#ada🍀

[anton-rasputin]

Silly play time

[onthr-dream]

MONSTER

Character: obsessive!Ada Wong × reader(y/n) × Leon S. Kennedy

A bloodthirsty monster has been appearing and kidnapping people on the village. And then there's y/n l/n, an unfortunate girl who happened to catch the monster's eyes.

Tw: poly relationship, curse word, excessive ise of y/n, gore, cannibalism, toxic behavior, obsessive Ada, monster/fantasy stuff, Ada and reader being a monster, grammar/spelling mistake, reader's parent being irresponsible :D

Notes: i know i said i'm quitting writing but i need to write this sooooo bad. Also please tell me if i have any mistake or tw to add :p

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"John went missing? That must be that monster's fault, gosh when will it stop" said y/n with a tone filled with annoyance.

"You all must be carefull okay? Especially you y/n! You live alone!" The old lady chime in and y/n only nod to indicate that she understand.

Y/n l/n, an ordinary girl who live in a small village. Her parents left her alone in the village once she turned 10 and the kind old lady always take care of her. Currently, she works at the old lady's bakery to repay her kindness and finance for her own life. Seems like everything went well right? Yes, until some people went missing and they got discovered with only some of their body parts, leg, arm, even only their head is left. This of course, concern the villager. Some assume it was a monster, some assume it was the bear, some assume it was a psychopath, no one really know. Y/n? She assume it was a monster. She hate hate hate it, not only did it destroy the village's peace, but it -or should i say, she- keep appearing near her. She always there in her dream, whether she was gutting people or showing her some body parts that later can be found on the forest nearby her village. She also saw a lady just like her near her house or inside the wood. She felt uneasy because of that, y/n was dead terrified.

Damn, what if i was her next victim.

Y/n couldn't remember her feature, all she know is she always wear red dress that hugged her body nicely and a short black hair. She's mesmerizing, she can admit that, but the fact that she gutted one of the villager is your dream is just weird. It must've been just a weird dream...right?

"Y/n? You okay there?"

A voice snapped her out of her deep thoughts. Oh, Leon, Leon Scott Kennedy, her best friend and the old lady's grandson. He was the only boy who was nice to her when she was a newcomer, while the other boy mock or teases her.

"You surprised me!" She nudge him in the arm lightly.

"Not my fault you're spacing out. Grandma told me to gave these eggs to you, where should i put it? Are you making macaroon?"

"Oh! Put the eggs on that corner. Wanna have a taste?" Y/n offer the macaroon to him and he happily agree. He approached y/n and take a bite of the macaroon in her hand, and oh gosh, he does look heavenly. His blonde hair paired with blue eyes and seemingly soft lips touching her gloved fingertips lightly, y/n can feel her stomach filled with butterfly. She wished he know about her feelings towards him, she cherished him, she loved him, she adored him with all of her heart, if only he know.

"Oh wow, good as always. Grandma makes no mistake when she hire you hm?" He gently wipes the side of his mouth and excuse himself to leave the kitchen with a slight smile. He could've gave her a heart attack, no no, he gave her a heart attack already.

Y/n stacked the macaroon into the display case and carry them into the store, then opening the bakery. After hours of working and lunch break is finally here. Y/n decided to ignore her stomach and sleep off the lunch break since she can barely sleep due to that 'lady in red' she calls. Sleeping felt so short after she got woken up by the feeling of someone is watching her. She opened her eyes and she swore she saw a short haired woman with red dress in front of her face. She quickly snap her eyes fully open and check her surrounding, nobody's there. She got up and look around, nothing. She looked outside the bakery, nothing. She stand in the middle of the bakery completely frozen, confused who that person was and why she looked awfully similar to that 'lady in red' inside her dream. She stared into the wall until she felt a hand caressing her hair, she whipped her head around in surprise just to find Leon behind her.

"You sure you're okay? You've been running around the bakery and stared off into space, you don't even notice me being here"

Oh shot he saw me!? God that was so stupid. Do i look so weird just now?? God what the hell "um yeah..haha no worries, sorry i was having a weird dream"

"Did you ate yet? I uhh..bought some food for you and me..soo...wanna eat together?" He showed her the paper bag he has, probably containing food he meant.

"Sure! It's been a long time we didn't eat lunch together!"

Leon and y/n sat down on one of the bakery's seat, happily chatting with each other completely forgetting whatever happened just now.

Night fall upon the village, everyone is ready to be asleep, unless y/n. She's currently sitting on her bed reading book even though she can't read them as her mind is focusing on something else. That damn 'lady in red' keeps her mind occupied, it felt like she need to find her, she need to know who is she. She felt her body move on it's own, her mind is occupied with 'lady in red' to notice that she has been walking deep into the wood behind the village. Then, she heard a loud scream and knowing it must be a bad sign she tried to ran to the opposite direction she's standing. Until she saw someone kneeling on the ground.

I think i can ask her for a help!

