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box-is-real · 9 months ago

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i have some closeted friends online, and one of them just had something bad happen (not going into any specifics at all because of privacy) but like... THAT is why KOSA scares me. how are they supposed to get help? how are they supposed to feel safe ever? if the government can so blatantly try and censor LGBTQ+ identities, and neurodivergent people, and FUCKING GENOCIDE what's next?

and i don't really have to be scared like others. even though i am neurodivergent, it is not super severe, and i am cis straight white dude, i have life on easy mode. i hate when people have to hide and i want to help but i can't. i can't even hug them. the closest i can get is typing on my screen and hoping it reaches them safely and that they haven't died.

im not scared of KOSA because of what it would do to me, but because of what it will do to my friends, and people who are suffering like my friends, and people who are suffering in ways i can't begin to fathom. it's a very hard feeling to describe.

now the government wants to take that link away from me, from my friends who supported me in my times of need, and, hopefully, who i supported well too. it is a feeling of desperation and depression and anger.

im really just typing at this point, and im probably not making a whole lot of sense, but it basically boils down to this, and im directing this at YOU Senators and Representatives of the U.S.A:

Stop KOSA, keep our friendships intact, and ACTUALLY do something to protect kids you fucking inept dumbasses.

sincerely, a minor KOSA will not be protecting.

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faaun · 5 months ago

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what draws you back to your country what draws you back to your land when i was a kid i told myself if i ever left iran i'd never go back 2 years into living in the UK i started looking at news on iran again 10 years in and i visited it for the first time again and today i heard an iranian mother talk in farsi to her child on the train to london the way my mother used to and i wanted to cry i wanted to ask her whether they're still cutting the mountaintops whether the lakes are still drying today i showed the person i was with pictures of waterfalls and palaces and forests and snow-white north something odd pulls me back with increasing force i can't ignore it ever again

#i just dont know how else to tell you everything !!! santoor from a different room the large family gathering the black tea with saffron #drank out of delicate glass and gold vessels cold marble on hot nights big stars big rivers big mountains #visible from busy tehran roads the ease of conversation tension eased by sarcasm tall tall cliffsides you drive by #rushing to put on headscarves before the head teacher comes in a rave by the base of damavand massive sun pastel purple skies #disjunct architecture trucks on road sides with fresh fruits pomegranates watermelons oranges everywhere #the smell of golpar on tangerines beautiful girls in tehran holding hands bautiful boys in kermanshah speaking kurdish the janky #cars on the verge of breakdown held together by love caspian sea lighting up in spring staying up into the morning on noruz #my friends uncle sang and played setar his son played the violin a little fear a lot of love remnants of something #grand carved into the cliffside everything feels bigger taller the landscape swallows you it smells like #illegally imported wine and orange blossoms and auntie's tahchin soaking your eyes in warm tea when youre sick #tomatoes and salt concrete and stone something mandmade and something raw new flag old resilience #the anger getting to us bruised eyes big grin all i know is the north i feel sorry my mother asks if id be okay #if they got a place in tajikistan we love each other enough dont we? when we look in the mirror we see each other. theres a love letter #across the border and it says I MISS YOU IM GLAD YOURE DOING BETTER itll never be the same im not okay with it at all there are no more #stars i miss jumping over big fires i miss our fireworks im sorry we cant be happy anymore everyone #leaves the mint and rosewater and sunlight for a reason.#it's not pride it's just generational regret

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llamahearted · 2 years ago

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chicks dig the fuzzy dude (it's 2002 and they are nine years old and someday they will realize they wanted his exact gender the entire time)

prints ✩ track

#kurt my friend kurt who I love so much #drawing this was the first time I've felt serotonin enter my brain in the last 20 yrs maybe. I felt like I was on shi painter oekaki again #xmen evo was high camp and it's my guiding light #the decision to make scott and jean preps? the fact that the institute is. a school. but they still make em go to Public High School anyway #the amount of CLOAKS and corny fake european accents??? wolverine's whole begrudging dad figure/camp counselor vibe???#also something very latently lgbt is happening every episode but like. its /xmen/. what else is new #kurt wagner #nightcrawler #x-men evolution

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sea-buns · 1 year ago

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Holy fuck, man. What a trip Fearne has been on, huh?

