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I’m kinda tired of SW stories that focus on “challenging what we know about Jedi/Sith/The Force.”
This isn’t just me being a certified Jedi-Appreciator™️, this is mostly me just being bored with the concept.
Despite coming from a place of wanting to be “different,” we’ve had so many of these kinds of stories that the premise is ironically unoriginal.
I think part of the problem is that it also leads to a weird feeling of… unintentional inconsistency? Like, we’re never given a solid enough foundation on what the fuck the Jedi even are to the wider galaxy anymore because we’re constantly debating if the obvious good guys are really the good guys.
It gets to the point that some of the stories bend the established worldbuilding backwards so that they can continue to keep up these same debates despite having already done this a million times (see: Ahsoka).
Or will retcon each other to tell the exact same narrative over again (see: Tales of the Jedi vs Dooku: Jedi Lost).
Or try to approach the Jedi (space monks literally powered by good vibes) in bad faith while trying to approach the Sith (magical space fascists) in good faith (see: SWTOR).
I just look at the hype for the Acolyte, seeing people argue about it with, “well we already know the Jedi are flawed, so what’s the issue?”
Well *my* issue is that yes, we are already well aware of the Jedi Order’s flaws, we’ve had like 12 different projects that go over that shit in the last 8 years alone.
Excuse me if I’m a little bored and skeptical of what number 13 can add to the conversation at this point.
A story showing the Jedi Order through the lens of someone who genuinely doesn’t have issues with the sacrifices the lifestyle asks of them would feel fresher.
(Plus no one will ever be able to challenge Star Wars as well as the Kotor games did)
#WHEW had to get that all out#anyway we WILL be pirating#if I decide to watch it#anyway#star wars#the acolyte#me rambles#sw analysis#big reason why I fw Rebels and the Jedi games so heavily is that they expand on what we know rather than constantly challenge it#The Jedi weren’t perfect but they’re still a benevolent force for good#The dark side is a fascism drug that will go wrong for you 10 times out of 10#sometimes that simplicity can lead to more consistency and nuanced stories
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soo hi everyone!! i'm back on my bully essay/meta/something writing!! sort of. i did this.
anyways anyone who's been on this page for some time know how from time to time i have insistently mentioned the parallels between lola and peanut, right?
welp! that was a joke but the time has finally come!! a super-pretentious essay just for the fun of it!! (and also bc i haven't been writing actually argumentative texts in like months perhaps a year, so. yikes, i really need to practice again)
word count: 2.2k WOAH. IM SORRY
i, in my corner, with my monstrous needs. — susan sontag, as consciousness is harnessed to flesh
take this quote both as a title and an anticipation of what is to come. the essay will be distributed analyzing first the dependence of each of them on johnny, to then draw comparisons. i'll make sure to steer as away from headcanons as possible, sticking closely to the source text. obviously, some things' interpretation might be ambiguous, but, you know. your usual occupation hazard.
also, a disclaimer before we start: while they are psychologically complex and there is always a mimetic intention in developing them, these are fictional characters, and, as such, their primary function is to be vessels for different themes, questions and so forth. therefore, i will prioritize meaning and themes over moral implications and similar elements.
i. peanut
for how much i can adore talking about him, the way peanut depends on johnny is very much on the nose; worn on his sleeve, even. in 11:11 minutes of voice lines, he mentions johnny 30 times.
many interpret this as the caricature of a boy crush, but i have reasons to believe it is much less cute than that.
the problem is that, really, more than trying to identify specific situations... peanut seems to rely on johnny for a significant part of what he does. when he does good at dodgeball:
Look at me, Johnny, look at me!
almost like a child calling for his parent's attention to be praised. he calls johnny's name when he's going through hardships, when he's scared or when he's sad.
more than someone he just loves, johnny is a point of reference. whenever there's something going on, whenever he does or has to do something, his first thought goes to johnny; vice versa, what johnny asks of him is his priority.
I gotta tell Johnny! No time. I gotta see Johnny now. Gotta help Johnny. What can I do next to please Johnny? I mean Lola! I mean…
(this also goes in a "negative" direction, envy being the other side of the medal to adoration. especially because, in some way, this reliance on johnny might be felt by him as emasculating, and, being johnny his model of masculinity, adding it to the napoleon complex thing, it's not hard to guess why it can be so unpleasant. we can see this manifest through some of the things he expresses in regards to lola- not as much an interest he has towards her, but the interest he wishes to have from her- which are a bit more different than it might seem at a first glance. but this is a mouseketool we'll need later. still:
Last time I saw her, Lola made eyes at me, not Johnny!
do we really need this part? heh. i'm not sure, but it's always good to point out)
(also, just because, for the purpose of this analysis, it might be useful to specify: while these sentiments are very much implied in peanut's canon quotes, we have no evidence in canon in what measure they are reciprocated by johnny. the fandom has universally agreed that johnny also views peanut as his Best Friend In The World; while in some measure, they must be at least a bit close, i think it is even safe to say, given the caricaturist nature of bully's characterizations, that johnny holds peanut in less consideration that peanut deludes himself into believing. quoting another post of mine, the kids who show some level of obsession towards their leader mention him on average ten or less times (gord mentions derby eight times, parker six times, kirby mentions ted five times). the leaders don't usually make names at all, that much is true; however, peanut mentions johnny 30 times, and, even in front of this proportion, johnny mentions peanut 0 times. just to make that clear)
overall, what undeniably shines through his voice lines is a feeling of general inadequacy, whether about his height, or his strength in front of a bigger adversary. the audios in which he tries to show off range from being disingenuous, to straight up improbable.
crossing what we have until now said, it is not hard to come to the conclusion that he really tries to make up, to fill this empty feeling of inadequacy by taking pride in his role as johnny's second in command.
while i am a big fan of bully's characteristic of having left much content out of the main game, leaving the gamers to dig it up for themselves, i do believe that scrapping some of the stuff that was prepared for peanut is a loss. we have a number of voice lines coming from chapter 3, in which it was heavily implied how important peanut's role as johnny's right hand man was.
for example, much like... all other seconds in command, really, he was to be followed and then fought in the rumble, before you could get to johnny, with the specific duty to cover his back. even his very first scene, the opening cutscene of chapter 3, i believe, is not to be underestimated. most of the other people, as far as i recall, call you when they need it in person; johnny, however, sends peanut. making him, de facto, an extension of himself, almost.
