#YouTube success tips and tricks

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The Right Thing

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YouTube Success Secrets: Why vid IQ Reigns Supreme

Unlocking YouTube success is all about having the right tools, and in this video, we dive into two heavyweights: VidIQ and Tube Magic. While both promise to elevate our channels, VidIQ stands out with its long-standing reputation among seasoned creators who rely on data-driven strategies for growth.

With powerful SEO and analytics features, VidIQ offers AI insights that enhance our titles, tags, and descriptions for better visibility. Plus, competitor analysis gives us an edge in our niche. From trending topic suggestions to a wealth of resources at VidIQ Academy, it’s clear why serious creators choose this tool for their journey toward YouTube dominance.

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How to Develop a Winners Mindset and Achieve Your Goals | GrowthGrail

In today's video, we are taking a look at self-discovery and personal growth as we unveil the secrets to developing a winner's mindset and achieving your goals. In this video, we provide actionable strategies and insights to help you unlock your full potential and propel yourself towards success. So, let's watch the entire video and learn how to develop a winners mindset and achieve your goals.

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From this video, you can discover the power of gratitude as a catalyst for happiness and success. Shift your perspective to focus on abundance and invite positivity into your life by acknowledging the blessings, big and small, that surround you.

Mistakes are not setbacks; they are stepping stones to growth. Learn how to embrace mistakes as invaluable teachers and opportunities to refine your approach towards success.'

Set your own standards for greatness and celebrate your unique journey. Resist the urge to compare yourself to others and focus on your individual progress and growth.

Identify and leverage your unique talents, skills, and qualities to propel yourself forward toward your goals. Learn how to align your ambitions with your innate abilities for maximum impact.

Nurture your self-belief and trust in your abilities to overcome obstacles and achieve your goals. Visualize success, surround yourself with supportive influences, and cultivate resilience in the face of doubt.

Maintain a positive outlook, even in the face of adversity. So, learn how to focus on the silver linings, count your blessings, and cultivate optimism as your default mode of thinking.

Set clear objectives and milestones to ensure steady progress towards your goals. Discover how to maintain unwavering focus and celebrate each small victory as you move closer to your ultimate goal.

Accept feedback as a tool for growth and self-improvement. Learn how to listen attentively, separate constructive feedback from negativity, and incorporate actionable feedback into your development plan.

Initiate progress towards your goals by taking decisive steps forward. Overcome inertia by breaking down daunting tasks into manageable actions and committing to consistent, purposeful effort. By following these nine steps, you can develop a winner's mindset that empowers you to conquer challenges, overcome obstacles, and achieve your goals.

Join us on this empowering journey of self-discovery and transformation. If you found this video helpful, don't forget to like, share, and subscribe for more insightful content on personal development and success strategies. Together, let's stay focused, stay positive, and keep winning.

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How to Successfully Interview For a Competency-Based Job #16

Navigating the Maze: Competency-Based Interviews at the UN

Competency-based interviews can be complex, but with the right preparation, they're your chance to shine. Our latest video, "How to Successfully Interview for a Competency-Based Job - UN Jobs #16," dissects the art of effectively communicating your skills in an interview setting.

Learn the STAR method, understand the competencies the UN looks for, and walk through common questions with tailor-made answers. Get a glimpse into the preparation process that could set the stage for a successful career with the United Nations.

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Unleash Your Potential: 5 Expert Strategies to Achieve SUCCESS!

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5 habits keeping you from Achieving | Success tips for Entrepreneurs

we reveal what may be holding you back and provide proven strategies and success tips that every entrepreneur needs to know. From time management and goal setting to fostering a growth mindset and building a strong network, these habits will set you on the path to greatness. Don't miss out on this valuable insight - watch now and take your entrepreneurial journey to new heights!"

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Trick or Treat you choose! When I was in college, we would laugh at the frat bros... we even had viewing parties of Jersey Shore and laughed at their antics, Gym Tan Laundry indeed. Now with the proliferation of Only Fans, and influencer culture, And seeing all these people rake in millions of dollars, I have do wonder, did they have the right idea? Maybe instead of paying for college, I should have put that money into focusing on my body, and getting ripped, and then starting an onlyfans? or a youtube/tick tok? What do you think?

