#Y'all didn't deserve that hate
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"Oh, you simp for Rick? EWWW You're disgusting!"
YOU'RE DISGUSTING FOR NOT LETTING ME HAVE FUCKING FUN.
#I made this post over some comments I found while scrolling through YouTube shorts#Yeah let's just say that a little bit of Spooky Month fandom is kinda...sour when it comes to simps#Especially to Bob Velseb simps#I'm deeply very sorry to all the Bob simps that had to go through with this.#Y'all didn't deserve that hate#Spooky Month#bob velseb#rick hedony#Tagging him cuz he's mentioned#fuck cringe culture#anti cringe culture#cringe culture is dead#Don't ever confuse us with THOSE types of fangirls#cringe and proud
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i will never understand how people have the heart to hate Jason even after they found out that his Ambrosia tastes like fucking sawdust. Ambrosia being tasty is like one single happy thing a demigod can have despite their tragic lives, because it reminds them of the home they once had, but lost. And Jason doesn't even have that, he doesn't even have a home to lose in the first place.
#He didn't even get the bare minimum of anything#what the fuck I'm bawling#json grace haters who make false claims about his character trying to villianize him go fuck yourselves I'm serious#genuinely y'all make so mad so DNI on my lage#hating a character is fine but outright making false claims about his actions to manipulate others into jumping on the hate train aswell??#how could you despise him with this knowledge. “because he tried replacing perc-” shut the fuck up if that's the reason#It was technically jason who was so quickly replaced in camp Jupiter after his sheer 11 years of hardwork#but oh no it's completely fine that no one in cj sent a search party after him and only jason gets the blame for landing in chb#I will never forget the part of the fandom who tried to convince me that Jason was a bad character who deserved to die.#pjo#pjo fandom#percy jackson#pjo hoo#pjo series#jason grace#pjo hoo toa#annabeth chase#piper mclean#leo valdez
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This might be a controversial take, but l don't think Eve deserves or should get a redemption arc.
#i have seen many people saying the she'll get a redemption arc#but although i see the vision i don't think it's gonna happen#or that it is necessary#i hate Eve as much as any of y'all#and what she did was WRONG#she shouldn't have used Grayson in such a way to such an extent and thinking of what she did DISGUSTS me#but do we talk about the circumstances that made her do it?#she was punished for something she didn't do throughout her life#she was treated like a burden#she was made to believe that she was not worth loving#all for something her parents did#growing under such conditions do you think she'd become a truthful lovely trusting little darling?#if you were in her place would you have trusted toby?#a man who left you even before you were born? (No hate to my man just describing how it would have been from eves pov)#Blake presented her with a solid opportunity and the odds were much more in her favour than anything in her life#again not justifying the horrible things she has done#but she is what she is#and you know what? a girl treated like her deserves to be like that#eve laughlin#the inheritance games#jameson hawthorne#grayson hawthorne#avery grambs#nash hawthorne#avery kylie grambs#xander hawthorne#tig#lyra kane#lyra catalina kane#lyrason
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"Colin should have grovelled more!" "Penelope folded too easily"
I think statements like this typically come from people who like Penelope. . .but don't really understand her. And don't really understand just why she cares for Colin, and just why him groveling would not in any way bring her peace.
Penelope and Colin are kindred spirits in their loneliness, in season 3 more than any others. Penelope had lost her friendship with Eloise, and Colin didn't really have a close friend circle to begin with. Except with Pen. Pen was the person he could put the mask down for, could open up to, (in particular with their 'dreams' discussion) and that's why he couldn't even entertain the idea of giving up talking to her in Season 2. She is a vital part of his life, and holds so much significance and importance to him.
I imagine that's what made their silence over his travels especially painful for him. They spent such a long time talking after Season 1, and he even informs her that her letters were so encouraging, that it helped him heal something inside of himself. That if she could see him in a gentle way. . .so could he. (And he repays this, because he is honest to god out here acting and looking at her like she hung the moon in the sky). But without her presence in his life, he spiraled. Didn't feel confident in being who he is, and thus put on his persona more firmly. We know this because he wrote in his journal that "I want to be less needy, less insecure, while still maintaining the core of my vulnerability that makes me who I am". That he misses his family, that he misses home.
