#Very nice that they noticed my flirting but also they didn't answer my question about their fave songs 😂

[heyitslapis]

ok, i want you. There, you finally got it out of me

[thehighladywrites]

— “You were flirting with me?”

pairing: Azriel x fem!reader

summary: You leave Azriel mid-makeout to debrief with your girls

warnings: suggestiveness, the ic being nosey, miscommunication, rhys and cassian knowingly riling az up, the girls get drunk and interrogate reader, the boys get drunk and interrogate az,

amara’s note: this might be the funniest thing i’ve ever written. also sorry for my absence i’m posting more soon💗💗

You’ve had a massive crush on Azriel since the day you met him. He didn’t really notice you and was somewhat nice to you.

Really, you had no idea how you started crushing on him, I mean he paid you no special attention or anything. Maybe it was because he was quiet, handsome, tall, dark, mysterious and only spoke when it was necessary. He also cracked jokes and flashed grins that made your heart flutter. The Mother knows how much it grated your nerves whenever a male tried to hit or talk to you when you clearly had no desire to.

Azriel was the complete opposite and you started worrying that you were the one who grated on his nerves everytime you tried speaking to him.

“Hi Azriel, how are you doing?” you noticed him sitting at the dining table, collected yourself and asked him.

“Good,” he said staring straight into your soul before he realized his answer wasn’t really socially appropriate so asked you, “How are you?”

You just smiled awkwardly and nodded, “I’m fine, thanks.”

And that was how 90% of your conversations went. There was no further comments or extra questions and fuck if it wasn’t awkward. You really wanted to get to know him but you also knew how impossible it was since even the people he had been friends with for half a millennium often considered him a mystery.

Sensing the weird energy in the room, you just swiftly said goodbye, not bothering to stay to hear his goodbye.

He wanted to ask if you maybe wanted to do something, perhaps eat brunch at the restaurant you talked about to Cassian but you were moving before he had the chance. Azriel got extremely annoyed with himself, wondering why the hell he couldn’t ask you out like a normal person.

With determination, he promised himself to try the next time.

—

The girls all knew about your very obvious crush on Azriel and encouraged you to approach him often. They were all mated and happy and you wish it was you, you that had a mate, you who got loved and kissed and hugged and fucked.

But you just had to be obsessed with a man that paid you no attention… Maybe that’s why you wanted him, you viewed him as a challenge, and you loved challenges. Despite wanting his attention and wanting to get to know him, you still had self-respect and didn’t act like a pathetic, desperate, love-sick puppy infront of him.

So you went from always greeting him and smiling at him, trying to initiate conversations to flat out ignoring him. I mean, he never talked to you first so maybe it was time to accept it and just admire him from afar.

—

Azriel began to sense a dullness in his days, a void he couldn't really pinpoint. He realized he hadn’t talked to you, or rather, you hadn't talked to him while he played it cool, trying not to make his beating heart obvious. He noticed the absence of your chatter, questions and lovely voice, realizing that his days grew more mundane and boring without someone asking about his shadows, what his plans were, where he got Truth-Teller.

Azriel observed during dinner that you didn't glance at him once; your attention was solely on the girls or his brothers. You chose to stand up, walk across the dining room and grab the bowl of potatoes beside him instead of asking him for it, and it really irked him. Was he not worthy of passing a simple bowl of fucking potatoes?

He wondered if he had done something to make you avoid talking to him. Despite not being the most talkative person, he paid very close attention to everything you said, even if it seemed unnoticed. Azriel loved your presence and he thought he made his interest in you very clear when he looked at you.

Cassian had said girls like eye contact, still everytime he stared into your soul, you only looked weirded out. Was he doing it wrong? Maybe he wasn’t keeping eye contact long enough.

He had grown extremely fond of your talking and felt empty without it. Finding you alone in the kitchen while you prepared a quick breakfast, Azriel decided it was time to talk. The others had already headed to the training grounds as you had slept in. You were cooking your breakfast, not noticing Azriel.

“Hey.”

You stopped dead in your tracks, frozen in place as you slowly looked up at him. Was he really talking to you? But why?

“Yeah?”

He stayed quiet for a bit, just staring at you in that weird way he always did. Even though he wasn't sure if you liked him back and was afraid of rejection, he still wanted to talk to you.

“How have you been?”

You fight the urge to furrow your brows in confusion. Since when the hell did Azriel care? You were truly baffled and tried to act normal.

“Uh, I’ve been good, you?”

Azriel didn’t like this. He didn’t like this at all.

Usually, you'd spontaneously share every detail of your morning routine, even without him asking. He fucking loved to listen as you talked about your broken hairbrush, the struggle of choosing clothes, the snug fit of your leathers due to gained muscles, and the morning hassle with your hair, prompting you to wake up 20 minutes earlier than usual.

“I’m okay. Have you done anything else today? How is your hairbrush?”

A stupid question really, but Azriel didn’t care. He wanted to see that familiar spark in your eyes as you talked about anything and everything. No way would he ever forgive himself if he ruined something between you.

Your face heated at the fact that he remembered such a minuscule detail about something you said weeks ago.

”Oh, the hairbrush? It broke so I got an enchanted one. Heard it's like a hair miracle, tried it, and it really worked. By the way, your hair looks good. Did you cut it lately?”

Azriel couldn't help but warm up at your rambling. His eyes widened at first, and then he threw his head back and laughed. The deep, rich sound was familiar, yet it never failed to feel like the first time. It was a beautiful and joyful melody that always managed to make you melt on the inside.

"I really missed you," he admitted, feeling your heart pound in your chest, unable to meet his gaze.

"You did?" Azriel's soft smile warmed your heart, the one you'd nearly missed.

"I did. I enjoy being around you and hearing your voice," he confessed.

"Oh, I always thought you didn’t." You couldn't help but feel a mix of surprise and relief.

Stepping closer, Azriel's presence loomed over you, his hand gently lifting your chin.

“Please, don’t misunderstand me. I’m sorry that my silence ever gave you that impression. I thought I was making my interest clear, to be honest,” he murmured, sincerity gleaming in his hazel eyes.