She approach her and the person stand up, looking back at her. My face draws an absolute horror towards her, her blood covered mouth and red dress, just like 'lady in red' huh? And more scarily, her hand holding an organ. Just beside her is a dead body with some of her organs missing. I think i fucked up.

"Ah sorry for the bad first impression, dear y/n" the lady speak.

Fuck, she knew my name. I fucked up so bad this time.

"Don't be scared y/n i won't hurt you, ever. Name's Ada Wong, you catch my eyes y/n l/n. Let me keep you forever hm?" She said while approaching me. I know i should've run, but i think my body became frozen, it felt just like when i was in the bakery this noon. She dropped the organ she held and took out a little tube with syringe, she held my face with her bloodied hand and caress my cheek. She looked at me with adoration in her eyes while she inject me with the strange liquid she held. Y/n felt a soft lips against her forehead before she fall unconscious.

Y/n woke up on a comfortable bed, feeling her head being hurt so much. Everything seemed to be blurred, and she felt a warm hand caressing her head. She looked around only to found that she was in a bedroom belong to God knows who, she looked to the right and found 'lady in red' -or Ada Wong she said- beside me, remembering what she did last night scared y/n to death and made her jumped out the bed, running into whatever door she could find. Ada seemed to let that happened and smiled thinking to herself.

So you wanted the chase game? Okay then y/n

Meanwhile y/n was running downstairs and into seemingly the main door. She ran there until a figure blocked her way.

"Ah ah ah, no sweetheart. You'll regret it going outside" she held y/n by her waist to not let her running away more. Y/n struggled to let herself go but seems like she's stronger than she looks.

"P-please let me go" y/n felt her eyes pricked and her heart beating fast.

"I would love to, dear. But if i did, you'll do something you don't want to" Ada seems unamused by how y/n writhe against her, but y/n didn't gave up and keep trying.

"This is why you caught my eyes y/n. You never gave up and always try your hardest, such a sweet little human. I wanna keep you for myself, can't i?" Y/n didn't answer and keep trying. "Fine, you can go, but i'll warn you y/n l/n, as soon you stepped out there you might change into...something you didn't want. You'll come back to me eventually." She let go of her hands and y/n ran as fast as she can outside. She found herself in the middle of the unknown place, but she trust her instinct to run to the left and soon she found herself back to the village. As soon as she got there, Leon notices her first and went to hug her.

"Where have you been!? You've been missing for half a day! Did you got hurt? Did you meet something unusual? Are you okay?"

"L-leon, i'm completely fine. See not hurt! I'ill explain to you later..i felt a bit unwell"

Leon only nods in understanment and guide y/n into my house not far ahead. Y/n felt weak, her head is spinning around and she felt the urge to tore her skin apart. Yet she ignore it either way and just rest upon the bed until she fell asleep.

Y/n woke up in the middle of the night with a moonlight shining through the window of your bedroom. You walked out of your room just to find a food on the table with a note 'from Leon :)'. Your heart flutter at this discovery and began to eat the soup as you felt hungry, probably from not eating the whole day. Finishing eating, she put them on the sink and decided to take a walk outside.

Who know, maybe it's just a dream?

Breathing into the fresh air, y/n heard a sound calling for her. She whipped her head left and right to find who it was and no one is really there, no one unless a little deer looking at her from the distance. Y/n stupidly followed it, she thinks the deer is going to show her something. 5 minutes of running and they're in the middle of somewhere inside the wood. Y/n was tired, she felt like she wanted to tore her skin, that feeling was so great that y/n couldn't help but tore the deer's skin with her bare hand. The deer screech in agony and y/n felt a relieved over that sound, it's like a lullaby to her. She wanted more. She tore more of the deer's skin and breaking it's bone. Y/n felt happy, it's been a long time she didn't feel this level of happiness. She started to devour anything she can see from the deer's inside, heart, stomach, liver you name it, anything that could quench her thirst. It's a strange feeling. How come she felt this way?

"Y/n darling i think you've ate enough off that deer. Look at it, it's empty now."

A familiar voice snap y/n out of her cloudy thought. She looked down only to find her hand is soaked in blood and a dead deer in front of her, she jumped in surprise and back up from the dead deer.

"I told you to not go outside. And i guess you have to found out the hard way."

"Wait Ada, what just happened? Did you do this?" Y/n said, trying to stand up but her legs seems to gave up.

"Me? Very funny. It was you, obviously."

"The fuck? No way! I would never kill an animal, i just...can't"

"Yes way, honey. You've turned into one of me, 'a monster', 'a psychopath', whatever you called it. Let's go back to my house yes? I'll tell you more about it there. Beside, how did you will explain this to those villager?" Ada extend her hand to help y/n up and y/n gladly accept the help.

"R-right, but what about th-" y/n pointed at the dead deer.

"Leave it there and let nature do it's work"

Ada lead the way to her house while y/n is not far behind her.

The walk there filled with a slightly uncomfortable silence and a little squeak from animals around them. And finally they both arrived at the traditional modern house owned by Ada Wong herself. She let y/n in and sat her down in one of the couch with her sitting awfully close to y/n, she even put her head on y/n's shoulder.

