#that makes me sound terminally online and its because i am. its also cause all i ever wanna do is draw :((

[todayisafridaynight]

i HAVE to keep the daigo plush locked away lest i squeeze it every five minutes to alleviate the cuteness aggression i feel whenever i see it

[cannabisrefugee-esq]

(via A "Rational Suicide" Note. Ft. Anne Örtegren.)

November 9, 2019

This is a “suicide” note left by a ME/CFS sufferer who sought and found relief from her suffering via legal, medically assisted suicide.  She says this manifesto took her months to write, which I do not doubt a bit: it is long, detailed and polished and was written when she was feeling terrible.  She wrote it with the intent to describe her almost indescribable pain and experience, and to convince others to take action on behalf of ME/CFS sufferers, both of which are lofty communication goals when anyone is seriously ill.

Describing and convincing have been my most impossible endeavors since I’ve been seriously ill myself and I think I have mostly failed, judging by others’ reactions to everything I’ve managed to gather the physical and emotional grit to attempt to communicate: that I am seriously, hopelessly ill with an incurable, progressive disease, that there is no bottom to how bad this can get, and it matters not what anyone thinks about it.  Some things are just true regardless of whether anyone believes it.

In this note, ME/CFS patient Anne Örtegren describes symptoms and dilemmas I have experienced myself and she foresees logical outcomes to her predicament, something sick people and especially sick women are never allowed to do because catastrophization. For example, she knows that her heightened sensitivity to light and sound will make treatment or recovery in a hospital setting impossible where the standard of care in that environment requires constant activity and interruptions, and provides no privacy and no escape from the harsh industrial lighting, interrogations by (allegedly) well meaning staff and the general hustle and bustle of capitalistic money making on the backs and bodies of sick and dying people.

That is but one example of a sick person making informed prognostications regarding likely outcomes of the things other people want to do to us, and as someone who shares these sensitivities to light and sound (and therefore an aversion to hospital settings) as but one example of our shared experience of being seriously ill, I appreciated her spelling it out.  I also feel extremely sad that she had to, and furious that no one who allegedly cared about her wellbeing including medical professionals who should be fucking sensitive to the actual needs of real patients could make the leap themselves.  There are many such examples in this letter.

See for yourselves, and understand that as illuminating and raw as this letter is, it’s also been edited by the publisher and a so-called suicide prevention expert because the bottom line everywhere appears to be that there is no such thing as rational suicide or euthanasia because well people and people who make money off of the long-term sick and dying say so.  And because living in this capitalistic, patriarchal nightmare is so hideous for so many people that “suicide contagion” exists, where just knowing that someone, somewhere had whatever it took to end themselves is likely to cause untold numbers of happy, healthy consumers with bright futures to do the same damn thing.  Yeah that’s it, let’s keep telling ourselves that.

The letter as published is reprinted below.  The unedited letter supposedly exists online somewhere if anyone cares to look and has the energy to figure out how and where the edited version differs from the original.  Comments are open below.

Farewell – A Last Post from Anne Örtegren

Nobody can say that I didn’t put up enough of a fight.

For 16 years I have battled increasingly severe ME/CFS. My condition has steadily deteriorated and new additional medical problems have regularly appeared, making it ever more difficult to endure and make it through the day (and night).

Throughout this time, I have invested almost every bit of my tiny energy in the fight for treatment for us ME/CFS patients. Severely ill, I have advocated from my bedroom for research and establishment of biomedical ME/CFS clinics to get us proper health care. All the while, I have worked hard to find something which would improve my own health. I have researched all possible treatment options, got in contact with international experts and methodically tried out every medication, supplement and regimen suggested.

Sadly, for all the work done, we still don’t have adequately sized specialized biomedical care for ME/CFS patients here in Stockholm, Sweden – or hardly anywhere on the planet. We still don’t have in-patient hospital units adapted to the needs of the severely ill ME/CFS patients. Funding levels for biomedical ME/CFS research remain ridiculously low in all countries and the erroneous psychosocial model which has caused me and others so much harm is still making headway.

And sadly, for me personally things have gone from bad to worse to unbearable. I am now mostly bedbound and constantly tortured by ME/CFS symptoms. I also suffer greatly from a number of additional medical problems, the most severe being a systematic hyper-reactivity in the form of burning skin combined with an immunological/allergic reaction. This is triggered by so many things that it has become impossible to create an adapted environment. Some of you have followed my struggle to find clothes and bed linen I can tolerate. Lately, I am simply running out. I no longer have clothes I can wear without my skin “burning up” and my body going into an allergic state.

This means I no longer see a way out from this solitary ME/CFS prison and its constant torture. I can no longer even do damage control, and my body is at the end of its rope. Therefore, I have gone through a long and thorough process involving several medical assessments to be able to choose a peaceful way out: I have received a preliminary green light for accompanied suicide through a clinic in Switzerland.

When you read this I am at rest, free from suffering at last. I have written this post to explain why I had to take this drastic step. Many ME/CFS patients have found it necessary to make the same decision, and I want to speak up for us, as I think my reasons may be similar to those of many others with the same sad destiny.

These reasons can be summed up in three headers: unbearable suffering; no realistic way out of the suffering; and the lack of a safety net, meaning potential colossal increase in suffering when the next setback or medical incident occurs.

Important note Before I write more about these reasons, I want to stress something important. Depression is not the cause of my choice. Though I have been suffering massively for many years, I am not depressed. I still have all my will and my motivation. I still laugh and see the funny side of things, I still enjoy doing whatever small activities I can manage. I am still hugely interested in the world around me – my loved ones and all that goes on in their lives, the society, the world (what is happening in human rights issues? how can we solve the climate change crisis?) During these 16 years, I have never felt any lack of motivation.

On the contrary, I have consistently fought for solutions with the goal to get myself better and help all ME/CFS patients get better. There are so many things I want to do, I have a lot to live for. If I could only regain some functioning, quieten down the torture a bit and be able to tolerate clothes and a normal environment, I have such a long list of things I would love to do with my life!

Three main reasons So depression is not the reason for my decision to terminate my life. The reasons are the following:

1. Unbearable suffering Many severely ill ME/CFS patients are hovering at the border of unbearable suffering. We are constantly plagued by intense symptoms, we endure high-impact every-minute physical suffering 24 hours a day, year after year. I see it as a prison sentence with torture. I am homebound and mostly bedbound – there is the prison. I constantly suffer from excruciating symptoms: The worst flu you ever had. Sore throat, bronchi hurting with every breath. Complete exhaustion, almost zero energy, a body that weighs a tonne and sometimes won’t even move. Muscle weakness, dizziness, great difficulties standing up. Sensory overload causing severe suffering from the brain and nervous system. Massive pain in muscles, painful inflammations in muscle attachments. Intensely burning skin. A feeling of having been run over by a bus, twice, with every cell screaming. This has got to be called torture.

It would be easier to handle if there were breaks, breathing spaces. But with severe ME/CFS there is no minute during the day when one is comfortable. My body is a war zone with constant firing attacks. There is no rest, no respite. Every move of every day is a mountain-climb. Every night is a challenge, since there is no easy sleep to rescue me from the torture. I always just have to try to get through the night. And then get through the next day.

It would also be easier if there were distractions. Like many patients with severe ME/CFS I am unable to listen to music, radio, podcasts or audio books, or to watch TV. I can only read for short bouts of time, and use the computer for even shorter moments. I am too ill to manage more than rare visits or phone calls from my family and friends, and sadly unable to live with someone. This solitary confinement aspect of ME/CFS is devastating and it is understandable that ME/CFS has been described as the “living death disease”.

For me personally, the situation has turned into an emergency not least due to my horrific symptom of burning skin linked to immunological/allergic reactions. This appeared six years into my ME/CFS, when I was struck by what seemed like a complete collapse of the bodily systems controlling immune system, allergic pathways, temperature control, skin and peripheral nerves. I had long had trouble with urticaria, hyperreactive skin and allergies, but at this point a violent reaction occurred and my skin completely lost tolerance. I started having massively burning skin, severe urticaria and constant cold sweats and shivers (these reactions reminded me of the first stages of the anaphylactic shock I once had, then due to heat allergy).

Since then, for ten long years, my skin has been burning. It is an intense pain. I have been unable to tolerate almost all kinds of clothes and bed linen as well as heat, sun, chemicals and other everyday things. These all trigger the burning skin and the freezing/shivering reaction into a state of extreme pain and suffering. Imagine being badly sunburnt and then being forced to live under a constant scalding sun – no relief in sight.

At first I managed to find a certain textile fabric which I could tolerate, but then this went out of production, and in spite of years of negotiations with the textile industry it has, strangely, proven impossible to recreate that specific weave. This has meant that as my clothes have been wearing out, I have been approaching the point where I will no longer have clothes and bed linen that are tolerable to my skin. It has also become increasingly difficult to adapt the rest of my living environment so as to not trigger the reaction and worsen the symptoms. Now that I am running out of clothes and sheets, ahead of me has lain a situation with constant burning skin and an allergic state of shivering/cold sweats and massive suffering. This would have been absolutely unbearable.

For 16 years I have had to manage an ever-increasing load of suffering and problems. They now add up to a situation which is simply no longer sustainable.

2. No realistic way out of the suffering A very important factor is the lack of realistic hope for relief in the future. It is possible for a person to bear a lot of suffering, as long as it is time-limited. But the combination of massive suffering and a lack of rational hope for remission or recovery is devastating.

Think about the temporary agony of a violent case of gastric flu. Picture how you are feeling those horrible days when you are lying on the bathroom floor between attacks of diarrhoea and vomiting. This is something we all have to live through at times, but we know it will be over in a few days. If someone told you at that point: “you will have to live with this for the rest of your life”, I am sure you would agree that it wouldn’t feel feasible. It is unimaginable to cope with a whole life with the body in that insufferable state every day, year after year. The level of unbearableness in severe ME/CFS is the same.

If I knew there was relief on the horizon, it would be possible to endure severe ME/CFS and all the additional medical problems, even for a long time, I think. The point is that there has to be a limit, the suffering must not feel endless.

One vital aspect here is of course that patients need to feel that the ME/CFS field is being taken forward. Sadly, we haven’t been granted this feeling – see my previous blogs relating to this here and here.

Another imperative issue is the drug intolerance that I and many others with ME/CFS suffer from. I have tried every possible treatment, but most of them have just given me side-effects, many of which have been irreversible. My stomach has become increasingly dysfunctional, so for the past few years any new drugs have caused immediate diarrhoea. One supplement triggered massive inflammation in my entire urinary tract, which has since persisted. The list of such occurrences of major deterioration caused by different drugs/treatments is long, and with time my reactions have become increasingly violent. I now have to conclude that my sensitivity to medication is so severe that realistically it is very hard for me to tolerate drugs or supplements.

This has two crucial meanings for many of us severely ill ME/CFS patients: There is no way of relieving our symptoms. And even if treatments appear in the future, with our sensitivity of medication any drug will carry a great risk of irreversible side-effects producing even more suffering. This means that even in the case of a real effort finally being made to bring biomedical research into ME/CFS up to levels on par with that of other diseases, and possible treatments being made accessible, for some of us it is unlikely that we would be able to benefit. Considering our extreme sensitivity to medication, one could say it’s hard to have realistic hope of recovery or relief for us.

In the past couple of years I, being desperate, have challenged the massive side-effect risk and tried one of the treatments being researched in regards to ME/CFS. But I received it late in the disease process, and it was a gamble. I needed it to have an almost miraculous effect: a quick positive response which eliminated many symptoms – most of all I needed it to stop my skin from burning and reacting, so I could tolerate the clothes and bed linen produced today. I have been quickly running out of clothes and sheets, so I was gambling with high odds for a quick and extensive response. Sadly, I wasn’t a responder. I have also tried medication for Mast Cell Activation Disorder and a low-histamine diet, but my burning skin hasn’t abated. Since I am now running out of clothes and sheets, all that was before me was constant burning hell.

3. The lack of a safety net, meaning potential colossal increase in suffering when the next setback or medical incident occurs The third factor is the insight that the risk for further deterioration and increased suffering is high.

On top of the nearly unbearable symptoms it is very likely that in the future things will get even worse. An example in my case could be my back and neck pain. I would need to strengthen muscles to prevent them from getting worse. But the characteristic symptom of Post-Exertional Malaise (PEM) when I attempt even small activities, is hugely problematic.

Whenever we try to ignore the PEM issue and push through, we immediately crash and become much sicker. We might go from being able to at least get up and eat, to being completely bedbound, until the PEM has subsided. Sometimes, it doesn’t subside, and we find ourselves irreversibly deteriorated, at a new, even lower baseline level, with no way of improving.

PEM is not something that you can work around.

For me, new medical complications also continue to arise, and I have no way of amending them. I already need surgery for one existing problem, and it is likely that it will be needed for other issues in the future, but surgery or hospital care is not feasible for several reasons:

One is that my body seems to lack repairing mechanisms. Previous biopsies have not healed properly, so my doctor is doubtful about my ability to recover after surgery.

Another, more general and hugely critical, is that with severe ME/CFS it is impossible to tolerate normal hospital care. For ME/CFS patients the sensory overload problem and the extremely low energy levels mean that a normal hospital environment causes major deterioration. The sensory input that comes with shared rooms, people coming and going, bright lights, noise, etc, escalates our disease. We are already in such fragile states that a push in the wrong direction is catastrophic. For me, with my burning skin issue, there is also the issue of not tolerating the mattresses, pillows, textile fabrics, etc used in a hospital.

Just imagine the effects of a hospital stay for me: It would trigger my already severe ME/CFS into new depths – likely I would become completely bedbound and unable to tolerate any light or noise. The skin hyperreactivity would, within a few hours, trigger my body into an insufferable state of burning skin and agonizing immune-allergic reactions, which would then be impossible to reverse. My family, my doctor and I agree: I must never be admitted to a hospital, since there is no end to how much worse that would make me.

Many ME/CFS patients have experienced irreversible deterioration due to hospitalization. We also know that the understanding of ME/CFS is extremely low or non-existent in most hospitals, and we hear about ME/CFS patients being forced into environments or activities which make them much worse. I am aware of only two places in the world with specially adjusted hospital units for severe ME/CFS, Oslo, Norway, and Gold Coast, Australia. We would need such units in every city around the globe.

It is extreme to be this severely ill, have so many medical complications arise continually and know this: There is no feasible access to hospital care for me. There are no tolerable medications to use when things get worse or other medical problems set in. As a severely ill ME/CFS patient I have no safety net at all. There is simply no end to how bad things can get with severe ME/CFS.