“Okay, I promise I won’t misunderstand again. But why did you think you made yourself clear?” you whispered, feeling a rush of energy as you locked eyes with him.

“Because I made a point of holding prolonged eye contact, thinking it was a clear signal of my interest,” he explained matter-of-factly.

You couldn't help but raise your eyebrows, suppressing a laugh. “So, all those times you were staring at me, you were actually flirting?”

Azriel's expression softened, a hint of amusement dancing in his eyes. “Well, yes. I thought you knew.”

Suppressing a giggle, you bit your lip and glanced away, not wanting to offend him.

“Ah, not exactly crystal clear, but I understand now. Let’s go for a walk and chat some more,” you suggested, linking your arm through his.

"Sounds perfect. Now, tell me about those new leathers you got," he said, his playful demeanor easing the tension, steering the conversation towards lighter topics.

—

Over the next few months, the bond between you and Azriel deepened. He trusted you with secrets of his life that remained hidden from everyone else. These private conversations became the pillars of your connection, sweet moments for you only.

As the months went by, an unspoken desire for more lingered between you and Azriel. Yet, despite the magnetic pull, something kept you from going the final step.

You've had countless close moments where you almost kissed, where just a tip-toe closer would have sealed the deal. But it never happened. So close, yet so frustratingly far away.

—

Mor's question disrupted the laughter and gossiping of the girls' night, the clinking of wine glasses punctuating the anticipation in the air.

"Remind me again why you and Azriel aren’t a couple?”

Mor's curiosity hung palpably, shifting the mood from gossiping to an interrogation.

“Well, it’s kinda complicated,” you replied, swirling the wine in your glass as you gathered your thoughts.

“We have a great connection, but there's this unspoken understanding between us. It’s like there's a boundary we're afraid to cross.”

Amren raised an eyebrow, her sharp eyes observing you closely. “Unspoken understanding? Fancy fucking excuse”

Elain giggled and nodded in agreement.

You chuckled, “Maybe it is, but it’s like we're both tiptoeing around something, afraid to ruin what we have. I mean, do I want to be with him? Yeah, I do. But we might fuck something up and I think we have too good of a relationship to throw it all away.”

Nesta leaned back with a smirk, “Sounds like a case of unresolved sexual tension. Maybe the only cure would be to finally get a good dicking.”

You shot her a look, “You make it sound like a medical condition. Also that has got to be some plot from your smutty books.”

Feyre chimed in, “Maybe it is. Maybe it's time you took a bold step to see what happens. Who knows, it might get you laid.”

The group erupted into laughter, but underneath it, you couldn’t ignore the truth in their words. You liked him, there was no denying it. But did he like you as much?

—

“Is she dating anyone?” Rhysand’s casual question caught Azriel off guard as he browsed his big wine selections with Cassian while the girls where out of the house.

Azriel feigned ignorance. “Who?”

Rhysand and Cassian exchanged a knowing look. “Y/N. Is she dating anyone?”

Something about the question irked Azriel. “Why the hell do you care?”

Rhysand shrugged nonchalantly. “Just curious. I might set her up with someone.”

Azriel's jaw clenched as he fought to mask his frustration. Rhysand's casual tone grated on his nerves, igniting a simmering jealousy he hadn't realized he harbored. Suppressing a sigh, he forced himself to respond evenly,

“She's a grown female, Rhys. She doesn't need you playing matchmaker for her.”

Cassian chuckled, sensing the tension in the air. “Easy, Az. No need to get defensive. I think little Y/N might want a lover of her own, no?”

Azriel's gaze hardened, a flicker of annoyance flashing in his eyes. “I'm not being defensive. I just don't appreciate your implication. And no, she doesn’t need some lover.”

Rhysand raised an eyebrow, his smirk bordering on mischief. “Interesting. And why is that?”

Before Azriel could formulate a response, you had returned with the girls, your laughter echoing through the room, shifting the focus away from the questions. Azriel sighed, silently cursing Rhysand's annoying questions and the unresolved feelings stirring within him.

—

You turned off the tap and brought the glass of water to your mouth, much needed after the amounts of wine you and the girls had downed. It was honestly a miracle Mor had the energy to winnow you to the house of wind.

As the girls walked to the library for more drinking, you snuck into the kitchen for some water.

You put down the tall glass of water, swallowing the refreshing and cool drink before your body tingle.

Your stomach flipped, blood heating as your skin broke out in goosebumps.

His presence was undeniable.

Azriel was here.

Turning around to leave the sink, you saw him standing there behind the island, looking at you with a soft look that made your stomach flutter and cheeks heat.

"Hi," Azriel greeted softly as you approached him.

"Hi, Az." you replied, feeling a surge of warmth at the sight of him.

"Did you have fun with the girls?" he asked, his voice gentle.

"Yeah, I did," you answered with a smile as you looked down.

Azriel's lips twitched, and he gently lifted your chin with his pointer and thumb. He looked down at your midnight blue dress and raised his brows

"You look absolutely breathtaking."

Your heart beat faster and faster and you were damn sure your friends upstairs could hear how hard it drummed against your chest.

You leaned into his touch, the move careful and intentional. Azriel’s thumb rubbed against your jaw, your eyes glistening in awe at his handsome self.

”Thank you. It’s nothing special, I just like the color.”

Azriel's gaze softened, his eyes lingering on yours with a tenderness that made your knees weak. "It's not just the color," he murmured, his voice barely above a whisper. "It's you. You’re beautiful."

A blush crept up your cheeks at his words, and you bit your lip nervously, unsure how to respond to such sincerity. But damn, he looked good, and the alcohol in your system made you feel bold enough to speak your mind.

"You look really good," you said, your voice a little breathless. "This shirt suits you."

Stepping closer, you let your hand rest on his sturdy chest, feeling the warmth of his skin beneath your fingertips, the tension between you palpable. Slowly, your hand traveled down to the planes of his stomach, each movement filled with anticipation.

As you looked up at him with a mischievous smile, you played with his belt, the air crackling with the electric energy of the moment. His reaction was immediate, his gaze flickering with desire as the tension between you reached its peak.

