#again to people who write fast
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10 pages to write in 1 and 1/2 week 🫠 it would be manageable if I wasn't a ball of anxiety going through flare-up like one goes through a jar of cookies
#charlie is rambling#like 10 pages#that's what i wrote in 1 year#and now i have half of it to do in 1 week#(also on top of the European elections I'm also having a family reunion this weekend so I wont have much to write)#again to people who write fast#How???#my brain short-circuit every time i write a line because it cannot prioritised and organise information
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Normal boy spotted.
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#wen wing#wen remnants#Wen ning#This scene felt like a bit of a fever dream. We have (with little to no comedic exaggeration):#1) WWX whistling and somehow summoning not one but several horses to his side.#2) meeting the surviving Wen sect members who insist on not leaving Wen Ning behind.#Only for it to cut back to Wen Ning ripping a guy in half. (Not pictured here. I tried so hard but I could not make it look good).#Personally I feel like we moved on way too fast from the horse thing. Where did they come from? WWX couldn't have brought them.#He *just* found out there were more people left behind.#So...are the from the Jing sect? Are these disloyal horses? Or does WWX have incredible animal charisma skills?#It feels a bit like a DND player asked to call in some horses and the DM said 'Sure if you roll well enough' and it was a natural 20.#Maybe this is just my own envy cutting through. God damn I wish I could whistle and summon a horse to my side whenever I needed to.#I know I should not be so hung up on the horses. But my brain is cooked. I have been so sick.#The kind of sickness that makes it hard to breathe. Or think. Or have any energy at all.#I wish I had good commentary to write here. I just...really want a nap. And for October to restart to make up for all the lost time.#Thank you all for being so kind and patient once again. It truly means a lot.
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i was bitten by killer croc on my way to school again today and my history teacher was super pissed off because i was a few minutes late because i had to patch up the bite so i wouldn't bleed out
#he also complained that i didn't write as fast as usual#because a chunk of my arm is missing#and now i have to go to the doctor again#and i have detention for being late#i just hope it didn't get infected#at least there are a bunch of rich people who basically pay for hospital visits#if you were attacked by one of batman's enemies#which is nice i guess#would still be better if we didn't need that tho#killer croc#just gotham city things#only in gotham#unreality
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i am so sorry about this, but for iconic and comedic purposes, and because i think it is my only chance...i think because put jk in all the clean, sleek, minimalistic dark academia fits ( and made him the fkn scariest top dom motherfucker alive >.> ) and put rm!stan as raven in all the thotty gothy hot topic rockstar boy looks ( ilu tiny pants ) ...
i think it's only fair that...
my bitchy, ginger, picky snobby ricky bobby ken doll son, AKA, red hot tire siren, toxic orange pit viper and mean green newjay devil -- who wears more comme de garcons/moshino than prada, imo -- espn celebpretty sh(it) boy, twitter's favorite #cred#head, /my/ precious daytona 500 winning pookie ( dirtbag ) and the #supreme tmz trashed-and-slated nastyboy of nascar racing, the one, the only...
Kyle 'Break Check!' Broflovski <3
should get to wear all the dramatic af, xxxtreme sportyspice, ubergay nightmarish perish hilton, twinky talladega nights, white #trashion, vodka&redheadbull, apple bottom jeans boots w the fur club fits <3
( also just for shits and gigs, pls note: toolshed stan is a super casual, fashionably challenged but unbothered old carhartt beanie, oversized flannel n beat up work boot wearin king...so i'm laaugghingsdk )
like...i am sorry, but this is the right answer:
#nina speak#everyone staring at me with bewildered eyes#TWINK KYLE????#listen!!!! i wanted some of the action okay#also u cannot tell me this is EXTREMELY CORRECT#i also don't know if he is that tall but its a force of habit#he just has ENERGY#like i can feel this in my BONES i know its just the most extra avant garde white boy wasted thot fit of all time#i am not sure if he does it bc he likes it or bc he wants attention yet but all i know is that he is slaying#and the people of south park are going to point and laugh#not mechanic stan tho bc he is nice ( a little under his breath badly disguised as a cough ) before raceky says something foul#like smh toolstan u should have been mean baby!!! don't let him call ur vintage safety goggles dorky king!!! stand ur ground#StAN FOR SOMETHING skhdlksad haha#but no it is giving the simple life#also i love toolshed stan he is just a backcountry rural colorado weed farm boy who is really good at fixing stuff#celebshitty kyle talking so fast it is...hurting his brain like he is fascinated by it...but is also like...are u perhaps having a stroke#ill do him next but like pls tell me someone understands the vision like its so specific and i destroyed the canon again#but i wanted to write a bitchy fingerbang kyle and this is my solution by writing obnoxious spoiled rotten racecar driver ky
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ngl it sort of pisses me off the way adults regard Gojo in Jujutsu Kaisen at times. Which could be a very interesting and poignant point in a good way if well written, but as it is it becomes mainly just frustrating and sad in a negative way.