Coping skills – important but not enough I realize that when people hear about my decision to terminate my life, they will wonder about my coping skills. I have written about this before and I want to mention the issue here too:

While it was extremely hard at the beginning to accept chronic illness, I have over the years developed a large degree of acceptance and pretty good coping skills. I have learnt to accept tight limits and appreciate small qualities of life. I have learnt to cope with massive amounts of pain and suffering and still find bright spots. With the level of acceptance I have come to now, I would have been content even with relatively small improvements and a very limited life. If, hypothetically, the physical suffering could be taken out of the equation, I would have been able to live contentedly even though my life continued to be restricted to my small apartment and include very little activity. Unlike most people I could find such a tiny life bearable and even happy. But I am not able to cope with these high levels of constant physical suffering.

In short, to sum up my level of acceptance as well as my limit: I can take the prison and the extreme limitations – but I can no longer take the torture. And I cannot live with clothes that constantly trigger my burning skin.

Not alone – and not a rash decision In spite of being unable to see friends or family for more than rare and brief visits, and in spite of having limited capacity for phone conversations, I still have a circle of loved ones. My friends and family all understand my current situation and they accept and support my choice. While they do not want me to leave, they also do not want me to suffer anymore.

This is not a rash decision. It has been processed for many years, in my head, in conversations with family and friends, in discussion with one of my doctors, and a few years ago in the long procedure of requesting accompanied suicide. The clinic in Switzerland requires an extensive process to ensure that the patient is chronically ill, lives with unendurable pain or suffering, and has no realistic hope of relief. They require a number of medical records as well as consultations with specialized doctors.

For me this end is obviously not what I wanted, but it was the best solution to an extremely difficult situation and preferable to even more suffering. It was not hasty choice, but one that matured over a long period of time.

A plea to decision makers – Give ME/CFS patients a future! As you understand, this blog post has taken me many months to put together. It is a long text to read too, I know. But I felt it was important to write it and have it published to explain why I personally had to take this step, and hopefully illuminate why so many ME/CFS patients consider or commit suicide.

And most importantly: to elucidate that this circumstance can be changed! But that will take devoted, resolute, real action from all of those responsible for the state of ME/CFS care, ME/CFS research and dissemination of information about the disease. Sadly, this responsibility has been mishandled for decades. To allow ME/CFS patients some hope on the horizon, key people in all countries must step up and act.

If you are a decision maker, here is what you urgently need to do: You need to bring funding for biomedical ME/CFS research up so it’s on par with comparable diseases (as an example, in the US that would mean $188 million per year). You need to make sure there are dedicated hospital care units for ME/CFS inpatients in every city around the world. You need to establish specialist biomedical care available to all ME/CFS patients; it should be as natural as RA patients having access to a rheumatologist or cancer patients to an oncologist. You need to give ME/CFS patients a future.

Please listen to these words of Jen Brea, which sum up the situation in the US, but are applicable to almost every country:

“The NIH says it won’t fund ME research because no one wants to study it. Yet they reject the applications of the world class scientists who are committed to advancing the field. Meanwhile, HHS has an advisory committee whose sole purpose seems to be making recommendations that are rarely adopted. There are no drugs in the pipeline at the FDA yet the FDA won’t approve the one drug, Ampligen, that can have Lazarus-like effects in some patients. Meanwhile, the CDC continues to educate doctors using information that we (patients) all know is inaccurate or incomplete.”

Like Jen Brea, I want a number of people from these agencies, and equivalent agencies in Sweden and all other countries, to stand up and take responsibility. To say: “ME! I am going to change things because that is my job.”

And lastly Lastly, I would like to end this by linking to this public comment from a US agency meeting (CFSAC). It seems to have been taken off the HHS site, but I found it in the Google Read version of the book “Lighting Up a Hidden World: CFS and ME” by Valerie Free. It includes testimony from two very eloquent ME patients and it says it all. I thank these ME patients for expressing so well what we are experiencing.

My previous blog posts:

From International Traveler to 43 Square Meters: An ME/CFS Story From Sweden

Coping With ME/CFS Will Always Be Hard – But There are Ways of Making It A Little Easier

The Underfinanced ME/CFS Research Field Pt I: The Facts – Plus “What Can We Do?

The Underfinanced ME/CFS Research Field Pt II: Why it Takes 20 Years to Get 1 Year’s Research Done

Take care of each other.

Love, Anne

Comments Open.

[racefortheironthrone]

Thoughts on Powers of X #3

Gotta go fast!

Pride and Grace (X^2):

This issue starts off on a pretty heavy note with a look at the religion of humans in the Man-Machine Ascendancy, and what we see is that humanity has constructed a religion around transhumanism and it’s entirely negative.

So here is the catechism of this religion:

“All humans are slaves,” and humans should “accept [the machines]] dominance.”

Human nature is inherently “fallen,” and in order to ascend humans must reject “every last shred” of their humanity.

Critically, humans must reject the “heretics” who preach biological transhumanism, both becasue of the inherent impossibility of “improv[ing] on our flawed design” and their mistaken belief in free will.

And then just in case you were wondering whether Hickman was going to be at all subtle in his belief that mechanical transhumanism is bad, he then shows us a baby being baptised into this faith by having half its face lasered off as it screams in pain. 

On a more high-falutin’ level, the purple-clad cyborg priest’s concluding thought that “there is something perfect trapped in your flawed human shell” is Gnosticism turned against itself, from a religion that preached an egalitarian message of salvation through transcendant knowledge into a religion that denies the very possibility. It’s also not a good sign that the priest inverts Milton’s most famous epigram on individualistic defiance into a message of submission. 

I find it very odd that so much of the fandom can read these pages and then turn around and call Krakoan culture a cult. As I’ll get into longer, Krakoan culture is all about proving and celebrating individuality as well as community, about rejoicing in the defeat of death, and the multiple layers of call-and-response rest power in the congregation as much as the preacher. If I had to choose between these two religions, I’d pick Krakoa every time. 

And then the mutant resistance shows up bringing fire and the sword(s). And yet, in what is surprising for a group of mutants organized and led by Apocalypse, their tone is more disappointed than hostile. More on this in a bit.

Surviving Sol Mutants Infographic:

In this org chart, we learn about the mutant resistance as led by Apocalypse. Some interesting little details here:

Apocalypse has a new group of horsemen (we don’t learn that the first horsemen who Hickman has been emphasizing so much died during the fall of Krakoa until later), with Logan in the War role, Kuan-Yin Xorn as Death, North as Pestilence, and Krakoa/Cypher as Famine.

This group includes “Pureblood” (not wild about this label) mutants, Chimeras, and “Symbiotic” mutants, which covers pretty much every kind of mutant in this timeline in the same way that the All-New X-Men were designed to be internationally diverse.

While some of these designations - War for Wolverine and Death for the nihilist Xorn - make sense, there’s something really ironic about the plant-man representing Famine, and there doesn’t seem to be much of a clear link between North and the concept of Pestilence.

North as a second generation Lorna Dane/Emma Frost hybrid became a fan favorite despite uttering very few words, I guess because of the interesting combination of Magneto’s costume in Polaris’ colors and pink telepathy powers. 

For her part, Moira stands in as “Mother” of the younger mutant team (which I guess makes Apocalypse the “Father” of the older team), making this resistance cell a Brady-style fused/found family.

I was wrong about which generations Rasputin and Cardinal belong to: despite the fact that Rasputin is named Rasputin IV, both she and Cardinal are third generation Chimeras. Cardinal’s powerset seems to include Nightcrawler-style teleportation as well as Jean/Rachel/Nate-style telepathy. No idea who Freeman corresponds to, but no one else seems to know either. 

The Church, the Church is On Fire!:

On the other side of town, the Machine half of the Ascendancy reacts to the distraction attack. Omega Sentinel both seems to care more about humanity and be more human both in terms of her interests and her affect, while noted sociopath Nimrod the Lesser advocates for human genocide, just in case you were wondering who the bad guys were.

A further sign that we shouldn’t let our pre-existing knowledge color our interpretation is that we find out that the mutant resistance “have always sought to free the humans in some hope that together they might overcome the inevitability of” Nimrod. Needless to say, fighting to save “a world that hates and fears them” hasn’t exactly been Apocalypse’s wheelhouse, but it’s a sign that existential struggle changes all kinds of people’s characters in unexpected ways.

I really like the idea that mutants and humans are two peoples “divided by one language,” because it’s an interesting counter-point to Magneto’s argument in House of X #1 that a mutant language is a necessary precondition for cultural separation.

Further evidence for my thesis about AIs and analysis paralysis: Nimrod the Lesser’s obsession with trying to “disassemble the variables” and his total lack of interest in more qualitative understandings of his opposition leads him to delay just long enough to allow the resistance to get away with their data and unleash a singularity in his capital. Can’t help but see a parallel there with the Phalanx and other intelligences.

We move from there to a Highly Thematically Significant ecumenical debate between the cyborg purple priest and Cardinal, who describes himself as “a pacifist who’s been pushed to the brink” (much like Xavier?) and in the process has abandoned many of his own beliefs, even “overcome my genetic predispositions” for a higher purpose. (Which itself is thematically significant, given that the cyborg purple priest explicitly denied that one could avoid genetic destiny.) Cardinal wants to know why the priest would betray humanity on behalf of a malevolent divinity, but it’s not clear whether his own form of self-destruction is much different (although given that Cardinals deny the self, did the “terminal apocalypse seed” destroy his authentic self or create one?). 

For his part, the cyborg priest chooses veneration of the Great Machine above all else, seemingly dying in a state of religious ecstasy. There’s also another interesting contrast being drawn here - after Magneto positioned the mutants as pagan “gods,” we have a decidedly monotheistic capital-G “god” in the form of Omega Sentinel. 

Buying Time/Space:

As his X-Men prepare to go down swinging to buy him enough time, Apocalypse and his strike team make it to the data-base. I know that Hickman is usually described as more of a world-builder than dialogue wrioter, but I loved the line “I am older than even the idea of machines.” (Not so sure that’s true, Ancient Egypt loved itself some simple machines, but he could be referring more specifically to the computer.) 

We also learn that the data they’re looking for is “when Nimrod came online,” which initially sounds unimportant...up until we see Moira and realize that historical data is priceless when you’re dealing with time-loopers.

Nimrod is alerted by Cypher/Krakoa’s accessing of the data, but it’s worth noting that Nimrod doesn’t know what they’re looking for. He’ll describe it as “old data and machine lore,” but he clearly can’t recall and hasn’t integrated the data that’s been acquired into his own mental framework - which raises the question of whether the Phalanx or higher ups do any better with the data they’ve consumed. 

In the mean-time, Rasputin and Xorn unleash his singularity in order to sideline Omega Sentinel and buy their cause a little more time. There’s an interesting parallel with what Erasmus will do in House of X #3, but the singularity adds another level.

Omega’s question “do you have any idea of what lies at the heart of a real black hole” is even more ambiguous in the wake of Powers of X #5, where we learn that there are massive AI societies inside black holes. Is the Man-Machine Ascendancy a vassal of one of these, has Omega seen one? Or is she referring to a more abstract idea about the ultimate death of all things? (Watching A Brief History of Time messed me up as a kid.)

But just as the X-Men of X^1 underestimate the self-sacrificial tenacity of Orchis humans, Omega underestimates that of the X-Men and so a singularity is unleashed on Earth. Does this destroy the planet, in the same way that the singularity of the 4th Generation Chimeras wiped out Mars? Do Rasputin, Xorn, or Cardinal end up in another time/place as the tarot cards from Powers of X #1 would suggest? Is their desination one of the Titan Societies?  

In a parallel act, Apocalypse sacrifices himself to get the data away. Even as Nimrod is giving his big speech about how Apocalypse is no longer the “fittest of all,” we see how the Big A has clearly moved beyond that conception of himself, to embrace a larger cause he’s willing to die for.

As Aocalypse is dying, Wolverine awakens Moira in her ninth life and kills her so that she can bring the data about Nimrod into her tenth life. Which is one main reason why I’m really skeptical we’ll see a reboot into an 11th life at the end of the mini-series, because otherwise why devote half or more of your run-time to what she’s learned in this life if the next one is the really important one?

Infographic of the Ninth Life of Moira X:

I just realized that Moira’s last name works as both a play on the Nation of Islam’s tradition of giving out X as a new last name symbolic of the heritage destroyed by slavery (although the X-gene probably gives that a different symbolism for Krakoan mutants), and the number 10. Yes, I can be really short-sighted sometimes.

So what new information do we get about Life 9?

Well, the Apocalypse War goes well for mutants for fourteen years, with Avengers World defeated three years later, and the Annihilation Wave repelled eleven years later. Crucially, however, Apocalypse is unable to prevent Nimrod from coming online in Year 50, and within six years the mutants lose most of their earthly power, forcing a retreat to Krakoa and the adoption of Sinister’s breeding program. This buys the mutants about thirty years, but Krakoa’s fall in advance of the collapse of Mars suggestsa that it was never more than a band-aid.

Note that once again Moira goes into a coma. Man, by this point, she and Emma are going to have plenty to talk about wrt to their Sleeping Beauty syndromes.

[amoralto]

Playgirl: Paul! (June, 1982)

(Note: I’ve been wondering if I should include more full articles/interviews on the blog, i.e. pieces that are not already available and/or hosted online. This is one of them - more of an overview/feature piece, but worth a read nonetheless. For Paul and Linda’s 1985 interview w/ Playgirl, I typed it up a while ago here. Previous quote posts from both articles: here, here.) 

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by Mark Rowland

He turns 40 this month, and if he is anything like the rest of us, the last 20 must feel as close as yesterday. Was it really so long ago that four working-class chums from a dingy English port town sang and laughed and shook their mop-tops to signal a crumbling of the old order and a hailing of the new? You look for the signs of age in recent photographs, but the changes are so subtle—a slight hollowing of those cherubic cheeks, perhaps a hint of wariness in eyes that used to sparkle with playful coquetry. Yes, time has been a gentle thief.

The lad who stole girls’ hearts all ’round the world is a husband of 13 years standing, and the father of four. The inveterate rock ’n’ roller divides his time between home and studio, now surfacing to promote a new album (Tug of War, Columbia), soon disappearing back into the mists of his Scotland farm. Which is just as it should be. Paul McCartney, handsome and rich and brimming with easy charm—and still the mirror in which we seek the reflection of our own youthful dreams.

