#YOU RUINED HIS DOOMED YAOI

[aleksan-art]

i KNOW silco couldve fixed warwickified vander.

[dairyfreenugget]

I could count the amount of original stories of mine that don't have horror elements on one hand and idk what that says about me

[honeqq]

I know this ruins the wholesomeness of the au, but I can’t stop thinking of Ford finding out that Bill has been messing with his memory for YEARS. obviously he still loves Bill, that can’t quite disappear, but just the sprinkle of mistrust that a situation like that might provoke MAKES ME CRAZY!!! like wdym the love of my life, my muse, my sun and center of my galaxy has been doing this to me for so long and I didn’t even notice? And just having to build that trust up again 😞😞it kills me I love them sooo much!!! Like the clear power imbalance between them and how it’s affected their relationship even if neither meant for it to happen, I know bill is jealous and all but it’s like he can’t comprehend the damage being done??? kinda??? like he thinks of it as it being for Ford’s sake, for his own good, but never once thought of asking or had a double take, because he’s just that powerful. he CAN just do it with no repercussions and that’s that and who can tell him otherwise? who can stop him? nobody!! just his own good will but we all know he lacks in that department

Not you guy doomed back the undoomed yaoi 😭 BUT OMG THIS IS SO TRUE , reading you explaining this turn on something on my brain. Yeah I kinda want to make it wholesome but the angst probability is many

[bellagrimfox]

You know what really grinds my gears about Helluva Boss?

The fact that they turned this funny looking owl man into the absolute worst character ever.

Playing Devil's Advocate

In the beginning, when I used to watch season 1, I didn't have much trouble with him. In fact, I thought he was kinda funny in some moments. Granted, looking back at them, a lot of moments were gross and pretty hypocritical like the way he talks and treats Blitz. But many people, myself included, wanted to see a redemption where he admits his wrongs and changes for his daughter Octavia.

And then season 2 started with Brandon being kicked from the writting team.

THAT Episode

The beginning of the end as I and many fans like to call it. This one episode managed to change everything about the portrayal of Stolas and Blitz's relationship, turning it from a morally grey/complex situation where Stolas was the one causing the most damage, into pretty much doomed yaoi. So the entire point of the season 1 finale is just thrown away now. How fun!!

As for the Stella debate, while there wasn't a lot of her character to call what happened to her a retcon, there was one thing that the episode did to make her a worse character by a writing standpoint. They flipped her from being a wife who was justifiably hurt to a villain that exists to justify Stolas and Blitz being a thing, even though the show gives us reasons why they shouldn't.

Rewritting the Stars

As much as I liked his personality in season 1, after season 2, I can't look back on those scenes exactly the same way without turning my brain off. So instead of a complete rewrite, I'd wanna propose a compromise. Have Stollas still be the primary antagonist/obstacle of season 1 but with more characteristics connected to his original myth.

I'm still torn on how I want to approach this rewrite but I have 3 clear ideas I want to get across:

Stolas and Blitz are both in the wrong.

Both parties are held accountable and try to redeem themselves.

Fixing everything that made Stolas irredeemable.

Helluva Boss Rewrite?

Because season 2 has made the rest of the show hard to enjoy, I'm thinking of completely rewriting the episodes and making the pilot canon since making it non canon ruins the premise of the show. I'm thinking of calling this rewrite project "Hell With It" and making the redesigns inspired by some of the unused concept art. I'd love to find writers and artists who share my vision of a Helluva Boss Rewrite.

[l0uterstella]

EVER RED: THE THEORY (MASTERPOST)

This is a post compiling all the theories surrounding Ever Red from the Fragaria discord server

Last updated: Dec 2 2023

AMNESIA THEORY, THE TIMELINES

Fragaria's story is confirmed to be separated into two: The MVs and the voice dramas. This could imply two separate timelines. The 1st timeline is “ruined”, and the 2nd timeline (possibly the one for the MVs) acts as the present. In the Ever Red MV, there are lyrics highlighted in red, most of them pointing to them forgetting something.

This theory is unrelated from Ever Red, but the main point of the amnesia theory is that the knights don't remember their "original" selves, their current names and forms being a show of their connections to their lords (hence why Hangyon's name is only 2 letters off from Hangyodon for example).

These lyrics also point to something being forgotten (strawberry/fruit representing memories. Sweet and sour memories, a memory that ripens/develos as it is repressed)

But forgetting their old identities also means forgetting past events.

RIBBONS

The ribbons represent the pains of the past. In this part, Hallritt sings "Once the ribbon is tied, the knot marks are still there." Once pain is inflicted, the wounds and memories are still there.

The ribbon now ties everyone close to each other. The Red Bouquet will be there for Hallritt to help process his past, and make things right again (see next header).

I just want you to laugh, that's all I wish for Even if our memories are mismatched

Hallritt is now being covered by the ribbon, except for his eyes. He must face the truth of what he did.

HIDDEN AUDIO, "ELDRITCH HALLRITT"

Refer to this post to listen to the hidden audio.  "Move. That dream… It was my fault." It was Hallritt's fault for the destruction of the 1st timeline. Around 3 minutes into the MV, there is a quick frame of this shadow version of Hallritt which me and the discord have named Eldritch Hallritt/Eldritt.

(isn't he so silly <3)

He was the "original" Hallritt from the 1st timeline, and a manifestation of the current Hallritt’s true feelings and repressed memories. He knows everything. He was the one who destroyed the 1st timeline, and is here to make sure the Hallritt of the current timeline doesn’t mess up.

But what was Hallritt's mistake in the first place?

SEEDS

SEEDS are the antagonists of Fragaria's story. They could be the original knights, as seeds come first before flowers/bouquets. One day, they took things too far, leading them to be banished and replaced by the Fragarians.

They might have once tricked Eldritt/The "original Hallritt" into joining them, which led to him ruining his contract with Hello Kitty, destroying the 1st timeline. Eldritt then reset the timeline into the current one, and is watching over the current Hallritt to not make the same mistake he did.

