#about 8 years??? damn

[xenondrawz]

06.07.2023

Rest in pieces wacom pen.

[sacriou]

Bummer dude! Your subjected to my daily descole doodle dump

[fishygamergeek]

It was the first time in my life I truly wanted to throw my phone against the wall and scream at the whole house at 3 a.m.

[pigeon-butch]

I certainly have my own concerns about the treatment of moo deng but um. well i think some of you may just be racist

[bbyangyl]

I rebuke the mha final. Izuku was a pro-hero all along and didn’t lose his quirk and actually is the #1 pro-hero with a side job of being a teacher at U.A

[starlight-archer]

Edwin and Crystal at the start are so "I know you are but what am I" / "oh yeah well I'm rubber and you're glue" in the way they bicker and it is so endearing I love them

[disengaged]

i lived, bitch

[francy-sketches]

The age difference between tommen and myrcella bothers me way more than it should like sometimes it's 2 whole years sometimes they're the exact same age like grrm wanted to make them twins but he forgot. Girl what is the truth

[teehee-vibes]

Thinking about anipoke Clemont and the episode in which he thought Chespin wanted to stay with the old woman after he was too harsh on it

To suffer from a misunderstanding of such intense proportions, caused by your own actions. To think you’ve pushed one of your precious friends away.

And then 40 episodes later, you learn it’s not the FIRST TIME… he’s been in such a familiar position before, a miscommunication that NEVER got resolved. When the Chespin misunderstanding occurred, he was still sitting on the guilt about Shinx and had been for YEARS.

All of the pain from losing Shinx coming back after seeing Chespin happier without him... No wonder he jumped to self-loathing and blame so quickly.

He thinks he deserves it all ):

[kierancaz]

Why is every bitch in these fics CRYING. They always crying and I don’t get it like yah he called u his wife that’s awesome but no need to CRY OVER IT ??? AT DINNER ???? WITH HIS FUCKING FAMILY THERE??? Like yah he said that he loves u back and you’ve been pining for him for years WHY ARE YOU IN TEARS RIGHT NOW ?? QUIT IT U CRYBABY STOP

[stardustedknuckles]

On the other hand I do get to take my friend on a tour of the m9 via Best Of moments, with a mild emphasis on yasha, after which we will begin listening to the Nein together at work. So I get to spend my afternoon not only gushing about them but also getting someone hyped to watch the campaign. She's like me, in that spoilers for the most part encourage the watch. It's good to know what we're looking forward to and the build up and everything.

Also this is my first birthday with edibles so maybe it'll be great after all.

[skunkes]

oh great the shame and guilt guy is having insane feelings about wanting to be in a theatrical production again

[definitelynotnia]

im sorry i have to rant im so fucking pissed

my exams end on 19th and I have to get rid of some books and buy some books which are quite pricy online so I had planned on going to college street on 20th and selling my books and buying the new ones at a cheap price and i was frankly really excited about it because all I get is a one day break to relax bcz i have to start studying for entrances from 21st so all I have is 20th and i wanted to spend it at college street and then get some food and basically have like a solo date kind of thing.

and i was so so excited about it i told my boyfriend about it like 500 times bcz i kept forgetting i've already mentioned it and it was literally on my mind a lott so i kept bringing it up and ik it seems like not a big deal cz i can just sit at home and chill too but i literally do not get to go outside my house. like- the last time i went out was new years eve and after that the only time i've gone out is to school or to give my boards that is it. my mother has some weird like problem wiht me going out like even if i tell her that i just want to go to our terrace for 5 minutes just to get some fresh air she won't even allow that she'll be all suspicious and like sTaNd In ThE bAlCOnY aNd TaKe FrEsH aIr like she herself doesnt leave the house (and blames it on me and my brother ???? when have we ever stopped you bro, she said I HaVe To Be HeRe To KeEp An EyE like im 18 i dont need to be watched 24/7 stop blaming me for choices you put upon yourself) and i just feel so suffocated ALL THE TIME i feel so overstimulated and im so sick of rotting on my bed and i dont want to wait for some birthday party or friends meet up to be able to leave my goddamn house i just wanted to go and have a fun day and get me some books thats it.

anyway so initially the plan was that my mom would go along but something came up so she wanted to postpone it to 21st and i didn't want to bcz i'd already be missing 3 days bcz of my boyfriends birthday, holi and my brothers birthday (all of which are important and i dont want to miss which makes me the villain apparently bcz i should "adjust" and cancel my "parties" instead of trying to stick to my plan bcz that makes me too demanding and selfish apparently) so i suggested that ukw why dont u go do ur thing which came up and i'll go to college street by myself...which is when the solo date idea came which i had really wanted all along but didnt bring up bcz i knew she'd say no but now there's a valid reason for me to go alone so like, its a pretty easy fix i can just go alone but noooo. First of all,