‘The meek shall inherit the earth.’ You had always believed in that saying growing up. Being the scrawny and constantly bullied kid you were, you had to believe that. You had to believe that one day you’d be on top and all the sleazy, muscular jocks that treated you like shit would be working for you, that you and other nerds would win out in the end, just like in all the movies and songs. You believed in it so much that you began to look down on the meatheads who treated you like shit, and even just muscular guys in general. You and your 2 best friends would watch the ‘guidos’ on Jersey shore and make fun of them for how vapid and ridiculous they seemed.

And then you grew up. You got older, and learned that no matter who you were, success and failure were never guaranteed. You did alright for yourself, you got a nice job and an apartment, but it seemed like every year you worked a little harder and owed a little more. You were treading water, while the douchebags who used to bully you were living it up! Not all of them were successful, but those who were were famous, good looking hunks who seemed to have a different woman every night. Over time you became envious of them, and started to wonder if you had been wrong. If all the movies had lied, and the nerds never won. If the strong just kept getting stronger. You started to become obsessed with the idea of being one of those guys, of going back and doing it differently.

That’s why you had insisted on going in a ‘guido’ costume.

It was specifically a costume of one of the more famous Jersey Shore Guidos, Pauly D, but you didn’t actually care about the specifics that much. You just wanted to live out the fantasy of being a guido stud, just for one night. You had told your friends it was a joke. That you were doing it ironically to mock those types of guys. You even convinced them to go as other Jersey Shore guys, to make it into a group costume. You studied how they talked, how they walked, so that the fantasy would be all the more real. You just didn’t realize how real it would get

You weren’t sure when exactly it happened. When you and your friends got to the Halloween party your neighbor was throwing, you were surprised how much fun it was. As you partied through the night, eating candy, spewing guido slang and acting like the guy you dreamed of being, you didn’t notice how real it was becoming. You didn’t notice when the wig magically turned into real hair, when your skin gained a deep, manly tan, not even when your obviously fake muscle suit turned into real, hard beef. You only realized something was wrong when, after losing them for almost 2 hours, you ran into your friends again, and by then you were too far gone to care. You and your bros took a picture, each smirking smugly. Your voice, your history, even your identity had changed. You weren’t Pauly D, but you were a guido stud. An Italian stallion with a horse cock you knew was gonna get you laid tonight.

In the end, you got exactly what you wanted. You got turned into a studly Jersey bros guido. This time the trick was on your friends you dragged with you. Not that they seem to mind.

**hey! I haven’t done anything with ‘Guidos’ before, but I do find the stereotype very hot! I really hope I didn’t offend anyone though, as while I find the stereotype hot I know some people find it offensive. If you have any tips of how to write this kind of stuff more sensitively, please let me know. Thanks for reading!**

[online1drer]

Failure is not the end.

[riley-coyotl]

Hello - I'm a big dalmatian-fan looking to adopt my first puppy soon. I've been following you and Kelpie's training journey, and I wanted to know if you had any training methods/tips for a first-time dog owner? (I had a dog growing up, but outside a few tricks, I didn't fully train him myself.) All your dogs are beautiful and well taken care of! I enjoy seeing them cross my dash. Thank you for your time!

Hi! Thank you so much, I love my doggies and I'm glad you enjoy them too!! 🥰

The topic of training is so huge and covers a lot of things so I am not sure if there's anything specific you want to hear about, but to talk about it universally: I am a big advocate of reward-based (positive reinforcement) training methods involving giving as much choice as reasonably possible to your dog. This is the most effective way to train animals as well as the most ethical way to train, and will result in the healthiest bond and relationship you can build with your dog.

I avoid training using punishment, force, or coercion. Stay far, far away from the advice of anyone who recommends the use of aversives and punishment tools/techniques, or talks about dog training as if it were a power struggle for dominance (it's NOT, and thinking about it that way is not only inaccurate but simply just a SAD way of viewing the dog-human relationship.) This is important for ALL dogs but sensitive breeds (like herders or Dalmatians) especially.

