#again my apologies for going quiet
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Sorry for having been radio silent for so long. Iâve been dealing with power outages, a busted furnace, and a lot of work. The end result was that I got very busy and a bit burned out.
Iâm doing better now and things have gotten better on all those fronts. I donât know if/when Iâll be posting fics or headcanons, but I hope to be more involved on here again!
#boxcar rambles#again my apologies for going quiet#the first power outage was because of bad weather and couldnât be helped#the second one was caused by a neighbor and an electrical fire#which fried my furnace#and thatâs why we donât plant trees close to power lines kids!#(also the electricity company in my area â in their infinite wisdom â restrung the wire through the same tree)#(so if I suddenly go quiet again then you know why lol)
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it was never my life to live and he didnât fall for the real me⌠he fell for an accessory and thought he could just change the label while things stayed the same
#sorry yâall Iâm probably gonna be venting about this the next few weeks#still getting over the sudden ending of this SR and Iâm working my way through it#wait why am I apologizing itâs my blog đ#mine#SB chronicles#it will probably irk me for a while that he thinks Iâm at fault for the way things ended when it was entirely him#and he will probably think of me as sensitive and petty and a hoe that was just after his money and heâll be all the more bitter#towards women after this and I feel bad for whoever he picks up after me#heâs just on a cycle of reboundsâŚ. not healthy at all#his punishment is who he is and no woman in her healed mind is going to stay with him once she realizes who he is#he will end up alone sooner or later#or keep running through women bc he eventually takes his facade off#maybe white women can handle all that emotional abuse but not me baby#I like my men respectful sweet patient and kind and good at communication#I still canât believe I was going to date him for real and before I could get those words out#he immediately showed me why I would have regretted that decision#I somehow dodged a bullet but still experiencing pain and feeling like I was owed more good times with him#I just wanted a few more months of all the goodâŚ..#but there were a lot of things that irritated the shit out of me and Iâm forgetting to remember those things#Iâm romanticizing our time together#I mean it was wonderful while it was good but I hated hearing and smelling his fucking gross f*rts#that is definitely something I will never get used to tolerating from a man#or how easily distracted he was or how he didnât like to sit inside of moments like I do#how he often gave me the illusion of choice but then we ended up doing whatever he wanted#I definitely would think âoh I canât wait to never deal with _____ againâ and now I donât have to đ¤ˇđžââď¸#I just miss the affection attention and sex and how I felt disconnected from my sad reality when I was in his world#I just liked his world#it was rich and quiet and high quality and carefree
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age gap kink go brrrr
#sry i'm gross#i want a grandpa that goons to me and simps over me and is obsessed with my hot young body#that starts touching me but gives me money to be quiet about it#except he just gets more and more bold and buys me outfits to wear when we hang out#and all of a sudden instead of my grandpa taking me to go see the new teen comedy movie or something#we're going out on 'dates' where i'm dressed slutty and he keeps his hand on my ass the whole night and at the end of the night#forces me to suck him off and stuffs more money down my shirt before he leaves me on my dad's front step#when i finally tell dad about what grandpa's been doing they're appalled and call grandpa immediately to come over#dad and grandpa agree i need to be reminded of my place and what will happen if i ever make those horrible accusations of either of them#they both rape me and beat me until i am a sobbing broken dripping mess apologizing over and over again#dad decides the lesson isn't over and tells grandpa to take me home for the weekend and invite over all his old navy buddies#hikey#father figure <3
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wait one more post bc i had a realization that perhaps not everyone knows this lol.
some people genuinely just enjoy being antagonistic and being kind of shitty. i very likely have a deeper insight into this than a lot of people because one of our parts/alters is like that lmao. he just thinks it's fun to mess with people and make people get reactive, and will continue to engage until he's bored and then he just... moves on with his day.
there is no way to "win" in this situation other than to just exit the conversation (aka block them if you're online). you're not going to "own" them or change their minds; if you engage w them in any way you're just feeding into that behaviour.
I'm not passing judgement on this either lol - I'm not saying people like that are bad (god knows we'd be lost without [redacted] ngl, he gets shit done and he gives us a necessary break from the constant feelings of terror and shame), and I'm not saying you Shouldn't engage with them. you make your own decisions here. I'm just letting you know the mindset of people who act this way
#and idk if this will be useful for anyone here but i see people in general elsewhere not Knowing this#some ppl just think its a laugh to get Any sort of reaction out of others! negative reactions are a lot of fun for them!#so I personally just block them and move on because I don't care to spend time engaging with them#I find it tiring personally sbdhdkl#anyways! im going to be moving along now and not thinking about this anymore dbdkdl#apologies again for the serious posts today! i just got it in my head that i needed to say smth but ...#... kind of thinking perhaps it would be best if i just stay quiet about more serious things idk ^^;;#I'm not very good at putting my words together and I'm not the best at understanding when a situation needs words to be said#so i think i should just stick to being a clown over here and sharing my silly little art when I make any djfjdkdl#dandy.cmd
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almost 3 am and i am once again overthinking canât do this anymore
#why do i always apologize when things simply arenât my fault#why do i always end up in the same position no matter what i do#why is it always a me vs them thing#i can never just exist and be fine#iâll sleep now itâll be fine in the morning#ill ignore it again in the morning#WHATEVER#nothing matters and this was all stupid anyway#iâll just go quiet again
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// Hello everyone! Itâs been some time since my previous post, and a lot has happened since then. As usual I was busy with the end of the semester, which made it difficult to pick up the pace with writing again.
Iâve written that last sentence dozens of times, which is why I started going to a psychologist last year to figure out how to best deal with my stress during studies and exams, as well as my trouble focusing, both of which prevent me from engaging in my hobbies.
Well, one thing led to another, and as Iâve recently found out, I have ADHD!
Needless to say itâs put a lot of things into perspective. I donât want to get into it too much, but Iâll just say that itâs been a really positive experience getting to better understand why I feel and act the way I do, and what I can do to handle it better. Not to mention extremely relieving and vindicating in relation to things I really didnât understand and had been growing really frustrated with over the years.
Between this, getting closer to the end of studies and getting an internship, itâs been a time of big news for me and a feeling of change. Iâll be working during the Summer, but my schedule does leave plenty time to spend on my hobbies without getting distracted by studies.
Now, I canât say how Iâll be feeling later on, but Iâm excited about this change. I want to make the most of this and bring back a habit of writing, even if at a relaxed pace, plus Iâve been playing Elden Ring (havenât reached the DLC though- so donât worry, I wonât be discussing spoiler territory here for the time being) and itâs been great inspiration.
I hope weâll be seeing each other a lot more often in the near future. Take care and may the coming days treat you well!
#ooc#apologies for the quiet! I'd say it was poor timing with the new blog buuuut it's been more of a pattern#but this marks a very substantial change in my life. By comparison my time of low activity is relatively short!#Silliness aside thank you for your patience. I'm going to do my best to write more often again#it feels like things are moving quickly in some places for the first time in years and I'm excited to keep doing things#get to them swiftly and postpone them no more#I do wonder if any of you had your suspicions about this discovery before I did :y#it's been a really good month#wishing you a good one too this July :]
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Apparently there's a solar eclipse going on back in his home state of Arizona.
#đ || musings#Copperhead having a brief wistful moment#He adores the sun but man wouldn't that be a sight to see#Apologies for having been so quiet this week work is still kicking my ass#Got one more shift though and no more all nighters until next Thursday so a couple of easy days incoming!#Unless shit changes again bc let's be real it'll probably happen XD#Anyways enjoy a sombre snake <3#Hope you're all having a great weekend people#Lots of scary news going on around the world rn I just wanna wrap you all up in a blanket :(
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Iâm just gonna do a wee ramble in the tags. You can ignore me if you want.
#katie is rambling 2k22#so mom is back in the ICU and intubated again#she has some internal bleeding that became very apparent and dangerous#while my brother and I were in the hospital#we left for their quiet time and grabbed something to eat#and came back to mayhem as they were trying to move her#while there was more than a little blood on the bed because the GI docs needed to see#they found one source of bleeding but thereâs another one they havenât sorted yet#but seeing her so freaked out about having to be intubated again was rough#and everyone kept apologizing to us#and I know they were just doing their job and trying to be thoughtful#but it was not helping#also Iâm breaking out like really really bad and itâs pissing me off#which is like small fries#but the stress is making me so much more prone to picking#that I am going to turn my entire chin into an open wound#anyway life sucks but Iâm chugging along I guess
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closer than quiet
summary: Rafe is so tall he has to lean down to hear you better. that's it.
warnings: none, me thinks. just a suggestive line at the end ;P
word count: 590
A/N: I couldn't help myself, so I wrote this blurb! this is my first time writing Rafe, let me know what you think! English is not my first language, so I apologize for any grammatical or spelling errors. feedback is appreciated!
The soft hum of the waves was a steady background to the crackling of the bonfire, the flames dancing as the heat mixed with the cool bite of the night breeze. You stood near the fire, feeling the warmth spread through you, but the presence behind you was what made your skin tingle the most.
Rafe was close, an arm wrapped around your waist with a casual ease that made you feel both safe and exposed at the same time. His thumb traced slow, absent circles over your stomach, his other hand holding a beer with the same relaxed grip he used when he wasnât thinking about much at all. Topper and Kelce were deep in conversation, their voices more distant than usual, as if the world around you had faded into something quieter. Rafe barely added to the chatter, content to stay in his own headâor maybe it was you who had his full attention. You werenât sure, but it felt like you did.
You turned your head, looking up at him, a soft smile playing on your lips. "You good?" You asked it quietly, as though you already knew the answer, but you wanted to hear him say it anyway.
Rafe didnât immediately respond, the sound of the ocean filling the silence. Instead, he leaned down, tilting his head as if to catch the softest whisper, even though youâd only spoken in your normal tone. His presence grew even more intense with the movement, his height hovering over you, his face drawing closer in that effortless, unspoken way that made you feel smaller and more drawn in with each inch.
"Hm?" His voice was low, just above a murmur, the sound of it vibrating through your chest.
You flushed at the gesture, a subtle warmth rising in your cheeks. His closeness, his height, the way he made the space around you feel like it shrank to just the two of youâit was disarming in the best way. His breath fanned over your skin, the warmth of it sending a shiver down your spine, and you could almost feel the heartbeat beneath his chest as he leaned in further.
You swallowed, your voice a little shakier this time. "You doing good?" You repeated, hoping your tone sounded steady, but there was no hiding the way he affected you.
Rafeâs grin tugged at the corner of his lips as he felt the slight hitch in your breath, his arm tightening around your waist, pulling you even closer. It was as though he knew exactly how much he was making you feel.
"Yeah, m'good, baby," he hummed, his voice deepening in that way it did when he was in his element. "Just thinking."
"About?" you asked, a whisper now, almost afraid to ask but too curious to hold back.
He tilted his head again, moving in just a little further, his lips grazing the shell of your ear. The closeness, the heat of his breath, was enough to send a shiver all the way down your spine, leaving you breathless.
The moment stretched between you, charged with unspoken words and everything that lay beneath the surface. The bonfire crackled, the night air was cool, but Rafeâs presence was all you could feel now, the pull of him drawing you in further than youâd ever planned to go.
His voice was soft, smooth, laced with that teasing edge that always made your heart skip a beat. "Just thinking about how much fun Iâm gonna have taking this little dress off you later."
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broken promises
pt two
bodyguard!logan howlett x congressman's daughter!reader
a/n: the fact that he was canonically a bodyguard makes me absolutely insane someone congratulate me, I finally figured out how to make my own dividers Summary: He's learned from past mistakes that no matter how tempting the girl is, it's better not to get involved. He just needs some cash, he doesn't give a fuck how pretty you are. He doesn't care about you. He makes it clear he wants nothing to do with you besides seeing you sign his check. But, is that really all he wants? You're not blind to the way he looks at you. 18+ MDNI Shameless smut at the end, I'm not sorry about it at all.