"So, i know you have a thousand question. Ask me and i'll answer them" Ada started while gazing lovingly at y/n.

"Um..but can you like...not getting to close to me? I'm sorry, i'm a bit...uncomfortable?"

"But i'm your master, can't i be close to you? And before you ask, yes i turned you into a 'monster' like me, don't worry buttercup you're not fully turned yet. Maybe tonight you will.."

"What do you mean!? I don't wanna be a psychotic monster who destroy someone's life like you! And master!? Do you think i'm a pet or something!?" Y/n backed up, terrified of her discovery.

"I know it's shocking, but i wanna keep you forever with me and those villager are just a pest to us. So me turning you into monster are just for our own good and about that master thing..you can't get to far away from your master or you'll turn crazy, remember those deer? Poor little deer have to suffer from your own selfishness, soon it may be human."

Ada got closer again to y/n, inches away from her face. "It's your choice now, stay here with me or left and harm your loved one" Ada left and goes to the kitchen, leaving y/n blushing mess on the couch.

Holy shit that's hot. Fuck no! You can't fall for her, she's a monster, she even kidnap you!

"Y/n did you eat yet? Come on i'll show you your room, you can eat there since i know you wanted an alone time" Ada grab y/n's hand lightly to pull her up from the couch. Y/n suddenly went to hug Ada.

"I'm scared..i don't want to kill people. Please *please* keep me from hurting people."

Ada could feel y/n body trembling a little.

"Darling, you won't. As long as you stay with me, as long as you're being good for me. Do you think you could do that?"

Y/n went quiet for a second before nodding her head. She made up her mind, she will live here and never go out again, if possible lock herself up so no one especially Leon got hurt by herself.

And that happened a year ago, now, y/n has fully adapted on her way of living and Ada Wong. They even started to date each other around a month ago and that strengthen their bond more. But one particular person catches Ada's eyes one more time. It was this boy that y/n has a crush on, Leon Kennedy. At first Ada don't understand what's charming from him to the point that her beloved y/n fell for him, but she understood now.

"Y/n what do you think about bringing Leon Kennedy into our pact?"

Y/n's face lighten up with the mention of adding another person into their life, she has been dreaming about it since forever and the fact that Leon was the one that will be there, she was more than happy.

"Oh. My. Gosh. You're kidding!? Of course i would love to!" Y/n went to hug Ada, radiating happiness to anything around her.

"But you never told me how to do it though? Will it hurt?"

"Maybe a little. I just need to bite him while doing a little mating ritual, that's all, just like what we did a month ago." Ada winked at her, happy to see her all red and flustered.

"Stop mentioning that one! What about me? What am i gonna do?" Y/n let go of her, earning a little displeased grunt from Ada.

"Sit there and look pretty of course. What? Do you want to bite him too? Hm, i didn't know my baby is kinky" Ada teases, earning a light slap on her arms.

"But won't he be upset if we force him to do it?"

"Don't worry about that one, i have my own special way. Now go back inside, i'll go hunting for some food" Ada smiled to herself as she watched y/n goes back inside. And if you're curious of her 'special way' it was just a spell that Ada use to manipulate someone's mind, she has been using it for as long as she can remember, mostly to lure her victim, but now she always use it to make y/n stay with her.

It's for your own good

Ada thought as she left the house. Little did y/n know, Ada was going to her underground lab not far from there, that was the place she made injection and practices spells. After 2 hours without Ada, y/n felt bored and decided to take a walk around, letting her mind wonder off. Unknowingly, she walked a bit too close to the edge of the woods.

"Y/n?" A raspy male voice calling her from the distance.

Shit! Y/n ran off as fast as she could, unfortunately the male ran after her into the wood.

I can't run into the house, he'll know about Ada Y/n decided to turned around and face him.

"Leon! Stop!" Y/n said with heavy breathing. "L-listen, I-" her words halting as Leon fall down into unconsciousness with Ada behind him, holding a now empty syringe.

"What did you get yourself into, little y/n?" Ada kneel down on Leon and check his pulse.

"I'm so so so sorry to fuck this up! I was wandering around too far and he saw me!" Y/n explained in panic.

"Well, i guess we don't really have to kidnap him from the village. Consider this as a bonus, maybe? Come on let's go back and claim this handsome boy" Ada said as she picked him off the ground and walking off, y/n walking just beside her.

Leon woke up in a strange bedroom with a (h/c) colored woman cuddle up against his chest.

"Oh you woke up?" Ada put down the glass of water on the bedside table.

"I'm sorry, where am i?" Leon tried so hard to remember anything, but he got nothing.

"You seriously didn't remember? You got drunk last night, thankfully your girlfriends was there to help you up." Ada helped him sit up and gave him the water.

Right...i was getting drunk with Ada and y/n. Gosh that was fun "Mind join us cuddling, Ada?" Leon said while lifting the blanket for her to get in, which Ada happily do.