The absolute most important thing I can tell you to internalize is to always, always try your best to set your puppy or dog up for success. This means managing and arranging the environment and conditions to make the behaviors you want to see more likely to occur, as well as being aware what your dog is/isn't capable of--if something isn't working, lower your criteria (expectations of what counts as "success") and try again. The more you can create opportunities for your dog to get things right, the more you can reward (reinforce) those successes. The more you can reward those successes, the more your dog will continue to do the things you want. The more you build a repertoire of success and communication with your dog, the more you can ask of them, and you can continue building off of this to do more and more with them. Always start simple and easy, and use those foundations to build up gradually to more difficult conditions or more complex behaviors you want to see, etc. This goes for literally any training subject, be it housetraining, recall, leash manners, or any other behavior you want to teach.

I recommend checking out Kikopup on youtube, she is an excellent trainer and has videos on training just about any topic you can possibly think of. I have learned a lot from her and always recommend her to anyone looking for training advice. She is my #1 resource I recommend to people. Whether you're a noobie or an old hat, her videos are honestly a goldmine.

Eileen and Dogs is also an excellent blog that covers a lot of training and dog behavioral education.

As for other tips...

For Dalmatians specifically, one tip I can give is to expect A LOT OF MISCHIEF! I swear to Dog this puppy has a sense of humor; Kelpie thinks it's funny to "prank" me... (to give an example, I point at her when she's acting crazy and say "don't bite me!" and her response is to air-snap at my finger with a twinkle in her eye! 😂) So it helps a lot to have a sense of humor about this stuff yourself, too.

And just for puppies in general...they can be a handful! I am not afraid to admit I have cried dozens of times while raising Kelpie (and Juniper, and Maple...) It helps to remind yourself that puppies are babies. They are new to the world, and they are learning. They'll get there. Try not to take things too seriously, don't get hung up on training milestones or comparing yourself/your puppy to others' progress. Try your best to focus mostly on building a bond, building trust, and letting your puppy just Be A Dog and learn that the world, and you, are fun and safe, and that you will always, always have their back no matter what. That relationship is the most important thing here. The rest will follow. (and yes, this is advice for me to remember too lol.)

Best of luck on your journey and if you have any other questions, feel free to ask and I'll do my best to answer or at least point you in the right direction. Dogspeed, friend!

[thirdlotusprince3]

What the Inside Out emotions would follow / like / re-blog / share on Youtube or Instagram.

Joy – cute animal videos, cool craft trick videos, magic tricks, parodies, memes, comedians, miracle / recovery videos, game shows, satisfying food / cook videos, cool experiments, sweet moments, coolest places on earth, motivational quotes for workout, EDM / self empowerment pop music for workout.

Anger – athletes, Nascar, alpha chad motivational speakers, cool stunt videos, videogames, rockstars, billionaire success stories, car / motorcycle / truck videos, workout videos, sports channels, samurai facts, insane places to mountain climb, I mountain climbed.

Disgust – Fashion, makeup brands, celebrity couples, character shipping videos, dating reality tv-shows, celebrity gossip.

Envy – Disgust, celebrities, fashion brands, toy brands, Sanrio, Pokémon, Minecraft videos, latest tech videos, makeup tutorials, youth culture commentary, baking videos, coolest places on earth, cute sushi / candy videos, I tried this activity / challenge video, acrobatic tricks, nightcore.

Anxiety – Finance saving money advice, self-motivational speakers, health fact diet videos, weather channel, social skills advice, fashion tips, satisfying nature videos, satisfying art videos, how to avoid waste and clean up the environment, folk music, tea videos, best teas / candle brands, how to clean up your space, tips on planning, scheduling, and time management, these make you smart.

Sadness – National Geographics, animal facts, book suggesters, philosophy videos, society / social commentary videos, sympathy tragic challenge videos, cool animals, fables, history.

Embarrassment – social skills advice, animal facts, cool animals, mountain pictures, blankets on amazon

Fear – Health facts, diet videos, weather channels.

