#WTF ITS 2 AM ough

[canneddolts]

i like to think gordon has Scientist Guy thoughts sometimes

[iolite-flames]

OK FUCKERS ITS TIME: OC LORE TIME BABYYY

…Yikes…

OK LORE TIME OUGH OUGH I AM SO SORRY IF THIS IS INCOMPREHENSIBLE, i have never done this before!!! Ever!!! In my 10 years of oc development!!! So heres a bit about my goofy lil oc story “Ommetaphobia”!

A SMALL DISCLAIMER!

This post in particular is a little niche, as its not really about the story at large but a facet of it: villainy! Or more so the funky little cult the protagonists must deal with throughout. Warning for cult mentions and body horror (sorta).

WHAT TO EXPECT!

OC refs (with notes; without color)

Discussion of cult shenanigans INCLUDING:

Cult hierarchy

Transformation logistics (sorta)

How members transform (sorta)

Discussion/analysis of something called PR1-S4P and what it is!

Ok! With that outta the way… lets tear off the bandaid!

Sorry there’s so much 😭

WTF IS PRI-S4P???

PRI-S4P, otherwise referred to as primordial sap/ichor or "forbidden lifeblood", is a mysterious liquid taken from the fruit of a strange, gnarled persimmon tree in the forest just outside the large town of Ignorsis, location of royalty and a bustling city. It is a dark, viscous liquid that visually looks like molasses. The smell is terrible, but taste wise isn't bad (sweet and robust). Consumption of PRI-S4P can be difficult, as the thick, foul-smelling liquid makes for a poor olfactory experience that can easily be choked on if not careful. Because of this, shots taken by syringe are available but are usually somewhat discouraged due to frequent complications like blood clotting. Successful consumption, however, results in altercations to host and the "awakening" of strange, inhuman abilities. No one know why it happens, but significant concentration brings about physically transformative properties that are even more of an oddity than the existence of "powers". Concentration only increases if more PR1-S4P is consumed by host. It is guarded and controlled by an elusive cult nicknamed SCLERA, only identifiable by their groups symbol: an eye trapped in a double helix.

TRANSFORMATION? HOW?

Transformation mechanics are widely unknown. They seem to "activate" when the host is agitated, scared, and/ or extremely exhausted. Transformation is not permanent, but is incredibly taxing on mind and body, not to mention painful! It takes many days for a host to heal from just the physical stress of transformation.

Intensity and duration of transformation (and by proxy the length of the healing process) seems tied to PRI concentration, though caps at a certain point where healing is no longer possible (and transformation is nearly permanent).

Transformation will not occur in hosts with a concentration less than 30% of their body mass and will be nearly constant at levels above 80%.

ANY WARNINGS A TRANSFORMATION WILL OCCUR?

Yes! Warning signs do occur in hosts before transformations. Such include:

Mood swings

Hunger

Aggression

Increased heart rate (BPM)

Darkening of sclera from white to black

Soreness/physical pain

Restlessness

Heavy breathing

Hot flashes

Chills

Intense headache/migraine

Lack of focus/eye contact

Involuntary shaking/tremors

Drooling

Insomnia

Dizziness

Nausea

Temporary blindness

Increased sensitivity to smells, sounds, bright and/or flashing lights/colors

These signs are also present in the healing process. Intensity varies from person to person and is not inherently associated with PRI concentration.

TELL ME MORE ABOUT CONCENTRATION. WHOS GOT THE MOST?

As previously mentioned, PRI-S4P concentration is dependent on consumption of it either orally by eating the fruit of the gnarled persimmon tree or through supplemental injections. When it comes to whos concentration is the highest, we must look at arous hierarchv: the higher vour "rank", the more PRI-S4P inside you.

OK, THEN TELL ME ABOUT HIERARCHY!

SO SCLERA, the aforementioned cult has a group hierarchy reliant on membership duration and individual effort. There are 3 regular ranks (R) and 2 "special" ones (S). They are as follows, in order of least to most important:

GRUNTS (R): Most common, underlings of leaders and at the bottom of the food chain. Often new and the most easy to replace and most "normal". There's about 10 to 15 grunts for every leader. Concentration of PRI-S4₽ typically lies between 10 and 15%.

LEADERS (R): Underlings of heads, slightly more seasoned members; not very many of them, only 2-5 per head. Concentration of PRI-S4P typically lies between 20 and 30%.

HEADS (R): The big guns, hand picked by the Prophet for their exemplary performance. Typically control particular cities and recruit members. Concentration of PR1-S4P typically lies between 50 and 60%. There are only 3 Major Heads: Evander, Cypress, amd Oraida. Max, while not considered a head, shares the same amount of concentration, but for a different reason.

PROPHET (S): The head honcho himself. Organizes the cult, inacts experiments, and officiates new members. Is the only one to communicate with the medium directly. This is Otmars role, with a PRI-S4P concentration of 70%.

MEDIUM (S): A vessel for means of communicating accurately with the spirit of the gnarled tree. This is Hazels role, with a PRI-S4P concentration of 90%.

There are about 60 active members of SCLERA at the time this story takes place.

Members usually only communicate with people within their own rank or the rank just above/below them.

ANYTHING ELSE ABOUT HIERARCHY? OR SCLERA IN GENERAL?

Sure, heres some miscellaneous stuff:

Both the Medium and the Prophet don't leave the base (only if like, something REALLY bad happened) Max doesn't either but, again, for an entirely different reason.

Each Head is in charge of a different area of the land. Their grunts and leaders run around said area and do various tasks like supply trips, espionage, etc. Heads don't usually do any running around unless its on their own volition. They will if something bad happens that needs their presence though.

The general public didn't know of SCLERA until they made their self known during an event refered to as "The Night of Heretics", where a battalion of members, 5 years into the group's conception, unleashed havoc on the local population on all fronts. The main story takes place a year afterwards and the main characters are all survivors of the rampage (or participated in it).

REFS AND ABILITIES!

EVANDER:

Physical/body distortion:

Full control of limb length, including neck and fingers

PRI enhances this, causing unnecessary duplication of arms, fingers, and hands and less "control of length (causing him to, by default, appear more "stretched out" and uncanny)

Mimicry:

Primarily vocally, can briefly mimic physically but requires more energy, decently accurate and can get better with some practice

PRI diminishes this, causing errors in mimic accuracy, physical distortions are signiticantly worse, appearing uncanny and unhuman (especially coupled with the physical abilities mentioned prior)

CYPRESS:

Flame wielding:

Ability to control flames in a small radius

PRI enhances this, causing greater control and greater control radius

Increased strength:

Just as described, greater physical strength than normal. Can lift and fight with an unnatural vigor

PRI enhances this, causing even greater physical ability

ORAIDA:

Hypnosis:

Ability to cause short term control of individuals through intense eye contact

PRI enhances this, through use of pheromones on secondary appendages (when stimulated)

Plant manipulation:

Ability to control plant growth/generation in a mid-side radius

PRI enhances this, causing greater control and greater control radius

MAX:

Telekinesis:

Ability to move things using mind within a mid-size radius

PRI enhances this, causing greater control and greater control radius

Telepathy:

Ability to read others mind/communicate with others mentallv within a mid-size radius

PRI enhances this, causing greater control and greater control radius

OTMAR:

Possession:

Ability to forfeit control of his body to control another temporarily (if bitten, think a snake bite giving poison damage to affected person, or zombie bites)

PR1 enhances this, causing greater control of victims in a shorter period of time

Clairvoyance:

Ability to accurately predict events; only applicable if relaxed and typically isn't very strong (visions are almost "out of context" and resemble foreshadowing, think Until Dawn totems)

PRI diminishes this, causing even more difficulty to obtain visions and decreased clarity of said visions

HAZEL:

Necromancy:

Ability to raise dead for a short time in a small radius.

PR1 enhances this, causing greater summoning radius and duration

Hallucinations:

Ability to cause false perceptions/sensations through exhalations

PR1 enhances this, causing even greater sensory misinput and stronger sensations

Note: Hazel form shown above is her OFF PR1, this is how she looks normally thanks to long term use… yeesh.

Thats it! If you read the whole thing then woah! Im genuinely amazed! Thank you for your time ☹️❤️‼️

[saiiboat]

helloooo hello hi music recs you say. :D

not an album but MOFO by Reolamos is a banger I have to mention it

I like TEMMIS' EP Klinge! it has 4 songs and they're a bit more of a melancholy vibe, but not in the sad way, more in a "sitting on a speeding train and staring out the window" way. does that make sense idk but the second song is Literally About That LOL. either way I like it

Adeus, Aurora by Supercombo is good! this is also a "sitting on the train" vibe to me but more upbeat this time

Irgendwie, Irgendwo, Irgendwann bei Nena is a banger song (this is the same band that did 99 Luftballons which you've probably heard of)

Es ist Abend und wir sitzen bei mir by AnnenMayKantereit is a more chill vibe too! probably wouldn't listen to most of the songs individually but as an album it's a vibe

and. gonna stop there for now but there you go? :D hope you don't mind the amount of german music I figured it was stuff you were more likely to not already know

ok my thoughts s^_^ never apologizing for recommending songs in other languages btw. its awesome

this gets a bit long so reactions under the cut

MOFO: FODA. fucks like hell. in love with it.

