#WOW that got long whoops

[jjtheresidentbaby]

i’m so glad other people see nick as a cg + regressor i thought i was the only one

flip nick is so very real to me! and I’m using this ask as an excuse to make a headcanon post lol

Flip Nick Nelson headcanons

tagging: @beachreg

warnings: talk of canon events, mental health issues etc

When Caring:

mainly takes care of Imogen, it was a routine they already had before Nick got with Charlie as they were in the same friend group and even back then Nick was one of the nicer of the bunch

Nick doesn’t talk about his caring side until Imogen is comfortable enough to tell the rest of the group that she regressss

on a few odd occasions Nick watches over Tao when Nick first joins the group and while Tao claims he doesn’t like it at first, he’s totally lying

Nick forms such a soft spot for Tao & the other littles in the group

he likes to talk to Tara about caregiver problems™️ and she’s always there with advice or to just listen for a bit

he’s such a sweet caregiver, always willing to research whatever his little is involved in or struggling with

he puts his all into caring and takes such pride in watching over others

always has snacks, fidget toys, journals, games, books and anything else a little could need on hand

keeps a spare first aid kit in his locker just in case (Tao is very clumsy & Elle isn’t there at school so nicks had to step in at times)

When Little:

Charlie & Elle are his main caregivers but occasionally Tara will watch over him

not super clingy when he’s regressed but he does enjoy getting his hair played with & holding hands

lovesssss to draw & color when small

he’s mesmerized by basically everything Charlie or Elle do, he swears they’re magic or something

massive sweet tooth while small - but he loves fresh vegetables too

he’s more secretive/shy about his little side

he can get very anxious while small and gets into his own head a lot

he has a set journal for when he’s small so he can try and ground himself by writing things out (even if it’s not all spelled correctly)

he’s been trying to befriend Tori since day one of being regressed at the spring household, it’s a slow battle but Tori’s definitely losing

he’ll slip pictures he drew under her door and run off with Charlie to watch from behind the corner as she opens the door and looks around

such an outdoorsy kid & finds any reason to be running around his backyard or taking a trip to the park

him & Tao will film “movies” while they’re both small and they force the whole friend group into preforming parts

somehow worse at drums while small and atrocious on the clarinet per trying Tara’s

of course loves rugby while small but he also likes to have Darcy play volleyball with him like on the beach

superhero movies/books are a must while he’s small!

as much as Charlie complains about it, he indulges Nick and watches the marvel movies with Nick

he somehow gets Darcy & Imogen into them too and they all start to play superhero’s together

him & Imogen don’t regress together a lot as Nick likes to keep his little side & caregiving side pretty separate but when they do it absolutely Chaos with a capital C

can either be super well behaved or pretty mischievous

he offers to egg Ben or Harry’s house at least once a week while small

[yuesya]

In an AU where instead of Geto, it's Shiki who fall to the dark side;

How well would her friends and family take the news?

How scared are the Jujutsu HQ when the girl who can kill anything is now their enemy?

What would be her end goal? Classic stuff like kill all non-sorcerers? Or something else entirely?

Hmm villain!Shiki AU...

The easiest way I can see this happening would be if Shiki doesn't have any close friends or connections keeping her on the 'straight road,' so to speak.

In a world that's less kind, Shiki never meets Nanami Kento. Her parents sell her to the Kamo Clan after she wakes up from a coma with cursed eyes, and so one of the first lessons that Shiki learns in her childhood is abandonment.

The representative who arrives from the Kamo Clan to take her away is Araya Souren.

Shiki grows up with this man who is her teacher and father and jailer all in one. He tries to kill her, and fails. The second lesson that she learns is betrayal.

Once, Araya had spoken to her cryptically of his goals before.

To the end and the beginning, to life and to death. To the truth hidden within the core of this broken world… and the way to finally break free of this endless cycle of madness and suffering.

To him, the world is full of suffering and misery. He wants to 'break the cycle,' whatever that means, and apparently Shiki's abilities are the key to it.

Shiki doesn't care about any of that. Araya wanted to break the cycle? Well, then she'll just be part of it.

(Countless red lines beckon her, an allure that Shiki has no desire nor inclination to resist.

Destroy, destroy, destroy.

... It's not such a bad way to pass the time until her eventual death.)

'Shiki' probably becomes known as a fickle-natured globe-trotting curse user who spontaneously goes on murder sprees for seemingly no reason at all in this AU.

To (finally) address Anon's questions:

1: Shiki's family and friends from zenith of stars aren't emotionally invested in this version of Shiki.

However, Nanami probably experiences some sense of guilt and responsibility, when later investigations reveal that this is his niece. Even if he wasn't on good terms with his sister and brother-in-law, what happened to Shiki was... horrifying.

Shiki's parents are alive. They ended up using the money they got from selling Shiki to live a comfortable life, although their later years are spent in terror when they learn what their daughter has become. Their greatest fear is Shiki coming to kill them someday.

2: Jujutsu HQ probably starts losing their minds when they get reports of a curse user whose cursed technique appears to be killing, of all things. They do their best to monitor her and estimate her travel patterns, and prevent her from crossing paths with Gojo Satoru.

If she and Gojo Satoru end up fighting... the end results would be catastrophic. They need to avoid that at all costs.

If she and Gojo Satoru end up getting along with each other... their combined strength would be enough to make the entire world kneel. They need to avoid that at all costs.

3: As stated earlier, Shiki doesn't have a particular goal in mind, aside from 'preserving' the cycle that Araya so abhorred and desired to destroy. She wanders the world sowing chaos to her whims, secretly hoping to find something that won't be fragile and ephemeral -as the red lines in her eyes indicate everything to be.