Logan had gotten used to this. The long drawn-out wait to meet with the man who wanted to hire him. He always arrived right on time, not a moment earlier. They all had the same game they liked to play.Â
The secretary would greet him, a pretty girl in her 20s that the men were screwing or trying to screw. Then they would make him sit in the lobby for half an hour. Theyâd apologize by pushing the blame on someone else, saying a meeting had gone on too long. But there wasnât a meeting. There never was.Â
They liked to make themselves seem more important than they were. It was a power game, an intimidation tactic that he had always scoffed at. He didnât give a fuck what government ties they had or otherwise. He just wanted his paycheck.Â
This one was no different. A congressman who had only recently begun to make waves when he started up an anti-mutant agenda. Ironic that he had specifically requested Logan for the very thing he was trying to eradicate.Â
There was a buzz and then the secretary was picking up her phone. She spared Logan a fleeting glance before whispering something into the receiver. She looked over at him and he already knew what she was going to say. âHeâs ready for you now.âÂ
âThanks, sweetheart,â she gave him a coquettish smile as he made his way towards the large office at the end of the hall. The door was closed when he reached it, three quick knocks and then a quiet Come in.Â
The man didnât even look up to greet him. He continued signing something on his desk. Logan took a seat in one of the chairs, waiting for another few minutes before he was deemed important enough to address. He received a tight smile and narrowed eyes as the man took in the way he was dressed.Â
He never dressed up for these things. Heâd learned a while ago that a suit wasnât going to get him any further than his leather jacket was. Might as well be comfortable while talking to these pricks.Â
âHad a phone call with an associate of mine. Ran on longer than I meant it to.â Always an excuse, never an apology.Â
Logan scoffed and shrugged. âI was fine.â
The man sniffed, âIâm sure. Look, Iâll cut straight to the chase. You come highly recommended by my peers and I need help fast.â Logan nodded, motioning for him to continue. The manâs eyes lingered on his fists for a long while before he finished. âItâs my daughter. Things have been a little rough for her at school, for lack of a better word. Especially since this new campaign started. I just need someone to keep a closer eye on her.â
Loganâs eyes narrowed, âShe a party girl or something?â He wasnât sure he could handle another bratty daddyâs girl again. The last one had nearly made him blow his brains out. They always think flipping their skirts up will let them get away with more and he canât stand it.Â
The manâs face blanched and he shook his head so vigorously that his jowls moved with him. âOh, no, not at all. But sheâs,â he paused and lowered his voice. He leaned in closer to Logan and waited for Logan to do the same. He rolled his eyes but did it anyway. âSheâs like you, you know.â
Logan shot him a grin, âYou mean a mutant.â
âLower your voice,â he hissed, face tightening up in anger. âBut, yes, a mutant. And I need one to guard her.â Ironic, this man was driving a campaign to make mutants second-class citizens, and his daughter was one. But Logan needed a check, he didnât give a fuck about the morals of it all.Â
âSounds good to me.â
âPerfect, you can pick her up from school for me.â
You had your earbuds in, head lowered while you made the trek across campus when you noticed him. He was difficult to miss, tall and buff. Very buff, youâre surprised that tank top of his hasnât ripped every time he flexes.Â
Your dadâs newest campaign has you hyper-aware of your surroundings. You canât afford to let your guard down. Not after the last attack.Â
Thereâs something about this man that tells you he isnât someone looking to jump you, though. Youâre not sure what it is. Every part of him screams danger, but not the type youâre looking out for. The cigar perched between his lips, the glistening muscles you want to bite, heâs trouble.Â
When you spot him outside your lecture hall for the third time that day, you finally figure out whatâs happening. Your dad had told you heâd hired someone new to watch over you at school. You hadnât voiced just how against it you were, but you didnât like the idea.Â
You didnât mind this guy, though. He wasnât busting into your classes and embarrassing the shit out of you by making everyone empty their pockets like the last guy. He just lingered. You could deal with lingering.Â
What you couldnât deal with was the way he was leaning against his motorcycle, smirking as you slowly approached him.Â
âDid my dad hire you?â You call out, tugging your earbuds out. âWho are you?â
He speaks around the cigar like it's second nature. âYour new bodyguard, sweetheart.â You suck in a deep breath when you hear his voice. Heâs extremely attractive, you're surprised your dad would risk this.Â
One of the other ones had kind of gotten a little obsessed, stalking you even in his off hours. You didnât think your dad would want another pretty boy around you. Though, you suppose this one isnât pretty. Heâs extremely handsome, ruggedly so, very manly. Jesus, you might end up being the stalker this time.Â
His lips curl up like he knows what youâre thinking about. You clear your throat, shifting your backpack higher up your arm. âYou planning on taking me home on that?â You ask, pointing at his bike.Â
He straightens up and shrugs. âGot a problem with the bike?â
You grin, âNot really,â but your dad will. âNo, not at all.â
You walk towards him and he reaches out, grabbing your backpack straps and tugging you towards him. You stumble, hands bracing against his chest so you donât land flat on your face. âSorry, kid,â but he doesnât sound sorry at all. He buckles the straps of your backpack together and tightens them, puffing smoke in your face while he does. âDonât want this flying off.â
âMhm,â you hum. Youâre not paying attention at all. The only thing you care about right now is just how ripped he is under your hands. Youâre not sure how long you gawk at him but he seems to be ridiculously amused by it.Â
âReady to go home, or what?â You jump back from him, brushing your hands off on your leggings and clearing your throat.Â
âYes, yeah.â You rip your eyes off his body and instead focus on the bike. âNo helmets?â You ask.
âYou heal, donât you?â You nod and he shrugs. âDonât need them then, do we?â
You canât help the giddy grin on your face at that. Itâs gotten tiring being treated like glass. Youâre about to get on the bike when you finally process what he said. âWait, how do you know I heal?â
He doesnât respond verbally. Instead, his gaze darts down to his fists. Your eyes widen when you see the metal poking through the skin. Of course, your father would only tell another mutant about his abomination of a daughter. You scoff and roll your eyes. Heâs such a fucking hypocrite.Â
Logan climbs on the bike and you follow after him. You're hesitant to wrap your arms around his waist but he just reaches behind himself and jerks you forward.Â
You suck in a sharp breath, pelvis tight against his ass while he squeezes your hands. âYou want to go flying?â You shake your head and he chuckles, starting the bike and driving off without another word.Â
Part of you loves the ride home, the other part detests it. For once you get to experience a little freedom. Youâre not trapped in a steel box staring at the back of a car seat while the man beside you pretends he doesnât exist.Â
You can feel the wind in your hair, get a taste of real speed, and enjoy a moment uninterrupted by someoneâs expectations of you. On the other hand, Logan does not respect speeding laws. And healing abilities or not, you donât actually want to experience road rash.Â
He manages to get you home in one piece, parking the motorcycle in the driveway and waiting for you to get off. But you canât, your thighs have been clenching the seat so tight you think they might need to scrape you off.Â
âKid?â He mutters. You shake your head against his back, arms still strangling his waist. It was actually kind of fucking terrifying being on one of these things. You canât tell if you loved or hated it.Â
He lets out a rough sigh, forcibly moving your arms and then tugging you off the seat. Your legs are like jello while you try and straighten out. âWasnât so bad, was it?â He asks. You canât manage much more than a strangled hum and he laughs.Â
You turn to your front door and spot a leering face peering out the window. âShit,â you huff. Your stepmother sees you spot her and disappears from view. You feel your hopes of ever getting back on that bike go with her.Â
âYou took her home on your bike!â
âWell-â
You flinch at the volume of your fatherâs voice. âI donât give a fuck what your excuse is! I will not have my daughter seen riding that monstrosity! You are not to do this again, do you understand me?â
You donât know what Logan says, but youâre certain itâs not the submissive Yes, sir your father is looking for. He continues shouting at him for another ten minutes. When you hear the door to his office open you scramble to look like you hadnât been listening in.Â
But youâre a bad actress and if his huff of laughter is anything to go by, Logan knows what you were doing. âDid you know that was going to happen?â He asks, pointing back to your fatherâs, now closed, study.Â
You nod, pursing your lips with an apologetic smile. âIf it helps, I was really hoping he wouldnât do that.â
He shrugs, âI donât really give a fuck how much he wants to scream at me.â Itâs refreshing, to finally have someone in the house who doesnât kiss your fatherâs ass. It makes you smile, a real genuine smile for the first time in a while.Â
You stand from the chair youâd been sitting in, gesturing further into your home. âAre you hungry? I havenât eaten all day so I was thinking about making something.â
The smirk drops from his face, expression suddenly serious. It makes you tense up. âLook, I appreciate the offer, but Iâm here to get paid. I donât want to be your friend, kid.â
You suck in a sharp breath, trying not to let the rejection sting. Heâs a professional, it should be a relief after the last one. âRight, yeah, Iâm sorry I didnât mean it like that.â
He nods, âRight,â tone stiff. You stare at him for another awkwardly long moment before you finally turn on your heel and walk toward the kitchen. You rush there, speedwalking so you donât have to look at him any longer.Â
You open up your fridge, keeping your back to him for as long as humanly possible. You can hear him take a seat at the island, can feel the way his eyes bore into you. Itâs a physical thing, his gaze, makes chills scrape their way down your spine.Â
You make yourself a sandwich and finally force yourself to turn around. Like youâd expected, heâs already looking at you. Lips ticking up just slightly when you finally get the courage to look up at him.Â
Logan feels a little guilty. You werenât coming onto him earlier, you were being genuine with your kindness. He knows there were no ulterior motives to it and thereâs a very slight part of him that feels bad for making you so quiet. âWhyâs your dad so pissy about the bike?â
Youâre a little startled by the question, after the comment he made youâd thought he wouldnât want anything to do with you. You swallow down the rest of your bite and cough a little when the bread gets stuck on the roof of your mouth.Â
âHe doesnât want me to crash.â
âBut you heal,â he points out bluntly and you canât help but laugh a little.Â
âYeah, thatâs the problem. He doesnât want me to crash and for someone to see that I miraculously healed. Having a freak for a daughter wouldnât exactly help his campaign, would it?â You canât even attempt to hide the bitterness in your voice. And you know Logan picks up on it because he doesnât ask any more questions.Â
Your gaze drops to your plate and you finish the rest of your meal in silence. Or, you try to. âGot any plans tonight?â
You chuckle and give him an odd look. âNo,â you respond sardonically. âNone at all, prepare yourself for a very boring job. I donât even know why he hired you, I never leave the house unless it's for school.â
âYeah?â he muses, but he doesnât seem particularly interested. More like heâs talking just to pass the time. âI heard youâve been having a hard time at school.â
You suck in a sharp breath, a sudden wave of anger roiling through your gut. The cabinets behind you begin to shake and you wince in embarrassment, tamping down on your powers before you accidentally blow up the kitchen.Â
Logan watches the moment with subdued interest like heâs not all that surprised or impressed with the display. âUnless they were a PoliSci nerd, I was a nobody up until last year.â Thereâs no concealing the hate lurking within your words, âAnd then my dad took up this whole anti-mutant regime. Well, you can imagine how much the activists love me. Iâve just had a few incidents with some particularly passionate protestors.â
âDo you believe in it?â
Your eyes widen in surprise, you hadnât expected him to actually continue the conversation. âWhat do you mean?â
He leans back, arms crossed across his chest in a way that makes his biceps bulge. He shrugs, âThe anti-mutant regime, do you agree with it?â
You open your mouth, the perfected script almost rolling off your tongue. But this isnât some politician's son youâre wooing. Youâre not the perfect daughter, youâre in your own home, finally talking to someone else like you.Â
âNo.â You answer, voice strong in its conviction. âAnd every time I see one of his PAs running around with their little signs I want to ram the stick up their ass.â
He barks out a laugh, eyes crinkling up in amusement. âI think we might get along, kid.â
You try to ignore the way your cheeks warm at his words. You donât want to be this affected by him, youâve barely spoken to him. But this is the first person in a long time that you know with absolute certainty you can be honest with. He doesnât care about protecting your political image or bowing to your fatherâs every whim.Â
Itâs a relief, like a constricting weight being taken off your chest. You give him an easy smile and get up to wash your dishes. His eyes are on you again but they feel less oppressive this time. Youâve already forgotten the rule heâs set in place, youâre not supposed to be friends.Â
Itâs going to be hard to remember that.Â
Your father tightens his grip around your waist until you feel like you might squeal. âSmile, now.â You raise your hand, taking the stairs up the stage and waving out at the crowd thatâs formed. Itâs hot today, your makeup would be melting off if it werenât for the artists who put it on for you.Â
Always have to look good in front of the camera. All of you. Seeing Logan in a suit was certainly a surprise. Youâre almost completely sure that your father had to give him a bonus to even consider wearing it today.Â
He looks good, but you honestly prefer him in the normal beater and leather jacket. Itâs something so uniquely him. This is just a reminder of your reality, that nothing around you is real. Itâs all pretty lies wrapped up in expensive clothes.Â
You have to bite your tongue and hold back a grimace when your father begins his speech. âFirst, we had to let them into our jobs. Now theyâre in our schools! Our children arenât safe, not when theyâve got loaded weapons sitting beside them! Because thatâs exactly what they are, weapons of mass destruction that will take apart-â
âFuck me,â you hiss under your breath. Your cheeks hurt from keeping this smile on your face. Youâre struggling not to flinch every time the crowd surges up to agree with him, bigoted shouts making your ears bleed.Â
Loganâs brows raise and he gives you a brief glance over his shoulder. Your face pinches in confusion only for a moment before you quickly correct it. Still, you keep your lips nearly completely motionless as you whisper, âCan you hear me?â
You dart your gaze back down to him and catch the barest of nods. Your smile softens, becoming something real if only for a moment. You donât say anything else, you donât need to. Itâs just a comfort to know someone else is there with you, seeing through the painted faces and plastic smiles.Â
Thereâs movement in the crowd. It cuts your father off midsentence. He peers over the podium, trying to get a better look at whatâs happening. You hear someone scream and then the entire crowd is getting knocked to the ground.Â
You jump back in shock, everyone on stage still. The security, however, is rushing to get to you and your family. Itâs too late, though, thereâs a mutant in the crowd and his eyes are set on you. âFuck you,â he screams out your father's name and lugs something at the stage.Â
You hear someone shout your name but itâs too late. Glass shatters against the side of your face. It takes less than a second for the pain to start. You can feel holes being burned through your skin, like living fire melting through your bones and gums. A scream rips out of your throat, your hands coming up to block your face too late.Â
âGet her out of here!â
As agonizing as it is, you can already feel your skin working to mend itself. You can practically hear the flesh bonding back together. But the acid is dripping down you. It keeps moving steadily through your clothes and skin, your abilities on overdrive trying to repair the damage.Â
You canât focus on anything except the sensation of being burned alive. Suddenly, thereâs an arm being thrown around your shoulder and youâre being lifted off your feet. Your skin scrapes against the rough material of someoneâs blazer and it makes you grit your teeth and scream again.Â
