#alexs outfits are so hit or miss

[jamesbranwen]

made alex and mc in the sims 2 and here is what alex did immediately upon moving in

found a job

seduced MC

burned the house down

great job alex

[povlnfour]

ੈ✩‧₊˚ HEY TWITTER! (AA23)

pairing: alex albon x f!reader

summary: alex spends the night of a concert dancing with a beautiful stranger, he remembers everything about her, from her outfit to what her favorite song was — well, except for her name.

genre: humour, fluff

authors note: dedicated to my fabulous 🪐 anon for the most incredible idea (and also just being the most beautiful human being)

*faceclaim for y/n: yasmin wijnaldum (but please imagine her as you see fit)

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lilymhe one of us had way too much to drink last night, you have one guess

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yourusername um idk this is really difficult

lilymhe it’s the sticker gem still on your face that is getting me

user wait…. is this her…

lilymhe is this WHO

user GUYS I THINK THIS MIGHT BE HER

user GOOD JOB INTERNET

user @/alex_albon CAN YOU CONFIRM OR DENY

alex_albon OH MY

user IM TAKING THAT AS A YES

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alex_albon started following yourusername ➡️

⬅️ yourusername followed alex_albon back

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yourusername challenge: which one of us had the most fun this past few days

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alex_albon well if you don’t say you then i fear i bought you dinner for no reason

user IT WAS HER!!! WE DID IT GUYS

user he found out who she was a few hours ago and he’s already on her instagram… maybe he has more power than we thought

lilymhe definitely not me i’ve been sat in a hotel room while you go meet boys

yourusername he bought doughnuts for us to share. omw to you with them now🤝

lilymhe i take it back @alex_albon you can stay

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alex_albon a story in 3 parts

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user idk what you did but i’m sure you deserved that middle finger

yourusername that food coma hit different

lilymhe you’re telling me i walked in to you both laying like vampires passed out

user the plot thickens

user heavily entertained by the idea of alex legitimately falling in love with a girl whilst drunk, hunting her down using the internet, and then going instagram official within 72 hours

user i don’t think they’re dating aha

user @/user ok well if he doesn’t want her then i do

user okay answer quickly are y’all dating

yourusername no one knows

alex_albon dating? what’s dating?

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williamsracing hit tweet, who’s this?

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user WILLIAMS I LOVE YOU

lilymhe can u ask him to order me more doughnuts pls

user so real, using best friend privileges

user he’s not a want but a need

yourusername oh i miss that face already☹️

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mclaren @/williamsracing heard you may be in need of our services…?

williamsracing we’re listening👀

mclaren plans are already in action🤝

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yourusername safe to say he learnt the meaning of the word dating

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user FINALLY

user alex albon most successful twitter user

lilymhe AND I DIDNT HEAR ABOUT THIS???

yourusername i tried to ring you but you didn’t pick up😔

lilymhe @/yourusername RING ME AGAIN WTF

alex_albon @/lilymhe she’s busy rn😁

lilymhe @/alex_albon GROSS

alex_albon @/lilymhe NOT LIKE THAT

alex_albon just posted a photo, 1 year later ੈ✩‧₊˚

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alex_albon got her number, remembered her name, kept her around for a year

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user wow who said romance was dead huh

user when we talk about having fanfic moments… that’s these two

user ok now bring her to the next race we miss seeing her in the paddock

landonorris and yet IM the one with no rizz

yourusername your girlfriend literally called you cute and you folded. shut up.

landosgf babe our relationship started because you hit me with your car ? that’s not rizz it’s stupidity

landonorris i regret ever introducing you two

yourusername i love you, or whatever🙄

mclaren @/williamsracing i’m not seeing a thank you?

williamsracing logan would have thanked us

alex_albon yes that’s right set him up next

logansargeant no thank yOU i can’t deal with the headache

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a/n: okay🤓 first post in a while. half written pre baby half written post. hopefully i’ve still got it LMAO. off to finish some written bits / write a new oscar imagine idea i had over the month

will i ever stop this mclaren matchmaking saga? i don’t think so

taglist: @iloveyou3000morgan @scopeiguess @gwginnyweasley @hetfieldd @sweetbabygirlsworld @wittywhispers @bingewatche @sebvettelsgirl @casperlikej @geniusalpaca @namgification @orangetreekid @

[4ngels0uls]

i wanna be your lover, i don’t wanna be your friend…. M.S

don’t like? don’t read.

summary: y/n loves matt so much, till she makes a mistake and just ends up confessing… making them to end up having sex.

paring: fem!reader + bsf!matt

warnings: SMUT, use of y/n, friends to lovers, confessing, being embarrassed, abusive relationship (not physically), toxic relationships, a big trigger warning!, manipulation, disrespect, strong language,

a/n: i was listening to this song and thought of this.

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y/ns pov

“hey matt?” you yell for him as your in his room and he’s in the kitchen, grabbing a drink. “what?” he yells back. you don’t answer and he sighs. he walks over to his room with the cup of water in his hand. “what do you want?” he asks as he walks over to his desk to put the cup down. “i’ve been talking to this guy and he wants to meet up but i’m scared… does he look like he would kidnap me?” you show him a picture. “nah.” he answers dryly. “are you okay?” you ask before he just walks away.

that’s when you realized…. you fucked up.

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“i’m going to go matt…” you tell him as your going to to get ready to meet that guy. “kay.” he answers dryly again. you sigh and walk out the door with your stuff as you walk to your car, digging in your bag for your keys. you find them and open your vehicle and start the car and drive off.

you get home, pulling into the driveway. getting out your car as you walk into your house, locking your car doors. you take your shoes off in the pitch black house. you lock your door and turn some lights on as you walk to your room. you go over and get some clothes ready for you to take a shower, till you begin thinking about matt and how dry his answers were when you showed him the picture.

you flop back on your bed, crushing the clothes that you just put nicely on the bed. you stare at your roof and sigh, thinking you fucked up the whole friendship with matt. you genuinely like matt… like more than a friend but you’ll know it’ll never happen to you begin to find other guys, like this one that your texting in this exact moment. “i can’t wait to see your beautiful face.” the guy texts you.. alex is his name as you remember.

you met him in a party once, he was drunk… like very, and he asked for your number and it went off.. you guys didn’t even fucking remember when you traded numbers. but here you are, texting him that you’ve been waiting to see him, while you broke matt into pieces without even realizing.

you showered, done your makeup, and fixed your slutty outfit you have on. you walk over to your body mirror and check yourself out. you smiling and go and get into your car and drive off to the restaurant you are going to.

that’s when you walk in and see him, alex….

biggest mistake ever.

“hey alex.” you smile as you walk up to him. “hey y/n.” he smiles as you guys sit at a table and… next thing you fucking know he’s drugged your drink but you didn’t even know. your in his bed, naked… and now your dating…

few weeks later

he’s been manipulating you and cheating on you left and right. you know you made a big ass mistake as you try to text matt and he immediately tells you to block him. “w-what..?” you question. “i said fucking block him y/n!” he scolds. “i-“ you try to speak. “shut the fuck up before i break your phone!” he yells. fuck… you text him secretly. “i love you matt.” before you block him.

he’s typing right before you hit that red button that says block. you sigh, trying not to cry. “stop fucking crying like a big baby, bitch!” he yells. that’s when you begin to get anxiety from his yells, but that’s when you decide to hide it since you’ve been hiding your emotions for years..

it’s been 2 months since this incident.

you’ve been missing matt, he’s all you think about.. but if alex known, he would have tried to kill y/n.. that’s why he’s asleep. fat shit always fucking sleeping. you took his phone and remembered his password, you open his phone and look through his messages, you start to cry.. “what the fuck…” you sob quietly. you throw his phone and get up and grab a bunch of shit of yours and leave his house, taking your car keys you found as he keeps you home by hiding your keys.

that’s when you know… that’s fucked up and you should have never been to dinner with him. you immediately hop into your car and the first place you think off is matt’s house. and you hope that chris or nick doesn’t answer and it’s matt that does. you arrive and pull into their driveway and go up and take a deep breath before knocking on the door.

and exactly who you didn’t want to answer.. it’s nick. “nope fuck that!” he yells before trying to slam the door. “wait!l you yell. “i need to talk to matt.” you tell nick. he sighs. “matt!” nick yells before going up the stairs. you wait for matt and he opens the door a bit. “y/n?” he says quietly. “matt.” you say. “why’d you block me.” he asks. “he made me.” you says and matt knows immediately. “come on.” he takes your hand and drags you in.

he takes you to his room, some new stuff, and some stuff gone. “are you okay…?” he asks you as he sits you down on his gaming chair. “kinda.” you answer quietly. “ya look cold.” he says. “yeah i am…” you say. “here i’ll go get you a blanket.” he walks off, and comes back with a blanket. “here.” he says as you wrap yourself up with the blanket. “s-so like… what ever happened?” he asks me. “oh.. uhh. you know that guy that i showed you? yeah well we started dating and he was apparently manipulating me, cheating, and being disrespectful and just rude.” you say.

“oh i’m sorry…” he answers as he doesn’t know what to say. “it’s not your fault.” you say. he gets up and hugs you. you sit shocked for a moment and begin to hug him back. he picks me up and lays down with me on his lap. “you know y/n… i’ll always love you.”

so tell me that you love me again..

you smile at his words. “i’ll always love you too.” you mumble. he rubs your back. you sit up a bit and you guys both lock eyes. he takes a glance at your lips then right back to your eyes. you lean in slowly and you kiss him, as he immediately returns the kiss back. you pull away. “oh my god… i’m so sorry.” you say, after realizing what happened.

“it’s okay.” matt says as he pulls you back to him by your waist. he wraps his arms around your neck and begins to hug you. he pulls a bit away from the hug and stares into your eyes. he kisses you softly, closing his eyes as he holds your face. your instantly kissing back.

he rolls you guys over, now he’s on top and your on the bottom. he grins against your lips. he runs his fingers down your body, slowly. his touch effecting the fuck out of you. you watch his fingers get to your inner thighs. you look into his eyes and he smiles. your eyes on his as his eyes are on yours. “your so pretty.” he mumbles softly. you try not to smile as he talks. he smirks as he watches you try not to smile.

he watches as he runs his fingers to your thighs. he gets to your waistband. he looks into your eyes, for consent. “you okay with this…?” he asks. you smile and nod. he pulls your pants to your ankles, then they fall to the ground. he smiles softly at the tiny fabric covering you. you sit up and take your shirt off, also revealing your bra. “needy, hm?” he smirks. he kisses you back reaches behind your back and unclasps your bra in the back. he pulls the bra off slowly as he kisses you roughly.

matt pulls away and stares at your tits, completely out of it as he stares. you chuckle. he leans down and kisses your neck. leaving a trail of hickeys. “fuck your beautiful.” he mumbles on your skin before kiss down to your tits, kissing them.. till he puts your nipple in his mouth, sucking on it. you gasp as you feel his lips latch onto your nipples.

he smirks and pulls his mouth away. he kisses you before his fingers slide down to the edge of your tiny thong. he smiles and his fingers get down your underwear, trying to tease you. his long, thin fingers get to your clit, massaging it gently, making you buck your hips. he chuckles and pushes your hips down and holds them down. he starts to move his fingers faster and you start to moan a bit.

he slides down to your pussy. he stares as he uses the patting of his thumb to fingers your clit. he pushes a light kiss on your pussy, making you gasp loudly. he chuckles and latches his mouth. fucking you with his mouth at this point.

“o-oh fuck!” you moan, tryna be a little quiet since his brothers are home. he smirks at how loud your being, his grin sitting on your clit. then he starts to use his mouth faster, making it impossible to stay quiet. you buck your hips far, making matt smash his nose into your pelvis. he chuckles against your pussy, pushing your hips down for him to continue as you squeeze your thighs around his head.

he goes down to your hole, tongue fucking you now. “fuckfuckfuck!” you moan, feeling your orgasm come closer. matt chuckles “you close?” he mumbles. you nod like crazy, try to keep quiet, squeezing your face together as he tongue fucks you.

you could tell by his eyes, he was fucking pussy drunk. “matt! ohh fuck!” you practically scream before cumming on his face, all of your juices leaking down his chin to his neck. he licks you clean as your sensitive. “matt!” you yell as you squirm. he smiles and sits up and hovers above you. “your so fucking pretty.” he says in a raspy tone before smashing his lips into yours. he kisses you passionately, his tongue grazing your bottom lip as you let him in.

his tongue exploring your mouth. you whine against his lips, as matt swallows your whine. he breaks the kiss as he kisses down your neck, leaving fat fucking hickeys on your neck. “mattt!” you whine because you know everybody will ask. he smiles and kisses you again before undoing his belt on his baggy jeans.

you watch as he fumbles with the belt. he throws it somewhere on the ground before pushing both, pants and boxers down. he cock springing put as soon as he pulls his pants down. you look up at him as you lay beneath him. “what’s wrong?” he asks. “your big as fuck.” you say quietly, BEGGING silently he doesn’t hear what you said. he smiles and chuckle lightly before leaning down to you. he lines himself up between your folds, making you fumble silently. you gasp quietly as the feel the contact.

he smiles widely and shoves himself inside of you slowly. he smiles down as he watches your core swallow his hard cock. he begins to thrust faster, making you gasp loudly. “fuck!” you moan as the bed creeks loudly. he groans softly, moving even faster. you throw you head back in pleasure. “fuck…” he groans as you clench, making him grunt loudly. “fuck sakes… if you keep doing that i won’t last long.” he groans

you begin to start milking him at this point. he’s struggling to not cum right in this moment right now. he starts to think of things that won’t make him finish as fast. but your moans and the skin slapping, echoing in the room is making so much harder. “fuck!” he groans loudly before releasing his release inside you, painting your spongey walls white.

you release right after he does. “fuck…m’ sorry.” he apologizes. “it’s okay. seriously.” you tell him. “you were fucking milking me.” he mumbles into your neck. “i knowww” you whine. he chuckles. he slowly pulls out. he gets up and goes to grab a wet warm cloth, to wipe both of your guys releases off you. he wipes your sensitive core, slowly not to hurt or anything. he throws the cloth somewhere and lays his head on your stomach.