[foxgirlknot]

kinktober 2024 day 30: somnophilia // waxplay (ptilopsis/glaucus) (ao3)

"Main electrode array -- functional. Secondary electrode array -- functional. Neurological array -- functional. Delta wave detection array -- functional. Vital monitor -- functional. Ready to proceed. Does Operator Glaucus require assistance onto the experiment area?"

"Hm? On the bed? No, I can do it."

Glaucus pushed herself up from the wheelchair, legs unsteady beneath her, but thankfully still strong enough to transfer her to the neatly made hospital bed, stretched out in front of her as she settles herself against the hard pillow.

"I will now pose a series of questions regarding the experiment protocol. Please answer honestly. This will not affect your compensation or the duration of the experiment in any way. Do you understand?"

Glaucus nodded.

"Please answer verbally."

"Oh. Um, Yes. I understand."

"Excellent. Do you confirm that you are Rhodes Island Operator Glaucus, born July 27th, PRTS user R128?"

"Yes."

"Do you confirm that your participation today is voluntary, and you are not being made to participate against your will in any way?"

"I - yes, I do?"

"Do you confirm that you understand that your vital signs, brain activity, and other protected medical information will be collected during this experiment, and will not be shared to anyone apart from me?"

"Yes."

Ptilopsis swiped at her terminal. "This experiment will require you to undergo various stimuli while unconscious. I will now read you the list of stimuli. I will require you to consent to any number of them. Do you understand?"

"Um, yes."

"Do you consent to music being played with the intent to alter your subconscious?"

"Yes."

"Do you consent to non-musical noises that may or may not wake you?"

"Yes."

"Do you consent to being touched while unconcious?"

"... Yes."

"Do you consent to being stimulated with the intent of sexual arousal while unconcious?"

"... What?"

Ptilopsis cocked her head to the side. "You are permitted to answer in the negative. The rest of the experiment will proceed normally."

"... Did anyone else say yes to that part?"

"I am not at liberty to discuss the other participants of this experiment. Do you consent to being stimulated with the intent --"

"Of sexual arousal, I heard you the first time." Glaucus picked at the blanket underneath her. On the one hand, that was... a lot to take in. And everything she had ever been told about sex was screaming at her to say no, do the rest of the test, and get the hell out of this room as fast as possible.

On the other hand, the whole idea seemed oddly compelling.

"Sure, why not. I consent."

"Excellent. Drink this, please. It will aid you in falling asleep."

Ptilopsis handed her a small cup of dark brown liquid, and Glaucus tossed it back without daring to second guess herself.

[plaidbooks]

Deadline Stress

A/N: Hello! This is a Baldwin x writer!reader that @witches-unruly-heart requested! This also covers the Home for the Holidays square in @storiesofsvu bingo! I hope you all enjoy!

Note: Reader is a human and does not yet know Baldwin is a vampire (this may be explored if I do a second part).

Tags: none

Fandom: A Discovery of Witches

"Ugggghhh!" you yelled, throwing your hands up and leaning back in your chair dramatically.

Baldwin watched you in silence, eyes narrowing as he sensed your blood pressure rising.

But you were already leaning forward again, typing away incessantly. It wasn't until you angrily pushed your laptop away that he finally came over to you.

"Why don't you take a break, darling?" he asked gently.

You didn't even look at him, just snatched your laptop again, sliding it back over to yourself. "I don't have time. Deadlines."

Baldwin held in his sigh. "You're off work until the new year. You finally have time to be home and relaxing. But instead you're pissing yourself off with work."

You whipped around to glare at him and hated that he didn't even flinch. "I have exactly ten days off--ten days in which to get this writing done without my other job draining me!" You huffed, "now, if you're only going to distract me, you can go sit in the other room."

He stood there as you continued typing, then backspacing the last line you wrote, then letting out a frustrated curse.

"You're in my space," you grunted, looking for any reason your muse had disappeared.

But instead of being upset, Baldwin just leaned over your shoulder and closed your laptop.

"My work!" you yelled, reaching to open it back up, but he held the laptop out of your reach.

"You had autosave on, darling; it's all there still," he said calmly.

You were so mad, you could punch him. "Give. It. Back."

"Only after you go with me on a walk."

"Argh!" you screamed, standing from your chair and pacing angrily. "I don't have time for this, Baldwin!"

He was so damn calm, and it did nothing to stop the anger flowing in your veins. But deep down, you knew you weren't angry at him; it was this damned paper you were trying to write.

"You have 20 minutes to go for a walk with me," he replied before adding, "trust me; the fresh air will do you some good."