BONUS/MINI THEORIES

My friend Angel pointed out that "Fragaria Memories" sounds similar to "Fragmented Memories"

System Hallritt - Eldritt is an alter for Hallritt (+ is a protector or a gatekeeper) who wanted to prevent him from finding out the truth, but they can't run from it forever.

Bouquet leader doomed yaoi (I don't have a better name for this) - If Cielomort and Badobarm find out about Hallritt's secret, they could get angry and not trust him anymore. If this happens, the conflict could grow, repeating what happened in the 1st timeline that led to its destruction.

Hangyon and Chaco know - These two are suspicious. For Chaco, his title is "The detour dog with a hidden motive." The hidden motive could maybe have something to do with SEEDs. For Hangyon, if he knows what happened in the 1st timeline, that could be why he's close with Badobarm specifically. He watches him for any signs of the past repeating itself.

In a world that continues to change Only time will never come back Yet no one can take away our memories (EVER RED) I'll never forget them for eternity Living in memory No one can see it, but it'll never disappear Ever certain, ever red

[bornwholocker]

Ok yes the final jayvik scene was crazy yes yes yes but

Can we talk about how wild ALL of their scenes together the last 2 episodes were?? Like the way viktor held him in the council room scene in episode 8??? The astral shot after that where they’re parallel each other??? Jayce realizing he’s in the exact position as his body was in the ruined timeline and just like. Accepting it?? Just closing his eyes and letting viktor evolve him?? The framing of the two of them when Jayce first enters the arcane astral plane thing(idk if it has a name) with viktor and the halo around his head ??? I think I’m missing a couple but like they went all out for the doomed yaoi this arc arcane the story that you are

[ikeep-forgetting-mypass]

(forgot where the post is so i'm just puttin it here)

the tragedy of Billford is that they could have worked. Like, genuinely, they could have loved each other! ....If only Bill wasn't the fucking worst!

people know that, in canon, a Bill Cipher who'd actually come to terms that he's a terrible person and ruined the only relationship that ever truly warmed him by being said terrible person, is a Bill that would never come to fruition. That ford getting away from Bill and finding his place in the family deserves to be able to move on completely.

That's why 'Bill getting sent to the pines as therapy' is so interesting!

Both of them, especially Bill, have fundamentally changed. and that opens up so many interactions between them and creates a sort of dynamic thats like:

'We were frankly in a very terrible relationship, but now that we have grown and changed and (I) have a support system that will break us apart immediately if we begin to hurt each other, and you genuinely want to be better, maybe this time we can be happy.'

that I have frankly never seen before in media.

Edit/add on:

They're the epitome of 'maybe in another life..' they're tragic, doomed, toxic yaoi who could have loved each other but ultimately couldn't because, for all of Bill's unpredictability, he is incapable of changing who he is!

After all, why should he? Born a monster, a freak, he destroyed his own home, his parents, what else can he be? Even though it sabotages his friendships (the henchmaniacs & the oracle) and ruins his relationship with Ford, the only one he's ever felt truly understood by, he can't see himself and therefore is unable to act as anything but a monster even as it leads to his downfall.

[artisticxlly]

Kamomedai vs Karasuno (pt. 2!)

Find pt.1 here!

Again, will be focusing more on the things I feel are important to mention here, trust me, I also just saved a ton of panels for the sake of them looking cute.

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Okay but Sachirou almost got a touch in on a setter dump??? How fucking perceptive can you be. Kourai was also very quick to react, almost receiving it. A power couple indeed, fast as fuck.

Their height difference still manages to make me chuckle. Also, god do I love Sachirou's smug smile. When I say he looks punchable I mean it in the best way.

Oh they're menaces. They're a combined evil that I absolutely enjoy. I'm affectionately saying 'fuck them'. I love a duo of bitches.

I did an analysis on Sachirou's backstory before, but here are some added notes on further reread:

Both Sachirou and Kourai end up alone because they're both focused on their passion for volleyball. While with Kourai, we don't get the explicit reason as to why (though I'm sure that taking his mothers advice, he is just extra focused on working hard), yet it seems less... Tense.

If you're familiar with unhealthy habits, i.e. workaholic-behaviour, you kiiiind of already feel the dread as you read the chapter. You see Sachirou gaining trophies, sure, you see how hard he works, sure, but it feels dull. His price for being an extrordinary athlete is given the same amount of time as him needing to remember to eat is.

Kourai is perceptive too, he most likely picked up on how passionate Sachirou is about getting better. That makes them similar.

What differs for them is the lengths they go mentally to achieve that. Sachirou takes it a whole lot more seriously. Not in a sense of how genuine his care for the sport is, but how much it matters to him when he isn't on the absolute fastest way to improvement. It gets to a point where it's unhealthy, this need for perfection, or at the very least constant improvement to make up for the mistakes.

You can absolutely say that him dragging his knuckles across the wall is his way of punishing himself for making mistakes, but if you look at it a certain way "My serving was off today. I'd better practice some more" is already just... Not good. Having an off-day should be something that's allowed, not something that needs to be fixed or ridiculed with more practice. To me, that too feels like a punishment he's putting on himself. It's implied that he does this more, or at least it seems to me that way. This repeating thing of him being late to eat something or not feeling up for it is phew... Yikes. A slippery slope, to say the least.

That's what ends up dulling his passion for volleyball. It started as that, sure, a genuine, innocent interest. But it ended up being unhealthy with how he dealt with it. That's why he only wants to play again after Kourai insists that he could quit at any time. Only after his perspective is changed can he regain a sense of joy for it, because it became such a mental battle for him and would've ruined his self-esteem completely if he kept his ideology. So yeah, Kourai sure as hell saved him in my eyes.

It's funny seeing how shocked their other teammates are about Kourai's conversation with him, but it makes sense that only a harsh wake up call would touch Sachirou at that point.

And man, I can't help but feel that this thing implies something darker than just him giving up volleyball. I mean, if you look back, it's kind of implied that volleyball overshadowed his other, more care-free life (hence his picture getting slowly covered up by volleyball books). And so if you took away the sport that was his life... Yeah, you get what I'm trying to hint at I think.

I'm honestly really glad Kourai was there to get Sachirou to snap out of those shackles he keeps talking about. Ugh, yaoi so strong it saves itself from being doomed.

