#alice kojima

[miraofhearts2point0]

if theyre gonna adapt Border Road they should rename Alice to Doroshii so shes not too closely associated w Arisu. also bc Border Road gives me more Wizard Of Oz vibes, which i think was the point of it

[boowoomuu]

‼️HUGE SPOILERS FOR ALICE ON BORDER ROADS‼️

I really thought Haro Aso wouldn't be able to get to me anymore, but then aobr manages to leave me way more emotionally destroyed than aib somehow...

So yeah, I did this to cope 🙃

"The one thing that I wanted the most...

is right in front of me."

[References and some progress pics under the cut🥰]

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[pinkcynicism]

Metal gear solid 2 Bunalysis

I was the lucky one getting to do art for the thumbnail in this outstanding video. Like, truly, do yourself a favor and check it out, this video genuinely made me even more trans.

[revolutionaryjackelving]

2024 - IT AIN'T EVEN GOT TO BE DEEP, I GUESS

#2024 the year is over. Here’s my end of year feelings about it and stuff I saw and liked this year.

Ultimate Spider-Man #12. Art by Marco Cecchetto So what was your 2024 like? Continue reading 2024 – IT AIN’T EVEN GOT TO BE DEEP, I GUESS

[tearyeyedonce-gentlesoul]

glossary (WIP)

i didn't know there was a word limit on tumblr until i made this, so i unfortunately had to remove links that would lead to specific tags and help with organizing on here. also note that this post might be remade in the future

electricpuke/rocklandgame characters: abel, adam, adam whesker, akihiko kojima, akira kojima, alchemy willow, alice (electricpuke), alice carroll, amaterasu, ami, amy, ana (rockland), ana (viral), annabelle winter, arcadian, aria king, ashley kinley, ashton kinley, athena dianoia, audrey, august dixie, avery greyson, axel, baal, cain zeitgeist, callum willow, cassiel, charlie willow, chase knox, chase valentine, christopher “chris” king, circe, damien morningstar, dante stryker, dominick torrero, dylan, edison tekker, elise, elizabeth bathory, enoch, eve, faereighn, farz murphy (electricpuke), foal, freya, gabriel, gabriel lily, grace quinn, hades, hammerclaw, hana, heidi, horus, hunter, itsuki mori, jack buchanan, jason buchanan, jason carmine (rook), jiyun, john, kali, karasu, kaz tyagi, kenny, kiku kojima, kiyoshi, kurt, lachesis chronis, lady yuzu, leo taylor, lilith, lincoln, logan, loki marshall, lucifer morningstar, macey, marco jennings, marcus de la cruz, max, melanie, meredith, mia, michael fitzroy, michael volkov, mio, molly, morgan, morgan le fey, munchie, naoki “nathan” donovan, nicolas flamel, olivia, oswalt morrison, peyton, quinton willow, rai, raizer, raja, ramiel, raphael, raphael sivori, reiko nakamura, ribbon, richter (hotelpsycho), rory stryker, rose martinez, rosey, roy mcnamara, ruby red graves, sally, samael volkov, sanae, sano kojima, sejun, sergio marino, sergio morrison, shane, shiro suzuki, sparrow, sun-mi yeon (scarlet), sydney dixie, teagan buchanan, the engineer, the REAL vincent metzger, thor, tobias reeves, trace, trevor mcloughlin, tsubaki, tyler, uriel metzger, valak, vencil cartier, veni (electricpuke), verak, vincent castillo (electricpuke), vincent metzger, vlad, xander rosario, yeon seong-mi (emily yeon), zero (dollmaker), zero (empire), zeus

gatobob characters: ashe, anthony shore, beg, celia lede, centicat, chamomile, charlie, chastity, chet ichpujani, cry, demon, derek aeron, derek goffard, dirty the possum, dragon, evander hutch, farz murphy (gatobob), farzen, fox, gideon bautista, harold, jack, jaqueline, jedka (facility), jesse, komodo, lawrence oleander, lich, lily talor, machete, marten trell, mason armbruster, mason heiral, matt, mona winters, raid, randall, raven, ren hana, rhodes, richard, roadkill girl, samantha, scream, sid, stan, strade, tom, trigger, veni (gatobob), vincent castillo (gatobob) (gatobob), vincent castillo (gatobob)

other notable characters: a.e.d, ellen klein, izm, lucien rire, rodchester williams, shaun

