#WestAllen fanfiction

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Tripped and Fell into His Bed - 1/? | westallen fanfiction

AU - Six months after a bad break-up, Iris is determined to move on with her life sans-Barry. But when his face is everywhere she turns, it makes his incessant booty calls hard to ignore.

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Chapter 1 -

It was exactly 36 hours and 12 minutes by train from Massachusetts to Central City, Missouri.

Iris was prepared for the ride though, because in addition to her stellar studying at her school of choice, the prestigious Ivy Leage Harvard University, she also worked at the campus coffee shop and saved up for a more elevated experience on the train back home in a sleeper car with a shower.

Granted it was still a shower on a train, and she wasn’t expecting anything impressive, given how small bathrooms were in general on moving vehicles, but she was still looking forward to it.

It was the only thing keeping her mind off the fact that her best friend since they were babies hadn’t shown to her graduation. Her graduation at the school they’d both attended until six months ago. And the last time she’d heard from him had been two months ago, when he’d informed her he was ‘really busy’ and probably wouldn’t be able to talk much for a while.

This was also after he ditched Harvard’s stellar science and math programs (he’d been double-majoring) to go to New York on a whim and pursue modeling.

Her lanky, skinny boyfriend (did she forget to mention that?) of nearly six years had abandoned what he was truly great at and had gotten a full scholarship for because an ‘agent’ showed up at a job fair they’d been attending one night, taken one look at him in his plaid shirt and dark blue jeans – oh, and the scuffed up brown shoes, can’t forget those – and decided he was model worthy.

Barry of course had laughed it off initially, and Iris thought that would be the end of it. But the ‘agent’ kept finding him on campus and eventually persuaded Barry to indulge him in a ‘Harvard Kids of Tomorrow’ shoot taking place that very night. Iris had a night of studying planned for the both of them, but he’d reminded her that usually they got sidetracked when they studied together and what could one shoot hurt? It would get this guy off his back at any rate, and then he could focus on what really mattered. Math, Science, and Iris.

Only…that wasn’t what happened.

He returned from the shoot beaming and with photos of his handiwork. Turned out he was quite photogenic when the right words were being dropped in his ear. And even though Iris didn’t want to admit it, the make-up, lighting, and wardrobe they’d put him in had turned him into an Abercrombie model overnight. Nothing more than that surely though…right?

“You do look hot with all that gel in your hair,” she’d admitted, playfully, proceeding to mess it up as best as she could until she could see her Barry again.

Her study session had come to an end abruptly as sexy times ensued, and she pushed the thought out of her mind that she hated the most. That this interest as a model had only begun.

Of course, in the morning she could no longer do that, since Barry had talked with enthusiasm about doing another shoot and another, and maybe even hitting the gym to develop some tone to his nonexistent muscles should it prove profitable in future photo shoots.

Iris’ heart sank, and over the next two weeks she watched their relationship deteriorate into almost nothing as he took job after job, reveling in the cash and compliments it got him, and neglecting his studies too. He skipped classes, bought a new wardrobe, and then, after one more meeting with his agent, who she could no longer put in quotes in her head, since he’d been legit all along and on the search for rare talent, Barry announced he was dropping out of school and moving to New York.

And he wanted her to come with him.

She’d exploded.

What was she going to do in New York? She was double-majoring in Journalism and Business, and planning to sink her teeth into her hometown’s newspaper as soon as she got back. With one semester to go, she was what? Going to abandon all that to watch him pursue a dream that left her alone in the cold, hardly talking to him, let alone seeing him?

He apologized for that, said it would be different in New York once he had a regular schedule figured out, but she couldn’t see any of it changing, and she wasn’t about to change schools for one semester when she was going to the Harvard University.

“You’re throwing your life away and trying to drag me down with you!” She finally burst, practically hissing at him as she reminded him of his life-long dreams to be a CSI or maybe work in some sort of scientific research at the facilities back home.

She insulted his modeling stint, saying he’d just ‘gotten lucky’, and that it wouldn’t last. Meanwhile, she’d be moving on without him doing what she’d always dreamed with someone who appreciated her and didn’t let low-grade salesmen get in the way of their relationship.

He’d been stunned but managed to pull the words from the depths of his being, “Are you breaking up with me?”

“Well, I’m not moving to New York,” she’d huffed.

“We could try a long-distance relationship,” he’d tried weakly, already knowing how that would be received.

“We’re already living it,” she’d barked, and he’d known that was the end.

Unless he begged and pleaded for her to stay with him and he’d give up modeling entirely if it meant he could have her. Maybe then things would be different. But they weren’t, because he didn’t.

She boxed up his stuff in her dorm room and sent him packing. Within a week he’d dropped out of school and left for New York. It was a month before they spoke again, and all their messages were short and choppy. There was no heart, nothing reminiscent of their decades’ long relationship.

They’d lost their friendship and their dating relationship in a heartbeat, and neither had the energy or the endurance to fight for it again if it meant letting go of the rest of what they held so dear.

In a way, Iris supposed she should be grateful to be going home. Barry wouldn’t be there, and she could reconnect with her girlfriends she’d left behind in high school, as well as find new friends at CCPN, where she’d already secured a job before graduating. There would be her parents and Wally to keep her distracted too.

Soon it would be like Barry hadn’t even existed.

Three days later, after a mostly comfortable experience on the train, Iris grabbed her carry-on luggage and made her way to the exit door when the train finally came to a stop.

There was a sea of people in front and behind her, but when she finally made it down the steps and the other people dispersed, going every which way in the direction they needed to go, she saw a massive ad plastered on the side of the train station.

JUST IN FROM NEW YORK…

BARRY ALLEN: CENTRAL CITY’S NEWEST STAR!

He was in a suit and tie, crouched and looking devilishly handsome with his hair brushed back, and his tie loosely dangling around his neck.

“Oh, hell no.”

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In The Right Light

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~1k, Barry Allen/Iris West, G-rating, Canon AU Summary: Joe handcuffs Barry and Iris together after a very loud argument.

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If Only

Summary: What If Barry woke up from his coma and iris had fallen asleep while visiting him.

Notes: My first published (main focus) Westallen fanfiction. I have written two others that include westallen but it's not the main focus or main part of the story. I did have another idea before this but I haven't gotten a chance to go back to the draft I have set for it on Wattpad and actually start writing it!

Chapter(s): 1/1

Warning: As usual major fluff. Barry also suddenly wakes up from a coma. Nothing very graphic or bad really just a bunch of fluff and cuteness!

Characters: Barry Allen and Iris West.

Rating: K+

Narrator's POV

For the past nine months Barry had been in a coma. Every second seeing him in this state broke Iris heart. Every second seeing him like this made her miss him with every fiber of her being. She was desperate to have him back. She would do anything to have him back. To hear his laugh again and see his sweet but goofy smile, or hear him geek about some science thing again. Oh how she missed him.

She would visit him at Star Labs as much as she could. She would talk to him sometimes hoping he would hear, before the coma he would always be the one willing to listen to her problems and worries. He of course would wash away the worries and be the one to stop her from making irrational decisions. Barry usually always knew what to say. And Iris was always the one who would stick up for him. She always believed him when he talked about what happened to his mother. She always listened when others didn't. To her, he was cutest need. To him she was the most beautiful girl, he loved her before he knew what true love was. They were made for each other they balanced each other out just ever so perfectly.

The day had been dull, she was working on dissertation she hadn't quite gotten the right touches she wanted just yet, there was just something missing. As of late shes felt like that, that there was something missing in her life. And that something was Barry. After work she headed to Star Labs to see him. It had been a few days since she had last seen him, and felt it had been too long already. So she pulled into the Star Labs parking lot and walked into the Labatory. She talked to him for a few hours, she started felt her eye lids get heavy and she leaned her head on his shoulder and fell Into a deep sleep.

"Iris wake up," Barry rubbed her shoulder softly. Iris immediately woke up with a start.

"Barry?" Iris looked shook, she couldn't believe her eyes."Your awake?" Iris hugged him immediately. Barry winced.

"Right, sorry." Iris said apologetically.

"It's okay Iris, don't worry." Barry replied softly. For a few minutes there was a silence but not the kind of awkward silence as some dreaded, it was a comfortable silence. Barry thought how he should word it but finally just thought he'd go out with it.

"Iris..." Barry started, intertwining their hands together. Iris scrunched together in confusion. Barry always thought she looked cute when she did that. She looking down at Barry and hers intertwined hands. "Wha..." she trailed off with a whisper.

"Iris I remember everything you said to while I was in a coma."

Her face morphed from confusion to shock to horror within seconds. "How...?" She asked, her eyes were wide with confusion, shock, and horror. She didn't want him to find out like this.

"Iris it's okay."

"No it isn't! I didn't want to you to find out like this. This-" Before Iris could become flustered and worried Barry crashed his lips against hers silencing her worries. The kiss was long over due after years of pinning after one another. The kiss was soft and slow but passionate nevertheless. Everything both of them ever wanted. All the worries Iris and Barry had were washed away it was like they had no worries all they had was each other and this blissful moment with one another. Barry moved his hand to her cheek and deepened the kiss. Iris leaned closer to Barry placing her hand on his chest. They stayed in this joyous and blissful moment for a few more seconds and then they both pulled away. They both smiled blissfully at one another. Iris moved to Barry's bed and layed her head on his chest, they snuggled against one another.

"I love you, Barry." Iris said looking up at Barry. Barry smiled goofly at her. He answered by proclaiming "I love you too, Iris." And once again they were both engulfed in loving kiss.

The End

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In Repair

Lol so I just marathoned s1-current Flash and I’m like here for westallen? I’m here, its my ship--they are my OTP. Sat down to write something because watching 7 and 8 was excruciating and needed something cathartic to release and heal the stress of it all. I’m returning after years to fanfic so pardon any of my dust and if I do anything wrong!

Basically a one shot comfort fic after Iris gets out of the mirror, playing around with how to heal as a married couple or rather finding healing together? IDK. it is what it is, hope you enjoy <3

Title: In Repair Fandom: The Flash (Arrowverse) Pairing: Westallen Word Count: 1679 Warnings: Angst? Hurt? Comfort? Healing? Trauma? 

She doesn’t try to make pancakes anymore, even though she remembers the voice of Nora-the best of both her and Barry talking about mom’s pancakes. Maybe her daughter would actually approve of this change in the timeline. 

He’d come downstairs to see her sitting blank eyed in the wreckage of their kitchen. She’d heard his voice calling to her, and wonders when the last time was that he’d said her name without a slight tinge of panic. Dimly she’s aware that it’s no one’s fault–the logical rational side of her that has adjusted as well as she can to being the wife of the fastest man alive who has far too many arch enemies for how sweet his smile is and optimistically hopeful his approach to life has always been. 

It’d been weeks after she’d returned, or maybe only a few days–she’s been having trouble with her time lately. Marrying a speedster makes time seem amorphous, and she has started to refer to the blocks of her days as events labeled by crisis and villains. He’d come down the stairs energetically as always, dimly she’d recognized his light steps that he always started the day with cheerfully wishing her a good morning, asking her how she slept and rambling about whatever thing he has planned for the day. She knows when he realizes something isn’t right because the way he says Iris immediately changes and she would know that crackle of electricity anywhere and she knows he’s surveying the wreckage of the kitchen silent taking in what probably is a pretty pathetic sight. 

Glass of wine in hand she’s sitting with her legs splayed out before her, a mess of mixing bowls, spatulas, measuring spoons littered across their usually neat kitchen. The floor, her clothes, her hair covered in a snowfall layer of flour. There’s a shattered plate thrown far away from her, decorating the burnt black pancakes like abstract art. She should take a picture, get it hung and see if a museum will hang it–she’d call it, “what a fucking mess my life it is”.

Iris?

She knows she should respond, she should reassure him with a smile and tell him that it’s alright and that she’ll be okay and that it’s nothing–because she’s Iris West-Allen, his lightning rod, his home. But she hadn’t been his home. She takes a sip of what she’s calling her breakfast wine so that the tears don’t slip down her cheeks. She’s too busy staring at her feet in an attempt to not look in his eyes, but she sees his pale hands come to rest on the brown expanse of her leg and the familiar way he runs it up and down calms her. It’s a habit of his, to run his fingers over her almost absentmindedly as if to remind himself that he did in fact get the girl, and that she is really in fact there. It’s those moments she knows that he’s trying to memorize what she feels like, to reassure himself she’s alive. He gives her quiet space, until she finally lifts her eyes to meet his and she sees in his face openness, patience, and he does that quirk with his mouth that she recognizes is his way of asking her, you okay?

“I thought I’d try making pancakes today.” she said, her own voice sounding separate from her body. He makes no sound but instead rests his hand on her leg, and she knows that he’s listening, soft concern and quiet comfort seeping from his fingers into her skin. “I failed.” 

