glances at you the whole night, sifting through guests any chance he could to talk to you before your brother swept him away. The guest list was more than you had anticipated, so when you retired to your room after everyone had left, you were uncertain whether you could keep your exhaustion at bay to stay awake and talk to Daniel. Obviously those thoughts and struggles were thrown out the window when you heard your bedroom door quietly open as he snuck in, closing the door behind himself and pausing at the entrance, watching you finish your skincare routine.
âFinally.â You replied, passing him a smile as he made his way to your bed.Â
âWhat, couldnât wait any longer to see me again?â He laughed.
You rolled your eyes before joining him in bed, getting flashbacks to how it had felt the first night he was in your room. This felt like a strangely domesticated moment though, youâd shared several sweet moments with him over the course of the years you had known him, but this felt intimate, and domesticated. Crawling into bed and under the covers with him waiting for you on the side of the bed he knew you didnât sleep on felt odd- not in a bad way, but more in a different and kind of adorable way.
Your crush on Daniel had started as the same old cliche crush; you liked your older brothersâ best friend, but it had grown into something much more in the past few years, and as confusing as it was, you were still glad you two were cuddling next to each other. He had always been the type of person to go through the effort of completely understanding and knowing the people around him; he was a comforting soul to many and though youâd always felt comfortable around him, this was different, it was far more intimate than you could have ever wished for. Youâd of course be lying if you claimed you didnât wish for this, that you didnât think about it every time your hugs lingered a moment too long or every time heâd lean just a little too close. Daniel always felt like the man you would feel safe around, and now that he had his arms wrapped around you and your face buried in his chest, listening to his heart beat, you felt safer than you could have imagined.Â
The dreaded conversation wasnât brought up for a while, initially you two talked about the event, the food, the people, the interactions and eventually you two managed to transgress into a completely different conversation about life and the struggles the two of you had faced as individuals- not once did the conversation feel forced and not once did it feel like he was trying to make a segway into the intended topic. It wasnât till you looked up at him during an extended few minutes of silence, only to have him be looking back at you, his smile tugging at the corners of his lips.Â
âYour forehead is at the perfect spot.â He said, inching closer to give you a kiss.Â
You smiled at the gesture, it was sweet and made you feel warm on the inside.
âIâm sorry, I should have expressed my feelings better.â Daniel said, breaking the comfortable silence with words that felt heavier than they should have.Â
âWait wait wait wait, what are you apologizing for? If anyone should be apologizing right now, it should be me; Iâm the one who cut you off when I should have talked to you about my fears.â You replied, plummeting directly into the core of the matter, pulling away to look at his face better, you propped your head up on your arm for better comfort. Daniel mirrored your posture, propping his head on his arm, and reaching out with his other hand to hold yours.Â
âNo, no, I thought about it a lot and I feel awful for how I came onto you-â You saw his face flinch when he registered the last few words and bit back a chuckle, âUh, I was much older than you and still am, and it was your first summer back from college and all, and really I should have had a better conversation but we were both kinda drunk and it felt like oh yâknow itâs now or never and-â
âDanny.â You interrupted him, squeezing his hand a bit tighter as a form of bodily punctuation.
He didnât reply to you, his gaze met yours and for a moment you swore you would start crying. Youâd known these past few days that your feelings for him had resurfaced, but every passing moment felt like those feelings hadnât resurfaced, but instead had never left, they had existed for longer than youâd like to admit and no matter how much youâd lie and say it was momentary or what-not, they were real and had been existing longer than youâd acknowledge. Hearing him ramble hurt you, it was the saddest possible confirmation of his pre-existing and lasting feelings for you and though that fact should have brought comfort, his expression of that fact brought a great discomfort. Youâd always known Daniel to be a man capable of expressing his thoughts and using his words, but at that moment, the way his words fell out of his mouth with his eyes darting and looking anywhere but yours made you regret any decision you thought to be correct.Â
âDan, stop apologizing, whatever happened that night happened and I donât regret what we did. Do you?âÂ
âGod, not at all.â Daniel replied, brows furrowing slightly as he lost grip of the direction of the conversation.
âYeah, so the problem wasnât the fact that we had sex. I just freaked out because Iâve had this crush on you for so long and I didnât think anything would happen except then it did and it scared the shit out of me because I didnât know what my family would say and I somehow convinced myself that you didnât like me like that and that that night was just a fling and yes, before you say it, we did have a conversation during and after about our feelings but I donât know I guess it felt too good to be true?âÂ
You had spewed out a lot, most of which Daniel already knew, but the last bit of your statement completely threw him for a loop and momentarily disabled his brain for a response. In the two years he had to think over the matter, not once did he suspect that you would ever think heâd use you as a stupid drunk one-nightstand. Excluding guilt, all emotions Daniel felt towards you were inter-linked to great degrees with immense respect and genuine adoration for you- the idea of you seeing yourself as a silly drunken decision blew his mind. The emotions he felt were not verbally expressed, he was trying his best to untangle his thoughts while you read his expressions and said the first few words that came to mind.Â
âIâm sorry, did I say something wrong? Listen, Iâm really sorry for ghosting you, it just became too much and I got so scared yâknow like with my brother and my family, and your career and my college and-âÂ
âShut up.â He interrupted, confusion dissolving off his face.
He moved faster than you could question, pulling your face into his for a kiss. It wasnât breath-taking or anything, but it truly was a long enough kiss to shut you up, for your train of thought to be completely derailed and for you to be distracted by his lips gently moving against yours as his hand let go of yours and moved to cup your face, thumb slowly stroking your cheek.
âI would never, ever look at you like that.â He said, face a few inches away from yours.
âLike what?â You asked, looking up at him.
âLike youâre worth letting go of, ever.â He whispered, scared of saying those words too loud.Â
Daniel had never admitted this to anyone, mainly because he couldnât; the only person who knew the both of you was your brother and that wasnât particularly a conversation heâd like to have earlier on, except now he was sure he didnât care about what your brother had to say or what your family had to say- all he cared about was the fact that he wasnât going to let any silly thought hold him back, nor was he willing to mess up and risk the chance of losing you again.Â
âDanny..â You tried to say something apart from his name, but failure was inevitable, you had never admitted this earlier and having to hear the confirmation of your unspoken fear and conclusionary reason for the cut-off brought you immense comfort. âIâm sorry for running away from you Danny.âÂ
âI understand, I really do, please donât beat yourself over it baby, I get it, I really really do.â He comforted you, as he pulled your head into his chest kissing the top of it as he felt you relax.Â
It truly felt like a weight had been lifted from your shoulders, it felt like the two years you had spent thinking about him and all that could have been were useless and in the moment they felt sillier than they were. The time for the actions and confessions just wasnât right and deep down inside the both of you had known it then and knew it now too.Â
The Enchante merch he was wearing felt soft against your skin, the supple fabric against our face felt comforting, his hand stroking your back felt comforting, the way you could feel his breath felt comforting- it all felt like a reward for the two years of discomfort.Â
âYâknow,â Daniel said, interrupting the one-sided conversation you were having with his heartbeat, âI donât think your brothersâ going to be very surprised when we come clean about all this.âÂ
âHm? Whyâre you so sure, did he say something?â You asked, confused with the random mention of your brother.
âUh, no, but I think heâs seen me staring way too many times.â He laughed, âI mean the guys not an idiot.âÂ
âI donât think heâll be too mad, I mean yeah heâd be mad at first, but itâs you and he trusts you, I donât think heâd have an objection to us dating.âÂ
âSo, what Iâm hearing is that weâre dating? Gee babe, lemme at least buy you dinner first.â Daniel laughed, a sound of joy that vibrated through his chest, which you slapped lightly as a response to the teasing.
âI mean- I donât know, thatâs not what I-â You got flustered, suddenly completely unsure of a response.Â
âBaby, baby, Iâm joking, weâre dating that's for sure, I donât think I wanna put that for later again.â  Â
âOh cut it out Ricciardo.â You mumbled, smiling at his stupid joke.Â
He hummed in response, holding onto you tighter as the thought settled in his head, he had hoped for this despite his âbetterâ judgment and now it was happening. You were in his arms, body completely slack against his with your breath slowing down as he felt your body drift off to sleep.Â
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A/N: I'M BACKKK!!! after eid and a major depressive episode, I have returned to provide the finale of my Danny fic, I'm sorry if it's short, hope yall like it, as usual inbox is open for criticism and asks! Love you all<3
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Always You - Miguel OâHara x Reader (Part one)
summary: You and Miguel have been friends since high school and throughout all of that, heâs loved you. Getting around to asking you out however? No.
contains: mutual pining, friends to lovers, mentions of insecurity on miguelâs part. NOT PROOFREADING
part one | part two
You and Miguel went to high school together, graduated together, roomed together during university, and throughout all of that, Miguel had loved you, his best friend. He remembered when you walked into his chemistry class Junior year of high school⊠Through his thick-rimmed glasses, he admired the sway of your hair and the light glinting of the black plastic headband on top of your head. His body tensed when you sat next to him, offering a charming smile that would have him whipped his for the rest of his life.
The teacherâs voice faded into meaningless noise in the background and he found himself only focusing on you you. Brown eyes watched as you silently took down notes, sketching doodles on the edges of your notebook whenever youâd get bored, nose scrunching slightly whenever you made a mistake. He knew better then to stare but you were just so magnetic. You turned to look at him. Crap
Miguel darted his eyes to look at his paper only to find his page void of any writing.
Heâd been so enraptured by you that he forgot to copy down notes.
Flustered, his eyebrows furrowed but quickly shot up when he felt a tap on his shoulder. He glanced up at you expecting you to tear into him for his ogling but then he noticed you had slid your notebook next to his. He blinked but picked up his pencil and begin to copy down what was on your paper. âThanksâŠâ He mumbled, turning away to conceal the red on his tanned complexion.
Ever since that day, you were talking to him and he was delighted to listen. It started with you teasing him for âspacing offâ during class and then turned to conversations about music shared interests. The semester progressed he begun to hang out with you after school, silly conversations turning deep and personal. For the first time he felt like head a real friend, not just some random he talked to during robotics season. Thick and thin, you were there for him and when it was his turn to comfort you, he did in a heartbeat.
Senior year prom night, that stupid guy youâd been seeing ditched you last minute. You were sat on the edge of his bed sniffling into his shoulder. âHey itâs okay, youâll be fine,â He cooed into your ear, rubbing your back soothingly. If he werenât so mousy, he wouldâve kicked his ass. âGod what was I thinking?! You told me he was a douche- Xina told me he was a douche- whyd I even go through with it?â You sobbed into his shoulder. Miguel already hated the guy for snatching you up and him breaking your heart like this only served to enrage him further. âI donât know- youâve always been kind of stubborn.â He joked. You wiped your eyes and smiled weakly, playfully hitting his shoulder. âShut up, I know.â
Miguel laughed and silently held you up against him, careful to not extend any boundaries. âI donât even have a date anymore and I already got the dressâŠâ You said with sad eyes. An idea popped into your head. âMig-â
âNo.â
âWhy not! I know you hate parties but itâs senior prom-â
âYou know I donât do well in social settings, (Y/N)â
âItâd make me feel better..â
That was all it took for his resolve to diminish. Miguel grunted but secretly, his heart was soaring. âFine. Let me find a dress-shirt or something.â
He kept the picture in his wallet. Miguel would look at it whenever he needed a break from college work, you holding a peace sign over his head, blue lights making your dress glow and he just stood awkwardly doing his best to smile. As he walked to the campus library, he took out his wallet and just stared at the small Polaroid picture with a soft smile on his face. Youâd changed and so had he.
Miguel opened the library door, sifting through the crowd of studying college students. A hand went up and discretely waved back and forth and Miguel walked towards it. âHey,â you smiled. Miguel smiled back and set his bag down. âHi.â
Miguel had grown taller since high-school- like- suspiciously tall. He went from being the small, nerdy guy to this 6â9 tank of a man in the span of three years. Freshman year of college, he didnât look like this. Though- you liked it. Really liked it.
His arms were big- the crewneck just barely concealing the muscle of his arms and the broadness of his back. Youâd been crushing on him since second year of college. It was odd- how quickly your view of him changed and this change brought on guilt. He was your best friend! You couldnât feel that way about him though he certainly didnât help. Friends would point out how nice to you he was, how easily heâd fold and howd heâd drop anything just to help you. All of that made your heart beat and yetYou never thought anything of it. Youâd do the same. It was just something between friends, no? Miguelâs brown locks slicked back and his glasses sat on the tip of his hooked nose as he stared at you with those soft eyes of his. âReady?â
Your cheeks flared when he reached over to touch your shoulder. âYeah- yeah,â you nodded.
The sky faded into darkness when you finished studying with Miguel, it was chilly too as you walked through campus over to the dorm you shared. âDamn- itâs freezing,â you rubbed your hands together, breaths coming out in white clouds. Miguel laughed, casually taking your hands in his larger ones. His palms were like heaters- unusually warm. He leaned closer to you, the redness of his cheeks not going unnoticed. âBetter?â
A blush came upon you face and you leaned on his shoulder. âMhm, arenât you cold?â Miguel just wore a sweater with a plaid scarf wrapped around his neck and a pair of gloves, gloves he always wore ever since last summer. He shook his head. âIt doesnât bother, weâre close to home either way so itâs not like weâll be out for too long.â You nodded, mumbling a soft âtrueâ and kept walking with his masssive hands around yours.
Arriving home, you plopped onto the couch and leaned your head back. âIâm beat,â you mumbled, looking over at your best friend who was taking off his scarf.
God his back looked good from that angle- his waist tooâŠ
âYeah- Iâm gonna go to bed, actually,â Miguel yawned. You tilted your head. âAlready? Itâs only nine?â You said as he walked over to his room. âGotta get my beauty sleep- Iâm a busy guy,â he said sarcastically though there was some truth to his words. Miguel was a genetics genius so his classes were difficult, not to mention all the internships he had at various scientific facilities. âI think youâre plenty beautiful, tiger,â you snickered, he laughed too. âGracias, mami.â
You turned back to the tv when you heard the soft click of his lock. Bored, you switched on the tv. It was all news about this masked vigilante- Spider-Man they called him. Youâd been hearing about him a lot recently for the past four weeks. âHuh,â you said, and continued watching.
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Miguel had changed into his suit soon after he left you to his own devices. The night hadnât been too eventful, he prevented a couple robberies which heâd tracked with the help of Lyla- his AI.
âSo-â A yellow light emerged from Miguelâs wrist, illuminating his masked face. âYou ever gonna tell your girlfriend aboutâŠâ She waved her arms around. âThis?â Miguel scoffed and looked away, thankful for the mask hiding his cheeks. âNo- and sheâs not my girlfriend.â Lyla laughed, her avatar flickering to her now lying on her stomach with her palms resting on her cheeks. âYou canât hide this from me, big guy. I monitor your heart rate and it always spikes up whenever youâre around her. Coincidence? I think the shock not!â
Miguel swatted the hologram which only flickered in response. The AI hummed in amusement, swinging her leg in deep thought. Miguelâs fangs barred underneath his mask but sheathed soon after. âThat doesnât mean anything,â He mumbled. Lyla rolled her eyes. âWell according to my tracking software- Iâve also picked up rises in temperature, clammy hands-!â
âOkay!â Miguel grunted. âShock- I get it.â Lyla smiled triumphantly, flickering over to the top of his head where he gave it a little pat. âLucky you, I have several algorithms that should be foolproof in asking her out!â That made Miguel laugh. His ai didnât comprehend his deep insecurity and for some odd reason that was a little heartwarming to him. âDonât overestimate me, Lyla. (Y/N), sheâs- sheâs way out of my league. I donât wanna risk years of friendship because I canât control my own feelings.â He sighed.
The hologram frowned. âHey donât say that,â Lyla hugged his head but all Miguel felt was the warm heat from the light and the pain in his chest. He took out his wallet and gazed into the senior prom night picture. âShock, I looked like such a dork,â He laughed. You were still so beautiful, hell- you were even more beautiful now. Miguel swallowed, hope blooming in his chest. âWhatâre those foolproof plans of yours anyways?â
Lylaâs eyes lit up and she scoured her files. âOh I am so glad you asked.â
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Moves & Countermoves (Part 20)
Summary: No one ever wins the games, even fourteen years later, Y/N is still playing.