Ennui – Goth aesthetic pictures, fail videos, people posting L’s / being dumb posts, supernatural folklore, gothic architecture, grunge artists.

[blogtey45]

Embarking on the journey to success in the Pearson Test of English (PTE) is often a challenging endeavor. In this blog post, we bring you the inspiring success story of Cecile, who achieved a remarkable score of 9 each in the PTE exam with the assistance of EnglishWise.

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Two brothers from Nigeria who targeted a 17-year-old in a sextortion scam have been sentenced to 17 years and six months in jail in the US.

The Ogoshi brothers, from Lagos, lured Jordan DeMay into sending them explicit images by pretending to be a girl his age - then blackmailed him.

He killed himself less than six hours after they started talking on Instagram.

It is the first successful prosecution of Nigerians for sextortion in the US, where it is a rapidly growing cyber-crime, often linked to Nigeria.

Jordan's mother, Jenn Buta, held pictures of her son in court and wept as she read a victim impact statement. "I am shattered to my core," she said.

She welcomed the ending of the trial, but said there was no good outcome from the tragic case.

Jordan DeMay was a popular schoolboy from Michigan.

Samuel Ogoshi, 24, and Samson Ogoshi, 21, sent him a friend request on Instagram pretending to be a pretty girl his age and then flirted with him.

Once they received explicit images from the teenager, they blackmailed him for hundreds of dollars, threatening to share the pictures online with his friends if he did not comply.

Jordan sent as much money as he could and warned the scammers that he would kill himself if they spread the images.

The criminals replied: “Good… Do that fast - or I'll make you do it.”

John DeMay told Marquette federal court in Michigan he still has nightmares after finding his son dead in his bedroom. He said his family was forced to move home to escape the memory.

If you've been affected by the issues in this story, help and support is available via the BBC Action Line

The brothers pleaded guilty in April to conspiring to sexually exploit teenage boys in Michigan and across the US.

Thirty-eight other US victims were also identified as being targeted by the men. 13 of them were minors.

The brothers sat in court in orange jumpsuits with handcuffs.

Their defence attorneys said the brothers' crimes were fuelled by drug abuse and the sextortion scam culture in Nigeria.

The judge said the crimes showed a "callous disregard for life", especially given they continued targeting other victims after learning that Jordan has died.

Both brothers apologised to Jordan's family.

"I'm sorry to the family. We made a bad decision to make money and I wish I could change that," Samson Ogoshi said.

In the first case of its kind, US police tracked the criminals to Lagos last summer and successfully extradited them for trial.

Another Nigerian man linked to Jordan’s death and other cases is fighting extradition.

Speaking to the BBC in May from Jordan's family home in the city of Marquette, Jordan's mother praised the police for their work tracking the sextortionists down.

But she said she had mixed feelings about the Ogoshis being behind bars.

"It's a relief that someone is being held accountable, but there's no good that's coming out of this situation for my family or for the individuals responsible's family," she said.

"I miss my son more than I can describe to you, but the mother of those men is probably missing her two sons as well now. She too is really just an innocent bystander of sextortion crime," said Jenn Buta.

Researchers and law enforcement agencies point to Nigeria as a hotspot for this type of crime.

In April, two Nigerian men were arrested after a schoolboy from Australia killed himself. Two other men are on trial in Lagos after the suicides of a 15-year-old boy in the US and a 14-year-old in Canada.

Nigerian authorities are also working with police in Scotland to investigate the case of 16-year-old Murray Dowey, who killed himself in December.

In January, US cyber-company Network Contagion Research Institute (NCRI) highlighted a web of Nigerian TikTok, YouTube and Scribd accounts sharing tips and scripts for sextortion. Many of the discussions and videos are in Nigerian Pidgin dialect.

Nigeria cyber-security professor Adedeji Oyenuga from Lagos State University says he hopes the news of Nigerians being sentenced will filter through to criminals and put them off.

"The Ogoshis case has already sent a bad signal. I am hearing from street level that it is having an effect and it might not stop criminals turning to these crimes, but it will likely reduce the numbers," he said.

There had been an increase in the number of local victims too and Professor Oyenuga says Nigerian police have had some success in tackling the criminals.