Klinge:

Klinge: i love the rhythm. damn

ICE 579: oh this is awesome fucking vibe. yeah train music

augenringe: love the bridge at the beginning. one must imagine me bobbing along to this song as i type

verloren wie ich (pt. 1): oh this is cooollllllll ok. ok. digging this.. wtf......

adeus, aurora:

guarda-chuva: love how it climbs. really fits the album art i think. also like the lyrics for this one

o guerreiro e a selva: jam. what can i say. i like this one a lot

maremotos: i know this one! massive fan. sos good. it also gives me insane deja vu for some reason. where the fuck have i heard this song before

menina largata: jam. VERY interesting bridge here

robozin: interesting beat.. i feel like this one might be more of an acquired taste for me but i can see myself liking it

2 e 1: ohhhhh i love the last 3rd of this song oh this is cool. it grabbed me

meu colorista: OUGH fucks. cool as hell. woah crazy vocals. ok kinda fucks okkkk

parafuso a menos: ok!!! okay!!!!!! OKAY!!!!!!!!!! :D good song

cela: kinda a vibe ngl. cool song

xepa das estrelas: i really like this one

overall it was enjoyable but a bit of an acquired taste? there are a few songs in there that i do really love off the bat but the rest i can definitely see myself enjoying later on. ME FROM A FEW DAYS LATER! yeah this album fucks 🫶

Irgendwie, Irgendwo, Irgendwann: FUCKS. this fucking rules. love this one. yeah this rules

Es ist Abend und wir sitzen bei mir:

lass es kreisen: oh ok so this fucks fucks. okay.

3 tage am meer: vibe. ok. ok. ok. great song

es ist abend: ooooooooooooooooo strong start. yeah i love this one

lottoscheine: ohhhh ok the bridge got me. hooked

katharina: VIBE. ok. WOAHHH oKKKKKKKKKK WOAHHHHH. LOVE<33333333

verliebt sein: thisones sweet i like it

ausgehen: vibe

erdbeerkechen: this rules. wtf

heute abend wird es regnen: wow that was a shift. i like this one

weißhausstraße: this is cool.

kein stern: good song

als ich ein kind war: interesting. the lone voice with just the drum for a minute is crazy

du tust mir nie mehr weh:good song

orangenlied: very good. i dont have any german so i heard "forrest gump" and my head twitched

tommi: also very good. brings the album to a very nice end

overall thoughts: really enjoyed this. awesome fucking album. loved it.

THANK YOU FOR THE RECS!!!!! you have great taste these are all awesome

[auspex]

2, 29, 38 for porphyria and 13, 40, 50 for mark!

Let;s goooooo these were sooo fun

Do they wear perfume/cologne? If so what scents do they prefer?

Followers correct me if I’m wrong but I imagine perfume was a little bit of a luxury item back then? But Porphyria was middle class so I imagine she could afford it sometimes :) I think she would keep it simple, as most perfume was back then, with floral scents. She's on the trail right now so actually wears it more often cause its hard to bathe.

If they were real would you be friends with them?

I’m not, for better or worse, friends with people who are older than me often. Or many friends in general. Cause I talk about my interests a lot and . yeah. Let’s say she was not a mage and just happened to work in my office or something. In which case I think we would get along great. Because I love to work with positive people. I still rarely hang out with people outside of work but I could definitely see it. 

If she was just like, transported here with time shenanigans and she identified me as someone closely connected to her fate (cause i imagine I would look SOOO weird to her, she'd be like why the fuck is my fate connected to this random future person) and so wanted to get to know me, I would be nice to her oc because like. I do know she is a positive helpful person though I would be wary of her trying to look into my mind and stuff cause I know she would : ( but then she would read my mind and jesus it would get complicated there. That would be a whole story. Existential crisis on her part. And mine.

What are their dreams like? Do they have any recurring dreams/nightmares?

Loaded question because her cabal now has shared dreams when they dream and we are figuring out how the fuck those work. I think they have seen visions of Atlantis, which is a time where everyone could do magic and was a much better world. So I guess her dreams are very very vivid. She’s had prophetic dreams before too : ) I don’t think she has nightmares but if she did I bet they would be signs. Sorry this was a short answer. We are just still learning about her dreams :)

For Mark..

Do they enjoy poetry?

Answered, but as a bonus I looked at some Roman poems and picked one I think he would like but would rather Die than tell anyone he liked it. It's about unattainable women but I think Mark would relate it to getting a crush on a straight guy lol.

Thus it will be; slender arrows are lodged in my heart, and Love vexes the chest that it has seized Shall I surrender or stir up the sudden flame by fighting it? I will surrender – a burden becomes light when it is carried willingly.

sic erit; haeserunt tenues in corde sagittae, et possessa ferus pectora versat Amor. Cedimus, an subitum luctando accendimus ignem? cedamus! leve fit, quod bene fertur, onus.

Mark is sooo silly <3

If they found a sword in a stone would they try to pull it out? How would they react to being able to pull it out or not?

He's way too paranoid and so is his coterie to just pull it out. He would prob have a coterie member w sense the unseen, Rose, look at it, and tell him if its magic. If its not magic, I think he'd let another coterie member take it cause he isn't good at melee combat and would think he'd hurt himself. If it WAS magic, ough another sidequest to figure out wtf that is before anyone touches it....

What is your favorite thing about them?

I LOVEEEE how he loves humanity but is SOOOO secret with it. Deep Mark lore. I do love how he is gay too and that's the angst in the story i am the most Normal about but if we are talking personality traits that's definetely it. I do like his stupid snark too though. And that he still wears glasses despite not needing htem. And his utter devotion to sampson that he's not even fully aware of. ough. ok let me stop Ranting about things I like.

So to focus on that yeah I love that he isn't human and doesn't have any other kindred he feels like he could talk to about this but it bothers him a LOT how even the nicer kindred don't respect humanity at all. he has no outlet for this. Its not a big deal for now but could totally become an important thing at any point. <3 Monster loving humanity <3 monster not accepting he isnt part of humanity <3 ough.

[solifloris]

PART 2 OF MY INCOHERENT YELLING UNDER THE CUT!!!! :D

we're starting WITH THISSSS BC HUHUHUUUU 😭😭😭😭 CALEEEBBBB 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 WJFKNWHFJSKJFHSKD the way he knows he might be overstepping but also we're like no sorry its just im not feeling great... AND HE KNOWSSSSS 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

okokokokok and now. WE'RE GOING BACK IN WE'RE GONNA CONTINUE THE MAIN STORY.

KSDHGKJSDHGKJHVSKJFNKJ this mf he's soo... i want to SHAKE HIM. AFFECTIONATELY.

"I'm Caleb. I'll always be by your side." HUHUHU THE :( THE PARALLELS THE :(((((((((( HE KNEW EXACTLY WHAT TO SAY TO SOOTHER HERRRR :(((((((

"That's just how things work, pipsqueak." YYYYYYYYYELLLLLLLIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGGG

AND THE ?????????????? THE WAYHIS TONE CHANGES WHEN HES TALKING TO EVERYONE ELSE. IM SOBBING "COME BACK TO ME WHEN THE BAUBLE AROUND HIS NECK GROWS A BRAIN" OH MY GODDDDDDD WKJEHGKJHVKJSFHGKJDKJFGH HES SOOO

"I HAVEN'T EVEN DISCIPLINED YOU." SIR !!!!!! 😭😭😭😭😭😭

"It's an order." IMMWKJEHSGKJHVSKJXFDHGKJDFXHGCKVJ oh man the VOICELINES IM STARRING

i am sO FUCKING. IN LOVE. WITH YOU.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

"you're putting my evol to good use like always." HWJKHFKWHSKDJGH SOBBING CRYING ON THE FLOOR. THE WAY HE. EFFORTLESSLY OPENS THE. CAN. HES SO. OHHHH HE HAS SUCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH GOOD CONTROL OF HIS EVOL DOESNT HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

mc being afraid of thunder................. ooooooouuuuhhhhhhh defaulting back to that ohshc scene with hikaru againnnnn............

"....you ungrateful pipsqueak." YELLING

I LOVE THEIR DYNAMIC SO MUCH WHATTHEFUCK

HOLD

HOLD

OHMYGOD HOLD

"like the ones who are involved in this incident" I JUST NOTICED?????? and this is ever, right...... luke and kieran callback....... what is WITH ever's obsession with twins.........................

HFWKJSHKJGHKJVSHFDKGJHVKDJFXHKGJHDKFJGN

"is that the only reason?" UUUUUUU THE WAY HIS VOICE GOES ALL SOFT AND HE GLANCES AWAY AND AND AND AND. OHHHHH THE YEARNIIIIINNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

".... iiii'm just messing around. what's wrong? cat got your tongue?" CALEB PLEASEHKDGHFKGKDJFV

wtf im so obsessed with the way he says "alright, alright~!" UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

ZAYNE

HOYGODMYOEHRDKGHEKDRFHGDHRGK HOMYGODHOMYGOSDHGJHDFKJGSFNXKGJHVSKJDXHGKJSDHFKXJGHVDFKJVN

WAIT WAIITAWITHAEHT CHOTTO MATTE KUDASAITHOEWSHDGNKJDCFNKJGCNBDKJFMCNGKBJDFNCK IC ANGKDRJFG

Z AY N E

SJKDFHJWEJGKJDS THEY BOTH HAVE A "wTF R U DOING HERE" MOMENGHKJ I CANNOT I CANNOOOOOOOOOOOOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

WAIYWAIT I CANF BREATHE

"is this the confidential schedule you talked about two weeks ago? don't worry, i'll experience memory loss once i'm back in linkon." IMMMMMMM WHEEZIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGG

OH GOD OH GOD. HIS VOICE IS SO SOFT. IM SOBBING SO HARD RN.