Prologue | 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 | 14 | 15 | 16 | 17 | 18 | 19
âSoldier Abernathy,â Boggsâ voice is the one to finally break them apart.
Y/N moves to her feet, straightening out her gear. âYes.â
âCivilian Abernathy.â Boggs also acknowledges the man on the floor.
âYep.â Haymitch groans, pulling himself up.
âThereâs been an incident.â Boggs squares his shoulders.
âWhat kind of incident?â
âPeeta attacked Katniss.â
âHe what?â Y/N stammers.
âOur Peeta?â Haymitch is getting older, surely heâs heard wrong.
Boggs nods. âFollow me-â
Without another word, Boggs ushers them to Katnissâ room in medical. She is limp on the bed, being changed into a hospital gown. She looks the same as she had when Haymitch left her, save for the large angry bruise, blooming over the expanse of her neck.
âDamn it,â Haymitch murmurs.
âHow could this happen?â Y/N turns to Boggs.
âI stepped outside to give them privacy. When I heard the commotion, I went straight in. Heâd already put her through the medicine cabinets and had her on the floor. It happened fast.â
Y/N brings a hand to her throbbing temple. âThank you forâŠâ Y/N breaks off. âI shouldâve stayed with him.â
âNot your fault, soldier.â Boggs says, immediately.
Haymitch passes a hand over her back. See, you stubborn thing? Not everything can be your fault.
âIâll be right outside the door if you need me.â Boggs excuses himself.
The doctors trickle out, leaving Katniss in her neck brace, hooked up to a bunch of beeping monitors.
âSheâll be out for a while, by the sound of it. We should check on Peeta. Try to figure out what the hellâs going on.â Haymitch kisses Y/Nâs temple. Watching his wife stroke dark hair away from Katnissâ face.
Y/N nods.
Peetaâs room is not much better. He is restrained, for his own safety. Unconscious after the attack, Boggs had to get him off somehow.
The results of the bloodwork returns without traces of any hallucinogenic drugs. The only abnormal thing found in his system is trackerjacker venom.
âSo what does this mean? He thought Katniss was someone else?â Haymitch asks Dr. Aurelius, whoâs come to deliver the news. Heâs not a regular doctor, heâs a head doctor. Maybe heâs here to make sure they donât lose their shit?
âWellâŠitâs hard to say. Iâll need to speak with him once he regains consciousness. For now, it seems a bit odd that he would remember Y/N in the hovercraft and in this room, only to not recognize Katniss a moment later.â
There must be somethingâŠsomething sheâs missing. âSo you think he knew it was Katniss and did that to her anyway?â
âI understand how difficult this may be for you to hear, but Peeta did attack Katniss with the intent to kill her.â Dr. Aurelius explains.
Haymitch shifts, meeting Y/Nâs eyes.
âThatâs why heâs restrained?â Y/N presses her lips together.
âThis is for his own safety.â
âI donât understand.â Y/N cuts him off. âHe held my hand all the way home.â Thereâs just no way. âPeeta wouldnât do that to Katniss.â
âI know it is painful for you to see them this way. But given your experience on the hovercraft, I have every reason to believe that we can help him work through this.â
âHow?â Haymitch wonders.
âWith the knowledge that he recognizes Y/N, we will be able to use a trusted source to sift through the information fed to him by the Capitol. In theory we will be able to reverse this fear conditioning.â Dr. Aurelius is already working up a plan.
âSo thatâs what you think this is? A response to fear conditioning?â Haymitch asks.
âHe has lacerations, old and new. Evidence of shocks and beatings, that with the presence of trackerjacker venom suggests what one would consider brainwashing. A hijacking, if you will.â
âHave you ever treated a patient in his condition?â Y/N gnaws at the insides of her cheek.
âI have never seen anything like this, no.â
âWeâll do whatever we can,â Y/N says, immediately.
âFor now there is nothing to be done. Katniss and Peeta are resting, which they both desperately need. I might suggest you do the same.â
âIf it were your kids, could you rest?â Haymitch bites out, bitterly.
Aurelius nods, in understanding. âNo.â He stares for a moment more. âAs Peetaâs family is deceased, you are his next of kin. You will be involved in making medical decisions. If anything changes you will be the first to know.â
âThank you.â
âThere is one more thing, before you go.â
âAnd what might that be?â Haymitch retorts.
âJohanna Mason has requested that you also be listed as next of kin, until she is found to be of sound mind.â
âWhat about Finnick?â Y/N wonders, theyâve always been close.
âFinnick struggled during separation with Annie.âFrom what Aurelius can see, heâs still struggling. âHe is in no position to make decisions about her medical care. Rather her be a ward of the district, she would have you.â
âOf course, weâll take her.â
ââââââââââââââââââââââââ
Pollux is with Madge, when they return to the children, keeping all three entertained. Thereâs someone else, perched in the corner, quiet, just watching.
âMom?â Y/N says, warily. Sheâs only seen her once since theyâve been here. The older woman was deep into detox and screamed at her to get out.
âHi, honey.â As if nothing has happened. As if nothing is wrong.
âMommy, look what we made for Peeta!â Arista holds up the off white paper banner, lined with drawings and colored flowers.
âOh, sweetheart,â Y/N chokes down her despair. How can I explain this? âItâs beautiful, heâll love it.â
âYouâre sad,â Everest calls her bluff.
Haymitch steps closer, saving her, the way he always has. âThereâs something we need to talk about.â
âIs it Peeta?â
âYeah,â Haymitch breathes, perching himself at the end of Everestâs bed. âCome here.â He pats the space on either side for his children. Iâll take this one.
Y/N follows her mother out into the hallway.
âHow are you holding up?â The older woman asks.
âIâm ok.â
âGood.â
âSo youâre out of rehab?â
âIf thatâs what you want to call it, yes.â
âYou look reallyâŠhealthy.â
âY/N I saw Finnickâs broadcast and I- I just wanted to tell you how sorry I am. Iâm sorry that I wasnât there for you. That I couldnât protect you. I know I wasnât the best mother-â
âYou did the best you could,â Y/N cuts her off. âAs a mother, I understand that we canât always be there the way we want to.â
âBut you are there. Everyday and every night, you are there for those kids. They know that no matter what, their mom is coming home. They know that you will always be there. Iâm sorry you didnât have that.â
âItâs okâŠIâm-â Y/N wraps her arms tightly around herself. âIâm ok.â
âWhen I lost Maysi, I lost myself. I tried to get it back, to get a grip, to keep pushing but I couldnât. When you got reaped,â she breaks off. âWhen I saw my baby girl get taken from me I- I mourned you. I mourned you the second you got on that train and I never stopped mourning you. But you werenât dead, you were alive and my mind, especially with the morphling, couldnât comprehend that.â
âMom, please, stop.â
âI know you must be angry with me.â Her mother tugs at Y/Nâs hand. âBut I need you to know that didnât deserve that. You didnât deserve any of this, you are so good. You are good and you are brave and you are strong. Better than I ever was or could be. And Iâm going to be here for you now, if youâll let me.â
Y/N nods, silently, brushing away tears. âThank you.â
ââââââââââââââââââââââââ
The guilt grows, festering like a wound. Guilt over the strain on their marriage, guilt for their absence from their children. Guilt for Katniss, neck braced, in a coma. Guilt for Peeta, restrained, turned into a weapon meant to kill the only girl heâs ever loved. Guilt for Johanna, tortured and stripped of her dignity. Guilt for Cashmere, who lost her brother. Guilt for Madge who takes on so much burden that is not her own.
âHeâs been asking for you.â One of the doctors from Peetaâs team catches Y/N in the hallway.
The voice is enough to snap Y/N back to the task at hand. Haymitch is with Katniss, such is their agreement, until Peeta feels more at ease in the presence of others. Triggering him is not worth the risk.
Through the observation window, she can see him struggling, tugging at the bonds. Two doctors are beside him, attempting to soothe him. Y/N enters the room without hesitation, fighting her way into his line of vision.
âPeeta.â She says softly, moving towards him.
His thrashing does not stop, but he registers that she is there.
âCan we clear the room?â Y/N asks.
âOf course.â The doctors nod, they too are at a loss.
Peetaâs breathing is so shallow and rapid, she fears he might be hyperventilating. His eyes searching her sadly, warily. âI thought you didnât want to see me.â
âWhy would you think that?â
âDonât you know what I did?â
Katniss. âIâm not upset with you, Peeta. I just want to help you.â
âYou donât know what it was like.â
âYouâre right, I donât.â
âBut Snow did stuff to you too, didnât he?â
âNothing like this,â Y/N swallows the lump in her throat. âI brought you something, from the kids; my kids.â
âI rememberâŠâ Almost. Memories dancing near the surface of a frozen lake.
âThey made you this,â Y/N unrolls the slightly crumpled paper. âSorry I smushed it.â
Peetaâs eyes well up with tears. âCan I keep it?â
âYeah, of course, weâll find somewhere to hang it up.â
ââââââââââââââââââââââââ
âMy colleague, Dr. Maes, informed me that the two of you had a ratherâŠcolorful conversation, at the bed side of her patient, Johanna Mason.â Dr. Aurelius says, during his later session with Y/N.
âSheâs not a good fit for Johanna,â Y/N explains. âIâd rather you see her.â
âI couldnât possibly take on Peeta, Katniss, Johanna, Haymitch and yourself.â Aurelius explains, âgiven her condition-â
âTake me off the list.â
âAre you sure thatâs the best decision?â
âItâs the only option I have.â Y/N crosses one leg over the other.
âTell me why.â
âWhat?â
âTell me why thatâs the only option and Iâll consider it.â
Y/N takes a steadying breath. âYouâre the best theyâve got down here and we both know it. This isnât about being a lost cause, or a martyr. Itâs about people needing you more than I do.â
Dr. Aurelius sighs, âIâm sure Haymitch will follow your lead.â
âI didnât mention it to him yet.â The longing pangs in her chest.
When she does tell Haymitch, later that night, heâs half asleep.
âWhatever you want, Angel.â He murmurs, pulling her closer.
Theyâve hardly seen each other. She feels the strain on his heart, tugging at her own. Y/N fists a hand in his shirt. âYouâre what I want.â More time with you.
âYou have me by the balls,â he scoffs, âStop torturing yourself. Everyone has to pay the piper and revolutions donât come cheap. If we have to keep going like this; for however long, weâll do that.â
âThis is enough for you? Five minutes to ourselves before bed, after being apart all day?â
âYouâre enough.â Haymitch breathes, âyouâll always be enough.â
Just you and me.
ââââââââââââââââââââââââ
Katniss wakes a day later, clawing at the brace around her neck and breathing hard. The monitors surrounding her beep frantically as Boggs tries to calm her.
âHey, Katniss. Youâre alright.â
Her hands move back to the brace.
âDonât, youâre swollen.â Boggs stills her fingers.
Katniss leans back in defeat, her voice is but a broken whisper. âPeeta.â
Part 21
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quarter life crisis (j.h.s.)
a/n: this is wildly influenced by my own life so i have no idea if this is even relatable but you can have it anyways.
summary: Rejection from a potential grad school stings more than they realize.
inspired by taylor bickettâs âquarter life crisisâ | part of the maroon universe
warnings: implied/referenced sex, swearing, age gap (reader is 22, Jake is 33), alcohol mentions, writing this was kind of cathartic,Â
word count: 5,757
Unfortunately, we are unable to offer you a place in our program at this time...
The bright screen wavers in front of you as you blink back the stinging of your tears. Your boyfriendâs hand rubs comfortably on your back as you shut the lid of the laptop, slumping down in your chair.Â
Your pretty, perfect boyfriend.Â
Your pretty, perfect boyfriend who was one of the best Naval aviators in the country.Â
âHey, itâs okay. Itâs just Stanford.âÂ
Just Stanford, like it wasnât one of the top schools in the country.Â
Aim for the skies, your Dad always said.Â
âYeah.â You mutter, sliding off the chair at the counter of the kitchen island.Â
âYou have like what, seven other programs?â He says, following you as you walk towards the fridge. âYouâll get into the program thatâs meant for you. Besides, I selfishly didnât want you going so far from me.âÂ
You sigh, turning to face your boyfriend.Â
Your pretty, perfect boyfriend who wouldnât ever know the sting of rejection.Â
Rejection and Jake Seresin were antonyms, words that would never go together, polar opposites.Â
Much like you and Jake.Â
Jake, a 33-year-old established Naval aviator with two confirmed kills who had his whole career right in front of him.Â
You, a 22-year-old college graduate with no direction and no idea what she was doing.Â
You and Jake were antonyms, people that would never go together, polar opposites.Â
âYeah.â You say, realizing youâve been quiet for too long as Jakeâs eyebrows furrow.Â
âSweetheart-â He says before cutting himself off, looking a bit at a loss. âWhat can I do to make it better?âÂ
You shrug, giving him a small smile. âNothing. Why donât you go on to the Hard Deck without me? Think Iâm gonna take a minute.âÂ
He hesitates. âYou sure?â
You breath out, crossing your arms as you nod. âPositive.âÂ
He nods, still looking a bit skeptical as he leans down, pressing a quick kiss to your lips. âSee you soon?âÂ
âYeah.âÂ
-
You groan, rolling over as you blink awake. The TV is still on, the title screen for Treasure Planet pulled up as you search for your phone.Â
Itâs a tough task, ensnared in a tangle of blankets and squinting from the too bright TV in a pitch black living room. You finally latch on to it, wedged between two cushions, quickly looking away as the bright screen lights up at you.Â
Your head pounds as you struggle to turn the brightness down on the phone, the cry youâd had earlier leaving your throat dry and head in need of a painkiller. You swallow, throat feeling like sandpaper as you struggle to sift through the 49 text messages, not to mention the 8 missed calls.Â
You donât think youâd ever been so popular.Â
The texts are mostly from Jake, a handful from Brad and Nat and Reuben and even one from your Dad (Sorry to hear about Stanford kid).Â
The calls are all from Jake though.Â
Hey, itâs been a while, where are you? Call me back.Â
Hey, this is the fourth time I called you, why arenât answering?