It is not the first time that some of Nigeria’s young, tech-savvy population has embraced a new wave of cyber-crime.

The term "Yahoo Boys" is used to describe a portion of the population that use cyber-crime to earn a living. It comes from the early 2000s wave of Nigerian Prince scam emails which spread through the Yahoo email service.

Dr Tombari Sibe, from cyber-security firm Digital Footprints Nigeria, says cyber-fraud such as sextortion has become normalised among young people in the country, but he hopes that news of the Ogoshis' sentencing spreads fast.

"They see cybercrime as a bloodless crime, with potentially lucrative financial rewards. This case needs to be given sufficient coverage to show these young people that sextortion can lead to loss of life and long prison sentences," he said.

[diamond-daisies-in-the-wind]

Postpartum Sucks

Postpartum actually sucks. 

Not to sound cliche, but NO ONE talks about postpartum and even those who do, don’t elaborate on the horror movie it actually is. Set aside the hair loss, the raging hormones and the obscene changes to your body, nothing compares to the mental strain that postpartum has on a new mom. Think of a blender filled with rusty nails and oranges and trying to make something useful with that; that’s what postpartum is. 

The Physical Changes No One Warns You About

The physical aspects of postpartum like hair loss, body changes, and hormonal shifts are glossed over and it seems like every influencer has just the right tips and tricks to get you to “bounce back” to your pre-pregnancy body but the only thing that’s “bouncing” is the loose skin that dangles over my c-section scar. I was relatively healthy, and I wouldn’t label myself as “skinny queen”, but I was happy with what I looked like, and I didn’t care much about others opinions. However, pregnancy destroyed my entire stomach area with purple and pink tiger stripes that run across my entire abdomen. I used to confidently stand in front of my husband in my birthday suit but lately, I feel the strong desire to wear an actual suit to hide what I think are my imperfections. I personally didn’t experience much hair loss, however my body changed so drastically. My hips are wider now than they were before which makes finding clothes impossible. I’m stuck with buying clothes that are two or three sizes too large just so I can accommodate my raging curves. I have been able to find two pairs of jeans that fit nicely, and I treat them as if they are religious artifacts meant to be worshiped. I refuse to buy any more jeans for myself because the task of having to go to a store, look for jeans that I think fit, and then try them on just to be disappointed over and over again is disheartening and I refuse. There once was a youtuber who lived her best life in leggings and refused to wear jeans at all costs; I will do the same. I don’t want to care about how my body looks to others and the thing I struggle with the most is associating the person I see in the mirror to the person I see in myself. Right now, they are two different people judging each other without actually getting to know each other. How do I restore these relationships between my sense of self? I haven’t the answer to that question but one day I think I’ll be able to look back and wonder why I cared so much... 

Leaning On My Supports 

Postpartum is a heavy task that every woman must face and not having a good support system can really be the downfall to success. Now, I can’t speak for everyone because there are some things that I didn’t experience that most do. I have a really good support system on both sides of the family. My mother, though she can be abrupt at times, is always willing to help, even if it’s just sitting with my son. My father helped and still helps on occasion with little financial struggles. My husband and I knew there would be added expenses to having a baby and we were confident that this burden would be easy to take hold of, but we weren't expecting my sudden job change. There was a short period where my husband and I couldn’t afford groceries or bills and my father chipped in. He sent us money just in case and gave us that financial support that most people don’t receive. Moreover, my mother and father-in-law are the kindest people to ever exist and though they could not easily be at my house without a long drive, they helped by buying us diapers, formula, and different necessities so that my husband and I didn’t have to worry, further loosening that financial burden. I know that not everyone has these supports in place, and I am and will always be eternally grateful for their support. This isn’t a moment where I am gloating about the things that I have but appreciative that I do have these supports that can lift some burden off me and my husband’s shoulders. 

