#adding this to that bc i .. ranted again
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i am being so brave trying so hard to hold back writing a rant about that 'minimizing narrative noise' comment on totk sage concept art bc its actively flying around in my head like the worlds most annoying fly
#ganondoodles talks#zelda#i have .... thigns to say...............#i need to wait until i get a look at the entire book#and cant go on rants on single comments#then again .... what else is in there .................#i am dreading this thing#like id rather know that there was trouble during development than having a dozen of shitty comments obviously trying to cover up-#-for something- this CANNOT be true#yes narrative noise is a thing that exists- but in THIS game????????????????????????????????????????????????????????#like you basically cut down the already boring plot into its bare essentials that isnt executed well either#and then add confusion and menaingless detailes like the sage helmets āāconnectingāā the sonau to the shiekah#when rly it just makes it more confusing bc the hsiekah a prectically gone- the fuck kind of conenction is there#like THAT is what id call narrative noise- weird details that make no sense and arent important#also you cant make a character the equivilant of a blank box and then say 'we wanted them to feel powerful and scary' or sth#BC YOUD NEED TO MAKE THE CHARACTER ANYTHIGN -BUT- A BLANK BOX TO HAVE THEM BE INTIMIDATING#ALSO all the ancient stupid sages do is stand around repeating words like they are puppets- you dont see them fight ever#āintimitadtignā my ASS the useless little knife fake zelda throws at sonia from half a mile away and prob wouldnt even have gotten through-#-her hair is more intimidating than any of the blank box mc sages#youd think they learned their lesson when they made the botw champions DLC bc it fleshed their characters out more and added better-#-shrines BUT NO apparently that was a big mistake huh#maybe thats why every single character is reduced to one boring stereotype or a blank box of nothing in totk#having zelda be anything else but a swooing little damsel waiting for her prince was narrative noise needing to be removed HUH#writing team all fired or what- literally WHAT was going on in there
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So I've been reading Intoxicating Fear for a while now and (Oskit shippers don't come after me) I don't see Kit and Ambrose being together. I get Ambrose but can be somewhat gentle with Kit, but I just don't think I've really seen it till now. I don't think their vibes or morals line up. I could see Jude and Ambrose together, as like a power couple of sorts, but I think don't Kit and Ambrose would be well together. (I'm sorry if this is repetitive and no one asked for my opinion on the matter. I love your work so much,
HAH HAAAAAAGGHH!!! YES!!!! WOOOOO!!!! THANK YOU ANON!!!!!! *sending kisses and bouquets of roses and popping champagne* I ABSOLUTELY ASKED FOR YOUR OPINION ON THE MATTER!!!! HAHAAAHHH! IāM NOT THE ONLY ONE!!! Now, Oskit shippers also donāt come for me, but I agree!!! Wholly and completely.
I agree that Ambrose can be gentle, and that their morals or vibes join up at all! My reasoning against them as a couple is simply because Kit would never, ever forgive Ambrose for what he did to him, what he took from him. Kit didnāt have a good life growing up, and then he found Mentor and his calling in the Hero academy ā so when Mentor took him in and gave him a home and a life and love, Kit slowly, very slowly, let his guard down and started to believe the stories and movies about life being good, and thenā Omen attacks and Kit is left alone again after taking the risk of hoping for a better life for himself.
