#aka im waiting to go off canon

[moonriseoverkyoto]

Ghosts in the family

Synopsis - aka all the times The Riley siblings have talked about eachother, and all the times Soap should’ve connected the dots but didn’t see the constellation.

cw/tags - MDNI 18+ making out, grinding, no piv or smut guys sorry, swearing, mentions of female anatomy, military inaccuracies, fanon versions of cod characters, threats, mild violence, mentions of guns, innuendos, etc. you’re dealing with grown men in the military that is your warning

Pairing - Johnny “Soap” MacTavish x Afab!Riley!Reader, John Price x Riley!Reader (Platonic)

Author's note - Soap is about 26, Reader is 24, Tommy is the name of Simon’s canon younger brother who later scares him with masks and anyways, just beware of that background. Pt.2 of this au, just this just shits and giggles background for later bc I dont know how to flesh out that cliffhanger I left in my Drabble, see you at the bottom! - Moon

Requests are open!

© moonriseoverkyoto 2023. please do not steal, copy, plagiarize, translate, or repost any of my works without my permission. do not steal any elements of my theme without permission.

1. Simon knew that Johnny’s intention wasn’t to piss him off, but yet he still managed to feel a migraine pool behind his eyes. All day, every mission just asking question after question. Simon wondered if this is what it was like to have a stable home. All he had was you from day one his baby sister. His lips jerk upward before he cuts off the muscle reflex of what we know as a smile. He’d rather keel over and die than let Johnny see his eyes krinkle.

“I have a sister.” He grumbles. Everyone in the truck goes silent. Johnny’s jokes stop, Gaz smirks to himself, even Price manages to watch through the rearview mirror.

“Really? And you waited so long to tell me. Oh my god what’s the like. Oh is she pretty- wait don’t answer that, that’s weird if you agree…” Simon sighs to himself as he tunes out Johnny again. Oh he wishes holiday would come faster.

2. Holiday was tough. Even worse was being stuck alone over holiday break because your only family was stuck in an operation. Especially since you just got the news after putting up Christmas decoration.

“Really Simon? I got football on the telly, your presents are all wrapped” you whined. Simon grinned under his balaclava, oh how he wished he could be there to receive your annual gag gift.

“I know I know I know, assignment came late and everyone else has families to go home to so I just suggested myself-“ he tried to calm you down knowing this would only add gasoline.

“Dammit Si, I’m your family too! Im gonna give you a new buzz cut when you get home at the rate you’re going with all these sudden plans.” Your voice cracked at his name, you know he didn’t mean to break your heart. But Simon couldn’t bare to see Johnny, Price, or Gaz not go home to their big happy families.

“Yeah I know. Im yer brother. No getting out of that one.” He said. “Why don’t you stay with Price again this year. You know he loves you around”

“Because he is the only friend of yours that I’ve met-“

“Yeah you’ll meet the guys someday. promise.”

“Maybe for this holiday present?”

“Maybe.“

“yeah yeah yeah. I love you Si”

“Love you too, and I hope that second date of yours goes well this Friday” oh if only he knew how well that date went with your mysterious Scottish man.

3. “I thought you said you don’t kiss on the second date” Johnny grinned into your lips. Your hands all in his hair.

“Only if they don’t show promise” you remarked back. You could feel his bulge grinding through your pants in the back of this telephone booth. A soft groan leaving his lips as Johnny responded

“Oh so I show promise.” You could practically hear the grin as his lips trailed down your jaw and neck, the slight friction of his scruff following as he moved aside your dogtags.

“Yeah promise that if you don’t hush up, you won’t be getting anything” you quipped back as equally as smug

“Thought you were gonna call that brother of yers” he slurred back as he smelled your perfume. The man practically drooling as your nails trailed down his neck scratching. If he had a tail it’d be whipping the air. A whimper passing through the air as his bulge caught the right part of your fabric rubbing your clit in a delightful direction

“he can wait, I have something else to call for now” you said as you opened the door of the telephone booth and whistled (or yelled if you can’t) as loud as you could do to call a taxi. Johnny had a light in his eye that he never thought would spark until he met you.

Soon you would find out later that Simon actually COULD wait and he did, 12 whole hours he stayed up staring at your apartment door to be let in - fresh on holiday too. Maybe being motormouth’d by Johnny into the window of a hummer didn’t sound so bad now

4. Simon kept a photo of you and him in his pocket everywhere that you went. I mean everywhere. No matter the place. And a lighter too incase he was captured by enemies so as to not compromise his location. But it was a photo from a holiday in France. You were both pillow fighting in the bed. Messy hair, toothless grins, back when Mummy was alive and Daddy hadn’t shown his true colors. Tommy took that picture,. Simon holds it to remind him what he’s fighting for.

“Oh is that yer little sister, she’s missin a few teeth there” Johnny grins looking over the sniper’s shoulder.

“You’re about to miss some bones if you ask about my sister again” Simon growls. fuck. Johnny is the last person he needs around his sister. It’s not like Johnny was a womanizer - he was the opposite. Johnny was perfection. He was from a happy home, a stable home, a place where you wouldn’t have to remember what happened at that old house. It scared Simon to death imagining you forgetting about him. Then he’d really be alone.

“She must’ve gotten the good genes.” Gaz pipes into the coms, what an instigator.

“Wonder what she looks like in jeans” Soap hummed as he cleaned out his gun.

Ghost hummed to himself as he secretly folded up the photo and put it right back in the pocket over his heart. Maybe you could wait another year before meeting them.

Authors note - I made a part 2, this is unedited. Im so tired. I will flesh more of this out before I take another break I promise!! Xoxo - Moon

[toxycodone]

is daisuke an otter or a fisher cat or somethig else

if he was an anthro animal what would he be

if he's an otter it makes him 100x more sexy imo otter furries are hot (we call them cock sleeves where im from)

anya would be a bird of some kind i think, perhaps she is a bird that lives in the cold. not a penguin though. but perhaps a puffin. She plucks her feathers out with her beak when she's stressed. Daisuke helps her clear out her pin feathers when she can't reach them i think.

jimmy could be a ferret or mongoose, an omnivore of some sort. maybe even a sparrow or finch. something you could throw or kick at high speeds easily. He could be punted like a football.

curly could be a hedgehog. actually wait no that doesnt make sense. hes probably something mammalian though. im curly's #1 hater sorry ill leave his fursona up to you. Actually no i think he's a fish. Yellow perch or a small bass. And that would make Jimmy a catfish. Or a gar. I like them being fish together.

swansea is a wild boar. not into him as a human (same with daisuke) but if he's a boar furry my dick would get so hard it would turn into solid stone like a man under medusa's gaze. oh but also imagine. Fat, furry beer belly perfectly resting in the arch of your back while you ride him.

let me know your thoughts on their furry species, I'm curious to hear your reasoning and choices. I am operating on very vague knowledge of these characters so this is probably inaccurate.

Still, catfish jimmy is so clear in my mind now, I think yellow perch Curly has to be real as well. and otter daisuke. Anya could be a corvid but i feel thats a little too basic for her. I also see her being a wild rabbit or hare of some kind. But she has such strong bird vibes in my mind, im not sure. Maybe she'd be a puffin and belgian hare hybrid. Like a griffin but for rabbits instead of lions.

this is so fucking cool and detailed anon i love you????

CATFISH JIMMY IS SO FUCKING REAL TO ME (@bigbossnaturals look at this). That's so. yeah, in my hcs jimmy is from mississippi so like. a catfish is perfect for him. esp considering its biology and everything YEAH. i also like him being a coyote. or a jackal even! a male hyena or duck could suit him too if you wanna like, really get into animal biology

For Anya....ohhhh i gotta go with an afghan hound? or maybe a saluki? but i like her being a horse...maybe like a spindly one. OR AN ELK. goddddd i would love for her to be some sort of like, herbivore that is thought to be skiddish but is actually really dangerous i think

DAISUKE. HEAR ME OUT. PINE MARTEN. pine marten daisuke is so,,,,yeah,,,,omg,,,,,thats so cute. i think thats perf for him. just yea.

curly is......I kinda wanna say a lion? a male african lion bc they are thought to be strong and brave providers but actually uhhh don't do much. i think a dog suits him really well going off personality and story though. it would be cool if he was some sort of dog with a collar on (showing despite being his own master and the fucking captain he's still leashed to somebody aka pony express or jimmy)

SWANSEA AS A BOAR IS SO FUCKING CANON TO ME TOOO I LOVE LOVE LOVE THAT ANON, SO MUCH YOU HAVE NO IDEA GRRRRRR BEER BELLY SWANSEAAAAAAA

[kaeyinx]

just saw an edit on tiktok made by samjfr3 and the song fits the buckley-diaz family so well, so obviously i WILL be elaborating

“out, on our own. dreaming in a world that we both know is out, of our control. but if shit hits the fan, we’re not alone. cause you’ve got me, and you know, that i’ve got you, and i know. If the tide takes california, im so glad i got to hold ya” okay that was a big chunk of text but i didn’t want to split the lyrics up cause they fit buck and chris SO WELL. first of all, the tide did take california. they forcefully got swept off the pier, and went crashing with the waves through santa monica. and in those moments, where buck is frantically looking around for chris while simultaneously trying to keep his head above water, he’s not sure that he’ll make it. or chris. and all he can think is that he’s so glad that he got to know chris. got to hold him close to his chest, got to create a special bond with a special little man. and while they’re sitting on that fire truck, unsure of how the remainder of the day will play out, there’s one for sure thing both boys know. no matter what, they have each other. and they know it.