She can’t help the strangled laugh that comes from her lips. “I thought, I could reclaim some of the time we lost, redo it. Take back what they stole from us, from me.”

The words, the emotions, they’re ugly–and now she’s afraid to look him in the eye. He’s always been so insistent in her goodness, in her perfection–she’s afraid to show him her ugly sides, to see the love in his eyes diminish when he realizes she isn’t all those things he’s sure she is. “I can’t even make my husband pancakes.” Would you have been happier with her? Do you want me to be more like her? Am I no longer enough for you with all these broken pieces, was she a better version then me? Was that why it took you so long to realize it wasn’t me? Is–that the version of me that you want me to be? 

These are all the phantom questions that have haunted the spaces in between them since she has returned, wisps in the air that she has been too afraid to make real. She knows that this is unfair of her to think it, he had been as much a victim as she had but it doesn’t change the fact that she’s feeling these things. 

“You know, I love that you can’t make pancakes.” His voice is low, soft and musing. “I love that you still try, I may not exactly love eating them–but I love that you try. You don’t need to learn how to make pancakes–that’s what I’m here for. What about waffles? Why don’t we ever make waffles?”

Laughter leaves her lips in a soft exhale, his rambling continuing–comforting because even if the world is ending Barry Allen will go off on tangents. It’s those moments that remind her of the before, before 9 month coma’s and villains of the week; before funerals every year and goodbyes and distance and shattering and mirror shards. Instead it’s textbooks and papers spread out over the dining table, late night brownies and mint-chip ice cream in the living room, it’s walking down school halls together as she listens to whatever new science thing he has learned. It’s knowing that she understands him and he understands her and in spite of everything they will be standing at the end of it all together because she is Iris and he is Barry and they were so entangled in each other that she knows it’d be impossible to separate where she begins and he ends. 

“I don’t know what to do.” It’s not what she had thought she would say but it slices through his words and leaves silence in the emptiness. She’s too scared to look in his eyes, “I don’t know what to say. How to feel. I’m angry.”

She feels him flinching, knowing the guilt that he still holds and hasn’t worked through and shakes her head as she looks at his face, his eyes now avoiding hers. “Not at you, at least not fully at you. It’s anger because I don’t know how I got here, how we got here. I’m angry at myself that I’m angry at you–you were hurt too. I’m angry because I don’t know who to blame, I know that there’s no one to blame and that it’d be easier to blame someone–something.”

Tears are sliding down her cheeks now and she hates it. Subconsciously her legs withdraw to her chest, her arms wrapped around them as she tries to make herself small–protecting herself from she doesn’t know what but she feels vulnerable, “What if I hadn’t gone on my own that night Barry? What if I hadn’t trusted her? And now there’s marks and traces of her everywhere, my clothes, this kitchen, our home–I let her in, I let her hurt you.”

His arms envelope her and his legs wrap around her enclosing her in a protective barrier from the world, and she sinks into his warmth and protection. He mutters soft nothings into her hair and he lets her talk, her guilt, anger, frustration cascades from her with the force of a torrential storm and he holds her, anchoring her in his warmth and his familiarity. Butterfly kisses on her temple, his hands writing words of encouragement along her bare skin, he lets her break down into little pieces. Only when she’s talked herself out, exhausted and sniffling and breathing slowly and sleepily from within the shelter of his body framing hers does he say anything, “It’s okay. These feelings-your feelings, share them with me Iris. I won’t hate you, I don’t think less of you. It’s not your fault, none of this mess is your fault. I’ll keep telling you until you believe it.”

She just sniffs, already uncomfortable with all the emotions that she has shared, awkward in her vulnerability, “I’m sorry that I ruined your shirt with my snot.”

His chuckle rumbles deep within his chest, “That’s what washing machines are for.”

“I’m not okay yet.”

“That’s alright, neither am I.”

“We’ll figure it out.”

“Together.”

“Together.”

It’s not perfect, it’s not magically healed. She knows there will be more breakdowns, more fights, more anger on the road to being okay again but-she also knows that it’s a start. That’s good enough for now. 

In the long silence after their emotions have subsided into synchronized breathing, while she’s still curled up in his warmth and solidness she feels brave enough to break the silence, “What do you want for breakfast?”

He’s quiet and she shifts to look at his face, curious. His green eyes study her face, as a slow fond smile lights up his face. That slow, happy, boyish smile that she knows he’s only ever given to her, the one that she possessively clutches in her heart because its hers and hers alone and he fondly leans in to kiss her quickly, “I think I’ll have my favorite Iris West-Allen breakfast special.”

She raises an eyebrow at him the teasing smile in his eyes causing her own mouth to widen in response and she knows what he’s gonna say feeling honey warm love radiating from her heart to briefly encompass her body in a quiet surety that they may not be completely okay yet, but that they would be. 

“Iris West-Allen, could you make me a banana?”

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Meet The Wells - Harry Wells Fic

Tv Show: The Flash

Setting: Season 4

Pairing: Harrison ‘Harry’ Wells x Leanna ‘Lea’ O’Conner

Featuring: One of the best characters on the show, Cisco Ramon!

—-

The morning everything pretty well. Team Flash was doing their usual work at S.T.A.R LABS. Discussing lunch breaks, new metas they possibly discovered, new experiments to create and plans for the weekend. That was until Harry mentioned friends.

Cisco sat up, “No he’s delusional. That’s because the lack of sleep he’s has been having. Uh, Harry friends are in here!”

Caitlin looked at Barry, who stood there confused, guessing that he’s being sarcastic.

“I got friends other than you guys! You will meet them.” Harry respond, siping his morning coffee.

Cisco gave his second girl a look and asked, “Lea help.”

“I-i know nothing about this.” Lea admitted with her hands up in defense.

“Ramon, believes i don’t got any friends. When i clearly do.” Harry yelled and sighed, typing away on his keyboard, “You told me to go make some friends, right?”

Cisco yelled back, “Yeah but last time i checked, you don’t have any friends besides us!”

Leanna who was tinkering with her tools looked up and nodded, “Yup! I did tell you that. Actually I’m curious to meet your friends, but I gotta hand some paperwork over to Joe first.”

She stood up, giving her boyfriend of 3 years now, a quick kiss on the cheek, in which Harry wraps his hand around her waist pulling her in for one more starling kiss. Clearly he was excited for today.

——

Cisco and Harry were in the speed lab being introduced to their scientific ragtag team of friends. But it wasn’t what Cisco suspected Harry’s friends to be. One of them even practically threw Cisco Ramon out of the speed lab for being annoyed and offended. Lea walked in, confused onto why her best friend ran out of there but her confusion came to a pause after what she see saw.

There stood right in front of her brown eyes the doppelgängers of Harrison Wells. Not 1, not 2, but 3 Harrison Wells in the speed lab. And if add Harry, that makes 4! In total stood 4 very different variants of Harrison Wells, going from one with gray hair and a turtleneck to one with war general uniform like he just lost an eyeball for God’s sakes.

She didn’t know to laugh at how insane this is or internally whine about this little endeavor being oddly weird for her. But at the same time she was very much integrated into this new situation. She met versions of Wells beforehand but this was completely different. Before she can even say a word or pull together another set of thoughts, when a voice called out to her. More or less a catcall followed by a cheeky whistle.

“Who is this little beauty queen? She’s finer than a flower on a summer morning!” Yelled out a rusty almost burnt blonde Wells in a red rode and slippers.

Lea didn’t realize they were staring at her that moment, quickly fixing her dark gray shirt with tiny daisies scattered all over and dark jacket she borrowed from her friend, Caitlin Snow, earlier that week. She firstly mouth a small “What the fuck?” to Harry as he jogged over swiftly taking her hand with ease. The man was clearly excited about this.

“Honey, come meet my new friend!” He exclaimed holding a grin, returning back to earlier spot but this time with her next to him, “This is Harrison Wolfgang Wells, H. Lothario Wells and Wells 2.0. Men, this is Leanna O’Conner.”

All 3 of them smiled at the lady. Wolfgang Wells stayed wondering his eyes at the brunette, as if he trying to pin point something in particular.

Lea had to just smile politically for the 3 idiots to go sight seeing on her, if allowed. Without a second later the women dragging Harry out into the hallway for a quick chat.

“Harry, honey, what the hell?!” She whispered yelled.

“What the hell? What do you mean ‘what the hell?’?” He whispered yell back.

“Are you out of your mind? Have you officially lost your marbles?!”

“You asked me to make some friends and that’s exactly what I did!”

“When I told you to make friends, I didn’t mean with yourself!”

“They’re technically NOT me! They’re my double hitting doppelgängers from other earths and one of the biggest baddest brightest mind out there.”

“Again! There’s literally 3 of you in that room, all three of them ready to make goo goo eyes at me and oh yeah, one of you is enough but a friend group of Wells that’s just—”

“Sweetie I can handle this. There is nothing to worry about, they’re just charming and intelligent people with different kinds of backgrounds. It’s gonna go great. I promise.”

“You promise? Cause—”

“Lea it’s fine! I got this.”

————

Once the couple walked back in, Lea announced the plan with Harry, but the second they all heard her voice they looked at her like 3 somewhat trained dogs. Harry had to scuff down a laugh, snorting a smidge.

Sandy hair blonde Wells aka H. Lothario Wells, grinned at her. He found her pretty and said, “Say, gorgeous you got any sisters? Or are you free this Sunday night?”

She blushed chuckling as she shook her head ‘No’ as Harry face them with a glare saying that Lea was HIS girlfriend. So hands off fellas!

Wells 2.0 spoke up, “I had a Lana on my earth…”

“Really? How was I like?” Lea asked, her eyes perked up curious about the answer.

“I wouldn’t know, she died or was it that she left the country? Oh well, i don’t remember! Ladies on my earth aren’t as nice looking as you.”

——————

The four of them kept talking, mainly Harry and his doubles, Lea just stayed sitting back writing on her iPad a few notes on an old equipment and equations. She listened every once in a awhile to their conversation, walking in and out of the lab to other part of the building or heading down to Jitters for some java.

Blowing a kiss to all 3 copies of Wells as she left. All of them stayed with a loopy and cheeky smiles after that. Harry Wells was the lucky one, he actually got a kiss of the cheek.

Returning with a coffee for her boyfriend, after handing one to Caitlin and Cisco she heard it. “Annie..” said the voice. It belongs to Wolfgang Wells, who staying eyeing her for the moment due stepped into the room in the first place. She rarely heard that nickname tossed around but it been said plenty of times beforehand. Only Cisco or Barry will throw that nickname out.

“That’s Leanna, not Annie, can you believe this guy fellas?” Replied Sandy Wells with a chuckling, figuring his doppelgänger was nuts in the head or something.

“No, Annie O’Conner..” Wolfgang Wells said once again with curiosity and confidence in his tone.

“Yeah he’s right.” Lea confirmed his wording, “Did you know a version of me, on your Earth?”

“My wife.”

“We’re married?”

Harry’s eyes darted towards them, mumbling, “You married a verison of her? When?”

“Yeah but I left her. Too much of a handful.” Wolfgang said with a shrug.

Lea gasped, “HANDFUL? I will have you know that I’m not a handful, you guys are. No offense, Harry..”

Wolfgang snickered, “You sound like her too! I left her cause we fell out of love, she was too uptight and I was too busy to care.”

“OUCH!”

“But I think still love her very much. Still, love is love. I think we all got a verison of this lady on our earths, right?”

Sandy Wells chuckled, “Mhmmmm! I do. She’s my 2 A.M bootycall. Speaking of which…”

Just like that, blondie wells was gone saying he got business to take care of. Leanna jaw dropped, meanwhile Harry held back a little smile, grabbing everyone’s attention back to the matter at hand.

All 3 men went back to work. But the looks Wolfgang and 2.0 didn’t go unnoticed, glancing at the half Asian brunette every once in a while. Both men saw something in her, and they liked it. Harry had to snap their towards himself instead and looping a hand on his girlfriend’s waist to signify that once again she’s taken!

The men were talking over one another and bickering more often than not about the topic. Honestly it was kinda hilarious.

Cisco walked in soon enough with a smile, “Soo Council Of Wells, how are we doing? Any progress or we just chitchatting about who’s smarter?” 

Leanna chuckled at the last part, because half of it was true.

Harry on the other hand groaned in annoyance, “It’s not going anywhere! We can’t even agree on what method to use.”

“What? You had an entire day.”

“I know! I know!”

“Is it cause Lana is distracting them?”

This time Lea spoke up, “HEY! Right here you know?! First we’re complimenting me, then you’re treating me like a diamond in the rough and now you’re insulting me?! What is it? Leanna Day and I didn’t get the memo?!”