It also doesnāt sit well with me because who has the power in their relationship? Ambrose, always, always Ambrose. So even if Ambrose made advances would Kit be too afraid to say no? And that makes it too like situations that happen in real life for me
Jude and Ambrose however? They are on the same kind of power balance (both in power and status and how they hold themselves) which would be a-okay to write, but because Kit is Ambroseās second victim *ever* [and also just his victim] it is far too personal for Kit to ever get passed that and love Ambrose āā unless, Ambrose compelled him, and then it kind of goes into the Jessica Jones realm
Having said that, Oskit shippers, I get it, I love a good unbalanced power dynamic myself where love blooms ā hell power imbalances in general (esp in whump, WOOF) ā and I also love that you see something in the story that I never intended, and felt strongly enough about it to bring it to my attention!!! It has been a very fun and fucking hilarious experience, and I really like the coffee shop AU idea so it probably will happen, just not in canon š
But ANON, may the gods smile on you today for sharing your thoughts and opinions on the matter, I thought I was fighting against the army of Oskit shippers by myself, but now we can go back to back and fend them off with spears XD
#thank you for sharing!!!!#iām not alone#i feel so validated bc of you <3#but now#because you so kindly added your thoughts#I will need to immediately conscript you for war#against the Oskit ship#we need to commandeer a pirate ship and crew#one with canons#and minimal holes#so we can fight them outside the beaches#on the oceans!!!#take that Winston š#and thank you for reading <3#and sharing again#I donāt bite#except for Oskit shippers#in which case#i chew 3:)#intoxicating fear discussion#the tags are my playground today#iām like a child without a leash#feral af#I apologise for the MANY RANTS TODAY#for clogging up your feeds#but in reality#i know i am not#and idk which is worse
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do u have any idea how agonizing it is being an autistic person w broadway special interest but u live in fawking canada.
#i went to ny for the first time for my bday in may but probably will not go again for several years bc#omg that shit was expensive#but it was literally the best week of my life but#like i want to live there š why did my fawking autism brain have to fixate on broadway and not like. something important and/or close to me#WHY ALL THE WAY OVER THEREEEE#also adding that when i went i saw great gatsby instead of the outsiders bc my last one was between those 2#but the outsiders album wasnāt out & i wasnāt sure if my family would like it#so i chose great gatsby. do u know how bad i regret that.#bc then i just HAAAD to get the biggest hyperfixation ever on this fawking musical i COUKSVE seen and didnāt. omg#like less than a month later too. the cast album literally came out on my bday and i missed my chance so bad.#anyway thatās my rant thank you tumblr
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bright leaving gmmtv is literally zero surprise but OOF, gmmtv must be sour as all hell bc he probably represented like 20% of their revenue with all of his brand deals alone š¬
#axelle rants#gmmtv#bright vachirawit#I knew he'd dip as soon as he can bc why wouldn't he lol he's thailand poster boy for every fucking ad he could just take a bigger cut -#- without being at gmmtv#also bc bright blew up with his first role at gmmtv & became practically a god I think he never got to experience the true family that -#- gmmtv offers so again not surprising#what's surprising is that he'd just joined riser music so that doesn't make much sense... either he lied to gmmtv that he was gonna stay or-#- it was a last minute decision#in any case expect budget cuts at gmmtv next year LMAO
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who made the mtt. and no i dont mean like who made the CONCEPT of the murder time trio (because i know who that is. touken kamui i thank you for the fangame every day :3) but like,,,, who decided to just randomly pair these 3 together?? like whaaaat.......
part of me wants to believe it was rahafwabas with the whole bad sanses group thingy being made with those 3 in there and then like. the fangame just gave them specifically a seperate group name. but STILL,,,,, where did this trio come from
#so rain of dust got a reboot a couple of months ago and now triple the insanity did too#and my newest favorite detail in the video is that theres a section where dust and killer's sprites are#glitching out. wanna know why??? BECAUSE HORROR GOT DELETED MTT BETTA THEY ALWAYS TOGETHER#insanity is just a horror replacement i fear i dont understand at all why he's even in the trio#WHY IS IT A TRIO. IF THERE'S A SUPPOSED FOURTH. THATS A SQUAD BRO#istg he was just added there for like shock factor or smth bc horror wasn't powerful enough to keep up#it saddens me so much to have him here but also that means it saddens kist as well :3#and killer and dust's sprites are red while insanity's is purple#YOU WILL NEVER BE HIM INSANITY!!!! YOU WILL NEVER BE HORROR I FEAR#idc what anyone says idc how many people shit on the mtt fangsme concept i LOVE IT#its like one of the few mtt content i get that doesnt involve nightmare#like. ok. bad sanses cool. i however could not give two shits about the oil monstrosity and cross#please i need my own little seperate island to myself where only i get to enjoy the mtt reboot songs#cycle of endless death against a common foe. they HAVE to learn how to work together no matter what#its not like they can just give up (looking at you horror) because the human will keep on killing again and again#waaait waaaaait in an mtt fangame dynamic horror would also experience