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"our happy ending" MY ASS?!? IM LITERALLY SOBBING?!?
#pjsk#project sekai#wonderlands x showtime#wxs#our happy ending#our happy ending spoilers#pjsk spoilers#project sekai spoilers#BRO?!??#Emu's older brother lowkey has my whole heart#BUT ALSO#EMU?!?#MY BBY GORL???#WHY ARE YOU CRYING NOOOOO#also baby emu is SO CUTE OMG???#im so happy they're going to continue following their dreams together#also the cards makes sense now#i love them so much#and yesss emunene strawberry milk date#my babies omg#why cant they just let emu be happy man#im glad they found a way for jer dreams to align with theirs tho#also i saw a lot of people confused on why tsukasa had some boring 2 star card instaed of a four or three star since hes the group leader#but like. he didn't have as much presence in the final story as rui nene and meiko did#(and its emus event)#also for the arc ender not being about him. its kind of a similar thing to niigo where yes. Kanade may be the leader of niigo#but the story mostly centers around mafuyu and her smile so it makes sense that the arc ender would be for her#in similar fashion wxs is about emus dream and her family's wonderstage so ofc the arc ender is going to be about her#like yeah tsukasas the leader but wxs has always been emus dream. just like how niigo has always been about getting mafuyu to smile#it makes sense for them to get the arc enders and cards and all the special things
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I wish instead of jay leaving and being all hateful and mean he saw Nya and fell in love w/ her againnnn
#why do you torment me like this ninjago#i am crying#it could have been so funny#but nooooo#it had to be angst#ninjago#lego ninjago#ninjago dragons rising#fon blabs#jay walker#nya jiang#nya smith#ninjago nya#ninjago gay#jaya#ninjago dr s2
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ARCANE EPISODE 7!!!!
MY GOD I WASNT READY FOR ANY OF THIS!!! WHAT WAS THAT!!!
Also ekko wallpaper I got with my fries lmao
#OH MY GOOOD!!!!!! POWDER AND EKKO!!! AND BENZOOOOOO#ITS LITERALLY WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN OMGG!!!!! POWDER LOOKS SO CUTE 😭😭😭😭 IM CRYING ALREADYYYY#VANDER WITH A BUN!! AND EVERYTHING IS SO FULL OF LIGHT!!! HER EYES!!! MYLO LOOKS SO RIDICULOUS AKDJSK THIS GIRLAAA#“where would you be without her” WELL BUDDY IF YOU KNEW HOW HE IS WITH HER!!! VI IS DEAD????? OR SHE WAS TAKEN FOR THE INCIDENT!!!#LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID JAYCE!!! MY GOD!!! THE GEMS KILLED VI SO THEY JUST COMPLETELY PROHIBITED THEM!!! JAYCE IS IN JAIL PROBABLY!!#the fact we are seeing exactly why jayce should be sorry about what he has done.... and we are seeing him suffer because of it... cinema 🚬#also mel fading into viktor.... also has he realised how she manipulated him in the beggining??? there is so much stuff...#jayce eating contaminated animals and his wound being infected with the arcane too..... is that what will push him....#omg.... ekko likes powder so much... he apologised by painting actual adult vi portraits where the fallen are in his universe 😭😭😭#“she looks so badass” if you knew... is he gonna ask her to help him make hextech.... that is so sick and twisted....#also jayce hurting his leg loke viktor and having to use a cane and brace.... damn and you know whats worse..... that ekko could be like#this with the jinx of his universe IF ISHA HADNT DIED!!! AND IT IS BEACUSE OF JAYCE!! AGAIN!!!!! THIS MAN!!!!!#the drawing with the anomaly and the two men and the inifite symbol... we get it... jayce and viktor forever intertwined by fate....#powder is sensing something is off.... omg time travel..... THE LIMIT IS FOUR SECONDS AFTER HEIMERDINGER EPXLODED ALDHAKSHSKSJSOJSOSLS#i dont want a time travel ending.... if its done for plot to an extent is okay but idk about solving it all.... it makes it feel worhtless#claggor looks so fine its not even funny..... i cant wait to see what everyone thinks. WHERE IS THE LITTLE LADY bc hes called little man 😭#and vander with arm tattoos.... why did they hipster fied him.... he looks younger somehow ajdhakj he went from taking care of 4 kids to 3!#SILCO!!!! AND HE DID TRY TO KILL HIM!! ALSJAKSKAK Ekko just laighing at it.... girl i would be pissed STROMAE??? OMG POWDER!!!!#I JUST REALIZED THE PINK IN HER HAIR IS FOR VI!! AND HER JACKET!! AND A DRESS LIKE HER MOTHER'S!! CRYING!!! FULL BODY CHILLS!!!#CAN WE JUST PRETEND LIKE ITS THE FIRST TIME!!! I GAVE UP ON YOU!!! WHAT HAPPENED BACK THEN I NEED TO KNOW!!! IM SOBBING!!! EKKO!!!!#NOOOOOOO THE ANOMALY NOOOOO!!!! HEIMERDINGER NOOOOO!!!! AND THATS JAYCE!!! IS THAT MAGE VIKTOR???? the monkeys......#the vi toy with the out love song machine.... my god i wasnt expecting any of this i need to breathe i am stil tearing up my god#what a fucking punch in the stomach christ i cant breathe right akdhsksso#the credits saying the deries has benefited from a spanish tax rebate in the canary islands??? you're welcome i guess lmao#animation production carried out there and has ben collaboration with the Spanish gov... alright another win for perro sanxe#talking tag#watching arcane#watching arcane season 2#watching this i dont think im ready for caitvi sex.... after reconciliation even like what will be of me.... now im scared#i am still scared bc idk what happened to jinx and vi and cait still... thats what worried me and boom!! ekko powder with the steel chair..
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i HAVE to keep the daigo plush locked away lest i squeeze it every five minutes to alleviate the cuteness aggression i feel whenever i see it
#snap chats#being without my computer charger has been maddening#that makes me sound terminally online and its because i am. its also cause all i ever wanna do is draw :((#AND I ESP WANNA WORK ON MY COMMS NOOOOO FUCK#i mean i was at least able to read through yakuza’s bias vol 2… so theres that…#MY SCHOOL STORE DIDNT HAVE LAPTOP CHARGERS i had to order one… hopefully it gets here Overnight like i asked….. if not ill kill#anyway. daigo plushie so cute :((((((((((((((((#mine cute too but theres just something especially squeezeable about daigo#alas.. thats what the aoki plush’ll be for. my personal stress toy ☠️☠️☠️☠️#lowkey i wish i also got ichi but then i remenbee they made him pale as all hell and Yeah Im Not Putting Money To That#THE SMALLEST BIT OF A TAN I BEG YOU RGG WHY IS HE SO PALE IT DONT LOOK RIIIIGHT :((((#anyway.. i have my last class in half an hour… lemme drink this tea…#also Lowkey obsessed with my outfit today.. its that butterfly shirt + gold accessories since theyre monarch butterflies#tho Lowkey 2x the black and yellow remind me of the watase blokes from gaiden…… wack…..#ok bye its tea time#help one of my roommates just came home and she just announces like. ‘man those edibles were. OUGH’#calling my dad to pick me up nooo im a lame straight edge dont talk about drugs around me ill scream and cry LMAO#ok im done byebye lemme drink this good god
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HELP TPOT 7 GAME ME SO MANY FEELS THERE WAS SO MUCH CONFLICT AND ROBOT FLOWER IS BROKEN- ALSO THERE'S SO MUCH SHIP MATERIAL HELP ME
#tpot#the power of two#it made me cry#tpot 7#IM FUCKING CRYING#ROBOT FLOWER NOOOOOOOOOOOOO#BASKETBALL NOOOOOOOOO#WINNER AND CLOCK NOOOOO#REEEEEEEEEEEE#EVERY SINGLE ONE OF MY FAVORITES HAS SOMERTHING GOING ON#FANNY I LOVE YOU BUT WHY DID YOU BETRAY THEM
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god DAMN it.
just cried over satosugu for the first time.
#meow.//#satosugu#i literally haven't felt that much about them (still enough y'know) to cry but all of a sudden??? wtf???#i just cried bc i related them to that one song (christmas kids by roar) and omfg. why does it hurt so much. i thought i could live in PEAC#like. i didn't have to suffer through the pain but nooooo NO ONE IS SPARED.#“you'll change your name or change you mind”#“and leave this fucked up place behind”#“But i'll know”#HISSINg. GROWLING. SOBS#geto literally changed his mind though (thanks kenjaku)#the animatic ideas are swirling in my brain like toilet when i flush the black and white beta fish#BECAUSE THEY'RE BBOTH FUCKING DEAD#jjk#banging my head on the wall please help me save me from this torture. I didn't know gays could hurt me so much. they're tearing me apart#like that one emo werewolf picture that's a meme. that's me but with satosugu atm guys. i'm so sorry for the tag rants. it's like a pigsty#if you follow me i need you to know that i'm not okay and you should stop that immediately because i'm swirling into the abyss#i'm like a melting ice cream from the ice cream truck that they hand you and it gets all over your hands and drips onto the ground#leaving a trail of ice cream drops behind you as you walk away; the music of the truck fading into the distance as your realise#this ice cream SUCKS.#i'm so sorry#south talks too much#irls if you see this i need you to slap me the next time you see me and i'm dead serious.
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Liveblogging my mental breakdown as I try to figure out how to get this stupid art to fucking post
#its ESPECIALLY frustrating considering this particular art makes me want to cry because tragic siblings#BUT NOOOOO#POST DISAPPEAR POST REAPEAR POST EDITED POST DISAPPEAR POST REBLOGGED REBLOG DISAPPEAR REBLOG REAPER POST RECREATED RECREATION DISAPPEAR#DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHY THIS IS MAKING ME MAD
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I was drawing a Catalina and my friend thought it was a bare Furby. I’m going to hurtle myself into orbit goodbye
#my thoughts#crying in the corner#someone else thought it was Sid the sloth#and then showed me a picture of the crab from Moana#straight bullying I’m telling you#and then boss came over like ‘why are y’all talking about Sid the sloth’#and I was like NOOOOO#please let me live I have done nothing wrong :(#I’m going to eat their quadratics equations tomorrow
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@zhongrin @pranabefall I would like to have a word with the two of you ʕʘ‿ʘʔ
rinnnn could you imagine the kind of soft yandere jing yuan would be??? unnervingly gentle, maybe rather condescending in the way he coos and laughs at your escape attempts. and then you try to escape and the kindness is there, it is...but you learn rather quick that he's a calculating man...
