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#accurate i went to the beach today and they were there.
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today house and wilson went to a beach, somewhere in maryland. they’ve lost track. they sunned for thirty minutes before they got bored and wilson went parasailing, while house drank a beer on the boat. they ate shrimp cocktail and tried bubble tea, which both of them hated. they settled down in a beachside motel for the night.
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strwberri-milk · 5 months
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April Showers
Rafayel x Reader || Fluff, Cuddling || 1 112 words
In which the two of you indulge in some cuddles in the rain.
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You thought you were used to all of Rafayel’s little eccentricities by now. As much as you loved him you could never determine which ones were from his upbringing as a Lumerian, or the fact that he’s rich beyond your wildest imagination with the self control of a toddler on a sugar high.
He’d been quite adamant for the last little while that you not wander out too far on his beachfront property. You’d seen the construction crews coming and going for quite some time now so you assumed that he was in the middle of some new art installation as per usual. You knew not to question his inspiration for it came as easily as it went.
Today you’d turned up at his house despite the pouring rain, Rafayel’s frenzied texts begging for your attention once more. It’s standard procedure – he acts like he’s about to drown without you being near him and then is perfectly fine once you’re there. You never mind, you never did. You liked having his attention on you, knowing that it’s a hot commodity.
“Rafa?” you call out to the empty house.
It’s darker than usual. Even if he was working with his studio’s lights off, you’d be able to find some source of light near a wet canvas. Rafayel always made sure that his colours were as accurate as possible. You ignore the rise of anxiety in your chest at the lack of his response, deciding to up the ante.
“Babe? Honey? Sweetheart? Love of my life?”
Usually, the sweeter your nicknames were for him meant he’d come barrelling down the hallway and bowl you over with the weight of his body. Now, no matter how hard you listen you can’t even hear the sound of his breath, deciding to brave the weather and step outside to see if he was on the beach.
Strangely enough, it seems whatever construction was being done was finished. You thought that the trucks were missing from his driveway due to the weather but the pristine sand and building you didn’t recognise proved differently. Rafayel wasn’t an architect as far as you were concerned so you doubt that this was meant for an exhibition of his, cursing his inability to buy umbrellas and braving the torrential downpour to head towards the marble pillars.
As you approach, you can’t help but be taken aback by the precision carved into the surface. Even if he didn’t construct it with his own two hands you knew that it had his artistry all over it, delicate patterns and sculptures attached to the smooth stone by him. You’re so enraptured by the works of art that you barely notice the lump laying on the cushioned space of the sunken gazebo.
Rafayel lays in the newly built space, listening to the sound of the rain and awaiting his knight in shining armour to come keep him company. He jolts a little as you slide in next to him having not heard you finally arrive at his side. His smile is bright enough to part the clouds for a moment, pulling you into his side and pressing a kiss to your wet cheek.
“You’re drenched. How did that happen?” he asks, your breaths mingling in the shared space.
“You were missing. I had to come find you and unfortunately, I can’t control the weather. What is this anyway? I didn’t know you were one for backyard barbeque sessions,” you tease, putting a cold arm around his waist.
“It’s a gazebo. I designed it and had it built. Thankfully they finished it early so now I get to enjoy it in the rain.”
“You’re so weird. Nobody looks forward to sitting in the rain like you do,” you say with a roll of your eyes.
“I told you already,” he says hotly without any ill will. “It doesn’t rain in the ocean. I’ll never get sick of the way it sounds, how I’ll never be able to capture it on camera, the way it feels on my skin. Just admit that you take it for granted and move on.”
“I do not take it for granted. I’m allowed to be grumpy right now anyway – I’m all cold and wet!”
Rafayel does feel a little bad for not warning you and you know he does by the shedding of his cardigan before he slowly peels off your wet shirt. You don’t mind the gesture, letting him button the soft fabric around your upper body as he pulls you back into his chest. He reaches blindly until finally locating a dry towel hidden in a compartment near the two of you, drying off your hair and draping it over your legs with a soft apology.
“I forgot to tell you to bring an umbrella. I got so lost in the sound of the rain that would have fallen asleep were it not for you sneaking into here next to me.”
You can’t be mad at him anyway, not when his voice takes on that wistful tone and you see the lost look in his eyes. He liked to run circles around you, pretend that he’s an open book when really, you’d only begun to scratch the surface of the man he is, not the one he wanted you to see. It evokes a sense of melancholy in you, burying your face in his neck and losing yourself in his presence.
“It’s alright. I’m not actually all that mad at you,” you reassure regardless, finally feeling the chilling bite of the rain ebb away.
“It’s romantic. Laying here with you and listening to the rain. If I didn’t already, I totally would have fallen in love with you.”
His soft laughter makes your heart flutter. You look up to meet his lavender-blue eyes bright with mirth as he gently noses against your cheek.
“Well, I’ll be sure to keep that in mind the next time we’re arguing,” he says playfully.
Normally, storms would make you nervous. The only thing that made you capable of driving over in the first place was the knowledge that Rafayel would be here to help sooth your anxiety. The thunder and lightning did nothing to help your already anxious mind from going a mile a minute but here in his arms, none of that mattered.
You rest your ear on his chest, letting the sound of his heartbeat amongst the scattered rain soothe you into a well needed sleep. Rafayel looks down at you affectionately when he realises you’ve gone limp on him. His hand rests by your ear, pinky gently stroking your cheek as he presses a kiss on the top of your head.
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onskepa · 1 year
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You know the Mother Moat X reader I requested a while back?
Could you please make one of Ronal X adopted human daughter reader?
Random: (probably not accurate)
Ao'nung: Look at them, they're all freaks!
Y/n: ...Brother, am I a freak too?
Ao'nung: That's different. You're my sister. I don't care if you're a human. You're an exception-
-Death
Okie dokie! I tried my best not to make it nearly identical to Stxeli so I did some change for this one. Hope you all enjoy this one!
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Pahem
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"The sea gives, and the sea takes"
That is the motto, the rule, the statement, the saying in amongst the reef clans. It is the cycle and the rule of the ocean. It is beautiful as is deadly.
To receive, you must give.
Ronal and Tonowari. The Olo'eyktan and Tsahik of their clan has given so much to the sea. To Eywa. They expect nothing in return only to live in their peaceful island.
Their hard work and dedication were noticed. And Eywa believes it was time to give them something special.
It was another day in the island. Everyone is doing their duties, others relaxing among the beach, children playing around. It was just another day.
Except for Ronal. As Tsahik, it is her duty to hold her connection with Eywa and to interpret whatever Eywa is telling her. And today, ever since she opened her eyes to a new day, she cant help but feeling something big is going to happen. Yet cant seem to know if it will be a good thing, or a bad thing.
At the same time, something small was passing the walls that protects the island, it was making its way to beach.
Word quickly spread of an odd floating object getting closer to the beach. Many gathered to see what it was, it even caught the attention of ronal and tonowari.
Both were at the fore front of the gathering crowd, warriors close should the item be seen as a threat. But as the item got closer, the less threatening it looked.
The item in question was made of demon metal. Round and reflective. Ronal felt a pull to the item and went to get closer. Tonowari was right behind her making sure she was safe.
All it took was a touch of the item and the top slid back to reveal...
A human baby girl.
Ronal was shocked and confused. What is a human child doing this far at sea? As far as Ronal remembers, what humans remain have settled with the forest na'vi. And that is days away from where they are.
The human child in question was sleeping peacefully. Only little snores escaped her tiny lips. Gently picked up the child into her arms, the child snuggled against ronal's chest.
Tonowari looked down at the child, feeling just as confused. "A human child? Where are the others?" He looks back at the sea, seeing no ships or other form of demon aircraft.
Ronal looks down at the sleeping child as she answers, "I am not sure...but she was out there all alone. No mother, no father....tonowari, what if they left her to die?" the more she questions the girls arrival, the more scared she thinks about it.
The sea is large, and full of dangerous things. Anything at anytime something could have harmed the child. And no one would have known.
Tonowari holds ronal as reassurance. "Perhaps it was the will of Eywa that protected the child. To bring her to us". It made sense in ronal's mind. All day she couldnt shake the odd feeling. And now she knows why. Eywa has guided the lost child to them. To be found.
Taking in the child was a choice that took time for the people to adjust. Tonowari and Ronal took in the little baby as their own. Naming her Pahem.
And Pahem was a dear treasure to Tonowari and Ronal. While small, she has a big personality. Would laugh and smile a lot, and even got along so well with ao'nung and tsireya!
Both children loved their new little sister and would play games with pahem at the center. Like any child, pahem was no different in crying or being fussy. All it takes is a small pile of seashells or having her ilu toy and she is calm as a clam.
Pahem fitted well into the family. Ronal felt like she birthed Pahem, that she was there since day one. However, time to time, Ronal would look back at the sea and wonder where she came from. Or if her original mother lost her at some point. But Ronal tries her best not to think too much on it.
As time goes on, Pahem began to show interest in anything that has to do with physical activity. Swimming of course is essential to pahem. Has become an excellent diver and can hold her breath for a long time. An astounding professional at such a young age.
She even began to teach the young children and has the patient of infinite stars. She was calm, sweet, but isn't afraid to stand her ground.
Pahem loves her siblings, but, she mostly views ao'nung in high regards. She will follow him more than she would with tsireya. Pahem would copy how he talks, walks, and even eat ao'nung's favorite foods, pahem would try to style her hair like ao'nung.
Ao'nung felt very happy and proud that his little sister would look up to him. So he tries his best to be a good example for her.
Tsireya on the other hand, loves and adores her cute little sister. Would style pahem's long hair into different ways and put cute little décor. Would also enjoy sister time with pahem as much as she could.
Pahem has a soft side for tsireya as she cant handle her sisters cute blue eyes! Tsireya would also scold ao'nung for teaching pahem something that is rough or not lady like.
Rotxo has would tease pahem, often calling her "little nung" and would try to pull little pranks of her. He likes to spend some time with pahem and would show her some tricks of his own. Even share secrets of how to prank ao'nung really good.
Tonowari on the other hand, he is proud to have pahem in his life. She is very small but her heart beats like a tulkun. He would often train her to be a hunter like how she desires, to fight and to train to be the mightiest warrior the metkayina has ever seen. Of course not to push his child to the extreme since her stamina is lower than that of a na'vi her age.
Both ronal and tonowari love pahem for how independent she is for someone so young. Yet they cant help but feel protective of their little girl. So small and anything can hurt her. So when she goes out, there is always someone watching over her from a distance. Making sure no harm comes in her way.
Everything was fine. Everything was perfect.
Until the sully family came.
That day, ao'nung and rotxo took it upon themselves to see who arrived on their island. Them and many other clan members gather to see. Tsireya also came to see to see who arrived, and felt fluttery when one of the newcomers said "hey" to her.
Ronal and tonowari came and greeted jake sully and his family. When uturu was asked, ronal was the first to point out their flaws and distinct traits they have.
"they have demon blood!" She shouts for everyone as she holds one of the children's hands as they have an extra finger.
"mother wait!!" a voice was heard amongst the crowd. The people made way to show pahem. The sully family were very shocked to see a human living amongst the reef people.
"sister, not now" ao'nung stepped in front of pahem as means to stop her from getting closer to the outsiders.
"please brother" she smiles and went around him. "mother, you say they have demon blood, but they are not different from how I look. They have an extra finger, eyebrows, yet I have them too. Let them in mother, they look tired from a long journey" pahem pleaded.
Ronal took in her daughters words and held a silent conversation with her mate. After what felt like long minutes. Tonowari granted uturu. And the sully family were welcomed.
The first few weeks were awkward and odd as the sully family were trying to understand how a human was living in a na'vi clan without being outcasted or anything. And even more confusing as pahem is the chiefs daughter.
When their training took place, pahem became more of tuk's personal teacher as with tuk it took a lot more patience and using different form of teaching methods. Tuk became close to pahem quicker than her siblings and came to love her like a best friend.
the other sully children got to know pahem in different paste. Lo'ak was the slowest one to getting to know pahem as pahem was always with ao'nung. And lo'ak isnt so keen on getting along with the brat.
However one day, lo'ak was doing his own thing when he noticed ao'nung and his goons bullying kiri. A fight ensued making tonowari and jake having to confront the boys.
Lo'ak was angry when jake told him he had to apologize to ao'nung. "just why should I say sorry!? he called my sister a freak!". Pahem was hiding behind the tent when she heard what lo'ak said. Made her feel a bit disappointed towards ao'nung. Her super awesome big brother.
Later, when the sun was setting, ao'nung was sharpening his blade when he saw pahem sit in front of him. "That is a nasty bruise" she pointed out. Ao'nung huffed. "Its fine, doesn't hurt".
Pahem took a moment before sayings what she needed to say, "brother, am I a freak?". That made ao'nung stop at what he was doing and look into his sisters eyes. "What? no no, why would you ever think that?" he moves to sit beside her. Pahem rubs her arms and continues. "You called kiri and lo'ak a freak. Its not their fault for how they look like. They have similar features to what I have. And you called them a freak. How are they different from me brother?" she looks up at him, wanting to know the answer.
Ao'nung felt stuck. He gulped down his nervousness and tried his best to answer. "They are not us, they are not you. You are not a freak. You are my sister, a metkayina. You are one of us. Born and raised here. They dont belong here".
That answer didn't seem to satisfy pahem. "but isn't that the point? They came obviously knowing they have to change everything, leave behind all that they know. So clearly brother, they are struggling, yet they are learning. There is massive progress with them. And it is YOU who doesn't want to see the change! Metkayina or not, my blood is closer to them than it is closer to you. If you continue to bully them then I will get mad and....and.....!! I will hang out with lo'ak over YOU!".
When pahem said that, it felt like a newborn tulkun was laying on his chest. Air left his lungs, and unable to process the threat. Pahem? Leaving him over the baby tail freak? Never!
"ok ok, I promise! I wont bully lo'ak or anyone else of his family. I promise." he pleaded with pahem. "you promise promise?" pahem leaning in. Ao'nung nodded fast. That answer seemed to please pahem and smiles. "ok!" and she sat on his lap and began to chat like she didn't threaten him.
For the moment. All was well in pahem's life.
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Aaaaaaaaand that is all for this one! This was cute to write! Until next time! see ya!
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Pahem = Arrive
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atzfilm · 2 years
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— the kraken; (m)
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— kraken!yunho/f.reader, 25.5k
— fantasy, fluff, angst, smut
— finding a man in the middle of a snowstorm, you try your best to figure out how to get him back home.
— content warnings under cut
— a/n; rewrite of one of my old fics ♡ hope you enjoy ;;
content; fire, injuries, hospital, cussing, smut: watersports, tentacles
“Only three?” Jongho pouts, holding up the oranges in his hand. “But it’s buy four get one free, you don’t want to give a farmer some extra money?”
You snort, nodding as he quickly adds two more to your bag before you could protest. “You aren’t even a farmer, your grandparents are. And we’re not even close to any fruit fields. We’re next to a beach, Jong.”
Jongho and you have been friends ever since you stumbled into his shop one night after a high school breakup, tears running down your cheeks. Instead of the noble thing, he told you to make sure not to put your makeup on anything and passed you an old bread they didn’t sell during the day. At the time, you were pissed off at him for being so inconsiderate, but looking back at it now, he probably didn’t know how to respond to a random stranger walking into his parent’s, well now his, store. After seeing him in the halls and apologizing for that mess of a night you had, your relationship with him grew pretty quickly. By the time a month passed, you’re sure you knew everything about him. Insecurities and all.
Fate brought you into that shop that night, and you’ve never been more grateful for it.
He shrugs, showing you your total before you hand him the cash. “I’m just trying to run a business here, if a white lie gets me an extra dollar who really wins in the end?” he passes you your bag and you thank him, tucking it into your larger one. “Who cares if you’re my best friend and you know everything about me? You just found out about my grandparents ten years ago. People forget you know.”
You laugh, “Just ten years ago? God, I really should invest my money into other things. Like Walmart.”
He gasps, holding his hand over his chest in mock shock. “Walmart? You’d buy their pesticide-filled fruit over my luscious, moist plants? Is this who we are now?”
You stick your tongue at him. “Please don’t say moist. See you at the barn tonight. And don’t forget your pie, you know that Mingi would have a fit if you don’t bring it.”
You see the soft red on his cheeks darken, eyes flicking away from yours. “A-ah, right. Pie.”
“Don’t worry, I’m sure that’s not the only thing he wants to eat tonight.” You quickly navigate out the shop, expertly dodging the old bread Jongho throws at you as you wave goodbye, closing the door lightly behind you.
You’ve lived in this town most of your life, moving into your grandparents' home after your parents' divorce. It’s not like they didn’t want you, they love you and still do. But sometimes, relationships are difficult to maintain. And for better or worse, you all agreed that spending time with your grandparents seemed like the best for everyone. For that, you’re thankful. You can't imagine yourself anywhere else.
You glance both ways before crossing the street, tucking a hand in your pocket. The sky looks a bit dark today, but you don’t recall seeing rain in the forecast. Maybe a sudden storm? The weather reports aren’t always accurate but from the look of those clouds, you can only guess it’s more than a light sprinkle. You tug your zipper up higher, unlocking your car door.
“Shit,” you shiver as you turn up the heat, placing your bag to the side and driving away.
Your mornings consist of you waking up, going to visit Jongho at his store, then going back home to organize some loose ends that they left behind before you went back to work. This week you’re off from your job, Mingi insisting that you need a break. You’ve worked at the bookstore-library combo for longer than you could remember, to the point where you’re now a co-owner, next to him. You couldn’t believe your eyes when Mingi handed you the paperwork to make you partial owner, tears springing to your eyes. He laughed at you but you could tell how much it affected him as well, explaining that he had dust in his eyes as he wiped tears. It was an easy choice at the time; Mingi has been your best friend longer than Jong has. Two peas in a pod.
Your phone rings, and you glance at the caller ID on the dash, before picking it up. Speak of the devil.
“Aren’t I supposed to be on vacation, sir?” You say, slowing down to a red. “Why are you calling me? I’m going to deduct this from my vacation.”
“Please shut up,” Mingi whines, and you only laugh. “I was just calling you to let you know that the forecast just called for a storm, so don’t go to the barn tonight.”
“What? But it’s the annual town fundraiser, how can I just not go? Everyone is going to be there!” You beep loudly at a car cutting into your lane, sighing loudly. “Idiots.” You murmur.
“Yea, I know. But we both know how you drive. I don’t want you to get into any accidents or worse. Just, stay off the road, okay?”
“Mingi, you don’t have to worry about me. You know that.”
“Yea,” his voice cracks, but you can’t tell if it’s the reception or him himself. “But I do anyway.”
Your relationship with Mingi is unique. You consider him a brother rather than just a best friend. He’s always been there. You honestly cannot think of a moment where he wasn’t always present; your middle school graduation, high school graduation, college graduation. When you were engaged at some point but broke it off just hours before the wedding. He’s your rock, and you are his. So you never blame him if he worries. You’d do the same if you were in his position.
“Fine. But I’m still going, rain or shine. I’ll take my bike instead, or walk. It’s only a few minutes away.”
“y/n…”
“Nothing you say is going to stop me from going. You might as well accept it. I’ll just call you when I leave the house, alright?” You pull into your driveway, glancing at his profile picture. It’s the day you graduated, faces squished against one another as you scream in happiness. “And don’t even try to offer to drive me there. You’re the host.”
He’s quiet for a moment. “Fine. But please at least text me. I know you’re going to forget to call like you always do.”
You frown. “No need to point that out, asshole.”
“Haha. But seriously, stay safe. If you think it looks too risky out there just stay home. There are so many more events during the year you can come to. I’ll talk to you later!”
He hangs up before you can add another snide remark. You roll your eyes, grab your phone and bag and leave the car. You glance up at the home they left you. It’s an older style, the wood panels peeling off the sides, roof in stable condition. It’s enough to last for the remainder of the year, but you’re not too sure if it’s going to go beyond that. Of course, you’re forever grateful for them passing it down to you, but you can’t help but think about how much it’s going to cost to fix it all. Hopefully Seonghwa, your local contractor and good friend, could somehow give you a decent enough estimate in the appointment this week so that you could save and by the end of the year, Have enough to pass your budget in case there's any hiccups, he says.
You unlock the door, tossing your keys to the side and dropping your coat on the rack. You stretch, humming to yourself lightly as you go to the pantry, placing your oranges in the bowl. They’ve been preparing for the event for months, a yearly festival where they raise funds for the local library and other small shops that need it. It’s always successful, several thousands of dollars immediately allocated to where it needs to go. And despite Mingi being one of the recipients of the awards, he hasn’t hosted it until now.
You sit down, glancing over your documents as you sigh. He insisted that you’d take care of this tonight even though you suspect it’s because of the weather, to keep you home. You crack your knuckles, pulling up the information on your laptop and home computer.
Two can play at that game.
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You lock your door behind you, grabbing the umbrella lying next to your mailbox. You can only imagine Jongho running up to your house in disgust at how you still haven’t gotten an umbrella holder after years of living here, but you digress. You’re cutting it a bit close to the time, but it’s enough to get there a few minutes late. Not to be too harsh, but there are mostly older people living in this town. Mingi, Jongho, and you are part of the very few younger people residing here.
You can recall your mayor constantly pointing you out whenever there are town halls, explaining how the “youth” would like change. Even with your blatant disgust at him wanting a large corporation to move into town, he still tried to use your face at the meeting to make it seem as if you were supporting the expansion. You could only scoff at him, shaking your head. If only they allowed citizens to make remarks without having to reserve the spot weeks before.
You open your umbrella above you, already hearing the pitter-patter of rain splattering across the concrete. You glance up at the sky, the clouds staring angrily down at you. Maybe you’ll make it before it actually begins to pour. Jongho promised that he’d take you home after so there’s no need to worry about that. You increase your pace anyway, the vision of a drowned rat circling in your head.
As you walk, you glance over at the ocean. An odd shadow sits on the creek, almost blending with the sand and dark ocean. It doesn't quite look like a body shape, maybe distorted by the distance and your subpar eyesight. You look once more before looking away, your nerves high. Your neighborhood hasn’t had any violent crimes for hundreds of years, but you wouldn’t like to be the first.
And so, the jogging begins.
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“You’ve made it!” Seonghwa holds the door open for you and you thank him, placing your umbrella on the hook. Luckily, you’ve made it before the brunt of the storm unscathed, a few droplets barely hitting your shirt. “Wait, did you walk here?”
“How else would I get here Min?” You nudge him, glancing around the room. It’s busier than you thought, already half the town filling the barn. Glass jar lights hanging from the beams, something Seonghwa more than likely came up with. The lighting is dim enough to make it feel homey inside. You see Mingi running back and forth across the room, thanking people for coming and handling issues that pop up.
“How long has he been like that?” You ask Seonghwa. He gives you a sheepish look, rubbing the back of his head.
“For hours now. I don’t think he’s stopped moving since I came here.”
You sigh, quickly walking up to him and stopping him in the middle of another sprint. His eyes meet yours and he pulls you into a bone-crushing hug, you groaning against his shirt as he says something too quickly for you to understand. He pulls back, about to navigate around you before you stop him in his tracks.
“y/n…” He whines. “I have so many things to deal with, there’s no time for games.”
“You’re sweating in an air-conditioned room that’s freezing. And Seonghwa told me that you haven’t gotten a break this whole time. Mingi, relax. Everything is fine. You’re fine, and people are having a good time. There’s no reason to stress yourself over this, okay?”
He sighs, rubbing his eyes. “Fine, fine. But, um, have you seen Jongho? It’s been an hour or so and he’s always early to these things?” He glances around you, a hint of a blush decorating his cheeks.
“No, I haven’t. Did you text him? He hasn’t answered any of mine…” You look at your phone, your message read, but never responded to. It’s unlike him to ever miss a message; the man is glued to his phone most of the day since businesses around here never truly get busy unless it’s a holiday. “Should I be worried? Maybe I’m worried–”
“y/n, relax. He’s fine, he’s probably up to no good like usual. I’m sure he’ll show up sooner or later,” Mingi squeezes your arm. “And I’m glad you made it here fine,” he frowns slightly. “Even though you didn’t listen to me.”
You roll your eyes, stepping to the side. “I’m a grown woman, Mingi. I can take care of myself. How about you go and track down the mayor? I’m sure he’s somewhere around here spewing some shit to make people vote for him again.”
He lets out a loud sigh, “Fuck him. You should run next time, we need young people more involved.”
“Absolutely not,” you push him in a random direction, him blowing you a kiss before he disappears into the crowd.
There’s a lot more people here than you expected, even the younger people of your community gathering inside. You’re not that shocked; Mingi’s charisma demands a crowd, even during high school. The man smiles and people swoon. With an event like this? He could probably gather the whole town without even trying. And as you push your way through, bumping and stepping over toes, saying hellos, you’re sure at least half the population is in this barn. But still, no sign of Jongho. You know Mingi told you not to worry, but you messaged him again, and no response.
you: are you okay? you’re not one to just disappear :( do you need help with anything
Again, read. Zero response. Either he left his phone open on your chat and is pissed, or… something has happened.
You step outside, away from the loud music, and dial his number. You quicken your steps to his store and home, your anxiety rising.
“Hey, it’s Jongho! If you’re listening to this, I’m either dead or exhausted. Leave a message after the be-”
You hang up, and dial his number again.
