#aka im probably autistic

[mizyside]

WHEN WAS SOMEONE GONNA TELL ME THERE WAS PISS IN FLAMING TRIAL R2?????????

[mueritos]

its my bday today so heres a new meet the artist :3

[raayllum]

a/n: sometimes i don't realize how much my autism has affected my life / relationships and then it slams into me. a ficlet

It's been an hour since the spat at negotiations, for lack of a better term—Opeli still winces when she thinks of the sharpness in the young prince's voice, straightening out his Evenere green robes with a finicky flourish—and Ezran had requested to be alone for the break.

Opeli had obliged him, not pleased he'd wanted distance from even Soren and Corvus when they had visiting nobles and servants over, but so long as they stood guard at wherever he'd gone, she couldn't really find it in her to object. Being king could be overwhelming even if you weren't eleven years old.

It's nearing the time negotiations will re-commence, though, and... she can't find him.

He's not in the kitchens, or one of the smaller dining halls he likes to use with Soren and Corvus. He's not with Callum, who went to the courtyard to sketch, a worried crease in his brow (he'd checked on his brother—you alright, Ez?—talked down the prince, but Ez had shooed him off).

Opeli is beginning to despair that maybe he's run off into one of the remaining secret passageways, or even gotten stuck somewhere, when she spots Soren and Corvus standing in front of the library doors. Corvus seems as troubled as Callum, Soren catching her eye and arm when she moves to go inside.

"I think he's having a rough time," Soren says softly. "You might wanna..."

"I don't know if we can delay the next meeting any further," Opeli says apologetically. He releases her, nodding but unhappy about it, and she pushes open the door.

It takes a few moments, peering through the tall aisles of shelves and one or two alcoves, but eventually she finds the young boy king in one of the armchairs tucked away in a corner, a book open in his lap. And in truth, Opeli hears him before she sees him, because Ezran is... crying.

Big fat tears rolling down his cheeks in ways she hasn't seen since they completed King Harrow's memorial statue based off Prince Callum's sketches, or since those early, overwhelming weeks of being king once the Moonshadow elf had left... Bait's not in his lap either, pawing at his thigh but otherwise ignored, which isn't like Ezran either; so much so, Opeli stops right in her tracks.

"I'm, er—" She starts, then stops. He's clearly not okay so there's no point in asking. She eases onto her knees instead beside his armchair, unsure of how to proceed until she knows what's distressing him. It's not far from the anniversary of the attack, so maybe...? "I'm afraid the meeting is going to resume, soon, King Ezran."

He sniffles, looking briefly at her and then just starting at the floor, his eyes hardening. He doesn't move. He doesn't even wipe away his tears.

She purses her lips. "Ezran?"

Finally he looks at her, his face contorting—livid like she's never seen. "I don't know how to do this, Opeli."

"King Ezr—"

"Prince Erik asked for more information, so I gave it, and then he snapped at me and��I just don't understand!" Ezran cries, tiny fingers curling into fists. His eyes go wide with frustration, searching for something he can't find. "I don't get it. We've always had these trade deals and they worked fine, and this new one is the exact same, but now the policy's a problem? And when I pointed out it's just like the old ones, he said it just feels like Evenere needs something different even though those things are there for a reason—and no one cares about the reason but me!"

Opeli reaches for his arm. "Ezran—"

He stands, pacing. "And then when I explain those reasons, it's like... I knew as a kid the other kids didn't like me because I talked too much, and I was boring about wanting to talk about bugs or animals, or—so I just... I tried so hard to use less words and always say what I mean, but people still didn't get it, or like it." He pressed his palms to his eyes, tears leaking out underneath. "And it's the same damn thing in court, I don't—at the last Summit, Prince Erik didn't mind how much I talked because we were agreeing on policy, but now that we disagree I-I can't, for some reason? I'm just trying to explain, but he thinks I'm being condescending, but I don't think I'm smarter than him, I don't, I try so hard to say things right and I just don't know how —"

"Ezran." She takes him by the shoulders and he looks up at her, red-eyed with a runny nose. She takes a deep breath for her own measure, reaching up to wipe away some of his tears. "The prince, as many do, have an ego. You are doing your—"

"Well yeah, some people are jerks like him. But most people aren't, and I still can't... Why can't people just know you value them? Why do I have to remember to spell it out every time? Why do I have to read their mind and know what they need without them telling me? If I'm listening it's because I think we can reach common ground... Because the respect is already there. And I try so hard to explain so we can just reach common ground, but people just—they don't see that. And I don't know how to make them see that. I came up here to read hoping I'd find something so I can understand where His Highness is coming from, but it still doesn't make sense to me, and... I'm so tired, Opeli."

Gods, she wishes she had a better answer for him. She gives his shoulders a tiny squeeze, and then reaches up and takes off his crown. "Go to the gardens for the rest of the day," she says. "With your crownguard, or your brother, or both. Down by the town. I'll tell the prince and his delegates you're not feeling well."

