#YOU RUINED HIS DOOMED YAOI

[aleksan-art]

i KNOW silco couldve fixed warwickified vander.

[lil-artist-blog-fandoms-ocs]

Ruin singing the english version of "Eine kleine" by Will Stetson send tweet

[qinnyanimation]

Do you think Tydeus approves of Odysseus?

Odysseus and Polynices have lots of similarities in my own interpretation, so I think Tydeus first instinct on seeing him would probably be to punch him and bite his arm off. (Rather if that’s only his thought or his immediate physical response is up to you)

If you’re talking about whether Tydeus would approve of Odysseus and Diomedes relationship, no. He had first hand experience with Polynices and KNOWS that man will ruin his life. But he has zero say in to this. He knows his involvement with Polynices will be the death of him one way or another and yet he still chose to go along with it.

He knows the genetic doom yaoi is inevitable.

[honeqq]

I know this ruins the wholesomeness of the au, but I can’t stop thinking of Ford finding out that Bill has been messing with his memory for YEARS. obviously he still loves Bill, that can’t quite disappear, but just the sprinkle of mistrust that a situation like that might provoke MAKES ME CRAZY!!! like wdym the love of my life, my muse, my sun and center of my galaxy has been doing this to me for so long and I didn’t even notice? And just having to build that trust up again 😞😞it kills me I love them sooo much!!! Like the clear power imbalance between them and how it’s affected their relationship even if neither meant for it to happen, I know bill is jealous and all but it’s like he can’t comprehend the damage being done??? kinda??? like he thinks of it as it being for Ford’s sake, for his own good, but never once thought of asking or had a double take, because he’s just that powerful. he CAN just do it with no repercussions and that’s that and who can tell him otherwise? who can stop him? nobody!! just his own good will but we all know he lacks in that department

Not you guy doomed back the undoomed yaoi 😭 BUT OMG THIS IS SO TRUE , reading you explaining this turn on something on my brain. Yeah I kinda want to make it wholesome but the angst probability is many

[bellagrimfox]

You know what really grinds my gears about Helluva Boss?

The fact that they turned this funny looking owl man into the absolute worst character ever.

Playing Devil's Advocate

In the beginning, when I used to watch season 1, I didn't have much trouble with him. In fact, I thought he was kinda funny in some moments. Granted, looking back at them, a lot of moments were gross and pretty hypocritical like the way he talks and treats Blitz. But many people, myself included, wanted to see a redemption where he admits his wrongs and changes for his daughter Octavia.

And then season 2 started with Brandon being kicked from the writting team.

THAT Episode

The beginning of the end as I and many fans like to call it. This one episode managed to change everything about the portrayal of Stolas and Blitz's relationship, turning it from a morally grey/complex situation where Stolas was the one causing the most damage, into pretty much doomed yaoi. So the entire point of the season 1 finale is just thrown away now. How fun!!

As for the Stella debate, while there wasn't a lot of her character to call what happened to her a retcon, there was one thing that the episode did to make her a worse character by a writing standpoint. They flipped her from being a wife who was justifiably hurt to a villain that exists to justify Stolas and Blitz being a thing, even though the show gives us reasons why they shouldn't.

Rewritting the Stars

As much as I liked his personality in season 1, after season 2, I can't look back on those scenes exactly the same way without turning my brain off. So instead of a complete rewrite, I'd wanna propose a compromise. Have Stollas still be the primary antagonist/obstacle of season 1 but with more characteristics connected to his original myth.

I'm still torn on how I want to approach this rewrite but I have 3 clear ideas I want to get across:

Stolas and Blitz are both in the wrong.

Both parties are held accountable and try to redeem themselves.

Fixing everything that made Stolas irredeemable.

Helluva Boss Rewrite?

Because season 2 has made the rest of the show hard to enjoy, I'm thinking of completely rewriting the episodes and making the pilot canon since making it non canon ruins the premise of the show. I'm thinking of calling this rewrite project "Hell With It" and making the redesigns inspired by some of the unused concept art. I'd love to find writers and artists who share my vision of a Helluva Boss Rewrite.

[outrageousfragarian]

EVER RED: THE THEORY (MASTERPOST)

This is a post compiling all the theories surrounding Ever Red from the Fragaria discord server

Last updated: Dec 2 2023

AMNESIA THEORY, THE TIMELINES

Fragaria's story is confirmed to be separated into two: The MVs and the voice dramas. This could imply two separate timelines. The 1st timeline is “ruined”, and the 2nd timeline (possibly the one for the MVs) acts as the present. In the Ever Red MV, there are lyrics highlighted in red, most of them pointing to them forgetting something.

This theory is unrelated from Ever Red, but the main point of the amnesia theory is that the knights don't remember their "original" selves, their current names and forms being a show of their connections to their lords (hence why Hangyon's name is only 2 letters off from Hangyodon for example).

These lyrics also point to something being forgotten (strawberry/fruit representing memories. Sweet and sour memories, a memory that ripens/develos as it is repressed)

But forgetting their old identities also means forgetting past events.

RIBBONS

The ribbons represent the pains of the past. In this part, Hallritt sings "Once the ribbon is tied, the knot marks are still there." Once pain is inflicted, the wounds and memories are still there.

The ribbon now ties everyone close to each other. The Red Bouquet will be there for Hallritt to help process his past, and make things right again (see next header).

I just want you to laugh, that's all I wish for Even if our memories are mismatched

Hallritt is now being covered by the ribbon, except for his eyes. He must face the truth of what he did.