“we’ve been livin’ on a fault line” TELL ME THATS NOT BUDDIE. disaster is always waiting to strike, right below their feet. disaster strikes with the ladder truck, the tsunami, the well, the shooting, getting struck by lightning etc. there is always SOMETHING waiting to happen to those two.

“i’d spend a lifetime, givin’ you my heart. i swear that i’ll be yours forever, till forever falls apart.” so that’s extremely buck coded. he loves his diaz boys with his entire heart. from the day that buck met eddie and christopher, he knew there was no way out for him. not that he wants out, of course. and even WITH forever falling apart—aka chris and possibly eddie moving to el paso—buck would still be theirs forever.

“i guess there’s nothing more romantic than dying with your friends” all of bucks besties are firefighters. they risk their lives everyday, and have gone through so many near-death experiences with each other!

“we never had it from the start. till death do us part” HELP ME. sure buck and eddie had each other from the start, but they didn’t have each other. but there is no way in hell that buck would ever willingly let eddie or chris depart from his life, so till death do them part. and death has TRIED. 3 minutes and 17 seconds i tell ya (can death also get tired i can’t go through anymore life threatening buddie arcs)(unless it ends with them canon then i could stomach it)

anyways once again there’s my two cents on that

[nikomedes]

i said i wouldnt make a rook until i got into CC but im cooked and ive made three. this will be my first playthrough, though, i think!

Ethelfred Thorne (aka Rook, Freddie)

no that name is not a joke. she wishes it was

pretty typical parentage story—human noble sleeps with elven servant—but her orlesian father gave her to his wife to cosset like a baby doll and dismissed her mother with a glowing recommendation as compensation

when her noble father and second mother unexpectedly had their own child later in life, she was shuffled back to servants quarters as a teenager. her taste of luxury and understanding of the trappings of nobility left her unwilling to just disappear there, though

she stole a shitload of silver and ran to the free marches to reinvent herself. she became an accomplished liar and far traveler, gradually escalating her grifts as her experience and successes grew. she went to great pains to hide her elven ancestry and was working towards marrying into wealth when a grift went wrong

she was conscripted into the wardens and intensely pissy about it for the first five years. gradually she accepted her fate and began to befriend people, find meaning in the work, and distinguish herself. she’ll never get all the fine things she wanted, but who gets anything they want in this world? at this point she’ll settle for having a little fun while swindling people to supply her outpost

becoming rook and the events of veilguard are a strange chance to change her fate, and become the troublesome dame to neve gallus’ seasoned detective

doesn’t “have legs up to here” because she’s short

uncannily good at accents and impressions

can will and MUST slap solas’s bald head

and because i am who i am as a person i. kinda wrote a pre-canon intro story. i may revise it once i see the opening material, but until then…

*** “—as I was saying, things were going great. Admittedly, the gown not having a back was an issue, but only if I turned around or took it off, and this mark wasn’t worth that.”

The new recruits are respectively wide-eyed, incredulous, and grinning. Warden Thorne’s usual traveling companion, Warden Hume, has heard this story too often to react outwardly to its more ridiculous beats.

“Now, bear in mind I still had my hair back then—” Thorne says, scrubbing her free hand through the brown scruff atop her head. 

“—and were ten years younger and hadn’t been used as a genlock’s scratching post,” Hume adds.

“And that,” Thorne allows. “I was a dainty little rosebud with hair piled to the heavens and lips as plush as my cu—”

Hume cuts in with a sharp, “No.”

“Lips as plush as overpainting near up my nose could make them look,” Thorne says. “I was the picture of innocence. So I say to him, I say—” With absolutely no pause in cadence or apparent effort, Thorne drops her Marcher accent and continues in an impeccable Orlesian lilt. “‘Messere, the implications! Why, if someone were to present themselves at Court with my father’s signet, they could petition the Council of Heralds for a lost barony!’”

The recruits start at the sudden, seamless voice change, but one recovers enough to ask, “Wait, do Orlesians just… lose baronies? Where do they go?”

“Orlais is too old and too chaotic for its own good,” Thorne explains in her normal voice. “Between Exalted Marches, civil wars, and the Game shuffling players off the board left and right, there are dozens of titles technically up for grabs, but they stay that way because trying to claim one is a pain in the ass. Huge burden of proof.”

“That’s what you offered,” the youngest recruit surmises.

Thorne winks at him. For all that her face is slashed with old scars and starting to show lines at the mouth and eyes, a trace of the ingénue lingers in the veteran. “It’s called the Magister’s Tiara. Old grift, real classic, but it stays in the playbook because grasping for power is eternal. So yeah, I cast and he bites— perfect. Plays it stoic, just tilts back his chin and sticks out his hand, and I whimper and I simper and I reeeach into my bodice and take out the silk handkerchief.”

She really doesn’t need to illustrate this part, but the person who can stop Warden Thorne from flashing tit unprovoked has yet to be found. She whips her current and much less glamorous cotton hankie out of her tunic and waves it at the recruits. 

“And I unwrap it, and he shouts—” Her voice goes Orlesian again but drops an octave, low and murderous. “‘You lying harlot! This is no noble signet! This is the club ring of the Barded Asses, a social society I was a member of at the University of Orlais!’” She pauses to knock back the dregs of her wine while the recruits gasp and laugh. “I know! What are the damned odds? First off, that what I’d taken for a warhorse device was a donkey in drag, and second, that I’d found the one mark at the party who could show me a matching one like it was something to be proud of!”

Her eyes, as they always do at this point in the story, go distant. Hume studies her. Thorne tells the story with raucous energy, but she still seems to feel the coin flip of fate in the moment she describes acutely. Heads, she makes a fortune grand enough to buy something like nobility in the Free Marches. Tails…

Warden Thorne waves at the barmaid and waggles her empty bottle of wine. The barmaid scowls; Thorne may’ve convinced the inn’s proprietor that the Grey Warden treaties entitle them to free lodging and vittles, but she isn’t getting it past this woman. That, or the woman takes offense to serving an obvious half-elf. Thorne rolls her eyes and sets the bottle down.

“Anyway,” she continues, “pretty typical story after that. Someone heard the shouting and the mark turned me in. I hadn’t actually done any harm yet, but I think I shook the partygoers with how I blended.” She produces a vulpine grin. “They had the town guards make an example of me— hair shorn, parentage declared, left in the stocks for the masses to practice their aim on with rotten turnips. My mark was ginning up something worse, to hear the guards tell it, trying to track me back to other victims and see me clapped in irons for good… Then some asshole in blue and silver turned up and said, ‘Dibs on the liar.’”

The voice she imitates at the end has a peculiar accent the recruits clearly can’t place. Hume hears Orzammar in the vowels and drinks against homesickness. 

“And now you’re a hero,” the quietest of the recruits murmurs, awed.

Warden Thorne grimaces, though she covers that fast and well, crossing her muddy boots at the ankles and batting her eyelashes. “Oh, I’m nothing next to Hume, you’ll see. All this to say— doesn’t matter how you got here, everybody starts over in the Wardens. But don’t be hasty giving up the skills you took from how you lived before! We need all kinds.”

Later, when they’ve put the kids to bed and Hume’s lowered himself to paying for Thorne’s second bottle of wine, the inn is quiet, and the somber mood that’s dogged their heels for miles catches up. It’s not hard to conjure a somber mood among Wardens. When the action slows and they piss out the booze, the pain creeps in, and the dark nights, and the vise grip of slow death in their blood. Hume looks at Thorne and tries to imagine her pretty. Not that she isn’t striking now, but he met her after she got her scars, and it’s hard to picture her unmarred and soft-bodied. Destined to be a charming menace, whether to Marcher viscounts or Antivan merchant princes. Dancing the Allemande under the glow of crystal chandeliers.

“What is it?” Thorne asks, happily drunk and swaying a little in her seat.

“You don’t have to go,” Hume says. “Whatever the commanders think, our numbers are still recovering from Adamant and you’re too good a blade to put on the shelf like this.”

“But I want to see the Imperium!” she protests. Her smile doesn’t touch her eyes. “Think of the beautiful vistas, and all the beautiful people who haven’t heard my stories or my lies! I might even conscript.” She laughs as she tops up her cup. “Wouldn’t that be a lark? While you train up these duckies, I go find a gosling. Someone really weird. They might even survive the Joining— has to be some substance to the ‘Vints, with how long they’ve held back the horde.”

Hume nods and drinks his ale. Listens to the fire crackle. Lets Thorne settle back into the mellowness of her wine before he murmurs, “You could run.”

“Don’t,” she says.

“You could. Maybe only you.”

“Don’t.”

“Others are too obvious. They have tells, look hunted.” Hume shrugs. “You wouldn’t. A wig, some makeup…”

“I had my shot,” Thorne says. She’s still smiling, but her lips are pressed into a thin, bloodless line. “I played the ass. This is what I am now– and if I run, I’ll still be this, with no compelling reason not to walk into the Waking Sea.”

“There are reasons out there,” Hume insists. “There are… are reasons surfacers exist, even though every exile thinks they’re nothing after the Shapers carve them out of history. You could find a new reason.”

“You don’t know what it’s like,” Thorne mutters, apparently at the end of her good humor and teetering on the edge of wine-fueled venom. “You never could.”

“I’m wearing the blue and silver right next to you,” Hume points out.

“You never dreamed!”

The barmaid stops wiping the counter and pins them with another cold look. Hume stares at Thorne. Thorne flashes an apologetic smile at the one other lingering patron, disturbed by her shout.

“You never dreamed,” she repeats, softly, as she pours the last of her second bottle into her cup. “I did. Great big beautiful dreams, of perfume and corsets and good food to eat, dreams so real I’d wake up sighing, breath caught like I was in whalebone. Big, beautiful houses and soft, loving hands.” She stares down at the still surface of her wine. “There’s nowhere I could go and nothing I could take, to get those beautiful dreams back now.”