Nanami saying Gojo never cared about anything or anyone other than himself crashes interestingly with Kusakabe saying the whole situation was just all his fault because he refused to kill Itadori. The students are very aware of those aspects of Gojo's personality, but overall they seem to regard him with way more kindness and fondness even when at their rudest, not truly coinciding with either Nanami's or Kusakabe's views.
#Kusakabe's words are harsh and negative but there's some true and some logic to them#but in beholding the entire story and the whole context‚ especially with the flashbacks in mind‚ in getting to know the sweet kid Yuuji is‚#the reader is made to find Kusakabe's words a bit outrageous and cruel and Gojo's position becomes the obvious one like Nanami's was#Like Kusakabe's is too in a way since he too says no matter what it's always the adults' fault whatever the cause was#And following the story we see Gojo cared a lot about those kids and them keeping their youthful cheerfulness if in his very flippant way#That's basically his main constant thread. We see it at the very beginning in what he did for Yuta and how Yuta is so fond of him#We see him at the very end in a way too with the letters he left#And his entire motivation was changing the very messed up society to avoid the kids going through what he and his friends went through#and to prevent them from being lonely the way he felt he was. Ontologically alienated. Entirely othered#And of course it's in part him keeping people away like Shoko. Or even Yuta (though here again it's at the core of his action his attempt#at protecting the kids and trying to prevent them from growing too fast)#And of course this is motivated by his own experiences and in that sense not entirely a selfless act#But those things still don't negate that his goal was for the future kids to be... in a better situation than what he and his friends lived#So Nanami's words are very cruel and... blind. Of course it's possible that Gojo's way of approaching the problem is still something#Nanami would regard as selfish (but it could be argued that so is Nanami's)‚ or that Gojo's perception of Nanami's way of thinking#about him would be this negative. But what we see through the story absolutely contradict Nanami's words in that airport#And though both Nanami's words and Kusakabe's are negative in regards to Gojo‚ they in a way contradict each other#The kids' words and way of seeing Gojo is most of the time more... accurate? If also diverse among them#They see him like an idiot. They trust him. They think he's childish and annoying. They love him#They find him flippant. They know he cares about them. In a way they see both what Kusakabe and Nanami say about him#The negative. And the ultimate positive aspect at the core of it all. That Gojo did care and that Gojo did take care#and that Gojo risked and sacrificed a lot for them and that Gojo was doing this in great part because of his own past#Yuta perhaps is the one who sees it best but it's so interesting too the dynamic Maki‚ Yuuji and Megumi have with Gojo‚ his acts and antics#And this whole thing‚ this frivolous and even... cruel way most adults seem to regard Gojo and how it clashes with the kids' deep feelings#about him (beyond the initial 'he's an untrustworthy idiot' though those as well!') is super interesting and super sad and super juicy#OR IT COULD BE bc in the end all that happens is that Nanami says that and Gojo pouts comically or that Kusakabe makes that offhand comment#as if it held no weight‚ as if Yuji weren't present and had never agonised over it‚ as if Gojo hadn't lost his life trying to save the kid#And yes he risked more than his life but he was trying to save a kid bc another kid (bc Megumi!) asked. But maybe it didn't matter if no one#asked. He saved Yuta too. Of course he would have risked it all. In his mix of selfishness and selflessness. Everything is so juicy#yet the writing feels so dry and lame. There's no pondering. There's talk of guilt and grief without any true sense of grieving or loss
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2023 reads // twitter thread
Zombabe
paranormal YA set in a small town in 2003 where weird things happen that mostly get ignored
a boy is resurrected by his best friend after dying just before graduation. but he’s maybe a zombie now and if he ignores his hunger for flesh an ancient evil might start causing bigger problems
thankfully one of his friends’ aunt is a cop who has no problem helping get rid of some of the local nazis
queer teen friend group, m/m
#zombabe#aroaessidhe 2023 reads#i.s. belle#lgbtq books#i loved this!!!!!!#the like. 3rd person omniscient (i think) in a modern (ish) setting works really well actually?#and its one of those books that has little snippets of various side characters yknow what i mean.#it’s kinda slow building up until the end when it happens very fast#i have no idea where the next books will go????#I also really liked that like. while obv there's homophobia in the world (& the aforementioned nazis very much bully them up for being gay)#there's not any internalised homophobia or anything like that. and like even tho the nazis like threaten to kill them I guess-#you never feel like the actual threat and danger of it from the narrative. you know the bigots are just gonna die lol#is my intense fixation on wanting to bite my best friend a zombie thing or is it just the gay yearning i’ve been trying to ignore#I already made a post about this but tentatively comping to in the flesh.....zombies....slightly anachronistic small town people who#turn a blind eye to stuff..dark with a bit of humor...kind hearted quiet blonde gay boy MC....#I will say that ITF is a lot heavier re: mental health and like systemic oppression and stuff#(.....because I just rewatched it again. prompted by reading this book)#I will also note that; while I don’t think this is reskinned fanfic; the author used to write a lot of It movie fic#so if ur into that you might like this apparently it has similar vibes#nz author