WHAT THE HELL I MISSED ZAYNE

OH MY GOD

EHSDGKJSHKJDFGHKJVHSDKFJXGHJDBFJHCBGJVHF

SORRY CALEB WAIY I NEED

IM HAVING SUCHA MOMNEF

ok back to regular programming.

ahem.

poor mia... she needs a crisis therapist </3

OUGH SHES TENN <///3

SJDFRJEWHKSHKJSE ZAYNE. ZAYNE YOURE SOOO. OUGHHH THE WAY HE TALKS TO HERRRRRRRRR THE WAY HEEEEEEE

ok sorry

mc im sorry but youre terrible with dealing with crisis patients. thats a terrible approach. oh my god. too many you statements, diving right into what happened without establishing any sort of rapport... that couldve triggered an immediate emotional response and youd get kicked out girl youre terrible at this im so sorry

CLOCKED IT SEEEEE SHE'S TEARING UP !!!! >:( SHE'S GONNA CRY MC >:(

A LITTLE DOGGIE PLUSHIE 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 NOOOOOOOOOOO

ZAYNE YOURE SO SILLY WHQETSKFKSJDF COME HERE ILL KISS YOU

oh 😭 zayne doesn't know about caleb, right 😭😭 "the fleet feels different this time" huhu oh zayne.. if only you knew ...

😭 BUT I WISH WE COULD TELL HIM !!! MC SAY SOMETHINGGGGGGGG :( THAT'S HIS FRIEND TOO !!!!!!!!!!!11

"i'm afraid i'll bother you when you're busY" answered with "we both have to deal with challenges, one after another. if we want to see each other, then there will be moments like this where we can sit together. no matter how hectic things get." ZAAAYYNNNEEEEEEEEEEE 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 WHAT THE HELL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM WSIDHGKJDFCHGJDHFKJGHKJSDRHG I LOVE YOU 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 WHY IS HE SO GOOD AT THIS WHKGJD HE'S SO GOOD AT REASSUING HER WHY DOES HE SAY THE RIGHT THINGSSSSSSSSS :( AHUHU oh man,,,,,,,,,,,,,, i love him zayne why are you soooooo my ideal....

IM SUPPOSED TO BE PINING FOR CALEB DAMMIT ZAYNEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

NOOOOOO 😭😭😭😭THAT'S WHY THEY WANT KEVI?! 😭😭😭😭😭😭 IT'S THE... CRYSTAL THING :( IT'S THE SAME, RIGHT?! 😭😭😭😭😭 AHUHU THE TRANSFORMATION THING THE.. !!! THE THING LUKE AND KIERAN HAVE TOO..... on a twin, no less...

ohhh its the fragment...??? HUH......................

ough... my heart...

i wonder if these twins were experiments before too? :( is that why they're after kevi......... why does it seem like they want kevi more than mia though....

ONLY ONE TWIN TRANSFORMED.. OR LIKE, HAS THE CRYSTAL THING... i wonder why. does the anomaly never affect both twins...

IM YELLING SOBBINGHJKSNXKJCBVHDKJF THE WAY ZAYNE KNOWS SHE MIGHT RAMBLE ON THE MOMENT HE ANSWERS AND HE SAYS CALM DOWN AND

"WHEN HIS VOICE COMES THROUGH THE PHONE, IT'S ALMOST AS IF A WARM HAND IS SOOTHING MY TROUBLED MIND." ZAYNEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

ok now what's bothering me is that. they're directly addressing the story branches... but also the experiences that mc went through with the guys. so this BASICALLY means. you really did have to play through all of them to get the full story BUT it also means that.. the relationship progression... is being vaguely addressed... and that all of them happened with all three of them... and that's kind of... mn,,... what's the point of separate branch stories... it might as well really just have been different mainstory chapters... hhh

they're keeping the romantic subtext a little bit, no? :/ zayne is so sweet in this... he wouldn't have been if they didn't go through chansia together... hhh this makes me kind of upset... theyre going to keep romantic subtext in the main main story while never directly addressing the relationship... i'd hfsdg really hate to see "omg mc is dating all 5 of the guys at the same time" ughhh i wish they didn't do this

but neway..

i wonder, if.... like... if zayne and dr. noah get a chance to look over luke and kieran, would it help? do luke and kieran still have the threat of transformation over them if it's been two years since the last known record of it happening (as far as we know?)... i wonder if zayne and dr. noah can help them too ;o;

WHFKJHSKJDHGKSKDJG THERE'S A YUAN-TI IN LOVE AND DEEPSPACE? LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

BUT HE HAS LONG HAIR... HIS DESIGN IS KINDA PRETTY... DAMNHE HAS A WHOLE PORTRAIT AND EVERYTHING, LIKE, SO HE'S GONNA BE PRETTY IMPORTANT HUH-?!

AN APPLE 😭😭😭😭IM WHEEZING CALEB PLEASE

NOT THE WAY CALEB COMES FROM GROCERY SHOPPING LIKE THIS QHWKAJSHFKJSHDKJGHVKSJ I CANNOT WITH HIM HES SO WHGSKJDGHKSJD SILLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

"THE SUPERMARKET WASN'T HAVIN' A SALE ON PRODUCE TODAY, AND MY BULLETS AREN'T EXACTLY CHEAP" BROOOO HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

"eat some fruit. i'll be right back" IM WHEEZING SO HARDDDDDDDDDD

JWEHSFKJWHKJDSHGKJHDKJFG ??? "perfect vesssel my asss! it doesssn't even look as good as usss unfinished productsss." <- ultima what are u doing here. /JJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJ

CALEB'S ONE-LINERS HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA "i see it's shedding season again, Viper." THIS GUY IMMM

oh damn. THERE S A TIME LIMIT? WHAT SGOINF ON

"wouldn't you sssay your overprotectivenesss bordersss obsess-" IM DYING

"Lay a hand on her again, and I will kill you." OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

FLASHBACKS TO THAT CHAPTER WITH XAVIER IN THE ALLEY GHKVSJHFDGKJSRKJH

HE TOWEL-DRIES OUR HAIR FOR US :(((( CALEEEBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBB HUHU THATS SO ACTS OF SERVICE OF YOUU....

HUHU THE WAY HE. CASUALLY JUST COMBS THROUGH OUR HAIR.. ITS SO SOFT :(

"There's no rush. We have more than enough time together." THIS IS A LINE FROM MC?!?!?!?! OMG GIRLLLLLLLLLL

??????????????? DESPITE???? THE DAA HAVING CLOSE CONNECTIONS W THE FLEET ?????????????????? HE'S JUST??? NEVER??? THEY DON'T KNOW ?????? OMG CALEB... you have so many secrets 😭😭😭😭😭😭

"To reassure me, Caleb gently pats my head." OUGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH CALEB :((((((((((

"don't worry. they will find him." HWJFKHEKJ NOOOOOOOO 😭😭 WRONG ANSWER 😭😭 IM SOBBING OUGH

OHHHHHH THE MISCOMMUNICATION. THE SECRETS. OHMYGODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

OTTO 😭😭😭😭😭

CALEB NOOOOOOO 😭 SHAKING YOU SHAKING YOU SHAKING YOU SHAKING YOU

GIVE HER SOME AGENCYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY CALEB CMONNNNNNNNNNNNN

"you're lying." "what about you, then?" OH MY GOSHGJKHKJRDV THEY CAN'T KEEP ANYTHING FROM EACH OTHERRRR

"for some reason, this version of caleb feels like a stranger." SOBBING SOBBING SOBBING SOBBING

WE MADE A PINKY PROMISEEEE :(((

CALEEEEEEBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBB 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

oooouhghhhhhh i can feel the tensionnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

AUUUGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH THE WAY HE. HOLDS. THE WAY HE HOLDS OUR HAND THE.

"if i kept you here with me like this... would you think i'm being too selfish?" that's so jumin han of you but you know what. at least you're asking

iM HSKJDNGKVFMC

oh caleb:( baby :(( you're bearing too much weight on your shoulders :( share it with us :(

the world is ours to save, not yours </3

HUHU THE LIL HAND KISS :( CALEEEEBBBBBBBBBB :((( UGH COME HERE 😭😭😭😭 I WANT TO HOLD YOUUUUUUUUUU 😭😭😭😭

oh mc :( your nightmares:( i want to hug you too :(

"but somehow i got dizzy and actually slept..." HELP. HELP? I- WAIT A SEC-

HELP

CHOTTO MATTE KUDASAI

WHAT IS WITH THIS TENSION

MIA?!?! 😭😭😭😭😭

WHAT IN THE 5D CHESS IS GOING ON

WHAT THE HELL????????????????

they're really selling the whole "temptation from the serpent" idea here 😭😭😭 with knowledge, no less... "don't you want to know?" viper, buddy, PLEASE 😭😭😭😭

viper is truly hilarious in his own right though LMFAO i like him

dude. "the professor said if we damage the bird's neuromuscular system, it won't be able to fly. but it will believe it can." WHY ARE WE PLAYING AROUND WITH CONDITIONING, KEVI? WHAT ARE WE DOING

this is so unsettling omfg...

DUUUUUUUUUUUUDDDDDDDEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

WHAT IN THE HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLL ISSS GOING ONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN

OH MY GOD. OH MY GOD THATS WHY. THATS WHY MC TALKS ABOUT THE CHIP. OH MY GODDD THATS WHY IN THE TRAILER SHE-

CALEEEEEEEEEBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBB

"letting your emotions run wild and blaming yourself for every little mistake... it will only hold you back."

whoah

we're going back down repression lane, huh...

CALEB WHAT ARE YOU DOING BUDDYYYYYY 😭😭😭

THE TENSION BRO 😭😭😭😭 I CANT DO THISSSS

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH THE MEMORIESSSSS WHJVHKJFH THE FLASHBACKS ARE KILLING MEEEEE

HE'S SUCH A SCIENCE KID OMG. hehe i was so right... he's a STEM person.. hehe.. i love him..