HIDDEN AUDIO, "ELDRITCH HALLRITT"

Refer to this post to listen to the hidden audio.  "Move. That dream… It was my fault." It was Hallritt's fault for the destruction of the 1st timeline. Around 3 minutes into the MV, there is a quick frame of this shadow version of Hallritt which me and the discord have named Eldritch Hallritt/Eldritt.

(isn't he so silly <3)

He was the "original" Hallritt from the 1st timeline, and a manifestation of the current Hallritt’s true feelings and repressed memories. He knows everything. He was the one who destroyed the 1st timeline, and is here to make sure the Hallritt of the current timeline doesn’t mess up.

But what was Hallritt's mistake in the first place?

SEEDS

SEEDS are the antagonists of Fragaria's story. They could be the original knights, as seeds come first before flowers/bouquets. One day, they took things too far, leading them to be banished and replaced by the Fragarians.

They might have once tricked Eldritt/The "original Hallritt" into joining them, which led to him ruining his contract with Hello Kitty, destroying the 1st timeline. Eldritt then reset the timeline into the current one, and is watching over the current Hallritt to not make the same mistake he did.

BONUS/MINI THEORIES

My friend Angel pointed out that "Fragaria Memories" sounds similar to "Fragmented Memories"

System Hallritt - Eldritt is an alter for Hallritt (+ is a protector or a gatekeeper) who wanted to prevent him from finding out the truth, but they can't run from it forever.

Bouquet leader doomed yaoi (I don't have a better name for this) - If Cielomort and Badobarm find out about Hallritt's secret, they could get angry and not trust him anymore. If this happens, the conflict could grow, repeating what happened in the 1st timeline that led to its destruction.

Hangyon and Chaco know - These two are suspicious. For Chaco, his title is "The detour dog with a hidden motive." The hidden motive could maybe have something to do with SEEDs. For Hangyon, if he knows what happened in the 1st timeline, that could be why he's close with Badobarm specifically. He watches him for any signs of the past repeating itself.

In a world that continues to change Only time will never come back Yet no one can take away our memories (EVER RED) I'll never forget them for eternity Living in memory No one can see it, but it'll never disappear Ever certain, ever red

[theadhddimsenion]

Some ideas for helluva boss episodes and short that I have had for both a long time and a short time.

Episodes.

Guardian @$$hole!. The plot revolves around blitz by some mistake getting his very own guardian angel and more specifically a power of the second sphere an angel specifically designed to kill demons and dark spirits. After blasting through the same wall that is nearly always destroyed and explaining that he wasn't here to kill them the angel confesses that he doesn't understand why his higher ups want him to guard a demon but he's not the type to question orders. The angel in contrast to a lot of the cast has a very solem and sacred energy to him feeling much more like how you would imagine an angelic warrior as opposed to the comical cherubs and the hedonistic adam being very dutiful and tact but the problem is that he is a power so that means that he is very smite first ask questions never and that poses a problem because now blitz has to make sure for example the angel doesn’t smite loona over making a sarcastic comment towards him and this only become a bigger and funnier problem as blitz tries to go through life with this seemingly invicable and perfectly moral angelic warrior always a few feet away from him. Eventually blitz has had enough when the angel stops him and his crew from doing their job but another problem is the fact that they can't force the angel to leave stolas mentioned that even a full strength goetia would struggle to overcome a power so they can't make him leave and he won't leave on his own as he is committed to his orders so the team try and think up ideas to make the angel leave throwing around ideas but none of them can think of anything that would work but as the angel absently mindedly goes through blitzs desk after blitz told him to wait in the office he finds out about veroskias hate party and finds his next target.

The next day everyone is happy that the angel seemingly left on his own but when loona goes to her phone she finds on the news that the angel was going on a rampage and headed towards veroskias Manison smashing through the streets of hell like the doom slayer not ever responding to some of the attacks. The gang immediately race after the him but nothing they do even slows his advance smashing his way through the Manison determined to find and smite veroskia for her disrespect towards the imp he had been assigned to and just as his sword is about to chop veroskia in half he finaly got his proper orders and stops his attack he notes how blitz and his found family risked their lives for someone who had done nothing but cause trouble for them and with that he admits that he had underestimated helldorns potential for righteousness and after thanking them for helping him see beyond the world he was raised in he flies off back to heaven and the episode ends.

A few other ideas I had for episodes that are much less fleshed out are.

1. The team having to help a seemingly immortal human with (cw) assisted suicide.

2. Some alternative ideas for ways to teach stolas the errors of his ways pre mastermind such as having to deal with his angel counterpart shem malaphiatis (I definitely got that wrong) and his prefect "yaoi fanfic" esqu relationship with his lizard cherub boyfriend named bolt and trying to spitefully ruin their relationship out of envy but eventually apologizing for his behavior and learning his lesson.

3. A stolitz bodyswap episode inspired by a piece of fanart.

4. Various crossovers with franchises like doom, devil may cry, bayonetta, supernatural, ghostbusters, scp foundation, owl house, spawn, hellboy, trench crusade, Buffy the vampire slayer, bendy, my little pony, good omens, etc etc.

5. Ronaldo coming back for revenge in a role reversed verison of ghostfuckers where blitz supports millie this time.

6. A bunch of ideas about an episode where the boys are the smart and mature ones and the girls are the ones who need to be saved.

7. Octativa doing some detective work.

8. Stolitz is having their first healthy date at ozzies along side m&m as fizz and ozzies way of making it up to them after what happened last time but while couples are enjoying a nice double date the b team consisting of loona, fizz, octativa (who is here because while she still resents her father a little she isn't willing to let him die as proven in sinsmas) and vassago have to fend off an army of dhorks agents now fitted with proper weapons (they still have some edo period stuff on them of course but it's modified with sci fi gadgetry), Stella's personal legion of actual goetian legionaries but most of them couldn't stand her and quit so she hired a bunch of half rate Mercs to blostier her forces led by an exhausted striker and an army of mammons fizz bots led by the one from loo loo land! Bonus! Fizz gets to pull a megamind button of doom and defeat his past by blowing up an evil robot verison of himself.

