#albeit limited

[hanakihan]

『As you walk by, you notice a man in a suit. There’s nothing exceptional about him, just another KHA member on assignment, albeit this one looks tired and worn out. You don’t pay him too much attention, ready to leave so you won’t disturb other’s work. But as you’re about to turn away, you find yourself frozen still under intense stare of a God. Liquid gold impassively stares right into your very soul, but as unexpectedly as it started, it ended. God has no interest in you, and you hurry to leave, least you’ll try his patience anymore.』

[astraystayyh]

I've been debating how to breach this topic for the past days, but there is no easy or practical way to bring it up. There is an ongoing genocide in Gaza- the world's largest open air prison, as described by U.N. officials and activists. Nearly 2500 Palestinians have been killed in the course of past few days, including women and nearly 700 children. 700. Israel urged Palestinians to leave the Gaza stripe (even though they have nowhere to go to) only to bomb their "safe" exit routes. Entire civilian neighborhoods and hospitals are being targeted by Israel, and they are threatening to cut off the water and electricity in Gaza as well, turning the few running hospitals left to cemeteries.

Palestinians children are writing their names on their palms so people would recognize them, in case they end up being killed by Israel forces. Palestinians are writing their goodbye messages on social media because they aren't sure they'd still be alive tomorrow. There is so much atrocity going on, so many war crimes that the west have deemed reasonable because those are Palestinian lives that are taken, because Palestinians lives aren't as important as western ones, because international law doesn't apply when it comes to Palestinians.

it is unsettling and uncomfortable to watch these images of war, of beheaded children being carried by fellow civilians, of ambulance drivers falling to the ground from the horror of that they've witnessed, of cries of babies who are suddenly orphans, who have never known anything but violence and murder. But this is the reality of Palestinians, as it has been for the past decades. Please, I urge you, educate yourself on the ongoing conflict. There is no hard choice, there are no nuances that you need to take into consideration, there are no 'buts'. There is a colonization, an ethnical cleansing, a genocide, and Palestinians aren't the instigators of it. They are the ones paying the price.

Standing up for Palestine doesn't mean you are anti-jew, the proof is there are a lot of Jewish people standing with the Palestine cause, because they recognize the atrocities committed by the Israeli government. There were no "40 beheaded babies" by Hamas, this was a false information, consciously perpetuated by Israel then the USA so they'd be able to attack Palestine with a "reasonable" motive, only backtracking on it when the damage was already done. There aren't two sides. There is only one true side and it's Palestine.

+ u just have to click this link and the revenue generated by traction in this website will be donated to Palestine! it's only one click per day please do it

[schmweed]

[futuristichedge]

Big fan of the idea that the cuffs that Silver wears are inhibitors/regulators similar to Shadow's. Amy too.

Theyre acting like devices that help tame the chaos energy/redirect it in a way that ensures that the wearer isn't going to tear themselves to shreds. Like little batteries/reserves that keep the wearer from using all that energy all at once!

[yardsards]

just read this part of the adventurer's bible and

do you think toshiro was originally attracted to falin (whilst still being irritated by many of her same traits in laios) because he thought his father would find her interesting???

[rubywolf0201]

Hoyoverse strikes again by making another NPC buffer and manlier than the playable units.

[elitadream]

Hi again!

i imagined a scenario of Bowser finding out from maybe a servant that his son has died, how would he’d react?

I know you probably wouldn’t do death or anything in your mario universe but humour the thought lol

also he probably wouldn’t be dead, just gravely injured and near death if that’s more comfortable 🙇‍♂️

Oh, trust me, you do NOT want to see my Bowser in a scenario where he would either believe his precious son to have passed or find him on the brink of death. 🫣

He has vicious and highly destructive tendencies on his best days. With that said, I think it's fair to say that the sight of him consumed by indescribable grief and devouring wrath would be downright apocalyptic. 🙇‍♀️

[soupis4ever]

poor olimar. he's not even a full inch tall and he's been sent to the Horrible Alien Death Planet so many times and it's still unclear wether he got to see his family in-between these journeys

[nabaath-areng]

Sorry ive been so off stress is making me feel very not normal (also the days getting colder and darker doesnt help—)

[cappucosmic]

lmfao i uh. i usually have 5 wips going at a time but i think i've officially lost control lmfao

[deathbind]

Dear god I put one toe in the tags and immediately had to yank it back like there were rabid piranhas

[freckled-moss]

I always find it so funny when modern au l&co. fics make the skull like a cat or something cuz skull would be so pissy if he knew

[variousqueerthings]

I'm watching "my so-called life" which is a fun little sojourn into 90s suburban youth americana (rip it's also j*ared leto's breakthrough, but youknow. that's the cost of watching things)

im waiting for the wilson cruz storyline to kick in, because so far he's really got that "gay best friend but living a totally different reality to all of you that you couldn't possibly visualise" that obviously i gravitate towards and have heard will be explored

also because a lot of what the narrative is about gives me similar vibes to when i was taking a gander at "big mouth" and feeling kind of affirmed in my particular 15-yr-old queer-and-nd alienation, because holy shit y'all lived like this???

