#ajd terrifying.

[bedforddanes75]

needed 2 b awake by 2 and i woke up at 9 and have tried to get back to.sleep 3 times i think now is when i scream

[generalsmemories]

Angry Jing Yuan is so hot

Angry Jing Yuan is terrifying actually- 😭😭 but valid take anon, very much a valid take.

[nintendont2502]

on one hand. it's deeply funny how whenever I'm in a new situation/I'm busy my bodies just like yeah we don't need food right it's fineee and then I barely eat because I forget to/don't feel like it. on the other hand I would really like to. yk. try more Japanese food while I'm here? like cmon man work with me here

[29121996]

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[snowjemmer]

I think I can offically say my body is deteriorating rapidly and I somehow still have to do college while this happens hahaha I'm having a great time the best time I do not contemplate suici

[aihoshiino]

So Hikaru basically can't have anyone brighter than Ai huh? But I am curious what makes him want that. There is just so less about him ajd whatever we have about him is either confusing or fake-ish. He is also having mentality of Ai being the strongest and the most invicible. But we know Ai wasn't like that it was just a lie. But technically speaking Ai could have never lied to Hikaru. So it is either Ai was just super good at lying and hiding and/or after Ai's rejection and especially that "I don't know" Hikaru might have felt that Ai can't be vulnerable nd is so indifferent. She is bound to be strongest and the most invincible. But then why and what exactly is hikaru doing? Throughout the series there are so many questions regarding so many things, istg if Aka doesn't answer them-

My take on Kamiki, even now, is that he wants to preserve and maintain the legacy of 'Ai of B-Komachi', even years after her death. We don't quite have enough information to properly nail down his motives and inner workings yet, though I am currently treating some of the info we got in 15YL as true enough, just for the purposes of having like, literally anything to work with - but I have always thought and do still think that the HKAI breakup and everything else to do with their relationship comes down to their own dogshit self images.

When Ai tells Kamiki "I can't love you", this is in essence an apology - we know that up until the moment she died, Ai struggled with her ability to authentically express love in the sense that she was terrified she was incapable of doing so. It took having Aqua and Ruby and living with them for years and being on the verge of death for her to even be able to risk saying it and even then she seems awed and relieved that her words were true. When she says those words to Kamiki, she's saying "I can't love you, because I'm broken and I can't love anyone."

Hikaru, very understandably, hears this as "I can't love you because you're broken and nobody can."

Each of them internalizes the blame for the relationship falling apart. Thus, it's possible for Ai to have accidentally ripped his heart out like she did while not compromising his image of her. This sense of losing her, being unworthy of her while still longing after and adoring her is like the perfect cocktail of fucked up brain chemicals to have turned his feelings for her into the present day obsession they seem to be, at least imo.

[clovercoin]

Shark Bite Nidorino

Pokemon Challenge NIDORINO! Spliced with a sharpedo for that extra vicious look. I like to think they are a total tank but are terrifying like a hippo. They can run plenty fast on land, but run/swim even faster in the water thanks to their fin like spikes. Plus that rough skin can really help inflect poison! Available for sale on the CloverCoin Toyhouse! AJD . ART

[meepiest]

i think i

i lost myself for a minute there

oh right

do u wver wake up from some very important dream and it sticks with u forever

well mine is not that important but it stuck with me for some reason

i dreamed of walking into tbe living room and seeing my family terrified by something ajd im like "whats going on?" and they said "slenderman is at our front door" so i peek over to see nothing there but slenderman appears for a split second then goes away and i ran to the other side of the room, which then cuts to me sleeping in the living room and seeing slenderman there doing his spooky appearance again, then its me and my sister running in pitch dark night and getting into a gingerbread house and it ends there

and there was that one time i dreamt of a scary woman who teleported to our house and my sister ran away and the woman got me and it was scary

[cloudy-squid]

And the thing is there's so much to love to want to desire to hold to embrace and im fucking terrified of trying for any of it because I've never seen it work for others and what right do I have, someone who can't figure out how to care for people someone who was described as shooting the messenger in the foot with their actions someone who freezes and throws up as many walls as possible when someone admits tenderness for me, and I want love and affection and tenderness but I don't know how to grasp it how to let it in and what right do I have because I know I'm not the exception to the rule I'm as fucked up as I can possibly be at this point and I lose everyone I want(mainly because they move and we lose contact) or they believe things I can't or I drew a line in the sand and ran as far as I could and I want my mom so much I want to hug my dad again but I cant because I made the choice to protect myself and I want I want I want and im tired of being so bitter and heartsick and im tired of feeling like everything I do is a wrong choice and I've derailed myself and im cold and distant even to my sister the one who pours herself out for me and I cant seem to reciprocate and I stood infront of her for like 30 seconds yesterday and I was trying to get the words can I have a hug out and instead I just spun on my heel ajd went back to doing my homework and i want I want god I want the warmth the safety of affection and some form of love i can understand that hasnt been twisted up and i want so much more than I can have and so much more than I deserve because I drag people down into my pit and I want I want so much until my heart overflows and I don't know how to do any of it

[kikker-oma]

I FEEL AN AGGRESSIVE LOVE FOR THIS!!!!!