“Well welcome to my life, girlfriend! Theses guys love to do the same thing to me! Ain’t so easy, isn’t it?” Cisco repiled back, tossing her a glare.

“Ohhh, so this is the way your framing this, huh?”

“I guess so, Annie!”

“Cisco I swear—!”

“Wait?”

“What?” Harry asked.

“Isn’t there a 3rd one? Isn’t there 3 of—”

He pointed out there was only 2 Wells standing there, not the original 3 from the beginning of the day. Harry was about to say something about it but as if on cue, Sandy haired Wells reappeared with a cheeky grin blabbing on about something.

Sandy turned toward the trio with a smile, “Oh sorry! Had to take care of some off camera business—”

“OHH MY GOD!” Cisco shouted holding a hand, covering whatever it was he didn’t want to see.

This Wells had his pants down, showing everything his mother gave him. Harry tried to looked away, his face accidentally saw it. Leanna just blinked, gasping as she turned around burying his face in her boyfriend’s black shirt.

“What?” Asked Sandy Wells softly , confused.

“I can see your Frank and beans.” Said Wolfgang, looking rather uncomfortable.

“Come on, now. Do my best thinkin' commando,” Sandy defends himself with a shrug, “Plus, it ain't like we all haven't seen it before. Especially, you little missy.”

“I haven’t seen it!” Cisco yelled, sounding funny and offended by the fact.

He shoots a wink Leanna’s way and she feel like she can’t help but peek her face towards all the men in the room. She saw so much more than clearly expected today! Like Jesus Christ! She rested her head, still sorta hiding her face in her boyfriends shirt.

She didn’t look confident or heroic in that moment.

Harry placed a comforting hand on her head, holding his lady while smiling at her embraced blushing and embarrassment.

Cisco held back a couple of laughs, “Aww! You’re traumatizing the poor girl! But seriously, dude put that away..please.”

Wolfgang agreed with Cisco for once.

“Ah, you Earth Folks. You are so uptight.” Sandy replied pulling up his pants.

“Ah, alright! Can we get back to the take at hand? We need answers.”

Suddenly all men started throwing out suggestions left and right, speaking over one another not allowing Cisco nor Harry to keep a full sentence in.

Lea’s ears were ringing loudly and she groaned in annoyance, “Okay! That’s enough!”

“Enough? We’re just getting started!” Add 2.0 Wells, in which causing another explosion of words being thrown around.

Clearly Harry was losing it having enough of this shit and yelled, “Guys! Guys! Ga—gentlemen!” Grabbing all their attention he continued, “Clearly this isn’t working. And just for the record, it’s not me, it’s you.”

With a simple push of a button, all three holograms disappeared, leaving the trio to themselves.

“This, was a bad idea.” Harry said walking back, placing his hands on his girlfriend’s shoulders whispering, “You okay?”

“It’s like your junk was burnt into my brain.” Cisco answered instead.

“Your welcome.”

Leanna did not answer or add into the previous statement, just walking out with a hand covering her ears silently. Harry and Cisco shared a tired look, figuring something bothered her..

——

Him and Cisco were talking for a bit, the genius still grumbling about what happened. That he needed to accept the facts and himself, since they are technically his doppelgängers but still. He didn’t truly like it too much.

Until he found her.

Harry found his girlfriend in his lab, scribbling in a notebook wearing her noise canceling headphones, that both him and Cisco carefully crafted her due to her meta human abilities, and playing with her bangs.

He sighed, knowing she was flashed today and practically felt just as insulted as he was. But because Leanna was more of a sensitive soul in the relationship, rather busy lately with Iris’s wedding planning, and helping the team with their issues. Along with the overheating bickering wasn’t probably too pleasant to her ears.

He winced, taking a marker to the whiteboard and tapping it against the clear sided screen. Harry walked over to her, tapping her shoulder and simply asked, “Hey, are you alright?”

“Hm?” She asked, removing her headphone registering what he said and chuckled, “Oh! Yeah honey I’m fine.”

“Isn’t that my line? Lea, honey, what happened? You kinda snapped at them.”

“Yeah well, so did you!…I, uh, umm wasn’t expecting today. Part of me knew something was gonna happen! I felt like I was being pulled left and right. I mean 4 Wells in one room, that’s overwhelmingly surprising and kinda chaotic..no offense.”

“None taken! They are just huge self minded, idiots. Uptight, roughly insulting, snooty and just jerks. I—I didn’t think it would go like that! Hell they flashed you and choose to make eyes at you the whole time. Treated you like you were an prize to be won and be thrown away…no one was paying attention to anything and just talking over one another! Jesus…”

Leanna stayed quiet hearing him rant about how he felt about the situation and the protection his mind created, recognizing things she didn’t notice until now. It made her feel better, knowing that she got the best Wells in the multiverse. All he wanted was to make some more friends and figure out a way to help with his teammates issues.

But instead, he realized that rather became a host and solid choice for a complete conversation than the other guys. He also felt sorta good about himself being one to unlock the door to an O’Conner’s heart unlike his counterpart.

“I uh, don’t take you for granted, you know?” Harry said, with a soft grin.

“I figured as much. You stayed.” She replied with a tired smile.

“Wolfgang had a version of you then lost you, 2.0 Wells was just gah not—the best thing with women and uh, Lothario was something else where uh, you know!”

Lea chuckled and nodded, “Oh I know! I..I know!”

Harry couldn’t help but laugh, “But in all seriousness, Leanna I love you and I’m so sorry you had to deal with that—us, today.”

“I’ve been part of Team Flash for so long, where something like that shouldn’t surprise me but it did. It was chaotic chapter for the books, but I really hope that doesn’t happen again!”

“It better not! I can’t take another moment with those guys. They’re one of the most annoying minds of the multiverse!”

“Harry, honey..”

“What?

“Thank you.”

“For what?”

She stood up from her chair, wrapped her arms around his middle and looked up at the man gently grinning. He looked down at her, placing a hand on the small of her back, smiled softly confused since she left her second line incomplete.

“For being you! You came to this Earth and took it as it is, trying to help it. And those idiots, didn’t have to FaceTime us but they did. Because you would’ve done the same thing.” She added.

“Of course I’ve would’ve, I kinda like you guys. Especially you and Dr. Snow.” Harry admitted.

“Most importantly, you fell for me. All those other versions of Lea and Wells don’t know what they’re missing.”

“Well, technically, this wasn’t planned. I came to another earth for one goal. But we sorta happened.”

“Do you regret it?”

He leaned down, cupping her cheek a bit, “No.”

“Why’s that?” She asked, leaning in.

“Because it proves my multiverse theory. Every version of you or me, ends up being with an such interesting partner.”

“I love that theory.”

“I know you do.”

Harry closed the space between them, tossing in a few solid pecks of Lea’s waiting lips. A couple of sweet nothings and laughs were thrown into the mix, chatting about getting Big Belly Burger later.

When suddenly..

“Oh come on!”

Came Cisco’s voice, standing at the door with his hands on his hips.

“Seriously? Y’all didn’t need my help making her feel better.” Cisco said.

Lea snorted and smiled, as Harry tossed his friend a playful grin, only ever reserved for Cisco Ramon. 

“We’re heading to Big Belly Burger later, you coming?” asked Lea.

“Oh hell yes!” He replied, replacing the frown with a smile, snatched up his friend from Harry into his arms for a hug and yelling, “She was mine first.”

——

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[kukos-satellite]

I’m literally trying to come up with series that’s not the trope friends to lovers and it’s been very difficult

I got friends —> lovers in different fonts, HELP ME. WestAllen, you did something to me, I’m not mad but I’m NEEDING other tropes 😭

The first series isn’t modeled after WestAllen, but instead it’s FrostFlash (which is Caitlin (Frost) x Barry)

The second one is modeled after WestAllen and Klance (which is Iris x Barry and Keith x Lance)

[backtothestart02bts]

[afaimsarrowverse]

Das Nope-Verse:

Fix-It-Reihe, die das Arrowverse nach dem 2022-Massaker aufräumt und beendet, den Cliffhangar von „Legends“ auflöst, erklärt warum „Superman and Lois“ nicht mehr auf Earth Prime spielt und was nach dem Ende von Season 8 mit Team Flash geschah.

1.      No Future, Just Legends

Legends of Tomorrow-Fanfiction, Avalance, Astra/Behrad, Gwyn/Alun, Gideon/Gary, Steelhacker, Erw. von vergangen Canon-Pairings, Meta-Fic, Fix-It. Die Legends wurden verhaftet, weil sie das Raum-Zeit-Kontinuum gefährdet haben. Was daran neu ist? Dieses Mal kommt keiner mit einem blauen Auge davon, dieses Mal werden sie für immer weggeschlossen. Fortsetzung vom Cliffhangar-Serienende.

 https://www.fanfiktion.de/s/6366886c00000b7b385a864c/1/No-Future-Just-Legends

 https://www.fanfiction.net/s/14157370/1/No-Future-Just-Legends

 https://archiveofourown.org/works/42875835

2.     Flashes of the Future

 The Flash-Fanfiction mit Gast-Auftritten aus dem Rest des Arrowverses, Westallen, Jocile, Chester/Allegra, Elongsue, Cisco/Kamilla, Fix-It, Alternative Staffel 9. Team Flash entdeckt, dass ein unbemerktes multiverselles Ereignis Earth Prime verändert und einer großen Gefahr ausgesetzt hat. Und als ob das nicht schlimm genug wäre, erfolgen Angriffe von verschiedensten Seiten auf Central City. Kann Barry sich selbst, seine Familie, seine Zukunft und seine Stadt retten, oder ist dies das Ende?

 https://www.fanfiktion.de/s/63baed1300000b7b385a864c/1/Flashes-of-the-Future

 https://www.fanfiction.net/s/14183735/1/Flashes-of-the-Future

 https://archiveofourown.org/works/44136052/chapters/110982820

[angst-is-love-angst-is-life]

What are your favorite Arrowverse ships? If you don’t mind me asking.

Ooo great question! Thanks for the ask!

I love Coldflash right now

Also love Westallen

Holy— how did I almost forget— SUPERCORP

I know it’s not well liked but I still have a soft spot for Olicity

Oh and Theroy (aka Throy apparently but I like mine better)

Avalance always

Ok ok here me out on this one— Superarrow

I KNOW I KNOW, it’s not popular— but it was in the first real fanfiction I ever read (still my favorite to this day; the writing was phenomenal) but I prefer the above pairings for Kara and Oliver

ngl I’m really not a huge shipper Destiel is the exception. They rewired my brain chemistry and I haven’t been the same since.

[backtothestart02]

2023 Westallen Secret Santa Masterlist

A big thank you to all who participated! Mwah!

1. The Beginning And The End of Everything by AugustWriter30 Synopsis: When Joe told him he wanted to introduce his daughter to him, Iris was not at all who Barry expected to see. The world around him stopped and he had to remind himself to breathe. She was even more breathtaking than she was the first time he saw her. He remembers the last time he laid eyes on her. He also remembers asking her out and consequently standing her up. He never called her to explain why he stood her up. Even after she called him, he never returned her call. That was five years ago.

What Iris didn’t expect later that night was to be standing face to face with Barry Allen. The guy who broke her heart five years ago without even knowing it. Iris steeled herself. She couldn’t let him know how much he’s affected her.

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2. All I Want for Christmas is You by AugustWriter30 Synopsis:

“You like him. Like him. Don’t you? And don’t you dare deny it. It’s written all over your face.”

Iris looked up at her friend and sighed.

“Yeah I think I do. Is it weird?”

“No. It’s not, babe. I think you’re just late to the game.”

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3. We were meant to be together...and unexpected by AspiringLife Synopsis: AU: Barry Allen and Iris West could've never imagined that their lives would be intertwined like this years later when they meet again.

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4. tis the season by yorit1 Synopsis: Iris owns a coffee shop. One day, she spills coffee all over a man, and everything changes for her for the better.

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5. Faith, Love, Trust, Loyalty and Family by ShippersAnonymous Synopsis:

What seemed like the end was only the beginning. Neither of them knew it, saw it. But fell it. A dove left in the cold, a broken nest missing warmth.

An instant shock, an unfortunate meeting, an irrevocable bond that neither can shake.

Then out of pain, and from the rain comes a holy love story.

Teaching that life is filled with areas of grey for every saint has a past and every sinner has a future.

[battys-home]

Tag 9 people you'd like to get to know better

I suck at using Tumblr but I'm clearing out my inbox today, so big thanks to @purpleyin for tagging me a hundred years ago!

1. 3 ships; Westallen, Climon, Olivarry

2. first ever ship; If we mean when I actually knew what shipping was, then Rorry (Ron Weasley/Harry Potter) although I did dabble in Inukag(Inuyasha/Kagome Higorashi) fanfiction before I had a true notion of "shipping".