Hume says nothing, not about the petulant melancholy she’s indulging or the fact she’s never known the deep peace of surrender to nothing, of waking with a hale body and untroubled mind just a blink after laying down. He watches her slump into the table and trace lazy circles through spilled liquor with the tip of a callused finger.

“It’s not all bad, you know.”

“How’s that?” he asks. 

“It’s a relief, I guess,” Thorne slurs, and conjures a last, tired smile for him, “to know exactly what your future holds. How far you’ll go… and exactly why you’ll stop.”

[misqnon]

MONT TELL US ABOUT THE MASQUERADE DRABBLES RAAAHH (pls and thank u <3)

also basically none of my wips are named . ruj roh.

LMFAO just arbitrarily give them names i guess. or briefly describe what it is in a few words. lemme see [grabby hands]

AND FOR UR ASK masquerade is the actual story but i have a drabbles document of scenes i wanted to write that are either non-canon or im not sure where to place them yet !! wait holy shit THERE'S SO MANY MORE THAN I THOUGHT THERE WAS??

it's time for horny! vampire! nonsense!

Leo and Ace were alone for once, stepping through the forests of Hyde in a comfortable silence. They'd left Marnie and Lilli back at the [spoiler] camp, where they seemed to be getting along well with everyone. But Ace had suggested a walk, and Leo wasn't one to avoid any time with Ace. Especially just the two of them.

Ace hopped over a gnarled root sticking out of the path and Leo, distracted in his own daydreams, walked right into it. He fell forward with a stumble, but Ace caught his shoulders and straightened him.

Leo chuckled awkwardly. "Sorry. I got distracted." 

Ace stepped back and kept walking, backwards now, so he was facing Leo. And yet he still wasn't tripping on anything. 

"By what? There's not much out here aside from leaves." He said, teasing. "Unless it's me. I mean, I am quite handsome, I know." He joked, bringing a hand to his chin. He was clearly just trying to make Leo laugh- and it worked, but he was also actually correct.

"Oh yeah, it was definitely you." Leo said sarcastically. 

"Still got it."

Leo rolled his eyes. Ace was still walking backwards.

"How are you not running into anything?"

Ace flung his sunglasses down over his eyes. "Vampire magic."

"Ah. Sure." 

Then, at the most humorous possible time, the blonde misstepped after a change in elevation and nearly fell backwards. Leo panicked, reaching out and grabbing him by the arms, pulling him back with some effort. 

The two of them looked at each other, now close again, Leo's hands locked on Ace's forearms, and as Leo began to blush, Ace busted out laughing. 

Leo felt himself relax a little. This dude was a total goofball.

"Okay, so, maybe I was just lucky. I can't see behind me either."

Leo felt a bit cocky by now. He gently took the sunglasses from Ace's eyes.

"Really?" He said with sarcasm again, eyeing the shades. 

"Hey! Those aren't part of it!" He said, cackling as he tried to take them back from the human. Leo was careful with them, but at some point he slipped them on himself. Ace stared with a smirk, crossing his arms. 

"...Wait, are these prescription?" 

"Alright, hand 'em over." Ace said, snatching them back. He returned them to their proper resting place in his hair.

"Why do you have those if you never wear them? And they're prescription?" He asked.

"That's-" Ace started. Then he froze. 

He seemed to still completely, focused on something. Then he brought a hand over his nose, and his eyes steeled. He suddenly looked stressed. 

"...Ace? Everything okay?" 

"Uh- Yeah, yeah, just…" He trailed off again. He seemed to become uncomfortable, with telltale signs coming over his expression. His eyes, usually a yellow-green, began to muddy. They seemed orange, brownish for a moment, then they slowly became red. Leo froze.

He knew what that meant. Ace and Lilli, their eyes only got like that when they smelled blood. Or when they were bloodthirsty, aka, very very hungry. Like when they'd been exposed to that massacre on the train, or when Lilli hadn't eaten for a few days. But which one was it? Lilli's was gradual, her eyes turning slowly, so surely this must mean there was a lot of blood nearby, right? 

"Is everything alright? Do you smell blood?" 

Ace looked to be worsening. "No, I don't. I'm- I'm fine,"

He clearly wasn't. 

Leo stepped forward a bit, reaching out to him, and Ace backed up so fast Leo actually felt afraid. 

"Ace, clearly you're not fine- What is going on!?" 

Leo was beginning to fear not only for Ace, but for himself. If he didn't smell blood, then what, was he hungry? Why else would his eyes turn this color? Carter's were always red, but Carter was also…Carter. 

But Carter had never looked this stressed. 

Ace attempted once again to collect himself. "Look." He managed, nearly bent over. His own hand was digging into his arm. "Just head back to the camp for me, will you? I'll meet you there." Ace sounded serious. And irritated. It felt wrong coming from him, something his voice never sounded like. 

"...Okay." Leo said, though he instantly regretted agreeing. But he wanted to trust him. Wasn't that what this whole thing was about? 

"But promise me you're going to be alright." He added, stepping forward again. 

Ace groaned, and then, without warning, pulled Leo forward with one clawed hand. Leo's eyes widened in shock behind his glasses. Suddenly he was face to face with Ace, though through the scarlet eyes and the strange expression, he felt like he was looking at some kind of bastardized version of his friend. 

"Leo, I'm….really thirsty all of a sudden." Ace muttered. 

Oh. 

This was quite literally his worst nightmare. 

"Oh." He said simply, echoing his thoughts. 

Oh.

What else was he supposed to say to that? 

Though it was only a single syllable, it carried all the weight of surprise, fear, and betrayal Leo was feeling at the moment, and Ace could tell. He winced almost immediately, whether it be at the realization of his own words or hearing Leo's frightened response. 

"I don't…" Ace started, but he trailed off again. He turned, and now Leo was pressed against a tree, the tall, blonde, goofy vampire suddenly a terrifying threat. 

Ace slowly leaned into Leo's neck, silent aside from his breathing. Leo's heart was beating out of his chest. He'd been in a situation much like this before, and with Carter of all people, so it seemed much worse. But Carter, as much as he looked down on the other, had been completely in control of himself, and had even asked Leo for permission before he'd even opened his mouth. And Leo never had, so he never did. Bloodthirsty Carter had controlled himself, but now Ace- spunky, golden, lovely Ace- was going to drink his blood? 

"Ace, what are you doing?" He managed, pressed against the tree as far as he could in an attempt to get away from the vampire's jaws. It wasn't much of an escape. 

Ace hissed. "I-I don't know!" He growled, claws digging into the bark of the tree above his head. Bits of wood and plant matter scattered over his shoulders. 

What was this, mind control? He had no idea what was going on, but neither did Ace, it seemed. 

"Okay…listen. If-If I give you some blood, do you think you'll calm down?" Leo ventured. Cutting his wrist a bit seemed a thousand times more preferable to having Ace's fangs dig into his neck. 

Ace hissed at that, too. "I don't want your blood, Leo. I don't want to hurt you- I don't-" 

"N-No offense, Ace, but it kinda looks like you do, right now." 

"I don't know what's wrong with me." He said through gritted teeth. "It just- came over me all of a sudden…"

Leo didn't know what to say next, and in the moment he didn't respond, Ace grabbed Leo's arm and brought it to his mouth. 

Leo nearly yiped in fear. "H-Hey, how about I cut my wrist a little, and you just-" 

Leo felt a cut open across his wrist, something akin to a very aggressive paper cut. Ace had dragged his fang over his skin, ripping it just enough for blood to come out. 

He winced, but it wasn't the most painful thing in the world. The way Ace's expression changed when the blood began to flow from the wound got a reaction from him, though. 

"Uh, Ace." He swallowed. 

Ace glanced up at him, only moving his eyes. 

"Please be…careful," 

The moment he'd finished his words, Ace's lips had closed over his wrist. Leo blushed. 

He'd imagined situations like this, but this is not how he imagined it going down. 

Ace was sucking on his skin greedily, and for the first time since this ordeal had began, Leo had a few moments to think. He was distracted at first, watching, feeling Ace…but then he began to reason.

Maybe it was something in the air. It had happened once they reached a specific spot. Ace must have smelled something, inhaled something…hadn't they heard of something that grew in the forest? Bloodsbane? 

Leo, now unrestrained, began to slowly step back the way they came. Ace glared up at him from his wrist. 

"You can keep going, let's just…move this way." He said nervously. 

Ace, surprisingly, let go of his arm. Then he licked his lips. 

Leo would have turned three shades darker if he wasn't scared for his life. He walked back down the path, now he walking backwards as he kept an eye on the vampire following him. 

Of course, it was Leo, and he was also under quite a bit of stress- so he tripped. Ace still reached out to catch him, but he still seemed distracted, and Leo fell on his butt against a tree. 

Ace approached and then bent down to him. His eyes were still blood red, but he seemed calmer. 

He glanced down, and Leo followed his gaze. The wound on his wrist was still bleeding, and now a sizable amount had collected itself on his arm. Ace was practically drooling. 

Leo, thoughtlessly, presented his arm again. Ace took it. dragging his tongue up his forearm to catch the drippage. Leo felt a warmth forming in his stomach and desperately tried to take stock of the situation. 

"Leo…" Ace muttered. "You…Ngh…" And then he was back on his wrist. 

He wasn't bleeding that much, but he was still starting to get worried. Ace was drinking his blood right now. That was a thing that was currently happening.

It was. Kinda hot. 

But he was also terrified and had been terrified about this exact situation ever since he met them all, let alone even realized that vampires were real. 

Well, actually, this wasn't his worst nightmare. In those, they were biting his neck.