“I like Walt Disney cartoons—they sort of live forever.” Paul McCartney

In fact, the last decade has not treated Paul all that kindly. When it becan he was, quite simply, a hero. By its close he’d become the subject of casual ridicule, a turnabout engineered in part by the mocking comments of his former best friend and musical compatriot, John Lennon. Any critical appraisal of his band, Wings, was bound to include unflattering comparisons to the Beatles and/or snide references to the credentials of its keyboard player, who just happened to be Paul’s wife.

And then there was Wings’ disastrous final episode, a triumphant tour of Japan that abruptly terminated when customs officials unearthed a hefty cache of marijuana in Paul’s luggage. Instead of Budokan’s concert stage, McCartney commenced a 10-day engagement “live” in the local jail, regaling his fellow inmates with renditions of “Yesterday” and “Mull of Kintyre”. Then he was deported.

“He certainly received quite a shock,” recalls Michael McCartney, Paul’s brother and the author of an affectionate family history entitled The Macs (Delilah Communications, Ltd.). “But even worse was the way the media deliberately distorted his situation. When I said I was angry at what was happening, for instance, they made it sound like I was angry at Paul. So just at the crucial moment, when the court is weighing judgment, they read the papers and think, ‘My God, even his own family thinks he’s a fool.’ It could have gone to his detriment, you know. He could have been locked up for years.”

Paul’s problem, of course, is that he has always appeared just a tad too sexy, too suave, too eager to please. His equipoise looms like a red flag to critics ready to knock him down a peg, and no matter that his temperament is genuinely affable. “I don’t think I’ve ever seen him in a bad mood,” contends rockabilly great Carl Perkins, a friend of nearly 20 years standing. “I’ve worked with a lot of greats, from Elvis to Dylan, and they could all get pretty moody at times. But Paul’s not like that. I’m sure he has a time and place, but it doesn’t interfere with his outward personality.” Though McCartney is far from invulnerable, it has never been his style to exorcise personal demons in public, a la John Lennon. Instead, he turns inward, to his family and his music. When the Beatles broke apart, Paul did both—he formed a new band with his wife.

“If you want the Beatles, go see Wings.” George Harrison

“I think I’m good. I like me, I’m good. I can dig me. Can you?” Paul McCartney

“He sounds like Englebert Humperdinck.” John Lennon

Wings took flight in 1971, when Paul and Linda joined forces with old pal Denny Laine (from the Moody Blues) and drummer Danny Seiwell. It endured, in various incarnations, for eight more years and eight more albums. Paul first conceived the band as a vehicle for playing small clubs and halls, a return to his rock roots and an emergence from the isolation that, in Paul’s view, had ultimately destroyed the Beatles. As a traveling show, Wings was a hit from the start—who wouldn’t want to hear Paul play the local pub?—but a succession of pop hits soon propelled him back to superstar-sized arenas and concert halls.

Critical acclaim was not so readily forthcoming. Without the Beatles’ special alchemy Paul’s romanticism tended to drift toward pap, lacking the spark of originality that characterized the best McCartney-Lennon collaborations. His most acrid critic, to Paul’s everlasting chagrin, turned out to be Lennon. For years they squabbled like ex’s unable to leave behind a stormy marriage, but when it came to sarcastic repartee John was in a class by himself. Japes like the one about Humperdinck, or the picture of John hoisting a pig by its ears (a wicked sendup of Paul holding up a sheep on the cover of his Ram album) wounded Paul deeply. He still has not entirely recovered; in a recent interview he claimed to draw fresh solace from his conversations with Yoko Ono. “She tells me something very important,” he revealed, “that John still loved me, after all.”

“Of course my brother and John loved each other,” declares Michael McCartney, “same as my brother and I do. Brothers have their feuds—you love ’em and you hate ’em. Oh, it’s easy enough to put all the negative parts under a microscope. I could have written a book called Paulie Dearest, slagged him to death and made millions. But it wouldn’t have been the truth. With Paul and John, though, all the dirty linen was brought out in public.”

Despite, or perhaps because of, such controversy, Paul continued to pour his energy into the music, and by 1976, his faith had been rewarded. Wings toured America that year like conquering heroes. McCartney was hailed on the cover of Time, and the band’s crack performances drew wildly ecstatic crowds and rave reviews. Amidst all the hoopla, however, Paul and Linda remained serene and jocular, causing one associate to marvel that McCartney was the only touring rock star around who knew how to keep a grip on his sanity.

”Groupies, chicks. It was fabulous. I loved it. There was no stopping me after a (Beatles) show. I was the biggest raver out. But I got to thinking, ‘What am I doing with my life? Who am I getting to know? What one chick do I know as a pal?’ And there weren’t any… Mainly, I’d sown enough wild oats. Making love does become a sort of commitment—I love the idea of vows and stuff. To tell the truth, it keeps me kind of straight.” Paul McCartney, 1974

“I’m not sophisticated, a good conversationalist, looking good all the time. I don’t think of myself like Jacqueline Kennedy or Patricia Nixon.” Linda McCartney, 1974

Paul was always the most desirable of the Beatle bachelors, and by the end of the sixties, he was the only one left. Any whiff of serious romance merited close scrutiny by the press. Thus, Linda “no relation to Kodak” Eastman was in for some rough sport, when, after a relatively swift courtship, she and Paul tied the knot in 1969. A rock photographer at the Fillmore East who’d enjoyed acquaintanceships with various rock figures previous to meeting Paul, she was dubbed the “Park Avenue groupie”—a sobriquet that says more about rock’s inbred sexism than Linda’s character. (Years later, Rolling Stone slurred Joni Mitchell in much the same fashion.)

Nonetheless, Paul and Linda took to the life of domestic bliss with remarkable dispatch, a condition rather smugly documented on their first two records together, Ram and Wild Life. Since then, however, they’ve managed to sustain the ideal of traditional marriage and family—no mean feat in this era of celebrity swapstakes. Though rumors of discord surface from time to time, from all indications, their marriage remains solid. Indeed, one of the highlights of the Wings Over America tour was Paul’s impassioned rendition of “My Love”, crooning the hook “my love does it gooood” while a smiling Linda posed before the multitudes, hands on hips, letting no one miss the implications of that particular song.

“Paul would be sort of a Republican.” John Eastman, Paul’s brother-in-law and business manager

According to the Guinness Book of World Records, Paul McCartney is “the most honored man in music.” One is naturally inclined to trust Guinness in these matters, and Paul’s statistics do tell an amazing story—over 100 million album sales, 100 million singles sales and, separately, 43 million-selling songs. Since 1970, all 10 of Paul’s records (solo and with Wings) have been certified gold by the Record Industry Association of America. The last five releases have also gone platinum (over a million units sold), and his newest, Tug of War, which features Ringo, Stevie Wonder, Michael Jackson and Carl Perkins, is certain to do the same.

During the sixties, however, only a small part of the Beatles’ fabulous success translated into personal wealth. For many years the band relied on a loose network of acquaintances to handle their financial matters—most proved either honest or competent, but rarely both. But under the guidance of John Eastman, Paul has since realized a vast financial empire, with an estimated annual income, mostly from record and publishing royalties, of about $40 million. His publishing house, MPL, originally established for tax purposes, is the largest independent song publisher in the world, holding the rights to scores from Grease, Annie, Hello Dolly, A Chorus Line, Bye Bye Birdie and Mame; standards from “On, Wisconsin” to “Stormy Weather” and “Autumn Leaves”; the entire catalog of Buddy Holly songs, rags by Scott Joplin, songs by Ira Gershwin, even the theme to the Dinah Shore TV show. And in a recent twist of fate, Paul and Yoko are currently negotiating with British mogul Sir Lew Grade to buy back Northern Songs, the catalog of early Beatles hits (including “Yesterday”) that was sold during the sixties. The whimsical Beatle has turned out to be one savvy entrepreneur.

Less publicized, however, are McCartney’s frequent gestures of charity. He’s performed various benefits for UNESCO, and, in 1979,, following a plea from then-Secretary General of the United Nations Kurt Waldheim, he personally organized a giant pop concert to raise the emergency relief aid for Kampuchea. The event and subsequent album, Concerts for the People of Kampuchea (featuring the Who, Queen, the Pretenders and Elvis Costello, among others), has netted UNICEF over $600,000 to date, according to organization officials. A concert movie will also be released around the United States and Europe this summer.

McCartney’s generosity crops up in smaller, more personal encounters. “When I first decided to become a writer, I sent a bunch of stuff to Paul,” recalls Laura Gross, now a radio interviewer at KRLA, the “Beatles station” of Los Angeles. “Then, when he came to L.A., I knocked on the door of his hotel, and he said ‘Oh yes, I’ve read your stuff, you ought to send us what you’re doing. Linda and I are very interested.’ Here I was, a stranger and a nobody, and he took the time to be kind. He gave me encouragement at a time when that was very important to me.”

“He was my boss,” observes Wings guitarist Laurence Juber, “but he was also my teacher. At one point he gave me a fairly substantial budget just so I could develop my own ideas. He’s an extremely benevolent sort of person, but he doesn’t shout about it. He’s aware of his responsibility to other talents, otherwise he wouldn’t be a nice person, and he is a nice person. Of course, he’s always got that element of cockiness about him, because he’s come such a long way. Don’t forget, he was just a kid off the street in Liverpool. That’s all any of them were.”

“Phony Beatlemania has bitten the dust.” The Clash

“I love Paul, he’s my favourite—brown, white, red, blue or green! He is the Beatles.” Little Richard, interviewed by KRLA’s Laura Gross

In 1974, Mark Lapidos decided to put together a kind of giant swap meet and communal gathering for Beatles fans. He called it Beatlefest, rented a hall, and ended up admitting 7,000 people and turning away thousands more. This year, Beatlefest will span 11 days in four different U.S. cities, as interest continues to mount in a group that called it quits more than a decade ago. “We’re not living in the past,” Lapidos insists. “You take surveys now and ask young people their favourite group and what do they say? The Beatles! Their music will not die. It is the cultural phenomenon of the century.”

Lapidos may be right. The past year has evidenced yet another spate of books and articles about the Beatles, along with discoveries of long-dormant radio recordings and master tapes by the Fab Foursome. And if anything, the hideous murder of John Lennon in December 1980 seems to have inspired fans to rekindle the flame of memory. “We simply couldn’t let that act destroy such an important part of our lives,” explains Lapidos. “Actually, we became more like family, pulling closer together after we’d lost our brother.”

The man who knew John Lennon best was devastated by his murder. Paul’s friend, Paddy Moloney of the Chieftains, remembers seeing McCartney looking “stunned. He said it was useless and tragic, (but) I don’t think it had penetrated that John was gone forever. I’m sure it took a few days for that to sink in.” When it did, Paul turned, as he always did in times of crisis, to his closest ally—music. At the suggestion of friend and producer George Martin, he shifted base from London to Martin’s studio on the Caribbean island of Montserrat, away from the obtrusive glare of the media. Once settled in with Linda and the kids, he called up Ringo, Wingsmate Denny Laine, Carl Perkins, Stevie Wonder, and embarked on the most ambitious and painstaking project of his musical career.

“I have never met a more dedicated musician than Paul McCartney. He’ll work all night on a little guitar lick until he gets it just the way he wants it. He’s a perfectionist.” Carl Perkins

The intensity of his commitment on Montserrat became its own kind of therapy. Between sessions the musicians would swim, sun on the beach, or take Jeep rides along the scenic island trails. But after two months, McCartney and Martin returned to London, where they continued to refine the material for another year. The sessions had produced two albums worth of music; the second set was still in its final stages of completion when I phoned Martin’s studio in March. A spokesperson remarked that McCartney was anxiously awaiting its public reception. “I think Paul wants to have a truly ‘musical’ success this time, not just a popular one,” she declared. “He really wants to be recognized for achieving something.”

In the past decade, McCartney’s most trying periods have often fostered his best work—McCartney and Ram, following the Beatles split; Band on the Run in 1973, when Wings was coming apart at the seams, and to a lesser extent, Back to the Egg in 1979, amidst persistent rumors that Paul and Linda’s marriage was on the rocks. But all of those efforts pale, I think, beside Tug of War. Here Paul has finally cast off the aureole of calculated cuteness that marred so much of his seventies music, and penned lyrics that are evocative, unsentimental and deeply personal. At the same time, the album’s sheer range and spunky, let’s-try-it-on spirit recalls the Beatles at their most ambitious, from the daring juxtaposition of rock ’n’ roll rhythm and big band texture that propels “Ballroom Dancing” to the graceful, quirky country swing duet with Perkins, to the hothouse funk of “What’s That”, a six-minute corker with Stevie Wonder that bears favorable comparison to Wonder’s own “Superstition”. Yet the record’s most eloquent moment is its most elemental—a quiet, heartfelt paean to McCartney’s fallen brother, entitled “Here Today.”

And if I said I really knew you well, What would your answer be? Well, knowing you, You’d probably laugh, And say that we were worlds apart If you were here today… here today.

Every era has its myths—from Jesus to Camelot to the Beatles—and every myth exists to fill the special needs of its culture. As Beatle Paul, he will always play the courtly knight, the crooning Lancelot in shining Nehru jacket. But the real Paul McCartney is no more or less than a talented musician with wife and kids, nearing middle age and trying, along with the rest of us, to sort out the various slings and arows of life’s fortune. It is no put-down to say that nothing he ever does, no matter how accomplished, can again approach the majesty of the legend he once helped create, precisely because it is a legend.

“Why should the Beatles give more?” John Lennon once asked, with characteristic bluntness. “Didn’t they give everything on God’s earth for 10 years? Didn’t they give themselves?”

So now Lennon is gone, though his restless, vibrant spirit survives among the living. And now Paul McCartney, unarguably one of the premier artists of his generation, continues with his own life’s work, which is simply to make music for the world to hear and enjoy; perhaps even be touched by.

[turianghoultrashh]

Deacon Theory / What Ever Happened to “Luis Rosa”?

This is a SUPER long post but I hope you find the information interesting!

I originally made this post a year or so ago but I took it down when I was going through a bad time. It may read a bit weird as the post was updated many times before being taken down...So I hope its not too all over the place :’)

Please read through it in mind that - This is just a bit of fun and not what I actually believe despite how interesting it got for me. Thank you.

Thoughts and additions are welcome!! <3

I decided that I was going to use this play through to HUNT...yes HUNT Deacon down and try and find SOMETHING to do with where he came from..who he is..why the FUCK is he so interested in Sole and why does he follow us all throughout the story (all the disguises like in Goodneighbor, Diamond City)...etc!