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hey! please don’t do this!
#i can’t speak for everyone only for myself#and while i’m so happy that people are excited#it truly gives me a lot of anxiety getting these kinds of asks#i won’t trauma dump here except to say that i suffer from extreme imposter syndrome#and also finding my own identity and joy in writing again ever since the traumatic experience that happened to me-#in this space a couple of years ago. i’ve been mentally depressed and checked out since#i’m working as fast as my brain will allow. i want to bring track 3 and ik it’s been almost a year but please#please please please just be patient with me.#also not to be petty but this coming from a mass like and someone who doesn’t reblog my fics just makes me feel even worse#so yeah! just a heads up! again i love that people are excited about my writing too!#but cut a girl with severe anxiety disorder some slack#🍯.txt
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everytime i think im done ranting i remember something else LMFAO this one is extra long i hit tag limit god mf damn
#self#for instance.....my mom wants me to cut off everyone who is still tied to the school#and im so mad at myself for feeling a certain type of way when the campus manager called me not too long ago basically to tell me she doesnt#trust the girl who did this shit and she wasnt mad at me but was also mad at me for bringing her to her dads house#for reference we were trying to get a cat from the campus managers dads house LMFAO#and i honestly cannot wait to speak to her again and be like 😔 god dammit you were right like you were every single time#i just dont understand the wiring in her head to think the shit she says and does to people is normal and okay and how she doesnt realize it#is literally a mental health break. when i finally told my mom the first thing she said was shes probably off her medication#which.....probably isnt wrong sadly coming from someone who has borderline and very easily can lose it#but the difference is i dont give in to the urges to try to hurt everyone around me in every way i can#and me and her have said before that we thought she might also have borderline because we were very similar#but god damn does she love proving that if she has it its extremely severe or its something else entirely#on an honest note. shes incredibly narcissistic and i know her mom is part of the reason shes that way bc she was given princess treatment#her entire fucking life and then doesnt understand when other people dont treat her the same way#i hate rambling about this and i hate it that it is bothering me so fucking bad but like ???#if youre going to decide that you can put our past aside period and move on then fucking do that and stop bringing the past up as a way to#hurt me and the people around you???? she acts like shes not done horrible fucking things to people. so sorry i wrote a letter that was very#honest at the time. so sorry that when you found out i apologized for it and said i regret it because 2 weeks after my apology i no longer#regret writing it. if its making school a living hell for you....theres probably a reason for that girlfriend#i am not the person who put that shit in your folder#though i seriously fucking doubt its actually in her folder shes probably assuming it is#and youre the one who made a complete ass of yourself to every educator that ever stepped foot in that building#that has nothing to do with me that you are a literal warning given to every new educator!!!! i havent even been in school there in months#yet IM the problem??? how am i the problem when i graduated in fucking january???? everything since then falls on you#AND YET AGAIN! MIGHT I MENTION! IT IS NOT JUST MY LETTER!!! THERES AT LEAST 2 OTHER ONES!!!!!#BECAUSE IM NOT THE ONLY PERSON SHE DOES THIS SHIT TO!!!!#god sometimes i sit back and realize that theres a reason she regresses as a person and i do not#im not going to sit still anymore and let someone walk all over me and she can thank herself for that#shes who taught me that blocking and running as fast as i can doesnt fix anything#so here we are bitch. youre not blocked and im sure youre sitting at home thinking about how youre right about everything
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The Problem with TPA
Ok get comfortable y’all cuz this is extremely long. So long that I actually decided to break it up into a series of short essays instead of making one monster of a post 😬 But in my defense, I went into this book expecting to use all of my diamonds only to end up mining it in the end, which means I have a lot of thoughts 😭
The first four essays touch on what I thought were main issues in the story. Gab, Gear, and Garb is more about minor problems and commentary. Without further ado though, the essays are below. If anyone actually reads them (even if it’s only one lol), lmk so we can discuss!