Hey, Iâm starting to get worried. Shit, I knew I shouldnât have left you alone. Please call me back.Â
I will drive to your house. I know where your Dad keeps the spare key. Please just call me back and tell me youâre okay.Â
Okay, okay, I get the hint. You want to be left alone. Just send a smoke signal that youâre alive or something? Iâm just kind of worried about you. Okay, I- Okay, talk to you later.Â
You groan, a quick glance at the time telling you itâs almost midnight. You mustâve cried yourself to sleep for an unintended six hour nap. You shoot off a quick text to Jake, letting him know you just fell asleep. You respond to the meme Reuben sent you, confirming the two of you were still on for drinks with kids from your high school tomorrow, friends of his he still kept in touch with. You knew Max and Lauren and Joy and Tristan and Cody when you went to school, but youâd never been quite cool enough to hang out with them. Â
You pull the fridge open, searching for the leftover pizza best you can with the bright LED lights in the fridge.Â
âWhat are you doing?â You yelp, turning around as you see Maverick standing there in his pajamas, half-asleep.Â
âGetting food... sorry, did I wake you?âÂ
He shakes his head, yawning. âJake called, asked if we heard from you. You were asleep when we came in so I just wanted to make sure you were still here.âÂ
You nod, glancing down at your phone. Jake still hadnât texted you back. âYeah, I just texted him.âÂ
âOkay, well, Iâm going back to bed. Sorry about the Stanford decision.âÂ
You give a half-shrug. âJust Stanford.âÂ
He blindly pats your shoulder before yawning again. âK, goodnight.â And then heâs shuffling back to the stairs to go to bed as you groan, shutting the fridge.Â
-
âYou look pretty.â Penny comments as you walk into the Hard Deck.Â
âThank you.âÂ
âGot a hot date?â Amelia teases.Â
âNope, just drinks with Reuben.âÂ
âLet me go put this box in the back and then weâre good to go, yeah?â You nod as Reuben rounds the bar with the box in his hands. He pauses, turning back to you. âDo you remember Anna who went to high school with us?âÂ
You blink, nodding slowly.Â
Of course you remembered her. Sheâd been your best friend for seven years.Â
âYeah.âÂ
âDid you hear she was engaged?âÂ
You nod again as Jakeâs arm slides around your waist. âI did hear that, yeah.âÂ
âWell, her and her fiancĂ© are in town, Tyler I think his name is, and so I invited them to go with us.âÂ
You nod as Reuben turns, heading for the back.Â
âHi sweetheart.â Jake whispers in your ear, pressing a kiss to your bare shoulder.Â
âSorry I disappeared last night.â You whisper back, but Jake doesnât get a chance to respond as Bradley cuts through the conversation.Â
âWerenât you and Anna, like best friends?â Bradley asks, taking a sip of his beer. âI remember her because she had a huge crush on me, which was always kind of strange. She was like my second sister.âÂ
âYeah, well Anna decided to stop being friends with me a long time ago.â You say with a sigh.Â
âYou and Anna were friends?â Reuben asks, coming back into the room.Â
You nod. âFor like seven years.âÂ
âI never knew that.â He said, eyebrows furrowing. âI never even saw you guys talk to each other at school.âÂ
You huff out a laugh, feeling somewhat bitter. âYeah, because I wasnât cool enough to be seen with her. It would ruin her street cred.âÂ
âThatâs shitty.â Jake comments, tugging you between his legs to rest his chin on your shoulder. âIâm sorry.âÂ
You give a half-shrug, blinking back the sting of tears yet again.Â
âItâs whatever.âÂ
Itâs not whatever.Â
Youâd known Anna since you were eleven years old, since the two of you stood next to each other in line for your English class on the first day of the 6th grade, becoming friends because the two of you were wearing the same shirt but in different colors.Â
Anna was at your house more often than not. Youâd been the first person sheâd called when her brother got cancer. Youâd walked to her house after your parents told you that they were getting a divorce. She used to come over whenever your Dad had cancer treatments and make pancakes with you and watch Glee so you didnât have to think about it.Â
And then one day, at the start of your senior year, sheâd cut you out. Blocked your number and stopped talking to you. Sheâd shown back up again before you started college but hadnât stuck around very long that time either.Â
Sheâd disappeared for a few years and came back with a fiancĂ© who was her soulmate and a successful job in a new city across the country.Â
And here you were, back in San Diego, with a shiny new grad school rejection and a dead end bartending job your Dad had hooked up for you and a boyfriend you hadnât said I love you to yet.Â
Comparatively, one of you was doing better than the other and it wasnât the one who had gotten screwed over.Â
It made your chest burn, thinking about how you had always thought youâd be there when she got engaged and had to find out from Instagram of all places.Â
Put a lot of things into perspective for you.Â
You blink, realizing youâve been quiet for too long again as the group stares at you. âSorry.âÂ
Reuben watches you carefully. âYou ready to go?âÂ
You take a shaky breath, nodding. âYep, letâs go.âÂ
-
âReuben!â Max yells as the two of you walk over. âTook you long enough!âÂ
Reuben laughs, pulling Max into a hug before introducing you. Max nods, giving you a side hug as Laurenâs eyes light up at the sight of you.Â
âYou were in our AP Literature class.â Max says, pulling away from you.
Lauren groans, leaning over the table to give you a hug. âDonât bring that class up, Maxwell. Iâm still not over the fact that we all failed the AP test.âÂ
âYeah, Iâd like to not revisit the year Max and I dated.â Joy says, offering you a smile from across the table.Â
Max sticks out his tongue at her as your and Reuben sit at the table. âYou remember Tristan, yeah?âÂ
You nod as he raises his glass to you. âGood to see you again.â
âGlad to see we all survived that awful AP Lit class.âÂ
âAnd then I donât think you ever met my older brother Cody?âÂ
âYou got bumped up to my History class your freshman year, right?â Cody asks as he extends a hand over the table. You nod, confirming his words as you shake his hand.Â
âHey Cody, I was in that class too!â Anna protests from the end of the table.Â
You offer the girl a small smile. âHi Anna.âÂ
âYou know, I didnât know the two of you were friends.â Reuben comments, gesturing between you and Anna.Â
âShe was too busy pretending I didnât exist.â You mutter under your breath, doing your best to disguise the words with a cough.Â
âOkay, why donât you boys go get us drinks?â Lauren asks.Â
âSo you can sit here and gossip and have girl talk?â Max says, raising his beer to his lips with a smirk.Â
âYes. Get lost.â Joy deadpans. The boys grumble but follow her orders, even Annaâs fiancĂ©Â following the group.Â
âSo how have you been?â Lauren asks, a genuine small lighting up her face.Â
You shrug. âPretty good.âÂ
âAre you and Reuben dating?â Joy asks, earning a nudge from Lauren.Â
You chuckle, shaking your head. âNo, God no. Weâre just co-workers, pretty sure my Dad put him up to this, always saying I need to get out of the house. Besides, I have a boyfriend.âÂ
âHow is your Dad?â Anna asks, taking Maxâs chair so she could scoot closer.Â
âGood. Heâs good. He and Maverick just celebrated their anniversary and heâs in remission.âÂ
âSo... backtrack, boyfriend?â Lauren says, propping her head up on a closed fist. âPlease, do tell.âÂ
âCan I see a picture?â Anna asks. You nod, pulling your phone out from your back pocket, swiping through for an acceptable photo of the two of you. You land on a picture from a barbecue Penny had hosted recently, a picture Javy had taken of the two of you when neither of you were paying attention.Â
His smile was wide, hair messy from rolling around in the grass all afternoon as the team played football. Your arms were around his neck, his hands on your waist as the both of you smile, deep in conversation.Â
âHis name is Jake. Heâs a Navy pilot and works with Bradley and Maverick. Itâs how we met.âÂ
âDating a flyboy, Iâm sure your dad is thrilled.â Anna comments, raising her eyebrows. âIsnât he- Heâs kind of out of your league. No offense.âÂ
And there it is.Â
Your pretty, perfect boyfriend, out of your league.Â
Of course it was something you knew, but not something you needed to hear, least of all from her.Â
âOh, heâs cute.â Lauren coos, peering over at the phone. âHow serious is it?âÂ
You shrug. âDunno, weâve only been dating for a few months. Just kind of seeing where it goes.âÂ
âDonât be fooled, Jakeâs hopelessly in love with her.â Reuben comments as the boys appear back at the table.Â
âI donât know about that.â You say, taking a gulp of the drink Reuben has set down in front of you.Â
âIs the sex good?â Joy asks, causing you to choke.Â
âWhat?â You choke out, lungs burning.Â
âWell, is it?âÂ
âUm-âÂ
âYou donât have to answer that.â Max intervenes, tossing a look at Joy.Â
âNo, Iâm with Joy. He looks like he knows how to fuck, Iâm curious if heâs good.âÂ
âLauren!â Reuben protests, crossing his arms. âBack off.âÂ
âI second that.â Tristan says.Â
âOh, please like you didnât hear about Joyâs sex life when she dated Max.â Lauren says, narrowing her eyes.Â
âSo?â Anna prompts. âIs he good in bed?âÂ
You shrink back, suddenly aware that everyoneâs looking at you.Â
You had told Jake that you hadnât really been with any one else. Not any one meaningful, anyways. You doubted that the sex was as good for him as it was you, but you hardly had anything to compare to.Â
âI mean, heâs a six foot Navy aviator with an ego. What do you think?âÂ
Joy raises an eyebrow. âAnd what about size?âÂ
âAbsolutely not, do not answer that. I still have to serve him at the Hard Deck, please do not give me intimate details about Seresinâs dick size.âÂ
âI wasnât going to...?â You say, offering him a curious look. âYou picked me up after the first time we hooked up. If I was going to tell you any intimate details, I wouldâve by now.âÂ
âWait, wait, wait, what?â Lauren says, waving her hands.
You sigh. âJake and I hooked up as a one-night stand before we ever officially got together. I sort of fled the morning after and Reuben picked me up.âÂ
âManâs knows how to leave a hickey, thatâs for sure.â Reuben mutters.Â
âOkay, letâs talk about literally anything else.â Max says, cutting the conversation off. âYou applying to grad schools or anything?âÂ
âYeah. Just kind of vibing at the moment, though.âÂ
âDidnât-â Rueben start, but then cuts himself off, frowning. âNever mind.âÂ
âYeah, please donât bring that up right now.â You mutter. âWhat about you Max? Whatâve you been up to?âÂ
âBring up what?â Anna asks.Â
Reuben sighs, glancing at you. âNothing.âÂ
Itâs too late, everyone looking at you now.Â
âI just- I just found out I got rejected from a grad school yesterday. Thatâs all.âÂ
That fact that it was Stanford you got rejected from goes unspoken.Â
âWhat happened to the gifted kid we all knew in high school?â Anna laughs.Â
âBurned out in college trying to be good enough for her parents.â You snap, shooting Anna a look. âSheâs currently having a quarter-life crisis and would like everyone to please stop asking her about it, so Max, what have you been up to?âÂ
The boy just blinks.
-
âHow was drinks?âÂ
âAwful.â You groan, all but collapsing on to the couch next to Maverick.Â
Reuben sighs, sticking in his hands in his pockets. âI donât remember Anna being such a bitch.âÂ
âYou donât maybe. I do.â You say, sitting up to look at him.Â
âAnna who always spent a lot of time around here?â Maverick asks. You nod and he clicks his tongue. âI never liked her all that much.â
You sigh. âHow she behaved tonight? Thatâs how she treated me for seven years and I just let her. And yet sheâs still the one whoâs doing better.âÂ
Reuben nods, conceding to you. âWell, if Anna doesnât come with us again, would you want to come back out with us?âÂ
You shrug. âI guess.âÂ
âYou donât like them?âÂ
âNo, I think theyâre great people. I donât think they like me very much.âÂ
Reuben scoffs. âWhatâre you talking about? Lauren and Max adore you. As does Tristan, they want you to come back out with us. You shouldâve seen Laurenâs face when I said you were coming tonight.âÂ
You sigh, unsure of how to explain to him that you felt like you would never escape who you were in high school, like theyâd look at you and still see that girl you had been.Â
It really hadnât been that long since youâd been at the high school that had made you feel suffocated with a life that felt dead-end.Â
Rueben was great, heâd always been. The best thing about him was his heart.Â
And his friends were great too.Â
But in high school, the lines had been drawn in the sand. You knew where you stood with them and it was about several social status levels below them.Â
Just because you now had a pretty, perfect boyfriend didnât change that.Â
Reuben says your name, making you realize youâve once against fallen silent for too long. âSorry, what?âÂ
âWeâll do next time on your turf, okay? You can pick wherever and whatever.âÂ
You sigh, standing up from the couch. âReuben, just leave it, okay? Weâre never gonna gel as friends.âÂ
âYou and them? Or us?â He asks, with a frown on his face.Â
You wince, internally cursing your slip. âReuben-â
âYou still think I care that you might've been, what? A little dorky in high school?  I saw a girl who was bright and intelligent and passionate. What did it matter that she went on a few tangents about the State of Union address because her Dad was there? You were one of the smartest people I interacted with in high school.âÂ
You want to snap and say, yeah thatâs the problem. I was the smartest kid you knew and knew exactly what I wanted and now I struggle to get up in the morning because I donât even know who I am anymore.Â
But all you can do is sigh and look at Reuben. He scoffs, shaking his head, stalking to the front door before slamming it shut. Maverick winces as you struggle not to cry again.Â
âWhat the fuck was that about?âÂ
âNothing, Iâm just a drama queen.â You mutter. âIâm going to bed.âÂ
-
âHi.â You look up from where youâre cleaning glasses to see Lauren and Max.Â
âHey, Reubenâs just in the back if you want me to go grab him for you.â You offer, sticking a thumb to the back where Reuben was helping Penny sort the new delivery you got today.Â
Lauren shakes her head. âNo. I just-â She sighs, looking at Max. âWe just wanted to come say that well, I think we got off on the wrong foot. I love you, I think youâre great, and Iâd love for you to come back out with us sometime.âÂ
You huff out a laugh, setting the glass down. âReuben put you up to this?âÂ
She frowns. âNo?âÂ
Max sighs. âLook, I donât even like Anna. None of us liked Anna, the only one who was friends with her was Reuben.âÂ
âThatâs only because she was a part of a different friend group.â Reuben says, appearing from the back with another crate of clean glasses.Â
You snort, grabbing the crate from him. âFunny to me you had multiple friend groups, I didnât even have one.âÂ
âOh, câmon, you had a friend group.âÂ
You raise an eyebrow. âYeah? Who, Reuben?âÂ
He falters, clearly struggling think of someone.Â
âReuben, I didnât even get asked to prom. Letâs call a spade a spade, I was a loser.âÂ
âI think you had your head so far in a book no one ever got a chance to see how great you are.â Lauren amends, offering you a kind smile. âAnd Iâd love if you came and hung out with us again. And we will stop asking about your sex life, I promise.âÂ
âWhy, she doesnât want to brag?â Jake drawls, appearing next to Lauren.Â
âNo!â Reuben exclaims. âNo intimate details about his dick size! I canât do it!âłÂ
Jake gives Reuben a confused look as you sigh, pinching the bridge of your nose.Â
âThis is your boyfriend?â Max asks. You nod. He extends a hand to Max and then Lauren.Â
âJake Seresin.âÂ
âNice to meet you.â Lauren says. âYou like escape rooms, right? We could do one of those? Boys versus girls.âÂ
âI donât know, the last time I did one of those it was with my Mom and I have it on good authority Iâm a bit bossy.âÂ
âThe prehistoric ages, when your Mom was around.â Bradley says, appearing next to Jake at the bar.Â
âShut up Bradshaw.â Natasha mutters, wedging herself in between him and Jake.Â
âAw, sheâs making friends. Itâs like kindergarten all over again, this is so cute.â Coyote teases, appearing behind the group.Â
âReuben and I both have next Monday off. How about laser tag?â You ask, ignoring Coyote even as your cheeks warm.Â
Reuben coughs awkwardly. âIâm gonna bow out of this one, thanks.âÂ
Max startles. âWhat? Why?â
Reuben shrugs, not sparing you glance. âCody and I already have plans.â
âSince when?â Lauren asks incredulously.Â
âSince last night.â You mutter under your breath. âItâs okay, I think Iâm supposed to get dinner with my Dadâs that night. You know, family thing.âÂ
âWe are?â Bradley asks.Â
âNo, just me and them.â You lie, praying Bradley just accepts it and moves on.
Lauren nods unconvinced. âWell, our door is always open. Just give us a holler, weâll be around.âÂ
-
âWhat happened to dinner with your Dadâs?âÂ
You grunt, picking up another rock and tossing it in the lake.Â
Lake Murray had become little more than a pond over the years, but with the park nearby and walking trails all around it, it became a great place to come to hide away when you needed to think.Â
âYou know, you are one hard lady to find.âÂ
âShut up Jake.â You mutter.Â
Your pretty, perfect boyfriend was a liar. Heâd had your location since the time youâd gotten too drunk and had just hit share indefinitely when heâd come to pick up from the bar.Â
âIs everything okay?âÂ
âNo.â You say honestly, not having been okay in months.Â
Still, it stung even more today, waking up to another rejection from a grad school program, this time from your alma mater.Â
Jake sighs. âWhatâs going on?âÂ
âDonât wanna talk about it.â
He huffs. âIâm worried about you.âÂ
The Why? sits in your throat, crushed by the guilt that youâve been making your pretty, perfect boyfriend worry about you.Â
âSorry, didnât mean to.â Is what you mumble out instead, kicking another rock, watching it tumble down the edge towards the lake.Â
âWould you please talk to me?â He all but begs, a hint of desperation in his voice. âYouâve been acting strange ever since you got the Stanford decision back and I want to know whatâs up with my girlfriend.âÂ
His girlfriend, who he hasnât even said I love you to yet, making you wonder if he ever would.