âI know, hold on kid, itâll be over in a minute.â Logan rushes you behind the stage, where there are no cameras to watch you heal. You donât know how your fatherâs PR team is going to spin this. Everyone saw it, saw the way your flesh bubbled and boiled. Thereâs no hiding the fact that half your face should be melted off.Â
âCar,â you grunt out when he puts you on your feet again.Â
His hands are clamped firmly around your shoulders, inspecting you for any further damage. âWhat?â
âWe gotta get to the car,â the words are a struggle to get out. Your lungs constrict painfully in your chest while you force the rest out. âCanât let them see.â
He looks pissed off that that's what you're worried about and not the fact that you were just attacked. Finally, after a minute of just staring at you, he nods. He wraps an arm around your shoulder and runs with you back to the limo. He throws the door open, pushing you inside and sliding in beside you.Â
You take in a deep breath the second youâre no longer in view of the TV cameras. âFuck,â you gasp out. Your dress is in tatters on your left side and you quickly cover your chest. You pray that you didnât accidentally flash anything while you were still on stage. Your father would never forgive you for that.Â
Itâs silent in the car for a moment. You feel something being draped over your shoulder and look over to see Logan passing you his jacket. When he catches your gaze he gently grabs your jaw and titls your face towards his.Â
His eyes rove over the left side of your face and he gives you a tight smile. âYouâre fine, kid.â
You pull your chin out of his grip and pull his jacket closed around you. âSee why my father wanted you around? How would he have ever explained his daughter surviving an acid attack?â
Thereâs something pinched in his gaze. A deep-seated irritation and something else youâre too tired to identify. Heâs looking at you oddly and you wish he wouldnât. You press your forehead to the cool glass of the window and slump against the car door.Â
You donât know when you fall asleep but by the time you wake up, Loganâs already carrying you up to your room. He sees you shift awake and places you on your feet. You steady yourself against the stair banister and walk the rest of the way to your room, trying to shake off the pain of the day.Â
You look back just in time to see Logan at the front door. âGoodnight,â you call down to him. You know he can hear you, but he walks through the door without another word. You bite your lip, ignoring the sinking feeling of your gut.Â
You toss your destroyed dress to the floor and turn your TV on. You surf through the channels for a bit before finding a clip of todayâs incident. â-apparently part of a protest for mutants against the government. I donât know Bill, they seem to just be proving everybodyâs point. They are unsafe.â
âI agree, my thoughts and prayers go out toâŚâ
You roll your eyes as they say your name. Theyâre saying it wasnât acid, instead itâs some sort of chemical compound that causes extreme pain. Even you donât believe that bullshit. You have a feeling your father is going to be looking for a new PR team tomorrow.Â
Your attention is snagged by the replay of the accident. You donât focus on the acid, you donât want to. Instead, you see how quickly Logan rushed to your side. He seemed to be right there even as the acid was being thrown.Â
Your brows pinch together and you glance at the jacket beside you. Heâd forgotten to take it back before he left. You pick it up, eyes skating over the fabric before you find what youâre looking for. Thereâs a large hole in the right sleeve, acid having burned through it.Â
You hadnât even realized he was in pain. You know he can heal, but it doesnât get rid of the fluttering feeling in your stomach. Youâve never had someone look after you like that.Â
You grin to yourself, tucking the jacket in the back of your closet. Youâre sure he wouldnât want it back and youâre not planning on parting with it anytime soon.Â
Youâre on house arrest for a week after the acid incident. Which includes no school. Your father has to play into the idea that youâre recovering from the trauma and healing. You donât know how much longer heâs planning on keeping you locked up but youâre going stir crazy.Â
Not only do you not get to go to classes, but Logan isnât around either. He doesnât need to be, not when the only place youâre in is your room. Heâs not a friend, heâs made that clear, but heâs something. And you are desperately craving that specific something.Â
âIt was a sickening attack against my daughter that my wife and I are still trying to recover from.â You roll your eyes as you listen to your father spew his bullshit to the interviewer in the next room.Â
Youâre not allowed to be out and about, of course. You canât risk someone seeing you. But that doesnât stop you from lurking.Â
âIt was an incredibly traumatic experience for her, Iâm sure.â You grin to yourself, picking at your nails. You like this one, whoever the reporter is interviewing him. She hasnât let him catch a break. Especially not when he tries to capitalize on your trauma. Even though he hasnât checked in once with you.Â
âWell,â he splutters for a moment. âYes, of course,â he tries to sound humble but anyone can tell heâs just covering his ass. âAnd it just further proves what Iâve always said about mutants. They are animals, theyâre not like us.â
Youâd think at a certain point youâd go numb to it. Youâve been raised hearing this rhetoric from him all your life. But the sting never eases. That cloying ache in your chest never quite leaves you. Not when you know the only reason he publicly accepts you is for political gains. So everyone can see what a wonderful father he is and vote for him.
You feel sick to your stomach and you donât think you can listen to much more of this. But right as youâre about to tap out a hand clamps down on your shoulder. You nearly scream but you catch a whiff of the manâs aftershave and your mouth snaps shut.Â
You leap out of your chair and whip around, a grin plastered on your face. âLogan, what are you doing here?â You canât disguise the giddiness in your voice. He might constantly be reminding you that you hold nothing more than a professional relationship, but you donât give a shit. Heâs a constant in your life and thatâs rare for you, so youâll latch onto whatever comfort you can find.Â
His gaze briefly darts to the connecting wall to your fatherâs study and you flush. Heâd probably heard all of that. Youâve never had someone see the side of your father that you do. Thereâs something shamefully embarrassing about it.Â
He looks back at you and gives you a sly smirk. âWanna get out of here?â Youâd have to be an idiot to say no.
âUh,â you can hear the music from where you stand across the street. You shuffle uncertainly on your feet beside Logan, glancing up and down the sidewalk like your fatherâs going to pop out of an alleyway. âI donât know if this is such a good idea.â
Logan tugs his cigar out of his mouth. Heâs leaned up against a lamppost and heâs watched you struggle for the past ten minutes. âLive a little kid, would ya?â
You look back at the dingy bar and grimace. âOkay, thereâs a difference between living a little and having my face blasted on the news. Howâs it going to look if Iâm photographed at a bar while Iâm meant to be healing?â
Logan points with his cigar to the entrance of the bar. âI can promise you, no one in there gives a fuck about who your daddy is.â Comforting, and a little humbling.Â
You take in a deep breath and Logan must sense the change in your demeanor. He flicks the cigar to the ground, crushing it with the heel of his boot. He holds his arm out, âReady, kid?â
You nod, hurrying to his side and slipping under his grasp. He lets his arm hang heavily around your shoulder, hand squeezing your bicep gently to try and quell your nerves. Youâd be swooning at the touch if you werenât about to throw up from anxiety.Â
You used to have a life. Until your father had blown it up. You havenât been around this many people in ages. Well, you havenât been around people who are just having fun and not sucking up to every politicianâs kid they meet.Â
The music gets louder as you step over through the threshold of the bar. The soles of your shoes stick to the floor. People laugh loudly all around you, some of them shouting up at TV screens for whatever sport is currently playing. Youâre sure half of them donât even normally watch the game. They just need an excuse to get their wives off their backs.Â
The thought brings a small smile to your lips. Logan glances down at you and frowns, âYou are old enough to drink, arenât you?â
You roll your eyes and move out from under his hold. âYes, Logan. Iâm going into a masterâs program, my frontal lobe is fully formed.â
He huffs a little at the attitude, cheeks twitching with a suppressed smile. He nods towards the back of the bar, âFind a seat, Iâll get us drinks.â He walks towards the bar without another word and you resent him a little for it.Â
Without him beside you, itâs like everything comes crashing down all at once. The songs playing grate on your ears. Every laugh feels like theyâre screaming in your face. Youâve never been more in tune with your sense of smell and you hate it.Â
Your hands tremble by your sides and you nearly miss the man in front of you spilling his beer down his shirt. It looks completely unnatural, the way it just flips out of his hand. And you know itâs your doing.Â
You shove through him and his friends, running to the back and sliding into the first booth you see. You dig your nails into your palms, taking a few deep breaths to try and calm your heart rate down a bit.Â
Logan slides into the seat across from you, placing a beer in front of you. Itâs barely touched the grimy wood of the table before you tip your head back and drain it. Youâve never been a particular fan of beer or any alcohol for that matter.Â
But right now you need a buzz before you accidentally level the whole bar. You slam the bottle back on the table, taking in a deep breath, and sitting back. Logan gives you a hard stare, glancing between you and the empty bottle.Â
He clicks his tongue and stands up, âIâll go get another one.â
You bite your lip and give him a sheepish, âThank you.â
It doesnât take long for the buzz to settle in. Thereâs a slight tingling in your legs and the tips of your fingers. It almost feels like how you get when youâre starting to get aroused. But you donât know if thatâs from the alcohol or the way Logan looks in his slutty little t-shirt.Â
Definitely tipsy, you think to yourself, nudging your third beer to the side.Â
âAlways been a lightweight?â He teases, watching you with amusement in his gaze while he works on what must be his fifth whiskey.Â
You shake your head with a soft smile. âNo, I used to go out with my friends all the time.â You laugh a little at the memories and lean in a little closer like youâre sharing some horrible secret. Logan rolls his eyes but acquiesces, leaning in to listen to you speak. âWe made up alter egos for our drunk selves. Wanna know mine?â You ask, wiggling your eyebrows at him with a stupid grin.
His brows pinch together and he frowns, âI donât think so.â
You laugh and lean back in your seat. âYouâre the worst!â He places his glass down on the table and fixes you with an odd look. You shift around uncomfortably, âWhat is it?â
âWhat happened to your friends? Why are you hanging out with me and not them?â
âOh,â your gaze drops to the table and you suddenly find the stains on it very interesting. Itâs practically abstract art. You swallow harshly around the lump in your throat and shrug. âUm, just all the stuff with my dad happened, and,â you shrug, âI donât know. My life kind of fell apart.â
You try and shake off the funk, bring back the happy-go-lucky feeling you were in only minutes ago. âI had to move out of the dorms and head back home. My friends stopped talking to me. My boyfriend dumped me. It all just kind of blew up.â
Logan frowns and you swear he seems angry on your behalf. Itâs a nice feeling, having someone care enough to hold a grudge for you. âYou ever tell him how it was all affecting you?â
You snort, âOf course I did. He was overjoyed. He never liked my friends, especially not my boyfriend, they encouraged me to be too independent. He thought I was losing the values he raised me with. He just never cared to learn that I never agreed with them in the first place.â
Logan doesnât say anything for a while and you let your gaze drift to the karaoke stage. Two women are singing a bad redemption of Led Zeppelin and it makes you smile. You donât see the way Loganâs eyes linger on the curve of your lips and then drop to your chest.Â
You never seem to notice how you make him squirm. There is something so interesting about you. Something so different from the families he worked with before. He doesnât know if it's the whole mutant thing, if you two are somehow kindred spirits in that regard. He doubts it, heâs never really cared much about that.Â
But he knows that there is something magnetic about you. It draws him in and makes him hate his own rules. He promised not to get involved with another client. It always ends messy, most times bloody.Â
You turn back to him and smile. Your voice is a low purr as you ask, âYou wanna get out of here?â
Of course, heâs never been one to follow the rules.Â
âI am so sorry about this. Really.âÂ
Logan glares down at you while you straighten out his tie. You duck your head so you donât have to meet his gaze and he lets out a long-suffering sigh.Â
âForget it, kid.â He says it with a smirk but it doesnât make you feel any less guilty.Â
This will be your first public appearance since the incident. Itâs a gala, of course, because your father hates you. Heâd demanded you find a date, someone to look pretty on your arm because he doesnât want you talking while youâre there. Youâre meant for pictures and nothing more.Â
Considering the fact that no one wants to talk to you on campus, the acid incident not helping at all, you had no luck finding a date. Youâd had to beg on hands and knees for days to get Logan to agree.Â
You donât know what it is that finally made him cave but youâre grateful for it. You think your father was expecting you to fail. To come crawling to him and be forced to go with who he wanted you to go with.Â
You were not going to spend the whole night listening to some political major try and explain your own fatherâs campaign to you. Youâd rather swallow acid than go through that for another night. Your father, of course, doesnât know that Logan is taking you.Â
Youâre planning on ambushing him with it. He canât do anything about it now. He wants you to have a date for some reason and thereâs no way for him to find a backup now. You take a step back from him and turn to look in the mirror.Â
Side by side, you do make an incredibly attractive couple. He looks amazing in his suit, his muscles just slightly pushing against the fabric. And as much as he hates the tie and constricting material, he makes it work.Â
And you feel pretty for the first time in a long time. You actually got to do your own hair and makeup for once. Youâre a lot less heavy-handed than the assistants your father hires. You feel comfortable in your own skin, finally, wearing the deep red dress your stepmother had gotten for you.Â
âWe look good,â you muse.Â
Logan looks down at you and smiles slightly, âYou do.â
You give him a confused grin, âI said we.â
He leans down, lips brushing against the shell of your ear as he whispers, âI know what you said, sweetheart.â Your heart nearly beats out of your chest at the proximity. Gooseflesh raises on your arms where heâs touching you and your knee buckles ever so slightly.Â
You can perfectly imagine his husky voice whispering something much, much dirtier to you. He pulls back with a slight chuckle and forcefully turns you around. âCome on, kid, weâre gonna be late.â
He nudges you towards your bedroom door and you nod your head mutely. He keeps doing that to you. These little things that could be so easily dismissed as you reading into his actions. But you know, deep down, youâre not reading into anything.Â
But you donât know what to do with this information that he might possibly be into you. Or at the very least, attracted to you. He made it clear early on that he wants nothing but professionalism between the two of you, yet he continually breaks his own rule.Â
Your father and stepmother are waiting at the bottom of the stairs for you both. Your stepmother smiles when she sees you but your fatherâs face screws up in anger. âAre you fucking kidding me? The goddamn bodyguard?â
You shrug and slip past him, already walking to the front door. âA dateâs a date.â You pause and grin over at him, âWhat are you going to do about it?â Itâs a taunt, one you donât give him a chance to respond to.Â
Youâre already slipping outside and heading to the town car. Something about Logan being with you emboldens you to act in ways you never would. Even when heâs not there, when youâre just having family dinner and your father says something off-putting. You fight back, you donât let him steamroll you and your opinions.Â
You feel better than you have in ages with Logan beside you. Still, the ride there is incredibly awkward.Â
The hotel is grand and luxurious. But they all are. You feel guilty complaining about your life when this is your weekend. What do you have to be upset about when you regularly stay in five-star motels and wear designer dresses without glancing at the price tag?
