#a doctor. I don't think that adds up like that doesn't make sense but idk if it means I should rethink being a doctor or being a nurse

[2024skin]

can't decide if I want to be a gynecologist or if I want to marry one

[mgarmagedon]

How are you and your au co-maker friend doing? Any new ideas?

She is fine, for now she is really busy and has really hard time, so she wouldn't have time to even make anything with me. Wish her luck guys, because she is doing her best ❤️❤️❤️

And she isn't exactly co-maker, because she is from time to time making random content about transformers prime or rid15, I'm mainly creating content here, but thank to her Sideswipe is tampon now. :D

But i can tell off what we were talking about last time:

Like lately we chosen to add that after Starscream almost died in explosion, when he was still mainly into scientific stuff, not only making Megan angry (when war was still active conflict and 90% of the population weren't dead), he met that time KO (when he was still teenager) and without getting licences, because how he could get his licence while the war, when practically all schools were in ruins XD So they met that time, KO helped him in coming back to better shape. This is why KO came to Nemesis in TFP with his husband Breakdown, because Starscream saw him as a trustworthy doctor. I don't need to add that they fucked AS ADULTS ON NEMESIS, when Breakdown was still around, because he was fine that KO wants to life in open relationship. They were still happy together :DD

We talked about the fact that Bee couldn't look at Sideswipe optics at the beginning, because he has Smokescreens optics and after all this shit that happened, it was really painful for him. He drank himself into unconsciousness, Ofc Grimlock and Danny were trying to comfort him as much he could (at that time Drift wasn't around yet, he joined with his sons team after 8-9 months Bee, Strongarm and Sides came to earth). He felt terrible, because it wasn't Sides fault that he born or that his best friend, which he treated like his older brother and first love in his life, made children when both of them was drunk. He didn't won't to hurt him or take revenge on the poor teen, which also had hard childhood like Bee and slowly but surly start to get close with. Sometimes he even thought of if he didn't leave him that day they told him about the protoforms, he would be now Sideswipe and Sunstreaker's father and maybe even marry KO. But those are only his thoughts. I was thinking of making black and while comic of it, but in his bot form not human. XDDD

We also lately write A LOT about Ultra Magnus and Wheeljack. Mainly we was thinking what Magnus was doing after the war and becasue he was like this big badass judge, he could just become the guy how almost rule Cybertron. I mean by it, that Cybertron came back to the almost state after the war and that is not a good news XD. "And what about Ratchet?" nothing, he doesn't give a fuck about him. After all, he himself as a guy in new created council vote to send Ratchet on Earth as his retirement and still explain himself by saying " this is last wish of Optimus Prime". I just like the idea that right hand of Prime, makes Cybertron great again, causing fulling prisons by ex cons and not happy with his decisions war veterans. It would also explain WHY FUCKING CYCLONUS WAS IN THE FUCKING FINAL, because he would be rebeliant that wants freedom for his ppl. He also created slums :), idk I think it's cool idea that Ultra Magnus was a villain of the series And I think Arcee would see sense in that and after all those years and ptsd, also got mature, she would fine peace in new worlds order. But she would still take back her father and brother back on Cybetron... at least be too kick his fucking ass. XDD And practically nobody can do anything with, only Bulkhead is living his best life as a worker, it doesn't mean that he is now fighting, he is just tired and like Arcee wants some peace in his life. After they banned contacting with earth and he could talk with Miko, he needed finally some peace. The same with KO and Smoke. He is living now with Wheeljack AS A FRIENDS!!! But from time to time, Wheeljack is showing up at Magnus mantion to fuck him, say hey to his daughter and then disappear for next 9 months. I'm just seeing NeoCybertron as a Gotham City but as a planet XDDD

I can't write more words, so do you have any more question? XD

[millilps]

fuck it, we ball clown

so. Susan. Susan Triad. it was all a set up to trap the Doctor. all the mentions of Susan (Foreman) were just to give context to the new viewers. but you know what's interesting here? family.

"wtf are you talking about are you high or something" no no bear with me I actually have a point it's not just pure clowning. well, it is, but I swear I'm trying my best here to make it make sense

it's a long post so buckle up clowns we're going all in with this one

so, I was saying, if you think about it a lot of episodes in this season are more or less centered around or connected to the idea of family in some way:

Space Babies: I mean. yeah. it doesn't really need an explanation. and also the whole thing of being abandoned just like Ruby

The Devil's Chord: we know Maestro is part of the Toymaker's family, and technically also the kid we see at the start? I think? are there theories about that kid? is he just a normal kid and then became somehow the harbinger of Maestro?

Boom: the concept of family literally saves everyone

73 Yards: well, Ruby's family is present in the episode, but also it's interesting how Ruby's fears play out in the episode which is directly interlocked with her birth mother abandoning her, it's kinda there but not as central or as explored as other episodes

Dot and Bubble: it's... a bit more subtle. it's there, kinda. we do have the whole thing of all the people in Finetime being part of rich families, and we also see Lindy's mom, so it's better than nothing

Rogue: I actually don't know. the family of Chuldurs? the marriage proposal? I have absolutely no idea but I also feel like it's there somewhere

The Legend of Ruby Sunday/Empire of Death: I probably don't have to say much as they are the episodes that actually dive in Ruby's story and the mystery around her birth, but yeah the family theme is obviously there

with the season following this theme, more or less, Susan was an obvious choice.

think about it: the Doctor has lost so many people he cared about that Sutekh pretty much could use every name ever. obviously they also had to explain regeneration to new viewers (hi, new viewers! hope you're enjoying the show!) so the list had to be shortened to only characters who are time lords or have the ability to regenerate, add a bit of "the Doctor regretting his past choices" and you get Susan. and this is tied directly with the theme of family, because she is the Doctor's family, technically the only gallifreyan family member we know about (Jenny, River, the Ponds and probably more that I'm forgetting/don't know about are also family, but in a different way) and also we have no informations whatsoever about her - sure, we have Big Finish, but it's kinda... not exactly canon, I guess? idk. nothing is canon and everything is canon at the same time in this show, you just have to live with it. still, she's one of the biggest mysteries of this show, because while other characters came back or were mentioned with information about them and/or their lives either in the expanded universe that is more strongly influenced by the show (yes I'm looking at Barbara and Ian's wedding in the 50th anniversary DMW that I can't find anywhere, idc what anyone says but that IS canon) or in the actual show at some point, she has never officially returned, and the Doctor has never officially gone back to meet her (sure, we have the story Fellow Traveller in the book Adventures in Lockdown, but it's probably not canon anymore at this point - although, it could be, if we clown enough). and with all the things about family in the season, obviously she had to be the key.