And we know, from the books, that Home? Home is Penelope. Penelope is his North Star, is his guiding force, and who I argue he feels he needs. In his very first scene, he looks toward her house, tries to find her in the window. When he does not, he returns to his family. In the outdoor gathering, he looks for her and finds her, eager to talk. He states aloud that he misses her, and I imagine he wrote it, too. Not hearing back from her over the course of his travels was surely something that hurt him, but he doesn't hold any ill will toward her for it, only wants to reconnect again. In fact, the one and only time he brings up how he misses her and that she didn't respond, she makes very clear the reason why: she heard what he said and it hurt her. And he's ashamed of it.
Colin hears her call him cruel, and instead of ruffling his feathers about it, instead of getting upset, instead of having a chip on his shoulder as I feel so many men would about it. . .he understands why she does so.
Penelope is a woman who has been largely treated poorly in her society. She feels unheard, she feels undesired, and in her circumstances, and I can't help but ask myself. . .has anyone ever truly apologized to Penelope for hurting her, before? Her mother? Her sisters? Eloise, likely, but. . .anyone else? And the way Colin did? Because of all the characters in the show, Colin? Colin knows how to apologize. He has a lot of practice in it. And very importantly: Colin, a man of privilege in his society, apologizes. . .predominately to women. To Marina, to his mother, and multiple times to Penelope.
Ultimately, Penelope wants to be heard, Penelope wants to be understood, Penelope wants to feel desired.
And Colin checks every single one of those boxes. He informs he is not who he was before, and then he proves it to her. He hears that he hurt her, and he comments on it directly. An entire night apart, and he comes back to her 'Because I embarrass you' with 'I am most certainly not ashamed of you', replies to her 'I am a laughingstock' with 'you are clever, and warm, and I am proud to call you my good friend'. He hears her proclaim her own insecurities, and empathizes so deeply with her. He listens. He understands. He makes clear that he cares for her, and that she *is* desired. 'You lift my spirits' 'I seek you out at every social assembly'. That she helps him see the world in ways he loves, that he sees HER and how much she has cared for HIM, that she makes him feel appreciated, that he appreciates her, in turn.
And then? Then? He shows her. He tells her, and he shows her. His actions all throughout Season 3 reinforce this apology. He continues looking for her in every corner of every ballroom, he continues complimenting her, he laughs at her jokes and respects her boundaries, he is ever so gentle with her, he listens to her with an attentiveness that no one else has ever given her. To Lady Whistledown? Sure. But to Penelope? Who else in the entirety of that ton has listened to Penelope the way Colin has?
Absolutely no one.
Penelope Featherington ghosts Colin Bridgerton for months with no explanation, and Colin comes back wanting to reach out to her, and she finally tells him why.
And he apologizes. Because he listens. Really, truly listens. And really truly cares.
I need you to understand how rare that is, even nowadays, but especially back then. That Colin is the kind of man who can put his hurt to the side and realize he made a mistake, that he said something callous, and he adores her, and he can't lose her, and he has to see her and make it right.
Because that's why Penelope fell for Colin. Not because he's beautiful, not for his charm, not for his family. But for his heart. Because he shows her kindness in a world that so often disregards her. Because he seeks her out and tries to understand her, truly hears what she has to say and compliments her, says he's sorry and looks at things from her perspective.
Because he saw her when she was invisible.
Penelope Featherington, who grew up in a house that made cruel jabs at her, has Colin Bridgerton come to her and say he regrets what he said, and that he was wrong, and that he understands why she's mad at him. Penelope Featherington who has so rarely had much of anyone tell her that they're sorry for what they said about her, sits before Colin Bridgerton as he professes how much she means to him. That he cannot even spend a full day away from her knowing they're on bad terms with each other without making it right. That he sees how she is hurting and he has to in any way he can amend it. She is lonely, with no one really in her corner at the start of season 3, and she feels like she lost it all, and Colin comes to her and says 'no, I'm here and I appreciate you and you are special to me, please let me in and let me prove it'. Is it any wonder why after she shakes his hand, she stands in the sun, and she feels the warmth of it, she can smile? That she can breathe, again? That she can be truly content for the first time in the season?
