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8/25/2023 DAB Chronological Transcriptions

Lamentation 1-3:36

Welcome to Daily Audio Bible Chronological, I'm China. Today is the 25th day of August. Welcome. So great to be here with you today. Today is a very special day in my household as it is my husband's birthday and so excited to get to celebrate him. He's my favorite person in the whole world and celebrating him is just so easy. And if you've been around the Daily Bible Chronological for any...well, for maybe a little bit longer. I've had him on a few different times and he's just the best and so I'm excited to get to celebrate him today and he he has allowed me to plan his day for him. So that's like my favorite. I love getting to plan things for people and raise them and like do things that I know that they would love to do. So I'm really excited about today. But I'm also looking forward to reading the book of Lamentations today, which I know is probably stranger, maybe not a popular opinion, but maybe it will speak to you. Maybe there will be something in here that resonates, and if not, maybe just take note of some things that are interesting and maybe put it on a shelf for the days when something does come and you're like, wow, I need to lament, let me go and read the book of Lamentations. So here we are starting in Lamentations one, 1 through chapter 3 verse 36. And we are going to be in the Evangelical Heritage version for this week.

Commentary:

So remember when I said maybe if something doesn't stick with you right now, keep an eye out for something that you're like, wait, I remember this. I want to go back and read this. Truth. Truly, I would have never guessed that in the book of Lamentations is the scripture that you would find...and this is the reason I pop by the mercies of the Lord. We are not consumed, for his compassions do not fail, they are new every morning. Great is your faithfulness. My soul says the Lord is my portion. Therefore I will hope in Him. What is good to those who wait for him? The soul who seeks him is good to have quietly for the salvation of the Lord like this. I don't know where I would say, Oh yeah, if you gave me like a couple of choices, I don't think I would have chosen. Oh yeah, that's from Lamentations. I think lamenting is beautiful and it was part of I think I believe it still is. I'm not totally up to date on my Jewish culture knowledge, but I believe this is a big part of their culture and the big part of processing and like I actually think it's pretty sacred and wholly and necessary. And sometimes we can get uncomfortable with it. Sure umm. But there's a time and a place and what I've really found throughout my life and learning through therapy is that actually we do a disservice to our bodies and to our minds, our whole being, our soul, when we don't feel the things that we need to feel. And something that my therapist had recently said to me that I thought was so helpful was like, name out loud your feelings. And so I feel like maybe a toddler who got a hand holding the feelings chart. But it's been so helpful for me to be like, I feel excited right now and to notice like, oh, I feel excitement in my chest. Excitement feels like jumping on a trampoline and I feel really like angry right now and anger feels like slamming doors, you know, like just things like that. And you know there's this terrible- I think it's Nicholas Sparks. If not him, sorry, I don't think he listens, but this is a terrible book I read in high school. But the one good thing that I feel like came out of it was it said pain demands to be felt and that is true. And so umm, I'm not sure that lamenting is an emotion. Maybe. Maybe it is, but umm, actually you should just like do a redig, research on what it means, but I think it's like the depth of your soul crying out and grieving and groaning and saying, Lord help. Lord meet me here. And so I think it's really beautiful when Scripture comes to this place of unravelling, unwinding of emotions and then turning to a place of...but here's where I'm going to put my hope. This is where I get my hope. This is who the Lord is, and reminding your Spirit that and I think that's the piece that we missed. There's like two pieces that we miss here. I feel like is lamenting and realizing that this is OK. And it's safe to do, it's encouraged, it's necessary, and then also to turn outward and to say, but Lord my God, this is who you are. And we may think, wow, what a roller coaster. Actually this is like processing your emotions. And I think because I have felt this to be true for me, I think when you let emotions process through your body properly and to sit with them and let them move through you, you may actually be surprised how quickly you go through them and find peace and healing. And I think everybody's different. And it obviously is very situational, but the Lord is in it and when we invite him into it and he gets to be worried and he gets to be father we're covered, we are cared for and we could not be in better hands.

Prayer:

And so again, Lord, I thank you for your word. I thank you so much that we have this book to really just guide us through grief, guide us through understanding that we aren't perfect. We have our own inequities. We have our own things that we have to repent of, and the things that we need to realize and come to terms with and to turn away from and to turn to you. And so I pray that this would just be a sweet time of understanding your word deeper and understanding who you are and understanding ourselves better, too. And I just thank you for that and its in your name we pray. Amen.

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Community Prayer Line:

Hi guys, it's Kate calling in. I wanted to pray for Cynthia from upstate New York's brother George and mother Miss Alberta. Father, I lift these two loved ones of Cynthia 's up before you and I ask you by whatever means you deem to provide accurate diagnosis and effective treatment. And in the meantime, would you please give all three of them your peace that surpasses all understanding as they deal with very scary conditions and changes in life. Pray a special prayer for Cynthia as she may be the point person who's not sick. Uh, I just ask you to grow her faith during this trial as well as George if he is not a Christian, I pray that you would draw him to yourself, and if he is, I pray that you would help him to lean into you despite all the scary reports and tests and procedures and potentially chemo. And for her mom, I pray that you would restore her eyesight through the drops or whatever means ideally supernaturally. OK. In Jesus precious name I ask these things. Amen.

Pay my faithful DABC fam. This is Kingdom Seeker Daniel family. Just want to lift up a couple of our DABCers.While we come on behalf of Abba's Songbird, our beloved sister. Well, we thank you for what you are doing in her life. Thank you for how you use her more, even in ministry, where LOV and I get to watch her serve and minister by way of song. God, we thank you that you are touching her voice, her throat, and the issues that she is having even now. We pray that you will heal every component within her throat that her voice will be strengthened and her throat will be healed, and anything that seems to be causing adverse effects. Lord, I'm asking that you will cause it to line up according to your divine will. Will you speak to that throat and cause it to be made whole? We give you praise and we give you glory for our sister and we thank you for what you're doing in her life, in Jesus' name. To our beloved Simone from Texas, woman of God, you have been an inspiration to us all and encouragement here in your journey. I too wanna say beware the Ishmael. I pray that the Lord will strengthen you and give you staying power to stand still and see the salvation of the Lord, that you will not be duped, tricked or swindled by the enemy in Jesus name.

This is Daughter of the Silversmith and I wanna take time and pray for all the DABers. Lord Jesus, I pray that you'll be with us today. But most of all I praise your name. I uplift you. You are everything. You are good. You are amazing. You are everything I want out of this world and I can't wait to live with you one day. And Lord, I pray that you'll help us be spiritually healthy, not just health in the way we eat, but in the way we take in your word and the way we take in your presence, that we don't miss opportunities to take you in. That we don't take time for the flesh, but instead we turn to what you have for us and we take it in. And I pray this also for our children, Father and our siblings and adult family members, just don't let us waste a moment of you Jesus. That one way that we could choose you and the soak you in, or another way we can just pick something that will help our flesh feel good. Help us think of ourselves with sober judgment and to teach our children to think of themselves with sober judgment because you are what we want you or what we need. And these things of this world that mean nothing, they are absolutely nothing and I don't want to take them in overtaking you in. So please help all the DABers. And help us work with our families to be spiritually healthy. I love you and I praise you in Jesus name. Amen.

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somethingsyoushouldhear · 2 years

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Time Flies

Kids, now I know you have been following this adult rated story now about how I met your mother, but truth is, we had so much fun the last few months and grew together, I forgot to keep up with the blog.

I think last time I spoke, Crystal and I were not really seeing each other and hating every minute of it. School started and then, everything changed like when the Fire nation attacked. But really, everything would lead up to late October. We will see why later.

But school had started and I was determined to find and woo Crystal into becoming mine as she had left to take care of her husband who had been severely hurt, realizing she loved me. It would get worse before it got better at FSW too, as I was in hot water for reasons still unclear to me.

I was going to therapy once a week ordered by FSW and Crystal was struggling not being a part of my life once I had to leave campus. Other students, community members, and of course me, would do what we could to convince Crystal she should do what makes her happy.

We were rocking though as you came into my side like a super hero as soon as I needed you. Picking up the slack for the clubs, keeping the students in-line at school, and working on a conference with me.