[royallygray]

I’m busy today ahsjsk but prepare for me to ramble your ears off later

also take a guess at which ship 💀 you’ll never get it /s

also also also did I reblog that from you and if so spill I want to hear what you’re writing /nf

OOOOOH

I bet you seventy monopoly bucks it's ethubs. just. just a subtle guess. maybe. possibly. actually quite unlikely it's not like you ship them or anything 😁

Idk if you reblogged that from me either and idk what /nf means but. ok.

So I have my main AU, soul horizon au, aka around my soul and beyond your horizon, and the masterpost of everything relating to it is here. It's Scarian and Gempearl but it's actually centered around everyone's friendship and something except I haven't actually done a lot of writing for it but I have stuff about Pearl and I have a mutual Peri @periwinklepaint (the best I love them sm just shdhagjah) she's so talented and has drawn 3(THREE!!!!!!!! :D) Pearl drawings in soul horizon au and she's the one that has kept me going in this au

And then my other main not fanfic one is iw8, that I've talked about a teeny bit, but it's my self-indulgent ass half-my-300-OCs fic, that also doesn't actually have anything written for IT-- WAIT I DO I HAVE AN AO3 AND IVE PUBLISHED SOME STUFF FOR IW8 LETS GOO

my ao3 is royalwriteswords and the series is called iw8 | Eternality under my RoyallyGray pseud

I hate half of them but yeah

uhh I've ranted sufficiently

Oh yeah I ranted a little bit about Skyler in a post. She's an OC in iw8

did I mention that iw8 is technically a Harry Potter fanfic. that crosses over with Percy Jackson. and also keeper of the lost cities. but I tend to ignore that bc it diverged primarily into family dynamics and shit bc the main family (Crownes) (Crown-nez) has a long line of people and just. a lot of people with different dynamics and shit and I could probably stop ranting but honestly I'm having fun

Okay so the main character--im unsure if I'm gonna change her name or not--is named Sarah Crownes. Which is the self insert that got out of hand and she was a Mary Sue fucking overpowered as hell (she's still overpowered but it's less relevant now) and she's massively fucked up

HO TT OGO YOU CAN TAKE ME HOT TO GO

I've gotten rly into Chappell Roan and that's been playing in my head

Anyways Sarah has a younger brother called Scott, and a younger sister called Skyler. They're all 9 years apart, and Sarah just turned 18 by the time Skyler was born.

I killed their parents, Sasha Black (yes she's related to sirius. they are twins. yes it's cringe. shut up. embrace the cringe. maybe.) and Davis Crownes (Hermione's mom's brother. now we don't know if Hermione's mom has siblings. but we also don't even know her fucking name so TECHNICALLY Davis can be canon anyways I digress) on the same day that Skyler was born (December 24, 1997). don't blame me, blame Voldemort. it was Voldemort.

Unfortunately, I fucked over Sarah bc why not. Davis and Sasha made Sarah the primary like. person of their will to take care of Scott and Incoming Baby once she turned 18 (December 18, 1997. born 1979) and like.

Sarah is grieving and also fighting in a fucking war when they die and leave the kids to her but also everyone else on their list is either ALSO FIGHTING IN THE FUCKING WAR or otherwise unfit. Like Remus? bro he's not doing well. also in war. the Weasleys? in war. Paul and Alyssa (OCs)? fighting in war.

like. they're all fucked.

also I made this decision like ages ago when I was less mature and less understanding of world, but Sarah sent Scott to Camp Half Blood and Skyler to Camp Jupiter. The reason they're at separate and not at the same is bc Sarah didn't want Scott to feel absolutely over responsible at all times over Skyler and just. yeah

but I feel like there's gotta be a more seamless way of her to do that than just sending them to camps bc she can't take care of them but I haven't figured that out yet anyways

Im done with this post let me know if you have questions and/or want more :D

thanks for the ask Kat <3

[nintendont2502]

Timeline thoughts (transcription under cut)

[/Begin ID: A series of screenshots of discord messages from user 'gayve strider dick rider'. The first one reads "Okay okay okay so. O just had. A thought. And yeah this probably isn't supported by canon at all but yk what? fuck canon I love this idea. So. Doomed timelines. They're any deviation from the alpha timeline (aka any series of events that doesnt result in lord English's creation) and they usually get destroyed to preserve alpha. *But* - afaik, *we don't have any evidence that doomed timelines actually get destroyed*. The only one we see is davesprites, and they just *say* its falling apart iirc. The whole thing only breaks after Dave leaves, and rose dreams her consciousness away or some shit im gonna be real I didn't understand it - aka after the two remaining players leave. What if the doomed tkmelines don't *actually* get destroyed as long as there's one active player out there, they just kinda. Keep going? Maybe a doomed timeline is just any timeline where you cant win sburb, even if you do everything correctly, because you were *doomed* by your deviation from alpha. Again there's probably a shit ton contradicting this in canon but fuck canon. And speaking of 'fuck canon' - the epilogues. Yeah yeah I know fuck the epilogues ***but***. What if the epilogues are *also* doomed timelines? Or at least the timeline where they never defeat lord English. Beating lord English and trapping him in lil cal as part of his masterpiece is a pretty fucking important part of his (and by extension, the alpha) timeline, right? Wouldn't any timeline that deviates from this (cough cough candy cough cough) be, by extension, doomed?'

The next message reads 'Maybe that's why the world seems so fake and everything's going to shit in the epilogues - instead of the doomed/candy timeline being sectioned off from alpha/meat, it's instead weirdly linked thanks to ult dirk and ult calliope, which is why both tomelines are kinda fucked (and also combining iirc?)'

The third message is replying to a previous message beginning 'What if the doomed tkmelines don't actually get destroyed as long as there's one active player out...' and reads 'ALSO - in hiveswap friendsim. [In spoilered text] specifically marvus' route. Iirc MSPA reader is trying to stay with Marvus and pause the timeline - aka *deviating from the alpha timeline*. That one ending is doomed, which is why the narrative itself is constantly trying to kill MSPA reader so they can get back to alpha. [End spoilered text]

What if doomed timelines are inherently more deadly than alpha? By killing off all remaining players that could ensure the timeline can be destroyed, like they're said to be in canon. Theres more here but I'm too dumb to think of it right now ( < just woke up)'

The last message is replying to a previous message reading 'Maybe that's why the world seems so fake and everything's going to shit in the epilogues - instead of the...' and reads 'Wait yeah I figured out what o was going for here - candy as a doomed timeline intrinsically linked to meat basically infects meat with the whole 'everything is wrong and the place is falling apart' thing, and meat as the alpha timeline intrinsically linked to candy sustaining candy and ensuring it doesn't kill off its players and disappear like a regular doomed timeline

The two being sustained by ult dirk and calliope, two characters who transcend timelines and, although they each focus on their own particular timeline (dirk with meat, calliope with candy) they do occasionally interfere in the other, ensuring the two stay linked. And the two being so linked they combine (at least on a narrative/meta aspect) into one in HS^2, which is. Such a shit fight.' /End ID]

[spicybonelesschickenfeet]

Heartbeat 2/3

Summary; you had know Aaron hotchner since university, and ever since the first day of knowing him you had the biggest, fattest, most overwhelming crush on the guy. But for some reason he never knew, or even noticed. You had eventually learned to push the feelings away trying to figure out your own problems, focusing on yourself. Then, years later when you joined the bau after getting transferred... Things seemed to go downhill after reuniting with Aaron. But there's a bit of a romance twinkling between you and one of your new coworkers.

Aaron hotchner x nb!reader (past romance)

Spencer Reid x nb!reader (SLIGHT romance)

bau x nb!reader (platonic)

WARNINGS; you do ALMOST die at the end :P it's angst. There's canon levels of violence but may or may not be a little more violent, there's mention of unrequited love, you don't kill yourself but the unsub almost kills you , this also may Incudes a few adult rated scenes and language.

(Now a psa, the reader aka you in this story is a bit fem presenting and gets along better with the gorls. There's mentions of typically "girl" related things like makeup n stuff. Just a psa, oh and also Im still getting used to writing longer stories and it might feel like it jumps from one scene to another a bit quickly and that's because is it. Also I'm very reliant on speach rather than detail.)

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(This chapter starts after a heafty time skip roughly around two months later)

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You found that working in the BAU was definitely more your style, you felt a lot more confident in your abilities to do your job and excell at it. You had become close with all your coworkers, even hotch.

Now you and hotch, the two of you decided to push what happened a few years ago to the furthest corner of your minds to disable any problems that could occur from that interaction. But that didn't stop it from replaying in your head when you were alone.

-memory-

"What do you mean your leaving for Europe?" A younger Aaron hotchner asked as you held your rolling suitcase along to sit by your side.

"I mean, Im going to Europe. I dont know when I'll be back or if I'll ever be back. If it comes down to it I will probably stay there to care for my grandmother. I'm sorry Aaron. I really am-"

He cut you off with furrowed eyebrows. "This isn't about me and Haley is it? I thought you said you got over those feeli-" before he uttered another word you slapped him so hard he lost his breath for a moment.

You had tears running down your cheeks. "Why is it, that everytime I mention having to leave or that I'm having any mental health problems... You bring up THAT... Why? This isn't about you Aaron. Good bye." You say in disbelief turning to walked away from your apartment building. The one that Aaron had tracked you down too after cutting him off two weeks prior.

You were happy to be leaving. So happy you started to smile.

-end of memory-

Even if you couldn't remember most of the argument before the two of you had gotten out of the apartment, you knew it was a heavy argument. The two of you shouldn't have ever been friends but he was so persistent at the start of university that you had found yourself falling in love with him. But you were soon put down after finding he was with Haley. You didn't not once ever think of getting with Aaron hotchner after that. Since you knew what it was like to be cheated on you couldn't ever do that to Haley.