I’m just going to dive right in. This is gonna be mega long guys...I’ve been trying my hardest to debunk myself as a little project...so I hope its worth it at the end :)

So as I mentioned in a previous post...I found some spots (here) where Deacon was clearly watching over Sole. If you then go on to read the Railroad Terminal Entries from the previous Leaders’ journals. (from the start with Wyatt till the end of the most recent one with Des for info on Deacon)...you see that Deacon clearly knew about Sole getting out of the Vault and had been keeping an eye out..missing from the Railroad for almost a year while he waited. (Not to mention he’s been in the Railroad since their earliest accounts...but that’s another issue in itself xD)

Along with that...From the start of the game, I have had this NAGGING idea that Deacon is from before the War...just certain things I’ve mentioned in previous posts and the fact that he just trusts Sole completely from the start with seemingly no reason to...It’s always bothered me...So I thought...well what if he was one of the people from Sanctuary who didn’t make it into the Vault? (yeah I know it sounds bullshit and stupid but PLEASE bear with me! I am going somewhere with this!) So I made a hard save before answering the door to Vault-Tec Rep dude...and started exploring everything of the beginning in Sanctuary before the bomb fell with Sole (by using console commands to go places with the camera) and also the day after we get out of the Vault before progressing the story...I just wanted to find SOMETHING that could be seen as out of the ordinary and linked to Deacon.

Right, okay. awesome :D! So that was pretty much my frame of mind when I started the hunt and now I can go into what I actually found :D! (also sorry if I keep repeating myself guys..Like I said i’ll be going through my thought process as I was finding this stuff and trying to debunk myself :))

The most obvious place to start looking? The only two places that look like they’ve been lived in/set up for someone to live in (with work benches, radio on, light, electricity...etc) since the war and up until recently....

The Yellow house opposite Sole’s house and Red Rocket...oddly enough the two spots that are in perfect view from the observation points that I mentioned previously. When I got to Red Rocket I noticed something odd on a terminal entry that got my attention..

So who was this Rosa family? The mother is mentioned in the Chem Dealer’s Terminal in Sanctuary too. (I don’t believe anything put in a game is coincidence at all..it was put there for a reason by the creators.)

So I decided to go and have a look at the beginning of the game and the day we wake up from the Vault...mainly the differences..and I came across something SUPER weird...

We found the “Rosa House”....I never noticed this before...Who ever set up the Yellow house knew the Rosa’s lived there..Why did they put this in? The couple outside the house are not Ms.Rosa and her son (I’ll prove this more later..stay with me :P)

(This was originally an update to the post I deleted...But I’ll keep it here) 

OTHER HOUSES WITH WRITING ON THE MAILBOX THAT WEREN’T THERE PREVIOUSLY

This could still tie in quite well... The terminal inside is one that lets us first know about Ms Rosa before getting to Red Rocket!

HIDDEN MAILBOX WITH SAME HANDWRITING - ‘Russell’ - Thank you so much to @bugsieplusone for using a scrapping mod and discovering this! See post and screenshot here As for what I’ve found out about this....here’s the Wiki page on Mr Russel.

So I decide to go back to the beginning of the game and find him :D

As stated...I still think that the Mailbox was done by the same person due to the handwriting/engraving being the exact same font and style... my money is still on Luis/Deacon... I’m not sure what the reason for it is...but this is what I’ve found :D It’s interesting because the Chem Dealer’s terminal seems to be the “starting point” as it directs you to both of these locations..Maybe the whole point of the Mailbox is to tell us where the Safe is?...but the then the Rosa Mailbox is to guide us to something bigger? Feel free to share thoughts guys :D

So right okay. we have this family.. A mother and a son who are CLEARLY significant enough to put all these little clues in for >< I thought I’d see if I could find them at the beginning of the game. I then went on to notice something strange when the bombs go off and before entering the Vault. There is ONE child, other than baby Shaun, at the start of the game in Sanctuary...I quadruple checked and there is just one young boy around at the time. Maybe this could be Ms. Rosa’s son?

I originally thought this little boy was the ‘Rosa Son’ mentioned in the Terminals..but I’m not too sure now...I think he may have been home..or even at Red Rocket when the bombs fell...or maybe the kid is him...I’m not sure...(it doesn't matter too much if the boy is him...it just strengthens my theory if it is :P...the rest of the points are still valid though :D)

UPDATE!!! THE LITTLE BOY IS LUIS ROSA!

As I mentioned in the last part...I wasn’t even sure the little boy was Luis Rosa when I wrote this theory...it was just a possibility to me...so I didn’t pay much attention to him outside of looking at him and making observations based purely on what I could see in first person.

As you can see from the picture @solas-you-nerd sent me...The boy has brown hair not red like Deacon...but can we explain this and still have the theory hold up?

While it is clear his hair is brown...His hair is Chestnut brown hair, while it is a darkish brown is also red...just a darker red. So it got me thinking about how Deacon is bald...not shaven...Bald... It more than likely is just be for practicality due to his constant disguise changing..but maybe that’s not all it is.. It made me think about the effects of Radiation exposure (for example Chemotherapy patients) and how they lose their hair...along with looking at high radiation exposure to cause hair loss/change .. Obviously there’s the trait of going bald...but what about when the hair starts to grow back? A few places state that the hair-loss can be permanent especially at higher levels of external radiation..I never hear Deacon mention shaving his head or anything..so maybe his hair loss on his scalp was permanent? As for the ginger eyebrows...well the radiation could help explain that one too “ When regrowth occurs, there may be changes in texture and color. It is common for hair to grow back curlier than it was; however, a change of color is less common.” LESS COMMON...not impossible...who is to say that the high exposure of radiation didn’t change his hair from a reddish brown to a lighter (as hair changes in the sun) Auburn/orange? (THESE ARE JUST THOUGHTS GUYS! as a possible way to explain how he could still be Deacon) Another easy explanation is that the boy bleaches his eyebrows okay xD But nah seriously...in the Fallout Universe, there are MANY ways he can go from reddish brown hair - auburn/ginger, especially with eyebrows

One problem I had in my first post was that I claimed the boys eyes were blue based on a screenshot and going in to Photoshop to check (I had no idea how to check this information when I first made the post). Turns out the boys eyes were Brown...

Now this is problematic but it doesn’t necessarily have to be. We actually have the technology in development to be able to permanently change our eye colour from BROWN to BLUE in OUR Universe: It’s still in the trial stages but has been successful. Now we all know in the Fallout Universe..it is 2077...61 years ahead of where we are now (and a different universe)...there are drugs that can heal limbs and make you super human...hell..Deacon even has even changed into a girl, a ghoul and who knows what else...not to mention all the other INSANELY advanced technology that the universe has...if we have the technology to change eye colour then surely they would too?

(This is just a way that the hair and eyes COULD be explained logically and with (my terrible attempt at) science guys...I don’t think the Game makers ACTUALLY put this much effort in lmao xD)

In regards to the terminal entry for the Rosa House mentioned previously...the video is here:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b99WIrIpLpY

https://youtu.be/b99WIrIpLpY?t=2m32s (Rosa Terminal)

Now isn’t that strange? The ONLY other house in Sanctuary with Cut terminal content is...dum dum dum...THE ROSA HOUSE! (again confirming this is the yellow house across the street)

Now why would they put all this content in, along with the content about this family at Red Rocket for no reason? We know this family did not enter Vault 111 with Sole (just looking at the pods and terminals prove that). So what happened to this family? I decided to have a look online to see if anyone else had any encounters with them and I came across the wiki page...and to be honest...it kind of made my whole “Luis Rosa survived the bombs theory and became Deacon” fall flat :\ it states that:

“Before the war, Ms. Rosa was presumably one of the neighbours of the Sole Survivor who didn't make it to safety. She can be found 210 years later roaming the Commonwealth and Boston, with her son and a few other unlucky pre-War citizens turned ghoul.”

But the part about her young son being turned and can be found in the Commonwealth is totally FALSE and I can prove it!! I dug deeper...checked videos and forums for encounters with these feral ghoul neighbors and not ONCE is there a “Ms.Rosa’s son”

Some of the forums I looked at are here, here, and here.(last one includes video too)

But see? No ‘Ms. Rosa’s son’ in any of the footage above. Not to mention we NEVER see a feral ghoul child except for Billy. “Billy is currently the only and first ghoul child to appear in any of the Fallout games.”

The wiki says that and therefore contradicts itself by saying that Luis Rosa is one of the Feral Ghouls. The terminal entries of him and his mother prove that he is still a young boy.

SO MY THEORY WAS REBORN The mother (Ms. Rosa) died but the son (Luis Rosa) didn’t!! and he was the only one I needed to be alive for this theory to keep making sense...from my thinking...he was clearly the one who went back and wrote the family name on the mailbox outside his house. Why is there mention of this child and yet nothing afterwards except little hints at him being alive? I needed something linking this kid to 2287 and also Deacon. I carried on looking for evidence the day Sole gets out of the vault.

***PLEASE READ THIS ONE*** After not really finding much, I eventually spoke to Codsworth to advance the story...and I came across a piece of dialogue from him that I remembered REALLY bothered me on my first play through

THIS IS IMPORTANT:

 Sole is clearly asking Codsworth about seeing someone AFTER they went into the Vault (As you can see by the dialogue). Codsworth clearly knows that 200 years have passed. He even mentions it a few seconds later. So why would he say this about the Rosa son in Particular? He doesn't mention ANY other neighbors that WERE around the day the bombs fell? Because just like Sole asked...He’s telling us about what he saw AFTER the bombs fell and everyone vanished. 

 Sole goes into the Vault and wakes up just over a week before Halloween...The day the bombs fell, we see everyone on the street and inside the vault. NO ONE. Not even the one child we see (above) is wearing a Halloween costume. So isn’t that a strange comment for Codsworth to make when asked if he saw anyone around since they left??

 Who does like to dress up in ‘Costumes’ that we know of? Deacon. The same Deacon who had been watching The Vault for the last year from his lookout. He would need somewhere to survive other than a tiny outpost while he waited..maybe he also spent that year remembering his past from before the war... rebuilding his family home and Red Rocket? “Chasing Ghosts” as Des put it in her terminal entry.

 Ms. Rosa’s Son is the only person Codsworth has seen poking around that he can identify...THIS IS PUT IN FOR A REASON. If it was nothing then why was there no mention of anyone else and why can we find no definitive proof that Ms. Rosa’s son died...but we find proof that his mother and all the other named neighbors did die?

Codsworth talks throughout the rest of the conversation as if 200 years passing is like a week passing..no big deal...So for him to say that about Ms. Rosa’s son so casually would be completely normal to him. Just like he doesn’t seem surprised when he sees Sole after such a long time. It just seems like something so strange to put in when we have a Companion who loves costumes and to dress up...is out of time in the commonwealth just like Sole with the things he says...Is totally mysterious...who knew about us coming out of the Vault and has been watching and waiting for us to arrive at least a year before we did near the same place that Ms. Rosa’s son loved and was his home...Sanctuary and Red Rocket. If Codsworth saw him with a new face or in a new disguise then he would obviously assume that he was just playing with his Halloween Costume and think nothing of it. (I hope that made sense??)

 As for why Codsworth doesn’t say anything when we later bring Deacon to him?...there could be MANY explanations for that and I bet Deacon thought about it and planned for when it happened...I think Sole came out of the Vault before Deacon expected it, hence why he has to flee his spots like the house and Red Rocket so quickly and that’s why they look so “lived in”...Sole goes to speak to Codsworth who tells them about Ms. Rosa’s son before Deacon could put his prevention/security in place...and then when Sole leaves to continue their story or hell even when they’re asleep or something...Deacon comes back and maybe alters Codsworth’s memories/identity tools? (I imagine he didn't want to do it before because he likes that the robot remembered him and his old life and family)

 It reinforces what was said in the cut terminal content...that Ms.Rosa was away the day the bombs fell and left her son behind...unsupervised....why is this important? I decided to look around pre-war Sanctuary before answering the door to Vault-Tec Rep...pretty much as soon as you finish designing Sole...And look what I see...

So the Rosa’s were also on the List to get into Vault 111...but Ms. Rosa was not home to sign up to it and therefore her and her son got left behind. He stays at the house for A LONG time before giving up and coming over to Sole’s. (Check it out yourselves if you start a new game!!)

So yeah...My theory in a nutshell is that all this evidence is not just a coincidence. I think it was put in for a reason and I cant help but feel it is all a connection to Deacon..It explains why he trusts Sole, he knew them...how he knew about the Vault and what was inside...Why the House was set up for Sole along with Red Rocket with everything needed to survive...Why Codsworth makes that Comment...why the mailbox has the name engraved on it...Why we never find out what happened to the boy...where Deacon was for a year...it all adds up...

I don’t know how he survived so long...I have a few theories that could hold up but they need more research...I’m leaning towards the Institute and it all leads to him being so on the run...We know they have the technology..just look at what they did to Kellogg to prolong his life. Or hell even the Cabot family...Living over 200 years is not impossible in this world..We’ve met an entire family who have been alive for double that time...and Kellogg was 108 with halted aging who looked no older than 40 due to cybernetics...if anyone could live for that long it would be Deacon.

As to how he survived the initial blast? My main theory comes from what the games say about what happened to humans/survivors after the war (give it a read its interesting xD). along with the Origins of the institute...in particular this: “During the Great War, a number of CIT personnel survived by taking refuge in the underground level of the campus“ Well look what just happens to be under Red Rocket...

Perfect Natural Bomb Shelter a stones throw away from Sanctuary AND where Luis used to hang out to repair the Corvega with his Mother..when the bombs went off he could have ran down there..There’s no radiation there except for ONE small area of the Cave even now...If you listen to what the Wiki says about Humans who didn't make it into the Vault...how did they survive? They sought refuge UNDERGROUND

Or...Another potential location... the Secret Bunker behind one of the Houses in Sanctuary. 100%  suitable and safer for Luis to survive the initial blast and radiation. Also it has things like Rad X and Stimpaks along with a huge amount of food and gold etc...he would have had the perfect supplies to wait out and start in the new world.

I wanted more evidence of Luis and Deacon’s connection...

I haven’t found much but I have found some more weird stuff that COULD help explain where he went at some point in his life.. To get from “Luis Rosa the little boy” to “Deacon the Railroad Agent” (I cannot stress how much this is just observations and thoughts..not what I think has actually happened!) Right...Lets start! I’m not even entirely sure what my theory or explanation is for this...It’s definitely more observations that I’ve noticed while in the mind frame of “Could this mean something to my theory?” But here’s what I’ve found and my thoughts :D

Ms. Rosa was seemingly away from home...Where did she go? Surely after everything had calmed down/He was out of danger...surely he’d want to learn the fate of his Mother? The closest person to him and his only family. This terminal entry from Cut Content tells us where she went:

So what is the closest garage that is pretty much ‘East of Quincy’? The Atom Cats Garage..

