#again; me loves tragedy

[daemon-in-my-head]

Full disclosure a lot of my worries stem from the own narrative I've crafted using the shadow sorc origins and divine fuckery.

My durge, for all intents and purposes, is a created shadow sorcerer. Essentially, he was """"born"""" (or whatever u wanna call Bhaals fuckery) a divine soul sorcerer, cuz yk, basically a sentient avatar of a god, but ended up stuck in the shadow fell for a prolonged period (whole ass century lol) and doing what it does best the shadow curse got to him and corrupted his sorcery. Now so far, that's fairly normal for shadow sorcs and their origins. But the point where I absolutely massacre my sources again is Durge's defiance of daddy dearest, aka giving up the divine spark and essence. He can't get rid of Bhaals rotting flesh, seeing how he still has a body (obviously suffering from the taint but thats not too important for this argument) so basically everything else got back where it belongs and he becomes just a guy (with a very weird body).

Now, generally speaking divine heritage makes you immune to certain afflictions. Namely an innate resistance against magic and lesser curses, all that shit. But he gave that up. And yk, for most that wouldn't rly have a significant impact, but if you've been exposed to a curse which ended up corrupting your entire being and the worst of it turns out to be kept at bay exclusively thanks to your heritage, well congratulations doing the right thing just really fucked you over and you didn't even realise it.

Or in other words, my guy is actively dying now that Bhaals divine intervention is gone. Or, well, turning more and more into a shade and essentially loosing not only his purpose but his entire existence as a physical being. So shadow sorcs being created as well as born is kind of important to me personally. As well as a twisted relationship with a plane that blessed you with great powers but also fucked up your life and can attempt to try nd drag you back to it whenever it feels like it.

Yes you could argue Withers is doing Withers things but personally I decided he takes a backseat cuz that's what that guy is good at and there would've still been an interruption in the divine 'protection' for lack of better term. Just a short one yes but long enough for the curse to grab a proper hold. So eitherway, he's fucked. Esp now that that Mr 'yay self obliteration' finally got a reason to try and not get killed again. Thought he did well, ended up getting sucker punched by the consequences.

[lotus-pear]

mourning black and the death of ideals

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Normal Friend Behaviour.

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[thekittyokat]

you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah

[meagancandraw]

You ever think about how neither of them got to say goodbye?

[mobius-m-mobius]

I know what kind of god I need to be... For you.

[jayktoralldaylong]

You know who they did the dirtiest in Arcane? Apart from Vander that is.

The answer is Mel. My baby girl lost her two boyfriends and I'm tired of pretending like I'm okay about it.

She gave everything to their dream.

"She wanted to use them." YES! At first! At first she thought they were a great investment. Then she came to love them with more sincerity and more care than many other relationships in the show. Sure some of the toxic things she'd learnt from her home tended to seep into the relationship, but she did everything she could to prune that away.

She loved them. She poured everything into their dream. Everything into helping Jayce get rid of Heimerdinger when he wanted to ban the research that could help Viktor, everything to help them both vote for peace and make the council decision unanimous. Everything to get back to them, after getting kidnapped! 🥺 After going through every version of hell, she immediately gravitated to where she would find them, 😭 find the only loves that had ever accepted her without necessarily demanding anything in return.

And Riot just took that away. And I'm tired of acting like I'm okay with it.

I'm tired of everyone saying Mel deserves better than Jayce and Viktor, tired of people shipping her with people she's never met (especially when the aim is just to give her someone who is not Jayce or Viktor), I'm tired of the strong independent black woman stereotype following Mel around when it's the LAST thing that she wants when she only just learnt to be soft with Jayce and open with her heart once again. I am tired of people calling her a manipulator as if her character arc ended there, as if she did not unlearn toxic love and traded it for the gentle bond she then had with her two favourite scientists.

I'm tired of people not acknowledging that she had to leave Piltover, not just because the Medarda family needed her, but also because her boys were gone. The family she had finally made for herself, the family she was willing to abandon her family name for. They're gone and I don't think Riot will ever be kind enough to give them back to her.

Everyone else, even Ekko sort of has a family to fall back to. Mel has successfully lost everyone. The fact that Lest is the closest person to Mel left says way too much about how awful this whole situation is.

And I am TIRED, I am so sick and TIRED, of people acting like she did not love Jayce and Viktor. I am so sick and tired of people acting like Jayce did not love her. It probably hurt him too to leave her behind.

The tragedy of them is that Jayce knew Mel still had the chance to refind her feet, but Viktor had only ever had Jayce, and Jayce would NEVER leave Viktor alone. And it hurts that Mel probably wished she could have gone with them, because now she has to start everything from scratch and barely anyone in the fandom acknowledges that side of her pain and I HATE IT!

(Jayce might have been created for Viktor in League Lore, but Mel was created for Jayce. 🥺😭 Mel was created to love Jayce and they took her baby away.) #HappyHare(Mel)WhereHaveYouBuriedAllYourChildren?TellMeSoISay😭

[thetorturedlovergirl]

The pain in Laszlo's voice when he tells Colin that he was his father figure kills me because, in the end, that bond created in those times is over. Colin doesn't remember him as a father and Laszlo has to live with that.