"(L/Name)? You good?" Reid asked with a hint of worry. You looked up from the computer and nodded "yeah I'm good, I was just thinking. Is something wrong?" You asked him and he shook his head. "nope, just wondering. However we are needed in the meeting room, we have a new case" he said as he stood there waiting for you to stand up.

The two of you walked to he meeting room and sat down. You hadn't noticed but Spencer had sat next to you rather than sitting next to Morgan and Elle. Which left and empty spot between you and Elle. It had taken the odd tension in the room for you to whisper to Spencer. "I'm going to scoot into the chair next to Elle." Before hotch began to speak you moved to the chair next to Elle and Spencer also scooted over into the chair you had been sitting in. And the the tension was gone, or maybe it was all in your head? You hadn't a clue what it was but you didn't feel uncomfortable anymore.

Hotch began explaining the case handing files to everyone.

"We have a potential serial killer, there are about seventeen dead and they've al been killed the same way." He started. You looked at the pictures and your stomach dropped. You knew what these murders were depicting. It was the same way a serial killer named "the clown killer" he had been caught so it had to be a copy cat.

"This is just like the clown killer, it's almost exactly the same it has to be a copy cat... Since the clown killer was caught mid murder" you think aloud after hotch finishes explaining some things. You got an odd look from Morgan but Spencer nodded once he noticed it as well. "They're right, these murders look almost exactly like the clown killers. You know when the actually found him he was in the middle of killing another person, I think the woman actually survived it" he added and the all nodded, Morgan speaking up.

"Well then we've definitely got a copy cat".

You had gutted feeling, but maybe it was just your nerves, this would be the first actual case you'd be going on and being involved in it.

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Whilst on the jet to baker city, Oregon. You and Spencer talked about the clown killer and the notes in the files.

"You know it's funny because I was born in Baker city. My mom moved us around after I turned three. I think my dad lives there still." You say nonchalantly getting a few odd looks from the other agents.

"I didn't know you were born in Oregon, (L/Name)" hotch stated, you nodded. "It's not really something I talk about- I usually don't talk about anything like that with coworkers. It's confusing and a long story so I usually just keep it to myself" you respond, correcting what you were going to say. Which was 'its not really something I talk about' to 'i usually don't talk about anything like that with coworkers' because you infact have told your close friends about your odd situations while growing up. But usually you don't hang out with coworkers outside of work. Even if they Invite you.

"Well that's no reason not to talk about it, I'm pretty curious as to your childhood story" Elle said with a smile and your heart fluttered. "wai-.....wait are you serious?" You ask her and she nodded. "lay it on me, I've got nothing better to do" she smiled and you smiled and started talking about your entire childhood.

Throughout the hours everyone was on the jet, you had told Elle and anyone who was listening every little aspect of your childhood down to the rebellious things you used to do without your mother's knowledge.

When exiting the jet Morgan ruffled your hair "never took you for a bad (boy/girl/kid) (L/name)." He chuckled and you gave an almost confused look before realizing he was talking about your teen years. You rolled your eyes and sped up your walking pace to catch up with Spencer.

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While in Baker city, after talking to the police and checking out the crime scenes you bumped into a woman.

"Oh- I'm so sorry ma'am- mom? Mom what are you doing here in Oregon? I thought you were in north Dakota?" You picked the wallet up from he ground and handed it to your grey haired mother.

"Oh- sweetpea I didn't expect to see you here! I came to visit your aunt Naomi, she's been having a rough time since moving back here. You know what happened all those years ago right? How she found the clown killer right when he was killing her boyfriend?" Your mom babbled out and your eyes widened. "wait- aunt Naomi is back? Like back from Europe? I thought she wasn't ever going to come back- is she staying at the old house? The one on greeneye street?" You ask and you mom nodded. "yes, I'm going there now since I'm staying. You can come along to her- oh and your friends can come as well. Unless your working?" Your sweet mother smiled, her (E/C) eyes waiting patiently for your response.

"I am here on work, but I think aunty Naomi can answer a few questions for me and my 'friends', are you guys cool with making a small detour to my aunt's?" You nod t your mother bfoe asking Spencer and Elle who both shrugged. "sure. It's not like we really have anything we were assigned to specifically" Elle responded and you smiled turing back to your mom. "Well mom, lead the way to aunt Naomi's house"

The four of you had only walked about ten minutes before showing up at a red, wooden, two story house with fruit trees surrounding it and a yard full of vegetables and fruit plants, as well as a chicken coop in the far corner of the yard.

Waking up to the porch a woman who seemed to be in her late thirties opened the door.

"Oh, Bernie and Sweetpea? What a nice surprise!" The woman with messy brownish grey hair smiled bringing you into a hug.

"Hi aunt Naomi" you say nervously as the woman fluffed your hair and looked your face over. She was always obsessed with dressing you up and going out places with you ever since you had been born.

"Oh I haven't seen you since you were sixteen, oh your still as gorgeous as ever sweetpea. Oh, who are your friends?" Naomi asked after gushing over your appearance. "Aunty Naomi these are my coworkers Spencer Reid and Elle Greenaway, I'm actually here to as you a few questions about the clown killer if your comfortable with it?" You ask sheepishly. The woman cocked and eye ro at you before smiling. "Sure thing sweetpea, come in ya'lot. I'll get some tea for while your here" she says opening the door for you, your mother, Spencer, and Elle to walk in.

You instinctively took your shoes off at the door, placing them in the shoe holder. Both Elle and Spencer mimicked what you had done since you were all probably going to be there for awhile. You then waved them towards to the living area where two couches sat across from each other with a coffee table in the middle, a TV was mounted on the wall but clearly wasn't ever used. A cat tree stood next to the big arched light green stain glassed window, two fluffy cats layed there on the cat tree. The grey one on the bottom leaf shaped branch, and on the top of the cat tree sat a fluffy brown cat that watched as everyone found their spots in the living room and couches.

Once Naomi sat down next to your mother, Bernadette/Bernie, she asked. "So you wanted to know about the clown killer?" She asked looking at you, you nodded "yes, we're here on a case and I was wondering if you could tell us how you found the killer, or anything that could help us in our investigation. We believe there's a copycat of the killer" you explained and your aunt's face went pale.

"A copycat of the clown killer? Oh no... That's not good at all... " She mumbled with wide eyes. She took a sip of tea before speaking again.

"Well ... When I found him, I had realized his next target what my boyfriend, the clown killer only targeted people he saw that had to much of the look of a child in some weird way. My ex boyfriend josh used to have this messy brown hair and wore a pair of glasses that made him look five years younger than he was. And he was obsessed with reading. It all had lined up with what the clown killer was after and I had gone to josh's house to find the killer stabing him to death, and I had called my dad, your grandfather, who was the cheif of police at the time on a payphone... He got there right before the killer stabbed me in the stomach." She explained with a saddened expression. You saw Elle take a few notes and you nod. "Well I'm glad he's away now. He can't hurt anymore people. Are there anymore things you did to find the killer?" You asked and your aunt took a mom before she stood up.

"I'll be right back, I have journals full of notes and photos from when I was solving the crime by myself. I'll let you use him for your investigation" she nodded before walking to another room and coming back with a box.

She sat the box down on the coffee tal an opened it, pulling out an old authentic 80's jean jacket with some additional pieces added to it. Like the hood off of a hoodie and sleeves of a hoodie added. She sat it down and then pulled out a tattered old leather backed journal, two of them.

"These journals are full of sketches from the crime scenes, photos, notes, newspapers, and even myow evidence from back then. I hope you can use them" Naomi handed you to te lethr journals and you took them both carefully. Looking through the first which was filled to the very brim with in-depth notes, the second hadmore paper clippings, photos, and sketches that notes.

"Thank you aunt Naomi, I'll be sure these stay safe. I do think we have to get going now but I'll be sure to visit before we leave okay?" You a hugging your aunt and she nodded hugging you tightly. The she picked the jacket up and handed it to you.

"Here, it's colder out towards the evening and I saw you shivering earlier. I think it'll look good on you" she smiled sweetly as you hesitantly took the jean jacket and put it on. It was a little loose but pretty comfortable. The sewn on hoodie sleeves super softs and the pockets in the jean jacket itself were huge. You smiled and hugging your aunt once again before Kissing her cheeks as well as your mother's.

"I'll see you both soon! Stay safe!" You say before putting your shoes on after Spencer and Elle. Then the three of you were out the door.

"You look good in that jean jacket sweetpea" Elle teased and you shoved her shoulder a bit. "Come-on the others are probably Wondering where we are." You roll your eyes at the dar haired woman before the three of you start to walk to the hotel you were staying at.

-end of chapter two-

How we feeing yall, any foreshadowing you see may be what next chapters about 👀.