Ruby's family story is concluded: she found her birth mother, she also found her father, and now she has an amazing big loving family. but you know which one isn't? the Doctor's. we've met his adoptive mother, sure, but we know the Doctor had kids, we know Susan exists, and we know she's family to him.

she's out there somewhere. I know. she must be. she could've been mentioned in a lot of different episodes, a lot of different points, a lot of different stories, but she wasn't.

so why all these mentions all of a sudden? honestly I have absolutely no idea, I'm not RTD, I'm just a clown doing clown things, and the clown things on today's list is making theories about how Susan might come back

[barelynotsinking]

Gen V theories

Memory Loss:

I don't think it was rufus, it is too obvious and also he said that "it wasn't what it looked like" which I am skeptical of because he was LITERALLY NAKED, and is sooooooooooo slimy, but it is so obvious that I think they might do an expectation subversion and have him have a part of the puzzle. Hes been getting a lot of pointless attention, nothing he has done so far has furthered the plot despite getting so much screentime, so I think he'll be more important in the future (and probably pissed at Marie).

I am suspicious of the dean, tek knight said she doesnt have powers but it seems like the kind of thing she'd hide (victoria nueman style). Even if she doesn't have powers she has plenty of supes at her disposal. Doctor Cardoza seemed a bit too wimpy to mind wipe them. She seems to have a lot of secrets, and is the one who is gonna take the fall for Sam, so despite her soft spot for Marie (is it real? idk but it seems sweet for now) she'd still do that.

It would make the most sense if it was all of them were mindwiped because then giving them amnesia would serve the purpose of having them all forget about Sam.

Working off the theory that it was all of them I dont think it was cate, its been established that pushing to many people tire her out and she has been over working herself.

Jordan/Marie

Marie is full on gay panicking, and I don't think she would've ever been in a proper relationship before given her childhood which adds another layer of shit into their relationship. Its gonna be rocky for a bit, but I think that they won't break up because of Jordans gender. Their flirting in the hallway and also their general vibe makes me think she is attracted to them, and she doesn't seem like the kind of person who would run from that, but idk, my point is i dont think she's straight.

Jordan is prob panicking about if Marie is straight, given that they switched genders, which makes sense, would also indicate that they geniunely like her.

Jordan doesn't seem like an asshole to me they just seem introverted and very driven, Marie just met them in the worst possible circumstance where their goals were incompatable but I don't think they are.

Marie's sister

there is a chance she could have powers, the parents did it for her so why not her sister too, there is the question of why it didnt manifest by then, but maybe powers are genetic so they developed late like marie's

maybe she went to the woods like sam

Cate lying about Sam

I think maybe her and luke were actually both mind wiped, luke got really upset when he found out sam was being hidden, maybe both he and cate were brainwashed to forget.

[badly-made-tma-domains]

My QPP and I were talking about whether or not they know what time/date it is after the Eyepocalypse is reversed. Like. what happened to the atomic clocks? where they destroyed? did they stop during the eyepocalypse? did they all move with different speeds and show different times after the eyepocalypse?

We agreed on different speeds and procceeded to decide that there were several domains where the atomic clock was part of the horror. So.

Spiral Atomic Clock Domain: Pretty classic spiral time isn't real and doesn't make sense stuff.

Buried Atomic Clock Domain: You have so much to get done, you feel so hopelessly unproductive no matter how much you accomplish, you're drowning in work, and every time you look at the clock it's a little later than you expect it to be. By half an hour or an hour or something. More of the day is going by and you're not getting enough DONE.

Eye Atomic Clock Domain: Similar to the buried domain in that it's about productivity and feeling like time is moving too fast, but it's probably more of a timed test of some kind. And no matter how hard you try, how many circles you bubble in, you're just not fast enough, and they're judging you for it!

Dark Atomic Clock Domain: You're scared of the dark or maybe the dark has made you scared of monsters or serial killers or that one doctor who episode. It's the middle of the night, you've been awake for a long time, and at this point you've practically given up on sleeping. You're kind of just hoping to wait out the night, not sleep this time. How long can sunrise be away? But your clock says 2:00 am and feels like it has forever and time moves oh so slowly.

(I realize in hindsight that that might be what fnaf is but idk i don't play fnaf)

Desolation Clock Domain: You have a collection of watches. You think watches are so cool, you know all of the names of the brands and specific models, all the special little collaborations. Your girlfriend got you an expensive watch you'd had your eye on for ages for your 10th anniversary, you have a watch inherited from your late grandad... however in this domain you have to destroy your watches one by one.

End Atomic Clock Domain: very centered on every tick of the clock getting closer to your death. Idk this one's very self explanatory but you know to the second when you are going to die and the thought is just ruining you.

this is so clever i don’t even have anything to add to it i just need the words to see it

[kay0783]

I have some questions for those who are autistic/neurodivergent and have AHDH:

1) How long did it take for you to get diagnosed and

2)What advice would you give to those who believe they *might* be on the spectrum?

To put a long story short, one of my favorite animators on YouTube released a video talking about how she was diagnosed with AuDHD. I've always been a big fan of hers because I felt like I could relate to her, even though I could never pin point why. Once I watched the video and she explained all her symptoms/the way she functioned, I realized that (nearly) everything she spoke about is something I can relate to and struggle with.