Because Penelope Featherington does not want Colin to beg. She knows him. She knows the tender, full heart he hides behind the new cavalier persona. She knows the soft underbelly of Colin Bridgerton.
He never had to grovel. All he had to do was love her. Assuredly. Fervently. Loudly. Unapologetically.
And he does.
#polin#penelope featherington#colin bridgerton#bridgerton#sorry y'all i just have a lot of feelings and i need to get them out like they invented love what am i meant to do witH THAT INFORMATION!?#they just care about each other so much and so deeply#and they see the best in each other#penelope was hurt but she never HATED him#penelope was hurt and when she said 'i never thought you of all people could be so cruel' she also knew. . .he isn't#he isn't cruel#he's a young man trying his best in the world and he wanted to fit in and that made him say something hurtful about her#but he has a history of uplifting her#and he continues to do so#not one bad word about penelope all this season#'you are penelope featherington. . .never forget that' (you deserve the world) (you are amazing)#colin bridgerton said 'i love you' over and over this season and in the seasons before but we didn't hear it because we thought#it was only professed in one language#'you really are very good you know that?' 'you only wanted to keep me from heartache' 'what could possibly measure up to all that?'#'that you would never forsake me' 'you are pen. . .you are my friend. . .you do not count' (i could never give you up)#'i will always look after you penelope'#they are friends to lovers but there is love in that friendship#a deep beautiful love they have with each other#and sorry i'm ugly crying but i just adore them
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God forbid when aang has emotions and act like his age, like seriously I can't with people. Like I'm sorry, a lot of you assume people that defend aang thought he's perfect that could never do anything wrong, like no bitch I love him DESPITE his flaw, because guess what?? When he act childish, and or do anything wrong in the show, his ACTION HAS CONSEQUENCES. and ya know what else?? DESPITE EVERYTHING HE'S STILL A VERY COMPASSIONATE CHARACTER WITH HEARTS AND LOVE SO BIG FOR THE WORLD THAT DONE NOTHING BUT GAVE HIM SO MUCH PAIN AND SUFFERING.
You people keep nick picking every single thing he had done as if it's the crime against humanity, it's not him who commit genocide and colonialism in the show now isn't!? I'm sick and tired many of y'all act like he's one dimensional as well. HE HAS DEPTH, WE LITERALLY WATCH THE SAME SHOW!?
Come on man, it's almost two decades of this same thing, I'm so tired, leave my boy alone for fuck sake oh my god
#like.. come on#I hate how every tears he shed and every emotions he show beside content is count as invalid and horrible#I hate how every mistake he made seem like something so wrong as if you didn't do so much worse when you're 12#I hate how he has to be adult and FORCE to be from the get go because the weight of the world LITERALLY on his shoulder#I hate how everyone tells him to let go off his people teaching I hate how everyone looked down at his beliefs#Even to the bitter end ozai say him and his people doesn't deserve to be in the world like can y'all take a minute#And realize you sound like the main villain of the show like take a sec actually.#From the very first time he was born to the time he died in the series people still has shits to say and I'm fuming#venus rant#atla#aang#pro aang#Deadass just don't talk about him if you hate him actually#Save me from stress and save you from stress too
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If you want to be bothered. Maybe this for dick and Bruce???
i ALWAYS want to be bothered these are always the highlight of my day tbh you're a delight for letting me just yap <3
Dick. For the canon isn't real square I am Specifically talking about the Tom Taylor Nightwing run. Usually I ignore bad runs but given this one is ongoing (though about to end THANK GOD and get replaced by Dan Watters who i have high hopes for since i adored his Sword of Azrael (2022) run but i digress) so I counted it. Especially since it's so debated if that run is bad or not, for some reason. I'm a 90s Nightwing truther. I love Dick so dearly and tbh recently I've been more enamored with him the more I read his Discowing era, I didn't used to be as big of a Dick stan as I am these days.