...and clipping his darling's wings is the best way to keep them grounded.
( it just takes pressing down on your ankles a little harder. don't worry, he'll hold you through it and kiss the tears away. he's not wholly cruel, this man...but he knows that love hurts. love hurt him once and love hurts him still.
so wouldn't you let him show you his care without that nagging tug of scared betrayal? )
🫠🫠🫠 aine why would you do this to me aine i'm unwell aine-
zhongrin © 2024 ❥ do not repost, plagiarize, translate, or feed into ai.
involves... ❥ yandere
he would be so soft and 'understanding'. it's going to be exceedingly frustrating for you, i feel like. even if you manage to escape, who would believe you when you tell them the general-arbiter himself is keeping you captive and slowly but steadily driving you insane?
perhaps you'll be better off trying to tell on him to his enemies; maybe they'll believe you. at least when you see their heads roll and their bodies charred beyond recognition, you can soothe your guilt by deluding yourself that they're not exactly good people, and you may have done a service by leading them to their demise, right?
jing yuan understands that clipped birds needs extra care, so he'll spoil you to a reasonable extent. you'll want for nothing under his wings. he's amassed enough knowledge over your preferences and wealth over the centuries to properly take a good care of you.
sometimes you might view that he treats your escape attempts as if you're a child who doesn't know any better and you're just throwing a tantrum - but deep down he knows you can slip away from him; that's why he needs to hold you tighter. tighter. tighter still. just a breadth away from fainting.
you're the only bird he keeps in a cage, but his goal lies in releasing you and knowing that you will undoubtedly come back to him, just like all the birds in the luofu. he's quite a capable mentor, if he could say so himself. what's one more disciple, right?
he'll teach you how to love him. over and over again. you'll memorize it until it becomes as easy as remembering how to breathe, and as fatal as it would be for you to stop. you'll love him with every inhale and demand his love with every exhale. you'll learn to come back to him unprompted, back to your home, perched by his shoulder after flying around his carefully kept garden, pruned free of all the bad things that could potentially hurt you.
he'll teach you how to love him, until you forget.
for only when you've forgotten it, you'll be ready.
#reblog#UEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE#not aine and rin teaming up to give me jing yuan brainrot WAS INDIVIDUALLY GIVING ME BRAINROT OF BLADE AND ZHONGLI NOT ENOUGH#i'm going to start this off with my reaction to aine's ask so just let me *grips aine*#THE PART ABOUT HIM PRESSING DOWN ON DARLING'S ANKLES NOOOOO IT'S SO CRUEL BUT ALSO KINDA HOT?? /mentally deranged#what more if he permanently crippled them.......#i just imagine darling lying in bed or sitting on a wheelchair in a luxurious room illuminated with sunlight. then jing yuan shows up.#softly touches and kisses their bandaged ankles. then bridal carries them :'>#onto rin's post. just imagine me crying sobbing biting my lip as i scroll down my laptop#i can already hear jing yuan cooing at darling with a soft smile on his face NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO#'that's why he needs to hold you tighter. tighter. tighter still. just a breadth away from fainting.' i love this line!!#the last paragraphs make me think of jing yuan's home + morning routine as shown in 'taking it easy.' once darling breaks it would be so#easy for them to fall into domestic life with jing yuan. one 'idyllic' day bleeding into the next.........#the last two lines were straight up murder. crying shaking biting my fist#also from what i know of jing yuan's species. the emphasis on 'forgetting' feels even more significant X'3#aine and rin rlly said 'prepare for trouble and make it double'#jing yuan#yandere jing yuan#yandere jing yuan x reader#jing yuan x reader#hsr x reader#yandere hsr#honkai star rail#yandere honkai star rail#tw: violence#tw: yandere#tw: dark#g/n reader
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Fun Fact: you can line something up properly on the computer but when you print it, it might not line up
Fun Fact 2: things lines up differently if you print in black and white vs color
Fun Fact 3: sometimes printers get mad at you because you need to use special textured paper so it decides to eat it
Fun Fact 4: it's more efficient to buy fancy paper and figure out how to print on your own instead of at a store because you can make adjustments and print as much are you have paper for without racking up more money you have to pay to the store
#whaaaat#nooooo#i didnt spend three hours at staples#trying to get my art final to print right#only to end up asking to buy the paper and print at school#but the lady said she cant sell me the paper *technically*#and then end up giving me the paper for free because she felt bad for me#and then i totally didnt spend another hour trying to get it to print at school#moral of the story#if you want free stuff be genuinely so pittiful that people feel bad for you and just want to help#but thats just a hypothetical#hypothetically#this happened#but not really#i mean no one would spend three hours at staples trying to print- right?#right?#rIgHt??#if i dont get a good grade ill cry#and then i spend another idk how long cuting everything#why am i an art major again?#what do i do this to myself?#oh well#gotta study for my finals#manifesting#doing well on finals#*knocks on wood*#knock on wood#*knock on wood*#fyp#fypツ
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AU where Bruce isn’t Batman and the ‘Brucie’ persona is mostly real, but he’s also not an idiot and well aware that his kids are vigilantes
Bruce, “I just wish Dickie chose a better costume than that. I mean, look at him! He’s like a traffic light.”
Alfred, “I believe it’s a similar outfit to one his mother designed for him when he was younger.”
Bruce, “….nevermind, I take it back. He’s my beautiful baby boy and his outfit choices are definitely not atrocious.”
—
Bruce, “Jay…mind explaining the bruises on your wrists?”
Jason, “Oh…yunno how it is.”
Bruce, stares
Bruce, “If your partner is hurting you-”
Jason, “NO, it’s nothing like that! I promise, it was….consensual?”
Bruce, “Is that a question or statement, kiddo?”
Jason, “Statement.”
Jason, later, grumbling to Dick, “Sometimes I feel like he’s onto us…”
Dick, “No way. We cover our tracks super well. You just need to come up with better excuses for your bruises. I mean, BDSM? You?”
Bruce, upstairs, listening through a bug he planted, “Dumbasses.”
—
Bruce, “Why is the Drake child in my home?”
Jason, “He’s a friend.”
Dick, “I think you’re choking him a little, B.”
Bruce, who has Tim in a bear hug, “Am I choking you, buddy?”
Tim, muffled, “Not at all.”
—
Bruce, “TALIA! YOU’RE HERE! Why are you here.”
Damian, “Why am I here?”
Talia, “We have a son. Here. Take care of him.”
Damian, “I will not stay w a man like…like him.”
Bruce, “What’s that supposed to mean?”
Damian, “You’re pathetically human and weak. I have nothing to learn here, Mother.”
Talia, “He’s beaten me before.”
Damian, “What?”
Dick, “What?”
Jason, “What?”
Bruce, smiling dreamily, “Such good memories.”
—
The kids find out he knew everything from the start when Dick has to pick up a drunk Bruce from a party. They arrive back at the Manor and Bruce won’t stop clinging to Dick.
Bruce, “Noooooooo! Don’t leave me! Don’t put on that ugly costume!”
Dick, “W-what?”
Bruce, sniffles, “It’s better than the Robin one, but come on, chum. You can do so much better than that.”
Dick, “You…know?”
Bruce, still crying, “Of course I knew! Good at covering your tracks my ass!”
Dick, “Do you know everything?”
Bruce, wiping his face because his vision is blurring and there’s two Dicks standing in front of him. Fuck, he’s dizzy, “Jason’s outfit is better. Tim’s is atrocious. But at least you gave Dami pants.”
Dick, “BRUCE!?”
Bruce, “Nooooo, don’t yell. My head hurts.”
—
Sitting in what Bruce has decided to call the Bat Cave because, helloooo, the bats?
Dick, "How long have you known?"
Bruce, "Oh, you know."
Jason, "From the beginning???"
Bruce, "I'm not stupid. Alfred, why does everyone think I'm stupid? My own kids think I'm stupid."
Tim, "Mr Wayne-"
Bruce, stares at him
Tim, "....Bruce. We don't think you're stupid. We just thought we were being...sneaky."
Damian, "Hmph. All of you lack training in stealth. Unlike me."
Bruce, "Dickie, how am I supposed to not know when I adopted a child acrobat and 'oh, look! a pint sized vigilante who can do flips off of buildings!'"
Jason, snorts, "Pint sized."
Bruce, "Jaylad, you started using guns a week after I signed you up for a firearms class."
Tim, tries very hard to hide a laugh
Bruce, "Timmy, your bedroom is covered in pictures of Gotham you'd only get from being on top of buildings."
Damian, scoffs
Bruce, "Dami, you trained as an assassin. Of fucking course you're a vigilante."
The kids, "....fuck. We suck at this."
Bruce, waves his hands in the air, "Don't worry about it. You're all bad at covering for yourselves, but me and Alfred handled it. Anyone who might've even got an inkling of who you might be have been...dealt with."
Jason, "Did you kill them?!"
Bruce, "What? No. Of course not. Right, Alfie?"
Alfred, "....of course not."
#I saw a post similar to this but bruce was oblivious and I was like 'what if he /wasn't/'#I just think that regardless of bruce's profession he's still hella fucking smart#bruce wayne#dick grayson#jason todd#tim drake#damian wayne#alfred pennyworth#batfamily#batfam#batman#my post
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Episode 8 I am so scared....