9. Veroskia gets captured by the dhorks and the i.m.p team reluctantly save her with blitz and Vero finaly putting their past behind them once and for all.

10. Veroskia learning she had a half human (cambrion) son and having to deal with her own pre development loona. With gags like who I'm gonna call Daimen sarcasticly asking if blitz is his father.

11. Another one with veroskia has her fizz and blitz all work together to bring down glitz and glam.

12. One that involves the team getting stranded on earth of at least a week.

13.loona getting saved from hells animal control.

14. The team going up against a human magic user.

15. A trip to the real world non Canon episode where blitz argues then makes out with Brandon.

Shorts.

1. The i.m.p employees training tapes.

2. Paimons guide to daddying ft. Cash buckso and crimson knowlastname.

3. Loona vs emberlynns brother.

4. Mille vs her pregnancy. 0-1

5. Barbies adventures with Jimmy.

6. The team get summoned by a demonic cult and have a spa day.

7. They go to the shinto underworld and meet/annoy the local demons such as oni. Moxxie gers really into that anime about the singing music programs.

8. The team have a trip to Europe and meet the friend of the famous Lincoln imp who warms them about keeping those close to you safe and the dangers of messing with angels.

9. X fails the adventures of the dhorks.

10. The return of blitzs little goat friend!

11. The slur penguins strik back feat Andy!

12. Millie was wrong ghost are real and blitz finally gets to fuck them!

13. Loona just has one nice day out.

14. The life of Pringle.

15. Pixar bloopers!

16. Little stolas and little stella doing a chowder and pani skit.

17. Blitz recapping the series with his horse ocs.

18. Blitz goes to equestria and has to be forced to leave like in Mabel land (theirs potential for a crossover there) after fluttershy reassures him.

19. Sally gets an adventure all to herself in the hellish world of babysitting m&m's kid who is a demon child in more ways then one!

20. Bltiz hires a doom imp and things sure do happen!

21. Mammons sales pitches!

22. The cherubs trying to help people who really can't be helped.

23. A day in the life of your average imp.

[bornwholocker]

Ok yes the final jayvik scene was crazy yes yes yes but

Can we talk about how wild ALL of their scenes together the last 2 episodes were?? Like the way viktor held him in the council room scene in episode 8??? The astral shot after that where they’re parallel each other??? Jayce realizing he’s in the exact position as his body was in the ruined timeline and just like. Accepting it?? Just closing his eyes and letting viktor evolve him?? The framing of the two of them when Jayce first enters the arcane astral plane thing(idk if it has a name) with viktor and the halo around his head ??? I think I’m missing a couple but like they went all out for the doomed yaoi this arc arcane the story that you are

[ch0rds0fsteel]

Claypollo hcs and other things idk

I need to yap so im listing everything i got of Claypollo because they ruin my life and they never leave my head:

Clay and Apollo cuddle most of the time when they get the chance to see eachother, since Clay is away from home (Clay just sees Apollo and hugs him like a koala)

When they were kids, Clay had a huge crush for Apollo, of course, Apollo was clueless of such thing

Apollo learn to dance because of Clay (Cheesy bf)

Apollo is the only one who knows how Clay really is (In terms of speaking when he is home, he is extremely lazy to be a gym rat lol)

Clay loves Apollo's cooking (Even tho Apollo doesnt cook anymore since he got no time to do so)

As kids, everyone thought they were dating cuz they were always holding hands

Surprisingly, Apollo was the one who confess despite Clay's huge crush for him

Everyone thinks Apollo is so introverted, but with Clay he is a different person (Only with him he lets his guard down)

So this happen, Clay used to be introverted and shy, Apollo was bold and extroverted as kids. As adults, they are the opposite lol

They hide their relationship from others (and Clay bring it to his grave...)

Methinks they were roommates (omg they were roommates...)

When they were kids, whenever Apollo mention the stars or moon, Clay would yap about everything he knew of space until he goes quiet of embarrassment. Apollo doesnt mind it because it was hard to make Clay talk sometimes

Songs that remind me of Claypollo:

(4 of 5 songs are angst forgive me)

Fly me to the moon - Yoko Takahashi (The one from Neon genesis evangelion teehee)

Without you - Casey Lee Williams

And then you became the moon - KIKUO (For some reason it makes me think of them)

My Immortal - Evanescence

Love like you - Steven Universe

Ship troupes i think it fits Claypollo:

Starcrossed lovers

Friendly rivalry (I got an explanation as to why)

Married but they act like homies (LOVE THIS ONE SO MUCH)

Roommates (Classic)

Sun and Moon

Secret Relationship

Doomed romance (I mean they pretty much are so lol)

Sea and Moon (Might not be a real trope but think about it like this, the sea and the moon are far away from eachother. That's how far Apollo's love for Clay is now that he is... Gone.)

My opinion on Claypollo:

CRAZY SHIP IT RUINED MY LIFE !! /Silly

We know little of Clay yes but despite that, it shows that He and Apollo were extremely close, hearing an "Im fine!" Of either of them would bright up their day and make them choose the right decisions. Clay was the only person who stayed loyal to Apollo, who didnt lie to him, betray him, etc. Clay was everything Apollo had when it come to people he trust, most of the people he trust betray him or use him (For the case of Dhurke, Apollo thinks He abandon Him). I think Apollo deals with Abandonment issues (It's so implied tbh) and Clay knew that, so, in order to protect Apollo he didnt tell Him about the whole "secret mission" he was in because of Yuri Cosmos, to not made him worry. Maybe things would had been different if Clay told him the truth? Who knows..