Bruce. Honestly where do you even start with Bruce. I want to fist fight him and also patch him up. He got me into comics and superheroes as a whole but I roll my eyes whenever he shows up in a story. He's a bastard and usually not a good father but also complex and should be dissected under a magnifying glass. I love him dearly. He's also just the worst. I think that's why I love him. I'm always a fan of unabashedly Complicated Asshole Bruce who's generally not always the best person, particularly not to the Batfamily and that being the driving force of his relationships with them, especially in shipping.
And for bonus points, Tim. Because know above all else, I'm a Tim Drake kinnie /deg. He's been my number one for a decade and I've yet to uproot him from my brain. He's literally the Worst half the time and I love him for it. And the canon isn't real refers to Tim Drake: Robin because... that sure was a comic. And that's about all I can say about it. Pre-Flashpoint Tim I miss you so dearly. I think it's fun that I want to put him in a blender and drink the juice but also want Nothing Ever to happen to him.
#necrotic answerings#batcest#bruce wayne#dick grayson#tim drake#fandom tag#anyway the fandom is i guess mean to all of them#but like it's deserving.#everytime i meet a tim anti i'm like you're SO right. he's the worst. pls hate his ass more.#same with bruce. like never met a bruce anti who didn't have endless receipts for hating his ass.#(except for those using the shallow 'he's a billionaire beating up the mentally ill' argument which. i ignore)#(bc why are you. consuming superhero content if you just don't like or understand the genre. it's lazy pseudointellectual nonsense.)#and i don't think ppl are truly mean to dick. i think they just don't understand him.#which extends to the entire batfamily bc well. the state of the fandom and all.#like “everyone else is wrong about them” isn't in a “no one gets them but me” way#(except about tim truly no one gets him but me /j)#it's in a “oh y'all just want to fit them into neat boxes don't you” way#one more person call dick grayson “eldest daughter core” and i'm going to your house and eating the stuffing out all of your pillows.#first of all can we stop calling male characters “female coded” in any way please#women exist in comics too.#second of all it's just not true? and it's not the complex he has with bruce nor his “siblings” if you wish to call them that#and then bruce. where do you even start.#you dare say you think it's in character for bruce to hit his kids and *SOCIETY. society goes wild.*#like ofc it has to be in specific contexts. he's not just swinging.#and sometimes it *is* written very OOC bc bruce is written as a machismo self insert i give you that#but yeah a soldier who views his children as soldiers and has zero healthy emotional regulation or communication skills#is gonna sometimes swing in his worst moments. it is just how the superhero genre works everyone is gonna fist fight to solve problems.#why are you reading comics about ppl who hit other ppl for a living if you don't like it when they hit ppl.#also random hot take about dick's characterization#the young justice tv show did incredible damage to ppl's perception of him and i dislike the take it's the best adaptation of him
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I love posts about "overhated female cartoon characters" bc inevitably my girls PB, Rose Quartz, & Mabel will be there so you've got 2 pink-haired quasi-immortal war-crime-committing morally-grey queens and a 12 year old who likes boy bands and knitting sweaters.
#really puts into perspective how insane the mabel hate is tho ajshdgjasgdas#i want to draw fanart of PB & RQ babysitting her#adventure time#gf#mabel pines#su#su rose quartz#annoyingly everytime someone makes a post about them#you always get some clown in the comments going 'well [Insert one of the characters here] DESERVED the hate bc SHE-'#and it's like my guy. you are part of the problem. stfu#im still mad about seeing multiple ppl acting like amy sonicthehedgehog deserves to be shot bc 'she's a stalker'#y'all it is a cartoony gag which didn't age well which hasn't been a part of her character for like. Minimum of 10 years now#she is not a stalker she is a pink hedgehog with a giant hammer#sorry these tags are already a paragraph but im remembering the time someone i knew was mad about catra being redeemed#bc 'she's a war criminal'#yeah and? Based.
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So let me get this straight...
People are mad, that Feyre is a High Lady because Rhysand saw the potential in her and didn't hesitate to make her a High Lady? And the reason you're mad about it, it's because Viviane deserves more to be one because she was ruling Winter Court for 50 years?
BE MAD AT KALLIAS!!! He's an idiot for not making her the High Lady till now!!! Why you have to bring Feyre down for it???