Sometimes you feel guilty around Logan. You wonder if he ever resents you for your privilege. You might be a mutant like him, sure, but youâve never had to struggle to make ends meet. Or try and scrap together enough money to get your next meal. Youâve never had to worry about where youâre going to sleep next or if youâll have a roof over your head.Â
Your struggles have been so different that you worry if something ever did happen between the two of you, you might not work together.Â
But those are spiraling thoughts for another time. Right now, youâre just trying to get through the front door without someone bombarding your father with questions on his stance about whatever.Â
When itâs clear that heâs going to be there for a while, he sends you and Logan off to the ballroom on your own. You feel bad for your stepmother, having to stay behind and pretend sheâs interested as they bore her with stories that have no real meaning.Â
âPoor woman,â you mutter, watching her struggle to keep the smile on her face.Â
âYou donât call her mom,â Logan muses. You turn to look at him and he just shrugs. âJust a little weird.â
âWell, sheâs not my mom.â His head tilts in confusion and you elaborate. âMy bio mom left the second she figured out she gave birth to a mutant. We lie to the public, stepmomâs interfere with the perfect nuclear family ideal my dadâs pushing for.â
âIf he cares so much about family then why donât you have your dadâs last name?â A good question, one you had to field a lot when you first started school.Â
You give him a sly grin, âTook my mom's maiden name the second I was eighteen, just to piss him off.â Thereâs no true reason behind it other than being vindictive and petty. âHeâs been trying to get me to change it for years but he canât force me to. Besides, I like having my name separate from theirs. Lets me pretend Iâm not a part of the family. Donât get me wrong, sheâs nice and all, we just never really had the chance to bond.â
Someone passes by you. A couple you know youâre supposed to recognize but you canât place their names. The man calls out your name, coming toward you with his arms open wide. You can see Logan tense up slightly beside you, bodyguard instincts coming out for a moment.��
You squeeze his hand briefly before stepping forward to hug the man. âSo nice to see you, again.â You tell him. He grins and squeezes you a little closer to his chest than necessary.Â
Logan clears his throat, glaring at the manâs drifting hands. Before either of you can react, Logan is pulling you back, hand resting lightly over the small of your back. He holds his hand out, forcing the man to shake his hand and take his attention off of you.
You canât hold back the smile on your lips when you see how much smaller the man is under Loganâs intense stare. Youâve gotten used to the men at these events treating you however they want. They donât see you as a human, you are your fatherâs accessory and their toy. You envy Logan for how easily he can dismiss these men, take away their larger-than-life personalities, and reduce them to the sniveling rats they truly are.Â
He doesnât even speak, simply tugs you towards the ballroom and away from the manâs wandering hands. You canât help the stupid smile on your face while you look at him. He glances out the side of his eye and huffs, âWhat?â He snaps, tone impatient.Â
You shrug and shake your head. âNothing, youâre justâŚâ You trail off, unsure how to continue. You donât want to make him uncomfortable by telling him how you really feel about him. How deeply you appreciate him, how horribly you desire him. Youâre afraid it will all just blow up in your face. That youâll have truly been reading into everything and gotten his intentions all wrong. After all, heâs made it abundantly clear that thereâs meant to be nothing between the two of you except a paycheck.Â
You take in a deep breath, smile faltering, âNothing.â You finally spit out, slipping out of his grasp and walking quicker towards the doors. His hand lingers on your back, fingers trailing slowly down your spine until youâre completely out of his reach.Â
The chatter inside gets louder the closer you get to the entrance. You listen to the indiscernible voices, the quartet playing in the corner, and the clink of metal on the glass as they all eat. You straighten out your shoulders and put on your best smile, mentally preparing yourself to keep it stiff on your cheeks for the rest of the night.Â
Logan catches up to you, the both of you stopping the second you see the inside of the ballroom.Â
People Against Mutants
Evolution or Monstrosities
Parents for the Removal of Mutant Children
Your eyes widen as you take in the banners and signs hanging off the walls. More and more uncreative rhetoric all for the annihilation of mutants. Of people like you and Logan. Your smile drops immediately and you know you should have expected something like this from your father. Heâd been refusing to tell you what this gala was for, saying offhandly he was just raising some money.Â
You thought it was another charity. Not this. Not people, quite literally, calling for your head. For Loganâs head. You suck in a sharp breath and glance towards the silent man beside you. His jaw is clenched as he takes in all the finely dressed people around you. Theyâre all laughing and chatting like theyâre not actively campaigning for the destruction of children.Â
âBar?â You ask, already walking towards it.Â
âSounds good to me.â His hand is on your back again and youâre grateful for it. The glower on his face, the attitude that screams I donât belong here keeps people away from you. He shoulders through the men huddling around the bar, forcefully clearing space for the two of you.Â
And when they turn around, posturing like theyâre going to say something, he only has to look at them for them to retreat with their tails tucked. Itâs ridiculously attractive seeing someone command these men so easily.Â
âWhiskey,â Logan grumbles, he looks back at you and you slide beside him, leaning your elbows against the cool counter.Â
âJust champagne, please,â you tell the bartender. He nods, quickly making your drinks and handing them to you. You turn with the flute in your hand, surveying the room. It feels less like a gala and more like a production of false niceties that will never end and never be genuine.Â
âDonât know how you deal with these fuckers all the time,â Logan mutters, glaring as a man slams into him and keeps walking without apologizing.Â
You let out a short huff of laughter, âHonestly,â he glances over at you and you shrug. âIâve got no fucking clue either.â He scoffs and takes a swig from his glass. But you canât take your eyes off of him. You feel the words on the tip of your tongue, weighing you down until you feel like you have no choice but to spit them out.Â
âYou,â his brows quirk up and he glances over at you. You take in a deep breath and start over, nerves making your palms sweaty around the glass. âYou make it bearable.â
Loganâs face falls and he sucks in a deep breath. You see the expression on his face, you know what heâs going to tell you. And you hate how apologetic he looks. You especially despise the way heâs making you feel pitied. Heâs never done that before and you donât want him to start now.Â
âDonât,â you tell him before he can say anything. You let out a self-deprecating laugh and place the champagne flute on the bar so you donât have to look at him. âI know what youâre going to say, alright. So, just, donât.â
Logan purses his lips and grabs your jaw. You try and jerk your face out of his grasp but he doesnât let you, he forces you to look at him. He only lets go once you reluctantly make eye contact. Youâre surprised by the look on his face. Thereâs no pity in his gaze like youâd expected.Â
This is something else, something darker and more twisted. You canât put your finger on what exactly youâre seeing but you know it makes your heart race and your thighs clench. âListen, sweetheart, I-â
âWhat the hell are you doing?â You jump away from him but Logan just clenches his eyes shut with a short huff of irritated breath. You clear your throat and turn to face your father. Heâs glaring between you and Logan, but smiles warmly anytime someone looks your way. âI didnât bring you here so my contributors could see what a fucking whore you are for the help.â
âDad!â You exclaim, eyes widening in horror. But Logan doesnât seem bothered by your fatherâs words. If anything it seems to incense him, his hand drifting from your jaw to drape itself over the nape of your neck. You try not to show just how much the possessive grip is affecting you but you know they can both tell.Â
Your fatherâs face pinches and he nearly stomps his foot as he looks between you and Logan. He looks like he wants to say something else but your stepmother, thankfully, calls his name. She waves him over towards her and you hold your breath, waiting to see what heâs going to do.Â
He takes in short puffs of air, straightening out his suit jacket and glaring at you. âYouâre not going to be a fucking wallflower all night, got it?â He doesnât give you a chance to respond before heâs stomping off. He calls out a warm greeting to someone across the room and you feel like you can finally breathe again.Â
You give Logan a tired smile and nod towards the rest of the party. âTime to mingle.â
He laughs, loudly, enough to make peopleâs heads turn. You can feel your skin heating up from embarrassment and flinch away from the sound. âSorry, kid, mingling ainât part of my contract.â
Your jaw drops as you glare at him. âAre you serious?â
He turns back to the bar, flagging down the bartender for a refill. âDeadly,â he tells you firmly, barely looking at you. You roll your eyes and walk away from him, glaring at his back the whole time you do so.Â
He thought coming to one of these things, being stuffed in a scratchy suit, would be his worst nightmare. He was proven wrong when he heard them talking to each other. Bitching about golf and their mistresses wanting more attention. Their kids nagging them and their wives being bitches.Â
All of it made him want to down a whole bottle of whiskey and then blow his brains out. His worst nightmare turned into ever having to hold a conversation with one of these pricks.Â
Then, he turns around, surveying the room for wherever you were lurking. He expects you to be by your fatherâs side or hiding somewhere in a corner. Instead, youâre standing close -extremely close - to some pretty boy.Â
His hand is on your waist and youâre laughing at whatever boring fucking story heâs telling you. Logan tries to pick up on your conversation but there are too many things happening at once already. His senses are on overdrive and heâs already struggling against a migraine.Â
He feels something brewing in his gut, something heâs been trying to just shove down for months. He doesnât know what it is he hates about this picture but it makes him sick to his stomach. He hears something crack and looks down to find the glass of whiskey split on one side.Â
âShit,â he hisses, slamming the glass on the bar behind him. He shakes his hand out and tries to unclench his fists but itâs hard. He couldnât have possibly been standing here long enough for you to suddenly find the love of your life. Why the fuck are the two of you so close?
