#actually really sorry guys

[heartbroken-heartbreaker]

I made a post like this a while back but I feel it's worth saying again

I absolutely love these books and this tv show has been a long time coming. I hope the show does well (I am quite certain it will) and I am so incredibly excited for new people to be introduced to this incredible world.

But on the other hand, I don't want this little community we have to be gone. Like I have grown way too attached to seeing all of the regular L&C creators and fandom members on here and quite soon I think we will be totally flooded. I never want to gatekeep something so precious to me, and I know that we will gain so many more cool creations but a part of me is a little sad (and almost nostalgic?) over it all.

But then on the whole other hand, I am absolutely terrified of what the new fans will be like. If they are anything like the Stranger Things and Wednesday fans (Just the toxic ones of course) I am going to cry. I have this gut feeling that the show will take off and then we will have TikTok trends and stuff (how weird is that lol) and that honestly freaks me out so much. I just really don't want people to ruin what we have going right now, you know? Like yall just KNOW that there will be people simping for the skull.

Like I'll miss seeing you guys so much :,)

[planefood]

rules for thee and not for me

[callisteios]

Hi, feel free to take my new uquiz to discover what kind of vampire you are!

[koumori-1999]

silly continuity crossover doodle because i'm not immune to the multiverse trend

he's still emo about his own ratchet, don't judge him.

[cozylittleartblog]

@staff if you [change] the [design] of the fucking [dashboard] i will kill you

edit. i want it on the actual post that i am not actually making a de-th threat against the staff. that's shitty. the caption quotes the fucking costco hot dog meme, which i originally said in the tags. if any staff member sees this please do Not take it personally

[the-phantom-peach]

yeah whatever

*posts hylink*

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tw: stylized blood below‼️

[feelo-fick]

request doodles on stream in a server :D

[heartorbit]

figure skating set right now please. thanks

[papanowo]

i think dan should get to be a little weird too. as a treat

[vaguely-concerned]

the more I play the more I think lucanis basically knows it's illario who betrayed him right from the beginning (he's had a year in the ossuary to think. not that many people knew where he was going. when you ask him 'did Illario know you'd be on that ship' his only answer is the hardest flattest 'yes' you ever heard). so it's not so much about figuring out who the traitor is (because that's ludicrous. we all know. immediately. they didn't really bother to hide it lmao) as about methodically closing off every single avenue of denial lucanis has clung to that whole time with as much or little gentleness as you might prefer until he has no choice but to admit it. because the moment he has to admit it, he'll have to do something -- feel something -- about it. and that's such a catastrophic event in lucanis' inner landscape (he has had TWO people in this whole entire world up until now and will do anything to hold on to them with a heartbreaking child-like desperation, even at and especially through the detriment of his own self) that he'd rather just. not. what if we quite simply. didn't. what if we just stayed here in the emptiness where we can both pretend you didn't hurt me in a way I should never forgive. I have so much practice in that with caterina already it's always worked out great for everyone so far. (press x to fucking doubt but that's trauma logic for you lol)

after everything illario did, so much of the storm of lucanis' emotions around it is 'what the FUCK did you get yourself tangled up in this time and how do I get you out of this mess safely'. what's worse: the fact that your brother murdered you, or that he put himself in horrible danger doing so and thus exposed you to the risk of losing him forever. lucanis' heart certainly has an opinion here and it's fucking unhinged (affectionate)

the themes of dissociation in lucanis' character in general makes me feel nuts. allllll these contradictory messy things he needs to cut off from each other because they can't coexist or be easily reconciled inside him. but all remain stubbornly true separately anyway and will have their due one day. love and resentment. tenderness and fear and rage. terror and longing. love and freedom don't coexist. the burned out golden child anthem is playing in the background. he was always caterina's favourite and he has to keep striving to deserve that dubious honour with every breath he takes and then, presumably, mercifully, some day he will die and be excused and can rest. and until now he's suppressed all the -- natural, healthy, protective! -- negative feelings that threaten the few attachment relationships he actually has, at the cost of ever actually having his needs for connection and safety met and leaving his core self imprisoned and compromised. and spite goes 'what. no. that's dumb fuck that' (*spite voice* I do not understand that and even if I did I would not respect it) and does not allow him to fall back into that, which I think is what saves his life, ultimately. it took being possessed by a demon for lucanis to even contemplate telling anyone he loves 'no' in any way, but hey. whatever gets you there right lol

lucanis is dealing with the freeze response allll the way down baby. and he was even before the ossuary, that just turbo powered it and brought it to a breaking point way before it could happen naturally. but something was going to break eventually no matter what, and I'm just glad that in the end, through the power of friendship and also pure spite, it doesn't have to be him

[temeyes]

simon riley, ang panget mo talaga (affectionate)

[remcadll]

Wow crazy how it’s been two months since mha ended. what the hell was that btw

[royaltea000]

Hmmmm…monkey

[vellichorom]

there are times it's necessary to admit defeat.

[ghostbredtt]

sketches doodles useless thingies

sorry guys I'm dead summer finally killed me so baii 😁

[florallylly]

less steve harrington "i try to be a good guy despite my past" and more steve harrington "i've always been a good person (albeit probs annoying asf), you just stereotyped me based on my interest in sports"