And y'all hate Feyre for having a child because she said she didn't want one once upon a time and said she'd like to have Rhysand all to herself? But Vivian and Kallias mating bond snapped exactly around the same time Feyre's and Rhysand's bond snapped, I don't see people criticise Viviane for having a child with her few months of husband/mate...
#If Feyre is a victim of being a breeding mule then so is Viviane...#y'all just don't vibe with Feyre and you hate her for the reason you love another character lmao#the hypocrisy#I'm sorry that Kallias is an absolute tool that he didn't make her high lady lol#honestly poor Viviane she deserves to be a high lady too#and the fact that she was the first one to support Feyre and raised her hand at the high lords meeting#they're truly the girlfriends of prythian<33#feyre archeron#pro feyre archeron#viviane acotar#feysand#kallias acotar#kallias#kallias x viviane#rhysand#pro rhysand#high lady feyre#high lady of the night court#high lady viviane#yes thats right!!#high lady of winter court
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Alright fuckers I took another stab at it and did the thing, I may/may not finish the actual like, proportionate version one day but he needed to exist and hair hides all my arm related sins.
Please dear gods anyone whose art is even a tertiary focus Lycion NEEEEEDS a Knot All Men shirt I am beset by cursed visions but usually I write them or make cursed little dolls (yes there will be a cursed little Lycion doll with a cursed little shirt but the embroidery thread is fucking fighting me on Mithrun so I dunno when)
Also he has a smoothie
Because one of the many reasons I really do not draw much is I am aphantasmic and do not and cannot visualize so let me tell you every single aspect of this except the shirt just. Happened. What are poses. What are limbs. Bodies exist but WHY.
The shirt had to be a crop top tho for legal reasons that was extremely clear to me
(Hey fun realization tiny Lycion and I feel exactly the same way about all his lil elf limbs they're all wrong and we hate them WAS MY MISTAKE NOT TRYING TO DRAW HIM AS A FURRY. Fuck. I think furries are harder but I might try it.)
#delicious in dungeon#dungeon meshi#lycion#lycion dungeon meshi#knot all men#lycion deserves a knot all men shirt#i am almost the worst person to make this happen gang you have no idea#gonna make the doll one hot pink i'm so excited#but i mean my art is still somehow better than it was a decade ago despite literally never drawing anything#so read art tutorials! and tips! they help even with 0 practice!#(you should probably also practice)#(i'm not gonna i have too many cursed visions to write i have no timeeeee)#(which sucks cuz i am at the stage of 'can see where everything is wrong' but know i'm not gonna practice and then improve)#eh we living that how to draw manga life#didn't cross a million words on ao3 by having a balance of interests#the proportionate version has all his tattoos and everything but Poses Exist and i hate them and he has been redrawn 3 times already#because they are Wrong but How Are They Wrong i can't visualize i literally do not know what right looks like#other aphantasmics can draw and y'all are stronger than the fucking gods#how you pose
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How many shots would it take for you to sleep with @twcfaces ?
at the time that barton was asking this question, both him and matilda were about to enjoy some popcorn as a snack — you know, because it's delicious — but after hearing the last word? he stopped what he was doing. and coincidentally enough, so did matilda because she was about to grab some popcorn. but she heard all about what he'd told as well as tried to do to barton. which was almost kill him.
but anyways (LOL), you could practically feel the judgment coming from the both of them even though they weren't saying a thing: the best way to describe the stare they were giving the anonymous person who asked the question is that it was kind of like the, 'really? right in front of my salad?' glare, except if they were just exasperated instead of angry.
a few beats of tense silence passed, then before barton turned to matilda and was about to speak to her. though, it seemed she had guessed what her father was about to say already and left the room. that way, he could 'deal' with this anonymous person. barton cleared his throat then and faked a smile towards them, ❝ ahh — you know, i really didn't want to have to do this, anon. but you've forced my hand now... and i was trying to quit too, ❞ an overexaggerated sigh left his lips as he pulled a cigarette out of a pack he pulled out of the most random place ever (in a compartment in the cabinets that were too high for him, which he'd put there on purpose so he couldn't reach them easily. though he was lying about quitting so don't feel bad about that anon JSJSJ LOL)
barton stepped out onto his porch then and lit it, looking a bit like this sullen cat as he appeared to have lost all of the will to live. but he was really just being overdramatic.