Methinks Apollo couldnt dare to use his bracelet around Clay (I said this before) because, what does Clay have to hide anyway? There wasnt a thing he had to hide to Him? Right?

I just think they were extremely sweet and supportive to eachother and the tooth rotting fluff (And the sweet angst) is so much to me that it makes me so happy when i see them like "Claypollo yay!!"

I love my doomed yaoi they are dear to me

[notnun]

Jun You Ji Fou (君有疾否) | Ru Si Wo Wen (如似我闻)

A.K.A. Art Thou Ailing?

Links: Novelupdates | half-eaten mantou (Chrysanthemum Garden) Edit: Mantou let me know that they plan to take down their translation once the official English translation releases, so look for the novels to buy if the translation is unavailable! But also give their tl a try while it's there~

Tags: Historical, Action, Adventure, Comedy, Drama, Romance, Yaoi

Chapters: 92

Read on: 03/23/2025 to 03/26/2025

This novel captivated me for the entire length!! Mantou did such a good job translating this and you can feel their care in every decision made while translating. I very much enjoyed this novel, and its one I will definitely come back to read again.

Upon realization that he knew practically nothing about his political opponent, the Imperial Censor Su Shiyu, after an incident, the Imperial Marshal Chu Mingyun quickly brainstormed ways to gain information without suspicion. Investigating Su Shiyu without alarming those he shouldn't normally wouldn't be easy- but he had a plan. All he needed was for Su Shiyu to listen to him.

Imperial Marshal Chu thus sets his plan into motion and declares his undying love to the Imperial Censor Su in the palace after work, within earshot of other officials.

Su Shiyu: .... Are you ill?

Chu Mingyun: Yes, with lovesickness.

They can't trust each other, but can't help but fall in love with the other. Their trajectories and stances are complete opposite and from the start they're doomed to a bitter ending.

Su Shiyu is the minister who is always gentle, always smiles, and does not hesitate to enact the law-even on his own relatives. He projects the image of being heartless- but who can truly have a heart of stone? He cannot waver because he already has in the past, and that cost him dearly. I loved the push and pull between them... The heartbreak Su Shiyu feels every time he struggles with his ideals versus his growing love for Chu Mingyun, and deciding to lock all his feelings and reactions deep in his heart where no one will see. I love him.

Chu Mingyun is ruthless, overbearing, but charming. He has been gathering military power for years, slowly building up his men's loyalty to him- not the Emperor. He sees that the current Emperor will only lead the country to ruin, and is reaching forward to rectify it.

He is the one who started pursuing Su Shiyu first intending to make it easier for him to gather information on him, but fell even harder for him completely unaware. His bursts of dependency coupled with his threats to completely monopolize Su Shiyu after both had already fallen hopelessly in love with each other.. Su Shiyu allowing it while also unable to reciprocate.... Whew. It was almost agonizing seeing the two of them tear at each other in subtle and overt ways as the plot came to a head....

And I swear almost every character introduced after the first arc or so felt doomed. In a good way! It didn't feel like the author was introducing characters to kill them off- each person was deliberate and had their own interconnections with the main protagonists... Which made it hard to see some of them get swept up in the plot and killed. I really like how the author slowly reveals the real mastermind- the readers get to be as similarly frustrated as Su Shiyu and Chu Mingyan while they investigate and connect the dots left by the evidence behind. And there was a good balance between the politics, the war, and the feelings and tension between our two ministers 🥺

In short, I've gained a new novel I love, two characters I adore and 100% teared up at the end of the novel with the historical account of the dynasty. I will definitely read the author's other works! Mantou is working on a second of their novels and I definitely will await the completed notification in the CG discord 👀

How was the translation? Excellent. Half-eaten mantou is an excellent translator, clarifying the many poems included in the text and pointing out when they had to translate things more liberally. I really appreciate the transparency and love Mantou has put into completing it. There were very few typos and missed words in the text. The inclusion of official art of a few of the scenes in the novel were also great 🥺

Would I recommend this novel? Yes! Its not as dense as some historical novels and like I said has a good balance of everything.

Would I reread this novel? Absoluuutely. 100%

Trigger warnings: Suicide, Poison, Sexual harassment*, Using "retarded" in the medical diagnosis sense, Gore, Child abandonment, Domestic Violence (mention), Torture, Drugs (Aphrodisiac), Child death

*Done with a purpose, disguised as him taking advantage of Su Shiyu. Past the first pat-down Su Shiyu acquiesces to Chu Mingyun's actions and its not unconsensual. Su Shiyu would simply Not Let Him if he didn't want to be there.

Thank you for reading my review, once again no readmore this time !! 💜💜💜

[artisticxlly]

Kamomedai vs Karasuno (pt. 2!)

Find pt.1 here!

Again, will be focusing more on the things I feel are important to mention here, trust me, I also just saved a ton of panels for the sake of them looking cute.

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Okay but Sachirou almost got a touch in on a setter dump??? How fucking perceptive can you be. Kourai was also very quick to react, almost receiving it. A power couple indeed, fast as fuck.

Their height difference still manages to make me chuckle. Also, god do I love Sachirou's smug smile. When I say he looks punchable I mean it in the best way.

Oh they're menaces. They're a combined evil that I absolutely enjoy. I'm affectionately saying 'fuck them'. I love a duo of bitches.

I did an analysis on Sachirou's backstory before, but here are some added notes on further reread:

Both Sachirou and Kourai end up alone because they're both focused on their passion for volleyball. While with Kourai, we don't get the explicit reason as to why (though I'm sure that taking his mothers advice, he is just extra focused on working hard), yet it seems less... Tense.

