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Me being vulnerable to my friends about my phobia: I have vorarephobia, fear of being eaten. I also have phagophobia. Fear of swallowing. I have a hard time watching films or shows that have that. Like Attack on Titan. I can't watch Meg because even the thought of people getting eaten scares me. I can't watch Pan's Labyrinth because of the Pale Man. Even none horror stuff like Moana. I had to build the courage to watch the film all because of the Shiney song. Some Spongebob episodes I avoided back them and today. Even today, I still have it but smaller. I had to walk out of Nope during the digesting scene. When TMNT Mutant Mayhem referenced Attack on Titan, I panicked and started to text my friend who saw it already like crazy. Asking if anyone gets eaten. Even small things like Miraculous Ladybug! When the giant baby wanted to use Marinette as a lolly pop. I had to close my eyes and walk out. I get all sweaty, my heart races, I get a head ach, feel like throwing up, it's intense. I sometimes lose feeling in my legs and can't walk. It got so bad that I started to develop a fear of eating as a teen. It's just hard sometimes because it's such a rare phobia. So, not many can relate.
Friends:.............. Your favorite movies are Trolls and Little Shop of Horrors!
Me:
#dreamworks trolls#trolls dreamworks#trolls#little shop of horrors#musicals#they are something special#for those that don't know#little shop of horrors is about a giant alien plant that eats people#and at the end they go on an eating craze and eat everyone on earth#alive or dead#trolls is about little trolls who get captured by giants#and the giants cook them or eat them raw and alive#because the giants belive eating a troll makes them happy#but believe me#i did hate Trolls and Little Shop of Horrors at first#because of my phobia#but they're both musicals#and my love for musicals over took my fear#so I ended up enjoying these two films witha STRONG passion#fell in love#favorite broadway show too#favorite film#phobias#phobia#but I do have to be careful to not have a panic attack with my phobia
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Please let the mystery group 4 egg be the Memories egg, (re)united with Cellbit in Purgatory (there is 0 evidence for this. Memories egg is likely the dead mystery egg, the new alive egg is probably for the new Asian members)
#I am inhaling massive amounts of copium#i want memories egg to be real so badly#theres like 5 fics with memories egg on ao3#alive or dead#i just want to see that little one be told that no theyre not forgotten theyre loved theyre okay they get to love#i think thats the worst part of qcellbit's tragedy#is that by him sacrificing himself hes throwing away the carried existence of a child who just asked to be remembered#becca rambles#qsmp#qsmp eggs#qsmp memory egg
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Everything feels gray here. Stuck between wanting to stop or keep going, but nothing’s ever certain. This feeling just floats, directionless, with no end in sight. Sometimes it’s exhausting, but I can’t even tell why. Limbo—where nothing is truly alive, yet nothing is dead. Just lost in the in-between, with no destination.
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SHE’S ALIVE!! I WILL DIE ON THIS HILL! THE AIRSHIP AT THE END!!! THE GLITCHY END CREDITS!! THE AIR VENTS!!! THE GLITCH! CAITLYN’S SMIRK AT THE END!!!
#I NEED her to be alive#SHE CANNOT BE DEAD#also I’m sorry but all the foreshadowing and little details#I swear in the next arcane show she WILL be there#also why would Cait be smirking at the end if Jinx was dead#season 2 arcane theory#arcane#jinx#arcane jinx#jinx arcane#season 2 arcane#arcane season 2 spoilers#arcane league of legends#league of lesbians#league of legends arcane#jinx league of legends#lol jinx#arcane 2
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my dash did a thing
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lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)
if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.
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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.
I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.
I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.
If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.
#cw: suicidal ideation#cw: suicide#cw: self harm#cw: mental health#cw: depression#i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it#i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague#it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves#so. please dont#for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic#with the state of the world as it is#having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful#but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full#and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead#i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us#there is no fix-all#and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile#i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it#thank you for reading#and please stay alive#stillindigo art#stillindigo comics
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sometimes you've never been so alive or dead or scared or living in the moment
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jason in titans tower staring at bruce: how’d you know i was alive old man?
bruce: robin - tim - is an avid follower of your tumblr blog that has mysteriously updated after years of you being deceased
tim: mhm, at mrsbennetluvr88 started quoting hamlet and titus andronicus after years of radio silence, it was the only rational conclusion
jason: … at least you know your shakespeare…
#tim: i was your moot goffick-bat69! i’m well aware of your dramatic tendencies#jason: and you didn’t find it so weird that you went out and wore your dead online friends mantel?#tim: i was being poetic! something about vengeance and keeping the magic alive !#batman#jason todd#tim drake#bruce wayne#robin#red robin#red hood#batbros
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when this get animated i will broke everything that is in front of me
it’s so fucking over y’all. HORIKOSHI. WHEN I GET U.
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"Dude," Steve says, pressing on his eyes because he feels like he's about to cry. "What the fuck."
"What?" Dustin squeaks, alarmed. "What? Steve, you're freaking me out!"