Why is Legend so good at being prickly in doverting people away from him and aggressive and mean when he's just TERRIFIED AND HURTING AJD SO DESERVING OF LOVE!?!?

And hidden feeevveeerrrr aaaahhhhhhes so sick and weak but he keeps trying to pull out of Times grip but Time said NO (so so lovingly)

I LOVE that being called "son" is the final straw for Legend that broke the dam. His outburst after is just OUCH. So heartbreaking💔💔💔

And the comfort and being carried back!!!!!

PEGGY I LOVE THIS AND I LOVE YOU, THANK YOUUUUUUUU

Here’s my (very late) birthday fic for @kikker-oma, it’s based off her art for day 17 of whumptober!

(Which at least one other person has already written a fic for but I didn’t realize until after I’d already started writing it so any similarities are pure coincidence 😅)

https://www.tumblr.com/kikker-oma/731400216730828800?source=share

I hope you like it Oma, happy (very belated) birthday!!!

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Something was wrong with Legend.

Time could see it in the way the teenager walked, his steps heavy and dragging. How he lingered at the back of the group and barely spoke, mostly just nodding along to whatever it was Wind was telling him, and didn’t go out of his way to speak to anyone, his words sharp and vicious when he did.

Normally Time wouldn’t think twice about Legend being a little extra antisocial and standoffish. He was often grumpy (though Time had seen his soft interior once or twice in the brief time they’d been traveling together), and it wasn’t surprising his mood would get a little more severe now and then.

No, the worrying thing was that it had been several days since the behavior began, and it hadn’t gone away yet.

If anything, it had gotten worse.

Legend seemed to get more lethargic and snappish as they traveled across the wilderness of Wild’s Hyrule, keeping to himself even more intensely, and largely ignoring the rest of them. He’d gotten paler too, in just the few days of whatever this was, and Time was only growing more concerned.

It was worrying. Incredibly so.

Time had been keeping a closer eye on Legend ever since he’d realized something was up, and most of the others seemed to catch on that something was wrong as well, but nobody had confronted Legend about it yet. Or if they had, hadn’t succeeded at all in fixing the problem. Twilight had tried to tactfully approach the subject just that morning, and Legend had nearly bitten his head off in response.

Time wasn’t sure what to do, and he wasn’t the only one.

After all, none of them liked to admit something was wrong with themselves— Time himself was certainly guilty of that— but Legend, prickly as he was, was one of the worst. Confronting him head-on about whatever the issue was would only make him more likely to deny anything was wrong at all, as Twilight had already demonstrated earlier.

But someone needed to get through to him, before something snapped.

And later that day, Time finally got a chance.

They’d reached a good spot to stop for the night, Time watching Legend like a hawk the entire trip there. The veteran had nearly tripped on nothing a few times, but had covered it up so quickly nobody could call him out on it.

They had eaten dinner fairly quietly for once, Wild roasting some mushrooms and meat of some kind. Legend kept to himself during the meal, barely picking at his food, and staying out of the conversation. Everyone pretended not to watch, but it was almost laughable how obvious it was that they were all keeping an eye on him, the worry hanging like a cloud over the group.

And Legend seemed to have noticed the increased scrutiny, as later when the heroes were all settling down for the night— cleaning up dinner, getting out bed rolls— Legend stood and told them all he was going to patrol around.

“Really? Are you sure?” Hyrule piped up, and Four frowned from next to him when Legend nodded.

“...By yourself?” the smithy asked.

A very slight edge of concern lay in his voice, and Legend’s shoulders immediately hiked up to his ears.

“What, you think I can’t handle myself?” he shot back in a sharper tone than normal, and Four quickly raised his hands in a peaceful gesture.

“Of course not Vet, I know you can,” he reassured, and Warriors stepped in.

“Exactly. It’s just dark, and we’re in unfamiliar territory, that’s all,” Warriors put in, and Legend turned to glare at him.