Colin will always be his child, but he’s not his father anymore.

[yourlocalabomination]

Song - Taking What’s Not Yours by Tv Girl.

(I learnt my lesson from last time so here’s the animated version in the original post)

[yunmeng-jiang]

every day i wish there had been a better solution for the qin su marriage problem.

in my fix-it fics i either have some other sect leader claim that he was actually madly in love with her this whole time and sweep her away for jgy's sake, have her mom confess earlier, make jgy decide to tell her for her own good and have them work together, or not give them a chance to meet and fall in love in the first place (i guess i could also make qin su have a miscarriage, but that's really sad and awful and not my preferred option at all), but all of those require tweaks to the circumstances, sometimes early on so they don't meet or jgy feels safe enough to talk with her or another confidant, or sometimes later like madam qin finding out they're pregnant before the marriage prep is too far along and telling one or both of them right away so they can make other arrangements.

with the situation being what it was, jgy didn't find out soon enough to do anything that wouldn't involve either marrying her anyway (and he didn't think telling her about it would do anything except make her upset and depressed) or leaving her essentially a ruined woman with no prospects and an illegitimate child who would inevitably grow up fatherless, which is pretty much exactly what his dad did to meng shi. this would be a crueler option than pretty much anything else, and given that he clearly still cares about her, he couldn't do that in good conscience. jgy tries his best to protect the people he loves, unless there is literally no other way for him to survive.

it's one more example of jgy being faced with a situation where the only choices are bad ones, and making the decision that he thinks will hurt the fewest number of people. metatextually, it's one more example of women in fiction being shoved aside and not given agency in their own lives, and getting killed off instead of surviving and growing as people like the male characters are allowed to do. it's just a tragic situation all around and i wish there had been something they could have done.

[tackykachowch]

What's so funny about Jinx smelling Vander's jacket to me is not even that it's inconsistent with the story at this point (i. e. Vander is alive so there is no reason for her to smell his jacket, plus she didn't have a close relationship with him anyway), but because we already had a coat for her to interact with that was established IN SEASON 1 FINALE. SHE TOOK SILCO'S COAT OFF OF HIM. WHERE DID IT GO????? And most importantly why Jinx doesn't care about it at all despite her still coming to his office to "talk" with him? Like. You would think that Jinx, who still keeps keepsakes of her lost loved ones, would take some of Silco's things to remind her of him, but nah. We need a stupid thing with Vander and Silco's jackets where she doesn't even properly interact with the right one.

[lotus-pear]

rewatched madoka magica again today bc i fucking hate myself and to absolutely no one’s surprise i went through all five stages of grief in a single evening

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Bonus 8: How met your mother (CSSR design by @qourmet!)

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[misteria247]

WOW-

NO FOR REAL??? YA SURE????? DAMN IT'S ALMOST LIKE THERE WASN'T ANY SIGNS.....OH WAIT THERE WERE THREE!!!!!!????????????

LIKE I FEEL BAD BUT DUDE YOU LITERALLY FLEW INTO THE SUN WITH THIS ONE-

WAIT ICARUS OH FUCK IT MAKES SENSE NOW I GET IT NOW

[shalomniscient]

thhtis might just be a big pet peeve to me but i hate when people write kjsr as someone cold or possessive, i always viewed her character as someone who is actually so soft when it comes to love. i cant see her saying anything awful with intention to her s/o and just prob cherishes each moment and intimacy.

yeah, sara is the victim of some INSANE mischaracterisation... i was informed that some people thought of sara as a karen, of all fucking things, and the psychic damage i took from that statement was unfathomable. it was so horrendously insulting i had to put my phone down and breathe for a solid minute, because sara? being a karen? the peak of entitlement? be so fr. sara struggles to even accept her place within the kujou clan, despite being its golden child. she doesn't know how to be entitled to even love, let alone anything else.

there is a quote, i forget by who, which goes "(s)he had the awkward tenderness of someone who has never been loved, and is forced to improvise", and i think it describes her so well. sara was raised to be takayuki's perfect weapon first, and a person second. for sara, to be a 'kujou' is to be the untouchable general, the prodigal child, the crowfeather kaburaya which heralds nothing but victory for the kujou clan. her place in her 'family' is intrinsically tied to what she can give to them, not who she is as a person. her image of her own worth is so entangled with being needed that she doesn't know how to be anything else. she explicitly states that she has never given any thought to her personal aspirations. never. that's so insane and heartbreaking to me like... my love, you are more than what you can give. so i agree with you on the part that sara would be so, so tender when it comes to love. this is uncharted territory, and she's learning as she goes, but you could never be unloved by her. she knows what that's like, and she could never hurt you the same way.

anyway, live laugh love kujou sara. i've been in the kjsr camp for 3 fucking years and i'll continue to be here until the day i die

[funkbun]

this genre of lizegg