"Good!" Because Steve just worked eighteen hours and it's past midnight and he got thrown up on twice and there was a bed pan incident and even though he showered at the hospital he probably smells awful and it rained and he lost his keys so he had to take the bus and he's sweaty and tired and wet and cold and Dustin's DnD friend is hot. "I can't believe you'd do this to me!" Okay, maybe Steve's feeling a little delirious.
"Do what??" Dustin is full on shrieking right now. His hot friend is standing in their apartment looking more and more worried and hot.
"You didn't tell me he was hot!"
The expressions that go across Dustin's face is impressive, before they stop and he settles on a flat glare. "Seriously??"
Hot guy is now blushing and Steve will collapse if he doesn't keep with the righteous fury.
"I've been TRYING to get you two to meet for months now!"
"You didn't tell me he was hot, though! Dustin!!"
"I don't know what guys are hot, Steve!" Dustin says indignantly. "I thought you didn't like nerds!"
"Dustin!"
"Um," says hot guy. He looks like he's panicking.
Dustin's face changes again. "Oh, no. Oh, no, you're right."
"All this time!" Steve says and he really is close to tears. "You've been nagging on me all this time to find my soulmate, and you had the perfect guy right here?? You had him in my home??? Dustin!"
"Whoa," whispers hot guy.
"I'm sorry," Dustin wails now, just as distraught. "You love nerds, all your favorite people are nerds, I don't know what I was thinking, oh my god!" He whirls on hot guy. "Eddie, give Steve your number right now!"
"Okay," says hot guy Eddie, immediately. His face is super red and his eyes are wide, and he looks scared out of his mind as he fumbles his pocket for his phone. "Yeah-Yep-Absolutely. This is a thing that's happening."
Steve, tears burning in his eyes, watches as Dustin punches his number into Eddie's phone. "Okay," he says a little nasally, wiping quickly at his face. "Okay, I'm going to shower and then sleep for two days, and then pretend like this never happened so I can look hot guy in the eye when he asks me on a date. Sound good?"
"Sounds great!" Dustin says, all cheery now. Behind him, still looking vaguely scared for his life, hot guy gives him a shaky thumbs up.
#robin sitting up out of a dead sleep in her girlfriend's bed: something just happened#steddie#stranger things#dustin henderson is the worlds worst and best wingman i am so sorry to steve and eddie#eddie is less scared and more turned on but he IS still a lil scared bcs the sexiest man alive looked him in the eye and then started cryin#nurse steve my beloved#my steddies
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#together forever#forever together#great love#violent love#in love#love quotes#lovers#gravestone#gravestones#graveyard aesthetic#back from the grave#graveyard#cemetery#burried#coffin#darkness#buried alive#dead and buried#666 satan#666#666 aesthetic#angel number 666#aesthetic#gothic#dark aesthetic#alternative#goth household#goth love#gothgoth#gothcore
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Recharging
#dead boy detectives#dbda#payneland#edwin x charles#edwin deserves a break#is niko alive? is she a zombie? who knows but she's here#crystal is bullying edwin as is her god given right#catcrow think it's adorable#jenny doesn't want to be included#and charles? charles is making decisions based on what he feels in the moment
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i keep seeing people say the doctor shouldn’t have feelings for rogue because he’s married to river…? river song… who has also married multiple people… one of the most polyamorous characters in the show…?
#i think the only issue river would have is that she wasn’t there to witness it#ngl#plus when has the doctor ever been strictly monogamous???#even when he was infatuated with rose he still had feelings for other people too#madame de pompadour anyone ??? hello?? 😭#and river’s been gone for multiple regens now… is the doctor meant to never have a relationship ever again or what#gonna be real i think if rogue was a woman i’d be seeing less Ummm He Has A Wife The Doctor Wouldn’t Cheat Like This takes#i really don’t think the doctor & river were ever strictly only with each other bro like they’ve always had a more open relationship anyway#🤷🏻♂️🤷🏻♂️🤷🏻♂️#doctor who#15th doctor#rogue doctor who#river song#timerogue#dndoctor#yowzah#twiver#ehhh yeah.#y’know ????#also as people have mentioned she’s dead#i didn’t make that part of my post bc timey wimey whatever people still want her to return somehow#so if she *was* alive and the doctor wasn’t literally a widow… she’d have no problem with rogue 😭😭#keepin this post ambiguous for u river return truthers
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A lesson in life I endlessly learn is hope, To hope, they say, is to keep the heart afloat. Yet they forget, to lean on hope is like resting on the wind, Unseen, untouchable, a breath that fades and slips away.
#limbo#shadow#itslimbo#alive#alive or dead#bad feeling#bound#captivity#life#dark#dark academia#quotes#poetry
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I decided Danny needed a fire core AU where the portal accident blew up the entire block, condemned all of Amity, and was left to haunt it for 100 years before Sam and Tuck find him 🥰 for enrichment
#danny phantom#no he does not realize he's technically still half alive#yes everyone he ever knew or loved is now dead!#yes this was a flimsy excuse to draw him with very long hair#and feral creature vibes#he's very sad but it's okay his hair is FABULOUS#he breathes smoke when he gets agitated :)#zilly art#fire core au
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