"why is he acting like nothing happened? why is it always so difficult to understand what he's thinking?"

mY HEART

HER DOUBTS.. THE QUESTIONS... MAN. IM ACTUALLY KINDA PROUD SHES STARTING TO QUESTION THINGS WHJFKSDJ I WAS WORRIED SHE MIGHT BE AN UNBOTHERED QUEEN ABOUT IT AGAIN

OK BUT the way theyre approaching the topic of talking it out is so SO filled with tension and i think its so appropriate for the nature of their relationship omg

HE REALLY-?!

CALEB 😭😭😭😭 PLEASE 😭😭😭😭

oh my god... these ... "abominations" or whatever the heck...

the transformation... this is so. this is so crazy to me .

i keep thinking of luke and kieran HFWKNJDNGKFJWER

oh, are they after the aether core...? huh...

"pass the test" does passing the test mean being able to resist the onslaught of the transformation like kevi did? does this mean... hypothetically speaking, people like- kieran? or whichever one of the twins transformed in that anecdote? HWKFSKJFD

but then if that's the case.. does it mean they'll always be able to resist the transformation..? does it end if you resist it once? is it just gone? like, we saw kevi looks so normal... does the chip do something to prevent the transformation too??? DOES THE TRANSFORMATION HAVE SOMETHING TO DO WITH MEMORIES? BC THE CHIP DOES STH WITH MEMORIES?

"are you mad at me?"

he'S TRULYYY. SO PUPPY 😭😭😭😭😭 BABYYY CMERE LET ME HUG YOUUU 😭😭😭

"you... what have you been doing behind my back?" <- YOU GO GIRL

"anyone who dares to wield power that isn't theirs must pay the price." whoah..............

😭😭😭 AUUUUU THEYRE ARGUING.....

"I will protect you." CALEB 😭😭😭😭😭 BUDDY SIT DOWN AND LISTEEENNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN

man. the irony that falls on me for being a xavier main who can't stand miscommunication WHFKJHSKDGH AND THEN THISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

caleb, baby, love, i love you, BUT LISTEEEENNNNNNNNNNN

DON'T YOUUU "MORNIN'" MEEEEEEEEEEEEE

it's totally a different case from elbie/jumin... like i can totally get why he's doing htis and i still love him with his whole heart but omg i

"you already figured out everything, right? ...Aren't i pathetic?" BABY 😭😭😭😭😭😭 DID YOU REALLY..?

IM CRYING??????? CALEB-

mc scares me lowkey LMAOHGKJEHKJ SHES SO BADASS IN THIS? LIKE DAMN YOU GO GIRL 😭😭😭😭😭

WHKFVKSDKJ CYBEZIN.. THE DRUG CALEB TALKED ABOUT IN THE START ABOUT OVERDOSE-

TORING CHIPS

I guess at least they're self aware they have the chips......

CALEB?????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 😭😭😭😭😭

THEYRE REALLY SERIOUSLY GOING JUMIN HAN ON THIS, DAMN

ITS NOT AS INTENSE AS LIKE... ELBIE.. BUT... DAMN

THE WAY HE SWALLOWS 😭 THE WAY HE TENSES 😭😭😭 OH MY POOR BABY 😭😭😭😭

he's restraining himself so much from somethingggg 😭 ugh what are you hidinggg 😭😭😭

"if being with me only brings you pain, then just put up with this for three more days." IM SOBBINGG :((

"i'll be gone. aren't you happy that you won't have to see me then?" :( oh im so illlllllll :(((((

you can honestly just. see so much of his struggles with authority and being the caretaking figure SO MUCH i was looking forward to how they would characterize this and i'm actually kind of happy to see this conflict with him!!!!!! there's so much depth here. i can feel it. I DONT KNOW ANYTHING BUT I CAN FEEL ITTT HES SO INTERESTING TO ME ahhhHH i want to pick at his brain... i want to analyze him... its makiNG ME JUMPYYYYY

"so i have to listen to the colonel even when it comes to eating and drinking now?" "you can be mad, but don't let it affect your health." "i'm not mad."

"growing up, we knew each other so well. better than most, even. i could see through your lies when you'd blink. bite your lip, and i could tell you were upset."

"i wonder. how did you turn into someone i hardly recognize?" im SOOO 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

OH THIS SCENEEEE THE ARGUMENTTTT IM S O ILL RNNNN 😭😭😭😭😭 I'M SO WHFKJSHKDGHKJDV THIS IS TICKLING MY BRAIN SO MCUH BUT MY HEART ALSO HURTS JUST AS MUCH ICANTTTTTT

THE WAY HE'S TENSING UP 😭😭😭😭 the liNES THE HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

NO NO NONO NO NO NO NO NO DON'T LEAVE. COME BACK HERE. COM EBACK HERE AND SOLVE THE PROBLEM WITH ME WAIT WAIT WAIT WE CAN TALK THIS OUT COME BA C K H E R E

MC WANTS TO CRY AND I WANT TO CRY WITH HER HUHU 😭😭😭😭

"i can't figure out what's real or fake with caleb. but what i know for sure is that this person who's important to me... i don't want to lose him a second time."

ORZ

the conflict with them is so 😭 they have so many issues they need to work out because of the distance that put them at odds for the time they spent apart and it's so- considering that their relationship has been so close?! you can feel the pain from BOTH ends because they aren't handling it properly but they both 😭 they both love each other sO MUCH 😭😭😭😭

like it just. feels like... you can really sympathize with mc... its not frustrating that she's giving him so much benefit of the doubt (at least for me) bc this is the caleb she grew up with, and why is he acting different? like she cant understand it.. shes trying to wrap her head around it and it HURTS bc she's not familiar anymore with the person she thought she knew the best.... LIKE JUST. THAT SHIT HURTS LIKE HELL HUHU and you FEEL IT YOU FEEL MC'S PAIN BC. WE WERE THERE TOO !!! WE WAITED SO LONG FOR HIM TOO !! WE SAW HIM AND HOW HE WAS AND WE KNOW THERE'S A DIFFERENCEEEEE and she's not familiar with it and neither are we and aNDDDDD just !!!!!!!! THE PAIN HUHU infold really put us in her shoes its just so !!!!!

BUT IT BETTER NOT END LIKE THIS 😭😭😭😭 IT BETTER NOT END LIKE THIS.. IM GOING TO SOB SO HARD..

...

THE PRICE CALEB PAID TO BE "BROUGHT BACK TO LIFE"??? 😭😭😭😭😭😭

THE SENSATION THE

THE

STOP

stop iT

STOPP

NOOOO

HUHU 😭😭😭 WHAT DO YOU MEAN!! WHAT DO YOU 😭😭😭 HE REALLY 😭😭😭 I 😭😭😭😭

WHOAH A POEM

...

...

WHAT THE HELL. IS IT REALLY ENDING LIKE THAT?? JUST?? JUST LIKE THAT?! JUST LIKE THAT?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

HODL ON 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

NOOOOOOOOOO NOT A SINGLE DROP OF CLOSUREEEEEEEEE😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

:D SERVER'S OPEN!!!!!! this will make zero sense for anyone who goes under the cut i just needed somewhere to liveblog so youll see this post get updated sporadically and it will probably be just filled with keysmashes LMAO

[jumpy bouncy noises] ITS LOAAADDDIIIIINNNGGGGGGGGGG

Lord help me and my internet for loading this slowly its like watching a snail </3 IMSTILL BOUNCING BUT AT WHAT COST. AT WHAT COSTTTTTTT

so close yet so far...

75% YOU CAN DO IT YOU CAN DO IT IM CHEERING YOU ON GO GO GO OG GO GO

WHY IS IT STUCK AT 92% WNFKJW HELP

[secret agent voice] i'm in 😎😎😎

WHY?!

HWHDHWHHDHWHEHWHWHOOAAAAAHHH?!?! ITS SO PRETTY 😭😭😭😭 NOW THAT ITS ACTUALLY ON MY SCREEN

OOUUUU IM SO EMO RN

*PATHETIC WHIMPERS* 😭😭😭

ok ok ok ok ok ok. STORY TIME

oh my poor mc.... fellow chronic nightmare haver...

FUCKING EVERRRRRRRRR WHEN I CATCH YOU EVERRRRRRRRRRRR <- automatic reaction after one (1) ever mention

WHAT THE HELL????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

ohhhhhhhHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDHFWKJSEDNGKJVHNDKFJHBNKJDFNCXKJVMF "is the new fleet colonel defying the hunters association" HE'S NEW????????????? AND HE'S DOING WHAT NOWWWWWWWWWWWW??????????????

WHAT ARE WE DOING WHY ARE WE IN THE UNIFROMFSKJGNJDK "ROOKIE" IM SCREAMINF

why IS the fleet investigating a crime scene.... is that what they do??? why are they involved im crying

"prohibiting hunters from investigating" oh I GET IT. OK BRO

oHMYGOD JENNA

omfg the AUTHORITY QWHFNVKDJGHJ GOOSEBUMPS.CHILLS.

"concerned about the confidentiality" FLASHBACKS TO THE CALL WITH CALEBGVBDKF IM SOBBING SO HARD RN

"jenna shows a rare instance of exasperation" SORRY JENNA T^T

JENNA YOU'RE LITERALLY MVP OMFHGKEJRSNDFKJG I LOVE YOU HUHUHUHUHUHU

i like how, realistically this wouldn't have been possible,,, bc military is super strict about the info they have on cadets,,, like omg if they did that w the military academy here there'd be hella price to pay HWJSKFNVSKJDFBUT SUSPENSION OF DISBELIEF !!!!!!!!

