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URL Tag Game!
Thank you for the tags @youarenevertooold and @raenestee, and thank you @brilla-brilla-estrellita for tagging me as well to remind me about this. XD
RULES: spell your url with song titles and then tag as many people as there are letters. (i.e. when my long username haunts me yet again)
These songs are from several playlists, because there are a lot of letters *ahem*. But the first playlist I raided was my WIP Snowbaz playlist. I'm not telling which songs are from which playlist though. Tee-hee.
I tried to do a variety of music types... at first. Then I was just looking for songs I knew I listened to a lot/loved that matched letters. So I think I ended up with a pretty definite pop to rock range. There's a vibe. (I think it's a good one, though...)
Rather than listing and linking individual songs (because there are TWENTY-FOUR OF THEM), here's a link to the whole playlist:
TAGGING (apologies if you've been tagged more than once - avoiding where I know of them, but I'm not really keeping track...) @boomeeo @hushed-chorus @anxious-m3ss @ionlydrinkhotwater @erzbethluna @supercutedinosaurs @rimeswithpurple @aristocratic-otter @fatalfangirl @you-remind-me-of-the-babe @facewithoutheart @ic3-que3n @prettygoododds @artsyunderstudy @onepintobean @alleycat0306 @ileadacharmedlife @whatevertheweather @cutestkilla @nickel-55 @jasonfunderberkerthefrogexists @bleepbloop @papierhaikuphoto @swiftyswithin
#url tag game#musical tag game#24 FREAKING LETTERS WHY DO I HATE MYSELF#actually I like my username#so it's probably worth it#vaguely flavored with#snowbaz#spotify#i really hope this embed works so I don't have to type out everything#I am a sucker for tag games#just slow sometimes to join in#playlist
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TIL that you can assign an AO3 next of kin to control your account in case of your death???
#ao3#this is actually really neat#I had a will at one point that included passwords and usernames specifically for my sister so she could manage certain social media#including my fanfic accounts#if anything happened to me#I need to update it it's been like...idk a decade#who makes a will when they're sixteen you might ask#ppl who want to be dead I will answer very seriously while shaking my bottle of SSRI like a baby rattle
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self indulgent saturday
#this post is fueled by pure autism#drawing this shit actually made me so happy i need to draw them even more i think#i feel like i need a tag name for my rebornica bullshit since i dont want to tag it w their username#fanon fnaf#that works#my art#fnaf#five nights at freddys#vincent bishop#vincent fnaf#purple guy#phone guy#mike schmidt#jeremy fitzgerald#fritz smith#chris the janitor
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fifteen things that don't come back, by charlie slimecicle:
number one. the paper airplane you and your daughter throw at your husband while his back is turned in the kitchen, the two of you hiding behind the counter as you snicker quietly when he stops humming and yelps a curse as he turns around with a faux angry expression and a poorly-hidden smile.
number two. the glass your daughter broke trying to grab it from the cabinet on her tippy-toes. you didn't look over until you heard the glass shatter against the kitchen floor, too preoccupied with grabbing the jug of cold orange juice from the fridge to notice until it was too late. golden, afternoon sunlight shone warmly on the both of you from the open window as you swept it up while she stood to the side with a sheepish expression.
number three. your husband's soft shirt he let you borrow when you said you couldn't find your own but really you just quickly shoved yours under the bed when he wasn't looking. you absently noted that it smelled like him. your lips curved into a slight smile without input. your foot shoved your shirt under the bed a little bit farther.
number four. the pictures you took of your daughter and niece, hugging eachother as they posed for the camera, the photo incinerated into ash when you blew up your house. you frantically dug through your daughter's chest afterwards, soot covering your hands as you searched for the photograph. you did not find it.
number five. your niece.
number six. the feeling of a cold glass of wine held tipsily in your hand, the waterdrop of condensation slipping down the glass at the same pace your tears did down your cheeks. you downed the alcohol until there was nothing left except a burning feeling and a lump in your throat. the bartender did not give you another drink.
number seven. your friend, the one who used to laugh hysterically with you as he wrapped his arm around your shoulders before he began to scream at you while he wrapped his hands around your neck. he pushed you into the dirt, the metallic taste of blood in your mouth and the feeling of wet dirt on your skin as you absently question whether the water dripping on your face was the rain or the tears slipping down your friend's face. you know that was the funeral of your children, but you think both of the real 'you's died that day, too.