again, you choose the motivation. what is important, from a narrative point of view, is that peanut clings to johnny through these acts of service, almost making it the foundation of his personhood.
basically, he makes it so that, if he can't be of help to johnny, his whole self is fundamentally annihilated, giving himself completely to johnny.
ii. lola
with lola, reading between the lines gets a bit more difficult; first of all, because lola is much less transparent than peanut, her insincerity being a supporting beam of the whole chapter 3. secondly, whether she was done dirty by the creators or not, it is undoubted that being the perspective that of a teenage boy (namely, jimmy, but we certainly, as viewers, are brought to sympathize more with johnny than with lola) with all the prejudices it can bring with itself.
however, it doesn't mean that there isn't anything to work with- quite the contrary, actually. the issue with lola is that there is a certain amount of layers to get through before gaining a satisfying perception of her as a character. still, we're here to try our best, aren't we!
even behind the muddiness of her intentions and the manipulation she shows herself a master at, it is clear from the second we first meet her that what she does is in function of johnny.
to get through this mess with order, we'll start from an easy, measurable numeric information: lola mentions johnny in her audio files 19 times. which, we're assessed, IS a considerable amount.
we have extensively talked about the way her cheating patterns are a strategy not to succumb to the passive role of the girl in the heteronormative, patriarchal prototypical couple (there's a post here breaking down a lot of this stuff, if any of you is interested!!), so, instead of this, i want to focus on what lies beneath that behavior.
ultimately, the whole point is that lola expects and wants johnny to fight for her. whether is it because she feels taken for granted, or just because he can't perceive it if not through grandiose gestures like the rumble- your interpretation will work; she wants to see johnny fighting nail and teeth not to lose her, she wants him to show her that he wants her.
she's all about that attention, and she knows exactly what and how to do to get it. and i think this is especially clear when you compare the moments in which she knows there's no advantage she could go for; when she has understood that jimmy won't fall for her manipulation, when algie and chad leave her unsatisfied, when norton openly accuses her and antagonizes her - she loses her temper, lets go of that sweetened and/or flirtatious voice tone, abandons that specific kind of gesturing. she doesn't care anymore about obtaining something. she was actually angry, and she was actually upset that johnny had disappeared.
in some of her audios, she references johnny with some amount of fondness, as well:
Johnny and I were on the best date ever.
(there is also a voice line in which she says "He told me he likes me because of my personality. Isn't that sweet?"; due to it being a general chatter and not exclusive to one chapter, i assume it is relatively safe to assume she is quoting johnny. however, as i said at the beginning, we're trying to stay as close to canon material as possible, so, do your thing- and i'm open to arguments!!)
a considerable amount of audio files, however (which will lead us to our final point) is about her... calling for help for johnny, or stating, confidently, that he will come save her, or avenge her later.
Someone get Johnny! Johnny's gonna get you for this. Johnny is gonna kill you!
but wait... i have some sense of déjà vu...
You're gonna be sorry when Johnny finds out!
iii. two faces of the same medal
if i had to pick an effective image for a metaphor, i'd say that the thing about lola and peanut is that they are both dogs looking for someone to take their leash; we’re talking here about an exclusive relationship with someone they can rely totally on, someone we’ll call the Other (with a capital o, distinguished from just other. yes it is unnecessarily complicated i’m sorry).
for what my professor would call accidents of history, it happened that both of them found that Other in johnny.
each of them attempts at creating an exclusive relationship with the Other, one foolproof and fundamentally… perfect. perfect in the way that everything works like oiled gears, in the way that every next move is predictable, in the way that any accident will not break the created equilibrium. (even if, in the general sense of the term, lola and johnny's relationship is everything but perfect, it is in the connotation that we have established here. lola is aware that, no matter what she does, johnny will come back around. hell, the very thing that she does is aimed at keeping that balance; specifically, keeping him a bit on the edge, pushing him into a corner where he has to actively make an effort to keep her close.)
they both hide something they are ashamed of, regulating not only their actions and reactions but their very way of existing in the world, in order to keep that gear working, in order to remain in johnny's hand. lola hides that craving for a genuine and stable affection, dissimulating it with the cheating and the fatuous physical demonstrations of closeness; peanut hides his sense of inadequacy and complex of inferiority, by being the tough and reliable second in command.
basically, what they mean to achieve is a sense of security, the safety of not really being the one to lead but, at the same time, finding a purpose, other than a shield from the outside world that they are not willing to concede themselves to. like a... symbiotic relationship?? i was going to say parasitic, but, yknow. the Other does get some advantages, which are, respectively, peanut's acts of service and lola's capacity to boost johnny's pride.
now, of course, johnny is not aware of either of their play. which makes it even better, since, as we already said, both of their approach to the relationship needs some degree of insincerity.
like, i don't deny that johnny might be a good friend, or a loyal one. but he is an oblivious, prideful fuck who can't see past his own nose; he's got a tendency to make it all about himself - which of course goes perfectly with what we said about both peanut and lola making the Other their center, taking up, in a certain way, a passive role in the relationship.
this way, both of them aim at creating with johnny a relationship that is, in a way, codependant and conditional, in which the do ut des (their respective "service" ↔ johnny's guarantee of stability) creates the foundation of the very relationship.
this, of course, brings up the problem of exclusivity; on which, however, i prefer not to delve into too much, as this would bring us to the topic of their antagonism which... isn't really what i wanted to go for, at least not here. (it would risk bringing us a bit too close to my subjective interpretation and too far away from the canon, which i PROMISED i wouldn't do. however, someday i might elaborate on that??? idk , please do lmk if someone's interested around here)
i will, however, show you a diagram (it looks like a triangle- i guess it is, but it is VERY important that it is a pyramid, with a top and a larger foundation) and a quote, to wrap this up bc i think it is already WAY too long and ramble-y lmao. let me know what you think anyway, my ask box is always open <3
it almost feels like a joke to play out a part when you are not the starring role in someone else's heart you know i'd rather walk alone (i'd rather walk alone) than play a supporting role if i can't get the starring role -- starring role, marina and the diamonds
#WHEW. do you know how long this has been sitting in my drafts???? do you???#date: 23 of aprile. yeah. but i only had the premise and the title. whops. the intention was there.#it took me a bit more than half an hour to write the first two paragraphs. then it took me THREE WHOLE DAYS to write the last one#i was RECORDING MYSELF. RAMBLING AND TALKING. THROUGHOUT THE DAY. trying to get some coherent thoughts out of my head#god i love them but theyre SO compclicated to talk about. i guess i just like my characters a little bit fucked up idk#also yeah ask box is always open u know the drill. thank you if you have read all of this and congrats!!#i hope i fried no brains in attempts at reading this bc i certainly fried mine at attempting at writing it#bully#bully cce#bully canis canem edit#bully game#bully scholarship edition#canis canem edit#lola lombardi#peanut romano#greasers#odyposts#odywrites
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Do you know this (noncanon) ADHD character?
