#adhd evan buckely

[donationwayne]

here's my confession (I'm kind of hooked on you) CHAPTER FOUR

Pairing: Buddie || 24.7k/109k || Chapter 4/19 ||

CHAPTER FOUR OF MY FIC FOR @118bigbang ! !!!!!

THE RETURN OF DILF EDDIE

This week: buck cooks for eddie, buck and eddie gossip, buck meets up witht he 118

Summary:

Buck is forced to go on a temporary medical leave after getting crushed by a flight of stairs. In the meantime, he works at dispatch while he recovers. One evening after work, Buck hooks up with a mysterious, hot, family oriented DILF. The following morning he’s mortified and a little love sick after discovering said hook-up aka Eddie Diaz is the newest (temporary) firefighter liaison--poached from a house in El Paso, Texas. Buck navigates becoming best friends and eventually work partners with his ex-hookup. In the meantime, he desperately tries not to fall in love. He fails.

Cue: An adorable five year old, prank wars, gay offs, break room gossip, a fake dating plot, firefighting shenanigans, a packed summer of PTA responsibilities, karaoke, and copious amounts of cupcakes and thai food

OR

tldr: the hot dilf from the bar is my new work partner

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SNIP

Eddie joins Buck, who already has their meals on the table—potato and zucchini curry over rice. Eddie melts into the chair beside him, taking a long inhale of curry like it was a cigarette. “You’ve really got to teach me how to do this sometime.”

“Over my dead body. What use would you have for me if you learned how to cook?” Buck teases, “Besides, I doubt Chris would enjoy your learning phase of cooking. It sounds like you char even water.”

“Screw you Buckley,” Eddie replies with a light grin. “So, what’s going on out there today?”

It's a new part of his and Eddie's lunchtime routine, ever since the new dispatch trainees started, the pair has begun watching out the windows of the break room as though it were a large scale television. There was plenty of drama going on around the room between phone calls, especially on days that could be considered slow. Buck has made a flow chart of who dislikes who, who was friends, and clashing personalities that rarely interact. He and Eddie have spent the last few weeks stirring the pot in the office to Sue’s chagrin. She humored them with gentle amusement, as long as it wasn’t interrupting work or causing major issues.

“What do you think Sharon is thinking about?” Eddie asks as he spoons some curry into his mouth. He glances at Buck, who is expertly using chopsticks. “How do you use those? One time I went out with my sisters to some sushi joint when I was back in Texas, they all got chopsticks, and I was the only one who didn’t know how to use them. Our waiter rigged a pair with a rubber band and gave them to me, kid style. Chris still laughs about it to this day, I’m pretty sure that was, as that baby dispatcher over there calls it, a core memory.”

Buck nearly laughs coffee through his nose. “I love when you use terminology you don’t really understand that the baby dispatchers teach you, and it's even better when you use it correctly. You’re going to make Chris’ life a living hell when he grows up.”

“That’s exactly what I’m aiming for. There is nothing I love in life more than being the cringe dad. It's a well earned title.”

“Also, as for Sharon, she’s definitely thinking about last night's episode of the Bachelor, we talked about it for the full length of our first break.”

“Is that what you do on calls? Think about The Bachelor while you’re supposed to be saving lives?”

“That’s exactly it, Eddie. I’m confused, I thought I was hired to think about The Bachelor all day, I’m pretty sure it was in my contract.” Eddie rolls his eyes, scooping a large piece of potato. “And actually right now I’m pretty getting into this procedural show, my friend Chim rolled his eyes when I told him I hadn't seen it. I didn’t really watch television growing up, so it's all sort of new to me, and I’m playing catch-up, shoving all this pop culture into my free time.”

“I’m not a big TV buff, but I think I can quote Finding Nemo to you, if that means anything at all. I’m well versed in animated children's movies.”

“Delightful, someday I will come over and we will watch Tangled, and I will force you to sing every word because it is one of the greatest children's musical movies, in my opinion. It's also one of like five children's movies I actually saw growing up.”

“Whenever you talk about your parents, it gives me whiplash. Half the time I think you despise your parents, and the other half of the time you dote on them,” Eddie points out curiously.