OHHH YOU MAKE ME SICK.

Ohhhh youre so sick for outright admitting if /pos

Saving the others life is a trope that I love, have I mentioned that? I don't think I have /s

You could, you know. Also just say you're not fine,, just an idea. (I'm a sucker for them learning hoe to communicate their feelings when they're not okay and you can pry that headcanon from my cold, dead hands /lh)

They look so happy, fuck my gayass lifeeeeeee

Again, yeah, the theme of overcoming insecurities pulling you down. Ughhh /pos

I LOVE Sachirou's face scrunch on the top right so much.

Asking to fight with someone has never sounded gayer in my LIFE (In German you'd say "Was sich neckt, liebt sich" > people that tease eachother love eachother).

Also aghh, will be thinking about Sachirou calling Kourai their star for a good while... You gay freaks sicken me /pos

Yeah, sooo,, those are like the thoughts I had which are NOT just internal screaming and actually had a point to them (/hj)

I hope these thoughts make sense! If you have any additional thoughts or opinions feel free to bother me about them :P

[valsnonsense]

Floyd: I'm so lucky you came into my life...

Creek: Heh... I'm the one who's lucky..

Floyd: I love you so much, Raindrop...

Creek: I love you too, Sugar Plum

Today I come out as a soft Fleek enjoyer. I love psycho Creek and toxic yaoi fleek as much as the next fella, but soft, healing Fleek is the true owner if my heart.

(Don't worry Creek is still kind of a cunt, I won't take that away from him. Mans an asshole)

Personal headcanons alert!!! (This image falls into my Depths AU, hence Creek's lack of an arm)

TW: Mentions of drug abuse and alcoholism/self destructive actions

Creek sold out his entire people to save his own skin. Why did he do it? There's really only one reason. Guy was scared. Terrified. He was staring death in the face. In the literal jaws of a creature that would devour him without second thought. And fear makes us do stupid things. Things we regret. Things we can NEVER take back.

Creek is genuinely remorseful about his actions. When he winds up alone, fighting for his life every day, he feels he deserves it. He deserves to be alone. To die alone. He may have saved his own life in that moment. But he doomed himself to a life of solitude.

Until Floyd came into his life.

Now Floyd has made his own handful of mistakes. I personally love the headcanon that Floyd feel into some BAD habits during his solo career. I'm talking party drugs, drinking, ext. Mans a party animal, or at least he was. Until it got his ass hundreds in debt, mooching off any who'd take pity on him, then eventually captured.

I like to think that all the brothers did at one point try and go back home, only to find Branch gone and the tree in ruin. Like JD, Floyd though Branch was dead. He thought all of them were dead. So what did he do? He drowned himself in music, drugs, and alcohol. He failed his baby brother. The one promise he made, he failed to fufill. He destroyed himself every day after that. It was a punishment in a way.

Creek and Floyd are both broken, lost souls, riddled with guilt over past actions and failed promises. They understand one another on a level no one else can.

Floyd helps Creek reconnect with others and works to him redeeming himself in the eyes of the Trolls. And in return, Creek helps Floyd manage his PTSD, anxieties, and chronic pain

Now since the whole "spiritual/namaste" thing is actually INCREDIBLY insensitive to various east Asian cultures, I headcanon that Creek was the village physical therapist, chiropractor, physiotherapist, acupuncturist, basically a doctor who helped Trolls manage chronic pain, injuries, ext.

He did teach yoga classes, but mainly as a hobby, and to help Trolls practice body positivity.

These two lead a quiet life following all that happened to them. Guys are tired af and need a nap

I love these two as a sweeter couple. Floyd thinks Creek is stupid af but he loves him for it.

Okay imma shut up now this got LONG-

[2ndstar-ontheright]

toxic codpendent boys babyyyy

i love you and it's ruining my life (boyfs)

Summary: After coming home from college for the first time in years, Jeremy's flooded with a ton of mixed emotions. He's tried so hard to put his past behind him, but it all shatters in the blink of an eye.

A/N: UGH codependent relationships are so interesting to explore and write about, dude I'm going insane. (I don't JUST write doomed/toxic yuri, I also do yaoi. I don't discriminate) The negatives of Jeremy and Michael (other than "ugh jeremy's evil and stinky >:(" and "Michael's pining but jeremy's too horrible to see :(") really should be written about more often, IMO. I love these stupid teenagers

Anyway, thank you so much for reading!! Seriously, you're all the best.

Walking home from class, Jeremy’s door is softly pushed shut as he enters the room. His old room. Not much had changed since he left back in August, home again (at the request of his therapist) after spending his other holidays working. It wasn’t his idea, at the expense of his poor father, as he knew his unexplained absence left the man worried. He worried enough about him already, he shouldn’t have to add to that by being back here. All of the mess he was front and center. He’d changed since college, he really did. However, for better or for worse, they didn’t know him there so it was easy for him. Easy to be someone else. Not like he had in high school, yet still someone else nonetheless. 

But it was summer now, and that had to count for something. 

He toes off his shoes, shoulders falling as he breathes in the familiar smell of linen and lavender. Suddenly, his ears perk up at the sound of a car driving by. Creeping up to the window, he looks out and

“He’s still driving that thing?” Jeremy’s eyes widened in shock. It’s been almost 5 years with that thing. You couldn’t even consider it a car anymore. Jesus, with how many times it’s broken down, how is he even alive ? He shakes his head and puts it out of his mind, but for a moment he's interrupted. Almost instantly he recognized that car, but why? It’d been over 2 years since graduation and he never talked about home. So, it couldn’t have been that easy. Then, it dawned on him.

That was Michael.

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Later that night, he’s standing in front of his bathroom mirror, trying desperately to put images out of his mind. As he takes off his shirt, his scars and not as much as it used to be but still ungodly pale skin are on full view, like a child’s connect-the-dots page taken a wrong turn. 

