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I know it’s a cutting/editing error but like, isn’t it so fitting that Dean fell the wrong way after Cas threw him out of harms way.
Sort of like how Cas fell for him the moment he laid a hand on him in hell
Something something circular narrative something something mirroring yada yada yada blah blah blah
#you know the bit I mean#I’m literally just saying words this means absolutely nothing#Alex go to bed#destiel#castiel#dean winchester#supernatural#november 5th
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I do wonder if Crowley's optimism is actually optimism. If it weren't 4 a.m., I'd do a philosophical deep dive, but since it is, I'll just try to string some thoughts together.
At the core of Crowley's questioning stands, "What is the point of it all?"—it's what he wonders as Starmaker and what he defeatedly asks Shax at the beginning of season 2. It strikes me as a very specific flavour of trauma-related existential dread reinforced by his fall and the concept of the ineffable plan.
The thing is that Crowley already knows the answer to that question; it's just not a satisfying one. Because what is the point of it all? of us? of our lives? of all the suffering and the good and the bad and, well, everything?
There is no point. It's a fact you need to come to terms with rather quickly if you grow up traumatized, otherwise, you will break. There was no point in Crowley falling, just as there's no point in anything he or Aziraphale did over the last few millennia—they just are.
It's why any meta questions focusing on God won't get anywhere, there is no answer God would ever offer us or them; there is no answer that matters, period. Maybe God has one, maybe they don't, but it has zero effect on the story or what happens to them. It's terrifying, in a way, to think about it like this, because if there's no point to any aspect of our lives, why bother? Why bother when there are so many horrible things that could happen?
And THAT is where we come all the way back around to Crowley's optimism. He has long accepted the lack of answers (though I can tell you from personal experience that you never really stop asking anyway), but he needs to find a way to live with the world as it is.
'Everything's going to be fine sooner or later' isn't optimism; it's what you need to tell yourself to not jump in front of the next train.
Crowley's optimism is dreams. Dreams of him and Aziraphale being happy and together, dreams of their cottage in the south downs, dreams of heaven and hell never touching them again.
Dreams of life turning out to be better than what he is currently living.
From the outside, it can certainly look like optimism, but I see him, I am him, and I can guarantee you that it's not. It's a tiny pinprick of light in an otherwise dark sky that may or may not be actually there, but if you stop telling yourself that it exists, there's nothing left but darkness. You're afraid of the dark and its teeth because you have been bitten by them before.
So you keep repeating it over and over and over, and maybe one day it will no longer be a lie or you will be the light, but for now this is what you got.
It is also the reason why Crowley is going to be a wreck in season 3. Finally, he thought, we can be together and happy, and in love without being afraid. He reached for the pinprick of light, thinking it to be a star, and got ripped apart by sharpened teeth instead. Crowley needs that lie, and he just got completely disillusioned.
What's the point when, after everything, Aziraphale still leaves him?
No matter how much they love each other, Crowley needs to find an answer to that question within himself, not in Aziraphale or anyone else.
#alex go to bed#u need to let the brain juice do it’s funky magic#*ITS (wish i knew how to spell)#honk shoo honk shoo#<- doesnt that sound fun???#wren yells at Alex#(part one million)#also cue me going ‘hmm okay appendix?? high five?? what the hell do Europeans like????’#ineffable husbands#good omens#crowley#aziraphale#good omens season 2#this is how I’m procrastinating :)#you’re afraid of the dark and its teeth bc you’ve been bitten before. what the FUCK#just take one of those#oh what the fuck are they called#pumpkin scoop thingies. the things u use to scoop out pumpkin guts to make a jack-o-lantern#spoon?? is it just a spoon?#anyway I might as well Judy take one of those and SCOOP out my fuckin heart while you’re at it jesus h Christ Alex#*JUST#*YOU (not I). i am so sleep deprived what the shit#no but fr im sorry u relate to Crowley in that way. i 100% get that :(
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why do they do this. every time !!!!