Evidence below the cut!
Overall, he is high-energy, impulsive, often has moments of fast changing emotions. He is loyal and uplifting, but often insecure and critical of himself. Has this (very stereotypical adhd-assigned) "golden retriever-vibe" He is childish, clumsy, and "random". But he is focused and alert in dangerous situations. He's a detective and is really good at solving cases, which he sees as riddles and doesn't take them seriously, they're a "game" to him, even horrible murders. He hyperfixates on his work/cases until they are solved. He doesn't sleep a lot and is majorly behind on chores. He is late almost every day and has time management issues and is very unorganized (for example really messy desk, misplacing case files, or his "mail-tub"; he stores all of his mail (which goes unread) as a huge doom-pile in his bathtub.)
Also, it is sort of a running gag that he has major trouble managing his finances. He owes thousands of dollars to his friends/coworkers, has horrible credit, buys a LOT of (expensive) sneakers, bought soon-to-fail NFTs or online currency that lost their value within a day, bought 6(!) Massage chairs for one room (for some reason), spends a few thousand dollars annually to win an halloween-themed in-office bet with his boss, …
#poll#noncanon adhd character#brooklyn nine nine#brooklyn 99#b99#jake peralta#b99 jake#jake b99#IF YOU DONT SEE HIM AS ADHD YOU ARE WRONG. SORRY NOT SORRY#i literally started watching b99 because of jake's adhd#then it became my comfort show#i was legit devastated when it was canceled and thrilled when it was renewed#and then i never finished it for some reason... i should#literally my first semester of college during finals week i had to have b99 on constantly while i was studying#LITERALLY CONSTANTLY#or i started panicking#i think i went through all almost 5 seasons that existed at that time#i know i know copaganda and acab but. its a comfort show to me#i know real cops arent like the 99#whew eking this one out real close to midnight its getting worse gamers
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I have a more reasonable post in drafts, but ... despite cherishing my hatred of Arvedui close to my heart, I think my most towering, irrational, seething loathing of a character idealized by the narrative despite him making some dubious choices as far as I'm concerned is in Pride and Prejudice.
No, not Jane. I love Jane and she's strong just the way she is! But I never feel more inclined to just reject what every single character and the narrative is saying than when it comes to Darcy and Georgiana's father/Wickham's godfather.
Yes, he died years before P&P starts and we never meet him and he was super nice and everyone loved him. None of these things can stop the force of my hatred, though! I think he screwed up badly with both Wickham and Darcy, I don't buy their excuses for him, and I want to believe Elizabeth thoroughly redecorates that one room at Pemberley that's currently being maintained exactly the way Darcy and Georgiana's father liked it (down to a picture of Wickham still being kept there, half a decade after their father died).
There's something mildly unsettling to me about the shadow this man casts over nearly everyone he came into contact with, long after his death. Be free of him!!
#lady anne is way more blorbo despite the implications of being more flawed#but like. lady anne likely contributed to darcy's classism but she doesn't seem to have had any impact on wickham#mrs wickham may have influenced wickham's habits but not darcy's#the common factor is this one guy who is still exerting a charisma stranglehold on everyone who knew him#yes there WAS great mismanagement of darcy's and wickham's educations and it was THAT GUY#darcy trying to explain how his parents screwed up while defending his father's perfection while not mentioning wickham is just. whew.#i love georgiana and darcy and hate wickham but tbh i want all of them to get out of their father's/father figure's shadow#anghraine babbles#austen fanwank#austen blogging#mr darcy senior#lady anne blogging#george wickham#fitzwilliam darcy
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Your last Devil’s Bastards post was so juicy! I’d never heard about heaven’s people having amnesia.
Now I can’t stop thinking about a pre-reveal scenario in which Nicaise somehow goes to visit the hotel and while she doesn’t recognize anyone, Alastor and Lucifer sure recognize her.
Hey, it could happen! I did set the stage for Nicaise to potentially become a fallen angel, no second death required.
Let's say it happens at some point after the thwarted extermination. Neither Lucifer nor Alastor know yet, but Alastor has some suspicions. When Nicaise is ejected from Heaven for revealing the exterminations to the public, encouraging people to go against Heaven's rules, and questioning the Seraphim, and then refusing to repent, she remembers Charlie Morningstar's hotel and heads there straight away.
Charlie's happy to see her again. Both Lucifer and Alastor are in shock, but since Alastor's perma-smile is still in place no one really notices his reaction. They're all a little wrapped up in the story Nicaise is telling them about how she ended up getting ejected from Heaven. Of course Charlie happily welcomes her into the hotel, and Vaggie's actually happy to have yet another fallen angel among them, to hear that Heaven may actually be reforming from within.
Then Lucifer steps forward and reintroduces himself. Everyone's more than a little surprised to learn that Lucifer and Nicaise have met before. Lucifer explains that whence upon a time he snuck out of Hell just for a little while to actually see Earth, and wound up lost in the middle of New Orleans during the Rex parade. Nicaise doesn't remember the event, so he tells her about how she saved him from being lost and basically acted as his guide throughout the celebration. They both got pretty wasted and he woke up the next morning passed out on top of somebody's rooftop, presumably from attempting to fly home while drunk. Everyone's laughing and having a good time as he recounts the story.
Alastor says nothing.