Azriel clenched his jaw, his hand moving to the back of your neck, pulling you closer until your breaths mingled. The sudden proximity caught you off guard, making you gasp softly.

"Careful," he murmured, his voice low and tinged with desire. "Let's not do things we can't handle."

Your breath hitched at his words, a shiver running down your spine as his proximity sent electric sparks coursing through you. “That sounds like a challenge, Azriel,” you taunted, your voice barely a whisper.

Azriel’s smirk widened, his gaze burning with intensity. “Consider it an invitation.”

You looked at each other, breathing shallowly. Azriel’s intense gaze softened gradually as his eyes traveled further down to your lips. He swallowed, pupils wide with lust.

"May I-"

"Yes."

It was a tender, sweet kiss that caught you off guard in the best way possible. You didn't expect him to be so gentle, but you welcomed it wholeheartedly.

His touch was tender yet reassuring. One hand cradled the back of your head, while the other wrapped around your waist, drawing you closer to him.

You melted into his embrace, savoring every moment of closeness. Your hands found their way to his neck, clinging to him as if you never wanted to let go.

Azriel’s shadows swirled around you lazily, one trailing up your calf and causing you to twitch in surprise. Pulling back, you were met with his clouded, lustful eyes. A mixture of concern and confusion cleared up his hazy gaze.

Suddenly, the reality of the situation hit you like a ton of bricks. Here you were, in the kitchen, making out with Azriel—the very male you'd had a crush on for what felt like an eternity. Panic surged through you, and you took a step back, needing a moment to collect yourself.

“Are you okay?”

“Mhm, I’m fine, just give me one second,” you managed to stammer out before turning on your heel and practically stumbling out of the kitchen.

With your heart racing and your mind in a whirlwind, you burst into the library where the girls were lounging, each with a glass of wine in hand. Feyre perked up at your arrival, offering a lazy smile.

“There you are, was wondering where you went,” she mused, clearly already feeling the effects of the alcohol.

Without thought, you blurted out the bombshell news. “Guys, Azriel and I kissed.”

The revelation seemed to sober up the entire room, and suddenly, you were bombarded with questions and reactions from your friends.

“Oh my gods, finally,” Mor exclaimed, practically jumping in her seat

“Is he a good kisser? Was it rough or soft? How did he hold you?” Nesta fired off questions, her curiosity piqued.

”All of you owe me 10 cold coins each. I’m always right,” Feyre slumped back in her seat, sipping the wine as she nodded happily.

“I knew you were up to something while we were in here,” Amren chimed in with a knowing smirk.

You grinned widely as you shared all the details with the girls, who were just as excited as you were. They leaned in, eager to hear every bit of the story.

As the questions swirled around you, Elain’s confused expression brought the conversation to a halt.

“Wait, why are you here? Aren’t you supposed to be kissing right now?” she asked, her brow furrowing in confusion.

You froze, the weight of her words sinking in. “Well, yes, we were just... making out, and I had to come here. I panicked.”

In response, your friends practically shoved you back outside, Nesta taking the lead. “And don’t you dare come back until your legs are shaking and you have a big smile on your face,” she declared with a mischievous grin.

You took a deep breath, suppressing your smile as you made your way back to the kitchen. Azriel stood there, leaning against the kitchen island with his feet crossed and arms over his chest.

“Are you sure you’re okay? We don’t have to do anything that makes you uncomfortable,” he said, his voice laced with concern.

You softened at his words, stepping closer and wrapping your arms around his neck. Pulling him down slightly, you gave him a loud kiss that ended with an audible "mwah."

"I really couldn't be more comfortable. I love you, Az. Like a whole lot," you confessed, your voice filled with sincerity and affection.

Azriel's eyes softened at your words, a smile tugging at the corners of his lips. He brushed a stray strand of hair from your face, his touch gentle and tender.

"I love you too," he murmured, his voice barely above a whisper. "More than I can put into words."

You felt a rush of warmth flood through you at his admission, your heart fluttering with happiness. Without another word, you leaned in and kissed him again, the feeling of his lips against yours sending shivers down your spine.

Azriel grabbed your hips and slowly backed you into the kitchen island. You yelped when he picked you up and put you on the counter, deeping the kiss.

“Let me take you on a date. I want to do this properly,” he whispers breathlessly between kisses as he tucks your hair behind your ear.

You put your hands on his chest lovingly as you nod, smiling up at him. “I’d love that.”

—

extra scene where rhys and cassian visit azriel in the kitchen:

Azriel stood frozen as you left, his mind going into overdrive, worrying if he had done something wrong. Just as he was about to follow you, Rhys and Cassian popped their heads into the kitchen.

"Yo. Where did she go?" Cassian asked, scanning the empty kitchen.

Azriel furrowed his brows at the pair, or rather their heads.

"What the fuck are you doing here? Go before she comes back," he urged, shooing them away with his hand.

Rhys leaned against the kitchen island, a satisfied grin on his face. "It's about damn time."

Cassian nodded in agreement. "Fuck yeah, took him long enough. But hey, better late than never."

Azriel frowned, feeling the weight of their words. "You guys make it sound like it was some kind of mission."

Rhys chuckled. "In a way, it was. And you finally completed it."

Azriel sighed, "Stop talking like that, you sound fucking ancient.”

Cassian smirked at him, arms over his chest as he said “Y’all kissed?”

Azriel's cheeks flushed slightly at Cassian's question, but he maintained his composure. "Yeah, we did."

Rhys raised an eyebrow, a teasing glint in his eyes. "And?"

Azriel shrugged, trying to appear nonchalant. "And it was... nice."

Cassian laughed, clapping Azriel on the back. "Nice? Come on, tongue?”

"Yeah, tongue,” he said trying and failing to suppress a smile.

Rhys raised an eyebrow, a teasing glint in his eyes. “I knew it, you little freak. What else?”

Azriel's expression turned guarded. “Okay, that's all you dickheads need to know. Now, get the fuck out before she comes back.”