I just want to clarify that in no way shape or form am I trying to "claim" having ADHD or autistic without any diagnosis. Ever since I realized I relate to the youtuber's overall functioning, I started doing some research and popped into some neurodivergent social media communities just to see what other peoples' lives were like with an official diagnosis. And 🥳surprise🥳... I once again found myself relating to a lot of experiences people were talking about.

What I've come across in some general research is that:

A) autism is caused by a genetic mutation + genetics (pls correct me if I'm wrong)

Genetic mutations run in my family and I even have a family member who suspects they are on the spectrum as well

B) Autism, specifically in women and girls, is often misdiagnosed as other disorders.

When I was 11 I was diagnosed with 8 mood disorders (a variety of anxiety and depression disorders), and vaguely remember a comment on some sort of platform that being diagnosed with an absurd amount of disorders is usually a sign that there is a much bigger, underlying issue at hand.

And C) not everyone with autism or AuDHD functions the same, yet there is not much research done on women with autism.

Again, I've read that there are many 'quirks' and ways in which neurodivergent people act, think, and speak. It's just kinda frustrating because my whole life I've been suffering with a mountain of other disorders and have had to be prescribed medications and go through a fuck tone of therapy sessions......all for something that doctors may not have picked up on, and misdiagnosed.

In no way do I mean to bash any medical professionals. I get that there's not a lot of understanding of what autism is like in other groups other than white, cis males (again, no offense, it's just what I've read). For crying out loud, my own mother worked YEARS as a special Ed teacher for students with down syndrome and are extreme cases of autism, but that kinda adds to my frustration because if she never noticed anything, then am I making this all up??? Am I losing my mind??? It sure feels like it. But at the same time it doesn't because when I read posts from people with autism and ADHD, so many things start piecing themselves together and just. make. sense. Idk how to word it. I do so many things that make it hard to function day-to-day, and when I listen to others like me, I feel seen and heard for the first time. For the first time I'm thinking that I might not be crazy.

So, long story (not so) short, is it worth me looking into getting an assessment? What if the medical professionals don't believe me? How long does it take to get a diagnosis?

(If there are any medical professionals out there who are willing and able to give some advice, please feel free to comment).

[cartoon-buffoon]

Thinking about Blood & Ink AU again (if you want info on it click HERE for the villains/Terrors, HERE for the protagonists/heroes, and HERE for extra characters.

Now while I did add a bit of lore into the extra characters one character or rather set of characters I was thinking about inserting were the gremlins. Problem is—I dunno what to do with 'em (⁠٥⁠↼⁠_⁠↼⁠).... So that got me thinking, what COULD I do with them. Now the instant thought that's kinda dark (however darkness is kinda a theme in the au) was victims. Now I know that sounds messed up but their teleportation and rather quickness with their wrenches gave me that in this AU they are magic beings (especially considering ya know, their based off the book which in turn the book and in general their entire origins is based off the mythological gremlin creatures) so as such capable of magic they were possible great assets to fight the Terrors. Thus when the Terrors came storming dark beauty castle after killing Yen Sid in order to take over the entirety of wasteland, the mad doctor would summon all the gremlins to help him fight off the Terrors. Now obviously this doesn't go as planned, all the gremlins die horribly leaving the mad doc alone with his machines who can't even scratch the Terrors due to their body composition. The only exception to this was Gus who fled, wishing to find Oswald and help the queen rather than stay and fight. Now the gremlin's deaths would not just serve as an excuse to get rid of them but also as kinda character development for the mad doc because he knows that all their blood is on his hands and he has to live with that which in turn gives him motivation to help teach Oswald's daughter, princess, and he does this purely in hopes he could feel like he redeemed himself.

Another reason why I feel like I should do this is because CD's domain, "the junkyard" needs decor (oh god that's even more of a messed up reason). But uhh—as stated in his description in the post regarding the Terrors CD lives in an area that used to be Mickey junk mountains until he demolished the place turning it into a giant barren desert littered with bones of all the toons the Terrors killed. Now I kind of need there to be victims for the Terrors in order for this to make sense, I don't want it to be the sort of thing where the bones are there for no reason, idk it feels like the deaths give the story stakes? Like it'll make it feel like "oh no, the Terrors are GENUINE threats!" Rather than them simply being chaos causing creatures. Now at the same time I feel like murdering off an entire batch of characters for the sake of character development for one character and for decoration makes it feel like I just threw them under the bus? Idk it feels disrespectful somehow to have these creatures just kinda go unused in this AU.

My entire point here is basically: I DON'T JUST WANT THE GREMLINS AS CHARACTERS TO BE MERE PLOT ELEMENTS! I want them to be ACTUAL characters but I have no idea what to do with them and it's making me mad because just killing them all off feels like wasted opportunity.

[stitching-in-time]

Voyager rewatch s4 ep23: Living Witness

This one is kind of weird actually. Like I get that they were trying to experiment with a different format, but it doesn't make a whole lot of sense in the end.

It opens with a dark alternate version of Voyager, with Captain Janeway as a black glove wearing villain, and the crew are all violent thugs. Back in the day when this first aired, trying to figure out what was really going on gave it some suspense on the first viewing, but once you know the twist, it's just kind of boring. We eventually learn it's a simulation in a museum on an alien planet 700 years in the future, and they're recounting their version of Voyager's role in their historical war.

Eventually the museum guide finds a way to activate the Doctor's back-up program that had been stolen in an attack on Voyager, and he asks the Doctor for more details about what happened, since he was there. The Doctor is horrified when the museum guide shows him the simulation, and tells him he got everything wrong, which the guy doesn't want to believe. Eventually though, the museum guy comes around and allows the Doctor to create a simulation of what actually happened. He's horrified to learn that his own people started the war, not Voyager, and it causes chaos on his planet as the two races there start riots and ransack the museum. The Doctor wants to deactivate himself because his presence and his knowledge of the truth is wreaking havoc on this society, but the curator convinces him not to, because finding and facing the truth is the only way the two races on his planet can reconcile.