SHE'S FUCKING WEARING IT 😭😭😭😭😭😭 HUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUHU😭

"butting heads with the association" GHWEJSKDGNVKJEDFKJGH SMOOTH MF YOU THINK YOU'RE SO SLICK...................

"don't poke your nose in places where it doesn't belong" yeah that's an accurate representation 😭 authority and position mean hella. if you're just a cadet... a rookie at that... you don't get to do much if they say you can't 😭

I FUCKING CHOKEDHKEJRHGNKJDF THAT'S LUKE'S VA?????????? IM CRYIN RNHYGKEJDG ID RECOGNIZE THAT IN A HEARTBEAT 😭😭😭😭😭

I CANT DO THIS I CANTHFVWKJSD IM JUST SEEING LUKE WHAT THEY CANF DO THIS TO MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE I KNNNOOWWWW THE TWINS ARE JUSTTT SIDE CHARACTERSSSS BUT COME OOOOOOONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN

😭

OTL OTL OTL

sorry anyway. back to regular programming.

WAIT

HIS EYES. HIS EYES ARE SO. WEHKJGDHVKHSKDFJGHVKEJDFNGKJVDNFKJGHNVKJNKGVJDNKFJCNVKDJFNJKGHDKFVNKDJF HOLY FUCK

"UNFORTUNATELY FOR THEM, I ALREADY DANCED WITH DEATH ONCE." SIR. MARRY ME

OH GODDAMMIT I CANT STAR LINES YET COME OOOONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN

haha he used limitless. /jJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJ

I LOVE HOW WE STARTED BOTH CALEB'S AND SYLUS' DEBUT CHAPTERS WITH MURDER LIKE YES. GET EM BOYS

THE WAY HE

THE WAY HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

THE WAY HE FHEKJSDRNKJFGHKDJRHWIPED THE BLOOD OFF OF

OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

"maggots" hELP HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA THIS CAPTAIN DUDE

OHM YGOD

HE HGERKJSDKGJSD THE FUCKINGKRHSDKGJ TOM CRUISE-

IM CRYIGNSDKFJ SOHARDF

FUCKHDFKJGHFUKCING HELL WHY IS

HES SO GODDAM ATTRACTINVERKJG

WAIT

joseph.........

"his voice... sounds familiar." NO SHIT GIRLIEHGKBJDFHXKGJBNKDFJNV

STOPESHGKJSHK "I'D RECOGNIZE YOUR VOICE IN AN INSTANT" APPLIES TO BOTH OF THEM 😭😭😭😭😭

HES SO FUCKING HOT BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

the tone of voice the. the GAZE. the WORDS. the. EVERYTHING. hejkfhWHFDSJ HE CARRIES HIMSELF WITH SUCH. COLD. RUTHLESSNESS

AND HES SO. SMART. HES SO. HES SO

OUGHHHHHHHHHHHHH HIS BRAIN

FUCK IT I WANF HIM

OH SHITGNVKDFSJHGKD WE'RE TALKINF ABOUT COGNITIVE DISSONANCE OHMYGOFHSKJDFH CALEB I FUCKING LVOE YO U

HIS EVOL IS SO FUCKINF POWERFUL

OH MY GODHFEWNKJDSNKGJNVKJDFNXCKVJDNMFXKJGN

OHH MYGODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

CALEB YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

"the order is cold, and everyone snaps out of their daze."

*SWOONS*

OMYGODWHGSKSKJD SHE RECOGNIZES THE EVOL 😭 THE FLASHBACK IMSOBBINGS O HARD RN

"it's not because i'm scared. i heard this voice before. i know this voice."

SCREAMING CRYING THROWINF UP

"no need." "I'll do it myself." IIIIIIIIMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMYELLINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

[ R E S T ]

I NEED A MOMENF WAIY

..

ok back to regular programming.

"can you really be called a small fish?" OH HE'S TEASING HER 😭

IM ABOUT TO SOB IM SOBBGINKRJDFHKJGKDVJFHKJGOHHYMGOD THE WAY HE REVEALED HIMSEJFKSHKJDF THE HAT THE HAT THE

"show some respect to the farspace fleet's colonel." SIR YES SIRRRRRRRRRR

i cant believe i cant star his lines yet. i already have a collection in my head

. MY GIRL'S DELUSIONALHGKJWHSDKJGHKSJD I GET IT. I WOULD BE TOO. I FEEL YOU MC. I FEEL YOU.

"watch your mouth." SIR

OH THE EYES. THE GAZE HE. oh hes losing it. oh hes trying so hard to act calm. oh caleb you absolute fucking puppy

"smart move." LET ME STAR HIS LINESSSSSSSLET MEEEEE STARRR THHEEEEEEEMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

KEJHRGKJHWKJRHG I CANNOT WITH HIM HES SO WHGJDVKJH THE KABEDON THE. THE NECKLACE. THE WAY HE'S LOOKING AT HERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR IM SOBBING HES TRYING SO HARD. YOU THINK YOURE SOOOOOOOOOOO SLICK CALEBBB. ITS NOT WORKINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG I CAN SEE YOUR YEARNIIIINNNNNGGGGGGGGG

"i... i miss him." IM SOBBING SO HARD

"do what you're told, and don't cause any trouble." SIR YES SIRRRRRRRRRRR

"be obedient, and it will be over before you know it."i need. immediately. to hear this line in japanese. IM PLAYING THE ENTIRE THING IN JAPANESE LATER OK HOLDON. he calls us a good girl i know it I JUST KNOW IT I KNOW HE DOES.

IM FUCKING WHEEEEEEEEEZIIIIIIINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG THE BATON FHKJSDHKJGHS HE'S HAVING SO MUCH FUN I CANT WITH HIM OH CALEB YOU'RE NOT SLICK AT ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

HE'S BEEN WATCHING HER THIS WHOLE TIME 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 IM . I CANT DO THIS HE'S SO CONCERNED HES USING THIS AS AN EXCUSE TO ASKHER OHMYGOD HES SO PUPPY. HIS EXPRESSION. HES SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

NOT THE WAY HE JUST GOES :D

"did i scare you? :(" IM GOING TO CRY YOURE SUCH A PUPPY

the more pathetic he gets, the more i love him. let it be known.

THE HUG THE HUG WE GOT THE HUG OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

MC'S VOICE ACTING 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 TOP TIER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM ABOUT TO SOB WITH HER AWWW WHAT THE HELL THGKWJSDKJ MY HEART

STARTS SOBBING CRYING THROWING UP

CALEB YOUUUUU 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

WE GOT A LIL APPLE PATPAT 😭😭😭 IM SOOO 😭😭😭 WHAT THE HELL I LOVE HIM 😭😭😭😭😭

SOBBING CRYING ON THE FLOOOORRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 WE HAVE A SECRET SPOT 😭😭😭 OMIGODDD 😭😭😭😭😭😭

oops ok image limit. PART 2 OF MY INCOHERENT YELLING IN THE REBLOGS <3

[evilneo]

Bruh I was looking at those answers and those reblogs hit me like a freight train HELLO???

Also hey uh, I’ve tried not to interact on too many posts bc I see you has a friend but I’m still struggling with system terms and all of that.

I didn’t “create” our system, Medic (our first member) started interacting out of the blue and it was pretty clear to us that it wasn’t imagination. While we don’t think we have any kind of trauma or at least not childhood trauma, one of our parents brought up a rather good point—we have other mental illnesses that very well could be presenting at this age; so while our origin is unknown, it’s certainly possibly that it could have come from a source related to delusions.

I am NOT, however, saying that makes a system any less valid. You’re all real and very much more than that! I’m only citing my own systems experience with grappling with our headspace. I hope I’m explaining this all right, I just woke up and I’m betting my phrasing is pretty awful ough.

Anyways I love u neo!!! Fuck the transabled shit I don’t know much about it but from what I can see from that reblog its like. Ppl fetishizing being disabled wtf? There’s a fine line between respecting ppl with disabilities and mental illnesses and trying to become disabled because you “think it’s cool”—👁👁

If you’d like me to clarify anything, please let me know. I’m aware I might have misrepresented ourselves and I hope that this makes sense—

I am. gonna need for a lot to be clarified here actually?

wdym a source related to delusions. system shit and delusion shit are very very different. system alters are in no way delusions and in fact the DID/OSDD community have worked VERY hard to separate the 2 things in singlets minds. im not a delusion.

childhood trauma is needed for systems, it might not be remembered and it might not be "typical" trauma* but it still needs to be there to be a system

*any type of trauma is trauma enough. abuse, medical trauma, growing up with untreated mental illnesses etc etc

we're just confused is all?