You threw your arms in the air, rolling your eyes. "Fine! I'll go for a stupid walk with you. Let me go get a jacket since it's cold as balls outside."

~~~~~~~~~~

Baldwin's gloved hand was in yours, arms swinging gently as you walked through the park. At first, you held onto your anger like an extra coat, letting it protect you from the reality outside.

But as you walked with him, you slowly became less angry. You took in a few deep breaths, letting the crisp, fresh air punch your lungs almost painfully.

You took in the yellow and orange leaves still littering the ground; they'd be covered in snow soon enough. A bright cardinal landed in a bare tree and chirped happily. Families walked around, happy to be together and home for the holidays.

And finally, you smiled, happy to have Baldwin in your life, holding your hand and being so patient with you and your budding writing career.

Your main job was only a way to pay the bills, but it wasn't where your passions lay. Your real dream was to be a writer; you just didn't have the time nor the energy to devote yourself to it.

And Baldwin understood that. It's what first drew you to him; he was a breath of fresh air in your monotonous life. At first, it was just a one night stand. But that first taste of him made you starving, and only he could sate your hunger.

Likewise, it seemed he couldn't stay away from you, either. You went from a one night stand to fuck buddies to eventually dating. Now? You lived together, though he worked almost all hours of the day and you were busy, too.

This holiday vacation, while time for you to hit some upcoming deadlines, was supposed to be a chance to spend time with Baldwin again. Though he was still working through the holidays, most of his work could be done via email, so he was at least home.

"You're thinking awfully loud," Baldwin said, breaking you from your thoughts. "What's going on in that head of yours?"

You smiled shyly up at him. "I'm just thinking about how I haven't been present with you during this little holiday. And that I'm sorry for that; I've been putting writing ahead of you."

"Writing is your passion, darling, I know that." You opened your mouth to argue, but he continued, "I'm not upset that you're using your time to write. But I get upset when you are, especially when you're just running yourself into a wall and I can't help."

"This walk helped," you tried, squeezing his hand.

He squeezed you back. "It's the only way I know how to help you. Sometimes, it's a good thing to take a break, help your brain relax. But you need to let me do that."

You nodded. "You're right. I'm sorry I snapped at you."

Baldwin stopped you with a gentle tug of his hand. He turned you to face him before leaning in to kiss you. His lips and nose were cold against yours, but you didn't care; something about Baldwin's sweet kisses made your brain short circuit.

When he finally pulled away from you, you had a dopey smile on your face.

"Apology accepted. Now, let's get you home and warm. You can bounce ideas off me," he said, pulling you back the way you'd come, back towards home.

[asimplearchivist]

do you ever think about the fact that Grovyle was possibly and most likely in denial about the fact that he had already permanently lost the hero?

(putting the rest under a read more because I snowballed)

because even though in the future he tells Dusknoir that his partner is still in the past out there somewhere and that they would still go after the time gears and even though it’s most definitely a bluff (that gets immediately debunked by Dusknoir revealing that the hero was right there the whole time) he still had to realize that he hadn’t come across any traces of the hero.

right?

because he wouldn’t have had any idea that amnesia would have come into play after they got separated and he would’ve been looking for and waiting to bump into the hero while traveling to gather each time gear and I can only imagine him hoping that he’d find the place already frozen and empty to indicate that the hero had at least already passed through and been there already even if he hadn’t seen them and couldn’t find them but did he realize that by the time he got to Crystal Cave’s time gear that the hero had just disappeared seemingly off the face of the earth and did he start to lose hope that he’d ever see them again and was he simply refusing to believe the possibility that he might have lost them without ever knowing where they went or what happened to them?

and then he gets his ass beat by this random Exploration Team and then Dusknoir who he’d thought he’d managed to avoid so far shows up and then he gets captured and then he almost gets killed multiple times and then he has to help this random ass team out of the future back to their time and not really thinking about it too deeply because he’s got more important things on his mind because he’s got to get back to the past and get the time gears and prevent the planet’s paralysis

and he’s so distracted and caught up in his mission like it’s the only thing he has left holding him together to the point that he’s competent oblivious to Celebi and then everything goes even more to shit and they’re cornered and blocked off from the Passage of Time and Primal Dialga shows up and Grovyle’s faltering wavering resolve finally cracks and shatters and his last potentially dying hope is that his partner is still out there somewhere because that’s all he has left to hold on to and he boasts on their behalf believing with his whole heart that they couldn’t fail

and then all of a sudden Dusknoir of all Pokemon pipes up and elects to inform him at that exact inoppurtune moment that Grovyle’s long lost partner had been right there under his nose the entire time and that Dusknoir had turned them against him and that Grovyle had grievously wounded them completely ignorant to the fact that they no longer knew him no longer recognized him and now has a partner whom their Dimensional Scream works so much better with

and then all of a sudden he has hope again but it’s so small and fragile because how in the hell are you all supposed to get out of this and your new partner comes up with a plan even Grovyle couldn’t in the heat and intensity of the moment after he’s so drained from running and running and running all by himself being accused of being a criminal being chased and hunted and attacked because he’s running out of time

and then by some miracle you three make it back in one piece and then you’re there you’re alive but you’ve lost everything you once had all your knowledge and memories and willpower to accomplish your suicide mission and even though it hurts indescribably to realize that things will most likely never be the same never be like it used to be and never again would you even look at or speak to him the same way he still has you