the genocides :3 awww shared truama :3#isnt it so badass that horror literally had to get DELETED because he couldnt die and therefore the human got mad#ok fine maybe im glad theres at least a reason my boy got removed from the trio but still#the human can kill dust and killer as many times as they want. the other two will keep trying to stop them bc of dt#but horror CANT die. theres no fun in that. and one day he'll just give up. that's not amusing at all#i find it nice. a cute little parallel between the 3 :3 now horror gets his own personal genocidal human experience#man the mtt fangame human is smart asf like. DAMN. i forgot bro could just erase the trio#anyways i think that it's a good concept IDC. why are they stuck in the endless loop of human kill human reset? idk lemme check#i forgot that gaster was involved in this fuckass au LMAO but at least he's not THAT involved. more like a background character#the satsujinki was created only for murder. does it have any other thoughts? any other wants and needs? i love it so much my baby#and then the phase after that just consists of my trio emptily operating off the faintest instincts they have#after all this time spent together fighting do they not instinctually long for eachother?#me imagining these empty husks to hold hands and hug. as if theyd only truly be able to coexist peacefully with their minds lost#but at least theyre together. at least theyre always together forever :3 even if they don't know anything else#tricule rant
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I have to organize an event at work. I asked the assistant of the guy running the event whether he wants anything changed in the event room (tables moved, chairs added, etc).
She said "he wants the same layout he always uses for events."
I said "Can you be more specific? You know what the room's default layout is. Does he want anything moved or changed?"
She said, "I think he'd like the same setup he has always used."
MA'AM
#ma'am please#I work with her often. I like her#but.#the event guy does not have a singular setup he always uses#sometimes he wants extra chairs added#sometimes he wants extra room around the front podium#sometimes he keeps the default#ma'am I cannot do anything with 'the same as always'#I get you're just the messenger. but for the love of god#if I say 'can you elaborate' please just don't say the exact same thing again#I'd so much rather just get an 'I don't know' lmao š#I have to rant about my petty frustrations here bc the coworker I can complain to is home sick š#ah well#not my problem if they don't get their chairs arranged#invasion of the frogs
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how and why is there discourse about whether or not certain queer identities exist/if people should be allowed(???) to use them. why is "people know their own identity better than you ever could, and they're the only one who get a say on what they are" such a tough concept to grasp
i think if you find yourself offended by the label someone uses (especially if they're a stranger) or think it invalidates your own, it's a good idea to look inside yourself and question why that may be. more often than not, it's a result of insecurity or uncertainty of your own identity (or many other things, but i won't make a whole list here). whatever reason it is, until you resolve it, you shouldn't take it out on people for having an identity you don't understand
many have said it before but it's worth saying over and over. infighting only helps our oppressors. conservatives don't care if you're a cis gay or a xenogender aegosexual aplatonic lesbian, they hate all of us either way. trying to fit in by going for people who are easier targets for them isn't gonna help you, it'll just alienate you from your own community, and you're never gonna please them. the momentary rush you get from hearing you're not like "one of /those/ gay people" is not worth it and is gonna do more harm in the long run, i assure you
also, it is important to me to say this, but having some less than nice kneejerk reaction caused by confusion about an identity you don't understand doesn't mean you're a bad person or anything. as long as you aren't mean to that person, and you take a second to think smth along the lines of "wait a minute, this isn't any of my business" after having said reaction, you're good š a lot of reflexive reactions we have to things are ingrained into us simply by. well. living in a society š¤” and you're not terrible for having those thoughts. it's your actions that matter, and your second thought (the "wait, why did i just think that?") is more defining of your actual character and morals than your reflex. i know that having thoughts like this, even tho they're unwanted, can very easily make one spiral, so it's important to me that whoever needs to hear this knows this doesn't make you a bad person š you're good, keep taking actions to be good, accept other people even if you don't understand them, and you're on the right track :)