Ezran's eyes shine as she presses the crown into his hands. "But—"

"No buts. It's like you said: you're tired. You deserve rest." Opeli offers up a tiny smile. "Go on."

Ezran steps away, bottom lip trembling, and then throws his arms tightly around her in the middle. They've never hugged before, she thinks, but she hugs him back now, rubbing his shoulders gently.

"Thank you, Opeli," he mumbles, some of the last tears fading. "'M sorry I'm so..."

She shushes him quietly. "You're a very special boy, my king. Not everyone is going to understand that. And I know it hurts, but not everyone needs to. Just keep... being yourself. We all love you here. You know that, don't you?"

He pulls back slowly, not smiling, but not looking nearly as worn down as before. He tucks his crown under one arm, and picks up Bait with the other. He has one last big sniffle. "Yes. I do."

[transformersbrainrot]

LOST LIGHT #24 SET TO THE SHEPARD'S BOY FROM DOCTOR WHO

I haven't been able to get the thought out of my head since I learned that James Roberts considers this to be the canonical theme for the issue, so I made it a reality.

[calypsorhythm]

besties... mabye even...girlfriends

[karmathehalflander]

Why both Eddie and Venom are autistic and how the movies are actually a metaphor for neurodivergence

Includes some of my personal headcanons and concepts that I’ve been thinking about and need to share.

BE WARNED!!! This post is a bit long (and also a cringy, rambling, nonsensical mess) full thing under cut.

Some quick notes before we begin: when I have one of their names at the beginning of a section it means anything in that section only applies to one of them. (Idk, I couldn’t figure out how to organize this, you’ll see what I mean)

I don’t know much comic lore, all of this is based off of the movies. Though the movies are a different universe so I don’t think it will matter too much.

Also I use He/They/It pronouns for Venom.

In the end, Im just one guy with a hyper fixation please take everything I say with a grain of salt and feel free to add on or correct me about stuff. Especially if I say anything stereotypical or offensive about nurodivergance/autism a lot of this is based on some personal experience and I absolutely make mistakes and generalizations.

Alright enough of my yapping let’s get to it.

Overall big picture stuff

Applies to Both of them

the whole concept of them being “losers” together is kind of autistic coded. Autistic people are often viewed as incompetent or childish or useless. And I like to think they are connecting over that shared experience.

Noise sensitivity!!! Both of them have noise sensitivity! I probably don’t need to elaborate that much but that one scene in their apartment was some of the best overstimulation representation I’ve ever seen overstimulation guitar scene

Venom

Venom comes across as unfeeling because they don’t emote in a “normal” way.

They’re very blunt and literal.

Venom sometimes has a slightly higher-pitched voice when excited or angry. Which I’m going to attribute to him masking. He wants to appear tougher and scarier. This is important to its species and Venom, who is already perceived as weak by their peers, intentionally deepens his voice a bit to blend in. (This is definitely a headcanon but I love this concept so I don’t care that the real reason is that the voice modifier they use does silly things)

This is also why I think it’s so concerned about Eddie and him “looking bad” Looking weak was dangerous and they trained themself to hide ��weakness”

It’s always “How does Venom affect people” and never “What does Venom need and how do other people’s actions affect them”

Venom prefers to express its thoughts and feelings through mental connection with its host and then have that person relay the information to whomever they are “speaking” to. Nonverbal communication!

Venom not understanding humans (social interaction, conventions, etc.) is kind of autistic coded.

Eddie

Edie kind of disregards a lot of social conventions. Still hangs out with his ex-fiancé AND her boyfriend. He also doesn’t seem to mind talking to Venom out loud.

Eddies is just kind of anxious in general.

Eddie struggles to find full time employment.

On that vein, he also struggles to maintain relationships.

Eddie's sense of justice. Eddie has a strong sense of justice and morals that often don’t align with generally accepted values and he follows this view of justice and morality to an absurd degree and it often gets him in trouble. Aka, the entire plot of the first movie is because Eddie has autism.

He wears the same clothes all the time.

Specific moments that I think about

Venom

Venom chewing on the tire swing (they both have oral stims btw)

Sand between his toes. Idk I just thought it was cute and chose to believe they like the sensation.

Say it with me. Tater tots are a safe food!!!

Venom rocks back and forth a lot.

This is a stretch but when Venom is like “look at all these weirdos, my kind of people” it’s a metaphor for him being queer but I’d argue it also kind of fits with neurodivergence. Neurodivergent people often connect with “weirdos” (other neurodivergent people)

Likes organization “Pile of bodies, pile of heads”

Eddie

I’ve been told Eddie chews on his necklace at the beginning of the movie but I can’t find the clip and can’t do a rewatch right now so take that with a grain of salt… (I chose to believe this happened though. Also his bracelets are stim heaven)

When he says “Oh, I have a parasite” to Mrs. Chen he had no clue what to say here. He just said the first thing that came to mind and panicked instead of explaining.

