#all I can think about is spn

[souporsaladnatural]

Obsessed with the sudden shift in Cas' willingness to say insane romantic shit to dean in season 8. A couple of seasons ago, he would tell dean that they had a profound bond to his face. That everything he did, he did for Dean. Now? He's hesitating. He clenches his fists to avoid hugging Dean back in purgatory. He stutters and looks away before saying he stayed away from Dean to protect him. When asked what broke through heaven's brainwashing, he looks away and says he doesn't know. It's so interesting to me

[beatsheetromanroy]

chuck when he has to resurrect the angel of thursday from the dead AGAIN because his beloved all american macho protagonist is refusing to be the hero without him around and is instead drowning in grief (ie. drinking himself into a stupor while hiding in his room and it's neither hot nor productive):

[hatchet-boy]

my biggest issue watching supernatural is that I simply do not care for the 'hot bod' fanservice. like yes messers padalecki and ackles your abs are very impressive that must have taken a lot of hard work now can you please cover yourself in blood and lie on the floor and pretend to be dead while the other one loses themselves to grief at the sight of it? much sexier like that.

[wigglebox]

Destiel Pride - Day 15; Healing Touch

[adammilligans]

Instead of trying to cope with hell like a normal person, Adam would def rock a shirt that says “I went to hell and all I got was this lousy T-shirt”

Michael hates it.

[ardentpoop]

"Don't say that to me. Not you, of all people." -"I don't want to. But it's the truth." (5.18 "Point of No Return")

[mlobsters]

supernatural 5x16 dark side of the moon / network draft script / jared padalecki and jensen ackles dc con 2024 -> what sam and dean thought after finding out they were soulmates

...and now it being presented to them as actual truth, it just made sense.

[sammygender]

i’ve never been as angry on behalf of a character as i am for sam winchester

[bleue-flora]

i need ur opinion on angel cdream

I’ve literally had this for weeks and this is still all I got…

[angel-fruitcake]

thinking about.....

a side profile shot of Cas sitting at the map table, talking to someone off screen. we can't hear what he's saying, and he's slightly blurry/not in focus. sitting next to Cas, Dean is in focus and turned toward him slightly, just observing the angel as he speaks. his expression is soft and warm, full of love, affection, admiration as his eyes scan different parts of Cas' face and the corners of his mouth are just barely curled upward. the camera very slowly zooms in on Dean's face as he watches Cas. every few seconds we flash between beloved moments of the two together from the past seasons, then back to Dean, more moments, back to Dean, emotional music playing in the background. these are Dean's thoughts as he takes in the sight of his angel next to him.

camera switches to Cas as he notices Dean looking at him. "Dean?" he questions curiously, head tilting.

back to Dean's face, coming out of his daze when Cas turns to him and says his name. Dean's eyes flit between the angel's eyes and mouth briefly. he seems to make a silent decision, then he gently cups Cas' face, bringing him in for a soft kiss.

Cas is stunned at first, not reciprocating yet. after several seconds, we see the angel close his eyes and melt into the kiss as he begins moving his lips against Dean's.

Dean smiles into the kiss.

[ethaniscool69]

Just saw another Cas: "I love you." Dean gives info about the world meme and god damn. I know the "I love you" was romantic, and I understood what that meant. it's great that he was finally able to say it, even if it wasn't under the best circumstances, but it just hit me right now, and it hurts. He really did love him, and nothing really happened after that. Just thinking about what could have been is so saddening. Castiel sacrificed everything for Dean. He sacrificed his love and what could have been. Then Dean died a meaningless death.

The life they could have had if a TV network wasn't so scared of men kissing. The possibilities, right there, but still so out of reach.

Neither of them got the ending they deserved, needed. They were wronged.

Dean, living his whole life thinking he's driven by hate, madness, and anger and in the midst of all that, finding Cas. Finding Love. That then to be taken away from him as soon as he realizes that is nothing but sad. Dean had an opportunity to feel loved in a way that transcends friendship and romance altogether, and that was taken away from him in mere seconds.

[quietwingsinthesky]

Dean is such a paradox for me because on the one hand, I have been actively triggered by him in the show, there are moments where, intentionally or not, the writers managed to create a portrayal of manipulation and abuse and control issues that it sets off actual alarms for me. And on the other hand, I would not have him any other way. There is something — not comforting, that’s too soft a word — about knowing where Dean’s actions stem from, having seen and learned all that we do about his childhood neglect and parentification and the trauma he goes through repeatedly in the show, and that he doesn’t come out clean. He comes out a goddamn mess who ends up hurting the people around him in reaction to his own pain!

There’s a reality there that’s. Almost nice, actually. Distressing to watch, but it is a fucking mess, it’s a good mess! He’s got zero healthy coping skills and a healthy relationship with say, his brother, is terrifying because it leaves him open to abandonment!

I’m not sure I’m wording this correctly. There is a way to be a good abuse victim. Take the pain, martyr yourself on it, and then, even if you have no support or idea how to, then you have to become a Good Person who never hurts anyone the way you have been learning to your entire life. Simply toss everything that shaped you out the door and emerge a saint with a tragic backstory. And Dean is not that. And that’s so fucking good. Everything that he has gone through continues to effect the way he treats the people around him, and he can’t fight the behaviors he might recognize as harmful because he also sees them as protecting him (or protecting Sam by keeping Sam with him.)

And sometimes, idk. It feels good to see a guy who didn’t heal the “right way.” Who mostly didn’t heal at all, just keeps the wound open because it’s easier that way.

[soullessjack]

i cannot stop thinking about this im sorry

[an-android-in-a-tutu]

I will say visavis Dean and communicating about his feelings like. If you are viewing the show through a destiel lens you will be naturally inclined to view Dean as someone who keeps his feelings bottled up because there is a massive unspoken Thing between him and Cas. And I think that puts a thumb on the scale, like that's not the only reason why that could go unacknowledged it's just the more common fanon interpretation right now.

But at the same time I think the show clearly wants us to think about Dean as someone who fails to talk about his emotions, it's just that like. It's a tv show, and this trait is being introduced to be mined for drama. When Dean is shown refusing to confront or talk about his emotions, by the end of the episode or at most by the end of a two or three episode mini arc he's gonna break down and talk about his emotions. Bc that's how we get resolution as an audience, but like the build up to that resolution is Dean displaying reticence that we are meant to understand as characteristic for him. Also like. Obviously we always see the emotional resolution bc it happens on screen but the characters allude to the days and weeks between episodes where things are Not Talked About and previous attempts to Talk About Things that were rebuffed. The fact that the show focuses on all the moments og high drama where someone is pushed past their limit and all their emotions come spilling out is like, the nature of television not an indication that these characters are predisposed to emotional honesty.

All that said I dont think Dean is significantly worse about this than any other character. Cas will say as few words as he can get away with and he and Jack both hide the fact that they are dying as a hobby. Sam asks everyone else to talk about their emotions please so he can pretend he is not having any. This is a guys talking about their feelings show, in order for that to be actually interesting they have to be bad at it and fight tooth and nail not to and then be forced to be vulnerable anyway. Thats drama baby

[monstermoviedean]

sam externalizes blame for all the things he hates about himself and dean internalizes blame for his.