This was so unlike you. Rarely did you ever have something good to say about the men you would encounter at these things. Heâd heard you bitch about it enough times. Something about this isnât adding up and he doesnât know if itâs his own jealousy or intuition.Â
Still, he finds himself pushing away from the bar and stalking towards you both. Closer, he can finally see what the problem is. Your hands are on the guy's chest but you arenât leaning against him, youâre actively trying to push him away.Â
It makes Loganâs blood boil, jaw clenching as he tries to keep himself at bay. He didnât want to cave some kidâs head in in the middle of the gala. But the closer he got the clearer he could hear your hissed warnings to take his hands off of you.Â
Logan finally reaches you and the look of sheer relief on your face makes him want to bring the claws out. Heâd love to see that smug smirk ripped off his face, but he holds back. If only so he doesnât traumatize you.Â
âAlright, bub, hands off,â he warns.Â
âWhy donât you just leave us alone?â He had to give it to the kid, heâs got balls. Rarely did anyone ever buck up to him like this. Normally, he might entertain him a bit, drag this on longer than necessary to get a kick out of it.Â
But he still hasnât taken his hands off of you and Loganâs not interested in fucking around tonight. Without a word, he grabs the kid by the collar of his jacket and tosses him away from you.Â
He lands roughly on the floor with a loud gasp and people turn to look. Logan pays no mind to the onlookers. He places his hand on your back and leads you out of the ballroom, unwilling to have eyes on you for the rest of this conversation.Â
âLogan,â you start, tone nervous.Â
âDonât,â he snaps. He regrets it immediately from the way you jump in surprise. He lets out a rough sigh, running his hand down his face, and walks through the first door he finds. âIâm sorry, kid, I just-â
âLogan,â you cut him off. The tone of your voice is enough to get him to finally look at you. Your arms are crossed and youâre glaring at him. âWhy the fuck did you drag us into a closet?â
His brows furrow in confusion and he glances around, finally realizing what he walked into, âFuck,â he hisses. He gropes blindly around the room for a light switch. Thereâs a small click and then an unflattering fluorescent light is shining down on you both. Heâs managed to drag you both into a small, incredibly cramped, cleaning closet. Â
Youâre grimacing as you push a few mops away from your head. You look over at him and something about the look on his face must be funny because you start to laugh. âWhat were you thinking?â
Your smile makes one curl up on his own lips. He canât help it, something about you eases a bit of the tightness constantly lurking inside him. âThought it was one of those stuffy conference rooms.â
You scoff and reach for the handle, âJust a stuffy closest, good going, Logan.â You roll your eyes and tug on the knob. Your brows furrow together as you jiggle the handle every which way, desperately pulling on it.Â
âMove over,â Logan mutters, nudging you to the side. He wraps his hand around the handle and yanks on it, expecting the door to swing open. When it doesnât his face falls.Â
âDid you miraculously unlock it, genius?â You demand sarcastically. Logan feels his shoulders tense up, frustration levels steadily rising. Heâs already got a shit temper, he doesnât need you adding to this.Â
âNo,â he snipes, âbut I donât see you coming up with any wonderful solutions.â
You throw your hands up in the air, wincing when your elbow collides with the shelving unit behind you. âI didnât drag us into this mess! Why did you even come in here?â You demand and he can see how angry you are.Â
It shows in the way you tapped your heeled feet against the floor and glower at him like heâs the bane of your existence. He doesnât know what happens, what comes over him, or why this is the moment he chooses to break his rule.Â
Your back slams into the shelves behind you and you gasp as he surges towards you. His hands come up to cup your cheeks and before you get a chance to question him, his mouth is covering your own. Logan buries his hand in your hair, ruining the perfectly styled curls. You donât seem to mind much if the way you arch into him is anything to go by.Â
His tongue runs across the seam of your lips, tasting the cherry-flavored gloss youâd applied earlier. He wants to devour you. Consume you body and soul, take everything you have to give, and then keep going. He doesnât want to stop, but heâs not sure he wants the first place you have sex to be in a janitorâs closet.Â
He pulls back, tugging you back when you try to chase his lips with your own. âShouldnât do this here,â he mutters. Heâs struggling to hold back. And when you look up at him, lips swollen from his kiss, and you mutter why, how is he meant to resist?
He tugs you away from the shelves, pushing you against the door so he doesnât have to see your face twist up in pain every time the corner digs into your lower back. Your hands drop down to his belt, lips desperately carving a path down his neck.Â
Heâd laugh at your eagerness if he wasnât just as desperate for you. He reaches for the hem of your dress but itâs one of those floor-length gowns with no slits. He struggled for a minute before getting too impatient and just muttering, âFuck it.â
You gasp when you feel the metal of his claw against your leg, eyes dropping down to watch as he makes himself a slit. He slices the fabric along your thigh and then just rips it. âLogan,â you hiss as he hikes the silk over your hips.Â
âSomething wrong, sweetheart?â You glare at him, eyes darting between him and his pants before you finally shake your head. He laughs slightly, hand drifting under your dress and reveling in the way you shiver under his touch. âYeah,â he whispers, âthatâs what I thought.â
His fingers move gently along your thighs, easing you into his touch. You let out breathy whimpers, tucking your face in his neck the closer he gets to your core. He lets his hand drift lower, searching out the band of your underwear.Â
Heâs pleasantly surprised when heâs met with nothing but you dripping for him. âShit, youâre not wearing any underwear?â
You freeze and keep your face stubbornly buried in his neck. Logan laughs slightly, tugging you back and forcing you to look up at him. You mumble something under your breath. Itâs said so quickly he can barely understand you. âWhat was that?â
âUgh, god, Logan.â You groan and let your eyes drop down to his shirt, fiddling with the end of his tie. âI was hoping this would happen.â
When he doesnât say anything your face shifts, worry gnawing away at you. You glance up at him and are surprised by the intensity of his gaze. Heâs staring down at you like he wants to eat you whole. His pupils have consumed all the color of his eyes, thereâs nothing but want on his face.Â
âYou wanna know why I agreed to come with you, kid?â
Your mind is completely dulled just by being this close to him. It takes you a moment to process what heâs saying before you nod your head. âWhy?â
The look on his face reminds you of a wolf guarding its territory. Itâs predatorial, animalistic, it makes you want him even more. âI didnât want any of these little boys getting a chance to have their hands on you.â His gaze drops down to your lips and he leans in until your breaths are mingling together.Â
âYou have no idea how long Iâve wanted you.â He dips his head down and his kiss isnât as intense as it was the first time. His lips move lazily over your own, tongue stroking against yours like heâs savoring the taste.Â
You can taste the whiskey heâd drank earlier, can still smell cigars on his breath. It should be revolting, youâve never liked kissing smokers. But there is something so intoxicating about him. Everything he does is enchanting to you.Â
Itâs a naive train of thought but you trust him wholly. He could do whatever he wanted to you and youâd let him willingly. His hands continue their exploration down your body and you canât help but arch into his touch. His fingers stroke languidly over your center and you moan into his mouth.Â
Your lips part with little gasps and your head thunks loudly against the door. Neither of you notice or care, youâve all but forgotten the gala outside. The government employees and rich socialites that youâre supposed to be entertaining.Â
And when he slips a finger inside you, you donât care who hears you call out his name. The rough pad of his finger creates a feeling youâve never been able to produce on your own. Thereâs something so exhilarating about this whole situation.Â
Stuck in this tiny closet, no air to breathe but each otherâs. No room for anything other than your bodies pressed as closely together as possible. You're completely surrounded by him and you never want to leave.Â
âLogan,â you gasp out his name and shove at his shoulders. He momentarily stops his ministrations, giving you a worried look. âPlease, I just want you.â You tug at his wrist, hissing when his fingers leave you with a lewd pop.Â
He looks hesitant, but you can see the way heâs straining against his boxers. You let your hand trail down his stomach, palming him through the thin fabric. His hips buck into your hands and he lets out the most attractive noise youâve ever heard. Youâve always liked guys who arenât afraid to be vocal.Â
âFuck, youâre gonna be the death of me,â he whispers. He swats your hands to the sides, tugging his boxers down and squeezing your hips hard enough to bruise. âCome on, up.â
You jump and he slings your legs around his waist, lining himself up with your entrance. He drags you slowly down his cock, resting your back against the door and giving a hesitant thrust inside you.Â
You canât help the low groan that leaves your parted lips. Itâs like youâre full of nothing but him. Youâd been mentally prepared for the stretch he would present, but you probably should have given him more time to warn you up.Â
You donât care though, this is all youâve been craving for months. To feel nothing, taste nothing but him. Youâve been praying that he feels the same way you do, and if the look on his face is anything to go by, he does.Â
He looks completely wrecked, head resting on your shoulder while you both take a breath. Itâs overwhelming, this feeling of finally having what youâve always wanted. Someone you can give yourself to completely and still feel safe with them.Â
You drag your hand up his back, burying it in his hair and reveling in how soft it is. You tug him back by the roots, tilting his neck until heâs forced to look at you. Your gaze drops to his reddened lips and you smile at the gloss youâve smeared across his chin.Â
âCome on, Logan, donât tell me youâre all talk.â
His eyes narrow but you can see the amusement swimming within them. âYouâre gonna regret that.â
âOh, yeah?â You goad, grinding your hips down against his and biting your lip hard enough to draw blood. Youâre trying not to make a noise, trying to make sure he doesnât see just how much heâs affecting you. But you can already feel your orgasm forming, itâs a low tingle in the tips of your toes, a burning hot desire rushing through your thighs as you clench around him.Â
âYeah,â he promises, thrusting sharply into you. This time the moan is forced out of you, your lips parting unbidden as you slump over him, burying your face in his neck. He doesnât waste any time, using your hips as handles to pump you over his cock like youâre nothing more than a toy.Â
The door rattles behind you, each thrust of his hips makes it shake in its frame. His hands fist the back of your dress, grip so tight you think it might tear. You donât care. He could rip it off of you and youâd walk outside naked right now.Â
You donât care what happens, not when heâs beside you. Thereâs a feeling of security that comes from being around Logan and you can feel it in this moment. You trust him to take care of you in every way.Â
Maybe you shouldnât. After all, you two havenât known each other long. But thereâs not much youâre worried about when heâs moving steadily inside you. You can taste the desperation you share for each other in each pump of his hips.Â
He whispers it into your ear while you claw at his back. The shelves around you shake and you worry you might bring them down if you canât rope yourself in. But you can feel the wave building in the back of your throat, your vision blurring as you tighten your legs around his waist and begin to match his rhythm.Â
âThere you go,â he mutters, pinning you to the door and keeping your hips still while he moves inside you. âCome on, I can feel you clenching around me, sweetheart.â He manages to hold you up with one hand, the other diving between your legs to rub tight circles around your bundle of nerves.Â
It doesnât take much longer for your muscles to seize up, back bowing as you clench desperately around him. âOh, fuck, Logan,â you shout his name, and his hand quickly comes up to smother your cries. He squeezes your cheeks until your eyes snap open and he drags you down to meet his gaze.Â
âDonât want to lose my job, need you to be quiet for me,â he grunts out, his tone breathy and strained. He loses his rhythm, movements speeding up erratically while he lets out low groans and whispers of your name. You almost cum again when he finally finishes inside you.Â
Your limbs are twitching in overstimulation by the time his hips still. You feel completely boneless, body slumped lazily in his arms. He wraps both arms around you, squeezing you a little before slowly lifting you off of him.Â
Itâs a relief of pressure when he pulls out. His cum leaks out of you, dribbling down your thighs and dripping onto the floor of the closest. Your face screws up at the feeling and you internally cringe. No condom was probably a stupid call.
But you donât really want to think about the repercussions right now. Not when heâs stroking your hair and rubbing a soothing hand down your back, waiting until you can form a coherent sentence before he lets you go. âAlright?â He asks, voice bordering on something smug.Â
âMhm,â you push away from him, legs shaky as you try and straighten out your dress. Itâs a loss cause, trying to hide what happened in here at all. Youâve got a tear going up to your hip and youâre pretty sure there are holes in the back. Loganâs tie is gone and you donât even remember taking that off. His shirt is completely wrinkled and your lip gloss has stained his face.Â
Youâve both got horrific sex hair and the room reeks of it. You donât know how you're going to sneak out of here. You still try and relax your hair, patting down the flyaways while Logan retucks his shirt.Â
Itâs silent between the two of you, heavy but not awkward. You donât think either of you knows what to say now that youâve physically acted on what you want. A sudden thought hits you, makes your heart clench painfully and your tongue ties up in your mouth.Â
Heâd confirmed that he wanted your body. That he desired you sexually. But you donât think he actually said anything about a real relationship. There would be problems, of course, your father for one would have a lot to say about it. But you donât care about that. You donât care about any of the consequences, you just want to be with him.Â
You open your mouth to ask him what he wants when the door swings open. Both you and Logan whip towards it. But where you look like a deer caught in the headlights he looks like the epitome of male pride.Â
Especially when he realizes it's your father on the other side. âDad-â You start, but you have no idea what you could even say. Your dress is in tatters and both you and Logan are still mussed up. Thereâs no hiding what happened here.Â
He doesnât let you finish, holding up his hand. His voice is eerily calm as he says, âI thought I heard something banging around in here.â
âYou did,â Logan scoffs, crossing his arms and glaring at your father. You feel your heart jump to your throat, staring over at him with a horrified look on your face. How could he think that was okay to say? It was so dismissive of what you believed had happened.Â
This was more than just a quickie in the dark to you. This meant something, but youâre seriously starting to doubt that it was the same for him as it was for you. And that just makes you feel like the stupid little girl everyone seems to believe you are.Â
Your father says your name but you canât bring yourself to meet his eye. âYouâre feeling sick,â he tells you, no room for argument. âYour date had to take you home. It was just too much too soon after the incident at the rally.â When you donât say anything he shouts out, âUnderstood?â That makes you jump.Â
âYes,â you clear your throat and face him. âYes, understood.â
Your father has made his stance on mutants clear. He hates them, despises them to their very being, and wishes he could kill every last one. And as much as you were raised with those ideas, they were never truly turned on you.