Rhysand’s eyebrows shot up, a finger wagging in Azriel’s face. “You better not fuck in my kitchen, I swear to the Mother, I’ll make you both scrub every inch.”

Azriel rolled his eyes and ushered them out, leaning against the kitchen island, waiting for you.

[emotionallyattachednerd]

Rightfully His ❙ TP Optimus Prime x f!human reader ❙ NSFW 18+

Word count: 2500+

Warnings: Smut ( Fingering and spike penatration ) low angst, possessive behaviour, jealous behaviour, size difference and robot x human. NSFW 18+.

Notes: You people are sluts for dom Optimus, and I don't blame any of you. He a snack! Um, so, here you go you filthy animals.🥰

Also to add, Optimus Prime is using mass-displacement, though he's still large, if you get what I mean. I didn't want this to be a repeat from the first one I did so that's why I went with this approach.

A day at the beach sounded perfect. Optimus was kind enough to drive you there himself. You enjoy spending time with him. Though once there he would need to remain in his vehicle mode while you take a dip.

Wearing your favourite bathing suit you take a dive and enjoy yourself, waving at Optimus with a beaming smile which everyone will see as you waving at a truck. Not weird at all.

While you were enjoying yourself a few guys approached you. They introduced themselves as you did too, making small talk. They were nice, and the casual talk turns into flirting, and you can't help but beam in return with a flushed face.

It's not often guys flirt with you so it was kind of nice to have it happen, though you weren't really looking for any kind of relationship at the moment. You already had your eyes on someone but you doubted they felt the same back, so you didn't hold your breath about it.

For now you enjoy the attention from these guys.

Not aware, Optimus watches. Being in his vehicle mode you couldn't tell he was glaring hard at the guys, wanting nothing more than to scoop you up and hide you from their prying eyes.

What bothers him more is that you're enjoying the attention.

It's not until afterwards that you finally leave the beach and jog towards Optimus' truck form. He stares at your breasts under the bikini bouncing with each move and that makes him groan lowly.

"That was just what I needed. Thanks Optimus, it was really nice of you to drive me." You say happily as I put the towel on the leather seat and sat on it so you don't get too wet or sand everywhere.

This was a last night thing so you didn't bring any spare clothes.

"So, you had fun?" Optimus asks through a hint of dullness, which you didn't pick up on right away.

"So much fun!" You continue to beam softly before relaxing against the seat. "So, my place? Wouldn't want you returning to base at a late hour."

"Of course." Optimus can only sigh before leaving the beach with the sunset setting across the long strip of road. The drive is perhaps an hour from your place, so you get comfortable.

Optimus watches you as he drives, stretched out on the seat wearing only your bikini, skin damp as the setting sun glitters across you. He notices your perky nipples through your thin top. He lets out a low groan, forcing himself to rev his engine to try and hide it, which doesn't work as you pick up on this.

"Are you alright?" You question curiously.

"I'm fine." His answer was dull and that's when you start noticing his odd behaviour.

"You don't sound fine." You point out, more curious as you sit up more against the seat. "What's wrong?"

Optimus knew he wasn't able to hide it anymore, not after so long. "Those men from the beach, they seemed very friendly with you."

"Oh those guys? Yeah I guess they were. It's nice to be noticed honestly." You can't help but giggle lightly.

"You liked the attention they gave you." He adds and that's when you furrow your brows. He goes on before you can answer. "You were friendly back, smiling, blushing. Do you often flirt with other men like that?" Now this is weird to you.

"Um...I don't know, I guess? It's not everyday I have guys flirting with me. Why does that bother you?" You can't help but cross your arms.

It was quiet for a moment before he finally answered. "I don't want you flirting with other men, or accepting such behaviour from them towards you." He can't be serious?

You can't help but let out a scoff. "Seriously? Optimus, it's harmless flirting. Besides, why do you care? It's not like we're dating." You answer through an annoyed pout.

It's Optimus. He's the one you've got your eyes on. From the moment you both first met you've been overly fascinated by him, and you're already friendly with him, taking any chance to spend time with the big bot. But you were both completely different and you don't think he felt the same way towards you, so you never advanced to push your friendship any further.

However, now it seems things are getting on thin ice.

"Jesus Christ, you sound so jealous. No, you don't get to be jealous, alright? If I'm going to flirt with guys then I'm going to flirt!" You are honestly annoyed. How dare he!

"No." His simple answer doesn't settle well with you.

"No?"

"No. You won't. That's an order." This is getting out of hand.

"An order? No, you don't get to order me around! We're not dating!" You had to repeat again.

"Are you refusing to follow my order?" You have no idea what's wrong with him, or why he is behaving like this. Surely he doesn't have feelings for you?

"Yes...I'm disobeying your order, Optimus Prime! Fuck you!" You lose your temper as you shout, feeling both angry and emotional.

Suddenly the seat belt tightens around your body and pins you against the leather seat causing the air in your to be pushed out.

"Optimus?" You can't help but whisper his name, staring at the dashboard as if that's where he is staring at you from while he drives.

"I'm taking you back to base." He simply answers, tone casual and dark at once.

Swallowing thickly you try to adjust yourself but he made it hard with just how tight the seat belt was on you and he wasn't going to loosen his hold on you.

"N-no, I said take me home." You remind him but he refuses.

"No. You need to be taught a lesson, and reminded." This get's your heart racing. What is he talking about?

"Lesson? Reminded? Of what?" You can't help but question.

"That you're mine."

His? What the hell is he saying?

You couldn't move and you heart rate wouldn't slow down. Optimus has never spoken to you like this before and that kind of scared you. He is acting possessive, as if you really did belong to him but you didn't. Right?

The rest of the drive was dead quiet. You can't bring yourself to say anything or even struggle, and your heart rate never once slowed down.

Once returning no one else was around you figured this out. Optimus transformed with you still inside him which he's never done before. It makes you yelp in surprise before oyu find yourself in his servo.

He doesn't look down at you as he walks into his quarters and over to his berth where he finally places you. Stepping back he stares, watching you. You are still damp from the beach and in your bikini you can only sit there and stare back, breathing heavily, wondering just what he is thinking.