As Nicaise settles into the hotel crew and helps Charlie with her redemption project, Alastor initially tries to keep his distance, but over time everyone notices that Alastor is different with her. It's not too strange at first. He's always gotten along better with women than with men. But this is different. He almost has an air of respect with her, and he doesn't even respect the King of Hell! He's gentle, he never teases or intentionally scares her, though it turns out Nicaise has a bit of a prankster side of her own and thinks its funny when he spooks other hotel residents. He doesn't hide the fact that he's a serial murderer, or that he's a cannibal, but he does tone down the bloodthirstiness in her presence. His smile is more genuine around her.
Bit by bit, certain things come out about Alastor, more in the few short weeks Nicaise has been with them than anyone's learned in the 6+ months of living with Alastor. Things he and Nicaise share in common. They both grew up in New Orleans, they like to use venison in their jambalaya, play several of the same instruments, have the same taste in liquor, hate tea. They even died within a couple decades of one another. Nicaise wonders if they might have even met one another while alive. Alastor only says he supposes it's possible.
Lucifer, for his part, is delighted to reunite with an old friend. Alastor does not enjoy Lucifer enjoying her company. He compels Husk to interrupt the two of them if he ever sees them getting too 'close.' Encourages Niffty to get under Lucifer's feet. Has his shadows trip Lucifer up, or spill his drinks when he's talking with Nicaise. Lucifer knows it's all Alastor's doing and assumes Alastor's just being a shit again.
"What, you failed to steal my daughter, now you're trying to steal my vacation friend!?"
Husk is the first one to put two and two together. He doesn't figure out everything, but he knows Alastor well enough to know his interest in Nicaise isn't romantic, and to pick up on the familial similarities. He keeps his mouth shut though. The memory of what happened last time he dredged up one of Alastor's secrets still sets his fur on edge. Still, in private he lets himself chuckle over the fact that Alastor is a 'mamma's boy.'
Eventually though, other people start to pick up on Alastor's weird behavior. When Nicaise scolds him for 'picking on' Lucifer - and WOW is it weird to see Alastor letting himself be scolded - Alastor points out to her that Lucifer is a married man. That does put a bit of a damper on Lucifer's and Nicaise's interactions. They weren't intentionally flirting or anything, but Lucifer wonders if maybe he was getting a tad too comfortable. He and Lilith ARE separated (at least, according to Charlie) but he still hopes to one day reconcile with her. And now that Alastor's brought it to her attention, Charlie's starting to feel just a tad uncomfortable with Lucifer's and Nicaise's closeness as well. Just a tad though! She does want her dad to be happy, and he and Lilith are separated...
Privately, she still thinks it feels like a betrayal though.
And it's that feeling that allows Charlie to put things together, and she's a hell of a lot less subtle than Husk is.
There are people hanging out at the bar when she walks up to Alastor in the parlor and blurts out, "ALASTOR, IS NICAISE YOUR SISTER!?"
It came out a lot louder than she meant it.
Lucifer chokes on his drink.
In Charlie's defense, he and Nicaise appear to be close to the same physical age in their demon and angel forms. If anything, Nicaise might have been younger when she died than Alastor was when he died.
Alastor reassures Charlie that, no, Nicaise is not his sister.
Lucifer relaxes and starts to chug his drink to get that terrifying thought out of his head.
"She's my maman."
Lucifer chokes again.
Fortunately Nicaise isn't present for this conversation. Charlie asks why Alastor hadn't said anything before now and he explains he doesn't see any reason to. Once they get her back into Heaven, they'll never see one another again, so why burden her with the knowledge that her son grew to be a mass murderer in life and a cannibalistic Overlord in death? While he may not regret any of his actions, he knows she would be heartbroken by the revelation.
Angel Dust breaks up the sullen mood that's fallen over the room by cracking a joke that, 'the devil wants to do your mom.'
He immediately gets several sets of angry eyes on him, including beast mode Alastor, and shuts up very quickly.
#ask#anonymous#Hazbin Hotel#the Devil's Bastard AU#Alastor#Alastor's Mother#Nicaise (Hazbin Hotel OC)#Lucifer Morningstar#Charlie Morningstar#whew that got long#I was gonna go into them learning that Luci is Al's dad too#but I'll probably save that for another post after all that#the reason Alastor out and admitted Nicaise is his mother in the end when he kept quiet before#is because Charlie had already come so close to the truth on her own#it was only a matter of time before everyone else figured it out#also he's lowkey pissed that Nicaise was rejected from Heaven because now he has an exploitable weakness in Hell#and he's not willing to get rid of her or let her get hurt in order to remove this weakness
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Day 6 Past!
(no new art. my arm hurts. yall get grimm sketches instead)
So when grimm was born she was stolen n sold. Cause her parents pissed off agate at some point :/
Where she was sold to is a research facility that worked on cures for various diseases.
Yknow the episode of doctor who with the cat nurses? This one :
It's like that.
When she was 5 agate decided to rob the place she was at n took all the patients so they'd have to buy em back. She didn't know who grimm was. But she did decide to keep her so that's where grimms been since :3c
She n felicity got married when she was 12 cause ppl kept asking agate if they could n she got really annoyed so made grimm pick someone on the ship :/
When she was 16 is when ferris unwillingly joined the ship, she blinded him in one eye in the process but they quickly became friends after :)
Then at 20 she died. Then got kidnapped by cosmo n lauren. Then agate got her back n made cosmo n lauren also unwillingly join the ship! As one does :)
Now she is 23 (20(3)) and she is the worst girl in the universe!