"So, are you ready to make a pact with both of us tonight?" Ada let out her smirk and Leon was blushing like crazy, knowing full well that what she meant is the mating ritual. Ada let out a lighthearted laugh, knowing that she succeeded on tricking those 2 humans into loving her. So easy to fool.

[smapple]

୨୧┈୨୧ Ada’s Blog ୨୧┈୨୧

୨୧┈୨୧ About me! ୨୧┈୨୧

You can call me ada, or andella! i use she/they pronouns I don’t have much of a typing quirk… or so i think??

I’m 11 (5-22) years young!! I am pretty new so i’m still figuring out how to handle things so i’m sorry if i’m not very active ..(・・;)

my interests are; My Little Pony, Baking, True Crime, Markiplier, DDR, And more!!

[plant-in-a-pot]

I'm thinking that at this point we should just write "Withers adopts durge" hcs because we're having brilliant ideas and the world should know

Honestly yes. Add in Arabella as the adoptive little sister as well and I think it would make the perfect found family mix of "I never knew I needed this but now that I have it, it's all I could ever ask for" :')

(Also something something Arabella having new strange powers she can't fully control and Durge sort of relating to it because they too have random bursts they can't control)

[cinammonelles]

For the drive them to the airport/help them move/attend their improv show: Vincent Nightray, Ada Vessalius, Xerxes Break

Exactly in that order

Would drive Vincent to the airport because, and I stress, I Cannot Fucking Drive and it would be hilarious to watch him slowly and horrifyingly realise this whilst being securely strapped in the passenger seat as I narrowly avoid hitting the 6th car in a row

Would help Ada move because I'm nosy as fuck and wanna see more of her occult stuff collection and also listen to her ramble abt her beloved occult stuff. Maybe also steal a few books from her collection while I'm at it ;)))) Also she has cute cats.

Would attend Break's improv show because. Well. Xerxes Break.

[rosemaze-reveries]

During an interview, the manor guests suddenly get a question about you.

this is def an experimental format!! i got this idea while reading the character letters. in the POV of an unknown interviewer (not reader). reader uses they/them.

🔗⚰️📰����❤️‍🩹💉🌪️✂️🍀🩰🔫🪡🤹🧲🦋🐍

Q. Could you describe your relationship with (Y/N)?

🔗 Ada - "Yes, that's my lover. I would say our relationship falls within the typical scope of that sort of thing. Of course, I believe we share something special, but everyone does when they're in love, don't they?" She covers all her bases in one decisive breath, leaving little room for me to comment.

⚰️ Aesop sits perfectly upright, fingers threaded at his knees. His eyes drift to the side and he seems to begin speaking mid-thought. "I had... cautioned myself not to upset their perception of me," he explains. "But they pried, and stayed, regardless of what they found... For that, I'm grateful."

📰 Alice has kept a sharp eye on me the entire time, but it's at this question that she drops the formalities. "I wasn't aware you would be prying into my personal affairs. Where did you learn that name?" Her frankness pins me in place. For some reason, I end up apologizing.

🔮 Eli can't help a sheepish smile from blooming across his face. "Well, truthfully... I don't use this term lightly, but they might be the love of my life." He has been consistently grounded with his responses, so I'm surprised to catch him flustered, however subtle it is. Personally, I'm touched.

❤️‍🩹 Emil considers for a moment. He doesn't meet me in the eye, instead pinning his gaze on nowhere in particular. A faint smile ghosts his lips. After a while, he answers, simply, "Safe."

💉 Emily's hands are folded neatly on her lap. At the mention of that name, her shoulders tense, but she otherwise maintains her composure. "Someone I trust." Her answer is vague and cautious, but acceptable. I'll try to uncover a deeper meaning behind that 'trust'.

🌪️ Ithaqua - "Mine." He is curt and to the point. Yours? I echo, hoping he'll elaborate. His head tilts to the side, and while I can't see the face behind his mask, a sense of dread suddenly overcomes me. I decide not to press further.

✂️ Jack stretches out his hand of blades, flexing each finger in front of him. I can't deny the cold sweat that drips down my spine just by being in his presence. "May I respond with a question of my own?" he says to me. "Suppose a butterfly loses its way, and winds up caught in a spider's web. Wouldn't you agree that the more it writhes and struggles, the more exhilarated the spider becomes?" I don't have the courage to hear out the rest of this analogy.

🍀 Lucky - "I've always been known as a pretty lucky guy, but the luckiest day of my life was when I met them! I remember it was the—" He drags me down a long-winded story about their life together. I get the idea. Eventually I'm forced to cut him off.

🩰 Margaretha twirls a curl of hair, a meek blush dusting her cheeks. "Have you ever been in love before? You're never prepared for the magic of it all. I feel a new rush with them everyday. I know, realistically, all good things come to an end, so I tried to remind myself to expect the worst, but they've proven over and over that... I'll never feel safer than in their arms." After rambling for some time, a look of surprise flashes across her face. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to go off like that. Oh, but I've just never met someone who feels so much like true love before."