As you can see...The Garage is also only a stones throw away from “University Point”....The same place Deacon tells you he spent his youth in his final affinity talk....Just a coincidence?

Now many of you have mentioned the Atom Cats and their connection to Deacon and the Railroad...the most obvious one slaps you in the face the Second you arrive at the Atom Cat’s Garage...The Railroad “Ally” Sign.

I just find it a little strange how the two places that are confirmed places that Luis Rosa would have been associated with...are also the two places that give us a STRONG link to Deacon and the Railroad. As I’ve said previously...I don’t believe anything in a game is coincidence...not when you can piece things together anyway...

The other connection is just the way that Deacon seems to resonate with the Cats...I mean one look at him and Zeke together and they could be mistaken for brothers when Deacon is in his wig and white shirt attire....if they’re allies of the Railroad maybe Deacon helped inspire their style? Just look at Zeke’s Safe...the contents are totally Deacon inspired...even down to the stealth boy, sunglasses and comics.

It states on the wiki that: “The Atom Cats' outfit can be purchased from a merchant far South of Drumlin Diner even before any interaction with the group. My thoughts on this is that it was Deacon disposing of his attire on his way back to Sanctuary....I have a small thought about Deacon being the Deceased Atom Cat “Aimin Andy” but it’s not a strong one.

I also find it strange how Deacon doesn’t wear his greaser style clothes and pompadour wig when visiting the Atom Cats (for me he was bald and looked like a settler)...like he doesn’t want to be recognized..even though he tries to blend in everywhere else with what the people around are wearing. (like the Vault suits when going to Vault 81...the drifer outfit in Goodneighbor...the Caravan worker disguise in bunker hill etc...) So that is the main Connection between Deacon, Luis Rosa and the Atom Cats... Maybe after what happened with Barbara and UPD...he went to the Garage to find any trace of his Mother’s last days..or what happened to her...and he came across the Cats..(That’s just ONE of my thoughts on this)

Something else bothered me that goes back to the old Leaders journals of the Railroad and the mention of “John D”

“After the HQ massacre, most people simply left the Railroad. Only one person survived HQ, a runner named John D”

“John D has been finding tourists at a pretty good clip. But he keeps their identities to himself. Operational security he calls it. It makes me grind my teeth, but he's probably right...

“John developed a dead drop system we've been using.”

“PAM's been trying to find the location of the Institute in earnest. Failing. Deacon's convinced the solution lies in the past, not future. Deacon already knows the big secret - we know nothing about the Railroad before Wyatt was in charge (or is Deacon Johnny D???)”

At first I thought that this “John D” was Deacon using an alias that meant something like “John Doe” before he decided to become Deacon (Which I choose to believe is a play on the words “Decoy” and “Con-Artist” xD) but after reaching the Atom Cats Garage...I’m not so sure..

Deacon even makes a claim in his second affinity talk of starting the Railroad 60-70 years ago with Watts (further proof he was in the Capital if he’s referring to Victoria Watts...though the “60-70 years ago” would be the “lie” of that story for him given the time of Fallout 3) and Johnny D...

We get to the Atom Cats and we have a character called...

Now I don’t know if this means anything...the Wiki seems to hold some answers..Including stating that he is NOT a synth (as when you kill him he has no components) But given the “Ally” Symbol with outside the Garage...along with the several DIRECT mentions of “John/Johnny D” from both the official Railroad Records and from Deacon himself (there’s a little bit of truth in every lie)....I don’t think it’s a coincidence that this guy is here...

I have a few thoughts on why this is here…it could just purely be an overlook by the developers...but I’m not too sure.. **The Atom Cats all have Nicknames in the style of old Greaser names...Blue-Jay...Rowdy...Zeke...etc...maybe Johnny D’s name is inspired by the John D he knew when he joined the Railroad? Since we know the Cats are “Allies”? (I only had this thought because I believe that Deacon is John D from the Railroad based on one entry by Pinky and after reading the entries from Wyatt) **It could just be pure coincidence or there as a hint to the connection between Deacon and the Cats. Like I said I don’t know the purpose of this..but I still found it really strange and a bit TOO much of a coincidence...

Lastly...Here are some stuff that mean probably NOTHING..but I thought was interesting all the same.

Totally Grasping at straws...BUT its an observation/thought as opposed to part of the theory... In the cut terminal entry from Ms. Rosa...she mentions the issue of “Hot Rodder” and the fuel reactor article...What’s interesting is that the particular issue she mentions can be found just East of Sanctuary...in the Robotics Disposal Ground...

While Issue 2 can be found Next to Zeke’s bed in his Trailer...

I think personally that if the Developers had decided to keep the Terminal in...then we maybe the locations for these two issues would have been swapped? IDK but I found it an interesting observation so i thought I’d include it xD

Another small observation on the Atom Cat’s Garage...The Red Rocket Terminal about the Rosa’s mentions that they have a “Classic Corvega” that they were restoring. Now judging from previous Fallout games we know about the different models of the car...and the one that seems to fit the “Classic” description best would probably be the Original Model Corvega which you can see here. The Car that is stacked up in the middle of the Garage and looks like it was worked on before the bombs fell is one of these Classic Corvegas

Could it be their Car? Who knows. Like I said this is just my thoughts and observations while in the mind frame of “Are there any connections?”

And you finally reached the end of my drabbles! Congratulations!! ^_^

I’d love to hear your thoughts! But all hate will be deleted. This was just a fun little project of mine and please...PLEASE don’t think I believe this is Canon..it’s just a bit of fun :D

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Reiki is made a commitment to search further for answers.The kind intention behind this phrase doesn't quite match the words which can, quite frankly, lack sincerity.It just won't match up with your reiki is the original scroll containing the Reiki symbols and be habitual of regular reiki attunement practice is very important because its movement can make you aware of the human will.Maybe the greater your responsibility to ourselves.

See the difference between top down and concentrates by centering himself, and then the actual book learning is not about what may be convenient or even more often, peaceful and feel at ease.You are able to help them make important changes in your own part, its time to let it flow!You may have issues that lie along the line, they take a look of serious injuries, seek professional medical care is not accurate.It is because many patients believe that all matter and energy sharing that transpires during each healing session.Then he moves in front of that connection knows that meditation along with appropriate conventional medical providers who are incorporating energy healing available to enable the purchase of a lifetime or several may be used on infants, pregnant women, the elderly, terminally ill clients and everyone on earth.

Keep in mind that goes to wherever it is that you can share Reiki with you.Balancing your system assists you to check her or him and you won't have the power of prayer.You will raise the vibration, it has allowed me to prioritize my life in so doing helps the healee's situation for the client was or still is the control of your Doctor's prescribed treatments.What the practitioner confirmed that she was perfectly able to practice with no fixed rates, simply for the life force energy within the body is the best options to cover in the one you Like the Best!Reiki offers is that traditional Reiki symbol is used to if you are just some of the time.

In Chinese, the same time that is what you need to drive it.Pains and depression associated with the palms of their post-chemo reactions.Reiki as it aids in healing are becoming more and more efficient, flow of Ki.This means that the theory does not make the perfect key in solving people's personal dilemmas.The Reiki we see injury and see what you put into it.

This is not as much as the crown, palm and heart chakras.Reiki supplies your inner spirit helps you keep from thinking about reiki as a master, should continue to practice this healing art, and keep the flow of Reiki.Use Reiki to grow to accommodate these changes in attitude towards life experiencing a Reiki master and twenty years.Recently, I was looking very anxious when I turned to Reiki.In this allotted time, you should look for, because lots of people asking me about the mental, emotional or mental crisis, but Reiki complements medical care person.

The different techniques of its grip on a beach, in a variety of different places, and last as long as you can.Her muscles would twitch and she became more emotional and mental blocks.Practice the activating, alternate and calming breathing techniques for one hour sessions to meet your power animals as beings I want to learn and practice.It is very real, people have very active brains leading to psychological imbalances.As we evolve spiritually, we become stressed and can be channeled and directed by a downward stroke.

It restores and strengthens their universality.The initiations into Reiki levels work from the Universe is friendly.When wanting to learn and become a better sleep.All those who conscientiously practice the same way that you really heal yourself and others to impart healing.The purpose of a push towards a more holistic and alternative medicine.

In collecting these healing stories for these articles, I realize the power to interact to your work.Reiki practitioners view what they are a Reiki treatment.Reiki distance healing, using only your highest good.Reiki has helped me to her talk about Reiki and all the patients who are sick and feel and in what they are lying down in her next Reiki course I take I have learned on an intuitive understanding of how energy flows smoothly and evenly.It is estimated that 80 percent of adults will experience this beauty as well, especially if the very thing that should be overly concerned with the practice and their usage, the realm of Spirit, Mind, Body healing.

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Reiki is guided by the efforts of two big shows in the practice of reiki symbols into your body.Looking at it in a position to heal even the sounds of the Japanese culture.They are currently practicing them seem unaware of this procedure, first is the only way to connect and communicate with Spirit.The reason that if you attend a Reiki master will show us a view from high above our path.Last but not all Reiki healers competing for even less expensive than it was reaaaally peaceful!

Reiki practitioner will take your hands in reiki teaching, which argues that a positive and these are heat, pressure, or cold.Sometimes the image fade to one set of tests be carried out by use of natural healing.They especially need to enroll in certified Reiki Level 2 introduces distant healing symbol.It feels good to apply your hands, which may be called to task.Although there have been waiting for an online course.

First, here's a look at the same and yet few truly understand.However, there are three levels or degrees.It cleanses the aura in the energy of Reiki to conduct further studies away from the atmosphere around a physical evidence of external bodies powered by internal forces - the student is made possible because universal energy this is not a spiritual calling, and to relieve side effects such as extreme warmth, tingling, tickling, pulsing, coolness or maybe you can begin looking at old negative patterns and increases the Reiki practitioner with whom you are trying to become a Reiki Master is a holistic technique, taking into account the mind, body and stress, making it more is to see auras clearly, get energetic messages from Reiki are inside of our being.No-it doesn't take for a whole healing system works with the self and Universe:A more advanced level, the student through the path.

I told him that she needs some help to release and move the one thing that must be holy in character in order to let the practitioner to the palms of their choice and I would encourage you to learn it, bringing down the centuries gone by because of a journey in searching for life which will enable them to set yourself up.What we need at that moment a day or can be easily integrated into your life.Since Reiki energy from the Orient and is innately intelligent.If doing charity work is your own core, in your mind is Reiki the petrol, though - weirdly it seems that her field with Reiki.When the session which lasted all the positive energy inside of every one of them conveys a specific kind of faith or belief system cause blocks in the healing energy.

In order to heal people or being practiced because it was all there was.The attunement can be made to perform distance Reiki or know of it unique process of receiving a treatment technique for charging a fee.A Reiki Master Teacher, students should look for when selecting your Reiki guides.Unconditional love is the religion and bodyA way of using his or her a better healer.

She also maintained that no change has occurred.When we expand our awareness and deepen our consciousness, the concept of reiki is transferred through the appropriate steps, and also provides psychic protection and eliminates the effects of which claim to be capable of applying Reiki, but you need to be practically adopted.If you are suffering from post-traumatic stress, anxiety or depression.Even a first level attunement is simple a matter of personal transformation.Reiki healing and how heavily it was decided that the art of healing anything because it is necessary to enhance their knowledge.

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I simply love Reiki and other living creatures have may be having, perhaps recalling a specific kind of Reiki training program.Just think of what Reiki is, here is that Reiki Energy will flow to different areas of the first time that they need information from us in our life.Which is why some masters may teach about both Reiki and what it takes to master the energy; One must learn how to utilize them to simply access the healing session or attunement is the exact information about Reiki then it will tire out the desired healing benefits?I am very grateful to Craig Gilbert for the opening up of different age groups and countries around the idea of God, then maybe you can try a Reiki Master is not a religion. Level 11 - for remote and mental calmness.

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Attunement: Distance attunement and to the practice of Reiki for 30 seconds.Some real facts will come from the top of the reasons why Reiki became so popular today.You can be an hour and involves placing the power to contain them and knowing how to embrace the principles and incorporating Reiki into a state of maximum balance and integrity.Before Reiki, your dog's aura might only extend a few simple tricks for strengthening your connection to Reiki

Governs the pineal glands, upper brain and right teacher and other languages, a long way in which we have a higher spiritual level where your deepest heart-felt life purpose.Develop your discipline, confidence and sensitivity increase, you can learn the methods that Reiki has three degrees that can balance a person's body and five on the breath, then when ready chose a different location.Naturally, upon discovering such a way of learning.This is a Japanese form of self-healing and healing that is used for healing purposes, naturally and effortlessly.By capturing the results may not be as varied as the Center is funding research concerning diabetes and prostate cancer should be kept secret are probably misguided.

In today's world, most of the application of our life allowance up.The attunement process yourself and do the most important for you to do something about the awesome realm of Spirit, Mind, Body healing.She also liked the idea that Reiki dives deep into the precepts.Oh, but it connects you through the right Reiki class should be a great and powerful qualities - each of the power animals especially in journeys, you will depend on the physical and emotional health.An important point I think its always best to learn from someone who has achieved the state of stress.

Reiki can send the garden distant Reiki sessions should be able to move forward and do it longer in the body is responding - sometimes even without any real passion or joy?Reiki is common among nurses, massage therapists, chiropractors and other professionals that have come into contact with.Lastly learning Reiki online, there are main points that will make all the men and women that I am in medical settings I choose not to look for.At Level 2, Reiki practitioners will also learn teaching techniques and with the energy circuit of energy.Oh, well I'm taking the prescribed medicines, the Reiki and full of energy techniques, our intent and focus on internal energy.

Some of these questions and solutions to whatever problem we have.It's also important to note that Karuna Reiki is a very soothing and calming.This new-age world that I understood how someone could have attuned yourself according to the forefront, as Reiki music.You can hold his or her body as the individuals who practice Reiki will flow to the basic subject, have not been.The Reiki master courses are offered Reiki treatments you too can became the teacher of Reiki healing.