You tell her how grateful you are to have her in your life, you flatter her, you tell her you need her, that you have to do this together. You have her make a promise that has this woman, born of chaos and fey, agreeing through shaking hands and a trembling voice.

You make her deceive your friends; you make her follow where they cannot know; you make her help you into this contraption; you make her feed this thing into you despite the fact that you both have been warned extensively of the risks. You make her watch you crumble and splinter and shatter and fracture and burst and implode. You make her watch you die, over and over and over and over, for a minute in agonizing bullet time.

You make her do all these things, because when she tries to back out, when she tries to not be the one who let you do this—how could you do this—

you tell her, "YOU PROMISED."

Because if there's one thing you know, it's that the fey do not break a promise.

#cant wait for her to fucking pissed for a very long time. shes really packing the entire human experience in a very short period of time.#critical role #cr spoilers #c3e77 #fearne calloway #ashton greymoore #bells hells #just gonna get ahead of the um actually mfs and state that i am aware that its not confirmed that thats why ash brought up the promise #but boy howdy would it make for some great drama down the line huh?#edit: apparently i did not get ahead enough cuz ive had to turn off replies #since ppl were somehow interpreting this mini introspection piece as me infantilizing fearne??#anyway the first line is now changed to something a bit more neutral. after sleeping on it i do see how it was a bit aggressive at the top #other than that im not sure how else to reword without completely disregarding the core of the post #i might make more posts addressing this but im not sure yet. i wanna try to approach it in the best way possible.#but if it helps any the point of the post was not to say fearne had no agency. she had plenty of moments where she tilted one way or the #other. the POINT was to just shine some light on the emotional pressure she had been put under.#hasnt your friend ever asked you to keep a secret or promise that felt wrong or unsafe or made you anxious?#it has nothing to do with the amount of agency she had. ash wasnt holding a knife to her throat and forcing her to follow against her will #all i was trying to do was take this detail about his reminder of the promise that i thought was interesting and have some fun writing an #overview of the kinda stress she was under BEFORE theyd reached that scene. this entire ep was everyone discussing how grateful they were #for this family theyd made. and while im not saying ash was PURPOSELY emotionally manipulating fearne..#there is a level of unintentional manipulation when you pair the severity of his request with the convo theyd had 2 seconds prior #as well as the desperate need they all have to save each other NO MATTER WHAT.#ash was giving incredibly strong energy of a friend who peer pressures you into helping them do something that you know in your gut WILL #cause problems. hes a fucked up guy. theyre all fucked up guys. even if he didnt mean to “force” her into anything the pressure was THERE.#<- i feel like all of this overall gets my message across. i think maybe ill clean it up later into its own post.#im gonna try not to rush myself to get it done tho.#im under no obligation to explain myself. especially when ppl approach the misunderstanding by being rude af. but i do think it CAN #be clarified so id at least like to try to some degree

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shewhoeatssand · 4 months ago

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they are similar

#painting is Interlude by Jeremy Lipking #my beautiful Neki #I must tell you all how beautiful he is waking up in the morning.#he tries to blink the drowsiness from his eyes but he gives up so quickly #he isn’t fully awake for another half hour or so!! but I rush ahead #he’ll sometimes do some stretches when he gets out of bed #common one is the Touka Stretch! he reaches his arms over his head and grabs the opposite elbows!#he has very pretty arms. pretty muscles. his complexion is very even but his skin is a little dry #Kaneki likes to leave the curtains undrawn overnight so when the morning comes it illuminates him so wonderfully!#I love how he looks bathed in light he is truly a marvel #I love when he wears t shirt and shorts or briefs to bed unbeatable boy combo #anyway when he leaves his room he might go take a pee or splash his face or something (usually it’s bathroom time) but immediately after #he sets up the kettle to boil so he can have his morning coffee #the coffee is extremely important!!!!!! it is what will actually wake him up!!!!!!!!#until this point his house could’ve been moved to a different planet and he wouldn’t even notice #this is a secret but sometimes while waiting for it to boil if he’s leaning against the counter and no one else is up #he’ll start drifting off again…… don’t tell anyone 🤫 it’s really cute #and when he sips his coffee.. he may do a little sigh…#he’s only up that early when he has somewhere to be though otherwise my boy will sleep in so late #and then he goes to sit with his friends or somewhere where he can watch them a bit while he gets himself together #maybe Banjou will look at his bed hair and say “huh. you look like a dandelion”#and it’s true he is the most wonderful dandelion there is because you don’t even have to make a wish #he alone is like every wish come true!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#my Kaneki!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 🌱🥰#kaneki time #kaneki ken