🔫 Martha doesn't miss a beat. "Sorry, I don't know anyone by that name." I look down to double-check the name written in her file. Her watchful gaze follows my line of sight. Are you sure? I try. "Must've been some confusion somewhere," she insists. The next day, I realize all my files on her and (Y/N) have gone missing.

🪡 Matthias - "Wh-What?" he starts, but keeps going before I can repeat the question. "Oh, uh, an ally, I guess." Well, I gathered that much. When I press for more details, his head sinks low, fingers grasping at the armrest. "I don't know what they saw in me. Was it out of pity?"

🤹 Mike's eyes light up and he blinds me with a contagious smile. "(Y/N)'s a sneaky one, and I mean it—they've got me under the trickiest spell of all. Guess what happens every time I think about them?" Egged on by his grin, I take the bait. You get lovesick? I guess. Suddenly, he tosses a handful of butterfly glitter in my face. "I get butterflies!" Very funny, I sigh, exasperated with these carnies. Why did he have that on hand in the first place?

🧲 Norton leans back in his chair, scowling. "What's that got to do with anything?" He snaps a couple times in my face, urging me to "stay on topic." It's hard to say if this question struck a nerve, as he's been uncooperative for most of this interview, but my suspicions point me to prod further. After all, it'd have been much easier if he just said he didn't know them.

🦋 Vera's face contorts into a leery, hostile glower. "Why do you ask that?" Before I can say anything to mitigate the rising tension, she catches herself, and her expression softens slightly. "I'm sorry. That's... someone quite dear to me, so your question took me by surprise."

🐍 Yidhra's follower goes pale, clearly unnerved. "She won't answer that," she tells me through shallow breaths. "Th-This isn't my place to say, but I'd advise you not to involve yourself with that person." As if on cue, I get a sensation I can only describe as a hand slowly wrapping around my neck. It disappears when I move to scratch it. Must've been my imagination.

Part 2

[tanyahati]

Allahumma Shalli 'Alaa Sayyidinaa Muhammad Wa 'Alaa Aali Sayyidinaa Muhammad

TENTANG TAKDIR

🌿Takdir tidak selamanya sesuai dengan harapan kita

🌿 Hidup tidak selalu menyuguhkan kesenangan dan kebahagiaan

🌿 Satu masa ada kalanya kesedihan seakan tak habis-habisnya datang

🌿 Namun ada masanya kebahagiaan menghapuskan semua duka lara

🌿 Seakan air mata tak pernah ada mengisi hari

🌿 Akidah yang kokoh adalah kunci bagi jiwa mampu kuat dan tangguh melalui semua masa itu

🌿 Tak putus asa ketika berduka, tak lupa diri ketika bersuka ria

🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀

"Keyakinan yang jadi sandaran hati, bahwa Allah sudah merencanakan semua terbaik untuk hidup kita apapun itu. Janji Allah tentang ajal, jodoh, dan rizki yang tak bakal tertukar, pasti mendatangi pemiliknya sesuai jadwal yang Allah sudah tentukan, sejak 50.000 tahun sebelum penciptaan langit dan bumi. Jauh sebelum kita lahir."

┈••✾•◆❀◆•✾•TanyaHati•✾•◆❀◆•✾••‐‐‐

[careerclass]

Be Brave; Take Risks. Experience is priceless🍀

Kala itu aku masih berselimut dan bersembunyi di balik trauma

Aku yakin benar bahwa aku sudah siap lepas landas

Namun kenyataannya, aku berlarian kesana kemari mencari makna

Bahkan terburu-buru agar tidak terlihat begitu cemas

Berulang kali merapal mantra ketenangan

Diam menghilang ternyata bukan jawaban

Aku harus terus bergerak meski perlahan

Sebab dunia terus berputar walau aku merasa kesepian

Menjadi dewasa ternyata bukan hal mudah. Bahkan belajar menjadi lebih sabar dan ikhlas belum cukup. Dari beragam kejadian yang kita pernah lalui, ternyata yang paling sulit adalah menafsirkan maksud Tuhan. Sehingga memang keputusan dan pilihan yang ada, bisa jadi merupakan yang terbaik pada saat itu.

Tidak ada pilihan yang buruk, karena semua pilihan itu baik. Kapasitas dan kemampuan kita masih berbatas. Yang tentu saja menjadi kewajiban masing-masing dari kita untuk menjadi pribadi yang lebih baik.

Jika terlalu fokus pada impian yang belum terwujud, kita sering kali lupa untuk mensyukuri hal-hal yang sudah ada dalam hidup kita saat ini. Namun ketika kita menyederhanakan aspek dalam hidup, beban terasa lebih ringan dan bahkan menghargai momen dan pencapaian kecil yang juga berharga.

Dalam menjalani kehidupan, terkadang semua terasa menakutkan. Bukan berarti tidak mungkin dicapai. Hanya saja kita perlu menikmati dan juga sambil terus belajar.

Selamat bertumbuh dan berkembang ke arah yang lebih baik lagi buat kita semua🌱

Balikpapan, 15 Desember 2023

[anticidic]

Hello, it's " Ask Game for Fun" BSD edition....