3. last song; Miss You All The Time - OAR because it's on one of my fanfic playlists haha

4. last movie; Bill and Ted's Excelent Adventure (It'd been too long)

5. currently reading; All my current reading is on hold.

6. currently watching; My old fave movies! I'm going to watch Don't Tell Mom The Babysitter's dead soon.

7. currently consuming; Music

8. currently craving; I'm massively craving ribs.

9 people to tag; I don't talk to anyone on tumblr anymore oops

[teamwestallen]

If I were to write a westallen fic what would you want it to be about?

[comeontaylorspeaknow]

About me

Hi, I'm Mae! I'm a writer and editor. But not officially. I just write fanfiction and make icons/edits. I like to support fellow creators on here so I reblog a ton of Taylor swift gifs and edits. I like to post easter eggs and swiftie tweets I find on Twitter and Pinterest. I also, love to participate in tag/ask games!

My hobbies are...

writing

editing

Reading

singing

I also like playing video games in my spare time

About personality

I'm a hufflepuff

Virgo

esfp aka entertainer personality type

hopeless romantic

Swiftie (But you might already know that!)

My favorite tv shows and movies/fandoms are

Star Wars

Harry Potter

The Flash

Green Arrow

Criminal minds

Teen Wolf

The Vampire Diaries

Buffy the Vampire Slayer

My favorite artists are

Taylor Swift

Ed Sheeran

5sos

Conan Grey

Paramore

Lewis Capaldi

Sabrina Carpenter

Katy Perry

My favorite Taylor Swift song are...

if this was a movie or enchanted.

My Taylor Swift era(s)

Speak Now or Red.

How I discovered tswizzle

As of right now I've been a Swiftie for about 3 years, I started to listen to Taylor during quarantine. The first album I really listened to was Speak Now which I'm now hooked on. I did hear about her in the past I always thought her name was iconic, to me she's amazing! The first real-time I heard of her was in her 1989 era I remember everyone talking about Shake it off which I loved! And I thought it was cool! I later heard more about her during Reputation when my friend went to her concert which I wanted to go to like I said before I always thought she was cool. I remember I started to slowly to like her music my brother thought I would like her and put some Fearless, 1989, and reputation songs on my MP3 player. Then I started watching her music videos and I watched when ME! first came out. I may have been late to the game but her music really helped me get through quarantine. So yeah that's how I discovered Blondie!

Ships I love

Stelena (Elena and Stefan)

Anidala (Anakin and Padmé)

Hinny (Ginny and Harry)

Westallen (Barry and Iris)

This blog does not support hate in any way! This includes homophobic and racist comments! I would also like to point out I'm under 18 aka I'm a minor so please be appropriate! Also, don't ask my age I'm not telling anyone! 💜

Love, Mae!

[afaims100arrowversefavs]

36. Iris West-Allen reacts to the fact, that no one tried to save her (The Flash Season 8)

That is something more than one person felt the need to write a fanfiction about, because … well the reason Barry stopped looking for Iris after that one episode after the time sickness made her vanish for good, is that Nora told him that Iris is well in the future, therefore she must have come back at one point in time before Nora was born.

However that is of course pure none-sense, because by telling Barry this Nora might have changed the future. Remember how time travel works? How Nora actually managed to erase herself in Season 5, because she changed the wrong thing? Since it was never said that Iris just returned by herself, it stands to reason that in in the Original Timeline Iris was saved somehow, which is why she was back on time to concieve Nora. However by not searching for her, Barry actually did put the lives of his future children in jeopardy; and of course Futute Iris did end up catching Present Iris’s Time Sickness because not one did anything about it. So the Timeline did change after all. That means nothing Nora ever said about her mother was actually true about our Iris.

And even if you put all that aside and think that Barry’s logic makes sense, it is pretty rotten to do nothing, when your spouse vanished into nothingness. I mean, I understand that they did not want to have Barry and the other be miserable for five episodes while Iris is missing, but by treating the whole issues as if Iris is on vacation somewhere they robbed the whole storyline any kind of purposde beyond being a cheap explanation for Iris’s abscence during those episodes.

Barry can feel her being alright, well probably because she thought someone would come and save her! Of course other than in Fanfic-World Iris never actually found out that no one ever looked for her or tried to save her, so she is none the wiser, so we never got her reacting to the fact that everyone was perfectlty fine with her rotting away for an unspecified period of time.

Now of course that periode of time turned out the be longer than it was supposed to be, because Season 8 got extended from 18 to 20 episodes (and you can totally tell which episodes these are), but still: That is no way the behave as an husband. Since the Time Sicksness-Storyline was for a long period of Season 8 written like an actual terminal sickness, going from a it being a serious threat to ignoring and praying that it would fix itself was like people ignoring cancer and praying for recovery instead of getting treatment. And since it was not Iris but the others who decided to not take the sickness seriously anymore, it was like a family not paying for the cancer treatment of a dying relative.

So yeah, Westallen Heart aside, Iris should have divorced Barry and never spoken to her father and Cecile again after that stunt, and maybe should have even had fired Allegra because she made it seem to her staff as if Iris actually was on vacation while she actually was almost earsed from existence. But she never found out that no one tried to save her, so none of this did happen.

[callmeelle22]

Like A Star

Pairing: Barry Allen x Iris West

Rating: M

Word Count: 12, 957

Summary:

And it’s that caprice that scares her. It’s so easy to find herself wrapped up in him. She likes that fire in him and it’s there every time he lays claim to her. When he wraps his hands up in her hair as he’s riding her; when he whispers sweet nothings in her ear before they fall asleep; when he presses kisses to her mouth until she can’t breathe; when he coaxes smiles out of her on days she’d rather wallow in her feelings. She swears he holds the whole of her heart in his hands and she wants to want to follow him down any path he leads her on.

She can’t help thinking though, what if he takes her with him as he dives headfirst into heartbreak?

Or, Iris and Barry find themselves evaluating their relationship after an argument.

Read on AO3 here or below.

I.

In one of those flashes of memory, Iris remembers going to a tree lot with her parents before her mother died. She knows that she was too young to really remember, but she gets flickers of images, of feelings: of sitting on her dad’s neck as they ducked through the maze of trees; of the overpowering smell of pine and evergreen; of her mom’s wide grin as she ran her fingers over the tree needles. She can almost see the lights looped along the gate of the lot, and the slight swell of her mother’s belly, the idea of a brother still a far off concept for Iris. She remembers that joy, feeling like they were a family, one of the few moments before her brother’s presence had seemed to bring everything to a head, before sickness came and decimated them.

This is not like that.

“Iris, there’s no way that tree is going to fit in my apartment.” 

His voice comes from behind where she’s standing in front of a tall Douglas fir tree. He brushes by her, the sandalwood of his cologne wafting and mixing with that of the citrusy scent of the tree. “Plus, who pays this much money for a tree? Christmas is right around the corner. Shouldn’t the trees be on sale?”

He tries—and fails, Iris decides—to hide the hint of frustration in his voice. It’s been that way for days now, short fuses and unthinking responses, like stars shooting through the sky before one can even make sense of it. She doesn’t even try to keep the frustration out of her own voice, snapping back as she turns to him. 

“Barry, you know this will fit in your apartment. You agreed to this. You offered to buy the tree and now you’re being annoying about it.” She throws her hands up. “You brought us to this lot.”

They’ve been at the Christmas tree lot for a half an hour at least.  The lot sits on a stretch of land in northern Central City, trees neatly lined up by type and height for easy browsing, but they've yet to agree on one to put up before the Christmas Eve party they’re hosting together. It’s an unseasonably warm day, the temperature hovering near the 50s, and Iris is getting hotter by the moment, her exasperation at Barry almost stifling. It’s only a week until the holiday, and the lot is crowded with families and couples there to get a tree last minute, same as Iris and Barry.

Except maybe they’re smiling more than she is.

“I’m not rich,” Barry retorts, “my parents are. Besides, with the way the newspaper is doing, you’re probably making more money than me.”

She rolls her eyes at him. “Then it’s probably time for me to leave you. All of your fans know I’m only with you because you’re a rich white—”

She cuts off with a yelp as Barry grabs her wrist and pulls her to him. She falls into his chest, gripping the lightweight sweater he’s wearing, the material soft under her fingertips. She first looks straight at his chest, her tall-heeled boots still only putting her at his shoulder. Then she blinks up at him, taking note of the way his emerald green sweater makes those seafoam eyes of his look bright through his gold framed glasses, and how the light dusting of hair on his face highlights the cut of his jaw. His hair is a mess, that ruffled look she likes, and Iris hates, sometimes, how attracted she is to him.

His fingers are loose around her wrist, but he brings her more firmly against him with the other hand, fingers spreading wide under the hem of her white, black, and camel colorblock sweater. 

“That refrain is getting old, West.”

“Yeah?” She pokes him in the chest, ignoring the flutter that runs through her when he squeezes her waist. “Tell that to all of your insane groupies on the internet.”

“I don’t need to worry about the internet groupies when my girlfriend is just as ins—”

Iris snarls. “Finish that fucking sentence, Allen.”

He gives her a smirk, the corners of his mouth lifting ever so slightly as he tilts his head to catch her eyes.

“I don’t need to worry about the groupies because my girlfriend is insanely smart—” Iris snorts, but Barry ignores it, leaning forward as he speaks. “—insanely talented—” he licks his lips, eyes boring into her, that flutter expanding until she can feel it in her chest and in her belly and right at the juncture of her thighs, “—insanely sexy.”

He punctuates that final word with a peck to her mouth, once, and then again, this time a little open-mouthed, with a lick against her tongue and a bite to her bottom lip. She pulls back when he does, but only enough that their lips are still hovering against the other’s.

He moves his hand from under her sweater, sliding down slowly over her hip to give her ass a firm pat. He dips his head and inhales against her neck.

“I thought I was the boss in this,” he murmurs.

She rolls her eyes. “Only in the bedroom.”

“Hmm,” Barry hums, nudging her jaw with his nose. He presses a kiss there. “Or in the living room.” Another press of his mouth. “In the kitchen.”

It takes all of Iris not to melt into him, not to be won over by the way his hands feel so hot on her, even through the fabric of her clothes, or by the way his voice dips with the promise of his body in hers.

“Right,” she says, though it sounds much more like a moan; Barry hears it too, and smiles against her skin. 

“So then we can get the cheap tree?”

She allows herself the space to indulge in one last kiss, reaching up to curl her fingers in the hair at the nape of his neck. She licks into his mouth, tasting the sweet mint he’d just sucked on. 

“No, Barry,” she says, when she finally pulls away. “It’s our first time hosting and we are not choosing a skinny Charlie Brown tree.”

Barry pauses for a minute, and Iris knows what he’s going to say before he does. She steels herself for it, knowing that whatever comes after won’t end the way she wants, or the way he wants either. But it’s Barry and he can never leave well enough alone so he throws it down anyway, frowning as he says,

“You know it still doesn’t feel like we’re hosting when we don’t live together. It’s just a party at my house that you’re taking over.”

And just like that, that frustration from earlier comes back ten-fold, and Iris steps out of his embrace. He lets her, dropping his hands from around her with a loud sigh.

“Iris…”

“No,” she shakes her head, and starts in the direction of the entrance. “You’re right. It’s your house, it’s your party. I don’t live there. I don’t want to live there, so you should pick whichever…”

“Wait.” He starts after her, his long legs catching up with her in just a couple of strides. He grabs for her arm again, and she yanks away from him. He frowns at her, eyes flashing from the slight, and Iris’s sudden anger won’t let her feel bad about it. 

“What do you mean you don’t want to live there? You mean at all?”

This is a conversation he’s broached before, though the stakes hadn’t seemed as dire as they do in this moment. They haven’t even been together a full six months, and a half a year doesn’t even seem like enough time to be sure if this’ll work, not to say anything of moving in together. It’s such a big step, such a commitment, that Iris breaks out in hives at just the mention of it.

“I don’t want to talk about this right now.”

Barry throws his hands up. “So when do we talk about it, Iris? A year from now? Two?”

“Maybe.” She shakes her head, reaching up to run a hand through her hair, pushing the dyed red waves back from where they’d fallen in her face. “Yes, maybe we wait. We don’t even know if we work, really, you know. Who even says we’ll be together in…”

“Iris, what are you…” he interrupts and then trails off as he moves toward her, standing firm in front of her. He reaches for her again, and she doesn’t stop him this time. “What do you mean we don’t know if we work? Are you already breaking us up?”

“Of course not. I just think that we haven’t even been together for six months and…”

“And fuck that six months!” The harsh tone of his voice startles Iris, if only because he follows it with, “I’ve been in love with you for over half of my life. I know that we work; I know that I want to spend nearly every one of my waking moments with you. Do you trust me so little that you’re expecting our breakup?”