#was watching the idiots lantern and LO AND BEHOLD DAVID TENNANT LICKS SOMETHING#i watched jodie whittaker eat dirt the other day and instantly fell truly deeply madly in love. thirteen i would devote my life to u#they're so silly i love themb#anyway this was originally a meme for alex but u guys can have it too ig. it's 2 am so i'm going to BED. good NIGHT!!!!#doctor who#shitpost#david tennant#jodie whittaker#tenth doctor#thirteenth doctor#doctor who meme#dw#doctor who shitpost
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25 today
#today was gooood I woke up at 5 bc banjo was barking and then got cozy in bed with Winston and watched dinner in America while working on#an art project untilllll like 7:30 then showered and got ready for workkkkk - ran lab all morning and one of the students brought me a gift#got more work done on my pieceee then taught class which was actually chiller in comparison to how it normally is . which was still pretty#hectic. but my mood was good :-)#and Alex sent me flowers to be delivered during class 😭😭😭😭#just got home and am going to go to the gym before getting dinner with my love 🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼#and ******** ***#hehehe
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procrastination >:[
#the day seems unfinished#but I already need to go to bed#at least brian's face looks cute#marble hornets#brian thomas#alex kralie#jay merrick#mh#my art#sketch#fanart#digital art#artists on tumblr#vampire!alex
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boys night
#quick warmup before i go to bed :3c maybe ill draw more of em tmrw#pls forgive any mistakes i wasnt really using a solid reference photo for this just stock meditation photos to get the legs and arms#guhhh i hate drawing poses like this with the elbows and knees bent towards the camera. but i need to practice#grips the sink and sighs#alex is shirtless bc honestly when is he not and also bc cosmo stole his shirt. heh#u know that thing ppl do when they get their nails freshly painted and all u can do admire em a little? yeah#what if we were both boys and you gently held my hand in a way i havent felt in a long time and carefully filed down and painted#my nails with such care and mumbled to fill the silence as i memorized the curve of your smile and your eyelashes sweeping your cheeks and#my art#myart#doodles#oc#stardew valley#sdv oc#sdv farmer#cosmo#sdv alex
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#i just knew there was a picture of tzp that would go nicely with this one of nick#there's actually more than one slutty tzp bed selfie but this one matches Nick's sultry look well#taylor zakhar perez#nicholas galitzine#taynick#bed selfies#rwrb#alex claremont diaz#henry fox mountchristen windsor#firstprince#userstratocumulusperlucidus
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trying to put in perspective just how young Lando used to look compared to the drivers he grew up racing with...
Lando, age 15
Max and Charles, age 15
Alex, age 15
Lance and George, age 15
Estie, age 15
#he was a BABY baby#lando norris#lore#i guess?#idk i need to go to bed#lando archive#max archive#charles archive#alex archive#george archive#lance archive#esteban archive
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“hold on to your heart” // do me a favour live at forest hills stadium new york 08/09/23 ♡
#i miss the car era alex so badly 🥺#god help me i’ve been comfort watching 2023 shows to comfort myself today bc i’m stuck in bed with the worst period pain#but all it’s done is made me nearly cry over that video of alex with the little toy car and miss them all so much my heart aches 😭😭#i wish i had a time machine so i could go back and relive my show all over again#they’re just… absolute magic 💗💗💗#also#can we please talk about alex’s fluffy little lion mane of hair during the car tour??#i know it gets a lot of love but imo still not nearly as much as it deserves#i mean#just look at him?? 🥺#okay i need to stop now before i reduce myself to tears again#i’m too emotionally fragile for this today 😩#alex turner#arctic monkeys#the car era#alex gifs#my gifs#lulu posts
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Another small peek into my sdv portrait mod in the works... plus a look at some of the sprite work i've been doing for it. Particuarly george's wheelchair and his face that's in a whole different style which has always been annoying to see but even moreso since I started using a wheelchair myself and have become more visibly disabled................ I guess i should just call this a visual overhaul for the characters at this point lmao
#droodles#stardew valley#sdv#alex sdv#george sdv#wizard sdv#marlon sdv#stardew mod#i love drawing all the life in the older characters and putting the love and care into them that... wasnt given. esp with george#george is in an inaccesible town and can't do anything and is seen as incapable and has his agency taken not to mention the personal#struggles that come with losing your physical ability.. he doesn't even go to sleep in his bed. he sleeps in the chair like. wtf#he's framed as the bad person for someone pushing his chair without his consent ?? that's his body dude#anyway. i have a lot of thoughts about how george is treated in the game
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i tried to write this ficlet four different times but i'm having a day so. take whatever this is.
aziraphale with fake vampire teeth. he loves them. crowley HATES them because you can just grow them angel, this is humiliating. i'm a fucking snake. i have fangs. take those things out of your mouth.
but aziraphale is doing his dollar-store dracula roleplay because it's halloween! he has to wear a costume when handing out the candy to the children!
"oh also crowley here's your costume-"
"i am not wearing a costume."
"you will wear the costume."
"this is embarrassing even for you angel"
(if there's one thing aziraphale is shamelessly good at, it's making puppy eyes at crowley until he gives in, and oh does he want him to wear the bloody thing)
"... fine. but you owe me" "yeah yeah just get ready"
and THAT is how soho gets to experience count aziraphale and his trusted companion, the bat crowley, who looks particularly dashing (and very much not scary) in a black turtleneck with tiny wings on his back. at least his eyes can be on full display, even if just for tonight, and the kids LOVE them so much crowley's complaints die down rather quickly. he might even have *gasp* a good time!