1.) Who are 3 characters from BSD that really describe you (despite you don't really like them, maybe)?

2.) Which character that you dislike but you just love their designs?

3.) Which character that you love but you just dislike their designs?

4.) If you must choose, which 'super power' that you want for yourself from BSD? Why?

5.) Do you have any personal favorite head canons from BSD?

6.) If BSD og characters switch place with BSD beast AU, do you think they can survive? Why?

7.) If you were asked who are in BSD that you can see based on canon that are gay/bi/pan/demi/ace/aro/etc which characters are they?

Thanks if you want to answer 🍀

wait, is this an actual thing, anon?!

1.) Who are 3 characters from BSD that really describe you (despite you don't really like them, maybe)?

This one's a bit hard, because I feel like on a more surface level I relate to Dazai. And I think that's why I gravitated to him as my favorite character. The apathy, struggling to fit in with others, mental health struggles, masking. When I first got into bsd I was in a pretty bad spot, but I'm actually in a really good place now, so I'd say I still relate to the fact he likes joking around with others. Also, Chuuya because the short people problems are real and I have a friend irl who completely dwarves me and makes fun of me for it. 🫠 I'm also more of a wine drinker myself and I like being stylish! And third, I think Louisa! Even though I have to be super bubbly and outgoing in my job, I'm still awkward and shy with meeting and talking to people. And I also can get easily flustered. She's also a fellow coffee lover.

2.) Which character that you dislike but you just love their designs?

Another hard one. I don't really have many characters I actually dislike in bsd. Pushkin is one of them, and Ace is another, and Professor N, but that's honestly about it? Everyone else I'm either neutral/have no strong feelings toward, or like. But I guess I'll go with Ace for a cool design but a character I don't really care for.

3.) Which character that you love but you just dislike their designs?

Dislike is a bit strong for me to use. Atsushi's hair took a while to grow on me. I know why he has that haircut, of course, but I found it oddly distracting specifically in the anime. I really love his BEAST design though, having the shorter, sharper fringe. I also think Chuuya looks a lot better without his hat.

4.) If you must choose, which 'super power' that you want for yourself from BSD? Why?

My initial response was to say Chuuya's ability, because his gravity can be used in a lot of situations that aren't combat-related, but I wouldn't also want the Corruption that comes with it, sooo. UH. Maybe Oda's or Nikolai's? I'd like to be able to predict if something was about to happen to me, like a freak accident, and be able to avoid it, but Nikolai's is also nifty for teleporting. Gee, now Poe's sounds fun but I'd feel bad trapping people in my stories because they're usually angsty.

5.) Do you have any personal favorite head canons from BSD?

Dazai being touch-starved and emotionally constipated.

Though Dazai used to complain about how spicy curry was, he grew to like it because of Oda.

When Chuuya's in a good mood, he likes to hum to himself or repeat a song that's stuck in his head.

Before Atsushi started making some money at the ADA, he raided the employee fridge for food in a pinch and got caught by Kunikida.

6.) If BSD og characters switch place with BSD beast AU, do you think they can survive? Why?

Most of them are already in BEAST and did just fine. I actually think their BEAST selves would be more prepared for Fyodor's machinations because it doesn't matter about Dazai switching, he still has premonition of the other world and knows what Fyodor's plans are well in advance before they've even been put into motion. BEAST bsd characters would likely have had a way better chance of defeating Fyodor sooner before he got to where he was now.

7.) If you were asked who are in BSD that you can see based on canon that are gay/bi/pan/demi/ace/aro/etc which characters are they?

I headcanon Sigma as aroace. I just see him as someone who wants to go to work, do what he has to do, and that's it. He doesn't seem very invested in others beyond anything platonically. I'd also probably put Ranpo in that category. Ranpo doesn't mind making friends, but I feel like that's all he sees others as.

I'm not going to touch on Dazai, because I think he's a bit of an odder case. And also because my theories about this are actually incredibly dark. But Dazai doesn't have any qualms about using his body to get what he wants, and he's shown that in the manga. That's more of a mafia thing, though, and part of his manipulation. Him not valuing himself even extends to his body: he doesn't see intimacy as something to connect with someone or bond over, it's just another tool. I don't know about natural attraction, but he'll force himself to act attracted to someone if it'll get him what he wants.

[teriyakiryder37]

Tak apa, jika pada akhirnya hanya aku yang paling mengingatmu. Sungguh, tak ada penyesalan yang bersemayam dalam diriku. Jika kelak, tak sengaja kita bertemu lagi atau kesempatan itu datang lagi, aku akan ingat bahwa kamu pernah berarti di dalam hidupku. Aku menghargai semua moment. Aku bersyukur ketemu orang sepertimu.🍀

[anton-rasputin]

The more serious the character, the sillier the jokes

B👀ba

[blueewaves]

malaam ini mulai berdamai dengan pikiran,

mungkin juga akan menata diri lagi pelan-pelan,

agar melihat tak lagi hanya dari standar dunia, agar lebih memahami tujuan juga arti dari hidup bukan yang paling kaya, yang paling cantik, yang paling pintar, —kalau nggak dibarengi beramal dan ibadah— hati rasanya kosong, haus dan tidak pernah surut hausnya. kurang, kurang, kurang, jauh dari tenang, jauh dari bahagia.

lihat sebentar dari layar ponsel, langsung setumpuk rasa kurang dan rasa kerdil dalam diri. Kapan ya aku begini, kenapa aku belum seperti itu, wah hebat yah udah keluar negeri aja, wah hebat ya kantornya keren gajinya pasti gede, wah cantik ya fashionable banget baju bajunya, wah ngafe terus, wah orang orang udah punya pasangan aja yah....