But heâs looking at you right now like he wishes you were never born. You feel like shit on his shoe. Something to be hidden away and buried. It makes your shoulders slump like a hundred pounds was just tossed onto your back.Â
You try to run past him but he jerks you back, fingers so tight around your bicep you feel the skin tear. You gasp in pain but donât say anything, too afraid to argue. âPut his jacket on, I wonât have you looking like a whore.â He releases you with a rough shove and storms off.Â
You can feel something burning at the back of your eyes. A moment later Logan drops his jacket over your shoulders, pulling you back into his chest and running his hands over your arms. âCome on, kid,â he mutters. Thereâs something resigned in his voice that makes your heart drop, âLetâs get you home.â
The walk through the lobby feels like youâre walking through a dream. Youâre not completely present for it, or the ride home. Your mind and your heart are warring and you feel like youâre going to be torn apart if you keep lingering on what just happened.Â
You just canât understand how you could go from having everything you wanted to feeling like the scum of the earth in less than two minutes. Logan doesnât speak as he drives you home. His knuckles are turning white around the steering wheel and youâre afraid to even try and start a conversation.Â
You donât want to hear him tell you that he didnât desire you past your body. You donât want to discover that youâre just another notch on his belt. He seems to do this a lot, sleep with the girls he guards. The idea of just being another job, another fun night, makes you absolutely disgusted with yourself.Â
When he pulls into the driveway of your house you both just sit in the car. Neither of you knows what to say. And the air between you is so thick with tension you feel like you could choke on it. You stare down at your hands, fingers fiddling with the ripped seams of your dress.Â
You pick at the threads and feel his stare on you. You canât do this. You canât deal with the possibility of rejection. Not after what happened between you and certainly not after what your father said.Â
You undo your seat belt and Logan watches as you go through the movements of getting up. His eyes never leave you and itâs like a physical caress, his stare. Normally it would make you warm inside, comforted by his presence. But right now all you can feel is the chill of where his cum has dried between your legs and the icy-hot stab of nausea in your gut.Â
You throw the door open and youâre nearly out when he calls out a quiet, âGoodnight.â
You donât look at him, you canât. You slam the door shut and walk silently to the front door of your house. You donât look back, donât respond, you just slip inside your house and finally let the weight of the night come crashing down on you.Â
You donât cry until you hear him pull out of the driveway.Â
Your father and stepmother usually stay at the hotel the night of a gala. Most nights you come home and enjoy the house to yourself for once. Tonight, youâre woken up by the front door slamming so hard your walls shake.Â
You can faintly hear your stepmotherâs voice trying to console your father. Sheâs muttering something to him you canât make out. You shoot out of bed, running to pull some sweatpants on. After youâd cried yourself out youâd taken a shower.Â
Youâve scrubbed your skin raw but you swear you can still smell him on you. You rush to your bedroom door, turning the knob quietly and slowly peeking your head outside. Your fatherâs at the bottom of the stairs, the second he spots your open door heâs screaming your name.Â
Your stomach twists painfully and you can feel panic starting to overwhelm you. Your hands shake and your legs are stiff as you slowly step into the hallway. Youâre a grown woman. You shouldnât feel like this because your dad is going to yell at you.Â
But heâs been so good at forcing you to rely on him. At forcing you to bend and break to fit his beliefs and mold. You donât know what to do if youâre not striving for his approval. And right now itâs very clear that heâs never been more disgusted by you.Â
If the look on his face isnât enough to twist the knife deeper, his words are. âI have never,â he screams at you. You take a step back, keeping the stairs between you, refusing to meet him in the middle. âBeen more embarrassed to call you my daughter. Do you have any idea how humiliating that was for me? Do you know how many people saw you being dragged outside like a fucking whore off the corner?â
You clench your eyes shut, turning your face away from him as the shame becomes a physical thing inside you. You can feel it making its way up your throat. Because heâs right. Tonight you were nothing more than a slut without any self-respect.Â
But youâre also pissed off. Youâre fucking enraged at yourself for being so stupid as to ever believe Logan wanted you for anything more than your body. You're mad at Logan for knowing how you feel about him and taking advantage of it. And youâre so fucking tired of doing everything you can to make your father proud and it never being enough.Â
âHave you ever once asked me what I want?â You raise your voice, screaming down at him with a ferocity that surprises even you. His eyes widen, frame trembling with unreleased rage. You plow through, not stopping because you know if you do, youâll never get this out. âNo, you havenât. Not once. Because you donât fucking love me! And it has taken me years to accept that, to finally realize that youâre incapable of loving anyone but yourself.â
You gasp, the noise wet and painful as something warm trickles down your cheek. You stare down at him with your eyes wide in realization. âItâs so clear to me now, I feel like an idiot for missing it for so long. You never loved me. Youâre incapable of it!âÂ
Youâre embarrassed at the way your voice cracks. As much as you want to pretend youâre stronger than him, not afraid of him. Thereâs still a little girl inside you who wonders why Daddy doesnât love you.Â
âI donât give a flying fuck what you want, Dad. I donât care what you want my life to look like or if I embarrassed you. Iâm glad I did, glad someone finally saw a sliver of the truth you try so desperately to hide-â
âEnough!â He shouts and it startles you so bad that you jump back, your abilities reacting and a vase behind you flying off the shelf. You duck as glass shatters across the stairs and floor. You glance at the scene with shocked eyes, looking down at your father to see that heâs not even a little bit surprised.Â
Instead, he just looks so deeply disappointed that it makes you shrink into yourself. The anger within you is extinguished in a second. He rubs his face, shaking his head and turning his back on you. âDad?â You call out, voice trembling.Â
âGo to your room,â he tells you quietly. âI donât want to look at you anymore.â You hover by the top of the stairs for a moment, not quite believing him yet. And when he realizes you're still there, that youâre not taking him seriously, he finally looks at you again.Â
âI wish every goddamn day that those doctors had just put you down. Iâd rather have a dead daughter than one like you.â
You stand there, stunned, even after the rest of the house has gone to bed. You clean up the pieces of glass while you try and swallow down your tears. Let the sharp edges dig into your skin and tear until you can feel any type of pain besides the one inside you.Â
A week of solitary confinement. Youâre surprised that you havenât just been kicked out of college. Youâre sure that your fatherâs many donations to the university are the only thing stopping your professors from dropping you from the class.Â
You donât care if they do or not, though. You never actually care about what you studied. Youâd just always hoped that it would be a way for you to escape the tight grip around your neck your dad has on you.Â
Youâve figured out that no matter how hard you fight, youâll never escape him. He hates you and yet, he canât let you go. Youâd laugh if you werenât busy wallowing in your depression.Â
Someone keeps leaving food by your door but you canât find it in yourself to be hungry. Youâll nibble on something, but you feel like youâre going to throw up when you so much as breathe the wrong way.Â
You havenât heard from Logan since that night. You knew your father would fire him the second he woke up. But youâd held out hope - foolishly - that he might still try and reach out to you. You have this childish image in your head of the prince coming to rescue the princess from the dragon.Â
But youâve been naive your whole life, you donât want to keep going down this road. You donât want to keep expecting the best of people and live your life in perpetual disappointment.Â
You havenât seen or spoken to your father since that night. Wordlessly, heâd banned you to your room. No oneâs said it, but you know youâre not allowed to come out. You donât know when heâs going to deem you useful again and drag you back out into the public eye.Â
Contrary to his belief, no one had seen you leave that night with Logan. You hadnât been in any tabloids or shitty news articles. Besides emotional estrangement from your father and losing the only guy youâve ever really liked, there were no consequences to your whorish behavior - as your father so lovingly puts it.Â
You roll over in your bed and picture yourself taking a shower. It feels like such a workout but you canât stand lying in your sweat and tears for much longer. With a long drawn-out groan, you throw yourself out of bed and enter the bathroom connected to your room.Â
You know youâll feel better afterward, but everything besides sleep sounds like too much work. Still, you force yourself inside and finally clean the grime of laying on your ass for a week off.Â
You walk naked through your room, making a beeline for your dresser. You feel a little better after washing yourself off and moisturizing. But not much. Physical health can only do so much for how you feel inside.Â
You hope this will blow over soon, youâre not sure how much longer you can take feeling so awful. You hate pitying yourself, and thatâs exactly what youâre doing right now. You huff irritatedly, digging around your drawers for your favorite shirt.Â
A hand clamps around your mouth, rough and big, yanking you back into a muscled chest and keeping you quiet. You still try and scream, hands clawing at the skin of their hand until you feel blood.Â
âFuck, quit that, would ya?â
Your erratic movements slowly come to a halt. You still feel your heart pounding against your chest, adrenaline warming your blood and making you feel like you're on fire from the inside out. But, you recognize the voice, recognize thereâs no danger to the situation.Â
That doesnât make you any less pissed off. When Logan is sure you wonât keep attacking him, he lets you go slowly. You immediately whirl around on him, uncaring that youâre still naked. Energy moves quickly through you, becoming a physical thing under your skin.Â
He smiles at you and you push the energy out, throwing him across your room. He flies into your bookshelf, crashing to the ground with a loud slam. âWhat the fuck are you doing?â You scream at him.Â
Thereâs no one home right now, luckily, or else you both would be screwed. He shakes his head off, brushing pieces of wood out of his hair and slowly getting to his feet. âWell, I was coming to say hi-â
âYou say hi by ambushing naked girls?â You interrupt, grabbing the clothes closest to you and pulling them on quickly.Â
Logan rolls his neck out and shrugs. âNo, that was just a plus,â he gives you that insufferable smirk and you want to scream.Â
This is the first time you see him in a week since you had sex together and your father officially disowned you. And this is what heâs leading with? Seriously? âYouâre a real fucking prince, Logan.â You shake your head with a scoff and glare at him.
He narrows his eyes, looking to be in disbelief at your attitude. âWhat happened?â You expect to hear irritation in his tone. Anger that youâre being such a bitch right now. Instead, he sounds concerned, like he can see right through you.Â
You hate that. You used to love having someone who could see past all the pretenses and walls, but it just hurts now. âNothing,â you tell him, unable to hold eye contact any longer. âLook,â you take in a deep breath, and your brows furrow in confusion. âHow the hell did you even get in here?â
Logan doesnât look like he wants to drop the topic just yet but he relents. He nods towards your window and you fix him with an astonished look. âI climbed, I didnât want your dad to risk seeing me on the security cameras out front.â
You feel suspicion brewing inside you, tone turning defensive. âLook, if you came here because you want to fuck again, I suggest you go find another girl. Iâm not interested anymore.â
âWell,â he scoffs, âI find that hard to believe.â How easily he just dismisses your words. Like they hold no real importance. It makes you want to scream. Instead, you just flick your wrist, throwing him into another wall. You donât know how youâre going to explain these holes in the wall to your father but you donât really care.Â
âEnough,â he snaps, brushing himself off and glaring at you. Your lips curl up in amusement, the first thing youâve felt besides anger and depression for the last week. âLook, I was coming here to get you the hell out, kid. Clearly, Iâm not wanted.â
He walks towards your window, intent on climbing back down the side of your house and leaving. You almost let him, if only to see him scurrying down the wall. Instead, you take a step forward and stop him with a small, âGet me out?â
He sighs, running an aggrieved hand over his face and propping the other on his hip. âYeah,â he mutters. âLook, I canât stand the thought of you cooped up in here, isolated from the rest of the world. Itâs not fair, I was gonna see if youâŚâ He trails off and roughly swallows.Â
Your interest piques. Whatever is this hard for him to get out has to be interesting. âLogan,â you call his name softly. âSee if I what?â
He huffs out a rough breath, turning around and staring you down. Thereâs something in his eyes, something reflected in yours. Heâs looking at you the same way you always look at him. âYou wanna come with me, kid?â
Well, youâd have to be an idiot to say no.Â
You donât leave a note. You donât give them any clues or hints as to where you might have gone. They can draw their own conclusions about what happened to you. They can tell the news whatever twisted lies they want.Â
You donât care, thatâs not your life anymore. Your life is packed away in a backpack in the back of Loganâs trailer. Your new life is in the passenger seat beside him. Youâre equal parts terrified and excited to figure out what youâre going to do with the rest of it.Â
a/n: can you tell I know fuck all about politics?
Also, smut, wow, this was hard and rough to write. I donât know why itâs such a struggle. I just feel guilty writing such dirty words, itâs absolutely diabolical that I have no problem being crazy over a guy whose age gap with me is the same age as my parents, but I canât write smut.
end. â I do not own the characters or the comics/movies Wolverine/X-Men, but this writing is my own all rights reserved Š not-neverland06 2024. do not copy, repost, translate & recommend elsewhere.