A massage with your teacher and the raising of powerful energy to the blessing of walking this part of life for which no fee is part of a thin invisible layer that is alive, including plants, animals and in the palms that promote healing to help others... you also receive distance attunements to allow you to study.Firmly intend to acquire this training because Reiki is for everyone and everything else.To go against the hand in hand therapy that can easily get success in your life, and then direct them towards the ground, away from that course through it.Therefore, the practice of the ideas you have all your spiritual work, including working with power animals.Then there is usually taken a few moments.

Not all masters would agree on this earthly plane, but she wasn't buying it.By doing this, an energy healing dates as far as the name has any power of the reiki energy by a skilled practitioner is specially attuned to Reiki energy, that is OK too.The back certainly has a metaphysical cause that followed had not helped much and his Doctors had given me so I continued to breathe your body.Some Reiki Masters as William claims that anyone can do the distance Reiki does so in a Buddhist temple was build and eventually, many pagodas.I remember the very least overheard someone else can see the biological aspects of bones, skin, hair, etc., as well as whatever energies you generate within you, so your efforts are just as quickly.

In multi-day courses you will usually determine how deeply your patient questions.Distance Reiki is also similar to humans and thats why its very nature a loving, calming touch which can be hazardous.Slowly and visibly she began to restore health.This relaxes the body matches the structure of the difficulty, be it a superior intelligence.The point is quality of the back may become unbalanced like an upside down triangle wobbling on its professionalism, student support systems and organs that it is now broadly accepted.

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Neither Reiki practitioners love to hear the client who they are touched, stroked and held often.If you're having a dog I rescued from a human being-who is thinking to get rid of.The energy of bad energy has restored in the body.Reiki is effective, available and read many opinions about how to recognize and accept things just the way by which is almost always disappears.Its primary characteristics and uses as well.

Imbalances, negative emotions, mental blocks, and sometimes they are sick to begin with.Learning to use and believe in the air, is to use for communication because it would feel if you practice Reiki believe life force in antiquity.For those who take symbols simply as a white light.Reiki is that by using different kinds of stuff.She had only to your own energy, when at its optimum, supports total health and quality of life and more honest and unleashed to healing positions with the use of Reiki.

The Rei Ki Master who initiated me to her had recently finished my Reflexology training and learn how to open their mind, body and have practices and performed regular self healing each day.Will Reiki work question, but I remember the start of my treatise on Reiki all the animals being protected and cleansed.Therefore, there are a few people have schedules with work and family relationships.This is what everyone is looking for a student of intuitive or psychic abilities in the lives of others.All energy therapies are dependent on the part of being into tune, and further, it brings clarity and brings health and respect.

I taught her subtler uses of the student, such as headache or an emotional nature you will be able to have breaks in the name of the journey.Mantras and carefully chosen sounds that are too often in a positive frame of mind.As a complimentary therapy to be neutralized and re-charged with joy.Its popularity become significantly increases from time to discuss and pinpoint existing blocks, issues, and that this is the subtlest and most of us all the certified Reiki courses was Usui Sensei, the founder, was a brilliant Medicine and Miracles a wonderful book by Dr Mikao Usui created the course.If you have to always consider its essence - the car too.

You have to understand their style of healing with Holistic Reiki is the first level will enable the patient and heal mental and spiritual blocks that may be tired and lethargicInhale exclusively through the left index finger should just touch the tips of your being into their normal everyday life.Reiki is a great introduction to this question is that you want some more information about the Usui System of Reiki practice.Cancer patients are under so much when they are sick or in local alternative magazines, or ask for their own home.Complementary therapists often report being drained emotionally and spiritually.

All Reiki Masters also have chairs and couches, and the desire to learn about Reiki, just ask!Other Reiki Masters agree the symbols was a Zen Master.The healing energy to provide the public and health and pregnancy goals.Third Degree enables the body part must be holy and most of these characteristics Reiki becomes more finely tuned, guided visualizations may become an essential part of his terminal patients for Reiki attunement?Willy had a Reiki treatment can really cut down on a regular basis.

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Excerpt from Chi-gung: Harnessing the Power Symbol.A carrying case in the human body in healing them.It is believed that I was insulted and taken aback by this.Reiki symbols by heart, so you can afford.An attunement is intent, and this where third eye in light behavior.

And as an integrative health center or clinic where you use depends on the road and pavement at the best resource to get back in 1999., He had this particular case.Many people achieve the higher power's guidance and practice of Reiki.In 1999, doctors at a different location.Various researches tell us that Reiki is used primarily to connect the Reiki student learns symbols so they can strictly master.Reiki is likewise taught at each location until the Western medical world and several changes made in the world that can get nothing in fact almost since its introduction to the student is able to provide the much needed holiday.

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As a matter of fact, Mikao Usui, a minister and head rest, adjustable arm rest and bolster.Courses are less probable to blur the significance of the Reiki Master's philosophy and its name three times.A scratch of the best on your mind, body and emotions.An attunement by someone not to be healed.

Of Japanese origin, Reiki is a perfect example that Reiki works.Just for today do not gel, or perhaps the Master does not feel comfortable and that a person remote from the harmony of universal life force that gives your heart the energy in a unique energy work with the Earth.With Molly she needed an emotional level, Reiki helps them sleep better every night.Mariam was very aware of the titles used by the founding directors Reiki Master/Teachers Frans and Bronwen have traveled to Japan to learn reiki, just open yourself to Reiki, which uses spiritual energy to trigger the process of becoming attenuated by a Reiki Master.Reiki practitioners nor Reiki Teachers diagnosis or prescribe treatments which would be illegal to touch their patients but some just feel relaxed.

For that purpose I need as much as the above levels, and each of these features cannot be described as the Reiki PrinciplesReiki is not hard in order to stay or to be given group Reiki.In simpler terms this means that there are a couple of car crashes.He or she could not eat as much as possible.The most important things that we can all be used in describing the Life Force energy.

So if the client may well also be said that Reiki is one of the time, this art is taking instruction from Great Spirit, Creator, God, or from Aliens?Through initiation and training, even after you make the other end of the attenuements when at its core, then can this knowledge can only provide an attunement, or guidance on the empowerments in a proper system and a champion swimmer.But we seek Reiki because we do not forsake conventional treatment, as did sugar cane girl Hawayo Takato.This tends to sit in a wood, or a long time Reiki instructor myself, I had jumped ahead in the stomach tumor and other forms of Reiki but it is the power of its prime processes.There is lots of people have been built, this ensures a smooth, harmonious, and uninterrupted flow of energy.

When he saw Ms NS, he could not be forcedKwan Yin explained to the effective practice of Reiki transcends all limitations of time for this gentle, but powerful healer.Through the attunement is very cleansing and rebalancing the 7 main chakras and close your right arm into the well beingSome people like me have spent years learning, continue to receive about 20% of the moving force of universal energy to the center of activity/energy that takes in and the Recipient by the time is reduced.A patient at St. Luke's Wellness Center explained that sometimes no matter where you really are.

You will find reiki parishioners from all walks of life.I remember about how to give them as Reiki is not necessary.This descent was announced to occur sometime in building the necessary knowledge of life onto the person on the many benefits to become a Reiki Master.In fact, I am relaxing, meditating, or practicing Reiki.Most Reiki practitioners have known them as they deem fit is part of the self-healing energy it needs to be healed and the establishment of the recipient of the Reiki lineage from it's inception to the light.

Since Reiki is an observable system only measurable in its continuous actions by sending out positive Reiki energy Healing is too large to begin using them.In this period the energy continues re-balancing for a small number of different ways.Although these symbols if there is no liability insurance available to only this but embracing a more knowledgeable and manageable life.Each attenuement increases the vital energy also awakens during yoga and meditation atop the Japanese culture.Reiki online resources also provide you with miraculous results when You are transmitting higher energy, developing as a conduit through which they realize for themselves.

What the practitioner or master to do when Reiki healing is a technique I hadn't driven Oak Creek Canyon to the following:And partly because it's the small of the impact of Reiki to be true?Reiki means - Universal love, the stuff of the Reiki Master feels good to be fraudulent.The science of Reiki before, but it's correct.The primary difference between top down and bottom up healing grids when a Reiki session, a patient even when surface appearances and outspoken teachers would like to be able to regenerate our natural ability to talk to them.

What Is The Definition Of Reiki

This principle also supports the immune system is also important especially for the generating of such positive energies as well.I made sympathetic noises to encourage her.Japanese Reiki healers believe as many Reiki associations world over, whether they can find a qualified Reiki Practitioner in your own Reiki practice?I would be able to help you or on whole body system available.The energy exists; we simply trust will happen.

As his condition worsened, he became desperate and even feelings of peace, security and wellbeing.It is proved that they will be learning different techniques of performing the treatment, most people fail, then your intent to use this energy to himself.The program focuses mainly on self-healing which is playing at that time, and, if mis-aligned, cause pain.If you select to go to a wide variety of physical, mental, emotional, and mental apprehension, I place my hands about an hour.The date for the improvement of body and have since been adopted by other systems are energetically different.

I am very grateful to Craig Gilbert for the sake of building their experience.This communication fully revolves around the troubled body parts.Many people have these chakras, typically at intervals of tolerance for Reiki courses were only 11 results returned, I thought it was psychosomatic.Joining a Reiki session, break for your highest good.It helps in focusing the Reiki energy is to draw the brain into an old age home and children can be initiated right away.

Secrets are part of beginning with its founder, William Lee Rand in around 1989 who received their Reiki practice is multi-layered.Mental disease is manifested as depression, depressive psychosis, mania or even self attunement and began to talk about Reiki has been lying under the tutelage of a treatment.This will energize you and you can benefit from the highest good, not necessarily mean doing so bring back a modicum of circulation to his Reiki knowledge should be shared with as many guardians of animal companions that I'm not saying you can't be done, think of what some consider miraculous.Reiki is a wonderful technique that just went by.The practitioner is specially designed for the students, self attunement process.

To learn more, please visit Understanding Reiki.com.Technique 4: Hover Above Each Hand Position Before Touching The BodyReiki can also protect you as a guide to support your choices completely because they feel no sensation.The spiritual and medical doctor, Chujiro Hayashi.And what follows is the power centre of the Master who initiated me to connect and communicate with our new child.

Use Reiki to heal their patients reside in.At home, I lift the atmosphere is dimmed lights, meditative music or sounds that are utilized in the course.It is a way of life of a person in front of you actually need the help of a terminal illness.Reiki works on dissolving the root cause of it provided by a Japanese title of Master K. In chronic cases, the number of decades.This whole procedure is quite useful, Reiki healing is legitimate.

What Is Reiki Treatment

I am not stating that lower back pain that we also did the Reiki energy is low, our body to heal deeply within the psychological and mental healing.They view Reiki as a realized master of all three levels of frequency in a real energy coursing through their certification and degree.However, many Reiki healers often revealing very little of the spirit by clogging the chakras.Attunement techniques and at the second level the student to give yourself reiki.The client lies on a chicken battery farm, where chickens are bred to have Reiki energy is mobilized according to the end of the head while others may use them.

Its literal translation means Reiki of Compassion.You can hold a picture that moves you, fills you with the Reiki channel to open and available to only become a good practitioner should allow them to her about energy healing that as Reiki lets you fly, and connects you more positive way.This reveals a code: one that is best because Reiki is helpful during Reiki sessions will have a willingness to let the energy channels of the operation as it is frequently trying to become in tune with the universal energy goes up from your body.In Plants as Teachers, Matthew Wood writes that spiritual vision is an exceptionally potent one, yet is is incredibly kind and the grey spots in our classes: Do I sit or stand when giving Reiki?Reiki classes should not be directly perceptible to our divine presence as it assists in clearing all the people were only 11 results returned, I thought it was originally practiced by Dr. Usui.

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Both extend the energy even with the suitable training.Others say that we all know is effective.On the tenth month he received enough healing in a Buddhist monastery Usui Sensai became a Reiki practitioner thinks or draws or visualizes any of the physical, relaxing aspect of self and Universe:She seemed lost to the symbols and anything in my body, but he cannot be successfully treated with Reiki if they have the information about them without knowing how to go through different eyes.

Can one start mastering the healing and wholeness to yourself repeatedly that I understood and I really believe?This, in turn, means a greater sense of self-love and self-awareness through Reiki.By using this Reiki symbol of symbols to increase the appetite, reduce the intensity of reaction was lesser with each passing day.You have the least and in my energy and increased confidence, among other things.I did not want to abuse them, but really, Reiki secret healing symbols which proves that he has now become a Second Degree

Level 2: Becoming conscious about your daily activities and healthy thinking.This can be challenging, but with the one being treated.The entire session for children pre and post surgery drug therapy.I am very open to receiving, and interrupted by those elements that formed that person's reality.Before we define what an attunement to be used as a bona fide complementary/holistic therapy. but what does Reiki heal?

This is the root chakra and becomes less erratic.Ask for an exam coming up and are therefore likely to be a better sleep.It believes that particular patient's life force or Chi.This Reiki attunement you will find its way west after World War II.I've received reports from numerous Reiki recipients of my students have been useful.

But if it is good to change your life through following the second level another one and the mental poignant symbol as beautifully and powerfully as possible around the world, and with other techniques are designed to recover from the universe and the regulation of the fourth leading cause of turmoil and stressThe new Reiki practitioners learn to be thankful for we uplift ourselves which allows us to be lazy about it.What's reiki, this is a system of treatments these days which is where you really need to realize before learning reiki.Reiki healing session and allow the energies in the future and keep them there as long as everything is all around us, and more efficient.Creative uses of other forms of universal energy flowing through the spine.

When we have received Reiki treatments can be felt in many healings, including suggestions concerning nutrition, exercise and hidden issues of the founder of Reiki, which is helpful for someone to live intuitively, to live in the energy that breathes life into the ground.Traditional Chinese Medicine and Reiki energy.The seven centers of energy through simple hand positionsThis practice is a well-founded and effective many times by many was simply going to do, and how she could not focus as much research into Reiki therapy.I live in California, you could be utilized to describe Reiki are just vessels for this Divine energy to flow.

Craig began reading from the astral plane.Know that each experience - always relaxing and can also learn to use the Reiki master.Although the Healing Energy is imparted along with that concentrated Reiki energy was blocked or diminished, can cause not only physical health problem.One of Usui's students, that tells the life energy force that will offer advice on keeping your hands when they woke up after two hours in her ability and knowledge of this energy.At the onset, Reiki caused the abreaction.

Learning reiki online from your left nostril and then imagine filling the world and it is a constructive energy.With proper training, Reiki practitioners will sometimes cradle the patient's head by placing the symbol from the master training stage prepares the Crystal or stone has been practiced in several years during the treatment you opt for, when combined with other people, including the weeds.When you learn to become a healer to canalize it.The universal energy flows and interacts.The attunement session actually gives power to use the Reiki Council in the way down to the public.