“Yet that’s never an issue when Twilight goes off by himself,” Legend snapped. “Shove off Captain. I’m the veteran, remember? I’ll be fine.”

Then before anyone could stop him, he disappeared into the trees.

All of them watched in an uncomfortable silence as Legend stomped away, and Time stopped Twilight when he went to follow him, placing a hand on his arm.

“Best we wait until he’s calmer,” he said, and Twilight exhaled, then sat down. “...And probably best someone who hasn’t made him mad yet go.”

“I think that’s just you at this point,” Sky pointed out, and Time paused, then sighed as he realized Sky was right. Every single one of the rest of the group had been the target of Legend’s ire in the past few days. Time somehow was the only one who had escaped unscathed... which made him the perfect candidate to follow Legend now.

“All right,” he agreed somewhat reluctantly, and settled down to wait.

“Hylia be with you,” Wild muttered as he cleaned his cooking pot. “You’re gonna need her.”

(...)

Half an hour later, as the others either went to bed or tried to busy themselves, Time got up and headed in the direction that Legend had stormed off in.

The moon was large and bright in the sky, and Time almost didn’t need the lantern he’d brought to find Legend’s trail. Though despite the moonlight lighting his path and the assistance of the lantern, it took Time much longer to find the hunched-over figure of Legend then he’d thought it would.

Legend had gone a fair distance from camp, and plunked himself down on a large fallen tree, his head bowed as he stared at the ground. He didn’t react when Time stepped a bit closer, and Time frowned as he watched him for a moment.

Were his shoulders shaking?

Time purposely crunched a few leaves to signal his presence, and Legend’s ear twitched in response. He didn’t do anything else though, and didn’t look at Time when he carefully sat down beside him on the log and set down the lantern.

An owl hooted nearby, and Time listened to it a moment before letting out a quiet sigh.

“They can be an overbearing bunch, can’t they?” he remarked in the silence, the owl going quiet.

Legend flicked an ear, and didn’t respond.

“...They mean well, though,” Time continued when the silence stretched between them. ”They’re not trying to be overwhelming, or even nuisances. They’re... just concerned about you, Vet.”

Legend let out a little huff of air that almost sounded amused.

“Right,” he said flatly. “Well they shouldn’t bother, there’s nothing to be concerned about.”

His hand tightened where it was held around his waist, and Time couldn’t help but notice when it did. Legend’s face seemed paler in the moonlight shining down on it as well, but when he saw Time staring at him, he scowled.

“Go back to camp old man, I’m fine,” he muttered.

Time took a deep breath. Nayru grant me wisdom, here’s where it gets tricky.

“The way you’ve been acting the past few days seems to speak towards a different answer,” he said in a level voice.

“Well whatever it is you think you’ve noticed is all in your imagination,” Legend shot back, clutching his middle even tighter.

Time looked at it again, and paused in what he was about to say as a thought suddenly dawned on him. He couldn’t remember for sure, not everything at least, but if he was right... would Legend really do something so detrimental to his health like that?

“Legend... when was the last time you ate anything?”

Legend’s mouth turned into a thin, hard line.

Ah-ha.

“That’s none of your business.”

“It is if you’re pushing yourself not to for some reason,” Time said, firmness creeping into his tone as he watched the boy. “We have plenty of supplies Legend, why aren’t you eating?”

“I never said I wasn’t,” Legend snapped back, glaring at him. “And even if I am, maybe I’m just not hungry.”

“Not hungry at all?” Time asked with a raised eyebrow, thinking back to the past several days. “Legend, I don’t seem to recall you actually eating anything recently, you can’t just starve yourself.”

“Oh yeah? Well maybe it would be better for everyone if I did!”

Time blinked in surprise, and Legend’s anger seemed to falter a moment, something horribly vulnerable cracking through the prickly mask he’d thrown on. But he quickly tossed it back over himself, despite the tears trying to gather in his eyes, and his expression reverted back to the anger he’d possessed a few moments ago.

“Link,” Time said quietly, and Legend looked away. “What’s the matter?”

“Nothing. Okay? Would you shove off?”

“Legend,” Time said imploringly, and Legend’s ears pinned back against his head.

“Look I’ve handled it alone before, I can handle it now,” Legend suddenly bit out, his voice thick with emotion. “It’s just— nothing!”

“Nothing wouldn’t make you raise your voice like this,” Time pointed out.

“Well it is!” Legend said in a slightly quieter tone, though it still shook in anger.

Something in Time’s chest ached at the rawness in his voice and the tears that had returned to his eyes. Legend’s lip was trembling, but he was firmly biting down on it to stop it from doing so, and he looked like he was close to losing what control he had left.