“Hey, it’s Jongho!…”
You turn the corner, bright orange and yellow flashing in your eyes. Your phone slips from your fingers, cracking on the pavement as you stare in shock. Flames rise to the sky of Jongho ’s home, bright against the dark night. Your legs pump underneath you, thoughts filled only with Jongho . The burning heat feels as if it melts your skin as you push through the doors.
"Jongho!"
Flames glide along the floor, burning everything in sight. You stick close to the floor, covering your mouth with your scarf as you glance around for any sign of Jongho . The glass scattered across the tiles dig into your skin, adrenaline masking the pain. Blood drips each time you slide, but you ignore it. Your eyes flick to an open door, and without much of a thought, you crawl through.
Jongho’s head is tilted to the side, body slump against his desk chair, head thrown back in an odd position and stained with blood. Your legs want to buckle underneath you at the sight, but you push through, reaching out and grabbing him by the shoulders, carefully placing him on the floor. He’s heavy, you struggle as you pull him through the flames. The heat burns your skin as you scream in pain, tears rolling down your cheeks, smoke slowly filling your lungs.
Your head is dizzy, fingers slipping as you fall back to the floor. You groan, glancing down at your ankle, seeing it turned in an odd position. Did this just happen? Were you walking with it this whole time? You gag, your body weakening as you struggle to grab him.
“Please,” Your tears are hot as they fall down your cheeks, eyes on him. This isn’t what you wanted. Jongho and you were supposed to be at the barn, celebrating Mingi’s first hosting as you all laughed at the strange citizens in your small town. But here you are staring at him, knowing that you don’t have the energy to pull you two the rest of the way.
“I’m sorry,” you can’t even say the words properly, coughing through your sentence, eyes fluttering as your throat burns. Before your eyes shut, you feel arms embrace your body. Wet, cold, different from the heat around you. But you don’t get a chance to see who it is, your head tilting forward as you pass out.
-
“y/n? Is she waking up?”
“It will take a moment, her lungs were filled with smoke. I’m surprised the patient even lasted that long with it. In ordinary circumstances…” The voice trails off.
“She isn’t ordinary.”
“Quiet down, your voice might disturb her.”
“Ah, sorry. I’m just worried.”
“I know, I know. Just be patient, she will wake soon.”
-
You blink slowly, a throbbing headache greeting you as you open your eyes. You take a long breath, your throat scratchy. Coughs overtake you as you lean forward, trying to figure out exactly where you are.
“y/n?! Nurse!” You feel arms hold you. You turn to the touch through your tears, the brown, wavy hair of your friend appearing between. He looks at you, eyes flicking between yours.
“I’m okay, Jong. I’m okay,” you clear your throat, the burn making you cough again. A nurse walks in before you can protest, checking your vital signs and handing you a bottle of water. You drink it slowly, the strange feeling slowly dwindling down to nothing.
“You’ll be fine,” the nurse says, smiling at you. “It’s pure luck that there wasn’t any damage to your lungs, this man over here too,” he tilts her chin to Jongho. “You lowered him to the ground and probably saved his life. A hero. Call me if you need anything. On the coms, please.” He holds up the button next to your bed, glancing at the monitor before disappearing from the room.
“Mingi and Seonghwa came, but they had to leave because their businesses needed to open,” Jongho explains, letting out a loud sigh. “You scared me, you know. Why the Hell would you enter a burning building? You could have died, y/n. I wouldn’t have been able to live with that.”
You frown, drinking more water before speaking again. “Are you kidding me? You could have died if I didn’t go in there! Was I just supposed to stare and wait for a firetruck to come? Is that what you want?”
“Yes! Yes, I wanted you to wait for the professionals to handle it. And now look at you,” he gestures to your arm, wrapped in bandages from your shoulder to the tips of your fingers. “You’re hurt because of me.”
“I don’t regret running in there and helping you. I’m sure you would do the same if it was me. I care about you Jong, I’m not the type to just stand by and watch someone like that happen. A thank you would be nice,” you murmur the last line, giving him a side glance.
He’s quiet for a moment. You feel the soft touch of his hand slowly curling with yours. You look at him, and you can see the concern lining his eyes as he watches you. He looks wrecked as well, right arm resting in a sling, left covered in gauze. Cuts scattered across his face. But it’s less than you thought, and for that you’re grateful.
“Thank you,” he mumbles softly. “I wouldn’t be here if it weren’t for you. I’m sorry for arguing with you, really. I just… I hate to see you hurt. I can’t even picture not seeing you for a day, let alone for the rest of my life. Just, thank you. And please be careful, you’re not a superhero. You’re y/n.”
You smile at him, leaning back into the bed. “You’re welcome.”
Your mind runs back to when you collapsed on the floor, a mysterious figure whispering something to you before you grew unconscious. It wasn’t a firefighter, that you could remember. Their clothes were dark, but you couldn’t make out their face. God, what did they say to you?
“Jong, was there anyone else at the scene? Did anyone tell you anything?”
“What do you mean?” he furrows his brows. “It was just us. Don’t you remember? You dragged the both of us outside. If we were still in there, we could have died. You saved us.”
“No, no I didn’t,” You try leaning up again, but Jongho pushes you back down.
“Don’t hurt yourself.”
“Jongho, I couldn’t make it to the entrance. The smoke was too much, I couldn’t breathe and fell to the floor. There’s no possible way I could have made it out.”
He tilts his head in confusion. “Then how did we get outside? They didn’t mention anyone else.”
“I…” Did you imagine it? No, you could remember those last moments clearly. It was smoky, but there was enough clarity to see someone in front of you, helping you. Did they leave after they brought you outside? Why would they do that, wouldn’t they make sure you were safe? “I don’t know what happened, but I didn’t do it. Someone else did, I’m sure of it.”
“Well,” he shrugs. “They didn’t see anyone else. I don’t know how someone would be able to, anyway. The fire spread so quickly, you would have been burned trying to get through it. But…” he grins, glancing at you.
“Guess you’re not my hero anymore.”
“You’re an asshole.”
“I’m kidding, I'm kidding– hey, that’s my bad arm!”
-
The next few weeks are rough. Walking on your two feet is wobbly at first and holding things without it hitting your cuts is even worse, but you get through it. Eventually, they heal enough for you to go through daily tasks with less pain. Mingi takes it easy on you though, making you sit at the front desk and help customers that enter, sometimes picking up the phone when he isn’t lingering around to pull every single task away from you. You insist that you can handle walking around and fixing fixtures or putting books back, but he doesn’t sway from his decision. Mingi didn’t want you to come back to work this soon, pushing you to take a paid vacation. But you can’t imagine yourself shut in your home, staring at the wall, or watching television all day. Surrounded by books is something that you love, staying away is the last thing you want to do.
“Please give it a rest,” he whines, taking a book from your hand. “Your hands aren’t going to heal properly if you continue to break them open. Please.”
“It’s fine,” you try grabbing it again, but he only guides you into your chair, fingers lightly pressing into the bruises that still line your arms. You wince slightly and he panics, glancing over you.
“Oh my god I’m sorry–”
“I swear if you apologize for nudging me, I will resign.”
“I’m sorry. Now will you go home?”
“No.”
He rubs his face in frustration. “How have I ended up with the best and worst employee in my entire life? You know I could force you to go home since I am your boss.”
“We are co-owners, Mingi,” you stick your tongue at him. “And if I want to come in I can. Don’t be whiny.”
“I care about you, that’s all,” he frowns. “Be more careful, I’m serious. I’ll file a complaint on you and force you to go home if I have to.”
“With who?”
“Jongho.”
You gasp, turning around to him as he walks around you and places the book in the return cart. “Mingi–!”
“Yea, I’m using the big guns. You’re not scared of me, but Jongho would make you go home. You know he’s already wary about this anyway,” Mingi sits next to you. “I feel like I’m your parent.”
“You’re acting like one too,” you glance at the computer. “I’ll be more careful. Having these bandages on sucks, and they stink really bad at the end of the day.”
“You’re honestly the grossest person I’ve ever met.”
“At least I don’t track my crush's poops on an app,” you murmur.
“He asked me!”
“Ah, so you admit you and Jong have a thing?” You wiggle your eyebrows. He flicks your forehead, getting up from the seat. You reach out to kick the back of his legs, but he steps forward quick enough to evade your lunges. His laugh echoes around the store as he disappears into the back. You make a mental note to pay him back later, clicking on the search engine.
Search results for: how long does it take for someone to die from smoke inhalation
You click on the first website you see.
Smoke inhalation can kill a human in only a few minutes, as well as creating disorientation and obscuring vision. There is a possibility that the person may become unconscious, quickly leading to death. Long-term injuries…
You tap on your mouse lightly, rubbing your hand. Jongho and you would have died if you stayed on that floor for just a few moments more. How did this person even survive long enough to pull you two out? The possibility is close to zero.
“Who are you?” You say, staring at the screen.
-
You wave to Mingi as you walk inside your home, locking the door behind you. You kick your shoes to the side, throwing your bags on your couch. Your eyes flick to the kitchen, water running. Before you turn it off, an almost moist, slimy sound stops you. You look down. A foreign liquid coats your shoes, as well as the rest of the kitchen. It travels in a circle around the table that sits in the middle, before disappearing off into the back. Fingers curled around a knife you just grabbed from the holder, you walk slowly to the back, hands shaking.
This is a bad idea, you think. This is a terrible idea and here you are, being a dumbass and walking further into the back. You flick on the light, trailing along the line until you see it disappear out the back door. No, correction. The open, back door. Did something crawl into your kitchen, looking for food? And what kind of animal leaves behind this… viscous-like liquid? You look out your back door, seeing none of the liquid on the porch or in the grass. You shut the door, placing the knife on the side.
What got into your home?
-
“Eww, that looks sour, like funky,” Jongho’s nose scrunches up as you show him your floors through the video call. You hold the phone in one hand, mop in the other. “Maybe a colony of snails traveled through your kitchen, couldn’t find anything, and then disappeared into the abyss.”
“That sounds like the most unrealistic scenario of my life.”
“Unrealistic, yes. Impossible, no. I mean, you did leave your backdoor open. Did you expect to come home to a clean and tidy home?”
“I didn’t leave it open,” You glare at him through the screen, placing it on your stand as you scrubbed the floors. The smell is strong, but not unpleasant. You thank the universe that you don’t have to deal with a sour smell. “I looked around my house but I couldn’t find anything that would explain what it is. Seonghwa even came in and said he hasn’t seen anything like it. He works on old homes all the time, so I thought that maybe he’d have an explanation. But nope. Nada.”
“Maybe you haven’t taken a shower yet and you tracked your ooze around your home, nasty.”
“I honestly hate you.”
“Stinky.”
“Jong please,” you stick up your middle finger at him, his laughs echoing around your kitchen. “Maybe I should call a bug expert or something to check it out. What if it comes again and I can’t clean it out?”
“Are you talking about an entomologist or a pest control technician?”
You stare at the phone, deadpanned.
“Don’t give me that look! I’m trying to help you out, not the other way around. I can call my buddy I know who loves bugs, and he can check out the discharge for you.”
“…I really don’t like the way you worded that.”
“You’re really picky.”
“I’m hanging up. Oh, wait,” you throw some more cleaning solution on it, before turning to look at him. “How are you and Mingi? Progress? Did he massage your legs after the fire? How about your toes?”
You can see the burning of his cheeks even through the terrible camera quality. He rubs the back of his neck, glancing away. “Well, he’s helped me find a temporary place while they work on the shop. Seonghwa told me that it can be fixed in less than two months, which is a relief. Someone must have been watching because it started to storm even though it wasn’t on the forecast. It saved my shop.”
“Good,” you say, smiling at him. “Now to ask Mingi on a date, and everything will be sealed and ready to go!”
“y/n…” he groans, “You’re too nosy. How about you accept that invitation from Hongjoong and actually go on a date with him? He’s been asking about you every time he sees me. I feel like I’m the one rejecting him at this point.”
“He’s still lingering around?” You sigh, glancing down at the floor. It’s not like you don’t want to go on a date with him. You’ve just been so caught up with work and personal things that dating him would only be a crutch. And you wouldn’t want to treat anyone as if they’re not an option, so you thought it would be best to tell him that you’re too busy.
He’s handsome, he owns a small farm. He’s funny and kind, the timing is just… off. And he's a little strange too. You're not sure if it's just you, but he's an enigma. Something about him rubs you the wrong way.
“You know I can’t go out with him. But this isn’t about me, it’s about you–"
“You’ve been single ever since that weird kid you dated freshman year moved away.”
“Wooyoung? He wasn’t weird!”
“He put holes in his socks and wore them as fingerless gloves. Please tell me how that’s not the least bit strange.”
“I’m suddenly very busy! I’ll call you later!” You hang up before he could say bye, tossing your phone on the counter. It buzzes, and you glance at the notification.
rat: and he ate three bars of cheese at lunch
“Fuck you,” you mutter, grabbing another sponge and scrubbing.
-
You drag yourself into your home, not bothering to even lock the door behind you as you fall onto the couch. The injuries from the fire have faded into mostly scars, only a few barely bothering you. You still haven’t figured out who exactly helped you out of the fire, but you pushed the thoughts to the side, choosing to move on with your life. Speaking of life; it’s tourist season, and the town is filled with people who want to experience the “small-town” vibes. The mayor loves it; tourism means more revenue. You should love it too since it means more business to your bookstore and library combo.
But instead, all you do is frown at the new faces that enter your shop, Mingi having to nudge you so that you can plaster a fake smile on your lips and pretend that you care about their presence. The sales were fine before, enough to keep you afloat with extra just in case. Now they’ve gone through the roof, time during the week that you can take off because of how high it is. You’re thankful for that, Mingi spending time on his own too. But everything else…
The large crowds in the grocery stores, the constant noise at night, your early morning cafe runs ruined by the lines. Everything else only makes you more annoyed. You groan into your sofa, rolling over to stare at the ceiling. Only a few more months until the warm weather hits, and everyone leaves the town for a more traditional, beach-loving vacation. A part of you feels bad that the people on the prettier shores have to deal with it, but only a little.
Your phone rings, and you glance at the caller ID before answering it.
“Mingi, did I forget something?” You sigh into the phone.
“Please I don’t only contact you for problems, we’re still friends.”
“That depends on the day of the week,” you joke.
“Haha, you’re so funny. Hilarious, even. But no, I’m calling you because there are free drinks in the town square. I know you hate touristy events-”
“I do.”
“-but it’s free. No money, zero. And you never leave the house except for work, so this is me inviting you out to get out of your hole and meet new people. Please.”
You snort. “Added that please at the end because you knew I’d say no.”
“y/n.”
“Fine, fine,” you peel yourself off the couch, letting out a sigh. “At least let me change my clothes, I’ll be there in 30.”
“Thank you! See you there, and don’t forget your umbrella, it might snow.”
You hang up, plugging in your phone and quickly changing into someone warmer. The brief shower that you took makes the clothes feel cool against your skin. You shiver before grabbing the umbrella and stepping out. There are flurries, but not enough that makes you want to run back inside. Curse your friends and their desires to socialize. All you want to do is be a goblin and hide underneath your blankets as you watch a film.
You grab your keys, shutting the door behind you, and step out. You turn on your car, sitting in for a couple of minutes before putting it in gear and driving off. You don’t bother turning on the radio, the drive takes less than ten minutes anyway. And sometimes, you like the silence. Gives you room to think of random scenarios.
You slow down at a red light, glancing over at the river. You squint, seeing something strange in the distance. Is that… a man? Lying on the ground? You quickly turn into the parking lot without much of a thought, parking right next to the entrance. Not bothering to turn off the car you leap out, rushing down the path. The man is lying on his back in the snow, eyes closed. His clothes are a bit old-fashioned, probably something that you would have worn decades ago. But that doesn’t concern you right now.
“Oh my god, sir? Sir!” You shake him, feeling the cold temperature of his skin. His pulse is low but steady. “Can you hear me? Sir?” He doesn’t respond. You glance around for a sign of anyone, but the streets are empty. Probably due to the gathering in the city center. You wrap your arms underneath him, dragging him down the path. God, if someone accuses you of killing this man…
You make it to your passenger side, flinging the door open. It’s hard to get him into the seat; he isn’t exactly light, but you position him properly, putting on his seatbelt and quickly getting on the driver's side, turning up the heat to maximum. You touch his cheek, still ice cold. His eyelashes flutter, so you know he can feel your touch.
“I’m gonna get you out of here, bring you to the hospital.” You quickly make a U-Turn, going as fast as you can through the snow. It’s heavier now, sticking to the roads. At this rate, it’d take you over a half hour to get to the nearest hospital, and you don’t know if this man even has that much time. No, now’s not the time to have negative thoughts.
“No.”
You turn to the man, his eyes still shut closed.
“No? Can you hear me? No, what?”
“No.” He says again.
“I don’t know why you’re saying no, but I just found you on the side of the river. I’m going to bring you to the hospital–”
“No,” he says, eyes slowly opening. “No, no.”
“No hospital? Then where? My home?” You snort until you see him nod. “What? No, no fucking way am I bringing a dying man into my home. I don’t even know you. You have to go to the hospital, sir.”
“No, no,” his voice trembles, hands tugging on his seatbelt.
“Hey!” You reach over, stopping them in their tracks. “I’m sorry for touching you, but it’s bad out here and that means a higher chance of getting into an accident. I can’t let you take off your seatbelt, alright?” You stare at him, and he looks back.
His eyes are brown, but it looks as if the color is swirling as he stares at you. He lets go of the seatbelt, gaze focused on you. “No,” he says again. Maybe he can’t speak well? He hasn’t said anything other than no, so he must be limited.
“Okay. No hospital. Then…” Your home? You’re going to bring this man you know nothing about into your home? It’s a terrible idea, but there’s limited options left. Either you drive to the hospital and risk this man dying on the way from hypothermia, or you can help him at your home which is only a couple of minutes away. Your fingers curl into a fist as you glare out your windshield.
You might be making the biggest mistake of your life.
“We’re going to go to my home instead.” You look at him. His tense shoulders relax and he nods, hands completely letting go of the strap of the seatbelt. You let out a shaky breath, turning your car around and heading to your home instead.
The ride is quiet as you glance at him from the corner of your eye. He’s shivering despite the heat from the vents, so you don’t dare turn it down, even if you’re sweating buckets. You have no idea how long he’s been unconscious sitting outside. From how cold his skin is, it could have been almost an hour. There aren't any signs of frostbite that you can see. Your fingers curl around the wheel, staring straight ahead. If he dies in your care… No, you can’t think about that. Everything will be fine.
Everything has to be fine.
-
You get out of the car, closing it and walking around the other side to open his door. He jumps at your approach, and you hold up your hands. “It’s okay, no need to be afraid. Can you walk?”
He stares at you silently, and you frown. Grabbing him while he was unconscious is completely different from doing it while he’s watching. You hesitate, glancing at his seatbelt. He tried to take it off before. Could he do it again? You point to the buckle, and he glances at it. His hand hovers, before he pulls on it.
“That’s not how you-”
The buckle rips out of the clasp, belt whipping back into the slot. You widen your eyes as he stands, paying little mind to your reaction. Did he just break the seatbelt with his bare hands? What the hell?
He wobbles, and you quickly reach out to him. He flinches.
“I’m just trying to help you, okay? You might have broken bones or something, that’s probably why you can’t walk straight. Okay?” You look up at him. He looks at you silently, and you take that as a yes, slowly helping him to your door. The treck is slow. It’s as if you’re teaching him how to walk, each step slightly more confident than the last.
You finally make it to the door, unlocking the door as you guide him inside. He rests on the couch with ease. His eyes flick around the room rapidly, chest rising and falling. He looks a bit anxious, fingers playing with one another.
“I’m going to close the door, alright?” You give him your back, locking your car with the button and closing the front door quickly. Stranger danger bells ring in your head. He hasn’t done anything to make you not trust him, but it could change at any moment. What if he suddenly starts speaking, and laughs methodically? Kidnaps you in your own home?
“Don’t be stupid,” you murmur lowly, turning back. Your eyes flick to the empty place on the sofa, blood growing cold. Shit.
Shit.
“Hello? Sir?” You ask warily, glancing around. You step slowly, looking into your kitchen. He sits at the table, fingers dragging along the countertops. If someone else were to do that in your home, you’d call them insane. But for some reason, it looks as if he’s doing it more out of curiosity than anything else. You step slowly, his eyes moving up to yours. You flick on the light and he squints, blinking quickly. In this light, you can finally see him.
His hair is a light brown, some strands darker than the rest. His skin is tanned, eyes identical to his hair. But what bothers you the most is the attire he’s wearing. It’s thin, the shirt hanging loose around his body, held together by old strings. His slacks are thin as well, and you’re sure he isn’t wearing anything underneath the fabric. But it looks old, not even something that exists at random stores in this century. It’s as if he just popped out of the 1800s on the docks.
“Do you know your name?” You ask. He blinks slowly, before staring back down at the countertops. You take slow steps to your stove, turning on the flame. The ticking makes him turn to you, but he doesn’t move from his spot. He still looks freezing, so you walk to your thermostat, turning up the heat to max.
Your phone rings. You take it out of your pocket, leaning against the counter as you answer it. “Hey.”
“Did you bail at the last minute?” Mingi’s voice is slightly disappointed.
Oh hell, you completely forgot about the square. The man stares at you as you speak into the phone. “I’m sorry Mingi. Some family things came up and I needed to take care of it instead. I forgot to contact you because I’ve been dealing with it.” You say slowly. The man tilts his head slightly, eyes scanning your face.
“Oh shit, is everything okay? Do you need me to come over?” You can hear rustling from his side, probably his jacket in the light wind. “I can make it in about a half hour if needed.”
“No, no. It’s fine, thank you though.” You can only imagine his face when he walks in and sees the man sitting at your kitchen counter. He’d probably collapse if he knew. “I’ll call you later, alright? I need to sort these things out for a while.”
“Okay okay,” his voice is sweet, something that you love about him. Unless he’s worried for your well being he doesn’t push or involve himself in things. “Please call me if you need me. You know I won’t hesitate.”
“I know Mingi.”
“I love you, y/n, talk to you later.”
“Love you too, bye,” you end the call, the man still staring at you. If only you knew his name…
Your eyes flick around his finger, seeing nothing that would ID him. You’re sure he doesn’t even have pockets on his outfit. And it’s strange. Despite being in the cold, wet snow, he’s not dripping wet. His clothing is completely dry, unlike yours. You take off your coat, resting it on a chair. You’re a bit afraid that if you leave him in the room alone, he’d disappear again. You take a ramen package off the table, placing the dry noodles into the boiling water. You add the seasoning to the water, before you sit in the chair across from him.
“Do you understand me?” You ask him again. Maybe there’s a few words that he can comprehend. Maybe it’s enough to figure out where he came from, and how you can bring him back. Somehow.
He nods slowly. You sigh in relief.
“Good. Do you know your name?”
His eyes narrow as he shakes his head.
“Okay, okay. No names. Can you say things other than no?”
“Yes,” his voice rumbles as he stares at you. “Yes. No.”
Well, at least you can ask him those types of questions. “Okay. I don’t know what to call you. Uh…” You glance around the kitchen, until they land on your manhwa. There’s one character in there that reminds you of him…
“Can I call you Yunho?” You ask.
He’s silent, eyes flicking between yours. You think you’ve offended him, so you immediately backtrack. “Oh, I don’t need to call you that–”
“Yes.”
“Yes?” You raise your brows in shock. “Okay, Yunho. Nice to meet you.” You hold out your hand. He reaches out lightly, before running his middle and index finger down the side. You shiver slightly at the light touch, pulling away. “I’m y/n.”
He nods slowly. “Yes.”
“Do you know how old you are?”
“Yes.”
“Do you remember how you ended up on the docks?”
He’s silent. He doesn’t say yes or no but stares at you, as if he’s willing you to understand through his eyes alone. You hear the stove sizzle, and you quickly stand up, turning down the flame. You grab two bowls, pour the ramen into it evenly, and grab chopsticks. You place the bowl in front of him, the other in front of you.
“Can you hold chopsticks?”
“No.”
You stand, walking around the table. “Look here,” you hold your fingers in front of you, demonstrating how to properly rest the sticks. He follows your instructions slowly, before he gets the hang of it. You show him out to pick up a noodle with your food, taking a bite.
He stares as you slurp it up, before staring down at his bowl, doing the same. He swallows it slowly, expression growing wide. “Yes,” he says, eyes looking at you. “Yes.”
You can only chuckle at his enthusiasm, watching as he quickly eats the noodles. Your smile slowly fades as you observe. He doesn’t even know his name. How could you bring him to where he’s supposed to be if he can’t articulate it to you? He can’t even hold a chopstick. Did he escape from somewhere? You grab your phone, looking up missing people in the area. None of them look like him, which makes it even more peculiar.
Just where did Yunho come from?
-
The night fades quickly, Yunho gulping down most of your ramen storage. You’ve settled on bringing him to the police tomorrow, knowing that they could handle this easier than you ever could. You gave him some old clothes one of your flings left at your home. He’s quite tall, the clothes tight against his figure. But it’s all that you have, and it’s enough for one night. You don’t plan on him staying longer than that.
He sits on the couch, eyes focused on the screen. They haven’t moved for hours, hands tucked underneath his thighs, legs crossed. You drink your coffee slowly, watching the screen along with him. You touched him with his permission before he sat on the couch. His skin is still ice cold, but he looks completely fine. He’s not even shivering anymore, mouth slightly agape as he narrows his eyes at the bright lights flicking across the scene.