❝ alright, who sent this in, hmm?! are you purposely trying to make me throw up in my mouth a little? because if so, then you succeeded, ❞ barton rose his voice but not enough to be considered yelling after saying this. a shiver ran down his spine just thinking about it. i mean, it wasn't that harvey and two-face weren't attractive in a general sense, but he literally told barton that maybe jim should've 'finished the job' whenever his father was killed by killing HIM too, and he also tried to shoot him (though he did technically provoke him, that was besides the point in his mind)!!
❝ i honestly can't believe that someone would ask this. i mean, part of me actually can, but you know what i mean. i'm not attracted to him at all, so i'm afraid i would have to take like... however many shots i need to not just get drunk BUT black-out drunk. like, i wouldn't remember anything of what happened between us, kind of black-out drunk, ❞ an incredulous laugh left his mouth while he put down the bowl of popcorn he was carrying.
barton narrowed his eyes at the other in suspicion before doing the ' i'm watching you ' motion with his fingers. ❝ alright, so i can't pretend to know why you saw it fit to put me through the terrible ordeal that is imagining me being with them, but just so you know; once i find out who you are... because i WILL find out, i'd watch your back. if this is the man himself though? i've got a special thing for you, and it's this star. ❞
#OF MONSTERS AND MEN: musings.#ooc post.#AHHH i swear i don't mean any ill will towards you anon!! barton is just a big Meaniehead and doesn't like harvey / two's at all -#even though he honestly kinddd of deserves to be held accountable for his actions OFC but since he never matured emotionally...#well at least completely he often blames things on other people or things but you didn't hear that from me 🤧 LOLLL#and also no cats actually smoked a cigarette during the making of this page so don't worry about that y'all. it's just a funny meme i found#hahah BUT it's the way that i made a whole new hair filter to put on characters just for this in regards to matilda for me JSJSJ#and also just pretend that the hair is a lighter blonde (i honestly just couldn't find any good pictures with her FC to crop the hair out o#that were completely blonde so... yeah) and OFC no hate towards twcfaces as well as i think they are lovely and you should-#absolutelyyy check out their harvey / two's account if you haven't already. barton's just got some serious beef with them BC of what i said#and also because he's a serial killer meaniehead who literally STOLE one of jim's kidneys but of course this man would omit that info-#from this because if barton is one thing... it's an unreliable narrator 💀 but yeahhh i hope y'all liked the pictures in here as well as-#the star because the instant i saw it i was like 'this. THIS is the one' because it's just such a goofy insult that barton would use it LMA#tw: mentions of murder
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Sometimes i hate to be the one who's always right
#i suspect that my ex bestfriend like the one i've been friends with for over a decade is now dating that one guy friend#who i was really into years ago when we were all from the same group of friends#and the point is that i ALWAYS had that gut feeling she was also into him but due to the fact that she was always dating someone else#she never really gave him a chance#and she knew i had some feelings for him at the time (she never tried to help us get closer btw which i took that as a subtle sign lol)#<- i mean thats what friends do right? especially really close ones#and one time she almost tried to start a make out sesh with him knowing i was there to witness it happening#she then brushed it all off saying she was drunk and blah blah blah#fucking bitch#i should've fucking ended it that day tbh#why am i mad about it now? i don't know#i just hate the idea that she could've started dating him earlier instead of supporting me trying to get close to him or whatever#possibly behind my back for a bit even#and me being so right about it since the very fucking beginning#if y'all ever catch me posting about how much i miss that person you're allowed to come to my house and beat the shit out of me#cause i don't and i didn't deserve this#end of rant
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vent under the cut you don't need to read if you don't want to!!!!!!!
