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I'm gonna be so upset if I finish this sweater and it doesn't fit
#I'm at the top of their size range i know it's a risk#but it's coming along so so so nicely and if it ends up looking really good but being too small#I'll just riot#against myself lol#a wild Beth in her natural habitat#knitting
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love chess metaphors in media but if i see a chessboard i will have to pause whatever im doing to set it up and try and solve it and get distracted
#i'm exactly 4 minutes and 31 seconds into code geass and i have been trying to predict their moves#i cant remember if it shows their exact moves but either way i will see if i can figure out how they get to checkmate#i know who wins and i know about how many moves it will take so i should have enough info to predict everything i think#im not good at chess but i do think it's fun#tho so far i think im very wrong at predicting their moves past a certain point i think i got the first sequence correct but i feel like#ive gotten off-track at a certain point bc like i said i am not good at chess i feel like i blundered somewhere :/#against myself lol#in a fight of me against me we're both losing#well. not losing but not playing the best moves available lol#but that's okay. it will probably show the checkmate when i get back to the show and i can try to see how they got there even#if im totally wrong rn lol#edit: THEY DIDNT SHOW CHECKMATE AHHHHHHH
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maknae line + gestures of love 🫰🏼💋🫶🏼🌹🤟🏼 happy birthday @jkvjimin! ♡
#jungkook#jungkook*#tae#taehyung*#jimin#jimin*#btsedit#btsgif#dailybts#userpat#underbetelgeuse#trackofthesoul#usersevn#annietrack#usersky#usersan#usermaggie#*gifs#comp#happy birthday darling pat!!!#just a reminder that me and vminkook love you!#i hope you have the best day full of even more love than this bc you deserve it#you put so much of it out into the world yourself that it should only ever come back to you tenfold#i actually made something kinda cohesive?! at least in the first half...feels like it loses its steam a bit after the 10th gif lol#this was only supposed to be 12 gifs but i had more time to keep it going so it ended up being 18 whoops#this is scheduled so i hope it's posting at the proper time (zone ahem)#ALSO at first i arranged this in their age order but i switched jimin and jk's place so it would spell out jk + v + jimin like your url :)#i hope you like this! i'm kinda jealous even tho i made it lol it's quite pretty if i do say so myself#yes i put a heart overlay on the gifs against a white bg to keep the color scheme going..idk i TRIED#p.s. to anyone seeing this and thinking you can't rb it bc it's dedicated to pat for her bday....WRONG! PLEASE REBLOG IT IF YOU LIKE IT! ty
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mockley time it's mockley time will you have some mockleys of mine
#my art#oc#mockley#anthro#furry#dinosaur#i think i like this mockley i think i'm guiding her to where she needs to be design-wise to fit in with her human cohorts#and the lines were fun as hell to render. mockley has so many textures#been in an art rut recently. feel like i'm guiding my art where i don't want it to go. and also feel limited in what i can do#big pity party basically lol but it's good to recognise that and be like well whatever. just do some studies and get back on track#less throwing myself against the same wall and more finding a ladder to get over it. which will involve more studies and less oc drawings#and also less comparing myself to other people and especially people younger than me who have amazing art it's BAD for you#compete with YOURSELF and you can neverrr lose. you can never lose if you have fun LOSING#learn to LOVE losing#my favourite vinny vinesauce quote and one of my favourite motivational quotes ever. he said it as a joke while salty at mario kart#but it's resonated positively in my life ever since hearing it#fall in love with failing.....learn to love losing....(said to myself)
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I think the thing that shocks me the most about the discourse, if you can even call it that, around book Alicent vs show Alicent, is the idea that people think book Alicent had full autonomy over all her choices and she wasn’t a “victim” like show Alicent.