[tfw-no-tennis]

hhhhhhxh

more abt hxh bc my last post was too long n i had to split it off holla

so i left off talking abt when gon woke up....i love how polite gon is to pretty much everyone - hes such a good lad all the time. s/o to his aunt for raising him right (tho i think hes also just a rlly good boy inherently too)

also is he named gon bc ging was like ha ha im boutta be GONe lol seeya kid!!!! like ????

i find it interesting that kurapika and hisoka fought....we really havent seen them interact at all yet. also hisoka is so smirk-y i hate that bitch...what did he say to kurapika?????? 

this poor red shirt old guy lmao hisoka is SO clearly uninterested in fighting him and then he fucking dies. rip mdude

what did hisoka whisper to HIM??? guess we’ll never know #RIPLegend

oh mannnn if killua had just won against pokkle then he wouldnt have had to deal with illumi doing That to him :( my smug son......

leorio is such a good dude....also its so funny to me how tall and lanky leorio is, espec compared to the other 3 main characters lmaoooo

or maybe those 3 are just rlly short??? i mean gon and killua are literally 12, but whats kurapikas excuse

GODDDD I HATE THIS BIIIIITCH. FUCK OFFFFFFF tho the evil piano music slaps. but jeeeeesus illumi is so creepy and awful, and seeing him take off his disguise is not any better a second time...he and hisoka truly deserve each other wrow

does illumi have hair powers??? cause it kinda looks like it. or maybe hes just gay and dramatic 

ok but the sick electric guitar riff (?) that played when illumis face was revealed was lowkey kinda hilarious

man i was so wrong abt killua knowing that that was illumi :( poor kid

killua is immediately freaking out and meanwhile illumi looks bored as hell. dude ur the worst 

killua: [freaking out] illumi, completely blank-faced: hey 

I HATE HIMMMM even tho his catman design is regrettably kinda cute

why do illumi and hisoka both have such snatched waists i hate this

wtf so killua has another different brother??? i assumed he attacked illumi....how many fuckgin zoldyk sibling are there?????

leorio ur too normie for this conversation lmao. also wow fucked up family huh

killua looks so like...small and helpless, which is so at odds from what we’ve seen of him so far :( this poor kid

illumi totally has some weird brain powers man callin it now 

gon: wow killuas family sounds wack...  satotz: oh lmao you havent even heard the rest 

KILLUA ;_; 

this poor baby assassin :( :( :(

IMMM INCONSOLABLE. HE WANTS TO BE FRIENDS W/GON.......ARE YOU KIDDING....AUGHHHHHHHH

meanwhile gon decided he and killua are BEST FRIENDS like 10 mins after they met. GOD 

like in the recap ep he called killua his best friend ;_; and meanwhile killua doesnt even think they ARE friends god destroy me 

this calming classical music is throwing me off vbhjfjhbsdkgndks

i sense that leorio and kurapika are rapidly acquiring a new son

DAMN THIS IS SO FUUUUCKEDDDDD illumi is such a crusty bitch wow. leave killua alone asshole 

all that stuff abt killua like, only thinking he wants to befriend gon but really wanting to kill him....that sure sounds like some ‘worst fears’ type of shit for someone like killua....illumi is such a classic abuser wow

i have 2 know is satotz like, repeating this entire conversation verbatim in a calming monotone to gon rn. like....

LEORIOOOOO I LOVE UUUUUUUU AUGHHHH him telling killua it doesnt matter if illumi is his brother, fuck that guy, beat him up as usual and leave.....ooooughhhh leorio is such a good dude ;_; 

and the OF COURSE him saying the obvious - that gon and killua are ALREADY friends....i love this, i feel like leorio said all the exact things the audience is thinking...yet it still didnt get thru to killua bc hes so rattled by illumi appearing, and the abuse in general 

i think if gon were there things wouldve gone much differently 

of COURSE crusty bitch illumi is like oh ok now i have to kill gon.....biiiiitch i hate uuuuu 

also that just shows that hes lying to killua (which we already knew obvs), bc if it were inevitable that killua would kill gon to like, test himself or w/e, then why not just wait for that to happen? that would have a much bigger impact on killua than illumi killing gon....its obvious that illumi is just manipulating him, but killua is too BSOD to be able to tell (also, hes 12)

ok bitch illumi is preaching abt not needing friends but he and hisoka are definitely fucking and theyve been teamed up for the entire hunter exam it seems.....what a hypocrite. hate this guy

god im so glad we didnt rlly get to see whatever the fuck illumi did to that random hunter examiner guy’s face. jeeeeesus. also i cant tell but i wonder if him forcing that info out of the guy was the result of his freaky mind powers or if the guy was just like oof ouch pins in me face

LEORIO AND KURAPIKAAAA THE PROTECT GON SQUAD!! and joined by new member hanzo!!! who ironically beat gon up for 3 hours str8 like, a very short amount of time ago lmao. but still i love that sm

illumi u dumb bitch.....tho i dont buy for a minute that he didnt already realize that killing gon would disqualify him...he defs just wanted to get under killuas skin even more :^( 

KILLUAAAA ;_; when he goes to step back from illumi but illumi tells him not to....ughhh HATE this guy, leave this poor kid alone. no wonder he wanted to leave

illumi saying theres only 1 way that killua can stop him - does he mean by killing him, or something more specific, like some forbidden zoldyk murder technique? 

‘your beloved gon’ wow gay. theyre 12 and theyre dating ok. killua is literally that kid whos like wow i wonder if gon likes me...and meanwhile gon is like wow cant believe me and killua have been dating for 3 months now

leorio saying ‘we wont let him kill you or gon’ ;_; leorio ily sm...thats like the exact right thing to say - hes offering protection and reassurance as an adult figure...unfortunately killua is clearly too freaked out to even process anything outside of illumis gaslighting and abuse 

also illumi is defs doing something to killua w/his eyes via his freaky mind powers. js

illumi i hate you stop being weirdly cute. augh 

classic abuse tactics, being like ha ha nvm i wasnt gonna kill gon! jk!

killua just shutting down completely after that :( :( noooo

and then he kills that old guy and leaves, ‘proving’ that illumi is right....noooooOOOO

and now we boutta see gon go FULL shounen protag for the first time, oh FUCKKKKKK yesssss

this is the first time we’ve seen gon angry oooh man and of COURSE its on killuas behalf,....im so fuckign emo already looooord

god ok the episode preview where its gon saying ‘do leorio and i look alike?’ YES U DO LOL youre father and son so jot that down 

oof, gon and illumi have such fundamentally different POVs on like, family and life and morals, and you can tell by their 4-line exchange before gon does the ICONIC one-handed grab’n’fling

AUGHHHH gon saying hes gonna rescue killua....SO good...he recognizes that killuas family is wack as hell and killua shouldnt be w/them - the classic ingrained ‘found family is more important than blood family’ stuff

tho thats an interesting contrast to gon himself, whos looking for his deadbeat dad

‘but it wasnt his choice’ that so good ily gon BEST boy, hes so perceptive and good......he knows that killuas hand was forced and that he needs to be RESCUED (love that word choice) from his shitty abusive family

of course kurapika and leorio voiced complaints ;_; best parents 

kurapika should be a lawyer tbh 

leorioooo ;_; such a good dude, saying he should be disqualified instead 

HOW is leorio a stronger combatant than that old dude hvbajufjbsja that guy had some moves it seemed, and leorio has,....a knife? a briefcase? the classic premed attitude of ‘fuck it, i could die anytime, lets do this’? like.....cmon vhabjdfjbhsf i refuse to believe this man is of any use in a fight. ill believe it when i see it

pokkle pls ur not plot-important enough to be jumping into this convo rn

tho i am curious abt what hisoka said to kurapika. tho i agree that thats irrelevant to the discussion 

gon repeating satotz’s wisdom :’) and saying that killua will definitely pass if he takes the exam again...ough

gon is SO GOOD i cant get over it !!!!!!!!! AUGHHHH....recusing killua from his abusive family and making it so killua never has to see them again is like...so good. what a good good perfect boy.

also thats like, the perfect response to this. killing illumi would just start a ton of drama, and killua would be conflicted abt that....but removing killua from his situation is perfect 

ok ive ranted a lot ill talk abt the rest later woohoo

PREDICTIONS: 

i predict that hisoka will show up in this upcoming zoldyk arc somewhere bc illumis gonna be in it (i assume) and theyre dating. also hisoka is a central character so itd make sense for him to show up in the second major arc. tho tbh this could end up being completely false and i wouldnt be that shocked lmao

i think leorio is gonna get Big Sad someday bc hes like, so normal compared to the other MCs, and also hes suuuuch a bleeding heart (i love him....) so i feel like thats gonna lead to some sadness for him once his friends start doing crazy shit or w/e 

also i predict that if he gets nen itll be like healing nen or st. does that even exist??? idk jack shit abt nen lmao 

i think that illumi has hypnosis powers or something, even just based on design alone. it could defs be for aesthetic (character design in hxh is wild), but his eyes look noticeably different from any other characters. also he was doing some freaky shit to killua. also i held this prediction before seeing the part where this is brought up so we’ll see if its right lmao 

as for this upcoming arc -  ruth and i are wondering if itll be similar to the vinsmoke drama in one piece - character goes back to abusive family, squad goes to rescue them...and then character refuses to be recused. w/sanji it was partially bc the vinsmokes threatened to kill zeff, his TRUE dad, but i predict in this case it could be more like the zoldyks saying ‘look killua these 3 weirdos showed up looking for you, convince them to leave or we’ll kill them’ and killua will be like, oh shit bc like.....think abt it. the vinsmokes targeted zeff (and not the strawhats) bc they knew they could easily kill him. same goes here, i assume - a family of trained assassins vs Good Good Fishing Rod Smell-Power Boy (who hasnt thrown a single punch yet), Lanky Dr Man With A Switchblade We Havent Seen Him Use Onscreen, and Mx 2 Wooden Sticks, Bloodlust, and Arachnophobia - 3 For 1 Deal! its a no-contest. so thats one thing i could see happening, potentially 

im way too tired to remember my other predictions rip lmao

[caruliaa]

okay somehoww it is already midnight which is crazy cuz like 2 hours ago i thought that if i stayed up i wld at least do something and i fully just watched youtube the whole time ajsbdjxnxjzkzk but yeahhhhh now i am like suddenly itse midnight wtf so!!! i am going to sleep so sorry for not sending more asks but i did wanna say before go to bed that!!!! you are realy soooo amazing jules like you truly are an incredible lovely person and i feel so so so lucky and grateful to have met you and to know you and to be friends!! with you!!! like its so lovely and just like you bring smmm joy to my life as well as such warmth and just like comfort like i feel so safe and loved with you and ur friendship is j a wonderful experience and i hope i can bring the same to you bcuz i j rlly want to and bcuz you really deserve that and i hope u know also that i am always always here for yoh no matter what!! and that i love youuu smm (hugs you gnight if u wld like beloved💕💕🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻💕💕🫶🏻🫶🏻💕💕💕🫶🏻💕🫶🏻🫶🏻💕💕💕)