Time studied him more intently, trailing carefully over skin flushed with anger, over shaking fists and shoulders, at the hand still held close to his middle.

The shakiness, refusing to eat, the paleness of his face...

Time’s eye widened as a new thought crossed his mind, and he exhaled, reaching a careful hand towards Legend.

“Link, you’re sick, aren’t you?” Time asked in a soft voice, and Legend’s eyes widened, then narrowed. “That’s at least part of this, isn’t it?”

Legend slapped away his extended hand.

“Go away,” he bit out, something truly dangerous in his voice, but Time was nearing the eye of the storm and he wasn’t prepared to back out now. “Go back to camp, wander in the woods or whatever, I don’t care. Just leave.”

“Legend,” Time said, shifting closer. “You can’t keep ignoring this. You nearly fell over earlier, how long have you been feeling ill?”

“There’s nothing to ignore,” Legend snarled. “Just— just leave me alone.”

“I can’t do that,” Time said, his voice soft, but firm. “You need help, and I won’t—”

“I don’t!” Legend shouted, his voice hoarse. He tried to get to his feet, but Time quickly caught him by the wrists, stopping him from leaving. “Just— let go!”

Time shook his head, and Legend tried to jerk out of his hold with no success.

The teenager’s wrists were warm in his grasp, and Time could feel them shaking, though he wasn’t sure if it was from anger or the illness Legend was fighting. Either way, he wasn’t making any headway in escaping, even though Time was sure Legend would have normally been halfway across the forest by now.

Legend tried to swing a fist at Time, but he didn’t succeed in the slightest, the older hero still holding him tight.

“What’s wrong, Link?” he asked, and Legend only struggled harder in his grip.

“Let go!”

Time shook his head, and Legend let out a cry of frustration.

His eyes were glassy with tears as he glared, and his breath came in short pants as he tried desperately to free himself. Legend’s facade of being perfectly fine had dropped in his anger and panic, and Time was now wondering how on earth any of them had missed just how bad things had gotten.

“Leave me ALONE old man!” Legend shouted.

But Time kept holding him, equally gentle and firm as he tried to lurch away. He met Legend’s eyes, stormy and swirling with emotion, and gave his hands a soft squeeze.

“Legend, son, please let me help you,” he said softly.

Legend’s face twisted with rage.

“Don’t call me that!” he nearly screamed, and tried one last time to pull Time’s arms out of his grip.

But he was too weak to free himself, the sickness affecting his strength. Legend couldn’t do anything but struggle, his breath coming in quick gasps, wrists trembling in Time’s hold as he tried to free himself with one last burst of desperation.

Then he crumpled forward, a sob wracking his body.

Time’s eye widened, and he caught Legend, immediately running a hand through his bangs. His forehead was hot where Time’s fingers brushed it, and Legend was shaking so hard he felt like he would fall apart, Time soothing him as he sobbed again.

“Legend, easy,” Time whispered, panic trying to burrow into his chest. He’d never seen Legend like this, screaming and crying and showing his emotions in such a blatantly un-Legend way. And he didn’t exactly have experience with soothing sobbing, feverish teenagers, but Legend was acting so strange...

There’s something else at play here then just a virus, Time thought worriedly, Legend letting out an unsightly hiccup.

All of Legend’s strength seemed to have been used up by their argument, and he lay nearly limp against Time’s arm, shivering, with tears still escaping the corners of his eyes.

“What’s wrong, Link?” Time asked again, careful and soft.

This time Legend didn’t try to pull away or scream at him. He merely let out a quiet breath, one that shuddered on the exhale.

“I... I don’t...” Legend croaked, his eyes squeezed shut. “I can’t... again.”

“You can’t what?” Time asked, and Legend swallowed, tears trickling down his cheeks. Time shifted his grip a little so that Legend’s head rested more comfortably on his shoulder, and waited for him to continue.

“...Care,” Legend whispered finally. His hand tightened where it was fisted in Time’s shirt. “Every time I-I care, someone gets... hurt. I get hurt, I... I can’t again, not...”

He let out a shuddering breath, and his eyes squeezed more tightly shut.

“I don’t want you all to care,” he whispered.

Time looked down at the boy in his arms, shivering and feverish and trying so desperately to fight through it himself, and exhaled.

Oh.

Legend curled into himself at the admission, tears still falling down his cheeks, and Time suddenly saw himself, trying to keep a safe distance from everyone who tried to care for him, afraid of anyone slipping past his barriers and finding the scared little boy hiding behind so desperate for love.