and now he’s determined never to let you go again you’ll have him until the life is pried from his body and he’s just so so so relieved that he can hardly stand it because now he can afford to admit to himself that he had been terrified that he’d lost you and had already started to grieve you before your time but then he has to leave you with your new better trusted partner to make sure Dusknoir couldn’t stop your plans

and even though he’s telling you “though the parting hurts” meaning you’ll have to make the decision to sacrifice yourself for the greater good at the expense of leaving your new partner all alone he also means “this wasn’t how this was supposed to go I was supposed to be there with you I didn’t want to be alone I never ever thought I’d lose you so but we’ll lose so much more if I don’t do this if we don’t do this and I’m sorry that it all had to end like this”

and then he goes through everything else fighting until his last breath trying to help you as much as he can even though he’s deceived and almost dies the closest he’s ever been and he cannot fathom the stakes at which everything rides in the balance but then the winds start to blow and the ice starts to drip and the sun starts to rise and he’s done it you’ve done it everything isn’t lost and at the very least he’s not alone while he fades into nothingness

but as he’s brought inexplicably back from the brink by ‘a higher power’ and his first thought is that same hope flooding back that he’d get to see you again that you’re still alive that you’ve both survived despite the improbable odds set against you and the hope you summon in him is so palpable you inspire it in every single person around you and you hold so much power without even realizing it and how could he ever forget you when you mean so much to him?

do you ever think about that? no? because I do. every waking second of every damn day this wood gecko haunts my thoughts.

[touchlikethesun]

lan zhan and wei ying had kissed before wei ying died?!?!?!?!?!? and wei ying doesn’t even know?!?!?!?!? like?!?!?!?!? omg?!?!?!?!?!?

[lovethistoomuch]

10 characters 10 fandoms

I was tagged by @birdkeeperklink thank you so much! I really had to think on these since, as per my url you can guess there are a lot. (sorry for the late reply. I got no excuse, really, except life continued to happen around me and deciding who to pick was really hard.)

in no particular order (though Loki is Number 1, I'm sorry everyone else), here we go:

1. Loki Odinson from MARVEL

I just love him so much I've written a 78K fix-it fantasy novel (not finished) to give him the happy ending he deserves. there is no other character I identify with harder than this one: a younger sibling full of rage, always feeling overshadowed by the older one, just wanting to prove their own worth and show the world that they are capable (i got over this a lot in recent years but my love for him still remains.)

Tom just plays him so perfectly and I am so heartbroken that the writers at MARVEL did not know what to do with him, so they killed him off (the Loki show doesn't count because that's not him okay.) he's always having a good time, he's snarky and clever and desperately needs a hug. how can you not love him?

2. Mr. Spock and Leonard (Bones) McCoy from Star Trek TOS

Yes, they are two people but I just couldn't choose between them!

The grumpy surgeon with a heart of gold an the emotionally suppressed but deeply loving vulcan live in my heart rent free ever since I was a child. Spock was my first crush ever and his complicated relationship with McCoy has always fascinated me. they are two incredibly complicated people and there isn't enough space here to describe why. writing them is just as much fun as watching them and I actually own the autographs of both Leonard and De.

3. James Wilson from House M.D.

he's a man of many contradictions: he is kind but also House's best friend, he loves people dearly but can also tell them to fuck off. he is confident and funny and he helps people without being a pushover. he loves all of his his wives but cheats at least once. he is a walking mystery which makes him a great friend for House and a nightmare to write. I just love him! also, that smile!

4. Castiel from Supernatural

Cas is the character, truly! he can go from nerdy to badass in the blink of an eye. a cosmic being that plays dress up just to make one human smile, who should be nothing but an ant to him. he fiercely protects the people he loves and always tries to do the right thing. the character that inserted himself into the story against the writer's will and changed the narrative for ever. when he came on the show, I hated his guts. and look at me now...

5. Zuko from Avatar the last Aribender

you simply cannot talk about redemption arcs without mentioning Zuko at some point. an exceptional character amongst a cast of exceptional characters. I once joked that 90% of his lines were just him screaming but that poor boy has so much rage inside him, and with all that trauma, can you really blame him? he is the epitome of character growth and a fascinating example of how the villain can become a hero without taking any shortcuts.

6. Stephen Maturin from the Aubrey-Maturin series

if you read the books, you'll know why. this fucking lunatic is so oblivious to his own eccentricities that you just have to love him. nobody does it quite like him to be honest. no, Stephen, people will not think you're eccentric because you practice sword fighting on deck, however they might think that because you let loose 1000 bees on the ship and run around naked. he has no sense for proper etiquette and i love him so much for it. also, he get's on a ship without being able to swim and performs open brain surgery on deck. he is incredibly skilled and the best damn doctor in the entire fleet. also, his dynamic with his best friend/captain is one of the best friendships I've ever seen/read.

7. Scrooge McDuck

this might be an unusual choice but i grew up reading comics and at one point in my life i figured out that all of my favourite stories were writen and drawn by the legendary Don Rosa, who in his book "the life and times of Scrooge McDuck" created one of the most fascinating and fun to watch characters i've ever seen. starting from humble beginnings and rising to the top through his percevierence, fearlessness and ingenuity, inevitably losing everything he loved and ending up alone, only to be found by his family again, his story is one of my absolute favourites in literature. i know that due the never ending nature of comic books, he can never truly get his happy ending but I really wished he could.

8. Keeley Jones from Ted Lasso

I don't think I've ever seen a woman like her in any media to be honest. she is so clearly feminine and embodies all the traits of a woman that would normally be depicted as bitchy, toxic and self obsessed but she is just none of those things. she is a girly woman who loves pink and cries and she is just so human and lovely and i love her so much for it! her friendship with Rebecca is also so amazing and feels very real and true to what friendships between woman are actually like. I just love her as a beacon of healthy femininity and can only hope that there will be more characters like her in the future!