Buck opens and closes his mouth a few times. “My real parents live in Pennsylvania, I have no relationship with them. I’ve lowkey been adopted by a different set of adults, and I call them my parents, even though they’re not really my parents. I realize why that’s confusing,” Buck admits sheepishly. “I’ve also never called them my parents to their faces before.” Buck blushes, “But I really do think of them as the closest thing to real parents that I have. I’m 'no contact' with my family.”

[autisticjoshrusso]

on a positive note, the ADHD Buck representation this episode!! holy moly!! The overall emotional dysregulation, rejection sensitivity, getting so overstimulated that he can barely breathe but ALSO so tuned in because of it that he sees a saw blade snap inhumanely fast?? we stay winning folks.

[mazzystar24]

Just saw an anti Eddie fic about Eddie being rude to buck for infodumping and before that I’ve seen few bucktommy posts about Tommy being the only one to want to listen to buck’s facts

And like you mean this Eddie?

Be so fr he’s so “show me your rock collection babe” “tell me about beetle folklore” “and why exactly are dolphins assholes?” “Wait so why did pirates like black cats?” “Sure I’ll watch 3hr documentary with you” coded

Same man spouting goat yoga facts just cos buck wasn’t there, be so fucking for real guys

(Insert the “ I love this autistic man” audio here) - tho in my opinion adhd is more accurate for buck

[theotherbuckley]

Incorrect tweets part 11/?

[timeshareindestin]

overstimulated.

[agenderlesstree]

buck felt more in character this episode than the last couple seasons we are SO back i fear. like all of his fun facts? his scene just smiling at the bees? i love him so much

[911-incorrect-quotes-dispatch]

Buck: Hey babe, remember how I had to go to the pharmacy to pick up my ADHD meds? Eddie: Yes? Buck: Well, it turns out they're all out for the next five days. Eddie: Fuck. Buck: Get ready because it's going to be a fun week! Eddie: I'm going to Chim's house. Buck: Through sickness and health, motherfucker. You're stuck with me.

[beep-beep-robin]

everything happening all at once in buck‘s perception. the noise from the workers, all the times gerard has discredited and humiliated him in the past replaying over and over in his head portrayed by the voices overlapping in the voiceover. the way the camera slowly zooming in on his face visualizes everything becoming too much and the anger and overwhelm spreading into every nerve in his body. the close up shot of gerard meant to show how deeply his constant digs are affecting buck and that it‘s bubbling to the surface now. the slow motion insinuating that everything starts to feel like molasses to him. the voice of eddie poking through in his thoughts because he‘s trying to anchor himself on it. then the change in noises made by the workers that have been adding to his overstimulation ripping him out of his stuck-in-the-overwhelm position and alerting him something is happening. that. that was such a beautiful portrayal of overstimulation and a meltdown or overwhelmed outburst building up that i can‘t even put into words how much i wanna have a word with tim minear about it

[emolionsrawr]

*at a grant nash BBQ*

buck: *staring off into space*

eddie: he's about to say something really funny or absolutely horrifying

tommy: what?

hen: just wait

buck: did you know these two orcas trained other orcas to kill sharks by taking out their liver and testicles?

eddie: yep horrifying

tommy: wait, really?

buck: yup, off the coast of africa there's these two orcas called port and starboard and they hunt sharks to eat their liver and testicles, they tag team them, one goes for their fins while the other takes out the liver, so far they've taken down five great whites, they even killed khaleesi, who was being tracked and traced for research purposes

tommy: oh my god really?

hen: *looks at tommy and smiles*

eddie: *whispers to hen* he's perfect for him

hen: *whispers back* i know!

buck: yeah! port and starboard have even started teaching other orcas to do the same! so far port and starboards record of how many sharks killed in a day is seventeen!

tommy: oh my god, that's insane baby, what else have port and starboard done?