“i love you.” he mumbles, closing his eyes. “i…love you too.” you answer.

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a/n

holy fuck i took long to post this.

i’m sorry, been busy. i’ll try to get the next carrington one out as soon as i can😊

THANK YOUS FOR 400😓

[cissyenthusiast010155]

My Guardian Angel ~Broken!Rita Calhoun xFem Younger!Investigator!Reader (Liz Donnelly x Alex Cabot) feat. Rafael Barba & Olivia Benson

Summary— AU where Rita has an abusive husband, and one night, after he storms out, Rita calls Reader. Reader brings Rita to the person who helped her with her own haunted past, Elizabeth Donnelly. Alex, Barba, and Liv makes appearances. What does the night have in store for Rita and Reader…?

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Warnings: angst, a little fluff, dead dove: do not eat, implied abuse, implied sexual assault, implied abusive husband, comforting, crying, alcohol consumption, anxiety attacks, a little self destructive behavior, mentions to prostitution, SVU things, Elizabeth Donnelly, Alex Cabot, Rafael Barba, Olivia Benson, Liz and Alex are a bit of a power couple, gray ending, etc.

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You didn’t know Rita Calhoun well. At least not originally. From the moment you did meet, you both couldn’t deny the connection between the two of you. You had always lived in coinciding worlds, she was a New York defense attorney, and you were an investigator for 1PP, occasionally lended out to SVU.

Originally, she was the lawyer whom you had hired for your idiot of a brother when he had been caught and charged with soliciting a prostitute. You had met with the high class woman on a couple of occasions, to discuss your brothers bail, probation, trial, payment, and anything else pertaining to his case.

You saw yourself intrigued by her elegant manner, high end fashion, and confidence. Soon you saw yourself get hooked to the tiny smiles and chuckles you managed to pull from her when in private. You found yourself fighting to make the woman laugh as much as you could, her laugh always seemed to make your day. And during the trial, your eyes were on her the entire time. You lived off those days outfits that Rita would strut into court in.

So when you checked your phone late Friday night, the last thing you expected to see what a very many handfuls of missed calls from Rita Calhoun. You saw that she had left a voicemail in the last call, so you pressed play.

“Heyyyy Y/N… S-sorry to be bothering you so I know it’s^^late… I… I just… I don’t know what to do, call me back k bye”

It was Rita alright, but something was very wrong. She had been stammering and hiccuping throughout the entire voicemail, and had broken into sobs by the end. She sounded like she’d been crying and drinking for far too long… Her sounds triggered memories of your own life, memories that you had gone to great lengths to bury.

You immediately called the woman back. The dial rang for a couple tones, then it shut off. You hit call again. The second time, she picked up. You heard a sniffle and then a choke sob.

“H-hey…” she practically whispered.

“Rita, Hi, is everything alright?”

“I…” She stammered, before the call went silent.

“Rita?” You asked, your concern growing.

“N-no” She whispered, then letting out another choked sob.

You took a deep breath and your instincts kicked in once more. You got Rita to give you her address and told her that you would be over as soon as possible. That night you broke the made the most traffic violations in your entire life.

You entered the house, the front door having been unlocked which was mildly concerning to you. You walked through the lavish, lofty apartment, until you found Rita curled up facing away from you in the living room on the floor with a full bottle of wine in her hand. Your heart sank and a lump came into your throat. You hated how normal and used to this sight you were. Because not too long ago, this had been you…

You dropped to the floor, immediately going to comfort the woman. You carefully removed the alcohol, setting it aside. Rita let out a choke sob, immediately curling up into your lap. As she turned to face you, you saw the massive black eye that she had. Your eyes scanned her entire body, finding more red, raw skin marks along her arms and some blue bruising on her neck. Your heart nearly broke as Rita sobbed into your lap.

“I—im s-sorry… I didn’t-didn’t know who t-to call…! It’s it’s stupid, nothing really—” Rita choked out, muffled as she cried into your chest.

You knew this behavior. You knew it all too well.

“Hey hey, it’s okay. I’m here Rita… It’s all going to be okay. Can I touch you, honey…? Would that be alright…?” You very gently asked the woman, coming a little closer to her, trying to show that you were no threat.

Rita nodded as her cries were muffled by her face being in the crook of your neck. She clung onto you like her life depended on it.

“Ok, good… you are doing so good for me, Rita. Take some deep breaths for me? Can you try to do that?” You comforted the woman, bringing your hands around to hold the woman in your lap.

You could hear Rita trying to take some deep breaths as she nodded, although her hiccups made it more difficult.

“Good, very good, Rita.” You praised, then bringing your hands to cup the woman’s cheeks and direct her scattered gaze to you.

“Now Rita this is important… I need you to come back to me and think, okay?”

A slow nod.

“Is he going to come back anytime soon…?” You softly asked.

Rita’s eyes widened and she began to panic at your question. Your hold on the woman only tightened and you insisted on her answer.

“I know you don’t want to think about it, but I need to know if you’re safe staying here Rita.” You explained firmly yet lovingly.

Rita took some more deep breaths before stammering,

“I… he he’s gone out… drinking…” she gulped, “Be back late…”

Her eyes were red and glossy, and they only panicked more at the idea of her husband returning. You rubbed her back and caressed her check in comfort.

“Ok. We need to get you to a hospital, Rita…” you gently said, knowing the possible outlast that your words might cause.

Rita practically jumped out of your lap and was quick to stand up and start pacing in the living room. Her fingers were red and raw and fidgeting. Her gaze scattered everywhere. You slowly stood up and tried to corner the woman into your embrace.

“No no no hospitals… hospitals means cops and that means court and no no—” Rita rambled, her thoughts spiraling more and more.

You grabbed the woman’s hands, clasping them in your own to ground the woman. Her sobbing gaze finally met yours once more.

“Okay. That’s okay. Rita, listen to me, is there anywhere you can go to stay for the time being…?” You softly asked.

Rita’s lip began to tremble and her knees buckled, her body falling into yours. Luckily, you managed to gently catch and carry the weight of the woman while she regained partial strength.

“N-not RAF—Rafael… he can’t know, no no no one…” Rita choked out in gasps.

When she wasn’t able to come up with any other options, your mind went to the person who had helped you.

“Okay okay, that’s okay, Rita. How about Elizabeth? You know Judge Donnelly? She’s a close friend and I know she can help…” you spoke with understanding and reassurance.

Rita looked up to you from collapsing in your arms and nodded slowly. But her eyes told you that she had sunken too far into her thoughts, that you would have to start making the decisions in her best interest until she came back to you.

You gently placed Rita back on the couch, quickly going to the kitchen to grab her a water, while you then ran around the place, trying to pack her a weekend back. After about 15 minutes, you had the bag in hand and you were leading the woman out of the house and into a cab. The entire cab ride, Rita was snuffling and silently sobbing in your shoulder.

Once you reached Liz’s brownstone, you violently knocked on the door, Rita protected being you and holding your hand. The door flew open but it wasn’t Liz, it was a blonde. Your eyes went wide and you gulped, suddenly regretting not having double checked with Liz beforehand.

“You’re Y/N, right…? I’m Alex.” The tall blonde spoke slowly yet confidently.

“Yes, um is Liz home?” You said, quickly getting to the point while trying to hide Rita behind you to the best of your ability.

But Liz had told you about Alex, she was sharp, didn’t miss a thing.

“Yea, she’s in the kitchen… Is that Calhoun…?” Alex hummed, leaning against the doorway.

You took a deep breath and brought Rita to stand next to you. Alex’s jaw dropped and she took a step back in shock.

“I just… we needed a safe place to go for the night and Liz always said her door was always open and I’m sorry if we intruded, I just can’t handle this, I mean I know Liz can handle it, and so I thought—” you rambled.

Before you could say another word, the blonde was pulling you and Rita into the brownstone, closing the door behind her and marching straight up to Liz in the kitchen.

“Is that our take-out, bunny…?” Liz hummed, while sipping some wine before her gaze met yours and then Rita’s disheveled state.

“Oh my god.” Liz immediately put her glass doing and rushed over to Rita, her hands wandering all over the woman, her gaze scouring the woman’s injuries, “Rita, Darling, what happened…??”

Rita’s lip trembled before more violent sobs came out. No coherent words were possible for the woman at this point, all she could do was embrace Liz and sob into her chest. Liz happily consoled the poor woman before her gaze meet yours along with the go bag.

“I’m sorry…” you mouthed, referring to breaking up her and Alex’s obvious night together.

“Hush now, you did the right thing, take Rita’s things to the first bedroom on the second floor.” Liz told you, waving off your unneeded apology.

You immediately nodded and went to go up the stairs. Then Luz turned to Alex.

“Go run a bath, warm not too hot.” Liz spoke firmly.

Alex was off to the master bathroom after a quick nod. When you both returned, you found Rita clung around Liz like a Koala, clinging on for dear life and continuing to sob in her chest. The sight brought flashbacks of the night you had stumbled up on Liz’s doorstep, in an eerily same condition as Rita…

Liz soothed Rita while guiding her to the master bathroom. The older blonde sent you a comforting gaze with a nod, telling you that she had it. You placed a hand on your heart and took a shattered breath, nodding slowly.

It was then that you noticed Alex coming up beside you. You turned your head to her slightly.

“I… I just didn’t know where else to go… I’m sorry if I ruined your night…” you breathed out.

Alex brought a hand to your shoulder and reassuringly squeezed your skin lightly. Her eyes twinkled with sympathy and care.

“Hey, it’s okay. You made the right call. And hey, I’m glad to finally meet you.” Alex sighed, “Can I get you anything…?”

You nodded and then sighed yourself.

“Tea maybe…? Or fuck some scotch now that I think about it…”

A deep chuckle reverberated throughout Alex’s chest as she nodded in agreement, going to the kitchen and pulling a bottle out of the liquor cabinet. She poured two glasses and handed you one of them.

“Thanks” you muttered.

Alex hummed an of course in response, before going to sit down in the classy living room. You sat across from her, sipping your scotch lightly. The blonde looked you dead in the eye, as she sighed.

“Liz told me a bit about you and that night.”

You gulped and struggled to maintain the intense eye contact. You knew that Liz and Alex were close, really close, however it still was hard to reconcile another person knowing something so vulnerable about you. But if Liz trusted Alex with it, so did you.

“Yea… I was and am still so grateful to Lizzie for all that she did for me…” you confessed.

“Lizzie…?” Alex chuckled dryly with a cock of an eyebrow.

“Yea…” you breathily chuckled, “Her and my dad worked together…”

Alex smiled lightly in understanding, nodding along, waving her hand in the air and prompting you to continue, knowing from what Liz had said that that wasn’t the whole story.

“Yeah they were colleagues, and so I saw Lizzie at events and she’d been at my childhood home a couple times… I’d always been pretty independent, both my parents working all the time, and me being the oldest led to me getting used to being on my own. And then my parents divorced, and I got even more alone…” you sighed.

Another wave of sympathy washed over Alex’s face, as she sipped her scotch and listened intently.

“I’m sorry. I definitely know the pains of divorced parents…” Alex sighed.

You smiled lightly and nodded, before continuing you tawdry tale,

“Anyways, Lizzie was one of the only people who reached out to me, to y’know check on me and stuff. She’s always been in my corner, and she’s practically filled the role of a mother ever since the divorce…” you spoke out softly.

You could tell that Alex knew most of this, and that she was waiting for the part about how this all connected to Rita, so you cut to the chase.

“Anyways, about two years ago, I meet and started to see this guy… Looking back, he was a lot like my father, and I should have recognized the warning signs earlier… But I didn’t. And I let it go on for an entire year… Until…” you sucked in a breath, “I wound up on Lizzie’s doorstep, heart broken and bruised…”

You saw Alex’s audible gulp at your last sentence. You saw how her hand tightly clutched her glass, her knuckles almost white. With a deep breath, she nodded and prompted you to continue with her hand once more.

“Anywho, Lizzie helped me get my shit together and throw him out of my place and my life. I’d taken his abuse for a whole year, and I’m still recovering to this day from the number he did on me…” You concluded your story.

Alex then stood up and came to sit next to you on the couch you inhabited. Her hand came to squeeze your shoulder reassuringly.

“I’m so sorry that you had to go through all of that…” Alex sighed, “I hear you, recovery takes time.”

You took a breathy, deep breath with a shaky nod, all the memories of your past coming up as you talked about it all. But her touch was soothing. It was then that Liz emerged from the hallway and came into the living room with a sigh. The older woman sat down next to you, a hand running up and down your thigh in reassurance.

“She’s okay, Rita is going to be fine.” Liz hummed, before stealing your glass of scotch and sipping away at it.

You didn’t mind the cheeky gesture, lord knows she needed the relaxation, merely humming and nodding in response.

“She’s in the bath, and she’s asking for you…” Liz spoke once more.

You sucked in a breath and nodded, starting to stand up. As you went to leave and find Rita in the master bath, you turned back towards Liz and Alex, who were now snuggling lovingly on the couch.

“Thank you Lizzie… Really, thank you.” You breathed out shakily.

Liz met your gaze, her eyes filled with love and care, and the older woman nodded.