Rationally, you knew it was early, especially if this relationship wasnât going anywhere. It was unreasonable to expect Jake to return your feelings and it was unreasonable to expect Jake to commit to a girl who didnât have her shit together.Â
âItâs nothing.â You say, keeping your eyes on the deep blue water, slowly lapping at the shore. If you strain your ears you could hear the screaming of kids at the park across the way.Â
You hear him shuffle behind you, moving closer, but he doesnât sit down. âSweetheart.â He says, but stops.Â
You sigh, your heart aching with want, begging you to turn around give him a hug. To let him pull you close and run his fingers through his hair, whispering that itâll be okay and that he isnât go anywhere.Â
Maybe it would be better if the two of you broke up.Â
Maybe he would be better off without you.Â
Youâre quiet for too long because Jake is sighing and you can hear him take a few steps back. âYou want to be alone?âÂ
You nod.Â
He leaves.
-
You blink, the tears stinging at your eyes as Lauren posts a picture of her and Joy with a handful of other girls that had been friends with them in high school.Â
my girls xx is what she posts on the story of them out getting drinks and you have to close the app before the stories can continue on.
You sigh, letting the phone rest on your chest as you hear Maverick downstairs, crooning along to Voulez-Vous as he cooks dinner with your Dad. You should put your phone away, pull yourself together enough to go down there, and spend time with them. Itâd probably do wonders for you to take a break from your phone, from social media, where it feels like everyone is living a better life than you would ever have.Â
Your phone buzzes on your chest but you donât bother to check it, still just listening the commotion from downstairs. Maverick has set the fire alarm off again.Â
Thereâs a knock against your window, causing you to startle. With big windows that overlooked the ocean, birds would occasionally fly into the glass, but this was definitely more of a knock than a thud.Â
You lift your head, catching sight of your boyfriendâs blonde hair shining in the setting evening sun, casting a warm orange glow over the room.Â
âWhat the fuck?â You mutter to yourself, pulling yourself off the bed and over to window, pulling it open. He grins at you.Â
âPizza delivery.âÂ
You blink, staring at him. âHow the fuck did you get up here? Why are you up here?âÂ
He shrugs. âA magician never tells their secret and you werenât answering your phone. Câmon, come have a picnic with me.â He nods his head down to the sandy area just off of your back porch. You know itâs conveniently just out of sight for either of your Dads if they were to walk past the sliding glass doors. You sigh, shaking your head. âGive me two minutes.âÂ
He nods as you shut the window. You pad down the stairs, slipping into the kitchen for the bottle of champagne leftover from your grad party months ago. Maverick grins at you as you pull the bottle from the fridge.Â
âDoing some day drinking?â He asks.Â
âSomething like that.â You say, grabbing two glasses from the cabinet. He eyes them. âIn case, you know, I spill.â He nods, giving you an unconvinced look.Â
âJakeâs outside, isnât he?â He whispers.Â
âMaybe.â You whisper back as your Dad emerges form the pantry.Â
âWhatâre we whispering about?â He asks and Maverick gives him a grin.Â
âAbout how I find you so sexy, baby-â
You groan, cutting the man off. âGross, stop. Iâm going outside to enjoy the sunset.âÂ
Your Dad nods, too preoccupied with Maverick. Youâd tell them they better be careful or the food will burn again but itâd distract your Dad and you know Maverick is giving you an opportunity to get outside unquestioned.Â
You slip out on to the patio, catching sight of Jake resting on the blankets heâs laid out, pizza boxes open in front of him.Â
You set the champagne down along with the glasses, catching sight of the white box. You open it as he pops open the champagne, revealing the chocolate-covered strawberries.Â
âPizza and chocolate-covered strawberries? Thought you said the bar was in hell if this was romance.â You tease, sliding the box back across the blankets. He huffs out a laugh as you settle down on to the blankets.Â
âWell, maybe I could be learning a thing or two from Troy Bolton.âÂ
-
Your head rests against Jakeâs thigh, his head propped up near your feet. You feel warm, the alcohol and good food coursing through you as you watch the setting sun turns blood red at the horizon. Jakeâs other hand is resting on your foot, thumb gently running over your ankle.Â
âThanks for doing this.â You say and he gives you a smile. A genuine one, not the lazy grins he usually he puts on for the rest of the world.Â
âAnything for you darling.â He pauses for a moment, his movements on your ankle continuing. âBut I do want to talk about why youâve been so weird lately.âÂ
You shrug, shifting. âIâm just feeling weird, I guess. Call it a quarter life crisis or whatever, but Iâm just feeling a bit strange.âÂ
âHow so?âÂ
âI donât know. Iâm not where I thought Iâd be at 22, which is so stupid because I have my whole life laid in front of me and yet I- I always thought Iâd have my life figured out. Iâd know what I want to do and where Iâm going. Iâd have my forever relationship and my forever group of friends. But Iâm getting rejected from grad schools left and right, Iâve got no solid group of friends. I hang out with my pseudo-brotherâs friends most of the time and work a job my Daddy got for me. I live at home, for Christâs sake. And itâs not that I donât enjoy being with you because I l-â You pause, cutting yourself off, almost reeling at the fact that you'd almost let the words slip out.Â
You loved Jake Seresin but you were uncertain he loved you in return.Â
âI do like being with you. But all my friends from school, theyâre engaged or married and have solid careers or amazing grad school offers and best friends they have game nights with and weekly drinks and I donât know, they fucking meal prep together. And itâs added on to the fact that Iâm like sort of friends with Reuben now, who I always thought was so cool in high school. You know, he had that life. He went to the football games and had dates to dances and surfed and had friends to hang out with. Still does. And Iâm realizing Iâm sort of starting to grieve a life I didnât have in high school. You know, a life I couldâve had if my life had been just a bit more stable. My Dad had his cancer treatments and my parents were locked into this nasty court battle over child support. Not even over me but how much money I was worth. Maverick was never around, Bradley too, and Iâm just-â You squeeze your eyes shut, taking a shuddering breath. âIâm upset because I couldâve had that life in high school if I wasnât busy taking care of myself and making sure I stayed alive. If I wasnât busy trying to make it into college because I knew it was the only way Iâd make something of myself, the only way Iâd be worth something in my parentâs eyes.â
You sit up, the tears slipping down your face. âI feel like a failure. And even more than I feel like a failure, Iâm angry at losing out on all I couldâve had but didn't get because of my parents.â Your voice is raw and wet as Jake sits up too, pulling you close to his chest. âMy whole identity for so long has been about my academic success and now that the academics donât want me, I have no idea who the fuck I am.âÂ
âIâm so proud of you.â He whispers into your hairline, pressing a soft kiss there.Â
You hiccup. âHow? Iâm a mess.âÂ
He chuckles, pulling back slightly. âIâm proud of you because you did survive. I agree, itâs not fair to you that you had to raise yourself. Iâm proud of you though because you got through all that and now you get this amazing opportunity to learn who you really are without all the books and smarts.âÂ
You shrug, glancing away from him.Â
He sighs, cupping your chin. âSweetheart, just because the academic success goes away doesnât take away from how wonderfully brilliant you are. You are so intelligent, and I, for one, am so excited to see who you become in this next stage of your life. I think Iâve already gotten glimpses of her and I-â He swallows, pushing some of your hair away from your face. âI love her so fucking much.âÂ
Your breath catches in your throat as you look back to him.Â
âI love you sweetheart.â He licks his lips nervously, eyes darting around your face as if trying to gauge your reaction. âI know this is probably bad timing but- but it sounds like you needed to hear it. And I know I donât fix it or make it go away, but- Iâm here.â A new wave of tears hits you and Jake pulls you back to his chest. âI know Iâm not high school or prom or Stanford, but I-âÂ
âJake, shut up.â You say, wiping at your eyes as you try to push the tears back. He snaps his mouth shut, falling silent, even as he hand falls to your waist to rub circles into your side. âI love you. So much, you have no idea.âÂ
He smiles. âGood to know.âÂ
You groan, wiping at your eyes again. âGod, I ruined our date. Iâm sorry.âÂ
âSweetheart, no.â He says firmly, scooting back. âIâm glad you felt like you could talk to me about this. I get that itâs probably hard to voice and Iâm happy to know youâre comfortable talking about these things with me.âÂ
You sniff, giving him a half-shrug. âStill-â
âNo. None of that. Câmere.â He says, pulling you to his chest and then laying down on the blankets. âI love you, darling.âÂ
âI love you too.â You whisper back, nuzzling closer into him as he runs his fingers through your hair. You sit there for a while, the sun going from red hues to a dusky purple.Â
âI have a question.â He asks.
âGo for it.âÂ
âWhy did Reuben make that comment about not wanting to know my dick size?âÂ
You groan.Â
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I'd Better Ask Emily
Request from anon: Hear me outđ
Spencer Reid x daughter!reader where the reader is a lesbian but is to scared to tell Spencer and Spencer someone find out by accidentally reading her diary or something?
Spencer Reid x daughter!reader
Summary: When Spencer goes looking for your school notebook and accidentally reads your diary instead he goes to the BAU bisexual badass for help.
A/N: I really wanted to do this justice so there's angst and fluff and bisexual Emily Prentiss because she had more chemistry with women than any male love interest. Iâm also a sucker for Reid and Prentiss friendship so there is a good chunk of it in here.
CW: reader is gay, Emily is bi, letâs be honest everyone on the team is a little fruity, suggestions that Emily wasnât supported, coming out of the closet, reader goes to social justice march.
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âAnd my math homework is on the table for you to check over!â It was a Friday morning and you were in a rush to get out the door. There was a social justice march beginning at the national mall in half an hour and your AP government teacher had convinced the principal to cancel classes so every student could participate. Plus you were getting extra credit.
âWhat about your reading summaries?â Your dad asked you. Spencer always proof-read your graded assignments, per your request. It helped to have his genius input, though sometimes you wondered if he went easy on you. Since you were a child, youâd never made a craft or drew a picture or wrote something that your dad didnât love.
âIn my notebook on my desk,â you said hastily. âBye, love you!â
âLove you too. Donât get-â The door slammed shut. Spencer sighed. âArrested.â
He made his way to your room. For the most part you were tidy, but your desk was a mess. Colored pens and highlighters, loose leaf paper with to-do lists, a stack of books that was falling over onto the jumbled surface. Spencer began to sift through the clutter, fixing the stack of books, putting your writing utensils in a pile, looking around for your notebook- but of course you hadnât clarified which notebook. By the time he was done sorting through the mess there were five of them total. He began to read through them, trying to identify which one you wrote your reading summaries in.
It was down to the last two. Spencer grabbed the next one in the stack and opened to a random page:
Iâve never been one for poetry, but I find myself wanting to write verses on how her eyes crinkle when she laughs and the way her hips sway as she walks.
That sounded English-y and promising. Spencer kept reading.
I imagine her skin is soft, like velveteen, and her hair like expensive silk. The smell of her perfume is that of vanilla and honey; it reminds me of summer.
The sound of her voice is like a sirenâs music. When she calls my name I canât help but get up from my spot in the cafeteria and-
Wait.
There werenât cafeterias in the book you were reading for school.
Spencer read the passage back again and again. He couldnât help himself- he flipped to the front page to start from the beginning and finished reading the entirety of your diary in two minutes. There were entries spanning over two years, but one thing stuck out to Spencer more than anything else:
You talked about girls.
You talked liking girls.
Of course the diary contained passages on other things, like the day you visited your dream school and a cute dog you had met at the park⊠but you were dreaming of cute girls. And you never told him.
Spencer closed the diary and put it on your desk. His only thought: Iâd better ask Emily about this.
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Emily added a small amount of creamer to her coffee and went to sit down at her desk, highly regretting that sheâd put her paperwork until the last minute again. The stack of files on her desk was beginning to rival Hotchâs, and that was not a competition she wanted to win. She sat down at her desk and opened up a file, pen in hand ready to go when-
âUm, hey Emily. Can I ask you something?â
If it was anyone but Spencer, she probably would have told them to ask her during the lunch break she wasnât going to take, but there was a hesitancy in his voice that made her stop. Emily knew she looked like she might bite someone if they bothered her- Morgan had already gotten a taste of her mood that morning- but Spencer never seemed to notice when her annoyance rose to the surface. If he was uncomfortable it was because he had his own problem. He needed her help.
And she needed his speed reading to get through all the files on her desk.
âMorning, Reid,â she said, her annoyance turning to concern. âIs everything okay?â
âWell, I- uh- I kind of saw something I shouldnât have this morning and I wanted to ask you about it.â He rubbed his neck nervously.
Emily tried to keep a straight face as she thought of every embarrassing teenage incident captured on video or sin-to-win photograph that could possibly be out there for Spencer to come across.
âWhat is it?â Emily asked, her voice wavering ever so slightly.
âYou like women romantically, right?â
Okay⊠that didnât rule out embarrassing adolescent mistakes or weekends in Atlantic City.
âYes.â
âBecause I accidentally read (Y/N)âs diary this morning and she writes a lot about being attracted to girls but she hasnât told me yet and-â
âYou read your daughterâs diary?!â Emily wasnât sure if she was more shocked that Reid would do such a thing, or relieved that her privacy was still intact. âReid-â
âIt was an accident!â he said. âI was looking for her reading summaries for school and she told me it was in the notebook on her desk and then I just saw itâŠâ
Emily hoped the devastation on Spencerâs face was for the right reasons.
âWhy wouldnât she tell me?â
Yeah⊠it was for the right reasons.
Emily sighed, leaning her elbows on her desk. âIâm sure that you demonstrate your open-mindedness at home-â
âI do.â
âAnd Iâm sure you tell (Y/N) that you love her no matter what-â
âAll the time.â
âBut that doesnât make it any less scary.â
Spencer didnât respond.
âComing out isnât easy. No matter how sure you are that you will be accepted thereâs always a little bit of doubt. Thereâs always the fear that itâll change the fundamental way a person loves you and that youâll never treat them the same.â Emily pushed away memories- memories filled with pain and relief and anxiety and frustration. The only thing that eased the thoughts were that she knew you wouldnât have to go through what she did; not with Spencer as your dad. âSheâs probably feeling really afraid, even if she doesnât show it.â
âHow can I make it better?â
Spencerâs genuine love for you- a love that every child should get to experience- made Emily feel as though she was falling apart and being put back together again all at the same time.
âJust let her know you love her,â Emily said. âA little goes a long way.â
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As you walked up to the door of the apartment you felt like you were floating on cloud nine; for two years you had been crushing on this girl you shared classes with. You knew she was openly and unapologetically gay- making it a point to post pictures of herself on social media with pride flags and holding hands with her now ex-girlfriend. They had broken up about eight months ago and ever since then youâd hope that she would notice you. For three months the two of you had hung out in group settings- getting to know one another with other people there as a buffer- but youâd gathered your courage today to ask her out on a date. And she said yes.
âSo I guess the march was good?â
You were so distracted from the events of the day you hadnât even noticed your dad was home.
âOh, yeah,â you said, startled. âIt was good. Really good. Lots of⊠social justice and things.â You cursed yourself for not having a better answer. You should have been good at faking feelings and answers by now, having been raised by a profiler. Even then, Spencer always saw right through you.
The high you were on came crashing down- your dad always saw right through you. There was no way you could go on a date, let alone your first date, without him catching on. Discomfort grappled with your stomach and anxiety bubbled in your chest. You tried to reach for the courage you had earlier, but it was gone.
âHey, is everything okay?â Your dad walked over and put a gentle hand on your arm.
âUh-â You swallowed. âYeah- yeah, Iâm fine.â
Your dad suddenly looked weary. It was the same look when he told you he was going to miss your tenth birthday because of a case, or when he got a call that your grandmotherâs medication wasnât working as well as they had hoped.
â(Y/N),â he started. âI love you. I really hope you know that. And Iâm glad you had a good day.â
âI love you too, dad,â you said, waiting for him to break bad news. But it didnât come. He just gave you his awkward tight-lipped smile before tucking your hair behind your ear and turning away.