She also is still sick and gets sick pretty often cause the whole labrat thing. And since cosmo n lauren are doctors that specifically work on sirens it's why agate decided they weren't leaving. Grimm makes their lives hell tho cause she is Terrified of hospitals/doctors/needles ect ect
Uhh let's see. She has 6 siblings 1 is human the others are all agates kids. The 5 that are agates all hate agate n want her dead. The 1 human is another kid agate stole at some point, he's currently on earth! He is 35 (not really important for bitten off but is for Sloan n Beatrices story)
#my art#t talks#my ocs#grimm#agate did find out who grimm was after about a year#cause she hired nil n faze to steal all the facilitys info on her.#she had it burned after finding tho lol.#and later had grimm help killing her family without her knowing!#terrible woman! :)#anyways agate has 1 rule for cosmo n lauren being on the ship n its that if grimm dies they die.#so grimm doing everything in her power to no be helped is not fun for them!#grimm does Not like cosmo n lauren cause they do the exact thing the research facilities did but with sirens :/#and she is even less happy that her moms are now dating cosmo lol#whew. really inly meant that to be a paragraph or 2 haha. cant be helped! i love my babygirl! 🥰#oh! almost forgot. 1 member of grimms original family is alive! they know who she is n nil n faze have been trying to get her from agate fo#-for them since they found out who she was when agate paid em for her info.#lot of moving parts here bare with me ive had a lot of time to connect all my characters lots haha
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{ It's time to say hello to the parentals for the Yumishi siblings! And yes, that's right, you count four parents. Two sets. Why? Because the Yumishi family is actually very convoluted compared to most normal families. }
{ First off we have Lucifer, who can be found over on @resxntmxnt once I get everything settled, as the biological father of both Myth (who is also over at @resxntmxnt) and Rain (who's over at @negligxnce). He is the ruler of Meikai no Ryōiki, also commonly referred to as the Realm of the Underworld, altering his original seraphic genetics with dark magic to turn himself into a being known solely as the Demon Lord, yet due to having originally been a seraph, he possesses the ability to shapeshift. Lucifer was the original lover of Kisuyo Yumishi, happening upon her by sheer chance within Seikatsu no Ryōiki, also known as the Realm of the Living (aka the human world), one day when she was being attacked by a group of humans that believed her to be the leader of a cultist group (due to the fact she is heavily religious while the mortals of Seikatsu no Ryōiki have no religion/do not believe in religion of any sort); and despite Lucifer's reputation of being a cruel and mischievous being, he went out of his way to rescue her by slaughtering the humans responsible for her injuries.
Once certain that she was safe, Lucifer began to tend to her wounds with his magic, trying to keep conversation to a minimum though this did not last long due to Kisuyo's curious nature, leading for Lucifer and Kisuyo to eventually develop a strong bond for one another — thus resulting in the birth of Myth and Rain. Yet despite this, Lucifer did not stick around for his lover nor his children and ended up returning to Meikai no Ryōiki, leaving Kisuyo with two children to care for all on her own due to the fact that Kisuyo would not be able to survive within Meikai no Ryōiki. He is devastated by the news of Kisuyo's death.
Secondly we have Michael, who can be found over at @anxmosxty once everything is settled over there, as the biological father of Koui and Yuuela (who is also over at @anxmosxty). He is the ruler of Serafu no Ryōiki, also commonly referred to as the Realm of the Seraph, proudly taking his duties as a seraph to heart, earning him the title of Head Angel by those within Serafu no Ryōiki and as a seraph, he possesses the ability to shapeshift. Michael is the second lover of Kisuyo Yumishi, though unlike Lucifer who was willing to care for her, Michael instead was disgusted with her and the fact she had two children with a man she wasn't married to, often pretending to seem kindhearted towards the woman only to judge her in secret. The only reason he would actively spend time with her every day was because of a rumor he'd overheard from the other seraphs about a woman who had given birth to a pair of twins that possessed unnatural abilities for human children, thus he took every chance he could to get close to her and her boys. Though during his time with Kisuyo, he soon discovers that despite all the reticule she receives from the mortals within Seikatsu no Ryōiki, she stills holds tightly to her faith in the Goddess, which in turn makes Michael begin to view Kisuyo in a different light.
Within time, Michael realizes he's fallen in love with Kisuyo, thus resulting in the births of Koui and Yuuela. Unlike Lucifer, Michael is consistent with his daily visits to spend time with his children and Kisuyo, even going out of his way to treat Myth and Rain as his own. Though, once word gets out that the woman from the rumors has had two more children with unnatural abilities and has her identity revealed, Michael stops visiting Kisuyo and her children out of fear of being casted out of Serafu no Ryōiki by the current Goddess, Heiliger, once she discovers that the children born are a forbidden species known as hybrids — constituted of a law that forbids other species from breeding with anyone other than their respective species — and have a contract placed on their heads to be exterminated as soon as possible alongside their mother. He is devastated by the news of Kisuyo's death.
Third we have Kisuyo Yumishi, who can be found here, as the biological mother of Myth, Rain, Koui, and Yuuela. She is a resident of the more olden timed area of Seikatsu no Ryōiki (because Seikatsu no Ryōiki is home to a more olden timed section and a more modern timed section of the realm for those who prefer the more technologically advanced lifestyle or those who prefer the more dated lifestyle), also known as the Realm of the Living, and is presumed to be a human woman by those within the world of Mir Ender. In reality, Kisuyo is actually the daughter of the Goddess, The Sacred One, thus making her a demi-god and serves as a vessel for the Goddess' will within the various realms of Mir Ender. Despite not seeming to possess any abilities, she can actually see the future and share her sight with The Sacred One, but doing so requires a lot of angelic energy and can overwhelm her senses thus why she wears a black cloth over her eyes, leading many to believe that she is blind. Kisuyo is the third oldest child of The Sacred One, being the younger sister of Oizys (the Archfiend of Melancholy), the older sister of Adios (the Saint of Humility), and the older sister of Sophrosyne (the Saint of Temperance), meanwhile Adephagia is the Archfiend of Gluttony. Each of said sisters possessing a mortal name for their travels among the other realms: Adios known as Oka, Sophrosyne known as Maleia, and Adephagia being known as Kisuyo. Oizys is the only one of the sister's to not possess a mortal name out of disinterest in hiding her true identity, thus her sisters simply call her by the name "El" within Seikatsu no Ryōiki among mortals.
Before having her children, Kisuyo was sent to live within Seikatsu no Ryōiki by The Sacred One in order glean how the mortals were fairing in their daily lives, making gathering intel much easier so The Sacred One can make the lives of her residents easier if need be by sending one of her daughters to assist the morals in their true forms (and not as "mortals"). During her time within Seikatsu no Ryōiki, Kisuyo plays the role of a devote worshiper to The Sacred One, serving as a shrine maiden at the Holy Chruch of Heiliger, additionally teaching her children about her religion and convincing them to believe as well. After being abandon by both of her lovers, Kisuyo is then hunted down by an assassin and is killed in front of her children while on their way to the Holy Church of Heiliger for their daily worship, though she does not actually die due to being a demi-god and instead is simply comatose for a time being (until Oizys is able to retrieve her body and awaken her), yet this is unbeknownst to her children who believe she was murdered.