If you're familiar with unhealthy habits, i.e. workaholic-behaviour, you kiiiind of already feel the dread as you read the chapter. You see Sachirou gaining trophies, sure, you see how hard he works, sure, but it feels dull. His price for being an extrordinary athlete is given the same amount of time as him needing to remember to eat is.

Kourai is perceptive too, he most likely picked up on how passionate Sachirou is about getting better. That makes them similar.

What differs for them is the lengths they go mentally to achieve that. Sachirou takes it a whole lot more seriously. Not in a sense of how genuine his care for the sport is, but how much it matters to him when he isn't on the absolute fastest way to improvement. It gets to a point where it's unhealthy, this need for perfection, or at the very least constant improvement to make up for the mistakes.

You can absolutely say that him dragging his knuckles across the wall is his way of punishing himself for making mistakes, but if you look at it a certain way "My serving was off today. I'd better practice some more" is already just... Not good. Having an off-day should be something that's allowed, not something that needs to be fixed or ridiculed with more practice. To me, that too feels like a punishment he's putting on himself. It's implied that he does this more, or at least it seems to me that way. This repeating thing of him being late to eat something or not feeling up for it is phew... Yikes. A slippery slope, to say the least.

That's what ends up dulling his passion for volleyball. It started as that, sure, a genuine, innocent interest. But it ended up being unhealthy with how he dealt with it. That's why he only wants to play again after Kourai insists that he could quit at any time. Only after his perspective is changed can he regain a sense of joy for it, because it became such a mental battle for him and would've ruined his self-esteem completely if he kept his ideology. So yeah, Kourai sure as hell saved him in my eyes.

It's funny seeing how shocked their other teammates are about Kourai's conversation with him, but it makes sense that only a harsh wake up call would touch Sachirou at that point.

And man, I can't help but feel that this thing implies something darker than just him giving up volleyball. I mean, if you look back, it's kind of implied that volleyball overshadowed his other, more care-free life (hence his picture getting slowly covered up by volleyball books). And so if you took away the sport that was his life... Yeah, you get what I'm trying to hint at I think.

I'm honestly really glad Kourai was there to get Sachirou to snap out of those shackles he keeps talking about. Ugh, yaoi so strong it saves itself from being doomed.

OHHH YOU MAKE ME SICK.

Ohhhh youre so sick for outright admitting if /pos

Saving the others life is a trope that I love, have I mentioned that? I don't think I have /s

You could, you know. Also just say you're not fine,, just an idea. (I'm a sucker for them learning hoe to communicate their feelings when they're not okay and you can pry that headcanon from my cold, dead hands /lh)

They look so happy, fuck my gayass lifeeeeeee

Again, yeah, the theme of overcoming insecurities pulling you down. Ughhh /pos

I LOVE Sachirou's face scrunch on the top right so much.

Asking to fight with someone has never sounded gayer in my LIFE (In German you'd say "Was sich neckt, liebt sich" > people that tease eachother love eachother).

Also aghh, will be thinking about Sachirou calling Kourai their star for a good while... You gay freaks sicken me /pos

Yeah, sooo,, those are like the thoughts I had which are NOT just internal screaming and actually had a point to them (/hj)

I hope these thoughts make sense! If you have any additional thoughts or opinions feel free to bother me about them :P

[tirastales]

Floyd: I'm so lucky you came into my life...

Creek: Heh... I'm the one who's lucky..

Floyd: I love you so much, Raindrop...

Creek: I love you too, Sugar Plum

Today I come out as a soft Fleek enjoyer. I love psycho Creek and toxic yaoi fleek as much as the next fella, but soft, healing Fleek is the true owner if my heart.

(Don't worry Creek is still kind of a cunt, I won't take that away from him. Mans an asshole)

Personal headcanons alert!!! (This image falls into my Depths AU, hence Creek's lack of an arm)

TW: Mentions of drug abuse and alcoholism/self destructive actions

Creek sold out his entire people to save his own skin. Why did he do it? There's really only one reason. Guy was scared. Terrified. He was staring death in the face. In the literal jaws of a creature that would devour him without second thought. And fear makes us do stupid things. Things we regret. Things we can NEVER take back.

Creek is genuinely remorseful about his actions. When he winds up alone, fighting for his life every day, he feels he deserves it. He deserves to be alone. To die alone. He may have saved his own life in that moment. But he doomed himself to a life of solitude.

Until Floyd came into his life.

Now Floyd has made his own handful of mistakes. I personally love the headcanon that Floyd feel into some BAD habits during his solo career. I'm talking party drugs, drinking, ext. Mans a party animal, or at least he was. Until it got his ass hundreds in debt, mooching off any who'd take pity on him, then eventually captured.

I like to think that all the brothers did at one point try and go back home, only to find Branch gone and the tree in ruin. Like JD, Floyd though Branch was dead. He thought all of them were dead. So what did he do? He drowned himself in music, drugs, and alcohol. He failed his baby brother. The one promise he made, he failed to fufill. He destroyed himself every day after that. It was a punishment in a way.

Creek and Floyd are both broken, lost souls, riddled with guilt over past actions and failed promises. They understand one another on a level no one else can.

Floyd helps Creek reconnect with others and works to him redeeming himself in the eyes of the Trolls. And in return, Creek helps Floyd manage his PTSD, anxieties, and chronic pain

Now since the whole "spiritual/namaste" thing is actually INCREDIBLY insensitive to various east Asian cultures, I headcanon that Creek was the village physical therapist, chiropractor, physiotherapist, acupuncturist, basically a doctor who helped Trolls manage chronic pain, injuries, ext.