#i considered adding that last part in the tags but i figured it'll be too long for that š#i noticed i'm posting a lot of rants lately. sorry. but i do wanna make sure no one's actually feeling bad over them#if i complain about something that you do or call it mean and such. that doesn't make you a bad person#you can always work to change and grow š it's not easy but it starts with smaller steps than you'd expect#and now i just switched to a whole other topic from my original point. oops#i do firmly believe that any discourse about someone's identity is dumb as fuck#seeing it in poll blogs always makes me šš¬ like how is it any business for any of us. why is this up for debate#if a person says they're queer then they are. they don't need to pass some test or go through initiation to be accepted#if they feel comfortable with a certain word that's awesome. why does it matter to *you* which word they use#'they're only using this microlabel to feel special' so? is there anything wrong with that?#'this label contradicts [insert other identity that falls under the same umbrella]' ok. but does that hurt anyone in any way#a lot of identities can even be self contradictory. does it matter tho? does it affect anyone in any way?#'they might realize that label is wrong later' again. what's the harm in that.#i don't blame anyone for these thoughts bc like. this is how cishets view a lot of the even more common labels#so you're basically taught to think this way from day one. that doesn't mean you need to stick to that thought process#you might have these reflexes forever no matter how hard you try. but you'll get quicker about moving on from them#but you do have to try. you do have to realize that other people's identities aren't about you#anyway. this post feels like batting at a hornets nest. really hope i don't get some bad faith readers here lol#(i noticed a lot of places one could apply bad faith but like it's 3:30 am i'm too tired to add this many disclaimer.#so i'm gonna trust you to not jump to conclusions and to approach this in good faith okay? mwah š¤)#also my whole ramble abt morality (in the tags too) is relevant to. any topic really#i may just make a separate post about it really. .....tomorrow tho.
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this is my personal opinion on eddieās character and you have been warnedā¦ itās not a flattering one so if you love eddie donāt keep reading bc well you are probably not gonna like what i have to say under the cut
okay thenā¦
gotta get something out of my chest: eddie is a boring, flat, and edging on obnoxious character that mostly has the pretty privilege going on for him which is just another standard white guy. yes, i teared up when his death scene cameā¦ because how it affected dustin. otherwise, couldnāt care less about him and his on the nose āi always run away/didnt run away this timeā conflict
āoh, but eddie is a freak and treated as such, even hunted down and bullied. people can resonate with thatā i meanā¦ fine if you do, really, but also what about the Party? they are considered freaks, they are bullied, will even expresses even his closed ones make him feel like a freak. why about el? she was a freak too, the weirdo, the lab experiment that was hunted down and tortured. what about jonathan? he was the freak that probably killed his little brother in season one. we have seasons of these characters, characters who actually have depth to them with interesting conflicts and dynamics. and most importantly, characters who are freaks but that see each others as equals.
eddie? sure heās a freak. a freak who likes to bee in power, sitting on his throne during DND sessions whit his group of sheep wearing all the same tees as if it was an uniform, going out of his way to jump on tables and yell in peopleās faces bc he is not like other girls he is proud to be a freak and oppose to the status quo.
i mean, give me a break.
#adding to the tags how people went against jonathan for smoking weed as a coping mechanism but itās all cool and cute when eddie sells weed#lmao#tell me again how all eddie has going on for him isnāt just pretty privilege?#i was just talking about this with someone but i didnāt use to dislike eddie i was indifferent about him bc thereās just not a lot of him#but his stans and the way he is portraiyed in the fandom just irks me at this point#canāt bag all of his stans in a same place but you know most iāve seen are justā¦#if you like eddie fine. if he is your fav characterā¦ fine though i will forever believe you are part of the GA#if you are part of the group that will get mad and attack the duffers when eddie stays dead in s5 then i just wanna say#you donāt care about the plot of the show or the true main characters of the show you seem to only care about a flat character because you#probably either think he is hot or because you ship him with that other rather flat character on st#anyhow#this is a personal rant and if you donāt like it you can keep scrolling i guess#nic rants to the internet
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i have a list of hermits in my Brain that are like. "i really enjoy what ive seen of you in social interactions and im interested but i can Not get my brain to latch to your solo stuff" and it fills me with vague Guilt every day <3
#ive gotten better at it and even added some people who Were on this list to my rotation!#but like. š#bc its a lot of the ppl who Arent as popular and i Know That#and its like..... i am all too aware im Part Of The Problem ig jdkslfjakl#idk i KNOW its pointless guilt n i shouldnt feel bad. i have no obligation to watch; im just trying to have fun n neednt moralize it; etc#but. its still there yknow? you know theyre underrated and you Want to do better and expand your horizons and appreciate the work THEY do#but it just.. doesnt Click#it doesnt help that w expanding my povs it means repeating content a lot too#i kind of Struggled catching up some s10 people bc i was like. ugh im gonna have to go thru [x event] Again#so when its also something that doesnt Grab you in the same way the other stuff you've watched its hard to get past that TO the new stuff#idk this is just like. part vent/rant part jus sayin shit#i saw some good crit posts abt the fandom and popularity and all that and it brought it to mind#its also worse depending on how much of a literal hermit they are like. having a partner to speak with adds a Lot for me when watchin
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Ok at this point like . How are we feeling about other people adding shit onto your posts?