There was something about the gesture and the words that called the courage back to you. Well, some of the courage.
âIâm going on a date,â you blurted. Spencer turned back to you. You tried to look for clues on his face or in his body language that would tell you what he was thinking or feeling, but you were too caught up in your own head to make sense of any of it. âI asked someone out on a date and they said yes.â
Your father smiled wide. âThatâs great, honey! Is it anyone I know?â
âOh- um-â Spencer didnât know many of your friends in person, but he knew them from what you told him, and what Garcia could dig up on them. âYeah. Theyâre in some of my classes.â
You waited for your dad to call you out on the vagueness of your language, but he didnât. He only continued to smile and encourage you to go on- is it a study date or a real date? Real date. Weekend or after school? Weekend. Are you taking the metro or do you want him to drive you? Actually it was a walkable distance.
The more you talked, the more excited you got. You were still careful to control your language, but the bravery was beginning to grow. You thought about taking a deep breath, but you didnât. Instead you just said, âAnd sheâs a girl.â
The world stilled for just a moment- your heart which was beating fast with excitement was now racing with panic. Your stomach was in knots and you felt your hands begin to shake. âIâm gay, dad.â
Spencer placed a gentle hand over yours, stopping it from quivering. The look in his eyes couldnât be described as happy, but it wasnât sad. No⊠it was peace. It was content.
âI know,â he said.
âYou- you do?â The weight began to lift off your shoulders, but it was replaced by a bit of shock.
âYes.â Spencer smiled. âNext time you should clarify which of your notebooks you wrote your assignments in.â Both of you chuckled, and you felt your body unwind as tension left your muscles. âAnd if itâs any consolation, I think your poetry is great.â
You smiled. âYou always love everything I write.â
Your dad pressed a kiss to your forehead. âBecause I love you.â
There was no more tension now- no more fear and no more doubt- just you and your dad being excited about your first big crush and your first big date. And it didnât matter that it was with a girl. Spencer would always love you no matter what.
"So," he said. "What are you going to wear?"
You thought about the clothes you had, but none of your outfits seemed just right.
"I think I might go shopping for something new," you said.
Spencer smiled. You had a shopping buddy- the same one since you were little.
"So I guess I'd better ask Emily."
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Prettier When You're Mine
Andy Barber x Reader
Author's Note: Slowly trying to finish a few of these ongoing stories.
Summary: One year into working with a young, bright and beautiful junior prosecutor, Y/n, who bears an almost uncanny resemblance to Andyâs late wife, Laurie, he finds himself developing feelings for her. Though, when she brushes off his advances, Andy proves that heâll do whatever it takes to recreate his family.
Disclaimer: 18+ This work contains dark themes, including stalking, dub-con, infidelity and manipulation. Read at your own discretion.
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Chapter 6
A trip to Andy's house to reclaim her lost ring causes tension between Y/n and James, and unveils some dark truths. Warning: dubious consent, SMUT/NSFW, coerced/forced sex. Please do not read if you are even remotely uncomfortable with any of these warnings.
Dumping the contents of her bag on the kitchen counter, Y/n hastily sifted through it. Compact, cell phone, a couple pens, a packet of tissues, wallet, loose change and no ring. âShit, shit, shit,â she swore under her breath, on the verge of tears. It hadnât been anywhere that she'd looked, not in her office, her coat pocket or even in the damn coffee cup sheâd checked on a whim. Calls to the doctorâs office and the bus station as well as a visit to the coffee shop and the place that sheâd bought lunch had also been completely unhelpful and Y/n was beginning to fear that the ring was gone for good.Â
But it couldnât be, not Jamesâ motherâs ring. Precious family heirloom and the first material sign that sheâd been accepted into their fold.Â
For the millionth time that day, Y/n found herself asking; why me? Was it because sheâd almost been willing to let things go too far with Andy? Because part of her wanted them to? Or was it because sheâd gotten herself in a self-pitying funk over something she was supposed to have made peace with?Â
Was it a sign that she simply didnât deserve a man like James?Â
Standing in the middle of their loftâs small kitchen, she didnât feel like she did. Because how could she be deserving of him and still spend rare, private moments fantasizing about her boss- who had proven himself to be just like any other jerk in a position of authority.Â
In retrospect, she should have seen the signs; his penchant for initiating physical contact, his apparent desire to know her on a personal level, his insistence that they work together. She couldnât believe she actually thought he just saw potential in her- no strings, no expectations.Â
âBabe?â Hearing the bathroom door open, Y/n worked quickly to clumsily repack everything into her handbag. She hadnât told James that sheâd lost the ring, and had spent the entire car ride home trying to hide her left hand.
âYeah?â Y/nâs head snapped up and her frenzied gazed noted James standing near the foot of their bed, wrapped only on a towel, with his skin still damp and his hair dripping. âWhat?â Then, hearing the haste in her tone, she cleared her throat and tried again, âI meanâŠ.whatâs up?âÂ
Jamesâ lips fell again and he stuttered before continuing, âI was just gonna ask if you wanted to get Chinese,â he padded barefoot across the wood floor, âBut I think I can ask you the same question.â
âIf I wanna get ChineseâŠ.?â
âWhatâs up?â He quoted with emphasis, âOr better way; are you okay?âÂ
Sneaking a cautionary glance at her hand, Y/n dropped it at her side and didnât dare make a move towards James. âYeah. Yeah, Iâm fine.âÂ
Not believing her for a second, James shook his head and made the final steps towards her, rounding the kitchen counter so he could lay his wet hands on her shoulders, âNo youâre not." He searched her teary eyes, worry pooling in his, âDid something happen at the doctor's?â
Sniffling as slow tears trickled down her cheeks, âIâve just had a really rough day,â her voice broke pitifully and James didnât miss another beat before pulling her against his chest. One hand cradled the back of her head while the other fell to the small off her back, and as she clung to his waist, she finally let a couple sobs break through.
"Do you want to tell me what happened?" He probed gently.Â
How was she supposed to tell him that she was irrationally insecure about them never being able to convince? Or that Andy had come onto her in a moment of vulnerability. Or that she'd lost his mother's ring.
"No," she whimpered, "Not yet. I just wannaâŠ.I just want to forget the whole thing." Forget that she'd always secretly want something she would never have. Forget that she'd lost a very expensive and precious symbol of their union.Â
Forget that she was still thinking about what would have happened if she'd been brave enough to give in when Andy had come on to her.Â
Forget that she was above betraying the man she loved.Â
âAlright,â James murmured, kissing the crown of her head, âWell we donât have to until youâre ready,â he added, lips still pressed to her hair. He was so good, so patient and she loved that.Â
Andy was so brooding and dangerous, she liked that.Â
Hugging James tighter, Y/n squeezed her eyes shut and tried to regulate her breaths; she didnât deserve to cry about it when sheâd come so close to acting on selfish impulse. They might have stayed like that for a while, if it were for her phone ringing loudly from where it sat on the counter. Sniffling loudly, Y/n pulled away and brushed her tears away with the sides of her fingers, âI shouldâŠ.â Trailing off, she moved towards the phone, sluming her shoulders when she saw Andyâs name on the screen, âIts my boss,â she reported sullenly.Â
Coming to stand behind her, James rested his hand on her shoulder, âJust let it go to voicemail.â
Y/n sighed, âIts not that easy.â
âYou donât owe him anything,â James reminded before letting go of a heavy breath and reluctantly adding, âBut if you feel like you need to then, I canât stop you.âÂ
As James retracted his hand and started walking away, Y/n looked at Andyâs name on the screen and frowned as she glanced back up at her fiancee, âDonât be mad, please.â
âNot mad,â he said, not looking at her as he tugged one of his drawers open, pulling out a pair of sweatpants, âJustâŠ.Iâm worried about you, okay? This guy keeps you at the office at these weird hours and then today you come home crying.â
âWhat happened today has nothing to do with, Andy,â she lied, âHeâŠhe tried to help-â
âSo you told him what was wrong but you didnât tell me?â James knitted his brows, stepping behind the bamboo privacy screen that they kept near their wardrobe to get changed.Â
By then her phone had stopped ringing and the screen had faded to black, âThatâs notâŠ.I didnât tell him. I was really vague about it-â
âYeah, well all I got was you had a rough day,â stepping out from behind the screen in low riding sweats and a t-shirt, James moved to hang his towel on a rack they kept next to the bathroom door.Â
âIâŠits complicated,â just then, her phone started ringing again, the urgency evident in the blaring tone, âI really have to take this,â Y/n snatched her phone off the counter and swiped the green icon. âHey, whatâs up?â Y/n answered cooly, defiantly matching eyes with James, whose gaze had hardened.Â
âI have something that I think belongs to you.â
Knitting her brows, Y/n stuttered, âWhat?â
âThree carats-â
âYou have it,â Y/n gasped; she must have lost it in the haste to vacate his office, everything had been so jumbled and messy, from her feelings at the time to the physical situation.Â
âYeah. Why donât you come by and get it?â
Turning away so her back would be to James, Y/n drew in what she hoped would be a calming breath, âYouâve had it all day and said nothing?â She hissed as quietly as possible.Â
âWell, letâs not get accusatory.â
âGod,â Y/n suspired, âAre you at the office?â
âOf course not,â Andy sounded amused by the whole situation, like he was baiting her, and it made Y/nâs blood boil. âYou should come get it, tonight. Wouldnât want James to think youâre trying to seem like an available woman.â
Exasperated, Y/n sighed, âYeah, well, I donât know where you live.â
âIâll send you the address now,â she heard the phone moving on his end of the line and then less than a minute later, her phone pinged with an incoming text. âSee you soon, sweetheart.â
There was that name again, that involuntary thrill up her spine.Â
Without another word, Y/n hung up and turned to James who was looking at her expectantly. âI have to go, some stuff came up late in discovery and its a lot so weâd have to start going through tonight to finish in time for Thursday.â
She wasnât sure if James believed her, but he did play along, âAlright, well you should take the car,â he suggested and she was grateful that he didnât offer to drive her.Â
âYeah,â he nodded, approaching her once more, that time grabbing the keys off the coffee table and pressing it into her hands from over the counter, âGo do your job, weâll talk when you get back.â
Leaning over, Y/n smiled tightly and reached to cup his cheek with her free hand, âI love you,â she kissed him briefly, hoping to chisel away some of the lingering tension.Â
James hummed softly, âYeah, I know, I love you too.â When they broke, she grabbed her bag and coat quickly and hurried out of the apartment, letting a slow breath vacate her lips when she pulled the door shut behind herself; caught between being excited to see Andy again and combating worry over what would happen when they did.Â
Stuffing the hand with the car keys into the pocket of her camel coat, Y/n inhaled deeply before bringing her fist to Andyâs front door. His house was nice, it was one of the first thoughts she had upon pulling up at the curb; it was kind of like the one she had in her mind when she thought about the perfect place to live; big enough to comfortably raise a family with a gable roof and big windows that made you wonder what was happening inside. It looked like something out of HGTV or one of those home and garden magazines- sweet and picturesque.Â
âYou came,â Andy determined when the door swung open. He was still half dressed from work; sleeves of his navy shirt rolled up to his elbows, black and blue tie from earlier gone and top two buttons of his shirt open.Â
âYeah,â she squared her shoulders and straightened her back, âWell I want my ring.â
Andy smirked and Y/n ground her teeth, âIts upstairs, come in and Iâll get it for you.â Y/n couldnât tell if it was an invitation or condition but Andy didnât leave room for explanation, instead leaving her to follow him as he turned and delved further into the house.Â
The hall light was off, making the glow emanating from the kitchen up ahead to seem dim and ominous. Their shadows seemed bigger and in even in the low lighting Y/n could make out some of the framed photographs on the wall and she slowed down to see some of them. She recognized the people, a woman and a teenage boy, from the one personal picture that Andy had in his office- a small, family portrait taken on what she'd assumed was a taken at a beachy resort, contained in a shiny gold frame.Â
Mexico, he'd explained when he'd caught her staring once. The last vacation they'd taken before Laurie and Jacob's accident.Â
It must have been so hard for him to lose everything like that, especially since he had no other family. Worst yet, he was still a social pariah; the things she'd heard around the office were brutal and they seemed to follow him around like a dark cloud. It was why she'd tried to befriend him when they'd started working together, no one should be that alone.Â
But Andy had crossed a line.
Though, she hadnât been very good at drawing one in the first place. Maybe she should have told him about James sooner. Maybe she didnât want to.Â
When they finally broke off into the kitchen, Y/n stopped abruptly and folded her arms defensively. Andy didnât head upstairs immediately, instead he poured two glasses from an open bottle on the dark veined marble counter. âI think youâll like this one,â he offered her the glass.Â
Rolling her eyes, Y/n kept her arms folded, âI want my ring.â
âHave a drink,â Andy inched closer, causing Y/n to have to tip her chin to match his gaze. Swallowing a hitch breath, she tried to not react too much. He was so much bigger than her though, it was hard to keep the thrill contained. If the past couple months had taught her anything it was that there was a darkness that resided within Andy- behind the sad blue eyes and the strong silence was something akin to a tornado strong enough to rip an entire country to shreds.Â
Dangerous and violent.Â
And she liked it.Â
âI donât want one,â she countered definitely, his proximity chipping her resolve away.Â
âI wasnât asking, sweetheart,â Andy offered her the glass again, âTake it.â Reluctantly, Y/n relieved him of the glass but hesitated on taking a sip. Something might stir inside her when he was around, but it wasnât trust. âRelax, I wouldnât do that to you,â Y/n glared and in response, Andy downed his entire glass in one go, stepping away to fill it up again- that time a little more than the last. âSee?â He took a generous swing, âIâm not that kind of guy,â he got close again, that time offering his glass for a toast, âTo good men.âÂ
Sheâd called him a good man, that had aged pretty badly.Â
âTo good men,â she retorted sarcastically, taking a large sip of the wine. He was right, she did like it.Â
âDo you like it?â Y/n could have been wrong, maybe she had a little too much faith in him, but his question seemed genuine. Like he was eager to know if heâd made the right pick.Â
âIts alright,â the lie must not have been a very good one because Andy smirked. âI want my-â
âI know, finish your drink,â he gritted. Then, after polishing off his second glass at an alarming rate, Andy wiped off his mouth with the back of his hand. With just the slightest stumble in his usually confident gait, he set the empty glass down with a thump and started walking towards the stairs, âIâll go get youâre fucking ring,â he mummbled, leaving her downstairs without another word.Â
Not thinking much of it, she took periodic sips of the wine. It was good, and judging by the label, it must have cost upwards of a couple hundred dollars, but it wasn't particularly strong- definitely not strong enough to get a man of his size drunk after two glasses.
That was when she put it together; the slightest scent of liquor on his breath when heâd answered the door, his outwardly aggressive behavior, the way heâd swallowed the wine like it was water- Andy was already drunk. Heâd probably been that way since heâd called earlier.Â
And he was obviously playing some kind of game with her. Laying a trap. Luring her to danger.Â
On heavy steps, Andy returned downstairs about five minutes later, prowling towards her and prompting Y/n to absently inch backwards into the wall. âYour ring,â he held it up with a little, wicked grin. She put her hand out for it, but Andy took it instead, turning it over so her palm would be face down. Their chests were inches apart at that point and he kept his darkened eyes matched with hers, presumably in a defiant act above all else, as he slid the ring back onto her finger. âAll better?â
Clenching her jaw, Y/n tried to pull her hand away but Andy tightened his grip and lunged; within the second his lips were on hers. Reacting instinctively, she kissed him back- it was completely impulsive, submission to a primal desire. She could taste the mixture of liquors on his lips and his kiss could have been as inebriating as the poison heâd poured down his throat. She might have gotten drunk on him- she would have- But the minute she caught herself, deserting carnal yearning in favor of what was true and right, Y/n tried to use her free hand to shove him away.Â
But he wouldnât budge.Â
Andy was solid, immovable. Like a gray stone wall or a bear boxing in its prey.Â
She could feel a bulge pressing into her lower stomach, making it hard to focus
âStop,â she fought against his lips, a frustrated noise escaping her lips when grabbed the wrist of the hand she as using to push against his chest. âYou need to stop,â Y/n struggled against his hungry lips. It doesn't matter that she actually doesn't want him to, that she'd traded hours of sleep for fantasies that looked just like that. A moment where they'd be alone and he'd do things to her that James might be scared to.