The room’s flooding with steam and as he dissociates, he looks up to see sixteen year old him staring back. He’s that teenage boy again. His grim expression as he looks almost ready to drive his fist through the glass, binder in full view. It almost gives him a heart attack at the reminder that this is the same person he was just 3 years ago. He never did end up doing that, but the thought of it just made him shudder at how awful that teenage boy he had been. That stupid, whiny, annoying teenage boy who he could never run away from. 

He ended up not going to Michael’s that night, he was too afraid. (And he also wasn’t home given that he was touring schools that weekend.) He didn’t want to leave the comfort of his bathroom and be perceived by everyone. A loser like him didn’t have the guts, and that’s all he was, right? However, he could fantasize. And so he did. He fell asleep on the cold tile wishing it was his best friend’s bed, the sounds of Link collecting his sword and silent “Shit!”’s of frustration followed by an attempt to be quieter in the background. 

Jeremy blinked quickly, swallowing his breath and stepping into the shower to escape the fading reflection. 

That didn’t help as much as he had hoped though. His mind, as it often did, only resurfaced more as he stood under the water. This was better, he deduced. Now, he didn’t have to see it. To be reminded. He could just think. 

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“Michael..?”

Puffing out a cloud of smoke, Michael shifts his eyes from the ceiling to the beanbag next to him. The only light being from the lava lamp in the corner, he squints briefly before he’s able to make out the boy in question. Even in the darkness, he looked…god. 

He looked beautiful. As much as he still had so much turmoil inside him, how he knew they were drifting apart more than he liked but was too afraid to bring it up, he couldn’t deny the aura permeating off of his friend. Unable to look away as he drew him further like a moth to a flame. 

“

Yeah?” He replied, voice raw before coughing a little. 

“I…” Jeremy twitched. He felt like his teeth were about to run out of his mouth, like the back of his head was hinged open, brain fully exposed to the world. His thoughts, his feelings, his pain, all oozing out of each nook and cranny. He couldn’t help it. Maybe it was the weed, maybe it was being back somewhere so familiar. Regardless, he knew the real reason why he felt like he was losing it. Why he felt like he wanted to throw up and cry at the same time. 

“I fucked up.” He finished, head hung low. 

Michael shifted tiredly in his seat, hand covering his mouth to stifle a yawn. Leaning his head back, his eyes met the side of Jeremy, who instinctively turned to face him. “Whaddyoumean?” He asked, words slurring together slightly.

Jeremy laughs nervously as his lip quivers. Shaking his head, his brow furrows. “I- you know what I mean!” He exclaims and then almost a second later, his hand covers his mouth. Ugh, why’d he have to say that so loud? Thank goodness Michael’s moms weren’t home, but still. Jesus Jeremy, can’t you control yourself for one second? Tears pool behind his eyes, at first cooling to the bloodshot feeling, however stinging just a second after. His palms plunge hard to rub at them and make him look somewhat less pitiful than he already does. Which isn’t much as the croaking in his voice gives it away even more. 

“I fucked up real bad Michael. I know I did.”

Sobering up as best as he can, Michael snaps up and inches closer, a hand gently tugging at Jeremy’s wrist. “Hey, c’mon man, talk to me. What do you mean you ‘fucked up’?” 

His tone calming as always, Jeremy takes a quick breath; cringing internally at his shuddering. He sounded like a kid in trouble about to get sent to his room, but in his own sick way, wasn’t he just that?

“Just..” He sighed. “Everything. All of it. I keep screwing up and with the whole SQUIP thing…I- haven’t truly apologized to you for that. I didn’t even say I’m sorry and I should have!” Jeremy rambled, wringing his hands together before resting them on his knees, sweaty palms tugging at the fabric that was starting to feel like sandpaper. 

He blinked, tears falling shamelessly. Michael was always so sweet to him, and why? He of all people didn’t deserve it. After all that he’s done, the kind, loving, handsome, funny, and so many other flowery words he could use to describe his favorite person didn't treat him the way he ought to be treated. Like a monster. He still treated him like his best friend, and that made the anguish inside tear him apart even more than it had. 

“And I hurt you Michael. I never meant to, but I did and I’m…Fuck, I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.” 

Michael’s eyes widened. He hadn’t expected that. Had it really been that long since he’d apologized? Since they’d talked about it? He wanted this, right? He’d been waiting for this for so long, and yet, now he doesn’t know what to think. It’s not that he didn’t think Jeremy meant it, it was just all so sudden and he’d already apologized profusely for everything else already.

But never for how much he had hurt him. 

He knew he did, and Michael knew he was ashamed of himself, but he never said those words out loud. 

How long had he been waiting to hear that? 

How much had they thought, things other than and still similar in their own right, but never said to each other? 

Michael sighed, head tilting to look even closer into Jeremy’s eyes. His hand rested on his shoulder and slowly, he nodded, glasses drooping down to his nose. “I know you are.”

“And I forgive you, Jer. I really do,” 

He offered a somber smile which in turn earned him almost falling to the floor as the other rushed into him. Or rather, fell, seeing as he was stoned out of his mind. 

And even in that foggy haze, Jeremy meant every word he said. Bubbling over like a shaken can of coke he wanted to say so many other things than sorry. He wanted to sing it until everyone in New Jersey heard how much he regretted it. How it was eating at him from the inside. He loved his best friend. He loved him so much. He was the light of his life, the one person he knew really cared about him. And that no matter where they went in life, he would always feel the same towards him. Was it romantic, he couldn’t tell. He just knew that he loved him more than words could describe. 

Was it a little unhealthy? Yeah, it was. But at least he knew it and didn’t let it show. How worse could it have been if he did? 

Voice muffled by the fabric of Michael’s shirt, he pulled away for a moment. Not caring out how desperate he sounded, he sniffled, cleaning his face off as best as he could with his sleeve. 

Jeremy swallowed, cheek resting on Michael’s chest. “I don’t deserve it though. I was such an awful person, and god..” He sighed, shaking his head. “I…I don’t want you to go either. I don’t wanna lose you.”

Michael clicked his tongue and ran a hand down the other’s wrist. Part of him wanted to snap back and agree with him, and it did. He had been a dick, plain and simple. But the rest of him just couldn’t do it. He never could. 