As things got harder towards October, we both were at our limits and found strength in each other. You were still coming by and seeing me, we would laugh and enjoy each other, planning away at a future that seemed so far away. Having almost secret meeting at the Collaboratory and thinking about how we can just be better.

Prior to this we had attended a conference in St.Pete that would be enjoyable, charming, and test our compatibilities. It was the first time I drove you like for real, and I remember Elliott puked in the car. I used my shirt to clean it, as you scrambled to find a vape pen after cleaning it at the gas station because you weren’t feeling well yourself.

That conference was amazing, the hotel was amazing, and being with you was amazing. Making decisions with you has been efficient, seeking solutions has been simple, and managing emotions has been easy as each day strikes us. I know that I put all my love in you that night and enjoyed every bit of Checkers. I also enjoyed learning with you and watching you work your magic for the free red team book or getting to tease you about Elliott wanting to dance with the exotic dancers. :)

I know that when we got back that you continued to search for hope at home, you had struggles, deciding to move back in with me, even bringing the cats. You settled them in 2 at a time, the second time asking for a divorce again, and having Jarret bring the cats over with you as I watched Elliott.

My shoulder burns again recollecting the memories of how I have ended up happy in this moment, missing you as you visit a friend in Panama City, oddly enough also working Java programs.

You keep asking about the puppy love and losing you, but I don’t know how to tell you that I’m here and in it. I keep saying it because it’s true, I want you. Only you, forever and always because the excitement is too good, the love is too pure, and results strung together by being together is something truly magical.

If you ever thought my capacity to love you more couldn’t grow, I assure you that it has and will continue to if you let it. I think I’m healing with you as well, something from the desire to not be sick, or weak, or struggling for you.

Kids, I think Crystal was ready to move in, especially over the last 6 months, yet despite this post only looking at a small part of what happened between August and September. Let me tell you this though, when you let a person in and your walls down, a beautiful thing happens that the rest of the world is missing out on, like a sweet innocence that is only found a few times in life between a few people.

I’m happy with what we have now Crystal, some things need fixing, some things let go, and changes made, but for the most part, I just want to be with you and to continue down this crazy thing called life.

I hate not having you here, or being around you, or getting to talk to you. I hate not having you here to call mine. I’ve asked you to be with me in a forever kind of way, and you said, yes just wait. But for the sake of the post, I must ask you again darling, but Mr. Stark, would you let me be your Pepper Potts and marry me?

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catmarlowastrology · 3 years

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⭐️ The many blessings Jupiter in Pisces will bring to you according to your Rising Sign ⭐️

First of all, happy new year to all my lovely subscribers and readers! ✨ I hope 2022 will bless you in many ways and bring a lot of happiness to you and your loved ones. 🤍

Jupiter is now in Pisces for the next year or so (with occasional days into Aries). This planet represents expansion; we feel a sudden push towards discovery under a Jupiter transit. It can indicate physical (traveling, physically expanding our career or our family...) or mental exploration. Jupiter is associated with optimism, faith, and abundance. When we feel good and confident, we are more inclined to take risks, to get out there and try our luck; those actions are often rewarded.

The planet is strong in the sign of Pisces since Jupiter is the traditional ruler of this sign. This transit will be a nice respite for us after the chaos of 2020 and 2021.

Here's what you can expect according to your rising sign!

🌟 Aries rising: Jupiter will be in your 12th house. This house is associated with the invisible; all the things hidden to the rest of the world (and often to you too) will be magnified by Jupiter. The desire for seclusion and rest grows and pushes you to find ways to feed this desire; you might take a sudden interest in meditation or book a retreat in the desert. The need to help those who are suffering is also a common manifestation of this transit; you become more aware of other people's pain and seek ways to improve their conditions. Your pain could be more visible, and you might be more open to therapy. Overall, this is a transit that brings healing to the native.

🌟 Taurus rising: Jupiter will be in your 11th house. Your social contacts are likely to diversify during this transit. New friends appear (they are often from other cultures or have different views than you), old friendships that haven't been working for a while peacefully fade away; your social platforms expand, and more people desire to connect with you. Your vision for the future also changes; you feel more optimistic and likely have big dreams. The 11th house is considered a lucky house, so this transit should bring beautiful things to you. Enjoy!

🌟 Gemini rising: Fellow Geminis, the planet of growth and luck will transit your 10th house of reputation and career. This year, Jupiter will bless you with opportunities to make a name for yourself; this is the moment to put your brand out there, focus on your calling and take many chances! It's frequently a pivotal moment and is especially beneficial if you are naturally very ambitious.

🌟 Cancer rising: Jupiter will transit your 9th house; this is a fantastic placement to start studying something new, go on a spiritual quest, or explore the world. Many opportunities will be presented for you to expand your world; Jupiter wants to broaden your vision and show you the richness that is yet to be discovered.

🌟 Leo rising: Jupiter will be in your 8th house. Luck and opportunities will appear after experiencing death; whatever ends will start a new chapter for you that will prove fruitful. Jupiter will allow you to have faith despite moments of doubt; you'll be protected in some kind of way. I know this sounds dark, but good events are also attached to this house. When you enter a committed relationship, your single life dies in a way, and a new one begins. It's the same thing for people who strive for success; you close a chapter when success finally knocks on your door. This is why the 8th house is associated with endings and transformation. So don't worry! Jupiter transits are more often than not beneficial.

🌟 Virgo rising: Jupiter will transit your 7th house of partnerships. If you are in a relationship, you'll experience more happiness together and might feel the need to explore new realms of commitment (getting married, for example); if you are single, you will likely meet someone new! The 7th house is an angular house, so whatever happens here will be significant.

🌟 Libra rising: Jupiter will be in your 6th house of duties, and this transit will mostly make everyday responsibilities less burdensome for you. If you are suffering from an illness, some good news could come your way this year. The 6th house is not a happy place as it usually deals with things we must do to survive and keep a sense of order in our lives; Jupiter is in detriment in Virgo (6th house is associated with this sign), so it only gives a little boost.

🌟 Scorpio rising: Jupiter will transit your 5th house of joy. This transit will bring happy moments to you in many ways. Opportunities to have fun and enjoy yourself will be presented; romances and new hobbies are the most common manifestation. You'll also feel more confident (the 5th house trines the Ascendant), and this is a great time to try your luck. This year is also an excellent time to start a family since the 5th house is associated with children!

🌟 Sagittarius rising: Jupiter will be in your 4th house this year; this is an excellent time to expand your home or move abroad. Opportunities to connect and spend more time with your loved ones will also be presented to you. If you're interested in purchasing a property, this transit should also allow you to make a good investment. Whatever happens during the year will be significant since the 4th house is an angular house.

🌟 Capricorn rising: Jupiter will transit your 3rd house; this transit will bring your interactions with the outside world to an all-time high. The 3rd house is associated with communication we get from our environment; all the information we share and receive throughout the day is seen in this house. This is why Jupiter in the 3rd is a good indicator of someone who explores and interacts a lot with the people in his surroundings. Good relationships with neighbors, cousins, siblings, etc., are expected.

🌟 Aquarius rising: Jupiter will be in your 2nd house of gains this year, and this is a very beneficial transit for you! Your income is likely to grow, and you might accumulate more possessions during the year. Because of this sudden wealth, you are also very likely to spend a good bunch of it and be more generous with the people you love.

🌟 Pisces rising: Jupiter will transit your 1st house and will give a boost to your confidence. You become less critical of yourself and start feeling a lot better in your skin. The world also feels less threatening somehow, and you'll become more optimistic about interacting with it. This is an excellent transit to put yourself out there and do things you were too shy to do!

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deathbydyingpod · 3 years

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Enough of Zodiac signs and moon-risings, what’s your Crestfall Insignia?

JANUARY – Shadow in the Dark Woods: Deranged, hypnotic eyes, loves animals, or potentially is an animal. Filled with life, always seeking new, questionable experiences. Should lay in the sun more often.

FEBRUARY – Still-Beating Heart in a Jam Jar: Loving, self-sacrificing, excessively into poetry. Sees the best in everyone. You like to stare into the foggy, middle distance with a sense of melancholic yearning, but you’re also down to hang. Please get therapy.