I mean, GOOD for them,

Tapi kan yang jadi masalah kalau hati kita ini jadiii sempitt, syukurnya menipis, khawatirnya membuncah,

Padahal kalau pelan pelan kita tarik napas terus ingetin diri,

itu semua yang kamu khawatirin, kamu cemburu dan iri, di mata Allah tuh bagaimana? nilainya di akhirat nanti gimana?

apalagi kl kamu iri sama hal yg malah dilarang sm Allah.

iri dalam hal-hal baik, misal temen yg udh menemukan passionnya atau dpt tempat kerja lebih baik, atau dapat beasiswa... dan lain halnya,

Semoga allah berkahi,

Dan jadiin motivasi, kalau aku sukanya apa ya? Aku mau tanya tips ke dia ah! Aku harus usaha lebih semangat lagi di bagian mana ya? Aku mau mengevaluasi diriii biar bisa bertumbuh juga 🍀

Daan hidup memang tempatnya ujian, kalau ga dapet ujian berarti kita udh tidak hidup.

Jadi harus belajaar, harus tau ilmunya, belajar agama lagii.

Ketika allah mencintai hambanya, ia mengujinya, jadi jangan sedihhh, husnuzhon semoga kita termasuk hamba yg Dia cintai

Sambil banyak banyak istighfar atas semuaa salah yg buat hati kita sempit, jadi sulit mengambil hikmah dan petunjuk dari setiap episode kehidupan.

Allah paling tahu kita, dan allah sudah rancang yang terbaik setiap rezeki dan hidup kita. Jadi jangan khawatir, jangan takut, sebelum kita meninggal pasti allah akan tuntaskan semua takdir rezeki kita.

Dan ikhlaaas, ridha sama apa yg allah tentukan, kalau dikasih Alhamdulillah kalau ngga Alhamdulillah juga, yakin pasti allah tau yg terbaik daan pasti ada pengganti yg terbaik juga.

Bersabar memperbaiki hidup yg berantakan ini... Bersabar menunggu, bersabar dalam proses, emang islam ngajarin delayed gratification sbnrnya, gaada yg instan dan harus percayaa dan memupuk rasa yakin dan husnuzon. Biar kuat jalanin hidup, biar gak ambruk kalau ditolak banyak hal, kalau rencana gak sesuai pikiran kita, biar tetap tenang🌻

#berdamai #journalling #selfthought

[tulisanmimi]

You are precious, no matter what your failure.

Ada beberapa hal dalam hidup yang belum bisa kamu pahami hikmahnya. Ada beberapa hal juga membuatmu bingung kemana harus melangkah. Dari sekian banyak kemungkinan kejadian, ada beberapa hal yang hadir tak terduga. Begitulah hidup yang kita jalani. Sedalam apapun kamu tenggelam, sejauh apapun kamu melangkah. Ketika semesta seakan bercanda dengan segala lika-liku yang kamu hadapi. Aku hanya meminta kamu untuk berjuang, menghadapi apapun itu, sesulit, sesakit, selelah apapun itu. Berat? Iya, pasti. Bahkan hanya kamu diantara sekian milyar manusia di semesta ini Allah memilihmu.

Kamu keren kan! Kamu seberharga itu dalam menjalani hidupmu!

Peluk erat dan hangat dari jauh.

Teman berjuangmu 🌼🍀🤗

[wondererryn]

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😺Maya😺"

temped to put my name and pass it on now

[darinovember]

Meyakini bahwa apapun yang sedang diikhtiarkan saat ini tak akan berakhir sia-sia.. adalah sebuah amalan tauhid yang begitu panjang untuk ditemukan; bahwa sesuatu yang dimulai karena kebaikan, pasti akan berakhir juga menjadi sebuah kebaikan.

Pasang surut itu pasti ada, kapanpun dan bagaimana pun caranya ia datang menghampiri. Semakin tiba kita di pintu keluarnya, akan semakin hebat badainya, akan semakin kuat cobaannya.

Pada saat kita mau untuk belajar menyadari bahwa apapun yang ada di dunia ini datangnya dari Allah, maka kepada Allah juga lah kita meminta solusinya. Tapi saat kita pura-pura lupa dan merasa tak akan ada lagi hari esok untuk kita, saat kita merasa impian yang sudah kita bangun tinggi-tinggi lalu tiba-tiba semuanya hancur berantakan tanpa kita prediksi, dan kita hanya mengandalkan diri kita yang tak punya daya apalagi kehendak, segala sesuatunya kan membuat kita merutuki keadaan, dan mengatakan.. kenapa sampai seperti ini Allah menguji hamba-Nya?