number eight. the warm, rumbling feeling of laughter in your chest as a smile hurts your cheeks, the sensation long gone. your mouth, for a moment, twitches into a small smile at the memory of the feeling.
number nine. the feeling of hands on your own, your husband's warm hands intertwined with yours as your cold, golden rings clink against eachother. your daughter's tiny hand clasped around yours as she leads you to a butterfly she found, grass brushing your ankles as you walk.
ten. the sound of your daughter's amused laughter, snorts interrupting occasionally. her head leans back as she giggles, her eyes scrunched up in happiness.
eleven. the sound of your husband's soothing voice, lilting with fondness as he looks at you. a smile absently crosses his face as he speaks, audible in his voice. you always remember smiling back.
twelve. your golden wedding band your husband lovingly slipped onto your ring finger so long ago, the one you furiously tossed into a dusty corner with particularily bad aim. you blame the poor aim on the tears blurring your vision, but it could've been the alcohol, really.
thirteen. your husband. you try to go to sleep in the center of your bed now, knowing that he won't be there. when you wake up, you always find yourself on the left side of the bed, as if you've moved in your sleep to accommodate someone. you scowl and think that your asleep self should stop being so stupid. ..you make the bed just in case he really does decide to come back.
fourteen. your daughter. whenever you make yourself breakfast now, you keep accidentally making two bowls, the muscle memory automatic, familiar, and no longer needed. you sit down at the table and set the bowls and begin to eat, but you always end up just stirring the cereal with your spoon as you stare at the untouched bowl across from you. you always end up throwing them both away. without your input, a frown tugs slightly at your lips as your pour out the second bowl but you know that nobody else was even here to eat it anyway. your eyes burn.
fifteen. your daughter, the one you know isn't the real one. sometimes you walk down those train tracks where you found her, hoping she'll be here this time. she never is. ..you still keep checking, just in case.
#qsmp#q!slime#q!misclickduo#misclick duo#misclick family#q!slimeriana#slimeriana#← i actually completely forget all the tags for them lmao#qsmp poem#poem#qsmp writing#moral's writings#hi!! i hope this one is good!! i'm really proud of this one ^^#i was on tiktok and there was this qsmp edit and the caption was 'things that don't come back' and then i started thinking abt qsmp#← and i was like wait that's actually a really good fic title. so i turned it into a poem and now we're here!! :D#there is never a day in my life where i'm not thinking abt q!slime bro#listened to velvet ring by big thief on loop while writing this :)#also if its not clear this is a poem mostly about q!misclick family from q!slime's pov but tilín quackity and codeflippa are mentioned kind#i felt this worked better in second person so let this be known that this is not an x reader thing!! it's from q!slime's pov ^^#now on ao3 under the same username :D#now that i'm rereading this it sounds like it kinda ends abruptly lmao i might fix that#now fixed ^^ i hope this is a bit better :)#qsmp slimecicle#ALSO IF ANYBODY'S READ THIS FAR i think you should read this with 'how to never stop being sad' by dandelion hands playing :D#← like it's crazy how well that song/poem fits q!slime
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👀👀👀 I'm looking at the tags on your last post and do I see a suggestion of Dom!Lucifer radioapple??? I don't ever think I read a dom!Lucifer fic (because the fandom immediately clocked Lucifer as the sub he is), so I say I'm extremely intrigued!!
Also, wow does Alastor have a talent for getting the Most Pathetic Guys Ever (Lucifer and Vox) to dom him. Like, it's a skill at this point lol.
Anyway, I look forward to your writing!!
CONGRATS, YOU'VE ACTIVATED MY TRAP CARD: I actually have thoughts about this!
I firmly believe that Lucifer is The Sub Of All Time in literally any other context, but I also think that Alastor very deliberately and skillfully hit just the right buttons in canon that Lucifer cannot back down in front of this asshole. If I transpose that into a bedroom dynamic, then... (un)fortunately for Alastor, he is punching out of his weight class.
It's a massively different dynamic in my head than radiostatic because the key balance of radiostatic is that it's a perpetual bit of careful give-and-take to balance their mutual ego-obsessions and for Alastor to not feel like he's taken psychic damage to his pride and thus needing to remind Vox (either by being verbally mean or by taking a physical stance) that Vox doesn't really have control in the situation. (Which is also why I get a little giggle when people comment on the hypnokink fic with something like, "What if Vox did [thing Alastor would not be okay with]? Wouldn't that be fucked?!" because... yes, but also, he wouldn't survive the night and he knows that.) (Also the hypnokink fic is somehow not the one where they work out trust issues. That's the NEXT one.)