He did teach yoga classes, but mainly as a hobby, and to help Trolls practice body positivity.

These two lead a quiet life following all that happened to them. Guys are tired af and need a nap

I love these two as a sweeter couple. Floyd thinks Creek is stupid af but he loves him for it.

Okay imma shut up now this got LONG-

[2ndstar-ontheright]

toxic codpendent boys babyyyy

i love you and it's ruining my life (boyfs)

Summary: After coming home from college for the first time in years, Jeremy's flooded with a ton of mixed emotions. He's tried so hard to put his past behind him, but it all shatters in the blink of an eye.

A/N: UGH codependent relationships are so interesting to explore and write about, dude I'm going insane. (I don't JUST write doomed/toxic yuri, I also do yaoi. I don't discriminate) The negatives of Jeremy and Michael (other than "ugh jeremy's evil and stinky >:(" and "Michael's pining but jeremy's too horrible to see :(") really should be written about more often, IMO. I love these stupid teenagers

Anyway, thank you so much for reading!! Seriously, you're all the best.

Walking home from class, Jeremy’s door is softly pushed shut as he enters the room. His old room. Not much had changed since he left back in August, home again (at the request of his therapist) after spending his other holidays working. It wasn’t his idea, at the expense of his poor father, as he knew his unexplained absence left the man worried. He worried enough about him already, he shouldn’t have to add to that by being back here. All of the mess he was front and center. He’d changed since college, he really did. However, for better or for worse, they didn’t know him there so it was easy for him. Easy to be someone else. Not like he had in high school, yet still someone else nonetheless. 

But it was summer now, and that had to count for something. 

He toes off his shoes, shoulders falling as he breathes in the familiar smell of linen and lavender. Suddenly, his ears perk up at the sound of a car driving by. Creeping up to the window, he looks out and

“He’s still driving that thing?” Jeremy’s eyes widened in shock. It’s been almost 5 years with that thing. You couldn’t even consider it a car anymore. Jesus, with how many times it’s broken down, how is he even alive ? He shakes his head and puts it out of his mind, but for a moment he's interrupted. Almost instantly he recognized that car, but why? It’d been over 2 years since graduation and he never talked about home. So, it couldn’t have been that easy. Then, it dawned on him.

That was Michael.

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Later that night, he’s standing in front of his bathroom mirror, trying desperately to put images out of his mind. As he takes off his shirt, his scars and not as much as it used to be but still ungodly pale skin are on full view, like a child’s connect-the-dots page taken a wrong turn. 

The room’s flooding with steam and as he dissociates, he looks up to see sixteen year old him staring back. He’s that teenage boy again. His grim expression as he looks almost ready to drive his fist through the glass, binder in full view. It almost gives him a heart attack at the reminder that this is the same person he was just 3 years ago. He never did end up doing that, but the thought of it just made him shudder at how awful that teenage boy he had been. That stupid, whiny, annoying teenage boy who he could never run away from. 

He ended up not going to Michael’s that night, he was too afraid. (And he also wasn’t home given that he was touring schools that weekend.) He didn’t want to leave the comfort of his bathroom and be perceived by everyone. A loser like him didn’t have the guts, and that’s all he was, right? However, he could fantasize. And so he did. He fell asleep on the cold tile wishing it was his best friend’s bed, the sounds of Link collecting his sword and silent “Shit!”’s of frustration followed by an attempt to be quieter in the background. 

Jeremy blinked quickly, swallowing his breath and stepping into the shower to escape the fading reflection. 

That didn’t help as much as he had hoped though. His mind, as it often did, only resurfaced more as he stood under the water. This was better, he deduced. Now, he didn’t have to see it. To be reminded. He could just think. 

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“Michael..?”

Puffing out a cloud of smoke, Michael shifts his eyes from the ceiling to the beanbag next to him. The only light being from the lava lamp in the corner, he squints briefly before he’s able to make out the boy in question. Even in the darkness, he looked…god. 

He looked beautiful. As much as he still had so much turmoil inside him, how he knew they were drifting apart more than he liked but was too afraid to bring it up, he couldn’t deny the aura permeating off of his friend. Unable to look away as he drew him further like a moth to a flame. 

“

Yeah?” He replied, voice raw before coughing a little. 

“I…” Jeremy twitched. He felt like his teeth were about to run out of his mouth, like the back of his head was hinged open, brain fully exposed to the world. His thoughts, his feelings, his pain, all oozing out of each nook and cranny. He couldn’t help it. Maybe it was the weed, maybe it was being back somewhere so familiar. Regardless, he knew the real reason why he felt like he was losing it. Why he felt like he wanted to throw up and cry at the same time. 

“I fucked up.” He finished, head hung low. 

Michael shifted tiredly in his seat, hand covering his mouth to stifle a yawn. Leaning his head back, his eyes met the side of Jeremy, who instinctively turned to face him. “Whaddyoumean?” He asked, words slurring together slightly.

Jeremy laughs nervously as his lip quivers. Shaking his head, his brow furrows. “I- you know what I mean!” He exclaims and then almost a second later, his hand covers his mouth. Ugh, why’d he have to say that so loud? Thank goodness Michael’s moms weren’t home, but still. Jesus Jeremy, can’t you control yourself for one second? Tears pool behind his eyes, at first cooling to the bloodshot feeling, however stinging just a second after. His palms plunge hard to rub at them and make him look somewhat less pitiful than he already does. Which isn’t much as the croaking in his voice gives it away even more. 

“I fucked up real bad Michael. I know I did.”

Sobering up as best as he can, Michael snaps up and inches closer, a hand gently tugging at Jeremy’s wrist. “Hey, c’mon man, talk to me. What do you mean you ‘fucked up’?” 