I honestly hateee opening up or oversharing with ppl. it's kind of like eating for me where it feels okay in the moment but then afterwards I just feel awful. it feels like I'm attention seeking or saying someone else's experience isn't valid for some reason and it sucks. I don't do it at all with ppl I just met but with friends I tend to get carried away with it sometimes,,,
It hurts even more because I've been distancing myself from ppl bcz I'm scared of this exact thing happening. People have messaged me before, saying I seem cool and they want to be friends. And I get happy in the moment, but then I get really anxious about accidentally getting too comfortable and blurting out personal things, because then their opinion of me will wane and they'll think I'm annoying or ungrateful. So I subconsciously begin to distance myself and take a while when responding to messages, because I'm scared of getting too comfortable with them. But now I'm anxious that they think I'm cold or distant and that I secretly don't like them. It's just a lose lose situation mannn </3
I have so many DMs I've put off responding to, and I've stopped talking in servers as much bcz I'm scared of getting close with ppl in them. I really feel bad for it, though. I've drifted from friends bcz of that and it sucks because I genuinely love them a lot. I love everyone I talk to a lot and they always make my day better--I just wish I could be the same for them. I feel like it's a chore to talk to me. I honestly don't know what to do. It's even worse when I get close to someone bcz they like what I make/post because again, now that they've seen how I really am and I've opened up, they more than likely see me as annoying or a bad person. Like it hurts enough whenever we become friends naturally talking, but if it's with someone who's seen me at my "best" and has seen things I work on or stories I've created, they ofc associate me with those things, and their expectations of me are through the roof. So when I disappoint them it hurts a lot more. I hate getting attached to people it hurts so much
#vent#it's okay tho.I think a hug would fix me. I want a hug so bad :(#probably delete later#tag ramblings below#AND I LOVE LOVE LOVE MY FRIENDS SO MUCH LIKE SO MUCH so it's even harder. like I feel like I don't deserve them#y'all deserve better than me#I WISH I COULD ADOPT THE IDGAF ATTITUDE#truly the best feeling in the world--realizing you don't care anymore#and idk how someone could possibly like me for things I created--it's not even like I write well or sing well#I honestly don't understand how ppl could see anything I've made or sung and genuinely like it#so whenever someone DOES I'm just like hasbdhabsn yay!!!!!!! and then I ruin it w my awful personality </3#it's also why I take down a lot of ao3 works#like I've made 50 something works but it only shows two because I've taken so many down or made them anonymous--I hate my work so much#but ppl like it enough to actively want to get to know me and it hurts bcz I feel like they're not THAT good#same thing with singing like I'm not good at it at all#but ppl used to rlly like my impressions of characters and I'd get cast in quite a bit of cover groups and I just don't understand.why???#but ofc I can't ask that bcz.idk it just feels attention seeking when I do that#like can you praise me a whole bunch so I don't feel like it's not totally awful please?#I appreciate the support I get so so much and it's not that it's not enough it's just my brain is mean </3#idek what this vent is abt#I think ultimately it's just abt my fear of disappointing ppl#I'm close with a few ppl who know me bcz of things I made--and I feel like I kinda ruined their impression of me a little (a lot)#especially bcz I didn't always used to vent this much. like back when I was 12-15 I literally refused to vent no matter how bad it got#and I had friends who vented every single day so it's not like I'd be the only one#I just feel like it's wrong when it's me :'D I feel like my feelings aren't valid ig and I'm ungrateful bcz my life rlly isn't that bad#I only started venting a lot this year for some reason--and it makes me feel bad bcz now my current friends have to deal with me like that#like I have a diary I write in and it works sometimes but ultimately it's better for someone else to give you validation#I hate venting so much though#(<- literally venting rn BAHSDBAS)#I'M SORRY if I've been venting too much. I feel like I've been venting too much.guys am sorry if this is annoying I promise I'm workin on i
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Unfortunately hot hockey take: I'm not about to get mad at my goalie for a bad night when he's been the fucking pillar of this team the whole season.
I listen to the commentary; I stay late for the post game breakdowns. You know what I don't hear from people smarter in this sport than you or me? Shit talk about my goalies. I'm sorry they're not perfect, but they're the reason we're still somehow third in our division with our disaster of a defense/special teams. Sure, it hurts seeing my guy let that many in, but I know how he normally plays in our 5v5s (hint: today was a fluke) and if he's still been as good as he has with the teammates he's been given then take your fuck up Sway. You won't hear me stop cheering.