He asked for water, well, he pointed to the water. And you haven’t stopped giving it to him. You’ve stood up every five minutes just to fill up his empty cup. You’ve never seen a human being this thirsty before, and it only concerns you more. Where did he come from? Is he dehydrated? Maybe the place that he came from refused to give him anything, that’s why he just endlessly asks for it. The more you look at this situation, the more dire it becomes.
“Have you ever watched TV before, Yunho?” You asked, and he glances at you from the corner of his eyes, before shaking his head. “Do you know where you’re from?”
This time, he moves his whole head away from the screen, looking at you. It would be terrifying if the loud action music wasn’t playing in the background. “Yes,” he says slowly as if he’s gauging your reaction.
“Would you be able to show me tomorrow?” Maybe then, you can bring him back. You appreciate his presence, you’re usually alone. But taking a random stranger into your home is bad enough. You can support two people with ease, but his name isn’t even Yunho. You just made it up on the spot. Someone must be looking for him. Anyone.
“Yes.” He turns back, and you sigh in relief. You stand up from the couch, telling him that you’re going to get his room prepared. You listen closely to the TV as you walk inside the room, glancing around. It’s a bit dusty, but it’s too late to clean. And you’re sure he wouldn’t mind anyway. He’s a man of few words.
Ha. Ha.
Words, few.
Hilarious.
“Yes!”
You throw the blankets on the bed, quickly walking back into the living room. Yunho is standing, pointing at the television. He looks at you, shaking his arm as he points at the television. You turn to see what he’s looking at and widen your eyes.
A sealife show is playing, octopi crawling along the seafloor. You cross your arms, looking back at him. “Hmm?”
“Yes, yes,” he takes more steps to the TV, pointing aggressively. You’re not sure what to make of it, the exasperated look growing on his face. You nod slowly.
“Yea, octopus. What about it?”
He rubs his face, grabbing a cup next to the table. He points at it, points at the show, and then presses his finger into his chest. He… likes octopi?
“I’m sorry Yunho, I have no idea what you’re saying. But I prepared your room for you, you can come in and I can show you around before I sleep. We have a long day tomorrow.” You feel bad, you really do. But the connection between him and the octopus isn’t really clicking. Maybe the place that he came from is called octopus? It’s a long shot, but that’s all you can think of right now.
He sighs, taking his bottles and following along after you. His steps don’t make a sound, but you can feel his presence behind you as you walk inside, pointing to the bed. Each room in the farmhouse has its own bathroom, so if he was thirsty in the dead of night he could just grab some water from the sink. He watches you in silence as you explain everything to him, following you around the large room. You finish, turning to him.
“I hope you sleep well, I’ll be right next door if you need me. The door will be closed but you can knock–” you hit your knuckles against a chest– “like that, and I’ll come and help you with anything. I hope you sleep okay.” You smile at him. He places his bottles on top of the side table in silence, before turning to you.
He looks as if he’s struggling, his mouth opening and closing. You wait patiently, still wary of his condition. He sighs, closing his eyes for a moment again, before opening them. They seem to glow as he keeps your gaze, blinking slowly. “Thank… you.”
Your lip twitches. “You’re welcome, Yunho.”
-
You wake up bright and early, stretching out your arms before you walk out of your room. From outside, you can see that the snow piled up pretty high, probably over two feet. Which means… You can’t leave to bring Yunho anywhere. Stuck. You feel your phone vibrate, and glance at the contact. Mingi messages you and says the library is closed for today, which is lucky for you. It’s not like you don’t trust Yunho, some may say you trust him a bit too much, but leaving him in your home while you go to work is just something that you didn’t plan on doing. You glance at his door, closed shut. Listening closely, bathwater is running, so you assume that he’s just cleaning himself up. You left spare clothing on his bed before you went to sleep, so hopefully, he uses that while you clean the dirty ones.
You hold the bag of his clothes tucked beneath your arm, opening the laundry door lightly as you start the machine. You pull out each garment, wrinkling your nose as you examine it. You cannot believe a human being in this time period wears clothes like this. Sure, it may be a trend that you haven’t heard of. But the garments are so thin, you can’t imagine that it would be comfortable to wear this day and age without people giving you looks, or a police officer stopping you in your tracks.
Your finger drags along the lining, seeing it clearly through the thin stitching. “How did you wear this out in the cold?” You wonder out loud, tossing it into the washer. You didn’t see a label on the clothing so you put it on delicate and for a short amount of time, starting it.
Yunho is still in his room, no, the room, so you start breakfast, turning on the television.
“Good morning! In today’s news, a strange storm has appeared on the coast. Weather forecasters across the country are baffled at this appearance. Nothing on the radars indicated any sense of a storm to form. And from the satellites, it seems to have formed yesterday night out of thin air…”
You glance at Yunho walking into the room, dripping wet. The clothes that he wears are drenched in water, splattering across your floors. You widen your eyes at his nonchalant attitude, his blank expression not the slightest bit affected by it.
“Yunho, you can’t just walk around wet!” You turn off the stove, placing the food in front of him. He blinks slowly, watching as you frantically walk around him to grab some towels. You ignore how the shirt and pants stick to his body, showing off some things that you’d rather look away from. What an interesting man, not the slightest bit embarrassed by his appearance.
“Here, sit on the towel so you don’t wet everything. Are you not cold?” You ask, sitting across from him at the table, fork in hand. He shakes his head, hesitantly poking the food on the plate. His eyes move to you. You eat slowly, raising your eyebrow.
He glances back down, before copying your actions. He chews slowly, before his eyes widen, shoving it down quickly. You snort at his actions, knowing that your parents would probably tap you on the side of your head for eating so fast. You both sit at the table silently, the news playing in the background. Your phone vibrates again, and you check it. This time, it’s a call from Jongho that you’ve just missed. You stand, telling Yunho that you’ll be right back before you disappear into your room.
He picks up on the first ring, eyes and nose filling the whole screen. You twist your face in disgust as he laughs, pulling back. “Good morning to you too!”
“What’s up Jong?” You ask, sitting on the edge of your bed. “Any news on the shop?”
“Yes, but no. The shop won’t be completed for a while, especially since there are random ass storms brewing from thin air. But I didn’t call you about me, I called about the mysterious man in your home.”
You cough, glancing out the door. You can see Yunho from here, turned around and staring at the television in silence. How the Hell did Jongho find out about him? It hasn’t even been a full day since he’s been here.
“Don’t know what you’re talking about,” you smile at him. He only frowns in response.
“So now you’re hiding your hookups from me? Nice, y/n. Nice.”
“First off, this is my business. And second, he’s not a random hookup. He’s my cousin, and he’s just staying over for a bit. He was supposed to leave today, but the storm is preventing that from happening. So, yea. No hookups here.”
Jongho pouts into the camera, stirring his coffee. “That’s much more boring than I thought. There’s no juicy tea here.”
“How did you even find out about this? Do you have spies on me?”
“No!” He says quickly, holding up his hands in defense. “Someone saw him in your car when you were going home, and then it spread across town. You know, exciting things don’t stay a secret around here. I’m pretty sure even the mailman knows about him.”
One of several things you hate about small towns. Nosy people.
“You look upset, don’t be upset! I won’t talk about it anymore if you don’t want to.”
You sigh softly, glancing at Yunho again. Lying to Jongho is something that you never want to do, and you know he can keep a secret for you. At least, until Mingi comes cozying up to him and convincing him to spill the beans. You can’t blame him, their love for one another is open to everyone but them. Maybe one day you’ll see them confessing. But for now, they just tell each other everything and pretend that nothing is happening between the two of them. So if everyone in town knows about Yunho, if you tell Jongho about who he actually is, there’s only a matter of time before everyone knows that too.
Wait.
Maybe you do want them to know. What if someone could pinpoint where he came from, and bring him back? You would have peace again, and not have to worry… But still, Yunho is a person too. He should have his privacy. So, that settles it. You won’t utter a word to Jong about it.
“I’m not upset. I’m just, I really don’t want to go out there and shovel.”
Jongho laughs. “Oh? So the lazy gene is kicking in, isn’t it? Don’t worry about it, the forecast calls for bright, sunny skies tomorrow. It’ll probably melt on its own. But hey, did you hear the rumor going around?”
You adjust yourself in your bed. “What now? Seonghwa is hooking up with Hongjoong or something? Marge finally cleaned her drain pipes? The mayor got into a scandal and he’s finally out of office?” The last one, you can only hope for.
“That sounds way more exciting than what I’m about to tell you. No to everything you said,” he rolls his eyes at your disappointed expression. “Anyway, have you heard of the Kraken?”
Kraken?
“As in, the big octopus monster thing?” You say, and he nods quickly. “What about it?”
“Well, there’s an urban legend that says it rises every hundred years. And in fact, the day that my place burned down is the mark of when it was supposed to wake from its slumber. And with the strange events that have been happening, it looks as if he’s walking around our town.”
“What strange events, Jong?” His idea is ridiculous, but you can’t help but entertain it. Something other than Yunho to speak about is a good distraction.
“The fires across the coast, the strange weather changes. I mean, there was no record of a winter storm coming, y/n. Usually, they predict it at least a week before, but we were said to have sunny temps for the next two weeks! How did it suddenly start to snow?”
“So your conclusion is that the Kraken has risen.”
“…when you say it like that it sounds idiotic.”
“Well, I’m not one to believe in giant squid monsters.”
“y/n, I didn’t believe a person could be as clumsy as you, but here we are. Anything is possible these days,” He grins at your expression. “Well if it appears, don’t say I didn’t say so. In fact, I should be the first person you call up and say, ‘I’m sorry for not believing in you, Jongho . Forgive me for my lapse in judgment.’”
“That would never happen.” You look up again, the spot where Yunho once was, empty. Your heart drops. “I gotta go, I’ll talk to you about your weird theories later.”
“But-”
You hang up, throwing your phone on the bed as you quickly walk into the kitchen. Yunho sits on the couch in the living room. legs crossed as he stares at the screen. You sigh in relief, falling back into your chair. He barely glances up at your appearance. You look at the TV, seeing another broadcast of that sea life show you were watching last night. He likes it a lot, you think. There must be a connection there, but you just can’t pinpoint it.
“Yunho?”
He turns around to look at you.
“Do you want to help me shovel the snow?”
He raises his brows in curiosity. “Yes.”
You grin. “Great!”
-
You push the shovel through the thick layers, sweat already dripping down your face. You strain as you lift it, until a hand covers yours, stopping you. Yunho looks at you, shaking his head. “No.”
“Yunho, I have to pick it up–”
He pulls it from your grasp, lifting the snow with ease. He continues to follow the path you were going, not a bead of sweat forming on his head. He stands in the middle of the snow, a frown on his face as he holds the shovel in his hands, pushing it. You haven’t picked it up once, ever since he saw you struggling with lifting a pile.
“I can help.”
“No.”
“Not even a little?”
He turns to you. “No.”
You roll your eyes, looking away. “Annoying ass,” you mutter.
“y/n!”
A familiar voice makes you freeze, gaze moving to see Hongjoong walking over to your home, a shovel in his hands. He smiles at you, glancing at Yunho. Fuck.
“Oh, I came over to help you move the snow. But it looks like you already have someone helping you, hm?” He holds out his hand to Yunho. “Nice to meet you, I’m Hongjoong. y/n’s friend.”
Yunho stares at the outstretched hand, not bothering to lift his. He doesn’t even touch it as he did to yours. Instead, giving Hongjoong his back and continued to shovel. Hongjoong clears his throat, rubbing his hand against his jacket as he turns back to you. God, is no one in this neighborhood secretive?
“Hey, Joong. Thanks for the offer, but I have all the help I need.” You gesture to Yunho.
He nods slowly, “Ah, that’s fine! No big deal! Ha, just wanted to stop by and say hello anyway. I heard this was your friend, right?” You know why he’s being a bit pushy, and you don’t blame him. You’ve rejected him plenty of times, but you haven’t exactly said no. It’s your fault, yes, but him showing up at your home is just another layer of absolutely not. No matter how small your town is.
“He is. I’ll see you later, alright? I have to finish this up and make some hot chocolate.” You’re being too nice.
“Oh, sure! I’ll see you around.” He glances at Yunho once more, before disappearing down the sidewalk. You watch as he disappears around the corner, before rubbing your face in exasperation.
A soft touch interrupts your annoyance, brushing against your cheek. You move your hands away, seeing Yunho stand in front of you, expression unreadable. He rubs your cheek softly, before pulling away. He tilts his head, eyes flicking between yours. For the first time, you see something other than confusion in his eyes.
Concern.
“Okay?” He asks, blinking slowly.
“Yes, yes. I’m fine, Yunho. It’s fine.”
He hesitates for a moment as if he can read through your lies. He nods, moving back. Your body yearns for his touch again, but you ignore the feeling. Watching as he gets back to shoveling. You rub your skin where he touched, swallowing.
Not good.
Not good, at all.
-
“Yunho?”
He looked up from the television, giving you his undivided attention. “Yes?” Simple responses like that made you happy.
“Today you’re going to show me where you came from, so you can go back home. I don’t want to take you away from your place, and we really don’t know each other well. You’ll feel more comfortable there.”
He narrowed his eyes at your words. But you don’t backtrack; some things need to be said. It’s not like you don’t love his company, seeing him sitting in the living room whenever you come back home makes you happy. But you feel like you’re taking advantage of a stranger. You don’t really know him, and he doesn’t know you. No matter how much it pained you… He didn’t belong by your side. He didn’t even have an ID.
“Want me go?” He asked. “Want me go away?”
“No, no! Of course not! I just, I know that you’d want to go away.”
He looked at you in silence. “No.”
“No?”
“You don’t know.”
-
Yunho sits in the car next to you as you drive to the spot he said he came from. The path is oddly familiar; the same trip that you took not too long ago to save him from the cold. As you’ve spent more time with him, he speaks more and more. Not as much as you’d like, but improvements are improvements. Perhaps the cold that day affected him in some way you can’t understand. But still, he struggles to express his feelings the way he wants. You feel bad. He stares at you in frustration before giving up, it took you a while to even get him out of your home to find out where he came from. . So here you are, continued silence. Yunho’s gaze out the window, left hand digging into his seat. You tried to start a conversation but it led nowhere. You’re glad that he likes to spend time with you, but some good things just don’t last.
You’ve accepted that fact long ago.
“Here?” You stop in front of the dock, the same place you found him not too long ago. He nods slowly, eyes looking past you and into the river. You unlock the car and both of you walk out. It’s still cold outside, so you’re tucked in your coat, following Yunho. You still haven’t gotten his real name out of him yet, but that’s another issue in itself.
He stops in front of the water, crouching down. You stand next to him as he reaches down, his fingers gracing over the water. He looks at you, and you widen your eyes at his expression. It’s filled with longing and concern, a glimpse of a smile dusting his lips. You haven’t noticed but from the upturn of his lips, you can see light creases indenting his skin.
“Here,” He points down, letting his hand glide along.
“But, it’s just water. How could you come from water?” You furrow your brows, staring out. Did he somehow get left behind from a boat? But you haven’t seen any new ones in years. Every boat on the dock belonged to someone from the city. Maybe that day affected his mind as well. “Yunho, what are you saying?”
“I came… I come from here.” He says methodically, pulling his hand out. “Here. Home.”
Alright.
“Oh, okay. Did you want to come back home?”
He’s silent for a moment, staring out. “Yes.”
“Can I bring you there?” You hope you’re not coming across as rude, but if he wants to go, it’s not your decision to make.
He blinks. “No.”
“No?”
“Time.”
Time. He probably needs more time to figure out how to get back. You crouch down next to him, eyes flicking out into the water. It’s funny; your town is surrounded by this river, most of it leading to the ocean. And yet, you can’t swim. Your parents always told you that it was a necessity, but why? You hated going into the water, and there was no reason for you to hop on a boat. Water and you just didn’t mix.
“Thank you.” He says softly, head resting on his hand, eyes on you. “For saving me.”
You can feel your face warm as he focuses on you. “You’re welcome, Yunho. But there’s no need to thank me. I’m just glad you’re okay.”
He nods slowly, eyes unmoving from yours. You’ve never met someone like him, so willing to share his true feelings, blurt out anything that’s on his mind. Even with his staring. As your face burns and you stumble across your words from nerves, he doesn’t look away. You let out a chuckle, shaking your head.
“You’re welcome to stay at my place as long as you need to, but you have to go home soon.”
He frowns. “Why?”
“We don’t really know each other. I mean, I don’t even know your name-”
“Yunho,” he points to himself. “Yunho.”
“But that’s what I call you. You have to have another name, you know? You look to be around the same age as me-”
He laughs.
“-so, there’s someone out there that knows it. I don’t want to take your identity from you.”
He nods slowly, reaching his hand out to brush a leaf from your cheek. You shiver at his touch. He’s naturally cold, you learned that after being with him for a while. It concerns you a bit, but there hasn’t been anything that has appeared. He’s healthy, he’s just terribly cold.
“Beautiful.”
“Hm?”
His smile widens as he watches you. “Beautiful,” he says softly.
“You’re beautiful.”
-
You chew your food slowly as you sit in front of Jongho , listening to him rant and rant about his “date” with Mingi (it was just a bump into each other at the market), and his store. He’s repeated the same things over and over. You can’t help but zone out, think back to Yunho sitting at home, a worried look on his face as you walked out the door and told him you’d be back soon. You left for work daily, but somehow, this expression seemed more bothered than the rest.
You sigh, not noticing Jongho examining you. “y/n? I’m used to you zoning out on me, but you looked worried. What’s up? Is it your cousin?”
“My cousin?” You raise your brow, before quickly nodding. “Uh, yea. He’s had a rough… time, without his family around. It’s taking a toll on him so I’m just worried, that’s all. It’ll be fine though,” you wave off his concerned gaze. “I’ll be fine.”
“You don’t have to lie to me, you know,” he says, taking a sip of his orange juice. “It’s okay if you don’t want to elaborate, but I’m here for you in anything. At all. Just say the word.”
You have to tell him.
“Well…”
“Jong?” You both turn your heads at the sound of his nickname, seeing Hongjoong jogging up to the both of you. You rub your face in frustration, already annoyed. Jongho gives you a sympathetic look, before smiling at Hongjoong.
“Hey! What’s up!" They do their strange handshake before Hongjoong sits in the third seat. Next to you. Perfect. Amazing. Spectacular.
Just wonderful.
“Hey y/n,” he says, smiling at you. Maybe you’re a bit too harsh, or maybe you just aren’t in the greatest of moods. But even him sitting next to you only makes your irritation increase. “How’s it going? I haven’t seen you and your cousin around for a bit.”
“Family things.”
“Ah…” he nods slowly. “He seems a bit reclusive. The last time I saw him he didn’t even shake my hand.” He laughs at the last part, rubbing the back of his neck.
Your frown deepens.
“Well, it’s about time we head out. Right, y/n?” Jongho sees your irritation immediately, quickly standing up. He’s friends with both of you and he hates to intervene, but you’re his best friend. “We’ll see you later, Hongjoong.”
“Oh, see you!” Hongjoong waves, watching as you both go. “Say hello to Yunho for me, yea?” He smiles at you.
You leave the cafe, Jongho pulling you along to his car. You shut the door behind you, throwing your head back and groaning. “Why won’t he just leave me alone? One day, I would like peace and quiet.”
“Ah, don’t be too hard on him. He just has a little crush on you, that’s all,” Jongho drives off, hand rubbing your arm in comfort. “You have to admire his persistence.”
“Persistence, more like harassment.”
“He’s a nice guy,” Jongho mumbles. “A little overbearing sometimes, but kind. I haven’t seen him do anything bad in his entire life.”
You turn to Jongho , narrowing your eyes. “Who’s side are you on?”
“No one! I just think…” he taps his fingers on the wheel, thinking for a moment. “I know you mean the best, but sometimes, you’re a little mean. I mean, Hongjoong is just trying to befriend you, and you don’t even give him the chance to do that.”
Your eye twitches. “Jong. He came to my home uninvited to ‘just say hi’, fuck him,” You make air quotes with your fingers. “I don’t know about you, but that’s a turn-off for me. He’s too involved with someone he doesn’t know. And he hasn’t taken the hint that I don’t like him. I can’t force myself to be friends, or more, with someone I can’t stand.”
“He went to your home?” He widens his eyes in surprise. “Why did he tell me that you went to his house?”
You lean forward. “What?”
“Yea,” Jong glances at you from the corner of his eyes. “He told me that you went during the snowstorm to help him out. Fuck, y/n. If I knew he was lying I wouldn’t even have let him sit at the table. I’m so sorry.”
You thought of Hongjoong as harmless, never threatening to you at all. But hearing this news from your best friend, that he’s been lying through his teeth. .. For what? To make himself sound better? Try to insert himself into your life with ease? It makes your stomach roll with disgust. Kim Hongjoong. You can feel yourself fill with anger, nails digging into your palms.
“y/n, relax. I’ll talk to him-”
“No, I can handle it. I just, I can’t believe he lied about something like that to you? It makes me wonder what else he’s been telling you. He can eat bricks,” you mumble, staring out the window. “I can’t catch a break, can I?”
“I’m sorry, really,” Jong says softly. “I’ve been a shit friend, trying to push you two together. I don’t know what to do to make it up to you.”
“Jong…” You nudge his arm. “It’s not your fault, I wouldn’t blame you. At all. Just because he’s a conniving asshole doesn’t mean I put you in the same boat. He’ll learn his lesson.”
“That sounds a bit terrifying. Please don’t kill him. Or hurt him. Or anything illegal. I don’t want to spend a night trying to bail you out of jail.”
You roll your eyes. “No promises.”
-
“Okay?”
You’ve been silent for a while, glaring at your phone and waiting for Hongjoong to message you back. Unfortunately, you didn’t have his number and had to get it from Mingi. He already knew about the issue from Jong (who asked you first, of course), and gave it to you willingly. Well, not before giving you a speech about how you shouldn’t kill Hongjoong, but that’s beside the point. And now, you’re just waiting for him to confirm that you can go to his home. Confront him about his lies, and tell him to never speak to you again. Simple, easy.
You feel a light tap on your hand, and glance up. Yunho stares at you in concern. He’s grown quite responsive, showing his emotions with ease. “Are you okay?”
“No, I’m not.” You place your phone on the side, running your fingers through your hair. “There are too many assholes in this town, Yun. Promise me that you’d leave right when you find out where your home is.”
He smiles. “I won’t leave you.”
You feel the familiar tingling in your chest. No, not now. You’ll deal with that later.
He observes you, watching as your chest rises and falls with anger. The way your hands trembled, fingers picking at the skin loose against your nail bed. He reaches over slowly, letting his hand cover yours. He can hear the slowing down of your heartbeats, the normal breathing. You look at him, and he only nods slowly.
“It’s okay. You’re okay.”
Your lip trembles. “Thank you, Yun.”
“No thank you,” he leans forward, and you panic. Is he going to kiss you? No, you barely know each other-
He presses his forehead lightly to yours, closing his eyes. He hums for a moment, before pulling back. “Okay?”
You can feel the anger that lingered in your body dwindling down to nothing, the wild bonfire only mere ashes. “How…?” You question, looking at him. He only shrugs, moving away from you.
“Magic,” he wiggles his fingers, and you laugh. He chuckles low. “You help me. I will do what I can to give back to you.”
-
You walk into Yunho’s room, knocking on the door. You haven’t seen him for a while, and you’re worried that something happened. Without an answer, you peek in, glancing around. His room is neat, not one thing out of order. It’s like he hasn’t even made it his own, which is good, at least. Even if it makes you feel a little strange. He’s been at your home for a while now, a little over three months.
You open the door wider. “Yun?” Silence. You walk in slowly, glancing at his dresser. A photo of you sits there, one you gave him when you left him to shop on his own. Just in case he somehow got lost. But that was over a month ago. It’s a little creased, as if he’s kept it in his pocket the whole time.
You walk to the bathroom door, knocking on it loudly. Still, silence.
“Yun, I’m coming in. I’ll cover my eyes if you’re naked,” You say loudly, before pushing the door open slowly. His head peeks out of the tub, but he’s not moving. You yank the door all the way open, running to his side.
You shake him, seeing that he’s still wearing his pajama shorts. He jumps at your touch, eyes flicking open. You hold his face in your hands, looking between his eyes. He blinks slowly, brown eyes wide. You slowly let go of his face, looking in the bath. His skin is cold, but that’s nothing new.
“Are you okay? Did you faint?”
“No,” he says slowly, staring at you. “I was resting.”
“In the tub? Yun, your fingers are going to be pruned-” You reach for his hand, furrowing your brows. Despite being in the water for this long, they’re completely smooth. You run your hand along his palm. You let go but he grabs your hand again, his fingers curling into yours.
“You scared me. I thought something happened to you,” You mumble, rubbing your face. He takes your other hand, holding both of them.
He smiles, eyes never leaving yours. “I’m okay. I’m sorry I worried you. I take baths everyday because…” he trails off. “It makes me feel like I’m back home.”
Home. He rarely mentioned it, only when you brought him to the end of the river. You’ve waited for him to tell you where it is, but he always insisted that it was the water. There is nothing you can do to pinpoint exactly where, so you’ve accepted him as a temporary resident in your home. It’s funny; you’ve wanted to bring him home for so long. But right when he says it now, it makes you feel a bit sick. You’ve gotten too used to his presence in your home. Seeing him gone only makes you want to curl into a ball and cry.
It’s selfish.
“I can still take you home,” you struggle to say the words. “Just let me know, and I’ll take you anytime.”