[butterscotch-brigade]

sooo i finally watched invader zim enter the florpus!! i was gonna wait until i finished the comics first but then i saw that apparently clembrane appears in the comics after the movie?? and i didnt want to risk getting spoiled bc yknow. the movie is when he First Appears so i thought id watch it before picking the comics back up again.

anyway, here r my thoughts on the movie down below!!

it was....pretty good!! there were a LOT of positives for me, but ultimately one major thing that i really wish could have been done better (but we'll get to that in a bit). again, i liked it, i thought it was a good movie! im gonna list all the things i especially liked followed by the things that kinda bothered me a bit so bear with me lol

positivies:

i know this is an Unpopular Opinion, but i actually rly like the art style!! i still think the show's designs r better, but i rly RLY liked how vibrant and smooth the animation was in this film. plus movies based on animated series already tend to have a slightly different art style anyway (the spongebob movies and the mlpfim movie come to mind) so i didnt mind the change. add to that the fact that this movie came out 17 years after the shows cancellation and its no wonder that jhonen vasquez's art has changed since then, plus i'd imagine there was a much bigger art/animation team this time around. anyway ofc i rly loved the part where they Enter The Florpus (lol get it) and go thru all the different art/animation styles, i loooovee stuff like that and i think every animated production should do smth like that at least once solely bc i love it so much. for me

clembrane is rly funny and i love him. im glad hes here now. dib and gaz have TWO dads

PROF. MEMBRANE WAS SO FUCKING COOL????? like omg i was NOT expecting him to be so badass in this???? when he shot the giant fucking Laser Blast out of his arms and wiped out all those robots my jaw DROPPED i was in SHOCK!!!! he was hiding all that power this whole time????? DAMN no wonder hes considered one of the most important scientists on earth

the humor was really fucking funny as always w iz LOLLLL there were multiple points that made me laugh out loud. special shoutout to the callback they made to mortos der soulstealer where zim and dib are yelling at each other and zim keeps going "WHAT????" ASKDJALSKDJ thats one of my fav jokes from the show so im glad they did that here

gir aka my fav was SOOO CUUUTEEE his stupid little peace song was so funny and adorable, i love p much everything he does in this movie as usual SDKJFLDSKJ gir my beloved

even if i have some issues w it (which we'll get to shortly), i DO like seeing that dibs family really do care for him, particularly prof. membrane. hearing him say he was proud of dib did make me smile

im not entirely sure how i feel abt the tallests canonically dying, but i do think its a funny way to kill them off and end their story. like.....ofc they die bc theyre too entitled to steer their spaceship. what else would they die from SAKFJLSDKJ

all that being said, there was one major thing that kind of bugged me a bit, as well as a few minor nitpicks.

negatives:

starting off with my biggest issue, and this might be a confusing one for some, but let me explain: in my opinion, compared to the show, this movie felt just a bit too.....sanitized? "feel-good"-ish? ....happy?? now just hear me out. a large part of what made invader zim so appealing, especially to that older tween/young teen crowd (many of whom fell into the emo subculture), is the fact that, compared to other kids cartoons at the time and even today, it was a very mean-spiritied, cynical, pessimistic show. the main protagonist is a villain trying to take over the world. his rival is the show's antagonist, so audiences may find themselves rooting against him even tho hes trying to save the world. gaz is on no one's side but her own and frequently bullies her brother and does not care what happens to zim. and it works!! thats a key factor in why so many people, myself included, like the show. it isnt afraid to have unhappy/unsatisfying endings, and there are very few "happy" moments (aside from gir, ofc, who is a fan favorite for this reason; his happiness in spite of the dark world around him is a great source of irony and genuine enjoyment). and i feel like this movie lacks a lot of that cynicism and bitterness from the show, yknow? like....i like dib and i want him to succeed, but part of his appeal is knowing that he never will, or at least not in the way he wants. we want dib's family to recognize him, we want gaz to show that she still loves him, and we want prof. membrane to say that hes proud of him. but.....invader zim is not really the type of show. i understand that this is ofc a movie for kids, but again, part of what made the show so appealing was the fact that it was so dark WHILE still being for kids. the closest thing we get to any kind of "mean-spiritedness" is the tallests deaths, which, while deserved and executed in a funny way, only happens at the end. idk i just felt like this movie was kinda....playing it "safe" compared to the show it was based on yknow. but thats just my opinion idk i swear im not one of those "WHOA look at how DARK and EDGY this show is!!! that proves that its NOT FOR KIDS" types, i just feel like the overall tone was a bit lacking compared to the source material

NOW onto the nitpicks!! these werent rly major flaws that interfered w my enjoyment of the movie, just stuff that mildly irked me (lol get it). for starters i wish tak was there :( i know she was originally planned to be in the movie but they had to cut her for time constraints which is fair. still i miss her so much. tak my beloved come back to me

another nitpick, but pretty much the only other thing that i didnt like abt this movie and its SUPER minor: i dont like how frequently gaz's eyes are open throughout this movie?? ALKSJFSDLKLKDS I KNOW THATS A WEIRD THING TO COMPLAIN ABT LMAOOOO i swear it doesnt actually bother me that much but it was kind of distracting. the reason gaz's eyes are almost always closed is to add to that angry, apathetic look she always has; it conveys her personality. when her eyes DO open, they're large and cute, which is a nice contrast to her normal appearance and makes these scenes in the show/comics have more comedic impact. here, they're open a bit too frequently for my liking, and i think it made me perceive her character differently. i think she should have been grumpier LOLLL but that kind of ties back into my first point

but errmm yeah!! despite the block of text i just wrote i still rly liked this movie!! in terms of continuations to the show, however, i think i prefer the comics, although again i have not finished reading them. i just feel like theyre closer in attitude to the original show and have a lot more interesting story ideas. but again, this movie is not bad!! there were a lot of things i rly do like abt it!! im pretty easy to please tbh.

overall id say this movie has like.....7.5/10?? maybe?? its still a good movie and id probably watch it again if given the opportunity. theres a lot of cool things about it and i did enjoy myself watching it. thats just my Onion tho, lmk what u think abt it if youve seen it :) just pls be civil if u disagree w anything i said, i like hearing other ppls perspectives on things!!

[the-whispers-of-death]

me too ngl. them hating each other was at least funny. why is butcher being so soft rn. girl stop that, that isnt you <///3

anyways. thinking about teen!butcher again, who is as evasive as one can get when it comes to getting medical help to the point of both stressing out stone, *and* pissing him off

something something that same shit applies im any other au (its just exceptionally prevalent in the teen au, because teen!butcher is desperate to feel like he has some control over his life)

thinking how, when he first came to the ranch, he so wouldve just gotten bad cuts or scrapes, shrug, and then just wipe the blood on his pants and carry the fuck on with his life. a little blood never hurt nobody, is what he says

i miss it when he was an aggressive little shit, to the point anyone wondered how the fuck he ever even bagged sylvester

wouldnt it be funny if instead of living with kali and later w the rest of them, butcher got a house nearby with him and charlie. local 2 recluses who probably dont open the door to anyone who hasnt got the keys.

hes saying he got the house because its easier access to the forest. for. reasons :) its either bordering on a forest, or is directly in one. still probably walking distance from the ranch (because of my hc that the ranch IS near a bigass dense forest)

something something hes keeping his distance and. well. hes got his guns for a reason. (kids are the only ones who are safe from getting them pulled on them. everyone else is old enough to read whatever No Trespassing signs hes got)

something something sylvester goes over one day (probably tailed by stone) and oh okay sylvester can go inside but stone isnt. as evidenced by the very very annoyed butcher in the doorstep whos blocking the way

something something butcher is a hunter here, hence the cabin in the woods vibes. something something he doesnt shy away from displaying his trophies on the walls. aka skulls and heads are mounted on them. furs are everywhere. as well as his equippment. everything just screams "i could kill you right now"

idk. he sorta took over my brain and is being huffy over ranch au!butcher and he told me thats so far from being his canon self that it might as well be a different guy entirely. which. fair ngl.

Stone would be so pissed once he is denied entry into Butcher's cabin, growling and baring his teeth before resigning himself to waiting outside until Sylvester is done with visiting Butcher. Yeah, he waits out there the entire time, damn what anyone says.

It's a good thing he can't see much more of the cabin than what was near the doorway, because I doubt he'd take seeing all of Butcher's equipment displayed for everyone to see well. The man probably already wants to tell Sylvester that maybe Butcher is not a good man to have around.

Much like how it is in the regular Ranch AU, Stone rants about Butcher to Kali, who just wants to have a nice evening together where Stone doesn't rant about Butcher. Kali just deals with it, because he's nice and Stone is his bestie.

[solar-halos]

okay now that i’ve re-watched we’re the millers i’m going to talk about it in terms of odesta. here’s what i got

• overall, i feel like this is a perfect au. in the totally killer and teen beach movie au, i strayed very far from the source material. in the planet of the apes crossover, i pretty much plan on keeping everything really close to canon. this is like a happy medium

• usually in aus i feel like annie fits more as the guy and finnick more as the girl. while i feel like annie would so totally be a drug dealer, i also want her to have an ocean themed stripper name. coral maybe

• speaking of coral, i feel like it would be so cute if coral and mizzen made an appearance as their fake kids. if i did do that, i would have to change annie’s stripper name (shell? ariel? del mar??). at first, i was gonna make the kids gale and katniss bc they already get mistaken for cousins anyway (plus, katniss literally says he could be her brother). the mizzen and coral idea is rlly starting to grow on me but i have a stronger vision for gale and katniss so im gonna talk about that

• katniss isn’t houseless in this one, but she does live w prim and she’s very short on rent and her mom isn’t helping so that’s her motivation for going. gale’s motivation is pretty similar except he has a million siblings (jk i think he only has like three) so he’s the one that kinda convinces katniss to go

• we’re already starting to diverge from canon here, but worry not. katniss and gale don’t *actually* know each other. they may work at the same restaurant and swap tips depending on who needs it more, but their relationship mirrors the one they have in the book: strictly business

• one thing that i WILL be omitting is the scene where rose and the fake daughter take turns making out with the fake son. call me a prude asexual freak, but that scene was not my favorite 😔😔 in fact i hated it. instead, i wanna take the concept of gale meeting someone (aka delly… forever a gelly truther <3) on the road and take that in a completely opposite direction. instead of him freaking out over never kissing a girl before, i think it would be interesting to see him try to tone down being so flirty bc he doesn’t wanna scare her off. but he doesn’t rlly do a good job so delly KNOWS he likes her but just isn’t doing anything about it, but worry not. she has a few tricks up her sleeve. she and her parents are still jesus freaks