“Anytime, sweetheart.”

You nodded lightly with a small smile, before turning around and making your way to find Rita. By the time you reached the bath, you found Rita passed out in the warm water, snoring lightly and peacefully. You noted how graceful and content Rita looked asleep. Coming up to the tub, you sat down next to the rim, and proceeded to tuck a stray hair behind Rita’s ear.

She must be exhausted… you thought. And your suspicions were confirmed as the woman continued to sleep until the water in the tub threatened to go cold. It was then that you gently nudged the brunette out from her slumber. She snorted lightly as her eyes fluttered open. Her gaze still looked shattered and sad, and her lip was still lightly trembling.

“Fuck I’m mm sorry, I must have fallen asleep—” Rita rambled in a quiet mumble.

“Hush, none of that. It’s completely alright…” you comforted the woman, raising your hand for her to stop.

Rita shut her mouth and blushed a little, then shivering in the now cold bath water.

“Thanks…” she whispered.

“Of course. Now let’s get you out and into something warm…” you hummed, grabbing a fluffy towel from the bathroom cabinet and then reaching your hand out towards Rita.

Rita happily took your hand, then climbing out of the tub, then you proceeded to wrap the woman up in the warm towel.

“M-my clothes…” Rita murmured, looking to the ground as fear lurched in the pit of her stomache at the idea of having to wear her bloodied clothing.

You gently rubbed her towel wrapped shoulders with a light smile.

“I grabbed some things before we left your place, the bag is on the toilet. It will have to do for now, until we figure out what to do…” you cooed caringly.

Rita blushed lightly and muttered a thank you. You told her it’s was the least that you could do, before giving her a kiss on the forehead and leaving her in the bathroom to go through the bag and change.

As you exited the room and walked back into the living room, you found Liz and Alex right where you had left them, with Alex curled up in Liz’s arms. Liz’s head popped up from her gaze on Alex back to you as you came into the living room and took a seat on an opposing couch, with a pondering look on your face.

“I know that look…” Liz hummed cheekily, taking another sip of your scotch, “What’s on your mind, kiddo?”

You bit your lip, pulling out your phone, before looking over to Liz.

“I was thinking about maybe calling Barba…” you mused aloud, your mind questioning on what to do next.

At this, Alex perked up to. Liz’s eyes widened and her expression was a knowing one, one that quickly understood your line of thought.

“I see… What did Rita say?” Liz hummed, placing the scotch back on the table and much to Alex’s delight starting to massage the young blonde’s shoulders.

You looked away from Liz at her words, and back to your phone.

“When I asked where she could go, she said not Rafael… I know that their friends, she’s mentioned him before… But he could help…” you sighed, inwardly conflicted.

Liz sighed at your admission. And she seemed to be in deep thought for a moment before she spoke,

“When you came to me, did I call anyone…?” The older woman asked you.

You bit your lip and sighed.

“No…”

“Exactly. Even though I wanted to… Probably would have called Liv, but I didn’t. Because you didn’t want me to.” Liz spoke,

You once again looked to the ground instead of meeting the older woman’s gaze.

“I’m not saying that Barba is a bad idea…” she slowly explained, “I think that it would be best if we ask Rita first.”

“Ask me what?” Rita’s timid voice echoed through the expansive living room and kitchen.

All three of your heads swiveled with extreme speed to the end of the hallway where the brunette stood. She padded her way through part of the kitchen and then into the living room. You immediately scooted over and lightly waved her over to come and sit. Rita did exactly that before repeating her question, more vocal this time.

“What did you want to ask me first?” The woman spoke.

Liz and Alex immediately eyed you, quirking their eyebrows and very clearly telling you that since this was your idea, you were the one who was going to say something. You gulped, turning your body more towards the group. Your gaze met Rita’s and you reached your hands out to grasp her left available hand and reassuringly squeeze it.

“I… We were talking about maybe calling Liv… or Barba…” you shakily breathed out, squeezing her hand lovingly while speaking to comfort the woman.

The same panic from earlier this night came rushing back to the woman’s gaze. But she was a little more collected now, and she seemed to handle the surge of emotions better this time around.

“I…” Rita stammered, “I don’t know…”

She slumped forward a bit and closed her eyes, a singular tear escaping her eyes. You immediately extended your arm and brought the brunette into your soft embrace.

“That’s okay. We can deal with all that later… How are you feeling…?” You gently spoke.

“Exhausted…” Rita choked out, “and stupid… like it’s all my fault…!”

The broken defense lawyer turned completely towards you, clinging to your frame as she began to cry into your shoulder. You gently caressed her back and shoulders reassuringly.

“That’s it, it’s going to be ok, Rita… It’s all going to be okay…” you soothed the woman.

“B-but how do you know that…?”

You sighed.

“Because… I’ve been through something eerily similar…”

At this, Rita pulled back and looked at you with eyes full of empathy.

“I’m so sorry…” she uttered, fully processing the words you had just spoken.

You smiled lightly and cupped Rita’s face.

“It’s okay… I’m past that now. Now I’m here for you… Now how about bed…?” You hummed caringly.

Rita nodded and hummed a soft thank you, before you guided the woman up and to one of Liz’s many guest bedrooms. You stayed with her until she was asleep, which didn’t take too long, but you stayed nonetheless, before then turning in for the night yourself in another guest room, which Liz had so kindly offered you.

~~

Rita spent the rest of the weekend at Liz’s. Liz and Alex were more than happy to host, and they graciously let you stay as well to keep an eye on the broken brunette.

Then come Monday morning, you were walking into the SVU squad room with Rita anxiously by your side. You grabbed her shaky hand and squeezed it reassuringly, as your other hand rapped on Captain Liv Benson’s office door. Neither of you expected Barba to swing the door open, and he sure as hell didn’t expect to see Rita.

Liv ushered you in, and Rafael could immediately sense something was wrong. Rafael simply closed the door behind you, not bothering to leave.

“Rita, Y/N, how can I help you?” Liv spoke.

Rita shuffled her feet and looked to the ground. You squeezed her hand again and whispered that it was going to be okay.

“Wait what is going on…?” Rafael cut in.

Liv sent Barba a warning glance for him to be quiet to let you or Rita speak. You gently looked towards the brunette, whose lip was now trembling.