He shakes his head. “It’s not possible. And I like being here with you.”
You smile. “I like you here too, Yunho.”
“Then I won’t leave for a while.” He shrugs. Compared to before, his communication skills have grown exponentially, now using anything and everything to tell you how he feels. He’s blunt and sometimes brutally honest, but you appreciate it.
Your phone vibrates. You pull your hands from his, a slight tug on his end.
Hongjoong: sorry, i’ve been out. let me know when we can meet. i wont be home for a few days, but anytime after that is okay!
He finally messaged back. After weeks of no communication, he finally says something. You quickly message him.
you: of course! let me know which day and i’ll be there
Hongjoong: friday?
It’s only Tuesday. Your plan of snooping in his home is finally coming true. It’s a bit immoral, but something about him bothers you to the core, and you want to figure out why.
you: sounds good to me! see you then
Hongjoong: :)
“y/n?” Yunho leans forward, only inches from your face. You can feel the instant pick up of your heart rate, moving back from him. An unreadable emotion flicks across his face and disappears. “Are you okay?”
“I have to go to the bookstore, I'll be back soon," You say, ignoring his gaze. If you meet his eyes, you know he'll see that you're lying. It seems as if he always knows once you look at him. So it's best to avoid his expression. For now. Until you can look at him without an ounce of guilt. It's not a horrible thing you're doing. Slightly questionable, partially illegal, but not horrible. What's the worst that could happen, trespassing on someone's property? And besides, only big crimes get attention in your town. A little snooping isn't going to hurt anyone.
"Okay," Yunho says simply.
You feel regret bubbling in your heart. Just tell him, you think. Everything will be fine, if you just tell him where you’re going. But then he smiles at you, the deep dimples you’ve admired for a while rarely appearing on his cheeks. So you decide to continue to hide it from him. It’ll be fine. Everything will be okay.
“Don’t wait up too long, okay? If I’m not back by midnight, you can just go to sleep. I’ll be fine.”
He frowns. “I need to know you’re safe. I’ll wait for you.”
“Okay,” You stand, rubbing your knees. “I won’t bother you when you’re in the tub, but just make sure the water isn’t high and don’t sleep in it. You can drown, you know.”
He smiles, amused. “I won’t. I’ll see you later.”
You almost hesitate. Almost decided to stay home with him. Almost.
But not quite.
“See you!” You wave, walking out the room. You don’t see the flicker of worry etched in his skin. The clench of his hands on the edge of the tub. The determination as he gets out of the water, something strange trailing behind him.
-
You walk into his home slowly, your fingers clammy and your heartbeat throbbing in your ear. You can't hear much besides the creaking of the floors as you take steps. It's a bit eerie, you've never stepped into his home before. It looks almost abandoned. There's nothing on the shelves that would indicate that someone lives here. Photos not in sight, cupboards and cabinets empty. You didn’t hear anything about him moving (the town talks), so this only grows your suspicion. Has anyone ever visited him? You're sure he'd be the talk of the town with a home *this* vacant.
Your fingers glide along the shelves, skin caked with dust. It's as if no one even lives here.
"y/n?"
You turn around, seeing Hongjoong leaning against the pillar by the door. Usually, you'd be annoyed seeing him. But something feels off. Hongjoong usually wears all black clothing, a bucket hat covering his sightline. But standing in front of you, it's as if his style has changed. Large overcoat, fancy shoes, tighter jeans. Nothing like the man you see daily. It's subtle, but you know that he's blocking your nearest exit. You should have listened to Jongho. You should have stayed home, or waited until he came with you. And now no one knows where you are.
A stupid, idiotic move on your part.
He raises a brow, arms resting on his chest. "Care to tell me why I have the honor of your presence in my home?"
For a moment, you forget the dangerous situation you're in. For a moment, only anger fuels you as you stare at him. "You lied to Jongho, told him that I came to your home uninvited. What else have you lied about, Joong?"
He laughs low, shaking his head. "You have no idea."
"Excuse me?"
He moves off the pillar, taking slow steps toward you. You take a few back, and he notices, eyes flicking to your shoes. He holds his hands up in defense, shaking his head. "Hey, I'm not going to hurt you. If you thought that, you wouldn't have come here alone. We're just talking, that's it."
"It doesn't feel like it."
"Well, you came to my home without permission. Walked through the doors. Didn't even hesitate. I could call the police if I wanted and say you were trespassing on my property," he shrugs. "But we're friends."
He smirks. "Right?"
Something about him has changed. The innocent atmosphere around him is filled with confidence and cockiness instead. The grin on his face, it’s uncomfortable. As if he can see through you. He waits for you to say something patiently, eyes flicking between yours.
"Let me leave, we'll talk about this later."
He raises his brows, hands still in the air. "Later? Why not now? You're not afraid of me are you?" He laughs dryly, shaking his head. "Poor girl. You're shaking."
You can feel your fingers trembling as you watch him move closer. If the layout is similar to yours, you could run out the back door and call the police. A night in jail for trespassing is better than whatever is running through his mind right now.
"Hey–"
You quickly turn around and dash through his home, his laughter echoing around you as you frantically look for the exit.
"Oh baby, did you think I'd just let you in here without having a plan?" His voice booms. You reach the back door, your heart dropping. It's covered with boards, nailed shut. What the fuck is this man on?
You can hear his slow steps behind you, inching closer and closer. "You know I like the chase, right? Makes catching you so so much better."
You're running out of time, and he's only seconds away from getting to you. You quickly take the stairs, not caring that he could hear the stomps. Your eyes flick around, until you find an open door. You run inside and pull at the window. It's sealed shut.
"Fuck," you say between low sobs. You didn't want this, you didn't think it'd be this way. If only you listened, if only you told someone–
"There you are."
You turn, seeing Hongjoong standing in the doorway, hands tucked in his front pockets. He tilts his head as he scans your body.
"Such a shame. Maybe if things were different, we could have been together. Happy. But you had to involve yourself with that... creature," His lips curl into a snarl. "Disgusting."
"What the hell are you talking about? Just let me go, please." You'd say that this isn't him, but it so blatantly is. No wonder you felt off every time he was around you, like there was something wrong with him. Gut instincts are so rarely incorrect.
"Promise not to call the cops on me?" He pouts his lower lip, before laughing. "You're the only way I can get to that thing. It likes you." He reaches into his jacket. A needle slowly appears from the sleeves, and you gasp. You turn around, desperately trying to pry the window open.
"Please please please," You beg, but it doesn't move in the slightest. His hand wraps around your shoulder, and you raise your fist, trying to land it on his face.
He stops it with ease, hand covering yours. You raise your leg to hit his balls, but he just grabs your neck, holding you against the wall. His eyes swirl with craze and madness.
"You're demented," You gasp, clawing at his hand. He tightens his fingers, your brain becoming foggy as you glare at him. "Fuck...you."
He winks. "We'll do that later."
You feel the needle break your skin. You can feel the fogginess slowly spread across your mind, making you fall into a deep sleep. Your eyes flutter, his finger stroking your cheek slowly.
"Sleep tight, y/n."
-
You gasp, leaning up quickly. Tight rope holds your hands and ankles together, your head knocking against the side of...
You look around. The sounds of waves splashing echo in your ears, the fresh smell of salt water filling your nose. Are you on a ship? You tug on the restraints but to no avail. They only dig into your skin more, worsening the wounds. You scream against the duct tape covering your mouth, kicking and hitting against the wall. It seems like you're inside the captain's quarters. Blaming yourself for being stupid isn't going to help you right now, but you can't help but dwell on it. How the hell did Hongjoong even get you on a ship without others noticing? There aren't even any large ships around, only small boats in your town. Did he drive out with your unconscious body in the backseat, and throw you on as a stowaway? Or did he use a small boat and drive out to see on a larger one? So many possibilities run through your mind, but only one objective:
Getting out of here.
A loud creak interrupts your thinking, heavy stomps making their way to you. You turn to the sound, screaming at the man you see. Seonghwa stands there, staring down at you. He tsks, glancing at your restraints in mock pity.
"Poor girl. This is what happens when you involve yourself in matters that don't pertain to you. Should have left the thing on the side of the dock," he crouched down, slapping your cheeks a bit too hard. You curse, moving away from his touch.
Park Seonghwa, your Seonghwa? The Seonghwa that you lived with for years in the small town, the one that's helping you renovate your house. The one that always gave you shy smiles and winks, soft reassurances whenever you needed it. One of your good friends. Involved with Hongjoong, currently holding you captive. You stare at him in disappointment.
"Ah, don't look at me like that. I've been good to you all this time, y/n. I listened to you rant about anything and everything without complaints. I even helped you fix your home. We’re friends,“ he grins, tapping your cheek once more before standing up. ”And we should stay friends after all of this is over. Don’t let a little kidnapping change it, alright? Being bait isn’t easy, but I’m sure you’ll get through it. You’re a superstar.“
“Why are you trying to make her feel better?” Hongjoong walks in behind him, wearing the same dark clothing as either, a large overcoat covering him now. He looks down at you, a slightly disgusted look on his face. “I have no sympathy for people who help those creatures. They’ve been terrorizing our seas for hundreds of years, thousands even. And don’t listen to him, we’re not going to let you walk away from this. More than likely this sweet talker right here is gonna bury you under those waters.”
Loud waves hit the side of the ship, interrupting his rant. His eyes flash with excitement as he looks out the circle-shaped window, flicking his gaze to see something you have yet to figure out. “It’s coming soon. The waves are getting rough.”
“Ooh!” Seonghwa claps his hands, “Do we bring her out?”
“No,” Hongjoong murmurs, ignoring his pout. “There’s no reason for that. It could just take her and drag her away and we’d never see the thing again. She has to stay under here so it can scent her, and give us enough time to kill it for good.”
“Fine,” Seonghwa rolls his eyes. “Don’t need to be so pissy, Hongjoong.”
“Fuck off.” He looks at you. “If there was any other way, I would save you and set you free. But if I do that, you’d only go to the police and tell them. So,” he leans forward, ripping the duct tape off your mouth.
You cry out in pain, and he only sighs in frustration.
“Today is your last day living, y/n. Might as well enjoy it. I gave you a first-class view of the deck, so you can watch that creature fight to save you, while we kill it.”
“I…What are you even talking about? What creature?” You pull on your ropes by accident, wincing in pain. “You two are talking to me as if I know what you’re referring to. I haven’t helped any creatures, you must be thinking of someone else-”
Seonghwa throws his head back, laughter echoing around the small room. “Oh, y/n. How naive can you be?” He taps your head lightly, before walking out. “It’s cute!” He shouts, disappearing out the door.
Hongjoong is silent, finger resting on his lower lip as he paces back and forth, looking at you once in a while. He stops in front of you, eyes flicking between yours. “I really do like you, y/n. Most of the crew wants to get rid of you after the job is done, but…” he bits his lip. “If you want, you can join us. Help us rid of other monstrosities that lurk on this Earth. With me?”
For a moment, he looks just like the old Hongjoong. Large, bright eyes, hope-filled. No sign of the man that just drugged you and threw you on a ship, threatening to end your life once the job ended. It scares you how quick he can flick the switch, show you this innocent side that is anything but true. But you have to get out of this. If lying would save your life for even a day longer, you can figure out a way to get out of here.
“Okay.”
His eyes brighten with glee. “Really?”
“Yea, yea. It will take me a while to get used to it, but yes. We can do that.”
He chuckles happily, his hang dragging down your cheek. You flinch at his touch, but he pays it no mind. Too stuck in his own ‘happiness’ to even give it a thought. “I’m really happy you chose to stay with me. Then we’ll get to know each other even more, and maybe… maybe something more.” His hand lingers on the curve of your chin before he pulls away.
“Just stay here until it’s over. I’ll convince everyone that you’re an asset and you can join the crew!” He grins, turning on his heel and walking out. He closes the door behind him, and you let out a shaky breath, turning back to the window.
You had no idea why or what creature you helped that made you get into this situation, but you no longer wanted to question it. Just get back home, tell Jongho and Mingi what happened, Yunho- Yunho. He’s probably panicking right now, the short trip you told him about ending up being goodness knows how long. You hope that he knows the neighborhood well enough to tell someone that you’re missing.
A wave hits the side of the ship, hard, causing you to hit your head against the metal. You groan, tears springing to your eyes. “Someone help me…” you whisper softly.
The crew outside are yelling rather loudly. You turn to look out the window, and your heart drops. Men are being dragged back and forth across the main deck, by large… tentacles? You blink rapidly, hoping that your eyes are deceiving you. But no. They’re huge, the appendages slowly wrapping around the length of the ship. The strong grip has it at a standstill, but it isn’t holding it tight enough to break it in half. What scares you the most, is that it could at any moment. Throwing you into the deep depths of the sea.
You have no idea how far away from shore you are. And you can’t even float, let alone swim. You’re a trapped mouse. You tug hard on the restraints, but it only digs deeper into your wrist, causing you to cry out. The door to the quarter’s swings open, Seonghwa walking in. He smiles at you, grabbing you by the ropes on your wrists, and drags you out the door.
“Your sweetheart is finally here for you, y/n,” he says, completely wet from the pouring rain. You scream as he pulls you through the ship, your feet scrapping on the hard, wooden floors. “Keep on screaming love, maybe he won’t tear my ship up.” He says it through clenched teeth, his grip on you tightening. “Fucking disgusting creatures. This is the shit I have to deal with. Should have died a long time ago.”
Seonghwa shakes his head. “Hongjoong had the opportunity and fucked it up. Shit.” He glances down at you, before throwing you down the stairs. Luckily it’s only a few steps, but it’s enough to bruise your body. You cry out in pain, your head throbbing, cuts and bruises covering your body. Seonghwa kicks you, laughing loudly.
But you can’t pay attention to him at the moment. The sheer pain echoing in the air is the only thing filling your ears. Screams surround you as the ship violently shakes, people thrown into the air. The salty smell of the ocean fills your nose as you rock back and forth on the deck, Seonghwa’s tight stance and foot on your rope the only thing keeping you steady.
“Hey, you piece of shit, looking for her?” You hear the loud yelling of Hongjoong in the distance, and you shake your head.
“No, no no no-”
Hongjoong makes it to your side, carefully lifting you up on your feet. Your eyes turn to the large creature in the ocean. The bulbous balls move their gaze to you, one of it’s tentacles merely feet away from throwing you overboard. The fish smell overwhelms your nose as Hongjoong holds you next to him, grinning at the creature in front of you. You can’t understand how he’s not running in terror, laughing as he tugs you around.
“She’s here, your y/n. Too bad she’s with me,” Hongjoong presses his face against yours, cheek to cheek. You try to pull away, and he clicks his teeth, throwing you to the ground. “Sorry love, gotta agitate him just a little. You don’t mind it, do you?” he pouts at you, sorrow filling his gaze.
This man is crazy.
The creature roars, the ship shaking violently. People in the distance are thrown overboard, your fingers holding onto a bar on the deck to keep you from flying as well. Seonghwa steps on your fingers, and you cry out in pain, letting go. He laughs. The sound of crashes waves fill your ears as the creature lifts one of its limbs, grabbing onto Seonghwa with ease. His eyes widen as he feels it curl around his torso.
“Fuck-!” Hongjoong tries to get to him, but it’s too late. He’s pulled off the ship, the large octopus slowly tilting back, opening its beak. It looks as if Seonghwa is passed out as he’s thrown into the air, and into the mouth of the creature. You scream in terror as he’s swallowed, turning to Hongjoong.
He stands there in shock, mouth in a straight line. “Two can play at that game…” he sneers, glancing back at you. Comfort no longer lines his gaze. Instead, there’s pure anger. He grabs your ankle, tugging you to the edge of the ship. You scream, begging him to stop, to let you go.
“Hongjoong, please-! Let me go!”
He grins, tilting his head. “Okay. See you!” He grabs your waist, and before you can hold onto something, you’re kicked off the side of the ship. You scream as air whips past you, the plunge into the water feeling like bricks hitting your back.
You can no longer scream, the deep depths of the waters pulling you deeper. You frantically try to move your limbs in a way to help you swim, but it’s no use. The fear of the ocean, of not being able to, overcomes you. You open your mouth to scream, water filling your mouth immediately. Your chest tightens at the lack of air, limbs slowing down. Your eyes flutter as you look up, the moon still shining above. Before you close your eyes, you see a large shadow blocking your view of the moon. Is it your hero, your savior? Your lips curve into a weak smile, before the darkness consumes you.
Almost there.
Just a little longer, hold on.
Please don’t die on me.
You gasp, fingers digging into sand as you look around. You try to lift yourself up, but your body cries out in pain, too much for you to even turn your neck slightly. You cry out, legs struggling to even move. You somehow made it to shore, your restraints off of you.
“Don’t move too much, you’ll hurt yourself.”
A head slowly appears in your vision, dripping water on your face. You flinch at the drops, and he apologizes quickly, moving away. “I’m sorry. I just need to touch your arm for a moment, to give you enough strength to stand. Just don’t move too much. Can you do that for me?” He asks.
You open your mouth to say yes, but the salty, bitter taste of water causes you to cough. Yunho panics, quickly crouching to your side. He touches your arm, moving away from your view. “You might lose consciousness again, okay? But you’ll be fine. I’m here for you, I’ll always be here for you no matter what.”
-
Your eyes flutter again. This time, the pain is minimal. Not enough to consume you, but enough to cause your body to ache. You lean up slowly, rubbing your face. You turn, seeing Yunho staring at you silently. “Are you okay?” He asks. He’s still dripping wet, strands sticking to his face as he watches you.
“How…” You cough again, and he moves closer, patting your back lightly. “How did you find me?”
He chuckles softly. “I can always find you, y/n. Let’s go back home, okay?” He doesn’t wait for your answer, lifting you with ease.
You let him guide you through the streets, oddly abandoned. You’re a bit slow, struggling to move one foot after the other. Yunho is silent, but it isn’t awkward. Comforting, his large arm holding you as you walk. You look up at him, seeing wounds covering his face.
“Are you okay? You look hurt, I have some things at home to help you.”
He chuckles, shaking his head. “Even when you’re like this, you still worry about things other than yourself.” he looks down at you. “I’m fine. I wasn’t the one drowning in the ocean.”
Your mind immediately goes back to before. The kidnapping, Hongjoong tying you up, that… thing, eating Seonghwa. You being thrown overboard. So many things happened in just a night, your stomach turning. You hold back the acid that slowly creeps in your throat, shaking your head. No, you’re fine. Yunho is fine. It had to be a hallucination. Seonghwa isn’t dead. Hongjoong isn’t a pirate. It was just a dream, a terrible dream.
A nightmare.
Yunho guides you up your steps, opening the door. He walks you into the kitchen, until his grip loosens. You look at him, but he’s already on the floor, convulsing. You reach down to help him, but he pushes you back, sweat gathering on his forehead. This is the first time he’s seething hot, your fingers almost burnt to the touch as you try to assist him.
“Yun!”
He groans, fingers clawing into the floor. Gurgling sounds emerge from him, a wet patch slowly appearing on his back. The fabric tears, strange things slowly emerging from his back. You widen your eyes, moving back. This isn’t Yunho. It can’t be, he isn’t this thing in front of you.
"What are you?" You stumble back from the man–, or creature, fear growing in your chest. He struggles to his feet, a strange limb slowly oozing from beneath the fabric of his pants. It slowly flops to the floor, a bit of it splattering on your cheeks.
Is that... no, that's not possible… It can’t be.
His eyes flick up to you, a slow smile unveiling sharp teeth shining in the dark at you. "Do not be afraid. I won't hurt you." He tries to stand but his legs fail and he falls back to the floor. “Help me.”
"Tell me, what are you?"
“y/n-”
“Answer my question!”
He's silent for a moment. “Some people call me the Kraken. But you call me Yunho.”
You freeze in your backing up, looking down at him. Beneath the fear, beneath the tangle of limbs in front of you, you look at his face. His eyes look into yours desperately, willing you to see him. To really, see him. Yunho. Your Yunho. You’re confused, scared, furious, and… disappointed.
“You’ve been lying to me,” you say, watching as he buckles under his weight, body on his side as he takes quick breaths. “Why have you been lying to me?”
“Water…” he gasps, fingers clawing at the floor. You push your fear away and quickly go to the kitchen, grabbing three gallons of water. You rush back, sitting them next to his body. He grabs the gallon with a tentacle, squeezing it. The plastic bursts with ease, and you watch as he pours it over his body.
The wounds on his tentacles and skin slowly merge before your eyes. He uses the other two gallons up quickly, turning back to you. “Water…”
“My bathroom. Go to my bathroom!” You say. He tries to pick himself up from the floor, but he stumbles back down. You weigh the options in your head, before leaning forward, grabbing his shoulders.
You tug him along the floor, a moist trail left behind as you take him into your bathroom. With the last break of energy left, you throw him into the tub, turning on the faucet. He pushes himself underneath the flow, letting the tub fill up just enough to touch the edges, before closing the tab.
You try not to stare, but you can’t help it. He has about six tentacles coming out of his body. Dark green and oozing something you’d rather not dwell on too much. Some spill out of the tub, inches from you. You move away slightly, sitting on the floor. Your head throbs as you stare at him.
Too many thoughts occupy your mind. The man you saved being a mythical creature. Seonghwa and Hongjoong kidnapping you to take the Kraken as a prize. The creature you saw, destroying the ship, the same man that sits in front of you right now, eyes shut. Hongjoong being thrown into the ocean before your eyes, Seonghwa being swallowed.
You touch your cheeks. Hot tears trail down your cheeks, along with blood. Your head throbs as you stare at your stained fingers, rubbing it slowly. Exhaustion hits you immediately. Before you can move from your spot, you fall unconscious, head hitting the floor underneath you.
“y/n!”
-
You gasp, leaning forward. A massive headache and pulsing vision makes you groan out loud, rubbing your face. You glance around, seeing that you’re still in your bathroom.
“You’re awake.”
You jump, turning toward the voice. Yunho still sits in the tub, memories from last night flooding back. He sees the slow panic growing in your features, and holds up his hands.
“Hey, hey. Just take a breath, please. I can explain it if you don’t fall unconscious.”
“Fuck you, Yunho!” You try to stand but fail. "All I’ve done in the past 24 hours is pass out.”
“Be careful-”
“You have no right to tell me what to do or what not to do. You lied to me all this time, took advantage of my kindness, you…” You point at him, feeling tears trail down your cheeks. “You hurt me, Yunho. You really hurt me.”
His face crumbles underneath your sad gaze. “I… I’m sorry. I didn’t know I’d be here so long. I, this is my fault. I would have left if I knew this would happen. That I promise.”
“I can’t believe that promise, Yun.” You say, looking away. “I can’t.”
“I know. But please, just listen to me for a moment. I can explain it.”
You look down at his extra limbs, tentacles curling and uncurling. You nod slowly. “Go ahead.”
A look of relief passes over his face. He turns to you, some water splashing to the tiles. But it doesn’t phase you, your mind filled with too much trauma to even think about water on the floor.
“As I’ve told you yesterday, I am the Kraken. Humans considered me a mythical creature, only found in folklore or stories passed down. But I am real, and alive. I have existed since the creation of this Earth. But not as the form that I am right now. Because I wouldn’t blend in like Mother wanted me to. So as the years passed, my appearance changed. But only temporarily.” He thinks for a moment.
“I have always existed as the Kraken. Humans have had encounters with me, but I haven’t killed as much as they say. I only defended myself when I was attacked, or when pirates sought out to kill me for a higher reputation, or other strange human rituals. I wanted to live a peaceful life. But that was impossible because of the sheer size of my true form. And the strange condition that was put on me.
“I appeared every 100 years. One year out of the 100, I appeared, and the ninety-nine, it is like I am frozen in time. And each moment I wake, I am in a different place. Environment. I know little of the language around me, but I can understand enough.” He looks at you. “That’s why I was unable to communicate properly with you for a while. Because I physically could not.
“I shouldn’t have hidden it from you this long. But for the first time in my millions of years on this planet, I had something that I didn’t want to lose. I had you, and you cared about me. You dropped many of your priorities to take care of a being you didn’t know, without complaints. That is something that is rare in nature. I should have told you, and I tried to in the beginning. But once I realized how much I cared for you, I couldn’t.”
He looks down at himself. “My form is something that humans are not used to. There are no half creatures, half humans in your world that you know of. If I walked around like this I would immediately be trapped or killed. I should have known that your friend was a pirate, I just didn’t put two and two together.”
“Hongjoong and Seonghwa? That’s what they are, that’s why they wanted to kidnap me?”
Yunho nods. “They are from an old line of pirates, dated back several centuries. Those humans pinpointed when I would rise and across the world, they would look for me so they could claim to be the one to kill me. It is strange, I cannot see why they would want that fame,” he rubs his forehead. “I put you in danger. I didn’t see the symbol on them, so I didn’t think much of it. They must have evolved and hidden the symbol somewhere. I am deeply sorry for the pain and sorrow that I have caused you. I was being selfish, and still am for staying in your presence.”
You watch as his tentacles slither across the tiles, slowly sinking into his skin. His eyes flutter, until they’re completely out of sight. His hand brushes the top of the water, in deep thought.