(and if it was more about getting him back into the turtleneck than the costume - well, aziraphale knows how to keep a secret)
#alex talks good omens#good omens#ineffable husbands#crowley#aziraphale#good omens season 2#go2#aziracrow#crowley x aziraphale#happy halloween and all#not feeling too great so if you see me going to bed at nine pm no you dont
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Alex Wurz: Sneak preview for the drivers of the Qiddiya City track
#they dgaf 😭😭😭#they just want to go to bed#Valtteri and Fernando wondering why they have to watch this again after they’ve already done their paid post#Daniel fully dissociating standing there. he was not in the room#only the Williams boys look remotely interested 😭😭#daniel ricciardo#lewis hamilton#george russell#valtteri bottas#zhou guanyu#alex albon#logan sargeant#fernando alonso#lance stroll#yuki tsunoda#max verstappen#checo perez#lando norris#oscar piastri#kevin magnussen#nico hulkenberg#charles leclerc#esteban ocon#pierre gasly#saudi24
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i wish you wouldn’t is out in the world! yours forever. links everywhere, but here’s a great starting place.
i hope you all like connor as much as i like beating on him. enjoy ☀️🩵
#iwyw#alex talks#apparently amazon is still saying pre-order but i imagine once it’s properly tomorrow we’ll be set#i go bed now
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Happy 4 year Anniversary to RQG 174. The episode that broke me. The episode that I stopped not even half way through because I was crying so hard. The episode that saw my favorite character die horribly. The episode that would have been my last had I not been told "listen to the end" by the lovely people in RQO's EA channel. The episode that I still cannot listen to all the way. The episode that has some of the best acting you'd never think it was all improvised. The episode that really made me hate nat 1s. The episode the changed the direction of two of the characters. The episode that is still the hardest I've ever cried in a podcast. The episode we still warn new listeners about. THE episode.
#rqg#Rqg 174#I still remember sitting on my bed sobbing#When Alex said Wilde had been thrown over I knew I KNEW but I still held out hope#And that waiting because everyone was in initiative was so long it felt like forever until Zolf found him#And then I was done I couldn't go on#I had to stop#I remember that so vividly#My poor bard#rqg wilde
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thinking about how lis1 romanticizes the open road in a way that's really only possible for a story almost or completely limited to a single location. travel and escape viewed as a means of fixing everything, or at least trying to--it's all Chloe talks about, it's the hope everyone has for Rachel, it's the glimmer of a happy ending in bae over bay. and the very fact that it's treated as a total escape means we can't explore it more fully in game, it has to stay as the light at the end of the tunnel.
it's why it does make sense that (as someone was snarking about online) Chloe never leaves Arcadia before the storm hits, despite having a truck, while Sean was able to leave his hometown with around forty dollars at the most. it was never about ability, it was about not seeing the open road as something she could face alone, maybe something she didn't deserve to face alone, until either death or exile via Storm forced her hand.
and then lis2 is, like I've said before, an extension of the post-storm ending and the reality of flight after you/your loved one brought down superpowered destruction on everything you knew. it delves into the nitty gritty of what exile actually looks like, the open road in all its incredible beauty and variety, but also its cruelty, privation, and fear. not that the world left behind looks any better--stuff like awesome adventures or the hints about the pre-canon tensions on Lewis Avenue highlight the fragility and violence hidden in seemingly stable home communities just as much as lis1.
so instead the idea of a new home away from it all becomes the target, a place to settle, or at least to build a "base" as Sean describes it. and then the whole game is interrogating what you'll do to get that promised land, that safe home, same way lis1's final decisions interrogates what Max will do to find freedom with Chloe. we never see extended details of life on the open road for Max and Chloe because the ambiguity is what makes it hopeful, and we never see extended details of Puerto Lobos for the same reason.
then listc completes this cycle with Alex coming to the end of her long journey back to her brother after exile from both her childhood and the ordinary society around her. she encounters the idea home as "a place to rest your bones" right before it's upended by the darker realities of the communities she's entered. that game's about coming to terms with the nature of where you've finally found yourself and deciding whether it's worth holding on regardless or better hitting the road for some place better, to gamble more on lis1's dreams of departure or lis2's dreams of arrival.
#i'm going to bed have this#life is strange#life is strange 2#life is strange true colors#lis verse#lis parallels#parallels#chloe price#max caulfield#rachel amber#sean diaz#daniel diaz#alex chen#monsters talks life is strange
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