“No!” she shouts  back, because this is not how she wanted to spend her Saturday morning. “I love you, B. You know that. But we’re still new and we’re still figuring it out. Look at us; we’re in a fucking Christmas tree lot arguing. What about that says we’re ready to move in together?” 

She waves her arm out, indicating the people trying to ignore the heated couple, their voices harsh, if not loud, the tension radiating like heat waves from the sun. Iris feels like she’s boiling, mad at him and at herself, the truth of her feelings for him the only thing she knows, even if she can’t make them translate to the easy acceptance he’s come to. He is a star, brilliant and vibrant and unlike anything Iris has ever seen, has ever experienced before. He’s always been luminous, even if he claims it’s her, and she feels as if she has to venture in slowly, lest she be blinded by him. Lest she get lost in the intense, sharp light of him.

“I just need time,” she tells him, pleads with him, her voice soft. “You told me when we started this that you would go as slow as I wanted. You lied.”

The accusation hits him like a punch, and he snaps back, his body going rigid. The expression on his face changes to one Iris can’t readily read, though it reminds her of younger them, that same shuttered gaze and pursed mouth that had appeared after one too many fights in the school cafeteria.

“You’re right,” he says, stepping away. Iris wants to stop him, to try to explain that she’s not breaking them up, that she’s only being careful. But the words won’t come. Instead, she watches silently as he reaches into his back pocket and pulls out his keys. “I’ll come back tomorrow to get the tree for my party. And you can get whatever time you want.” He starts for the entrance, pausing to call over his shoulder, “Come on. I’ll drop you off at home or at work or wherever.”

“No, I,” Iris shakes her head. “There’s a coffee shop inside. I’ll hang out there and call an Uber.”

She can see Barry’s mouth open to object, but she turns away from him before he can say anything, instead heading in the direction of the attached coffee shop.

The coffee shop is packed when she walks in, filled with kids chugging hot chocolate while their parents inhale caffeine like life lines. It’s a fairly large spot, with four- and two-top tables placed neatly on either side of a barred walkway leading up to the counter. Tucking her tote bag more firmly in her elbow, Iris steps into line behind a couple, their little girl standing between them, her hands clutching both of theirs. Drawn to them, Iris watches the scene for a moment. 

Iris has long ago realized that the gods are not on her side, but she’s sure it’s confirmed when she notices how much the couple remind her of her and Barry. The man is tall and slim, with tanned skin and wavy dark brown hair. The woman, though a bit more shapely than Iris, has ochre brown skin, a full red-painted mouth, and box braids hanging past her butt.  The little girl is a perfect mix of them both—tall for what seems to be her age, clear cafe au lait skin, big chocolate brown eyes, and a thin nose. The image comes to her, again, one that isn’t new but one that still catches her off guard when it hits her. She sees herself and Barry like this, with both a little girl and a little boy, curly-haired and hazel-eyed, with Barry’s easy grin and her expressive features. She’s seen it before, visions of herself with Barry and children, the dreams so often recurring it’s as if they’re prophetic.

But she isn’t ready for any of it, not really, and it’s hard to say why, to name the reason behind her hesitancy. Iris loves Barry. Has loved him in all the ways that you can love someone—as family, as a friend, even as an enemy. She has loved him as a lover since before she realized what that meant. She loves him because of who he is, that passion and intensity that’s an innate part of him. It’s in everything he does and everything he says, and Iris cannot help but be enamored by it. He is right brain, feelings and intuition first, despite his love of science. And she is his opposite, thinking and facts first, even if her writing fuels her sympathies. He jumps headfirst into situations, their consequences be damned, and he does it all with a lilting smirk and an arrogance that would make her want to cut him if he were anyone else. He makes her feel things she doesn’t understand, things that go against the grain of rationale, of reason. 

And it’s that caprice that scares her. It’s so easy to find herself wrapped up in him. She likes that fire in him and it’s there every time he lays claim to her. When he wraps his hands up in her hair when he’s riding her; when he whispers sweet nothing in her ear before they fall asleep; when he presses kisses to her mouth until she can’t breathe; when he coaxes smiles out of her on days she’d rather wallow in her feelings. She swears he holds the whole of her heart in his hands and she wants to want to follow him down any path he leads her on. 

She can’t help thinking though, what if he takes her with him as he dives headfirst into heartbreak?

“Miss, can I help you?”

Startled out of her reverie, she looks at the young man behind the counter, waiting impatiently for her order.

“Oh, I’m sorry,” she apologizes, having not even realized the line had moved forward. A look to her left lets her know that the family is standing on the side of the counter until their drinks are ready, the little girl now cuddled in her father’s arms. She shakes her head, as if that’ll clear the image of them—the one with her and Barry’s faces superimposed on theirs—and then she quickly scans the board of coffees. There are a myriad of choices, so many of them holiday themed, and she briefly considers the Irish coffee option before deciding on a large hot chai latte.

“It’ll be right up,” the young man tells her after she pays. Her drink only takes a few minutes, and then she’s walking back through the crowd to find somewhere to sit. She resolves to put the entire thing with Barry to the back of her mind until she’s home and she can analyze it all, so she settles at a small table in a corner, pulling her laptop out. She figures she might as well get some work done while she drinks her coffee before making her way back to her downtown loft. In a few clicks, she’s got the shared Google database they use pulled up, and she’s editing an article that Linda submitted about new commercial buildings going up in an area that wants to keep its familial feel. It’s a long piece, over 1000 words, but well-written with the humor and insight that readers have come to expect from Linda’s articles. 

She’s making a quick comment in a paragraph about rearranging the order of sentences for more bang when the chat box pops up in the corner of her screen.

Linda: why are you online? aren’t you and barry supposed to be tree shopping?

Linda: don’t tell me you left him to go work.

Linda: you are such a workaholic.

Iris: *eye roll

Iris: You are so ridiculous; I can’t even get a word in. No, I didn’t leave him to work.

Linda: but you left him?

Iris: Technically, he left me.

Iris: We got into a fight.

Linda: oh good lord. of course you did. about what?

Iris: The moving in thing.

Linda: Where are you? I’ll come pick you up.

Iris lets out a breath, the first full one since she’d walked away from Barry. She’s so incredibly grateful for Linda.

************

When Iris first decided to finally give in to Barry, she’d made an effort to talk out her feelings first. With her mom and dad, she walked through how seeing their relationship had scarred her, feeling proud that she had been able to name that toxicity, feeling even prouder when her father had acknowledged that role in her life as well.

What she knows is that her parents had loved one another but that love hadn’t been enough to save their relationship or, in the end, her mother. 

What she knows is that she watched them be in love one minute, fight the next, and then end the cycle with silence before starting it all over again. At three, and then four, and then five, she had only understood what she had felt, scared and unsafe. And Iris is unsure that that feeling has ever fully dissipated.

What she sees is the same thing happening to her and Barry, despite her will for it to be otherwise. They are dazzling, the two of them: entertaining and loving and passionate. Brighter than anything Iris is seeing right now in the sky as she’s sitting on her best friend’s patio, wrapped in a thick blanket and cupping a mug of spiked hot chocolate. But then she remembers what Barry had told her once before: that stars are just balls of gas, and that shooting stars are even worse…meteors colliding with the Earth’s atmosphere until they’re consumed by it.

“You alright?” Linda asks as she comes out, sliding her patio door closed.

The temperature is sitting at a cold 45 degrees, and so they’re in matching flannel pajamas and her outdoor heater is blasting them, keeping the chill away.

The whiskey infused cocoa might be helping too.

Iris is curled in a chair, her phone face down on the little table so that she doesn’t notice Barry not reaching out to her. Linda falls into the seat on the other side of the table, placing her own blanket over her lap, bringing her cup to her mouth.

Linda lives just on the eastern outskirts of downtown, a quick ten minute drive or so from Iris. Her apartment is in a neighborhood of apartment buildings, each competing with the other by offering gym memberships or bedroom balconies or half off the first month’s rent. Linda lives on the fifth floor of a building with dark features, dark red brick and charcoal gray trim, and a sliding glass door in her bedroom that leads to her patio.

It’s a beautiful night. Linda’s side of the building faces out onto a manmade pond, the height of buildings behind them, the length of trees surrounding it. Iris can hear the nocturnal activities of the imported fish, the steady rhythm of the cicadas that live in the thick patches of grass. There are wisps of clouds in the sky, like stretches of cotton across a midnight blue canvas, and the twinkle of stars is a bit more prominent out here away from the flood of lights that Iris gets at her place. 

After they’d left the lot, Linda had taken her to their favorite pizza buffet where they’d both immediately ate their weight in artisan pizzas. Then they’d come here after, Linda tossing her the pair of pajamas she’d bought as one of Iris’s gifts, a cozy black and white flannel set that she’d gotten to match her own set. Now they’re sitting out and watching the night, alternately talking and thinking.

“Linda, what if Barry and I are really just playing ourselves?” It’s not what she believes, not really, but she finds that she needs to say it aloud.“Is it really supposed to be like this? This fighting? The nights spent without each other? This ache?”

Iris thinks her voice breaks on that last part.

“I think,” Linda says slowly, carefully, “that you are both these very impassioned people. You both feel things wholly and unequivocally. And it’s not a bad thing, to feel, even this much, despite what we think in society. But you’ve both been done a disservice by your parents.”

Iris’s nose wrinkles at that. “What do you mean? Henry and Nora have a perfect relationship.”

Linda points her cup at Iris. “That’s what I mean. I don’t know the Allens but I know they don’t have a perfect relationship. No one does. They’ve either figured out how to coexist in a way that’s healthy or they’re just good at faking it. But Barry, and even you, see that and think that they don’t have to work at it. That it just is. And your parents were the complete opposite.

"Before I found my mom, I would get shipped off from foster house to foster house. And in many ways, I was lucky. I was never abused or starved like some people I knew. I also got to see a lot about human nature, I guess. These couples would foster and would only have their shit together on paper. I was witness to arguments about bills and cheating and people taking their partners for granted. It helped me to see what I didn’t want to ever experience. And when I moved in with mom, I was able to see what healthy looks like. She was dating Nathan the entire time and although they didn’t get married until I moved away to college, I was still witness to their communication habits and the way they cared for each other. I’m not perfect and Amanda and I have our disagreements. But all of that therapy mom sent me to, and her own therapy, helped us figure out how to cope.”

Iris finishes the pull from her mug that she’d taken as she listened to Linda, licking her lips as she takes in what the other woman has said.

“So you’re saying that Barry and I have a communication issue?”

Linda barks out a laugh. “You don’t need me to tell you that, Iris.”

Even Iris can’t hold in her chuckle. “Okay, yes. We’re horrible at that. And I see your point. We’re both victims of our circumstances, I guess. I know that my parents’ relationship wasn’t a good one. And as much as I try to fight against it, I find myself falling into those same patterns.”

Linda gives her a soft smile. “The sins of our parents, huh?”

Iris nods, biting at her bottom lip. “You think therapy would help us?”

“I think therapy would help most people. It’s something both of you have to want to do. And it might take a few tries to get to one you think works for you. But I think that you and Barry can be incredible together. You have to want it, Iris. You cannot be afraid of it for the rest of your life.”

Iris leans back in her chair at that, throwing her hand up dramatically to her forehead. “God, we’re not even dating for a full year and I’m talking couple’s counseling.”

“It’s what you do when you want someone in your life for the long haul.” Linda tilts her head, curious. “You do want that, right?”

“I have dreams,” Iris starts.

“Oh god no,” Linda exclaims. “Sex dreams? Don’t you and Barry have enough…”

Iris’s slipper hitting Linda’s chest cuts off her ramble.

“As I was saying,” Iris rolls her eyes, but she laughs a little too. “I have these dreams where I see my life ten years from now. Twenty years from now. Even before we got together, he was always there somehow, snarking at me, smirking at me, always making me feel alive.” She shakes her head and says it again, almost as if the reality has just sunk in. “He makes me feel alive, Linda.”

“Then there you go.” Linda throws out the words matter-of-fact. “We’ve been working for shit our entire lives. Don’t let this be the one thing you give up when it’s what you want so badly.”

“Thanks, Linda.” Iris grins over at her. “I feel bad that I’m always bringing my Barry issues to you.”

“These aren’t really Barry issues. They’re you issues.” Linda shrugs. “Besides, I’m your best friend. It’s my job. The same way it’s your job to listen as I tell you that I think I’m falling in love with my girlfriend.”

Iris turns to her friend, eyes wide. “What?”

Linda gives her an uncharacteristically shy smile, nodding as she places her mug down on the table.