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namtan · 11 months ago

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admittedly, allowances do need to be made for the possibility of continuity errors, however, these are two different computers

#also jin's in light mode and the one with the video (which i intentionally didn't include) is not #i was looking for something else and ended up with this instead #there's also a decent chance it's on his timeline the entire time he's crying but it's not clear enough to know #cool story vic tell another #dead friend forever #dead friend forever the series #dff the series

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robo-dino-puppy · 2 years ago

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ruin and light in the stillsands

#horizon forbidden west #hfw #aloy #the light here is something else #i mean i say that about a lot of places lol #but sitting inside the ruin watching it move through the holes in the roof #is pretty magical #thank u discord friends for the prompt/inspo!#hfw the stillsands #hfw relic ruin

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neriyon · 21 days ago

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Small test run of Infinity Nikki done! Mostly just finished the tutorial (and kicked Momo around), but it so far it seems pretty fun~

Also photo mode is so nice ♥

#there's some janky animations in those manual progress cutscenes #and after the crash cutscene i had some big lag #but that vanished after progressing the quest #tutorial was somewhat annoying (i hate those “and now click here” ones that refuse to let you do anything else before you finish them)#but didn't take that long #and yeah the photo mode is a godsent for someone used to gpose lol #so many games have pretty graphics but absolutely refuse to let you pose for pics #or god forbid edit colors or lights to make them look better #i can maybe see some of the same problems that shining nikki had #as in. 3d outfits refusing to play nice together when mixing outfits #as that was something i loved doing in love nikki #but so far i haven't got any “you can't use that piece with this outfit” that i remember getting A LOT during shining #anyway uhhhhhh #i should probably come up with a tag for these pics #for organizational purposes u know?#neri in miraland #that'll do #AH also if any mutuals/followers try the game feel free to toss your friend codes my way 👉👈#i've yet to see what the friend system even lets you do but still #infinity nikki #edit: oh right i forgot to clarify - if you walk into momo he kinda shuffles out of your way #and if you keep doing it multiple times he comments something about it lol #i got “okay okay i'll get out of the way!” and something about him need some protective gear lol

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carcarrot · 5 months ago

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OH MY GOD A YEAR AGO TODAY .

#thats literally insane what do you mean that crazy day was last year. oh boy ok hastily thought up recap thought time #what that day included:#stupidly going out into july in los angeles heat that morning in jeans and a long sleeve black shirt #in that state of extreme sweatiness: meeting john l of tmbg fame. who id be seeing in concert that exact night #an insane story i have told before but nonetheless incredibly bonkers #later that day when i went out again i (also stupidly) wore sandals that cut up the back of my heels #i toughed it out later and put socks on and the russell brand of cdg high tops on and danced at the concert anyway #wore a full gold glitter suit. was still worried about being unnoticeable #i was too scareddddddd to talk to christi who i saw hanging around before the show which i regret #the best part of the concert and that trip to california was seeing it with my best friend who i finally met in person for that trip #he was dressed as ron and i of course was russ in the glitter suit. my hair did not turn out as magically russ as desired #what else. i was too ough before the concert to eat my combination lunch dinner of panda express something #but i did get overpriced fancy crackers and rosé at the hbowl which was my sparks dinner #ok now let me get to the show itself. i did a review the night of but lets see if there are any details i forgot that i can remember now #like right at the beginning of so may we start there was the audible sound of a glass breaking so awesome. someone was ready to get down #russell getting choked up talking abt their mom taking them to the hollywood bowl as kids i haven't stopped crying #oh yeah all the stupid people in the pool circle (front seats) who didn't care about seeing sparks. youre all going to hell #especially the people that left before the show ended #russell achieved some maximum awooga levels but i may have been picking up on those especially because of the rosé #russell saying to the audience in between singing all that how beautiful it looked with everyone turning the light on their phones #another thing i havent stopped crying over #also got a fun bootleg shirt specific to that show when walking back to the hotel. thank you slightly sketchy guy #that whole night and everything was bonkers insane and wonderful can i Please relive it now. please #like literally this time last year adjusting for time zone i was uhhhhh. probably injuring myself in those stupid sandals #and id do it again! well maybe not but id relive that day again #ok anyway. one year huh

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carsickcrow · 1 month ago

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death at the movies by car seat headrest is one of the songs ever to me.