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known aliases/blogs:

arioddsandends, askparasitegods, doctor-dollmaker, electricpuke, fuckbyknifepoint, nagakira, nurseharlot, rocklandgames, scarletaegis, scarletmarionette, trentboyett

gatoanswers, gatoafterdark, gatobob, gatobob-spotty, gatoplays-sos, gatxbxb, gurobob, gurpbob, serpulalacrymans

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eras (label for creator universes): altinr, arcane, boyfriend to death, crazy au, dark circus au, devil's night carnival, dollmaker, empire, facility, foxtail, human!au, huntress, inferno, mark of belial, nightclub, of gods and monsters, rockland, route 66, self insert, the artist, the carnival game, the commander, the doctor, the hunt, the misfits, the price of flesh, the puppetmaster, the serial killer, this is not romance, till death do us part, viral, welcome home, yanaki, you kill me every time, zeitgeist

[tofutasties]

To live is to fall into a pit

In a conversation with an American screenwriter, Ryu Murakami once said that all stories follow the same plot: the protagonist falls into a hole and either crawls out or dies within. When I heard that, it made sense to me; I could see nearly all stories fitting into that pattern. But in his genius, Abe would not settle for the ordinary. The Woman in the Dunes offers a third plot: the man finds a life inside the pit. Even in Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland, Alice’s experiences inside the rabbit hole work toward bringing her back to reality. Not so in The Woman in the Dunes. When the man is stranded at the bottom of the pit, he at first struggles to escape, but in the end, he chooses to remain there. When he finally obtains his much-longed-for means of escape, he has an epiphany and comes to understand the freedom to be found in staying inside the hole — a freedom that he chooses while letting a different freedom go. And that is what life is. Is that same third option not the framework that governs our society, our work, our families, our life, and our day-to-day life? Unknowingly, we all are lured into our pits, swallowed up, and we struggle to crawl out. But even if we make it out, nothing is changed. Outside, new holes are being dug; being trapped in a different pit is the only outcome. There are many such pits in life. Some are made for us, and others we make particularly for ourselves. For every pit trap, there is also a shelter. To live is to fall into many pits. As long as you are walking forward, you will fall into a pit. —Hideo Kojima, The Creative Gene (2010)

[canmom]

l'aventure de canmom à annecy - épisode DEUX - mardi 1: Hyakuemu

today started with something pretty cool - I went to a 'making of' session for the upcoming anime film ひゃくえむ (Hyakuemu, lit. 100m) by the team behind On-gaku: My Sound.

The panel consisted of director Kenji Iwaisawa, char designer/sakkan Keisuke Kojima, art director and bg artist Keikankun Yamaguchi and producer Akane Taketsugu. They answered questions in Japanese, which was then interpreted into French, and if you had the phone app, interpreted again from French into English simultaneously, which meant it was a bit of a game of telephone but it worked surprisingly well.

The film is using a pretty unusual rotoscope process: much like The Case of Hana and Alice, it's filmed and edited in live action, which is then used as a basis for animation at a reduced framerate.

The character designs are fairly stylised compared to the live action, and the animation process seems to follow a fairly traditional process of roughs - sakkan corrections - keys - inbetweens, with the twist that it's all done digitally inside clip studio.

They made a fairly detailed comparison to On-gaku - which I evidently need to see asap, these guys are legit. By comparison they described this as a larger team, and the film as a much more realist style, and more of a commercial than a personal project. Still it's definitely a small team, with only one person apparently responsible for both live action and comp.

Art director Yamaguchi is evidently very talented, but she spoke about feeling inexperienced at the style demanded by the film (though she was the sole colourist for years on On-gaku), and having to experiment a lot. All the film's bgs are painted physically in watercolour for the warmth this brings, based on detailed tracings of photos. She showed one very complex bg animation sequence with 29 drawings, and Iwaisawa apologised for making her do it. They talked about taking inspiration from the backgrounds in Akira.

Kojima showed various settei, and talked about how he'd adjust performances during animation.

Iwaisawa described how they cast actors that resembled the manga characters and dressed them in rough costumes for animation reference, and also directing them to act in a more exaggerated, theatrical style. He also mentioned his excitement at certain sequences, describing the film's ending as like a rock festival. He described his main reason for using rotoscope as the energy he'd be able to get by editing the live action footage prior to animation, as well as his prior experience using rotoscope for short films.

They didn't show a ton of footage but apparently the film is about 75% done, with the live action fully shot. At the end they asked if anyone was interested in working on the film and got a flood of volunteers. All in all it seems like the perfect case of how to do a rotoscope film, and I'm really excited to see it next year - maybe it will hit the same as Slam Dunk.