#LMFAO NOT A VAGUE NOT HOSTILE#my therapist just keeps telling me to remove ābutā from my vocabulary so I can acknowledge when things are hurtful but may be unreasonable#to be upset about#but Iām just wondering bc I stopped doing that when it seemed like people got a little miffed about permission and asking and first and stuf#but now I feel like weāre doing it again#and idk how to feel#adding our own thoughts I mean#esp when the person doesnāt follow me and I really like their writing and wish they did#they followed me on ihb like two days before I switched blogs#and just didnāt ever follow me here#which Iām not expecting ofc no one has to follow anyone#but recently Iāve felt a little like :( bc I feel kinda disconnected from other writers#and have lost some other moots I liked too and idk why#idk and itās a ME problem to be sensitive#but itās on my mind (and itās on my mind? idk)#anyway lol#just a lil ranty rant#caitie blabs
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Oh man I saw your totk issues post and I agree 100%!! Those are all things that have really bothered me about playing totk, and things that made playing it not nearly as fun (the dungeons, the shrines, the building, etc).
Especially the map!! When I tell you I was so disappointed by the maps on totk, I was hoping for something new! It really just feels like a modded botw, not an official sequel.
I was wondering what your thoughts are on the concept of āwhat if they had sent link to the past insteadā? So the surface map would feature huge differences in the land forms and buildings that exist, and weād get to see more ganon whenever he visits Hyrule, or go out to the desert to see Gerudo town, etc.
If they really wanted no sheika tech, they could also just have it being newly built? And you could introduce the new characters and such, etc etc.
(I also think the past champions are such a missed opportunity? If botw is about grief and loneliness, and finding hope in the hopeless, and Totk is about coming together despite that, it could have been really interesting if Link had gone to the past! They could have used the past setting as an eerie reminder to what Link and Zelda had lost when the Calamity struck!)
THAT BEING SAID: Iām not as familiar with the legend of Zelda lore, and havenāt played totk very much! I wanted to know your thoughts on this because you seem to have a lot of story and game mechanic knowledge that could explain why this could be a bad/good idea!
(Plus, your discussions are always super interesting to read, as is your custom totk lore, so Iād love to know what you thinkš©·)
Iām sorry if youāve already answered an ask like this! If thatās the case, feel free to point that out and Iāll go through your ask tag if you have one:) I hope you have a great day!āļø
Hi!
im glad you enjoy my rants, i often feel like im being overly mean but tbh were else could i just rant as much as my heart desires without getting spammed by annoying people (certainly not on twitter lol)
i have talked alot, and i mean ALOT, about totk and my issues with it, both lore and gameplay wise, i dont claim to be an expert on any, though i am an old zelda fan and aspiring gamedev, i really only talk about what i feel about it, what i think about it, and by all means im biased as hell xD
if you dont know yet, the "ganondoodles rants" tag is where all my rants go, so if you are interested in reading more on my totk thoughts thats the way to search (given tumblrs search in blog works ..)