His tone calming as always, Jeremy takes a quick breath; cringing internally at his shuddering. He sounded like a kid in trouble about to get sent to his room, but in his own sick way, wasn’t he just that?

“Just..” He sighed. “Everything. All of it. I keep screwing up and with the whole SQUIP thing…I- haven’t truly apologized to you for that. I didn’t even say I’m sorry and I should have!” Jeremy rambled, wringing his hands together before resting them on his knees, sweaty palms tugging at the fabric that was starting to feel like sandpaper. 

He blinked, tears falling shamelessly. Michael was always so sweet to him, and why? He of all people didn’t deserve it. After all that he’s done, the kind, loving, handsome, funny, and so many other flowery words he could use to describe his favorite person didn't treat him the way he ought to be treated. Like a monster. He still treated him like his best friend, and that made the anguish inside tear him apart even more than it had. 

“And I hurt you Michael. I never meant to, but I did and I’m…Fuck, I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.” 

Michael’s eyes widened. He hadn’t expected that. Had it really been that long since he’d apologized? Since they’d talked about it? He wanted this, right? He’d been waiting for this for so long, and yet, now he doesn’t know what to think. It’s not that he didn’t think Jeremy meant it, it was just all so sudden and he’d already apologized profusely for everything else already.

But never for how much he had hurt him. 

He knew he did, and Michael knew he was ashamed of himself, but he never said those words out loud. 

How long had he been waiting to hear that? 

How much had they thought, things other than and still similar in their own right, but never said to each other? 

Michael sighed, head tilting to look even closer into Jeremy’s eyes. His hand rested on his shoulder and slowly, he nodded, glasses drooping down to his nose. “I know you are.”

“And I forgive you, Jer. I really do,” 

He offered a somber smile which in turn earned him almost falling to the floor as the other rushed into him. Or rather, fell, seeing as he was stoned out of his mind. 

And even in that foggy haze, Jeremy meant every word he said. Bubbling over like a shaken can of coke he wanted to say so many other things than sorry. He wanted to sing it until everyone in New Jersey heard how much he regretted it. How it was eating at him from the inside. He loved his best friend. He loved him so much. He was the light of his life, the one person he knew really cared about him. And that no matter where they went in life, he would always feel the same towards him. Was it romantic, he couldn’t tell. He just knew that he loved him more than words could describe. 

Was it a little unhealthy? Yeah, it was. But at least he knew it and didn’t let it show. How worse could it have been if he did? 

Voice muffled by the fabric of Michael’s shirt, he pulled away for a moment. Not caring out how desperate he sounded, he sniffled, cleaning his face off as best as he could with his sleeve. 

Jeremy swallowed, cheek resting on Michael’s chest. “I don’t deserve it though. I was such an awful person, and god..” He sighed, shaking his head. “I…I don’t want you to go either. I don’t wanna lose you.”

Michael clicked his tongue and ran a hand down the other’s wrist. Part of him wanted to snap back and agree with him, and it did. He had been a dick, plain and simple. But the rest of him just couldn’t do it. He never could. 

“Shh..hey, listen. I’m not going anywhere, Jeremy. Really, I’m not!” Michael smiled somberly in an attempt to cheer him up. And Jeremy, hung onto it like a dog waiting for his owner. “I know you’re sorry and you feel like shit about it, but I’m not angry about it anymore. What’s done is done. But, I’m still here, aren’t I?” 

Jeremy nodded and returned the gesture, lips curling into a crooked half-smile. As Michael breathed out an unseen sigh of relief, Jeremy inched back towards him. Emotions heightened from what was normally a welcome smoke, he was utterly exhausted. After taking what was way too long to say all that he had kept inside, he drifted into a wobbly sleep. Michael succumbed to a fit of yawns just seconds after, palms resting in the small of the others back as he passed out. 

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Cicadas chirped outside his window and as Jeremy tried to fall asleep, that was all he could think about. Every thought that popped into his head pertained to that night, and many others before that. It was all memories. Memories of a better time, a time that passed, and a time that he could never return to. Maybe a time that he never deserved. Taken for granted like it meant nothing more when it truthfully meant the world to him. 

Turning over in bed, he faces the window; streetlights emitting a soft glow through his curtains. God, why can’t he just stop? Why can’t he relax and be normal for once? 

Sighing, he leaned up and propped himself on his shoulders. Reaching over, he pulled his phone onto the bed and unable to sleep already, he figured it couldn’t get that much worse. 

That didn’t last long. The first thing. The very first thing Jeremy saw when he opened his phone, was a throwback picture to a birthday party.

Michael’s, to be exact. 

It was his fourteenth, barely a month after eighth grade began. He pointed behind him, face wide in fake ecstasy at the banner saying “Happy Birthday Mikey!” as if he didn’t know what day it was. He “hadn’t expected anything”, but he knew damn well that wasn’t true. The kid reveled in his birthday. He was one of the few people, if not the only person,  Jeremy knew who genuinely enjoyed it. The memory made him smile. 

For a brief moment, he forgot about everything his mind had been weighing on him before coming down from the high and back to reality. The pain knocked the wind out of him harder than before. Why? Why did it hurt him as much as it did? Why did every time he even so much as thought about Michael he felt like crying? Was it because of the whole SQUIP thing? Was it from being home after so long?

Could it have been that he lost something he so desperately wanted back?

To return to the safety of having him there and they can live in their mutually doomed relationship forever.

Where they get high and everything somehow makes sense.

Where he’s a bigger loser now more than ever and it doesn’t feel like a giant failure. 