[cinna-gnwaf]

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╰─ » · •. * General Info

[ pt/br/en ]

• enfp-a.

• sketch sometimes.

( desenho as vezes.)

• sagittarius.

( sagitáriana.)

• already of age.

( sou de maior já.)

• lazy.

( preguiçosa. )

• dog-mom.

( mãe de doguinhos.)

- Interests ( interesses)

• favorite music : lana del rey, hozier, saint avangeline, chappell roan, melanie martinez, malice mizer, buck-tick, ney matogrosso, milton nascimento, tyler the creator, the weeknd, aurora, depeche mode, molchat doma, mamamoo, bauhaus, kalafina, kali uchis, florence + the machine, francisco alves, pinkpantheress & bôa.

• favorite movies/tv shows ( séries e filmes favoritos): agent carter, avengers, house of the dragon, got, sandman, the phantom of the opera, the mandalorian, good owens, the fox and the round & supernatural.

• favorite games ( jogos favoritos) : bayonetta, resident evil 2 ( 1998 ), resident evil zero, alice madness returns, haunting ground, the rise of tomb raider, atomic heart, okami, lies of p, elden ring, dark souls, the sims & animal crossing.

• inspiration ( inspirações): ayami kojima, riyoko ikeda, narumi kakinouchi, nana toboso, tetsuya nomura, studio ghibli, lana del rey, stevie nicks, kurt cobain, shelley duvall & lesley gore.

pls, don't send unnecessary things.

that's all for today, thank u and bye!

- Fawn. ♡

[nerium-shipping]

♡ F/Os by Series

Characters in bold are Fictional Favourite Persons and hold an extreme importance to myself or other system members

•Obey Me - Lucifer

•Hazbin Hotel/Helluva Boss - Lucifer Morningstar, Angel Dust, Alastor, Lilith (Situational), Stolas Ars Goetia

•Twisted Wonderland - Idia Shroud, Ortho Shroud, Malleus Draconia, Trey Clover, Riddle Rosehearts, Vil Schoenheit, Neige LeBlanche, Divus Crewel

•Black Butler - Sebastian Michaelis, Vincent Phantomhive, O!Ciel Phantomhive, Gregory Violet, Alois Trancy, Claude Faustus

•Genshin Impact - Venti, Scaramouche/Wanderer

•My Hero Academia - Hawks, Toshinori Yagi, Dabi, Izuku Midoriya, Katsuki Bakugou, Shoto Todoroki

•Disney - Hades

•Lore Olympus -Hades

•Toilet Bound Hanako-kun - Tsukasa Yugi, Amane Yugi/Hanako-kun

•Call of Duty - Simon "Ghost" Riley

•Durarara!! - Izaya Orihara

•Cult of the Lamb - The One Who Waits/Narinder

•Boyfriend to Death/The Price Of Flesh - Lawrence Oleander, Sano Kojima, Ren Hana/Fox

•Ao no Exorcist - Rin Okumura

•Tokyo Ghoul - Hideyoshi Nagachika, Juzo Suzuya, Akira Mado, Touka Kirishima, Uta, Kuki Urie, Haise Sasaki, Ken Kaneki, Shironeki, Kentipede, Black Reaper

•I Have No Mouth and I Must Scream - AM

•Heart No Kuni no Alice - Peter White

•Monogatari - Koiyomi Araragi

•Brothers Conflict - Tsubaki Asahina, Azusa Asahina

•Bungo Stray Dogs - Osamu Dazai, Fyodor Dostoevsky, Edogawa Ranpo, Chuuya Nakahara, Nikolai Gogol

•D. Gray-Man - Allen Walker, Yu Kanda, Nea/Thirteenth

•Danganronpa - Komaeda Nagito, Kokichi Ouma, Junko Enoshima, Toko Fukawa

•Demon Slayer - Tanjiro Kamado, Zenitsu Agatsuma

•Ensemble Stars - Mayoi Ayase

•Fruits Basket - Kyou Sohma, Yuki Sohma, Hatori Sohma, Hatsuharu Sohma

•Fullmetal Alchemist - Edward Elric, Alphonse Elric, Roy Mustang

•Haikyuu!! - Hinata Shoyo, Oikawa Tooru, Kageyama Tobio

•Higurashi no Naku no Koro Ni - Rena Ryuugu

•Osomatsu-san - Ichimatsu, Todomatsu, Karamatsu

•Ouran High School Host Club - Tamaki Suoh, Kyoya Ohtori, Hikaru Hitachiin, Kaoru Hitachiin