“I haven’t told her yet but I’m thinking maybe at the party. I can…”

Iris doesn’t even let her finish. She squeals, interrupting her plan and jumping out of her seat, planting herself in Linda’s lap as she throws her arms around her neck.

“I’m so happy for you!”

Linda laughs and circles her arms around Iris’s waist.

“Amanda is kind and beautiful and you’re the literal best person in the world.”  Iris kisses the top of her friend’s head and then places her cheek there, smiling even as her own feeling of uncertainty won’t settle.” You deserve nothing but the best love, Linda Malese.”

Linda squeezes her, the suspicious sound of a sniffle accompanying her next words.

“So do you, Iris Ann.”

II.

Christmas Eve brings in a morning sunny and cold. Barry lies in his bed, naked except for a pair of boxer briefs, his comforter pooled just above his waist as he looks out of the window. He can’t see much from his bed, just the brick and concrete of the buildings in his neighborhood, the windows that only reflect back. He’s been awake for nearly an hour now, and he guesses he should be getting up soon. 

He doesn’t have much to do. With Iris gone silent, he’s spent much of the week preparing for tonight, using it to get out of his own head, to make sense of the fact that Iris always feels the need to run away from him when things start to get uncomfortable. Or perhaps, when things become too real.

The woman frustrates him on such a molecular level that Barry sometimes wonders why he even tries. But that thought doesn’t get very far. She’s been a part of his life for so long, been a part of him for so long, that the thought of her no longer wanting to be is maddening. It brings to mind a star at the end of its life, slowly collapsing in on himself. So instead of sinking into the metaphorical black hole, he’d alternated thoughts of he and Iris with the tasks necessary to get his apartment ready for the party.

For the remainder of Saturday and all day Sunday, he’d let his anger guide him. He’d called and ordered the biggest tree that could conceivably fit into his home while wallowing on the couch and trying his best to forget that she’d walked away from him, that she’d told him in only barely disguised language that she wasn’t sure if she saw a future with him. That had meant a little too much of his fancy apartment scotch and endless sniping at episodes of CSI.

Monday brought clarity, the kind that manifests after a weekend of too much drinking. He’d called a cleaning service, paying extra to have them come in the following afternoon, and he’d thought while he’d been making the plans. He’d wondered if maybe Iris was right, about things moving too quickly. If she was right in her wish to take things slow and steady instead of rushing straight into forever. Sure, they’d loved each other for years, but they’d only just uncovered that love, had only just moved away from the biting and deliberately hurtful words. 

On Tuesday he let that thought fester, calling to confirm the decorators, caterer, and bartender for the end of the week.

On Wednesday he resolved to call her in the morning after she was sure to have had her coffee already. The decorator would be coming by on Friday and the caterer and bartender would be there on Saturday to set up two hours before people were expected to arrive. The sinking feeling started to recede, the light returning.

On Thursday though, he’d tried to call her and she hadn’t answered. He’d chalked it up to her being busy, until he’d walked into Jitter’s and saw her laughing it up with some guy. The anger had returned. Because why was it so hard for her to see that he wasn’t going anywhere? Did she really think they wouldn’t work? Did she really believe that he wouldn’t try his hardest to be everything she needed him to be? Was the real reason she wasn’t ready to move in because she was already ready to move on? Was he being irrational? Probably, but it was what was in his gut. He’d left the shop without his coffee and instead, with anger and despair coalescing into one ball sitting in the pit of his stomach. At least he’d figured everything out and all he needed to do was open the door for the people he was paying to make his apartment a Christmas wonderland. He would be useless later.

Today, he just misses her. She hasn’t called him back because she’s the most stubborn woman he’s ever met in his life. Plus, he can probably admit that the whole “you can have all the time you want,” he’d thrown at her last week had likely had something to do with her lack of communication. Still, he has to know if he’ll see her later. He pulls out his phone.

Barry: Are you coming over tonight?

She responds in minutes.

Iris: Of course.

Iris: Were you able to get everything set up?

Barry: Yeah, I did.

Iris: Great!

Iris: And I’m sorry about not getting back to you. This week has been insane and I really did need the time.

He watches as the three bubbles appear on the screen, disappear, and appear again.

Iris: Can we talk later? After the party or in the morning?

Barry: Yeah, sure.

Iris: Beautiful. I’ll see you tonight, okay, B?

With that, he throws his found down on his bed. He doesn’t know why, but somehow that entire exchange has only filled him with dread.

She’s the ninth person to walk through the door.

His parents arrive first. At just before a quarter till 8, almost right after the caterer and the bartender finish setting up, Barry hears the knock at his door. He makes his way through the apartment, noting that his dining room table has been transformed for the food, a burnished gold tablecloth laid out across the space with trays of appetizers on sticks, cheese stuffed jalapenos wrapped in bacon and shrimp skewers and  sun-dried tomatoes with goat cheese, among a host others. The bartender has a set up in the corner just before the hall that leads to his half-bathroom and his bedroom, a portable one-man bar where he’s created two holiday themed cocktails (a cranberry martini and a holiday mai tai) in addition to having a ridiculous number of red and white wines and bubblies available. It’s got all the makings of an excellent party, too much booze and too small food and he hopes it can keep the dread about the talk he and Iris are supposed to have out of the way.

His parents are on the other side of the door when he swings it open, beaming at him as they’ve always done, proud if even they wish he’d push for more.

“Oh Barry, honey, it looks great in here.”

The decorators had done an excellent job, somehow making his home look more spacious and cozier at the same time. Some furniture has been moved around to allow for the look of more space and there’s cleared flooring right in front of the tree and the window that can act as a spot for dancing if anyone is inclined. In keeping with the more natural-toned decor of his apartment, the theme follows a mix of golds and browns and various shades of red, a little green sparsed through for color. There is tinsel in places he wouldn’t have thought to put it and baubles hanging from random corners, but Barry can admit that it looks incredible to his untrained eye. The tree is the star, the nice Douglas fir fitted right in front of his expansive window, an eye treat for the apartments around his. There’s a bit a white sprayed on the leaves for the look of snow. It's just underdone enough that it looks elegant instead of gaudy. White gold lights are placed strategically, as are the mix of gold and white-silver ornaments, and it’s got the carefully curated look that’s made to appear careless.

“Thanks, mom,” he says as he greets her with a kiss on the cheek and a one armed hug. He shakes his dad’s hand as he gestures them both in. They step fully into the house, looking around, no doubt for Iris. Just as his mom opens her mouth to ask, a knock on the door sounds and Barry doesn’t even try to hide his sigh of relief.

For the next half hour, he ushers people in, hanging up coats in the closet next to the door, kissing cheeks and shaking hands. Joe and Cecile follow a couple his parents have known since before he was born. Kamilla and Cisco are next and then two of the CSIs from another shift, one and then the other. And even with just these few people so far, his house is getting loud with the sound of laughter and merriment. 

He’s standing by the Christmas tree when he feels the shift in atmosphere and he knows when he looks up towards the door, she’s going to be there. She’s a beacon, he swears, Polaris guiding him home. Despite his lingering anxiety, he happily answers to the pull of her, stepping away from Cisco talking mid-sentence.

He reaches her just before she can clear the half wall that opens out into the living room. She comes up short when she sees him, as if she’s surprised that he’s right there. Linda comes in behind her, moving around her to greet him. She and her girlfriend are in red, Amanda in a form fitting red dress that reaches her knees and Linda in a red pantsuit with heels as high as Iris likes to wear. His girlfriend’s best friend mutters a “hi, nerd” before pressing her cheek against his, so as not to mess up her lipstick he supposes, and harshly muttering that he and Iris “need to get your shit together.” Amanda just gives him a smile and a warm hug before following Linda over to the bar.

Then it’s just her, always just her, and Barry has a chance to take her in. She’s standing there in a dress that he knows she wore purposefully to fuck with him. There’s no other reason for it, the swatches of cloth that show as much of her skin as it covers: the fabric a brilliant blue velvet, with a sweetheart neckline on one side and the fabric leading into a bow on the other shoulder; the dress fits close to her frame, falling to the floor in the back, a high split in the front showing off her legs to the middle of her thighs. The contrast of her red painted mouth and the complement of her usual sky-high stilettos is disarming, but Barry can be convinced that that’s the liquor talking.

(It’s not the liquor talking. He hasn’t had anything to drink since last week.)

He looks to her fingernails painted the same red as her mouth, her fingers tight on the sparkling clutch he’s holding, and it makes him lift his eyes to see why she’s gripping it so tightly. Barry finds her dark whiskey colored eyes scanning the length of him. He’s in black trousers, a white shirt open at the throat, and a red jacket with black lapels. Iris loves any reason to dress up, so when they’d sent out e-vites to the party, they’d decided on cocktail attire. With this crowd, it leans a little more black tie, even for a house party in the business district of Central City. Barry knows he looks good, and by the way his girlfriend is eyeing him, she thinks so too. 

It makes something in his heart perk up, this full-bodied scan she’s giving him. His shoulders feel broader just because she’s eyeing the width of them, the line of his pants longer. The heat of her gaze crawls over his face, and Barry presses a hand to his stomach as if that’ll stop the burning he has for her.

“West,” he says in greeting.

The corners of her mouth tug up, though she doesn’t give him a full smile. “Allen.”

He takes a step toward her, clearing the couple feet of space that feels way too far. Tilting his head, he licks his lips and asks her, “Do I get a hug?”

She swipes a tongue across her own lip on an inhale, exhaling as she lets the plump bottom lip go. She nods her assent and he immediately closes the remainder of the distance, tugging at her arm to pull her to him. He wraps his arms around her waist, spreading his fingers out wide as if he needs to feel as much of her as he can, and he does notice that she doesn’t hesitate to lean into him. She keeps an arm at his waist, so her clutch doesn’t fall to the floor, and the other she wraps around his neck, her fingers immediately going for the hair at his nape like she always does.

Barry lets himself fall into her too, holding her tight, dropping his head into the crook of her neck. The feeling of her, of them, like this, is home—contentment and desperation and familiarity all wrapped up together, with love and hope and fear mixed in too. But in this moment, when the sound of poppy music is playing in his ear, and his friends are all laughing over drinks that taste like christmas, and the only woman he’s ever loved is wrapped up in his arms, he wonders how he’d survive if she were to ever decide that she didn’t want to be his home anymore.

He holds her tight to him, inhaling the scent of the shea butter in her hair and the almond oil on her skin as he lets his head fall into the crook of her neck. He wants to whisper to her all the things he’s been thinking about her this week: that he’s sorry for leaving her at the lot, that he’s angry at her for always running away, that he’s missed the feel of her in his bed.

That he doesn’t understand why there’s a knot in his belly telling him this is the end.

“I don’t understand why it’s always me that has to catch y’all like this. Don’t you guys do enough of this in private?”

The sound of Wally’s voice coming behind them pulls them apart. Barry is reluctant to step away from her and there’s a tiny flare of optimism at the knowledge that she’s slow to move away from him too, her hand sliding down from his neck to his chest before leaving his body completely. 

Wally is there with Brandon, both men in trousers and jackets, and green and red shirts respectively. Wally shrugs out of his coat and takes his boyfriend’s, hanging them in the closet before telling him,

“Barry, I’m gonna send you my therapy bill after I talk about all of these traumatic moments in my life.”

“Why me?” he asks, turning to face the other man. He nods at Brandon and shakes his hand. “Iris is your sister.”

“You’re right,” Wally nods. “But you’ve always been like a brother to me so I’ll let you both split it.”

Iris shakes her head in annoyed amusement but she’s always been a sap where her brother is concerned and she leans up to kiss the side of his head.

“We can just add it to the bill I need,” she murmurs, mostly to herself. Barry frowns down at her but she isn’t paying him any attention as she takes Wally’s hands in her own. “C’mon. Dad and Cecile are already here and I haven’t spoken to them yet.”

She starts to move past him but he stops her with his hand to her hip.

“I’ll see you in a minute?”

She touches his hand. “Yeah. In a minute.”

Any hope that he’d cultivated from being wrapped up in Iris is sufficiently dismissed when he realizes that she’s avoiding him. It takes him a while to see, as he plays host of the party. The constant knocking on the door means he’s moving from there to other parts of the apartment, making sure that drinks are full and his time isn’t being monopolized by old doctors who want to tell him stories about himself that he doesn’t remember. He watches Iris flit from group to group, awing women and enamoring men with her wit and her smile—and that fucking dress—the bright eyed and slaw jawed look a telltale sign as she walks away.

But everytime he comes to the group she’s talking to, it only takes a minute for her to decide she should be somewhere else. And at this point, Barry is pissed off at the mixed signals she’s giving him. He’s going out of his mind wondering what she’s thinking, what she wants to talk about later, and he has firmly convinced himself that she’s here to break it off.