It ends with another simulation within a simulation, as everything we've just seen is revealed to be another historical simulation in the same museum even farther in the future, where a new curator tells a group about the Doctor and the former curator's work, which finally led to harmony in their society. She notes that the Doctor eventually took off in a ship to find his way back to Earth, and that's the end. And I'm left scratching my head to figure out how this possibly works in continuity.

The Doctor absolutely was on Voyager for the rest of the series, so how in heck he could also be on this planet, I have no idea! Is this an alternate universe with no connection to the main canon?? Or are they meaning to say that there are actually two separate versions of the Doctor on Voyager, who somehow magically have the exact same memories and experiences, even though the version in the back up module was never activated before?? Idk, but either possibility is weird! It's just a little too out there for me to go with, and morever, it's not very interesting.

The only actual member of the Voyager crew we get to see in this episode is the Doctor. While I thought he had a great moment of grief and loss when he realized the rest of the crew was dead now, it was undercut by having him go right back to taking cheap potshots at them a scene or two later, which kind of makes you question how much he actually even cares about any of them. I really hate how the Voyager writers seem to think it's cute to have him constantly put down people who are supposed to be his friends to make himself feel smarter or better or more important. This is no where near the worst example, but every single time they do it adds up, and leaves a bad taste in my mouth that makes it really hard for me to like the Doctor.

We don't get to see any of the rest of actual Voyager crew even once in the whole episode- it's all simulations, and mostly of the evil versions which are nothing like them. I'm sure it must have been fun for the cast to play evil versions of their characters, but it was dull to watch because we as the audience know it isn't real, so ultimately, who cares? The alien society's problems didn't really move me either because we don't know enough about their culture or their history to understand the situation. Everything about them is painted in pretty broad strokes, including their ultimate reconciliation, which happens off screen. I get what it was going for, the message was obviously supposed to be that reconciliation can only come when a society faces it's past head on, which is great, but I just don't feel like this episode told that story in a meaningful or compelling way.

Tl;dr: A boring episode that largely glosses over the nuances in the point it's trying to make, and leaves you wondering how it even fits into Voyager canon.

[teslacoils-and-hubris]

best part(s) about tf2?

Well firstly it's a very good game to get into very silly hijinks! Tons of comedic potential from a game that has both taunts and killbinds and blowing people into little pieces that stick around for a while

But for me the big thing is the characters. Both in design and general execution they're so well developed and unique and interesting that I struggle to come up with something to compare it too. (Homestuck comes to mind as far as each character being so unique and well developed personality wise, but I still think tf2 wins out there personally)

Like. You take literally any character and pretty much just by looking at them you know what you get. Which makes sense since their design team had to make each class recognizable from silhouette and fast paced game play. Medic Looks like a crazy doctor, soldier looks like well.. a Solider lol but they have such big distinct personalities that it's really to latch onto them. You put Any of these guys in a scenario and Stuff is GOING to happen as a result you know? Even just in game stuff like cosmetics and voice lines add so much to the characters outside the comics (which I only mention cause most tumblr fans don't actually play the game but enjoy the comics lol) and they didn't just give this treatment to the dudes! Pauling and admin and zhanna all have such big fantastic personalities and absolutely none of them are reduced to the Woman Character you know?

I guess to sum it all up my favorite part about tf2 is how all the characters could very well be real people. From design to personality they're just... people you know? They aren't perfect and they're silly and often over the top because tf2 is at its heart a comedysilly game, but they feel just so real. Scout is an annoying self obsessed loser but he also draws and is willing to admit his flaws when he genuinely needs help (expedition date). Heavy is a big emotionless Russian who isn't great with English, but he has a degree in Russian literature and also names his guns and has beds for them. Engineer seems like the normal polite texas but his go to solution is 'add more gun' and he cut off his own hand to replace it with a robotic hand his grandpa invented. Pauling works 364 days a year pitting two sides of a war against eachother for reasons she doesn't really understand and she likes to go to gun shows when she can. Idk they're all just really strongly realized characters and that really draws people in

[kafus]

i have wondered this so long especially with all the ppl lying about did and your really the only credible source so,, like how do i expln this can you feel if one alter touches another idek if this makes sense lets say someone is fronting and someone else inside that system touches them would u feel that?? idk all the terms and stuff sorry if this doesn't add up lmfao

kind of? personally i have a really vivid headspace and in a way i can kind of feel a "ghosting" sensation when i am, ie. hugged by an alter... but it's not really a hallucination, it doesn't feel the same as real touch, it's in my head the same way i "hear" my alter voices in my head. different systems have varying experiences with this sort of thing, it's different for everyone

also i'm not sure who you are but i am just a random person with DID on the internet and i appreciate that you don't think i'm lying about having the disorder and that i'm a credible source, but i really encourage you to try to seek out scientific sources or reach out to people who you trust who make themselves readily available for this kind of thing - i am fairly researched on my own condition and i don't mind answering questions but i'm not a doctor and being told i am "the only credible source" is a little concerning and also wrong

i also really don't want to be held up as "someone who doesn't lie about their DID" in comparison to people on the internet because the implication that someone is willing to fakeclaim or judge my peers with DID when they do not have the knowledge or license to do that, and that they're only talking to me because i'm "not like them" is a little frustrating and just kind of a red flag. there are people who lie about their DID out there and there are a lot of confused teenagers who think they might have DID and actually don't, but people who make a point of talking about who's faking and who isn't tend to say a lot of ableist or misinformed nonsense to justify why they think someone's system who they think is a little Cringe must be faking, or they make people divulge their personal trauma details to defend themselves, or they go out of their way to bully teenagers when it doesn't help anyone with or without the disorder... plus we only see one side of that person’s life, what they choose to share on social media. and besides, it's not any of our places as random internet strangers to decide on someone's diagnosis for them, that's between a person and a doctor. at the end of the day if you think someone is faking you are fully within your right to steer clear or not engage with their online presence or content, and i don't feel comfortable engaging with someone who i know would start thinking that i'm faking if the convo got a little too weird for them.

i really do appreciate you reaching out but i just want to be clear it's uncomfortable to have myself compared to supposed "liars" and i don't want to be held up on a pedestal. but i really do not mind answering questions about DID from my personal experience if anyone is interested in that sort of thing or would find it useful! i'm pretty much an open book about that kind of stuff. been in therapy for 3 years so i have a lot sorted out and am fairly confident in talking about it

[katoninefandoms]

Tldr: glasses should be recognized for the wonderful disability aid they are and its not fair to shunt it aside just because they are widely available and accessible. All aids should be widely available and accessible like glasses are.