•Persona 4 - Naoto Shirogane, Yu Narukami

•Persona 3 - Akihiko Sanada, Shinjiro Aragaki, Ken Amada, Aigis

•Persona 5 - Akira Kurusu, Futaba Sakura, Ann Takamaki, Haru Okumura, Yusuke Kitagawa

•Soul Eater - Death the Kid, Stein

•Spy x Family - Loid Forger, Yor Forger

•Sword Art Online - Kazuto Kirigaya, Asuna Yuuki

•The Case Study of Vanitas - Vanitas

•The Devil is a Part-Timer - Satan

•Mirai Nikki - Yuno Gasai, Amano Yukiteru, Akise Aru

•Tokyo Revengers - Kazutora Hanemiya, Manjiro Sano/Mikey, Ken Ryuguji/Draken, Chifuyu Matsuno

•xxxHolic - Kimihiro Watanuki

•Yuri!!! On Ice - Viktor Nikiforov, Yuri Katsuki

•Angel's of Death - Danny Dickens

•Baldur's Gate - Astarion

•The Coffin of Andy and Leyley - Andrew Graves

•Final Fantasy VII - Cloud Strife

•Yugioh- Yugi Mutou, Atem, Yami Bakura

•Avatar the Last Airbender - Zuko

•Blood + - Charles

•Borderlands - Handsome Jack

•Castlevania - Alucard, Dracula

•Deltora Quest - Lief

•Gangsta - Nicholas Brown

•Killing Stalking - Oh Sangwoo, Yoon Bum

•The Mortal Instruments- Jace, Sebastian Morgenstern, Simon Lovelace, Gem Carstairs, Will Herondale

•Aggretsuko - Haida, Retsuko

•Gravity Falls - Mason "Dipper" Pines, Bill Cipher, Alcor (Transcendence AU)

◇Plantonic F/Os

•Obey Me - Belphagor

•Black Butler - Grell

•My Hero Academia - Shigaraki Tomura

•Tokyo Ghoul - Tsukiyama Shuu

[lovehael]

what system / console do you preferably play video games on? also what are your favourite games?? :)

Had a bit to say so I'm putting it under a readmore~

Growing up my family had Sega Genesis and PlayStation, but my siblings were usually the ones who got to play them, so I became more familiar with PC games! MMO's and such n American McGee's Alice.

Here I am playing Tomba while my sister uses the family PC... She used to get so annoyed when I won during Tekken from button mashing lol.

Also have fond memories being scared playing Silent Hill 2. Rule of Rose and Haunting Ground are good n spooky too.

Eventually got a PS4 of my own (the cannot download P.T./Silent Hills demo notifcation still haunts me), gained an appreciation for FromSoftware games, as well the Metal Gear series thru diligently watching my brother play the entirety of them. My partner is also obsessed with both Kojima and FromSoft, so we enjoy those together as well. I've always been a big fan of Square/Enix stuff too. There are a lot of games I want to play with an emulator but haven't gotten around to it...!

In recent times I've been playing Elden Ring, Disco Elysium, and just started playing Phantasy Star Online 2: New Genesis.

The consoles I currently have are PC, PS4, and Nintendo 3DS (mostly just play Animal Crossing on it). Hoping to get a Switch soon so I can play Splatoon ~w~ I don't consider myself an avid gamer because I ultimately spend more of my free time drawing and reading manga or watching anime/shows/movies tbh, so I'm always open to recommendations and enjoy watching others play too.

This was a nice message to receive, thank you!

[carica-ficus]

Recenzija: Plavi Dnevnik

Originalni naslov: The Blue Diary

Autor: Alice Hoffman

Datum: 17/03/2024

Ocjena: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐

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Priznajem da sam jedna od onih osoba koja ponekad kupi knjigu pa je zatim pospremi na policu i zaboravi na nju, stoga mi je jedan od važnijih ciljeva ove godine da napokon pročitam sve te knjige koje imam, a koje nisam još dotakla. "Plavi Dnevnik" sam kupila na Interliberu prošle godine, primarno zato što je Hoffman autorica kojoj vjerujem i čiji su me radovi već uspješno osvojili, ali moram priznati da nisam očekivala da će mi se ova knjiga baš toliko svidjeti, a definitivno nisam očekivala da će mi postati njezino najdraže djelo.