“I won’t keep you here for long. I must leave now that they know where I am. Hongjoong may come back, and I cannot risk your life. You don’t need to worry about that.” He smiles at you. “I know it’s difficult to wrap your head around this-”
“You have no idea, Yunho. No idea,” you rub your face slowly. “I don’t… I know this isn’t your fault, and I’m not blaming you at all. I made the mistake of even going into Hongjoong’s house. But I was kidnapped because of you, and they almost killed me.” Your fingers shake at the thought. “They threw me overboard. If you weren’t there, I would have drowned. That’s not something that I can just forgive easily, you know? I care about you, I do. And I’m sorry for you. But you’ve lived centuries, and maybe I’m a little selfish in thinking this, but… I have less than one hundred years on this planet. It was almost taken away from me that quickly.”
“I can only imagine how you feel.”
“Yea, imagine. And that makes it worse,” you look at him. “It’s funny, I don’t even care about you being the Kraken. I think I’m just more hurt about you hiding it from me. Thank you for explaining yourself, but… I think you need to leave now.”
He nods slowly. “I understand.” He slowly stands from the tub, and you get up from your spot. You step out of the room to give him some privacy, walking into the kitchen and sitting at the island.
You can feel your heart telling you to let him stay, but most of you is saying otherwise. He’s a danger, and staying here when there are pirates chasing him… That could only lead to a bad path. What if Hongjoong comes back? What if Mingi or Jongho are in your home and end up in the crossfire? You care about Yunho, you do. That’s why you think that it’s best for him to leave. Even if your heart yearns for him. Some things are just bad ideas.
Maybe you should have ignored him on the dock that day.
Yunho clearing his throat interrupts your thoughts. He stands there awkwardly, shifting his weight as he glances everywhere but your eyes. “Before I leave, I want to help you heal.”
“You don’t have to do that-”
“Yes, yes. I do.” His eyes plead with you.
“…okay.”
He drops his belongings on the marble, barely a foot away from you. He leans forward, slowly pressing his forehead to yours. A flow of calamity flows over you, the cold temperature of his skin slowly overcoming you. You look down at your injuries, seeing a strange blue glow cover them. You blink, and there is only your unblemished skin left, nothing more. Yunho pulls back, taking your arm and examining it closely.
“You’re back to yourself again,” he says softly, thumb rubbing your skin with barely a touch. Enough to feel the pressure and make you tremble slightly. He lets go, backing away from you.
“I know this might be selfish of me to say,” he looks at you, eyes flicking between yours. “But I’m very happy that you’ve decided that I’m not welcomed here.”
You furrow your brows. “Why?”
There’s slight hesitancy in his gaze as he watches you, lips pursed. He closes his eyes tightly, glancing away for a moment. You think he isn’t going to answer it, until he opens his mouth. “Because I don’t know if I’d be able to leave you when the time comes. Because for the first time in my life, I have something that I cannot imagine gone from my sight. And I know that if I stayed for even an hour more, I wouldn’t be able to leave as easily.”
No, he can’t do this. He can’t say those things, not when he’s put you in so much danger. Not when you were at the brink of death because of him. Even if he saved you, even if he promised that he’d protect you, even if… even if…
You feel the same way as him.
He turns away from you, opening the door, and slowly closing it behind him.
-
You made a mistake.
His presence is around your home. The two bowls you put out accidentally. The indent in the couch where he used to sit daily, watching his sea life shows. The piled up snow on your lawn, slowly melting away. The storms, gone. His clothing was left on top of his bed in a messy pile. You laughed at it when you walked in, knowing that he couldn't fold clothes. Even the bathroom that he used. Every part of this house he touched.
You made the biggest mistake of your life. And there's no turning back on it. You have to accept that he's not coming back, and ignore the pounding of your heart each time you drive by the docks, each time you look at a boat. It will fade. The feelings will fade one day, and you'll move on. It's strange; you barely knew him and it feels like you've lost the love of your life. How can it feel that way? Why does your heart betray you like this?
You place your coat on the rack next to the door, Jongho and Mingi following close behind. You told Jong about Yunho, Hongjoong and Seonghwa. At first he thought you were joking, but then eventually believed every word you said. And after comforting you, even clowning you for saying he was a fool for believing in the Kraken. You only rolled your eyes at the time. Jongho has a heart of gold, he knows how to cheer you up with ease. Mingi was harder to convince. A man of seeing and then believing, it took you weeks for him to finally crack.
"No one would be this sad about a cousin leaving," is what he said to you. "I can tell your heart is broken, and love sometimes does that to you."
You rub your face, flicking on the television screen. You insisted on being alone, but the two gathered around you whenever they could to cheer you up. And even with your annoyance, you're glad. You would be spending your time crying into your pillow, reliving that day over and over. Who could've guessed that Yunho dug himself so deep in your heart that you'd never be the same.
Mingi sits next to Jong, their arms brushing. They haven't told you about their relationship recently, probably due to your current state, but you can tell something has changed. The looks that they give one another, the brushing of fingertips as they talked, the shy glances. And you couldn't be happier, you just want them to tell you when they're comfortable enough.
"I told you two I'm fine, I was just going to make some potatoes and watch something. That's it. I'm not wallowing in my emotions anymore. I'm okay."
"Well we just wanted to keep you company, as all," Mingi says, grabbing your chip bag and chewing rather loudly. "That shouldn't bother you too much. Best friend hangout time."
Jongho rolls his eyes. "How old are you again?"
"Don't be an asshole," Mingi sticks out his tongue. "Anyway, we can tell how you feel, y/n. No need to sugarcoat it, it hasn't even been that long."
You sigh. "Yea... yea I know. I'll be fine though. You don't need to worry about me."
"We're best friends, y/n. Who would we be if we didn't worry?" Jongho says simply, biting the chip that Mingi offered to him. "Plus, we can bond too. You haven't let us inside your house in forever."
"Because you two are nosy," You grumble, sitting across from them. "And I'm out of potatoes."
"We can go get some together!" Mingi stands up, folding the chip back. "Shopping trip!"
"You two can go, I'll just wait here. I'm not really in the mood to go anywhere right now." And maybe cry a little. That always worked for you.
"y/n..." Jong says softly, eyes flicking between yours. He must have seen the pleading look you give him, grabbing Mingi's arm and pulling him to the door. "Fine, but you better not start any shows without us. I'll curse your whole family line."
"That's overdramatic, but okay," You smile at him. He wiggles his brows, ignoring the protests Mingi gives him, shutting the door behind the two.
You plop your head on your hands, taking slow breaths. This shouldn't be a big deal. He's probably fine, as you are. Maybe you did do a little research about strange weather happening around the world. And maybe, just maybe, you tracked him being in Northern Egypt. The strange storms are unlike the usual weather they have.
"What's wrong with me?" You murmur, shaking your head. "You barely know him, what the hell are you thinking?"
Knock.
You freeze. You slowly lift your head, glancing out the front window. Jongho 's car is gone, so it couldn't be them. No, you're just making things up. Nothing is happening. Nothing's wrong.
Knock.
You stand quickly, rushing over to the knife holder. You wrap your finger around the handle. A solid object stops you in your tracks, digging into the middle of your back.
"Turn around, slowly. And let go of those pretty little knives."
You drop your hand, slowly facing your intruder. Hongjoong holds a gun to your chest, index finger resting on the trigger. His eyes are wicked, scars from the incident a few weeks ago riddled on his face. His lips slowly curve into a smirk, head cocked to the side.
"Did you miss me?"
"He's not here–"
The gun is pushed harder into your chest, stopping you from talking. You can feel the intense fear rolling over you as you hold up your hands in surrender, your breaths shaky. Hongjoong laughs, head tilted back, hands unmoving.
"Oh baby, look at what we have here. Little y/n, all alone. The octopus shit not here to save her. Friends gone. Do you know how long I've been waiting for this? Hm?"
You're too terrified to give a response, and thankfully, he doesn't ask for one.
"Weeks, y/n. I tracked that fuck down across the world, but he disappeared once we made it to Northern Ireland. Nothing. Not a trace," he shakes his head, letting go of the gun with one hand to push loose strands from his face. "God, all of that time wasted. Seonghwa would be disappointed in me."
He slowly looks back at you. "I believed in you. I believed that you would come to me after I killed it, and be with me. You promised me on the ship you would be with me. But you're not. Did you even look for me, care about me?"
He takes a step closer, a sneer on his lips. "Or were you thinking of that disgusting thing? Were those tears for that thing?" His eyes widened. "No, it was for me. It was all for me, I can tell. You pushed it away. You didn't love it like you love me, right?"
He moves the gun away, light sobs falling from your lips as he lets the weapon run down your cheeks.
"It's okay, I'm here now. You don't have to worry about me anymore. One I kill it, we can be together. We can be okay. Shh, don't cry," he wipes your tears, ignoring your flinching. "It's okay. I'm sorry for pushing you into the water, but you're okay. You're fine. I knew you’d be okay, you’re a survivor-"
A bang makes Hongjoong grab you by the neck, gun pointed to your head as he holds you against his chest. Your fingers are tight against his arm, trying to pull him off.
"Did he come for you?" Hongjoong hisses in your ear. "Is that all I had to do? Mess with his little girlfriend?"
A loud crash echoes through your home. You try to catch your breaths, hiccups consuming you. All you could think about is wanting to live, not wanting to end up this way, wishing you went to the marker instead of being alone. A large shadow slowly enters the room. Your eyes strain to look around the corner to see who it is. You almost buckle at the sight.
Yunho stands there, but he looks different. The color of his skin is almost translucent, slowly pulsating, changing whenever he moves slightly. His skin is dripping wet, hair cut down to almost a buzzcut. Markings cover his skin, almost as if he's covered in purple tattoos. Tentacles emerge from his sides and back, slowly slithering around the floor. His pupils are slits. He looks more like a creature than a human. And even with that fact, your heartbeat quickens in his presence.
He's here.
Yunho stares at Hongjoong, before his eyes move to you. They seem to soften immediately, flicking over your body for any signs of injuries, before moving back to your captor.
"Let her go."
"Let her go? Let her go? Who the fuck do you think you are? I have her, I have a gun to her head. I can kill her before you'd blink, and you think I'll just let her go? Not today, you fuck."
He pushes it deeper into your temple. You can feel it digging into your skin, blood slowly trickling down the side of your face. You groan in pain, still tugging on his arm. You can't risk doing anything without him killing you. All you could do is be helpless, hoping that he can save you from the monster that has you in his arms.
Yunho takes slow steps into the room, eyes on Hongjoong. "What do you want?"
"Your head on a platter. Finish the job like I was supposed to do a while ago, instead of going on this crazy goose chase."
Yunho sits on your stool, raising a brow. "Is that so? And what will you do then, after I'm dead? Do you get a little certification that says you killed the Kraken? The whole world except a few measly pirates wouldn't believe a word you say. You would be considered a mad man, too involved in his fantasies to see reality," Yunho's finger runs down the edge of your counter. "Is that what you want?"
"I…" Hongjoong curses, tapping the gun on your temple. Yun watches the movements, narrowing his eyes. "I just want Seonghwa back. Give me back to him, and I'll give up on you. Tell the others that you are resting for another 100 years."
"Lying to me will only hurt you in the end."
"I'm serious, Yunho. I'm one hundred fucking percent serious. Just… give me Seonghwa back. I'll leave you alone. Both of you." Hongjoong glances down at you. “I just want him back.”
Yunho tilts his head as he stares at him. “That isn’t possible.”
Hongjoong’s grip loosens slightly, enough for you to lift your leg, kicking him in the shin and stumbling to Yun. Yunho quickly hides you behind his back. Hongjoong is on his knees, gun still held in his hand as he stares at the floor. His hand trembles as he pushes loose locks away from his face, lost in thought.
“You’re a fucking monster from millions of years ago, and you’re telling me that you can’t bring him back? You can’t bring one human back from death? What’s your purpose if you can’t do a simple thing like that? You’re the one who attacked the ship, you’re the one who killed all of those people, and you can’t change it?” He stands up, slowly raising his gun. “Give. Him. Back.”
It seems as if he’s unafraid of the weapon. He narrows his eyes at him, shaking his head. “I am a giant octopus, why would I have the strength to bring back a human from death? But either way, Seonghwa isn’t dead.”
What? What? You saw as Kraken-Yun swallowed him, how could he survive that? You look up at Yun, but he’s still watching Hongjoong carefully.
“After I saved y/n from your attempted murder, I regurgitated him. He is alive on an island not fair from here. I believe it’s called Hawaii.”
“Hawaii? In the middle of the ocean?” Hongjoong widens his eyes. “Are you shitting me right now? You put him there, out of all places?”
“He is fine and not injured. I thought you would be grateful that I didn’t digest him. I am not fond of the taste of humans,” Yunho shrugs. “I have told you pirates that I am not a killer, that I only defend myself from attacks and the humans that I care about.” He glances at you. “Humans do the same, but they also do senseless acts. I am just defending myself and my territory.”
Yunho gestures to the gun in Hongjoong’s hand, currently pointed at him. “A lot of pirates I’ve met are immediately violent without thinking things through, irrational. Even now, I have told you where your Seonghwa is and you still are threatening her life.”
“You are a creature, an abomination. And you must be eradicated. It’s what I’ve been taught since I was young. Nothing that you say is going to change that!” Before Yunho utters another word, he fires the weapon. Two, three, several shots echo around you and you scream, clutching onto Yunho’s arm desperately. He pushes you away from the firing with ease, throwing you back into a wall.
“Shit!” he curses, leaping to Hongjoong. His tentacles immediately wrap around Hongjoong’s torso, slamming him to the ground. Hongjoong groans as Yunho towers over him, glaring down. “Stand down.”
“Fuck, you,” he hisses as a tentacle slowly wraps around his neck. He gasps, clawing at the limb. “Not surprised you’re killing me. That’s what you do, isn’t it.”
A strange emotion flicks across his face. He slowly lets go of Hongjoong’s neck. He takes the opportunity to grab the gun next to him, neck flicking to the side and aiming it at you. He fires. You don’t have enough time to react.
Time moves in slow motion. Hongjoong smiles in a sadistic glee as the bullet pierces through your stomach. The gasp that falls from your mouth as you look down, seeing the slow spread of blood staining your shirt. The front door opens, Jongho and Mingi walking in. Yunho grabs Hongjoong’s neck as life fades from his eyes. The smile on his lips burned into your skull as you slid down, fingers touching the hole in your skin.
“y/n!” You’re not sure who is calling you, but that’s the least of your worries. You look at Yunho, yelling. Telling him no, that he can’t kill him. It seems to hit his ears, because he lets go of Hongjoong. Mingi gasps at Yunho, Jongho running around him and going to you.
“You’re okay, you’re going to be okay. This isn’t a big deal, it’s just a small wound, nothing more-”
Yunho quickly comes to your side. You’re not sure when the tentacles disappeared, but your head is throbbing. Mingi moves from the door, closing it and locking it. The three surround you as your vision moves in and out.
“It’s just one bullet.”
“There’s three in here, Jong. We have to take her to the hospital. Can’t you see the one in her chest? Oh my god.”
“I can take care of her. Get me water, now!”
Footsteps echo away as you blink slowly. Death is such a fickle thing. You never really thought about it much. It’s the end, it’s a simple thing. You honestly believed you’d live to be at least 80, but you didn’t even make it halfway there. Here you are, riddled with bullets, choking on your own blood as you stare at whoever is in front of you.
Yunho. Yes, it’s Yunho. And Jongho. Oh, he looks so scared. You try to tell him that it’s okay, but you only choke more. Tears are falling down his cheeks as he holds you, a splatter of water covering your vision for a moment.
“You won’t die on me. That I swear.”
Who’s voice is that? All you seem to do is pass out. It’s quite tiring. Maybe this time you just don’t open your eyes again. It will be fine, everything will be fine.
“Tie him up, we’ll deal with the police once y/n is okay.”
The voices are blending together now. You can’t tell who’s holding you. But the pain, the searing pain that fills your body is unbearable. You scream and choke, body convulsing as you try to stop the pain yourself. Hands hold you down against the floor. Your hands grab for anything, something to help you take out some of the pain. Fingers wrap around your hand, and you squeeze tightly, silently begging. You don’t want to die. Not now, not like this.
Hands push down on your chest, hard. You scream, this time it is echoing around the room. You grab the wrists of whoever is pushing down on you, eyes fluttering open. Yunho’s eyes are on yours, worry in his gaze. He smiles when he sees you looking at him.
“You’re okay. Breathe.”
You gasp, touching your chest quickly. Jongho ’s fingers are curled with yours, Mingi next to him. All of them are staring at you with worry, Yunho’s hands shaking as he removes his hands from your chest. He holds up three bullets, tsking.
“He fired all of them and they hit your chest and stomach. I was able to take all of them out and cover your wounds, but you’ll be sore for a while.”
Mingi glances at him nervously. Jongho blinks slowly, shaking his head before turning to you. “I think we should call the police. If we let Hongjoong go, he’ll just continue to try and attack you, or attempt to kill him. It’ll be an endless cycle of horror, and you’ll live your life on edge everyday. Seonghwa is too far away to find you for now, so he’s not someone to worry about.”
Jongho rubs his face. “I really didn’t think he’d turn out like this. Lied to all of us, tried to kill you…” His voice wavers as he looks down at you. “You almost died, y/n. I wouldn’t know what to do without you.” Mingi rubs his back as tears trail down his cheeks.
“Maybe we send him off to a livable island,” Yunho murmurs. “I know human police are quite fickle, and it would be unwise to try to explain everything when he might tell information about me.” He looks down at you. “There has been attempts in the past to capture me by several countries. I am not too sure if this one is different.”
“I don’t want to risk you,” you say, your hand reaching for his. He lets you curl your fingers around his, looking at you in concern. “I can’t lose you again. Not now.”
“Then what?” Mingi turns to an unconscious Hongjoong, tied up. “How are you going to take him out of here?”
“Ah… you bring me to the ocean with him, and I’ll take it from there. But we have to make sure he is not conscious so he will survive the trip,” he notices your grip tightening. “I won’t be gone for long.”
“Will you come back?” You ask, eyes flicking between his. “I’m sorry for what I did, I…” You cough, Mingi rubbing your back. Yunho leans forward, pressing his forehead lightly against yours. Your lids flutter as your skin touches, the cold temperature calming the rapid thumping of your heart.
“I won’t let you go again. I’ll be back before you know it.” He pulls back, a small smile on his lips. “Okay?”
“Okay.”
He stands up slowly. There’s resistance in his grip as he lets go of your hand, glancing back at Hongjoong. He purses his lips, glancing at Mingi and Jongho. “Are either of you willing to take me?”
“Not necessarily-” Jongho m starts, earning a hard shove from Mingi. “-but I have no other choice.” He smiles at you, following Yunho. He picks up Hongjoong with ease, throwing him on his shoulders as Jong judges him silently, guiding him out the door. It’s quiet for a few moments, until Mingi chuckles, shaking his head.
“God, I can’t believe I just met the Kraken, and you’re in love with him.”
You widen your eyes. “No-”
“I know my best friend, y/n. And I know that he feels the same way. Kind of felt like a third wheel when he was speaking to you,” he says, cheeks flushing red. “Next time warn me before you two get all mushy.”
“Mingi-!”
“I’m glad you’re okay, I really am. I don’t know what would have happened if he wasn’t here. I just…” he sighs, glancing down at your body. “I’m happy that you have someone in your life that cares so much about you. Now I don’t have to worry anymore. You know, I would have probably cursed at you if I found out about you being in contact with him. But seeing how much he cares about you, how much he risks himself to help you, I couldn’t ask for a better person to care about you.”
“Thank you Mingi, really.” You say softly.
“You’re welcome. Now…” he grins. “Does he have a tentacle dick?”
“Mingi-!”
-
You hear a soft knocking on your door. You leap from your seat, stumbling over pairs of shoes in your way as you swing the door open. Yunho stands there, hands tucked in a new pair of pants, nervously shifting back and forth. His brown eyes immediately meet yours, the smile that you’ve missed for so long spreading on his face.
“Hi,” he breathes. He smells like the ocean and taffy, skin tanned from the sun.
“Hi,” you say back, giddy. Before he says anything else, you immediately pull him into a hug, your arms wrapping around his neck. His hands slowly move from his pocket and wrap around your torso, squeezing you tightly against him. You can feel the fast beating of his heart pressed against your chest, in tandem with yours. You try to pull away, but his hold tightens even more.
“I missed you so much,” he says softly. Tears begin to fall on your shoulders. You move your head to look at him in the eyes, hands on either side of his face. His eyes are moist, eyelids blinking rapidly as he tries to control his emotions.
“Yun…?”
He guides you inside, shutting the door with a kick. He lets go of your body reluctantly, but keeps your hands attached. He crumbles, knees hitting the floor, gaze glossed over. His hands cover his face, soft sobs rake through his body. You crouch down with him, confused. His arms curl around your body without hesitation, tucking his face into your chest.
"I don't want to hurt anymore, I don't want to do this to humans. I just want to live." He says over and over, "How can I stop this? How?"
“What happened?”
“From before. I was so willing to kill him without hesitation. The only reason I stopped was because of you, because you told me that I should spare his life. All of my time living, I have tried my hardest not to hurt a human soul because I know how short their lifespan is. But at that moment, I didn’t even care. I didn’t even think twice. Maybe I’m the monster that he says I am.”
“Yunho, you are not a monster.”
“I am.”
“No, you’re not. You are one of the kindest people I know. Hongjoong’s life has been filled with people telling him what you are and what you’ve done. That’s why he calls you that, because that’s all he has ever known. But you spared him. You helped him live, you didn’t let him go to prison. You saved him.” You let your fingers run through his hair. “That’s heroic to me, the opposite of a monster.”
“I'll be here for you. Every step of the way. I won't give up on you. I promise that.
His shaking is lessened now, more stable than before. His gaze meets yours, eyes flicking all over your face. As if he's willing himself to memorize it. His hands glide along the side of your body, before resting on either side of your face. His fingers strokes your cheek, an unreadable emotion in his gaze.
"Why do you care so much for me, y/n? I have offered you only worries and trouble. But you have stayed. Why?"
How do you tell a several thousand year old creature that you're in love with him? How do you utter those words to a man that probably has never even experienced something close to love?
"I care about you, Yunho–"
He shakes his head. "That's not what you want to say. Tell me, y/n. Why do you care so much? Why–"
"Fuck, Yunho! I'm in love with you, okay?" You pull his hands off your face, standing up. He remains in his spot, watching as you walk back and forth. "And I know I shouldn't be, but I am. I'm in love with a... octopus hybrid, half man half creature, and I can't stop myself. I care about you too much, you're on my mind constantly. I mean, even when I'm checking someone out at the library all I think about is if you'll like this book. I'm just... I don't know what to do. Because you can't stay here forever. You exist in our world every 100 years, and then you go away again. I can't be in love with you, but I am."
"You are?" He asks, saying those two words slowly. "You're in love with me?" You don't see the smile creeping on his face, the steady steps toward you.
"Yes, I am. I can't believe I'm confessing to you right now. The worst possible timing ever," You snort, rubbing your face in exasperation.
“I love you.”
You stop in your steps, looking back at him. “What?”
“I didn’t know what human love was. I always questioned it, always thought that it was a frivolous human emotion that just made your relationships grow or procreate. But it is so much more than that. I don’t know when I realized it, but I have loved you for a while. It might have been when you took care of me without knowing my name, or when you sat next to me on the dock. I just… I know that I love you.”
Yunho stands closer to you, his hands entangling with yours. “I love you, y/n.”
Your heartbeat quickens as you stare up at him. Fear, Love, Care, Confusion, Anxiety, love, love love love…
You pull his face down, barely centimeters away from your lips. You both breathe slowly, eyes staring into one another’s. Before you could ask, Yunho takes the leap. He presses his lips against yours, small gasps falling from them as he kisses you. And kisses you, kisses you, kisses you…
Your fingers curl into the fabric of his shirt and he presses his forehead into yours, lips trembling against yours. All you can hear is your breaths, until you giggle, shaking your head.
“Did I just kiss an octopus?”
“Did I just kiss a human?” He raises a brow.
“Touche,” you mumble back. He laughs, shaking his head.
-
“So, you two are a thing now?” Jongho says through big bites, glancing at Yunho out of the corner of his eye. “You’re dating a cephalopod? Isn’t that illegal somehow?”
“He’s… well,” you glance at Yun. “I mean, yea. Not sure if it’s illegal if he’s half human too.”
“Well, not exactly half human,” he squeezes your arm, eating his ramen. “More like full octopus, sometimes transform into a human for convenience. So Jongho is correct in that sense.”
“You’re making this weirder than it already is,” you grumble. Jongho laughs and Yunho shakes his head lightly.
It’s been a few weeks since Yunho sent Seonghwa and Hongjoong to their own designated islands, far far away from here. You’re glad that he did it, you’re not as afraid whenever you walk outside to get your mail, or go to the grocery store. Moreso, because Yunho is constantly by your side. It’s not something you mind at all, it’s just a little funny. Whenever you open your front door, Yunho appears immediately by your side, watching as you take it from the box. He insisted on doing it himself (and everything else, but you stopped that immediately). There’s always a pout on his lips as you do it, but it’s only for show. He just wants you safe, and that’s something that you don’t mind.
The grocery store is a different story. You’ve never felt closer to him whenever you go. He’s attached to your arm, fingers curled into yours as you walk around. Always asks questions about what things are, annoyed whenever someone gets a bit too close to you, hands running down your arm. You’ve noticed that when he’s nervous his skin gets a bit sticky (an almost slimy texture), and small circles appear on his hands. After you confronted him about it before, he shyly explained that it’s his suction cups, and sometimes they appear whenever he feels extreme emotions.
God, you’d never get used to having an octopus as a partner.
“How’s the shop renovation? Complete yet?”