Also the way he says things funny. Ex: “✨It’s a treeeee✨” supa, supa, fhasstt” “Heee…. has. one. up. hi’s. Ass toooooo” “ET. Phone home. Aliens? 😃” I chose to believe they are vocal stims (I also attempted to find a compilation but I couldn’t find any. Maybe I’ll make one sometime)

Eddie also makes sound effects a lot.

Eddie writes notes on pen and paper instead of digitally.

He apologizes an excessive amount. Like he says “I’m sorry” to people actively trying to kill him. Which is so real.

“I just bit that guys head off” “I, uhhh, yea I’ve been there it’s not fun” 😕

Eddie also rocks back and forth. Which can be seen in this scene

Quick segment into why I think Venom was rejected by other Klyntar (it’s because he has autism)

Venom doesn’t adapt as quickly or as efficiently as other Klyntar. It doesn’t handle change well.

All of the normal Klyntar weaknesses are turned up to 1000 with them. Instead of just certain frequencies, the range that hurts him is larger and is also affected by loud noises. As shown by: “Venom” car alarm scene

instead of just fire, heat also bothers it. Also doesn’t adapt to light well. (Just a headcanon)

Can’t create weapons out of their body like other Klyntar. struggles with “simple” skills.

Much more emotional than other Klyntar and develop attachments (also purely a headcanon)

Just overall didn’t fit well into their society.

Just headcanons

Venom and Eddie are so compatible because their brains work the same way.

“I wish I could just mentally project my thoughts and feelings directly into your brain. Oh wait, we can do that!”

Venom also has temperature sensitivities. He gets hot.

Venom likes to stim to low key music, mainly jazz and lo-fi. Does the one song on repeat for three hours to wring all the happy chemicals out of it like a dish rag thing.

Venom also absolutely loves cheesy pop music (unrelated to anything here but I’m right and I needed to include it)

Venom functions as a weighted blanket for Eddie when he’s anxious. Maybe even hides under his shirt and stuff and becomes an extra weight.

Eddie stims with his jewelry.

Venom likes to sit in the freezer. Sometimes they visit Mrs. Chen's walk in just to chill (lol)

Purely my opinion but I think Venom also has some light sensitivity for a bit because it’s not used to being in such a bright environment. He gets used to it eventually but every once in awhile he finds the city lights overstimulating.

They are both very tactile. Touching things. Love a good texture.

Venom is super particular about food for someone who eats out the garbage but certain textures and flavors drive them crazy.

Venom hates vegetables. (Except for celery because it likes the crunchy and stringyness of it)

How all of this makes for a great metaphor!

Feeling like an alien in the world is probably the most relatable thing for a lot of nurodivergent people. Like there’s a manual for being human you don’t have. And just the concept of a literal alien showing up and struggling to navigate in a world not made for it is so relatable!

The way they both immediately connect to each other because they have the same weird brain stuff and weren’t accepted by their respective societies is so adorable and wholesome.

“We’re not so different, you and I” This line lives rent-free in my mind at all times. It’s my favorite quote. I think it perfectly encapsulates their relationship and why it’s special. They have autism and are bonding because the other is the first person who truly understands them! (Cries, screams, throws up)

In conclusion

They are in love and have autism. And they cling to each other because they are the first people to truly understand each other. Thank you for coming to my ted talk.

Also I listened to UFO by Smith and Thell on loop while writing this. It’s very autistic symbrock coded so give it a listen if you’re a fan of inde-pop.

[kat-124]

so….. about ur ocs? :3c

INTEREST? ABOUT MY OCS??

im just gonna talk abt my phighting ocs, explore under the cut if you dare

feel free to ask abt them specifically, but ill make a lil list :3

Pwny

aka the one ive probably posted the most abt on here (which is still very minimal)

info in post linked :3

Sorc

name: Sorc

gear: Sea Sorcerer's Staff

age: 26

faction: neutral (spawned from thieves den)

pref pronouns: they/them

height: ask me later idk yet

occupation: marine biologist/diver field researcher

living situation: shares an apartment with Holida

family: none biologically or adoptive, spawn-born

brain stuff: autistic, has had a special interest of marine life, collects sea-rocks, sea glass, driftwood, dead coral, and such, classifies which with small notes.

relations: close friends with Holida, acquaintances with other coworkers

romantic orientation: aromantic

fun fact(s):

-the leaf crown/laurel accessory on their head is held down by strings on their horns, the leaves go all the way around. it is akin to a friendship bracelet, with Holida wearing a similar one.