Anyway, in contrast, radioapple has the dynamic of Lucifer being the one person in hell who there is no way I can imagine Alastor could match up against even at full power... which, yes, means that Lucifer can swat him down if he gets tetchy, but also kinda spares Alastor's pride at the same time! He can snap his teeth about it for some performative ego-maintenance, but it's like getting mad that you can't literally fistfight the sun. It just doesn't make sense. Nobody would ever expect that to be a reasonable match up. Alastor's narcissism doesn't get prodded by Lucifer the same way that it would if Vox tried something.
... Also, I think it'd be really funny if radioapple was just sub on sub violence. Lucifer knows what gets him going and he's going to inflict that on Alastor with great prejudice. Meanwhile his internal dialogue is nonstop references to back when his wife used to fuck him up just like this.
#ask#vengeful-velvette#vengeful velvette#also can I just say I love your username#rolls off the tongue so well every time!#personal#my writing#radioapple#radiostatic#hazbin hotel#nsft#Lucifer is not actually 100% correct about what Alastor likes in this fic bc he's projecting way too much#but Alastor doesn't get a fucking choice lmfao
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all hail Firelord Zuko
#atla#avatar the last airbender#zuko#fire lord zuko#prince zuko#omi draws#druk#This one took a good amount of thought#a friend of mine actually suggested the swords at his feet#and I couldn't resist giving him the dragon fire#but it only has the colors of the 4 nations instead of like. purple#had to fit 4 nations symbology in there somehow lol#and invented kanji for my username lmao#it is probably bad sorry lol
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Evan Buckley in 5x17
drawn in procreate
(don’t repost)
#hi. I caved and got an Apple Pencil and holy shit this thing is crazy I’m having so much fun#this is a little messy bc I’m still getting the hang of it but like :) yeah#911#911 art#Evan Buckley#911 abc#911 fan art#911verse#Oliver stark#my art#🪐#jeeyuns#tuserrae#tuserjw#alielook#eddiebabygirldiaz#tuserjs#*forcing all my mutuals to see my art bc I worked so so hard on it*#except I can’t remember any more usernames bc it’s 2am#if u actually wanna be tagged in art in the future lmk
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Bnha makes me so mad because it could’ve been good. It had a lot of good aspects. But in the end none of them were satisfyingly resolved so it just feels bad.
#UGHHHHHH ik a million people have made posts like this but it’s pissing me off rn!#the ‘unfortunately’ in my username is more pointed than ever#(not that I’ve had a lot of hope it’d end well for a long ass time.#it’s just frustrating to make me love these characters and get attached to this world and then execute their stories so terribly.)#honestly I’d probably change my username to smth else (and I still might) if I hadn’t had it for so long#it’d be annoying if it messed up links in my past posts#but having smth vanguard related might be fun…#bnha critical#mha critical#<- tagging those so no one jumps down my throat for stating an opinion on my personal blog#and like. I’m not doing this to be a hater. I LIKE these characters and some of this story is very near and dear to my heart#I’m also not saying everything I didn’t like is a writing flaw#and in fact a lot of the things I didn’t like I think should stay there just get meaningfully addressed#but good godddddddddd it’s upsetting to see a story I cared abt sm & I leaned on during some shit end like this#whatever.#I haven’t even actually been keeping up besides looking at the spoilers for years now#it’s not like I’m gonna stop thinking abt the version that lives in my head. it’s just a shame about the official ending that’s all.#at the end of the day I’m not the author horikoshi is and that’s how he chose to end his story.
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actually fuck it im switching urls now, hi this is syd meatsex
#im making my new pinned and i just realized how much of a chore its going to be if i have to change each individual link later#you legitimately have no idea of how much this username means to me its like my actual fucking brand now
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are you anti "sour-puss" daffy? that characterization of him is the primary one in my head. like duck amuck is epitome of daffy in my mind.