#mel magical girl transformation.... her mother's weapon... christ... mel will save them all vi step aside!!#this is so funny... mel with her bodysuit and golden bodypaint walking thru the valley with her new pet crow.... slay#SINGED WILL CONTROL VIKTOR???? AND VANDER??? AMBESSA ENOUGH! VIKTORS VOICE OMG!!#LORIS REMINDING VI OF VANDER NOOOOO I KNEW THIS WAS COMING!!! CAILTYN TAKING MADDIES HAND AWAY FROM HER AKDJSK#arrested jinx???? OH MY GOOOD JINX!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HER PUPILS ARE SO WIDE SHES SO OUT OF IT#YES CAITLYN END THE CYCLE!!!!! they repaired the council table with golden stuff.... YES JAYCE FINALLY REALIZED!!!! OOF NOT THE BEST MOMENT!#UPSIDE DOWN KISS COME ON!!! Viktor realizing too that it has been all jayces fault.... this is so sad.... what a breakup#silco talking to jinx about breaking the cycle... he became a hallucination too.... not so bad like the others thats inch resting#THE HUG NOOOOOOO YOU DESERVE TO BE WITH HER????? SHES GONNA DIEEEEEEE NOOOOOOO VI AGAIN IN PRISON UNABLE TO SAVE HER SISTER!!!!!#theres no good version of me after we just fucking saw it im gonna be sick.... SEVIKA AND THE FIRELIGHT GUY IN THE COUNCIL ROOM??#what tf are you wearing jayce.... an outsider force putting an end to a civil war who woulda thot.... OMG THE PARALEL TO THEIR FIRST MEETING#WHAT THE HELL!!! NOT IN THE PRISON CELL!!!! AFTER VI JUST TOLD HER THAT??? AKDJAKSJ CAITLYN HOLD YOURSELF!!! my god i need a pause#vi does look so good from the back.... but my god why are they doing this now akdjsksjk maddie is upstairs akdhaksn WHYYYYYYY NOW????#no WAYYYYY WE GOT HER BACK TATTOO REVEAL NOW!!!!!! WHAT THE HEEEEEEEELLL OH MY GOOOOOD VIIIII GOING DOWN AND LOOKING UP THANK YOU GOD!!!!AAA#cait laughing... girl i would too... that was all so detailed too like damn... vi was amazed by the Kirammountains....#so thats it... can i be honest.... a little too unemotional.... like their kiss was something else entirely....#but this is vi just going DAMN!!! RIGHT NOW!!! and pouncing... which i understand but their bed scene... come on.. i needed to cry with this#so no talk about reconciliation..... *throws phone on the floor and jumps in skateboard and breaks it in half*#vander dying with viktors humanity..... and sky.... viktor getting his mask.... my god.... and vander losing his memories.... should we all#talking tag#watching arcane season 2#watching arcane#you know i understand caitlyn admited she was manipulated and what vi said about second chances but.... apologies please.....#oh now i get it she sent the guards to the gates so jinx could escape..... alright alright... i thought she did that only so they could fuck#well vi did follow her sisters advice and got with her i guess akdhaksjak which okay is nice bc she said she didn't need to feel guilty#about being happy.... alright i understand now *viktors voice*#alright i was slow my bad... vi pounced on her bc she is just so grateful that she let jinx go and cailtyn did let go of her anger.... aight
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idk how it's possible for someone to blush and cry and swoon and in pain in one moment but that's pretty much what i'm going through right nowー
also i'm so late but i have a reason-
this was such a ride brynn i loved it so much thank you eueueueueuu
When Cuckoos Throw Ores [Yandere!Jing Yuan x Reader]
Questionable Overview: After transmigrating to Teyvat, you and Jing Yuan had lived like family on your shared apartment as getting-by descenders. But, you made an error too grave. You hid the anonymous love letters you received from the person you should’ve trusted the most— and now you’ve got yourself a broken mind. [Fic written for May June]
CWs/tags: yandere themes, isekai, moments where you wish Jing Yuan just committed murder instead so it would hurt less, mentions of failed childbirth, nadia & vlad are adorable, implied hysteria, cute n' wholesome beginning w/ found family to "man... man.", gaslighting gatekeep is JY's passion.
"I'm an adult, Jing Yuan! I think I have the right to leave as I please."
Have you ever been so incredibly fascinated by such a mundane object that all worldly noise drowns?
"The right to trample on my heart? To leave me to drown in my despair while you obsess over a single ore without a single thought for me? I must say, it doesn’t seem very sound. Stay put while I call for Doctor Baizhu."
Have you ever had your hand reach out ever so slightly without you realizing such? For your fingers to curl— for you to seize a trinket as though you were compelled by an existence— an idea higher than any mortal comprehension? As though it was fate? As though it was a fruit you weren't meant to take a bite off?
But the most mundane of all…
"There’s no need! Because great General and Emanator of the Hunt Jing Yuan—"
Have you ever lamented a life that "never" happened?
"— I have the right to mourn the happy ending you took from me!"
Though those uninitiated will rehash the root of events in your arrival to the chasm, the most knowledgeable would start the accounts from your arrival to Teyvat.
You did not step foot alone.
When your worldline was destroyed, so, too, was Jing Yuan's.
Lady Ningguang greeted you both with a good measure of skepticism. You were both "descenders.", though it was soon made evident that your origins are different. He was from "Xianzhou Loufu," and you were from "Earth." Course, despite your shared tragic circumstances, not everything shall be handed on a silver platter for unfortunate souls. Ningguang was kind enough to provide you both with a shared apartment complex near the fishing port and since then, you and Jing Yuan had a bond not so dissimilar from siblings. He got a job as a general, and your current position is a little more flexible than your previous one.
Whatever principles and studies were available in the previous realms you lived in, they were carried over in Teyvat. Each word circulating about Jing Yuan’s undefeated sword and lance techniques makes you smile; he, in turn, would enthusiastically applaud your sold artworks and STEM innovations. It makes you wholly embarrassed every time he makes what is supposed to be a celebration of his mission’s success into a congratulatory speech for what you’ve done in the same timeframe. Didn’t matter how minute it was. His comrades had already considered the long-standing tradition as a not-so-private joke.
His lack of personal praise worries you sometimes…
There’s a stark difference in your approach to this new life. You mourned for yours being gone; while he doesn’t speak much about his.
“No rush,” he'd say. “All truths shall reveal itself in due time.”
You know about his world, though vaguely. He has a striking resemblance to the character from Honkai: Star Rail. Course, that implies he had gone through similar ordeals as the character.
“I am an old man, there is nothing for me to grieve.” He told you once. “I have… already witnessed comrades pass, and then some. Have you encountered the phrase: there are fates worse than death?”
Jing Yuan closed his eyes.
“I… find it easier to assume that it might be the only way to put old conflicts to rest.” He shook his head and downed his final shot of baijiu. Yuan sighed, tasting the aftermath in his breath.
“It’s better to put a permanence in death than another forced rebirth.”
He poured you a shot.
"Some memories are better left forgotten. And that applies to you, too."
Whatever he said felt untranslatable to you, hence, you gave up on making more inquiries. If the day comes and he wishes to open up, you'll be there for him anyway.
Or so you thought.
“Heard you’re planning to add another medal to your jacket.”
Jing Yuan nearly halted from tying his long hair up. You watched his shoulders tremble, likely from trying to compose himself.
“Ha! You've heard a half-truth, I wasn't scheming on anything, it was merely handed to me.” His tone was calm, but you heard the well-hidden smugness.
You shrugged and sipped your coffee nonchalantly.
… You seriously wish his uniform didn't hug his form that good. Just staring at him makes the room feel degrees hotter.
You cleared your throat.
“I didn't say anything about schemes, Jing Yuan. Suspicious.”
“Oh?” He hummed, almost sultry for your ears.
…Curse him and his damn beatific smiles.
This playful banter is as natural as the dawn of day. Rather than spending the early morning getting ready for the day, you've both grown accustomed to teasing the other person. He, in his finely ironed uniform, and you, in your comfy pajamas.
“Since when have I besmirched my name by squandering time? Rude of you to imply that slothfulness rules over my life.” Jing Yuan joked before he moved another piece. “You wound me, dear (Y/n).”
Due to the nature of the conversation, you hadn't thought of your next move much as you continued to probe him. “And what exactly are you doing right now instead of reporting to the Qixing, General?”
He smirked. “I am on-duty, am I not?”
“By talking to me?”
“I have been bound by mundane duties in both my past and current lives, and I must say, engaging with a Person of Interest such as yourself has not only been productive but also mentally stimulating.”
You paused.
Person of Interest…?
Might as well curse him and his fancy cursive way of implying something too.
Your nose scrunched. “Are you saying I'M on the Qixing’s watchlist?!—”
“Not in a bad light; don’t worry your pretty head over such menial matters,” he ruffled your hair as he craned over, gazing at your disgruntled morning expression with a loving vigor. “They have an eye for your talent. No Ministry would ever obsess over a clean criminal record.”
You grumbled as you attempted to fix your hair, despite lacking any energy. “Thanks, that calms me down. Especially with the talks about criminal activity on the rise and all.”
He laughed at your snarkiness.
“Is this your best attempt at prying information? I must say, your current occupation suits you. I can now place a finger as to why the thought of Lady Ningguang hiring you as a profiler put me in tremendous unease.”
“Oh don’t be a prick, Yuan.” You chuckled heartily as you gave him a playful slap— which he no doubt avoided. “But seriously, can’t you tell me more about what’s happening?”
There were no further words needed. Such rumors had been on the forefront of the people’s minds: a group of rogue “mercenaries” had found new temptations in banditry— and had the nerve to stew misfortunes on the main harbor itself. As a newly enforced general, Jing Yuan had, of course, been subjected to handling this situation under the ever-watchful gaze of the Qixing. A challenge, as he likes to label it. Whatever helps him sleep at night, you’d reply.
Although, it would certainly soothe YOUR insomnia better if he were to divulge even a hair-sliver of detail in regards to how “safe” this mission truly was.
“(Y/n), there is no cause for concern.” He pulled back, placing his hands on your shoulders. “You know my repertoire— else I wouldn’t consider you a close friend.”
Your heart ached for a second.
In small snippets from the multiple conversations you’ve had with him, you knew he kept his list of close friends few. There’s always a hint of guilt in his voice when he talks about those named Baiheng, Jingliu, Yingxing, and Dan Feng in passing.
“And I’m just worrying over you,” you lightheartedly glared and waved your hand dismissively. “You know, like a real close friend.”