“I… I was raped…” Rita shakily breathed out, as a small tear rolled down her left cheek.

~~~

Part 2 with a happy ending…? Or maybe something more angsty…? 😏

Alex Cabot Masterlist

Olivia Benson Masterlist

Rita Calhoun Masterlist ~Coming Soon (;

Elizabeth Donnelly Masterlist ~Coming Soon (;

Rafael Barba Masterlist ~Coming Soon (;

[too-many-rooks]

Spoiler warning: Long rambly notes I took while watching season 3, disclaimer that a lot of this is just character moments/lines I found interesting and initial bones of an au idea for a burgeoning, extremely self indulgent slightly-darker-Alex in season 3 wip I’ve started.

Also it was the middle of the night and I was very tired and wired out of my gourd on some mix of cheap white wine and floods of hyperfixation-sourced dopamine. Also also I only started taking notes at ep 3?

Episode 3

Alex is SUCH a better spy this season than when he began even in the first few episodes prior to SCORPIA training he’s more careful and precise and the team feels better organised - he did so well on that boat I’m so proud of my baby

I’m actually enjoying Tom and Kyra fucking about more than I expected. Tom pulling Kyra together after the boat explosion suprised me by how emotive it was. But I do want them to.. go away. Alex should more isolated/desperate/have NO other choices than SCORPIA.

Everything in Malagosto seems so staged to just see how Alex will react to it all - here’s an unlocked door, here’s an Alex sized vent and a dead spot in the cameras, what are you gonna do about it? +Alex absolutely speaks French I think he’s just not giving that away yet

Oh yes yes lingering bad touch from Julia Rothman hitting the right notes even though that costume is a WILD kaftan moment. Evil carmen sandiago/noir femme fatale aesthetic where are you I miss you so much

Ohhhh Julia saying Ian walked away and abandoned him and that was what hit him worst oh my goooooooooood

(Outfit change from julie mean day change or is she just a multiple outfits a day kinda person. Believable, I guess)

Julia���s gaslighting I ssoooo crazy ‘we trust you. We want you.’ After having his closest people not trust him, and now maybe questioning if Ian even wanted him!

Julia fucking loved this, she’s totally thrilled by her own power. Queen 👸🏻.

God Jones and the department is going THROUGH IT THIS SEASON, just suddenly surrounded by corpses

Julia : offers irrefutable proof, upsets him, then presses him to continue believing what he did before and belittling his objections - very subtle but more firm tone of voice, less motherly/accepting, very clear that the noose around Alex’s neck is always there.

She’s so delighted at the prospect of making Alex into the perfect soldier

Julia: “I want you to meet your tutor”

Me: ‘here he here he comes here he comes.’ And then I threw of my blanket, pushed myself onto my knees, and started bouncing and palm clapping in sheer delight. I basically never happy stim like this but MY GOD the flood of dopamine is IMMENSE.

More manic laughter at the start of episode 4 realising I’m about to see John and young Yassen. Nicuragua! 18 years ago!

God nervous baby Yassen with a gun

HES!! SO!!! BABY!!!

Baby boy already got his colour scheme locked down

Baby Yassen has curls - is it just the humidity or maybe does he have naturally curly hair that he straightens so he looks less cute?

Johns actor has a real resemblance to Ian (and Jack Lowden) but less so to otto

Ohoho scar moment scar moment bc Yassen was nervous and fucked up two people one bullet

“Close your eyes” as I tell these people I’m going to shoot you and have faith

God cut to adult Yassen WATCHING ALEX SLEEP LOOKING SO INTENSE

“Leave the past behind us.” “Ian rider was a professional. It was not personal it was my job.” “Think of this as a school and your dead by the end of the day” (actual honesty for the first time)

Alex not committing to being able to work with Yassen is perfect

Yassen taking Alex TO HIS KNEES so easily besties not been slowed down too much by a bullet to the chest

Soaking wet!!!!!!!!

Alex shooting scene amazing, as was Yassen bursting into his room immediately after for a murder pep talk. Alex has no privacy privileges from Yassen

Yassen removing the humanity from his targets, names/faces/lives are irrelevant, they are just blank targets. “One day you’ll have to murder them.”

“That’s not gonna happen”

Yassen *be so ffr rn face*

Really interesting to see the other side of the department covering up an agent death and lying to the family - I like the department with more humanity/emotional resonance than pure ruthlessness

Shitty Malagosto communal dorm room and matching drab grey hoodies my beloved

Shame there’s no ‘your not afraid of a little prick are you?’ ‘I wouldn’t call you that’ line. (But switching out the ‘getting vaccinated will implant you with secret nano tech that will kill you’ plottline probs a good idea)

Ooooh Julia creepily poisoning him so excited making me think of her delighting in drugging him in a cocktail of ‘let me take care of you’ ways

Yassen pulling rank to break up the fight!!

Ooh Nile wants to take down Yassen so bad.

Toms film skills coming in clutch recording/ documenting things so Alex will be taken seriously, glad to see him be… less of a dead weight to the team

Begrudgingly-impressed-at-Alex Yassen, even with the “come on that’s a bad idea”, “yeah, but!” Teenagerisms

Yassen’s core (suppressed) emotions: fear, doubt, panic

Alex: love, hope, friendship (okay dear, 🙄 but remember you’re literally becoming an assassin why are you so niave all of a sudden?)

Alex insisting John saved him bc he had compassion and was his friend and that Yassen’s rejection of that makes him lonely oh oh my heart my heart

I LOVE how much fun Nile has being evil at his job of threatening children.

Episode 5

Oh my god HIT HIM ALEX where do you think you are? How do you think you’ll actually manage to get those trainees to trust you? Stop whining and hit the man with a wooden sword, christ

Smithers (in reference to Alex) “he’s out there being a teenager because of us” *cut to Alex, very much in danger, contemplating his capacity to kill*

Julia: “no one leaves,” [scorpia, me, interchangeable to her]

mission with Yassen!

Packing for the mission with Yassen!!!

Yassen can’t read his handwriting!!!

“You’ve put… lockpick?”

“I left my last one in Nile. “

Alex bitching about his meagre gadgets at point Blanc 💯

Matching tactical turtlenecks!!!

“I don’t want you to fail. I don’t want you to die.”

Alex and Yassen are a team but Yassen gives Alex command of them oh boysieeeee

Again glad they dropped the vaccine bit: vaccines aren’t dangerous, but vaping is!!

Of on a road trip with Yassen!!

A murder road trip!

Love Kyra seeing the shot and the body - I know why it didn’t happen but I do kinda wish for a more corrupted violent Alex coerced/bargained into firing it himself

That Tom confrontation was great - I do want to see it as like a ‘your getting in my way’ intentional cruelty to push him away and keep him safe when Alex is too deep in SCORPIA to be deluded about thinking he can go home

Alex rejects intimacy with Julia and she cracks down her authority ‘no one leaves’

Ep 6

Love Alex spooky in the cemetery, SCORPIA hot on his heels

Sharing a grotty safe house together god SO GOOD

“We trust each other. You should try it sometime.”

“If it’s not emotional why do you do it?”

“Because it’s my job. (Identity/life/personal connections/sacrificed everything for) I work for SCORPIA. I’m good at it. You could be too.” Olive branch of intimacy - wants alex to be more like him, so they can be equals, can share this life that he apparently finds satisfaction in, not thinking or making decisions beyond how best to achieve his goal/finish the task(/order)assigned to him/subject himself to feeling emotions/thinking about his life beyond his attempts to depersonalise himself as just a weapon - just a professional with no emotions, and that that is fundamentally who he is. Evidently having some inconvenient feelies about Alex tho.

Oh no his delivery disguise makes him look like a caveman. Glad he took off the accessories for the Jones confrontation, his hair actually looks great there all tousled. (Beginning to realise how important characters hair is to me bc I still hate Julia’s I want some dark perfect waves this Bob is ough)

I’m really glad they settled on Yassen NOT knowing about John - he twists it that John didn’t betray him bc he had nothing to gain from being kind to him, so it wasn’t false, but he is so 100% loyal to John, eager to twist any criticism. I do wish we’d seen more of their relationship, but expecting some Russian roulette bits was overly optimistic

“I know my place” he’s IMMEDIATELY off to rescue his boy (actually, where did he go? All of that last episode I was just WHAT ABOUT YASSEN? Was he just plotting a rescue that didn’t need to happen and waiting for his boy to show up?)

Dare I say… good for blunt? Stephen dillane is just so charming I can’t help but like him. And you see some flashes of his ruthlessness like when he talks to Greif but he’s not a 24/7 conniving monster. Also Jones in charge and Alex possibly (definitely) returning to spy work in a couple of years? I like that. Totally abandoning it would have felt unsatisfying.

Loved that moment on the roof - missed opportunity for them to awkwardly wave at each other, but I’m so happy I predicted wrongly and Yassen gets to live and walk away and put down his weapons. There’s so much space for how they can reconnect in that.

[lightningzbolt]

Sims 2 CC Mega Post

I say 'mega' but there really isn't a whole lot, I just didn't wanna split it up. Anyway, yeah, I mostly and normally and prefer to make Sims 4 stuff, but I made some Sims 2 stuff for me last year and this and I figured, may as well share it. Most of these require outside meshes so keep that in mind, Sims 2 CC downloading is a bloody nightmare.

Alex Skin

So I made a custom skin with tattoos for Alex as it seemed simple enough to do. Ain't gonna look perfect, but it looks fine from a distance, same resources I used for my Sims 4 versions, so I did vector the rose and skull. I based the skin off these default replacements. You don't NEED these, but they make it so that everyone matches. Yes that site requires an account and login, it's NSFW, it has body hair and works with nudity. Because obviously I play with mods like that. I made the skin look right for Fit/Thin/Fat but I didn't bother with any age but adult nor did I bother with female, because, idc. I THINK this is Alex's hair mesh, but idfk, I have so many that look like this.

It also works in Castaway Stories, as does all of these, because I used them in it too. :> That made Alex the palest guy on the island as all the skin tones in Castaway Stories were shifted to one tone darker per. I manually put my replacement skin in that too, but I didn't have the darkest, so no body hair to them.

Streaked Jack Hair

You need this mesh to make this work. I made this for myself as I didn't really like anything else I had for him, and this is Sims 2, so I went with earlier hair, and I liked how this mesh looked. Loosely based on like this hair. I didn't bother with other ages beyond adult again. I would have if I decided to de-age him and send him to university, but I did that with Otto instead.

Again also works in Castaway Stories, as I used it, again. It's easy to import Sim's faces from 2 into the stories games.

Awsten Tricolor Hair

Awsten Red Hair

You need this mesh to make this work. The bright green in that is also great and I used that for him at first. These are his eyes too, or rather his right eye. No screenshots of the red hair, but it's just a bright plain red in case you prefer it. I made this hair as it looked okay with the colors kind of being randomly spread around the mesh. This is his outfit btw. Again only works with adult as far as I'm aware.

BONER Shirt

R&R Shirt

NoRegRetsShirt

JALEXShirt

BMTHShirt1

BMTHShirt2

BMTHShirt3

BMTHShirt4

You need this mesh to make these work. All of these are Everyday fashion only by account of only the Everyday category having the option for separates and these are all tops. Don't ask me what pants I use, I have so many downloaded, but these work with all of them.

As it turns out I didn't take screenshots of all of these ingame, but maybe these help with that.

PTV Hoodie

DropDead Hoodie

You need this mesh for the PTV hoodie. I don't THINK the DD hoodie needs anything external, I compared it to a vanilla mesh and it seemed to line up. I don't know, I made it last December and I didn't log everything I did. Like the shirts above, Everyday category only as they are tops.

As a bonus, here's some misc Sims 2 screenshots to hit the image limit, including this stuff and with no context to my game. I know most people on modern computers play with The Ultimate Collection, but I installed it via discs, and a few ISOs as I didn't feel like spending $30+ for a few missing stuff packs on eBay. :) Pretty sure those ISOs are why my game is British and I have to always manually set the clock and a few other small things every time I load it. Not a big deal to me, just felt I'd mention for clarity. Castaway Stories is from an ISO too as have you SEEN those prices on eBay?! I have Sims 3 on Disc too, 100%, never made any CC for it tho. I love how Sims 2 was out at the peak of, ahem, mid to late 2000s culture so a lot of CC for it is of it's time in the best possible way. I kept this theme going with adding in custom music that ONLY existed from before 2009 (so 2008 is my cut-off date) and it's fun only hearing music of the era ingame. :) I DID make stuff for Sims 1 too years ago but I don't know how I even really did it so idk how to make more and also I don't care that much. I wanted to try playing with Alex and Jack in Sims 1 too but I kept getting fucked up files that didn't work or look right and I didn't know what I needed to do to make it right and I didn't wanna waste more time than I already did trying to make their faces. I do have semi-not ugly faces and outfits for a couple others tho.

Oh yeah, all this stuff is made in the Body Shop and GIMP for textures.

Whole SimFileShare Folder

[innytoes]

Stop flirting with yourself in the mirror, Reggie + any (Flynn? Carrie? Anyone? I can't choose)

Reggie wasn't quite sure why he was invited to girls night when all the other guys - even Alex, who liked pink and pop music and dancing - were banned. Maybe because he had Serious Opinions in the Team Jess versus Team Dean versus Team Logan debate. Maybe because he was basically Julie's unofficial brother and Ray's favourite child and he was always over at the Molina house anyway. Maybe because he liked butterflies and glitter.

What started as sleepovers and movie nights as teenagers evolved into clubbing once they hit their twenties. (And then sleepovers and movies later. Romcoms were way better when you were three fruity cocktails in and had stopped to grab greasy take out on the way home.)

Also, he loved playing Fake Boyfriend for all the girls. It meant they could dance more freely, without guys bothering them, and sometimes it meant that people thought he had three girlfriends at once which was hilariously good for his ego. Even though Julie was like, kind of his sister, which, you know, gross.

"What do you think?" Julie asked, coming out of the bedroom where the girls were getting ready. She was wearing a pretty dress, all shiny sequins, and a pair of black sneakers with white doodles that would light up perfectly under the black light.

"I think Tía would have a heart attack if she saw you wear that," he said, shooting her some finger guns. "You look like a sparkly disco ball in the best way. Those sneakers are going to pop. "

Flynn was out next, and he gave an enthusiastic attempt at beatboxing so she could walk down the catwalk to show off her outfit, some tight faux-leather pants and an eye-popping neon crop top over a mesh body suit. He applauded at her flourish and pose at the end. "You look like a fashion model!" he said, and she grinned. "We're not going to even get to the club before you're swarmed by fashion bloggers! They're going to crown you their queen."

"You look..." she eyed him. "The same."

"Hey!" Reggie pouted. "I spent like forty-five minutes on my hair!" Okay, so he was just in his usual ripped jeans and black tank top, but like, the clubs got hot. He wanted to get his groove on with the girls, so the leather jacket was out. He was still debating if he should wrap his flannel around his waist or not. Even though chances were if he did, one of the girls would be wearing it home because he was a gentleman.

"And it looks perfect, babygirl," Flynn said, and he didn't care if there was a sarcastic undertone to it, he beamed. "But you are not Club Ready. Hold on, let me grab some eye-liner."

And it was only because of many, many Girls Nights that Reggie had perfected sitting perfectly still without flinching while people poked sharp things near his eyes.

But when Flynn was done, well, he looked Good. Like, good good. Like sexy brooding punk who had a secret soft side good. He completely missed Carrie's grand entrance, he was so busy making faces at himself in the mirror.

"Stop flirting with yourself in the mirror, Reginald," Carrie said, impatiently tapping her foot so he could turn around and give her her deserved accolades.

So he did, turning around and beaming. Carrie was, of course, in all pink, a tight dress and heels that Reggie had no idea how she could dance in, and the perfect amount of highlighter on her face. Her lips were all wet and shiny looking from her sparkly lipgloss, and Reggie tried not to think about how kissable they looked.