What is a Spy? ~ 1 min. read
Authenticating The Architect ~ 3 min. read
Let’s Talk About Rowan ~ 3 min. read
Agent Gray is… Gray ~ 3 min. read
Gab, Gear, and Garb ~ 3 min. read
The Bottom Line ~ 3 min. read
#choices tpa#choices the phantom agent#choices#choices stories you play#playchoices#can’t believe I wrote multiple essays about a Choices book in one go 🥴#I don’t even like writing tbh#but I do like talking about the stories with people#and I was truly let down by something I had been waiting a hot minute for 😪#never again tho#I just hope it’s organized enough bc I tried to come up with something that was readable and didn’t just sound like a 1000 pg rant 💀#also the read times are just estimates so take them with a grain of salt#I’ve been told that I read fast but I know there are people who read faster than me so 🤷🏽♀️
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Kamen Rider Geats episode 39 poorly summarized via memes with as little context as possible:
#kamen rider geats#kamen rider geats poorly summarized#kamen rider geats ep 39#ngl this episode was lit if only for seeing actors interact with other people again#the uhaul lesbian joke writes itself#also gotta love that ace's world is less than ideal because of michinaga#like that's just plain funny#also if ace's world is so great why can't he pay win huh#do like that he was just like 'memory wiping? nah lets get rid of that'#i wonder if this means older riders are gonna show up#probably the ones that got announced for the film but who knows#anyways how DID michinaga know where keiwa lives?#accepting all reasoning#shitpost or otherwise lol#love that kekera and beroba are just hanging#by the wording of their wishes i think theyre just gonna auto die once they get their kicks granted#which yknow fair#whats so great about the future anyways - live fast die young you freaks#kinda dislike how the show's going for the angle of 'there's nothing to win if you fight'#cuz like we did this in the clipshow ep#idk the fact that they get to choose is more compelling#but it makes sense that ace would phrase it that way#same token it's moreover 'hey you don't have to fight. it's not needed and there's no reason you have to'#which yknow it's a fair enough reason#anyways that op got me *feeling*
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Songs that I would kill to see inspire cathartic FirstPrince fanfics
(A little ramble about songs that inspired fic ideas! New Year's fast approaches and I intend to write more next year, so maybe I'll have a proper go at these sometime. But until then, I'll let these stew here. Bonus chapter spoilers [ish?])
Photograph (Cody Fry) – Specifically as the "In February 2026, a flu sweeps through Park Slope." section of the bonus chapter. Henry-centric, one of those character deep dive type things. Henry pacing the house, thinking about all the time they've spent together over the years. Henry watching Alex in that window seat, thinking about all the man has done for him. Pure tooth-rotting fluff. Almost frustratingly sweet.
You Are Enough (Sleeping at Last) – Love love love this song and I think it'd be really nice to see it as a "It's 2025, and Henry has a bad day." fic. Specifically the end of the excerpt where Henry tells Alex "You don't have to do it, you know." Alex grappling with the idea that he doesn't always have to keep giving and giving and giving.
Je te laisserai des mots (Patrick Watson) – Typical, and this is just a personal comfort song, but since Henry knows French... I always imagine a little drabble where Alex has a bad day or he's ill or he has trouble sleeping and Henry is singing softly to him to try to help him sleep. And alright, maybe Henry isn't really the best singer but he can still hold a tune well in my heart ok
Soulmate Song (Carson James Argenna) / Run Away With Me (Ben Fankhauser) – I think these two could fall under the same premise. An AU maybe? Same forbidden romance aspect as canon, obviously, but different stakes. Alex-centric; Alex would be the one asking to run away. Very Crowley in Good Omens-esque. Very sweet, a little desperate. I would love to see them actually run away together.