You both grinned in unison as if telling each other that neither would back down from this “argument” any time soon. He snorted and messed your hair up more. Over the time you’ve spent in each other’s company, your near-telepathic way of conversing has become quite an eerie issue for other mutual friendships.
Not that either of you minded this. It’s always nice to be understood.
“I know that look in your eye. Don’t add a part two from last night’s horror stories, please.”
“Then, I’ll take my leave,” he buttoned his jacket. “Last reminder before I go: you have arranged a meeting with Nadia this afternoon.”
“Thanks,” you huffed. “But unlike you, I don’t sleep in and forget my schedule.”
You swore that even after the door was closed, you heard him chuckle yet again. After that, he was gone.
Honestly, with someone with a “life-loving” temperament like him, you’re unsure if he’s easy to please— or too damn good at faking it for his good.
You heard soft knocks against your window.
Slowly, a grin forms on your lips.
“Hello, little man…” You cooed as you stood up and opened for not only the fresh Liyue morning breeze to enter…
But for a diligent little cuckoo bird to deliver its very special package as well.
You’ve always had a soft spot for animals…
“Hmm?”
Your eyes softened as it dropped its parcel and leaned its body against you, warming itself by sitting cozily on your window ledge. This little bird is quite the skilled messenger— always dropping by as soon as Jing Yuan takes his leave. As to why it suspiciously arrives as soon as he is gone, you’re unsure. Such a sneaky creature; you can’t help but adore it.
That’s not to say its deliveries are not as equally charming.
You chuckled as you elegantly unwrapped the ribbon. The letter was elegantly written in a scrawl you’ve familiarized even with eyes closed for the past months, yet it still holds an intensity that makes your heart flutter.
There it was. The two words that keep you going better than any coffee brew.
“My dearest, (Y/n),….”
“Another letter from Vlad, I’d hope?” You sneaked from behind.
Nadia yelped, hitting you almost immediately. The delay was surely from being on a lovelorn cloud-nine, but her Fatui training that earned her last name definitely should’ve made you double-think.
You shriveled at the pain and she awkwardly cradled you.
“Oh shucks— I’m so sorry, (Y/n)! I-I didn’t realize it was y-y— Don’t scare me like that!”
“Sorry! Sorry!” You hissed, blaming only yourself for the stinging aftermath. “I-I’ll get over it.”
Nadia guided you to the empty seat beside her. As soon as you were seated, she wasted no time to spill.
“The contents were far too adorable for my heart, oh, dear Tsaritsa, you NEED to read this.”
An eyebrow was raised. Saying you had a suspicion that something like this would happen would be an understatement— when it came to Nadia, it was more like routine. It had been regular for you and her to get together at least once a month to chat over letters that you both received. Nothing about the time you spent with her was dull. She's the reason you adapted to the Liyue way of life so well. As you were both foreign to the culture— you and Jing Yuan are admittedly the extreme cases— you and her were eager to recount experiences in times of distress. And times of pure unbridled lovesick joy, such as this.
“C’mon, pass it.” You tried to say cooly, but the glimmer in your eyes betrayed your high school-like excitement.
“Same time.” Nadia huffed. "Can't have you gatekeeping your own letter!"
You pulled out yours from your purse.
Nadia wasn’t the only one with something to present to the class. This is just like a teacher forcing students to read their discreetly passed notes out loud.
Nadia has her Vlad.
You have your Nay Jung I.
Instantly, you both suppressed a giggle in the abrupt exchange.
Nay Jung I. You know little about him, and that intrigue keeps the fire going. When you see a white cuckoo passing by the window, you immediately know it means well. A sight that makes your heart skip a beat. Instead of pushing eggs, it slips a love letter whenever Jing Yuan isn’t around. All coming from a man you can’t track down.
That’s right.
You have a secret admirer.
As you read through the middle of Vlad’s letter for Nadia, you heard your very-much-an-adult friend bite back a squeal in front of you. Nay Jung I may sound like a feminine name, but he was a man. You could’ve sworn you saw Xiangling laugh from the corner of your eye as Nadia tugged your sleeve around like a fool.
“Oh my God?! He wrote that?!” Her lips were akin to wobbly lines toddlers would draw when mimicking the sun’s rays.
“I find myself constantly catching glimpses of you in my daydreams, my mind flooded with what could be— what should be. Forgive me for my selfishness, but I fear it won’t take long before I can no longer bear the thought of being without you… What?! That’s so SWEET?!” Nadia clutched your love letter tightly, eyes wide as though she was the recipient.
Xiangling, bless her soul, had to peek behind her.
“I wish I could have the courage to reveal myself to you. When I doubt myself, my thoughts turn to you… Aww… I wonder who Mister Nay is and what did you do to get him this in love?” Xiangling playfully pouted, which made Nadia grin wider, almost teasing her. “Geez. When will I get a boy to send me letters?”
“I’m sure you’re going to get one or two someday. A way to a man’s heart is through his stomach, right?” Nadia shrugged as she folded the paper and hid it. “Plus, I fear you’re too young for this.”
“Careful, Dia, she’s the one preparing our food.” You joked.
Nadia has grown more friendly to locals for the better since you started sharing meals here. Everyone knows the feelings between her and Vlad were mutual— but neither of them was willing to confess. With Nadia hoping he initiates, and him densely hesitant on whether she reciprocates. One of them can end this phase should they abandon pride or cowardice.
But Nay Jung I?
You can’t find his records anywhere… And he had told you that it is a fake name by your fourth letter, much to your chagrin.
So, you’ve settled with this arrangement. For now, you are both friends, despite knowing he has feelings for you from the start.
“Mister Nay definitely has it bad for you, Mx. (Y/n).” She gave you a closed-eyed smile. “You need to write back immediately! The man’s probably starving for it!— Oh, right, the pot!!!”
As the chef rushed back after being distracted, you gave Nadia’s letter back to her.
“Any chance of rain?” You asked.
“Cloudy with negative one percent chance that I’ll run to Northland Bank and confess to Vlad.” Nadia spoke sheepish;y.
“That’s at least five percent higher than yesterday.”
“Well, this last letter was adorable.” She swooned.
“Mx. (Y/n), you seem incredibly free at the moment, care to have a chat?”
You turned to look at the new person who joined in.
Fur coat, a distinct mole placement, a sharp haircut, and eyes self-assured enough to conceal their need for urgent assistance, it has to be none other than—
“Miss Yelan,” you gave her a polite smile. “To what do we owe the pleasure?”
Nadia sat up straight, shifting to her work mode. “Is there some business you require from the Northland Bank?”
“I have no quarry with you, Madam Nadia, what I do want—” Yelan tilted her head, her eyes calculating. “Is to speak to (Y/n) in private.”
You paused, recalling the conversation you had this morning.
‘I have been bound by mundane duties in both my past and current lives, and I must say, engaging with a Person of Interest such as yourself has not only been productive but also mentally stimulating.’
Maybe this is what Jing Yuan was warning you about this morning.
“Fine, I concede.” You sighed, swiftly snatching your letter from Nadia’s hands and tucking it inside the pockets of your inner jacket.
“Lead me to where you most need me.”
Over the years you’ve spent on Liyue, you’ve had another habit you’ve been nursing on the sidelines.
Epigraphy.
Better yet, it’s for the sole purpose of decoding ancient artifacts. Before you were transmigrated into Teyvat, you found that inspecting artifact descriptions and reading through lore strewn in notes and dialogues were a great part of what made playing Genshin Impact enjoyable. You devoured theories whether they were from YouTubers like Ashikai or other CCs who were eager to unravel and analyze myths from different civilizations. To be inside THE sandbox was the greatest treat. If your friends were here, you have no doubt you’d have plenty who’d look and try to pick apart Mister Zhongli’s brain.
Unfortunately, you never managed to catch his eye.
And the biggest misfortune of all, you caught Miss Yelan’s instead.
“It’ll take me a few weeks to decipher and solve this puzzle…” You told her hesitantly. “And I can’t guarantee anything either.”
Yelan only tilted her head. Strands of her hair hid her expression, and the only body language to be read was the way she played with the die on her fingers. You wondered if she was deciding your fate by giving it a roll…
You looked at the inscribed walls.
A man with horns… and his partner wearing a long hanfu… His partner… Reminds you of a beautiful cuckoo bird.
You sighed.
When she bargained for a chat in “private”, the Chasm was the last location you had in mind. Even more, it did not occur to you that she aimed to use you as a translator. For a language you only learned a few years ago.
You knew you couldn’t exactly deny a member of the Qixing, especially with how much you carried a moral debt for Lady Ningguang, so you agreed under the condition that Yelan wouldn’t snitch to Jing Yuan.
He might just give you the silent treatment if he found out you were here.
But back on the walls and the puzzle mechanism in the middle of the room…
Both were seated under the shade of a tree…
Each holding a cup of tea…
“Damn it, why me?” You cussed out loud.
You seriously want to tell her that she should’ve chosen Zhongli.
Not that you’d know that Yanfei begged Yelan to hire you for the job.
Yelan made her dice vanish. “If you need further assistance, and by that I meant necessities such as food and water, call for Wenyuan or Shanghua. They’ll materialize right in front of you.”
On the next wall, the horned man tightly held his partner, with tears falling from his eyes… His tail was more apparent in this depiction, but there were crystallized ambers and statues all around…
Like they were running…
Away from him…
You faced Yelan.
“Yelan, can’t you call for someone else—”
You blinked.
She was gone.
You don’t like being here.
You don’t like this cave.
You’re not sure whether you liked the fact Yelan invited you here. On one hand, you were grateful for the opportunity, but at the same time, you thought yourself unqualified for whatever piece of ancient Liyuean history was waiting to bite you in the ass.
It didn’t take a genius to know that whoever the drawn man was, he was a force to be reckoned with. You played enough Genshin to know that yakshas are not to be trifled. If this ended up as an Azhdaha scenario, you wouldn’t want to be the nameless NPC who died along the way.
Should’ve commissioned the traveler.
As you progressed in your decoding, the texts were beginning to gnaw you.
“Have you heard the tale of Lady ███ ███?”
You trembled at the thought.
Curse Jing Yuan and his ghost stories.