“Shh..hey, listen. I’m not going anywhere, Jeremy. Really, I’m not!” Michael smiled somberly in an attempt to cheer him up. And Jeremy, hung onto it like a dog waiting for his owner. “I know you’re sorry and you feel like shit about it, but I’m not angry about it anymore. What’s done is done. But, I’m still here, aren’t I?” 

Jeremy nodded and returned the gesture, lips curling into a crooked half-smile. As Michael breathed out an unseen sigh of relief, Jeremy inched back towards him. Emotions heightened from what was normally a welcome smoke, he was utterly exhausted. After taking what was way too long to say all that he had kept inside, he drifted into a wobbly sleep. Michael succumbed to a fit of yawns just seconds after, palms resting in the small of the others back as he passed out. 

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Cicadas chirped outside his window and as Jeremy tried to fall asleep, that was all he could think about. Every thought that popped into his head pertained to that night, and many others before that. It was all memories. Memories of a better time, a time that passed, and a time that he could never return to. Maybe a time that he never deserved. Taken for granted like it meant nothing more when it truthfully meant the world to him. 

Turning over in bed, he faces the window; streetlights emitting a soft glow through his curtains. God, why can’t he just stop? Why can’t he relax and be normal for once? 

Sighing, he leaned up and propped himself on his shoulders. Reaching over, he pulled his phone onto the bed and unable to sleep already, he figured it couldn’t get that much worse. 

That didn’t last long. The first thing. The very first thing Jeremy saw when he opened his phone, was a throwback picture to a birthday party.

Michael’s, to be exact. 

It was his fourteenth, barely a month after eighth grade began. He pointed behind him, face wide in fake ecstasy at the banner saying “Happy Birthday Mikey!” as if he didn’t know what day it was. He “hadn’t expected anything”, but he knew damn well that wasn’t true. The kid reveled in his birthday. He was one of the few people, if not the only person,  Jeremy knew who genuinely enjoyed it. The memory made him smile. 

For a brief moment, he forgot about everything his mind had been weighing on him before coming down from the high and back to reality. The pain knocked the wind out of him harder than before. Why? Why did it hurt him as much as it did? Why did every time he even so much as thought about Michael he felt like crying? Was it because of the whole SQUIP thing? Was it from being home after so long?

Could it have been that he lost something he so desperately wanted back?

To return to the safety of having him there and they can live in their mutually doomed relationship forever.

Where they get high and everything somehow makes sense.

Where he’s a bigger loser now more than ever and it doesn’t feel like a giant failure. 

Where he feels…happy. And loved. And life feels worth living because someone, at least one other person, cares and has been there for the entirety of all he’s done. When others left, when he figured out who he truly was, when he almost lost himself, Michael was the one that stayed. After all the work he’d done to not return to those feelings or the person he was then, was just tossed out in the blink of an eye as he realizes he’s back right where he started.

Only difference now was, he knew what this was and that he couldn’t keep it up. He was older, and despite him basically regressing somehow, thinking about Michael, his subtle yet immediate swing into the beginning of a depressive episode; he understood that what he was hoping for wasn’t real. 

He couldn’t do that. Not to him.

As much as he missed him, he didn’t want to be the burden he knew he had to be on the other. (Michael never thought he was, but in Jeremy’s own fucked up mind, that’s what he believed.) He can’t deny himself anymore, about what he’s feeling/wanting at this moment anyway. He loved Michael. More than he’d loved…anyone. 

But now as he lies awake in bed, wanting to forget about it all, the thing that calms him down  into an uneasy sleep is going back into the place he regretfully knows best. His head. 

Dreaming he’s fallen asleep in the boy with the red hoodie's arms, like he’s done so many times before, he falls asleep. Finally. Why was he so pathetic? He wasn’t any better than his own father. Trying/chasing after a love that he knew he wouldn’t get. But hey, that was tomorrow Jeremy’s problem when he inevitably woke up. 

Unbeknownst to him, his phone dings from his bedside table. 

From: maybe? Micheal

“Hey.” 

[lanshappycorner]

Me explaining to u guys why you should ship Byakusho

Do you like doomed yaoi? But you still want them to have a happy ending so you end up reading fanfics to cope?

Look no further, byakusho is for you. Doomed yaoi with an actual happy ending. Regardless of if you already like KHR and you don't particularly ship them, or you know absolutely nothing about this series, you should read it anyways. Also if you're wondering how they can be doomed yaoi and still have a happy ending, you should definitely read this

This segment is for people who do not know anything abt KHR so if you already know abt who Byakuran and Shoichi are, you can skip to the next bolded segment.

OKAY SO for those who do not know anything about Katekyo Hitman Reborn, it's basically like. About mafia and stuff. Also they all have different "dying will flame" types based on their personalities/affinities and stuff. Just think of them all as magical girls with guns okay don't worry too much about it they have magic and they're in the mafia

Let's go over their characters real quick.

Shoichi is first introduced in something similar to a filler episode, called "The Misfortune of Shoichi Irie" or something like that. Basically in the episode, he's delivered a package by the mafia for taking care of their kid, Lambo.

Lambo is another character (a kid from the mafia) Not under Shoichi's care, but they do meet briefly. Realizing that the package isn't supposed to go to him, he ventures to return it to Tsuna's (the main character of KHR) house, where he runs into a lot of odd and kind of gag-like funny typical shonen anime shenanigans. But this really freaks him out

He ultimately fails to return the package, and suffers from nightmares about the encounter.

Something to note though is that Lambo possesses a bazooka called the "10 yr bazooka" and if you shoot it at someone, it basically has the ability to switch you and your future self (10 years from now) for 5 minutes. This is extremely relevant.