Lastly we have Sire, who can be found over at @prurixncy once everything is settled there, as the biological "mother" of Nikusui (who is also over at @prurixncy) and Inori (who is over at @vxinglxry). You're probably wondering why I said "mother" and not mother. Well, that's because Sire isn't actually a woman in her true form, but is instead a man and said man is Lucifer. Yes, that's right. I said Lucifer. The man I talked about all the way at the top of the post. That Lucifer. Myth and Rain's dad, Lucifer. Demon Lord Lucifer. The one and the same. "Why the hell would Lucifer become a woman to have two children?" Because he blames Michael for the death of Kisuyo and wanted to get back at him for taking away the only woman he loved so dearly, just like Michael believes that Lucifer is the one who took Kisuyo away from him. The both of them believe that the other is responsible for the death of Kisuyo. Why? Because they are both sworn enemies and have always been at odds ever since the incident involving The Sacred One and The Twelve Saints of The Sacred One/The Twelve Heavenly Virtues due to the fact they were both present at the time. The incident that caused The Sacred One to fall into a catatonic state and the divide of The Twelve Heavenly Virtues, which in turn also created the false Goddess known as The Forsaken One and The Seven Archfiends of The Forsaken One. Lucifer and Michael don't trust one another and know that the other would be more than willing to do anything to take away the other's happiness if they could. And yes, they're both aware they fell in love with the same woman.
Basically, Lucifer decides that the best way to exact his revenge on Michael is to become a woman that he can trust and love and become so deeply intertwined with that he simply can't live without her. And that is exactly what happens. Lucifer becomes Sire and acts as a beacon of hope for Michael while he secretly (because he can't let anyone know he was involved with Kisuyo) mourns the lost of his lover and the inevitable loss of his children (since they're being hunted). Sire becomes Michael's crutch. And during a moment of weakness, Sire repeatedly takes advantage of Michael's desperation for his deceased lover, resulting in the births of Nikusui and Inori. Though much like he did with Myth and Rain, he takes Michael's new children away from him and leaves them with Warwick, someone that worships and follows Lucifer, to raise the girls in secret — leaving Michael alone once more to fester about the disappearances of his new children and lover. Only later in time does Michael discover that Sire was Lucifer in disguise. }
{ So if all of you have gotten past all of that, it's time to tell you the exact relations of everyone within the Yumishi family in case you're confused. So here were go!
Lucifer and Kisuyo are the biological parents of Myth and Rain.
Michael and Kisuyo are the biological parents of Koui and Yuuela.
Michael and Sire (aka Lucifer's female form) are the biological parents of Nikusui and Inori.
Kisuyo is the biological daughter of The Sacred One, the absolute Goddess of the world of Mir Ender.
Kisuyo is the younger sister of Oizys, the Archfiend of Melancholy.
Kisuyo is the older sister of Adios and Sophrosyne, the Saints of Humility and Temperance.
Oizys, Adios, and Sophrosyne are all the biological aunts of Myth, Rain, Koui, and Yuuela. They are the adoptive aunts of Nikusui and Inori due to the fact neither Lucifer/Sire or Michael are related to The Sacred One.
Myth and Rain are biological brothers (twins).
Koui and Yuuela are biological brother and sister.
Nikusui and Inori are biological sisters.
Myth is the biological half-brother of Koui and Yuuela.
Rain is the biological half-brother of Koui and Yuuela.
Koui is the biological half-brother of Myth and Rain.
Yuuela is the biological half-sister of Myth and Rain.
Nikusui is the biological half-sister of Myth, Rain, Koui, and Yuuela.
Inori is the biological half-sister of Myth, Rain, Koui, and Yuuela.
Warwick is the adoptive father of Nikusui and Inori.
Warwick is the adoptive uncle of Myth, Rain, Koui, and Yuuela.
The Sacred One is the grandmother of Myth, Rain, Koui, and Yuuela. She is the adoptive grandmother of Nikusui and Inori.
#.♡ ~ [ ' ᴡɪᴛʜɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ ᴏғ ᴍɪʀ ᴇɴᴅᴇʀ; ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ ᴇxɪsᴛs ᴛᴡᴇʟᴠᴇ ʀᴇᴀʟᴍs... ' ] - ✡ ᴄɪᴘʜᴇʀ: ʟᴏʀᴇ ✡#{ Whew- That was a lot of typing that I had to do last night and most of today. }#{ But I randomly had the idea to type all of this out last night so I just went for it. }#{ But here is the whole post about the parentals of the Yumishi kids! }#{ It's a very messed up family with a lot of twists and turns in there. }#{ At some point I'll probably make a post about The Sacred One and their aunts. }#{ But that will have to wait until I find them some proper face claims. }#{ So in the meantime... just enjoy this post. }#{ I wanted to type more in-depth stuff about them... but I didn't want the post to get TOO long and I didn't wanna get people all- }#{ confused about all the different relations and shit. Oh and I'll probably add Warwick to the post with The Sacred One and the aunts too.#{ But hopefully this is good enough for some people. }#{ Now if y'all will excuse me. Imma go back to replaying Resident Evil 4 Remake. }
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Porfiry telling Raskolnikov that at least he was honest and in one bound took the furthest leap to put his theory to the test of actual action——
#Taylor believing a man who is obviously lying to her#like. it’s fascinating to me how they’ll say anything to her and she’ll be like ‘okay let’s go’#she’s never read Jane Austen and it shows. but that’s okay because she’s the character in an Austen novel#she has no sense of self-preservation she has no common sense when it comes to love#and the reason I have endless patience for that is because she IS different. she is extraordinary. she is WEIRD. she’s so needy#so angry so fragile so stupid so brilliant so completely helpless#like the bolter———I can’t even LOOK at it right now#because you know she was like this since she was 5 and SHE knows it#just so. Different. so strange. I mean she ruled her family with an iron fist from the age of 11#and her packaging is so basic and she she had so much access to everything anyone could want#so there are none of the usual marks of someone being so Different#but like. people HATED her from day one. you know her own strength of personality was drawing out many people’s hatred or envy#and she’s so helpless in her own personality because she can never change#like thank you aimee? or whatever? heck yeah there was some girl who bullied her and brutalized her on the playground#and you know it devastated Taylor from day one and still does#and it’s just. I don’t know how people can’t see that someone with that extraordinary set of gifts#wouldn’t also suffer in such an extraordinary way#and ways that elicit so much scorn and non-sympathy because people are unsettled and jealous and annoyed by her#because she WILL find a way to win#but isn’t that proof enough that she is the very OPPOSITE OF NORMAL#it’s why people have to be like ‘oh she sold her soul to the devil for this success.’ or whatever the psy-op spy thing is#because there’s no human way to explain her success if she really were as basic/talentless as people say#ugh this is all so incoherent and irritating and I’m so sorry but I just. I cannot explain how protective my heart is of her#and all the many many mistakes she’s made and the prisons she’s made for herself because she’s LIVING the tragedy#of never having denied herself one time/getting everything she wants#and discovering the poison at the bottom of everything she reached for with desperate hands#like. I love her so much and I am so protective of her because she is so helpless and she is getting shot in the face every time#and she feels every blow!#whew I need to turn off reblogs and will probably delete but I just#this album is all of her spilled out and people DO hate to see it because a lot of people hate her!!!!