MARCH – Some Sentient, Earthy Mass I Found in My Backyard: I don’t know what you are. You whisper things in the dead of night. I’m not sure why I invited you inside, you won’t leave. You’re still curled up on a beanbag in a dark corner enjoying a good book.

APRIL – Man-Eating Cat: You are adorable chaos incarnate. We watch you destroy and devour and then give you little head scratches. A ball of fluff with an air of danger. Unassuming and friendly, but secretly, and sometimes not so secretly, an admirer of the dark and perverse. I love you, I fear you.

MAY – A Human Skull Growing Off a Rosemary Bush: Surprising, natural, smiling in a way that is difficult to interpret. You show up in unexpected places and delight and tantalize in your unique strangeness. We didn’t ask for you, but you are what we needed, and we love having you around. Should probably grow some skin at some point.

JUNE – Loose Death Cannon: Consistent, reliable, but can be explosive at times. We need to learn how to dodge your literal and metaphorical cannonballs, or maybe you should just learn to aim better, but you’re lively and definitely totally not deadly at all…

JULY – Rogue Piece of Flesh That Miraculously Hasn’t Rotted Yet: You’re resilient, tender, and most likely dissociating right now. Doesn’t tan well in the sun, spends too much time in the dirt, but loves a fun time despite needing some convincing to have a fun time.

AUGUST – Crime-Solving Goat: You’re unstoppable. You’re astute, curious, and shed too much. Enjoys the excitement of the unknown and harbers a tragic past. Loves making friends, is happy to be here, and forms deep attachments to the endearingly nefarious.

SEPTEMBER – Eldritch Potato God: It’s a rising concern that you are overpowered. You came from the ground, you came from outer space. Your all-seeing eye is hungry for knowledge, and desires worship. Wants the world, and we’ll give it to you, but must moisturize daily.

OCTOBER – Phantom Bicycle: Fiercely loyal, haunting and haunted, loves a midnight stroll. Feels held by the cover of nightfall, but could use a sunrise every now and then. Generously kind, often spooky, but needs to remember to let other people put air in their tires sometimes.

NOVEMBER – Button-Eyed Raven: Dreary, edgy soft boy who loves crafts. An omen, a harbinger of the end, a great addition to any friend group. You’re a little rough around the edges, but you’re always there… Ugh, you’re ALWAYS there.

DECEMBER – The Abyss Stares Back: Comforting, immense, the only true thing on this mortal coil. You love giving gifts and existential crisises. Infinitely deep and we could get lost in those eternal, beautiful, terrifying eyes. And oh god how the eyes are everywhere.

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syubub · 4 years

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2021 Reading for BTS and the collective!!

Wow wow wow! I didn't disappear or get dragged away by a demon. No no, I just got thrust into unexpected shadow work and I now have an unhealthy obsession with sea shanties and a love of pasta.

I had this idea planned to be early in January but that didn't pan out so I'm doing it now. I have another yoongi reading in the works and another fun thing coming soon as well!!

I promise I won't bore you to death any longer but I hope you've all been doing well!!

Disclaimer: This is for entertainment purposes only and not to be taken as fact.

If this message doesn't apply, let it fly!

Cool cool cool.

Let's get it.

💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

Oki. I first want to say that this I gonna be long lol. I did a meditation and gathered some little pieces of things y'all might need to hear and then I pulled cards for every month. The fountain tarot deck is the cards for us, the collective, and the rider-waite cards are for bts. It'll make more sense when I add picks and stuff. I did a little extra card pull for yoongi for the month of May too :) I'll make sure to type out all the cards in text so you know what they are (the pics are kinda wack.) I also used my pendulum to ask if there was a bts related event for every month and that's at the bottom. It's just to take in the possible energy for the month and something that could result from that energy!

LETTUCE BEGIN (hehe)

Starting with the section for the channeled messages. I want to reiterate that this was collective so if it doesn't resonate with you, the message might not be for you! Use your intuition.

(Enough talking. Damn)

So. As I said this was through meditation and connecting to the big column tree thing (I told my cousin about the tree/pillar and they were like,, "so basically a big energy dildo in the æther?" .... I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT IT. h e l p m e) and asking if there was any messages or advice that needed to be delivered and it was... intresting?

Things came fragmented. So there was little messages like, "Its gonna be okay" and "things are changing for everyone" and "open your eyes if you want to see" (that's sassy.) There was one particular thing that was confusing me though. Straight up it was just "flower" on repeat and like a really bad picture of a flower? Like you could tell what it was but it was bad quality. Anyway, I was like "okay. Kindly shut the fuck up. Pls." And I wrote down flower, pink flower and rose. Sooo.... idk but there you go.

More messages were things like, "the block isn't in your head", "try calling forth that which you seek" and... February. Possibly there is specific (very very very loose) connection to the 10th-19th? I'm not to sure what or why but I'd say maybe look out for opportunities on these days and also maybe external events.

Continuing with dates. In the last this 21 and January 21 came up. It came up again but with 2 messages. So first, either 21st is a day where something is put into motion (possibly private or public) or announced and the second was "add them together dumbass" that's not very kind but 3. Again this has been discussed too but but but... maybe a signal of a third mixtape 👀 (not necessarily on the 21st per say but possibly in March? I'm really not sure).

Oki. I got side tracked like I always do and started thinking about tattoos and stuff and I really want koo to have a peony tattoo. I feel it in my BONES. It would suit him so well. and as I was thinking about tattoos I heard, "don't be surprised if yoongi gets/shows a tattoo this year" ??? What the fuck? I think maybe they messing with me but now I have hopes and I don't want them to be crushed and thrown to the wind :(

Back to normal stuff, "the theme is growth" I think that fits very well with the reading. "Blue might be a lucky color" self explanatory. It might be lucky. "Start practicing grounding and centering" this was LOUD. This will help you in how you react to events in the future. Really do practice this if you haven't.

This is where it gets a little weird. So, I got a message that said "start living as if you never existed." I am not a 100% sure what this means but I think I have a pretty good guess. I hate to make it sound weird like this but by sort of focusing on something that is so hard to comprehend (because our brains can't comprehend not existing very well) you kinda break the 4th wall? Like in Deadpool when he addresses the audience and is aware that he is a character played by Ryan Reynolds? anyway, focusing on something that seemingly impossible you kind of accidentally open up the floodgates for a lot of other things. I would say if you are not in the right headspace to do this don't do it but it can be a powerful way to break up the monotony of reality. The theory that everything happens simultaneously bc time isn't a linear progression events blah blah we are energy blah blah the multiverse blah blah.. Theres so so so so so so so so so much about this and how it applies to things that I could probably write you 10+ dictionaries worth of material but for the sake of simplicity and not wanting to write a novel right now, I will continue. The main lesson is to start challenging your perception of the world around you. Ask why and why and why and why. Essentially seeing cracks in the matrix. Pulling your head out of your cosmic ass, realizing that rose you're smelling is actually daffodil ect. It's not supposed to bring you fear but just kinda encouraging you to question all the things that you perceive as given truths.

I tried to make that sound cohesive but really it's such a big concept that I can't really wrap it up all nice and neat.

Oki. May and March are also important times.

Listen to your intuition and try not to take everything so seriously. I'm not saying to check out and go squat in the Himalayas but it's important to find joy in the now. Life is already tough enough so don't forget to watch a silly show that you like or change your hair to a style you've never tried, wear makeup in a very loud way. Just have fun and don't worry so much about things that you can't control. Listen to yourself and your intuition.

Well that was all over the place. Let's get on to the actual tarot part now.

For the record, the pictures are right to left.

January for the collective

We have the empress, the sun, 7 of swords and a fortune that says "act well your part; there the honor lies"

Hmm. Ngl I was a little confused to see the empress and the sun for January... I mean it hasn't been great. So I pulled clarity card 7 of swords. The 7 of swords is all about betrayal. It's about the deception and and actively getting away with things. This is people lying, cheating, sneaking and the works.

This makes much more sense!! The Sun card is usually about joy and success and happiness but in this case I see it as illuminating the betrayal. It's shining light on the deception and keeps the spotlight there. Its also an energetic card so I think that shows passion for uncovering the truth.