Finally he moves towards you. He sat on the berth right beside you making your breath hitch, before something happened you didn't think possible. His large frame starts shifting, shrinking himself until he is at her level.

The sudden action leaves you speechless, unable to form words as you stare at him. He still has that firm stare on him and you go to say something but he cuts you off.

"Remember, you're here so I can remind you who you belong to." Your response is to give a nervous nod, but you can't help the thrill that burns through your core.

"Optimus, you sound upset?" You manage to say through a shaky breath. "Have I hurt you?"

"You have." His answer is not what you expect. "For a long time I've admired you, wanted you, but I saw you felt something towards me but I feared I might've been wrong. Seeing you with those humans, that bothered me. I don't want you doing that anymore."

"Anymore? So...what does this mean? What am I to you?"

"You're mine. That's what."

Suddenly he leans closer and you find yourself laying back on the berth where he had laid a blanket for you. He's hovering across your shivering body, his shadow consuming you.

"What are you doing?" You whisper through a heated gasp. Your body was reacting in a whole different way, one that is arousal.

"What I've wanted to do for a long time." Suddenly, he kisses you.

You can only let out a muffled yelp against his lips, which are oddly enough soft and warm. You respond through a low throaty moan, hand sliding up against his cheek plating as you savour his lips. You've imagined this for so long but never thought it would be this beautiful to feel the primes lips against your own.

Optimus responds back through a deep moan himself before gently pushing his glossa inside your mouth making you gasp and return the same with your own tongue. Both your hands were against him, caressing his face and slowly deepening the kiss more.

You love him. That's right. As silly as it might sound, you have been deeply in love with Optimus for a long while. But now, he was your obsession, an addiction you craved. All this time he wanted you and you had no idea. He was good at hiding it. Not anymore.

His servos move across your body, dancing over your quivering skin before feeling his digits tug at your bikini bottoms, the lace flying loose as he tosses them aside. Next is your top and that is gone pretty quickly with some help from you.

Bare naked, you wrap your arms around his neck and move your thighs up over his hips, grinding yourself against his plating which causes him to moan back in approval.

You need him, you want him, you ache for him.

"Optimus..." His name whispers from your lips as his mouth moves to your neck where he gently nips against your tender skin. "Feels so good."

"I only want you to feel good, and to know only I can ever do this to you." He says softly before moving his servo down to your core where he rubs his digit between your folds before gently pushing one inside your depths.

The sudden feel of his thick digit makes your back arch and he doesn't stop there, pushing further and curling into your clenching walls.

You respond perfectly, hips arching up and grabbing hold onto his shoulder pads, moaning loudly without any care who might hear you, and it didn't seem to bother Optimus either.

"I want everyone to know you belong to me, y/n." He says once again, as if you had forgotten. His digit pumps into you before he adds a second, stretching you so nicely. "I want you to be mine. Do you want me to be yours?"

"Yes!" You answer with glee and without doubt. "You, I want you!"

Optimus smiles hearing this. "Good."

He removes his digits from you and you grab hold of his servo, bringing it back up and sucking at his moist digits, letting out a low moan as you taste yourself.

Optimus lets out a low growl of approval as his vents kick in, metal heating up as his throbbing cable presses against his panel, demanding to be released.

You feel him rutting gently against your bare core, moaning loudly as your swollen clit grind against his plating. You needed him inside you, now!

"Optimus," you whisper his name into his audio before finishing, "Fuck me."

Any self control was gone.

You hear the sound of metal shifting, Optimus as well, before suddenly feeling the warm tarped tip of his cable pressing against your core and moving within, not holding back as he fills you completely, flushing his hips against you firmly.

The sudden fullness feeling his throbbing spike invade you is an experience you only ever imagined, and it's nothing compared to the real thing. He fills you so much, to the point you hiss through a moan and move your hand to your belly where you feel the tightness, only to gasp when you feel a bulge caused by Optimus.

"So full..." You moan out. "Feels good."

"Y/n." Optimus whispers your name as his optics flash through the arousal he was feeling building through him.

"Please move, I need to feel you fuck me, please." You plead while you caress his face under your hands, biting your lips as you clench around his more get him going.

Optimus does as you want, or what he wants, whichever it is. He rolls his hips back before driving forward again, pushing more deep beautiful moans from your plump lips.

His pace doesn't flatter as you wrap you legs tightly around his rocking hips, tugging him against you more as you hands grip into whatever armour plating you can get your hands on.

You feel every ridge of his throbbing spike brush along your inner walls, the tip pressing up against your belly, bobbing with each thrust Optimus gives you.

All you can do is pant and hold on, embracing your desires and what you've dreamed of now finally coming true. If only you knew he could change his size, perhaps you might've said something sooner about your strong feelings towards him and avoided the fight you two had.

It doesn't matter. The past is the past, and this is now, moving forward.

Optimus lets out long groans as he fills you over again before adjusting himself a little, and gaining a better angle before his movements become more firm and short.

The sound of his soft metal slapping against your damp skin filling both your ears and his audios added to the growing pleasure between you both.

One servo grips into your hip as he sets a more firmer pace, grunting out as you clench more around him, making it very difficult for him to hold himself from finishing so soon.

But you want it, to feel his fluids fill you deeply right now. You'll have other opportunities to explore and experience another time. This won't be the only time that you know.

"Please, Optimus, I want you to fill me so badly! Don't hold back, please. Just let me feel it all, please! I'm yours! Only yours!" You can't help but chant over again through your arousal as you feel yourself already nearing your orgasim.

Through your chanting Optimus lifts your hips up and ruts against your core, speed strong as his vents kick in and throat moans grow more furiously.

You let out a half broken sobbed cry of bliss as you suddenly feel your orgasim crush through you, and Optimus at the same time let out a strong burst of energy as he fills you deeply with his fluids, belly full of his spike and the warm liquid he spills within.

Holding on you relish every second, body shaking through the after shocks of your orgasim before eventually he slowly pulls out from you, feeling so empty now as some of his fluids follow behind.

In your orgasim daze you didn't realise that Optimus had turned back to his normal size self and held you close in his warm servo.