Glasses should count for more. Just because it's become a 'general' medical aid doesn't mean that it isn't one. And I think acknowledging that it an important part of understanding how disability works. It can happen to you at any age, for any reason, and it can get worse, or stagnate, or get better, but you've got to be able to access the proper tools to care for it. We're pretty fucking lucky someone realized you could just put a little set of magnifying glasses on your face, rather than ostracizing and practicing eugenics on people that began losing their sight. (And idk, they probably did at first. I'm too scared at the moment to look it up because I don't want the answer to be yes.) Vision loss with glasses can progress to being legally blind. People have to keep buying new glasses all the time, and even get to like, bi- and tri-focal lenses because their vision becomes so distorted. It's a pretty expensive disability. People get surgery to try to fix it, even 'general' astigmatism. Like what's not clicking? And we just think it's normal to have to pay out of pocket hundreds of dollars every year for a pair (or more!!! And trying to keep up will buying contacts??? Fuck!!!) of little magnifiers specific to our own eyes that we can't make or adjust ourselves, so that we can. See. An absolute basic sense of the body that would otherwise completely render a huge chunk of the population to never be able to even drive. Or participate in capitalism like everyone else.

And I can't say we'd never find a way, because blind people do it every day. But the wide prevalence of glasses somehow means our disability doesn't count. And that's not fair. It is a disability. And I'm not saying it shouldn't be included in the conversation. It should!! The eye care system needs improvement. But also, if you feel that vision loss is easier and more accessible to care for, then you should be using it as an example. "Hey, [insert disability aid here] should be as easy to get as a pair of glasses!" Canes, braces, sole inserts, reading glasses, and kinds of miscellaneous task aids are all sold in my local drug stores. Let's add generic wheel chairs, walkers, hearing aids, communication devices, breathing masks... Even if we just get some generic things that will work in a pinch until you can see your doctor, that would be a huge step. And then we gotta work on getting the healthcare system to stop specializing everything so much that it costs an arm and a leg just to get aids that work best for you.

Anyway.

I also should probably get more joint braves than I have. 🙃

Thanks, Anon!

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[miniwolfsbane]

I need to stay awake, so here's a list of things we should have gotten in The Sims 4's Growing together that would have improved it even more! (Also pleading in some spots. If they could just refresh it slightly, that would be boss.):

An easier (even customizable) compatibility system. (I loved the idea, but trying to get one of my sims to have mutual dislike with his future-son-in law is like trying to find chicken lips. I even changed his traits, but it didn't help. Unless my game was glitched, IDK. I haven't looked at that save file in months.)

Gender reveal parties (Because let's bring the chaos of those into sims. Fits perfectly!

New careers would've been fire. (Something similar to an OBGYN, if EA is so scared of scarring special snowflakes and supposed children playing this freaking game (GIVE US BURGLARS BACK YOU COWARDS!!), call it a baby doctor and give us real ultrasounds already. I mostly play on console, so mods aren't an option.

LESS infant milestones. (I understand that they were clearly going for realism and longform play, but I think I got my favorite (and only) mermaid twins to do nearly all of the applicable ones (with my game glitching slightly because it didn't register the first trip to the park) before turning them into toddlers. But if you have your sims on non-aging, it can get tedious. I had to cheat needs to do all that, keeping them awake constantly and they still got the tired moodlet as infants. They should have cut them back by 10 or 12 and not gone so hard on this. We love our realism as players, but sometimes enough is enough. Also the standing up milestone is broken on console. Ugh.)

This or HSY would have been the perfect EP to put driving lessons. Even if we don't have cars yet...well...was gonna say it wouldn't make sense, but it could have just been a rabbit hole to driver's ed or driving school. (Just writing those words gives me PTSD. I had a hard time of things.)

They could have really expanded on stuff for kids. The toy options are endless. Hula hoops, new teddy bears that are actually useable, dolls (knock off Barbie maybe?), new action figures for boys (and girls), more toddler specific toys, And we got bikes? BIKES?! I know 4 Rent was awful for bugs, but at least they gave us marbles and hopscotch. Better than nothing. Glad modders exist, but that doesn't help people who play exclusively on console because of disabilities or other reasons.

Maybe pregnancy specific clothes, I dunno. Seems pointless, but also sounds cute.

Bring back the dang pregnancy cravings (unless I imagined these?), and add in some mood swings. Teenagers get mood swings, but pregnant women don't? Yeah, nice going EA. *Sarcastic clap*

On that note, as long as it's from my head, we could have used some more realism, if just slightly. (Keep in mind I've never been preggers and haven't had anyone close to me be pregnant, just parent's friends or people older than me at the time. Edit and family members out-of-state many years ago.) Sore boob moodlets, milk pumps, swollen feet, real back aches and not just stretching, baby books (I miss those!!), maybe some stuff for the dads to be but I can't think of anything off had atm but books? Maybe some "I want to teach my kid about repair skills" want or moodlet when they hit the child stage, pacifiers (the CC ones are so cute!), teething if we didn't get it already I can't remember, teething toys, being able to put infants/toddlers on beds (mixed bag because in real life you shouldn't have babies in bed with you because it's dangerous. Saw a story about it.), more stuff for grandparents, plus the canes from TS3 and so on.