He corners her in the half bathroom. The sound of the music and the people muffle as he slips into the room right behind her, pushing against the door before she can close it. She whirls around when she hears him, the bottom of her dress flapping and opening, giving Barry a glimpse of her thighs. He swallows.

She doesn’t look very surprised to see him. She just waits until she hears the snick of the door and then leans against the sink, folding her arms over her chest. He can’t read her expression and, for the first time since they’ve been together, Barry sees her intentionally put up a barrier between them. It makes his heart squeeze; the idea that he could lose her before they even really get started is one that fills him with a thick sort of desperation. He takes a deliberately deep breath, pushing down the panic that threatens to overwhelm him.

“Barry,” she mumbles, tilting her head in question. The bathroom isn’t large and space is limited with the both of them there. The floors are tiled in white and gray marble, with a white porcelain sink just a few feet away from the toilet. She’s not as close as he wants her to be, but he could reach out to touch her, if he tried to. Her scent fills up the bathroom, gone from his sheets after a week without her, and he wants to revel in it.

“Did you come in here to get away from me?” he asks her.

He reaches out to touch her, testing first, a hand at her waist. Then he tries for lower, on the curve of her hip. Her arms drop as he moves to press himself against her, just the faintest brush of his chest against his. She grabs at the bottom of his jacket on either side as she shakes her head in response to him, looking down at his chest.

“Iris?”

Her thin-heeled shoes put her shoulder level to him, but she keeps her head down. It’s as if she can’t look at him, Barry thinks, the way her eyes meet his for only a millisecond before they’re bouncing around again. He grabs her chin between his forefinger and thumb, lightly lifting her face to his. The opportunity to turn away is there, for how gently he’s holding her, but she doesn’t take the out.

He looks at her, really looks, at the clear penny brown of her face, the dark chocolate of her eyes, her lengthened lashes brushing her bottom lids every time she blinks; he takes in the soft snub of her nose and the full curve of her mouth. She’s always been the prettiest person Barry has ever seen, and she only seems to get more beautiful every time he looks at her, every time she stares back at him. Because she is right now, staring back at him, that ice from before thawing the longer she does. It’s his Iris in there, every iteration that he’s loved since he was six years old. Her snark and her caution, her passion and her trust, her anger and her insecurity and her convictions and her love. There is his love in there. But Barry cannot always reach it, the feeling as bright as a star, as elusive as one too.

“Why are you avoiding me?”

“I’m not.”

“Yes, Iris, you are. I thought that hug meant..” he breathes out. “What’s going on, Iris, because I’m not liking this.”

“I’m not avoiding you.” She shifts on her feet. “I promise. I just… I forget how much you overwhelm me. I can’t think when you’re around and I..”

“You say that like it’s a bad thing.”

“Bar..” she starts, but he gives a light shake of his head, stopping her.

“Is this some sort of new breakup method?”

Iris opens her mouth to respond and then closes it. “What?”

“Is that what you meant to do, when you came here dressed like this? Content to ignore me, to have me panting after you?”

“Barry, I would nev..” 

“You don’t call me for a week. You don’t answer me when I do.”

“I told you I was busy!” she tries, interjecting, but Barry doesn’t think he’s there anymore, not fully. He’s latched onto this, this feeling, this fear that this won’t end the way he wants it to.

“I don’t,” he starts, but he doesn’t know exactly what he means to say as an image of Iris picking up the hem of her skirt and running away from him, like the night of his parent’s gala, fast despite her heels, comes unbidden. 

“I just…” he starts and stops again, and he presses a hand to his heart, hoping that it stays right there in her chest like it’s supposed to.

“Do you want me to beg, Iris?” He licks his lips, his gaze steady on her, his hands tight on her body. “Do you want me to get on my knees and beg you? Because I will.”

And before he even realizes what he’s doing, he does, dropping to his knees, his hands moving to grip her on the sides of her thighs.

“Barry,” she says his name, her eyes wide, but nothing else comes out. He doesn’t know where to go from here either. 

He lets his head fall onto her belly, the velvet of her dress soft against his forehead. He circles his arms around her, fully hugging her to him, not even caring about how uncomfortable it is for his arms to be stuck between her hips and the sink.

The silence reigns. There is the faint noise of voices on the other side of the door; he thinks he can even hear Cisco’s boisterous laugh. The music is the loudest, an acoustic version of Joy to the World that he’s not sure he likes. But none of that can take away from this moment here, especially when Iris sinks her fingers into his hair.

He holds on to her, for how long he doesn’t know, just reveling in being there with her. The scratch of her nails against his scalp, the sound of her breathing, the thumping in his chest. This is…it’s… it.

“I’m begging you, baby, not to give up on us so easily.” His voice is only an octave above a whisper. 

Her voice is even softer when she answers. “I’m not. I’m just scared we’re gonna fuck this up, Barry.”

And what can he say when he’s afraid of the same thing?

They’re playing an eclectic mix of music, R&B and pop versions of Christmas music mixed with neo-soul and motown. There’s an ipad that's plugged into a speaker, and the guests get to add music to the queue at their whimsy. The ending of Mariah Carey’s most popular Christmas song is ending as he steps next to Iris.

They’d stayed in the bathroom for only moments more, until Dr. Williams knocked on the door to use it, giving them both amused glances when they came out together. He’d given her a bit of space—given himself a bit of space—walking over to talk to Joe and Cecile while she put on a smile for his parents and a couple of their business associates. But now she’s alone, standing by the tree that he should have just let her pick out, a glass of the cranberry martini in her hand. He moves to stand next to her and she gives him a soft smile when he brushes his arms against hers.

The song changes then, the stark quiet of an opening, and then a voice comes on, with a slight rasp, the melody of a piano accompanying her, “Just like a star across my sky. Just like an angel off the page… ”

“Hey, dance with me?” His voice is low and steady as he asks, holding a hand out to her. She looks at him for just a moment, then she tosses back the rest of her drink and sets the glass down on the windowsill. Then she takes his hand.

He leads her into the space right in front of the tree, twirling her out once before bringing her back to him, looping an arm around her waist. They move together, in the light of the tree, under the pull of the song, their eyes locked. It’s just the two of them again, everything around them fading until it’s but a dull hum in the background, his focus only on this moment.

“ ...Just like a song in my heart. Just like oil on my hands. Oh, I do love you. ”

Barry hums at those lyrics and Iris tugs on her bottom lips with her teeth, her nails absently scratching at his nape.

“ Still I wonder why it is, I don’t argue like this, with anyone but you. We do it all the time. Blowing out my mind. ”

“This song reminds me of us.”

She says it before he can, but he’s thinking it, the lyrics so true to their current circumstance that it’s as if she wrote it for them.

“ ...you make me feel like I'm alive. When everything else is so faint, without a doubt, you’re on my side. Heaven has been away too long… ”

He hums in agreement, pushing her out into a spin that she catches on to easily. She comes back into his chest with a smile, this one the most genuine he’s seen all night, the words of the song still enveloping them.

They dance for the remainder of the song, swaying easily to the music. 

And when the night ends nearly two hours later, and she peels off her dress and climbs into bed with him, curling around his torso, he hears the words before he falls asleep,

“Can’t find the words to write this song. Oh, your love.”

III.

He reaches for her in the middle of the night.

In the space that belongs to quiet and contemplation, Iris wakes to the feel of Barry’s fingers stroking her belly, his long body nestled up behind her. All of him is hard, his thighs pressed against hers, his sex nestled on her ass, his chest warm on her back. She can’t say that they've gone this long without each other since they’ve been together, and her body responds immediately to him. 

He traces on her slowly, like he’s carving lyrics into her skin, oh, i do love you. She lets him touch her like that, just those slow, easy words, her body sinking, melting into the bed, into him. But it’s not enough, it’s never enough, so she shifts on the matress, turning on her back. The color of his eyes look almost translucent in the dark, with only the faint lights of the night seeping through Barry’s windows. There’s a depth of an emotion there, has been there since he’d fallen to knees for her earlier tonight, but it’s magnified somehow. He climbs on top of her, holding himself up on an elbow, watching her for a long moment before he makes his next move.

He leans down to kiss her, and she welcomes him greedily. An entire week, she laments, without his mouth on hers, and the moan that escapes when their lips meet is instinctual. She reacquaints herself with the feel of his mouth, the shape of his lips and the slide of his tongue, even the bite of his teeth in her bottom lip. She’s only ever liked kissing Barry like this, with the sort of intimacy that asks of openness and freedom, for connection and a weakness for the other.

They kiss and they kiss and they kiss. Iris opens her thighs for him, letting him sink into that space that’s reserved for only him. She wraps her arms around his neck, keeping him close, her breasts—nipples puckered—pressed tight against his chest, her thighs squeezing on his hips, his dick nestled against her pussy, hard like steel, the responding rush of her wetness coating him. Her hips move, seeking him, but he stills her with a firm grip to her left hip, fingers spread out against her flesh.

“I’ve missed this,” he tells her, gravel in his voice, the sound gliding across her skin. “Your mouth, the feel of you beneath me, your smell in my sheets.”

He kisses at her mouth again, sucks her tongue into his, holding hard onto her hip. She loves the slight roughness of it all, her mouth swollen and the indentation of his hand on her body. Her eyes close as she basks in it, as Barry starts to alternate kisses, on her mouth and then her cheek and then under her jaw. He licks a path down the middle of her torso, right into her belly button, before kissing his way back up. He kisses around the top of her left breast, then plants an open mouthed kiss there, the sensation different but not unpleasant, her nipples hardening in request for the same attention. He gives it another kind, the strum of his fingers, as he slides back down her body. The slight chill of the air cools at the moisture his mouth leaves and the heat of his breath and of his body warms her up, and it’s that dichotomy that has her breathing out his name.

He looks up at her at the sound, still moving down, tracing his hand from her hip to her thigh to open her for him. She watches him, as he pushes down on her thigh lightly, the action causing her other leg to flex down too. He settles himself between her thighs, breaking eye contact as he faces the whole of her ready for him. But she doesn’t need his eyes anyway because she’s got his tongue, licking into her without ceremony, and then Iris can’t see anything besides the back of her eyelids.

She can feel, though, the swipe of his tongue as he licks up the center of her once, and then again, and then again, before tongue kissing her cunt, using the whole of his mouth to cover her. Her hips arch off the bed but he’s there to hold her back down, with both of his hands now, the rough tips of his fingers contrasting so beautifully with the way he’s so softly kissing her sex. He circles a tongue around her clit, lapping gently at the nub, then comes back down to taste the wet coating her walls. It’s a rhythm he starts, up to her clit, down to the very core of her, slow and easy and open-mouthed and so. fucking. good. 

She whispers his name in the dark, “Bar-Barry,” stuttering out the syllables because nothing is clear anymore, nothing except this, except them. The pleasure builds, a mounting inferno, and Iris finds herself screaming out for him as she comes, “Barry-y ,” his name loud, her voice cracking there at the end.

He comes up and she breathes out heavily, her chest heaving, Barry’s torso flushed red with the exertion. He settles on his haunches, and licks out at his lips, at her juices covering his mouth.

“Come here and taste yourself,” he demands, and she follows the directive, rising to her knees to kiss him. It’s such a lewd action, tasting the tangy sweetness of herself on him. He wraps one arm around her waist, squeezing her to him. Then they’re moving. It’s when they’re together like this that Iris remembers how strong he actually is. He maneuvers them so that he’s sitting on the bed, up towards the pillows, lifting her so that she’s in his lap, legs on either side of him. His legs cross under her and then she’s wrapped up around him like a lotus, his dick nudging her belly, her body still wet and throbbing, readying itself for his length. 

It’s unusual for Barry to be this quiet in bed. This feels different, with a depth to it that’s been missing the past week, their brief separation a space of tension and restrained energy. Maybe he’s living in that place now, giving this moment significance, even if they don’t quite get it yet.

Still, she cups his jaw and asks. “Are you okay, Barry?”

He presses a kiss into her palm. “I’m always okay when I’m with you.”

It’s not quite the truth. He knows it and she does too, but she understands what he means. When it’s just the two of them, when they’re not worried about anything other than giving and receiving pleasure, when the only thing that matters is their mutual infatuation, they can be okay. After tonight, Iris is committed to making this feeling the one that prevails.

Now, though, it’s the pleasure she wants, the unspoken need for him growing. He catches on to it, in her head and in her body like always. 

Barry reaches down and she looks in between their bodies, watching the way his elegant fingers circle the length of his sex. 

“Rise up just a little,” he tells her, and she holds tight on to his neck, bringing herself closer as she lifts her hips just enough that he can seek entrance to her heat. He pushes in, just a little, before bringing his hands back to their favorite position and bringing her down fully on him.

“Fuck, Barry,” she hisses out, at the same time that he grunts against her mouth, his teeth biting down hard into his lip. 