Radnja prati brojne likove čiji su životi međusobno isprepleteni u maloj zajednici gradića na zapadnoj obali SAD-a, nakon što Ethana Forda - voljenog sugrađana, marljivog stolara i brižnog oca - uhapse za zločin počinjen prije 13 godina. Dok se mnogi uzdižu na noge i žele ga podržati, njegova žena Jorie odluči saznati pozadinu jezive priče te dosad nepoznatu prožlost svoga muža.

Ako se Hoffman po nečemu ističe, to je njezin jezik i prekrasan način prenošenja radnje. Njezin stil nije kičast, ali je opširno ukrašen toplim, uvjerljivim i snažnim vizualima koji prate radnju i savršeno ilustriraju osjećaje likova i njihove unutrašnje borbe. Jezik cvijeća igra veliku ulogu u ovoj knjizi, kao i brojni ostali elementi prirode, a Hoffman ih iskorištava u svoju korist i pretvara ih au divan spoj prenešenog značenja i doslovnih osjetilnih doživljaja.

Radnja se sporo razvija te je veći naglasak na likovima i njihovom poimanju promjene koja zahvati njihove živote, a ne toliko na samom procesu osude Ethana Forda. Nova stvarnost potiče likove da se napokon okrenu samoreflekciji i shvate kako je sve u životu prolazno pa tako i mir i blagostanje. Ipak, Hoffman niti u jednom trenutku ne dopušta čitatelju da pomisli kako nesreća dovodi do potpunog beznađa. Ljubav, suosjećanje i briga zbližuje stare prijatelje i ljubavnike u nove, čvršće veze kojima je ovaj turbulentan period bio prijeko potreban da napokon shvate tko i što im je u životu najviše bitno.

"Plavi Dnevnik" se također bavi temom veza između žena i njihovom potrebom za međusobnom podrškom. Većina ženskih likova je na jedan ili drugi način pretrpilo sebičnu izdaju od strane svojih partnera, očeva ili drugih muških uloga u njihovom životu, te su primorane žrtvovati vlastitu sreću na račun većeg dobra. Dok muškarci generalno snose samo posljedice vlastitih prijestupa, žene vode brigu o široj slici i pokušaju umanjiti ukupnu štetu. Tako na primjer Ethan vodi računa samo o svojoj vlastitoj sudbini, dok Jorie pokušava pružiti podršku svom mužu, spasiti njihov brak, brinuti se za njegovog sina, te zadržati svoj ugled u zajednici. Jorie razumije da je Ethanov zločin uništio više nego njegovu vlastitu budućnost - on je svojim djelima uništio nju i sve što je imala.

Hoffman genijalno uspjeva čitatelja povesti na put otkrivenja zajedno sa Jorie. U početku prikazuje Ethana kao onakvog kakvog ga svi znaju, no kada on napokon prizna svoj zločin i kada Jorie sazna tko Ethan zapravo jest, tako se njegov lik mijenja iz savršenog u realističnog. Hoffman tako uspjeva dočarati takozvani pogled kroz ružičaste naočale, a "Plavi Dnevnik" oda je bolnom postupku njihova odstranjivanja. Saznanje istine nije lak proces te uvjetuje brojna odricanja, od kojih je najteže upravo suočavanje sa činjenicom da ništa više neće biti kao što je nekoć bilo.

Na kraju se tema ženske borbe te saznanje istine isprepleće u jednu tragičnu priču koja naglašava koliko je važno prepoznati djela iz nečije prošlosti, bez obzira na količinu vremena koje protekne ili na pozitivnu promjenu koju čovjek učini nakon zlodjela, jer zločin je ipak počinjen i potrebno je za njega snositi posljedice. Nadalje, bitan je razlog nečije promjene. U Ethanovom slučaju, Hoffman postupno otkriva kako je njegov savršen život rezultat osjećaja krivnje, no primarno iz sebičnih izvora - Ethan smatra kako će se pomaganjem zajednici i svojim besprijekornim zalaganjem odužiti za period života tijekom kojeg je drugima činio nažao. Upravo zato se Jorie počinje udaljavati od njega i zašto odlučuje saznati pravu istinu.

"Plavi Dnevnik" je prekrasan roman koji se dotiče teških životnih odluka i destruktivne moći istine, a koji je satkan od nježnih, plemenitih i dirljivih trenutaka prepunih nade, ljubavi i brižnosti. Nudi nešto doista jedinstveno te je savršena knjiga ukoliko ste u potrazi za nečim osjećajnim, moćnim i ispunjujućim.