I've been to college street multiple times before so its not like its an unknown area to me

im going by metro which is quite safe

im going when there is stark daylight and i will return home much much before it gets dark and im literally 18

she never lets me go anywhere alone, not even take ubers alone if i want to get back from somewhere my bf has to come drop me everytime and then go backwards to his house which is so so so stupid and i never get to go out alone unless accompanied by family or by a male friend, so obv when i said i'll go to college street alone she refused to let that happen and started screaming about how 'if its so important to go on 20th bcz u dont want to miss a day of studying then cancel ur 'parties' and study then' and i was like no its not about missing a day its just that there's a very easy and logical fix to this problem which is i go alone and its not inconveniencing anyone so why cant i just do that but she will not listen to that bcz im 'adamant' and 'everything has to be according to me' bcz i found a viable solution to the problem. so instead of letting me just go she was literally ready to pay much more money and buy the books online, like.....why cant i just go bro??? (and she keeps telling me im a waste of her money bcz i will amount to nothing in life and my education was a failed investment or wtv so like now why are u wasting more money??? im literally trying to save the money that u 'waste' on me so just let me ???)

anyway i called my dad last night and told him and he was super ok with the idea he said its a good idea that i go alone and that he would speak to her but then today when i asked her if dad spoke to her she said yes, we'll go on 20th and i was like .....we? so apparently she CANCELLED her previously immovable thing for which she wanted me to cancel my 'parties', she cancelled that and agreed to go with me on 20th just so that i dont get to go alone- like ???????????????? what is ur problemmmm

so obv i was super annoyed and i went on a whole ass rant about how i literally struggle to even cross roads bcz i dont know shit about basic travelling bcz all my life ive been in a car and its a running joke with all my guy friends that i 'cannot navigate' and 'dont know any places' and obv??? if im never allowed to go anywhere then how tf will i know the places- the only places i know is bcz recently i've been paying a lot of attention and asking my dad stuff about what roads to take to reach certain places and when i go out with my friends i kind of try and learn a bit but thats it i've only ever gone alone completely alone to two places which is my beauty parlour thats 5 minutes away from my house and one bazaar one time that was 2 bus stops away, thats it. thats my extent of public travelling alone. and now im supposed to go to a whole new STATE for college and i cant even call myself an auto without struggling. and like- is this not a basic life skill??? like ok yeah its not rocket science and i will probably figure it out even if i start later in life but why not now? most of my guy friends literally go everywhere alone, why not me? and my dad agreed with all of this but my mom was just like "you'll be in the hostel only, no need to go out of the campus" like ARE YOU FOR REAL????????? and she's like "if u want to learn skills learn how to cook" like ok yes i will also learn how to cook for sure but i wont have a fucking kitchen in the hostel but somehow cooking is an urgent skill i should learn but going places by myself is unimportant bcz i should just never? leave? the? hostel?

anyway after much screaming and shouting my dad gave up and just cut the call bcz he doesnt want to get into an argument with my mother and my mother was being all suspicious like why do u hAvE tO gO aLoNe AlL oF a SuDdEn even though i literally explained why i want to do this alone but she doesnt think thats valid. so she refuses to let me go and i asked her for one reason why i shouldnt cz usuallt its always "no u have exam what if smthn happens" but now i literally dont even have exam so whats ur excuse now? streets will always be unsafe forever so "what if smthn happens" is not a reason to never let me go out without a man so just gimme one reason and she couldnt give me a single reason she just said "i said no, thats it".

and now she's gone off about how im useless and blah blah and "high maintainance" bcz i want books and "everyone else (some pishi's son) just studies online" and so the whole option of college street is apparently now cancelled and she's trying to set up a whole ass kindle account (half the books i need arent even available as ebooks) just because i wanted to go by myself.

[sosoribro]

TIME TO EXPLAIN MY QUIMM LORE. in a fun way.

(pretend a curtains opening to show little puppets of them)

quinn, a lawyer.

and timm, also a lawyer.

and they loved eachother. but not in the way you'd love a boyfriend or a girlfriend. they just loved eachother.

(cue the corny sitcom "awww" as i move the puppets to be next to each-other)

BUT THEN

(DRAMATIC MUSIC STING)

things changed.

(SITCOM GASP)

timm started being more himself. which is of course a very good thing!! and quinn agreed! she liked this side of him. but something told her that he wouldn't want to stick around for very much longer.

on timm's side of things, he's realizing that the world of law just doesn't suit him as much as he thought. so, he took a big risk, and left the company.

(sitcom gasp again)

quinn knew this was coming at some point, so she tried her absolute hardest to make sure she was completely not hurt by it. because to her, it was obvious. so much so, that she thought herself a fool to feel upset.

but when the day came that timm decided to leave, she found out the hard way that her attempts to numb the pain hadn't worked. she was so hurt by his departure, that she ended up pushing him away even more.

(sad sitcom "awww" as i move the puppets to opposite sides of the stage)

but neither of them wanted to leave the other. maybe, if their paths crossed again, they could work things out.

(then the curtains close AND YOU ALL APPLAUD ME BECAUSE ITS AWESOME- i mean ummmmm lol! just my silly thoughts!! teehee!!)

[adustoflove]

My life just sucks like in general. Like there are the pleasures but then the horrors start to outweigh the pleasures. I feel like I need a sign on my back that says treat gently, was very fucking abused by literally everyone so if you could not ADD to the list of treats me horribly for little to no reason that would be so great

[butchnavi]

the 39 clues girlies are having a field day in the notes of a post I made months ago and all I can do is gaze upon them fondly as I remember the most passionate late lover of my life