CRACKS KNUCKLES SO LOUDLY THEY EXPLODE. i’m giving my “HEADS UP THIS WILL LIKELY BE EXHAUSTIVE” warning now because i love love love love love love love love any chance to talk and analyze and pontificate about the duck. TLDR: YES AND NO
SO. i don’t consider myself “anti sour-puss” so much as i would consider my stance “if Daffy has to be more egocentric and miserly than he usually is then i prefer a very specific set of circumstances for this to be the case”. i have warmed up to the Jones and Freleng duck of the ‘50s onward CONSIDERABLY in recent years—there was a point where i just refused to touch any Daffy short made after a certain point because i knew it would make me frustrated and sad and mad and that’s, respectfully, ridiculous!
it took me watching the Speedy and Daffy cartoons to realize that Daffy in THOSE shorts is what i thought Daffy was in the Jones and Freleng shorts. it dwindles a bit over time (compare how he behaves in The Hunting Trilogy to something like Ali-Baba Bunny, which is a short i still have yet to come around to for that reason—i don’t like the “MINE MINE MINE GO GO GO DOWN DOWN DOWN” duck very much and my issue was that i thought he behaved that way in every single cartoon after a certain point which is thankfully incorrect!), but there’s still some nuance. by the time we’re getting to shorts where Daffy is saying “HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO TELL YOU NOT TO STARVE ON MY PROPERTY” is when i fully throw in the towel lol
another thing that’s helped me warm up is the realization that Daffy’s personality change is not nearly as objective as it’s made out to be. he has always had an ego, he’s always been reckless, impulsive, and yes, this absolutely includes the ‘30s shorts! Chuck’s Duck is Chuck’s Duck from day one with the line “not bad for a guy that never took a lesson in his life!”.
Scalp Trouble has Daffy on an ego trip fancying himself as an army general (and there is a legitimate, honest to god small dick metaphor joke in that short because he has this huge giant sword sheath that is indiscreetly phallic in design, only to reveal a tiny little dagger), ordering people around and essentially LARPing in this role we immediately know is way too big for him. and when it comes time to battle, what does he do but spend the majority of his time cowering in a corner.
he’s always had these traits! maybe they’re a bit more primitive earlier on, some other traits are a greater priority. but Drip-Along Daffy is one of my favorite Chuck Jones shorts because it’s basically a sequel to The Great Piggy Bank Robbery. and you could argue the same with Duck Dodgers! all shorts have him fantasizing about a hero role that is clearly too big for him to fill, and he is absolutely getting the biggest kick out of assuming this role. Drip-Along is still early enough to also have this sort of innocence and unflappability (that may more accurately be described as delusion or ignorance): when Daffy gets no reception whatsoever in the bar, instead of screaming at everyone to look at him, he just marches to the next order of business and indulges in his next part of his fantasy. this NEVER would have happened had the short come out 5-10 years after when it did.
likewise, the Daffy of the ‘50s and ‘60s is still insane, it’s just a different manifestation of how that’s the case. earlier on, he’s a bit more visibly unhinged. his HOOHOOHOOing fits are a catharsis that you can just FEEL crawling up his throat and dying to get out, and in the really early shorts you can see this sort of half and half battle between cognizance and succumbing to insanity (The Daffy Doc and Porky’s Last Stand especially come to mind). it’s an insanity that relieves itself through sheer manic catharsis. as time goes on, he matures a bit, he knows how to keep better wraps on it; the manners in which he gratifies his impulses just shifts.
and also, Daffy can still very much be a sourpuss early on! Bob McKimson’s Daffy, whose interpretation is very integral in my sort of mental default of who Daffy is, can be very bitter and cynical in particular! or, again, early shorts like The Daffy Doc or Scalp Trouble where he’s more argumentative and his ego is clearly much more tender.
the seeds of what Daffy would become have all been planted, and so that’s allowed me to bristle a bit less and lower my haunches. and i am making more progress in coming around to the later shorts! i’ve been on a Chuck Jones kick recently and been watching lots of Chuck Jones Daffy shorts and enjoying them. i love Drip-Along, Duck Dodgers, Duck Amuck, Deduce You Say, Robin Hood Daffy—i’ve even come around to Rabbit Seasoning which is kind of NUTS to me because there was awhile where i was acting like Bugs and Daffy shorts killed my firstborn. “pronoun trouble” is an inside joke with my friend and dear lord i laugh every time at Daffy’s reactions to Elmer falling for Bugs’ drag act, and the ENDING!!!! omg. i love it. i’ve come around to Beanstalk Bunny as well! it’s a great short!! in getting to know the duck better and understanding how nuanced his development is, i’ve gone a bit softer which is good.