9. Kim Kitsuragi from Disco Elysium

the voice, the looks, the everything! the moment I met him I knew I wanted him to be my best friend for ever! his deadpan delivery combined with his dorkyness and his shere competence had me on the floor on multiple occasions. I have not finished the game yet but I have never had a companion this incredible in any video game ever! I could listen to him read the phone book for hours. when he went "daba doop doop dead" I died. also him jumping in when I fail a check has to be the most badass thing ever. I love you, Kim. please be proud of me. (also, I know he probably has a darker side to him that I am not seeing right now because I am always choosing the nice options but hey, the best characters are the complicated ones.)

10. Cole Turner from Charmed

this show was so much better when he was in it! the half demon who crosses over to the good side without ever really changing his ways. he burns someone alive and laughs about it, drags a detective to hell and doesn't give a shit about civilians. even when he is completely human his solution to assholes is to punch them in the face. he loves power and controling others and looking good while doing it. I know him beind "good" was a whole thing on the show but to me the most fun about him was that he continued being evil but was now using his powers to help the good guys. show me another character that got redeemed into the hero team without losing his evil edge. Cole was just so much fun to watch but unfortunately his character got totally buthcered by bad writing.

No pressure of doing this but tagging:

@catzy88, @uponxhorhaus, @accrov

[beesorcery]

google how do i tell my dad that the reason i keep bringing up elon musk's transphobia isn't that i've got gen z political tunnel vision that makes me blind to his "innovation" in electric cars but because i am desperately crying out for you as the father of a trans child to feel just as outraged and angry as i am that that man has so much power

[stranded-labyrinth]

I just thought of a time travel au/kidfic (this evolved a lot as I was typing it out)! Hannibal works out time travel and goes back to save Mischa but his method is unstable. He first turns up in Mississippi and meets a young Will (quite young but older than Mischa was maybe 7 or 8?). When Hannibal finally jumps back far enough to find Mischa, Will comes with him (by accident or not 👀). Will helps Hannibal rescue Mischa in a way that keeps the timeline intact. They return to Hannibal's present day... Hannibal then also meets a Will who is an adult but adult Will won't tell Hannibal anything about his past (so child and adult Will are in the same timeline and meet even). Anyway..... Thoughts?

FINALLY an opportunity to ramble about an idea i've had

so this, except Hannibal screws it up so bad that both he and Will get launched into the past. something something Hannibal's goal being based on helping someone he truly loved, which thrusts him into Will's path, but also thrusts Will into his.

Hannibal sees a little boy in the road crying so hard it looks like he might throw up, curled up beside some roadkill and in agony because the poor creature didn't deserve to get killed and it didn't understand and it wasn't its fault and and and and- suddenly there's a man there, someone for the boy to sob to about the animal, and someone who is listening intently, trying to reassure him without treating his pain as trivial.

and then there's Will.

Will is near a very old fashioned building, in a wide yard that stretches out a long way and even has a river running through it. there are kids everywhere, varying in ages and in health. he's looking around, and he sees so, so much pain. so much loss. it's overwhelming, taking in all the different emotions of people too young to conceal them, and then-

a small tug on his jacket and he turns around, startled, and is met by a 13-year-old blond boy with eyes that are piercing through his very soul, as if seeing what had been going through his head. the boy is dead silent, staring at Will like he's just seen the face of God, and hands him a flower he'd picked before approaching.

a comment gets passed from one of the other kids. Will is still reeling from everything and can't even process what's going on, much less what was said because it was a version of French that he's never heard spoken.

the boy that so kindly handed him a flower snaps.

so now, while Hannibal is off in the past consoling a young Will who's mourning a raccoon that didn't know any better, Will is flung into the past and having to try to stop a young Hannibal from beating and drowning some teenager for saying something nasty about Will.

[serenanymph]

Hey everyone! I'm Serena - you can call me Ser - and my pronouns are she/her. This is the writeblr for @murderousewpecspredator! I'll mostly be reblogging writing resources, advice, inspiration etc. here. I'll also be posting my original fics and art, plus updates and snippets (and occasional screaming) as I work on my wips, so be on the lookout for that!

My works tend to include:

➼ high fantasy (occasionally dabbling in urban fantasy, dystopia or sci-fi) ➼ traumatized teenagers forming found families ➼ characters all flavors of queer + male-female friendships and queerplatonic relationships!! ➼ sad backstories ➼ hurt/comfort. SO much hurt/comfort. but also eventual happy endings where the characters get to live peacefully :) ➼ at least one character who is stubbornly kind in the face of a cruel world ➼ and hope!!! I love hope

Find me on: ao3 | wattpad

I'm looking for more writing mutuals so feel free to reply if you share similar writing genres/interests, and I'll give you a follow!

(works under cut)

WIPS

𝐵𝐸𝒜𝒮𝒯

In a world where monsters live in the woods - creatures with the ability to shift forms and wield magic - humans and Beasts have been fighting for centuries. One summer morning, Crys Averwell finds a crow-boy in the forest who has had his wings brutally hacked off.

Unfortunately, saving him from bleeding out is the easy part - because hiding the existence of a Beast from Crys's village, and finding a way for said Beast to get home?

That's going to be another story entirely.

𝒪𝓇,

My current wip!! High fantasy series with found families, banter™ and protags who aren't the heroes or the chosen ones but are just really, really unlucky. Also contains,

large casts

the Sarcastic Withdrawn one + the Ray of Sunshine Extroverted one

a Journey

undead creatures

cool magic with runes and potions and spells and Artifacts

Forests. and Mountains. and More Forests

discrimination, eventual rebellion, blowing stuff up

Sad Times

𝐵𝑜𝑜𝓀𝓈

➢ Crow Wings (2nd draft complete, 3rd draft to be started somewhere in July or August) ➢ Witch's Book (1st draft in progress) ➢ Untitled book 3, 4 and possible 5