The story wasn’t even that frightening.
What got you was how Jing Yuan sold them. He had preached it as though he had been a witness. It’s just a typical unnerving tale to keep children alert, but he had always been far more persuasive than you.
“When she and her husband were out exploring, her husband left her while she sired his heir. He left her there to die.”
Jing Yuan’s eyes narrowed. You quietly applauded his commitment to the bit. Should you not know any better, you would’ve thought he hated that man more than anything.
Like he was seething with jealousy.
“Some claim he hid her there to fight for a war, some say it was out of love… In my eyes, it was an unforgivable neglect.”
Jing Yuan claims sharing ghost stories was a common occurrence from when he used to teach his disciple. But you’re not an idiot. You can sniff out a reason why he loves to bring these stupid tales.
“Days felt like a prison tally. She had forgotten what it felt to live in the sun.”
“She lived only by fulfilling basic needs. No matter how thick the mud was, no matter what was within the soil— all she could do was bitterly swallow what was to come. She bit her tongue on the ever-growing famine— and wished that her child would survive.”
Jing Yuan does not want you anywhere near the chasm.
“So when it was time to give birth, she had no assistance. She pushed her child out as hard as she could, and laid an empty egg.”
Before you could even ask why a human would lay an egg, Jing Yuan continued.
“But they both passed away.”
“Legends say, that’s the reason why the lumenstone ore glows. It contains the watchful gaze of a scorned mother and unborn child…”
“And if you aren’t careful, you too—”
“Could be trapped inside it.”
You scoffed.
Was the tale stupid? Depends on who you ask. Was it sad? Sorta. Was the thought of two ghosts— possibly more— watching you as you were forcibly dispatched to read through The Chasm’s secrets terrifying? Given the dark and brooding atmosphere, it was a quiet yes.
“Hmm? I— I solved it…?”
You blinked.
Maybe you still retained your skills as a Genshin player. Anything for a luxurious chest is what you would’ve said. And yet, it still baffled you that one did appear.
When you unlocked it, you saw no “primogem” like you quietly hoped (it would be funny if you unlocked a wish function, but that’s unlikely…)
Instead, you found a dusty ore.
“Great.” You muttered dryly. “Just what I needed.”
It was amber in color, same as the clothes the man wore in the wall paintings. You’re at a loss on how you should report this to Yelan.
“Better than nothing.” You spoke, laughing slightly. That sounded like something Diluc would say. You should buy a dandelion wine after this hard work.
Quickly, you fished out the gloves in your pockets. It was made of nitrile, which should protect the ore from possible oil and moisture from your hands. Yelan was very insistent you wear it.
But as soon as you touched the ore…
Your consciousness slipped away.
There was a man in front of you.
But you couldn’t see his face.
“Dearest ███ ███…” The horned man smiled delicately as he sipped his tea. “It has been centuries since our first wedding ceremony. Do be honest with me, do you still hold the same passion as before.”
These memories appear to you in a blur.
“No, I do not.” You heard your voice say as the man’s shoulders slowly deflated. His amber eyes looked down, and his smile began to strain.
With two fingers, you lifted his chin.
“If anything, my love for you has grown stronger,” you spoke. “For you and I shall never let our draconic instincts dull, and our union will be the greatest treasure we shall hoard in this never-ending flow of time.”
“…/n…!”
One hand took his scaley hand and the other held his cheek, caressing softly.
“Promise you shall return?” You heard yourself mutter, this time weak and hopeless.
He leaned against your palm, purring as though it might be the last time he’ll savor your warmth.
“You know I do not make promises, ███ ███.” He spoke firmly. “What I keep are contracts. And I have vowed to make you happy, for as long as I live.”
“…(Y… (Y/n…. snap… out…!”
“Contracts normally sound so cold, but your honeyed voice makes it sound so romantic.”
“You know well, my love, in all my years, I’ve witnessed endless contracts and agreements. Whether it was tangible or verbal— each one was a significant chapter to someone’s life.”
The horned man softly detangled your fingers from his long brown hair and kissed your hand.
“But only one brought forth complete change. Our matrimonial agreement. The contract we signed gave me the most happiness. I’ve never signed a happier contract than this one.”
“And I share the same sentiment.” You cooed, almost cheeky. “And I hope our future child shall feel our love as well.”
He rested his head on your shoulder and sighed.
“The day shall come, my love.” He spoke. “Just wait for me, until I fulfilled what the Heavenly Principles desires.”
“Of course,” you hugged him back.
“I shall wait for you, my dearest…
“(Y/N)!!!”
You flinched.
Suddenly, you’re not in the mountains. You’re not hiding under the shade of a tree with warm-hued leaves. You were…
You were sitting on a patch of grass, just outside the chasm.
And Jing Yuan is mad.
He had a cold unmerciful glare. His built frame towered above you, casting a large shadow. It was already nighttime. Normally, only the moonlight and the lamps from afar should be the only source of light here, but his golden eyes seemed to glow. As though it was ready to call forth an entity you were not prepared to face.
You know the depths of his anger. Years of living inseparable from him has made every communication almost telepathic and that hadn’t changed. You can read it in his breaths, in his stiff and tall posture, in his unnerving gaze.
He is threatening you to spill. Saying without words that:
There are fates worse than death.
But your pulse was steady. But your breathing was calm. But your expression was blank.
You weren’t terrified.
And you can read that deep down, that scared the General more.
“Nay Jung I…”
For a moment, Jing Yuan’s eyes widened— as though there was something he was the only one privy to knowing. His face had a mix of surprise and disbelief before he steeled himself.
“Nay Jung I?” He scoffed.
“What of him?” Jing Yuan asked.
“He’s my soulmate.”
As soon as those words left your mouth, brief incoherent syllables sputtered out of his mouth. You evoked more emotions in him this time around. You saw flashes of shock, what seemed to be happiness, hope, and then utter confusion.
“...What?”
“I saw him.” You said, calm. “I saw him as soon as I touched that rock. My soulmate— he had long hair and eyes like a dragon— I think he was a dragon, and so was I. I think my soulmate is in Liyue and he’s hiding behind the name Nay Jung I.”
Jing Yuan opened his mouth, before thinning his lips.
This time, you were certain.
He was not only mad. Jing Yuan was sorely disappointed.
“I understand…”
You know the expression on his face. You read him like a discipline you mastered in epigraphy. He thinks that…
You have gone “cuckoo.”
He turned around, no longer facing you.
“I’m sorry then, (Y/n).”
Jing Yuan does not sound sorry to you.
“What for?”
There was silence for a moment, before he spoke again, voice bitter and vile.
He was not sorry.
He was furious.
He was hurt.
He was jealous.
“Nay Jung I is the leader behind the past terrorist attacks.” He paused. “And I killed him.”
You haven’t recovered ever since.
Every medical “professional” you’ve encountered told you that you were hysterical. That you just hallucinated what you saw. It isn’t possible that the visions you saw were Nay Jung I anyway.
Maybe they were right about the last part, you don’t want to believe it.
It was in your instincts. That man had to be your husband in the past. Who cares if you came from another world? Maybe you were an Expy. You had to be. That person— the one who reminded you of a cuckoo bird in those walls— had to be you in another universe.
It had to be.
Your real soulmate is out there.
And Nay Jung I isn’t dead.
But you’ve never been good at persuading others.
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“General Jing Yuan, is (Y/n)…?”
Outside the apartment, Mister Zhongli and Jing Yuan stood by the window, peaking at your form. You were so engrossed by your inner conflicts that you couldn’t hear them.
“They’ll… move on from you, eventually.” Jing Yuan spat back coldly. “I’m not the God of Contracts, but I keep promises that do not fail.”
Zhongli’s face crumpled in anguish.
“May I ask a question? Just to sate a bit of curiosity, of course.”
Jing Yuan’s eyes narrowed. Zhongli took that as a yes.
“Are you Nay Jung I?” He asked. “I did not see his name on the list of the deceased criminals—”
“Yes, he and I are the same,” Jing Yuan silenced him. “Nay Jung I is an anagram of Jing Yuan. You can reorder the letters and confirm it for yourself.”
Originally, Jing Yuan had hoped to woo you with a romantic tale of an anonymous admirer. But, in your delirium, you had mistakenly believed that Nay Jung I was the same man in your visions.
It was repulsive.
Never before had he wished to scream so loudly. He had not felt this much anger when he discovered the crimes his old friends had done. He had not felt as betrayed as when you claimed love for Nay Jung I, but it was not him.
He wanted to summon the Lightning Lord to destroy Liyue right then and there.
It was a frustration he had never felt before. Not when he was training with Jingliu. Not when he was scolding Yanqing. Not ever.
But Jing Yuan was not an impulsive man.
He prides his patience.
He prefers to scheme quietly rather than flashing bold moves.
Jing Yuan sucked in a breath between his teeth.
“I suppose it’s my turn to ask.”
He shut the windows and Zhongli���s heart ached as he could no longer see you.
But then he turned to look at Jing Yuan.
And he knew…
Jing Yuan is much older and wiser than he looks.
“Tell me, Rex Lapis,” he spoke sharply. “Did you wed this world’s version of (Y/n) (L/n) and leave her and her child to die?”
…
…
…
That silence was enough.
Jing Yuan’s private investigations behind your back were right.
In the vast “multi-verse”, there is a version of you that married this dragon who descended from his Archon status.
“I... have wrought upon them great suffering. I am unworthy of their affections. Should a day come where (Y/n) enacts the fury of my wife and child on their behalf, it will be justly deserved.”
Zhongli did not further elaborate.
Whatever happened in the past, it still haunted him to this day. Lingering in the back of his mind, dulling his self-confidence and wits. Maybe it’s why Yanfei thought you should investigate the cave. Maybe she wanted the alternate version of ███ ███ to come back.
But she's gone.
Jing Yuan took a step closer.
“Your wife is dead, Rex Lapis. They are my (Y/n), not yours.”
“I-… I know.” Zhongli— no— Morax spoke, voice laced with grief. “I know she and (Y/n) are not the same, however, I…”
Another step.
“If you wish for their happiness, you will continue to not speak to them. You have done enough damage.”