Grow As We Go (Ben Platt) – I think it would make a good exploration of their relationship in terms of grief and struggle. Seeing each other at their lowest and still promising to be there, still staying, still supporting in their own ways. Maybe a 5+1 or a two chapter, one of each of them dealing with their own struggles?
Honourable mentions (aka, I can't always explain my reasoning for these, they would just make sense):
Simply The Best (Billianne)
Better Days (Dermot Kennedy)
Pointless (Lewis Capaldi)
i don't want to watch the world end with someone else (Clinton Kane)
Forever You (Dennis Van Aarssen) (Dennis is like my favourite singer ever so I might be biased but this is such a good song for them imo)
#sorry to the people here who followed for the mario movie content and were then abandoned#yk how fixations go#2024 is fast approaching so let's start again on the writing shit shall we#red white and royal blue#rwrb#rwrb fic#rwrb movie#rwrb fanfic#rwrb fanfic ideas#red white and royal blue fanfic#fanfic ideas#fanfic inspo
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#this sounds petty#but I'm seriously thinking of holding onto the next update of my wip#until October is over#because i don't want it to buried in -tober event spam#im glad people are having fun with kinktober or whatever#but it does no good to people who aren't doing that#and find their stuff bumped down real fast#ill probably change my mind again later#but yeah this is how discouraged im feeling at the moment#ugh#Panera bread is like the fucking best#for reading and writing#i can buy a smoothie and a croissant#and just sit here for hours#and they don't give a shit#yay
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I love waking up to a text from the assistant manager telling me someone I worked with yesterday is poorly (with what girl??? Is he contagious?????) and asking if I can pick up a shift today or tomorrow
#i ended up saying i can’t do today because… i can’t. who is going to take care of mabel??#i can’t foist a blockheaded terrier on anybody with such short notice. and anyway i don’t want to#i’m fully booked up today with dog walks and reading a cosy thriller. it’s gonna be the whole day ideally#but i accepted a 9-5 tomorrow 🙃🙃#it’s fine like.. i’ll be okay. i just was really looking forward to y’know. not having to pretend to be a functional human being that day#i kind of hope she finds someone better in between now and her seeing my message. or that sick coworker in question makes a very fast#recovery. i mean i hope that anyway. i like him. but like…#8 hours of pretending to be a person. and then i have to do it again on friday. whyyyyyy#like i don’t think anyone appreciates or realises how much it takes out of you to have to smile and be polite with people who are being#terrible to you sometimes; while you’ve been on your feet all day and your body is aching and you’ve been doing heavy lifting#and maybe you’ve been scalded or burnt at some point or cut your hand and man there’s just so many things that can go wrong at my job#i get covered in something at least once per shift. milk; coffee; soapy water; mixture of the three…..#and i’ve just realised i don’t even have enough shit for lunches this week because i assumed i’d only be doing 3 shifts#so i ate all my snacks and only left enough stuff for 3 lunches#i’m probably just going to buy lunch there tomorrow. which’ll cost me like. nearly an hour’s wages. which is why i don’t do it. 🙃🙃🙃#fuck it. i can just suck it up and pick out a sandwich and some crisps or something; write my name on them and put them in the fridge#it’s just annoying!! like i’ll be fine but i’m just not mentally prepared for unexpectedly having to work lol#personal
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candace flynn is THE most teenage girl character of all time. she is at level 100 anxiety 24/7. she shows her love for her brothers by trying to get them in trouble constantly. her neck is as long as her forearm. she features on a blues album after having an allergic reaction. she has a shrine to her boyfriend in her room. she can't live without her phone. she has a panic room in the basement. she plays 20 instruments that all start with the letter B. she read all of sherlock holmes in one night. she's seen their platypus running around as a secret agent more than once, assumed she was hallucinating each time, and moved on with her life while telling no one. she likes wrestling video games. she was rutabaga princess. she has a billion people to email memes to but when she's trying to think of friends she can only think of four people and one of them is her mom. most animals hate her except monkeys. she invented grilled cheese flavored ice cream. she pretended to be irish for a week. she's autistically obsessed with her universe's version of barney. she writes marvel fanfiction. she does parkour. there's an entire archive of her voice actress screaming just in case her voice ever gave out while recording. she sees her brothers build time machines and rollercoasters every day but doesn't believe in santa. when she starts scheming the wicked witch of the west theme starts playing in the background. she was elected queen of mars. she won a "mayor for the day" essay competition. there's a random person in town who's been avoiding her to the point she doesn't know he exists. she learned how to parallel park by driving a monster truck. she thinks the plural of moose is "meese." she tracks her mom with a GPS. she doesn't know her little brother's full name. she's scared of heights, spiders, and the number seven. when her boyfriend told her he'd call "soon" she started doing complex math to try and figure out when exactly that would be. her first thought upon seeing her royal doppelganger was to go to the laundromat and fill all the dryers with cheese. she earned 50 not-girl-scout patches in one day through sheer determination. she can run fast enough to catch up to moving cars. she can sense when ground is broken in the backyard and when people are judging her. one time she got her face caught in the sink. her brothers carved her into mount rushmore. every now and again a magical zebra appears, calls her kevin, and then disappears again. she killed 99% of an alien invasion with a t-shirt cannon. in an alternate universe she's leading a regime-destroying resistance at the age of 15. she's being accidentally gaslit every day of her life.