-can swim quite well, can get oxygen underwater through the gills on their tail, although its akin to breathing air through a large straw, and they cant do it for a super long time

-was the one that found and took Holida to the hospital and saved its life after the 'incident' (related to arm), they knew eachother before this

Holida

it/its

due for a redesign, i dont rlly like its current design all that much >_>

not writing a whole bio today but uhh

name: holida

pref pronouns: it/its

faction: neutral (secretive about its spawn, wont mention yet)

brain stuff: has some form of psychosis, involving heavy religious delusions, (im still researching to try to make things accurate n respectful)

physical disabilities: right arm is amputated a bit below the elbow, impaired vision.

relations: sees Sorc as its 'mortal guide'/friend. trusts their word above others. does not like many others.

extra: name comes from the accessory worn around their horn, 'holiday crown'. got rid of their gear, unknown how so.

wears big platform shoes cuz its cool

it's white eyes are not natural

its light grey horns are not natural

- friends :]

(im at my image limit,, give me a bit to make the 2nd/3rd/idk how many parts)

[wickjump]

Any headcannons about Cross specifically? For example: He’s obviously autistic but what stims might he have? What might trigger his PTSD? How does his OCD impact his day to day life?

ooh alright! he’s the type of autistic who says “i don’t stim” and then does in subtle ways. he’s not much a stimmer—im not either. he doesn’t negatively stim, but he shakes/pumps his fists when excited, bounces his legs, and occasionally when he touches something he doesn’t like he shakes the afflicted hand until it feels ‘clean’ or the texture.

things that trigger his ptsd would probably be like. strict or loud voices of men/people in authority. cuz samesies. that and breaking something/falling out of line in a way he deems enough of a grievance to be punished. yelled at is the worst in his opinion, but sometimes it can just. happen. even he doesn’t know all his triggers. he’s very silent about them too, doesn’t make a fuss even if this is very deserving of a fuss.

ocd i havent thought too much about, but he has the type of ocd that gives intrusive thoughts and moral qualms. he overthinks a lot, and also has to do things in a certain order and way. he has a strict schedule and routine for every day and needs to know what things are going to happen and when—not a good mix for the mtt’s inborn laziness and lack of care for such things. his room is spotless because if there’s clutter it’s wrong, and he can’t handle messes (aka he’s just like my mom in that aspect).

just know that my experiences with disorders, and the experiences i give other characters, are not accurate to everyone with the disorder! everyone experiences things differently!!!!

[aquamarine021109]

My mha headcanons.😊

(im probably gunna keep adding to this list because I still haven't figured out what I should headcanon certain characters.)

Izuku Midoryia: bisexual & prefers men + ambiamorous + transmasc demiboy + autistic + adhd (he/they)

Katsuki Bakugo: gay man + ambiamorous (he/him)

Shoto Todoroki: greyromantic + biromantic + demisexual + bisexual + ambiamorous (he/him)

Mina Ashido: cupioromantic + demisexual + pansexual + genderfae + adhd (any pronouns) (funfact: she is canonically cupioromantic)

Fumikage Tokoyami: aromantic + asexual + libramasculine (he/they/it/bird)

Dark Shadow: gendervoid (he/it/they/xe/fae/bird/shadow/dark)

Momo Yaoyorozu: pansexual (she/her)

Toru Hagakura : biromantic + demisexual + agender paragirl + adhd (she/they/it/xe/fae/ghost)

Ochaco Uraraka: bisexual (she/her)

Eijiro Kirishima: biromantic + homosexual + ambiamorous (he/him)

Tenya Iida: biromantic + demisexual + bisexual + paraboy + adhd + autistic + ocd (he/they)

Tsuyu Asui: apothiromantic + apothisexual + librafeminine + froggender + autistic and tics/stims sometimes (she/they/it/frog)

Yuga Aoyama: gay (likes men) + bigender + flamboyant (he/they/she)

Kyoka Jiro: bisexual + genderfluid + autistic (she/they/he)

Midnight: biromantic & prefers men + aegosexual (sex-favorable)(she/her)

Endeavor: bisexual but doesn't know it yet (he/him)

Eraser Head: demiromantic + biromantic + demisexual + bisexual + ambiamorous + insomnia + autistic (he/him)

All Might: bisexual (he/him)

Mt.lady: pansexual + trans woman (she/her)

Thirteen: aromantic + asexual + agender + gendervoid (they/she/he/it/voids/xe)

Kamui Woods: pansexual + trans guy (he/him)

Cementoss: aromantic + asexual + agender (he/they/it/cement/xe)

Mr.Principle: aromantic + asexual (he/they/it/mouse/rat/hamster/ginniepig)

Recovery girl: lesbian (she/her)

Present Mic: pansexual + genderfluid + ambiamorous + adhd (any pronouns)

Koji Koda: aromantic + asexual + agender + autistic (he/they/it)

Mezo Shoji: pansexual + agender paraboy (he/they/it)

Denki Kaminari: omnisexual & prefers men + ambiamorous + adhd (he/him)

Ibara Shiozaki: biromantic + demisexual + bisexual + transfem + agender paragirl (she/they/it/plants/vines)

Tetsutetsu Tetsutetsu: gay (likes men) + agender demiboy (he/they/it/metal)

Mei Hatsume: pansexual + non-binary paragirl (she/they)

Hitoshi Shinsou: biromantic + demisexual + bisexual + insomnia + autistic + depression + probably some ptsd (he/him)

Tomura Shigaraki: homoromantic + demisexual + homosexual + agender demiboy (he/they/it)

Himiko Toga: bisexual & prefers men (she/her)

Suneater (aka one of my fav characters): biromantic & prefers men + demisexual + bisexual + transmasc agender demiboy + autistic and very shy (he/they)