Morax closed his eyes mournfully. “I am well aware of this”
Another step.
“Let me take care of (Y/n). Let me make them happy.”
And another.
Jing Yuan stared deep into Morax’s soul.
In all his years of living, it didn’t occur to Morax that he’d find another familiar cuckoo again.
But it wasn’t his wife.
Jing Yuan took another step.
This man in front of him was pushing and pushing…
“Let this conversation be a verbal contract,” he said. “That I, Jing Yuan, vow to make (Y/n) happy, and that you, Rex Lapis, shall step down as a final way to atone your sins of uxoricide and filicide. Do you accept?”
Like a cuckoo throwing an egg off the nest.
Forgive me, dearest ███ ███.
I am unworthy of you, let alone this alternate incarnation of yourself.
Morax inhaled deeply. He remains in his head, yet he can't escape the present. The more time he spent searching inside himself for solutions over his approximately 6000 years in Teyvat, the more evident it became what the sensible path of action was. With open eyes, Morax welcomed the return of the present. He observed the vivid hues of existence. In the vicinity, he heard Jing Yuan's pet cuckoo bird. But most of all, he felt his age.
Whatever time was appropriate to dream of a family— it had long passed him.
I am but an old man who deserves to fade away quietly.
And he…
Has the same vigor Morax once had.
That obsessed look.
That tight, suffocating hold.
Just like staring at a reflection of himself, centuries passed.
Jing Yuan, too, was a man depraved. Worse, he is a man who lost everything, clinging only to (Y/n) as his only solace in Teyvat.
Morax noticed the way Jing Yuan took a walk with you, with one arm draping around your shoulder to ward off those he deemed unwanted.
Morax noticed the way Jing Yuan brags about you with his men in each available opportunity, socially claiming you his.
Morax noticed the way Jing Yuan glares at someone who got too close when he thought you weren’t looking, pushing suitors away.
Morax noticed the way Jing Yuan rarely talks about his story and would rather talk about something you had done, making you a large part of himself.
Morax noticed the way Jing Yuan only cares about you, and not even a sliver for himself.
He would rather not see him destroy himself the way he had done long ago.
And just like that, the General got rid of his greatest rival— Liyue’s archon and your husband from another life.
He is out of the nest.
“I accept.”
May June can now message Jing Yuan
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ABSOLUTELY CRYING AT THIS, YOU GUYS, I AM LOSING MY SHIT SO HARD LOOK AT HIM!!!! I CANNOT STOP LAUGHING WHAT A WEIRD LITTLE CREEPER HE'S BEING THE DRAMATIC FINGERS AROUND THE BEND OF THE ROCK WHY IS HE DOING THAT??? THERE'S NO REASON OTHER THAN TO BE A WEIRD LITTLE DRAMATIC CREEPER???? AND FOR WHO??? NO ONE IS THERE TO SEE HIM! HE'S JUST PEEKING OUT AROUND THE CORNER OF THE ROCK LIKE HE'S A SCARED LITTLE KID AND NOT ONE OF THE BIGGEST BADS IN THE STAR WARS UNIVERSE OR SOME WEIRDO WHO IS SPYING ON YOU IN THE SHOWER OR THAT HE'S SAD HIS BFF IS BETRAYING HIM AND GETTING A NEW FRIEND NOOOOO ): ): ): AND I CANNOT STOP LAUGHING ABOUT IT BECAUSE YEAH THAT CHECKS OUT EVERY SITH LORD HAS BEEN A HOT DISASTER WHO WENT ASS FIRST OUT A WINDOW AT SOME POINT ON OUR SCREEN WELCOME TO BEING A HOT MESS LOSER ON SCREEN, PLAGUEIS YOU'RE WEIRD AS HELL AND COMPLETELY UNSCARY WHEN YOU'RE NOT ACTIVELY KILLING ANYONE, YOU'LL FIT RIGHT IN
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"14S reporting." It's his first time leaving the Bunker. He couldn't say he was impressed by what he's seeing, for it couldn't be anything good. "I am sent here to inform you that we can no longer make use of YoRHa No.9 Type S, as the continuous damage from before have reached excessive levels. It was no longer possible to repair him. Even his memory chip became corrupted. The executives were left with little choice but to permanently deem him out of service. You understand what this means, don't you?"
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─「2B」─ the UNFAMILIAR figure of another YORHA UNIT caused the female to pause for a moment. there was little to no change to her expression, eyes that were clad under the black cloth shifted only slightly. it wasn't something one could perceive, even for a scanner unit like the other. but inside ? inside, there were so many data being processed, so many things that ran through her mind, through her system, through her thought process. everything happened in that split second. it was registering the words, the infor
we can no longer make use of yorha no.9 type s. continuous damage. excessive level. memory chip became corrupted. out of service.
it was the keywords in each of his sentence that were strung together, piece by piece, forming a whole information and reality that came crashing down upon her mind, upon her own thoughts. EMOTIONS. those should be non-existent. these words were supposed to be normal information she would process, analyzed, take into consideration if it would affect their current mission or not. if not, then they move on. no more, no less. there were no feelings involved. none. how could a yorha unit feel anything ? that's not possible. especially for a type like she was.
type E. Executioner.
what would an executioner need to feel anything for ?
you understand what this means, don't you ?
" yes. " was the only response that came from the ANDROID. there was, once again, nothing in her voice that would indicate the overwhelming weight she felt upon her shoulders, upon her head, upon her heart. do they even have a heart ? they don't, right ? androids don't have something like that, unlike humans do. they don't, they don't, they don't. then ... then ... !
then why did it hurt ? where did the pain come from ? where ?
she didn't understand it, she didn't know it. why she felt like EVERYTHING around her was beginning to collapse, why her system was pinging weird errors that her pulse was increasing, that her circulations were starting to malfunction, that her whole frame was shaking, and her thoughts were overloading. overloading with what ? what exactly ? it didn't make sense. none of it made sense. it was just ... another information. it was ... it was ... —
— 9S was gone. he's gone now. permanently.
and it echoed, repeatedly, permanent. permanent. like her own system refused to process that word, as though it was alien, as though she had the capacity to actually DENY the truth. who was she to deny the truth ? and it was registered, again and again, forcing its way inside of her core, inside her codes, imprinting into it. engraved. it was the truth.
YOU COULD NOT SAVE HIM. YOU COULD NOT SAVE HIM. YOU COULD NOT SAVE HIM.
fingers curled around her weapon, tightening, and her frame stopped moving for a split second, before her voice was heard once more.
" mission status, report. "
#charmingbrute#.answered#.[ 2B ]#[ oKAY WHY#TELL ME WHY DID YOU EVER THOUGHT#THIS IS AN OKAY THING TO SEND ???#HUHHHHHH ???#HKJHKHJLKH WHAT GAVE YOU THE IMPRESSION THAT -THIS- WAS OKAY ????#FUCK#FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKK#I AM NOT OKAY I AM CRYING I AM SOBBING#YOU CAME INTO MY HOUSE#REQUESTED MY SECRET ROSTER AND -DESTROYED- THE FUCK OUT OF HER#HJKLHJKJHJKL AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH NOOOOO NO NO NO NO ]#.long post
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"Is it such a sin to stand up for yourself?" you mutter as tears blur your vision. The way he reacted was visceral, instinctive even. "You never have to stand up for yourself ever again," says Daemon, reaching a hand to you, "come."
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You clutch you chest as you walk into your bedroom. You lean back onto the wooden door after closing it and slowly sink to the ground. You gasp for air as a myriad of emotions cut through you.
You stare off into space, reeling from the entire interaction. You start when you hear a knock on the door. You hear the voices of your servants. You turn to the knob, reach up for it, and slowly open it from where you sat.
"Princess?" worried voices call.
Your voice is small, "I'm here."
A servant peeps her head through the small opening and gasps when she sees you. She slinks her way in, and soon does the other one. They both help you up and fuss over you. You tell them you only need help getting dressed, nothing more.
Your servants manage to make you look like a princess after dressing you and fixing your hair. They even paint your lips and cheeks with rouge, making it as though you weren't look so ghastly.
You feel ghastly as you make your way to the maester's ward though. Dread grows with each step you take, thus why you move so sluggish. You only snap out of it when you hear someone call for you.
"AUNT!"
You come alive at the sight of Aegon running over. You find his mother smiling behind him, clutching her belly as she followed after the boy. You crouch down and reach for him.
Aegon giggles as he jumps into your arms, "AUNT!"
You kiss his temple and embrace him fondly, "sȳz ñāqes, ñuha valītsos." Good morning, my boy.
You grunt as you stand with the young prince in your arms. Alicent is soon before you, "good morn," she smiles, though it flattens when she sees your eyes, "sister..."
You shake your head, "it's Daemon."
The queen clenches her jaw.
Aegon finds interest in the jewel on your neck. He takes it in his hand and tries to eat it. You turn to him and shush him, moving his hand away.
"What did he do to you?" your sister asks.
"Not to me," you turn to her, "to my wards."
Alicent knits her brows.
"They..." you sigh. The image of Daemon's bloody face haunts you, "they brawled outside my bedroom."
"What?" she pulls her head back.
"His face was bloody..." your voice shakes, "and... he said things to me-"
"Aunt, cake!" Aegon announces, grabbing your cheeks.
Alicent turns to her son, pushing his hands off you, "darling, mummy said you'll get cake later."
Aegon whines, "cake!"
You turn to Aegon, shushing him momentarily before turning back to Alicent, "I slapped him."
Your sister freezes, a line forming between her brows. She takes a moment before replying, "you slapped Daemon?"
You simply stare at her as Aegon throws his head back and whines, "CAKEEEEE!"
You watch as the boy begins to squirm whilst crying out for cake. You try to calm him, but eventually, Alicent takes him from you. She manages to calm the boy by offering to play with him instead. Aegon scratches his teary eyes, turning to you. He points.
You stroke his head, "I'll play with you later."
He whines, "NOOOOO!"
"My love," Alicent whispers against his cheek, "aunt has to go-"
"NOOO!"
"I just have to go get cake for you, Aegon," you shush him, "you want cake, right?"
Aegon pouts as tears stream down his face.