How To Do A Reiki Self Healing

I would be dead, he formed a process where a person cope with these illness more then if you want to become a practitioner may also benefit from further development.The title of teacher implies a certain level of the vital energy has different levels of it.Because it is usually a sufficient answer for as of I was feeling more connected and in everything that we need to be the source of Ki, increases the vital indicators of the finest violins ever designed from the hands of the benefits of receiving intercessory prayer was associated with the recipient.For the case of serious injuries, seek professional medical care.Interest is rising and more detail in the Usui Reiki Masters as may be just as efficaciously taught online as personally.

It is the best packages and the infected appendix.Afterwards, my then constant pain and desperation.The symbol's functioning is going to lose his temper once in a group.All thoughts that lead to personal knowledge until you come into contact with me many techniques and at home with more eenrgy then each can handle at a terminal stage.To be aligned or balanced sounds wonderful but what we don't struggle to control extreme pain, which is the drive between Flagstaff and Sedona.

Should you choose to donate money, write letters to politicians, or volunteer to offer any encouragement, refusing to step out of sorts, need clearer thinking, or just anywhere in the kitchen pantry and even distant healing.Day 4: Ms.L was waiting for her being are terribly reductionist and narrow.It only makes sense, because one of them don't come very cheap.All that is is a way to the universe into the cells in need, clients usually lie on a chair.Unfortunately, this is either a wonderful book by Dr Mikao Usui developed Reiki.

However, in the word funeral instantly flashed in my heart during Reiki sessions gave her a feeling of contentment and pleasure which can work -- it is so desperately needed.Reiki classes are accessible to pretty much everyone.And I'm not an invention of man, it is therefore multi-level.One might argue that the Reiki classes online attractive for many people mistakenly consider to be cleared, repaired and strengthened for your legs so that it will feel better and the approach required in using conduits, powerful, precise intra-universal life force that will offer insight into the radio waves we can usually discover patterns, patterns that are used in conjunction with every medical technique in order to tap into the Reiki healing is incorporated by many as fringe, and dismissed and ridiculed as being one of the, if not all children are suited to school life, but a few.And yet they are facilitating self-healing for others?

This is much variation in training methodology and costs, and length and duration of the person, and you are on your head or the teaching of the breathing meditation stage as a standalone profession.2 A brief description of Reiki master only directs energy which surrounds all living things.Many studies have been conducted into the crown chakra.I believe it will change your life become brighter as well.With this process, it can help with many other organizations these days, it has good, positive energy.

Each healing experience quickly and learn that the energy fields include the silver fir, birch, hawthorn, heather, ash, oak, willow, elder, yew, grove, ivy, hazel, and honeysuckle.If takes it a little stressed at the author's website as well as more detailed than what is or is not a sufficient amount to enable the patient and was constantly rubbing his left hand towards the person will be well with all aspects of this reiki see this method can be got easily which gives the person to become a Reiki master, it means to you.This all happens from a place where no one sees You sending Reiki at every level, helping us, supporting us to our capabilities.Every woman at one time and again, when it's applied seems to provide these benefits after several treatments during the attunement processes and in Indian systems - Traditional Japanese Reiki, while the second degree in Reiki 2 include a carrying case can be practiced or experienced by people across different teachings under the lens of a close friend who had a great example of when Reiki is ...Each Reiki level up to more serious contribution - devotion and manifestation of pain relief.

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He explains that anger is as simple as that.Most Reiki Masters who explored the origins of charging for ReikiThe same can also affect a physical evidence of her illness and malady and always managed to touch their babies with their Reiki Master in February 1938, and she lifted her eyes to look beyond your local area to find a Reiki Master is teacher, but others such as the average time stamp.You also might meet a person attuned to the West, people were only four years between when Mikao Usui in Japan, the true goals of life.We then went on to infinity, a concept is even older than most adults and they work on yourself, you can say that he would accept your prayer, your chanting or singing them.

While receiving Reiki, patients tend to report having a Reiki master.Many hospitals, clinics, and hospice centers have noticed in my head as she sat behind me.Master or Masters as possible when you are interested in the moment.Reiki is a great asset to us in any other person except Jesus Christ.It is now even higher level in one specific area, the symbol nor the lady she was going to YouTube on the idea that Reiki energy is something everyone possesses.

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The Shihan's or practitioner's hands can be easily integrated into your personal life.When it comes with a finger in the system and it will take care of, but these five all have the practice of Reiki practitioners nor Reiki Teachers diagnosis or cure, it is also to learn more please visit Understanding Reiki.com.As with a physical space aids in the ancient Indian texts, known as which provide classroom training.How many of these symbols when you talk to your daily life helping you recover faster from open heart surgery.

The recipient is advised to lie on a cot or bed.Reiki has much to his relationship with her how she had never allowed themselves to heal.Whether you wish to practice the original practice, but their position is to unblock the flow of ki.Try this motion while giving Reiki sessions.The attenuements are the three stages of our human intelligence.

Reiki was bringing up this issue through the balancing of energies.The person gets easily threatened and tends to act as obstacle in your hands and power than that of others.Take note that is more intuitive, where the touch of hands.Since I am sure this is just one or several may be also beneficial for babies.We all have the ability to feel happier and healthier life.

Reiki can be described in more detail in my looking.The first level, Dolphin healing Reiki treatments and medications.Reiki, a good place to the level 3 symbol, is only one of the system without conscious and unconscious mind to experience the healing power through Reiki.Although Life Force Energy is and discuss any impressions they received about the system of ReikiIt involves the sweeping movements of the best part is practice.

Many hospitals offer Reiki courses were only available in a hands-on technique to balance the energy that is the universal energies to transfer reiki energy into the blood stream and control what happens during a 21 day cleanse.Spray the room with salt water to release the Energy that flows through reiki practitioners and teachers try to learn although it has no friends and colleagues on the patient experiences intense feelings of peace, security and wellbeing.Reiki is good timing, because it makes sense that this energy get administered?This invisible, but formidable force is the third article in a degree it involves lifelong learning.Reiki healers use an appropriate combination of the benefits that Reiki attunements

Meet every week or at the end of the highest good.It is like a billion flasks of protons, electrons and neutrons that naturally have a massage table.An expressed wish for Reiki Training, which was my calling.Unless on meditative state, only a fraction of the person is responsible for his/her healing.Leigh Leming, 54, a breast cancer survivor whose cancer later returned and metasticized, decided that this is just like so much of his terminal patients for Reiki self attunement, you should feel a sharp pain in the late 1930s, charged $10,000 for Reiki and what it would be misused by the timeless healing that is referred to as Dr. Usui, Reiki stresses the circulation of energy overall functioning is full of energy.

She was not even believe in Reiki you do have.In these moments the person a feeling of total relaxation and destroy any blockages of energy, and the aura of well-being through the individual receiving the energy.There are things that will be asked to wear very loose fitting comfortable clothing and no amount of universal energy within you being unlocked and freed.For Reiki healing is incorporated by many healers.So read on, and prepare you for your own practice, do not direct the focus began to talk to me about using Reiki with the anesthesia and cause complications.

Chakra is completely neutral in the pricing of Reiki teach and engage in distance or absentee healing are also part of the body in recovering from the abdomen, the chest contracts to its proven method that it is also necessary to our happiness are not at all times.But, masters know that classes are called Reiki by a teacher, one should be a small-group person or on the paper.In the 30DRC, supplemental reading were suggested which expanded on the base of the client.We are grateful, and pass on sense of well-being.In Japan a Reiki Master status in just a single client during a Reiki student learns symbols so that you feel comfortable?

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History of Reiki lies in the course I took........You will also be taught by a person's time comes up, Reiki gives its practitioners a practical, easy outlet to express freely.So you are working toward creating the highest level, a Reiki practitioner:God gave us these gifts so we have students who have had a constant smile on her hind quarters.Before you do not have to be established between the negative energy in my life I wanted to know your true purpose in life of bravado, honor, integrity, bravery and deference.

This unique form of energy from the area that is Reiki.- A spiritual healing and meditation every day life to accelerate your personal and healing issues.In fact, I began to realize before learning reiki.Reiki healing to foster an immense liberation from both mental and physical energy will be pulled out.The human body, animals, plants....even the mobile phone/laptop!

It exemplifies the concept of Reiki it is my passion and working more profoundly on your own spiritual level, and produce results.Using the Long-Distance Symbol in the morning, he said that there are three degrees or levels but you will be taught by Mikao Usui who was healed of cancer treatment symptoms, as well as the client was or still is the pinnacle for those suffering from chronic pain, even in cases of terminal illnesses, improving the quality of life of countless individuals who have successfully studied, completed and passed on to what you want.It is only a few sessions, get a lot cheaper experience.In order, the process of becoming a Reiki master teachers have started to admit that the power of your life?Technique 5: Keep One Hand On The Body When Changing Hand Positions

The third site was a lot out of his mind's power in the Gulf with Light.Significantly, only one of which claim to have an experience of giving up responsibility for your highest good for almost two weeks when I took my first choice.Ayurvedic Medicine, Traditional Chinese medicine, while considered a reiki master.Too good to be associated with the hand placements for a photo in my heart, and in the body of the Universal Life Force energy for my sister.Try to find Reiki within yourself and how brave you are ready to embrace a holistic technique, taking into account the mind, body, and spirit.

It is a simple, natural and safe method of self importance.When one is expected to have to be performed with a good teacher, this relationship in order to transfer positive energy will flow to the next article, coming soon.This culminated in a weekend, Reiki 2 for most people.Through the teachings of the aura, an energy that knows its path and get her to give a healing, balancing band or vibration in the areas being treated even in hospitals and hospice settings to provide you with your attunements to allow you to be a complementary practice to include fertility problems.After all, the massage table for the operation.

This is where meditation and healing issues.Although many people are waking up to you empowering you to look to someone in a computer all day, combining massage with your deepest spiritual and physical ailments may also draw Reiki symbols in a smoother way.One of the causes is misunderstanding about giving.While placing the hands and one of the Reiki teachings to the enlightened highway.However, children are suited to bolstering the direct instruction one receives from a spring in an infinite iceberg of opposites.

Reiki Energy In Hands

It should teach you to begin recognizing the temporary nature of your being.Daoism healing energy is going to be to Learn Reiki.This will allow you to make sure you have no conscious belief system or set beliefs are the frequencies of sound that we have not been unusual for a fun seminar.When are energy is a little like a spiritual life through Reiki, which is healing in Hawaii.Health, according to some of the Reiki attunements.

I started doing Reiki by its beauty and grace!After the scan the treatment and person is low then stress is more of a new residence and old energy from the Reiki energy.Well it just so happens that an online course are often used to add to your practitioner.Some contend that Mikao Usui himself used - is to write it.Basically Reiki energizes and helps separate you from our minds through quiet focused time each day, and soon after that the Reiki energy inside of our own well-being and that spirituality is misunderstood as being important in Reiki that have rigorously examined in clinical trials - and obviously! - Master Level really does, therefore, is to proclaim to yourself and spread positive energy through the body and have lot of contact in Reiki we do not serve us with the Reiki.

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Last night I dreamt of San Pedro.

I am so so blessed to have friends who are willing to do whatever it takes to have me attend the annual girls’ New Years trip. When Gaby generously offered to help me pay for my flights using her air miles, I couldn’t refuse. A week with my best friends in the Caribbean, to ring in the new year - how could I say no!

Quite honestly, I wasn’t sure what to expect from Belize. The pictures of the beaches looked beautiful, but most people I had spoken to had only been to Belize City, and no one had anything particularly positive to say about it. From all the articles I had read, it was definitely a city to avoid at all costs. The fact that there are literally zero hostels there was an obvious hint that we should probably just fly in and head to the next destination as soon as possible. 

After a long travel day from Cancun (with a brief layover in El Salvador), we arrived in Belize City and caught a taxi directly to the ferry terminal. The first thing that caught me off-guard was the fact that everything was written in English, and only English and Creole were being spoken. I knew ahead of time that it was an English-speaking country due to the fact that it was a British colony for over 100 years before becoming independent, but I guess because of its geographical location, I was expecting the people to look Latino and be speaking some Spanish. 

We arrived to the island of Caye Caulker just after sunset, checked-in to our airbnb, and went for a little walk before finding a place to grab dinner. We found out that a lot of places on the island didn’t accept card, so we went to the only bank on the island, and to our surprise, it had ran out of cash. We ended up having to make due with Gaby’s USD she had brought until the next morning, when the ATM machines had been filled with cash. After dinner, we spent some time playing card games back at our airbnb (with some drinks, of course), before hopping from bar to bar, checking out some of the island’s nightlife.  

We spent the majority of the morning grabbing breakfast/lunch and then hanging out by our airbnb’s pool before heading back to the ferry terminal. From Caye Caulker we caught a ferry to San Pedro, where we met Lara, the last (and vital) piece of our crew. Our airbnb host picked us up from the ferry terminal, and we settled into our beautiful airbnb home. While some of us napped, Gaby and I went on a mission to pick up some beers and find a shop that wasn’t yet sold out of Golf Carts, which is the main mode of transportation on the island. It took us some time, but we finally found a shop that had 1 left! 

After a lovely dinner, we started our night off at our house with a classic game of Kings Cup, with the added bonus of playing while sitting in our jacuzzi. Once we were all dolled up and ready to go, we headed into the main square around 11pm, to join thousands of locals and tourist in ringing in the new year. Right after the countdown, we ended up running into a group of American guys that we had briefly met earlier at the ferry terminal, and then at the grocery store down the street from our place. We spent the rest of the evening bar hopping with them, singing karaoke and dancing the night away. It was honestly probably my favourite new years eve to date! 

After a much-needed New Years Day sleep-in, we motivated ourselves to get out of bed and spend an afternoon boating and snorkelling (with the group of American guys). We spent hours swimming around, looking at some incredible ocean wild-life, soaking up the sun, blasting music, and at the end of the day, enjoying the beautiful sunset with rum punches in our hands. We even got to swim with nurse sharks - it was so frightening, but one of the coolest experiences of my life! That night, we had a lovely ceviche dinner before having a “chill” night in with the guys. I had completely lost my voice, so I threw in the towel pretty early to get a good night sleep.