Jongho nods happily. “Finally! Just need to get some things shipped from the farm and everything will be freshly stocked. God, that fire seems like years ago,” he shivers. “I still have no idea how it happened or how we got out.”
“I did it.”
You both stop chewing, looking at Yunho. His eyes flick between you both, light circles starting to appear on his arm. “Is there anything wrong?”
“You saved us from the fire? You dragged us out?”
He nods slowly. “I just appeared on the surface, but I sensed you two in danger so I pulled you out. I thought you knew this already, you were staring right at me as I dragged you.”
“I couldn’t see anything because it was too dark-!”
“Thanks!” Jongho interrupts you, patting Yunho a bit harshly, causing him to spill a little soup on his shirt. He stares down at it as Jong speaks. “If it weren’t for you well, we’d be six feet under right about now.”
Yunho picks at the stain. “What does that even mean?”
“Dead. We’d be dead,” you say, still staring at him in awe. He furrows his eyes at your stare. This man is more involved in your life than you realized. He’s saved you more than you know, and you wanted to push him away. What a fool you would have been. “Thank you, Yun.”
He smiles. “Anything for you.”
-
Everything is amazing with Yunho. You get to see him often, he sometimes visits you at the library whenever the sea shows that he watches isn’t enough to entertain him, or the park is closed. You love spending time with him, you do. But something changed. The past few days it grew even more apparent. You would come home from work, and he’d sniff you. You assumed that it was just a random encounter, but he does it each time you leave the room and come back in. Head on your neck, inhaling your scent.
And that’s not the strangest part. He’d stare at you for a moment, brush his hands over the spot, linger, then look away and pretend as if nothing happened. The first time was subtle, not enough for you to pay much mind to. But it happens too often for you to just let it slide. In the mornings, (Yunho still sleeps in his own room), he’d stand outside your door, do the usual routine, and then take his hours long baths. Everyday.
Every. Single. Day.
And now, as you sit next to him on your bed. He does the same. Your legs wrapped around him, hand resting on his stomach. His head is in the curve of your neck. This time though his breathing is heavy, fingertips indenting your side as he pulls you closer. You shudder as his tongue slowly runs down the skin, mouth closing around it, sucking lightly.
“Yun,” you stutter. He stops immediately, pulling away from your body.
“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to,” he quickly runs through the apologies, finger stroking your cheek as he spills more and more. You laugh, shaking your head.
“If you wanted to have sex all you had to do was ask, you know.”
His face burns darker than you’ve ever seen him, hand trembling as he strokes your cheek. “I didn’t,” he rubs his face. “I do, I really do. But, you’re a human, and I am a… I don’t know. It might be different, and I don’t want to hurt you. I wouldn’t forgive myself if I ever caused you any injuries.”
You shake your head. “You won’t.”
“But what if I do?”
“But you won’t.”
“But-”
“Yunho.” You stop him from speaking. “I know you’re not going to hurt me, okay? I can always tell you to stop, and I trust that you’ll listen to me if I feel like there’s something wrong.”
He looks at you, his brown eyes warming as the sun hits them. “I don’t deserve you.”
You shrug, “Well, that is true…”
He laughs, shaking his head as he pulls you in for a kiss. Looking into your eyes to see if it’s okay, he slowly guides you against him, his body moving on top of yours. His hands slowly travel underneath your shirt, guiding it off of you. You lift your arms, letting him move it up your body. He pauses when it reaches your bra, pressing light kisses against your stomach, sternum, leading up to the curve of your breasts. His mouth lingers on the plump lift of your chest. You can feel as he smiles into your skin, the remainder of your shirt thrown to the side.
“You’re beautiful,” he says softly, eyes slowly lifting to yours. They’re much darker, swirling with lust and love. “Is it all for me?”
“Yes,” you breathe. He winks, his hand tugging on your bra. Before you reach to unclasp it for him, he rips it easily with a slight tug of his hand. Your breath hitches, not knowing whether to be turned on or a little scared.
Or both.
His tongue glides along your skin, reaching your nipple and sucking lightly. You moan as he pushes down your pants, nails scratching you as he quickly pushes them to the side. His fingers dig into your hips, mouth moving to the other side. His skin is cool, slowly growing moist and sticky as he continues.
You feel a strange sensation on your thighs, and look down at him. Yunho is still against your stomach, groaning lightly. Sweat decorates his forehead, dripping onto you. You quickly lean up, fear coursing through your veins. Is this what he was talking about? Does sex hurt him?
“Yun?”
Your eyes widen once you lean up, finally seeing what’s wrong. There’s a huge tear in Yunho’s shirt, tentacles growing larger and larger, some falling onto your legs, the others lying on the side. He looks up at you, eyes completely black, mouth open as he groans, fingers digging into your thighs. It’s not enough to draw blood, but you’re sure they’re going to leave behind small bruises.
“We can stop if you want,” he gasps, a tentacle slowly wrapping around your leg, inching closer and closer to your center. You fall back slowly, watching as another touches your hand with hesitancy, it’s moist texture raising your curiosity. You can feel the suction cups adhere to your skin, pulling on it lightly as it travels it’s way.
“y/n, please. Tell me what you want,” he murmurs, biting your thigh lightly. “If this is too weird for you, we don’t have to do anything. I can enjoy you as we are, nothing too far.” The pure and unrivaled care that he has in his voice. It only makes you sniffle. Yunho quickly flicks his head up to you, uneased. His whole body freezes.
“I… I love you Yunho, and I want to do this with you.”
“Why are you crying?” he asks gently, hands massaging your side.
“Because I’ve never met someone who cares about my feelings so much,” you confess, rubbing your eyes. “God, I can’t believe I’m crying during sex.”
He beams at you, “You only make me more and more elated,” his tentacle pulsates around your leg, now on your lower thigh. “And a little aroused.”
You chuckle at his dirty talk, your laugh disappearing quickly when one of the tentacles make it between your legs. It hesitantly teases your lips, before slowly guiding along your mound, pressing against your clit. Your legs tighten around Yunho as he holds you apart, eyes on your middle. It’s secretions moisten your mound more than it already is, entering you. It’s small at the end, the size of a finger. You groan, throwing your head back as it enters more and more slowly.
Yunho lets go of your legs for a moment, ripping the rest of his clothing off. His torso is covered in small circles, a more green color, as if he’s blending into your bedsheets. He leans down, eyes on you as he sucks your clit lightly.
“Fuck,” You gasp, clutching your bedsheets. “Please…”
Another tentacle makes it underneath your body, lifting you with ease. It travels around your back, slowly moving around the curve of your ass, before making it just outside the hole. Before you could tell Yunho that you’ve never done that before, the tentacle enters slowly. He trembles, moving away from your cunt, hands shaking.
“You’re so tight,” he utters through struggling breaths. “I have to tell you something.”
You nod, moaning as his tentacle moves another inch. It doesn’t hurt as much as you thought, the burn of the entrance mended by the slick skin of the tentacle. Yunho pauses for a moment.
“I know humans don’t usually urinate when they mate but…” His eyes flutter as he feels you tighten around him. “That’s how I mark my territory. My limbs are going to release into you. I just need to know if you’re okay with me inside of you.”
He looks into your eyes. Urine? You’ve never thought much of it before, but it did linger in your head sometimes. To be honest, it never turned you off whenever you stumbled upon it during your endless searches. And Yunho, staring at you as his tentacles moved inside you, doesn’t seem like a better time to try it out.
“Okay.”
“Okay?”
“You can pee in me, fuck.” His tentacles immediately pick up the pace, suckers sticking to places inside you, moving in and out with precision. You moan loudly as the bed creaks, another two limbs encircling your chest, squeezing your breasts. Your senses are taken over by the moist, cold tentacles moving on you. Yunho leans forward, lips against yours, tongue frantic as the tentacles pick up their pace. His head tucks into your neck, breaths rapid.
“They’re about to…” he trails off, groaning. Immediately, the warm liquid spills into your ass and cunt, pushing as far as it could inside of you, filling you up. Your orgasm hits immediately, legs trembling as they tighten around the limbs, keeping them in place for a moment. With struggle, the tentacles slowly slide out, dripping as they pull out, moving to the side. Yunho reaches down, and you follow his hand.
His fingers are wrapped around his cock. It’s a light green in color, ridges running down the length. It’s an average size, but the girth is more than you expected it to be. It’s almost as thick as a soda can, and your heart only beats faster at that realization. It would split you apart.
Yunho rubs it slowly, lids heavy as he stares down at you. Fuck it.
“Can I?” he asks, rubbing his length along your cunt, the ridges rubbing against your clit. You nod, and he slowly enters you, groaning. His tentacles wrap around your back, slowly guiding you onto his cock. His length is difficult to enter you, the help of the tentacles and the layer of slick from them making it easier. Soon enough, his balls rest against the outside of your lips.
You’re a bit shocked that he made it in with such ease, the feeling of him taking over everything else. Your fingers dig into his arm as he slowly backs out, before entering you again. He does it inch by inch, lightly kissing your body to comfort you. He slowly drags his cock out of you. His gaze moves down, the combination of his slick and your arousal covering his cock. You feel empty, your hand tugging him forward again.
He chuckles. “You’re an interesting one.”
“What does tha-”
He pushes himself harshly against you, the breath leaving your lungs for a moment. He’s moving much quicker than you thought, balls slapping against you as he quickened his pace. His veins pop out against his skin, fingers slowly sticking to your skin, suckers appearing on his palm. He groans, muscles straining as he takes in the feeling of you around his cock. His tentacles wrap around your body, one moving closer to your neck. It tickles your skin, before wrapping lightly around it.
Your cunt only tightens more, encouraging him. His hips pick up the pace, cock easily moving in and out of you. The slap of his skin on yours echoes around you, the fear of him ripping you apart replaced with the need to reach your end. He keeps up the neverending pace with ease, panting and eyes focused on yours. He can feel his cock getting harder, his end getting closer and closer to fruition. You can feel your end hearing as well, the pulsing of your cunt and the high almost at the perfect spot.
“I… I think I’m going to cum,” he utters, hips stuttering. “Cum for me, y/n.” His fingers grip your hips, harshly pulling you against him. He leans forward, mouth sucking on your neck and tentacle moving to the side. “Cum.”
Your orgasm hits you at one more pump of his hips, legs wrapping around his body as you violently tremble against him. Yunho wraps himself around you, holding you against his body as you feel his hot cum against your walls, filling you as much as it could. Your breaths level out, Yunho still wrapped around you. Despite his orgasm, you can still feel how hard he is inside of you, stiff against your still trembling walls.
“Why are you still hard?” you mumble into his ears.
He laughs, kissing just behind your lobe. “I have a lot of stamina.”
“How long?”
He moves away from your neck, eyebrow raised. “At least four more times.”
“Four-?!”
“Relax y/n, I’d never make you go that far. Once is enough for me,” he says softly, love in his eyes. “I’ll do anything you desire.”
“That’s cute, kinda gross,” you murmur, and he only chuckles. “I love you, you know. I don’t care what you look like or how many tentacles you have. I’ll still love you the same.”
“What happens when I leave?” he says so softly, you almost don’t hear it. “Once I turn back into a Kraken…”
“That’s not something to think about right now. I have you at this moment. And that’s enough for now.”
He nods slowly, looking at you in deep thought. “I won’t leave you, I’ll figure something out. There’s no use for a Kraken in these modern times. I don’t need to protect the seas any longer. I will stay human.”
He somehow presses you closer to him, “For you. I won’t give up on you.”
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forestshadow-wolf · 11 months
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This is for @rainerestored because reasons (my DMs are open if you want)
Soap and ghost come out of a mission that went bad. Like every thing that could go wrong, went wrong. Intel was shite, there were too many enemies, the were WAY under prepared. They'd had to run and hide at a safehouse until exfil. And the worst thing about it? The "package" (some crimelord's son in exchange for info) wasn't even there.
Intel said it was a small compound, 1 building, 3 floors, 12 guards. That means 6 guards each, averaging 2 per floor per person, or 4 on each floor for both of them combined. They're capable, plus there were good vantage point to snipe from, before the even set foot in the building. Easy enough, right? WRONG
Intel laughs in their face with its, 3 dozen extra soldiers. To say that complicates things would be an accurate statement. It's not impossible, they've done it before, but they weren't exactly armed for it...
To look at the silver lining, and they are trying to find the silver lining, clearing the area was a good workout at least... also the target wasn't even there.
Now you're probably thinking, well why did they have to retreat to a safehouse? Well because there were 3 dozen soldier in the base when they entered, and an extra 12 soldier arrived as they were leaving, and they were out of ammo. Which is oh so great for them...
a little worse for where, but relatively unscathed. The "safehouse" (if it can even be called that) was a rickety shack with uneven walls and boarded up windows... man, fuck the military. Now they sit on the cold dirt ground, leaning against each other, and contemplating their life choices.
They both almost died, and yet neither of them are hurt, how in the hell did they get here. Well- the do know, just... you get it.
"Lets get married."
"What?"
It was ghost who broke the silence first. Which in and of itself isn't that surprising. It's what he said that was.
Why? Because ghost had already made it know that while he did love soap, with all he had, it was just that "married" life never fit him. And soap was always okay with that, he didn't need to be married to ghost, as long as he had him, he was happy.
"Lets. Get. Married."
"I thought- "
"I changed my mind. I wanna get married. To you."
It was said kinda rushed. Like it was urgent. Or like ghost was trying not to panic.
"Okay"
"Okay"
Ghost seemed to relax just a tiny bit after that.
"We'll need an ordained minister. And at least one witness." He said.
"I'll call up my sister when we get out of here. She can do it. And we'll have price and Gaz watch. Or we can invite the whole base and have a big party." Soap was quick to problem solve.
He wasn't sure what exactly brought this upon ghost, he had his suspicions, but he didn't need to know. All he needed was to be with ghost, and for them to be happy.
"I want a big party. But I want it soon, so nothing extravagant."
"We can do it on base, invite whoever wants to come. It'll be a week from today. Maybe Price cam pull some strings for a honeymoon."
"Yeah. Definitely. He can call it a training exercise. He's send us to the beach. Maui or Hawaii, maybe."
Soap nodded along.
"But you hate the beach."
"But you love it." Ghost said, his smile shining through in his voice.
"We don't have rings..."
"We'll use paper rings. One of the privates used to blacksmith, I think, private Weller. We can commission his to make us some."
"We can't wear them on the field." Soap fretted
"We'll put them on our tags. So they close.to our heart." Ghost soothed.
It almost seemed like this wasn't the first time he'd though about this. What changed? Soap didn't know, but something did, and it seemed like it scared ghost, and this was his way of dealing with it. Like maybe he thought they didn't have enough time to be together. Soap would indulge him.
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kurishiri · 3 months
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08 . . . “ lost in a garden of flowers ”
— 🍯 elbert’s main route chapter 8 his side story.
— this translation may not be 100% accurate or may contain creative liberties. if you enjoy, please consider reblogging, but don’t repost or claim these as your own!
— cw: “is she beautiful?”
Kate: I know I said I went there sometimes after work...
K: ...but I think I usually went there when I felt down.
Elbert: ...When you felt down?
Kate: Yeah. Eating delicious bread and chatting about silly things at that shop...
K: When I do that, for some reason I always seem to feel better. It was my secret place.
We had just left the bakery that Kate seemed familiar with when she softly murmured those words as if making a confession.
K: You had told me about your secret place... so, this is in return for that.
Elbert: ...
When I closed my eyes, the scene that happened just before seemed to flash through vividly in the back of my mind.
(It was a place bustling with people, but I didn’t feel the least bit uncomfortable.)
Amid the boisterous laughter, the peaceful time passed by.
It was a warm place, as though it was painting happiness itself.
(And that is...)
(...something I must never find, nor seek out.)
Kate: Could it be... was it a little too lively?
Elbert: No... it was a wonderful place.
Kate seemed a little uncertain, so I assured her otherwise.
Elbert: It was lively, but... it was also easy to breathe in there.
E: It’s the first time I’ve felt that way.
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(Kate brought me here.)
Without revealing the destination, Kate guided me as if she were guiding a butterfly fluttering toward a garden of flowers.
To a place I would have otherwise not been able to step into.
It felt like I had broken the rules, and ended up knowing the taste of the sweet honey.
Kate: ...I’m glad.
K: Ah, before I forget.
Kate, as if remembering something suddenly, put her hands in her pockets.
Elbert: Hm...?
Kate: Aunt Jessie gave us some fruits as desserts, so let’s have them since we got them.
Elbert: ...Didn’t you just say that you thought you ate a little too much though?
Kate: I have a separate stomach for dessert.
Elbert: I see...
Kate: I have an orange and an apple... which one do you want?
Kate held out the two fruits to me, one in each hand.
(...She looks like a goddess of harvest.)
The fruits seemed to sparkle on top of her hand, like the shell from the beach.
But more than that — I was captivated by her eyes.
Elbert: ...You choose.
Kate: ...Me?
Elbert: I want whichever you choose.
Kate: ...?
Kate’s eyes wavered, seeming a bit hesitant.
Kate: Ah... well then.
She held out the fresh red apple toward me.
Kate: Then, you can have the apple.
Elbert: Mn...
I took her hand which held the apple and brought it toward my lips.
(...It looks beautiful.)
When I saw the red of the apple with her palm, strangely I felt my appetite grow.
Elbert: ...Mn...
When I took a bite, I could taste the juice, the red of the apple belying the color of honey.
(It’s sweet.)
(And... fragrant, too.)
Elbert: ...Mn... it’s delicious.
I wonder how long it’s been since the flavor of food has felt so striking.
I was a little surprised at how sweet it tasted in my mouth... and, I didn’t dislike it.
Kate: ...Hehe.
Like the flutter of a butterfly’s wings, a faint laughter lit on her face.
Elbert: ...? Why are you laughing?
Kate: Ah, sorry, I shouldn’t be laughing at someone eating.
Elbert: I don’t mind it.
Kate: I guess it’s because Jessie had said, ‘They do say that those who like bitter foods have a weary heart’...
K: So to see you feel that an apple, which isn’t bitter, is delicious...
K: Maybe today, you were able to rest your heart a little bit... and I was so happy that I, you know.
Elbert: ... [surprised]
Kate’s smile, was sweet.
Sweet and warm... soft, and dazzling.
(This is surely...)
Elbert: It seems when you’re laughing at others, you are the most happy.
(...reflecting the heart of yours that finds joy in others’ happiness.)
Kate: Is that so...?
Elbert: Yes, you look much more happy than when you said the bread is delicious.
I was so drawn to the way she innocently tilted her head,
and suddenly, something bubbled up in my throat.
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——Is she... beautiful?
I could hear a voice ask from the empty depths of my heart.
(...)
I, couldn’t simply say ‘I don’t know’ this time.
The voice that had come up from the dark depths of the water, as if blaming me for stepping into the secret garden of flowers and learning the taste of honey, compelled me to answer.
——Is she, someone I should have?
Elbert: And when we saw that Daisy was alright, and when we found a blue poppy for her, too.
E: You were making a face then like you are now.
My body moved on its own, as if being pulled by some unknown force, and I pulled Kate’s hand, which held the apple, toward me.
She backed away two or three steps — a little closer, and our chests would have touched.
Kate: ...Uhm, Lord Elbert...?
Elbert: What is it...?
Kate: Aren’t you, a little too close...?
Elbert: Ah... I wanted to see it more.
(I can’t trust my own feelings...)
(That’s why, this must not be it.)
(She is different... she’s not the one I have been looking for.)
(I don’t want her to be, either.)
And yet... despite my own thoughts, I was charmed by her to the point I could not even blink.
I couldn’t look away, and something within my heart stirred furiously.
A burning impulse and my sense of reason trying to stop it mingled together, spiraling within me.
(Someone—)
(Please, cover my eyes.)
(If I continue looking at her...)
(I... to her—)
Boy’s voice: Ah, you all are making out!
Kate: Eh!?
When I turned toward the voice, I saw the boy who had approached us in the shop, smiling brightly while looking at us.
Words I didn’t understand brought me back from my thoughts, and without thinking I murmured.
Elbert: “Making out”...?
Kate: W-we weren’t doing that...
Kate’s ears reddened, and she pushed me away with both her hands.
Elbert: ...
Kate: Ah! I’m sorry...!
Elbert: ...It’s alright...
(That surprised me.)
The thing that had been in my throat sank back down to the depths of emptiness.
Almond-haired boy: What, you’re not gonna kiss?
Kate: N-no, we won’t! Geez, you can’t tease adults like this!
With a mischievous grin on his face, the boy left with light steps.
(Kiss...)
While watching the boy run off in a daze, I thought over what he said.
Kate: Umm, should we head back to the castle now?
Kate looked away, seemingly a little awkward.
Elbert: ...
E: Yes... let’s.
The one who can give her a kiss of happiness... would surely be someone similar to herself.
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(Someone who is strong, kind, and pure like the snow.)
(Someone——who is not me.)
I knew that if she were to be happy, it should be that way.
But Kate’s smile, the sweetness of the apple, the warmth of the bakery...
I had ended up tasting that honey, and its aftertaste wouldn’t fade from my tongue.
I felt like that impulse that had been whirling in my chest, started to stir from the bottom of my stomach.
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museum-spaces · 1 year
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I am having thoughts about autism and rebellion. I often describe myself as 'a lazy emo' or 'a lazy punk' in that I have the attitude but none of the energy needed to 'look' the part.
And I do think that's accurate, but it also occurred to me that I didn't necessarily 'rebel' in the most obvious ways.
I found a burned book today and it triggered something of a core memory for me. I don't know how old I was but I was in elementary school. I was walking along the beach in my home town when I found the remains of a burned book.
Being raised in Catholic school I knew that burned books were 'morally bad' in the eyes of some of my elders. So, logically, as a little autistic rebel I decided I should read this book. So I took home a scrap of page that had a partial author name and a partial book name on the other side.
My brother helped me google-foo to figure out what it was - this is how I know I was in elementary school. I started actually using computers in high school and had no clue how to figure out what book this was.
Anyway, brother helped me find it, I then got it out of the library. and... well It wasn't /my/ cup of tea. But I kept doing it. I only remember 3 of the books I read this way, but there was lots.
Prey by Michael Crichton [the first one]
Blood Music by Greg Bear [very interesting and very outside of my normal reading habits]
Rick Mercer's The Book [fun political rants from the Rick Mercer report in written form]
The book I found today was a religious novel by Rhonda McKnight called 'secrets and lies' and... well I can tell from the description that I would not like it, and from the scraps I read today that it would aggravate me to read 60+ chapters of it. But... memory unlocked.
I wonder if this is an autism thing. My rebellions were... quiet.
I read during mass, I read burnt books, I went for long walks at 3am - but didn't drink or meet up with friends... I just walked. My rebellions were not internal but neither were they flashy.
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preciadosbass · 19 days
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26/8/24 [skipped yesterday as there wasn’t much info, draft from monday — key + significant photo at end]
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woke up at 9 and got ready as soon as possible to meet my extended family early at breakfast as today was their last day. i said goodmorning to boris, got dressed into my skinless outfit [skinless shirt, black ripped skinny jeans, wooden bracelet, panic! at the disco bracelet, mcr bracelet, two spiked cuffs [one with three rows and shorter spikes, the other with two rows and much longer spikes], my diy can tab bracelet, a leather skull-lined adjustable bracelet, taxidermy scorpion necklace, thrifted necklace with all/matching colours of my skinless shirt [the beads look like mushrooms], knee high converse, my mcr danger days zip up, and my pin decorated jacket.] and then packed my bag.
me, my parents and my sister met the rest of our family at our restaurant at around 9:30/40. i sat next to H, the other people on our table were RY, E, and R. i had a couple bowls of cereal for breakfast, and then had to move tables as RY had pancakes [ew] - after my food, while i was just sitting waiting for everyone else, i was sent a picture of boris by my hairdresser who is looking after him. it was an image of him and the hairdressers daughter that came along to meet him. its really nice that even though we’re away, boris still has company. i just hope that it isn’t stressing him out. we left breakfast at approximately 10:40 and headed to the fair.
once arriving at the fair, we established that most of us were having a go on the go karts and organised who was going with who. i decided to go with R as he drives fast normally, and my sister chose to go with RY; the rest went as singles. we spent about 30 minutes queuing and while doing so, i spoke to my dad & R about boris and the rollercoasters at thorpe park. i’m so excited to go with my cousins in september. anyway, me and R got on a green double kart and everyone else loaded themselves into their own. the doubles are allowed to go onto the track first, and as RY + my sister were infront of us in the queue, they were sat in the kart infront of us. they rolled onto the track and the lap started with our karts being neck and neck.