With the empress card too I think January is all about getting creative in all forms. Creative ways to protest, to mourn, to celebrate, to connect. Also taking in the abundance that we DO have. The beauty that surrounds us. I like to think of aphrodite energy for this. Its not just love and passion and creativity but is also asserting yourself and having strong passion for what you love and fighting for it. Did you know aphrodite was also called upon in ancient Greece in times of war? She was honored as a goddess of war but still a goddess of love, the sea, fertility ect. What I'm trying to say is that being a creative and "feminine" energy is in no way weak. Sometimes the most powerful things come from this energy. Love aggressively with good intentions. The point is that you should take whatever you're feeling and translate it into something creative or something you care about. The fact that covid is still a thing really sucks but take any rage, hurt, sadness, joy, love whatever and use that shit to make something amazing. Bake bread and punch the fuck out of it, paint your frustration, play hopscotch in higheels while you listen to heavy metal. You get the point.

Now January for BTS!!

We have the death card. (I only pulled one card bc I have things planned from this)

January has been... strange? To say the least.

This card can be a lot of things for them. I think this points to more maturity in their music? Like they've finally ditched the "shiny kpop boy band" label and are being taken seriously in the west. I also think that they're going through a musical/concept transformation~ I think it also signified the change in plans bc of the Grammys perhaps they had things planned an that fell through so they were forced to rapidly change plan/course.

For January: possible mixtape or announcement.

February for the collective

We have 8 of coins reverse and hanged man reverse.

The 8 of pentacles reverse talks a lot about self improvement. Doing that good good inner work and self care. Working on developing parts of you that you've maybe neglected. It's also learning how to work with how you are instead of wishing you weren't the way you are. If you have a therapist its a great time to maybe ask for any extra tips that you can practice daily to help you even more. Maybe exploring more into insecurities relating to finance or jobs or your passions. If you don't have a therapist but you have the means to get one I always highly recommend. You don't have to have "problems" to see a therapist. Everyone could use a non biased point of view that is literally trained to help you be you best self. If you can't get therapy, I get it. Shits tough rn but there's still things we can do to better ourselves like Journaling and reading therapy blogs or self help books (not the taky shit) or trying a hobby you fell out of touch with. There's also a lot of places where you can get therapy promise on the internet. Most importantly, better yourself in the way that you need. Take time in February to take notice of what you want to improve upon. The 8 of coins reversed does come with the warning not to get stuck in perfectionism. Go easy on yourself and if you find yourself getting frustrated when working on projects, try to take a step back and practice whatever it is in a fun way and then come back to it later

Hanged man reverse talks about knowing that you need to chill but you don't. You'll need too. Maybe you'll find yourself swept up in work and tasks and you're over whelmed and know you need to stop and catch your breath but you resist. Why? Well, perhaps you're trying to ignore reality by filling the empty spaces with things and stuff so you don't have to face what's bothering you. Not wise. Take time for yourself. There's also the flips side where people are just kinda stuck.. creative block. Maybe you want something to turn out one way and it just isn't, so your stuck and frustrated and can't move past it. Let go of your expectation of how it should be and let it be what it is. Go with the flow and maybe you'll see a new way to overcome your problem. You'll eventually get that break through that you need! The theme of February is about self improvement. Listen to yourself.

February for BTS

We have judgment.

Hehe yeah. This card is about rebirth and the inner calling. Letting go of the old to step into the new version of you. This is also a very spiritual card lol. This can talk about a new decision that you have to trust your gut on. This is a very significant card that screams comeback to me. It also can talk about sharing your struggles with a group of people and that to me sounds comeback ish. Maybe this will be an announcement in February, maybe they'll be working on it idk but this is ultimate comeback energy so I hope they utilize this for a big group project!!

February: possible BTS comeback (even my pendulum knows)

March for the collective

The chariot and justice

This plays directly off of February! With the chariot you're taking the self improvement that you've done and putting it to action! Now is the time to act on the dreams and passions that you have don't wait and hope for the best. March is about action and standing in your power.

Justice card is cause and effect and truth. What you do will have consequences good or bad. Not doing anything also has consequences. Cease the moment and make the best of it. You'll be taking responsibility for what you do. You start a business? Now you have the responsibility of running it and you get the credit. Stuff like that. Stand by your decisions with conviction and trust yourself.

There's also the side of justice that talks about bringing justice. If you've been wronged, you'll be brought justice if you stand up for yourself.

We also carry the continuous lesson of learning what we truly believe and challenge those beliefs!

March for BTS

Oki we have the hermit and the 6 of pentacles reverse.

Well... let's start with the 6 of pentacles reverse. This can really talk about being so generous and giving to everyone else that you forget about yourself. I think that maybe they might be over exerting themselves and giving so much that they're exhausted physically and emotionally as well. I think too, they take on so much of our pain like its their own? Idk but this would be a good time to do a large scale fan project to show them a little extra love!

With the hermit card it talks about a self introspection so they could be looking inward as a team and kinda evaluating their bond.

I also see this as maybe being alone as in they maybe can't physically go to the grammys? Or maybe they had been planning the rescheduled concerts and they had to be pushed back even further? Things like that. Regardless this signals re thinking/reevaluating the goals that they have and considering what direction to go in!

March: possible mixtape or solo project?

April for the collective

We have 6 of coins and 3 of cups reverse.

Let's start with the 6 of coins. It's about sharing. It can be about charity so sharing money via donation but also giving time, effort, energy to people as well. Giving knowledge is good too! It's an all round exchange. Maybe someone lends you money or you lend money to someone. It's give and take. It's a two way street. It's also a card of balanced finance. So money stuff should be looking promising around this time (for you U.S people this could point to more stimulus help as well)

And for the 3 of cups reversed... I see this as reopening of places and people struggling to find the balance. So think people who've been in lockdown celebrating by throwing a big party... yikes. This card reminds that we should be mindful of the long-term consequences that come with our actions.. maybe also people that are experiencing fear of being in public places now. This is only one facet though. Bc I think this also means in general, missing being with friends and having a renewed relationship because you've really realized how important it is to have these people that mean so much to you in your life. Don't forget that you have people that love you and want the best for you. Call them when you feel alone.

April for BTS

The heirophant

Mhmm. This one kinda gives me vibes that they'll be mentoring people? Idk but I see them more as the heirophant teaching what they've learned/ know to help guide others. HOWEVER this could also be them taking a new task under their belt. Learning something new. Since this is as a group reading I assume that this talks about the group as a whole. This card is also very tradition oriented so maybe they are taking lessons that are connected to traditional Korean culture? Maybe its for RUN or maybe its to incorporate into music and preformance. Think bts mma preformance but all of them learning together? Idk, it's just a thought (maybe wishful thinking). It also talks about seeking counseling so maybe they'll do yoongis idea from the most recent RUN.

This can also be them embracing this kind of leadership/ status.

April: I got nothing. It does feel like something though

May for the collective

Five of cups and queen of cups reversed

Five of cups is disappointment, regret and self pity. Now honestly this to me looks like possibly a tightening of restrictions yet again. Regardless of the situation that this is talking about, the best thing you can do is not wallow in the bullshit. You scrape yourself off the pavement and move foward. You'll need forgiveness of yourself and others and that if shit isn't going your way, you need to pull your head out of your ass and look around bc there's options out there. It's like drowning in a kiddie pool. Just stand up, dude. The water is like 5 inches.

Queen of cups reversed talks about self love and self care. It's more of that look inwards energy. Think about really taking care of yourself. May might be emotionally draining so you need to be ready to take care of you! Part of self care is making sure that your boundaries are well enforced.

Be on the look out for codependent behaviors. Check in with yourself.

The queen of cups is very intuitive and having it in reverse can talk about you not taking enough time to listen to it. Make an effort to meditate for like 5 minutes a day at least. Do something to let yourself connect to your intuition and higher self.

May for BTS

9 of pentacles

This about enjoying the fruits of your labor and absolute abundance and luxury. This could talk about them rolling in the dough after signing a new partnership or having a concert or something if the sort. This could also be a time where we see them buying new things like houses, cars and rings (lol) but also this could be them doing a very high production value project! Also namjoon and his bonsai army are thriving in this time!