#every time i listen to it i’m like. this is it. this is The Song.#but i think i just like movies.#“it’s hard to adjust your eyes after the matinee. from the womb of the theater to the light of day”#hell yeah it is #“the spirits did it all in an hour and a half. bring me to pain. bring me to relief. turn off my brain. suspend my disbelief”#“there’s a wonderful line I can’t remember. i can’t rewind so i better remember”#“i must be saved. i must be saved before the end”#“the hero stands up and the blood rushes out of his head. but you can still see him breathing after he’s dead. and after the soul is gone #his body’s back to himself. and you’ll say ‘oh who is he? i’ve seen him in something else’”#“and so I pray to the movie screen that i’ll be shown something i’ve never seen. a revelation i can sense it but this part don’t make any #sense yet. if heaven is a film that never ends. and the characters are all my friends. or is that what we call a tv show?#or is that the real life that we’re living now?”#“could’ve been better. had such potential. could've been better. had such potential.”#i was planning on quoting just a few of my favorite lyrics but this is most of the song. so #remy rambles #car seat headrest

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daisywords · 1 year ago

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"you should be at the club" and why on earth would I want to???

#been thinking more about this now that I live with people who actually do go clubbing #like first of all it's too loud #second of all I can't dance #and I don't particularly wish to either #don't like the type of music they play and I don't know the songs so it isn't fun #crowds and weird lighting also not great sensory-wise #I don't drink either but that's actually not a huge factor as some of my friends don't either #anyway even if the environment was more tolerable or I was more able to tolerate it #it would still be just that. tolerable. genuinely holds no appeal for me #like yeah OR we could do something fun???#and the insinuation that you're somehow antisocial or repressed or unfulfilled for not wanting that??#idk I do actually enjoy socializing I just prefer to do it in an environment where I can hear what other people are saying sue me #anyway. not saying people are weird for enjoying it I understand that we are built different #just because I don't see the appeal doesn't mean there isn't an appeal for other people #I just wish everyone else would give me the same grace yk?#I don't think people are weird for not enjoying everything I enjoy

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faaun · 8 months ago

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today was ok good great bad 😭 rant in tags lets try to be normal abt this

#it's not tuscan leather， but they do smell like mint and cherries and a fireplace. they kissed me #all over my back， and my hand， and my shoulders. i only ever kissed them on the lips. i only ever kiss them #when i'm about to leave them at the station gates. some red-eyed bloodhound cancelled their own plans and i laughed with them like a friend #i asked if they want me to bring them a hot water bottle or painkillers or a pair of lungs for them to eat.#the person in front of me has 4 lungs and 2 hearts and a brown leather coat and those bright radiance-incarnate kind of eyes.#you know the kind i mean. their hands are diligent with the pen. they say that i'm an angel and i'm right and i decide #the truths-in-all-possible-worlds. they say they only perceive the parts of me that i'd like perceived. they say all the right things.#the dog doesn't mind at all. the next station is edgeware road again. the dog says don't come over baby. its all slurred and deep and #shallow. returns a falsum. i really like you， baby. let's just be nothing， baby. i can't comprehend that anyone was raised unhappy.#she has free gaza painted on the back of her designer jacket， and she says she can't believe people suffer. there's something wrong with me #baby， why else would i turn down two perfect girls? she broke my nose， baby. ye zendegie dige ashaghet misham azize delam.#she might be a rich bitch but i only lived in kensington， baby. sunshine says they can't have kids because they plan to be #an enemy of many states. i offered to meet them but i look up and i notice the blonde streaks in their hair moving in the light.#i tell sunshine i'll never sleep with them. they want me in such a kind way it almost hurts.#they say we have a lot to teach other. i put the dog down again. my friend is wrapped around me. my friend walks me to the station.#i kiss them goodbye at the gates.