Okay, I might edit this later. Starting to feel tapped out for ideas

[lonelier-version-of-you]

Guess who it is! That's right, your least fave anon! Okay so 2 updates here -

1. Life update! Very stressy! Very much enjoying absurdist literature and also crying! Great time!

2. Fandomy stuff! I am LOVING the David drama (still not on the new season yet whoops). Literally so much fun rip David I'm having a blast. Also re the doctor who autism conversation every classic who companion is neurodivergent especially Turlough who is either autistic coded or kian anon coded. Also also back to the David thing Literally love this man sm when I first started gendering I considered calling myself David for unrelated reasons and now I regret not going with that this man I stg

- Kian anon (making no sense because I am living off coffee and stress and sore heads)

Oh hi there Kian anon!! Great to hear from you :) Very sorry to hear you've been so stressed, I hope things improve for you soon. 💜

I'm a bit 50/50 on the David storyline, it's been written well and acted VERY well but I still just don't really feel like they should have done it. It's probably a better watch if you haven't seen the Holby storyline it's a ripoff of, though (the 2017 hospital shooting). I guess I just think the shooting part is too melodramatic, and it's a blatant copy of the Henrik and Fredrik storyline from Holby. And the thing about that storyline was it worked for Henrik's character because he always sort of felt like he belonged in something more melodramatic, like a gothic novel or something. Whereas David is just a normal guy in a medical drama. I feel like it kind of takes away from David's relatability as a character in a way it didn't for Henrik. Idk. Jason Durr has been amazing though, someone should give the man a BAFTA.

I don't know enough about Classic Who to weigh in, but I shall take your word for it! Personally I tend to find a lot of the DW characters I see as autistic are the ones people don't really point out as much. I mean, undeniably the Doctor is coded (and with Twelve it was blatantly just intentional... I mean, come on, social cue cards?), and I feel like autistic!Bill is a pretty popular take and I've seen very good arguments for her being on the spectrum so I adopted that headcanon too. But the other ones for me are Ashildr* and also... Nick, I think his name was, from this year's New Year special? And I don't see people bring them up a lot. I've also occasionally seen autistic!Clara headcanons and I like that idea, because Clara being autistic and just very good at masking would add a lot to her dynamic with the very visibly autistic Twelve, but I go back and forth on it. I think really though, Doctor Who is just a very autistic show anyway lol so it's no wonder so many autism headcanons spring up from it.

(* - I actually rewatched The Girl Who Died and The Woman Who Lived just recently and yeah, I'm still clinging tight to autistic!Ashildr. She is absolutely textbook autistic in TGWD, and I know it doesn't really show through in any of her other episodes but you can put that down to her having hundreds of years to learn to mask.)

[thyandrawrites]

Mmm, to add on to the victim hood post... it was also mentioned (I forget where, but I think it’s when Shoto started visiting Rei) that he apologized to Rei and she forgave him? I understand that he may have apologized for not visiting all this time but I feel the writing around that is weird because he shouldn’t have to apologize, he avoided her for valid reasons because of a possible relapse since she was the one that burned him (not saying the blame is entirely on her since her mental state is because of E.) I like Rei, but I feel she was written poorly, like how in the hospital scene saying the blame is on the WHOLE family for Touya and putting Shoto on a pedestal for being better because he’s a hero (isn’t Natsuo learning to become a doctor? And Fuyumi a teacher, shouldn’t you be happy they are trying to do good things to or do they have to be heroes? Idk, I may has misinterpreted that scene and I apologize.) That hospital scene was just a mess to me and I hope HK has something planned to make up for it lol. I believe it was you or some other user I read that Rei and Touya are just used as plot devices to further E and it’s unfortunate... let E atone for his mistakes without ALWAYS needing the support of others, to me it shows the guy is incompetent and unable to even register HOW much damage he has really caused to his family (still working as a hero does not = being a good father E, so will see where HK goes!) Sorry, this got long haha

No need to apologize, these are all good points!

you are indeed correct about the weird phrasing of this scene (if it really is the one you were referencing).

Again, to clarify what I meant in the other post, I don't exactly take issue with Shouto feeling guilty and responsible for Rei's commitment. Feelings are often irrational like that, and it makes sense for Shouto to feel responsible, since his father basically raised him to think that way. But the writing here doesn't really make a distinction between Shouto's feelings and what we're supposed to take away from this scene. Without the framing telling us that Shouto's self-blame is misplaced, this reads like Shouto really needed Rei's forgiveness. Which is bullshit. What Shouto needed was reconnection. That's why after he talks to her he's finally able to move on. For ten years, he harbored the crippling fear of becoming like the man who had caged her.

Then again, the topic of forgiveness in bnha is handled very weirdly in general. Like in this scene:

Where Shouto's willingness to let it be water under the bridge is framed as the true heroic call, the reason that makes him a good person. Which is very offputtting when you remember that throughout the story, Shouto has done nothing but ask Endvr to start acting like a father, and up to this scene, Endvr still hadn't done anything in that regard. So uhhhh

Horikoshi really bends backwards to make Endvr more palatable and more redeemable by easing off part of the blame from his shoulders or by making every single character except Dabi willing to give him a second chance he's literally done nothing to earn. But at this point I've exhausted all my salt on this topic so I really have nothing more to add.

On the topic of Rei and how the todofam plot in the hospital chapters is a mess, I ranted at length about it here. You don't have to read it, but you might find you agree on a couple of points

[aquarianlights]

I am in a serious financial bind. 😥 If anyone is in a position to listen & help or signal boost, pls keep reading...

This is from my apartment complex. I am in low-income housing. I called them & sent them proof I could pay on the 23rd. I told them I could (just barely) put 100 down now & they said that was too little.

They said they would file for eviction on the 16th, which adds $150 to my rent. They will cancel the court date and eviction on the 23rd when I pay.

But that doesn't cancel the $150 filing fee.