series/book 1 intro, book 2 intro

taglist (lmk if you want to be +/-): @deer-in-headlights-stare, @allianaavelinjackson, @arctic-oceans, @space-writes, @reneesbooks

𝒞𝑜𝓇𝓇𝓊𝓅𝓉𝑒𝒹

It's the start of a new school year, and Sakoto Misami's brother has disappeared. Another runaway, people whisper - but Sami knows her brother isn't like that, knows that Irumi would never abandon them.

So when police fail to track him down, she decides to investigate on her own. And the things she finds begin to make her wonder - had she never known her brother after all?

Her questions are promptly answered when, that Friday night, on a deserted train platform, the lights flicker, and something inhuman comes out of the tunnel. Straight for her.

Enter the Swords.

𝒪𝓇,

The half-defined urban fantasy wip I take out to blow dust off of occasionally, because I cannot juggle for the life of me. I do write snippets sometimes though, and I'll properly get into it sometime in the future. Includes,

Cool Swords

spirit companions

a Weird Magic System involving Threads and Needles and Weaving and Fabric. I swear it makes sense I just haven't figured it out yet

subways!!! alleyways!!! parkours and night views and leaping from rooftop to rooftop!!!

traumatized teens, again, and found family, again. But also actual family

qprs!!! heck yeah I love qprs

Yeah that's pretty much it. I have a handful of other ideas I may mention once in a blue moon, but they're sitting on the backburner for now since I'm only able to focus on one project at a time. I also dabble in fanfic, and might occasionally post a short story or a poem, but that's all gotten to be pretty rare.

I'll make proper pages in a while, but until then feel free to poke around in the main tags! The gen tags are #beast and #corrupted, while official tags are #wip: beast and #wip: corrupted (though the last one is largely empty).

See you around!

-Ser

[prof-polaris]

Researching Service pokemon to see if I could get one for myself sometime- could you tell me a bit about yours please? Did you have it as a pokemon first and then train it up or get it already trained, spesifically to be a service pokemon. Is a service pokemon helpful to have? Sorry just curouis heh

ooo okay this is a very complex answer. so its going to be long haha

service mons heavily depend on what kind of thing you require them for, because it can differ. some people have mons for physical conditions or mental ones. i have both, so I suppose i'm a good person to ask! This will all be under the cut because it is accidentally very long whoops. The short version is that yes, having a service pokemon is very helpful, and i probably wouldn't be where i was without Maple :)

Maple was originally just going to be a starter pokemon, its very common in my family for a child to receive either a Leafeon or a Glaceon when you come of age (sinnoh family tradition). of course, as i got older we became aware that a support pokemon would be a good idea and she was trained to be a service mon. however, that depends on the pokemon, and sometimes it's better to train a mon from birth/young age for the specific needs of the trainer. Actually, Maple is getting pretty old for a service mon, since she's been with me since i was young and is probably going to retire soon. I'm currently considering training Orion to be my new service mon since he's mimicking many of Maple's tasks. So that answers your first question! Depending on the condition, a service mon can be very helpful! In some situations, they are more necessary than others. often, people can have emotional support mons instead, who are similar but aren't trained for specific tasks or jobs, and are less expensive since you don't have to get them trained. I don't know what you are thinking of for yours, but to give you some examples I can tell you about what Maple is trained for!

She has a lot of tasks so this isn't an extensive list. Honestly if you need more information we can have a proper chat about it, I don't mind :).

She alerts to drops in blood sugar, retrieves and pick up items such as a water bottle or medicine, deep pressure therapy (which is just mostly her sitting on me which helps for calming down), stabilizing, crowd control or circling, disrupting behaviors, and she can also open most doors. And generally, she can provide comfort by being a familiar presence. Service mons can be trained for pretty much any kind of task, although it depends on what pokemon you're training. some are better at certain tasks than others.

[dekupalace]

For the ask game: 8+6

8. How did you come up with the title to [insert fic]?

I'm guessing you mean family bonds? if not sorry LOL that just seems to be The One yknow since all of my isat shit blew up ///pos

I'm gonna be talking about abuse and stuff so it'll be under the cut. be careful!

the chokehold of a family bond has such a title simply because...well, ties to family, whether good or bad, can sometimes feel like you're tied to a post. sometimes that tie is loose and long, and you have the freedom to explore. sometimes you're allowed to take the post out of the ground and place it somewhere else. sometimes there's no post at all, but you have the tie around your finger, or wrist, or as a necklace...maybe your friends have the same ties as you, or your partners, or maybe even a stranger.

but sometimes...the tie is a thick, short, and heavy rope around your neck, and it forces you to stay low, stay on the ground, stay put and forever be connected to your roots. you can pull and pull and try to rip yourself free from the rope, but it hurts, it burns, it leaves marks. but when you're born with such a thing around your neck, you'd think it's normal. you'd think that's how it's supposed to be; family roots are supposed to be controlling, they're supposed to hurt, they're supposed to make you feel heavy and cold and make you feel like you're always choking...

even if you manage to escape, and you leave behind your post...the rope burn scars are always there. they're reminders. reminders that you will always be tied to such a bond. even if you learn that your ties weren't normal, and not everyone has a rope, that'd be confusing, wouldn't it? knowing that families are supposed to be gentle, they're supposed to be warm, they're supposed to be accepting and kind...it'd take some time to get used to breathing again.

and well...in the context of the fic...even with a new family to wake up to every day, eat with and laugh with every day...siffrin is still tied to that post, even if his rope is long enough to reach the house. he's still tied to what he thinks is family. he's still convinced that his inability to breathe without choking on air is normal. he's still convinced that what he needs to do is an act of love. but whether he finds the strength to cut that rope away... well, those are spoilers. guess we'll find out! teehee!