But none of that mattered- they were fantasies and she was engaged.
When she attempted to use her legs against him- knee him in the groin or kick him in the shin- Andy reacted swiftly positioned both his legs between hers, consequently pressing his crotch against her.
âNo,â he easily positioned her hands over her head, closing his fingers in around her wrists and pinning them to the wall above her head, rendering her defenseless. âYou want this,â Andy snarled into her mouth, hooking his now free hand around the back of her thigh, guiding it harshly to his hip. âSay you want this.â
Wiggling against frantically, Y/n tossed her head back, hitting it on the wall, as she tried to tear her lips from his. âNo, get off me,â she protested, voice rising above a harsh warning.Â
Deserting her thigh, Andy brought his hand to her neck and held her like that for a moment, âWeâre doing this,â he managed through gritted teeth, âI know you, you want this. All those nights we spent together, just the two of us. Everytime I asked you if you wanted to go home, what did you say?â He was squeezing her throat, applying enough pressure to limit airflow.Â
âNâno,â it was getting harder to breathe and speak, and her vision was dancing but something in the back of Y/nâs mind doubted that he genuinely wanted to hurt her, âI-I saidâŠ.no.â
âWhy didnât you tell me youâre engaged?â He pulled her forward a little, only to slam her head into the wall again, though not hard enough to inflict any more damage than a sore spot.Â
âExactly,â Andy hissed, âYou said no. We went on a fucking date and you didnât tell me you were engaged.â
Hot tears were racing down her paling cheeks and Andy was beginning to seem more and more like a blur. âBecause,â she gasped, desperately trying to suck in some air, âIâŠâ A hitched sob punctuated her words, âIâŠ.I didnât want you to know.â
She really didnât. It was wrong, misguided and shamefully selfish, but at some point, Y/n had thought that bringing up her engagement would ruin the closeness that she so enjoyed with Andy. She enjoyed being the only person he opened up to, in a way, it felt like he was hers and as long as she kept her relationship with James hidden, nothing would change.
âExactly,â he growled, seeking her lips once more, âYouâve wanted me exactly the way Iâve wanted you since that first case.â
A broken sob fell into his mouth and Y/n occasionally found herself punctuating her failing resistance with sloppily returned kisses. âI donât wanna do this,â she cried weakly, breaths short and throat dry, âYou donât wanna do this,â halfheartedly, she kissed the corner of his lips and tried to turn her face away again, âYouâre drunk, this isnât you.âÂ
Pressing his forehead to hers, Andy chuckled and his grip on her neck loosened so he could flatten his hand on the top of her chest. She could feel the heat of his palm through the fabric of her dress as he dragged it slowly down her body, and as she got a clearer sense of where his hand was going, she was breathing quickly. âI promise you, sweetheartâ he rasped, fingers creeping under the hem of her skirt, which had ridden up her thigh, âThis is exactly me.âÂ
Pushing aside the crotch off her underwear, Andy slipped two of his digits into her folds and started pumping slowly. âSee?â He taunted in response to the slickness that had gathered there shortly after sheâd felt his member pressing into her stomach. Try as she might, it was impossible to deny the effect that Andy had on her and she hated that she did want him- a man like him, who was proving to be worse than the rumors. She hated that the only reason she was resisting was because she didn't want to be branded as a cheater.Â
âYou want this,â he coaxed, curling his fingers and extracting a sharp inhale, âAdmit it sweetheart.â
Not because she loved her fiance- she did- but she didnât want that love questioned. Not by Andy, not by herself.Â
But love and sex, they were different. She could love James and want Andy. It wasn't wrong, it was just human.
His beard grazed her skin, and the sensation coupled with her mounting arousal made a shiver run up her spine. âPleaseâŠ.â Her plea was teary, and Y/n wasnât sure what she was begging for; for him to spare her the consequence of a nasty truth or give her more.Â
Biting down on her lower lip, Y/n hoped a little pain and blood on her tongue was enough to keep her mouth shut and ward off the obvious truth, but when his lips sought her jaw and he added another finger to his quickening ministrations while pressing his thumb to her nub, she succumbed. âYesâŠâ She heaved, sobbing, âI want you,â she cried, head bending forward and her face consequently nuzzling the side of his.
She was only human, after all.
Finally satisfied, Andy let Y/nâs wrists go and she immediately loomed her arms around his neck, holding him to her. Meanwhile, he removed his fingers from her arousal and started pushing her underwear down, letting it pool at her feet. Without thinking, she kicked it away and when Andy curled his fingers under her ass after sparing a bare moment to undo his pants and free his cock, she let him lift her off the ground and wrapped her legs around his waist.Â
But when Andy slid into her with unfettered ease, girth stretching her to the point of a delicious burn, an erotic moan tumbled off her lips and her fingers curled in his nape. Immediately, he struck up a pace of pronounced but aggressive thrusts, giving off the sense that he was barely containing himself.Â
She still felt guilty. Y/n still knew it was wrong.Â
âFuckâŠ.LaurieâŠ.â In the heat of the moment, her name dripped off his lips, and somewhere in the back of her mind, she realized that it wasnât even about her;
'Because you remind me of someone. Someone special.'
'Keep the length, try a couple shades darker'- just like the woman in the photographs.Â
âIâve been thinking about this since we met,â he admitted, liquor stained breath hot on her face and distracting her, âGod, you feel so fucking good, you take me so well.âÂ
He felt good too.Â
Steadying her at the hip with one hand, Andy used the other to free her blouse from the waist of her skirt. Delving under the hem, he groped her breast through her bra, kneading harshly. As the rhythmic roll of his hips grew rabid, Y/n found herself demanding, âHarder,â and, âFaster,â with the occasional obscene praise peppered in between.Â
Reveling in the feel of his bulging veins rubbing her sensitive walls with each purposeful, aggressive thrust and the way the curve of his member seemed to probe at the lowest part of her stomach, Y/n sunk her nails into his back, clawing at Andy through his shirt. Breathy moans and low grunts bounced off the walls as stifling heat cocooned them, hardly remedied by the air conditioning.Â
With each jerk, her back hit the wall with an audible thump and as Y/n felt herself inching closer to insurmountable gratification she tightened her legs around his hips, driving the back of her feet into his thighs. âAndy,â she hitched headily when his lips met hers again, not really in a kiss but a stretch of shared breaths. âFuck,â Y/n heaved into his mouth, âYou feel soâŠ.â
Grinning wickedly, he tried to meet her lust blown eyes but their faces were so close that it was hard. âFeel soâŠ.?â
âSo-uh,â a small fraction of her was readily able to recognize that there was no coming back from the words she wanted to say. Her silly admission that he was the best sheâd ever had. Y/nâs mind though had fallen into some kind of sex-crazed limbo, caught between what was inherently right and what felt incomparably good.Â
âTell me,â he demanded, kissing her roughly, biting her lips before pulling away a few centimeters.
âGood,â at the back of his head, she grabbed a fistful of his hair, causing him to bite her lips when they kissed again, âSo fucking good.â Pressing her face close to his, the rise and fall of her chest became erratic and her heart was galloping in behind her ribs and she became acutely aware of just how close she was to toppling over with gratification.Â
âI wanna feel you,â he encouraged, quickening his pace a little, fingers digging into her waist.Â
The fabric of his shirt was crumpled in her grip and eager for release, Y/n struggled to buck her hips towards his. With a gasp, Y/nâs legs stiffened and her head lolled back against the wall. Unrestrained ecstasy started in a burst at her center, spreading like an untamed wildefire to electrify her every nerve. Clenching around him, her frame quaked and she drenched their thighs in silky moisture. She didnât think it had ever felt like that; like watching fireworks on an LSD high or speeding on the freeway after a night of tequila shots. There was a rush sheâd never experienced before, one she fittingly thought could only ever be achieved with drugs. âAndy! Fuck!â Her throat hurt and her words were loud and a little hoarse.
Andyâs pace didnât falter through the crest of her euphoria, though just as her high settled, leaving behind a pleasurable sensitivity and colours on her vision, his hips sputtered. She should have pushed him away, begged him to pull out, but much too consumed by the threads of pleasure still running through her veins, Y/n clung to him as generous ribbons of his hot product shot into her. By then, heâd shifted his feet slightly and moved both his hands to hold onto her hip, as if he were keeping her in place so sheâd take every drop of him.Â
Even after it was over, Andy remained sheathed between her sore walls for a handful of slow moments. They kissed, lips taking on a leisured pace that time and Y/n leaned forward so heâd be supporting most of her weight. She could have sworn that every sensation in that moment was raw and amplified; the roughness of his beard scratching the area around her lips and tickling her palms, the fullness of him still settled inside her, the heat of his touch seeping through her blouse and the rhythm of his heart matching hers.Â
Suddenly, she couldnât remember if her heartbeat had ever matched Jamesâ.Â
She hated that she was comparing them. He was a good man and Andy wasâŠ..Andy.Â
Gingerly, he pulled out, and simultaneously, she untangled her legs from around him, knees almost buckling as her feet finally hit the ground. Shutting her eyes as she slumped against the wall, Y/n could hear the soft clink of his belt as Andy tugged his pants up, and while she made no effort to pull her skirt down, she could feel the fabric slowly creeping back to his proper place.Â
When he lazily leaned forward, braced by one arm pressed to the wall diagonally over her head, Andy reached out to ghost the outline of her face with his rough fingertips, thumb tracing tear stains and then the shape of her kiss-swollen lips. His breathing was just as heavy as hers and it was only after his touch hand trailed down her neck and had reached the valley of her cleavage did he disturbed the heavy silence. âCan I tell you something?â His hoarse whisper elicited a pitiful whimper and shiver from her. His large hand skimmed the contour of her curves and settled to a firm grip on her waist, âYouâre prettier when youâre mine.â
Mine.Â
His.Â
A hitched sob escaped her throat just as her guilt doubled; how could she? That time, when she pushed him away, Andy complied. There was so much she could say to him; curse him, lie and say she hated him, blame him but it would really only be words born from her own guilt and after heâd spent the past forty minutes or so ruining her, Y/n didnât think he deserved the satisfaction.Â
Sucking in a big breath to contain her shameful tears, she shuffled away from Andy, who didnât even put a toe towards trying to stop her; she supposed it was because heâd already gotten what he wanted. Blindly, Y/n stumbled towards the door, letting herself out without a word and not bothering to shut it as she left. Approaching the car parked on the curb, Y/n rummaged through her coat for the keys and after she got them out, she shrugged off the coat using it to lap up some of the moisture on her face and neck before getting in.Â
Immediately after getting the engine going, Y/n put down the windows and turned on the air conditioning, hoping the inescapable chill would do something for her appearance. Then reaching into the glove compartment, she hastily extracted a wad of napkins and did her best to clean up before discarding them on the passenger seat and grabbing up her phone.Â
âIâm sorry about what happened earlier.â
âDrive safe. Text me when you get there.â
âY/n?âÂ
âI get it if youâre still upset but please let me know that youâre safe.â
âOrdered your favorite for dinner. Waiting till you get here. I love you.â
âShit!â Y/n banged the wheel with the side of her fist and hot tears rained from blurry eyes. Sheâd been at Andyâs for just over an hour. Trying to slow the erratic rise and fall of her chest and quiet her sobs, she quickly typed a response, telling James that sheâd forgotten her phone in the car and would be home within the next half hour.Â
Then, as she wiped her eyes and pulled off, hoping she could bring herself to face James by the time she got home.Â
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Sinned Awakening Reimagined: Pt. 5 đ©ž
An AU Elvis fic
(Vampire!Elvis/ Vampire Austin! Elvis x reader)
Fandom: Elvis - Elvis (2022)
Prompt: Elvis is fighting his need for blood, making him weaker by the day. Then you walk into his life, making you the perfect target for his next meal. But an unknown force is making this more difficult than he expected... [Elvis' Perspective]
TW: Cussing, mentions of blood, angst, thigh riding
Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 4.9k
A/N: Hello everyone! Hope you enjoy this part as much as I do! I had this scenario in my head for a while and didn't know where to place it and finally made it work. I'm sure you all have noticed... but Elvis has very long legs... and his thighs are quite nice and strong... So my mind went places when I was watching TTWII a while ago and yea the rest of my thoughts are in heređ«Ł Anyway, please enjoy this next part!
If you'd like to start from the beginning, start here or Ao3! Hope you enjoy and message and comment what you think.
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You were stubborn, he should have known. You wouldnât come over without a fight. He thought it would be better if he didnât surprise you and arrived at your apartment unannounced. But he was starting to think he had to do just that.Â
He needed to get more blood for himself because he was too scared of losing control around you again. It wasnât as fulfilling as he wanted it to be but it did make his thirst at least tolerable.Â
He still needed answers about why you couldnât be compelled. Or why he was so attracted to your blood⊠or more importantly, why he was so attracted to you.Â
As he waited to hear if you would come over, he decided to try to look for answers in the books he had thrown around the penthouse. There were so many vampire legends to sift through. These books were written by people who experienced these occurrences firsthand and decided to write them down to help other vampires.Â
Elvis turned to these books a lot throughout the years. He knew nothing of what it meant to be a vampire. The man who bit him, Raphael, basically left him for dead and didnât tell him what he did to him. He just woke up with an intense desire for food but soon discovered it wasnât food he craved; it was blood.Â
He decided to start from the beginning, from the first vampire that ever existed. It was in Greece and the man was cursed to never see his love, only at night. Artemis gave him great hunting abilities, strength of the gods, and sharp fangs to drain the blood from beasts to write letters to his love. He was forbidden to touch her or even kiss her. While she lay there dying, he begged Artemis to make his love immortal. She agreed and let him touch her to drink her blood. This would kill her mortal body but from then on, her blood mixed with his would create immortal life for anyone who drank it.Â
The story was incredible to him and made him envy that kind of love. He wanted someone to selflessly love and care for. He had read that story many times before but he just always thought it was too long ago for it to happen to him. He had met other vampires that were in love with each other but they were both turned when they met each other. They never knew each other when one of them was human. Thatâs what makes him so frustrated with this whole situation.Â
He had to constantly remind himself you were human. It would never work. You were too fragile, too incompatible with him. Well, he knew that was a blatant lie. You two had enough attraction to make the world spin. You being human just wouldnât work in the long term. Heâd end up hurting you or worse. He was too fearful that his need for blood would end up making you despise him. The only way it would work was if he turned you.Â
No! Youâve gone absolutely mad! He scolds himself.Â
He had never had such a selfish thought. He couldnât turn you just because he wanted you with him forever. That would be the worst thing heâs ever done. Heâs given the choice to anyone heâs bit and made them seriously think about what it meant to be a vampire. He was never given that opportunity to contemplate what his decision might do to his life.