As you lay in his servo you curl your body around his digit before he brings you closer to his face where he gives you a soft nuzzle making you smile and hum in return.

Even after being in control and possessive over you, he also has some loving aftercare for you in store. He cares about you deeply, you know this, and you care about him.

"You'll always be mine. Understood?" Optimus says tenderly and you can only nod softly, having no complaints about that.

"Always. Does this mean we're dating?"

"How about I take you on a date?" The offer makes your belly fill with warmth.

"I would love that."

"Then we're dating." He confirms proudly.

You are rightfully his.

[russellsppttemplates]

It's just the beggining (Oscar Piastri)

Oscar hasn't done or said anything, so you're taking matters into your own hands

Note: english is not my first language. It's my first Oscar piece and I'm nervous posting this, but hopefully you enjoy it! 🫶

Thank you so much to everyone who likes and reblogs, your feedback is appreciated 🤍 and I'm taking requests so if you have any ideas or concepts you want to share, feel free to do so as I'll try to get to them the best I can!

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Cw: mentions reader's grandparents' health issues, mentions the situation with McLaren and Daniel, insomnia

Tag list: @myloverjk-blog

"Hey, Y/N!", James called you once he saw you walk by his classroom, "hey", you greeted back, adjusting your books on your arms.

"There is a new kid, I'm sure you know, Oscar Piastri his name is, and apparently he's staying the long weekend too, like you", he trailed off, not knowing if he was stepping further than he should.

"Yes, I am staying, it's okay to talk about it", you gave him tight lipped smile, "well, I was hoping you'd keep him company - he's a bit shy, but he's very fun to be around and the teacher also thought it would be good since you're both staying", he reasoned as you nodded.

You had to stay back because your grandparents didn't live in England, and because of their old age and problems that naturally arose with that, your parents had to fly out and spend sometime with them, meaning you didn't have anyone back home, so you stayed. As for Oscar, you found out that he was staying back because his family was in Melbourne.

"At first, I just had online schooling, but it got trickier to manage and my dad needed to go back to work so I had to stay back", he explained when you asked him why he was there, "and I hope I can focus on racing, but you already know that", he scoffed softly.

"I don't think I do, I'm sorry", you narrowed your eyes, genuinely unaware of what he was talking about.

After he told you all about his career until that moment, as well as his hopes and dreams, he chuckled, "you really didn't know?", he wondered.

"I didn't! The girls said something about you moving here but I didn't listen much, I'm not that into gossip and my memory is like Dory's, I can never keep up with the latest who likes who and who flirted with what's his face", you earnestly replied.

For the first time since he arrived at the school, he felt like he could really trust someone and he could hope for new friendships on this side of the world.

You were there for his final race in F4, clapping at him on the podium, and even F3 and F2 despite your university deadlines, always making sure you could support him in every way you could.

"Hey, Osc", you said over the phone, setting your pen down the desk and swivelling in the chair. You wanted to get as much knowledge and experience as possible, so you applied to do a internship in a physiotherapy clinic near your apartment during the summer.

"Hey, Y/N, how are you doing?", he asked as you could notice the antsyness on his voice.

"I'm good, it's a bit of a slow day here, my supervisor said I could read up on a few articles", you mused, "is everything okay?", you asked.

"I was wondering if you wanted to have dinner tonight", he began, "you can come to my flat if that's okay, I'll order something in since I can't be trusted in the kitchen", he suggested.

"Fine by me, I'd like that, sounds really nice", you smiled, "I'll see you soon, then", you added, not wanting to dwell much on the fact that he didn't answer your question.

When you left the clinic, you walked to Oscar's place since the sun had graced you for the day and it was still nice to be out. Knocking on the door, you waited for him to open it, "I'm still in my scrubs as I didn't see the need to change", you said as you walked inside, hugging Oscar after dropping your backpack on the floor.

"Hey, you look nice, don't worry about it", he smiled as he led you to the living room, "I had to go and get the take out myself, but it's still warm", he said as you sat at the dining table.

"Now can you tell me if there's something wrong?", you wondered as you poured some of the wine he kept for you at his place on your glass.

"I have something to tell you actually", he played with his glass while he fought the smile on his lips, "this weekend I finally had some conversations with McLaren", he began.

"McLaren?", you asked as you served yourself of the food in front of you, taking some bimi brocoli and then some of the warm noodles.

"Yes, McLaren. We finally spoke about contracts and, this morning, I signed the official driver contract for next season", he stated as if he was saying that the sun had been out today.

"You did what? Since when has this been in the works?", you gasped, dropping the kitchen utensils and looking at him intently, "you're driving for McLaren next season?", he nodded, "like, driving on track? Oh my Goodness, Oscar! That's amazing!", you got up and hugged him, "why didn't you lead with that?", you pinched the nape of his neck playfully as you kept the tears from falling from your eyes. This was his dream and he was getting to live it as early as the end of the year when pre season preparations began.

"I didn't want to tell you over the phone", he shrugged his shoulders.

"But how? This is huge, Oscar!", you smiled, your teeth showing and eyes squinting with how high your cheeks rose.

"There were a lot of conversations about it, specially the last few weeks", Oscar explained, "they still want to keep it quiet", he warned.

"So you're driving alongside Lando?", you wondered. You only followed motorsport and the Formula series because of your bestfriend, so the assumption you made was based on what you had seen and read.

"Yes, hence why they want to keep it quiet, I've only told you and my family", he mentioned, "my manager knows that, obviously, but I really need you to keep quiet about it", he smiled.

"Absolutely, don't worry!", you assured, "this is so amazing Oscar! You're going to drive in Formula One! Aren't you amazed?", you beamed.

"I put in the work too, you know?", he dramatically feigned offense as you hugged him tighter, "this is your dream, Osc", you cooed, letting the tears fall freely down your cheeks as you swayed you both around, "I'm so proud of you", you hiccuped, holding his head close to your lips so you could kiss his forehead.

"Let's eat, this is getting cold", your best friend urged as the situation for more intimate and brought you closer and closer to the thing he had been avoiding for nearly a year.