May: possible concert or scheduled concert event. Activity of some kind.

Yoongi interlude

I asked for one card to give me an idea of what the mystical May 13th really is. I got: the star, 2 of cups, 4 of wands, the world and the sun.

Guys. I can't with this. 2 of cups is a card of union, romance, soulmate. 4 of wands is celebration, joy, homecoming, bliss. The world is completion and the sun is happiness, joy, marriage, enlightenment.

I've said it a billion times but that's some soulmate shit. So soft so cute and May will be eventful for his personal life.

June for the collective

Death and the heirophant reversed.

Wow wow wow death is transformation and a new chapter so a new way of life and something new/ different that changes how we see things. Again this could be relating to new covid things and new policies and stuff like that but also new as in new to all of us. Groundbreaking perhaps?

The heirophant reversed talks about teaching yourself. Being your own teacher and making your own path. This might be spiritual or otherwise. Challange what the world wants from you and instead listen to what you truly want bc you don't need anyone's approval. Continue to ask questions about why things are the way that they are.

June for BTS

Page of pentacles

Oki oki page of pentacles means a new creative venture and manifestation. Maybe something that they've been wanting for a while finally comes to fruition. This might be the start of a new project that they haven't done before or something cross genre? Idk but its a really good sign of being motivated for a new endeavor and manifesting any projects that they've ever wanted to do. Love this promising energy!!

June: idk

July for the collective

10 of swords and 9 of cups reversed.

10 of swords signals a painful ending. Also deceit. Its a necessary end to a long battle. The only thing you can do is control how you react in these situations. You just kinda gotta surrender into the pain and know that it's temporary. Take time to reflect on what happened and why and how it will help you grow.

The 9 of cups reversed talks about valuing stuff and material things over emotions and spiritual things. This can be talking about society in general, that we are becoming more aware to the fact that there is often more value placed on ephemeral items rather than humanity as a whole. This also can be talking about coming to the realization that we've been working so hard towards... something we don't really care about simply because we were told that it's what you do.

If you want something different to happen you have to put in effort. You can't be sitting in front of a water fountain being like, "damn. I'm thirsty. I really really want water so why isn't it in my mouth yet?" Like?? Hello? You have to take the first step, my dude.

Certainly don't try to do anything that would cost you finatial security or health.

You have the potential to find happiness within yourself. So try looking inside instead of looking outward.

July for BTS

4 of swords.

This is about rest and relaxation!

Taking time to meditate and take some time to look at what you've done objectively. Ots like the hermit in a way but much more focused on resting and relaxing so you can come back stronger and with better direction. Maybe they'll take a break for a couple days but I really see it as them reassessing options. Especially if July goes how I think it will. Maybe they'll film something like In The Soop again? Maybe we'll see bon voyage type thing? Idk. But it could be something kinda out of the spotlight? Maybe something more healing?

July: maybe something?? I'm not sure but it seems like something might be in store.

August for the collective

5 of coins and the wheel of fortune

Well let's see. 5 of pentacles talks about isolation and a negative mindset. This talks about falling on hard times but its a temporary set back. This energy can be talking about falling on hard times emotionally as well. In the card it shows a woman outside of a church shivering and cold but she's too busy thinking about all that she's lost that she doesn't notice the warm church that she could step into for shelter.

But then with he wheel of fortune that talks about fate/destiny, opportunity and luck so maybe this is a necessary loss so that a new door can open. This does kinda tie in with July as well. The end of something is painful but it's often a necessary thing. Might be a bit uncomfy but that's how things change. Again I see this maybe hinting more towards society but none the less it's definitely a theme for August to have doors closing and new ones opening so be on the lookout for that.

August for BTS

The devil.

Now don't fret. The devil talks a lot about choice. Most notably the choice between instant gratification and and something more substantial and the devil leans towards indulgence. It also has a lot to do with the shadow side. This could talk about ~scandal~ sure, but I think its more of a time where you become aware of negative patterns and you shine a light on that part you've ignored. On a much lighter note this card talks also about an incredible bond between people. It can be unhealthy if not given space or boundaries. Listen to pied piper and come back to me.

I also REALLY REALLY REALLY hope that this card points to this: sexuality. The boys have always been pretty pg when it comes to the topic of sex and embracing sexuality so I really do hope to see something more daring and grown up and exploring a tastefully sexy concept. On the same vain as sexuality this card also talks about kinks and stuff like that so don't be surprised if we get more outfits like fake love Era bondage harnesses.

August: ???

September for the collective

We have the world and 10 of wands reversed.

The 10 of wands reversed talks about carrying burden. Doing extra work and taking on more responsibility. Doing everything by yourself and carrying this heavy load alone will get you burnt out quicker than anything. You might be taking on too much and you'll need to prioritize what you really need to focus on. I also think there will just be a lot happening in September for a lot of people. It's a lot of working hard because you know it's good work or because it's what's right. This could be social responsibility that's placed on you or work responsibility. For whatever reason this burden isn't something you want to share with others because you think its yours alone to deal with. It's not though bc you'll figure out eventually that if it hurts so much you'll find a way to lessen the burden. 10 in tarot is all about the completion of a cycle and going through the wands cycle is hard work because for anything to be made of passion, you need to put the work behind it. The burden isn't forever, the heavy work load will lighten but this is you seeing things out. It's a good thing!

Especially considering this is paired with with world. The world is all about completion and that's what you're doing here is finding completion. You are seeing things out until the end but you just need to learn to give up some responsibility, lessen your burden.

This also talks about hard work being put into wider social spheres as well. Things like the vaccines becoming more widespread through the whole globe or at least better planing and infrastructures not related to covid. Things are looking up!

September for BTS

Knight of swords reverse

This bad boi is restless energy. It's being so pent up that you're ready to burst and you really want to take action but you can't because something is keeping you from taking that action. Again I do think this is kinda covid related in regards to touring bc if they do tour in 2021 its gonna look a lot different. This energy can be a bit impulsive and directionless so I think maybe they'll channel this into album material something? I'm not really sure tbh. I'm suprised this energy didn't show up earlier because it almost seems inevitable.

September: no clue

October for the collective

Ten of coins and the star reverse.

Welp let's start with the 10 of coins. Its about wealth, financial security, and long term success so this is a pretty prosperous time. This talks about the obvious monetary wealth and material wealth but also an abundance of opportunities. So this is definitely a good time to enjoy whatever consistency you have. This energy is really really abundant in the career space as well. So October could be very prosperous in the job field and you'll have likely found what it is you really want and could be successful at. This could be the actual act or just the idea. This is could also talk about investing in something for your future, this could be time or money.

With the star reversed it can talk about a loss of faith and a disconnection. This often points to feeling like you've just been forgotten or left out. Like the universe doesn't give a shit about you and left you out to die. Things might seem unfair but always try to look for the lesson that you can take from the experience. Seeing the 10 of coins and the star makes me think that a lot of people have kinda lost faith in their manifestations and also just in the concept of not living in a state of need. Especially if you see other people doing well and you've been trying so fucking hard but you haven't gotten a break. I know we hate to hear it but this can serve as a test of faith. Or rather an opportunity to get your shit in line and take a second to breath. Do something good for yourself and then continue on. This star in reverse serves to show you what no longer sparks joy and helps you find what does and what that initial spark was in the first place. Helps you get back to the original vision/ spark.

October for BTS

5 of pentacles reverse.

This signals the end of difficult times and getting that groove back. The last month was restless energy with no where to go but this month that energy is certainly put to good use. They might be figuring out what has been missing In their lives and starting to rectify that. They are definitely reminded that material wealth doesn't bring spiritual or emotional wealth. Might be also feeling a bit alienated too.

October: something is likely but idk

November for collective

Six of swords reversed and the moon.

Transition and change is prevalent. The 6 of swords is about leaving behind the familiar. Maune this is leaving a job, a new change in the status quo, leaving a relationship ect. The thing you have to keep in mind is just how amazing this is in terms of what it will do. It will alow growth!! And bring clarity!! Thos can also be societal as well, something being left behind in favor of something new. It's letting go and reflecting so that you can move foward.