buck: well they also hunt copper sharks and some fish, they even chased the great whites away from africa for seven weeks! but this isn't even the first time orcas have done something like this, in the early 1900's there was this orca called old tom who would help whalers hunt baleen whales, he even tugged the boats into the right position to get the whales, this happened in the port of eden new south whales in australia, you can actually go and see old tom's skeleton in eden killer whale meuseum, and on his teeth you can see marks from where he would pull the roaps! and old tom even has missing teeth because the whalers had this thing called "law of tounge" where they would strap the dead whales down so old tom and his pod could eat the lips and tongues, on the night where he lost his teeth logan, one of the davidson whaler friends tried to bring the whale in instead of pinning it down for old tom to eat, and old tom was pissed and tried to stop him, and he lost teeth, old tom died from starvation, when old tom died they thought he was 35, but the davidson family swore old tom helped three generations of their family with whaling, old tom was actually in his 90's when he died, they called old toms pod the killers of eden which-

tommy: would make an amazing true crime shark podcast name

buck:

eddie:

tommy:

hen:

buck: *tears up* you get me

[buddiedaydreamer911]

*eddie waking up from nap in the passenger seat*

buck: *driving* hey! so good news and bad news!

eddie: huh?

buck: we are five miles away from Texas… and I’m 98% sure I left my ADHD medication at home!

eddie: turn this fucking car around-

[kitweewoos]

Do you think.... Buck shuts himself up when he realizes he's been talking too long about whatever his latest hyperfixation is, because he's been scolded before or told no one cares often enough that he's internalized that.... Just for Tommy to look at him and go "what else?"

And do you think the first time Tommy does that, Buck thinks it's just because Tommy's nice and sweet and is trying to make him feel comfortable, but the third, sixth, tenth, twentieth time, he realizes it's because Tommy wants to hear about his interests and that's when Buck knows, really knows for certain, not a hope or wish but *knows* that they're going to be okay, that they're going to be there for the long run because they love each other????

[donationwayne]

here's my confession (I'm kind of hooked on you) CHAPTER FIVE

Pairing: Buddie || 29.3k/109k || Chapter 5/19 ||

CHAPTER FIVE OF @118bigbang !!!!!!

DILF EDDIE PREVAILS

Today we have: PRANK WAR AND GOSSIP

Summary:

Buck is forced to go on a temporary medical leave after getting crushed by a flight of stairs. In the meantime, he works at dispatch while he recovers. One evening after work, Buck hooks up with a mysterious, hot, family oriented DILF. The following morning he’s mortified and a little love sick after discovering said hook-up aka Eddie Diaz is the newest (temporary) firefighter liaison--poached from a house in El Paso, Texas. Buck navigates becoming best friends and eventually work partners with his ex-hookup. In the meantime, he desperately tries not to fall in love. He fails.

Cue: An adorable five year old, prank wars, gay offs, break room gossip, a fake dating plot, firefighting shenanigans, a packed summer of PTA responsibilities, karaoke, and copious amounts of cupcakes and thai food

OR

tldr: the hot dilf from the bar is my new work partner

_________

SNIP

Phase two is still a secret from even Eddie. Buck has decided to use Josh’s playful distaste of Eddie to his advantage. He's spent the last week stealthily and not so stealthily taking pictures of Eddie. His best friend had no clue what was going on but went along with it anyway. So now that Buck has quite the album going, it is time to enact phase two. He's loving titled Phase Two: 'one million pictures of Eddie'.

The first picture was delivered in a tiny photo frame that Buck has gently placed on Josh’s desk before his arrival to work. Josh had spotted the photo immediately and swung accusatory glares around the room. Buck had stoically taken a phone call, although a laugh threatened to escape a time or two.

Day One of 'one million pictures of Eddie' commences perfectly when Josh storms the breakroom during Eddie’s first fifteen minute break of the day.

“What is this?” Josh accuses. Eddie stares at the picture of himself in the tiny frame in bemusement. He glances up at Josh, a retort on his tongue, until he notices Buck standing behind Josh, smothering giggles. Eddie’s face returns to something a shade more neutral. He shrugs, “If you wanted a picture of me for your desk, you could have asked.” Josh splutters, and by the time he spins around to storm away, Buck has straightened himself out. Once Josh has returned to his desk, Eddie and Buck break down into peals of giggles.

“Genius,” Eddie replies.