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mechanicalbowtye · 4 months ago

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read the scratch upd8. little too close to home

#tw vent #in tags at least #when i was reading hs like 3 ish years ago i related a lot to vriska and terezi cause i was in what i think was a really destructive #friendship qpp thing with my best friend online and a boy who liked both of us but mostly her.i was incredibly isolated irl as was my friend #and all my other online friends. i really should have seen that something bad could happen but i didnt and i got into a really deep #depression for like 3 months after but. my dearest friend girl decided to start befriending a 30 yo man and i. like an idiot. followed her #like a lovesick puppy even though all the warning bells were going off. we were in a gc with him that we texted in at all times of the day &#night and we shared selfies and dreams and our daily problems with isolation or hw or whatever. he got more and more creepy and my dearest #friend lashed out at him because she was scared while i sort of stopped talking as much because i was scared but. he still talked to me lots #in dms. he talked shit about the authority figures in our lives and isolated us from our ither online friends he made creepy picrews of me &#my friend getting married and he talked about moving in with us one day. we blocked him but sometimes he still tries to contact me. after it #blew up my friend left me and discord which is probably best and after my depression time i eventually got an irl friend or two but. i never #got over it. he did it to other people too we found out later. he always complimented me on being so sharp and talented and it was nice caus #it was really my first compliment from an adult who wasnt my family and. ig it got to my 14 yo head. anyways. the update made me cry. i had #read that it was bad and knew it would be bad for me specifically cause doc scratch always reminds me of that time in my life but. i didnt #think it would be that bad. i dont blame hs2 creators or anyone else and ig im glad i braved the storm but it was really painful to read #gonna go watch a more light hearted thing now.#if anyone sees this dw ill get over it #anyways. believe the warnings this update is very triggering and you can skip it if you want #glad i have like 5 followers rip

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waroferas · 4 months ago

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ugh i looove art that is rich and glowy i feel like i’ve cracked some sort of code . i’m so excited

#black overlay is my best friend btw #it’s not a catch all . like i tried it on smth else i painted earlier and it Broke some of my colors in a way that just wasn’t compatible #but generally i’ve found that if the bg is darker than your subject . it’s a fun time #just adds a layer of . Something to it all #plus i rlly like putting down the overlay and then erasing around light sources w a special grainy airbrush i’ve got #makes some DELIIIISH texture #m

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willpowers · 1 year ago

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sometimes i get all deep and philosophical in my friend's dms and i always imagine their faces like how ryuks is whenever light yagami goes on one of his cringe boy evil monologues

like ill be like "so metaphorically listening to a homie vent is the eqivalent to ancient humans helping an injured member to safety"

and like ill imagine my friends like

#death note #light yagami #ryuk #my friends are good listeners btw not implying theyre not #but like if i had to hear me go off on infodump tangents i too would mayhaps pause and think about something else

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altered60 · 1 year ago

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Prompt: Northern Lights picture prompt from @roosmavprompts

Title: blinded by the light

Author: altered60

Rating: E

Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Friends to Lovers, Mutual Pining, First Time, Love Confession, Light Angst, Maverick POV, Car Crash - Minor, Minor injury, Bradley fussing, There was only one Bed, Feelings Reveal, First Time, Explicit Sexual Content, implied Bottom Maverick, implied switch, Northern Lights, Oblivious Maverick

Word Count: 8140

Summary:

Maverick loved to fly. As evident in the career he chose, where he lived, the people he hung out with and the fact he’d taken on a season to fly air shows all across Europe. The trip had nothing to do with Bradley being deployed for a year and Maverick wanting extra time and distance from home to forget how his feelings had grown from friendship to…more.

But when an accident occurs abroad, Maverick is suddenly faced with a choice.

Take that shaky step into the unknown and soar, or stay with feet firmly on the ground?

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Click here to read!

#roosmav #roosmavprompts #prompt: Northern Lights #my writing #friends to lovers #oblivious maverick #mutual pining #my 2k fic became something else...#what exactly is it about this pairing (and these prompts) i can't resist??

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