R’s legs didn’t even fit in the car and were getting stuck on the pedals but we ended up overtaking before the second lap started. my grandad and his fiancé were behind of us most of the time, and R’s girlfriend [E] was to our front. now, with this subject, i cant really get anything accurate from this point as the videos of us gokarting don’t show who we overtook next/i cant remember. so i’m going to skip to the end of the ride. right before it ended, we ended up overtaking E somehow, and had RY and my sister right on our tail. we both thought that we were going to be overtaken, but the staff cut the engines as the ride was over so they weren’t able to go past us.
there were a few other people unknown to us on the track, and they were getting mad at R for being at the front the whole time XD, at least we won! now we both just have to deal with my sister going on about it for years /hj - R in particular has a 10 year streak of winning go karting at this resort which i only was informed of after we won, so i’m glad i picked him. however this was the first time he’s been back at the resort since he was my age. he’s also really funny with things like this. the way he narrates things is just hilarious and he dosent even intend it to be half the time. after taking some family photos we all split up. my aunt and uncle said goodbye and walked back to their car, D [cousin #3] said goodbye and went off to the swimming pool to hopefully watch L and W [his partner and her son], and me, my parents, my sister, RY/H and R/E made our way to the beach at 12.
to get out of the fair, you can go through the arcade so my sister made my parents give in to letting her have another go of that minecraft game. [photo at end, ignore the blur my hair looked bad] afterwards, i went up to the beach a separate way from everyone else in order to not get my knee high’s sandy, but i ended up taking ages. once i’d finally gotten onto the path around the beach, we all started walking down it. everyone was just speaking about how our break has been and how much the resort has changed vs when my cousins were my age. i unfortunately didn’t get to change into my knock off converse’s before going to the beach, otherwise i would’ve been able to get some pretty shells.
the walk across it is very long, so i’d say we got about a quarter way down. we walked until we saw the two story accommodations and then headed back. once we did, RY, H, E, and R split off to go home, my mum and sister went off somewhere or another, and me and my dad went back to our chalet. on the way back, there’s an example of what the chalet’s would’ve looked like 80/90 years ago. so i went over to that and had a look inside. they for some reason look [design wise] better than the ones currently. however there’s not much to the interior/uncomfy looking beds/no bathrooms.
i attempted to write a little bit of my journal upon getting into the room, but i ended up falling asleep almost immediately. i slept up until 3 and while doing so my dad went back over to darts and my mum & sister carried on doing their own thing. once i woke up, i got my swimming things ready and all of us [my immediate family, now that everyone else has left] walked over to the swimming complex. there wasn’t any queue today as most people were leaving and the people arrived were still on their way so i was able to get undressed and just hop it within a small matter of time. i once again put on my swimming costume plus shorts and a t shirt.
the first thing we did was queue for the family flume. we queued up until we could pick up a ring and then my mum spoke to the lifeguard about the access thingy. it turns out that i was wrong and they do have an access organisation, they just don’t really talk about it. the way it works is they radio the person up top where you actually get into the slide, and you just make your way to the front of the queue. since the last time we’ve come to this resort, they’ve changed how many people you can have inside a ring at a time. it used to be four so all of us could ride together, but it’s now three. my mum offered to take a blue ring by herself so me, my sister and my dad could go together.
none of us officially agreed because we felt bad that she had to be alone, but we got to the front of the queue regardless. my mum went first, and we followed after she’d come out of the end. i resulted in getting absolutely soaked as the ring tuned right before you get off right where the largest body of water is. its been ages since we’ve been on a flume as a family [sort of, as my mum couldn’t be with us] so it was nice. i think i found it even fun-er as i genuinely couldn’t see where on earth i was going. afterwards, we queued up for the outside rapids. i say queued, but everyone just went in straight away.
i was freezing, mostly likely because my shorts & t shirt hold whatever temperature it is a lot more than just a swimming costume. i wanted to enjoy it but i couldn’t focus on anything other than how cold i was and how weird my throat felt from the stuffiness inside. my sister and dad tried doing our little game where you aim to be the last one out and everyone else tries pushing you/dragging you down the last drop, but i just slid down with my mum. hopefully another time it’ll be better weather and i’ll be able to play properly. i followed on with jumping into the adult pool while waiting for my sister and dad to come out of the rapids.
we barely stayed in there until we went over to the wave pool to see if it was working. it wasn’t the last time we came and it unfortunately wasn’t this time either. but there is still a small cascade of water that feels like what you’d imagine chocolate coming off of a chocolate fountain to feel. afterwards, we went round to the indoor river rapids. we went round two of three times, we’ll at least i did, until we went into the changing rooms. my dad found the locker and got everything out and i got dressed again. when id finished and came out of my stall, my mum and sister were gone. my sister went off somewhere so we had to wait until we could go to dinner.
when she finally reappeared we quickly walked back to the chalet so i could get my bag and brush my hair. once id finished and my sister finally let us leave the room [she wanted me to go to arcade with her], we went over to dinner. i had the stereotypical autism dinner [iykyk] checked on boris via my dad’s camera. i went back from dinner early and i stayed in my parents room for a while while scrolling on various platforms. once my parents arrived back, we set off to a show. we got into the correct venue and managed to get a seat right at the front to the left of the stage.
the show was a comedic ventriloquist performance. the guy had been on britain’s got talent before and got to the finals. i thought that the personality concepts for each puppet was good, but i don’t think that his jokes came across in a way that made them as funny as they could’ve been. the crowd was a little dead and my parents said they agreed but i still feel guilty for not being keen lmaoo but i don’t think it helped that i was really tired. i could barely process anything he was saying. during the show, i got a text from my aunt. it was a picture on boris outside, which obviously made me so happy. but near the end of the show, i realised that he’s outside - on the driveway; alone. so i started getting really worried.
conveniently, my aunt was on her way back to our house to get him inside as he wasn’t having it earlier. i got a text right before we started walking back to room saying that he’s inside and having his dinner followed with a picture of him eating. which was such a relief. i stayed in the chalet until 9:15 when i came along with my parents to see the light show that i also saw last night. i decided to go for half an hour so i’d have enough time to write this journal before having to do my questions about boris. the sound was better this time round as we were slightly further back and more towards the middle. and for some reason there was more cool lights, but i’m not complaining. the actual show started at 9:30 and i left to go back to the room at 10.
when i got back, i scrolled some more on tiktok and looked through some more jackass pictures on pinterest. when my parents got back, i scrolled through all of the pictures of boris on my phone which took at least half an hour. after, i wrote this journal, got undressed into my onesie at 12:20 and eventually finished asking my parents questions about boris at 1. i said goodnight to boris through a picture of him and went to sleep at 1:40.
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🗝️ — boris/my cat, questions about boris/i ask my parents questions about my cat to verify he's okay + will be okay in the morning. its a compulsive thing and i'm hopefully going to be tested for OCD in the future.
have a good day/night O_o
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Nokto 3rd Anniversary Event
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A Beast's Dream Realized by Beauty
Chapter 2
This a fan translation so it is definitely not 100% accurate. I do not own anything related to Ikemen Prince. Support Cybird by buying their amazing stories!
Part 1 | Part 2 | Premium End | Epilogue
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Prince Licht, Nokto’s twin brother, rarely smiles.
Always expressionless, I had the impression that he had forgotten his emotions in the past.
However, Nokto had a smile on his face from the moment we met.
Even if it was fake, unlike Prince Licht, he had a facial expression.
As someone who’s good at lying, I had no idea that there was a time when he “wasn’t lying.”
(Nokto who doesn’t laugh…?)
(In that case, Nokto must have been studying in Benitoite for a short period after the incident happened.)
(If the couple’s story was true, when was Nokto’s fake smile created?)
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Nokto: “Are you going to kiss the wall?”
Emma: “Wha!”
Suddenly someone pulled me from behind, and my body floated lightly through the air.
Before I knew it, the wall of the building was approaching in front of my eyes and nose.
Nokto: “Why don’t you just do it to me?”
Emma: “Sorry… I didn’t notice.”
Nokto: “What are you thinking about?”
(I’m sure if I asked him, Nokto would probably answer all the questions I have.)
(but…)
Emma: “…I was thinking of ten things I wanted to do with you in Benitoite.”
(I don’t want to go diffing into the past when I’m on vacation.)
Revisiting Nokto and Prince Licht’s past is synonymous with throwing oneself into the bottomless darkness.
That’s a far cry from my wish for Nokto to be able to relax.
Nokto: “Heh… for example?”
Emma: “I want to eat lots of delicious seafood!”
Nokto: “Are you that hungry?”
Emma: “If you don’t eat well, you don’t play well, right?”
As soon as I said that, my stomach let out a loud rumble.
(…)
Nokto: “…”
Emma: “Oh, don’t laugh!”
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Nokto: “I’m sorry, I can’t… If we don’t hurry up and find a restaurant, the chorus will start… Ahaha!”
Emma: “No chorus will start!”
(It was embarrassing, but if Nokto laughed as hard as he could, that would be fine.)
(…)
(…huh?)
Nokto stood still and didn’t start walking.
When I looked up to see what was wrong, a shadow came over me and a grazing sensation fell on my lips.
Nokto: “Is it okay if I give you a kiss?”
Saying that, he kissed me deeply, and I hurriedly pushed his chest back.
Emma: “We’re in the middle of town.”
Nokto: “If you don’t like it, you have to make a face that you don’t like it. Right now, your face is telling me you want more.”
Emma: “…That’s because you’re good at kissing.”
(Why are you talking about it in broad daylight like this?)
Emma: “Let’s go!”
Nokto laughed again as I started walking away, pulling his hand behind me.
Nokto: “It’s the other way, though…”
Emma: “…”
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Nokto: “I never get tired of being with you.”
This time Nokto took the lead and started walking.
The date in Benitoite was full of smiles from beginning to end.
Nokto was in a good mood the entire time, and he even went along with the “10 things I want to do” that I came up with.
Buying souvenirs at shops, going to sight-seeing spots, riding on a pleasure boat, and so on.
While I was doing that, I noticed the color of the sky had changed and the sun was about to set on the horizon.
(“I want to go to the beach” finally makes ten things…Nokto did you enjoy today?)
When we were walking along the beach together, Nokto suddenly stopped.
Nokto: “…hey, aren’t you curious?”
Emma: “What?”
Nokto: “You don’t have to play stupid. There are lots of things you want to know, right?”
(…No. You can’t hide anything from Nokto.)
Today, I thought I had it all figured out, but there was one thing I couldn’t get out of my head.
(I decided not to bring it up, but if Nokto says it’s okay…)
Listening to the sound of the waves, I hesitate, and the scent of the sea calms my heart.
Emma: “Nokto, why did you study in Benitoite for a short time?”
I intended to ask the question in the brightest possible voice.
I added a smile, not to allow the darkness of the past to hold me captive.
Nokto: “What do you think Benitoite is?”
Emma: “A country of the sea and trade��right?”
Nokto: “Yes, I came to Benitoite to learn how to do business.”
Nokto: “I used to want to be a merchant.”
Emma: “I didn’t know that.”
(…this trip is full of things I don’t know.)
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Nokto: “My dream was so childish and cute, wasn’t it?”
Emma: “Yes, but now you’re doing something similar.”
Emma: “Aren’t you responsible for most of the trade contracts with other countries that the foreign affairs faction gets?”
Nokto: “That’s right, but… commerce and diplomacy are completely different things.”
Nokto: “What I wanted to do was a private business, rather than for the country.”
Nokto: “To live on the profits I’d get from buying and selling things…that’s what I longed for.”
Nokto: “Do you know the first Prince of Benitoite?”
Emma: “You mean Prince Silvio? I’ve only heard of him by name.”
(If I remember correctly, he was the driving force behind Benitoite’s many successful voyages and he was also a master of business.)
Nokto: “Silvio made his fortune through his private business and now he’s the richest man on the continent.”
Nokto: “He’s exactly the kind of prince who embodied my childhood dreams.”
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Nokto: “…I’m not sure about his personality.”
(I see. You admired him, didn’t you, Nokto?)
While it fills me with smiles, it also worries me.
(…Nokto couldn’t smile.)
I still hadn’t grasped what the sorrow in his red eyes meant.
As far as I’d heard of his past dreams, I didn’t sense anything dark, but…
Something I didn’t know seemed to swirl around.
Emma: “If it’s you, I have a feeling you can become a millionaire if you start your business now.”
Nokto: “I have enough to do as it is, I don’t have time for that, do I?”
Emma: “…That’s right. You would die if you added business on top of your normal official duties.”
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Nokto: “How weak am I in your mind?”
(Dreams are still dreams…)
(But now that I’ve gone to the trouble of finding out about it, I hope that Nokto’s dream will come true, even just a little--)
--Flashback—
Old lady: “I’m sorry. Actually, I have plans to open a stall at the antique market that will be held in a few days.”
Old lady: “When I was sorting out my things, I found a lot of useless antiques. I wanted to sell them.”
--End Flashback—
Emma: “Ah, the antique market…”
Nokto: “What about the antique market?”
Emma: “Nokto, let’s try being a merchant for just one day!”
Nokto: “…”
Nokto: “…Are you serious?”
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Jeongin x reader
"If only it were a birdie,"
Pairing:: Jeongin x female!reader
Warnings:: mention of blood and broken bones, mild foul language,based on the Canadian school system and is set in Canada bc I'm Canadian and it felt more accurate and safe to set it in Canada.
Word count::2, 553
Songs to listen to while reading::
A/N:: Another Jeongin fanfic 😍 it's to be expected lolol but the reason this fanfic came about was because we were playing pickleball in gym on Monday and everytime the guys playing infront of me would hit the ball I'd flinch because it was so loud. Then my brain went on a little tangent and then ta-daaa fanfic
"Alright class dismissed," your Science teacher clapped his hands and your classmates filed out of the room. You were going to head back to your locker when you remembered. This period is gym class. You groaned as you opened your locker. There was one good thing about gym class. All of your friends shared that same period. Despite it being just before break it was nice to spend time with all your friends for two whole hours. 
While you were sorting through your locker to find your gym bag the boy next to you asked you a question.
"Do you know what class we have next?" 
He was a super nice guy but he didn't have many friends. He's Korean, wears square glasses 90% of the time and has a unique fashion sense which most kids in your school don't like. He tries to fit in but when he realizes he can't, he just moves along. He's near the top of your class though, he's very smart. 
"We have gym now," you said, smiling up at him.
"Thanks," he said as he continued to mind his own business. You know all these things about him because you share every single class with him. Both semesters. Everyday. Like what are the chances! Must've been some kind of mistake in the system but oh well. Also he's very friendly so you just naturally get along with him.
As you were on your way to the gym you ran into your friends.
"Claire! Kira!" You called out as you sped up to them.
"Oh hey Y/N," Kira said waving to you. The three of you went into the locker room. You changed into your gym clothes while talking about the latest gossip with your friends. 
"Did you hear about that girl in 10th grade?"
"The one that got expelled, you mean?"
"Yeah!"
"I can't believe it's October and someone already got expelled,"
"I really don't wanna deal with Mr. Congies bs today,"
The girls chatted amongst themselves as you tied your shoelaces. You finally decided to join the Convo.
"Have you thought about going to Sarah's party next weekend?" You said grabbing your water bottle and going over to the other girls.
"Yeah," most of them said.
"And???"
"No way I'm going," they all shook their heads.
"Please! Any of you," you pleaded.
"We all know what goes down at her parties,"
"Yeah,"
"Man you guys are no fun," you said crossing your arms. You're just joking of course because they had the right to not want to go. Sarah's parties usually involve too many drinks for high-schoolers and too many…questionable sounds from the bedrooms. Either way you were gonna go, mainly to just get out there, but if your friends aren't going you probably won't either.
You and your friends walked into the gym to see…pickleball. You put your hands on your hips and shook your head. Your class has been doing pickleball for the past like 2 weeks. You went to the nearest court and stood on the side to wait for your turn with all the other girls. There were already four people playing and they had all the paddles so you stood there bored as fuck. Sure the talk between your friends was entertaining enough. Suddenly a girl shrieked, catching everyone's attention. Your gaze shot to where the ear piercing sound came from. There was the boy from earlier and a girl covering her body. Everyone stopped playing to see what the fuss was all about.
"He was taking lewd photos of me!!!!" She accused the black haired boy. 
"No I didn't! I was just looking at my phone!" The boy protested. Then Mr. Congies came over. 
"What's all the drama about," he said loud and proud. The girl explained that while she was waiting in line to play the boy behind her was taking inappropriate photos of her. The gym teacher snatched the boy's phone, "that's quite an accusation, we all know taking photos in school is illegal! Not to mention lewd ones," the teacher put his tiny glasses on and looked through the boy's phone. He looked terrified. "There is no evidence of any photos on Jeongin's phone of you." The teacher said, handing the phone back to the boy. Jeongin, that was his name. I forgot. You thought to yourself.
"I will get the councilors to look further into this later. For now, Jeongin on the court before I send you to the office," he said sternly pointing his wrinkled finger to the court and jeongin abided. He went over to the court, took a paddle from the other players and started playing. Mr. Congies put his hands on his hips with pride.
"Alright the rest of ya' back to playing," he said, waving the clipboard in his hand. Everyone continued to play as if nothing happened, including yourself. You kept talking amongst your friends.
"Ugh we haven't done anything all class,"
"Is that a bad thing though?"
"Yes! I wanna do something. Hey Y/N what time is it?"
Your friends all looked at you and you looked up to the clock in front of you.
"It's only eleven twenty," you said "why couldn't you have just looked at it?" You laughed with your eyes shut. That's when there was a sudden excruciating pain on the bridge of your nose. You opened your eyes to see everyone staring at you and a boy running over to you. Your friends were freaking out as you put your hand up to your nose, right between your eyes. It was SO painful. You slid your fingers down your nose and when you looked at them there was blood. Your eyes widened. What the hell just happened.
You looked down between your shoes as another drop of blood fell on them. Between your shoes there was a neon yellow pickleball with the tiniest bit of blood on it. You then pieced everything together. When you were laughing someone hit you right in between your eyes with a ball. 
"I'll go get some ice!" Claire got up and ran to Mr. Congies. The boy that was running to you earlier sat next to you. It was Jeongin. He kept apologizing as you just sat there awkwardly. "Here Y/N," Claire said as she offered you the ice with Mr. Congies standing next to her. 
"She should go to the nurse's office. Will one of you take her for me?" He said as you put the freezing ice to your nose. You flinched at the feeling. Jeongin shot his hand up before standing up.
"I'll take her!" He called out.
"Fine but first, who did this?" Mr. Congies crossed his arms.
"It's my fault Mr. Congies, I wasn't paying attention," 
"No. It was Jeongin he hit you didn't he," he said glaring at Jeongin. All your friends nodded their heads along with I.N. "Alright go on now I don't want anymore blood on my precious gym floors," Mr. Congies said with a wave of his clipboard. Jeongin took your arm and held the ice pack to your nose for you. He took you down the hall. You had your eyes gently shut because you now have a piercing headache. 
"Careful there's stairs here," He said, making you open your eyes and wobbly step down the stairs. He held you gently, guiding you. "We're gonna go in the elevator so we don't have to go up more steps," 
You two arrived at the elevator and you were still dizzy. Why are these damn pickleballs so hard? You thought to yourself as you heard the elevator ding open. Jeongin tripped on your way in making your eyes shoot open.
"You okay?" 
"Yeah, just my shoe laces," he chuckled as he pressed the third floor button. "Can you hold your ice for a sec? I'm going to tie my shoes," he said as you put your hand over his to hold the pack. He then bent down and fixed his laces but when he stood back up he didn't hold the ice. That's when the elevator suddenly started causing you to lose your balance a bit. You tilted over but Jeongin caught you. "Whoa, easy," he said as he held you up. Your cheeks get flushed at his tone of voice. 
"Thank you," you said as you stood back up properly.
After an awkward walk to the nurse's office you finally arrived. 
"Whoa whoa what happened here," the kind woman in the office stood up coming over to you as Jeongin held you up.
"I accidently hit her square in the nose with a pickleball!" Jeongin said as he set you on a little bench. 
"Oh ouch are you okay sweetie?" The lady said, sitting back down in her white chair as she rolled over to you. Her dark hair and questionable outfit was quite eye-catching. She sighed and shook her head. "How many times have you been here this year?" The nurse asked as she crossed her legs and turned to Jeongin. He just laughed awkwardly before her attention got drawn back to you. "Alright, I'm afraid there's not much else I can do for you dear. You want me to call home?" She said as she grabbed her clipboard. What's with this school and clipboards? 
"Yeah, my mom's number is [phone number of your choice]" you said as the nurse quickly wrote it down. 
"Alright I'll call her now. You two talk amongst yourselves in the meantime," she said as she rolled her chair over to the room next door.
"Y/N?" Jeongin randomly sat down next to you. You replied with a simple hum. "Why did you take the blame for getting hit, we all know it's my fault," he said with those big, doey, eyes. You couldn't help but tell him the truth.
"Well I just think people blame you too much for things that aren't your fault," you explained to him while shutting your eyes. "You get a bad wrap for no reason," you sighed. The chocolate haired boy thought for a moment, supposedly about your words. "You weren't taking lewd photos were you?" You asked out of the blue.
"Huh? Oh yeah. I'd never, I always screw shit like this up," he said with a sigh. You looked over at him sadly. "It's sounds corny but I feel so misunderstood here-"
The nurse came back interrupting your conversation. "Your mother said she'll be here in about 20 to 30 minutes," she said with her hand on her hip. "In the meantime," she turned to a big table in the center of the office. She grabbed bandaids and tissues. "Use these to stop the blood," she said, handing you the tissues. You did as she asked and whipped away most of the blood. Most of it had already come out of your nose so it was just the extra gunk. "And Jeongin can help you put this on your nose while I go take this call," she handed Jeongin a box of bandaids and left. 
When you open your eyes you see him pulling out hello kitty bandaids.
"Seriously, hello kitty," you laughed.
"Awe I think they're cute!" Jeongin chuckled as he opened one of them. "Now close your eyes," 
You did as he suggested. You felt a sticky feeling across your nose. "Oh thank you," you said touching it lightly. He threw the wrapping in the garbage and sat back down next to you. There was an awkward silence as you swayed your feet lightly. You pulled out your phone and turned on the camera. You analyzed your new accessory across your face. "Oh it looks so weird," you laughed.
"I think you look cute!" He said with a smile. You cooked a brow at him. "I mean! It looks cute!!!" He said as he waved his hands around with a pink face. 
"Thanks Jeongin," you said putting your hand on his shoulder with a smile. "I'm gonna ask the nurse if I can go pack up my things before my ride gets here," you said standing up. 
"You think your feeling steady enough?" He asked as he stood up next to you. 
"I'll be fine," you said as you turned the corner to the nurse's office room. You talked to her and she said it's fine but you should bring Jeongin with you, or someone. You relayed this to him and he happily joined you to your locker. You were collecting up your things when you ran out of hands to hold everything. "You mind holding this for me," you said as you handed him your Science textbook. He held everything with no complaints and quickly gave you something back when you said you needed it. "Damn I forgot I'm in my gym clothes still!" You shot up on your feet.
"Here take your bag with you and we'll go back to the locker rooms," he said calmly as he handed you your bag. You smiled back as you took it from him. You two went to the lock rooms and you walked into the girls one. You turned back to look at him.
"You comin'?" You raised an eyebrow at him. 
"No, I'm a man," he shrugged his shoulders.
"I'm sure it's fine just this once, there's no one else in here," you waved a hand at him.
"Okay," he said as he shyly followed you into the pink painted room. He held some of your things as you gathered your things and took off your gym shoes. "It really isn't that different is it?" He said as he looked around. "It's just pink," 
"Yup,"
"And there's not garbage everywhere,"
"Mhm,"
"And no condoms…" he laughed after the silence. You giggled too.
"Okay," you said before taking your shirt off right infront of him. He jumped and covered the view of you with a yelp. 
"Haha maybe a warning next time?" He awkwardly laughed as he turned around.
"Oh sorry, I'm so used to doing this infront of girls who don't care," you smiled innocently while shrugging. After you finished changing everything the two of you went back to your locker. That's when there was an announcement over the PA system. 
"Y/N L/N please come to the office ready to go your ride is here. Y/N L/N please come to the office ready to leave, your ride is outside," you put on your thin spring jacket and your backpack. 
"Alright, thank you for all your help In," you smiled up at Jeongin.
"In?" He said with a confused expression.
"Yeah, I was trying to think of nicknames for you when I was getting changed," you said lightly blushing.
"Hm? Okay then, Noona," he said with a wink.
"Noona?" You tried to copy his accent but it was kinda hard. He chuckled.
"In Korea it's a term younger Koreans use to address older woman," Jeongin said with a smile that reached his eyes. 
"Noona, I like!" You said with a smile that mimicked In's. "Okay I'll see you soon In!" You said while waving and walking to the door.
"See you Noona!" He said as he waved back. "Oh, what am I gonna tell my teacher," Jeongin sighed as he walked back to his class.
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I visited Whitstable Museum today, which is tiny but lovely, really, everyone should go there and speak to the staff about things Whitstable. I will be spamming the world with my usual out of focus pics of random stuff any minute now. 😁
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BUT before I do that, I spotted this in a display about local nineteenth century divers:
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I don't think there's any doubt that Dollar Row is the same row of cottages as mentioned in The Ink Black Heart as containing the fictional Aquarelle Cottage.
A bit more digging revealed that the ship salvaged was the Enterprise ...
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... which was a slave ship, known to be carrying a fortune in coins from the triangular slave trade.
Belfast News Letter, Tuesday April 8 1834
In the month of Feb 1803 [sic], the ship Enterprize, belonging to Leyland and Co. Liverpool, struck on the Mew Island, near Donaghadee, and went to pieces - she was richly laden, and had a great many dollars on board. A Mr. Haughton was sent from Liverpool to lift whatever could be obtained, and a considerable quantity of dollars, in bags, was taken up, by tongs made for the purpose; but still a quantity remained in the clefts of the rocks. Not many years ago, there were attempts made [using a diving bell], but with little success, to recover the remainder. However on Tuesday last[1 April 1834], a small English cutter went upon the spot where a few dollars had formerly been found, and a man, properly equipped with Deanes' Patent Diving Apparatus, went down, and found a bottle of some sort of liquid; the contents appeared transparent, and were supposed to be wine, brandy or rum. The cork is grown over with seaweed, like that called dulse, and on the neck of the bottle, small limpets are growing. This curiosity may at present be seen at Mr Jardine's, sign of Lord Nelson, Mariners Hotel, Donaghadee.