This is strengthened by the moon card. The moon card is the subconscious and all the things that come with it. The anxiety, the illusion, the uncertainty. You'll want to deal with whatever emotions come up. The moon can signify a confusing time where things aren't what they seem to be. That's the illusions so you'll have rely more on intuition at a time like this. Your dreams might hold significance in this time as well. Listen to your guides and your own guidance because it will help you understand more than you did before this journey began. Using moon cycles to your advantage in November might really help you!!

November for BTS

7 of wands

Challenge and competition. People are envious of bts. We know this. But people will be challenging them for what they've gained: music industry domination. This might co.e in the way that people will spread vicious rumors in attempt to disenfanchise or possibly it will be a fair fight. It could also be a challenge/ battle for some other aspect that involves legal matters.

My best guess though is good old competition. Bts has proven again and again that they will continue to do what they do how they do but they will not be trampled over. In the best way this could renew some of that spirit in friendly competition. They will tear eachothers throats out for a pack of ramen so maybe a bit of competition will be good for them. It keeps life intresting.

November: nothin

December for the collective

Two of cups and the emperor!

Let's start off with the emperor card talks about stability and order. It can also signify being the "breadwinner" so its a good sign that you'll kinda be on top of your shit. The emperor is also an amazing leader so you might find yourself taking on a leadership role too! This is very organized energy that works very smoothly!

two of cups is such a lovely way to end out the year! It's love and partnership and attraction so if you aren't in a relationship by this time you might meet someone who strikes your fancy!! On a none romantic relationship note though, this card is also great for business partnership bc it signifies that you're on the same page and have the same goals in mind!

It's harmonious relationships and trust between them!! Love love love this energy so much! Cups are the suit of emotions and this card is so promising.

If you are in a relationship, this can talk about "falling in love all over again" like you're just reminded of how good they are.

December for BTS

Queen of cups

Intuition, creativity and emotional stability. They're using intuition to guide their moves foward with emotional maturity. They are in a place of knowing what they want and why. This would be a good time to work on an album or a book or to release them. The queen of cups is like the friend that you can tell absolutely anything and somehow they have a helpful answer. This card is really calm and it can also talk about subconscious thoughts.

I think that bts is maybe making more of a conscious effort to make sure that what they do is just as emotionally fulfilling for them as it is for us! They might be kinda pondering the future at this time and considering if this is what fills their emotional cup!

December: possibly a thing?

Now these cards are the vibe of the year and some advice.

For the collective (on the left)

Three of swords and judgment reverse.

The fortune says "accept the challenges, so that you may feel the exhilaration of victory"

The 3 of swords is about disappointment and hurt and heartbreak. It's about the emotional release that we all need when shit gets tough. Don't pretend to be strong. If you need to cry, fucking cry. This year is about letting go of expectations and do what you have to do to release so you can move foward and not have these things pile up.

You have to make an effort to not let yourself take on what other people think of you. You aren't defined by what some asshole says. You define yourself.

Judgment reverse is about self doubt and ignoring your path. It's being stagnant and being harsh on yourself. This year has a focus on building yourself up and noticing when you are not. Bring light to the things that are holding you back without harsh judgment for yourself. You can't beat yourself up. If you make a bad decision you know not to make it again. Take accountability and move on.

The oracle card is inner temple.

Seriously all the focus of this year is in self improvement and dear god, please take time to work on yourself spiritually!!! Everything you want to know is there if you take the time to listen. This should be a place where you feel safe and welcome. It definitely should not feel like something you HAVE to do.

For BTS

10 of swords and page of swords

The fortune says "you create your own stage. The audience is waiting" (how tje fuck?? This is the perfect fortune)

The 10 of swords is a painful but necessary end. This is accepting the current situation. They maintain focus for 2021 for them is adapting and keeping their spirits up.

With the page of swords it talks about new ideas and that kind of creativity. It's also a lot about communication so I really think that they'll be figuring out new ways to connect and new projects that will be prosperous.

The oracle card is Pleiades

This is what we talk about all the time. Bts has helped so many people want to be better and do better. They are uplifting humanity and giving people a sense if belonging. Bts finds you when you need them most 💜💜💜

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Wow I had to write this up over 2 days bc this was so fucking long. I need a nap. Idk if I'll proof read this before I post it so don't hate me for the mistakes (honestly, there's like 10,000 spelling and grammar mistakes in my other posts too 🙃)

I hope you guys enjoyed it and maybe this will be helpful to to have a forecast of some possible energy for you to look out for!!

Also bts bc I love them. I have another bts 2021 reading I'll do soon too!

Hope you guys are happy and well 💜

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I was tagged by @amywaterwings @mostlymaudlin @tea-brigade @effing-numpties @captain-aralias @bloodiedpixie . This is so cool, so thanks for sharing yours! ❤️

Per Amy: We add little bits of ourselves to our writing, scattering memories and places and phrases and things into our stories. The game is to find five examples of this, of YOU, in your writing and show everyone.

I don’t really feel like I put much of my own experiences into my fic, probably because I don’t feel like I have a lot of experiences to pull from. (That’s not me being self-deprecating; that’s me never going anywhere or doing anything.) So, let’s see what we come up with!

Going to tag here. I feel like I’ve gotten to this late so I’m not sure who has been tagged. Anyway. No pressure, loves. Just saying hi. 🥰 @theflyingpeach @bazzybelle @otherworldsivelivedin @unseelieseelie @wetheformidables @caitybug @nightimedreamersworld @foolofabookwyrm @stillmadaboutpetra

1. I have put the most of myself into A Man of Letters. I have my degree in English Lit and when I was in college, I was at the height of my Jane Austen obsession. So I sort of built my degree around the development of the English novel. My senior thesis was on a book called Evelina by Frances Burney, who was one of Austen’s greatest literary influences. Evelina is an epistolary novel—told entirely in letters. I love the epistolary form, for the same reason I love dialogue and texting fics. It’s such a fun narrative technique and can reveal so much about individual characters. It’s actually a bit like the way Rainbow Rowell uses multi POV in her books. Anyway, my love of the epistle was on full display in this fic, which is ofc told in letters. —Do I share a passage? That’s like...the whole fic 😅 So, idk. Here’s Simon being a disaster as he meditates on letter writing:

Dear Penny,

As I start this letter, I already know I'm not going to post it. I know I won't be able to bring myself to do it, because of what I have to say to you. I do feel bad. It's not that I don't want to tell you. And you know I'm so much better at writing things down than saying them out loud. It's only that I feel like this would all sound better coming from me in person. I just don't think I'll be able to make you understand in a letter. I'm still trying to understand myself. And writing all of this down helps me with that. Even if I'm only pretending to write to you, it makes me feel better, to think of you on the other end. I promise I really will tell you everything as soon as we're together again.

2. Also for A Man of Letters, my fascination with Regency fashions, in particular the dandy, was a major factor. I did an art book about this, comparing how fashion has changed over time, especially in regard to gender. (I also did an art book based on Evelina, since I’m on the subject. I minored in book art. 😁) I always fancied the look of a Regency dandy, so that was my gift to Baz.

Whoever has been working their magic on Salisbury should in fact be the person to whom I offer my eternal devotion. Alas, I am left to flounder under the burden of lusting after a man who is incapable of dressing himself.

The utter and unmitigated shame.

Salisbury wore a forest green wool frock coat that set off the golden highlights in his brown locks. This was accented with a green and aubergine striped silk waistcoat that was trimmed in white piping and felt much too daring a pattern for the man. (I don't care if he was a soldier; it takes a hardier man than him by half to choose a stripe like that.) His charcoal trousers were enticingly snug, but not so much to prove lethal. His cravat and points left much to be desired, though that likely reflected poorly on his ability to keep himself in order, rather than the ability of his valet. (Good God, maybe the man doesn't even have a valet!)

3. When it came to my countdown fic, To the Manor Borne, I had Shep make a reference to Cluedo, because Pitch Manor would be perfect for a real life game. Behind that, is the fact that my family played a lot of Clue and I watched the movie a whole bunch growing up, to the point where my sister and I used to quote it to each other. This was a way to pay homage to that. He also talks about playing the game Murder in the Dark, which was one I played at Halloween as a kid. One of my cousins was dressed as a ghoul with glow in the dark face paint and we were in my grandma’s creepy upstairs. Perfect vibes.