Ms.Joke: pansexual (she/her)

Dabi: pansexual + demiboy (he/they/it/stitches)

Reiko Yanagi: omniromantic & prefers enbys + asexual + nonbinary (they/she)

Hawks (aka cute birb): omnisexual & highly prefers men + intersex (he/him)

Natsu Todoroki: biromantic + demisexual + bisexual (he/him)

Fuyumi Todoroki: homoromantic + asexual (she/her)

Oboro Shirakumo: gay (likes men) + polyamorous + transmasc demiboy (he/they)

Sirius: biromantic + asexual (she/her)

[anxietyishere]

HERE IS THE Y/N I MADE, THIS IS BASICALLY THEM IN THEIR LESS SPOOKY FORM (ILL DO THEIR MORE SPOOKY FORM EVENTUALLY WHEN IM BETTER AT DRAWING HORROR),

somes basic stuff about this y/n

•an old eldritch horror, spawned by the growing hate, sadness, and fear of humans(basically spawning from negative energy),

•does stuff that comes off as creepy without realizing its creepy or weird, such as starring at people intensely, nibbling on people(most of the time affectionately, sometimes just to see how a person will react), and crawling on the ceiling.

•prone to outbursts of aggression when put under extreme stress, or when overwhelmed.

•prone to borrowing the nightlights, blankets, and pillows from the daycare when it's not nap time, to make a nest in which they will probably take a multi-hour long nap in

•has probably tried to eat metal out of curiosity

•can purr, purrs the most when sleepy/starring at something they like

•they use all pronouns, but have a slight preference for neutral terms like they or it, cus they a lil creature:>

•extremely stealthy but doesn't realize it

•extremely curious, sometimes to a bad degree

!MORE STUFF IM ADDING NOW :D!

•autistic lil skrunkly

•will temporarily 'adopt' any kids that are sad, easily overwhelmed, or shy, and if that kid doesn't like how loud or bright the daycare is they pick the kid up by their scruff (aka their shirt), and will carry them to a less loud area of the daycare where the lights are a bit more dim,

•probably cries every time one of their favorite kiddos has to leave

•will hiss at anyone they don't like- especially if their around a kid who also doesn't like the person they don't like

•has definitely stolen some things from the lost and found if they don't get picked up after a couple of days,

•likes to give people head pats as it's the form of psychical touch, due to it being the most comfy way for them to show affection :)

•likes sweets to a mildly concerning degree (seriously, they steal all the donuts once the pizza plex closes for the night, their excuse is that they get thrown out the next day anyways because their deemed no longer fresh.)

•their face can split- but to not scare the kids they always keep their face together,

•since fazbear entertainment quite literally could not remove them from the daycare, they lied about y/n's existence by saying their a very life like animatronic so that they wouldn't get sued

•an absolute cuddle bug when given affection by people they trust, like seriously they go full loaf mode, your not getting up anytime soon

•baps things they don't like, like a cat (don't worry they make sure to be gentle :>)

•puts stickers on their friends, pink stickers = best friends, only Sun and Moon have pink stickers, purple stickers = close friends, Monty and Vivian(aka one of the staff bots), have these stickers, blue stickers = people their friends with, chica has this sticker, green stickers = acquaintances, Freddy, Vanessa, Gregory, and some of the staff bots, yellow stickers = people they don't know well enough to have an opinion on, staff bots, mechanics, and Bonnie, red stickers = people they mildly dislike, one mechanic has this sticker, and no one else.

•shockingly good at picking up and noticing how people are feeling.

•doesn't talk much, but when they do it's usually jokes, rambling about stuff they like, calling something cute(especially if it's a cool/cute outfit), and when their comforting people

•some days their more coherent, other days their sleepy and act like a big ol' cat,

•loves Halloween, will scare the teens and adults on purpose for the entirety of October

•also loves Valentines day since they like the fact they get chocolate, doesn't care much for the romance part of it though, mostly cus they don't have a partner

•big enough that it's impossible for a human to knock them over/push them, which is useful when there's an aggressive or loud parent

Hope u enjoy!! And I hope to potentially make this into a lil series, no promises tho, I don't wanna make any promises I might not keep.

[thewandererh]

good morning chat. i have awoketh at 4am on a school morning (yikes) to bring you some flipaclip art to pass the time 🥱👍

these are from both animated projects and doodlestuffs!! ill label which they are in my caption ^^. sluggo draws all her masterpieces with flipaclip so i wanted to get in on the hype lol. and turns out, i really really like it as a drawing program :] <33. only recently picked it up as a doodling program (after a year of trying it initially) so some of these non-animation-project drawings range in age and skill.