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I don't understand why people get frustrated at things they knew were gonna happen because someone else is chronically I'll and it's happened multiple times before so it's not like it's new, like oh yeah sorry for existing like this
#family wanted me to go to this restaurant and to try their shakes and they've talked about it multiple times about going#and they kept mentioning it and just yeah so the said 'were going' and i just shrugged and said okay#we've been to restaurants times before and it goes the same every time with me getting fries or some type of potato or salad#because their safe foods and indont want to be sick and most of the time i cant eat almost all the menu so this isn't new#but they want to eat before we get these shakes (the shakes that are going to inevitably make me very sick) so we order food#surprise enough i order cheese fries that say they just have cheese on them on the menu but of course they lied as always#so the fries have bacon and chives and olives and a bunch of stuff and the cheese isnt even a cheese sauce#but cheese from the store thats been melted in a microwave on the fries and is very very oily and y'know great these are gonna make me sick#i force down the food as fast as i can and act like its fine but of course family gets mad that im doing this#they then ask after me trying to force down this food what flavor of shake i want and im probably gonna end up throwing#up half of the food i just ate and so i say no to the shake which is a gurantee of me being up all night throwing up#they get frustrated because 'we came here for the shakes' and i dont even know im so tired like#i font know what people want me to do i cant exist the way they want me to and eat the food and interact with the world how they want me to#like how do they want me to do thing? i wish people would tell me how they wanted me to do things and then i could do it#and i really can i can play pretend i do it sooo well i can eat the food you want me to and do what you want me to#but we literyjoked how i couldn't eat barely anything on the menu and we still got in the car and left and like#family is a bust my friends are too busy living and being with their other friends who arent sick so thats always hood to think about#literally got told to my face that she made a new friend (which is always good) but that this new friends reminded her exactly of me#and that they talks to them every single day and they've gone to movies and this and that and... i texted her multiple times#and she hasnt texted me back in months... infont think that lerson reminds me of who i AM i think they remind her of who i WAS#when i was sick very sick but still more abled and able to just exist#but yeah so im gonna write some fanfic - im gonna mod for something - then mod for another thing with really sweet mods in it#i wanted to rewatch a spn episode with the angels in it so ill do that and maybe work on a bracelet#and yeah... and then ill do it all over again and eat my safe foods and do the things that make me comfortable because fuck them#virus rambling
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#reading experiences with changing yr name and gender marker and it's either /went fast#was ok/ or /death would be preferable/ and it's getting me#but i know i have anxiety so i try to hold onto hope and tell myself /it could go well! nothings lost yet/#sometimes i read about how difficult it is to be trans and i wonder how people here do it bc i instantly get /i can't do this i need to die#thoughts in my head but i also know that's probably the anxiety (and depression tbh)#journal eb#i hope for my own sake that when i go through this which is hopefully sometime this year i have people to help me keep going and who will#help keep me from losing my mind#idk yet#this year will be so uncertain#idk who will be there for me and who i will have to let go#and it's all probably going to happen while i'm writing my thesis so impeccable timing on my front once again#wooooooof this'll be somethin else
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