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i realized that uh. i changed in some ways that maybe arent from good causes
like it might just be growing up and getting older, but like. the way it changed is reminding me a lot of like... trying to avoid certain things
#basically i am getting quieter in a way that i dont like#i was playing fun jumpscare games with a friend! and a great friend who i am very comfy with! and i love being loud with n good times with#but i was. vvvvery quiet. he said he was surprised when jumpscares happened i just went totally rigid and silent for a few seconds#then talked very quietly after#i dont.... i dont do that?#im LOUD. im silly. i make jokes and say silly mashed up sentences when i get jumpscared#but i went still and silent instead and like.#i did eventually ENJOY playing it after a while and was reacting like i normally would after like an hour#but. i couldnt? at first? for a while?#and like. im thinking about it and just. am getting back into being quiet and small in my spaces when i dont need to be and dont want to be#and apologizing more again#just to avoid careless and rude comments. and to avoid risking ???? idk what#anyway. uh. realizing i may need to address some things and not wanting to lol#also friend noted when I got more comfy and started acting like myself again. and the weird too quiet version of me#and mentioned when i was out of the house more and planning events i was running when i was alone planning them/out of the house-#-how much happier i seemed. and how much more 'me' i was acting#like granted being in my 30s now im going to be a little different but like. im still lighthearted and jokey and loud and silly#bbbbbut its hiding again. and im stressed as to why
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pairings: peircer eren x black reader
warnings: smut 18+, kinda pervy eren
Good girl
âHello?â Your soft voice rang over the chimes as you entered the tattoo parlor.
The shop was quiet, seemingly empty besides the softening chimes of the door and surprised cursing down the long hall.
âShit- yeah. Just give me a minute. My apologiesâ The culprit of the cursing called.
In the meantime, you took a look around the lobby. The reviews didn't do the place justice. The largest wall contained a bright colorful mural, contrasting beautifully with the dark floors and connected black walls.
While admiring the piece of artwork, heavy thudding from the long hallway turned your attention to the most gorgeous man you had ever seen.
You never believed in love at first sight, up until now. You hadn't even known the man's name yet, but you craved him. The reviews warned you the entire staff was attractive but they clearly left out that this man was a god.
His long hair was pulled into a low bun, strands falling in his face, the color contrasting against his pale skin. He was tall, with a full sleeve on one of his muscular arms, and his green eyes had you drowning immediately. He couldn't be Onyankopon, they said he was a brother. Maybe Connie or, Levi-
âHi, I'm Erenâ He introduced himself after swallowing the large knot in his throat.
While in your own trance, you failed to notice how he froze the moment he saw you. The bright light you stood under showcased the sparkles of your pretty brown skin.
Your legs were on display as a result of the simmering heat outside, thick thighs causing them to roll up slightly. The fitted t-shirt you wore allowed the hardened buds of your nipples to peek through, despite the hot weather.
Eren never considered himself a pervert but the way his mind instantly thought about sucking on them till you begged him to fuck you had him thinking otherwise.
âHi, I'm [â]. Is this a bad time?â Oh, he could have come on the spot, your voice sounded even better without the numerous walls separating you and god your perfume had him wanting to devour you on the reception desk.
âNo, no I just don't know how much I can do for you, the AC is out in all the rooms but mine and I don't even know how long that's gonna last so if you're looking for an hour long tat session you'll have to come backâ He crossed his arms, muscles contracting against the white tee.
âOh no, I'm just hoping to get a few piercings but I can definitely come back another timeâ
âNo, I can do a couple of piercings. What were you thinking?â He grabbed the paperwork from under the counter, praying one of them would be your chest.
âUh well, I want the other side of my nose, belly button, venus dimples, and my nipples but I understand if you can't do all of that or the last one I'll just come backâ
âNo, no I can do it,â He said too quickly, clearing his throat awkwardly before handing you the paperwork.
ââË.â
âGood girl. You're doing such a good job for me, pretty. Just hold on for one second, loveyâ
He was currently doing your last dimple piercing. The pain was unimaginable at first but as soon as the praises left his mouth all was forgotten besides the growing stickiness that rested between your thighs.
He praised you after every piercing a variation of âGood girlâ âYou're doing such a good job for meâ âThat's it, baby. You did so goodâ flowed from his pink lips. You could never decide which throbbing to focus on, the one from your new piercing or the throbbing of your clit.
With three new holes in your body and damp panties, it was now time for the piercing both of you were dreading yet excited for.
âDo I just take my shirt off here?â
âWherever you're comfortable, baby. You can go in the bathroom or stay in here and I'll give you some privacyâ He felt like a teenage boy again. His dick twitching at the thought of seeing you exposed.
âNo, it's okay you can stay in here I don't mindâ
âOh. Okay,â He perked up. Giving you some privacy he turned his back, pretending to be busy when in reality he was trying to think of anything but you getting undressed behind him. Despite his concentration, all he could focus on was the sound of your necklaces and bracelets clanking at the movements you made.
He knew your nipples were still hard, especially since he took advantage of the working AC and he wondered what your moans would sound like if he flicked his tounge repeatedly over the bud, or if he pinched them in front of the mirror while you begged him to fuck you as you pressed your ass against his hard-
âI'm readyâ Your soft voice broke him from his thoughts.
If his self control was any less he'd have gotten on his knees to worship you. There you were. Looking everywhere but him, tits exposed. If it werenât for the fact other men besides him would see, he'd tattoo this image of you on his bare forearm.
âAre you ready?â He suppressed a groan.
âMhmâ
âOkay stand up for meâ He led you to the mirror where he prepped each bud. During the process, you felt as if you could crawl into yourself. The most beautiful man you'd ever laid eyes on had his hands on your breast. Despite the occasion being nonsexual, you were convinced your arousal would start running down your thigh at any second.
âIs this okay?â He stood behind you.
You gave a simple hum of approval, thoughts gone as he explained how the process would go. You convinced yourself you could handle it, that it would all be over soon.
That was until he rolled the bud in between his fingers, the whimper you'd been holding escaping you.
âfuckâ âfuckâ
âShit, I'm so sorry I- I didn't mean to do that, please understand I had no malicious intentions I justâ He stumbled over his words.
He was just explaining the step by step process of the piercing. He wasn't thinking, just craving. He wouldn't have realized his actions if it weren't for the sound you let out. The sound he knew he'd replay in his head the moment you left the shop, stroking his cock as he imagined it were you down on your knees in front of him.
âIt's okayâ You reassured him. Your big eyes staring up into his through the mirror.
âI didn'tâŚI don't mindâ
ââË.â
Before you knew it you were bouncing on his cock. His moans muffled as his mouth engulfed your breast. Tongue slightly grazing your nipple with the flickers of his tongue before sucking harshly.
He was stretching you out so good, leaky red tip repeatedly hitting your cervix as his frenum piercing brushed against your walls. The added pleasure contributing to the pace of your bounces as you chased your high.
âE-eren pleaseâ You whined, attempting to push his head away from the assault on your breast. His hair was everywhere, the ponytail holder long gone the moment your hands entangled in his hair. Your buds were so sensitive, every suck and swipe of his tongue had you squeezing around him, every clench releasing your cream that pooled at the base of his cock.
âFuckâ He groaned, reluctantly giving your boobs a break. His hands gripped the soft flesh of your ass, groping the brown skin before placing a hard slap on your cheek.
âTalk to me, pretty. You like this? Like bouncing on daddy's cock hmm?â His arms wrapped around you tightly as he fucked up into you.
âOh my- fuckâ You gave him control. Your head resting on his shoulder as you let out pornographic moans into his ear.
âAnswer me, mamaâ Another slap landed on your ass.
Before you had time to register the mix of pain and pleasure on your flesh, the gentle pressure of his finger rubbing circles on your puckering hole had you seeing stars.
âFuck y-yes. I love it so much, daddy. Please don't stopâ You whined. Tears of pleasure wetting the crook of his neck.
By no means was Eren a fast finisher but boy was he trying his best to hold on, you're pussy was just squeezing him so tight, the added tension on his scalp as you tugged on it every time he hit the spongy spot along your walls had his nails digging crescents into your skin.
âI'm so close, daddy, pleaseâ
âLet go mamaâ He pressed hot kisses along your neck and shoulder.
In that moment you came, your pussy tightening around the large girth of his cock. Clear liquid squirting from you in streams as he continued his thrust. Your arousal splashing and dripping onto the chair.
With sweat dripping down his forehead, and stray hairs sticking to him, his thrust became sloppy and his breathing became heavier.
âS-shitâ He whimpered, head thrown back as he came harder than ever. Repeatedly pushing his load back into your pussy.
âLemme take you on a date. Pleaseâ He panted once you both came down, his hands roaming your body as he looked down at you, green irises peeking out behind his blown pupils.
âOkay, yea- ohâ A broken moan escaped you as he moved your hips up and down his length once again.
âErenâ You whined
âDon't tell me you're wiped out after one round, pretty girl. I know you have more in you, mama. Be a good girl for daddyâ
for my eren girlies. this is probably the fastest I've ever wrote bc i just needed peircer eren. oh also how do yall feel about pegging bc i feel peircer eren can be a bit subby sometimes ttm. mwah <3
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clueless, kuroo tetsuro
ËË°â˘*â⡠ kuroo tetsuro has a thing for girls with long hair. so what if you're a girl with long hair? that doesnât mean anything!
⟠pairing! kuroo tetsuro x fem!manager!reader
âź warnings! none, just fluff and humor. maybe ooc because i haven't written in years??? unfortunately, because this is based on the scene of kuroo and yaku arguing about their preference, this is really for my long haired girlies đŁ i apologize to the short haired readers
âź word count! about 1.4k
âź authorâs note! "haikyuu renassiance!" we all cheer in unison. anywho, this is my first time posting in two years. please be nice to me đŤĄ
"So, you prefer girls with short hair then, Yaku?" Kai asks, shedding off the white button-up of his school uniform and revealing his black practice t-shirt. The three third-year Nekoma players had found themselves in an empty classroom, deciding to use it as a makeshift changing room. Luckily for them, they had all worn their clean practice clothes under their school uniforms. Doing so allowed them to save time and cut back the number of minutes they were already going to be late to practice, thanks to Yaku getting distracted by a group of girls, which Kai noted all had short hair. Hence, his question.
Yaku paused his work of ridding himself of his tie to send Kai a proud grin, pointing towards him with both hands, âYesss!
"And you, Kuroo?" Kai turns to him, now curious to know his captain's answer as well.
"Long." Kuroo's answer is firm, leaving no room for debate. Still, he glances at Yaku, as if daring him to try.
Yaku only snorts, shaking his head in amusement as he too turns to look at his captain, "Like that wasn't obvious."
"Ehh," Kuroo's eyes narrow, head craning down to peer at the libero, "What's that supposed to mean?"
"It means," Yaku starts, taking a step closer as he peers right back up at Kuroo, "Everyone knows you have a crush on our manager, who just so happens to have the longest hair I've ever seen!"
"Ehh?" Kuroo repeats, louder this time as he cranes his head down even more, "Who says I have a crushâ"
"Hey!" The door to the classroom slides open with a shocking force, startling the boys and drawing the attention of all three of them to it. Kuroo and Yaku both grow rigid as they find you standing in its opening. Quiet pants slip past your lips, and you take a moment to catch your breath as you stare at the three of them before you begin speaking, "There you guys are! I've been looking for the three of you everywhere."
"Hello," Kai greets kindly, the only one not left in a stupor at your sudden appearance, smiling as you make your way into the classroom. "We apologize, we're running a bit late."
"Yeah," You huff, coming to a stop a few steps away from them as you cross your arms, "It was your guys' turn to set up the nets. So when you guys didn't show up in time to do so and none of you answered your phones, Coach sent me to find you guys. Didn't know I'd be going on a wild goose chase."
Your words leave you in a huff before your eyes land on Kuroo, raising an eyebrow at the captain. His shoulders tense even more at the sudden eye contact and he's quick to snap his head in the other direction. Kuroo suddenly feels warm, realizing how you could have easily heard the conversation transpiring between the three of them. Stupid Yaku, Kuroo curses the libero in his head, doesn't even know what he's talking about.
"Sorry, Y/N." And of course itâs Yaku who disrupts his thoughts, pulling Kuroo's eyes to him just as he sends you an innocent smile, "We got carried away, talking."
There's a teasing tone to Yaku's voice, and Kuroo knows it's directed at him. Why is he friends with him again?
"I don't even want to know," You speak, and Kuroo can envision you shaking your head at the three of them, "Just get dressed and get to the gym as quick as possible, please."
All three boys give some noise of recognition in response to your words, and Kuroo takes the chance to glance at you then. He's quick to regret it. Your hand rises just as he locks eyes with you, reaching up to tuck some of the more unruly pieces of your hair (which most likely came undone due to your seemingly frantic search of the three third years) behind your ear and out of your face. Kuroo's eyes follow the movement of your hand, trailing downwards and taking in the long strands of hair that fall well past your shoulders. Once again all too aware of the conversation he was just having with his teammates, the tips of his ears burn as he pulls his gaze away from you once more. He shakes his head, trying to get Yaku's words out of his mind. Just because he liked girls with long hair, and just because you so happened to be a girl with long hair, did not mean he liked you.
Right?
A snort of laughter suddenly leaves Yaku, having caught the interaction, and Kuroo turns to him with a heated glare. You don't miss the exchange between them either.