"You look really pretty," he blurted out, which wasn't anywhere close to his usual over the top cheer squad pep-talks.

Except Carrie didn't seem put out at all. Instead she was staring at his eyes, his eyeliner. "You do too."

Behind him, he heard Flynn and Julie high five, and he couldn't even be mad about it. Maybe if tonight went well, he wouldn't have to play fake boyfriend to Carrie anymore.

[looby1302]

Part 4 of guilty conscience

Hope you all enjoy.

Smut and angst warning.

This is Jackies POV

As she hung up on Cole, tears formed in Her eyes, not only was she in shock with the words that he had began to mutter. She was also homesick. she felt like she just found her new family, only to leave them without warning. she may have not liked Colorado when she first arrived, however, this countrified little town she grew to love. This family had accepted her, as she is, no questions asked.

George and Catherine’s presence, The Brothers bickering, Parkers ball hitting the house, even the dogs bark. She missed it all. The thought of Alex, not knowing what happened, why she left, and why she wasn’t answering haunted her. She needed to call and explain herself. but she would give Herself tonight, to try and find the right words. To tell this boy that she had began to grow attached to that he wasn’t the one that she truthfully desired.

She fell into a light slumber, awakening all through the night by the sound of traffic, people, arguing, music in the distance. The morning came around quickly as sleep eluded her. She entered in the living room she glanced suspiciously at Danny pacing the room, getting ready for Juilliard. “ you will be great today I have no doubt”. He looked at her, with relief. like that’s exactly what he needed to hear. “ thanks Jackie, I hope you have a great day at your internship as well, I’ll see you tonight.” With that Danny left making his way to the front door. The apartment was quiet, uncle Richard Had left for business in the early hours. He would be back tomorrow morning.

She got her bag ready, fixed Her hair, chose the right outfit, and yet she still had an hour to spare. She decided to have that dreaded phone call. the One she had been avoiding. She unlocks her phone, scrolls through the contacts until she sees the name, Alex, Walter and she hits the call button. Her heart starts beating uncontrollably.

He answers on the fifth ring. Frantically he starts talking “ hey what’s up? where are you? Why haven’t I heard from you? Are you ok?”. Jackie takes a deep breath. “ hey Alex, I’m so sorry that I left without saying goodbye, I’ve got the internship. I found out in the morning and they needed me right away. I didn’t mean to hurt anyone, I just thought that would be better for me, just to leave, I’m in New York with Danny”.

Alex continued talking, he couldn’t quite fathom the reason why she didn’t wake anyone. Why she couldn’t say goodbye to her boyfriend. why she just upped and left. he barely let her speak. With that, she cut him off. “ look Alex, I know that you’re going to camp today and obviously I’m in New York to do my internship, I think we should hit the pause button on us, I’m sorry, it’s just not working.”. She said sympathetically.. “ what do you mean pause button on us? we were together. I told you I loved you, you said nothing back, I wake up to find you gone, the teapot the one that Parker broke in your bedroom all fixed. I don’t buy it. I know that this is something to do with Cole. what did he do?”.

She takes deep breath, obviously she’s not going to confess everything that happened. That would cause more hostility in the house. “ Cole hasn’t done anything, he gave me the teapot, as a thank you, for helping him get back on the right path, he also knew how much it meant to me, I’m sorry I’m doing this over the phone but I’ll see you when your back from camp and maybe we can talk about it then”. with that Alex replied “sure”. He hung up on her.

Jackie felt a huge relief, maybe not About the cheating part. But in general she had put a stop to the relationship at least for now. She had only just got over the hottest make out session of her life.

Jackie had made it to her internship, she had began doing office work and organising which is something she love to do. She had no complaints, as she finally took her lunch break. She could see, this farmer looking Young man staring at her through the window. She started to think that she was going crazy. there’s no way that Cole walter is in New York. as he gets closer and closer. she still can’t believe her eyes.

As he enters and uses those famous words. “ Hey New York” she quivers. Not thinking, instinctively she rises from her chair. heads over to him. She forcefully grabs him by the neck and presses her lips against his. The kiss intensifies as he pulls her in closer and her legs start to buckle at the sensation.

The bag strap falls from his shoulder. hits the ground with a massive thud. She suddenly snaps back into reality and steps backwards. “Jackie, you’ll be the death of me” He mutters breathlessly, his eyes still fixed on hers. After finally getting her breath back. “ I can’t believe I just did that, what are you doing here?”. He smiles at her. “ I came here for you“.

She can hear voices in the distance growing closer and closer she chooses to step back again to create some more distance. “ Miss Howard, Louise has asked me if you could have those numbers done by tonight at the latest please”. This raven haired, businesswoman asks “ sure, no problem” Jackie replies. as the woman turns and walks away. Jackie turns to Cole. “ we will talk tonight, do you have anywhere to stay? or do you wanna stay at Uncle Richards?”.

As she holds her posture. “ I didn’t really think that far ahead, would it be okay if I stay at Richards?” he says, not, even blinking once, eyes transfixed on her. “ of course. I’ve got to get back to work but I’ll text you the address. Nobody should be there at the moment, Richard is on business, Danny is at Juilliard, so let yourself in, please make yourself at home”. She says handing him a key from her bag.

Cole leans down and picks up his bag “sure New York, thanks”. He heads towards the door, Of course not without giving her one last look up and down. she starts to feel Fire burning throughout her whole body, watching him leave through the window.

Jackie hurries to Richard’s apartment once she has finished her work and told she can leave. She enters the front door and heads inside looking for Cole. She finds him in the living room sat on the couch watching football waiting for her, When he finally spots her “hey we need to talk”. He says gulping at her beauty, she heads toward him, she drops her bag off of her back mid stride as it hits the floor. She places one leg over his waist and begins to straddle him.

He’s taken back a bit, this is not what he was expecting at all. He looks up into her eyes as she hovers above him. They are blown wide, pupils dilated. This time it’s his turn. He grabs the back of her head pulling her down. Lips crashing, hands moving all over each other, Moans and grunts escaping uncontrollably. His hand is lowering as her dress is rising up. She knows she wants him more than anything. They both stop dead where they hear a cough emerge from the other end of the living room, they both turn to see Danny stood there with a horrifying look on his face.

PLEASE LET ME KNOW IF YOU LIKE THIS!

Once again I am not much of a writer but hope you all enjoyed.

[cinemastyles-blog]

Private Affair [h.s] | 3.

Warnings: flirting while married, kissing another man while married, slightly mean texts from hubby, slight innuendos

Word count: 4.4k

You smile the second you see him, "Yeah, of course." You turn towards him and walk to get your bag.

His eyes follow you, never leaving your body. He missed you, even though it was only a little over half a day.

He felt just as connected to you as you do to him, but neither of you have admitted it to each other yet.

Probably because you're married.

He holds the door open for you, admiring how your shirt shows the cleavage it's supposed to. You walk forward and he shuts the door, clearing his throat as he turns to you.

He leads you out, "Coffee?"

"You know it, Styles." Alex says pointing to him, "The usual, please."

Harry nods and smiles, "Got it."

He holds the other door open for you and you walk out into the hall, towards the elevators.

"I like the outfit by the way." Harry says breaking the silence, "I like the stripes." Harry's fingers lightly trace over the fabric of your arm.

His touch burned your skin, you instantly ached for him, but you force yourself to speak, "This is one of my favorites actually."

Your eyes scan down his chest, admiring how it rests against his skin and the top of his white tank top.

You look down quickly and smooth out your shirt, "Thank's did the badge, by the way." You look back up at him and he nods, "No problem. I just picked the pictured I liked the most."

He gives you a wink and motions for you to get on the elevator first, "After you."

You smirk slightly as you step onto the elevator, your cheeks are warming with a pink blush. He gets on and pushes the ground floor.

While you're trying to get it together, Harry is thinking about shoving you up against the elevator wall and fucking you against it while you watch in the mirror.

"So what kind of coffee do you get?"

Harry blinks slightly and shakes his head as he looks over at you, "Sorry, I kinda zoned out there for a second. What did you say, love?"

You smile and shake your head slightly, "I asked you what kind of coffee you get?"

He smiles and nods, "Um, I usually just settle for a vanilla latte, I guess?" He laughs slightly, "Basic. I know."

You shake your head, "Well, count me as a basic bitch, too then. I love vanilla lattes, hot or iced."

He pulls his bottom lip between his teeth and smirks.

You look at him as the elevator door opens, "What? Did I say something wrong?" You go to walk forward but quickly move over as someone gets on in a rush.

Harry's lays his hand on your hip, blocking the man's suitcase from hitting you. "No." He says walking off with you, "I just like your personality a lot."

Your heart starts to race and you calm yourself as you look over at him, "Thank you."

He holds the door open for you and you walk out, "I just want you to know that I am really grateful that you gave me this job."

He tilts his head slightly and shakes his head, "No, sweetheart. The pleasure is really all mine." He smiles at you and sighs, "Can I admit something?"

You nod, "Sure."

He sighs and pauses for a few seconds before speaking,  "Now, I know this isn't really my place, and stop me if I'm wrong for saying this by any means.. But last night, at dinner, when I seen Alex grab your shirt and pull it over.."

He stops talking and you look over at him, "Keep talking."

"He pissed me off. You are a gorgeous woman, and you know that. He seems really insecure, almost like he knows he has no chance against another man."

He kind of mumbles the last part, but you catch it, acting like you didn't, "I am confident in myself. It did make me mad, but I didn't want to make a scene." You laugh slightly and sigh, "Is this the place?" You point as you stop, "I love this place."

"Best coffee in my opinion." Harry smiles and pulls the door open. You guys walk up to the counter and you have never been more impressed.

Harry orders like five different coffees, all from memory. From the flavors to the amounts of what's put in. Impressive.

"What would you like?" He looks at you and you step up, "Just do another iced vanilla latte, and put and extra turbo shot in it please?"

The barista nods and you step back, "Thank you."

Harry glances over at you and smiles slightly, looking away as you look back over.

"Name for the order?"

"Just put them all under Styles, please." Harry gets out his card and swipes it when told. You move down to the end of the counter and Harry motions you to come over to the couch.

You sit down next to him and cross your leg, "So. What all am I expected to know, exactly?" You lean back and look over at him.

"Just.. um, helping me around in the office, I also have a project I need to start working on for one of the upcoming magazines and I wanted your help on that, if you don't mind."

Harry flashes you a smile and you smirk, "Of course I will help. As I said. Anything you need."

His eyes scan over your face and before anyone can say anything else, they tell his name.

"Order for Styles!"

He presses his lips together and sighs, "Well, I guess."

"Yeah." You nod and stand up, kinda angry it didn't take longer. You pull your purse up onto your shoulder and walk over to grab straws as he grabs the cup carriers.

As he head towards the door, you cut in front of him so you can open it. You press your back against it, pushing it open as you slide out of the way.

Harry looks down at you as he walks by, "Thank you."

"Mhm." You smile and he shakes his head smirking as he walks away.

"Coffee?" Harry looks over at you and you nod, "If it's not a hassle."

He purses his lips and shakes his head as he looks around. he stops as turns towards you, "I think this one by my thumb is yours." He taps his thumb against the cup and you look, "Yes, it is."

You lay your hand on his as you hold the carrier so you can pull your cup upward. The feeling you have with your hand on his, makes you not to take your hand away.

His rings are slightly cool against your skin, how his eyes trail up and down your body.

You step back before anything else can slip into your mind.

As you open your straw and stab it down through the top, you don't even realize that Harry has be watching you the whole time.

Studying you.

Thinking about you in ways that are not safe for work.

He wanted you, but he wasn't going to be the first to make the actual move, considering you're married and all.

"This is so good." You hum slightly as you go back in for another sip. Harry smiles, "Yeah, one of my favorite places to go."

"I'm definitely going to be coming here." You laugh slightly as you start walking again. Harry let's out a sigh, "So this project.."

"Yeah? Is it a big one?" You bite down on your straw as you look over at him. He smirks slightly and nods, "It is. Something new, too."

"Sounds like it's going to be a hard project. I'm in." You smile and he nods, "That's great, y/n. I have a feeling we're going to work amazing together." 

"So do I."

── •✧• ──

The walk back to the office was just small talk. About the company, the project he wants to do, where to go in the building for certain things, you know.

Honest work stuff.

He holds the door open for you and watches as you walk in as you give him a quiet, "Thank you, Harry."

He smiles as you say his name.

You don't know it, but you're the only one in the building who can call him that.

"So since this page will be all about the women running successful small businesses, why don't we call it something like.." you step onto the elevator, "Women With A Mission."

You turn to look at him, "I'm thinking we can do like a smile font but make the women part cursive?"

Harry doesn't say anything which makes you nervous, until he smiles and nods, "I like where you're going with this." The elevator door opens and we walk towards his office, "Can you do like a rough idea of how you think it will look?"

You nod, "I can draw a thing or two." You smile as your art skills you thought were useless are finally stepping into light.

"Yeah?" Harry holds the door open, "You draw?" You walk in and nod, "Yeah. Growing up, art was my way of escaping I guess."

"Nothing wrong with that at all." He grabs the cup out of the carrier and hands it to Jake, "Do you mind passing these out? I have stuff I need to work on."

Jake shakes his head as he takes his coffee, "I sure can. Thank you."

Harry nods, "Thank you. Remember that piece I ran by your? Well, y/n came up with a title and she's going to do a design for us for that new piece I've been stuck on."

"Looking forward to watching the progress." Jake smiles and stands up, grabbing the coffees and leaving the office.

"So." You smile, "You have a pen and paper?"

He smiles and nods, motioning to his office, "Right this way." You follow him and he motions to his desk, "Have a seat, love. Choose your weapon."

He opens his desk drawer to reveal a basket of pens, "ugh." You sigh, "The way to my heart." You laugh and look through them, picking out different colors.

"Paper is behind you. I will be over here looking through some businesses." Harry slowly walks backwards and you look over at him, "Thank you."

He nods and turns away and you get some paper before leaning back in his chair and taking a sip of your coffee.

You sit up, letting out a quiet sigh before picking up a pen.

── •✧• ──

For most of the day, it felt like you were single.

Alex didn't even cross your mind, not until you realized he didn't crossed your mind. You pull your phone out, realizing you have five missed texts and two missed calls.

Your phone was in your pocket, you must have been too focused on work, you must have not felt it vibrate.

"Shit." You thought your whispered quietly.

"Something wrong, y/n?" Harry stands up and lays his papers down. You look over at him, "Wh- oh, no. Alex, just texted me and tried calling me." You sit up and set your phone down, "Must have been too focused."

A smirk appears very slowly on his lips as he nods, "It happens."

You nod and laugh, "You're right."

You pick your phone up and text Alex,

You: Hey baby. Sorry. I finally got a chance to check my phone. I've been working on a project with Mr. Styles and learning my way around the building. My art skills are finally coming in handy.