The main characters of KHR are transported roughly 10 years into the future, and realize that they cannot return home even after 5 minutes. They then find out that there's this guy attempting world domination, and his name is Byakuran. Byakuran has access to knowledge of every parallel universe and timeline, allowing him to even consider world domination

Byakuran runs the Millefiore mafia family, and his right hand man is Shoichi. Long story short, they are introduced as the villain duo that the main characters must defeat

I'll go over some more stuff that ppl familiar with KHR probably already know, but it is necessary for my reasoning so please read through everything

First off, they are quite literally soulmates. Initially, Shoichi wanted to know what his future was like, hence he traveled back into the future twice after changing his actions. There, he meets Byakuran both times, accidentally causing Byakuran to realize his powers to gain access to knowledge from other worlds

However, because he runs into Byakuran in the future no matter where he travels or how he tries to change the future, it is basically implied that Byakuran and Shoichi are destined to meet in every timeline. Or in most at least

When Shoichi realizes this, he immediately devises a plan to take down Byakuran. His plan? Befriend Byakuran, gain his trust, and ruin all of his plans

Upon returning back to the past, he purposely erased his memories of the future, planning to have them return years later. You may be wondering how Shoichi is so confident that he could carry out the plan despite having no memory of Byakuran

Well this all really implies how confident he was that he and Byakuran’s fates were intertwined. Because how else could he be so sure that their paths would cross or Byakuran would show interest in him? Yeah. Anyways

They met in college and there is something you have to know here, and it's that they are so best friends to lovers guys they are in fact best friends

Shoichi, having no memories of Byakuran, somehow befriends him and becomes his best friend. Like, For Realsies...

When he regains his memories, he realizes much to his horror that his friend was about to game end the world, so he continues to persist with his plans despite now feeling completely awful about it

Fast forward, Shoichi is now Byakuran’s right hand man in the Millefiore family. It is important to note that Byakuran refers to Shoichi as "Sho-chan" and Shoichi refers to Byakuran as "Byakuran-san"

It may at first seem like Byakuran is being playful and Shoichi is polite, and while Shoichi does have a level of politeness, it's important to note that Shoichi and Byakuran use katakana to refer to each other when they use -chan and -san

This is in most cases actually considered rude when referring to one's superiors, and considering Byakuran is Shoichi's boss, it basically means he's okay with Shoichi referring to him rudely. Furthermore, the usage of katakana in this context just implies closeness

This information cannot be seen in the anime because you can't tell if someone is using katakana or hiragana just by listening to them speak, but it is very apparent in the manga that they are close. Also, all the other characters besides Shoichi refer to Byakuran as Byakuran-sama, so there's that too

Byakuran sent Shoichi a whole room's worth of white anemones, as most friends do

Shoichi finds this troublesome though because Byakuran is big on flower language and this means Byakuran has great expectations for him to succeed in his mission (of killing the main characters)

However it's later revealed that Shoichi had intended on betraying Byakuran, and Byakuran also reveals himself that he already knew about Shoichi's eventual betrayal, since Shoichi has always disapproved of his views

So if Byakuran already knew Shoichi was going to betray him, sending him a room of flowers meaning that he expects him to do well has no practical meaning to it besides from

1) he's just fucking with shoichi and 2) anemones explicitly mean love and passion so really he's just gay

No I'm so serious he's just gay. Like the Millefiore is made up of a bunch of squads right, and Byakuran is as mentioned above obsessed with flower language. Meaning he absolutely could not have not known what anemones generally mean outside of "anticipation/expectations"

But also each squad is named after a flower and Byakuran decided to explicitly assign Shoichi the rose squad. This man has done everything but kiss Shoichi on the lips like actually. All the fucking flowers in the world and you assign your best friend the rose ? And you send him a whole room full of flowers meaning love and passion? You gay bitch 😭😭

Anyways it has to be said that Byakuran besides being definitely not straight, is a really shit person. Like I have to say it he's awful, he's responsible for the death of thousands of people and he just casually destroyed a couple of worlds in search of more power. He views people like his toys and he admits to it

He is like a child in how everything is really just for his amusement, something for him to play with. He is even willing to sacrifice his closest allies for more power, he's just that type of guy </33 he just...does not have emotional attachments to other people

But with that said, he doesn't seem particularly hurt when it's revealed that Shoichi was not on his side anymore. However, when they play Choice, Shoichi is picked as a target and I refuse to believe that it is a coincidence and not Byakuran being petty because his best friend betrayed him💀

For those who do not know, Choice is a game that Byakuran and Shoichi made together in university, but now they're playing it irl. It's kind of like capture the flag, but the flag is one specific target, and in this case, the target for the main characters' team is Shoichi

Even when Shoichi was beaten and nearly died in Choice, Byakuran seemed unaffected by all of this and we are led to believe that he never really did care about Shoichi despite calling him his best friend

Shoichi, however, admits to the main characters that despite Byakuran being the way he was, back before he regained his memories of the future, the time he spent with Byakuran were "the best times of his life"

He genuinely enjoyed being around Byakuran and considered him his best friend despite knowing that Byakuran was going to do awful things, and he was determined to stop him. Despite it all

In Shoichi’s character song, we get a glimpse into his thoughts, and as it turns out, he really is in conflict with himself

Because in his heart, he wants to be with Byakuran, it's his place, but he chose to save the world instead, so that place is gone. He even says that he has to lie to his heart to do what he has to </33

In the song he also states that he doesn't want to break his memories and he wants to keep them safe, probably referring to the picture perfect time he spent with Byakuran before shit hit the fan. He continuously wills himself to not cry, to stop crying, because it's for the world

Girl I am crying for him. He cannot afford to act selfishly because choosing to be with Byakuran would make him the happiest and would simultaneously doom the world. But anyways

Clearly Shoichi holds Byakuran in high regard and loves him. Like not even just romantically, but in general he really does love Byakuran a lot

At the very end of the arc, the villain must be defeated though, and Byakuran is killed like straight up killed

Throughout the entire scene, Shoichi does not once show joy. He seems to accept the situation and is happy in a way that his plans have come to fruition, but his plans have always been "defeat Byakuran" rather than kill him. Shoichi had never planned to kill Byakuran, or at least explicitly said it, although I'm sure he knew that type of conclusion was inevitable

His reaction to Byakuran's death does stand out though, because every other character does seem to express joy at the victory, but Shoichi looks...blank. Perhaps shocked or in disbelief, but either ways his best friend was just killed right in front of him and he can't even be mad about it because this was the only way he could've been stopped

Shoichi is not aware of this, but before Byakuran dies, we finally get a glimpse into his thoughts as well