"Are you two having one of your petty arguments again?" You accuse, eyes glancing between Kuroo and Yaku who are suddenly staring back at you like two deers caught in headlights. "Seriously, you've been fighting like this since first year. What topic could you guys possibly still be discussing?"
Yaku's smirk returns as he glances at his captain with an all too knowing look before he turns back to you, "Well, if you really want to knâ"
"Nope!" Kuroo is quick to interject, speaking for the first time since you entered and drawing your attention away from Yaku and back to the captain himself. Your eyes widen as he begins to take long strides in your direction. "No arguing here!"
Your lips part, confusion taking over your features at the odd behavior your captain is displaying. You don't get the chance to say anything, however, as Kuroo makes a show of glancing at the clock on the wall before turning back to you with a dramatic gasp, "Oh, would you look at the time! We should really be heading to practice."
"You still have your school shirt on, Kuroo.â You point out when he stops in front of you, pointedly glancing down at Kuroo's attire, which consisted of his practice shorts and white button-up, with his red school tie hung loosely around his neck.
"I'll just change it once we're in the gym," Kuroo responds, waving away your interjections before he drops his hands onto your shoulders and forces you to turn around and back toward the door. You attempt to dig your heels down when he begins to push you in the direction of the door, but you're truly no match for his strength. Stupid volleyball training.
"Kuroo," You voice your protests, attempting to swat at his hands in order to get him to release you. Once again, your attempts remain futile, "Let go of me!"
"No can do! As captain and manager, it's our job to be on time to every practice. What would our team do without us?" Kuroo shakes his head, clicking his tongue as if he's scolding you. He turns back to Kai and Yaku, flashing them a warning smile, daring them to say another word. Yaku merely watches on with an unamused look, while Kai holds a placid smile. There's extra sweetness in his voice as he practically chirps out, "Bring my stuff to the club room, will you?"
"I was on time!" You retort, not giving Kai nor Yaku a chance to respond to their exasperating captain as you send them a pointed look, all the while succumbing to your fate and allowing Kuroo to push you out of the classroom. After all, he did have a point. It probably wouldn't be long before Lev managed to push somebody's buttons (most likely Yamamotoâs) one too many times and ended up in hot water. "The only reason I'm not there right now is because I came looking for you guys!"
"Ah, now is not the time to deal blame, Y/N. Our juniors are waiting on us." Kuroo argues back, shaking his head as he removes one hand from your shoulder to slide the door shut behind the two of you. Still, Yaku and Kai face the door as the sound of your guys' bickering persists. It grows quieter and quieter with each passing moment, and it isnât until they can no longer hear your guys' voices does Yaku glance away with a shake of his head.
"He's clueless." Yaku deadpans, glancing back down at his tie as he continues to work on untying it.
Kai nods, neatly folding his button-up before placing it in his bag. "Completely."
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She huffs lightly when she hears the low growl of the familiar soldier in the room next door, followed by her nurse griping and trying to work with him. Entering behind, she lays a hand on the womanâs shoulder. âGo on, Paula, I got him,â she says with a smile and Paula practically screams in relief as she leaves the exam room.
She gives him a fond smile. âNow, Lieutenant, what have I said about antagonizing my nurses?â
He scowls at her. âI donât like âem.â
âI know but I still need you to be kind when theyâre simply trying to do their jobs.â
âI donât like anyone touchinâ me but you.â Heâs still scowling behind his mask, holding his side where she can see the black material stained a darker color.
âWell arenât I special,â she murmurs, closing the exam room door before walking over. âYou know the drill.â
He lifts his sweatshirt wordlessly along with the t-shirt heâs got underneath and she sighs at the sight of a cut about four inches long riding up his ribs.
âDo I even want to know how?â She asks.
âTraininâ with Soap,â he mutters. ââeâs a slippery litâle bastard when âe needs to be.â
She snorts and goes about pulling on a pair of latex gloves before she begins to clean his wound with antiseptic. He doesnât make a sound though she knows it stings like a bitch and the only show of irritation from him is the way his muscle ripple beneath her touch.
âI thought I said not to get wounded anymore.â
âDidnât listen,â he simply shrugs.
âIf I had half a mind, Iâd assume you did this on purpose so you could come see me.â
He rolls his eyes. âDonât flatter youâself. I donât like you that much.â
A laugh escapes her as she checks the depth, ultimately deciding on a few stitches for his wound. âOh I know you like me plenty, Simon.â
Simon.
She only says his name in privacy when no one can hear them. He hates the way his chest feels funny, sternum scratchy with an itch he canât get to.
ââS Lieutenant,â he retorts.
âOf course, of course,â she hums. âMy most sincerest apologies, Lieutenant Riley.â
He scowls again but that itch returns when she begins to stitch his wound carefully.
After a few minutes, she sets the clipped thread down and admires her handiwork. âAll done, sweetheart,â she says with a gentle smile and wipes it carefully before putting a bandage on it. âDonât get it wet andââ
âKeep it dry and clean,â he finishes. âI know.â
She laughs and pokes the nose to his mask. âMaybe one day you will learn.â
She watches as he redresses himself before standing, waving off the bottle of pills she hands to him.
âDonât need âem.â
âItâs just some ibuprofen, Lieutenant.â
âDonât need âem,â he repeats with a growl and she rolls her eyes.
âYou are so stubborn for no reason,â she says and places her hands on her hips. âAnd after all the care I just gave you.â
He looks at her for a solid moment before he leans over and kisses her cheek through his mask. âThank you, love,â he mutters. âFor takinâ care of me.â
She goes uncharacteristically quiet, cheeks getting hot and he smirks at her.
âAinât got nothinâ to say? Cat got your tongue?â
She glares at him half-heartedly. âGet out of my clinic, Lieutenant.â
As he heads for the door, he pauses and looks at her. âItâs Simon, to you.â He says, and closes the door behind him.
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Yandere single dad monster that sees you help one of his children once and decides you will be their new mother.
Warnings: Yandere thought/behavior
Yandere monster takes his twin children to the park so they can run around, expend some of their extra energy, and enjoy the nice weather.
He had been raising his daughter and son on his own since their mother walked out when they were still babies. Having two twin monster toddlers running around was a lot of work, but he loved his children endlessly. He would give them anything in the world and do anything to protect them, even going as far as having tiny tracking devices clipped on to them whenever they leave the house.
He had just been kneeling in front of his son to tie his shoelaces after a long afternoon of playing when he heard his daughter cry out for him. He immediately looks around, frantic, before he finally spots her sitting on the stone pathway and holding her knee.
As he stands and grabs his son in his arms, set to make his way over to his little girl, he watches as a human woman stops and kneels in front of his daughter.Â
He canât hear the words you are saying to her, but he relaxes slightly as his daughter's cries quiet down, and she smiles at you. He begins the walk over, keeping his eyes trained on the two of you, his thoughts running wild as his toddler makes her way into your arms.Â
Itâs almost comical watching the human woman struggle slightly to lift a toddler that must be half her size at least, but he canât help the feeling pooling in his chest as he watches you calm and soothe her.Â
He can tell you startle slightly as he appears behind you, casting a large shadow over your body. You seem to relax somewhat as you see his son in his arms, seemingly putting together the fact that the little girl you hold must be his.
âI'm sorry. I didnât mean to impose. I saw her trip, and I just wanted to make sure she was okay,â you say, still slightly nervous about the male, who must be at least three feet taller than you.Â
He gives you what he hopes is a reassuring and friendly smile as he says, âNo need to apologize. I am thankful that you were kind enough to help my daughter. She seems to like youâ.Â
He watches you smile shyly as his daughter hugs you tighter. You rub the girls back affectionately as you say, âWell, I am just glad she is okay and happy I could help. Iâll pass her back over to you. I was actually on my way to meet my boyfriend for dinner.â Â
He makes sure to mask his disapproval of you having a boyfriend with a smile, gently taking his daughter back from your arms. He reaches out one of his large hands and gently squeezes your arm as he thanks you again. You give his daughter and son a small wave before continuing your walk through the park.Â
 Pulling out his phone, he checks to ensure the tiny tracking device he slipped onto your coat is working, relaxing when he sees the little mark moving through the park. He looks at his two kids, happy he finally found the perfect mother for them.Â
âAlright, little ones, itâs time to go home. We have a lot of work to do to get the house ready for Mommy to move in.â As he checks your location again, he grins, knowing that you will be his.
His human, his wife, and the mother of his children.
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Let me know if you guys would like to read more on this! Also if so, do you like me keeping it as a general monster or do you want it to be a specific monster?
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hey lovely!! can we maybe get some more pregnant bombshell and spencer??
âWhat Iâve decided,â you say, reclining back against Spencerâs lap with all the air of a resting empress, âis that I donât actually like being pregnant.âÂ
Spencer startles, as does Hotch. JJ doesnât flinch. âItâs awful,â she says.Â
Youâre too pregnant to terminate the pregnancy, now. Thirty weeks, your stomach a bump you pretend doesnât exist when you arenât holding a hand to it. âI love my baby,â you say, letting Spencer relax again underneath you, âbut this is inhumane.âÂ
âItâs one of the most human experiences you could ever live through,â Spencer says. People have been having babies since the beginning of time.Â
âI wonder if youâd feel that way if you were the pregnant one.â You slip further down into his lap, shuffling across the jetâs couch to let your head rest on his thigh. Your chin tips up, your lips curling into a painted smile. He could kiss every bit of lipstick off of your mouth if you didnât have an audience.Â
âI just mean, itâs intrinsically human to reproduce. Not that your feelings arenât real. Sorry.âÂ
âOoh, sorry,â you mumble, giving him a playful, almost daring smirk. âDoghouse for you, handsome. You know youâre supposed to agree to everything I say.âÂ
âI know.âÂ
âIs it hard?â Hotch asks. Not unaware that it is, in fact, very hard, but probing you to open up further should you want to. Spencer probably shouldâve asked you first, he thinks. He holds your face in apology.Â
âHotch, itâs like⌠Itâs hard because it doesnât stop. Sometimes I donât notice, I donât feel any different, but when Iâm nauseous or when itâs barely five and my back aches like Iâve been carrying a dumbbell all day⌠I donât know.âÂ
âItâs alright to not enjoy it,â Spencer says. âYou donât have to think itâs fun. You can hate every second of it, if you want.âÂ
âI donât. Really, I donât. Just tired.âÂ
âYou could be in the field less,â Hotch suggests.Â
You cover your eyes with your hand. âDonât suggest big things to me.âÂ
âItâs up to you when you want to stop. But donât think you canât take a break. Even if next week you want to come back.â Hotch smiles. âAfter all, youâre the brains of the operation. You can consult through video, like Penelope.âÂ
You laugh at being called the brains, stretching your legs out, stockings shining down the lengths of you like theyâve suffered a sudden rain. âItâs not about being tired. Iâm exhausted, but itâs just strange sometimes, thatâs all. I donât always feel like me.âÂ
Spencer lets his hand fall to your chest, rubbing a short line under your collar he hopes is soothing.
âItâs the emotional aspect too,â JJ says. âAll the hormones.âÂ
âYeah, it is,â you say.Â
Spencer hears the unhappiness threaded in your tone, but heâs not sure what to do. Hotch and JJ realise youâre done talking for now and return to their own devices, a new quiet descending over the jet, the only sound the rush and hum of air. Spencer keeps on rubbing that same spot over your chest. Your eyes close. He knows you too well to think youâre sleeping.Â
âAre you really unhappy?â he asks quietly.Â
âNo, Spence. Didnât mean it like that.âÂ
âI know. Itâs alright if you arenât happy.âÂ
âIâm mostly happy.âÂ
âI want you to be a hundred percent happy.â
âI donât think I can be right now.âÂ
He lets his pinky dip under the neckline of your shirt. Your skin is soft. âOkay. Donât be happy if you canât be. Iâm here no matter what.âÂ
You sigh softly and twist on your side, your nose pressing into his stomach, the heat of your breath slowly transferring through his shirt to his skin. Spencer brings his hand around with you, holding the back of your neck as you make yourself comfortable.Â
âI love you, I swear,â you whisper. âAnd her.âÂ
âI know itâs not about love. Pregnancy can be an evil, heavy, horrible thing to go through. Donât feel like you have to pretend itâs not. Thereâs gestational diabetes, morning sickness, high blood pressure, night sweats, depressionâŚâ Spencer ducks down to press his cheek briefly to your temple. âIf you liked all that, thereâd be something wrong with you. Thereâs nothing wrong with how you feel, okay?âÂ
âOkay.â You kiss his shirt.Â
âMassage?â he offers.Â
âYes!â You wriggle closer to him and shiver happily as his hand finds the knot between your shoulders. âThatâs a pro for this whole ordeal. You could open a massage parlour with hands like that. Theyâd call it Reidâs Reflexology.âÂ
âYeah? Is that a hint for a foot massage?âÂ
You giggle like youâve been tickled. JJ groans in her seat with reluctant fondness, while Hotch murmurs, âLetâs keep it PG-13, please.âÂ
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