Tugas kita, berikhtiar, sampai kapanpun. Allah Maha Tahu apapun yang kan terjadi di depan kita, dan tentu, Allah Maha Tahu bagaimana cara menyelesaikannya. Serumit apapun itu.

Persis hari-hari panjang di semester ini yang ku barengi dengan masuk kelas di akhir weekend; bukan hanya ingin kabur ketika mendapatkan tugas pr yang membuatku merasa sedang memecahkan rumus matematika, rasanya juga ingin bilang.. apa boleh mundur sekarang?

Tapi lagi lagi.. saat rasa putus asa itu hampir mendekati dasarnya, saat rasanya ga akan mungkin sampai kedua kaki ini di tempat-tempat yang menjadi impian, saat semua yang ada di depan sana terasa menakutkan dan tak mampu diprediksi bagaimana hasilnya, saat itu jugalah Allah nasihati dengan pelan,

"Percayalah, Syif, insyaAllah ilmu yang sedang kamu ikhtiarkan untuk kamu rengkuh sekarang dengan tertatih inj.. esok ia kan menjadi sesuatu yang baik juga. Esok ia pasti kan bermanfaat. Tak ada ilmu yang tak kan jadi ilmu yang bermanfaat, kecuali kamu memulainya atas dasar dunia. Bismillah. Terus berhusnudzan pada Allah."

Apapun itu, kalau kapal yang sedang kita naiki sedang banyak lobang yang membuat kita hampir tenggelam, mari belajar untuk mengembalikan semuanya pada Allah. Bahwa kita.. tak kan pernah mampu sampai di pelabuhan, kecuali atas izin-Nya 🥺🍀

(Pasbar, 14 September 2024)

[ifadhilaa]

Panggilan Itu adalah Haji dan Umroh

"Sebelumnya udah pernah umroh?" tanyanya sambil berdiri di hadapan kami. Kami tersenyum dan saling menatap, berharap kesempatan itu akan segera datang.

Seolah mengerti maksud kami, beliau melanjutkan kalimatnya. "Alhamdulillah. Umroh pertama saya dulu penuh cerita. Saya berangkat juga karena hadiah, sementara uang yang saya sisihkan untuk umroh sebelumnya sudah saya berikan untuk kedua orang tua saya melaksanakan ibadah haji."

Kami menyimak ceritanya.

"Singkat cerita, sesampainya saya di depan Ka'bah, saya duduk dan bertanya sama Allah. 'Ya Allah, kenapa Engkau panggil aku ke sini?'" lanjutnya. Kalimat yang ga aku sangka muncul dari seseorang yang Allah kasih kesempatan ibadah di rumah-Nya. "Kira-kira kenapa, Allah panggil saya ke sana?"

Kami terdiam.

"Apa yang saya dengar? Apa jawaban dari Allah?" beliau melempar pertanyaan.

Kami mencoba berpikir, apa kelanjutan hikmah yang akan beliau bagikan ini.

"Gak ada ya, pasti ga ada jawaban saat itu." lanjutnya sambil tertawa kecil. "Iya, waktu itu Ka'bah hanya diam. Ga bilang apa-apa."

Beliau melanjutkan ceritanya. "Coba, kalau temen-temen di sini lagi dipanggil menghadap ke atasan, temen-temen tanya ke atasan temen-temen, terus atasan temen-temen cuma diem aja. Apa yang temen-temen pikirin?"

Satu dua diantara kami menjawab. "Mungkin marah"

"Nah, sama. Saya saat juga berpikir seperti itu. Apa Allah marah ya, sampe panggil saya ke sini?" lanjutnya.

"Saya yang masih banyak dosa ini, ibadahnya belum sempurna, masih khilaf di sana sini, dengan segala rahmat dan kuasanya Allah, dipanggil beribadah di sana"

"Akhirnya, di samping memohon banyak permintaan, saya cuma bisa terdiam dan mengakui dosa-dosa. Kalau bukan karena Allah, entah nikmat apa yang bisa membawa saya sampai ke sana" pungkasnya.

Aku tertegun. Aku pikir tadinya, berangkat ke tanah suci pasti menyenangkan. Orang-orang yang bisa beribadah di sana pasti bahagia. Dekat dengan Ka'bah, bisa beribadah dengan mudah.

Baru kali ini, aku mendengar cerita seseorang yang dipanggil untuk beribadah di tanah suci, dan dia merasa tidak pantas untuk hadir di hadapan Allah karena segala dosa-dosa yang telah diperbuat. Jadi masih pantas ga sih kalo minta sama Allah buat dipanggil ibadah ke Baitullah?

Semoga Allah perkenankan kita bisa ibadah di rumah-Nya ya!

Colomadu, di pendopo belakang kantor 🍀

O Allah, I am waiting for the call