Time swallowed.

We’re all horribly similar, are we not?

“...Being known is a terrifying thing,” Time said after several moments of silence drifted past, voice barely a whisper.

Legend shuddered again.

“I used to think it impossible,” Time whispered. “To be known, but not hurt. Drifting along and staying unattached seemed best, safer. Even when I was in desperate need of help, taking care of myself... seemed like it would hurt less. Without Malon, I have no doubts I would still be that way.”

Time sighed, and looked down at Legend, not even sure if the words were getting through his fever.

“Legend... you don’t have to tell us everything. But we are a team. Brothers, in spirit if not by blood. By merit of those things alone... we care for you,” he said simply. “I have no doubt that if any one of us were in the condition you’re currently in, you would be caring for them as fiercely as anything.“

Time shifted, and met Legend’s eyes, puffy and red, and bright with fever and exhaustion.

“Let us do the same for you.”

Legend closed his eyes and let his head fall back against Time’s shoulder, face scrunched slightly with pain. Several long moments went by, and then Legend let out an exhausted exhale, and gave Time the smallest nod he’d ever seen.

“Sure. Fine,” he muttered, almost so quietly Time didn’t hear him. “...But only because my head is pounding so hard I can’t... think of anything better at the moment.”

“Trying is half the battle,” Time said with a faint smile, and Legend sighed again, heavy and exhausted.

Time pulled Legend up into his arms, and noted with a bit of worry that Legend was rather frail in his hold, still shivering. And normally the veteran would protest up and down about being carried, but Legend was completely silent, only a few leftover sniffles coming from him as Time hooked the lantern he’d brought to his belt so his hands would be free.

It truly was a miracle Legend had lasted this long without collapsing in front of them all— but Time knew the power of stubbornness when it came to this sort of thing. Malon was still mad at him for that time he’d tried to milk the cows when he’d had that broken wrist.

It was still impressive, though.

I wonder how long he’s had a fever, he wondered as Legend shifted in his arms. One this intense wouldn’t just appear... it must have been at least a day or two.

“...Don’t tell the others,” Legend suddenly whispered as Time began to walk back to camp, and Time looked down at him. “About... you know.”

Time nodded. “The only thing they get to know about is you being sick,” he promised, and Legend relaxed a bit further in his arms.

When they got back to camp, everyone stared, but nobody commented on Legend’s tear-streaked face, or the fact that he was shivering and being carried. Twilight made eye contact with Time, looking at Legend in concern, and Time mouthed the word ‘fever’.

Twilight’s face softened with understanding, and he quickly put out Legend’s bedroll so Time could get Legend into it.

Legend didn’t resist, and the others didn’t directly address the fact that he had obviously been hiding the fact that he was sick from them all. They merely went about their business, occasionally drifting by where Legend was lying in his bedroll, offering a few words, or some food, or just quiet company that offered to place a wet cloth on his forehead.

And when Legend finally fell asleep, he looked more relaxed then Time had seen him in weeks.

[pettyprocrastination]

Getting fillings

[justobsessedwithvic]

DUDE IM GETTING ONE THIS WEEK AJD IM TERRIFIED

WHY IS FINDING A GOOD HAIR CUT SO HARD

[emberoops-archive]

So what did you mean about your relationship with your husband?

wasnt gonna talk about this in public but fuck it.

skimduggery and i have been married for what? 3 years?? and it's just. we live in different universes do like i nev er expected us to move in together but i almost never see him. he only shows up to keep me from going on a rampage or stop a panic attack and lole

he used to talk about feelings and shit but we dont. hon estly im too stubborn to admit it but we havent actually had anproper relationship for like...a year and a half now

which is really sad because that's like...all kf jt. half ofnti. whatever

and ibr been trying to salvage it but like...I still pretty much only see him if im in some form of mental.health crisis and i feel more like an obligation than someone he loves. which is silly because it's the same from his end and i do love him just...differently.

and idk what ti do.

[wearywithoutsleep]

y'all I literally think t**** is the ant*ch****

[hprse]

Just realized i think i might Rly need general anaesthetic for the wisdom teeth removal but like probably Wont b able to

[pepprs]

hm also. and before I say it i know ive been making too many personal posts bht im just going thru a time ok. anyways it’s already gonna be hard enough making friends just like. being the person i am and having the personality i do but there’s like the added complication of like. i don’t eat any of the same things anyone else eats and also i don’t like. p*rticipate in p*rty c*lture if u know what i mean. and idk how to navigate that guess i will just have to.. find out