• i’m also going to change up the love interest we got with the fake daughter and actually make it work out for katniss. peeta is the guy she meets at the hospital and since she rlly fucking hates hospitals (we get a katniss everdeen lore drop right around here) he helps her put her mind at ease. the carnival scene still happens and they still end up chatting BUT peeta actually comforts her and doesn’t make her feel bad that she’s in a crying mood and he fully becomes an accomplice in this drug dealing scheme they have going on

• okay now back to my dilemma with finnick and annie. rose is obviously so done with being a stripper but to me the fake dad’s situation (can’t remember his name) seems to align better with finnick’s situation in canon cos his life is literally at stake if he doesn’t do what the Big Boss tells him to do. maybe i can weave in a backstory about how finnick and annie USED to be in the same boat (stripping) so when finnick first got trafficked (bc lowkey was that not the situation the fake dad was in?? the Big Boss mentioned they knew each other since college but mf was fully intending on killing him if he didn’t do everything he said) to be a drug dealer he convinced himself that would be better bc he’d have more agency/bodily autonomy. instead of their love-hate relationship stemming from him tearing her grandfathers fucking painting (what a stupid meet-cute… if a man did that to me and defended himself by saying it was an ugly painting i wouldn’t even bicker w him id straight up pretend he didn’t exist).

wait sorry let me finish my thought. instead of their love-hate relationship stemming from the Painting Fiasco, it would stem from annie being worried for him and finnick being like OKAY but at least i’m not stripping anymore and then that little argument that takes place in the kitchen in the movie is replaced by them having a heart to heart bc annie is convinced that he thinks she’s beneath him and he clarifies that this is in fact not the case. makes for a much better buildup for them to start making out nasty style instead of what happened in the movie (i think fake dad genuinely did make fun of rose for being a stripper?? unless the “you have terrible taste in guys” line was referring to them and their fake family situation, but based on her reaction, it didn’t rlly seem that way. ugh this movie is so 2013)

• i may be a prude asexual freak but i am keeping in the couple swinging!

• okay back to my smaller dilemma: mizzen and coral. i feel like that would work so good bc even though i think finnick odair is lowkey giving john stamos, which would make annie (who i hc gives uhhh riri bichri w curly hair) (also someone else but i am BLANKING on her name) and their fake kids situation ironic bc YES they all visually look very similar and yes each of them aren’t even the same ethnicity. idk i notice i do fall a lot on that type of humor in my aus but lucky for me so does this movie in general

anyway i also think that if i wanted to go with the Irish Finnick Odair route having mizzen there to look more like annie and coral (who is also ginger… according to the movies anyway) look more like finnick could be so cute. but then again my brothers look like my dad and me and my sisters look like my mom and we have been stopped before bc they thought my dad and brothers were fucking abducting us so maybe this is another sign that i should just keep in gale and katniss. but cmon the d4 fake family could be so cute. like, coral (who i would keep houseless) finding her family with annie and finnick and mizzen. mizzen finally getting to be a normal 14 year old boy (who is still a chaos gremlin). but also idk again he’s FOURTEEN. the fake dad wouldn’t risk that bc he doesn’t want a child abduction charge on his hands and finnick wouldn’t risk that bc im gonna make him nicer in this universe

• speaking of making finnick nicer, maybe it’s my preference for pathetic men, but i’m gonna make him so fucking whipped for annie. i don’t really like it when the whole “enemies to lovers” trope is literally just bc the guy is an asshole and the girl just like conveniently ignores that as time goes on. like he’s prob still gonna leave to make the deadline, but i’m not tryna have him constantly abandon his fake kids. who does he think he is? an actual dad??

• wait let me clarify that i don’t think rose has no backbone. i think she very much does, i just think that the almost-kissing scene was weird bc he highkey didn’t even deserve to get kissed

• depending on who i keep (katniss and gale vs coral and mizzen) the ending will be drastically different. but still equally as cute imo

• okay okay i think that’s it

[florallychaotic]

Episode 1x03 Earth Kills (that can't be the actual title)

"[Japer's] pulse is 380" IM SORRY ITS WHAT

Girl talking about her dead parents: "They seeded my dreams" HUH????

We are 90 seconds into the episode what is up with the dialogue???

Someone called sex "pound town" yeah so this episode has lost a point for dialogue alone already

Tip to know if the scene is a flashback, there's enough lens flares to make JJ Abrams orgasm

Legitimately I could believe so much more about this world if the series took place like 250 years after the apocalypse as opposed to 100. Like we later meet the grounder who have their own language distinct from English (made by the linguist that did dothraki) and its distinct enough from English that I don't believe the language evolved that quickly. Or that a forest grew thick enough to complete bury a car as shown in this episode in only a century

Bellamy: my 16 year old sister can't leave my sight but this 12 year old girl can absolutely have this knife and hunt a pig (like this isn't a poor writing decision I totally get his thinking especially since he's teaching this girl Charlotte how to hunt its just funny)

I do find it kinda cool that this show uses this like mustard yellow color to represent evil, not only is it interesting because you don't often see yellow in film used that often, but it's thematically relevant considering the world was ruined by nuclear war so it makes you think of mustard gas and atom bombs and nuclear fallout. Good job showmakers that was a good choice 👍

The speeches that both Clarke and Bellamy give to this girl Charlotte about being brave throughout this episode are cheesy as hell but also very accurate to a teen trying to help

"All that matters [about being afraid] is what you do about it." "........but I'm asleep"

Alright Clarke I get your mad at your former best friend Wells for getting your dad executed but maybe telling him to go kill himself via acid fog is a little extreme

Clarke's dad is like a knock off Timothy Olyphant

12 year old Charlotte who's never killed anything before *subtly slides knife into Bellamy's hand implying they should mercy kill this one dude*

This episodes asks Charlotte "hey kid you been traumatized enough yet?"

Hey Bellamy and Clarke working together for the first time yay!

Hey my yellow equals evil theory has another applicable instance! Murphy, the most "evil teen bad boy" of the group, his knife is yellow! Haha I told yall I can do analysis

Wells was literally willing to take the fall for Clarke's dad being executed when it was literally her mom's fault nobody deserves Wells

I mean at least Clatke apologizes

Jasper is okay! Yay!!

THEY KILLED WELLS WAIT WHAT I GENUINELY DONT REMEMBER HIM DYING THIS EARLY

AND CHARLOTTE KILLED HIM???? BECAUSE WELLS' FATHER IS THE CHANCELLOR AKA THE PERSON WHO WAS IN CHARGE WHEN CHARLOTTE'S PARENTS WERE EXECUTED????

OH THIS IS SO AWFUL

Final rating: 4/10 maybe don't kill your only black lead three episodes in after finally revealing the audience has no reason to dislike him and that he's universally the best person in canon. Maybe don't have a twelve year old white girl do it under the guise of "making the nightmares stop". Thats....thats gross. I'm gonna take a break for the night I'm legitimately mad I thought Wells died at like the end of the first season to the grounders nope turns out I blocked out this awful memory

The 100 Live Blogging

Alright yall, I'm gonna take a dive back into the only show aimed at teens that I watched as a teen. Everyone had their one CW show and this was mine. Separate posts will be made for separate watching sessions but episodes done in the same watching session will be added as reblogs. Block the tag "alli watches the 100" if you don't want this on your dash (no shame to ya)

Episode 1x01 Pilot

We are off to a bad start Netflix started playing suits when I opened it for some fucking reason

Right off the bat, Eliza Taylor's American accent isn't bad at all, but it's got the American vocal fry that I hate

Also it's really funny to me that the lead actors of this show have names that are near identical to people who are way more famous than them (Eliza Taylor and Bob Morely)

Not a good sign that the UK part of the Ark, the spaceship these people are staying post apocalypse, looks like it has cardboard on the exterior

Juvenile offenders call lockup "the sky box" which is was teenagers are never in charge of naming things

CW dialogue exposition my beloathed

Wells got himself arrested not for Clarke, but in my headcannon, that The 99 isn't as good of a title

My only solace for having to deal with Finn is that unlike the first time I watched this show, I know he dies instead of just wishing for it

Ah season one Bellamy hair, it makes him look like a middle school teacher

You see I hate CW dialogue but I also absolutely would have screamed "We're back bitches" if I was the first person back on earth in a century

Cue too on the nose pop song, radioactive by imagine dragons

I swear to god a solid 20% of Finn's dialogue is calling Clarke princess and im supposed to like him?

I will say off the bat Bellamy is the best character because so far he's the least clichéd and most interesting lol. Meanwhile I can't wait for his sister Octavia to be a good character because she does, she does get better but for now....yikes

Monty!!! Monty best boy!!!

FUCKED UP DEER MY BELOVED!!! TWO HEADED DEER WOOHOO!!!

I dont know how to explain it, everything on the Ark...like it doesn't look greenscreened but it does look weirdly hazy like it's not there??

The actor for Kane has a very bad American accent, it's so far up his nose it's like he's sick lol

Love the random girl who yelled "It's water!!!" When it started raining

Begging this society to stop using the term "floated" for executed it sounds so fucking stupid

Kane absolutely said the word "majority" instead of "maturity" and that's the take they used for some reason

Clarke is a beautiful artist and normally I don't wanna be the person to question this but how does she know what the Arc du Triumph is

Kane please don't say you're willing to "take us down to a cosmic Adam and Eve" to your female co-worker clearly both you and the writers don't realize how extra creepy that it

This show really likes shot to shot scenes where the camera is just panned up a little so you can see up the actor's nose and it's so awkward

I dont want to be that person, but I think it's very telling that Abby (Clarke's mother)'s best friend is an Asian woman who is still unnamed despite having more lines than multiple white characters who are already named. Like this show is quite diverse and it's not going to be fun rewatching and seeing how poorly they handled that diversity.