I’ve seen the kitchen and the dining room and the library and the study and the parlor. Walking through this house is like playing Clue. (They call it Cluedo on this side of the pond, because they like to be difficult.) (That was a whole thing. Do not get me started.)

I keep thinking Colonel Mustard’s going to pop up out of nowhere and brain me with a lead pipe.

And:

What kind of games do you play with magickal friends who don't have magic? Twister? Not with the wings and tail. Cards? Baz and Penny would cheat. Or accuse everyone else of cheating if they didn't win. Murder in the dark? With these people, in this house, I knew it would turn literal fast, and also it was like ten in the morning. Hide and seek? Simon and I would hide and everyone else would ditch. Snowball fight? World War III.

4. I’ve referenced Mozart in my fics a couple of times because when I was first getting into classical music, I was listening to a lot of Mozart. My sister had a CD of some of his early symphonies, and my local classical station does “Mozart in the Mornings” which happened to fit in the exact time slot between two morning classes I had my first year in college. I’d go sit in my car with a cup of tea, and just vibe with Mozart as my soundtrack. I’ve name dropped him in both A Man of Letters and To the Manor Borne. Also, Mozart wrote 12 variations on the melody shared by Twinkle, Twinkle, Little Star, which is a lovely tie in. (I also had the gang sing/cast The Holly and the Ivy, which is one of my favorite Christmas carols, and by strange coincidence was playing on the radio at the same time I wrote that scene. 🥰)

"It's a songbook," I tell him, like he can't figure that out for himself. "Did you know that Mozart wrote twelve different versions of the same song?"

He's laughing. "Mozart did not write Twinkle, twinkle, little star, Simon."

"You know what I mean."

"He composed twelve variations for solo piano on the French folk melody Ah! Vous dirai-je, maman."

"Sure. Anyway, this is for the violin. For you to play."

He's still laughing, and I'm trying to figure out what's so funny, but then he kisses me again, on the lips this time, so I figure maybe I'm still doing okay.

Only one more to go! What will it be? 👀

5. Therapy! Eheheh...😅 Look, it’s no secret the gang needs it. And tbh, so do I. Haven’t actually managed to get myself to go yet, and I think that’s where a lot of my “send them to therapy” happy endings come from. I did it in Use Your Words and To the Manor Borne. I started Chamber by Chamber with SnowBaz already in therapy, and then structured the whole thing around therapy that they give to each other and to themselves. It didn’t really fit in A Man of Letters, but if it had, I absolutely would have done it. I’ve only shared from two fics so far, and since it could kind of spoil the ending to Use Your Words (tho saying this may be spoiler anyway...), here are two snippets from It’s a Kind of Magic, Part I of Chamber by Chamber.

I've been working on articulating my needs. We both have. Ordinarily, I'd be afraid of pushing him away by making demands when he's on the verge of a spiral, but my therapist insists that I can't go on treating Simon with kid gloves. If I never ask him for anything, he'll think he doesn't have anything to give.

And

When I told that to my therapist, she said that I needed to talk it out of me and she'd help me find ways to work through it all. She said I needed to talk it out with Baz, too, so that he'd know how to help me when things got bad again—that was something else she said, that things would get bad again, and that I'd need to be prepared for that. That I couldn't expect things to be easy, and just go away.

6. BONUS! I think the biggest way I include bits of myself is in the AUs I’ve chosen to write. I have three I’m planning that say a lot about me, so I’m going to talk a bit about them here. There is ofc my Scooby Doo AU, inspired in large part by the fact that I watched it all the time growing up and also, my sister continues to be obsessed with it. When we were young, my parents were doing a lot of work on their house and we’d take family trips to the hardware store. My sister and I hated it, so we’d wait in the car with my mom and she would entertain us with “Scooby Doo stories”. Other AUs I’m planning? Troop Beverly Hills—please tell me someone else out there loved this movie the way I did when I was 5. It was very influential to baby me and I remember wishing for nothing more than being able to dress like Shelley Long. So, I’m going to let Baz do it, because I think he deserves it. 🥰 Lastly, tho it will probably be the first I write, is my Cupid and Psyche AU, from when I was heavy into mythology and religion. Since these are all forthcoming projects, I don’t really have a snippet. Instead, here’s Baz comparing Simon to Eros, which is what started my brain on that particular AU.

I am lost. I barely know anything about Salisbury, but I can't help being drawn in. At one time, I could have comforted myself that I was only so smitten with him because he looks like he was sculpted by Praxiteles. That excuse grows weaker with every encounter. He's the furthest thing from a lifeless tribute to beauty in marble as one can be. There is something deep and dark and feral inside of him and I want to claw it out. I want to see it, to let it free. To taste his wildness and his pain.

#tag game #writerly ephemera

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saucysamu · 4 years

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Hey I have an emergency rq cause my ed (bulimia/anorexia) is back and it’s really bad rn :/ I was hoping u could do an ed reader with yamaguchi, suga and akaashi? Thank you it means the world to me and I love the idea behind this blog😌

Hey anon! I sincerely hope you‘ll catch composure soon, stay strong ❤️

If you need someone to talk to my dms are open!

Also on another note: since i want it to be as realistic as possible i try to keep it as general as possible in order not to trigger anything!

Yamaguchi, Suga and Akaashi x reader with an ED

warnings : e4ting d1sorder, mention of food/eating

Yamaguchi

• King of self blame,,,,sigh you know dis bih is the most emotional out of those 3

• not to be an ass but i do think he would approach it,, well,,, not in the best way

• he would tell you how beautiful and perfect you and your looks are thinking that it’d make you feel better

• constantly tried to distract you,, give solutions,, he just wants to help and never dealt with something like that ok he‘s trying 🥺

• pls be patient with him he will get a hold of it!

• so much information gathering

• lmao literally follows the instructions from websites and books on how to be of help

• extra careful not to trigger you in any way,,honestly it doesn‘t always work we know he‘s lowkey clumsy

• gets impatient internally bc the way you perceive yourself has him like :(( and he just wants you to be okay like??? How can someone as beautiful inside out not love themselves as much as he does??

• he doesn‘t show his impatience tho you‘d be surprised

• avoids talking about anything related to that in order not to say anything wrong, unless you initiate a convo

• the BEST at listening, no judgement, takes everything in and takes mental notes/hints and starts working from there :)

• he‘s so happy when you‘re willing to seek professional help he might start tearing up 🥺

• does anything to comfort you and is always there for you, loves you the way you are and it‘s become a ritual for him to reassure you every day

Suga

• you can tell me what you want he‘s the born therapist without meaning to lol

• Sugamama™️ instincts are kickin he just FEELS when something’s up

• does everything intuitively and it??? Works???

• just KNOWS how to be there for you

• starts cooking more balanced meals

• never forces you to eat, but does want you to sit with him when he‘s having lunch or dinner

• wants to show you that it should be something enjoyable by that

• not pushy, let‘s you take the time you need he‘s kind of "chill" about it yk?

• like don‘t get me wrong he‘s sad you feel that way but he‘s optimistic and knows you‘re strong and he knows he‘s there to support you

• when he‘s had a bad day/ feels irritated he does want to scold you like the urge is tingling but nope! Takes a deep breath bc he‘s aware it wouldn‘t do any good

• I want his self-control

• the PROUDEST when you‘re more open for therapy

• rarely (and I mean rarely) feels helpless but when he does he‘d probably contact consultants and ask for advice

• you know he‘d never judge you, the way you think etc so you can be yourself around him as best as you can

• king of boosting your self-esteem!! Hypes you like no other about all the shit you do

• will always catch you if you fall back into old patterns

• will hold you silently and kiss the top of your head when you break down "we‘ll get through it together y/n. I promise"

• he keeps his promise.