6. Show us a bit of a WIP!

and with all that shit out of the way...have a snippet of a future chapter!! not the next one, but this felt like a very fitting bit to show off with this ask eheheh [cw for choking and minor blood (it's a nightmare)]

[alildritten]

Ah yes, the scariest story of all:

G A Y

(/j)

[snapcracklepop-myjoints]

wow haha you* think this large area of land is uninhabitable and empty ? wow thats so funny that sounds so much like this fucked up terra nullius thing but surely you arent all mindlessly peddling that colonial narrative of australian land as uninhabited and therefore free for the taking, right ? that would be silly.

and its not like there's a common law doctrine that was only legally discredited in the last 30 years that literally refers to "desert and uncultivated" land as a justification for taking land that is inhabited but is deemed to not have "settled" inhabitants or "settled law" according to colonial standards, right ?

because if there was then it would obviously be super fucking racist to continue to legitimise and perpetuate the erasure of indigenous presence by reaffirming the conception of large swathes of land as desert and uncultivated empty and uninhabitable.

and obviously it would be not only racist but factually incorrect to identify an area as "uninhabitable" purely on the basis that that it was deemed less compatible with colonialist + capitalist agricultural and settler projects and practices, (putting aside the fact that nonnegligible areas are, in fact, settled and used as such) because that would not only continue the erasure of a diverse array of indigenous ways of life, but would also continue to give legitimacy to the idea that presence on land must be identifiable by colonial signifiers thereof, otherwise it is not real and does not count. so obviously you would not do that, yeah ? good talk <3

*"you" as in the ppl in screenshots/ppl who are saying this shit, not op. Just to clarify.

[lacreni]

Honestly the only thing keeping me focused on editing Escaping Perdition rather than switching to work on Liminea stuff is that all the Liminea stuff I'm excited about is in like... book four.

There's a kingdom with a royal family that consists entirely of immortal trickster spirits that makes me insane every time I think about it. These people have grudges and family drama and politics all mashed up into a horrible, intricate mess that goes back several hundred years.

Their god-king-all-father is the legendary Reynard the Fox, and they all love and worship and hate him. They're raised from birth on the expectation that they will eat anyone weaker than them and outsmart and kill anyone stronger than them, which isn't a big ask because they've all inherited Reynard's insatiable nature and are literally incapable of experiencing being Not Hungry or Not Bored for longer than a few minutes, no matter how much they eat or how much they do.

The only way to kill them in a way that matters is to consume them, and if you try it you better be strong as hell because if you're too weak they'll just consume you from the inside and take over your body. The only reason there are hundreds of them and not thousands is because they keep eating each other.

They ran out of lands and titles hundreds of years ago but they keep having children, so they keeping having to decide between breaking off a piece of their own land (lol no mine), starting a war with a neighboring country (they already took over all the easy ones), or risk having their own child turn against them and try to take what is theirs (awkward).

They keep having demi-mortal bastards to staff their castles and palaces because they won't trust anyone who isn't family to keep their treasuries and cook their food but they can't trust a fellow pure-breed not to try and take their lands and titles away from him. They love the half-breeds because they're capable of being loving and trustworthy, but they despise them for being weak. Demi-mortals are essentially disposable. They'd kill entire nations to protect them.

And the halfbreeds. Who do you want to work for, for the rest of time, your half-sibling or your parent? When do you stop calling him dad and start calling him my lord? When will your half-brother forgive you for not having a black hole inside of you? For being so much easier to love? When will you forgive him for being smarter and stronger and of higher station than you? When he hands you the crown to put away in the vault, do you ever try it on and stare at yourself in the mirror, feeling just a little fraction of that insatiable hunger gnawing at the edges of your soul?

They're family, but are they even capable of loving you or are you just a tool? They've given you everything you've ever asked for. You're too scared of them to ask for anything you don't think they'd be willing to give you. They can kill and eat people like you without even breaking a sweat and they won't even bother to wipe the blood from their mouths after.

It's been a few centuries and your hair is going gray but your grandmother looks like she's in her thirties. You can feel yourself slowly winding down, and when your father and your brother look at you it's with terror and disgust. They don't want you to leave but they can't make you stay. They can always make another when you're gone. They will be so insatiable for your missing company they will devour your corpse. It will not satisfy them. Centuries later they will think of you and bite themselves because their blood almost, almost tastes like you. It will not satisfy them.

Nothing ever can.

[sixofravens-reads]

Finished The Bird's Nest!

(spoilers ahead, sorry I couldn't write my thoughts without them)

Overall I enjoyed it more than I thought I would. Any horror story dealing with "multiple personalities" is usually a pass for me, considering in the modern day it tends to just be another way to demonize mentally ill people, but Jackson's take on this trope (and I'm not sure if this was a trope in her time or if she was one of its originators) is unique. She uses it as an allegory for grief and guilt (SORRY i know that's overdone but it is!), in particular when you're grieving someone you loved but who also treated you horribly and who no one else seemed to like, and you don't know how to reconcile those emotions.

We hear many different stories about Elizabeth's mother from all her personalities before her aunt clarifies things. She clearly tried to love her daughter, but struggled with substance abuse, had a tendency to disappear for long periods of time, and had a boyfriend who was potentially abusive (it's never clarified, but it's implied Robin either tried to force Elizabeth out of her mother's life when he got tired of her or else abused Elizabeth directly), and when she died Aunt Morgen's opinion was basically "good riddance." In the end we find out it's Elizabeth who killed her mother, because she disappeared for two days and showed up to a carefully planned birthday celebration drunk/high. The killing was clearly unintentional, a teenage emotional outburst at the person Elizabeth loved the most betraying her again, and it's implied that her mother was already so weakened (or outright dying) from her addiction that Elizabeth"shaking" her was enough to kill her.