Director: "okay can you boys just improv for a moment to delay the scene so we can have the big moment at the chorus of the song?" Actors: "Sure boss!"

What!?!?! You're not alone on Earth?!?! I never would have seen that coming! /s

Final rating: 7/10 despite its flaws I'm far too interested to not continue. What shot Jasper?? Idk! It's a fun lord of the flies story that is really interesting if only its dialogue was better

[bones-sprouts]

how would your version of ranboo react to the whole 'bee duo divorce' thing...would it even happen in your verse? -thequackcity

OOOOOOO WAIT WAIT HOLD ON I HADN'T THOUGHT ABOUT IT BUT LIKE THAT WOULD BE COOL SO.

my plans for quackity and ranboo were already going to be,, let's just say tense. quackity suspects ranboo is lying about enderwalk, and ranboo hates quackity for hurting him and tubbo.

of course the whole cookie shop debacle happens as normal, with the only change being ranboo exuding the same threatening energy that tubbo does.

then wilbur drags ranboo along with him to the pair O dice. visibly everything is the same, but you can very much tell even more so then in canon that ranboo is being very careful with what he does and doesn't tell wilbur.

when wil drags him to the ruins of l'manburg and he finds out that tubbo is very much in pain and wilbur very much caused most of it, he's PISSED. from that day onward he doesn't give wilbur the time of day at all, only barely keeping up the front that he trusts him.

when the two of them come to las nevadas only to see tubbo standing with quackity, they're both alarmed, but try to stay calm. yada yada canon conversations bla bla bla. wilbur asks ranboo to plant the tnt under las nevadas and he agrees, but secretly places it under the burger van as well.

if wilbur is going to take down another country for prime knows why, he'll have to face the damn concequenses.

then, tubbo goes to check out the burger van. he and ranboo talk, and he reveals that he's given away the cookie shop, ranboo feels something he's never felt before. heartbreak. the person he cared about the most, the person that taught him how to care, might never have loved him at all.

tldr: they better communicate quick or else ranboo's gonna lose all his character development !

[epicdogymoment]

alright i dont think im ever going to find the original post with the tags about gintoki past vs present + future so

[teenyweenynightghost]

SPOILERS

Part two of my annotations of The Cruel Prince (yes im aware it has taken an awful lot) (ch 4-10)

Jude has one of those pretty baldakin beds

“His fingers heavy with rings” Jude was certainly paying attention to some aspects of Cardan

“Make me” Top 10 list of things Jude Duarte has and shouldn’t have said to Cardan, a prince of faerie, who most definitely rocked her shit after

“I could, you know” says Cardan, grinning as though nothing would please him more.” - ok we get it you’re horny

“And Cardan is even more beautiful than the rest” honey what’s new

“And cheekbones sharp enough to cut out a girl’s heart” its canon

“I hate him so much that sometimes when I look at him I can hardly breathe.” - Jude being an idiot for 10 minutes straight

“And Cardan whispers foul things in my ear.” - my new favorite hobby is taking Jurdan quotes out of context

“You’re no killer.” - Madoc being dumb as shit for 10 minutes straight

“Let’s have a toast. To the incompetence of our enemies.” - This line is iconic and the only reason I haven’t lost all hope for Madoc yet

“Cardan watches me.” - Jurdan out of context

So in the scene where Cardan yeets Jude and Taryn in the river, we have this quote: “Cardan has one foot in the reeds, as if to take a better look.” WHAT IF, he was actually doing that in case of an emergency. If the pixies would have truly attacked, he was ready to intervene and save Jude.

To further prove my theory, when Jude is throwing rocks at the pixies, “Quit.” Cardan says.” - HE WAS INDIRECTLY WARNING HER

“Cardan’s gaze is hungry, devouring.” -Jurdan out of context. Yes I’m aware he was literally shitting on her whole life in the moment

Lmao the audacity of Cardan to look straight into Jude’s eyes as Taryn was kissing his cheek

“And i was magnificently, extravagantly wrong.” MY NEW FAVORITE QUOTE FUCKS AND FUCKERS

It is canon that Jude has a sweater with a star and Cardan’s first look was a constellation coat

Jude pushes Cardan against a tree 🫡📸

Cardan’s eyes are described as “coal-bright” which i just think is a splendid metaphor

“He looked gleeful, gloating, as though my fist tightening on his shirt was exactly what he would have wished.” -Jurdan out of context. Kinky bastard.

JUDE WORE WARRIOR BRAIDS AT THE TOURNAMENT. hot

“I was struck suddenly by his height, by the arrogant sneer he wears like a crown.” First off, height difference confirmed, second, boy am i in love with this dude

“He would seem like a prince even dresses in rags.” - Aka Jude pointing out for the millionth time that he’s pretty

NOW HERE COMES A SCENE WHICH LOWKEY HAD ME ON MY KNEES

“Do you know what mortal means? It means born to die.” - our philosophy king<3 way to go Cardan

“You corrupt, corrosive mortal creature.” Nah cuz seriously if Cardan told me that I’d fold

“Good. Now, beg my forgiveness.” Again, watch me fold if that happened

“Get down on your knees. […] Beg. Make it pretty. Flowery. Worthy of me.” THE WAY I WAS SQUEALING WHEN I READ THAT

Now here comes Jude’s comeback :

“You think because you can humiliate me, you can control me?” HELL YEAS GIRLBOSS

“Well, I think you’re an idiot.” Comedy queen 🕺even though she had high chances of being killed because of that

So now; here’s when I think Cardan truly fell in love with Jude

“Cardan looks at me as though he’s never seen me before. He looks at me as though no one had ever spoken to him like this. Maybe no one has.”

If that part is really when the spark lights in his heart, im gonna melt

“No one else bothers him quite the way you do.” -great news, Locke is actually capable of saying smart shit

“Cardan emerges in the Royal Box, wearing loose white linen and a flower crown all of roses.” - IS HE WEARING A DRESS? A MATCHING SET? ONLY A SHIRT? The world may never know and that is truly devastating. Also, when he asked Jude to make her begging flowery then his dramatic ass changes outfits and puts on a flower crown 🥲💖

When she is told that a prince is waiting for her downstairs, she instantly thinks of Cardan <3

“I know humans can lie, but watching you do it is incredible. Do it again.” If Dain wasn’t like a few hundred years old that would have been lowkey kinda hot

“Desire is an odd thing. As soon as it’s sated, it transmutes. If we receive the golden thread, we desire the golden needle.” - i just fucking love this quote

Jude thinks of Cardan when she’s asked what she desires most (yes i know i took it out of context. Its her desire to not be controlled by magic and of course she thinks of him.)

I shall be back with part 3 <3 also sorry to everyone who asked for Rotten Hearts pt two. Im on it but my brain no worky. Also if yall wanna be tagged in it lemme know 💖 byee

[vsa-pieldepapel]

how do you picture Dess and Asriel?

I don’t think of them much yet cause we know very little aside of the fact they exist and I dont wanna get too attached to imaginary ideas of what they may be like but I like dessriel purely because the idea of holidays and dreemurrs being drawn to each other (dessriel, kriselle, asgore and Rudy’s bromance) is so funny to me

I do see Dess as an interesting posit for an analysis I make that ties directly into The Suselle Rant I Avoid Doing Cause I Don’t Want To Deal With Unhinged People, and it’s here:

I hc the holidays exemplify one of the quintessential difficult family dynamics, going merely off rudy’s dialogue about noelle and mama holiday, and noelles dialogue about her mom when she gets locked out of her house. And with Dess being gone for whatever reason, noelle is left in this weird position where she assumes both the role of the golden child and the scapegoat. I don’t think mama holiday is aware of how hard she is by the way, nor do I think she doesn’t care about her children that honor is for Susies mother but she does, accidentally, pressure them and act in aggressive ways to them, especially Dess being the older kid. With her gone the difficult dynamic and her inappropriate behaviour reach boiling point, because grief does things to people And this leads to a pattern of repeating behaviour which would make Susie and Noelle have a really dysfunctional relationship because of the coping methods each of them has adopted to survive with their dysfunctional families growing up- and Noelle, because of her mother and father, is set to be an enabler to violence like her dad, since her trauma defense mechanism is fawning (this is so obvious) and she has her father as a model for how being hard on your partners and children is ok and normal, romantic even. We already see her idolising and desiring being degraded by Susie, who uses intimidation as a protection/defense mechanism, aka the fight response, not the fawning response. They would spiral, destroy each other and break up spectacularly after a honeymoon period Let’s get back to Dess!

I think when Dess and Asriel are hanging out as tweens, kris and Noelle are nearby all the time. As I said I enjoy dessriel kinda and From what we know in canon about Dess I like to believe she confides in Asriel thoughts that are quite similar to those she shares with Noelle about the big city, and that in part excites him about the idea of college. I see Dess as more adventurous than Noelle, referencing scapegoated children lashing out and fighting back rather than fawning and pleasing like golden children do. She just wants to go away very far, escape it all, somewhere better. (Teen angst probably makes the feeling even sharper)

I think as the older child she also felt responsible for Noelle and getting her out of the toxic nucleus and that’s why she also told her she wanted to go far and go to the big city and have adventures… and that’s about all I have on Dess. Im waiting for canon to tell us more about her and Azzy. I do think the grief hit Asriel pretty hard, and college is a way he honours her, as well as pursuing his own dreams, but again this is like purely headcanon timeline stuff. Maybe he is over the grief at this point simply because whatever happened was years ago, but he still thinks back to their time together fondly.