#Why does it still hurt

[soulinkpoetry]

When it matters, it hurts.

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[ruminate88]

Why Does It Still Hurt 🎶 (This one I had fun playing with the harmonies)

Everyone’s life journey is different. The only advice I can give you is, don’t give up, no matter what it looks like!

Lyrics:

Why does it still hurt?

Gave you the keys To drive me insane You called it love There’s no words to explain

How you made me believe It was true love with me

I should be over it by now I’ve gotta stop feeling it all somehow 🎶

[a-lil-strawberry]

Seeing a steam notification that my ex is playing a game still makes me feel.... Idk.... Sad. I don't want to unfriend him though. I wonder what he thinks when he gets a notification that I'm hopping on some game....

[the-hurt-soul]

It's the holiday season and I'm still thinking about you.

[3-lavender]

Tw p1rge

My heart hurts so bad. I chugged a redbull cuz I was sad and that’s what I do when I’m sad. And then I made myself puke it up in the shower cuz I also do that when I’m sad. And my head has hurt so bad since then. And I just feel so stupid. It has been literally 7 hours of me trying to sleep but my head hurting too bad to stay asleep. I feel so stupid. Oh my god I’m so stupid. It hurts.

[bubonic-girlfriend]

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[chcrrycosmos]

You know, when my parents first got divorced all those years ago, I thought that if I acted like it didn't matter – like it didn't bother me, then it wouldn't. I thought that if I kept silent and kept my mouth shut, then it wouldn't hurt. It didn't help.

In fact, acting like it didn't hurt made it worse. It made my mind loud, it made my heart heavy, it created a wall within my mind.— It hurt.

It hurt and I didn't need to keep it kept inside. I wish I knew that all then, maybe then I would've been able to let everything out slowly, in a healthy way.

I wish I knew then that my father would abandon me so I wouldn't try to have a relationship with him as much as I did.

I wish it still didn't hurt.

[arandompubliclobby]

experienced true agony today! (hit my funny bone directly on the bed post)

[necroticghost]

I'm so triggered by violence... Even the slightest thing sends me over the edge because of past bullying.

And I can't escape it.

I can't escape any of the triggers.

They are all over the internet, of all kinds.

The worst part? The people who bullied me are just living their lives, some of them even having families now and stuff, while I'm here still suffering the effects of what they did to me.

I'm 25. It stopped when I was around 16-17, started since kindergarten.

Nowadays, not a week passes by without me thinking at least once about it. I'm still trying to recover, but despite my efforts I still see so many effects of it... I feel like I'm broken.

And I'm so angry at all of them, but so terrified of pain that I can't bring myself to wish them any bad because I know how much abuse and humiliation hurts.

I hate who they made me into, and that I can't move on.

[thesamestarlight]

it’s crazy that you can honestly be over something and know that it’s in the past and know that it’s for the better and genuinely not even want it anymore and it can still hurt

[ruminate88]

Obsessed With Why Someone Hurt You? Toxic relationships and betrayal trauma:

11/22/24

I first wanna acknowledge that you are a human ❤️‍🩹 If the person or people who hurt you, were people you loved and were close to, yeah that’s hurtful … You were trusting them and letting them have a hold of your heart and dreams. They got your hopes up only to let you down. So why do you obsess the whys???

I have done it 100%. I had an ex cody, who ghosted me without a goodbye. Yes that tore down all my confidence so when I dated my ex Andrew next, oh I was terrified to get heart broken and disappointed again but it’s almost as if I “expected” it to happen and then when it did happen, it confirmed my fears and doubts. 😔 The whole relationship I was waiting for Andrew to cut me 😨 Then he kept cutting me so much gosh I felt I was living in a nightmare cuz I loved him so much why is he cutting up the person who has his back and loves him??

My ex Andrew left me with so many unresolved feelings and so many questions !!! I have way more questions than I have answers… I also was not self aware AT ALL and knew nothing about toxic relationships so I didn’t understand that my ex maybe had childhood unresolved feelings/trauma himself and it probably helped him to treat me the way he did. Did he understand what he was doing and why? Was he self aware ???? (Idk and I’m not his judge)

Of course I obsessed the “why’s” Whyyyy did my ex Cody choose to ghost me when I cared about him so much and why did my ex Andrew confuse me to much? I kept texting Andrew, going back to him BEGGING for answers but he could only confuse me more. Andrew was never honest with me and if he was honest, I wouldn’t know it cuz the way he broke my trust, I no longer believed anything he told me…. Yet I kept begging him for “truth” 😝😝 I’m sure he was tired of me constantly crying to him and begging him to “take my pain away” I even asked him why the break up hurt so much…. Andrew couldn’t tell me why. He didn’t know himself 🥺 (it’s possible he lacked empathy)

I only blocked Andrew’s number when he continued to “call” and “FaceTime” but not say anything to me…. He called me from work but pretended like I am the one who called him and he said nothing. WAS HE LISTENING TO MY VOICE? Why??????? Was it to play games with my head and gaslight me? Was it purposely to hurt me for fun OR did he miss the attention I was giving him??? (Yes I have obsessed the why’s) Blocking his number was so horrible for me. I really wanted to fix it with him. I wanted to make peace and give him forgiveness plus I wanted to heal my pain but as long as we were in contact, he only hurt me ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 Was hard to accept how he treats me when I felt I would NEVER do those things to him. I wanted him to see my heart for him and I just don’t think now he was capable then…

People will tell you not to focus on the “why” it happened but to accept that it did happen to you and you have to focus on the impact more than the person who impacted you. They say it’s why you can’t let go of that person…. Well, maybe they’re all right. Seems I’m never getting clear answers from my ex Andrew and that I have to just continue on not knowing the truth ❤️‍🩹 Pray for comfort to get through the impact and pain ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 Healing takes time 🥺 love you all and you’re not alone! If my exes did have childhood trauma, I pray they’re healing from it and I’m sad for them and over them. Getting over them has been soooooo hard!!!!! ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

[aspen-questions]

I miss you

Part of me is pissed at you for leaving me.

The rest of me is still trying to figure out what I did to deserve having you in my life in the first place.

[3-lavender]

I’m literally wasting all of my time. I come home, eat, and then fall asleep until it’s almost dark out, then scroll multiple apps on my phone, then fall asleep again.

[lelindepage]

…Which was I?

If at my best, you still lost care and compassion for me…

If at my best, you still stopped seeing me as a sexual being…

If at my worst, you searched for divorce attorneys while I looked for conflict resolution…

If at my worst, you felt justified in your lies as you gaslit me again and again…

…then…

Which was I?

“Your absolute best won’t be good enough for the wrong person. At your worst, you’ll still be worth it to the right person. Remember that.”

— Unknown

[littlelightfish]

Marcille telling Chilchuck that healing magic can be used to torture people only to use it as such a few days later...

It's like she's warning him about what she can and will do if he doesn't cooperate. I find it interesting.

We know they're friends, but he doesn't want to talk about it. They all know that. Chilchuck is not a fan of talking about his life and they aren't usually pushy about it. The one problem is when Marcille wants to know. Because she's curious and has her head full of romantic novels and she just finds out her friend has some delicious and controversial love story. She's not going to let herself not know about his life. Even if he doesn't want to talk about it. For better or worse, she takes advantage from his injuries to make him talk about it, to force him to open up about this. She quite literally tortures him (just a little bit but still) to get this info out of him.

I have just realized about all this, but.. yea, Marcille, that's a kinda fucked up thing to do to your friend.

[sleepwalkersqueen]

how everyone coping?