Byakuran admits in his last moments internally that although he did all of this because he wanted to create a perfect world, it wasn't as if he was completely dissatisfied with this one because there were also times where he felt "warm and fuzzy" as well. We then get a bunch of flashbacks in his dying moments of him and Shoichi together

BITCH???? AKDJAF 😭😭😭 only in his dying moments do we find out that Byakuran really did actually care about Shoichi and genuinely considered him his best friend because well. Context. It's his dying moments would he have dying moment flashbacks about someone he didn't care about

Like just moments of them chatting...Shoichi smiling at him... gay ass flashback if I've ever seen one 😭😭

Byakuran is someone who doesn't generally value people, he views them as toys and pawns. So the fact that he basically admitted that he did have a genuine connection with Shoichi is so :((((( this guy is just so out of tune with his emotions that he couldn't properly convey it in the end and Shoichi never actually knew about it

I say this but I feel like Shoichi did have a vague idea that Byakuran held him to some degree of high regard because. Well he was Byakuran's right hand man and they were friends for years prior to the whole mafia world domination thing

He's the only person that truly treats Byakuran like a human despite Byakuran trying to play god and everyone worshiping him. And despite being the only person that doesn't treat Byakuran like the god he wants to be, Byakuran still keeps him around

So clearly that means something but anyways that is the doomed yaoi. Byakuran is dead and Shoichi's plans succeed at the cost of his best friend's life, and he never found out in the end that his best friend probably did love him as much as he loved him. And that is where it ends

OR SO YOU THOUGHT HA

As mentioned this all takes place 10 years in the future

Meaning that the past version of Byakuran is still Alive. When the main characters return back to the past, there is a huge earthquake and everyone, including the past versions of Shoichi and Byakuran, are given memories of what they did in the future

Byakuran is taken to mafia prison bc sure it's 10 yrs in the past but like that guy is like a ticking time bomb 💀 doesn't matter though because somehow he's bailed out of jail.

Byakuran is a white boy btw :/ he lives in Italy and Shoichi is Japanese. Yes this is important because when they're in university, they meet abroad when Shoichi probably goes to Italy or something to study, but as it stands, currently Byakuran is in Italy and Shoichi is still in Japan

Byakuran is preparing to go to Japan with the people that helped to bail him out and the first thing he says is that he can't wait to meet his best friend Sho-chan😭😭😭

Thanks to the power of love and friendship, Byakuran is now no longer batshit insane and it's implied he now properly cares about his teammates btw. Anyways congrats to Byakuran for having human emotions I'm so happy for him

After returning to Japan, of course he goes to see Shoichi, and we don't know how it went exactly, but the next time Shoichi appears in the series, he tells the main character that Byakuran explained the situation to him and stuff, so it is implied that they are on good enough terms to speak abt stuff normally

Also Shoichi is kinda next to Byakuran the entire time 😔 and there is a segment where Shoichi literally shit talks Byakuran in his face which is so funny to me because it's BYAKURAN hes talking to and he just doesn't give a shit. But Byakuran pulls out the "best friend" card on him and throughout his entire speel, Shoichi never once denies that they're best friends ever

In the very last arc, Byakuran sustains extremely awful injuries and by extremely awful I mean intestines completely destroyed awful . Luckily somehow he gets around it (dont worry about it) and is chilling in the hospital and although it's a very small panel, you will see that Shoichi actually is there visiting him in the hospital

Remember how I said that everyone has magic powers and special dying will flames. Well Shoichi just happens to have the sun flame which makes him a healer so we can infer that he's also helping to heal Byakuran in the hospital along with visiting him

In this timeline they're able to retain their friendship and work towards a better future but anyways that's them my favorite doomed but not really doomed yaoi they are everything to me please ship them

[angryblueoat]

No one gets ace attorney investigations turnabout ablaze toxic doomed yaoi like I do. Colias Paelaeno and Manny Coachen you will always be famous to me. Colias knew something was off about Manny but chose to believe in him, chose to defend him. Chose to believe that he was a good person and that he wasn’t a killer even when all the evidence was to the contrary. He always knew deep in his soul but he didn’t want to believe it. Manny Coachen was using Colias, just like he was using Cece Yew, was probably ready to kill him at a moment’s notice too. But in the cinders of his ruined office he had a shelf dedicated to souvenirs. He collected them. Don’t you think he ever picked one up and thought of Colias and all his plans for tourism? Don’t you think he went and bought some stupid little plastic trinket to give to him and told himself it was part of his plan to gain Colias’s trust and not because he wanted to see his smile?

[toxicsludgeyaoi]

Toxic Sludge Yaoi Tournament: Phantomquill (Ace Attorney: Dual Destinies) Vs Lawlight (Death Note)

(No image provided for Phantomquill. Vote for whichever you like more.)

Propaganda under cut. Note: spoilers for these medias may be below.

Phantomquill propaganda

"Spoiler warning for Dual Destinies (mostly the last 2 cases). Blackquill, a prosecutor, was trying to figure out the identity of The Phantom, an international spy. So The Phantom killed Blackquill's biggest ally, which forced him to take the blame for the murder (to protect this person's daughter). So he ended up in jail for a crime he didn't commit. Six years later, The Phantom assumes identity of detective Bobby Fulbright, and under that disguise works together with Blackquill, who was allowed to prosecute again (despite being on death row). Their dynamic somehow contains a two-way power imbalance, since Simon is able to boss "Fulbright" around and insult him (being his direct superior), yet also "Fulbright" is technically his handler, and solves Blackquill's behavioral problems by... tasing him. They work together for most of the game. The Phantom forced Blackquill to take the blame for yet another murder. After it was revealed that Bobby Fulbright was in fact The Phantom in disguise (a man he was chasing all these years, the one who ruined his life, ended up right by his side), Blackquill cut his mask, thereby causing Phantom's breakdown. Blackquill took The Phantom into police custody at the end of the game. The jailer becomes the jailed. Great stuff."