You bit your lip as you set your phone down, face down. You knew what was about to come. Alex is mad that you didn't answer him the first time.

You mood shifted now, and Harry can tell.

"Why don't we take a break love? It is noon. Ya hungry?" He moves his laptop of his his lap before swinging his legs off the other desk.

You smile, knowing what he's doing and honestly appreciating it. You question if this is why you feel like you do towards him.

Is it the attention?

Is it him being so nice to you?

Is it the sexual tension?

Fuck, who knows.

You did know you wanted to be around for it, so you nod, "Yes. Please." You set the pen down and stand up, glancing at your phone as you debate on leaving it in Harry's office while you're gone.

"Ready?" Harry asks walking over to you. You grab your phone and hold it in your hand tightly, "Ready."

You and Harry make your way out to your office and Harry lets Jake know that he can go on lunch, too.

"So, where would you like to go?" Harry asks pressing the elevator button, "What is y/n in the mood for."

"Um, honestly. I could go for anything." You step onto the elevator and press your back against the wall, "Whereever you want to go is fine with me."

You feel your phone buzz in your hand and honestly, if Alex is going to be a jerk, you want someone to witness it.

You look at your phone, and you don't know it, but Harry's eyes move to your phone screen.

Alex: Since you didn't want answer, I told my mom that we'll be there tomorrow night. So you're going.

Alex: Glad those skills are finally being put towards something good.

Harry scoffs, "There was no need for that second message, or any of them at all, really." He lays a hand on your upper back, "Does he have a problem with me or-"

"No." You say quickly and look at him, "He doesn't know anything about you. This is a women's magazine to him so he doesn't really care."

Harry nods and the elevator opens, "Mm." He leads you out and you look up at him, "You can be honest with me, Harry."

He looks down at you with a smile as he presses his back to the door and pushes it open. You smile up at him, "You can't hurt my feelings." You walk out and sigh, "Trust me."

"Is he always like that?" Harry asks with a curious tone.

You honestly don't know how to answer, "Um. No. Not always. He must be having a bad day at work or something."

"That doesn't give him the right to take it out on you, sweetheart." Harry looks over at you as you stop and wait to cross at the cross walk.

You look over at him and shrug, "I guess I settled."

He glances at the light and looks back at you, shaking his head slightly, "You might have settled then, but you're the only one who can still do anything about it."

You start walking across the street and into a gated parking lot. Harry pulls his keys out and unlocks his car.

You bite down on the inside of his lip because Harry with this car is just insanely sexy.

He opens your door and lets you get in before he shuts the door and walks around to get in. You have honestly never been treated like this before and it makes your stomach flutter a little bit.

He starts the car and looks over at you, "Sorry if that sounded harsh, I didn't me-"

You cut him off, "No. please. That wasn't anywhere near harsh, Harry. You're just being honest." You smile over at him and he smiles slightly as he starts driving.

"So why don't you do something about it?" He licks his lips and glances over at you as he waits for the gate to open.

He looks back at the road and you're quiet, unsure of what to say.

"I guess.." you start out, hoping you'll figure out what to say, "i just feel like it's what I deserve at some points."

"No." Harry instantly shakes his head, "We all come home from work mad or whatever at times, but it's never okay to use someone like a doormat for it."

You want to reach out and hold his hand, you knew he wouldn't reject you, you just couldn't bring yourself to do it.

"You're a hundred percent right, Harry. I guess the good outweighs the bad? I don't know."

Harry keeps his lips pressed together before a smirk starts to break through, he scrunches his nose up slightly.

"What?" You ask looking over at him, a smirk toying with your lips, too.

He shakes his head, "Nothing." He looks over at you before parking the car, "Nothing at all." He smiles and pulls the keys from the ignition.

You stare at him, shaking your head as you laugh, "Really looked like your wheels were turning hard there for a second." You tease and unbuckle your seatbelt.

"It's just.." he sighs and rests his head back, "You have the power to change your life and do what you want to do. Just because you got married doesn't mean you kiss who you are as a person goodbye."

Before you say anything, Harry adds, "I like you, who are as a person and I've only known you for two days."

You smile, "Yeah, feeling is the same over here."

He smiles and nods once, "You are a beautiful, smart, confident woman. All I'm going to say, is that Alex better appreciate what he has before it's gone."

His words light off fireworks inside of you.

Is he insinuating himself?

"I agree with you fully." You look over at him, forcing yourself to changing the subject because you know neither one of you wants to, "So lunch?"

He looks out his window and smiles, "Oh yeah. Right." He chuckles as he gets out of the car and hurried to open hours.

As you lean forward to get out, Harry catches glimpse of your shirt revealing more than it should and he bites down on his cheek.

He's been fighting getting a boner since he seen your ass is those pants first thing this morning, and this in fact did not help.

You smooth out your shirt and look up as the door shuts. Harry takes a quiet breathe and motions towards the building, "Ready?"

You nod and walk with him, "mhm."

You walk in, "I'll be right back. Go ahead and get us a table." Harry excuses himself to the bathroom and the host's eyes follow him as he walks by.

They go back to you and you see her sigh slightly.

You smirk slightly and scratch above your lip to hide it as she walks over, "Hi." She says with a very fake smile, "Two of you today?"

You look at her and nod, "Yes. Two."

She nods and marks down where you're sitting before taking you to the booth. She sets down napkins and walks away.

A few moments later, Harry comes back and sits across from you, "She doesn't seem to friendly."

"The waitress?"

He nods and you laugh slightly, "Yeah I agree. When you went to the bathroom, she watched you walk away and looked at me and huffed, so I'm pretty sure she thinks we're together." You look down over the menu and then back up at Harry. 

He smiles and shrugs, "Let her think what she wants." He looks down at the menu before glancing up at you, "I don't have to explain anything to anyone."

You slowly smile and look back down, almost feeling like your Harry's secret, even though you don't have a reason to be considered that.

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Lunch was full of conversation and lots of indirect flirting towards each other.

The nervousness in your body that you felt vanished. It felt natural, like you and Harry have known each other for ever.

"I'm going to finish up this title sketch." You set your purse down and walk over to Harry's desk. He watches as you sit down in his chair and pull yourself in.

You kept questioning yourself the whole time you we're working on your project. You knew you were confident, so why did you let Alex treat you this way sometimes.

You have loved Alex for years, but now that you met Harry, it's like another door opened and you realize how unhappy you actually are.

But are you unhappy?

Or it Harry just that pretty?

After another hour or two of working, you lean back and sigh, "I think it's done, Harry." You look over at him and he looks at you, "Yeah?"

He gets up and walks over, standing behind the chair as he looks over, "oh wow." He leans down over your shoulder, his head is right next to yours.

You swallow slowly, "that a good, oh wow?"

He nods and looks at you smiling, "Oh yeah." You look over at him slightly and he looks back down, "This is amazing, y/n."

"Oh good. I was nervous." You laugh slightly and run a hand through your hair. Harry looks at the sketch a few more times and sighs, "I will get it to the art editor and then tomorrow we can work on reach out to everyone and go from there."

You look up at him as he stands up, "Do you want me to draft up an email or something for us to send? Just something that briefly explains why we are reaching out."

He smiles, "I might just let you take over." He chuckles and turns to sit on the desk, "That would be great. You can take the list home, look at the shops and what not."

You nod and smile, "You can just put your name second." You wink and stand up, stretching your arms out.

He smiles, wanting to take you by your waist and pull you into him, "Fine with me, love." He smiles and checks his watch, "So, you're free to go. I'll probably head out here after I take this up to Zayn."

"Zayn?" You question and he nods, "He's our art editor."

"Oh, okay." You laugh slightly, "Sorry I don't know names yet."

He shakes his head with a smile, "It's only your first day, sweetheart. Trust me." He looks at you, "You'll be here a while, so you'll know them by heart."

He stands up and walk over to his desk. You stand there watching him, your eyes moving up and down his body until he turns around.

You look up at him and he hands you the folded paper with the names on them, "Here's that for you."

You take it and hold it up, "If I have any questions, I'll text you."

"Questions, comments. Any concerns at all, I'm here." He smirks and walks back around to behind his desk, grabbing his bag and keys.

You walk over and grab your purse off the small couch. You toss your stuff in and stand up, taking a few steps back.

When you turn around, you're chest to chest with Harry. You step back and mumble, "I'm sorry."

Your eyes stay on his necklace as you take a slow, shaky breathe, questioning yourself on what you want to do.

You know what you should do.

"Quite alright, love." Harry smiles, "same time in the morning sound good to you?"

"Yep." You look up at him with a smile as you step back, "I'll see you tomorrow, Mr. Styles."

You go to leave and you hear Harry quietly sigh, "Fuck it." You hear his bag and keys hit the floor and suddenly, you're pulled you back into him.

His hand finds it way to holding the side of your neck as he kisses you. His other arm moves to wrap around your waist and he pulls you closer, spinning you around to lift you up on his desk.

You drop your purse as your lips move desperately against his, silently begging for more.

"Tell me to stop." He whispers as he kisses down your neck, "Do you want me to stop?"

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Thank you for reading Private Affair.

Chapter 4 | Masterlist

[lyricfulloflight]

RWRB thoughts

My thoughts after 1.5 viewings (yes, 1.5. I have watched it once and then re-watched certain scenes, but haven't made my way through a full re-watch yet.)

What I loved/like/squealed about:

nervous Alex at the wedding

Nora being all speechless when led away by Bea

The whole cake incident - it did not happened as I was expecting (don't ask me what I was expecting, I have no earthly idea), but I loved the whole thing

Zahra hitting Alex with the pillow. Perfect character moment

the silly height arguments that pop up several times. I think these are extra fun for book readers as it acknowledges the difference between the book and the actors in the movie but keeps the general teasing about height in the movie

Actually, Zahra in general was just so perfectly done

Amy being badass and also a loving dog mom (that wink at the hospital? the 'do I need to clear the room'? Amy is the best)

I still don't know what an equerry is. But I'll take a Shaan any day

The closet scene was really well done. It really allowed for the development of the rest of their relationship.

The way they did the texts with the voice overs and then Henry appearing in Alex's bed - I may have swooned a bit

The New Years party looked like what I imagine a cool party would look like (people do not invite me to cool parties and they never will).

All the representation in the film. Female black PM of the UK? Check! Gender fluid party attendees? Check? Some girl on girl flirting? Check! Trans actor? Check!

Percy's pink hair

Nora's red outfit. Damn girl.

Henry's reaction when Alex grabs his hips at the New Year's party - absolute gold

All of Henry's pining during the New Year's party was just perfectly painfully wonderful

The 'woah' of the woman who walks in when Nora and Alex are talking about his hook ups with men

Alex being totally distracted by Henry arriving at the dinner and looking every inch the son of James Bond that he is

That kiss in the red room was... hmmm... quite.... intense

Also Henry pointing at books after they were interrupted n the red room might have been the most ridiculously funny moment of the whole movie for me

Commanding Henry in the bedroom

Shots of Henry's ass bouncing on a horse being played between shots of the tack room rendevous. I think we all understand why Alex was so, motivated shall we say

The tenderness and intimacy of that Paris scene. Love making indeed.

Henry singing karaoke. Nora bopping along like all of us would like to be doing as fans no doubt

The Casey McQuinston book cameo!

Henry trying to make his burdens clear to Alex but Alex not getting it until they have their blow out. Also drenched Alex in this scene with Henry in his fancy housecoat was very visually appealing

The V&A scene made me cry. Henry talking about the only place he can find peace and have dreams of a happy life he doesn't think he'll ever have. Alex playing the song right away and making his dreams come true. Tears. Happy Tears.

The EXCHANGE! the signet ring. the house key. just kill me now

Seeing Henry's reaction to the email leak and how desperate he was to talk to Alex, how terrified he was, how betrayed. Hats off to Nicholas Galitzine for his acting (for the whole movie, but that scene in particular was just excellent)

Shaan and Zahra reveal! Yes!

Alex'a speech. Amazing.

Baby.

Stephen Fry as the king. What a choice. If you don't know how ironic this is, well go use your goggle skills.

Henry sticking up for himself. The tears in his eyes when he sees the public support

The way they show Alex's passion for politics and helping people.

The way they show Henry's passion for literature, history, etc. And also his frustration at not being able to make an impact and help people they way he wants to and how much he admires Alex for what he is doing

Things I missed/didn't love:

Alex not being a child of divorce. Also how his parent's relationship seemed ambiguous for a long time in the movie (for me anyway. Maybe I was just hoping they weren't together? like in the book?)

Not enough moments of Nora being a stats geek. She said she analyzed data but we don't get a moment where she gives Alex the odds. Sad.

Alex not having his sexual realization. I can see how this trims things down for the film, but I missed it

Not using the Miguel character as well as they could have. Again I can see this being trimmed out for time. I thought this was a reasonable replacement for the Luna subplot. Would have liked more in terms of fall out - did he have insider knowledge? Did he help get the emails leaked?

I would have loved more time of the texts to build the foundation of their relationship

I would have loved even more to have had more email time. I know this is tricky to get on film, but I really missed the sheer romance and intimacy we get in from the emails in the book. It makes the leak so much more impactful

I wanted more David. I love dogs people. I needed more beagle content!

Not enough Pez! Also why was he not Pez? Percy? Percy who? I loved when we saw him and I wanted more.

Same can be said for Nora

Did this film get an R rating from, maybe 2 'fuck's and one gay sex scene where no dicks or asses were shown? (Yes, one ass was shown, but it a completely different scene) Is that all it takes? Boo to the rating people. BOOOOOO.

The transition from the fight between Henry and Alex in his apartments to them leaving from to the V&A didn't feel quite right to me. It was awkward. Each scene itself was wonderful, just one right after the other felt like something was missing.

I honestly, completely, wholeheartedly loved this film. I know I will be watching it over and over. It will have a permanent place in my comfort film rotation. I think all the actors in the film did an amazing job. Both Nicholas and Taylor bought a lot of depth to their roles and really brought them to life so, so well. Their chemistry was completely believable and I rooted for them every step of the way.

For me, the book will remain my main source material for these characters and this story. But this film is such a great complement to the book. A different, but parallel story. I agree with director Matthew Lopez saying this was a work of fanfiction in its own right. It is not the same, but the heart and soul of the book and the two main characters is all there. Not sure I could have asked for much more.

(except for any missing scenes/extended scenes. i'm asking for those. please)

[littlecello]

Lazarus responses all in one place for better readability wahoo

belphegor1982 Holy cow, we really dodged a bullet there. Thank you for the write-up! I hadn't heard of Lazarus at all before. And now I'm very thankful that the fandom still exists and thrives! 💜

WE REALLY DID LOL. You're very welcome, glad to have been of service! And omg I feel the same ahhh! It's made me really appreciate the little space we built for ourselves over all these years 🥹