i was just chatting about this recently—i think most of the thorns in my side come from the Daffy and Bugs pair-ups. what i like best and get most out of each character, i get none of when they’re together. i’d rather see Bugs behaving and doing something else, and the same for Daffy. i’m not opposed to a sourpuss Daffy so much as i really don’t like seeing him suffer. i feel like the Bugs and Daffy shorts “punch down” a bit more on him, and i still haven’t found a way to really properly articulate this… i’ll just copy and paste what i was saying the other day here:
Daffy earlier on has all the traits above we talked about, but the difference is that he isn’t really shamed for them outright? of course we’re meant to laugh at his cowardice as he says “go… back… in again….” to the giant towering rat gangster he screamed at to confront him, we’re of course supposed to laugh at the asininity and selfishness of him dodging the draft and taking the Little Man From the Draft Board down with him by locking him in a safe and suffocating him. Daffy isn’t exactly meant to be a role model (but that still doesn’t stop me from finding his bombasm and exuberance and zest for life extremely empowering!), but there’s less narrative pushback against it. seeing Daffy be Daffy and have every action be interrupted by another character rolling their eyes going “oh brother” is where i have a problem, it just sucks the air out of the room for me. especially when Daffy is made to feel ashamed or beaten down for this as well. that’s why i enjoy shorts like Beanstalk Bunny or Drip-Along so much, ending with stuff like “it’s a living!” or being contented in his new position that is often very degrading and a direct consequence of his impulsiveness. a huge part of Daffy’s charm for me is his resilience (even if that equates to ignorance at times), if he wants something he will go to absolutely asinine lengths to get it! and i love that! his drive is so admirable! and i just feel like after awhile that resilience is lost. the issue isn’t that Daffy is a loser, as he’s lost quite a bit before that—moreso, he doesn’t have that good humor about being a loser anymore
I’M ALMOST DONE I PROMISE. but my tags in that video post, as i said in them, i watched The Million Hare the other day which is a short i very much dislike. and it’s not really out of anger or “UUUURGH NOT MY DAFFY”, but moreso it just makes me SO. DAMN. DEPRESSED.
this is the most soul sucking image i’ve ever seen. i get genuinely sad that the cartoons have devolved to starting with “characters watching TV because they’re too bored to do anything, and Bugs just joins him”. no part of this is the resilient, impulsive, manic, pleasure seeking duck that carried us through the past few decades. and this certainly doesn’t represent the wily, impish, inciting rabbit of the past few decades either! Bugs has a greater excuse since i know there’s the pattern of his domestication and Jones’ rule of Bugs minding his own business before being provoked, etc. but man. this image just represents all of my problems with the later shorts and dynamics. the characters are hollow and so are the stories and the directors are checked out or moving onto greater things, and i think all of that just coagulates and manifests in the characters.
I HAVE SO MUCH MORE I CAN SAY but i’m finally realizing i’ve gone on way way way too long and don’t even know if i answered the question all that well LOL. don’t even get me started on “modern”interpretations of Daffy… [starts ranting about how TLTS killed my family for the 80th time as i’m gently lured into the nursing home].
BUT! to answer your question! i’m not really opposed to a more cynical and conceited duck because those traits have always been there, just in varying degrees of intensity. my ideal duck is definitely one locked in the ‘40s—Frank Tashlin and Bob Clampett’s Daffy have always been my favorite, but i’ve sort of adopted a coagulation of Art Davis, Bob McKimson, Norm McCabe and Friz Freleng’s duck as my mental default. i am extremely protective and loving and fanatical of Daffy, i love him more than any cartoon character and i resonate with him more than any cartoon character! i bet he too would also spend an hour typing up a diatribe on his character evolution and how he’s been sorely misrepresented. maybe. Daffy is one of the most varied characters of all time, and it’s really hard to pin him down for this reason. i like a duck that best has a bit of a balance between his traits, and i get more chafed when he’s made more narrow and transparent and just “flanderized” (for lack of a better word) to one or two tropes that then speak louder than his character. i prefer shorts that are more sympathetic and celebratory of Daffy rather than admiring how funny he is as a loser. which, he is funny! but IUNNO. i like a more upbeat and resilient and charming duck, and he can be all of these things later on, but it unfortunately does get fleeting