He felt a bit cheated that way. He was delirious and weak when Raphael bit him. He just remembers the excruciating pain of when his fangs tore into his skin. It felt like branding irons getting plunged into his skin. His bite was vicious and cruel. He had no mercy for Elvis and took his mortal life away without giving him a chance to think about what he was giving up.Â
He swore to never be like that. He wanted to give the person a chance to think about this life-altering decision. Especially for you. You needed to make the decision if you wanted to be with Elvis like that. He wasnât sure if your feelings were the same as he felt for you. Thatâs why he needed to talk to you. He needed to see if you felt the same or if he was too disillusioned by this all and needed to come to terms that you could never be his.Â
He continues to sift through book after book, not getting a clear understanding of what he is going through. He read for hours and was about to give up for the night until he picked up the last book in the pile, making him stop in his tracks.Â
There were a few instances where a vampire couldnât compel a human. It was almost unheard of but there were instances of a vampire being so attracted to a human, they were all they could think about. Their blood almost called to them, luring them in to feed off of them. Elvis knew exactly how that felt. Thatâs how it was to be in the same room as you. This overwhelming need to be next to you or to be feeding on you.Â
The text further explains that it was difficult to feed though, these kinds of vampires couldnât compel them to feel any pain or have them forget about the bite. In this particular case, the vampire went to seek help from the oldest vampire he knew in the area. He asked how it could be possible to not compel a human and to be so astronomically attracted to them.Â
The older vampire was shocked but understood what was happening. It was fate. Like the very first vampires on this earth, they were meant for each other. Bound to each other by the gods and by their blood. A soulmate. A chosen.Â
Elvis drops the book on the table. No, it canât be, this is a legend. These kinds of things donât happen anymore. He had never met anyone like this. Granted, he had only been like this for little over a decade but still, no one uttered a word of something like this. The chances of this happening to him felt like lightning striking in a bottle.Â
He had to breathe and think about this rationally. He needed to see you as soon as possible. He needed to know if these feelings he had were under false pretenses or if it was something more. Was it actually fate? Did something like that actually exist? Were you made for him and only him?Â
He glances at the clock and sees it well past 2 am. This couldnât wait though, he needed to see you now. He quickly gets dressed and rushes to the ground floor of the hotel. He gets in his car and speeds to your apartment. It would have been quicker if he ran but he thought this would be easier to get you in and back to the hotel.Â
He pulls up to your building and turns the ignition off. It was very quiet over here compared to the liveliness of the strip. He walks up the stairs and straightens out his jacket, he wants to look as good as possible for you.Â
He listens for you, seeing if youâre alone or not. You were and he breathed a sigh of relief. You were still up, sifting through a book it sounded like. At least you wouldnât be woken up in the middle of the night by his visit. He grew nervous but he had to do this, he had to talk to you.Â
He knocks on the door gently, not too harshly to frighten you. He hears your heart beat a bit faster, intrigued by who might be at the door at this time of night. He backs up from the door, wanting to give you as much space as possible to not startle you.Â
You slowly walk to the door and the sound of the door unlocking makes Elvis hold his breath. He was afraid youâd slam the door in his face once you saw him. The door cracks open and you peek through the crack to see who it might be. Your heart stuttered when you saw him. You stood there frozen and looked at him shocked.Â
âHi honey,â he says low. The sound of his voice makes your heart beat louder, which he loved.Â
You open the door a bit wider, âWhat are you doing here? How did you know where I lived?â You tremble.Â
âI needed to talk to you, thatâs all,â he explains, taking a few steps forward.
âI know, your men tried to get me to come with them to see you. You must have been crazy if you thought I was going to get in a car full of vampires,â you hiss.
He winces at your accusation. Yeah, that probably wasnât the best idea.
âWell, Iâm here now. I just want to talk to you,â he sighs. âMay I come in?â He places his hand on the door frame, stretching his arm above his head.Â
You huff, âDo you have to be invited in, is that how it works?â You say as you roll your eyes. You were testing his patience. He didnât want to play any more games with you. He was here to talk to you and figure things out. His hand squeezes frustratedly on the doorframe, making the wood make a cracking sound. You freeze and look up at him nervously. He presses his lips together and takes a deep breath to recollect himself.
âNo, I donât need to be invited in. But Iâm trying to be better and not be so forceful with youâ He growls. You shake your head at him and your eyes lower.
âYou can come in,â you say softly, as you open the door wider for him.Â
He steps inside and he still smells that other manâs scent in here. He wasnât here that long ago and his scent was stronger than last time he was in the apartment. It pissed him off but he had to hide the fact he was in here before and act like it didnât bother him.
He stands in the living room, inspecting you as the door closes behind you and you turn the lock. You turn to face him and your entire body language is closed off. He could tell you were still nervous but you tried to fight it. You look at him a bit closer, furrowing your brow when you do.
âWhatâs wrong with you?â You ask bluntly.
Heâs taken back, not understanding your harsh tone.
âWhat are you talking about?â He says gently.
âYou look⊠sick⊠your eyes are so dark and there are hallows in your face,â you say a bit wary.
He hardly ever bothered to look at himself in the mirror. He hated his reflection for years now. He always knew heâd see that monster staring back at him. And the last week without you, he knew heâd look the same. A sad, weak, pathetic excuse for a man.
âYeah, well⊠I havenât been feeding soâŠâ he saysÂ
âOh.â
âI wanted to make sure youâre okay. I saw you at my show,â he says slyly.Â
Your cheeks flush and you look away from him.Â
âYes I was there with a friend that wanted to see you,â you say flatly.Â
âAnd you didnât want to see me?â He asks smartly.Â
âNo, not really. Iâve seen you enough times to last me a lifetime,â you snap.
Thumpthumpthump thumpâŠ
You were lying right to his face. He couldnât help but find it amusing.Â
âYouâre lying,â he growls.Â
You stand there frozen, knowing heâs right.Â
âI-I donât know-,â you stammer.
âI hear your heart pounding away when youâre fucking lying to me,â he seethes.
You stay quiet, nerves shooting through you.Â
âYou just make me nervous. I canât think straight,â you mumble.
âYou have no idea how much worse it is for me just being around you,â he hisses.
A silence forms between you two and he tries his best to calm himself down. He didnât want to scare you off again. He had to reign in on his emotions the best he could.
âWho lives here?â he asks you.
âHow can you?âŠâ you ask confused.
âIt reeks like a man in here,â he says through his teeth.
You straighten out your posture and walk closer to him, crossing your arms when you step in front of him.
âMy fiancĂ© lives here, why do you care?â You snap.
âBecause I donât like you being with another man,â he snaps. He freezes when he registers the words that just came out of his lips. It was so uncalled for. He didnât expect himself to say something like that out loud.
âYou donât have the right to say such things to me!â You yell, âYou donât know anything about me!â
âI donât care, I donât like it. He canât take care of you the way I can,â he fumed.
Your face was in shock, you couldnât believe the things he was saying to you. He couldnât either in all honesty. He was telling the truth though. The very idea of another man near you made his blood boil. You remain quiet, looking at him with disgust.
He knew it was pointless, but he needed to try anyway. He wanted to try to compel you. Maybe his strength was strong enough to make you forget everything thatâs happened.Â
âSit down,â he commands, pointing to the couch behind you.
You look at him with shock, his blunt tone clearly upsetting you.Â
âWhat? Why are you talking to me like this!?â You rasped.
Elvis audibly grunts with frustration, hating that he canât do the one simple thing of compelling a human to forget about his existence. He was so weak for your blood that he couldnât function properly!
âCan you please not be difficult and just listen to me!â He snarls.
âNo, I donât have to do anything for you!â You hiss.Â
That was it for him. He needed to put you in your place.
His patience ran dry and was tired of your attitude.
He picks you up and quickly sits you down on the couch. You gasped at how quickly he moved and how tight his hands were on your arms. Your eyes bored into him and you tried to wiggle out of his grasp to no avail.
âThatâs enough,â he growls. âI need you to listen and answer me,â he scowled.
You take a deep breath before you speak and stare into his dark eyes. He petrified you but he sucked you in regardless of what your instincts told you to do when you were around him.
Run as fast as you can...
You donât though, something was keeping you there with him.
âI need your honest answer. You know I can tell when youâre lying,â he says as he glances at your chest. You hold your breath and nod your head at him. The grip he has on your arms doesnât let up and your skin melts into his so effortlessly. He needed to focus and get back to why he was here in the first place.
âWhat did you want to know?â You ask low.
âDo you have feelings for me? Are you, attracted to me even if your instincts tell you not to be?â He asks you.
Your face looks a bit shocked and you canât form the proper words right away.
âNo,â you say quietly.
THUMPTHUMP THUMP THUMPâŠ
He growls when he hears that loud, tempting sound come from your chest.
âI told you not to lie,â he says through his teeth.
You take a shaky breath when you hear his tone and see heâs not playing games. You still try to wiggle out of his grasp but he doesnât let you move. Your eyes well with tears and you struggle to breathe normally.
âYes⊠yes, I do feel something for you. I donât know what it is but I-, I canât help it. Everything tells me to run when Iâm near you but youâre like a magnet. You pull me in every single time without even trying. It's so frustrating! You are probably the most lethal creature on this earth and there is nothing I want more than to be near you. Itâs stupid and reckless of me,â you stammer. Â
He stares at you intensely, feeling the same way for you.
âAnd I canât fathom what I did with you. I canât believe I begged for you! Youâre a vampire, a soulless creature and Iâm a human! We should have never done that,â you scold.
âBut we did and it only made us more inseparable,â he says low.
âI canât be with you Elvis, it would never work. We're not meant to be together,â you tell him.
He hated that prospect. Living away from you has been torturous enough this week. He needed to be near you, protecting you everywhere you go. He had to be the one to take care of you in every way you needed.
âIt can, I think it can,â he tells you.
âHow?! You have said it yourself you can barely be around me without wanting to suck me dry,â you hiss.
âI want you,â he growls.
âNo, you donât! You want my blood and thatâs it!â You scream at him.
He hit his boiling point again, he couldnât hold back any of his feelings. He stands up and turns away from you.
âYou have no idea what itâs like for me,â he snarls, slowly turning back around to face you.
âSince you have walked through my door, you have been the only thing on my mind. I canât go on with my day without feeling empty inside and the only thing I want to make me whole is you,â he confesses.
You sit there stunned, not expecting him to be so blunt about his feelings. He can tell youâre trying to make sense of all of this but you canât. Youâre from different worlds and donât belong in each otherâs.
âYou canât-⊠you canât have me, Elvis. I canât be in your world, you donât need me,â you say insecurely.
âYou can if you want to be. Thatâs all I want,â he admits.
âAnd until you get bored of me and find someone else, youâll see that this was all for nothing,â you say frustratedly.
He walks back to the couch and sits next to you, legs touching, making you both sigh heavily.
âI will never get bored of you. Thatâs the thing, there is no one like you,â he says as he eyes you up and down. He grabs ahold of your hand and your whole body freezes at his touch. He rubs small circles on the back of your hand and he can feel you melt by the way heâs touching you.
âHoney, you have no idea how I crave you. In every single facet. There has not been a day that has gone by where I don't miss your very presence. I miss the sound of you breathing and the way you say my name,â he breathed.
âElvis please,â you say shaking your head, your cheeks burning.
âMhmm, like that⊠thatâs just music to my ears,â he hums. âI crave other things too⊠like you naked in my bed,â he coos. He watches you bite the inside of your cheek, trying not to show him how much you liked that too.
Your heartbeat rose and fluttered away as he spoke.
âIâve missed having you there. The way we fit together perfectly⊠thatâs just something I canât get out of my mind,â he sighs, leaning a bit closer to you. You take a shaky breath and canât look at him. If you looked at him you might just be done for. He puts his hand through your hair and rests at the base of your neck, making you look back at him. "I can't get enough of you. Just the sound of you moaning when I'm deep inside you makes me hard if I think about it for too long," he says low, leaning in to place a kiss on your neck. You gasp and squeeze onto his thigh.
âYou miss me too, donât you?â He says softly, licking his lips when he looks back at you.
You looked at him drunk, fighting everything he was saying but he could see right through it.
âYes, I miss all of that. All of you,â you whimper as you squeeze your hand tighter on his leg.
âThere might be a reason why this is happening⊠why we feel so strongly toward each other. The way I canât compel youâŠthe powerful attraction I have for you⊠itâs because of something stronger than us⊠it might be fate pulling us in,â he says.
âWhat?â You say shocked.
âThereâs legends of this kind of thing happening to vampires before. The way they couldnât compel them, the way the attraction they felt for them the first time they ever saw them. How their blood called to them like a siren. Their blood is the only thing they ever want to drink to keep them satisfied⊠thatâs what Iâm dealing with. I crave only your blood. Iâve tried to drink otherâs blood while you've been away and itâs never enough.âÂ
âI think thatâs what has been wrong with me the whole time, why I can never control my thirst or get enough. It's because I needed you. You are the only one who can satisfy me. You are my missing piece,â he coos. He wanted to kiss you, he wanted to feel those soft lips crash into his and feel on cloud nine.
âElvis⊠it canât be,â you say in a daze, âthese things just donât happen. Iâm human, I will die one day and youâll walk this earth sad and miserable again,â you try to reason.
âIt wonât be that way because⊠Iâll have to turn you one day. I donât think I can live without you,â he confesses.Â
You get up from the couch to get away from him, too shocked over this revelation. He feared this is how you would react. It wasnât easy to hear. He was telling you your whole life has changed just because you walked into his penthouse.Â
âNo! No, I canât become like you! I canât do that!â You say petrified.
âIâm not asking you to want to be changed now. Iâm not evil like that. Iâll still give you the choice of when you want to be bitten,â he says gently.
âNever! I never want to become like you! Fate or not, I canât be yours,â you say exasperated.
Thump thump thumpâŠ
He flashes his eyes at you and smirks. That wasnât completely truthful. Despite your fear, something enticed you and your fluttering heart gave it away. He gets up slowly, making you back up against the wall with apprehension. He stands in front of you, placing one of his hands above your head on the wall, and looks at you hungrily.
âI know this isnât easy⊠but you like the idea of being mine, donât you?â He purred.Â
You swallow harshly and look up at him weakly. Your breathing hitches and you canât get the words out you want to say. Elvis takes a step closer to you, the magnet that attracted you two together was pulling him in.Â
âTell me,â he whispers.Â
You look away from him, not wanting to give him that satisfaction of hearing such things from your lips. He carefully puts his hands around your waist and squeezes you softly. He feels your body stiffen and then relax because of his touch.
âPlease tell me,â he asks again.
You continue to stay silent, not budging. He takes one more step closer to you and the top of his thigh is in-between your legs. His thigh pushes up against your core and you gasp when you feel him touching you. You look back at him in a bit of shock, unable to hide that you like his body on yours a bit too much. He wants the truth out of you. He needed to know he wasnât crazy and you were feeling the same way he was.Â
âWhy do you want to fight me, honey? You know Iâll give you anything you ever wanted,â he coos, gently pushing his thigh against your core more. You sigh at him and look down at where his leg is. His hands are still on your hips and he starts to gently rock your hips against his thigh, making your core grind on him. You let out a deep groan and look back at him in shock.
âGoddamn it, Elvis please,â you bleated.
He smirks at you and your whiney tone, âWhat is it, honey?â He asks innocently, moving your hips some more. You grab onto his shirt and ball it in your fist.
âYou make me weak,â you groan.
âI know, I feel the same way. I canât say no to you,â he breathed.
You try to pull him closer and he suddenly feels your hips move on their own, loving the friction against your core.
He keeps his hands on your hips, guiding you as you continue to groan with how good this feels.
âDo you want me? Do you want to be mine?â He asks you again.
You softly whine and look at him helplessly. You gasp every time he grinds you onto his thigh more. You let your head lean back against the wall and look up at him with heavy eyes. He couldnât get enough of how you looked when you were turned on. He felt his cock get hard just watching you get off on him.
âCome on baby, say it,â he begs you. You press your lips together and hold back the whiney moan that forms in your throat.
âI-I canât,â you stammer.
âYou know you want to. You like the very idea of it. I heard how excited you got,â he says as he puts his hand on your chest. The loud patter of your heart beats against his hand and makes him hum contently.Â
âAnd look at yourself, grinding on me trying to get off. I know you want me. I just want to hear it,â he teases. Your hips roll onto him with his tempting words and you cry out frustratedly.
âYes I want you,â you whine, âI want you so much, it kills me. I shouldnât want you this much but I do. I want you all the time. I want to be yours,â you professed.
He sighs delighted, loving the words that just left your lips. He leans in and kisses you passionately, groaning when he feels your eager lips meet his. You both were a mess, grabbing and holding onto each other for dear life. You run your hands through his soft hair and try to pull him in as close as possible. You moan into his mouth as he moves your hips more, trying to get you to finish.Â
You break the kiss and moan his name, breathless and needy. He watches as your eyes flutter and your brow furrow together as your body tenses on him.Â
âThatâs it, baby, let me see you cum,â he coos. You groan and hold onto him tight, letting your orgasm rip through you. You cuss his name and pant for breath. He loved watching you like this. You looked so sexy and perfect in every way.