⚠️TW // sketchy imagery of stitches, bleeding/crying eye sockets (heart activities), oddly ominous intense eye contact, SUL trying to look hot lmao

so, without further ado…

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1. two good big great arts i did at like 10pm!!

drew these partially on voice call with that same sluggo one night during the last few weeks of summer, and continued it after we got off call. apparently i got a huge kick in my skills that night because these turned out different but really good. really good posing and perspective and h a n d s,, i love my art but these two slides feel like some autistic daydream lmaoo

oh!! as for context:

🧡= medical!hms whole

💜= thdph x rainworld kismet

💛= thdph x rainworld checkmate (hes supposed to be orange but ah well)

💙= thdph x rainworld deedee :3

the 1st slide emphasizes how these two got good diverse faces, and the 2nd is a joke sluggo made during call lmao. minecraft wouldn’t load and she found a shirt with a misspelling of minecraft on it (probably on pintrest lol).

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2. Shads & Whole :]

aight, now for two more doodles from that same ‘project’ from above (aka they are recent). these two are my beloved antagonist shadows in his gold rush arc doing a silly, and a whole vent i drew when feeling the stress of school starting soon (that i perfected later). as i’m writing this, im starting the 2nd week of the school year and so far it’s been really interesting!!

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3. onto animation snippets!

MONSTER: a wip anim of shadows & twine (the ogs before everyone else)

APPLE BOTTOM JEANS: a joke with spectrum and sul i probably wont continue or redraw

???: and the thiRd is an animation that is actively being updated and redrawn and im so excited for it hehehe. itll release by hopefully the end of this year!! i released some gifs of it a bit back that i’ll link down beloww

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4. drawings from Minnesota (+ sul)

these were from when i first experimented with flipaclip!! i was on i think a winter break? down in minnesota?? again, just recently picked it up so my latest doodles have been a lil more skillful. but i really really really like these.

aight! first!! old lizard oc art :]! hydra: lizard experiment and now boom they have 4 heads (azure is not in this one)

then there’s a black throated loon because i was getting into them at the time!! was watching lots of documentaries. ended up getting a loon plush from the mall of america :]

and thEn, finally, a really old sul art that probably surpasses these both in age. i hopped on flipaclip to do a doodle, and there it has stayed for probably over a year now. god i love him so much. OH MY GOD THIS WAS BACK WHEN HE HAD NO ANTENNAE HOLES wow this really is old

[mercurysgarden]

trying to find mutuals ❀˖°

so hey, this is a little post for me to find some mutuals. if you read the following and you think we'd like eachother feel free to follow!

first off i just wanted to say i'm primarily active on two blogs, the first one is this one (sort of a life blog, sort of a poetry blog, sort of an everything blog...) and the second one is @pandorlily aka my fandom side blog.

basics: she/they | 18 | autistic | aroace | taurus | isfp

my special interests are music, the walking dead & the marauders. i think you'll see that a lot on my fandom account! one of my fixations that keeps coming back is trick (troy x nick from ftwd) so that is also something i'll post abt :)

media i'm into: stardew valley, percy jackson, chucky the series, dhmis, the owl house, osermanverse, the quarry (slightly), ofmd, some rhythm games (i don't play them regularly but i enjoy pjsk and bandori!), minecraft (not dsmp/qsmp), stranger things, monster high, oh god oh fuck what else am i into i forgot....... i'll probably repost a lot of other fandoms as well.

misc stuff i'm into: reading, photography, art, poetry, music, guitar/bass (i play it VERY badly) (i also forgot the rest of the stuff im into....)

music i'm into: adrianne lenker, big thief, naethan apollo, frank dillane's projects, jeff buckley, twenty one pilots, black box recorder, avatar metal, arctic monkeys, delta rae, daniel johnston, amigo the devil, mother mother, aurora, slipknot, mazzy star, dandelion hands, mook, maya hawke, god help the girl ETC ETC ETC.....

please dni if you're lgbtqphobic in any way, ableist, zionist etc, support jkr. also i'd prefer you to be 15+ and -24 if u want to be my friend and talk! i can make some exceptions though :)

thanks for reading, let's be friends <33

[mobblespsycho100]

👍 kabru, heh

thank you so much mwahaha

1. Bottom Line by Dom Fera

I think this song is very Kabru in a this has big "customer service" vibes, lmao.

"Drive me somewhere you've been liking" -> hes a people pleaser, letting someone take the reins while he supports them and hangs back is kind of his thing. Even though he plans stuff out and chooses his words deliberately, sometimes he goes along with ppl's wants and expectations for him a bit too much...

"Order something I don't want, I'll drink it anyway" -> basically Kabru when he had to eat the harpy eggs Laios offered lmao. 'Right, i hate this so much this is Monster. okay. wow i need to kill you' hes literally triggered (in the ptsd term sense and not the. warped internet meaning of it) and he's still like okay ! i will dig in ! to prove a point ! so laios likes and trusts me! (... what point kabru . cmon man. )

"Take a little time, it's funny how you're fine when I'm away -> he needs to be needed. He needs to help others, save them even, to protect them from the tragedy he has experienced. He's used to being dismissed and he does swallow it and take it but ik he was so 🤨😧😠 abt laios ignoring him and all the attempts to get to know him... so its like take a lil tine its funny how ur fine when im away ... Kabru knows Laios is the closest to conquering the dungeon. and hes like. I rlly wanna help u do this but . ik ur probably fine without me (... man he makes me . so 😭)

"It's natural to see a bottom line with me / A bottom line I'll be" -> A bottom line in business is like the final total right. The sum of everything thats written at the bottom. The ultimate outcome... the core. The fate of the dungeon is something he wants to decide and get a say in as well. Even though he knows he isn't the one thats going to conquer it, he chooses to stop Mithrun from beating up Thistle and grabs him and they free fall into that pit. Because he decided, yeah, the fate of this dungeon the one to conquer it has to be us short-lived races/humans. He is such an action oriented character . He makes such decisions. He is so determined to make sure that Utaya doesn't repeat itself. Man.