#gee do you think my answer was a bit short?#i was planning on talking about modern interpretations and how he’s been completely misunderstood and how that drives me crazy too but i’ve#said all that before (and will say it again) but for another time#the greatest damage that has been inflicted on the duck though is this conflation between insanity and stupidity#Daffy Duck does stupid things but is not actually stupid and i still maintain is one of the smartest characters of the entire franchise#including when he’s in the throes of insanity#saying all this as a Duck Dodgers 03 enjoyer too! in which he is stupid in that show#he’s just been wronged so many times#and omg my blood boils at jokes like in Back in Action implying that anyone who likes Daffy is a basement dwelling incel#🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲#asks#the-clapping-smiling-pig#LOVE YOUR USERNAME BTW
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nctzens are so unserious istg
WHO PUT DOYOUNG
for context this is for like a subscriber special thing for my yt channel lol (subscribe.) but like IM SERIOUSWDSLDYE LAUGHING PLS
#same username as my tumblr pls im throwing bread crumbs on the floor begging u#jk i dont beg#i only make other people beg for me#actually i do beg#thats a lie i love lying haha ultimate liar like a true nctzen#i think i need to sleep#16 hours of sleep wasnt enough for me#📢: london yaps
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Based off of this post by @tartarusfairy
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Wayne putters around the kitchen fixing himself a cup of coffee, trying to keep an eye on Eddie and Steve on the sofa without looking like he’s keeping an eye on them. Steve (not Harrington - saving his boy’s life really fast tracked the kid to a first name basis) had been over a lot more recently. He knows they think he hasn’t noticed since they seem to mostly hang out while he’s out on his night shift, but there are clues. Wayne knows Eddie and there is no way that boy suddenly learned how to make so many home cooked meals and remember to do the dishes afterwards. The two are sat with their heads tilted together having a very intense whispered argument. Wayne smirks into his mug of coffee - Eddie’s had a lot of half started conversations with him recently, acting like he’s building himself for an Important Conversation only to tell Wayne that he’s going out to buy milk, or there’s an extra band practice he’d forgotten about, or on one occasion saying absolutely nothing, doing an about turn, walking out the trailer and vanishing for three hours (not that he really vanished - Steve called to say Eddie was at his because Lord knows Wayne can only cope with his nephew vanishing once in his lifetime thank you very much). Now he’s not one to pry, but between Eddie’s sudden jumpiness, how much more time he and Steve spend together, and how lighter the two now are he can make a pretty informed guess on what Eddie wants to tell him.
The whisper-arguing cuts off abruptly and Wayne attempts to appear casual as Eddie jerks his head towards him.
“Uncle Wayne? We- I need to talk you. It’s important.”
Wayne nods and sits in the chair opposite them, giving them his full attention. Just because he already knows what they’re going to tell him doesn’t mean he shouldn’t listen.
Eddie takes a steadying breath and Steve gives his hand a comforting squeeze.
“There’s something I’ve been needing to tell you for a while.”
Wayne nods encouragingly.
“I’m-”
Wayne leans forward in his seat slightly.
“I’m not allergic to celery.”
#hopefully this is as funny written down as it was in my head#I can't decide if Eddie thinks he's already told Wayne they're dating or if he genuinely thinks the celery thing is more important#like sometimes I'lll think something really loudly and think I've said it and have to double check a few days later if a conversation#actually happened or if I imagined it#steddie#stranger things#st-fic#wayne munson#@tartarusfairy hope you like it#also I like that our usernames kinda go together that's fun
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Do you have any more ideas about the dead dove vampire!dickxtim au you wrote a while ago? It's lived in my head ever since and I'd love to know more.
first of all thank you so much that's so sweet! second of all, i have SO many ideas you have no idea. that fic ate at my brain for like a month before i found the time to write it so i had plenty of ideas i didn't fully explore. i'm adding a read more just bc. that was one of my more fucked up fics so i don't want to subject anyone to a necro kink jumpscare
so one of the big ideas i've thought about with that fic is Tim dealing with the aftermath of it, right. bc he's of course going to hide it from everyone. the Batfam all just neds to hold onto the hope that they can save Dick somehow, and knowing what Dick did would kill any lingering hope that there's anything left of Dick Grayson in the walking husk that he's become. so Tim has to deal with the worst of it alone, probably not even mentioning he ran into Dick.