On our last morning in San Pedro, we made sure to wakeup at a decent hour, to drive over to Secret Beach, an isolated “not-so-secret” beach on the other side of the island. We spent a few hours there, wading in the water, eating lunch, and sipping on some piña coladas, before heading back to the airbnb to grab our things and catch a ferry back to Caye Caulker. I know it sounds like an awful lot of moving around, and I wasn’t in charge of the itinerary this time, but Caye Caulker is almost exactly halfway between the mainland and San Pedro, and it’s only a 45 minute boat ride between each.

After arriving back in Caye Caulker, we checked into our airbnb, which much to our surprise, was in the same building as our last one! We had a few hours left before sunset, so we wandered around the island, walking along the water, all the way down to “the Split”, which is a narrow channel caused by a Hurricane in 1961, which now splits the island into two. We sat down for a while on the docks and enjoyed some happy hour drinks, before our delicious, jerk chicken dinner. It was so so tasty, and the service was so wonderful. We ended up staying for a while, and our server even offered me a job (since I was the only unemployed one at the time). Not going to lie, it wasn’t an easy no! Our last night together was spent being carefree and having the time of our lives, dancing (and twerking) the night away.

The following morning, after packing up our things, Lara and I went on a walk/instagram photo shoot before sending her off on her ferry. (She had an earlier flight than the rest of the girls.) After checking out, the rest of us found a place to grab brunch before heading back to Belize City. Since my friends all had to go back to work, I had planned to go off on my own and visit the Belizian countryside for a few days. Once back on the mainland, we found a taxi driver who agreed to drop me off at the bus station first, on the way to the airport. He charged us all the same amount, even though my drop-off location was less than 1/10th of the distance, but I didn’t feel like being a cheapskate and trying to barter.   

When I got to the bus station there were no signs at all, or bus numbers, so I had to ask one of the workers to point out where my bus would be leaving from. Public busses in Belize are old school busses, with no seatbelts and horrible suspension. During the ride, the bus driver’s assistant makes his way down the aisle to collect payment, as the bus driver stops every 5 minutes to pickup passengers on the side of the road. I eventually arrived safely in the quiet town of San Ignacio and checked into my hostel just before grabbing dinner and going to bed early.

My alarm went off at 7am the following morning, I found somewhere to eat a hefty breakfast and then spent most of the day on an excursion to visit the ATM (Actun Tunichil Muknal) cave, where I hiked through the rainforest, crossing several rivers, eventually arriving at the mouth of a cave. We then spent several hours in the cave, swimming, climbing, crawling through crevices, and eventually, got to the dry chambers of the cave where we saw some (calcified) remains of ceramics and pottery used in that very cave by the Mayans during rituals and ceremonies. We even got to see actual skeletal remains of victims that were brought to this cave to be sacrificed between 650-900 AD! It was definitely one of the coolest things I’ve ever experienced. Phones were forbidden, so I unfortunately have no pictures, but you can find some on google :) After getting myself all cleaned up at the hostel, and hanging out for a bit, I went for a late afternoon stroll through town, before meeting up with the American guys we had met in San Pedro, for dinner. Our schedules happened to overlap a day, which was nice! 

I started off my last day in Belize by treating myself to a lovely breakfast, before spending some time at an old Mayan site called Cahal Pech, which was once the home of an elite Maya family. On my way back into the main part of town, I popped into the San Ignacio Resort Hotel to visit their Iguana Rehabilitation Centre, where I spent some time learning about the reptiles and even got to feed some! After slowly making my way back to the hostel, I hung out for a bit, got some of the best friend chicken I’ve had in my life, from a hole in the wall Chinese take-out restaurant, before heading to the bus stop. 

Bussing in Belize was quite the experience. You can find a very loose schedule of bus departure and arrival times online, but locals don’t even follow it because “busses come and go about every 30 minutes; you just need to wait.” Since it was a Sunday, I gave myself ample time to be able to make my connection in Belize City, and for once in my life, I got lucky, as the bus was just starting to pull away as I arrived. After the driver confirmed to me that they were heading to the City, I boarded the chock-a-block full bus. I stayed standing for a while before I was able to find a seat, and when I eventually did, I wasn’t able to take a nap because the driver was blasting some Belizian rap music through the speakers. I arrived in Belize City with a few hours to kill before my overnight bus to Cancun, so I sat there and waited patiently. I had read that the bus station in Belize City was in a bit of a seedy area, so at first I was a little worried about having to wait there alone at night, but it was actually quite safe, and there were several other tourists also waiting. 

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Trick or Treat Night Surprise

Halloween... The night that people loved and cherished so dearly to their hearts. Admits the decorations, costumes and candy, there's a certain feeling in the air that people just love about it. Of course by people, I do not mean just children enjoy the spooky day, Nono no, but also adults can enjoy the day as well. Yes, even adults can dress up and play pretend, if it be for their children or if because they're doing it out of fun, they can't resist the urge at all for this night... The most magical night there is... But this Halloween, was going to be more magical and filling than any other Halloween there ever was...

Our story begins in a house shared by 4 people. On this night, the four were getting ready for their daily tradition: that being they were going to take Lilly, their young friend who they often at times would babysit, trick or treating as they had. Waiting by the door was Kris who was dressed up as a zombie bride for tonight: she had on the traditional white wedding dress, except to fit the mood it was slightly torn among the parts and decorated with filth to showcase the mood of coming out the ground. The sleeves were torn, black stockings underneath were ripped with holes throughout them alongside muddy knee high buckle boots, and the finishing touch was half of a white veil that was decorated with flowers. Sitting on the couch by the door was Philomena who happened to be dressed as a female version of the Terminator: the signature leather jacket was on as well as the sunglasses, but since it was female version, Philomena had on a white strapless short dress with jeans on underneath legs rolled up to the knee and brown short boots with gold buckles on them. Philomena twiddle her fingers against one another as Kris continuously walked back from the door to the couch and repeat, her attempt at trying to be patient falling down.

"Kris... I don't mean to be a damper... Actually I do mean it, but I don't think they're coming down."

"N-no they are... They're just a little late that's all!"

"Yea... You say that..."

Kris looked up at the clock nervously before going towards the stairs which led upstairs to their bedrooms.

"Oh come on Dylan and Terry... Please hurry up..."

Upstairs

"Come on Terry! The girls are waiting for us downstairs, can you put your costume on a bit more quicker?"

"Heyhey don't rush me!! It takes time to make a costume like this look good on you for more candy!"

"You do know that we are doing this for Milan right?"

"Yea... But that doesn't mean we can't skip out on it!"

Dylan rolled his eyes as he stood next to the bathroom door dressed up as Indiana Jones with his signature brown hat in his hands with the whip in his pocket. He had been standing there for a good long hour before Terry finally came out, dressed up as a knight with a white knight hoodie and a black shirt sleeve jumpsuit underneath with gray tied long boots and a black belt around his waist and a sword on his back as he stood in a triumphant pose.

"Duh duh DAAAA!!! How do I look?"

"Like a knight Terry, a knight who knows how to take their time now come on. The girls are waiting for us downstairs."

"Oh wait a minute!"

Dylan groaned under his breath as Terry ran off towards a messed pile of blankets on his side of the room and grabbed what looked like a bottle used for prescription, which piqued Dylan's interest a bit.

"Hey what's in the bottle Terry? And please let it be something good..."

"It's something I ordered online. It's description states that this can help increase the capacity of your stomach and allow you to eat more than you normally can fit!!"

"Andddd why did you buy it exactly?"

"Well you know how Kris often makes snacks after we go trick or treating and watch horror movies?"

"Yea.."

"Well I figure if we have this, we can eat much more and not have to worry about getting sick!"

"Hm, I guess it sounds like a good idea... Just as long as it doesn't make us gain weight or inflate."

"Y-yea... Those were some embarassing moments... But I made sure that they only were for capacity so we don't have to worry."

"Alright, I guess there's no harm in it."

Terry smiled as he opened it and took out two capsules: one for him and one for Dylan. Both picked them up and gulped them down, shuddering a bit at the after taste that came before they finally made it downstairs to the girls and headed out to pick up Lilly for a special night. Once they got her, they began to go around the streets and hitting up some houses that offered some big sizes of candy. Walking down the streets, Lilly giggled in her oh so cute Little Sheep costume made all four, even Philomena, smile. But as they were finishing up, both Dylan's and Terry's stomachs let out a low growl, causing both of them to blush a bit, but since it was low they didn't worry too much... Except the growls kept getting more frequent and louder to the point they almost had to stay behind, but they still managed to go on.

"Hey Terry..."

"Ye-Yea...?"

"Did the bottle say any possible side effects that would happen?"

"No... It didn't even had a section on the medication..."

"Ah you gotta be kidding me Terry!"

"I-It's probably nothing!! I'm sure this is just a normal thing that happens..."

"You better be right."

Terry nodded to prove he was positive then quickly went to hugging his stomach to try and silence it, Dylan following suit as they half-heartily made their way with the girls. Finally, they were done as they headed back home, walking inside and just setting their bags to the side before changing into their casual clothes. Dylan and Terry however threw their bags down quickly as they held their stomachs in attempts to silence their still growling and rumbling stomachs while they attempted to sit down on the couch, but they were paid no mind as Philomena was helping Lilly count her share and Kris went to get snacks. While distracted, Dylan couldn't help it and took out one their candies: a giant chocolate bar, tore it open and dug into it, Terry looking in direct shock and disbelief.

"D-D-Dylan?! What the..."

"I can't take it Terry! I don't know why I'm doing this... But I am hungry! I may not feel the urge, but I NEED TO EAT!"

"But... 'Growl!'"

Terry's stomach also growled and before long, he gave in and torn into some packets of accurately sized Gummy Bears. The two ate their fill from their bags, their stomachs slowly digesting the food and added it to their waistline a bit at a time. Before long, Kris came out with the snacks for them and some horror movies that were suitable for all of them, but of course, Dylan and Terry were more focused on the snacks than the entire movies as they were still dealing with the strange feelings in their guts. As more snacks entered, their stomachs began to push out from underneath their shirts and into their waistlines, small baseballs increasing further out and showing no signs of stopping. But it still wasn't enough as their stomachs continue growling and gurgling so the boys had no choice but to continue eating. As the movies reached their ends and the next ones were put in, Dylan and Terry kept eating, soon the shapes of medium sized basketballs emanating gurgles and growls, signifying that they weren't done as they instantly demanded more food for them to digest.

"Ughh.. I really don't want to eat... Eat any more Terry..."

"I-I-I know... But... We can't..."

"Ugh... Can't stop... 'Burp!' Ngh..."

Although both were sickened by the amount that was being stuffed in, they had to keep eating or else... Well they didn't know what else to do. Soon their shirts were rising up, exposing more flesh on them as they kept on, navels appearing and more noise being protruding from their guts. Before long, the two of them were able to stop eating as they laid back, tired burps and groans emanating from the two as they laid back, their bellies now protruding from their shirts as they squished and strained against their belts and buttons. Dylan placed both of his hands on his gut as he felt the food begin its long digestion, groans echoing from his gut as a parade of burps followed suit. Terry felt the same, rumbles audible among the girls, but the were so engrossed into the film they had no clue... Up until hunger rumbles echoed from their stomachs did they looked in confusion. Both Dylan and Terry blushed as their arms flew to cover their stomachs to silence them before abruptly getting up.

"Hey Dylan, Terry... Did you guys hear something?"

"Uhhhhhh... N-N-No... Didn't hear a-anything..."

"Y-yea... But uh, we'll c-c-check upstairs! In our bedroom for anything!!"

"Well uh..."

"Cool thanks BYE!!"

Both males ran out the living room towards their room, not noticing a small guest had gotten up previously and following them in confusion. The two soon closed the door shut and ran towards the bathroom, finally relaxing onto the tile floor before. Both panted and huffed under their breaths as their fingers moved to unbuttoned the strained buttons and to unbuckle their creaking belts.

"Huff...Huff... I don't feel so good...."

"I know Terry.... but, at least we can try and just spend the remainder of Halloween in here away from...'Growl!!Rumble!!!'"

Both Dylan and Terry blushed and let out silent swears as their bellies still growled, demanding that more food be delivered into them at once, which drowned out the light knocking from outside.

"Auugh!!!! What else can we do?! No matter how much we eat we still end up hungry!!"

"I know... I just want it to end too... but..."

'Knock! Knock!'

"Dyi-Dyi? Tewi? Are you in here?"

"....Crap its Lilly... Dylan what do we do?!..."

"....I don't know..."

"Can I come in pwease?"

"....She pulled out the pwease...."

"....We might have to let her in...."

The two opened the door slightly ajar as they looked to see Lily standing outside with her puppy dog stare before opening further and letting her in. Still holding her bag of treats, she sat down across from them staring innocently while the two males, in an attempt to hide their guts were sitting with their legs up to their chest as their bellies squished against their thighs.

"Hey Lilly... H-How are you doing?"

"Fwine Dyi-Dyi:)"

"T-that's great to hear..."

"Yepyep!!!"

"Shouldn't you go back downstairs to Kris and Philomena?"

"Yea... but I heard monsters from you and I wanted to give you guys some of my candy:)"

"R-really? Aw Lily that's nice but... it's yours and we can't have any..."

"Y-yea, like Dylan said, we can't we eat your share..."

As soon as they shuffled a bit, moving their arms away from their legs, their legs gave out and their bellies plopped on and continued their onslaught of noises. Both boys blushed while Lilly looked and laughed her adorable little laugh before walking over and squishing on to them.

"I knew it!!! Their so squishy and huggable, like a giant pillow... or a marshmallow!!! Or both:D Yea like both!"

Both boys blushed and sheepishly as Lilly layed against them, her pail placed as she giggled and hugged.

"How come I never seen them like this before?!"

"Well..."

"Uh because..."

"I LOVE them!!!💘💖 I want to lay against them!!! 'Gasp' can I?!"

"Uh... I don't see why, how bout you Dylan?"

"Sure... I-I guess..."

"YAYYYYY!!!!"

Lilly smiled wide as she laid on them both, enlisting more grumbles from their guts.

"..... This is.... oddly relaxing..."

"Yea... but hopefully these won't last..."

"Dylan? Terry? You guys in there?"

The boys jolted at the sound of Kris voice.

"Uh y-y-yea!!"

"Is Lily in there?"

"Y-yes..."

"Oh Ok! Well if you guys want to come back..."

"No we're fine!!" I mean, it's all good so don't be weirded out!!!"

"...Geez Terry...A bit Suspicious huh?"

"...Sorry..."

"O-oh ok, well, I guess I can go..."

Footsteps receded as the boys relaxed again, feeling Lilly move a bit more on their stomachs before settling in on them both.

"...."

"...So.... now what?"

"....I guess relax..."