They’re both still, savoring the feel of each other—the heat and the slick and the desire. She holds his gaze, wondering how she looks to him, with her puffy mouth and her hair out of its bonnet, falling against her shoulders. Her eyes have likely gone dark, the brown of them like liquid chocolate when she’s aroused, her lids lowered so the only thing she sees is him. He’s so beautiful to her, the sharp cut of his jaw and the straight line of his nose, her yearning reflected back at her ten-fold in his stare.

Their movements are slow, steady. She rocks her body atop his, just light thrusts of her hips, and he keeps her focused, his grip tight on her as he guides her to whatever cadence he’s hearing in his head. She moves her hands to his shoulders, the action shifting her just enough that she seems to fall deeper onto him, her sex flooding with arousal at the change, her sex gripping him tigher too.

“God, Iris,” he murmurs against her mouth, his breaths deep, harsh. “Tell me that you’ve missed this. Tell me it wasn’t just me.”

“Yes,” she moans, and he doesn’t fuck into her faster, but somehow it’s deeper, so much deeper, as he holds her body at a slight tilt. She lingers in this rush of unadulterated pleasure, in the flex of Barry’s hips, and in the the sound of their sex-the heavy breathing, the slide of her skin on his, her slick dripping down on his cock.

“Yes what?” he questions. She can feel it coming, just like before, though this seems more gradual.

“I’ve missed you, B,” she says, eyes drifting as it climbs, up through her thighs and right to the juncture of her thighs. “I missed you so much.”

When she comes, it’s hard, her body clutching Barry’s, her nails digging into his sides, stars exploding behind her eyelids. He comes with her too, the flood of him in her womb such a carnal feeling that she almost comes again.

He drops his head down on her clavicle, softly kissing at her skin until they’ve both calmed down. Then he leans back and pats at her ass. “Come on. Let’s get cleaned up and go to sleep.”

************

When Iris wakes up again, she’s alone in the bed. She’s in the middle, the comforter twisted around her, her hair a mess around her head because her bonnet is still lost in the pillows somewhere.

She feels rested, despite their late night dalliance, but her limbs do still feel achy from the exercise. She reaches up high and then does a full body stretch, pushing out her legs and basking in the memory of this morning. It’s a twisted one, the tender yet intense way he’d held on to her, the haunted look in his eyes, the honest glimpse into the same fear that Iris harbors, a fear that she, naively, had thought that Barry didn’t.

When she falls back straight onto the bed, she startles at Barry sitting in the chair that’s in the corner of the room. He’s in just a pair of sweatpants, his torso bare. He looks a little bit like a depraved  angel, hair messy and lips pouty, his eyes darkened like the murky blue of the Atlantic Ocean.

She can’t read much in his gaze, not quite understanding what his silence means as he looks over at her, hands steepled over his stomach. She stares back at him and she can feel it, the strength of the love she has for him, like a physical thing. It’s warm, when she just lets it be, flooding her system, cocooning her in its embrace. It’s only when she doesn’t, when she allows the fear to take over, that it hurts, like a lightning bolt hurtling straight through the sky to strike her in the heart. 

After the week she’s had, she knows what she wants. Last night had been eye opening, the differing interpretations of their relationship, the terror that they’ve both been living with, the truth that it’s them, it’s always been them, it will always be them, as long as they try. Linda was right, that they can’t do this alone. She hadn’t intentionally avoided him at the party, had only meant to gather her thoughts; but Iris never wants to see Barry like that again, on his knees because she’s letting things she’s got no control of run her. That she could do that to him… she shakes her head. She just wants forever with him and that starts with them talking.

“You want breakfast?” The question comes out of left field, but she goes with it.

“Sure?”

“I ordered some from the little spot at the corner. They're open until just noon today. It should be ready soon. I can go grab it while you shower?”

She nods. “Okay.”

She watches as he stands, the length of him unfolding from the chair. He grabs a white t-shirt from one of his dresser drawers and slips it on before doing the same thing with sneakers and a coat from his closet. Then he comes over to the bed, standing against the edge.

“Come here,” he calls for her, his voice a touch deeper than it was moments ago. Like it always does, the command makes something primal flutter through her. She obliges him, climbing to her knees to reach him. She’s still naked from the night before, and the slight chill in the air causes goose pimples to rise on her skin. He’s there to stave it off immediately, pulling her close to him with his palms full of her ass.

He just stares down at her, at first, his gem colored eyes vivid. She’s always thought that there was something erotic about being naked against a fully clothed man like this, that illusion of dominance that she will only ever admit out loud when she’s in bed with Barry. She feels safe with Barry in that. She knows not fully, not until she’s worked on the emotional scars that are too deep to be merely talked out, to be loved out by Barry. But she has this, here, and it’s worth fighting for.

“What?” she asks, finally. 

He puckers his lips at her and she obliges him here too, pressing her mouth to his. It’s a quick kiss, and Iris finds herself following after him when he pulls away.

“I’ll be back in a few minutes,” he says.

She nods. “Okay.”

He gives her left cheek a quick slap and then he starts for the door.

“Hey Allen,” she calls out. She waits until he’s facing her again to say, “I love you. You know that, right?”

“I do know,” he nods. “I love you too, baby.”

She does take a quick shower while he’s gone. She dresses in a pair of his old boxers and one of his t-shirts, despite the fact that she keeps a few items of clothing here, and brushes her hair up into a topknot. By the time she’s done, Barry is back, unpacking the food he’s brought.

The living room doesn’t really look like there was a party here last night. The caterers had packed up their goods and the bartender too, and apart from a couple champagne and martini glasses still sitting on the tables and windowsills, and the decorations, his apartment looks like it usually does, cozy and lived in. It only occurs to her when she sees the light of the tree on that it’s Christmas morning. She and Barry have plans to make rounds later on, to his parents’ for early evening cocktails and then to her dad’s for a low key dinner.

They decide to sit on the sofa to eat. He’s gotten them both containers of chicken and waffles, with a sweet jalapeno syrup. There’s a citrus fruit platter, slices of grapefruit, oranges and kiwis, with some blueberries and blackberries there adding color.

She’s only a few bites in but she’s going out of her mind with anticipation and so she just blurts out, “I think we should go to counseling.”

He, apparently, had been feeling the same apprehension because he exclaims at the same time, “Are we breaking up?”

They both gasp at the other, mouths wide in shock.

He puts his plate down on the table, and wipes his hands against his sweatpants before turning to her.

“Counseling, Iris?”

She doesn’t like the incredulity in his voice, as if counseling is a concept that doesn’t have a place with them, but she’s more concerned with his worries right now.

“Barry, why do you keep asking me if we're gonna break up?”

“I’m just trying to figure it out.” Barry stands, moving from around the coffee table, starting to pace in that space on the side of the couch. He stops after a moment and turns back to her. “Is this another way to keep from letting your guard down?”

Now, she swears he’s just being obtuse.

“No, Barry. This is me explaining to you that I think we need some help.”

“So you’re telling me that you don’t think we can be in this relationship alone?”

She stands up too, exhaling loudly. “I’m, apparently, not telling you anything because you won’t listen. This is what I mean. Our every conversation is snark and innuendo. And if it isn’t, it’s because we’re arguing. Like right now.”

“This isn’t an argument,” he disagrees. “This is me wondering why I’m not enough for you, why you want to bring someone in to talk about things that we can solve.”

Iris shakes her head vehemently. “That’s not what I’m doing.”

She takes a second to look at him, to really look. Sometimes it’s easy to forget the world Barry grew up in. In some ways, it was like hers. Present to others an image that doesn’t ask questions, keep issues in house. But, at least where the two of them have been concerned, they’ve never been good at that. Her heart has always been on her sleeve for Barry, and his for her too.

She grabs his arm and pulls him back down on the couch and he lets her, going with it when she crawls into his lap. She thinks they need this closeness to finish this conversation. His hands land on her hips, their natural spot when she’s anywhere near him, and she spreads her fingers on either side of his neck. She can feel the pounding of his pulse beneath her fingertips, as fast as her own, and Iris takes a calming breath, hoping that he can mimic it too. She’s determined now, to fight for this, but not in a way that’s going to keep hurting them both.

“The way we are right now,” she starts, gaze intent on his, “we’re not, we’re not safe for each other. You’ve spent this entire week thinking I'm going to break up with you because of an argument and I’ve been spiraling, scared out of my mind that my hesitancy is going to ruin us. That’s not healthy.”

He seems to be listening now, taking the words in as they are, not to react to them. She nods and continues.

“When I asked you for time, to go slow, I wasn’t being difficult. I know that I’m still learning what it means to be involved with someone else. And, frankly Barry, you are too. Unless you were lying to me about your previous relationships.”

He shakes his head with a quick flex of his fingers on her hips. “Of course I wasn’t.”

“We are not the perfect Allens or the destructive Wests.  We’re going to have to work at this in a way that your parents might not seem to and trust each other in a way that mine didn’t. We can’t just expect it to work because we love each other. Because if it doesn’t, if we b-break, I don’t think I c-can…”

She sees Barry’s expression soften at the break in her voice, at the vulnerability she’s tried to keep at bay, even with him. She bites at her lips as he circles his arms around her tight, stemming the tears that are inexplicably threatening to pool in her eyes.

“Counseling’s not just about us as a couple, but as individuals. Don’t you want to be the best for each other?”

Barry’s stares at her, the sensation as potent as it always is. It’s a crazy thought, that the man can see into her soul just by looking at her, but she swears it's true, especially when they’re together like this. He had always been able to get into her head, his pointed remarks effectively hitting their target; he had always been able to get to her heart, the only person who could make her feel. And now she thinks he can see right down to the bones of her.

“I’ve always told you that I’ll give you whatever you want, West. All you have to do is ask me. I mean that.”

She smiles at him, big and wide, for the first time since last Saturday.

“Then please, Barry Allen, can we go to couple’s counseling?”

Barry sighs loudly, running a long-fingered hand over his face. “Yes, we can.”

Iris yelps in delight, leaning down to give him a big kiss on the mouth. 

“I will say,” she adds, thinking now,  “that you didn’t give me the tree when I asked for it.” She nods her head at the tree sitting brilliantly in the window. “And you still got the one I wanted.”

He snorts. “It was the principle.”

“It was your ego.”

He harrumphs, but doesn’t respond to that. He goes quiet then, reaching up to caress her cheek with his knuckle. He comes to a stop under chin, his thumb rubbing gently against her bottom lip. 

“Don’t let a week pass us by again.” He speaks softly, his voice deeper somehow, the sound shooting right to the core of her. “You can't go that long without talking to me. I won’t accept that again.”

She nods, her face still in his hold, her body lighting up in response to the command. “I won’t,” she whispers back.

“Come here, star,” he says, and she’s moving forward before the new nickname registers.

She tilts her head in question. “Star?”

She thinks his cheeks pink as he answers with a shrug. “I don’t know. I was thinking about that song we danced to last night.”

She continues her descent, stopping when her chest is brushing against his, when her lips are put a millimeter away from his. “You’re such a fucking sap, Allen.”

She ignores the sap in her own voice just now.

“Yeah?” He keeps his gaze steady on hers. “How about I take you in the bedroom and show you how much of a sap I am.”

She gives a smug grin, this one reminiscent of those goddamn smirks he’s forever giving her. “Or you can show me right here.”

He does it then, that smirk of his wide as he goes to pull at the hem of her shirt. He taps at her hip, thrusting his a little. She shivers on top of him, her eyes fluttering closed.

“God, I fucking love you, Iris.”

She looks at him through the narrowed slits of her eyes, her smile lust-drunk as Barry cups a hand over one of her breasts, rubbing gently over a dark brown-tipped nipple. “I love you too, Barry.”

And then they proceed to show each other: with deep, wet kisses, and with long, slow strokes. With Iris’s nails digging into the skin of his shoulders and with Barry’s palms gripping her hips, his mouth pressed against her ear as he talks her to orgasm.

Later, he’ll sing to her, as the song plays from his phone when they leave his parents’ place for hers; as she sits next to him remembering their dance with her fingers holding his on her thigh; as the stars guide their way.

“I have come to understand the way it is. It’s not a secret anymore, cause we’ve been through that before. From tonight, I know that you’re the only one. I’ve been confused and in the dark. Now I understand, yeah, yeah.

I wonder why it is, I don’t argue like this, with anyone but you. I wonder why it is, I won't let my guard down, for anyone but you. We do it all the time. Blowing out my mind.

Just like a star across the sky. Just like an angel off the page. You have appeared in my life. Feel like I'll never be the same. Just like a song in my heart. Just like oil on my hands.”

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the flash | iris/barry teen, 731 In his attempts to spoil her, Barry cooks Iris' breakfast and brings it to her in bed.