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bisexualroger Was lovely to meet you and fern too! 😊 I definitely agree with this. I’m really glad I went for the experience, I’d have been gutted to have missed it, but ultimately yeah the shortcomings (especially with regard to how they handled the politics of the police 😬) mean it’s for the best we never got Lazarus the show. 

AHHH YES!! Seriously you all made my entire day 🥹🥹🥹 And god yeah, I am also genuinely glad to have been there, because the questions and forever-wondering would have killed my fandom-mojo I think. But now it's done the opposite and I am ENERGISED! I want to re-establish the best parts of the fandom as opposed to what we witnessed in that room! Seriously, all those cis-het men laughing so hard at all the bad jokes made me feel so uncomfortable.

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youstupidplonkIt was so wonderful to meet you!! You’ve put this into words so much more eloquently than I have managed so far. I really do agree that the way they joked about current politics, both in the police and around the climate felt very out of touch. As you’ve said especially because the main demographic keeping this fandom active is young (from what I can tell) liberal people Thank you again for saying hi to us and taking the time to write this wonderful analysis ❤️❤️

LIKEWISE AHHH!! Your outfit was fantastic btw!! And I'm glad you feel my analysis hit the spot - hearing all the laughter around us and stuff made both Fern and me feel really lonely and out of place at times ghfkjgs. We're both really glad we aren't alone with our sentiments 🥹

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fleurdeneuf oh wow, thank you for sharing all of this! i'm relieved the show won't be happening.

You're welcome!! It would've felt wrong not to do a little report on this, seeing as the event wasn't well advertised and tickets sold out so quickly. We've got to include the whole fandom in this! 💪

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partywithponies I think it was very shallow as well in that it was almost entirely Life on Mars with barely any Ashes to Ashes to it at all, and coincidentally, Ashes to Ashes isn't as well known overseas. It didn’t feel for the fans, it just felt like what they thought would sell better. Poor Shaz didn't even get a single vague reference the entire event, and Alex, the literal third main character of the franchise, got one passing moment in the entire pilot.

I agree to some extent - they definitely went for what they felt would have the most recognition value. I do however think that they at least set up quite a bit of Alex involvement, seeing as she's the one who hits Sam and Gene in 2024 (or at least it's heavily implied that it's her). As for Shaz, I have to be cynical and say that with Matt and Ashley being old white men... they've probably forgotten about her and/or don't think she's important. Unfortunately.

Either way, I guess we can both agree that it's a good thing Lazarus isn't getting made as a TV show haha!

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On a personal note, thank you all for your warm reactions to my little report :') I have to admit I was a bit trepidatious about posting it because of my (and our) negative feelings about it, as contrasted to what Fern and I perceived as a really enthusiastic response from the audience that was present... But I see now I needn't have worried. The fandom I remember and love is still here, and I can't thank you all enough for that. 💚

[thesawisfamily]

My full review of the MW3 campaign.

There will be major spoilers ahead

I'm gonna be going in chronological order with the missions. If you want my opinions on *that* scene, then scroll close to the bottom. This is a very lengthy review and I cover every mission.

First of all I absolutely loved all the nods to the original mw games, I noticed the most from mw2 09 since I've actually played that one, but there was some mw3 og references too.

I actually had to pause and take it all in from the first mission. The gulag looked EXACTLY like the one you save Price from in 09. That combined with the fact that Makarov had the same prisoner number as Price did: 627. I really did love the way they set up this mission, I found it a lot easier to play through than previous games. I honestly didn't expect Makarov to be the prisoner until I got to the cell, but it was a great parallel to 09.

I wasn't a fan of how they brought Graves back with no explanation. If they explained it in mw2 raids then I missed it cause I haven't played them all, but I was confused about the timeline and why Graves was even directing Farah in her chapter. This could also just be me being a massive Graves hater, cause I can't stand him. On the plus side ALEX AND FARAH TOGETHER WOOO. I love them they're so married. The open world mission was really unique and fun to play through, the objectives could've been a bit clearer, but again I was kind of ignoring Graves there, half bc i hate him half bc I was focusing on not dying. I need visual cues.

I don't have many thoughts on the Price mission except that it was good to play him first the first time since mw1. I was a bit confused as to how that mission was meant to be done stealthily? The helos were so well guarded, I had to go in loud for all of them.

The next price mission was also pretty fun and was actually pretty easy to do until it came to leaving the bunker. I must've died so many times to that damn juggernaut. I kept getting that "enemies are too close" warning that wouldn't let me finish the mission until I literally had 5 seconds left. I was FRANTIC.

LASWELL MY BELOVED. the first words out of my mouth were "omg laswell looks so good in fatigues" getting to play as her was such a treat bc I LOVE her. It took me a few tries to figure out how to go about it, but I got it. Loved the nods to the og mw3 with Yuri being the Informant. Getting out of the building with the gas chasing me was stressful, but not so bad. Nikolai saves the day. As a metalhead, hearing Nikolai listening to metal at the beginning was really nice since it's a change of pace from what media usually depicts metal listeners as.

I think it was an interesting choice to have us play as Samara in the hijacking chapter. I'm not going to talk much on this one cause it felt a little on the same lines as the mw2 09 airport scene in tasfefulness. I felt so helpless watching everything happen. It really solidifies the kind of antagonist Makarov is going to be for the rest of the campaign.

On the crash site mission it was nice to play Farah again, especially with Alex on overwatch. I was a little lost for most of this mission, but once I figured it out, it was fairly easy. The end wasn't very clear that you had to help Alex, so I failed the first time.

Omg the flashback mission. Loved it so much. Genuinely so well written. 09 refs on 09 refs. It played out so much like a direct opposite to the airport chapter in 09. Definitely didn't hit Makarov too many times cause I could. Seeing 09 Ghost there genuinely made me so happy, I know we've had 09 ghost outfit in game for a while but seeing it in campaign and updated was SO GOOD. The cutscene was another reminder of how 'Two steps ahead" Makarov is. A lot of people had the hc that Ghost and Soap met on the platform in kill or capture in mw2 but this confirmation that they've known each other for at least 4 years was really nice. Gaz was genuinely so beautiful in that cutscene too oml.

I missed a lot of the banter in Oligarch cause I was so focused, but seeing clips of it reminded me of the stealth Gaz Price mission and Alone from mw2. I did notice on the monitor with the codes, it looks like it's literally the coding for the mission. Milena's interrogation was a really good scene of good cop bad good between Ghost and Soap.

Highrise is not only a nod to the old map, but to me it reminded me of the Ramirez mission in the building in mw2 09. It was pretty clear that it was a difficult to navigate mission in game testing since there were SO many arrows spraypainted on the walls. I didn't even notice them until about halfway through and I still got lost. The end with getting Nolan exfil was pretty difficult, but still fun.

Frozen Tundra. oh boy it reminded me so much of the second snow mission in mw2 09. Hated leaving Shepherd to fight, but overall pretty fun mission. Loved everyone's snow camo.

Gora Dam, the first and only Ghost mission. Fun, but I had to restart more than a couple times due to the difficulty. I wish there had been checkpoints. Reminded me a lot of the Atomgrad raid 1. Couldn't take "Makorov poisoning the water supply" line without hearing Woody from toy story saying "someone's poisoning the watering hole"

Don't have much to say about Danger Close other than Gaz is so real for not even acknowledging Graves. I thought it was an odd choice to have Alex and Farah not care about Graves' previous actions. It was pretty much the same as the mw2 22 shadow company overwatch mission, little bit easier though.

And finally the piece de resistance: Trojan Horse. What a whirlwind. very difficult mission that I had to restart many many times. Barely any cover, not clear when more enemies are are spawning. As for the... end. I have a hot take. it didn't feel rushed to me. I think the urgency of diffusing the bomb was a good way to end the playable sections. It was HEAVILY inspired by mw2 09 and I think a lot of people missed that, or just didn't know that. The way Makarov shot soap at first was very reminiscent of the end of mw2 09 where you're fighting Shepard and are under the assumption soap is dying and Price is about to lose. Soap using his last breath to help price, help everyone was very in character, as were everyone else. A lot of people think it was cold and unemotional, but it felt realistic to me. It felt in character, they had a job to do and the only one that strayed from that was Ghost. It hurt of course, I think I spent about 15 seconds just staring at Soap and Ghost trying to process it. I actually Clipped that part and when I rewatched, I realized I completely didn't hear Gaz telling me to help him diffuse the bomb. In fact I didn't hear him until he said "he's gone captain" and then asked for help. The reason it was so different from mw3 was because it happened so suddenly. In the og, Price spent like 20 minutes thinking that soap could live if he got help, them watched him die. Here, however, he saw him get shot in the head, pretty cut and dry no coming back from that.

Soap's funeral was also well done. They don't need to be emotional messes, especially since cremation takes time, it's been at the very least like a week since his death. Everyone grieves differently. I loved that they spent the time to take his remains to Scotland. It shows they care. It shows that they respected him greatly.

The mid credit scene was predictable but exactly what I wanted. When Shepherd walked on screen I audibly said "I hope price is waiting in there with a gun" and sure enough. It did feel open ended to leave room for a mw4, but I think whether or not we get one doesn't matter. This story has been told, if Activision chooses to continue, I'll likely play it, but it isn't needed.

Overall, the campaign did a very good job at its purpose: showcasing gameplay for mw3. It's what the campaigns are for at the end of the day. It showed off guns, controls, operators, and maps. The open combat missions gave us a little insight into what the MWZ gamemode might be like. I personally thought everyone was in character. I know a lot of Soap and GhostSoap fans are disappointed with the outcome, but it felt like a respectful way to end Soap's story. As a GhostSoap shipper myself, i feel like we got enough content and backstory of them.

[sunnyie-eve]

9 | Worrying

Series: Uttermost Lifestyle

Paring: Johnny Knoxville x Original female character

Word Count: 1.4k

Warnings: none

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I was surprised when Johnny told me there was gonna be a Jackass the movie. He said it would be a more naughty version since we could do things that couldn't be shown on tv. He said the whole cast was getting back together to do it and it was up to me if I wanted to be apart of it. I did but at the same time I didn't want to but Caiden and the rest talked me into joining. This time around Caiden was staying with my parents while I went with the cast.

On this day Johnny was doing rent-a-car crash-up derby. I was slightly nervous as Johnny got ready for the stunt. "Aww is someone worried about me?" He teases me.

"Yes. What if something goes wrong?" I ask look back at the car behind him.

"I'll be fine. I'm tough enough." He chuckles.

"Johnny, that windshield isn't gonna stop a tire if a car gets on top." I try to explain why I'm worried about him.

"Don't worry so much... I got a helmet on." He pats the top of my head before rushing to get in the car.

As they get going every time a car rammed into Johnny I would tense up. As soon a one of the cars drive up onto Johnny's everyone rushes to check up on him. I make my way over staying back as Johnny talks, "I guess we didn't reinforce the windshield. That fucker comes- missed me by that much." I shake my head while the guys laugh at it.

I close my eyes thinking what the hell did I get myself into by agreeing to come back to do a movie that was gonna be worse than the show. "See, I'm fine." Johnny smiles jogging up to me.

"See, I told you the windshield wouldn't stop a tire." I motion towards it.

"I get it you were worried about me but-,"

I cut in, "PJ, you worry about me all the time because of Kyle... I can worry about you doing stupid shit."

He sighs taking his helmet off, "I understand but it is slightly different."

I give him a are you kidding face, "I would disagree there... Me worrying about you possibly dying... is not the same about you worrying about Kyle hurting me."

He just nods his head, "I understand. Thank you for worrying about me." He kisses my forehead before they go return the car back.

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"Alex, dear!" April smiles as she sees me walk into her house.

"It's good to see you too Ape." I smile giving her a hug since she pulled me into one.

"See my mom loves you so why can't you love me back?" Bam jokes walking into the room.

"Brandon..." I give him a look.

"Excuse me, Alexandria?" He smacks me upside the head causing his mother to shout at him.

"Bam! Don't hit her!"

"She called me by my name!" He shouts back at her.

"So? Don't hit her young man." She turns to go into the kitchen so Bam smacks my ass.

"He hit me again!" I shout going after her making Bam bitch at me for telling on him.

"What are you guys up to today?" She changes the topic.

"Reck golf carts and other stuff in a hour. Which you have to change clothes for." I remind Bam.

"You aren't taking part? I thought you were since you had an outfit planned too."

"Jeff said you guys driving with me is a bad idea." I mess with his hair as looks at me.

"Can you still dress up? Then we make you hop in with me and drive around some? I'll be careful just for you." He gets a big smile making me laugh at him.

"I don't exactly trust you driving carefully... but I'll put on my outfit for you."

(This with black leggings underneath)

"Look at how cute you are. Better than us four." Ryan claps his hands so I do a few poses for them to laugh at me.

"Jeff, this cart goes like 2mph." Bam complains with his foot all the way down on the peddle. "That means Alex can ride with us."

"You expect me to fit in a two seater?"

"You're skinny! Hop on." He motions me so Brandon lets me squeeze between them. I take turns between the carts till we start to use the gas carts because I didn't trust guys.

When Johnny and Ryan wanted to drive over the big pig it didn't work so they get jacked up. Ryan's flew from the cart and Johnny wasn't moving making us all worry about him. I was the first and quickest to run over to him.

"Help him, help him."

"Medic!"

"Don't move him. Don't movie him."

Everyone else runs over to check on him, moving the cart to get to him. I get down on my knees next to him trying to talk to him as he was knocked out. "Johnny, you okay? Are you good?" I ask as he starts to move and groan finally. "PJ... How's your head? What all hurts?" I ask staying on my knees next to him. "Let him take his time getting up." I tell everyone around him and they nod their heads at me.

"Fuck." He groans rubbing his face. I lean down more to see his face and he looks at me in pain so I give him a sweet smile.

"Good thing it wasn't too bad, huh?"

"Good thing you got off that cart before it happened." Jeff speaks up and everyone agrees with him.

"You ready to get up now?" I ask him and he nods his head so I move so they guys can help him up.

As they look at him better now I go over to Dunn, "How are you doing? You kinda flew, rolled and skidded." I ask him since no one else did.

"I'm okay. I got up and walked it off. Thank your for asking though." He kisses the side of my head as we go over to Johnny.

"It's good to see you doing better. Moving and talking now." I give him a smile.

"I just remember going in the air, and the next thing I know I'm.. just fucked and I open my eyes to see you right there." He tell me.

"She was the first to you. Never seen her run so fucking fast." Ryan nudges me with a slight smile.

"Stayed by you while you were out till you were ready to get up." I say making Johnny give me a smile.

"Thanks, Alex."

"No problem. Imagine if Caiden was here... he'd be in tears because you likes you so much." I add making him chuckle.