I GET THAT SO SO MUCH ACTUALLY LIKE ACTUALLY it is soo soo insanely easy for that to happen for me idk at what point in my life i stopped registering 40 min yt vids as "not that long" but it was MISTAKE istg !!! also pls pls dw at all abt not sending more asks belvoed its so so understandable and i hope you got lots of good rest last night despite the lateness of when you went to bed beloved !!! and ough omgg youre soso sweet my dearest you really really are i hope you know ;; like i hope you know im really soso grateful and lucky to have met you and become your friend too i hope you know like !! you really do bring soso very much joy and happiness and light into my life dearest whenever we talk and spend time together you really are such such a wonderful amazing incredible person to know and talk with and spend time with and just have as a friend and you really are so so sweeet and kind and thoughtful and considerate of me and ik that youre always here for me through everything and that really does just mean everything to me and make me feel soso loved and cared for and safe with you and i hope you know that im soso glad that i can like be the same to you and bring you the same joy and comfort and happiness w my friendship beloved because you really do deserve it soso much and i really do just want to because you really are just soso dear and special to my my love and i really do love you so so very much i really do :'> *hugs you back !! soso v much !!* 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗

[rouge-the-bat]

ruh roh i got big rambly too, ill use a read more to try sparing our followers 🙏

ough yeah, when i was going through gathering the names of everything, it was sooo annoying going from source to source to only find fragments of info, so i had to try to figure out some translations on my own- which im far from fluent in learning japanese, i barely have much of hiragana remembered, so i had to try to find accurate translations for individual words online, referencing multiple sites and crossing info with each other to figure out what would make most sense in the titles, and use what tiny bit i already knew to get everything.

yeah adhd has been kicking my ass for yeaaars. im hoping ill be getting a diagnosis within the next month once i get my testing results, then maybe i can finally get it wrangled and get back to creating stuff more 😓 and i actually only got into yyh a few years ago! i watched it i think in... 2020? or 2021? (i have no sense of time lol) bc my girlfriend recommended it to me- because she knew i would absolutely love hiei and kurama, especially hiei LMAO. she knows me too well. hiei is too much my type- as i said in my tags, hes literally just shadow. except way more of an asshole. and his sister is still alive JGKJDK. i actually have a whole post about how much theyre just The Same Damn Person, and i could probably still add plenty more to it. ill never get over duos that consist of edgy tsundere dorks and their pretty thieving partners that tease them endlessly <3 kurahi is just au shadouge to me LOL

so far the only yyh chars ive drawn have been hiei and kurama, surprise surprise lol. i havent done it too many times so far tho, but i have a million ideas in mind that i will get to EVENTUALLY. i have too many thoughts about them that i HAVE to get out someday.

ooo knitting!! ive never knitted before, but i got into crochet last year (i think?) and i love that. unfortunately my executive dysfunction is keeping me from getting back onto that tho OTL. designing patterns seems like itd be so cool tho :Oo id love to make some of my own patterns some day too!

yeah highkey i wanted to start ripping yyh frames just to admire hiei, get clean shots of kurama to make icons of, and for these yyh memes that i like making LOL. its also just very fun to look at how things were animated in the show and see the frames that are easy to miss. hiei is most defintely the absolute highlight for me though <3 once i get to ripping the frames for his episodes ill be taking so long just bc ill keep stopping to look at him LOL and yes HIS CLAWSSS i love his claws so much. also kurama is has such a natural grace to him, its always fun seeing his various movements!

i dont think tumblr would be very good for the way i want to format the transcript, would be very tedious and lacking if i tried. id probably just link to it on here, and try finding some sites meant for transcripts to put them on. id like to have it at the very least on 2 sites, in case one of the sites go down or some other issue happens. i just want it to be easily findable + readable! and im not familiar with making sites at all, but have been interested trying out neocities or somethin someday... so a potential option i suppose!

you can add credit to me for yu yu jukebox if you want to, but i dont mind either way! im just happy to see people enjoying my channel and mentioning it around :3 ALSO THE TRANSLATION....oh my god. its so nice to finally know wtf is going on with those chaotic dorks finally. hiei in particular adding so much chaos omg... fucking lil gremlin bastard. ranting and crashing shit in the background. AND HIS LAUGHS BRING ME SO MUCH JOY HES SO FUCKING CUTE.... AND HIS LIL NYA.... his voice makes me melt regardless of if its his sub or dub voice 😍

i also am losing my mind at him destroying a computer. another similarity he has with shadow LMAO theres a point in shadows game where other characters are trying to hack into a computer, and ask shadow for help, and shadows like hack? im good at hacking things [fucking chops it and destroys it] HCKZJJF but this bastard. i cant believe hiei put bread in his computer to toast it, and said its his so he can do what he wants with it. hes such a dumbass <3 and hiei challenging people on vocabulary... boy do you really think youre in a position to do that LOL kuramas the only one with a braincell in the group fr. tho i almost wonder if hiei was misinterpretting words or was fucking with everyone and confusing the hell out of them just bc he wants to be a bastard and fuck up the recordings LMAO. if its like that then itd look like he does have some sort of affinity for puns, which matches a headcanon of mine, but i moreso saw him as enjoying kuramas puns (but acting like he doesnt) than playing into them himself lol. love kurama piping in to ruin hieis challenge while also showing off his brains <3 SO him. also love that kurama is the main one trying to keep everyone on track. he knows immediately that this is going to be a disaster and is like ALRIGHT lets try to wrap this up as quickly as possible 😅

also yeah hiei and kurama are def BOTH to blame for my yyh hyperfixation, they are exactly the kind of characters and dynamic i fucking adore. they VERY quickly made it into my top favorite characters of all time along with shadow and rouge. im a huge kurama and rouge kinnie and am in love with hiei and shadow so im in DEEP with these bitches lmao

also a side note, idk if u had seen it already but i have a large ongoing yyh playlist linked on my pinned! i add more songs to it randomly whenever i find some that fit the yyh chars. tho tbh Most of the playlist is for kurahi, or individual kurama or hiei songs lmao. idk if fan playlists are ur kinda thing or not, but i always gotta plug it as much as i can bc [toots my horn] i think i have some very choice selections on there 😌 n i hope i can find people that enjoy it too hehe

What a small 'net! I saw a reblog of your normalize post, & your avatar caught my eye. So I figured I'd peek at your blog in case you had more shiny stuff to see, & noticed you encourage folks tag you in Kurama & Hiei stuff. I pinned in the back of my head that, after checking out your stuff, I should ask if you want a link to skit translations from the Dance Mix CD—then saw YOU'RE the one who made the beautifully-organized Yu Yu Jukebox! That helped me figure out what CDs I wanted to buy! :D <3

yoo hell yeah!! im glad that helped you out!! its always nice to see the things i make can be useful :3 and nice that my kurama icon is catching the eye of fellow yyh fans hehe!

yu yu hakusho is a huuuge hyperfixation of mine, but my adhd has been making me struggle with focusing on doing the creative stuff i wanna do (like drawing and writing), so ive been instead doing a shit ton of other things revolving around yyh- like collecting the music and making the yu yu jukebox channel, ripping frames to post and organize them on my sideblog @reikai-records , and ive also been working on making a dialogue transcript for the dub (still unsure where to put it online when im done with that tho, atm i just have it on google docs, not too far on it)!

i cant remember if ive encountered translations for the skits of the dance mix cd though, id def love to see that!

[protect-klangst]

Soooo basically this is my reaction voltron season 3 which I finished watching in the middle of the night honestly I was yelling most of the time you have no idea how excited I was the fuck but I got a tiny bit collected by the end of episode 2 so I started recording my reaction at the beginning of episode 3 aaand yeaahh

