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daydadahlias · 1 year

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Honeysuckle

oh boy. so i wrote this last October and now I’m sharing it bc im in my insane era <3

Summary: Ashton realizes fairly soon into touring that remembering names isn’t worth his time.

or, it's the 1970s, Ashton is a homophobic lead singer and Luke is the new gay roadie on tour with his band.

Word Count: 28,837

Pairing: Luke Hemmings/Ashton Irwin

Rating: E

Content Warnings: alcohol / drinking / drunk kissing, period-typical homophobia, toxic relationship

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#lapis #im actually going to choose to say no words #and im just gonna thrust this one out into the world #and when yall read it if u do #u will see why i kept it hidden <3 #actually wait i do have words to say #so this is inspired by the Panic! at the Disco fic THROAM i read when i was 16 #and fell completely in love with #so there's like two scenes (?) in this fic that very closely mirror THROAM #but the rest is kind of... just me being weird #uhm ashton is the worst in this fic and i sure dont say that lightly #and u will power through 30k of this fic only to feel like u read 5k #that's how this fic is #and i know im hyping it up as being horrible too much #but #i just would like everyone to know what they're getting into #this fic has been infamous for me for. nine months #so #OKAY AND ENOUGH OF THAT !!#i have to go take a test <3 #i reserve the right to take this fic down in a week if i decide im ashamed of having it on my ao3 just saying #also very funny that i was like 'itll be urs within the week' and i meant 'tomorrow'

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egophiliac · 7 months

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GREAT GOOGLY MOOGLY, THE NEXT BOOK 7 UPDATE FOR THE JP SERVER IS SET FOR MARCH 1ST.

HOW WE FEELIN LADS!?!?!

AHHHHHHHH NOOO I'M NOT READY, I thought we'd be getting the fourth anniversary first and then Sebek's birthday and then maybe some more episode 7, I didn't -- I didn't think it'd be Friday --

oh god and they're rerunning the story cards, they didn't say this was the final part but it feels like...maybe the penultimate chapter? could the end of episode 7 finally be looming in the distance?! WHAT AM I GOING TO DO

#art #twisted wonderland #gif warning #gifs that accurately represent the inside of idia's brain whenever he has to have a social interaction #twisted wonderland spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers #THE SHROUDS ARE BACK IN TOWN BABY #time to find out how the heck ortho managed to hack(?) his way into the dreamscape(????) via a couple of robot dogs(????????)#a-are they going to show us dream!ortho #i don't know if i want that or not. i mean i do but DO I?#(chanting softly) ortho fight ortho fight ORTHO FIGHT --#okay no we're cool we're all cool here #preparing mentally to get exactly zero answers to any of my burning questions #(i kind of suspect anything involving crowley-and-possibly-revaan is going to wait until the presumed episode 8....)#(FEEL FREE TO PROVE ME WRONG THOUGH TWST)#man i just want someone to say the words silver vanrouge at some point #60/40 on whether or not i think it'll actually happen but i want this for my BOY #HE DESERVES IT #he's been through so much just let him have this #...there is something a little bit hilarious about sebek's birthday coming AFTER a big episode 7 drop though #we're gonna be in the middle of like. sebek manfully clasping silver's arm and monologuing about how they are brothers in soul or whatever #and smash cut straight into sebek in a sparkly silver bowtie screaming at a picture of goofy falling down a toilet #my kingdom hearts brethren...i am beginning to Understand

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turtleblogatlast · 3 months

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Shockingly underrated thing about Leo is that he’s legitimately charming when he wants to be?

He’s the Faceman! He’s persuasive! That’s not just some random title he gave himself with no backing to it. People will listen to him. Even if they think he’s being annoying or if they’re upset at him, people listen to him anyway! There’s a reason his bros push him out front to talk to people, and when this happens, that talking nearly always works.

Moreover, Leo knows people. He looks at them and takes into account how they act and what they’re like as he makes his way through the conversations. It’s easy to forget this aspect of Leo’s character because he only brings it out when he really needs (read: wants) to, but it really is a notable part of him that always love to see.

And I say charm in particular because he has a knack for not only getting people to pay attention, but for getting people to stay and listen to what he has to say.