“Oh no, Eddie. This is only the beginning.” Eddie had arched his eyebrows, but Buck wasn’t ready to put his cards all on the table quite yet. Over the next few days, Buck tapes pictures of Eddie all over Josh’s desk in the least likely of places. He’s special ordered a coffee mug with Eddie’s face in the bottom. One morning, when Josh arrived to work, Linda 'innocently' handed him a full mug of coffee. 20 minutes later, Josh was spluttering at his desk. Buck’s by far favorite moment occurred when he shipped flowers to Josh with a present. When he opened the packaging, the last thing Josh was expecting was a ton of tiny pictures of Eddie that exploded out of the box like confetti.

“Buck.” Josh had said in a flat tone. “You’re so dead.”

When Buck goes over to Josh’s for dinner and their new episode of the Bachelor that evening, Josh explicitly details all the ways he's planning on dismembering Buck. Buck simply continued eating his ice cream with a shit eating grin.

What Josh didn’t know was that during his bathroom breaks or any time Josh left the room, Buck was hiding hundreds of tiny pictures of Eddie all over his apartment. Josh would probably be finding pictures of Eddie for the rest of his life, or at the least until he moved.

Yes, the prank had taken hours of Buck’s life, but he decides it is well worth it each time Josh gets startled by another Eddie. This is the first time in Buck’s life, since his injury, that he thinks he might survive if he was never able to return to firefighting. He loves his coworkers here, and it no longer felt like the end of his life. Buck likes being the go-to person with the knowledge from his first-hand experience in the field, as well as his random knowledge that never seemed to fail to impress his coworkers and occasionally came in handy. Buck loves feeling useful.

One of them had mistakenly told Buck that he was the smartest person they had ever met. Whenever he thought about it in passing, it would make him laugh all over again. Over the years, he’d failed at everything school-related. He couldn’t study for the life of him, and he had so much useless information rattling around in his brain that he always assumed would never apply to anything, but sometimes, in his line of work as a first responder, it did. For the first time in his life, he's smart and competent, and if that doesn't give him a rush.

The feeling of calm that accompanied finding his place here over the last few months still didn’t distract from his excitement each time he made progress in PT. He still has plenty of exercises to do, but their intensity was lessening, and it was becoming less and less painful. He would be able to work out properly again in no time. Maybe that would help him feel a little less pent up—especially with all the extra time he’s been spending with Eddie.

It's hard not to feel something when Eddie fixes his mischievous gaze on Buck when he's got a new idea with which they can harass Josh. It does something to his heart—he knows, medically, that hearts that don’t really skip (at least not without a serious medical condition), but he swears that's what happens every time Eddie turns that know-it-all smirk in his direction. There is some sort of chemical reaction that zips through his whole body each time. He feels it again tonight when night Eddie turns a scheming grin upon him.

"I think it's time for stage three.”

“You still have not given me specifics of what stage three really is outside of the words, ‘pen heist’."

“This is so much more than just a ‘pen heist’. I call stage three: emotional warfare." Eddie informs Buck seriously. "This is the final phase. This is when Josh will snap."

"Emotional warfare?" Buck asks in amusement. “How is that any different than what we’re already doing?”

“What we were doing before was passive. If this is going to work, we’re going to have to be careful and calculating.” Eddie grins, goofy and carefree, and completely adorable. He cards a hand through his hair—it has grown out a lot over the last few months. And when he talked about considering shaving it all off, Buck gently convinced him otherwise.

"I think the length suits you." Buck had said. He didn't voice any of the slightly filthier thoughts that might have wormed into his head.

He also thinks Eddie is supremely hot when he runs his hand through his hair. Is that something people usually find hot? Still, Buck wasn’t mad about when Eddie took his comment into consideration and made an appointment with a barber who’d just given him a basic trim.

Eddie runs his hand through his hair again now—Buck is so screwed.

[autistic-stedebonnet]

buck would be the kinda guy to get offered adderall to get high in college and sit there the calmest and most productive he's ever been in his life while his frat bros are just high off their asses. and then he does absolutely nothing about it.

[emilyrosecreatives]

bi & adhd buck are so important to me 🫶

[tiringwritings]

BIKER BUCK IS SO HOT!!

[weewoo911]

I know some people are committed Bucks-Loft-Haters but tbh the strongest opinion I hold on it is that there’s no way he hasn’t fallen down those stairs at least once 🤷‍♀️