The Mental Toll 

With my family’s support, it allowed me to take a deeper dive into my mental health, however, in my exploration of who I am, I ended up getting stuck. Even now, I feel the sticky slime at the bottom of my shoes, reminding me that negativity is always there. The mental aspect of postpartum really took a toll on my sense of self. I’ve always struggled with my anxieties but over the years, I was able to manage well with breathing exercises, mediation, and support from my husband. However, all of that had to be thrown out the window. I can no longer just breathe it out when I’m feeling overwhelmed; I'd go blue. There is no time for meditation, any of my free time is spent taking care of the baby or doing chores around the house. My husband is also trying to stay afloat with the added responsibility of taking care of another human while still managing his online classes and going to work. There were countless nights where I felt stuck and all I could do was disassociate myself from reality. 

One night in particular really stuck with me the most because I was enshrouded in a wet black veil of depression that I couldn’t take off. My son was particularly needy that night and wouldn’t sleep unless he was being held by me. My husband was asleep bedside me and I was growing increasingly angry at the sight of his peace. I decided to abscond from our room and sit on the rocking chair in my son’s nursery. There I sat, rocking back and forth, thinking of all the decisions I made in my life that led me to that moment. Thinking about how nothing I did was good enough for the high expectations I had set for myself. All I could do was rock back and forth, shushing my baby, lulling him to sleep, watching his precious eyelids fall into serenity as fear filled my body with no outlet of release to not wake him. 

I rocked back and forth, trapped in a state that was both soothing but suffocating, each movement a pendulum swing between numbness and despair. Time felt elastic, as if the night would stretch on forever. With every rock back and forth, my mind retreated to its inner most depths where only darkness resided. The house was deathly quiet, the soft pulse of air from the fan humming. I could feel the electrical vibrations through my skin as I stared at the shadowed walls encasing me in a prison of solitude and sadness. His peace was more important and all I could do was sit in the depths of my brain, reliving moments in my life that I wish I could change. Fixated on everything I should have done or said to those around me. The choices I made, the things that I could never change. Was this where I truly was meant to be? A heavy blackness hung over me, pressing down like a thick fog, unyielding. The hands of darkness caressing my neck and back, putting strain on my already overstimulated body. Every dark thought, a weight that pulled me deeper, making it hard to break. There was no escaping the cacophony of worries; am i a good mother? Am i a good wife? Am i a good daughter? Am i a good sister? Am I good enough? 

The rocking chair became my prison, the cushions of the chair were meant to provide comfort and warmth, but in that moment, I felt a heaviness inside me that was crushing my soul. While my son rested in absolute peace, my mind was a whirlwind of chaos, storming through my being with self-doubt, anxiety, and fatigue. Eventually, my son’s steady breaths lulled me out of my despair, the rising sun illuminating the ominous shadows. With every step that dawn took, it brought me back to my reality, though I continued to rock back and forth, holding the little I had of myself, I knew that I had to rise soon and face a new day. I knew that I had to subdue these oiled thoughts and cast them aside because I had to be there. I could not allow myself to flail in a pit of nothingness because there were those who relied on me. As the birds quietly chirped and the morning dew sat on the lawn, I clawed myself a window, just big enough to allow some light into my darkened world. I’m still there sometimes, rocking back and forth but instead of holding my sleeping baby, I’m holding onto the person I used to be, trying to figure out how to be that person again while also moving on to the new phase in my life. I have carved away most of the darkness that took over, but it’s still there. In every step I take forward, I can still feel the oil beneath my feet, reminding me that at any moment I can easily slip right back. 

Losing Myself and Finding HER Again 

No one talks about that... the fact that when you become a mother, you lose a part of yourself that you loved. You become a caretaker, preventing fires and putting band aids on things that require stitches. Pushing all those negative thoughts and emotions into a trunk and throwing them in the ocean, hoping that you never see them again. But it’s there... it lurks in the back of your head, and you have to figure out how to just be. 

It’s been a few months since that eventful night, and I’ve had time to reflect on where I was to who I am now. I can’t confidently say that I have escaped that dark nursery, rocking back and forth, but I am able to escape more easily now. Returning to work has helped distract me from those anxieties but I still haven’t found my identity. Going back to work allows me to be who I was before, which makes me feel guilty because there’s a subtle pleasure in not having to put all my attention into taking care of my son. I love my son, and I strongly believe that my purpose is to be his mother, but the small doses of freedom keep me alive. 