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt leo #rise leo #I feel like people equate Leo to a lot of loud gross boy behavior instead of looking at his actual accomplishments #which fair enough #he IS a loud gross boy a lot of the time #but his charisma really deserves a mention for how much it comes in clutch #that one cut animatic of the other people in the resistance wanting Leo to join them for karaoke like #and yes those inspiring speeches he gives his fam are also an example of charm #bro has! charisma! he can have his loser moments and at the same time show off how to manipulate through words #Leo knows people and if he really wants to he can talk them up #but yeah like - I see people calling him the face man a lot but not so much taking into account what that entails #he’s got a pretty face! and he’ll do the talking a lot! but that’s not all a face man is #another thing that is SHOCKINGLY underrated in fandom is Raph loving fighting???#I have no idea why but I feel like I don’t see this mentioned enough #he adores wrestling and roughhousing and training and just FIGHTING in general plz let my boy punch something #I have more I wanna say but it’ll have to wait until later it is very late haaa #anyway my main point behind this post is that Leo knows people and in turn knows what they WANT #it is this same perception that makes him REALLY GOOD at getting under people’s skin too #people skills and adaptability really make sense when you take into account the fact that he’s a red eared slider #it really is cool to see how much this part of Leo is addressed throughout the series #nearly always in very lowkey ways

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dizzybizz · 7 months

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YOU THERE, SQUIRE! YOU SAID TO SEND ART REQUESTS! may i perhaps humbly ask for an Ollie...or a Prince Leon bc he's one of my favorite side characters..

i love this boy so much

#leon will have to wait for when i actually have an idea of what to do with his design. ive been wanting to draw him n garrieth NFGHNGHDFNN #albatrio was a great influence on leon #but with ollie they turn him into a little menace #he got a taste of saying a swear word once and there was no going back for him #just roll with it #jrwi riptide #jrwi ollie #my art #i love ollie and his character development its so fkn incredible god what a little guy #ty for requesting him >:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

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what-even-is-sleep · 4 months

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thinking about Bodkin again bc I mean,,, ALL THE SYMBOLISM OHHHHHGH. i NEED some tumblr film analysis hobbyists to watch this show and tell me all the themes n such

#yes I’m making all these posts in a row #it’s bc I’m obsessed atm #mypost #Bodkin #bodkin netflix #PLEASSEEEEE #WHY DID THE PAPER MACHE HEAD LOOK LIKE GILBERT #CAN WE HAVE AN IN-DEPTH CONVERSATION ABOUT EVERYTHING ABOUT GILBERT BEING FORCED TO SWALLOW/CHOKE ON HIS WORDS (recorder) BUT THAT SOUND—HIS #STORY (HIS pov. however ‘abstract’ and detatched from consequence it may have been) BEING WHAT CATCHES EMMY AND DOVEs ATTENTION TO SAVE HIM #. LIKE #OUGHHHHHWJEHQIHSJSBWJXNAJSNNQJZNWHXJWHXJEBXNDUSBJS #AND THE WOLF IMAGERY PLS SOMEONE TELL ME ABOUT THAT #IS THERE MORE THAN THE SURFACE? what do I not understand? as im writing this out am thinking: ok its cause dove is a lone wolf #WAITTTT WAIT OMFG AND when she remembers that her mom told her to howl when she was lost… bc wolves actually have family and I’m p sure the #lone wolf thing is a myth… after she realizes that she’s not alone and she can choose to interact #GOD GRAHHHHH IM GOING CRAZY OVER THIS SHOW #other things I’m thinking abt (will maybe make a post abt?)#OUGH YEAH OK dove symbolism: wolf/lone wolf. sunglasses/shielding herself (OUGH AND SHE PICKS UP THAT XTRA LAYER OF DEFENCE WHEN SHE COMES #BACK TO HOMELAND/familiar space… bc she’s vulnerable to her past here…. hrahhh #. also LMFAO when she calls the sheriff a piggy #hrmmmmm aughhh I want to dissect Gilbert and Seamus’s friendship oughhh #ok wait even more on Dove: I want to dig into when she calls Emmy Emmy vs Sizargd (will have to look up the spelling whoops) —was it always #blatant manipulation? how much of it is a reflection of what she is? hrmmmm there’s so much there I think #another Q: why did Emmy call the tech guy Shitpants again at the end? ik there were the stakes I just wanna dig into her character more. why #would she say the shitpants thing instead of manipulating him in other ways? (not saying her was was unreasonable at all lol-j wanna dig #into her character.#OH prob something abt the whole ‘her needing to release her anger’ thing? idk ahh I want to analyze her more