The feelings he had been arbouring for you weren't just friendship. How could he keep himself from being in love with you? You had been there with him and for him when he was alone in a new country, being the other shy kid that spent the long weekend im boarding school, and since then you had been attached by the hip. You were kind, caring, intelligent, beautiful inside and outside and anyone would be a fool to not see why Oscar felt the way he did about you.

.

"I'm just going to a training camp, Y/N, I do these every year!", Oscar reasoned as you groaned.

"Who am I going to complain to about university? Or how noisy my neighbours are? I'm going to die of boredom", you stated, "when you come back, I will have ceased to exist because of boredom and lack of attention", you exaggeratedly threw yourself on your sofa.

"You won't, silly", he chuckled, pulling you up since his trainer was picking him up soon, "you're going to go out and enjoy yourself, okay? You'll barely notice I'm gone", he tried as you helped him with his suitcases down to the door.

"I'll miss you", you muttered as you hugged him, "enjoy your training camp!", you smiled as you pulled away, waving at him before you made your way to your place.

Getting on with the project you had to hand in at the end of the week, you got it all through to the end, leaving time to proofread later.

You clicked on the folder where you kept your photos and videos, looking through them and reliving all of the memories you had in there.

Most of them had Oscar somehow, wether it was a screen grab from one of your FaceTime calls when he was at races, picnics in the park and lazy days at your place.

You had to admit it, for your sake and Oscar's sake as your friendship was on the line. At first you thought it was just the fact that a boy seemed to want to spend time with you, so you put it to that. Recently, however, things changed perspective and you felt stronger feelings and emotions when you thought about him.

You loved spending time with him and cherished every single hour he chose to spend with you whenever he didn't have racing related duties. Every time he hugged you, you clung just a little longer to feel hia body against yours and his arms enveloping you.

Whenever someone approached you in the rare times you went out clubbing with your friends, "I have a boyfriend" became more a wish and a need rather than some made up excuse to get guys to leave you alone.

So, to sum it up, you either had an honest conversation with him or continued to dwell on feelings you couldn't keep to yourself.

.

"Y/N just sent me a picture of her notes, can you believe they ask them to know all of that?", he showed his trainer Kim while they had lunch after a strenuous workout.

"I had to learn most of that, too", he said nonchalantly, not necessarily diminishing your competences and intelligence but letting Oscar know that maybe his infatuation with you had a source elsewhere.

"Y/N is very smart, I'm sure she'll do really well - oh, she sent me a picture, she's all dressed up!", he said as he inspected the mirror picture. He assumed it was a requirement for your presentation, as you usually preferred comfy attire, since you had a pair of trousers and a shirt, some small heels on your feet and your bright smile that left him feeling butterflies in his stomach every single time, "she looks gorgeous", he said as he texted you the same words along with wishes of good luck.

"Something you'd like to say?", Oscar quesioned when he felt Kim's eyes on him as he put the phone back on the table, screen down.

"I'm just here wondering why you're not together", the trainer offered simply after he wiped his mouth on the napkin.

"No, we are not together, at least not yet", he mused. The thought had crossed his mind, admitting how he felt about you before the season began. If everything went belly up and you didn't feel the same and didn't see him that way, he would occupy his time and channel all of his energy into racing; if you did feel the same, he would have been worrying for nothing and would have a extra spring up his step for his first season in Formula One.

"Good to know you're working on it", Kim waved his fork at Oscar, "now we need to finish this and we'll do some recovery stretches", he announced as Oscar groaned, prolonging his meal as long as he could.

.

Today, Oscar was coming back from Lanzarote and you couldn't wait to speak to him. Lately, it all dawned on you.

It happened a couple of nights ago, a slight insomnia episode keeping you up when you thought about what things would be like from now on. Oscar would travel a lot more, and he would be in a much public role compared to his previous one. It would seem stupid to other people, but a lot more people would know him, and you were sure they would fall in love with him. How could they not? Hence why you wanted to quit those thoughts while you were ahead of them.

I'm on the cab to your place, it should take another 10 minutes and Can't wait to see you, Oscar texted you just as you finished tidying your living room.

You missed him dearly, so when you threw yourself into his arms, you didn't let go as he kicked his suitcases into your apartment while still holding close to him, "I kind of need to get my backpack off my back, and I can't do that if I don't set you somewhere - only for a bit at the very least", Oscar suggested after trying to balance you against his body with one arm but he didn't feel safe enough to let you go without you falling.

Reluctantly, you got back down, feet back on the floor as he discarded his backpack before he tapped your hip twice, "up again, I want a proper hug", he mumbled as you jumped back, his hands protectively holding your thighs up as he nuzzled his face on your neck, "I need you so, so much", he sighed.

"I missed you too", you replied back, "and I don't ever want to miss you like this when I don't know how to feel about you", you forwarded. Now or never, you thought as you jumped out of his hold and faced him.

"I missed you like I have never missed you before, not even when you go a visit your family or when you went away for triple headers - and I've been trying to understand why and I finally realised what it was. I like you, more than friends like eachother - for Goodness' sake, I'm in love with you", you chuckled nervously as you admitted it out loud to him, "and everyone else will love you too - I just know it -, so soon enough you won't be my Osc anymore and I couldn't not tell you. People - and these gorgeous girls all over the world - are going to like you so much and I won't be able to compete with them, so I'm just telling you how I feel. You can leave if you want or we'll just stay here in silence of that works too, but I needed to admit my feelings", you let out in one go.

Oscar smiled, a big teeth and gums showing smile as his eyes crinkled at your words, "I'm not leaving, and we are not going to be silent - at least immediately - because I want to tell you how I feel", he began, "I'm in love with you too; I have been for about two years and only realised it a year ago, and I don't want to pretend anymore. I want to be able to kiss you, to hug you, to take you with me wherever possible, to sleep next to you, to argue with you, I want all of it. With you", he said, hand cupping your cheek as his eyes asked for consent to kiss your lips.

It was as you dreamed it would be, soft, gentle and caring, lips moving in sync as you held him by his waist, pulling him closer to you.