Now first, I put victim in quotations bc the way people who do not like her have almost bastardized that word. Alicent is a victim, and those things (rape, abuse, neglect) were done to her. That says everything about the men who did that do her and nothing about her. But people are hellbent on throwing Alicent, a woman in a violently patriarchal environment, being victimized back at people as if it is moral flaw of hers. Which is just terribly ironic bc the same folks who say Alicent “did it to herself” or “deserves what she is getting” also seem to think the crux of the story isn’t about generational trauma catching up with itself, how far people will go for power, or even how all girls and women are harmed - albeit to different degrees. But more the fact that Rhaenyra is the only woman to be harmed - and the only harm done is not getting the throne easily. Those same people wouldn’t be caught dead admitting that Rhaenyra is also a victim in the way they shit on Alicent for being. From the father who sets her up fail, to the baby daddy that’s been eyeing her since she was barely 18, to the uncle that grooms her. It takes away from the fantasy projected onto Rhaenyra if she too is surrounded by men that use her and she never escapes that.
Second, it’s funny how F&B gets heralded by some as this exploration of how history is skewed depending on who is telling it. But people can’t read between the lines (you honestly don’t even have to do that much work) with book Alicent. Showing 14 year old Alicent being preyed on, 16 year old Alicent being pregnant with her second child, and 18 year old Alicent being raped is somehow the show needlessly making Alicent a victim. But reading about a 13 year old bathing, dressing, and taking care of a king who mistakes her for the daughter he abused and neglected, and then that same girl, at 18, marrying another king that killed his previous child bride is just girl bossism on book Alicent’s part?
People hate conceptualizing the idea that (even book) Alicent is caught in patriarchal trappings bc to some that takes away from Rhaenyra’s plight…. Bc they can’t wrap their heads around several women *gasp* all going through hardships, and that ultimately people will respond to trauma differently depending on tools/knowledge they have at their disposal. Alicent neither being gleefully evil nor picking herself up by her bootstraps to somehow end years of patriarchal violence is not the neat box they want for her.
#people want Alicent to gleefully be evil not bc it would be more interesting (newsflash it wouldn’t)#but so they can be justified placing her in the ‘evil woman’ category#bc to them their is only ‘good woman’ and ‘bad woman’#but since the show doesn’t lineup perfectly with the woman they made up… they put her in the ‘weak woman’ category#bc the only thing worse for a woman than being a bitch is being perceived as passive in your demise#trust me I would have loved to see Alicent let Viserys rot and plot against him just as much as the next person#but please do not act like that wasn’t probably self preservation and trauma on book Alicent’s part#not her doing it for shits and giggles#and lbr the same people wishing the show went that route would’ve been the same people STILL shitting on her#pro alicent hightower#alicent hightower#pro team green#anti viserys i targaryen#anti targaryen#ok NOW I’m done lol#told myself no more of these lol
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“The world needs more hashimada with Hokage!Madara fics” I say into the mic. The crowd boos. I begin to walk off in shame, when a voice from the back speaks and commands silence in the room.
“He’s right!” someone says. I look for the owner of the voice. It's Senju Hashirama.
#i say into the mic#copy pasta#hashirama senju#madara uchiha#hashimada#madahashi#naruto founders#founders era#naruto#naruto shippuden#the decision is made against madara’s will#he doenst have time to study the stone tablet he has budgets to calculate#he also gets forcibly integrated into the village in the rare times he has time off by hashirama#so it all works out in the end#just realized I misgendered myself lol I changed it now
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"I hate Kim Dokja because he's too much like me" <-forced to bear the sin of knowledge