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oh and the back of my shitty ipod ive had since i was like. 8yrs old has begun to split in half? like the back is coming off. my siblings are like 'DUDE THE BATTERY IS GOING TO EXPLODE SOPT IT' buuut idrgaf.. will keep an eye on it but uuh it still works so 🤷♂️
#not art#mother says lithium batteries are volatile#but i;ll be dammed i will keep this thang on me till it literally shatter into a dozen pieces in my very hands#i noly noticed my ipod was peeling into two coz uuh#there was a shooter threat at school today and we sat in class doint nothing for foooour hours#and at some point i was like 'why is my thang not all the way in her case wtf'#popped it out and thennn#well whatever !!#still works! not getting unreasonably hot! no threat detected!#i had an ipod at such an age beause my parents were and are Wuite paranoid and#wanted to be able to contact me#still i have my singing monsters and scribblenauts from all that time ago. many an hour i spent..#WHEW OJKAY#goooood night
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Something about having to go no contact with a parent that people don’t talk about is how with every life achievement, you think about what it would be like to tell them
#I just started a new job and all I’ve been thinking about lately is if my dad would be proud of me#I haven’t seen or spoken to him since 2019#he has no clue what my life is like right now. he only knows the old childhood version of me#he will never be at my graduation or my wedding#he’ll never see me grow as a person and become an adult#and a part of me misses when things were different and we would spend time together#whenever I was sad or sick he would make me a grilled cheese and tomato soup and to this day I haven’t had a better grilled cheese#it would be dangerous to even reach out and talk to him#I can never see him again#he’s done so many things to hurt me and my family#but a part of me is still the same 10 year old that wanted her dad’s attention#whew sorry for being so personal on here#I just needed to get that out
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boston rush hour traffic really has u experiencing such a range of human manners. i was looking judgementally at the lack of distance between the bumpers of 2 cars, the driver doing the tailgating noticed me looking, and gestured to me asking if i needed/wanted to get over, implying he'd let me over if i did, but i said no, and he gave me a thumbs up. and continued the tailgating
#toy txt post#what a wide range of manners you have my friend. holy fuck#fascinating#also why do SO MANY PPL#if i need to get into the lane where you are. and YOU need to get into the lane where I AM. this doesnt have to be hard!#this could be very easy! we should switch spots. if you let me over#a space for you will then be opened!#so why are you BLOCKING MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE#with your big stupid SUV!!!!!!!! stop it!!#also why did a fucking Bus try to merge on top of me! pleeeeeease 😭😭😭😭😭😭 im too small for this#also passed. 2 very rough looking accidents. i think i saw blood on the pavement coming out of the car that looked like All of the airbags#had gone off. (😬 uh. hope it was a superficial injury that person can heal from. eep) and another one was in the ditch in between the 2#different directions of highway and there were like. 4 firetrucks? pulling the car apart ?#hope they got everyone out of that van#also witnessed a sneaky cop car get mega cut off and do nothing which was. a little funny#guess the officer was off duty or in a hurry or smth#anyway. the genuine politeness. from the guy just mega tailgating. whew#wild#anyway dont tailgate me ill go slower to try to ensure that if u hit me its not that bad and that there's a decent gap between me and the#car in front of me so i dont get fucking pancaked by your big stupid truck. if you let off i might be nice and go ten or more over for u#if conditions allow.