and to answers your question, i have touched on it briefly, sending link back in time before the shiekah tech existed would have been an easy way to excuse how they jsut got .. rid of it, bc they didnt, it literally didnt exist yet- and for reusing the map- though that argument falls a little flat bc ... they coud have already done that in present totk, like i brought up in one of said rants, things like flooding gerudo desert, collapsing death mountain, drying out zoras domain etc, and changing the location of the main populations would have already done alot without having to redo the map in its entirety;
the little changes to map itself really wouldnt that big of a deal if they didnt also send you to the EXACT same locations AND repeat the SAME LOCATIONS AGAIN but in the underground, like thats a fact i have talked about multiple times bc its so illogical in every way, anywhere theres a settlement on the surface theres a bigger mine below, its so stupid, the shrines conenct to a lightroot, the same, again, you dont need to explore bc theres nothing TO explore (its also extra weird bc theres one below taburasa (tarrey town) which .... link literally build with dumsda (hudson) a few years ago .. unless that got retconned too idk wth do i know anymore honestly- AND it makes the sonau extra weird bc why the hell do they have a bigass mine under every settlement ESPECIALLY UNDER GERUDO TOWN like, that just adds to my suspicions towards them)
anyway, link to the past was the point and yes, it could have solved a few issues (mainly shiekah tech and the whole "story" taking place AGAIN in the past completely disconnected from you the player) i personally am not so much a fan of it, but that mostly comes down to me just not liking time travel, i dont like going back in time, i want to play and do things in the here and now, i want to repair the damages of the calamity, find out its origins, maybe fix that too, i love to learn about past stuff too, but that more in text, no literal flashback (unless done well), i want to connect to the past but it also holds alot of mystery that maybe shouldnt be touched upon, some mysteries and unkowns are much more interesting when left as such, i want to THINK about things and come to conclusions that are logical and makes sense in hindsight even if it wasnt clear at the start, i dont want information and what to think about it told to my face over and over like im stupid
after botw i really didnt care much about the past, maybe about the acient hero who alot of people specualted to be of gerudo origin due to its red hair- which also got a monkeys paw curled bc in totk they do sth with but its so stupid and insulting that i do not accept it as canon, say what they want, there are no dog people anywhere in the past nor present botw/totk wtf is that i hate it- and its not even .. why is that the reward for that, it has literally NOTHING TO DO WITH TOTK ITSELF I COULD YELLLL AAAARGH
main point is that really, i wanted to explore the past .. in the present, i hoped to find broken old shiekah structures, old labs and maybe some left over damage and records from when the old king persecuted the shiekah for their tech, i wanted to know where the ancient energy the shiekah used was coming from, what the boss arena in the middle of hyrule castle really was- so many things just discarded and acted like they never happened or mattered; i dont want to travel into the past, i want to discover whats left of it, piece it together, discover dark secrets you can ask no one about bc all that knew about it are long gone- thats what intrigued me about botw, it felt like there was so much left to discover only for totk to throw it all away and just do its own thing .. but not commit to that hard enough either so its neither its own thing nor a sequel-
.. that wasnt really what you wanted to know was it? xD sorry i tend to ramble on if someone seems to give me permission to
to sum it up, i think it COULD work, sending link to the past instead, if done well, but so could canon totk have been, it could have been done well but wasnt for reasons i dont know and tbh even fear bc i worry its sets a dark future ahead of zelda; i personalyl am just not a fan of time travel so i dont have that much to say to it :O
#ganondoodles answers#ganondoodles talks#zelda#ganondoodles rants#adding this to that bc i .. ranted again#you ask for a pebble and get a landslide#my rambling mouth could never shut up#also dont apologize pls#i might not always answer but you have my permission to rant into my inbox#i often feel alone in my rants like its just my own brainrot taking hold
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Genuinely so sick of getting shit I just talked about advertised to me
#mom showed me some stupidass ring she wants on QVC 30 minutes ago and i open tumblr and there it is again#its bc i fucking installed instagram isth#bc since then i keep gettinf extremely unnerving ads of shit i was just talking about#im tired of being a marketing pawn i don't want to buy your fucking products i don't want my every waking minute to be recorded so companies#can pinpoint what to sell to me and put it in my face#im tired#elliot rambles#rant
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i am not moving to your humid little city brisbane go somewhere else with your ads brisbane city council