He lets you calm down a bit before going to kiss you again. There was something about the way you kissed him this time that made him feel aflame. Like you were truly meant to fulfill him. He takes his leg away from your core and pins you to the wall with his body. You instantly groan when you feel his hard length pressing into you. He ravages you with his kisses, starting from your lips, then your cheeks, to your neck, and down to your breasts. God, he missed doing this to you. He wanted to cover every inch of your body with his kisses and lick his favorite part of you. His hands roamed your clothed body and wanted so badly to feel your warm skin on his.
He briefly pauses and picks you up, carrying you to the bedroom. He doesnât stop kissing you until he sets you down on the edge of the bed. He goes to close the door and lock it, starting to unbutton the shirt off of himself. You look at him apprehensively, not sure what he was going to do with you.
âWhat baby?â He asks innocently.
âWhat are you going to do with me?â You ask as your eyes trail down his body.
âOh me? Iâm not going to do anything. You, however, are going to ride me until the sun comes up. How does that sound?â He says peeling his shirt off of his body and standing back in front of you, giving your forehead a kiss.
You take a sharp breath in when you feel his lips on you again and stare at him in complete shock at his request.Â
âI umm⊠itâll be hours before the sun comes up,â you quavered, your fingertips brushing along his chest.
âGood thing I never get tired,â he says deviously.
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Prompt 15 - Smart
@jegulus-microfic August 15, Word count 744
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Regulus canât believe he didnât think of it himself. He was in Slytherin after all. He'd seen that portrait nearly every day for seven years and yet a Gryffindor had come up with the incredibly smart idea of asking the portrait of one of the most famous wizards in Britain for help with the locket.Â
âWhen can we go?â Regulus says excitedly. If he had been his brother, heâd have been jumping off the walls by now, but luckily he wasnât and had more decorum than to run amok like Sirius would have.Â
âI need to get a message to Dumbledore so he knows Iâm coming.â James scratched his head as he thought. He pulled out his wand and was about to recite the enchantment when Regulus interrupted him.Â
âWhat do you mean you? Weâre both going. You are not leaving me here with Flitsy,â Regulus argued. If James Potter thought he could go waltzing off and take all the glory for himself.Â
âLove,â James started gently. Regulus steeled himself, ready for whatever lame excuse James was about to try him with. âEveryone thinks youâre dead. Youâre only safe while everyone keeps believing that. The second Voldemort finds out youâre still walking about, heâll stop at nothing to get to you.â
âI can take care of myself,â Regulus scoffed, folding his arms across his chest and turning his head petulantly.Â
âAgainst someone whoâs basically immortal?â James questioned, his eyebrow raised. Regulus sighed. He had a point.Â
âBut Salazar's more likely to give information to me. Isnât there a way for me to get in without Dumbledore or any of the professors needing to know Iâm there?â He asked, his mind already sifting through all the possible spells he could use. James groaned, which made him look up. It was an exasperated groan, something Regulus had never heard from James. James dragged his hand down his face and groaned again.Â
âI have a way that will keep you hidden better than any spell.â
âYouâd better not be about to transfigure me into a mouse or something,â Regulus warned, pointing his finger at him. James huffed out a laugh.Â
âNo, love, something far better than that. But you have to promise me you wonât tell anyone about it.â Regulus agreed instantly. He was intrigued by what James could possibly have that could fool the protection spells surrounding the castle.Â
âAccio, cloak!â James called into the house, pointing his wand in the direction of his bedroom. Something silvery floated across the room like a partially hidden ghost. But when it landed in Jamesâs hand, Regulus couldnât see it any more. âThis is one of the things that made the marauders so successful at getting up to mischief while we were at school,â James said before he disappeared. He was standing there one second, making his speech, and then he'd vanished. Regulus blinked hard, looking around the room to see where heâd gone.Â
âJames?â He asked the empty room.Â
âYes, love,â Jamesâs voice came from behind him, startling Regulus. He jumped and spun on the spot to see nothing but thin air.Â
âWhere are you?â He said suspiciously.Â
âRight here, love,â Jamesâs arms were around his waist, pulling him under a heavy cloak. It clicked then what James had in his possession.Â
âAn invisibility cloak,â Regulus said in awe, reaching out and running his fingers over the fabric. âWhere did you get this?â
âFamily heirloom passed down over the years. Iâve no idea where they got it, but itâs mine now.â Regulus could hear the smugness in Jamesâs voice.Â
âAnd this will get me in and out of Hogwarts undetected?â
âYup,â James popped his p.Â
James took the cloak off of them and carefully folded it. He raised his wand again. âExpecto Patronum!â He called, casting the patronus charm. Regulus took a step back as the giant silver-blue stag erupted from the tip of Jamesâs wand. The great beast bowed his head to them, his antlers dipping to eye level. âTell Dumbledore that I need to come to the castle. Itâs of the utmost importance. I need access to the Slytherin Common room as soon as possible,â James finished his message and the stag raced from the room on its way north to Scotland. âHere, youâll need this as soon as we get the okay,â James said, holding out the invisibility cloak. Regulus took it with trembling fingers. This was it. The fight against Voldemort had truely begun.
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Chapter 1, Part 5: "You Passed"
â ïž CW: Institutionalized Slavery, Dehumanization, Food Whump, Poisons, Starvation, Degrading Self-Talk, ANGST..... Please let me know if I missed anything.
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The Mutt stayed back a moment, still savoring those two small words. Once he evened himself, he too walked out of the room. He had an hour with no specific orders. The dog already knew what he was going to do with it.
He snuck past the living area, making sure not to be seen by Balor. This wasnât too much of a task though, Balor was dense, and Dog was quiet.
He had plenty of practice from that time his master accidentally left him on orders of complete silence for almost a year. For almost a year, any time he so much as stepped too hard the bands would tear into him. Ever since then heâs been hyper aware of every sound he made.
Easy as sugar tree bake, he was past. He first went to the kitchens and grabbed mostly fruits and raw vegetables. Those would probably go unnoticed and be the easiest to explain if they didnât.
Dog didnât even need to look for Boy. The boy was in the back kitchen washing dishes. The gut-wrenching realization hit him, as a flash of anger had to be tamped down. They put the starved child to work in the kitchen.
The mongrel took hold of Boyâs wrist and led him downstairs, down the marble staircase to the wine cellar.
âEat,â he urged, shoving the food at him.
âBut wonât weâŠâŠâŠâ
Dog cut Boy off, âIâll take full responsibility, just eat, please.â
âT-thank you.â Boy slid down the wall, too exhausted to argue and scarfed down the meager meal. âYouâre not going to have lunch?â
Dogâs stomach churned, food would probably help the poisons, but his master hadnât said he could. âNo, Master needs me back in an hour, I donât want to feel weighted down,â he replied smoothly.
Boy nibbled at a carrot as the dog felt him analyzing him, âWhat is it he is always pulling you away for anyway? You have been holed up in that room for hours this morning.â
âYou know better than to ask,â the Mutt replied. He changed the subject quickly, âYou should come up with a hair style this evening, you could use a haircut.â The others didnât need to know about the poisons, he especially wanted to protect Boy from the truth. A truth Boy himself narrowly missed. He pushed down the bitter memories of his 10-year-old self with the 3-year-old version of the kid in front of him.
Boy paused for a moment then agreed, âIt is getting long, isnât it?â He played a bit with the short braid the dog hastily put it up in this morning.
Dog nodded, âMmmhmm, Iâll ask master for some scissors and a razor later. Now eat, and seriously, donât worry about the consequences, Iâve got it covered.â
âIâm eating, Iâm eating,â the boy chuckled a bit.
The sound filled the dogâs chest with warmth. He didnât fully understand it, but it felt nice. He wanted to always protect that warm sound, since the first day he heard it all those years ago. Dog patted his cheek a bit before putting his mask of void back on to go back upstairs. He wouldnât want to mess up and act like something other than a tool in front of his master. The thought came forward somewhat more resentful than expected.
The dog reentered the familiar room and was instantly hit with the smell of food. His stomach growled loudly, but he pushed the hunger pain away and sat in his usual seat. His posture was rigid as he slowed his breathing to prevent extra movement, he rested his arms on the metal plates, ready to be restrained, should his master desire it.
He kept his gaze on the floor, analyzing the familiar tiles in front of him. The faded blue green stone caught the afternoon light from the window, making them glimmer a bit. When he looked carefully, he could occasionally see the small fossils of snails and tiny crustaceans long dead. He vaguely wondered, as always, what their life may have been like before they became trapped in stone. âWas it happier life than my own?â
The door opened loudly, startling him. The sound snapped the dogâs attention back to the present. His master strode in, placing a table in front of him once again. He inwardly flinched; this meant more poison. âProbablyâ he thought glumly, answering his own question about the snail.
His master sat a tiny portion of food in front of him. âEat it.â He said simply.
The mutt complied, slowly, thoughtfully holding it in his mouth. He knew better than to wolf the food down by now, no matter how hungry he might be. A flavor arose from the bit of casserole, a flavor that did not quite belong, proving his instincts correct. It was slightly bitter, maybe a little sour? That could be the cream though. It was barely there against the other flavors of the casserole. There was also a slight musty taste to it, that was the giveaway.
âLim,â he said measuredly, keeping his tone neutral. Lim was a root, similar to a potato, which made it easy to hide in a dish such as this. âLim is a slow acting poison. It has to be fed to the victim over days or weeks. By the time itâs noticed there is no way to treat it.â
This went on dish after dish. Some were mixed with several poisons in one dish. The end was in sight when another potato dish was sat in front of him. He tested, he instantly found the Lim, but he continued to hold it in his mouth, careful not to assume thatâs the only poison in it. Soon his tongue started going numb, there was another poison.
âLim and Caecus,â he announced, voice shaking slightly. Poison resistance did not mean he had complete immunity; he was fast reaching his limit.
His mast still said nothing. NothingâŠ. He deeply wanted was praiseâŠ. The poisons hurt, he felt like he swallowed knives and needlesâŠ. Yet another dish was sat in front of him, a dessert. Finally, it was almost overâŠ.
He bit into sample of cherry bar. It was tart, as expected with cherry, but there was a sourer tone to it. There was an exceptionally sour smell emanating from it as well. âBalla wood berry.â
His master added the dish to the stack on the tray and walked out without saying a word. The dog choked back the sick feeling building inside of him. He knew this was the only food he was going to get today and was desperately trying to keep it down. His master also usually punished him for getting sick after taking poisons, he wanted so bad to be good. He badly wanted his masterâs approval; it would make the sick feeling much better.
Finally, his master came back in. The dog clinched his jaw with nerves, barely containing a flinch as he listened to his masterâs footsteps cross the room to him. He found himself holding his breath as he walked in the front of him.
âMuttâŠâ his master passed, as if looking for the words, âYou passed. You have correctly identified all of the poisons, even under stress.â
His master sounded pleased, his master has never sounded so pleased⊠the dogâs eyes began to water involuntarily, getting touched with the ring was just part of the test. He wasnât bad after all!
âGood boy, Iâm proud of you.â His master patted his cheek with a gloved hand, âas a reward Iâll let you go back to your quarters early.â
The mutt began to tear up, heâd never in his life had ever been told someone was proud of him, let alone his master. This was well beyond the praise he had hoped for. He completely forgot about being sick. The emotions welled up inside of him, threatening to overflow. He decided he would ask for the hair cutting supplies later and stood, immediately dropped to his knees in a reverent bow.
âT-thank you Master,â he replied, pushing his voice to be as flat as possible.
His master did not respond, instead the Tallisian turned and walked out of the room, leaving the Mutt alone.
When his master was out of ear shot, he let himself overflow. âThis slave, this mutt, he was good!!!!â he yelled as loud as his ruined throat let him. âHe made Master PROUD!! PROUD, Master was PROUD!â he sobbed, it was so surreal to hear those words. He just sat on the floor sobbing. Something strange happened, his lips stretched, his face felt weirdâŠ. Was this what a smile felt like? He sat on the floor of his masterâs office, grinning and sobbing like a fool. He didnât usually talk in the third person when he was alone, but it just felt right. He was finally a useful tool. He had made his master PROUD.
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HEARTâS ECHOES - NISHIMURA RIKI
chapter 5: goody-two-WHAT?
yn sat alone in the study room, surrounded by books, papers, and notes. she had reserved the room for the tutoring session but felt a bit nervous. even though she had told her teacher she was happy to take on the task, she wasn't entirely sure how it would go.
suddenly, the door opened, and ni-ki walked in, his backpack slung over one shoulder and a carefree expression on his face.
"hey," he said with a light smile.
"hey," yn replied, trying to sound more confident than she felt. "how are you?"
"i'm good, i guess. a bit tired from classes, but good. you?"
"i'm good too, thanks. so, what do you want to study today?" yn tried to keep a professional tone, wanting the session to be as productive as possible. "i have these papers for us to go over." she pointed to a stack of neatly organized notes. "these are my class notes. i also have my personal notes if you need something more specific."
ni-ki sat down across from her, pulling out a notebook and a pen from his backpack. he seemed a bit lost, like he didn't know where to start. "uhm, well, i think what i'm struggling with the most is math. i don't get any of the stuff from the last unit."
"perfect, let's start with that," yn said, sifting through her papers until she found the math notes. "i've got everything we've covered so far right here. if you point out what you don't understand, i can help you better."
as yn spoke, ni-ki found himself staring at her for a moment. he'd never really paid much attention to her before, but a few days ago, when they were texting about the session, he had seen her profile picture and realized how pretty she was. now, seeing her in person, he confirmed it. yn was strict and structured, sometimes a bit stubborn, but she had a dedication and passion that he was starting to admire.
ni-ki flipped through his notebook, showing a page full of equations and messy notes.
"it's this part about derivatives. i don't get when to use which rule, and i always mess up the steps."
yn looked at the page and nodded. "okay, let's start with the basics." she grabbed a marker and began writing on a whiteboard mounted on the wall. "there are three main rules you need to know: the power rule, the product rule, and the chain rule. iâm going to explain each one, and then we'll do some exercises together."
âwow, youâre such a goody-two-shoes, ynki teased, grinning at her. âalways so prepared and organized. how do you do it?â
âoh, itâs easy,â she replied with a hint of sarcasm, âjust years of practice being responsible while others slack off playing with balls.â
ni-kiâs grin faltered for a moment, feeling slightly offended by her comment. âyeah, well, not all of us are perfect,â he muttered, trying to brush it off.
as yn explained, ni-ki paid attention, though he occasionally scratched his head in confusion. she made sure to go step by step, pausing to check that he understood each concept before moving on.
"does that make sense so far?" yn asked after explaining the first rule.
"kind of, but i still feel a bit lost," ni-ki admitted.
"that's okay, it's normal at first. let's practice some examples together." yn wrote an equation on the whiteboard and asked ni-ki to try solving it using the rule they had just reviewed.
ni-ki took the marker and started writing, hesitant at first but growing more confident as yn gave him little nudges of encouragement.
"exactly, that's correct." yn smiled when ni-ki finished the equation. "now let's do another one, but this time using the product rule. remember, the key is to identify the parts of the function and apply the rule correctly."
the session continued this way, with yn patiently guiding ni-ki through different problems. after a while, she noticed that he was starting to grasp the concepts better.
"how do you feel now?" she asked after they solved several exercises together.
"better, definitely. i think i'm starting to get it," ni-ki said, smiling slightly.
"i'm glad to hear that." yn returned the smile. "we can review this as many times as needed. i also have notes on other units if you need help with something else."
"for now, i think this is enough. but i'll definitely need more help with math and maybe with chemistry too."
"perfect, i'm here to help with whatever you need." yn gathered her papers and organized them again. "next time, we can focus on chemistry if that works for you."
âyeah, that sounds good. thanks, yn."
"you're welcome, ni-ki. see you at the next session."
as ni-ki left, yn felt an unexpected relief. he first session had gone better than she expected, and although there was still a lot of work to do, she was confident they could achieve good results together and so she will be able to have one more thing in her extensive school record.
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