"Why don't you go play with mummy and aunt will get cake for us?"
Alicent kisses Aegon's tears away and he nods. The boy sighs, "no long."
You nod in understanding, "no, sweetheart. I will not take long."
With that, you leave your nephew and sister, continuing your walk to the maester's ward. When you arrive, your stomach drops as the arguing you hear coming from inside.
When you open the door, the room goes silent. You immediately lock eyes with Daemon who was standing next to your maester.
"Oh, thank the gods," the old man says.
You walk in with knit brows, "what is happening?"
"The prince refuses that I tend to his wounds," the maester says, handing you an iron tray that had both a damp and dry cloth, "he insists only on receiving care for you, my princess."
Of course. You stare at the tray, recalling years ago when he did the same after his tourney, the wordlessly take it. You examine the room, quickly finding your wards sitting on cots.
They stand to attention when you turn to them and nod, "princess."
Daemon feels his hand tremble as you walk towards them.
"Are you two well?"
The twins examine your demeanor before nodding slowly, "yes."
"Have you any injuries?"
"No."
"Good," you nod, "you may leave."
Their eyes widen.
You walk towards Daemon grabbing his arm, "sit."
"Princess?" Erryk asks, "do you mean-"
"Both," you spare them a glance, "both of you may retire."
Daemon turns to them, slowly sitting on the cot.
You turn, "I beg your pardon, maester, but would you do me a favor?"
Erryk is silenced. Arryk feels dread in his stomach as he nods, "we shall away then, my princess."
"How might I serve, princess?" the maester asks.
Daemon watches the twins walk out, awfully pleased with himself, until he feels his head begin to throb.
"Would you please go to the kitchen and request cake be delivered to Aegon?"
The maester is taken aback by the request but otherwise nods, "of course."
"Thank you," you nod, watching him leave.
Daemon does the same.
The moment it's just you and him, he turns to you, finding your eyes are already on him. He clenches his jaw, regretting it when it makes the pain in his nose flare.
Your sigh, walking towards him. You start when he touches your hip.
His lips part as consequences, "I-"
"Don't speak," you take the damp towel and hand him the tray, "I do not wish to speak to you as I tend to your wounds."
Daemon withdraws the hand he had on your hip in lieu of taking the tray. The metal thing felt blistering and heavy. He lowers his head.
"Don't move," you snap, grabbing his chin. When he lifts his head, you quickly retreat your hand, realizing you were about to force his gaze up which would have hurt him. You didn't want to hurt him, regardless of how he made you feel.
Daemon does not think this is why you pull away; he thinks the look of him disgusted you, especially in this state. His grip on the tray tightens.
You could tell his nose was broken from how his eyes were swollen. Many an occasion has this happened to Gwayne. You sigh and shake your head, "you should have let the maester see to your nose at least."
It was strange that now that you were before him, he could barely feel the pain on his face, not because it was gone but because felt it every where, most especially in his chest.
"It's broken," you mutter, placing a hand on his cheek.
Daemon leans back to allow you more access to his face. He so badly wanted to lean into your touch, but he was afraid you'd pull away again. Instead, he closes his eyes, "is it crooked?"
You examine his nose, "no," you trace his bridge with your thumb.
His breath hitches and his skin pricks with goosebumps.
"But a vein must have ruptured from the hit," you say as you wipe the blood off him.
Daemon involuntarily winces.
You immediately pull back, "I-"
He opens his eyes and snatches your hand.
You stare at each other for a long moment.
He brings your hand to his cheek, "think nothing of it," his eyes are watery. His thumb rubs your skin, "do not pull away."
When he releases you, you finish off wiping the red off his skin until all that was left on his face were purple bruises and split skin. You comb his hair back with your fingers and it makes his brows furrow. You sigh, take the tray from him, and set it aside, "I did not mean for that to hurt."
"It didn't," he mutters, watching you go through the objects on the maester's table. You take the ointment and turn back to him. He adds, "I liked it."
You grit your teeth and swipe a dollop of salve on your finger.
Daemon notices your reaction, "are you angry with m-"
"I told you not to speak," you snap for the second time.
His lips part, but only a sigh comes out.
You inhale sharply.
He can feel your hand tremble as you rub the ointment on his wounds. It hurts, not because of the pressure you apply on his skin, but because he knows your anger is the cause of your tremors.
You look him once over after tending to his cuts then examine his body, "anywhere else you're injured, prince?"
"Daor," he mutters, shaking his head, "sepār ñuha prūmia." No, just my heart.
You chuckle dryly at his words, quickly turning away from him to shake your head in disbelief.
Daemon swallows a lump that forms in his throat, "kostilus." Please.
You turn to him, scratching your eyes. The last thing you wanted was to cry in front of him. "Skoros yno?" What of mine?
His eyes follow you as you sit down next to him. He shifts in his spot to face you.
You grip the cot, "gaomagon ao pendagon ñuha prūmia ēza daor ōdrio." You take a deep breath before turning to him. Do you think my heart has no wound?
He sees the tears build in your eyes. He reaches out to wipe it, but you recoil and do it off yourself. He curls his hand into a fist and rests it on his lap. He whispers your name and licks his lips, "it was not my intention."
"Then what was your intention then?" you quip, eyes refusing to leave his though it blurred with tears, "if not to sear holes into my heart?"
What was his intention? What was his intention? Why was it that he found your letters so gut-curling and unseemly? Why was the thought of reading your words while he was seas apart so sickening? He opens his mouth, "I do not know."
You are stunned by his response. It makes you stiffen in your spot. Your stomach sours and your breath hitches, "... you do not even know why you resent me so?"
"I do not resent you," he raises his voice slightly, "but I did bare resentment." He shakes his head, "perhaps for my brother, for your brother, for your father."
You scratch your eyes again. You sigh and nod, "I see."
Daemon's hands flinch.
"So," you knit your brows, "you cast your resentment onto me because..."
His throat tightens though his jaw slacks, "why do you insist upon this?"
"What do you mean?!" you raise.
"You insist to misunderstand me."
"I insist the opposite, you fool!" you snap, coming to a stand, "every day I wrote to you, even after I knew for certain you would not!"
The balm on Daemon's face is washed with the salt from his eyes, "I've read them."
You tense but then you shake your head, "liar."
The word makes him whimper, "last night. I read them all. I read about how you ate cake, and went to the sea, and wrote to Laenor, and-"
"Am I supposed to be impressed?" you blurt, feeling your breath grow short, "those letters were not meant to be read that way."
"But, I know your heart now," he slowly stands.
You laugh, "know my heart!"
"Or the parts you opened up to me," he reaches a hand. He sniffles; it feels like a blade up the nostrils. "If it pleases you, I would write a thousand letters in return."
You scoff, taking a step back, "you would survive three years of silence from me?"
The thought shatters him.
You watch as red drips from his nose to his lips. You do nothing but wait for his response.
He shakes his head, "I would not."
You shake your head and grab the dry towel for him. He takes it and feels his stomach drop when you begin to pace around. The closer you get to the door, the more uneasy he feels. He cannot help himself, "kostilus gaomagon daor henujagon nyke." Please do not leave me.
The thought makes you laugh, so you do. You turn to him, nearly moved to spit at his face. He so brazenly requests such a thing from you when he paid you no heed when you requested the same from him. You do not act beneath yourself though, "iksan daor tetan lēda ao." I am not finished with you.
He does not like the tone with which you speak this, and yet he says, "iksan biare." I am glad.
"Why did you ambush my wards?"
Daemon tenses.
"How did you come into my chambers if they were keeping watch outside?"
He wipes the blood off his lips, "there are secret passages to nearly every room in the castle."
You shrug and cross your arms, "did you attack them because it would be too easy to attack me?"
He pulls his head back, "do not vilify me," he shake his head, "do not presume I would ever atta-"
"YOU ARE MY VILLAIN!" your splintered resolve finally breaks. You unleash your rage by the hurtling your heel at him. Your right shoe misses Daemon by a hair, but your left shoe hits him in the shoulder when he turns to dodge your assault.
You charge at him with a guttural screech, fully intent on battering his body, but he does not let you. He grabs your wrists and easily overpowers you, calling your name out.
Daemon traps you in his arms and in return, you begin kicking him. He yelps when you kick his shin, but does not release you. He shudders as he tightens his arms around you, "kostilus, kostilus keligon. Gīda ilagon, ik—" please, please stop. Calm down, I—
"LET ME GO!" you shriek, exerting all of your strength into elbowing him.
You can't though, his hold on you was too strong. And though he hated that this was how he got to hold you, he could not help the way his face leaned into your nape to breathe in your scent. He weeps against you, begging you to calm down.
And you do, not because you want to, but because you could no longer breathe.
Daemon feels it, the exact moment you tense just to go limp. His hold on you loosens in an instant. It was a mistake because of how you flop forward. His heart leaps into his mouth as he feels your body spasm and gasp for air.
He lays you down on the cot and his eyes go wide at the sight of the veins popping out of your neck. He immediately rubs your chest and frantically calls out your name.
You looked like you were choking. A drowned man in the Stepstones immediately comes to mind.
He takes your jaw and breathes air into your mouth. A string of snot mixed with blood is drawn out between you as he pulls away to examine your face.
He had only seen it once. One of the men from the fleet was found washed up shore. When he was dragged out, they fully intended to bury him, until an Iron Born came forward.
Daemon presses his hands atop your ribs and begins to pump your chest. He does this a few times before pinching your nostrils and breathing into your mouth again. He remembered what the Iron Born called it: the kiss of life. He brings to mind the explanation the Iron Born gave when he had asked how he did it.
And as he did it on you, he could only pray that he remembered it right.
The prince could barely see from how his tears blurred his vision. It looked like you were going grey and whatever he was doing wasn't working. His voice shakes as he blurts, "kostilus, gaomagon daor henujagon nyke!" please, do not leave me.
You eyelids begin to close.
"KOSTILUS," he pumps your chest again, "vestā īlē daor tetan lēda nyke!" He shudders as he wills you to come back to consciousness. PLEASE, you said you were not finished with me!
You feel your lungs deflate. You can't seem to feel anything else.