the fun part tho is that above everything else, Tim wouldn't be able to let go of Dick's comment about fantasizing about Tim before being a vampire. Tim knows the comment was made just to get in his head, but that doesn't stop it from working. he spends hours pouring over old footage of him and Dick training, hanging out, on patrol, anything he can find. just to like. try to find evidence of Dick's gaze lingering. it eats Tim alive not knowing one way or the other if it was a lie. if it's true, at least it makes it easier for Tim to move on from the memory of Dick. but not knowing is worse. and he never finds anything that satiates the question so like. that'd destroy Tim the most. (the real answer is that Dick genuinely didn't feel attraction to Tim before being a vampire, *but* Dick is convinced he did bc being a vampire fucked him up so badly that he's become his own unreliable narrator. so it's both true and untrue, and in the end, it doesn't matter either way bc Tim is fucked up by the thought of it and even if they "fixed" Dick by curing him, i think Dick's romantic feelings would linger in the horror of what he did.)
i'm really just. in love with Dick's feelings toward Tim in the fic. the most difficult part of the fic was figuring out how to end it, bc sure as a sexual fantasy Dick is obsessed with killing Tim, but he's also deeply in love with Tim, so it's difficult to follow through on. Dick wants to make Tim a vampire more than anything, but he is genuinely worried about how well it'd take for Tim. the fic doesn't really go into who's on Dick's side as a vampire, but i personally believe he's turned most of the Titans. probably some of his own rogues as well, i could see him turning Slade. i can't explain why, those are just the vibes.
it is important to me just how much of Dick's feelings for Tim are based in him not wanting Tim to live under Bruce's thumb. like the whole vampire brain has convinced Dick that Bruce is somehow the villain in this, and it was Bruce's control keeping Dick from being the person he wanted to be. it's a very warped reality and if i continued the fic i'd love for the second part to be from Dick's perspective just to have fun with the unreliable narrator of it.
back to the porn tho. Dick would seek TIm out again. probably in Tim's own apartment, just bc he wants to destroy every safe space Tim has. getting into Tim's head is an important part of breaking TIm down. the fear of Tim fighting back against being a vampire is one that Dick is trying to figure out how to manage and his current plan is to break Tim mentally. it's why he brings up wanting to sleep with TIm before being a vampire. he *knows* it's gonna fuck up Tim. and the more he puts these little cracks in Tim's psyche, the more he's sure he's breaking Tim down enough to be able to turn him. so going to Tim's apartment and proving that at any point, Dick can easily find Tim and fuck him. always holding the threat of killing Tim over his head. and Dick knows Tim didn't tell anyone when days pass after their first meeting and no Bat comes after him so like. Dick really just pushes the limits. i think he would brand Tim just bc he can. i also got a comment on the fic that mentioned Dick stabbing Tim and fucking the wound and i canNOT get that image out of my head either-
and the necro/snuff kink just. Dick playing the long game, so it takes maybe months of stalking Tim, going after him. sometimes he fucks Tim, sometimes he just fights and taunts him. and all the talk about killing Tim fucks with Tim's head a little bit. i think it'd be fun if it killed Tim's ability to have vanilla/normal sex with someone else, like Kon. it's hard for Tim to understand anyone being attracted to him in a way that doesn't involve him being a dead body. i don't think he develops the kink fully, but he does end up convincing himself being a corpse is the only way he's attractive bc of all the things Dick has said to him. it all plays into Dick psychologically breaking Tim.
i am a lover of fucked up/unhappy endings so. for me. the ending would be Dick following through on his plan to kill Tim and turn him. it'd take months for Dick to work up the courage bc TIm was absolutely right when he pointed out that Dick was too scared to actually follow through on his fantasy. Dick tries, multiple times. he convinces himself no less than five times that this is going to be the one. this'll be the time he really does it. but just as Tim starts to die, Dick panics. i think it's especially fun if once Dick even gives Tim CPR bc of his cold feet. so Tim does "die" for a second and has to brutally come back while Dick is buried inside of him.
but when Dick does it, his fears manifest in that Tim does *not* take being a vampire well. he's constantly trying to kill himself (in the time it takes for Dick to break Tim, Tim probably does figure out what poison can kill a vampire) and Dick ends up having to keep Tim locked up so Tim doesn't kill himself. would truly love to try to write Tim as mentally shattered as possible. part of him loves Dick, but he's fighting himself so hard he's not even sure if it's the vampire side that loves Dick or the human side. he's kept like a human pet, bc Dick is convinced he'll get Tim to accept it sooner or later. just a very fun, very fucked up sort of ending. i say this about all the fics i write but this one specifically i do *really* want to continue someday. i know exactly the direction i'd take it, and it could turn into a pretty long fic with a lot of fucked up porn, a lot of unrequited love, and an eventual mind break for Tim.