Idk where that $150 would come from. Idky they think it's fair that someone who cannot pay should be forced to pay even more??? That makes no sense. I can only just barely afford my rent every month as is.

These are from my energy company. I apparently owe them over $600. I genuinely do not know how this happened. We were on the phone for a very long time trying to figure it out & I was in tears for the latter portion of it because I swear I paid.

I usually keep record of my payments via taking a picture of my receipt since they are electronic, but my dog chewed up my phone (which I have pics of if need be for evidence) and broke it, so I had to get a replacement phone sent to me from the insurance company & nothing transferred from the old phone, so all my pics were wiped.

I found no record in my emails, either.

The meds I am taking to try to go into remission and the autoimmune disease itself both cause brain fog and issues with time warping, so it is possible maybe I skipped a month or something, but I highly doubt I would have skipped up to 600+ dollars worth of payments.

I have tons of electronic and hard copy calendars & they are all synced and constantly updated so that I know when payments are due. I also have text and email reminders sent to me, but I could find no reminders in my email for MONTHS now until they were telling me they were going to shut my power off if I didn't pay this. Idk why I was not sent reminders for months???

In the end, I agreed to set up a payment plan. Paying, like... 50-60ish on top of whatever my electric bill is every month for 12 months. It was the lowest they could go.

I can barely afford my electric bill as it is, so idk how I will be able to do this? They did give me a list of charities in my area so I will be using what little energy I have to call around & see if any of them would be willing to help me pay this. Idk how those work (they're mostly churches???), so I'm just gonna try & see what happens. 🤔

On top of all that, I *think* this is telling me my Medicaid has been cancelled but I'm not 100% sure?????

I'm going through treatment for a very serious, disabling problem that should last ~1 year and rn Medicaid is picking up what my Medicare doesn't cover and some of my doctors/specialists and treatments are medicaid only.

If I lose this, I'm basically done.

I know they'll do backpay if I get it back, but Idk if I *will* get it back. I'll be trying to get it back, but in the meantime, I guess I'll just have to pay out of pocket, idk??? Which I do not have.

I have lost almost ALL autonomy due to this autoimmune disease, which (in a very simplified form) is basically my immune cells "eating" my muscle tissue. I can barely get out of bed. Treatment should put me in remission & give me my life back. I am seeing a rheumatologist, neurologist, dermatologist, PCP, physical therapist, psychiatrist, psychologist, and going to a holistic pain treatment center that does a different kind of physical therapy to bring down pain levels (which I was put into that program by my rheum). All of these are in relation to & necessary for my disease. I am going through TONS of testing almost weekly now & trying out treatments like IVIG and chemo where I am in the hospital hooked up to an IV for 4-6+ hrs of that day and the cost of those things without Medicaid picking up what Medicare doesn't cover is astronomical. I have to sign waivers every time I get my blood drawn (which is almost weekly now), do tests, and do treatments saying I will pay if Medicaid does not pick up the extra.

I already have crippling medical debt; I don't need more. I'm scared they won't let me do any more tests or treatments if they see I am just letting it all go to collections & am not paying.

This could mean the difference between having a life worth living (to me) where I am happy & thriving & autonomous or being bed-bound & living a life of just existing from day to day & miserable & in pain & suffering & unable to do anything for myself. This is literally life and death for me because I wouldn't be able to handle continuing to live in the latter scenario. I cannot handle living like I am now. Knowing my treatments are progressing is what keeps me going. Knowing I can go into remission is what keeps me going. Knowing my future is one completely different from now is what keeps me going. But if I cannot have that and am destined to live in this current state, it's just not worth it. I don't know a person alive who would want to live like this.

Finally, my anger noodle needs to get to the vet for MULTIPLE things. Nothing is, like... life threatening or super immediate like his cancer was last year, but they're things that need to be addressed in terms of preventative care & to make sure he isn't in pain.

He needs his trachea checked, possibly x-rays for that, maybe more...

He needs some medication updates, needs a physical, needs a full groom & nail clip under anesthesia (for those who are not familiar with Echo, he has extreme fear-based aggression & usually gets this done under anesthesia; since I worked with him so much, he had his first non-anesthesia nail clip at the beginning of quarantine, but he has gotten worse during quarantine & with my muscle eating disease, I can no longer restrain him & don't have the physical strength to run a brush through his thicker fur as his winter coat is in, so I can no longer groom certain areas of him at home, so his tummy & back legs are matted & I fear he may need to be shaved... which breaks my heart since you don't shave double coat dogs unless medically necessary.), he needs a full physical, & needs to be checked over for MCT's.

He may also need a fecal test or something else, as he has been having odd bowel movements. 😥 His tummy has been upset lately.

I have been crying myself to sleep every single night & often during the day because I cannot get him to the vet. No, it isn't urgent or life threatening. But he is reverse sneezing more than normal & I worry about tracheal collapse, which is a common small dog thing & even MORE common in pomeranians specifically. Every time he has a fit, I think "Oh god, this is it. This is the time I'm gonna have to rush him to the e-vet & get slammed with a huge bill & he is not gonna be okay..."

It breaks my heart to see his legs & belly matted. He is horrible about letting me groom him coz of his aggression so he only gets a full grooms at the vet, but I do short grooming sessions at home with him nightly. Takes about 2 hours just to do the majority of one side of him (not even all of it; just most) coz he needs breaks & lots of praise every few strokes or he will tear me to shreds & hurt himself snapping on the undercoat rake. 😥

But now that my autoimmune disease has atrophied my muscles to the point holding up my phone without something to prop it up feels like I am lifting weights & tires my arms out with a lactic acid burn & pain, I can no longer groom him with the patience he needs & can only groom in 20 minute intervals at the VERY longest. By the time I have gotten one leg done during the week, his entire other side is matted. 😞 Matting on dogs---especially double coat dogs---hurts them. It's like if someone were to wrap your hair around their fingers & then pull it taut. It's a constant pulling pressure on their skin... it's painful & irritates the epidermis. I feel miserable feeling the matting on his back legs & tummy & now feeling the mats beginning to form on the rest of him. He hates me working them out, even with the detangling spray. I know it must hurt so much...