Akaashi

• the first time he noticed something..going on his heart sunk

• don‘t you dare thinking he would ever show it in front of you but you do catch a glimpse of his weak moment

• we all know he can be a little blunt and a little bit too honest so expect a lecture

• ,,,that obviously backfires

• learns from his mistake though

• asks you directly what he can do for you in order to be there for you the right way

• he has obviously read various articles and magazines about it already and he knows it varies from person to person so he‘s just asking blatantly

• you know the mental list he has for Bokutos emo moments? Yeah he does the same for you and hence doesn‘t start conversations about it anymore

• he is one (1) rational dude, so when it comes to food he‘ll look for extra healthy stuff and tries to make it look uhh more appealing for you if you get what i mean??

• doesn‘t set ultimatums for anything but he does want you to eat at at least a bit every day

• insists on spending even more time with you, he needs to take care of you and sometimes he doesn’t even notice that he’s technically babying you and sometimes you would giggle at his behavior and he‘d be all like ?????

• he‘s the type to subconsciously flutter you and make you feel loved by doing small things like i‘m not kidding he wouldn‘t even notice he‘s doing something you find special yk?

• when you both are sleepy he likes to hold you close, nuzzle his face into your hair and mumble sweet nothings. When he‘s sleepy he‘s the most vulnerable so he‘d tell you how much he loves you and how stunning you are.

• Squeezes your hand whenever he tells you such things. He wants you to know he‘s there for you no matter what, even if he can‘t express it the way he wants to.

#haikyuu x y/n #haikyuu writing #haikyuu hcs #haikyuu hc #haikyuu #hq hcs #hq headcanons #hq x you #haikyuu x reader #haikyuu!!#yamaguchi x reader #sugawara x reader #akaashi x reader #haikyuu x mental health #haikyuu headcanons #saucyemergency #saucysupports

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taytayize123 · 3 years

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How one night can change your whole life ✨

THIS IS MY FIRST TIME WRITING FOR MGK. So please I ask you fans and mutuals who love him to be kind. I hope you like it. 🙊💞

It had been a fucking shit year and a half for me given, going through health issues, doctors and nurses that truly didn’t give a shit about how you felt about treatment where they’d just throw endless amounts of pills at you when you clearly tell them that you’ve done your research and other people have achieved remission through eating healthy, working out, and keeping anxiety low yet of course they don’t actually care how you feel. You are just there for them to get a buck out of you and keep the chain going. That whole experience had put me into two depressive meltdowns and to seek professional help by gaining a therapist. When I started therapy I began to realize how much resentment I held in about family members and past friends who’ve treated me like shit and i’m done being walked all over. A strained relationship with my mother. A barely existing relationship with my sister. The only person who seems to take interest in hearing me without having overly dramatic reactions is my dad yet, having a sit down conversation with him is hard so often I got left on my own. My solace in life is music and lately it had been one man that I kept going back to when I was feeling defenseless, stressed, not good enough etc. That was Machine Gun Kelly aka Colson Baker I had really taken a liking to Hotel Diablo about a year ago, something about him had intrigued me so much that I needed to hear every song and lyric. While I may have not struggled with poverty or coming from a broken home as he did, I related to his inability to express emotions the way he needed to be okay in life so he then found an outlet to channel all that rage, anger, sadness, sacredness etc into something that was not only powerful but got him out of that life of struggle, yet it also created new issues for him like finding out who his real friends are in life. Anyways, when he rapped or sang it made me say to myself; “Peyton you are gonna be okay.” an actually believing that for the first time in awhile.

While, vibing hard to Kells listening to every album as well as learning all the lyrics by heart. Started to develop favorites of his, my attitude started changing as I dove deeper into his music and overall personality. I began to appreciate how he simply didn’t care if he pissed off people as he was being his true self in the process I began to have the confidence in myself to put up or shut up and really stop letting those around me walk all over me and tell them no when they ask me to do something for them knowing they aren’t ever gonna return the favor or assuming I should do something for them just cause I’m family that’s bullshit. Within, this new feeling that i was experience maybe a little good karma came my way because I had gotten a ticket to his latest tour. It was fate or destiny I swear to god because he sold out in my town in ten minutes flat. It felt like I was rewarding myself for really working on my self but also the angels above putting something positive in my life for the first time in a long time and I was so thankful!

The day was here, October 13th came fast and I was so excited that I was getting this opportunity to see him live and I am stoked. Now, given that my mother asked me to use my car that day, I ended up telling her she could take it but to drop me off early at the venue and I would just chill all day before the concert. It wasn’t an issue, the venue had a hotel on the premise as well as a restaurant, bar, cute outdoor beer gardens and wooden areas to explore. I had chosen to go to the bar and order some lunch and sit up at the bar and read for awhile.

“Hi, yes could I order the cheese burger with tots please.” I ask nicely to the bartender. She pressed the buttons on the order device and smiled back at me. “Of course. Your order should be up in a minute hun.” she said in a pleasant tone and walked off. I had put my purse up on the counter and dug out my book which happened to be a book about Jimi Hendrix and his life. I’ve always been drawn to musical types I guess, my want for caring for those who struggle and need support somehow has always been attached to people I find interesting. “Here you go love,” the bartender places down my order and my drink as I thank her nicely and turn my page popping a tot into my mouth getting lost in the words yet it stops when I hear

“Do you mind if I sit here?”

I don’t even look up from my book, and nod happily. As I pick up my drink to take a sip I look up and see him. Machine Gun Kelly sitting next to me. My heart started beating a thousand times a minute but my brain tells my body to PLAY IT COOL. As I smile at him he smiles back, Hi. I’m Colson, what’s your name? and what are you reading?” he asks me peeking at my book. “It’s a book about Jimi Hendrix. I am really big into music and just find people who do something in the music field interesting plus he was one of the best guitarists in the world. I’m Peyton nice to meet you.” I say, slowly swallowing still trying to keep my voice even yet on the inside I was FREAKING OUT rightfully so I think. He grins at me as his order arrives, “Yeah, he was an inspiration to me to start playing guitar.” he says picking up his burger and taking a bit. He puts it back down. Noticing a bit of ketchup on his chin I let out a little giggle as I hand him a napkin. He lets out a boastful laugh, “Oh thanks hun, damn where are my manners eating like a savage in front of a pretty girl like yourself.” I look down at the floor. “Nah, I’m not pretty I’m sure you’ve met prettier girls than me.” I say, my happy upbeat tone dropping to one of unsure and self doubt. Still looking at the floor, as I feel fingertips on my chin. He brings my face up to look at his. “Peyton, you are pretty, even beautiful there’s something so real and authentic in your eyes and that is true beauty.” he spoke with such a low but meaningful expression. Staring into those kind blue eyes of his as he is looking back at mine an explosion of a unnameable feeling is spread throughout my whole body. I let out a shy giggle even letting out a short snort, which I snapped back to reality I groaned putting my face in my hands. Colson lets out another sweet chuckle, as he pulls my hands away from my face now holding them in his. “Stop it Peyton, that what you just did was adorable. I have to ask you, will you come back to our backstage area so we can keep talking. There is this pull to you and I can’t figure it out but I need to know more about you. Please.” He spoke with such a gentle tone as his eyes pleaded with mine looking for any hint of a positive answer. I smiled, “Of course, I’ll go with you Colson. Let me pay and we can go.” I said, fishing in my purse for my wallet as I took it out. He already handled the bartender his black amex card and she had cleared the purchase. I stand up in my wedged heels bringing my short 5′3 ass to maybe 5′6, still only coming up to his mid chest looking up at him. “Colson you didn’t have to do that.” I whined, once again Colson cracks another grin looking down at me. “You’re just so adorable. Good thing I don’t mind a bit of whining you’ll learn when to or not.” he smirks at me as he cracks a dirty joke making me laugh again. We turn to leave the restaurant, his hand intertwined with mine. His hands are strong, calloused; years of playing guitar and holding a microphone for hours on end. Fingers wrapping into mine. His other hand firmly placed on the small of my back guiding me which way to go. I thought to myself, as I walked with him; “Whatever will be tonight will be and live life to the fullest.” as the lyrics from his song 27 floored my brain.

“ Yeah, forever young, though, haha Always be those crazy kids running wide-eyed down the boulevard, huh 27.” 💞

#mgk fic #my first time writing him so please be kind! 🙈#I can’t believe I am posting this but I can’t get this story out of my head 🙈💕

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