#i like brisbane and all but why am i getting ads for it?? whats the goal#anyway if i wanted to move across rhe country to a hot city i would go to darwin not brisbane#because my uncle & cousin (and i guess my step aunt and sort of aunt in a way?? because my aunt who is my cousins mother isnt with my uncle#anymore and my uncle is with someone else who hes in a pretty long term relationship with soā¦ two aunts? but i dont know them too well)#sorry idk why i started talking about aunts and stuff point is i am not moving to brisbane#oh yeah also id want to go to darwin again just bc i literally can barely remember it beyond: hot. humid. apartment building where my cousin#lived. conversation about brick disguised as cake. airport. and thats it so i want to see what its actually like#since five yesr old meās memory isnt great#alright darwin rant over for real now! brisbane stop advertising yourself to me
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#gonna give these a try bc im noticing pain not (just) in my joints but also in my lower legs as a whole and. i am wondering.#anyways does that 8-15 get added to the diastolic or systolic number.. or both i guess; i didnt even think about that#gonna just ask my eds doc when i see him again bc i have a list of questions i wanna ask#š¤chronic illness tagš¤#hoatm rants
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#ive been added to this gc for the 3rd or 4th time after i explicitly asked to NOT be added back bc im always fucking getting ignored like#last time the person who added me was like omg i hope this is ok and i was like no itās actually not ok i dont wanna be added back please#dont add me back and she was like omg im so sorry i totally understand :( and she did it again š#the reason i didnt wanna be added back was bc i considered them my best friends at some point but ever since like the p*ndemic started#everything just went downhill and on one hand i understand they have their own lives and donāt have time to answer etc but on the other hand#they never had time to reply to MYYYYYY messages specifically š and it hurt bitch to be always the one ignored#and the reason i havent left this time like i just didnt care to be added back was bc idc anymore like alsjfjfk im still in contact to#whoever i wanna be in contact with i still text someone individually like i donāt need to be in a group setting to be friends with this#person and sheās mentioned a bunch of times how dead it is lmao so i was like wtv i do send a text once in a blue moon but itās not as#active as it was when i originally left so itās not obvious when im ignored lol BUT!!!!!!#the person who added me backā¦. the person who IGNORED my boundaries and request to leave me the fuck alone has ignored every single message#ive sent since she added me back :)#like she literally just wants public for her little show and she did this even before i left and was the main person why i left lmao bc the#rest were like going through stuff and i was like u cant be here i get it but sheās always ANYWAYS SO ABOUT ME!!!#i literally sent a text i think yesterday? and she didnāt reply to it at all but she just started talking about herself like š WHY DID U ADD#ME BACK!!!! u dont āmiss USā lmfao u miss that i kept the gc alive which gave u attention !!!!#i dont want to be ur fucking spectator go post it on fb#anyways end of rant š
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queen of the damned is really trying my patience
#itās steeped in colorism and orientalism and itās actually painful to get through#the first 60-70% ? loved it!! i was really enjoying the perspective switching and the build up to the twin lore#and now itās like āso all egyptains were pure white and akasha has decided to slaughter brown people firstā#and itās like hmmmm#and mind you i really think a lot of it was unintentional#i dont think anne rice was trying to be overtly racist but ā¦..#there has only been one (1) black vampire.. and now akasha blood is bleaching lestatās skin#(shout out to Davis may you rest in peace)#and all the people being slaughtered are being treated as āuncivilizedā people who still believe in those heathen religions#<-wasnāt explicitly said but 1000% the vibes#thereās also some weird sexism going on that i wonāt get into#but yeah all these vampires being white with blue eyes is starting to feel more and more grotesque to me#and I canāt even get into everything. as someone who studied ancient Egypt quite a bit in college there is so much that makes me want to#bash my head through a walk#*wall#ANYWAY#thank god the show has made so many changes bc dear god#also one last thing#itās not like all of this came out of nowhere#Louisās whole thing is being overly caring and empathetic but homie was literally a plantation owner#anti black shit is baked into the series unfortunately#but as the tv adaptation has proved it really did not have to be as bad as it is#and again queen of the damned had me solidly for the first half (and even a bit longer) but all the small grievances I had during that#part have added up and now the whole twin lore is just the final straw#listen I think having the vampirism start in Egypt makes sense but .. augh#I canāt even get into it#ending my rant here#thanks for reading if you did but feel free to ignore me#i ā unfortunately ā do intend to finish the series#but ā¦ my expectations are low
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