#not a quote#kim dokja#orv#I don't actually HATE him lol#I just need him to Mind His Own Damn Business sometimes you know#& I'm stuck in the vicious cycle of disliking him for being so similar to myself & that even that is the same bc he ALSO hates himself#which ironically I'm most touchy about him killing Kim Namwoon. the character he saw himself in#also I'm being kept awake against my will by my dog (storming) so I'll regret this in the morning but well. what is life but regret#my posts#web speaks
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Canon James Potter on hearing his name is linked to two ships in ao3’s top 20 ships for 2023 (no 8 and no 18):
Canon James Potter on hearing the most popular of the two is him & Sirius’ Deater baby brother Reggie:
#lol I’ve nothing against Jegulus#but I think canon James would be shook 🤣🤣🤣!#he’d be all listen#I had world saving sex#of course I’m mentioned twice in the top 20 list#😏😉😇#*preening* *strutting* *fussing with his hair* *repeatedly throwing and catching a stolen snitch*#WAIT WHAT ????!!#😱😬🧐😳#regulus??? as in Reggie I joined the Deaters at 18 and had a collage of Voldy on my bedroom wall Reggie?!?#*backs slowly out of the room*#*watching Sirius’ face*#*muttering expletives and words such as what the ever living fuck#*how did this happen??*#*more importantly why did this happen?*#*you’ll have to ask him I refuse to incriminate myself*#also *WHAAAAAAAAT?!?!?!?!*#Sirius Black: YOU MEAN TO TELL ME YOU ENDED UP HAVING SEX WITH MY BABY BROTHER???? THE LESS ATTRACTIVE BLACK BROTHER??????!!!!!!!!!!#Reggie? the less good looking bro???#surely to fuck if you were going to fuck one of us it’s have to be me Merlin damn it man!!!!!#the Deaters are the Death Eaters (you had to be there#(involves the scarlet pimpernel)
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@razzle-zazzle BOOM, BETWEEN BRANCH UPON THEE
Sorry if it looked rushed on the rest of the drawings except the main one, 'cause it is. I just wanted to finish it as soon as possible due to college assignments piling up. But anyway-
Here's the boy! If I got something wrong in his appearance, I'm really sorry, I'm just going with what's described in the middle part of the fic when he got crowned as Prince, so I adapted through that.
Can't wait to see what else you have in store for this AU! *rubs hands evily for the angst that will come >:)*
#i was stumped when coloring his pants and shirt#so i decided to colour it with the colour of his og pants and leaf vest#because its easier for me lol#also#hes not wearing his vest#is it cause hes ashamed of wearing since hes not a troll anymore#or is it cause he hates it ever since he was taken in by the bergens#and this is his way of saying im disowning you gristle is my only brother now#either way#THE BOY NEEDS THERAPY CRYING EMOJI#trolls#branch trolls#between au#trolls au#i love image quality drop :)#thank you tumblr#screaming crying throwing myself against a wall
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6x15 | East
#happy thanksgiving i brought dessert#Rick Grimes#*#rg#S6#F R E C K L E S#lol jk that's a whole buffet#michonne really got up and left.....more unrealistic than zombies walking around lbr#FUZZIES ✨#even his....no don't say it.....is nice i hate myself#there's that urge to rub up against something like a cat again#let me date myself and remind everyone other old about those terrible sticky hand toys you'd get from like quarter machines#that'd be my existence#my birthday is tomorrow and my sister's bf just gave me a $60 bottle of tequila i have to work tomorrow but whatev
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Yadda yadda yadda jinx is generally seen as a loose canon, does whatever she wants type of character, totally unpredictable. When in actuality, up until the last few episodes all of her choices and actions r motivated by wanting to please someone else. Hell. Even in the last couple episodes, the very Last thing we see her doing is ENTIRELY MOTIVATED by devotion and love and grief for silco, she’s taking out her frustration at herself and the world, and also honoring his wishes and dreams. By shooting a fucking bomb at piltover, she’s ensuring his life wasn’t in vain, she’s honoring him. In that moment
Her entire, self!!! is centered around love and loyalty. Is centered around other people, She’s motivated by an insatiable urge to prove herself, to be useful to those she loves, to show that she can help them and be there for them and be WORTHY of there love. That they haven’t made a mistake in loving her. To prove that she can be as pivotal to them as they r for her. She goes to the ends of the fucking earth to do this. And it ends. Terribly.