So he may need to be shaved at this point & that will destroy me. I feel sick thinking about it. But anything to get him out of pain. Maybe it is what's best for him while I go through this year of treatment & get my muscles back. But in order to do that, I need to get him to the vet.

The stress of not being able to get him to a vet is tearing me apart & literally making me physically ill.

He is my world. My everything. My #1. My heart dog. My priority in life. My entire universe revolves around him. I would do anything for him. Not a single person, animal, thing, etc, comes before him. It is KILLING me that I cannot provide proper care for him right now. I always always always make sure to sacrifice for him if need be & his things ALWAYS come first, even if it means I'm not eating or not paying bills or whatever. As long as he is taken care of & his needs & wants are met, nothing else matters to me. And right now........ I feel he is suffering because of my finances & the fact my treatment with building my muscles up is not going fast enough.

I cannot control the latter one, but the first one is something I can at least ask for help for. So that is what I am doing.

If anyone is in a place to help, these are my venmo & cashapp codes. I also have paypal.

💙 Venmo: @kqroswell

💚 Cashapp: $kqroswell

💜 Paypal: @kqroswell or thekilliancode@yahoo.com

If there is another form of payment you're thinking of, lemme know. I also have fb pay activated if you have me on FB (Killian Q Roswell).

Thank you to everyone who read through this & anyone who can help or reblog this. 💖

Sincerely,

Your v scared, struggling transman who really wants his bills/rent paid & his dog to go to the vet,

Killian 💞

[awesomedurraworld]

okayokay, you have raised such an important point and i thank you for that 😌

I came up with new things for this fic and i might have figured out Riza a little?? But here is what i have

My idea had Ed and Al finding Roy alone by themselves without the team’s help, my very original idea ( that i came up with last June) had the boys traveling when the colonel got kidnapped, and when they got back they were like, “ where is our commander father??” the team was like, “ meh boss we don't know,” so Ed and Al were like that is fishy, so they look around and after few month or weeks they find Roy And keep him in their apartment ( notice, apartment and not dorm, so finding Roy Was kept a secret so no on would know that they have him)

When i stumbled across this note couple of nights ago, i had more time thinking it over and i posted my idea yesterday and gotten more ideas for it.

So here is what i have so far

Roy has Riza as his bodyguard ( everyone on his team is his guard in a way if you think about it) + Roy is a very strong fighter if he needed to be, ( he is his team’s guard btw. He protects them.) so it got me thinking, who was strong enough to kidnap the strong feared Roy Mustang?

Someone who knew how he thinks and acts. someone who knew his weaknesses, someone who saw him daily and knew him well. Who other than his men themselves??

BEAR WITH ME THESE ARE ALL JUST HALF COOKED IDEAS.

Riza would never betray him like that, and i know she would have ran herself to the ground trying to find him, so i just kept brainstorming how to keep the original idea of Ed and Al rescuing Roy while not having Riza with them. And it got me down to these points.

Hawkeye could be undercover and under radar and didn't know Roy was even kidnapped until she went back to central and knew and got mad with the team and somehow the boys let her knew about Roy’s whereabouts

Riza never joined the military and married Roy but died so Roy has that dead wife trauma. Which can add more whump to the story but idk

My least favorite one, but what if Riza is the one who took him down and delivered him to his captures? Not that she wanted but maybe they held some sort of blackmail over her? Maybe get grandpa, the Elrics or maybe she is in a relationship with Roy so that could have ended badly?

i am still not sure what i should do with Riza, since i just know she loves Roy sm, and it just doesn't make sense for her to hurt him at all.

The newer idea for this plot also has the Elrics taking Roy back to Resembool to thier granny since she is a doctor/ has a medical knowledge, and she might be able to help them care for Roy the first few weeks. Maybe they just stay there as long as Roy needs until he is ready to go back to public and face the military and expose them? .

I am just thinking some sort of family drama between Roy And the team since they are his found family, and how they betrayed him and stuff, and have Ed and Al being protective of Roy And attacking the men. ( this is not based on actual life experience of course not! Haha.. Hah… ha)

There is of course lots of truma i want to give Roy 😈 his childhood, teenhood, the war and kidnapping and Woah so many so many. Maybe involve his mother? Aka chris mustang and i know she is his aunt butttttt i love making her his mother or adopted mother, maybe she could be there too??

Also if we went with Riza being under cover and not knowing her beloved man was hurt she could probably go to resembool later on and just help Ed and Al taking care of Roy?

This is kinda what i have so far! Later on ( aka right before i sleep ) i am sure i will get more ideas hehe. Roy Mustang is one of my favorite characters to whump Oh my god

Gonna be real, but i cannot stop thinking about recovery fics and how beautiful they are. They are amazing, the way we see the character gets better always just makes me feel so inspired, the way that they learn to get over- or get around- the thing that hurt them. The way that they learn to be alive and living. How to love themselves and embrace what happened to them.

As much as i love these types of fics, i only wrote like, two maybe? With this idea (I love and have written torture more than recovery) . And it got me thinking… why not write a whole recovery fic?

It is no secret that i love parental Roy and Riza to the Elrics, and how they take him after he was being hurt and help him recover and be better and feel better.

BUT

But.

I am proposing another idea. Same child parent dynamic. Roy And the Elrics. Here is what i am thinking:

Evil Millirty hating how good and you Mustang is and they know he is a threat + them setting up to kidnap him by evil gang or something + team Mustang for some reason not being that loyal in finding him + Elrics stop their red stone research and to find their missing dad CO+ THEM SAVING THIER ADULT + FAMILY DRAMA AND PROTECTIVE SONS™️= my new fic idea

Which has traumatized Roy who is trying his best not being so traumatized but in the middle of it all, the Elrics discover How badly hurt thier adult is!

WHO IS WITH ME!!?