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myriadeyed · 3 months

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A short list of things I get species vibes from that I currently don't understand:

Sleep paralysis demons

The Twilight Zone intro speech

This song and this song

This video (not scary) and these videos (scary)

This music video and this music video

The bizarre animation on the creepy wizard from this 1980s Soviet cartoon

The Masked and the Bracken from Lethal Company

Brocken specters

The Crawler from Annihilation

Black holes

A solar eclipse

Satellites

No-Face

The Doctor Who monsters from the episodes Silence in the Library and Midnight

Trevor Henderson monsters

The Pokemon Marshadow and Iron Valiant

Angels ("biblically accurate" ones, aka regular ones)

The Thing

The Stranger from The Magnus Archives, a podcast I otherwise don't care for

The house from House of Leaves

The full electromagnetic spectrum

Lighthouses

The non-titular Beast from Over the Garden Wall

In essence

#musings #alterhuman #nonhuman #decipherings #(ok one of these does make sense because I actually am it. but I'm not saying which yet.) (possibly two of these -- I am questioning one.)#and yeah I can kinda categorize them into which is which? but I can't quite explain what I actually mean by that. like #they are not me. they are reminiscent of something that IS #they're ↈ and they're 🝎 and they're 𓆝. ↈ and 🝎 and 𓆝 are things that I am. no they do not have names or words #I just started keeping those tags because I'm like 🤔 wait these are falling into a pattern that only makes sense in my head #which is where my kintypes live #ok now i am editing this as i understand stuff. now that ''𓆝'' actually does have a word

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magistralucis · 8 months

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"I forgive you." - Yenekh/Oltyx (for @courgowr)

(Drabble Oneshot for a prompt fill challenge, prompts available here.)

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Even after all's been said and done there's one more thing that lingers, a guilt that has never gone away. Forgive me for what I have done, Oltyx often asks of his formal admiral, his hand upon a silver claw or a bloodied forehead, his own head bowed in shame. It is not enough that he overcame life and death for his atonement, it must be spelled out, or he is a sinner still. I was cruel and I was craven, and I had dealt with you unjustly.

Well, I forgive you, Yenekh had laughed the very first time. The following year Oltyx took him as consort. Yenekh has been nothing but patient with him since, repeatedly reassuring him that all had been long forgiven, the tips of his claws ticking fondly upon Oltyx's carapace. The king doesn't doubt that he means it, for the Razor is not by nature dishonest. But he's sure there must be more he can do for Yenekh, if not as a sinner than as one beloved, because as far as he's concerned Yenekh has always deserved the world.

It just feels hypocritical to claim this when he's destroyed it once before.

He's not doing it to be burdensome. He's like this because he loves Yenekh. His old lives feel so distant from him now (and are, since nothing is as close yet so far away as death), but here's yet another shortfall from those august times: Oltyx has no idea how to be good to his amours, for there was never a match made for him in Ithakas, nor did he and his brother ever entertain admirers. Frankly he's not even sure Djoseras ever knew the C of courtship. No one is left to teach Oltyx either way. He is very loved in Drazak, more than he was loved in his previous lives - which he now understands was more than he knew at the time - but he has not been in the position to love another as equals until now. And so the Fallen Lord contemplates, day after day, how he might truly be the friend and king that Yenekh deserves.

To talk about it, at least, without putting his guilt on the other's shoulders. All the time in the world is theirs and he still feels it to be slow learning.

An opportunity arises on the next occasion he orders the bounty.

[Published 25/01/2024 - continued on AO3 here.]

#warhammer 40k #wh40k #the twice dead king #oltyx #yenekh #necrons #necron #fanfiction #prompt fill #drabble #(it is not a drabble but i'm tagging it as such so you can find the other... actual drabbles....... lmao)#oltyx: i'm just not sure if my brother ever loved ;(#djoseras; who canonically survived the unsurvivable by trusting in his best friend for hundreds of years: say what you little bastard #so i guess i have full time unable to control wordcount disease now. i actually thought about this prompt for a very long time #and what came of it was both a question that needed answering and too long to be confined to a tumblr post tale #so here we are. first fic of 2024 and it's a 2300-word oneshot #thank you courgowr for letting me do this :D i'm sorry to have kept you waiting for so long #notes will be updated in a little bit