#life rambles#hockey talk#don't you dare turn your back on swayman for an off night#not after praising him for a shutout and that stolen point from the sens#seriously if i had a nickel for every time i heard the commentators say 'that boy deserves an apology from his teammates'#and take your contract shit elsewhere#i'm sick of y'all dredging it up just because you're pissy and the whole event went public#they didn't 'keep the wrong goalie' and just because the team hasn't let korpi down as much doesn't mean sway sucks in comparison#absolutely no hate to korpi either#goalie bob has done a good job with him#also seriously fuck the refs tonight for those bullshit calls
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i hate that i always get frustrated all the time.. im unable to enjoy my hobbies or going out with friends.. it's like im very much obliged to programming all day and i dont have any life outside it i hate it honestly
#not to blame my college but it's literally the very reason i started working all by my own limiting any social interactions and hobbies#yet i dont even feel like im going anywhere with this i feel so fucking shitty all the time it sucks#all because i fucking hate this college and this fucking course and i just want to get out of this hellhole i dont belong here#if only i could start over from high school again if only i got my shit figured out back then#if only i had a better mentor who would help me with my entrance test prep...#i wish i didn't trust those asshole hs teachers they literally fucked my life over.. all they care about is how much paid they're getting..#..and not how much they're teaching their students.. fucking assholes i hope y'all burn in hell i hope you guys get what you fucking deserve#for fucking over lives of several students like me just for money#well... just gonna cry myself to sleep now what else can i do#i cant change the past anymore better work towards the future
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"He will stay, Minerva, because he needs to understand," said Dumbledore curtly. "Understanding is the first step to acceptance, and only with acceptance can there be recovery. He needs to know who has put him through the ordeal he has suffered tonight, and why"
Goblet of Fire, Veritaserum
Some People read the whole series and still couldn't figure out what type of person Harry is. He needs answers, he doesn't trust the authority totally, if he didn't saw the whole crouch jr thing, he'd have forever mulled over it, agonizingly so. Yes Dumbledore isn't caring about how Harry needed time, but, Harry is in shock, a professor he admired throughout the year Turned out to be the one was hell bent on harming him. He needs answer and I don't fault Dumbledore for not letting McGonagall take him away.
Again, not saying McGonagall is wrong. She's absolutely correct that Harry needs to go to hospital and rest and needs to be taken care of by madam Pompfry but Dumbledore isn't wrong as well.
There are many times you can argue against Dumbledore, 1st year stupidity Or whatever tf it was included. But this one's not one of them.
#albus dumbledore#Gods his main tag is filled with hate posts against him#goblet of fire#Re reading it rn and I remember seeing people complaining bout it#How McGonagall cared for Harry and Dumbledore didn't#Both did#Sorry to break that illusion but both did#So done with Dumbledore bashing NFL#Teenagers I'm telling y'all!#Every authority figure is wrong only they are right#I've seen people parroting what Hermione and Molly said against Sirius#That too by Harry fans#Like#Know what I'll write another post about that#Sirius of all people deserves all the love he can get#Dumbledore is a grey character#Even when it comes to Harry#But when it comes to Harry Sirius is pure white#professor dumbledore#harry potter#dumbledore
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About to start head-canoning all the archival people and Georgie as aphobic out of spite.
#someone made a post saying that they hate fics where Georgie and Jon split cause she was aphobic and y'know what?#y'all want ~nUaNcEd~ and ~MoRaLlY gRaY~ characters#well then#let her be aphobic <3#i mean that's a lot less awful than anything HE did right???#she didn't 'eat peoples brains'#or stalk and harass and perform non-consensual surgery on them#she just#thought of him as subhuman for not wanting to fuck her#y'all can handle that right?#or is it only okay to attribute true to life moral failings that don't deserve to be forgiven to Jon?#while everyone else's true to life moral failings are the result of a bad time#anyway#this is already halfway canon since the only canonical mention we get that Jon is ace is him being outed behind his back#by two people who would eventually threaten to kill him#which is fantastic representation let me tell you (they say sarcastically)
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