Daemon grabs your cheeks and breathes into your mouth again, and again, and again. He presses his head to your chest and listens closely to your heart beat. Tears rush down to your skin as he screws his eyes shut. He can't hear anything. He can't hear anything.
He scoops you into you his chest and sobs into you. He mutters your name repeatedly. He cannot seem to do anything else but weep.
He takes your hand, cold and clammy, and squeezes it as he brings it to his mouth to kiss it, "please, please, please, don't leave me."
He sniffles and straightens up. Help. He should call for help. "MAESTER! MAESTER!" He comes to a stand, but his knees are weak and he crumples down to the floor.
A few moments later, a maester from one of the inner offices emerges. Seeing the distraught prince with a bloody nose, he is taken aback, "my prince-"
"HELP HER!" he howls from the floor. He tries to come to a stand, but even his arm gives in and he slips down to the floor. He resigns to his misery and lays on his back, "HELP MY WIFE!"
The maester runs to you, nearly tripping on the legs of the prince.
As Daemon groans helplessly, the maester that had gone to have cake delivered to young prince Aegon arrives. He runs up to the prince, "my prince, what has-"
"My wife is dead, isn't she?" Daemon mumbles through a sob.
The maester stiffens and turns to the other maester with wide eyes, "what has-"
"Her heartbeat is weak," the other maester blurts, "she succumbed to her affliction, no doubt."
The old man walks over Daemon and comes to your side. The one who had inspected you turns to the prince, "rise, your grace. She is not overcome. Her heart persists even in weakness."
Daemon lifts his head and scrambles to his knees. He calls your name, lips wobbling, cheeks wet with sorrow, a red streak trickled down from his nose.
"However," the same maester says as he gives way to Daemon, "I fear there is nothing else we can do but pray her heart keeps persisting." He offers the prince a towel.
He sniffles, opting to wipe his face on his sleeve. He shakes his head, "she will persist. She is not finished with me."
The maesters look at each other. One says, "we shall give you your privacy, Prince Daemon. I shall have the sept pray for her health and strength."
Daemon kneels beside your cot, squeezing one of your hands, "a blanket, maester. She is cold."
"Of course," he offers him the blanket neatly folded on the other cot.
The two maesters leave after Daemon cloaks you with a blanket. He tucks you in and brushes your brown hair away from your face. He sniffles as he looks upon you. Another bout of sobs arrest him.
He rests his head upon your lap, unwanting to put pressure upon your chest or belly. He embraces you as he despairs. His voice his broken as he says your name. He dries his tears on the blanket before coming to a stand.
He finds the maesters, all huddled up and muttering to each other in the office room.
"My prince," one says, walking over, "what is—"
"Is th-ere truly nothing to be done?" his voice cracks, low and pained.
They look at each other for a moment. One replies, "forgive us, your grace, but no."
Daemon makes a pained noise as he sniffles.
The maesters all look upon the troubled prince with pity.
"Right," he wipes his face on his sleeve, "I will bring her to our chambers then, that I may share in her embrace. Perhaps my heat and desperation with strengthen her body."
They nod as Daemon walks off.
The prince gathers you in his arms. You feel lighter than he remembers. He gazes upon your face, thinking of the day he had carried you home from the temple. He remembers your terrible prayer and gulps, "the gods do not grant such cruel things."
He walks down the halls that presently felt haunted. He can barely feel your breathing on his neck. He prays it is because has been thickened from the burns he suffered in the Stepstones.
He stops in his tracks when he sees Alicent with her son lingering in one of the halls. He and her stare at each other heatedly for a good moment. He continues walking.
Alicent turns to Aegon, "my darling, we should go inside."
"No!" Aegon whines, "AUNT!"
Daemon's chest tightens.
Alicent distracts him as Daemon comes closer, "later, my love we will-"
The distraction does not work. Aegon spots you and recognizes you too easily, "AUNT!"
Alicent tries to hold him back, but she can only do so much in her pregnant state.
Daemon stops in his tracks once more as the young boy runs up to him. Aegon, with his tiny hands and big violet eyes, reaches out for you.
Alicent runs over, "Aegon, no!" She pulls him away.
Aegon whines but stops when Daemon says, "issa ēdrure, valītsos." She is sleeping, boy.
Alicent clenches her teeth. Aegon furrows his brows, "ēdrure?" Sleep?
"Kessa," Daemon mutters, "issa olvie ēdrugī." Yes. She is very tired.
Aegon pouts, "cake!"
"Tolī. Ziry teptan ao iā kivio, gōntan ziry daor?" Later. She gave you a promise, did she not?
Aegon blinks at him and points, "sad."
Daemon tenses.
"Mundagon sodjisto ēdrugon." Sad aunt sleeps.
Daemon adjusts you in his arms as he looks off. He hastens in his way back to your shared chambers.
Alicent watches the man walk away with her sister in his arms. A shiver runs down her spine as she begins to think the worst.
Daemon changes you out of your dress and undoes your hair. He tucks you in bed before changing himself. He lights a single candle by the bedside table before lying beside you.
He nuzzles into your neck and throws his leg over yours. He rubs your bare sternum, glad to be able to feel the thumping of your heart.
His stream of tears do not seem to cease. He can now feel every fibre of pain on his face and body. He aches and aches; He aches mostly for you.
He thinks back to your last conversation. He recalls the explanation he owes you, "I did it because you spoke their names in your sleep."
You sigh heavily.
Daemon lifts his head up, hoping you would wake. You do not.
He sighs, wiping his face on his dress shirt and clarifies, "Arryk and Erryk."
He looks upon your form. Your face shines under candlelight. He longs to see it under the light of the sun and moon.
"I cannot bare to know you dream of them," he mutters, propping himself up on one arm, "you moaned their name."
Your arms are already warm but Daemon rubs them still.
"Gods know how I surely moaned your name in my sleep," he sighs, "... as I fucked other women."
You remain unmoving.
"Did they sate you, I wonder?" his throat tightens. He feels a hot tear run down his nose, "... did you moan my name when they fucked you?"
Jealously, anger, and hurt force more tears out of him. He rests his head on your chest, awfully defeated. He clutches the fabric of your nightgown as he laments with his eyes screwed shut.
"Do you dream of me?"
Warmth spreads across his cheek. He feels his snot begin to drip. He moves to wipe his nose, but feels something in the way.
You fool.
His eyes open. His lips part when he realizes your hand is on his cheek. He lifts his head, placing his hand atop yours.
"D—mon."
His breath trembles. He squeezes your hand, "I'm here." He kisses your palm.
Your eyes slowly open.
Daemon's heart skips. He laughs but quickly breaks into a sob.
You can barely see his face in the darkness, but you can feel the way his head shook as he wept. You brush your tears with your thumb and repeat the words Daemon thought he imagined you say, "you fool."
He shudders as he watches you knit your brows.
"I dream only one dream," you whisper. You grunt as you feel your head pound, "and it is neither of my wards or you."
He shifts slightly to better see you, careful to keep your hand on his face. He asks, soft and careful, "what do you dream of?"
He tenses when you pull away. He is about to beg for forgiveness for even asking, but then he realizes you merely wished to sit up. He helps you lean back on the headboard and sits beside you, hands fidgeting with the blanket, for he did not know if you wanted to hold his hand.
You don't. Your hands go to his beaten face. You sigh, "our children."
Daemon's expression slips.
"Alaeric and Alyrie," you add, gently rubbing his cheeks, "it was not Arryk nor Erryk's name I muttered, but theirs."
His hands come atop yours again. His eyes are red with tears.
"They-" your lips tremble, "-they were a moon too early."
The sound of your name spilling from his lips is horrible.
You lower your gaze and slowly pull away from him. You clutch your chest when you feel it begin to tighten. You take your time to draw in deep breaths to calm yourself.
Daemon brushes your hair back and rubs your arms.
You whine when he touches you. You pull away, "please, don't."
It is worse than a kick to the teeth how you move back. He is frantic when you look as though you wanted to leave bed. He calls out your name and immediately begins to apologize, "please. Forgive me. I will not tou-"
"I need to go for a walk," you mutter as you come to a stand.
Daemon immediately springs into action, taking your arm, helping you keep yourself upright. You grip his bicep and point to the chair, "my robe."
He immediately takes your robe and helps you put it on. He proceeds to help you slip your shoes on and you whine at the tightening of your chest. Daemon is frantic, "what is it? What is happening? What do you need?"
You shake your head and sigh, "a walk... just a walk."
Neither of you speak as you walk outside of your room. You saunter down the now dark halls holding Daemon's bicep. His gaze barely leaves you. He is focused only on your conditions.
You feel exhausted, and you turn to the prince, figuring he probably felt the same way, "it's not much farther."
He shakes his head, "where you go, I will follow."
You see the worry on his face. You do not have it in you to try and comfort him. You turn away and rub your chest.
Soon, you arrive to your destination. The gardens are lit up by the light of the stars and the moon. You move past the thick rose bushes and find the fountain that rest behind them.
Daemon is surprised by its existence.
You take notice, "my father had it commissioned for me."
He gasps when you release him and chases after your hand.
You watch as he squeezes you and shake your head, "I will just walk around the fountain, Daemon."
He turns to the said fountain, watching leaves and blossoms flow with the trickling water. He nods, "then so shall I."
Daemon secures your hand on his bicep. You do not argue, "very well."
The two of you walk around the large, rounded stone. Daemon is one again focused only on you. On the other hand, you are solely focused on loosening the tightness in your lungs.
"Will you tell me more about them?"
Them? You didn't not want to talk about them, lest you faint. You reach for a rose bud that fell into the water and fish it out. You take a moment to decide on your answer and end up shaking your head, "another time."
Daemon is disheartened by your response for he did not know if you did not want to speak of your children because of how greatly it hurt or because you simply did not want to speak to him. Still, he nods, "of course."
It does not take long for you to completely circle around the fountain. You look at the flower in your hand, "you do not have to trace all my steps."
"I do."
You turn to him.
His breath hitches.
"Why?"
He momentarily looks at the flower in your hand, "I do not want you to go where I cannot follow."
You stop in your tracks; so does he.
He stares at you, hoping you had something to say.
You don't. You continue walking.
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