She puts the people she loves on pedestals and supplicates at there feet, she has no motivations most of the show outside of making the people she loves happy… she yearns for connection and love and safety. For a home that will never leave her behind, or crumble under her feet, (an indestructible home, That she can’t destroy just by being her…)
Which is why.. it’s so. Interesting and intriguing. How now, she has no one on that pedestal to worship, no one to drag sacrifices and offerings to the feet of, no one to spiral around and build herself off of. She is a person so *affected* by her relationships w others, but there is no relationship now, no one is stepping up to the plate to love her. She’s too much. For anyone. The one person who seemed to have unlimited patience for her is dead, because of her. and maybe vi could still love her.. but. She’s already soured that relationship. Already broken that one too. Broken all her favorite toys that made her so happy. That were there for her. And scared all the rest away. (There is a limit to what vi can support and forgive to reconnect w her sister. And I believe terrorism is crossing that limit ghgh)
And maybe, jinx is cutting that part of herself out on purpose. To be stronger, she’s realized she just. Isn’t made for love. That she ruins it all in the end. That it just makes everything worse. Messier. More complicated. She’s better off on her own, but for what PURPOSE! Who will she be now! What choices will she make!?! Almost all of her actions in the show were for others, what is driving her now, now that she has this gaping void at the center of her being. Where love used to be… what kind of person will she become, Without a guide to follow… a sun to orbit around. it’s sad honestly ghghg-!!! like yeah it’s not healthy that she is this way but there’s no THERAPY IN ARCANE. THIS IS THE WAY SHE IS! And now. She’s alone… it’s rough. But also intriguing…!! And I honestly have no clue how she’s gonna act in season 2,,, or what sorta shit she’s gonna get up to. but I’m excited.
#arcane#jinx#arcane jinx#jinx arcane#pepper words#sorry for waxing philosophical about jinx’s mental state I just. WANTED TO#she is so tragic to me…#and I see a lot of myself in her. albeit. like. since there’s no therapy she’s just deteriorated#but. idk. seeing a character like hers portrayed in fiction. and so accurately and like.. painfully#it’s cathartic#??? and I wanted to talk about her lol. leave me alone#ok now I gotta get ready for work lol#sOMEBODY GET THIS GIRL SOME THERAPY#but also DONT. cuz it’s cathartic to see the worst thoughts tendencies and feelings of myself come to life so unapologetically in her#like… it’s. nice to see somebody go apeshit like this. when ur own brain and desire to live a normal happy life prevents u from going#apeshit urself.. jinx is raw and unfiltered pain and misery being taken out on the world and I love that about her… but#I also want her to be happy.. and. I don’t. actually think going apeshit will make her happy… in the end ghghg-#but I will still always support her going apeshit regardless. like u go girl! this might end up fucking u up worse then u already were#but if u wanna do something fucking do it girl! don’t let shit like laws or morals hold u back..#edit: I WANT to edit the bit about supplicatting cuz it was mostly jus me trying to be wordy but.#so I realized I was projecting too hard lol. jinx is willing to snap and go against and put pressure on her fav ppl#mostly for possessive reasons ghgg- but! yeah that parts kinda innacurate for her#other bits of this might be innacurate too! this is just me thinking out loud lol I don’t claim to be a jinx expert.#merely a jinx appreciator…
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catventurers meowlphabet (first half) 😽✨
#catventurers#original#cat art#tabaxi#racing against the clock to see if i can finish the last few before i've posted the ones i've got done LOL#ive painted up to S so if I post one every few days.. and paint one every few days.. i should have some leeway hopefully#it does not even matter i just am overly conscious of how my instagram profile looks#I like doing one of these every other post. it looks nice#and hopefully that way people aren't getting tired of them........#well w/e people can think what they like cause i love these sm#nothing better than a silly little guy!!!#anyways if you're reading all this thank you#shocked if anyone made it this far i'm just saying nonsense to myself
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i think you forgot the tech wizard's birthday (mikado)
TO BE HONEST WITH YOU, ANON, THIS IS LESS, "Oh shit, I forgot one of my favorite character's birthday-!" AND MORE, "I've been swamped with work, school, and been more focus on a silly little stick figure show over SDRA2 and now I'm pass the deadline welp-"
Anyways, here's his birthday art that I tried to plan in advance but never finished it in time until today cause I didn't spend my time wisely.