Where he feels…happy. And loved. And life feels worth living because someone, at least one other person, cares and has been there for the entirety of all he’s done. When others left, when he figured out who he truly was, when he almost lost himself, Michael was the one that stayed. After all the work he’d done to not return to those feelings or the person he was then, was just tossed out in the blink of an eye as he realizes he’s back right where he started.

Only difference now was, he knew what this was and that he couldn’t keep it up. He was older, and despite him basically regressing somehow, thinking about Michael, his subtle yet immediate swing into the beginning of a depressive episode; he understood that what he was hoping for wasn’t real. 

He couldn’t do that. Not to him.

As much as he missed him, he didn’t want to be the burden he knew he had to be on the other. (Michael never thought he was, but in Jeremy’s own fucked up mind, that’s what he believed.) He can’t deny himself anymore, about what he’s feeling/wanting at this moment anyway. He loved Michael. More than he’d loved…anyone. 

But now as he lies awake in bed, wanting to forget about it all, the thing that calms him down  into an uneasy sleep is going back into the place he regretfully knows best. His head. 

Dreaming he’s fallen asleep in the boy with the red hoodie's arms, like he’s done so many times before, he falls asleep. Finally. Why was he so pathetic? He wasn’t any better than his own father. Trying/chasing after a love that he knew he wouldn’t get. But hey, that was tomorrow Jeremy’s problem when he inevitably woke up. 

Unbeknownst to him, his phone dings from his bedside table. 

From: maybe? Micheal

“Hey.” 

[angryblueoat]

No one gets ace attorney investigations turnabout ablaze toxic doomed yaoi like I do. Colias Paelaeno and Manny Coachen you will always be famous to me. Colias knew something was off about Manny but chose to believe in him, chose to defend him. Chose to believe that he was a good person and that he wasn’t a killer even when all the evidence was to the contrary. He always knew deep in his soul but he didn’t want to believe it. Manny Coachen was using Colias, just like he was using Cece Yew, was probably ready to kill him at a moment’s notice too. But in the cinders of his ruined office he had a shelf dedicated to souvenirs. He collected them. Don’t you think he ever picked one up and thought of Colias and all his plans for tourism? Don’t you think he went and bought some stupid little plastic trinket to give to him and told himself it was part of his plan to gain Colias’s trust and not because he wanted to see his smile?

[toxicsludgeyaoi]

Toxic Sludge Yaoi Tournament: Phantomquill (Ace Attorney: Dual Destinies) Vs Lawlight (Death Note)

(No image provided for Phantomquill. Vote for whichever you like more.)

Propaganda under cut. Note: spoilers for these medias may be below.

Phantomquill propaganda

"Spoiler warning for Dual Destinies (mostly the last 2 cases). Blackquill, a prosecutor, was trying to figure out the identity of The Phantom, an international spy. So The Phantom killed Blackquill's biggest ally, which forced him to take the blame for the murder (to protect this person's daughter). So he ended up in jail for a crime he didn't commit. Six years later, The Phantom assumes identity of detective Bobby Fulbright, and under that disguise works together with Blackquill, who was allowed to prosecute again (despite being on death row). Their dynamic somehow contains a two-way power imbalance, since Simon is able to boss "Fulbright" around and insult him (being his direct superior), yet also "Fulbright" is technically his handler, and solves Blackquill's behavioral problems by... tasing him. They work together for most of the game. The Phantom forced Blackquill to take the blame for yet another murder. After it was revealed that Bobby Fulbright was in fact The Phantom in disguise (a man he was chasing all these years, the one who ruined his life, ended up right by his side), Blackquill cut his mask, thereby causing Phantom's breakdown. Blackquill took The Phantom into police custody at the end of the game. The jailer becomes the jailed. Great stuff."

Lawlight propaganda

"doomed by the narrative, age gap, voyerism, sexy sexy mind games, one kills the other, insane judas and jesus parallels, incredibly homosexual foot washing scene"

[biggie-chcese]

So uh,, what's your thoughts about Viviakou and Kokobolt?

ohhh ok so im of the rare breed that kinda only likes vivakou as a one-sided romance, if a romance at all, because they are so Doomed Yaoi to me.

i think it's very sweet that vivia finds a reason to live because yakou has shown how much he cares. i think yakou looking out for vivia's health is also extremely sweet. but i also just think that Yakou "i threw the entire NDA (including vivia) under the bus, into the heart of enemy territory, with no way to escape the peacekeepers, for a revenge plot" Furio just isn't open to loving anyone romantically other than his dead wife. he'd need a long time to get over her, and he doesn't even live long enough to do it. i like the angst potential. it makes vivia's arc in ch 4 all the more tragic, yet also cathartic when he lets yakou go and helps yuma find the truth.

TD;DR: not a fav, but i 100% understand it and think it's narratively interesting when one-sided on vivia's part.

now onto kokobolt.

ok. look. i get it. i see their gumshoe gabs. i see their bromance. i see desuhiko basically outright saying he'd fuck yuma while yuma is dressed as a high school girl but shhhh details, details and i see why it's popular. but i... i'm a hard neutral on it. like, i like it a little? but for the most part i just kinda feel nothing about them. i think they're at their best in memes and jokes. they're a really solid comedic duo and have a funny, enjoyable dynamic. but i dont care for kokobolt fluff nor do i really see myself enjoying angst of them. like i don't even see them doing the awkward slowburn "i dont wanna ruin our friendship" pining that usually comes with the "best bro friends to lovers" trope because desuhiko would just outright ask yuma if he could hit. which he has already done in canon. the only slowburn would just be yuma saying no thanks until eventually he just says "sure whatever you can hit." like, yuma may be a cringefail loser, but he could do better.

TL;DR: neutral on them but i get it. they're funny tho.