Lawlight propaganda

"doomed by the narrative, age gap, voyerism, sexy sexy mind games, one kills the other, insane judas and jesus parallels, incredibly homosexual foot washing scene"

[biggie-chcese]

So uh,, what's your thoughts about Viviakou and Kokobolt?

ohhh ok so im of the rare breed that kinda only likes vivakou as a one-sided romance, if a romance at all, because they are so Doomed Yaoi to me.

i think it's very sweet that vivia finds a reason to live because yakou has shown how much he cares. i think yakou looking out for vivia's health is also extremely sweet. but i also just think that Yakou "i threw the entire NDA (including vivia) under the bus, into the heart of enemy territory, with no way to escape the peacekeepers, for a revenge plot" Furio just isn't open to loving anyone romantically other than his dead wife. he'd need a long time to get over her, and he doesn't even live long enough to do it. i like the angst potential. it makes vivia's arc in ch 4 all the more tragic, yet also cathartic when he lets yakou go and helps yuma find the truth.

TD;DR: not a fav, but i 100% understand it and think it's narratively interesting when one-sided on vivia's part.

now onto kokobolt.

ok. look. i get it. i see their gumshoe gabs. i see their bromance. i see desuhiko basically outright saying he'd fuck yuma while yuma is dressed as a high school girl but shhhh details, details and i see why it's popular. but i... i'm a hard neutral on it. like, i like it a little? but for the most part i just kinda feel nothing about them. i think they're at their best in memes and jokes. they're a really solid comedic duo and have a funny, enjoyable dynamic. but i dont care for kokobolt fluff nor do i really see myself enjoying angst of them. like i don't even see them doing the awkward slowburn "i dont wanna ruin our friendship" pining that usually comes with the "best bro friends to lovers" trope because desuhiko would just outright ask yuma if he could hit. which he has already done in canon. the only slowburn would just be yuma saying no thanks until eventually he just says "sure whatever you can hit." like, yuma may be a cringefail loser, but he could do better.

TL;DR: neutral on them but i get it. they're funny tho.

[maggieharlan]

hi hello :) have you ever rambled about berec or the wip with the “it was kind of love, wasn’t it?” quote?

if so, may you redirect me to that post?

and if not, may you please 🥹🥹?

i wish to know of the tragic, longing lovers 😤

cheers!

xoxo, naveena (thecomfywriter) <33

i have not but lordy i would love to! thank you!!

have you ever written a whole book around, like, two or three scenes that just sort of jump into your brain? that's what happened with these two, but the scenes were so different and so far apart and showed both of them in such different places in their lives.

two twenty-somethings making promises to each other in the shade of an old linden tree, full of plans and potential and hope for a world they fully believe they can make better together

two thirty-somethings pulled apart by the world that resisted their efforts to change it, and changed them instead--scarred them up, broke their hearts, until the only thing they have left is the hope that maybe the people who come after them won't hurt the way they've hurt. but even that hope looks a little as different between them, and they're not even sure they're on the same side of the fight anymore, and there's so much history and pain and still, underneath it all, the love of those two hopeful kids and their bright-eyed promises.

and in the end, it's those promises that will either save them or ruin them.

on a way less serious note, these two assholes are singlehandedly responsible for getting me back into writing fantasy. i built a whole-ass magic system (it's really cool, and really messy, because i firmly believe that all magic should have consequences and HOO BOY here there be consequences) and world and broke it up across two timelines, just so that i could either doom or undoom this yaoi so hard it'll either fix or break their whole country. it gives very che.rik (XMFC) or jay.vik (arcane) vibes--like everything is falling apart, and they might be fighting on/from different sides, but there's this core of profound respect and history and affection that keeps pulling them in like gravity until they have no choice but to face the people they were and the love they had, and see if there's anything left of it that they can save.

tl;dr i have Very Big Feelings about these two and about this book (also there's a whole second generation of disaster children that benji's responsible for teaching and keeping safe, which is hilarious, because he is only nominally an Adult and can barely take care of himself) and i would so love to get to share it with folks someday soon!

also hi hello thank you for the ask and if you're ever looking for writer folks to chat with, my ims are open! i am occasionally slow as christmas but would love to make new friends!!

original post is here

[the-lark-ascending69]

Okay. I dont hate it. The doomed yaoi part was great and I didn't even ship them but now i kinda do. Pretty epic moment. From an artistic standpoint, that scene is one of the most beautiful things I have ever seen. Love how they keep ruining and redeeming and ruining and redeeming Jayce. I changed my mind, I like him now. Every single time Ekko was on-screen was 10/10, though his side quest through a parallel universe was like... I mean... it was nice, it was cool to see What Could Have Been, but other than giving him time rewind powers, the following episodes don't do much with it beyond inspiring him to team up with Jinx, but then we don't really see how they work as a team. Love the lesbian sex. Don't really get why Maddie betrayed Cait, like, is it because she cheated on her?? 😭 Mel's story... idk i feel like it lacked heart a little. HATED the fucking sexy videogame woman outfit. If she's meant to be a sorcerer dress her up like fucking one. Her mommy issues story felt like it needed more time in the oven in general. Everything about her in this season felt like it needed more time in the oven, actually.

Jinx dying is unforgivable. I thought for a moment she was going to kill Vander and save Vi, coming full circle in a beautiful way: she's letting the past go. Vander is gone but Vi is alive and they can still have a future. This time, killing a father wouldn't be tragic, but liberating, enlightening, redeeming.

But??? They just kill her?? She dies?? And maybe I missed something but I can't see how her death benefits her character arc. I don't think death needs to DO something for a character - Jayce's death is more of an inevitability and a sacrifice than anything else, he stays with Viktor because he loves him. I think it works in their case. But Jinx's death feels like... forced... like the scene was sooooo purposely written in that way. Jayce and Viktor's deaths felt like, okay, this is where the story is going and it's where it's been heading for a long time. It makes sense to end it like this. Jinx's "death arc" lasts like 5 minutes and it could have been avoided soooo easily. It feels like the writers got the idea of killing her at the end but didn't properly set the steps to lead us there in a satisfying progression. You know. Like fucking Daenerys.

It just felt cheap. Like, if her moving on and finding happiness and peace was just too hard, so they took the easy way out.