#necrotic answerings#kindly praise#your dream turned into a nightmare when i crawled inside it#batcest#dicktim#dead dove do not eat#seriously this is a VERY dead dove if you have not read the fic be warned about reading this post lkjhklkh#shock of shock. the person with necrotic in their username. likes necro shit in fanfic.#i might explore necro kink in other ships#i've got a fucked up ra's/tim brainworm where ra's kills tim and brings him back to life with the pit. over and over.#waiting until he 'perfects' tim#(all while fucking him. obviously.)#anyway yeah i coudl easily turn this fic into like. at least 50k of fucked up shit.#which is funny bc when i wrote it i was SO nervous about posting it#i genuinely almost didn't post it. my partner can attest to this.#but i'm delighted it found it's niche.#necro freaks unite#i should mark this post mature. i will not.#you can tell i have a LOT of thoughts. i thought so much of this fic out that didn't actually end up in the text#some of it was just bc i couldn't include it from tim's pov#and some of it i did want to leave up to the reader#such as whether you believe dick had a crush on tim beforehand#in my head the answer is no but i think it's also fun if you believe he did#so i welcome that interpretation
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random marauders era headcanons part i forgot
james laughs at his own jokes before he can tell and while he tells them to someone else. hysterical wheezing laughter
mary has a pack of cherry and a pack of strawberry bubblegum on her wherever she goes. marlene has mint drops
remus only takes 30-minute long baths, and he never takes showers; just baths, always baths
dorcas squeals when she's excited
marlene's fringe is always too long, and whenever she cuts it, it's too short, and the wait for it to grow back into in length drives her up the wall
lily used to have a really large, greybunny named dust, and it used to be her best friend when she was five
peter always has hair ties with him and he ties his hair up with it in silly little things which should resemble ponytails
sirius' favorite eggs are eggs benedict, he could have them every day for breakfast
james wears slightly under knee high socks and only slightly knee high socks during the summer. if he has to wear socks, you can bet those are what he's wearing (he also wears socks and sandals and thinks it's the peak of fashion)
lily always puts her hair up before doing homework. it helps her focus better because she's not actively pushing her hair out of her face anymore
marlene's favorite hogwarts professor (besides mcgonagall) is flitwick, and that is why she's focusing and studying for his class (the only class actually cares about)
remus is shit at flirting (i am a firm believer of remus 'awkward' lupin)
mary makes puppy eyes to get what she wants (it actually works, somehow (especially on lily, and mostly on lily, actually))
peter has really warm and soft hands, and people always want to hold his hand for this reason. he also does that soothing thumb rubbing thing
sirius knows how to play the harp, and played it when he was younger, but he never actually used that skill later in life
the sorting hat actually considered putting dorcas in ravenclaw, but ultimately decided on slytherin because of her cunningness
#i wrote two headcanons for each and this is how i usually write headcanons actually 😭#also headcanons are so weird like. i have this view of them in my head but i can't describe n tell you what The View is. i literally can't#it's so fucking weird#ANYWAYS#how do we like the new username#ANYWAYS 2#sirius black#sirius black headcanons#remus lupin#remus lupin headcanons#james potter#james potter headcanons#peter pettigrew#peter pettigrew headcanons#marlene mckinnon#marlene mckinnon headcanons#dorcas meadowes#dorcas meadowes headcanons#lily evans#lily evans headcanons#mary macdonald headcanons#headcanons
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Your name is very pretty to say, I just noticed
Bud you gotta stop doing this to me this is the second time today now do you mean my username or my actual name ??
#ask#seven-rats-in-trenchcoat#either way thank you#my actual name was picked for me#but my username#thats all me bby#im weirdly proud of my username#bc ill use it for like games and stuff#with friends and family#and every time i get a damn howd you come up with such a good name so fast#hehe theyll never know
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did you get rid of your patreon? i keep seeing posts mentioning it but i cannot find it
yep i got rid of it in march when i became fulltime employed style and replaced it with this blog (that's the origin story of this blog)
so some of the art i post here was originally posted privately for patrons
#this blog was my way to keep posting extra stuff & doodles and lore and whatever but without the pressure of knowing ppl are paying for it#i am very grateful to everyone who subscribed to me. i still see ur usernames in my notes and i'm like :) yay#i thought i'd have not enough time to draw and wouldn't be able to keep up with patreon#but actually the opposite happened.. i still have not much time but i am drawing more#i like tumblr more i think. and i'm surprised that i got more than 50 followers here too
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