Anyway that's song 1. moving on to song 2.

2. Smoke and Mirrors by Gotye

This entire song is So Kabru coded its insane to me . but I grabbed these lyrics from Verse 3 Because the last line specifically makes. me go crazy.

"You're a fraud, and you know it" -> the freaking masker . he is such a liar and he knows it... theres not much else to say here. Playing the hero, the saviour, while knowing he doesn't actually have the skills to defeat the dungeon but hes just so desperate . man

"And every night and day you take the stage" -> he should get an acting award fr... always adjusting his personality and carefully planning his steps with each person he interacts with man... also inchtresting to me that he gets to be more #real with Mithrun. thats a whole nother analysis can of worms I won't get into but like they rlly drove each other's character development...

"And it always entertains, you're giving pleasure" -> To quote Holm, Kabru is the typa guy who would do anything to get someone to like him akdjskhf hes so real for that...

"And that's admirable, you tell yourself" -> (kabru voice) im so cool for this ahaha everyone loves me (guy who genuinely fucking loathes himself) /ref

"And so you'd gladly sell yourself to others" -> smile of pain. I just think hes a real business man sometimes . Goodness Kabru stop being a charismatic salesman of your own personality im going to explode .

Right. we're on to the last one I guess...

3. Dear Arkansas Daughter by Lady Lamb

GENUINELY cannot really do this analysis lyric by lyric or I will go ... well. I'll go into the deep end but . like . right. anyway. this set of lyrics above aka the most popular line is very Kabru appearance. (Goodness i need to make an AMV of this. I will one day once the executive dysfunction stops fighting my autistic hyperfixation ass)

THIS WHOLE . SET OF LYRICS IS JUST BIG KABRU VIBES (SOURCE: JUST TRUST ME BRO)... His heart is full of swords... the sword fighter (he is proficient in many weapons)... im not big into tarot (or well i havent researched it much) but the annotations for these lyrics said that its referencing the Three of Swords tarot card, which represents painful sorrow. and like.. man like a fundamental sorrow in Kabru is so oughh its just so . real. and again i need a whole nother analysis post for this since this is already So long

Tie my hands & knock my knees. he is so stressed he is so . nervous all the time and these r like. the freeze . trauma response. to me. he goes freeze and fawn a lot (fawn not specifically with abusers per say but like people pleasing tendencies again) and like kind of visibly looking nervous and stressed out up before saying smth next is smth he does a lot I feel.

And like the vibe of like sinking to the sea with a heavy heart but also being someone who brings hope in a way to others (ex: Rin and Mithrun, he ends up being their anchor and helping them start like living with their lives after the burden of their traumas and hellish experiences) but Kabrus own traumas are so immense and then the person who rises . who foils him and who brings him hope is Laios. like a ripe red apple like. something bright and tempting and also dangerous (smth smth the forbidden fruit symbolism. theres so much . like Kabru that I can dissect with like Biblical symbolism themes but like anyway he sees Laios as both the key to humanity's victory against the dungeon and as sin / a distraction from his goal because Laios makes him do selfish things and its just AAAAHGHH rahhhh. man. im normal)

ANYWAY YEAH ... that wraps this up. Thank you for sending this ask ❣️💌 I am very normal abt Kabru of Utaya dungeon meshi

[howlsofbloodhounds]

Nightmare basically being the local cryptic fits him so well, and that'd probably why they sought him out in the first place

That OR they were foraging in the forest and randomly came across this skeleton wearing some style of old royal clothing and a cloak of some sort, like hello?

Kind of off track here but this'll make it make more sense, in my head nightmare and dream are both disney princess level of good with animals and they both attract them, dream more usually prey animals and nightmare predators but thats interchangeable (will probably put in another ask going more indepth about that one)

Going back on track that teen just saw a skeleton with black bones(thats alive) surrounded by foxes playing around him while he is reading a book with an owl resting on a tentacle of his

Like obviously they're gonna talk to him (girl you shouldnt but okay freakaleak do your thang)

Cuz basically in my head this teen was all gothic and obsessed with supernaturals right, i saw some headcanons from an au of gravity falls and that is kinda where i got "what if they were suicidal and were trying to get killed by something they loved, aka something supernatural and inhuman"

I think he'd threathen them but soon realize this other teen lost their marbles and isn't really a threat so okay might as well get info on humans and where to get more books (i know what you are) ((its called being autistic))

I think BECAUSE this human was suicidal (i think instead of the rotting in bed depression it'd be more, yeah im gonna live but if somethings gonna kill me who gives a shit, like basically gave up) he'd be more relaxed around them, because hell this kid is both a negativity source for him and an info source.

onto matching his freak part

I think this kid straight up did not give a fuck after hearing he kills people, like yeah okay, thats cool dude but keep talking about what you know about monster culture. Also that teen was also definitely homocidal, and would give him creative ideas of torturing people and killing them

"You should try stuffing their families bodies and make them have a tea party with their dead family members! Imagine all the negativity you'd get from that!"