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[poeticlicense12345]

SAČUVATI SEBE- U SEĆANJU ILI ZABORAVLJANJU

Kažu da su dobre knjige one koje vas udare tako snažno da vam je potrebno dosta vremena da dođete sebi. Čitala sam ,nedavno, knjigu Lize Đenova “Još uvek Alis” (“Still Alice”), a potom gledala njenu filmsku verziju., I još se oporavljam.Osnovna, noseća tema ove knjige je suočavanje sa savremenom pošašću, Alchajmerovom bolešću i demencijom, kojom se danas, sve više bavi i medicina, i čitavo društvo, pa, naravno, i književnost. Knjiga koja je , ove godine, dobila Ninovu nagradu, "Arzamas", I. Dimić,takođe se bavi ovom temom na osnovu autentičnog iskustva autorke, suočenu, direktno, sa ovom bolešću kroz dramu svoje majke.

"Još uvek Alis" otvara I još jednu, filozofsku,temu, koja mi je veoma bliska, a to je koliko nas sećanja čine srećnim. Da li je važnije, da bi se opstalo,steći sposobnost zaboravljanja ili pamćenja?

Glavni lik, knjige I filma, je Alis, ugledna profesorka lingvistike I komunikacija, koja se u trenutku, kada se nalazi u zenitu, i privatno i profesionalno, suočava sa dijagnozom Alchajmerove bolesti. Knjiga postupno tretira simptome ove podmukle bolesti, od lakog zaboravljanja, preko dezorijentacije u prostoru do, na kraju, neprepoznavanja svojih najbližih. Potresno je kako osoba kojoj je struka oblikovanje reči I umeće komunikacije, savladava teškoće koje bolest postavlja pred nju, duboko svesna njihove ozbiljnosti. Zadivljuje njena borba da, uprkos svemu, dokaže, I sebi I drugima, da je ona još uvek “ona Alis”, u bolesti koja briše sećanja, ali ne I ličnost kakva je bila. Ona pokušava da svakodnevno uči da bi mogla da se izbori sa nefunkcionisanjem svog duha, a da, istovremeno, savlada umeće gubljenja identiteta. Alis, duboko svesna da njeno juče nestaje, a da je njeno sutra neizvesno, bori se, snagom koja zadivljuje, da nauči da živi za sadašnji trenutak. Ona savladava to svakodnevno preživljavanje, u kome će gubiti delić po delić sebe, sačuvanog u sećanju, jer Alis nema prošlost kao uspomenu, ni budućnost kao “nameru”. Ima samo danas u kome pokušava da pohvata pokidane niti svog života.

O sećanju kao jedinoj mogućnosti da se opstane govori I Danilo Kiš u svojoj knjizi “Rani jadi”, prvoj iz porodične trilogije. Jevrejski dečak, Andreas Sam, koji „nosi“ ličnost samog pisca,svojim sećanjima pokušava da zapamti svet i ljude oko sebe, koji, u okrutnom vremenu u kome živi, nestaju.Tamo gde pamćenje zataji, Andreas ga dograđuje svojim asocijacijama i svojim čežnjama. Kada se, posle dužeg vremena, nošen nostalgijom, vraća u svoj grad, u svoju Ulicu divljih kestenova,ne nalazi ništa kao dokaz da je sve ono što je nosio u svom sećanju, zaista postojalo. On tada, kao i mnogi od nas, na osnovu upamćenih predmeta, pojava, osećaja i utisaka, pokušava da rekonstruiše svoje detinjstvo, da pronađe svoje „izgubljeno vreme“, svoje „izgubljene dane“, ali nema „dokaza“ u nekim znanim predmetima ili starim slikama koje su zaustavile vreme (sećam se da je moj otac, po izgnanstvu iz Prištine, najviše žalio za slikama, jer, govorio je,da se oseća kao da jedan deo života nije ni postojao, jer ga ništa ne može više potvrditi !) Kako u sećanju ništa nije pouzdano, njihovu autentičnost može potvrditi samo naše srce, ono "nešto" duboko ukopano u nama.

Ja se često, u svojim sećanjima, vraćam u svoje detinjstvo i mladost, u grad čije ime nose naši snovi. Pokušavam da povežem neke istrgnute slike i da dam život osećaju da su postojali neki ljudi, koje sam poznavala i volela, neke ulice kojima smo razdragani hodali, neki grad, iz koga smo odlazili, da bi mu se uvek ponovo vraćali.

text author: Tanja Petrović Krivokapić

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