 Episode 3 

“KEITH WHAT THE FUCK"  *laughing* "UHDHDHJS LOTOR AAAAAA” “bITCH LISTEN TO PIDGE” “OH SHIT THAT LAUGH” “BITCH SAME” “YES BLOW HIM UP LOTOR” shit i love her. “Keith. No.” “YES LANCE IS RIGHT YOU’RE RIGHT BABY” “keith.” “KEITH. HONEY. NO” “SHIT ALLURA NOOOOO SAVE HER” “LOTOR YOU ASS” “NOOO ALLURA BABY” FUCK ITS A KLANGST MOMENT THIS IS WHY MY USERNAME IS PROTECT KLANGST I WANT TO PROTECT KLANGST FUCKFUCKFUCKUFCU KLANGST “KEITH NOOOO” “LANCE NO DON’T SAY THAT" “but bitch u right” “AW HUNK” "YOU’RE DOING GREAT SWEETIES” “ALLura ohmygod I want to pROTECT HER” “OHMYGOD ALLURA THAT WAS SPOT ON” “Good god why does lotor’s face look hecka punchable” “THIS. BITCH.” “Yes ALLURA YOU’RE DOING GREAT SWEETIE” “YAAAAAAHS” “YEAAAH THINK LIKE LANCE” “Look I’m glad we’re all making fun of lance” GUYS NOOOO LEADER!KEITH I’ m weA K THEY FUCKING FORMED VOLTRON I’M GONNA KMS FUCK TWHATX THE FHDITSH HUNK IM A LEG OMFGSKDHS ALLURA IS SO PRECIOUS??? Guys. GUYS. IM WE AK YES KEITH. FINALLY.  TEAM LEADER. TEAAAM LEADER. TEAM LEADER BITCH Episode 4 I LOVE THIS AGGRESSIVE FEMALE GALRA SHE IS SO RELATABLE LIKE EVERYTIME SHE TALKS I’M LIKE DUDE SAME Keith is sitting on shiro’s seat I am not okay this is not okay I’m not crying you’re crying keith yes <3 hunk same SHIT ITS THE FUCKING TRAILER I'MDHSKSH ITS THE WHOLE FUCKING VOLTRON BEING SUCKED INTO THE WORMHOLE FFS THE DAMN SKELETON THE FUCK I ACTUALLY YELLED WAIT IS THAT  IS THAT SLAV WAIT IS THAT SHIRO “BITCH WHAT THE FUCK” “WHAT THE ATUAL FUCK” “BITCH WHAT” “WHAT” “WHAT THE” ITS FUCKIN SLAV BITCH WHAT IS GO IN G ON THATS NOT HIS FUCKIN VOICE IM “AHAHAHAHAHA ALTERNATE REALITY FUCKING HELL” SVEN. WHY. THE RAIN DEER. FROM FROZEN “The heck just happened” LMFAO SAME ALTEANS AAAAAHHHHHH HUNK SAME  I LOVE THIS FEMALE GALRA THE FUCK  I love Ezor ;-; “Bitch this is blowing my mind” “Allura you’re doing gr8 sweetie” I CANT TAKE SVEN SERIOUSLY I’M CHOKING THEIR DAMN ACCENTS GOSH I’M SO FUCKING CONFUSED BUT O KAAAY called it pftt these fake bitches “Keith. Yes.” “Allura. No.” “WAIT NO DON’T” Aw coran I’M ITS THE DAMN TRAILER AGAIN FUCKKKCJX KEITH’S VOICE WOOOOOO SLAV LMFAO “YES KEITH” “YES TEAM” “YES ALLURA” AAAAHHHHH LANCE WITH THE RED BAYARD I’M WEAK “SHIT NO SVEN” “SVEN NOOO WHAT” NOO ITS LIKE SEEING SHIRO DYING I’M NOT OKAY bless slav really. ffs let them rest. Episode 5 “SHIRO” “SHIRO SHIFOSGIRO ITS THE DAMN TRAILER” “AAAHHH WAIT WHAT THE FUCK HIS HAIR” ULAZ “NOOO PROTECT HIM” “WHAT THE FU K IS GOINGO N” I’VE SEEN THIS EVERYWHERE BUT WHAT THE ACTUAL HELL IS GLIN GON “WHAT” “WHERE THE FUCK IS HE” WAS THAT NOT A FUCKING FLASHBACK WHAT wtf idk what’s going on and idk who this dude is bUT *SMASHES PROTECT BUTTON* Lmfao DIDNT SEE THAT COMING ITS THEM WHAT OH OHHHHHHHH THATS FUCKIN SHIRO WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED HOW DID HE GROW THAT MUCH HAIR “wait what the fuck” “SHIRO AAAAAHHHHH” oh shit lotor’s hot ???? I AM SHOOK WOOOOO SHIRO YES YES SHIRO DAD This bitch was caught by a galra and escaped twice how is he still alive THE PERSON FROM THE TRAILER WAS SHIRO OOOOHHHH SHIRO YES WAIT NOOO HE WAS SO CLOSE NOO NOOOOO SHIRO OHMYGOD THAT WAS SO FUCKING CLOSE I’M SO MAD THAT WAS SO FRUSTRATING okieee lotor has daddy issues I SWEAR IF SHIRO DIES I WILL FUCKING DIE WITH HIM “BITCH” HIS FLASHBACKS I HAVE TEARS IN MY EYES THE FLASHBACKS SHIT IM SO FUCKING SAD OHMYGOD THE LION “AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH” “KEITH YES” “AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH” “WHAT THE FUCK” BITCH HIS SMILE HIS SMILE SOFT BABY KEITH SMILES I’M NOT OKAY I DID NOT EXPECT S3E5 TO TURN OUT LIEK THAT BUT FUCK THAT WAS REALLY SKETCHY THO WHAT

Episode 6 “YES LANCE” “YES BABY WOOO" AW OMG HEY KEITH I HAD THAT GUY I STILL CAN’T WITH LANCE + RED BAYARD AAAAAHHHHH “YES ALLURA YOU’RE DOING GR9 SWEETIE” “YES PIDGE” “ok buT WHERE IS SHIRO” “OH THERE YOU FUCKING ARE" where the fuck is their reunion scene the fuck “LANCE CONTROL YOUR GAY HUN” Hunk and Pidge’s friendship is SO UNDERRATED YOU GUYS I LOVE THEM “DID LANCE JUST ” HEY MAN PART TWO BITCH HEY MAN H E Y M A N THIS IS SO WEIRD TO WATCH ITS LIKE STRAIGHT OUT OF FANFICS I’M WDHAOSJS FUCK FUCKF UFKCU KFUCK UK “I mean you’re the leader now right?” FUCK i’VE SEEN THIS FANART SOMEWHERE IM DYIFNSSG it’s like ePISODE ONE ALL OVER AGAIN I DONT KNOW ANYMORE BONDING MOMENT FUCKING HELL THEY’RE SO SOFT I’M FUCKCJFUCKCUK BUT FUCK THIS SOME LANGST SHIT I CAN’T NO LANCE BABY I’M SO SAD LEAVE THE MATH TO PIDGE KEITH. WHY. KEITH. LANCE’S SMILE YO HSOSHSDK HUNK OFHSJDHSK OH MAN KEITH’S USED TO BEING A LEADER NOW I’M SO DONE I’M SO FUCKING DONE “alright what’s going on” same. EZOR AAAAHHHHH I LOVE LANCE X RED BAYARD KEITH X BLACK BAYARD I CANNOT COPE AUXIA OHMYLOORDDD SAME CORAN WHAT IS GOING ON “KEITH YES” “WAIT KEITH NO” “KEITH. NO. THE FUCK.” “Keith yes <3" He’s so soft WOOOO I’M GAY FOR Y'ALL FEMALE GALRAS “NO WTF” OHMYLORD THE FLASHBACK THE WEBLUM LADY OSHDKSHSKS IT’S CANON I GOTCHU BUDDY YES LANCE KLANCE HNNNGGGGHSH “PIDGE NOOOO” “HUNK NOOOOO” “SAVE THEM” “ALLURA NOOOOO” “LANCE YES YES BUDDY YOU’RE DOING GREAT SWEETIE” “nvm" oookie guess i’ll just die “NOOOOOO” “DON’T DIE THE FUCK” “WAIT WHAT” “OHMYGOD YES” something strange is going on here BITCH U RIGHT YOU’RE THE STRANGE ONE RN WYD keith :(((((  Episode 7 “what the actual fuck” “WHAT” EXCUSE ME THE FORMER RED AND BLUE PALADINS WERE LIKE HECKA CLOSE I’M SORRY I HAVE TO MENTION THIS ALFOR WHYSJSGSJGSJ ZARKON YOU WERE A GREAT HERO WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS NOW I AM DISAPPOINTED UM THE FORMER BLUE PALADIN WAS SO GAY AAAAAHHHH HAPPY DAYS nope nvm ZaRKON IS SO SHOOK OHMYGOD ISNT THAT THE CAT WITH THE BLIND FEMALE GALRA ZARKON IS BEING ALL FLUSTERED THIS IS HILARIOUS ALFOR KNOWS LMFAO what is going oN V O L T R O N THAT BLUE PALADIN IS SO LANCE WHAT THE HELL this is so weird to watch tbh “what the hell even is that thing” C OUGH red and blueCO U G HH 

I’M GETTING CHILLS ALL OVER WHAT IS THIS they boutta die ALFOR YES oh shit zARKON YOU ASS is … she… THE FUCKING WITCH SHIT SHIT SHIT FUCK “WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK” I SWEAR BRUHHH YOU HAVE BEEN FOOLED “OHMYFUCK” OH M YDCYK OMDKLSBDKS I CAN’T BELIEVE THIS OH MY FYCK IN G I AM FUCKING SPEECHLESS

[auspex]

was tagged by @devil-of-dagoth to post four albums i listen to a lot! I am kind of picky and listen to a few songs from multiple albums but i tried...

kilo kish - AMERICAN GURL: More ppl need to listen to her so bad... just go to her most popular songs on spotify and listen please... NICE OUT is so good tho not on this album.. INTELLIGENT DESIGN is so good... ough

Vampire the Masquerade: Shadows of New York: yeah i have brainrot. but the instrumentals here are so good for atmosphere and chill time <3 <3 <3 Julia's Theme makes me insane

The National: Alligator: The national's older stuff is much better. even if they are fuckin libs. i like their poeticism and older sound a lot. give Mr. November, Baby We'll Be Fine, and Secret Meeting a listen.

The Very Best of Daryl Hall and John Oates: I have 80s brainrot, cause my ST made the first 'season' of my vtm game have characters based around 80s songs. and now its stuck rent free in my head forever. also Out of Touch is literally so good wtf... Private Eyes... I Can't Go For that... OUGH

ok uhh @styxnbones i tag u Challenge: only at most 2 mcr albums. @indigobasilisk im curious as 2 ur music taste

@vtmgremlin why not and uhh @tzimizce

but ya if yall want i found this fun and distracting