To the Mothers Who Feel Alone

I want this to be an insight for those mothers who struggled or are struggling; subdued to the strong emotions and trying to forget and move on to something that is totally different than what was known before. I want this to be a trek into the unknown that we take on together and hopefully, this could alleviate some stress in at least one person, knowing that they aren’t alone. Motherhood itself is a task that cannot be taken on by anyone. I will admit that most of the beginning of motherhood is checking off boxes on your to-do list and maintaining that structure like taking your child to doctor's appointments, making sure they had enough food for the day, giving them baths, and maintaining a livable environment. It’s the emotional aspect of it that tears you down. Yes, you can feel accomplished by doing the easy things, but regaining who you were is a tough road that every mother goes through. I’m not just a mother... I’m a person with hobbies and interests and desires. I don’t feel that I have completed my transformation, life doesn’t allow anyone to really meet their peak but there has to be some peace along the way. Balancing how to be a mom, a teacher, a wife, and an individual is how I’m going to find my own peace and give myself the opportunity to say goodbye to the “she” who used to be mine. 

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My Dad Is Overprotective But I Do Whatever I Want

My Sister Had 2 Plastic Surgeries To Look Like Me

a party changed my life forever

I Removed My Birthmark & Didn't Recognize Myself

My Life With 200 Bodyguards

I'm Better Than Cruella

My Dad Hired A Bodyguard For Me

He Had No Idea I Was A Secret Agent

My "Perfect Life" When My Sister Was Born

My Bestie’s Boyfriend Fell In Love With Me

The School Bully Treats Me Like A Princess

I got 20 million followers in Tiktok, and now my parents abandoned me

Girls are Jealous of Me Despite of ALL MY Conditions

Paparazzi Chase Me Since I Was A Baby

I turned a homeless into a billionaire then he left me

Mom Isn't Happy That I'm a Successful Singer

My Dad Have A Bank: My Incredible Story (pt1, pt2)

I Got The Worst Fake BF To Make My Crush Jealous

I Dated 10 Guys! The Last One Is Going To Change Everything

The Beautiful Olivia

The President Hired Me

I Found A Way To Time Travel (pt1, pt2, full mini movie)

I Dated My E’s Billionaire Friend As Revenge

I'm The Top In Everything

Me And My Dad Traveling The World Together

Someone Gave Me A 1 Million Dollar Tip

i am too awkward

They Kidnapped Me

I'm Too Shy

My Brother Tricked All My Gf’s To Breakup With Me

I have two personalities. I can’t choose.

I Can’t Tell Anyone My Name

I Had Amnesia And Woke Up Married To A Billionaire

Oops! Hired an Actor as My Bodyguard

i found out why i am pretty

I Was Raised to Be a Criminal

The good and bad of Popularity

People Think I'm Innocent, But I'm Not

I Met MrBeast

I spent all my dad money in 33 days

how a real life princess goes to school

I Started Living Alone at 15

My drama is Worse than Selena Gomez& Hailey Bieber

My Bestie's Ex Likes Me

Switched At Birth

I’m the Tallest Girl Dating the Tallest Boy. We’re Giants

Enjoy life like there is no tomorrow

I Changed My Face To Take Revenge

i have to tell the truth

I’m A Famous Teen Actress, I Do What I Want

Ellie The Hacker

I'm Being Bullied By The People Who Adopted Me, What Happens Next Is Shocking

The Story I Wrote Became My Life

I'm Salish Matter And This Is My Story

My Sister Has The Only Thing I Want In Life

I Paid My Best Friend GF To Fake Date Me

I Lost All My Money So My Bestie Made Me Her Maid

My Stepdaughter Hates Me

We’re a Celebrity Family & We Have NO Privacy

I ruined my $1,000 Louis Vuitton Shirt

I Moved in with my boyfriend at 16

I Bet I Can Make A guy Fall In Love With Me In 14 Days

Billionaire Girls Fight Over Me. I'm a Poor Guy

I made the 3 school billionaire heartthrobs fight over me

i'm Too TALL