"You're insane....i fuck with it."

I love this headcanon so much, damn 3 am me got some great ideas

Hell i got even more i just need to be able to put my thoughts into words

Gonna start smacking my brain onto my phone to see if that works

I feel like their dynamic is like this (which also makes me think of killer and reapertale Chara’s possible dynamic too 💀)

I like to imagine that these two are like, kinda obsessive with eachother in like a scientific way. They keep and write journals all about eachother lmao. The human beings nightmare crushed and withered flowers and he rips up or eats the first few ones he received and the human was like “so cool so cool so cool so cool—“

Do these two go as far as to kill and scare people as for their date nights. Imagine if the human just also has an interest fascination with death blood and gore like the sisters from the movie Ginger Snaps.

{ @brokenramunebottle }

[imanopossum]

So what’s the deal with Patty saying “I like the gay ones best?” I haven’t seen the play but people say that means Henry is gay? But Patty is clearly his love interest in the play it seems like?

omg i’m so glad someone brought this up

yeah so imo that line is taken out of context and people are like “aha see he’s gay” (disclaimer i don’t mind people headcanoning henry as gay)

but the actual context of that scene:

so number one as we all should know the word gay in the 50s just meant happy, joyous, carefree, not homosexual, it stems from the Old french word “gai” meaning mirth. the play they are auditioning for, dark of the moon, written in 1945, is an adaptation of “the ballad of barbara allen”, which dates back to the 17th century. the 60s marked the transition of gay coming to mean homosexual, as it went from “mirth” to a sort of “hedonism” to eventually “homosexuality” so chances are, in a play written in 1945 rooted in 17th century scotland, performed in 1959, gay probably meant happy.

and in that scene they’re auditioning for the school play. and the lines they’re reading is about their characters talking about sad songs and happy songs. so patty says “it’s a sad song, i like the gay ones best” aka “i prefer happy sounding songs” to which henry responds with the line “it doesn’t have to be sad, you never know the ending until it’s all sung” or however exactly it was worded i don’t remember 100% (why im going to see it again on broadway). so the way the word gay is used as a contrast to sad confirms it means happy in the context

and while the duffers do like to put alot of double meaning or hidden meaning, me personally i don’t think this means he’s gay just because the word gay was mentioned. one of his main core conflicts of “being different” could certainly be interpreted as being gay and ostracized in the 50s, but it also could mean being neurodivergent, and a lot of people agree he is autistic and that’s the meaning i take from that too. and with many other things that happened in the play: him giving her his coat when she was cold, telling eachother they loved eachother broke henry out of the mind flayers control (aka love overpowers the mind flayer, see el getting through to billy talking about his mom and everybody talking to will about all their happy memories together), him giving her her dream vision, bonding over being outcasts, dancing together going on a date, “the first i love you” melodic theme, used when two characters are in love, playing when they kissed, him telling her to run away out of town to keep her safe from brenner, them putting their arms around eachother at melvalds, to me personally that means they are canonically eachothers love interest.

if people like to headcanon or au him as gay that’s totally fine, for example creelarke is a cute ship i think, but as for canon i think creelby is endgame. there’s a big difference in when people headcanon or au a sexuality or ship and when people try to twist canon to fit their mold and try to prove what they think is a characters sexuality when they already have a definite love interest

tldr: its about happy songs and it’s taken out of context sometimes, i think headcanoning henry as gay is great knock yourself out but as for canon i believe creelby is endgame

[puppet-purgatory]

[looks at you with sopping wet eyes] I’m slowly. I’m slowly getting to the Prehistoric Polycule doodles (aka the polycule between God, Death and the Professor). I’m getting hit with 1728 million things at once so it’s gonna take a while but I’m getting there. In the meantime, here

Quick doodle of them. I mainly did it ‘cause I realized I haven’t drawn Death properly and I probably should get a handle of him before I commence my doodling of them. Ehksshajshsha [falls over and dies]

(SUBMITTED BY @crispycreambacon )

HIII . HIII TWIRLS MY HAIR THANK U SO MUCH FOR THIS IM PICKING IT UP IN MY MOUTH AND CARRYING IT INTO MY NEST!!!

the professor's face is too good. its exactly the Me And Cosmic Bitches I Pulled By Being Autistic mood i love. ive been wanting to draw the them forever and i am printing this out and eating it.eating it