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monsterbisexual · 1 month

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the silt verses: chapter 34

chapter 38

#p #tsv #the silt verses #im being so brave n tagging this + making it rb-able. i think #posting this for my own benefit cuz it made me go nuts (positive) when i listened to ch 38 n got to this part #i was like WAIT THIS REMINDS ME OF SMTH #n then i found the right ep to check the transcript for the first one n i was like YESSSS >:)#this podcast dude.....im eating it its eating me we're (cant spell the O word) snake eating self thing #this is like. what if we were both prophets of our faith (in different ways i think)#n bargaining w our god for the safety of our loved ones #basically threatening it w the power we have over it #And we were both trans??? :O #Also! how theyre both v like jaded abt their god when they started w good intentions (paige)#or like such zealous belief n feel the bad actions u do are justified by ur faith n its for ur god etc (faulkner but i worded it badly)#now that im rambling here: anyway i do miss that faulkner era sldjk like hes still doing fucked up stuff ofc #but at this point he admitted he doesnt feel the same abt the trawler man n is maybe more like carpenter at the beginning of the series #ok 38 made me cry it was wild actually. the stuff w his dad got me dude!!!#him telling raine that hes wanted to like confront his dad for not being around for him+his brothers n basically abandoning him eventually #but now that theyre together again he cant cuz his dad isnt even like. himself sometimes n needs to be looked after etc #this podcast is great w complicated parental/family relationships i think. faulkner n his alive brother+dad #paige w her dad + carpenter w nana glass #anyway back to 38 lol n when faulkner had to comfort his dad who thought he was his abusive uncle not his son n kept repeating #''i love u. im not him'' jeeeeez #then when his dad is more coherent n they have a long talk abt how faulkner (richard lol) has been n that he thinks hes rly fucked things u #<- CORRECT #OHH n the trans stuff omg like 'ur voice is deeper than last time i saw u' n feelin bad he couldnt afford #testosterone when faulkner was younger n stuff n saying how he looks n sounds suits him n skdjdk wah #ok posting this before i can regret it byeee

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moe-broey · 1 month

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HELP maybe this is influenced by how I'm writing this, or maybe it was supposed to be gleaned from canon and I just. Haven't fully thought about it til now. Haven't Deeply analyzed it beyond the blaring alarm bells that go off when reading this. But. Alfonse's,

Straight into.

This isn't him doubling down. This is him BACKTRACKING. This is him going, "oh fuck I think maybe I came on a little too strong maybe I was a bit too vulnerable and that's really scary. How do I fix this" and he's running through all the dialogue options in his head like Okay. Play it Cool. Keep it Casual. Proclaim your undying loyalty and devotion to your Trusted Partner (person he just told in the beginning of this conversation that he didn't intend to become friends with) by making yourself a blade and shield for them. NAILED IT 👍

#fire emblem #feh #ALFONSE. PLEASE. COME ON MAN #HUUUUUGE FUCKING EPIPHANY FOR ME THOUGH as i'm writing/drawing bc that last line i've been struggling w the most #but this. add some moe lore. I HAVE HUGE IDEAS ABOUT THE MOE LORE IN TANDEM W THE CANON IMPLICATIONS.#in short/minimal spoilers if i forget to expand on it later BUT IT'S SO HUGE TO ME. SO HUGE #but i think alfonse has Noticed. things about moe. similarities to himself. but it either #doesn't know it or refuses to acknowledge it. he isn't sure which yet. so when he says 'i hope you feel the same'#he's reaching out ala pre-skip dimitri fbs. asking moe to Consider This. AND. AND. IN TANDEM.#w the canon implications. that he doesn't think highly of himself and doesn't dare wait for an answer #AND. AND. HELP THERE'S A MOMENT THAT'S SO FUCKING FUNNY. he just commits a Blunder #that even moe's autistic ass catches him on. it all happens So quickly. in a fucking instant.#WHICH. WHICH. LED TO ME REALIZING THIS. he is trying TO CATCH HIMSELF HERE.#AND THE. ADDITION. of moe lore/the blunder why he tries to move on So quickly. please do NOT ask me questions i WILL throw up.#ALSO LIKE book 3 alfonse fresh in my mind. i did take a break after The Incident (gustav).#but like. goes so insane actually. this is really all he knows how to be. constantly in service to others. made to be a tool.#it's so fucked up bc you can see he is genuinely wired like that too. he WANTS to help. he wants to do good #but man................... i def don't have the words for it rn it's just so tragic. but i think about it All The Fucking Time.#GOD SORRY I'M HAVING ANOTHER ALEAR FB MOMENT. ALFONSE. ALFONSE.#cut off that tangent just to make a whole other post about it.#fe alfonse #moe tag #TAGGING IT. bc i rambled about it in the tags and it's MY OC I MAKE THE RULES 😤😤😤😤😤