The salvagers kept coming, until the locals were quite fed up.
Caledonian Mercury, Thursday 3 July 1834
Diving for Dollars: A remarkable instance of ingenuity and enterprise has recently come to our knowledge. A person who has invented a very portable, yet very efficient apparatus for diving below water, lately came to Portpatrick and Donanghadee, and, descending into the harbours of these two places, walked through them many feet under water, with as much care as if he had been walking on the sand when the tide was out. He could ascend and descend at pleasure, and with rapidity, a display of which afforded much amusement to the onlookers. When chased by a boat, as he exhibited in the water, and when the boat was almost upon him, he dived like a sea bird, and eluded his pursuers, rising again out of reach.
He did not limit his invention to the amusement of the community, but being informed of a ship, in which tradition said there was 200,000 pounds worth of dollars, having gone down, between the Copeland Islands and the mainland of County Down, a little to the north of Donaghadee, the adventurer [John Deane, according to Bevan] has descended, and has, at several times succeeded in bringing up a vast number of dollars. Report estimates his success at 24,000 dollars, some say pounds; but he lately brought over his treasure and transmitted it by coach to London, and a very heavy load it was to the mail. The people on the coast, envying him his rich harvest, have come off in boats and impeded his labour by throwing stones and other missiles, to his vexation, annoyance and interruption. He employs several men, who descend in turn - can stay five hours at a time with the utmost ease, as a proof of which we have heard it said, that one of the divers who was tipsy the day before, on going down yielded to a propensity to sleep, and a companion had to descend to raise him from his slumbers.
Of the construction of the apparatus, we have not heard anything accurate, it is made of water-proof cloth, having glass opposite the eyes, and the air is forced down to the person by an air-pump and hose; the air-pump is very small and easily carried. Sinks[pieces] of lead of different weights, according to the depth, are employed to drag the apparatus down.
The dollars are much tarnished, and above 20 of them were found matted to the lock of a pistol, a union which it is conjectured may have been effected by some electrical process going on between the metal of the lock, the silver and sea water. A patent has been taken out on the apparatus, for which it is said the man asks 150 guineas.
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Anyway, I thought that was a nice bit of local colour, a sort of eau-de-nil, and here are some plucky divers to finish off.
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Wednesday, September 6th: High on the beach
Got too stoned again.
I see this as a "re-framing" challenge. Basically, an intrusive high thought attempts to freak out my brain, and then I immediately negotiate the fear back from the edge with logic and compassion.
I realized when I was doing the dishes that I'm someone who cleans daily. Fresh new bedding, empty sink. Also, I run daily: I ran 27 minutes (including warm-up) of intervals today. There was no walking or break but jogging in between intervals. It was hard and I felt nauseated so I had to stop three separate times to catch my breath at the end. But I did run 17:56 minutes straight at one point, I went for a total of 2.54 miles, and I kept restarting until I had reached the very end. I saw it through, which is so much more motivating than giving up on the run because having paused means I "failed" or "can't" or that "if I finish it, it wouldn't count".
Count to who? Who am I doing this for? Oh yeah, ME. Fuck the charity money, I'm doing a 5K for ME. The kids still get their money, obviously a good thing, but if it were a free 5K I probably wouldn't have voluntarily donated. Because this isn't about the kids.
It's...about me. And that's okay because this is MY fucking journal and if it's ever okay to just talk about yourself non-stop if it's in your own journal. Not to get all meta: But I keep trying to be interesting in these entries when what I really want to do is brag. But hey, better to brag in something that no one will ever read as a healthy outlet to build self-esteem than at a party to some friends or hinge match.
But I get to brag. Journaling is my keystone. When I committed to consistently and (for the most part) accurately documenting my life, I started consistently doing my other improvements. By writing these entries, sometimes just lists of the little things I was doing to stay consistent, I was acknowledging myself and making me look forward to writing another good report the next day.
It made me think about why I was resisting some work. In therapy today, I realized I need to break down and ease into tasks and that the idea of "grinding" is what truly freaks me out. I was always told I was too sensitive, and that the world would be too hard for me, and to work hard meant to push past sensitivity. I was told that my frustration and fear weren't normal instead of radically normal.
So do the stops count on a run that was meant to be non-stop? Yep. They do to me. It's still the longest run I've gone on. The trick to running is to stay relaxed even while putting in effort. If you can't relax, stop until you can. That's true for fucking everything.
I didn't make myself push through nausea because feeling sick on a run isn't something to ignore, but to listen to. Rest days are important in running and so are rest breaks in the actual run if needed. I still pushed myself, but I wasn't grinding. I encouraged myself and I finished the run I had started even if I had to make modifications. I am a runner. A real one. Because I go often, not fast. I go consistently, not far.
And I'm getting better. I'm getting better all the fucking time. I have surprised myself with the things I have done. I used to only be able to run 7 minutes before getting tired. I have run almost an hour and a half this week and it's only Wednesday.
That's a big deal. If I can't feel that, ( even though the improvement still doesn't feel big or real enough) then I'm screwed. Trying and succeeding is the best fucking feeling in the world.
Remember trying? Remember how it works every time, all the time, always? THAT YOU ACTUALLY LIKE TO TRY?
Goddamnit. I used to think hope and self-esteem were just things you had or didn't have. I thought "hardworking" and "optimistic" were just things you were or were not.
But actually, they are things you practice.
Every day. You can wake up hopeless and self-inspire until you're back in fighting shape. You can wake up hating yourself, before reciting to yourself that you really are worthy inherently. That you have to have your own back to want good things for yourself. You can feel lazy and then practice leaning into the first couple of steps anyway. You can feel really fucking scared and unsure, but practice being logical and focusing on what's within your ability to improve.
Cheers to practice. To teamwork. Instead of feeling like life is in some final game.
I really do have time. I think I've never had more time in my life.
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If you were a cookie, what kind would you be?
Gosh I don’t know XD
I like chocolate chip cookies the most—especially the soft-baked ones. But I’m not sure if that ✨accurately represents✨ me.
Mmm maybe an M&M cookie or something? I’m really not sure lol
What’s the last thing you said out loud?
“My wifi is bad now. It was really good for a little bit but now it’s bad.” <—or something along those lines.
For some reason the wifi/cellular service here has been DREADFUL today. It’s been alright the rest of the time but today it’s just been awful lol (like earlier, I sent you an email, and it took THIRTY MINUTES OR SOMETHING for the email to go through!!)
It’s doing okay now though (hence me being on tumblr)
Desert island item?
Not sure if this counts, but the ocean! :D
It’s one of my favorite places/things ever; whenever I go to a beach, I’m filled with this almost indescribable joy. I smile a bunch even if I’m the only one there :)
Earlier this month when I went to the beach for a couple days, I just… goshhhh it was the best vacation thingy I can remember being on. I spent hours and hours and hours at the beach and I never wanted to leave 😭
Best compliment you ever received?
Oooh :0
I’ve received a bunch of compliments that I hold very close to my heart, so I kinda feel like I can’t choose just one in particular; there’s been too many that have made me happy and emotional :’D
OH! Ohhhhh I just remembered one ohhhhh yes okay
Earlier this year, I wrote a poem and shared it with a few friends from my co-op. It was a pretty personal poem and it talked about my struggles with making friends and the joy I felt once I actually did make friends.
There was a recurring theme I used in the poem that had to do with colors: at the start, I was grey and muted, and as the poem progressed I got a streak in my hair and a few more streaks and by the end I was colored all over!
(It sounds kinda cheesy wksgaksgaj but I really hope it doesn’t read like that lol that was Not my intention)
When I finished reading the poem, one of my friends turned to me and said, “I can see the colors.”
AND BRO!!! THAT HAS FREAKING STUCK WITH ME!!! WOW!!!
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Week 3 in Limerick
Hi, guys, it’s Katie again, feeling much better and ready to tell you about a great week in Ireland.
Thursday: I’ll start here since this is when I finally went back to the lab. Fortunately, the HTC machines got fixed sometime in the past week and a half, so Nina and I were able to go back to our old plans to run our own experiments side by side. Today, we did a practice run of the HTC with sludge instead of water, which I’ll be using for the rest of the time here. It was a little difficult to get the sludge out of its container, but once I got the machine already it was smooth sailing. While waiting for the machine to finish running, I went to lunch, which was nice because I got to see my friends for the first time since I got sick. A few hours later, the HTC had cooled down enough that I could take my sample out and measure the reaction products. This was still mostly a learning experience since I had never done the experiment before, so it took a little time to get the hang of the post-HTC process. First, I needed to make sure all the product got in the tube or on a piece of foil that was previously massed, to ensure our final measurements are accurate. Then, we transferred the product to a vacuum filter to separate the liquid and solid hydrochar. Finally, we took the mass of the foil, filter paper, and solid product, then left the material aside to dry overnight. 
After lab, Grant, Grace, and I went on a scavenger hunt the UL summer staff set up for us. We did not come close to winning, but it was really cool to walk around campus again after a while. Then, we headed back to Thomond village to do trivia for a while, then I went to another dorm for Maddie’s surprise birthday party, with drinks, cake, chatting and games.
Friday: This was the first day I ran the HTC to collect a sample to analyze later, so there was a bit more pressure to complete the procedure correctly. I didn’t use enough sludge on Thursday, so that was one thing I had to watch out for before starting, but using the reactor went smoothly. Afterwards, I completed the collection process, writing down all the masses of the product and setting aside the hydrochar to dry overnight. I also put a small amount of the product in a crucible and set it in an oven so we could measure the moisture content later. 
In the evening, Pascale and I went with the rest of the UL summer students to a nearby pub for a Trad Night. We ordered ciders and listened to a band play traditional Irish music. Although it was hard to hear the singing sometimes, the music was very good and we loved the vibe at the pub. We left somewhat early because we had to leave for the Aran Islands Saturday morning, but we made some new friends on the walk back to Thomond.
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Pascale and I at the Trad Night.
Saturday: Today was the Aran Islands excursion. After a bit of a rushed morning because I thought we were leaving an hour later than we actually were (Pascale saved me that morning), we took a bus to the western coast, and then a ferry to Inis Oirr, the smallest of the Aran Islands. The group had a quick lunch, and then set off on a hike towards some ruins on the top of a hill. These included O'Brien's Castle, which is partially in ruins, but we could still go inside and see the remains of some rooms. Nearby, there were some other ruins, but we couldn't find a trail to take us up to them. Afterwards, we kept walking on a road through the hills, which were very beautiful, and even had some farm animals roaming around in their pens. Unfortunately, there was a miscommunication with the guides, so we thought we had to be off the island by 2:50 and took an earlier ferry. Thus, we had an hour to kill on the mainland coast, but there was a beautiful rocky beach we could explore and amazing views of the Atlantic. After the trip, we headed back to Dolan's in downtown Limerick for dinner.
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O'Brien's Castle, also known as Furmina Castle
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A view of the Atlantic ocean across the rocky beach
Sunday: Today, the Arcadia crew finally made it to Galway, which we'd been trying to see for ages. After about an hour long bus ride, we grabbed a quick brunch at a restaurant near the station, then went walking toward the beach. There was a market near the docks, which we checked out for a little while. I found a cute woodblock painting of a dog, which I thought my family would like, and also got to pet a few friendly dogs. Then, we headed towards the beach, where a few of us swam, but most of us relaxed or collected shells on the coast. After a while, we headed towards the Latin Quarter and walked up the street, stopping at a few cute shops along the way. I was most excited for the vibrant and fast-paced environment in Galway, and this part did not disappoint. Later in the afternoon, we stopped at a pub to get food and watch the first half of the Kilkenny vs Galway hurling championship, then moved to a more lively one to get drinks and watch the rest. I was not as familiar with the sport as the rest of the group, so they had to help me follow along, but it was a very exciting game. Kilkenny ended up winning by one point in the last few seconds of the game, which was a major upset for the Galway fans watching, but overall I thought it was entertaining. Afterwards, we had another few hours before the bus, so we walked around the city a bit more. There was a really good band performing on one of the street corners, so we stopped to watch them for a while before walking back to the bus station. I would definitely consider Galway one of my favorite places in Ireland.
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A view of Galway across the water
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Galway's Latin Quarter (I think)
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Day 343,
Morning thought: It has occurred to the both of us that Maiko doesn’t have a good way of carrying around that dagger except by hand.  Need to get her a sash or something to go with that sundress.  Or maybe figure out how to strap the scabbard to the shoulder strap on her pouch.
Speaking of the sundress, it seems Maiko’s planning on sticking with her usual (lack of) garb today.  It seemed rude to comment on it, so I didn’t.  Perhaps she wants to save it for actually going into the Village so it doesn’t get damaged?  Or it could just be a practical thing, like she said before about it being unsuitable for moving around the forest in.  Or it could simply be that even if she likes it, she’s still more comfortable without.
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Back to the comfortable rainy-season market day routine.  With a couple of minor alterations.
I finally remembered those goggles from Diomedes while also having an opportunity to try them out.  This time instead of splitting up with me doing laundry in the stream while Maiko goes fishing in the spring, she helped with the laundry and then I… well, I’d like to say I helped fish, but mostly I just watched and then held the ones she caught so she didn’t have to hold one while catching another.  But, I got to watch her from underwater.
It was impressive, to say the least, finally getting a clear view.  There was a fluidity to her movement like she was as used to this as she was walking.  Not to mention speed.  Her fishing method (or perhaps “hunting method” would be more accurate) seemed to be to swim out over the well-like hole in the center of the spring, pick out her target, then swim down and hang onto the stone wall until the unsuspecting fish got relatively close.  I imagine she then pushed herself off the wall once her quarry was in an acceptable range, but in truth I just saw something of a blur and then she was halfway across the well with the fish in her mouth and cloudy red wisps about her head.  
How she manages to continue holding her breath like that, I have no idea.  But speaking of held breath, the number of times I had to come up from air really drove home my own relative lack of lung capacity.
Scarily Highly proficient as she was though, I couldn’t help but get a creeping sense of anxiety seeing her out over that watery abyss.  Even sticking my head underwater with the goggles I still can’t see the bottom.  Honestly, for whatever reason it made me even more uncomfortable than the first time I found the place.  Maybe it was the story of the villager who got taken down there by a strange nature sprite all those years ago?  Or maybe the bottomless dark reminded me of the Catacomb Depths.
That aside, it was a good time.  For all that I live on an island and have that spring so close to home and the beach hardly farther in the other direction, you’d think I’d go swimming more.  Especially with how much I enjoy it.
Closest you get to flying.
In the evening once the laundry was reasonably dry (we lucked out with the weather on that count) we went back into the Village.  The sundress went back on.  On the way back I finally remembered to mention the plans the rest of us had discussed to celebrate Maiko’s coming out to the Village.  Maiko seemed agreeable to that.  More than I would have expected actually.  I suspect she might not have been so much several days ago.  We’ll talk to the others about making plans for next market day when we manage to track them down.  
A brief check of the bracelets indicated none of them were at the inn this evening.  At a guess, I’d say James wanted Cass to join in family dinner again with how often she’s missed that lately, and Lin’s probably with Ka’eo.  Not sure about Vernon.
Speaking of plans, Maiko mentioned the fruits on that island with the lizards should be at peak ripeness soon.  We’ll need to get back out there sometime.  
And now I’m thinking about other things I’d like to do.  Don’t know how I never managed to get back out to that lake of stars.  That could be fun to do as a group once the dry season hits.  That’s still one of my fondest memories of… well, I was about to say “of this place” or “since washing up” but given that I don’t really have any distinct memories of events from my past life I guess it’s just plain “one of my fondest memories.”
How many fond memories did I lose in the process of coming here?  It’s a melancholy thought now that it’s occurred to me, even if it loses some of its bite from the fact that it’s hard to miss what you can’t remember.  I like to think that I had more than a few, whatever they were.  
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04 . . . “ snuggling up at the secret beach ”
— 🌊 elbert’s main route chapter 4 premium story
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The place Lord Elbert brought me to was a beach where only the quiet sound of waves resounded.
(…Such a pretty scenery.)
Hugging my knees, I dazedly stared out at the surface of the water, which sparkled with the moon’s light.
Lord Elbert sat down next to me on the sand, staring out at the sea, much like what I was doing.
Elbert: …When it becomes hard to breathe, I come here.
E: There are no shadows of boats here, and when I stare at the horizon… just a little bit, it becomes easier to breathe.
E: It’s, my secret place.
When I looked out at the horizon with Lord Elbert by my side, a sense of calm lulled my heart.
Kate: …It’s a lovely place.
(I feel like I’ve never really stared out into the sea before.)
The sound of the waves approaching and withdrawing from the shore was so gentle, the things I kept bottled up inside me came surging.
Kate: I wonder if… we made Daisy suffer more?
K: After all, we continued to visit her even after we finished questioning her…
Just like that, the things that had always been on my mind spilled from my lips.
Even if I held regrets, there was no way to turn back time.
But, I still ended up thinking.
What if there was some way to not hurt her?
(I can’t help but think we went wrong somewhere.)
Elbert: …That may be true.
Lord Elbert did not affirm nor deny my words.
It wasn’t that he was negligent nor was it that he didn’t care.
But rather, it was proof that he was paying attention, gently considering my words rather than wanting to recklessly end the conversation.
Elbert: I’ve… also been thinking about it.
E: That is, the first day we visited Daisy together.
E: Perhaps I was the one in the wrong, for not telling you to wait outside of the hospital room.
(…Could it be, at that time—)
—— Flashback ——
Kate: …That’s why I’m really happy today, to have heard she is alright.
Elbert: …Kate.
Kate: Yes…?
Elbert: I think you—
—— End flashback ——
Kate: Back then, you were about to say that, weren’t you?
Elbert: I had a feeling… if your emotions had gotten the better of you, you would have suffered.
E: But in the end, I’m not sure what was right… and it ended up like this.
(I… also don’t know.)
(If we didn’t visit her, we wouldn’t have made her suffer the way she had.)
(And I wouldn’t have known this gaping feeling in my chest either.)
(But even so…)
(When I think about how Daisy might have been all alone, in her own sadness,)
(no matter how many times we could do this over again, I would have wished that we could visit her.)
(Even if I end up with regrets, thinking ‘what I did might have been wrong.’)
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Elbert: …Do you want to forget, about her?
When I heard the question, an image of Daisy popped up on the back of my mind.
An image of Daisy with a smile on her cute freckled cheeks.
Kate: No… I don’t want to forget.
K: Because Daisy had smiled for us.
(Because even if we hurt her, she smiled for us.)
(I think that was the kindness Daisy had given us.)
Kate: It may be painful remembering it.
K: But I want to remember how, even if we had hurt her, that she had still chosen to stay with us.
Elbert: …I see…
E: You are strong, and kind. You, and Daisy both.
The way Lord Elbert murmured those words was as though he was different, and that left me perplexed.
(Even now, I’m being saved by your kindness.)
He didn’t say “it was a mistake” while full of grief and sorrow, nor did he say “it was not a mistake” to put on a brave front.
He simply said “it might have been wrong” as is.
And Lord Elbert’s way of neither confirming nor denying my words was something I needed.
(As proof of that, right now, I feel like it’s easier to breathe than before.)
Kate: That goes for you, too, Lord Elbert. If I had sunk in my thoughts alone, I’m sure I wouldn’t feel this way right now.
K: With all the worrying and feeling weary, I might have felt I want to forget.
K: But it’s because you had brought me here and listened to what I had to say, Lord Elbert.
Elbert: …I didn’t do anything.
Lord Elbert turned back to the horizon once more, and I couldn’t help but stare at his profile from the side.
(He is not shedding any tears. If anything, he is close to emotionless…)
(but for some reason, he looks like he is crying.)
Kate: Lord Elbert, do you come here to this beach alone when it becomes hard to breathe?
Elbert: Yes. …I often come here so I can be alone.
E: Come to think of it, it’s the first time I have brought anyone here…
Kate: …Is that a good thing?
Elbert: I had a feeling… that if it was you, it was alright if I told you.
Kate: Oh…
Those words, spoken so casually, gently smoothed down the hole in my heart.
Even if we end up hurting someone without knowing, the Lord Elbert and I right now are not like that.
I felt like that was what he was trying to say.
Kate: Thank you… really…
Something hot inside me threatened to spill out, so I looked down to try and keep it in.
Then, I saw something as white as snow stumble near my legs.
(…What is it?)
It was a small, round white shell, which was buried a bit underneath the sand, which felt cool in the night.
(It’s so pretty, I almost want to cry.)
Kate: …Come to think of it, you told me before to tell you if I find anything I think is beautiful.
K: What about this shell?
I tried to pick it up from the sand.
Elbert: …Is it beautiful, to you?
Kate: Yes, very…
Elbert: …I see…
Kate: When you feel something is beautiful, with whom you saw it, and what you thought at the time…
K: It’s those kinds of things that make you feel it’s beautiful in your heart, rather than the thing itself.
K: This shell is small and quite ordinary.
K: But when I think about how I found it on this beach… it feels much more special.
Elbert: …
Kate: Even if it’s ugly to 99 people…
K: To a single person, it might be the most beautiful thing in the world.
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Elbert: That…
E: …must feel like a miracle to that ‘ugly thing.’
Turning his gaze to the shell, Lord Elbert murmured in a slightly sad voice.
Kate: …Lord Elbert, do you think this shell is beautiful?
Elbert: …I don’t know.
(‘I don’t know’…)
—— Flashback ——
Alfons: Just that while Elbie indeed has a desire for beautiful things, he doesn’t trust his own judgment, and it’s ever so slightly troublesome.
—— End flashback ——
Kate: Alfons said that you ‘don’t trust your own judgment.’”
(Which means it’s not as though he has never felt something was beautiful before… right?)
Kate: Can I ask why that is…?
Elbert: …Because the things I thought were beautiful… were no good.
Kate: ‘No good’…?
Elbert: Yes… they were no good.
(So those beautiful things couldn’t grant some wish that he wants to grant, maybe…?)
When I saw those empty eyes staring out cover with sadness from the side, I hesitated to pry any deeper.
(If it’s something that makes him this sad, I shouldn’t dig deeper just out of curiosity.)
But, I couldn’t help but wish I could be there with him in his sadness.
(Right now, it seems like Lord Elbert is doing that very thing for me…)
Kate: …Lord Elbert.
Elbert: Hm…? What is it?
Kate: When you’re sad, and if you don’t want to be alone…
K: If you’re okay with me, please feel free to call me.
Elbert: … [surprised]
E: …Thank you.
(Ah…)
My pulse quickened a little at his smile.
(I want you to smile more.)
But Lord Elbert’s smile was ephemeral, vanishing as quickly as it came.
I didn’t want this sad but gentle time to end, so who knows for how long we had sat together looking out to the ocean.
(…It’s chilly.)
My fingers were starting to get cold, signaling it was around time we should be leaving the comfort of the beach.
Kate: The wind has grown a bit chilly, so should we head back now?
Urging Lord Elbert, I stood up slowly.
(As for the shell… we can leave it here.)
Just when I tried to put the shell gently back into the sand—
Elbert: …Wait.
Kate: Hm…?
Suddenly, Lord Elbert grabbed hold of my wrist.
Elbert: Could you… give me that shell?
Kate: This?
Elbert: Yes… I want the shell, because you were the one who found it.
Lord Elbert looked up at me, still seated on the sand.
(Is it because I said it was ‘beautiful’? Or, could it be Lord Elbert himself thinks it’s beautiful?)
Regardless, it was probably going to meet the same destiny as the other things in his room.
It might end up the same as the other things scattered about his room, forgotten.
(But…)
(The memory of the time we spent together here at the beach would be in that room.)
(So it would be nice if, even for a moment, it could be the thing for Lord Elbert.)
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Kate: Here you go. I put my gratitude for your kindness and taking me to your secret place in this shell.
Elbert: …Thank you.
Kate: Hehe, it was a bit of an exaggeration though.
The small, ordinary shell in a palm as beautiful as a sculpture’s seemed to sparkle brightly as it bathed in the moonlight.
Kate: Well then, shall we… head… back…?
When I held out the shell, Lord Elbert took my whole hand, as if trying to wrap the entire shell around it.
Kate: Lord Elbert…?
Elbert: …
His fingers were as cold as mine, but his palm was warm.
With his palm wrapped around my fingers, they started to gradually warm up.
(Why did he suddenly grab my hand…?)
Elbert: …Your hand is cold.
Kate: You too, Lord Elbert. Your fingertips are also just as cold as mine.
Elbert: I’m used to it, so…
Lord Elbert pulled on my hand, still in a seating position.
He pulled it to his forehead, almost as if he was sending a prayer.
Elbert: I… did think about returning soon, but…
E: Let me lean a bit more on your silence.
E: …I know it’s chilly, but I can’t let you return yet. …I’m sorry.
My heart skipped a beat.
(Lord Elbert, too…)
(I wonder if it becomes even a little easier to breathe when I’m with him.)
(…It would be nice if that were the case.)
Kate: There’s no need to apologize.
K: I was also thinking that I wanted to stay here a bit longer.
Elbert: …Is that so?
E: Then let’s stay like this… just a little longer.
My fingertips stole from Lord Elbert’s warmth, and until they became warm,
Lord Elbert held onto my hand like he did the shell, not once letting go.
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