So Elizabeth is unable to handle the truth, and that's where the different parts of her personality come in: it's an allegory for the grief and guilt Elizabeth feels about her mother's death, and how she crushes every undesirable feeling down so that she can go on with life, without making her aunt angry or having to reconcile the facts about her mother, but as always happens when you try and repress your emotions, they start coming out in random outbursts and slowly Elizabeth loses control. Jackson is taking a normal situation to the extreme for effect, but I don't think she was necessarily trying to portray the condition realistically (so if you're sensitive about that, maybe take this book with a grain of salt or just avoid it).

We have Elizabeth, the "primary" for a while, who's very dull, not showing much emotion, just going along with what others want. She's the "safest" in that even when her aunt is upset with her, she doesn't think or feel as deeply about it as the others and she almost never thinks of her mother, and when she does she believes her mother died of a heart attack while Elizabeth was locked in her bedroom. Next there's Beth, who at first seems like the kindest and sweetest and "best" personality, but it becomes clear that if she experiences even the tiniest but of negativity she immediately crumbles. She's part of the hurt child that Elizabeth had to push down because she hadn't come to terms with the fact that she could never be "good" enough for her mother to treat her better. She immediately turns on Doctor Wright when Betsy dips in the middle of being yelled at and Beth accidentally gets part of the lecture. She's too emotional to listen to others and won't accept the doctor's apologies or explanations at all, and it's all downhill from there.

Then we have Betsy, the problem child. Betsy seems younger than the others, and potentially her development was stalled because of something Robin did (the only memory we really get from her is one of her and her mother and Robin at the beach, where he pretty much tells the mother to abandon Elizabeth/Betsy because he's annoyed with her). She's wilful, childish, rude, paranoid, and demanding, and struggles with learning how to behave in society. She's also very clearly a hurt child who wants to act out for attention, and wholeheartedly believes her mother is still alive. She has little care or concern for the rest of Elizabeth, and often pranks her other personalities and at one point runs away to New York and needs Bess to assert her dominance and get them home.

Finally, there's Bess, who believes she's 19 and her mother died just three weeks ago, and whose main concern is that her aunt is in control of her father's money (he died when Elizabeth was a baby, and left it in trust to Elizabeth, with Aunt Morgen to distribute funds until Elizabeth's 25th birthday because he knew he couldn't trust Elizabeth's mother with it) and she fears she's going to spend it all foolishly and leave Elizabeth destitute. That said, she's also a bit of a shopaholic and seems to believe that as long as she spends all her money on herself, everything's a-okay (Betsy often pisses her off by giving money to homeless people, she's that uptight about it). She also contains/is created by the emotions that killed Elizabeth's mother, namely pride, anger, and the deep feeling that she's being screwed over that comes from having a parent who always fails you.

So in the order that they're discovered, meaning how deeply they were buried in Elizabeth's psyche, we have: Elizabeth (the primary), Beth (the nice girl), Betsy (the misbehaving child), and Bess (proud and angry). Which tracks with how someone grieving/guilty might bury emotions they don't want to feel. Bess goes the deepest because it's "her" rage and humiliation that killed her mother and Elizabeth doesn't feel like she's allowed to be a proud, rich woman anymore. Then Betsy, because she makes life so difficult and Elizabeth can't face the childhood trauma that creates those emotions, and then Beth, who's the kindness and naivety Elizabeth wants to have but can't because it's not safe, and then Elizabeth at the top, going through the motions of life and trying to keep everyone around her happy and not rock the boat.

The problems come when Betsy, who can't be contained anymore, starts giving Elizabeth crippling migraines and writing her nasty notes in the brief time where she gains control, which leads Elizabeth to Doctor Wright who discovers her condition. Personally I think Betsy would've gained strength eventually and run away even without the doctor (similar to how I, ah, called in sick an hour into work last week and drove to the mountains because I couldn't deal with work stress anymore), but he was the catalyst for each part of Elizabeth realizing there are other parts taking control, which led to them all being able to come together. Doctor Wright is the kind of character who could've been written as a totally valid doctor in the 50s, but comes across as kind of suspicious nowadays. However, all of his machinations about crushing Betsy and Bess and making Beth the primary fail, because you can't just disappear your bad feelings by trying to be kind and sweet and pure, you have to accept and deal with them in order to move on. He was the catalyst for Elizabeth realizing she needs to accept and deal with all parts of herself, but she did the real work.

In the end, she becomes one whole new person, a merging of all aspects of her personality whose conflicting opinions cancel out, so she has to basically relearn how she feels about everything, including her aunt, who has been through the wringer dealing with a niece who alternately loves or hates her depending on the moment. She's still got work to do, and it's clear she'll have to do it alone since Wright and Aunt Morgen are too tied up in their own opinions of her and desires for who they want her to be to help, but she's got a new lease on life and time to figure it out, without the weight of her past.

So, TLDR: excellent allegory for the grief and guilt of losing someone you have a complicated relationship with, and how that wound can fester if you don't deal with your emotions properly. I wasn't expecting that and I'm a little surprised at how well it works and conveys a lot of thoughts about grief and trauma that I thought were more modern.

Anyway, 4/5 stars, will definitely buy a copy and reread it. Proceed with caution if you're sensitive about how multiple personalities are portrayed though, because as stated above I think this isn't intended to be a realistic portrayal and is using that as an allegory.