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demigod-of-the-agni · 11 months

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Hey why is no one talking about the fact the end of Loki S2 is LITERALLY RIPPING 'THE GOD OF STORIES' RIGHT OUT FROM THE COMICS AND IT STILL STUCK THE LANDING

Marvel, those bastards, they actually fucking did it

also props to marvel for giving loki shoes. y'all would be freaking over him going around barefoot if they went 1:1 with the GoS Loki design

#(i'll reblog the design made by the actual artist very soon)#but marvel watch your fuckin toes #they didn't have the balls to commit to lokius #i love how they were so vague with it like “gonna let time pass” and loki hearing those soft words #but BRO THEY COULD HAVE KISSED #award of Fuck You And Fuck Me goes to the queerbaiting show of the century #okay no but seriously i've been WAITING for the god of stories aspect to come shining through ever since s1 was announced #why is no one!!!!! talking about that!!!!!!!!!! do you not see!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#loki #loki season 2 #loki series #loki spoilers #loki laufeyson #that's all im gonna say about this show #agnirambles

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dennisboobs · 1 year

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god hole is a fundamental dennis scene but not because of the way everyone else uses it

#ada speaks #you use it to say dennis is unfulfilled because hes not having sex with mac i use it to tie literally everything he says and does back to #one. very specific line.#i don't want real power. because with real power comes real responsibility. and i don't want any of that shit.#i just want the money. and The Illusion of Power. (and puss)#did i do it did i quote it right #wait hang on #HELP I GOT IT WORD FOR WORD I TRULY EXPECTED TO FUCK UP SOMEWHERE #ok. well #anyway. anywayyy. EVERYTHING. all of dennis' motivations whether intentional or not. come back to this #and everyone misunderstands dennis in a very similar way: assuming he is a control freak #its not true! thats not true!#surface dennis vs actual dennis!#he appears that way but he doesn't want the responsibility that comes with truly being in control #he just wants to feel like he is or at the very least Could be in control #in gets analyzed when he talks about being the one standing near the executioners switch #and knowing that he Could throw it.#its more about dennis' reluctance to be out of control than it is about him being in control. that loss. when the illusion breaks.#thats when it becomes a problem #he needs insurance. a way to get the upper hand if he ever does find himself being manipulated

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eightspringdays · 9 days

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Just saw a TikTok complaining about fanfics that didn't have "enough dialogue" because "reading more than three sentences" was hard.

I'm not against heavy dialogue-oriented fics; they are fun, but... that's a script. You want to read a fucking script, hope you know that. A writer isn't "bad" because they are... you know, writing. Just say it isn't your thing and move on, but categorize something as "bad" because you lack the ability to fucking read... ain't the author's problem; it seems like a "you" one.

#im training myself into a descriptive writing style and reading that was a slap in the face... it's not that i dont like dialogue but #i need to convey feelings showing them as I want to I can't have that just with dialogue I WISH I was good enough to do that tho #because there's people who can but im not so-#the other day i saw a girl complaining about a book having WORDS what the fuck is WRONG WITH YOU #SHOW ME FEELINGS SHOW ME METAPHORS SHOW ME YOUR SOUL IN WRITTEN WORDS #I JUST THINK people aren't reading as much as they used to... just a thought after seeing people on booktok #like... you have books.... for what exactly? pretty colors? covers? just to say you have them for the aesthetics and go home #???? god ... the art of the written word is beautiful and unique to humans it lets out your soul and your spirit in paper bringing your min #into the physical word and you are just gonna call it BORING what the HELL IS WRONG WITH THAT AAAAAAAAAAAAAA #KAFKA WE REALLY ARE IT NOW #in a world where everything has to be fast and immediate we should look into art as something worth waiting for... idk man my thoughts #maybe im just too dense with my feelings with creation and ain't that deep but to me it is actually...#ive wanted to be a writer since I learned how to read not because I liked to write but because my soul gets a little lighter when I do it

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kathrynmjaneway · 9 months

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i came out to my parents last night 😄