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wow they decided to copy yoongi almost exactly: concert lovefest for army and then dip
#when namjoon started getting all sentimental on sm and vmin got huggy again i kinda knew#i figured nj was waiting to go in at the same time as jk and jm (no brainer that they'd be going in together)#and thinking on it i can't see why tae would want to do this by himself either#logically if they go in together that's the least amount of time they're 'separated'#and also ups the possibility of them being able to support each other within their service#like if one is busy there's others on hand *and* the hyungs are still in place to start them off with advice etc#not to be too cunical but after the thing with jin i just feel like they can't be too safe or guard their backs too much#lol as soon as i saw the full shot of jk's place in the gcf i was like: well that means he's not gonna be there much longer#also jm dyeing his hair bc he's just gonna shave it all off anyway makes a kind of sense#but this ALSO means all the stuff they've been talking and hinting about is gonna come out WHILE they're in#bc hobi's stuff is already on deck and he has a plan for as soon as he's out and the maknaes won't want to trample#on the newly released from service hyungs' projects so the travel show rm and jm's music jk's korean song???#will all probably come next year and that after the fans have already had a docuseries christmas and new year#whew!#something about them sll going in together just hits me in the feels like ... just the closeness and protectiveness#and this way they can clock out of all the end of year ratings tallyings performances and comparisons!#bc they just deckared so they won't be going for a bit - they should have some time to settle things like yoongi did
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Looks up wikihow for what to do when you realize your office has 5x the amount of budget of every other executive office combined
#fun fact the president gets the least! reaffirming the idea they do jack shit#maybe i shouldnt condemn gabby to that but also sorry maam you are not being evpsa as long as our nepo baby linenof succession#has anything to say about it 😔😔 maybe you could be dod one day#like i am the outlier that only happened because the ACTUAL nepo baby backed out last minute#so they had to speedrun my nepo babiness#anyways the genuine nepo baby route (me) is one i’d like to aboid because as one of the people involved it sucks !!!!!#anyways sorry abt my boss telling you could do it even though youve already been elected to senate and my boss terms out in 3 days!#(and ????????????)#but thats a conversation i dont want to have so it will be unsaid unless you talk to me ! sorry i will be prioritizing those whove been here#and doing the work for 2+ years i think thats actually how this is Supposed to work when you don’t make all your core staff seniors @my boss#i’ll be real they were insane for that like im insane for swinging the exavt opposite way but ALL YOUR CORE STAFF???? you left your juniors#in the fucking DUST man now you have nepo baby times and everyones like but you can do it SHUT UP im a nepo baby#to be fair its good we didn’t fast track the person we did bc WHEW issues but the thing is the person who got left with all these issues is#ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! not any of the people whove been dealing with them for 3+ years so THANKS IG!!!!!!!!!#some ppl really dont grow up with the ideals of making sure you are leaving something for those after you huh like dont get me wrong#the work we DO considers those who comes after us bc thats how advocacy works but our OFFICE has none of that in terms of like#staff and stuff like some of the staff choices this year were 😵💫😵💫😵💫😵💫 everyone went into fall confused as hell#bc WHO TF WAS GOING TO RUN like even before i was properly involved THIS ISSUE EXISTED !!! you guys just got lucky i existed#and lucky that im a pushover that does whatever those around me tell me too like i am remembering i DIDNT WANT THIS JOB!!!! it took both#the person i consider my mentor and the person who i consider who i want to be when i grow up telling me to do it b4 i even considered it#so DONT TELL RANDOS THEY CAN HAVE A PLACE IN (MY) OFFICE!!! I HAVE ENOUGH PROBLEMS RIGHT NOW!!! do you know what a bitch hiring is going 2 b#anyways :’) can everyone tell i am So Excited for this job :’)) if it turns out we’ve had a budget of 300k this WHOLE TIME like#i had been SAYING WE DID bc its my JOB to Know it and it was THERE and we’ve been acting like we had 150 i’ll lose it#v.txt
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Wish Ferrari was reliable enough both as a team and as car developers so that we could have had a proper fight right until the end of 2017 season. Going into the summer break lewis was only 3 points ahead of seb after countless races of him nearly never having the lead and were seb not dnf'ed in singapore it would still end in the last race. Seing their sweet but still there rivalry throughout the season where they jab at each other but still laugh together is just so refreshing, when they go wheel to wheel you don't feel stressed but just pure excitement to see which one will go ahead this time, unlike some other rivalries..
#Just watched the 2017 docu on youtube as a pick me up#And man. Sooo many enjoyable races#You could genuinely see that each strategy mattered and each position was important#When seb was going out of the pit and you could see the silver of merc coming ahead... When they entered that corner side by side.. Whew#Second half of the season just proved that merc was a reliable car with a reliable driver#Also in one of the interviews lewis talked about how he always had a better time in the second half of the seasons was just.#Idk yes of course these drivers have to be self aware to improve but i wasn't expecting him to lay it out like that#Oh also baku was just. So funny#Seb: we are men we both should get penalized the emotions are running high#Lewis: girl i didn't do shit it was just the same old move i do at all the times idk what you're saying#Like!!! The way seb was so Pissed that lewis didn't get penalized#Anyway if anyone watched the season i'd love to hear some opinions about their driving and psyche during the season#Lewis hamilton#Sebastian vettel#f1#formula 1
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#whew you know when you've been Going for a while and then you get a break and you're still tired but you're also so so jittery#S WHERE IM AT OHHH MY GOD#luxury problem and it's totally fine but i am crawling up the walls my friends#also update time ig!! took my family to the autism group meeting thing on tuesday bc it was a meeting esp for that#and they kept throwing me glances throughout the info part like lol it's you JDFHJDFH it was v interesting#bc throughout it all it's like... here i have info about autism and here i have my 25 years lived experience without thinking i had autism#and since i wasn't diagnosed as a kid i wasn't as ~obvious about it and i find it hard to reconcile examples with myself if they#don't fit 100% (it's . the autism) so anyways it was v helpful!!!#and my mum was like ah yeah i always had moments where i thought so?? but then it didn't fit the cold white boy stereotype bc i#am empathetic and i have humour etc so she never mentioned it to me bc it's a big thing etc and tbf i wasn't ~ready pre-this year#but now it's like... ah yes i was always upset on holidays and they never got why (the change in Everything)... i was picky with food#and with new shoes and i HATED shopping and it overwhelmed me so much (still does)#i would ask my mum what tf i was feeling and why i was crying and i would analyse social interactions#and i'd have obsessions with media and horses etc. was big know-it-all. was so slow with some subjects at school#like yknow when you had to copy letters 80 times? that'd take me ages and i'd get a fail bc i was being so precise#anyways. enough signs methinks dfjhdjh so now im just trying to see where stimming & eyecontact come in?#i never noticed a problem with eyecontact but im trying to let myself not do it and it's kinda nice?? but idk#and stimming idk i used to suck my thumb for a long time but?? i wanna try things but whew internalised ableism etc#so see then im like so ARE YOU ACTUALLY-- but anyways it seems i am#and my mum made me realise that'd. explain why i suddenly developed depression around age 11 and never got out of it again#so lots of Thinking!!! and wanting to shelve things like ok great figured it out NOW WHAT but noooo#also stupid to do this on tumblr and not rly talk about it with irl friends but what do you say like#hello im autistic? yeah it surprised me too. no i can't really explain how it works for me. no that's not how the spectrum works#so here we are yes#<3
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#i have such a great friend that i see often and we go from nonsense topics to deep shit#and now today we touched on how we both deal with depression#how we'd react if our grandparents died#how our relationship is with our parents#and all of that after a day thinking about my colleague#whose son died two years ago by suicide. which could just make me cry in the middle of a work day#bc it's just. whew too many thoughts to unpack there#all of that while sitting in the sun on a beautiful square being thankful about life#and on the ride home i had the great idea to listen to 'how i'm feeling now' by lewis capaldi for the first time ever#bc i love crying on my bike i guess#LIFE.#what a day#ab me#and we go onwards. but i will watch some sad videos now to get the tears out#adore you here i come
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