Once he was doing better everyone goes over to a tree for the bungee wedgie that Raab was doing. One pair of underwear didn't work so it ripped right away. I ended up suggesting putting on multiple layers so it would work and it did with four pairs. Well sorta... Je kinda just hung there upside with the front part holding him up while his backside was free.

As the crew was getting ready to leave, I sat in the van alone to keep warm till Johnny came in first while others fucked around outside still. He just smiled at me causing me to get nervous, "What are you planning?"

"Nothing... I just like how much you worried about me. Maybe I should get knocked out more if it means waking up with you right there."

"Please don't be that will just making me worry a hell of a lot more about you. That could have snapped your neck if you landed super wrong." I explain to him.

"I can't wait to see how worried you were. Did you almost cry?" He cracks a smile again.

"I didn't cry. Sorry to burst your bubble." I roll my eyes at him stupid smile.

"I'm just happy you were smart enough to get off when you did." He puts an arm around me pulling me into his side.

"One of us had to be the smart one and that's me out of nine guys."

[she-karev]

Prank War

Age Rating: 12+

Chapters: One of Three

Fandom: Grey’s Anatomy

AN: Hey guys so I decided to post more funny stories and I hope this makes you guys laugh, I always appreciate a like and reblog guys. The GIF above is Amber's outfit during her and Alex's workout.

Summary: Amber and Alex go boxing and after she and Kimmie get along and decide to prank someone together.

Words: 2175

The boxing gym on Union is empty due to it being 6 in the morning, the only people in here are me and Alex. He and I have been working nonstop with Shepherd and DeLuca to find a way to save Kimmie’s life after promising her and her grandma we would get the tumor out completely. It’s been two weeks and we’ve made more progress in breaking beakers than we have in destroying the tumor models inside.

Alex has been holed up in the lab for so long that I’m convinced he’ll be the new Scully, that’s what I call the human skeleton model we have in the lab. And yes I’ve also been inside the lab so long I’m naming inanimate objects like their people. Which is why I opted to get out of the lab last night and do boxing before coming in. I invited Alex, who refused at first until Amelia kicked him out seeing that he needed to rest. After a good nights rest I picked up Alex because he has a lot of frustration he needs to punch out before saving a life.

Now we’re in the middle of the empty boxing ring and I can see in Alex’s face this is not where he wants to be. He’s still complacent though as he’s standing as a punching bag holding up punching mitts he fitted himself with. I’m the puncher as I take a wide stance a few feet away from him and punch how he tells me to. I think he’s getting pleasure from me beating his hands due to how much he’s beating himself up over Kimmie.

“Jab, cross, jab, cross.” Alex commands and I follow flawlessly hitting the mitts he’s holding causing multiple thudding sounds to echo around the empty building. Apparently, it’s not enough because Alex looks more frustrated if that was possible, “Come on with actual meaning to it, fight like you’re in the ring come on!”

I narrow my eyes at him and punch his mitts again this time about 20 percent harder. I finish with a sharp breath and take my gloves off. I pick up my pink water bottle from the corner and face Alex. I decide to talk it out since he clearly needs to, “You know I invited you so you can work out your frustrations not goad me into beating you up.” I take a sip from my water bottle and offer it to him, “Do you want to talk about it?”

Alex sighs and grabs the bottle doing a waterfall into his mouth before looking at me in torment, “What is there to talk about? I made a promise to a kid I would get her brain tumor out completely because I thought doing it without using a scalpel would get us into the contest.” I look at him in sympathy knowing how much he cares about Kimmie, “But now we don’t have any money, the equipment we have isn’t advanced enough for this and Shepherd is stumped so I am too and Kimmie is suffering because of it, because of me.”

“I’m pretty sure you didn’t put that tumor in her brain when she was 8.” I remind him but it doesn’t mend his frustration as he slaps the mitts together and gets back in position, “So we’re done talking about this?”

“Yep, talking about it isn’t gonna solve anything and you’re the one who invited me so this is on you.”

I put my gloves back on, “I can see where I get my tendency to brood and punch my problems away from.”

“Come on jab, cross this time punch like your angry.”

“I always punch like I’m angry. Why do you think I got into this?”

Alex keeps holding position, “Well prove it come at me let’s go!” I narrow my eyes at him and do what he requests this time I punch with everything I have. It isn’t hard for me to get angry; I just have to imagine a moment of my childhood and the beast is unleashed pleasing Alex, “Good! Jab, cross, jab, cross.” He stops coaching me as I go so fast, I miss the mitt and instead hit the right side of his face with the last cross. He stumbles back and falls in the ring shocking me out of my boxing state.

“Oh my god!” I quickly take my gloves off and kneel down to check on him, “Alex talk to me are you okay?”

Alex groans and sits up before chuckling in delight, “Nice you really nailed it at the last cross.”

I look and see a bruise starting to form on his right eye and I immediately feel bad, “Oh god I am so sorry. I imagined punching you about a million times but now it’s not as satisfying as I hoped.”

Alex laughs at that, “Don’t worry it’s not the first time I got punched and if it makes you feel better you punched a lot harder than most of them. I think you punched the anger out of me so thanks for that.”

“I’m hoping that’s not a concussion making you say that stupid thing.” I stand up and get off the ring, “I’ll get you some ice.”

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After we got ready in our separate lounges and put our scrubs on Alex and I met at the nurse’s station on the peds floor so I could see the damage I did an hour ago. I look up from Kimmie’s chart to see him walk up to me holding an ice pack on his right eye. I put the tablet away and carefully took the ice pack away and see the purple mixed with yellow surrounding the eye socket.

Alex hisses as I feel around the eye for skull fracture, “There’s no bleeding around the cornea I don’t feel anything out of place, are you seeing double?”

“No, it doesn’t even hurt, I guess the gloves absorbed most of the shock after you sucker punched me for the second time.” Alex grins and I glare at him, “Come on I’m kidding.”

“I’m so glad we’re joking about this.” I say sarcastically, “Put some ice on it for the next 24 hours and-”

“I know what to do.” Alex interrupts, “You’re not the only one with an MD just the only one who breaks the do not harm oath.”

I pick up the tablet, “I didn’t hear you complain this much the last time I punched you and besides you were asking for it after going all Mickey Goldmill on me. Kimmie’s stable so far physically, the chemo is doing its work.”

“And emotionally?” Alex asks, worried.

I sigh, “She’s sleeping all hours of the day and she hasn’t smiled since we started.”

“And what about the research? Did you find anything that can help us get a leg up?”

We start walking down the hall to go to Kimmie’s room, “No but it’s only been a couple of week and you know it took Beethoven four years to write his symphony.”

“Our time frame isn’t that long.” Alex reminds me and Jo walks next to us.

“Hey guys.” We greet her back and she exclaims in shock, “Oh my god! What happened to your eye?!”

“Nothing it was just a little accident on his part alone.” I try to excuse myself but Alex turns to Jo and bluntly tells her the truth.

“My sister punched me in the face.” I smack his arm at the lack of context.

Jo groans more annoyed than angry, “Seriously, again? I thought you two made up.”

“We did.” The three of us take a left down the hall, “We made up so much I thought a boxing session would bond us even more but I can see the flaw in my logic on his face.”

Jo chuckles, “Wow you two are so related. I know it’s not my forte but maybe try something a little less violent for a family bonding experience like painting or yoga.”

I chuckle at the absurdity of us doing those mundane activities, “You don’t get killer bodies like ours with color me mine or yoga, trust me. Besides he needed an outlet for his anger.”

Jo nods solemnly, “I see your still pissed about the results, did April tell you why?”

“Limited test subject availability.” Alex repeats frustrated, “Kepner didn’t believe we’d get the kid’s parents to let us try this on them.”

“And now we’re reduced to subpar equipment that me and DeLuca stole from the U Dub engineering department.” I add.

“Who’s Kepner to judge?” I raise an eyebrow at her and she remembers as we stop outside Kimmie’s room watching her stare at the ceiling in despair after her chemo round, “Besides you know being the judge. You guys aren’t giving up on Kimmie though right?”

“Hell no. I’m not giving up.” Alex says determined looking at Kimmie saddened as well as me, “But she kinda looks like she might be.”

I inhale sharply to reign my emotions since peds is making me feel sad that this kid is getting worse and I can’t do anything about it, “I’m gonna replenish her fluids and see if we can get beakers in bulk, I’ll see you guys later.” I leave them outside and go in grinning at Kimmie who is closing her eyes trying to sleep, “Hey Kimmie, don’t let me bother you I’m just gonna give you more fluids.” I take her empty saline bag and throw it away when Roy walks in causing me to groan in disgust, “What do you want?”

“Easy Barbie.” Roy says with a smug grin, “I’m just here to see if you can switch your hours with me so I can assist in a bowel resection this afternoon, what do you say?”

“No.” I hang a full saline bag over the hook and attach it to Kimmie’s IV, “Now go bother someone else.”

“Come on can’t you just do me this one favor?” I scoff at him as he continues, “You owe me for your cousin punching me.”

“After you called her a stupid whore right in front of her.” I remind him.

“I said it behind her back I didn’t know she was there with you.” The more he speaks the more I want to punch him.

“That’s your apology?” I ask incredulous, “It’s okay to degrade my cousin as long as she’s not there to hear you say it? You are a walking cringe meme.”

Roy rolls his eyes unfazed, “Come on it’s not like you’re doing much up here, at least in the clinic you’re not tending to brats on their death bed.”

“You know she is right you are a walking cringe meme.” Roy’s eyes widen at Kimmie speaking to him after being convinced she was asleep.

Roy grins sheepishly and chuckles uneasily, “Um hey how’s it going kid?”

“I’m not a kid.” Kimmie tells him bluntly, “I’m 12 and I’m not dying I’m coming down from the chemo I just had to keep the brain tumor from killing me…again.” I press my lips together at that dark statement that catches Roy off guard, and he gets the message and walks away with little dignity.

She thinks of him the same way I do as we both say, “Jackass.” I look at her in shock over her cursing but chuckle at it, “I’m not gonna tell your grandma don’t worry, you are more than allowed to curse at the world and the Roy’s that unfortunately came with it.”

“You work with that guy?” Kimmie asks me and I nod, “Wow I feel sorry for you, and I just had chemo.”

“Trust me your right to compare Vikram Roy to the crappy aftereffects of chemo, at least chemo doesn’t choose to be toxic. I wish I could get back at him but then I remember unlike him I don’t have his family’s infinity pool to fall back on if I get fired.”

For the first time in two weeks, I see a twinkle in her eyes, “You know I spent a part of my life in hospitals and it gets boring so me and the other kids in chemo come up with ways to entertain ourselves. We make music videos and raid the cafeteria for jello but you know what our favorite past time is?” I raise an eyebrow, “Pulling legendary pranks on doctors who never see it coming from the sick kids. Especially doctors who are asking for it by being douche nozzles like him, I mean come on I need something to distract me, don’t you think so?”

I grin at her impressed by her ability to guilt trip me and enticed with the chance of giving Roy a kick in the ass he so clearly needs, “Well what kind of doctor would I be to deny my patient her request?” She and I grin mischievously at each other at what I am sure is to be a memorable day for us.

Next Part Here

[ealvara7]

C, G, T for the musical prompt ask game!

Yes! I'm so excited to share more of my thoughts about this musical! ✨️

C) Favorite song?

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The Whole “Being Dead” Thing. Easy.

As much as I love Say My Name and Creepy Old Guy (I'd argue they're like my top 3). The Whole “Being Dead” Thing, both in live performances and in the album, are what made me realize, "Ah shit... I love this bug guy, don't I...?".

I also love seeing the animatics for this song on YouTube! I mentioned in the past that my gateway animatic (and in part the inspiration for my Beetlejuice design) is by shnikkles.

I just remembered like... even without the context of the musical, absolutely enjoying the hell out of this song because every single line could be interpreted in a completely different way. It's something that I feel is not as possible with a song like Say My Name, where there are specific story beats being told in the album. I'm kind of surprised that there are not that many people using this song for like their own demon/ghost OCs.

G) Favorite actor who’s been in the show?

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Tell ya what, I will list my favorite actor for each role! ✨

I feel like I can't just boil it down to one actor, because I like different ones for different roles. Spoiler alert: The majority of them are from the Broadway cast.

Beetlejuice - Alex Brightman (Broadway)

Lydia Deetz - Isabella Esler (Tour)

Adam Maitland - David Josefsberg (Broadway)

Barbara Maitland - Kerry Butler (Broadway)

Charles Deetz - Adam Dannheisser (Broadway)

Delia Deetz/Miss Argentina - Leslie Kritzer (Broadway)

Skye the Girl Scout - Dana Steingold (Broadway)

Otho - Kelvin Moon Loh (Broadway)

Maxie Dean - Danny Rutigliano (Broadway)

Maxine Dean/Juno - Jill Abramovitz (Broadway)

T) An underrated song?

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I was listening to Barbara 2.0 a little while back, and I almost forgot how beautiful that song is!

It's an important moment for Barbara and Adam, because this is when they decide that they will protect and support Lydia no matter what. In a way, I also see it as them standing up to Beetlejuice. They're not gonna let him pull them around like they're his puppets anymore.

My favorite moment in the song is when they say, "Ready, set, let's go!". The music hits it's highest point, and in the show, that's when they kiss - I couldn't forget a moment like that because of how well it was structured...

When I hear it, I like to imagine that they kiss, and their outfits transform from what they had in the beginning of act one to what they wear at the end of act two/curtain call, with a couple more embellishments, like sparkles. ✨️

I feel it would be a nice visual representation of them getting stronger as characters. I could go on about how I can imagine the Maitlands gaining newfound powers and learning how to hone them as ghosts over time, but I feel like I've rambled enough about how good this song is.

One last thing I would like to say is that I'm kind of upset that the song is called Barbara 2.0, and not Maitlands 2.0. I understand that this is because Barbara is the one to encourage Adam to stand with her and let go of their fears, but I always felt that both of them played a significant role in the Life or Death scene later on in the show - without Adam, Charles would've been dead, and without Barbara, Lydia's plan would've crumbled immediately.

[alexstorm]

I think I might've just had an epiphany and I know some of you have suggested it before but could it be that the girlfriends subconsciously influence Alex's personality more than we think? And I don't mean that he took on things they liked (e.g. films, music, books) but that their personality somehow got mirrored in him and his personas.

Like, Johanna and Alexa were English so closest to home. We only noticed a change in Alex when he became more fashionable during his time with Alexa because that's her thing, fashion, but he stayed himself personality wise. Then came Arielle, the American, outgoing, mainstream pretty girlfriend and Alex had one of his best eras look wise, very American and the persona he took on was American PR charming, smooth. A bit like Arielle. Taylor coaxed out his crazy, slutty side of a stage persona. Stage outfits were A+ but his personal ones were hit and miss just like Taylor's and we all remember 2017 with a shudder. And now we got a bland Alex with no energy and only three regular outfits who seems to be down most of the time. Just like Louise is a boring and bland person who seems to have a lot of issues.

It's like he's adapting to their personalities and therefore becomes like them to some degree. He obviously still has his talent which is a saving grace but just like a sponge he takes on their good AND their bad character traits which we then see on him. If that's the case he would need a girlfriend with a better mindset and character traits for him to get and be better. Does that make sense?