Happy birthday to my worst boy(s)! I totally wasn't, like, four weeks late for this, hahaha!!;;;
(Featuring me still figuring out my IRLkado Lives AU coat design for him. Still not sure if I like it or not-)
#Asks#Star Talks#SDRA2#Mikado Sannoji#Super Danganronpa Another 2#IRL Mikado Sannoji#AI Mikado Sannoji#IRLkado#AIkado#SDRA2 Spoilers#Star's Art#personally I am of the opinion that IRLkado would regret creating AIkado if he ever survived and found out that his AI tried to kill him#“I never thought an AI based off of myself would betray and try to kill me!” says guy that has selfishly dirtied his hands more than once#the only reason he's against AIkado is for revenge more or less. “backstab me once and I'll make your life hell” - that kind of thing#IRLkado: “I should've deleted you once your role has been completed.”#AIkado: “...But cha DIDN'T!!” >:)))#First time drawing Glitchkado. He was kindof a pain in the ass but when is he never? lol#At least this drawing turned out pretty cool if I do say so myself
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horribly curious because I've seen lots of different takes on this and I'd like to know what the general consensus is
#ive seen arguments for and against it being thk's room. like the theme of the nursery being a variation of the shade's theme#and how giving thk a nursery in the first place would instill some uh. ideas so why do that. its also implied wl used to sit in there a lot#and she did not see them as her child so idk!#It could be hornet's. i forgot the arguments for and against that one but i also think this is timeline dependant#and some people think its just unused. a room manifested from regret. im totally clueless myself#i need to brush up on my lore lol#hollow knight
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With today's entry, I was rather surprised and confused that Johnathan seemed to turn around so quickly from the absolute pit of despair he was in yesterday, having newfound determination and energy when he's seemingly been completely hopeless and inactive for weeks now (and for good reason). Not that I ever thought he'd completely given up, but there's definitely been a slow decline in how descriptive his journal entries have been to reflect his declining mental state (more robotic, less of his actual feelings about things), and today was a sharp contrast; it feels more like the early entries again. I thought, well, his mind is probably just so cracked at this point that he's looped all the way back around to being bold and energetic again, because by now he's desperate enough to throw caution to the wind: he either succeeds doing something extremely reckless to escape, or he fails and meets his end in a far better way than if he just waits for his fate by Dracula's hands.
...But having thought about it and reading other posts, I realized (probably stupidly obvious as it is) that his sudden change in mood probably has to do with what happened to the baby. Despite how scared he's been all this time, yesterday he didn't hesitate for a single second to try to save the baby once he realized from the previous incident what was happening, not thinking about his own life at all. And then he despaired when he couldn't save the child, the first time he's mentioned crying in the book at all, and then he had to witness the mother blaming him for her baby's death, and being killed herself for trying to rescue it. Now, the day after that horrific and heartbreaking failure, he's suddenly more determined than he's been in ages to escape. Maybe that was a turning point for Johnathan, and lit a fire under him... maybe he's clinging to the need to escape not just for himself and the people he loves anymore, but for the vain hope that he can put a stop to Dracula's schemes somehow once he gets out, because he doesn't want to let any more children die :' )
#dracula#dracula daily#i'm a new reader so idk how much this is going into headcanon territory or will be backed up later#but i wonder if johnathan feels protective of children because he and mina want kids#i mean he's a good and sweet man so i'm sure he would react the same regardless even if he didn't have a fiance#but if he's planning to one day become a father i'm sure that makes his feelings even stronger :')#he hears those babies crying and thinks about if those had been his and mina's future children. man.#i'm sure that would have made him empathize with the mother even more too; if mina wants to have a child..........#ahhhhhhh i've made myself sad. yesterday's and today's part just made me so sad 😭💔#johnathan you're so good and brave 😭 you're doing your best 😭 it'll be okay in the end 😭#oops i projected paternal instincts onto a soft male blorbo again-#okay but now i need an au where by some miracle he manages to abscond with a baby dracula brings to be killed and it's just#Johnathan And Baby Against The World (vampire)#does that exist. please tell me johnathan and kids content exist cause 🥹🥹🥹#idk how it would work but thinking about it makes me emotional lol :' )
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May you accept this humble offering
💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖
- a grateful friend
anon friend I love you with my whole entire assortment of viscera (*welcomes u in* :3)
pls accept this lovey boy as a humble offering in return :3 🩷🩷🩷🩷
#shitting crying throwing up you're way too sweet 😭😭😭😭😭😭#major cutie pie energy. i am throwing myself against the wall like cooked spaghetti#askkiel#anon.ask#elkk.art#sleep token#sleep token vessel#sleep token fanart#cat nap#<- sorry doing art tags bc i actually kinda like how this turned out lol
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