(this brought to you by the main character in this episode going "I'm 15 and I don't even have a love life." when I was 15 I was confused about why I kept finding people making out in classrooms at my Christian boarding school and going through a realisation that I wasn't in love or lust with the guy I was supposedly seeing) (which was only painful because I was too anxious to tell him for too long and then he cried when I broke it off) (and I was very much not feeling any of the feelings overall)

(need me more things about the Alienation)

[wetslug]

just thinkin about how insane that BS health claim of "you have 10lbs of toxic poo in your colon!!" is. if u do see ur doctor bc youve got a bowel obstruction

[iristial]

Putting aside the Geats brainrot only for the spirit of Zero One to take over and I add more notes to my personal canon where among other things Aruto's a human-turned-Humagear (or cyborg), Izu was originally developed as the Ark's vessel and priestess before Korenosuke took her in a secret deal with Horobi, and Jin is a complicated thing of human-cyborg-Humagear who further parallels Aruto and his relationship to Korenosuke because both Korenosuke and Horobi are overprepared but the "paragon of humanity and Humagears" turned his biological grandson into a robot out of grief and then neglected the "replacement" while the "enemy of humans" did it out of concern for his very alive, adopted son's wellbeing (which the Ark took advantage of) and with his consent. It's never over with me and Takahashi series

[misscammiedawn]

Papyrus (Is "The Garden" on that playlist?)

papyrus ⇢ if you put your ‘on repeat’ playlist on shuffle, what’s the first song that comes up? what do you like about it / associate it with?

CW: Discussion of severe mental illness and suicide.

I had my "mental illness indie playlist" on and for the record Pills & Good Advice by Left At London (her gosh darn magnum opus to living with a SPMI) is the song that came up.

This is legitimately one of my favorite songs of all time and helped me a ton during the worst portions of second puberty when our BPD symptoms were off the charts. Left at London does amazing music ranging from talking about the 2020 social unrest which includes the refrain "Fuck you and the slavers that you work for" or finding joy within having a dissociative disorder or the terror of discovering one. As well as one of the most uncomfortably accurate songs about Disorganized/Insecure Attachment in BPD (the Patreon only edit even including a voice mail that ripped my heart to shreds the first time I heard it.) and a break-up song that includes a lyric that takes me out every time I hear it:

And if falling in love is all that it takes To make you love the world You’ll be bitter when they go Because even infinity in its entirety Still can turn to nothingness When it's multiplied by zero

But let's talk about the song which actually showed up on my random, Pills & Good Advice.

The song is built upon Nat's experiences from being released from a mental care facility after a suicide attempt and the fear and insecurity of being released into the world with nothing but medication and doctors recommendations to keep her from trying to kill herself again.

On my first day out My familiar town Felt the same as in my dreams Crying in my sleep When the sun came down Thinking "I am cured, it seems" But I don't know my name at all But what else is new? Should I show my pain at all? If you only knew You could try to help Care is imprecise All that I have left: Pills and good advice

Each verse of the song fluctuates between moods and depictions of chronic mental illness from the bridge having rapid voices displaying her impulses to experience a high to escape the pain of existing versus the desperate desire to stay the course and get better and mirrored refrains of "Please hold me down" symbolizing both a self-destructive impulse to die and a terror; begging their partner to kill or save her.

The song includes depictions of Identity Disturbance, a BPD symptom where those suffering lack a stable sense of identity and require an external source to mirror and receive acknowledgement from; Nat sings on multiple occasions about not knowing who she is and viewing her support in this crisis as her "mirror". I imagine imposter syndrome for Nat's music/poetry may be invading some lines such as "I'm plagarizing everything, stuttering solioquies (who am I again?)"

The song is set in 3 parts with the third part being a descent where the line (Higher) is repeated after every line and Nat struggles with her suicidal impulses, concluding:

Spend too many of my minutes getting higher (Higher) I've attempted way too much to even count (Higher) I've been committed, but committed to the people that I love And if I try to love myself, I guess that I could live forever crying

Knowing the sickness is a part of her but she doesn't want to die, even if she wants to die; she cares too much about the people in her life (the committed/committed line is actually genius and one of my favorite in all of her discography) and the best thing she can do is commit to loving herself and continuing along with life in spite of the pain inflicted by her illness.

The ending is ambiguous to my ears and /@/ isn't popular enough for me to see a lot of discussion on interpretations.

But on my last day out Let me scream to God, Family, friends, and enemies "So what happens next? Is this what you want? All I am is dead to me" So I can't hear my voice at all What was I to do? Did I have a choice at all? Seems I never do You could try to help Care is imprecise All that I'd have left: Pills and good advice I could try to heal Care is imprecise All that you'd have left: Pills and good advice

On one hand, I view the song as a positive rally into accepting that SPMI are as the letters describe "Severe Persistent Mental Illness", fuck knows I've lived with the weight of those letters on my medical records. It doesn't go away. You just have to learn to live with it. To enjoy the joys before the despairs.

I chose to believe those last lines are saying that other people could try to help but in the end all the sufferer has is medication and therapy techniques, change must come from within and that to live with someone who suffers will cause pain too and all the person helping can do is receive the same level in care in return.

"You could try to help" vs "I could try to heal" with all that I/you having left being Pills and Good Advice.

But in my darker days I focus on the "on my last day out" and how the singer bemoans never really having a choice and all their work in staying clean being for nothing. In that read, I worry that the final lines are the singer giving in to their symptoms and attempting to kill themselves again, with the final line being less of a "we can get better together" and more of a "I know this will hurt you, have you considered seeking psychological help?"

I prefer my positive spin on it but that may be optimism winning out.

Either way, the song is fantastic and deeply personal in a way I almost feel like I'm intruding to hear at times.

Suicide is a topic of massive importance to me; it is also my number one emotional trigger. For the past few months I've had a draft I've been toying on about how I feel it should be discussed and ironically I am terrified to post it because of how sensitive the topic is. It's really hard to put yourself out there.

I admire this work of art because it really tries its absolute hardest to share a perspective of what it's like to be living with these conditions and feeling like no matter how much you reach out to other people, they can't truly help in the ways that you need. It's a song about terror, it's a song about healing and my god I hope it's a song about growth.

But it may just be a song about cycles.