"I thought I was loosing you to the whole F1 fandom", you chuckled, looking up at him once you pulled away.

"Of course you won't, you're my best girl", he winked, "this is just the beggining for us", he added as he pulled you to cuddle on the sofa, sharing his stories of the past days as you revelled in the feeling of being in his arms.

[lowkeyrobin]

Jock!reader who's like really nice to everyone and has a crush on Ethan and tries to flirt with him while Ethan is tutoring him and FAILS MISERABLY and Ethan just thinks it the most adorable thing ever ahhhh plss🙏

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YES YES YES HELLO ♣️ ANON!!! welcome my third child 🙏🙏🙏🙏 literallt love u sm thank you for this pookie

ETHAN MORGAN ; flirty jock and flustered geek

summary ; jock!reader who has a crush on ethan and fails successfully to flirt with him

warnings ; language, cheesey stuff lol, reader is described as a basketball player but can totally be changed, this also isn't that great tbh

word count ; 1k

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You rest your letterman jacket on the back of the chair you sit on, being greeted by Ethan. He opens his binder to the homework in the Geometry packet, and you do the same, mentally preparing yourself. You notice his white binder is covered in stickers and some reference to vampires, witches, the supernatural, and beyond. Ethan was kind of your friend, you were more than acquaintances but you didn't talk outside of Geometry and English class.

You were one of the very few nice people on the basketball team, or maybe you were just a decent person and didn't judge people all too quickly. Otherwise, you didn't mind needing the tutoring from Ethan, you appreciated it really, if you failed another test you could be at risk for getting kicked off the team and you might lose the opportunity for a scholarship to college.

"Okay, so, what exactly do you need help with?" The brunette asks, looking up at you as he runs a hand through his hair, looking a little nervous.

"I just don't know how to like, figure out what shape they are like, how Mr. D wants us to, and like how to find the second base or the height" You explain, "Like, I know how I just can't remember the like, equations, I guess. And when I do, I get the math wrong"

He nods, "Okay, so, you know how to find the areas and perimeters well enough, though, right?"

You nod.

As he begins to explain how to solve your problems, you notice his orange t-shirt, accentuating the perfectly placed blush on his cheeks, faint but definitely pink. The way he spoke to dumb it down for you a bit but to not infantilize you made you smile a bit, seeing as he cared about your feelings. You notice him rub the nape of his neck, seemingly anxious or nervous around you, or maybe uncomfortable because he didn't know how to teach, like how Mr. D should be teaching you this and not poor Ethan, wasting his study hall for you.

You were already very, very aware of your crush on Ethan Morgan. He was your every thought, he was in your blood, in your ears, in your eyes, and in your tears. (weezer reference)

But, now was not the time to dilly dally about with high school crushes, these next 35 minutes could potentially determine your entire future. You needed this free ride to college, otherwise you'd turn into another old person working a job that pays minimum wage for maximum effort.

As time lugged on, you couldn't help but not focus on your homework and instead focus on Ethan and his gorgeous face. He looks back up at you after asking a question, seeing you were totally zoned out staring at him.

"Y/n?" He waves a hand in front of your eyes, trying to snap you back to reality. (eminem reference, wow I'm on a roll today)

You blink, "Oh, shit, sorry, uh, what'd you say, pretty boy?"

You couldn't even think about the words spilling out of your mouth until after they already fell. Those words hit Ethan like a falling anvil, his face turning bright red as he tries to shrug it off as you were just surprised and trying to be nice to him.

"Uh, this is the equation, uhm, try solving it"

You awkwardly nod, writing down the equation and putting in the numbers with the respective variables. You solve the equation, ending up with 24 for the height. He looks confused, having got a different answer. He scooches over to you, trying to figure out where you went wrong.

"Y'know, you're like a walking calculator. A cute one though" You shrug, he looks at you with a slightly confused and amused face, "I dunno what that even means, sorry"

He nods, "Oh, okay, you I think multiplied by two instead of dividing"

"Oh, whoops" You pick your pencil back up, fixing your mistake.

"There you go!" Ethan smiles, "It's just little mistakes, you'll build on it" He lightly pats your shoulder.

"Did you know Ancient Romans used to brush their teeth with their urine? And it actually worked?" You randomly ask him, fidgeting with your pencil.

Ethan blinks, slightly confused before he lightly laughs. "I hate you, focus on the Geometry, no stalling"

"Do you hate me or are we about to kiss right now?"

"Dude. Did you get that off Pinterest or something?"

"...Yeah"

He hides a laugh and bites his lip, "Okay so you-"

"Damn, are you Terms and Conditions? Cause I'd love to blindly agree to whatever you say"

Ethan quickly covers his mouth, "Shut up!"

You laugh a bit, "Sorry, sorry. I didn't sleep for shit last night and I'm getting frustrated cause I don't understand this"

"You'll learn!" Ethan smiles, shaking you lightly by the shoulders.

Some time later, the bell is about to ring, dismissing you to lunch.

"Thanks Eth" You lightly smile, "Oh, uh-" You reach into your backpack, pulling out some homemade cookies in a plastic Tupperware, handing them to him. "These are for you. I have to go to lunch in a second" You say, pulling your backpack over your shoulders, carrying your binder and pencil in hand.

"Oh- thank you!" He smiles, watching you stand up. The smile falters a bit due to awkwardness, "Uh- I have lunch next period too-"

"Bye Ethan, see you later! Love you, dude!"

Ethan is left confused and slightly shocked, cheeks a little red.

He knew you had a crush on him, he felt the same way, but he loved seeing you miserably fail to flirt with him. You were no romantic, if anything, a hopeless romantic in your thoughts.

He smiles, looking down at the red-lid Tupperware, seeing soft, chocolate chip cookies inside, his favorite.

"Thanks, Y/n," He whispers with a little smile, then gathers up his binder and books, shoving them in his backpack.

He notices a tingling feeling in his face, feeling a familiar warmth on his face as he thought about the nicknames and dumb pickup lines you'd spilled out of your lips that past half hour. God, would he love to kiss those lips of yours. He sighs, realizing he should definitely let you do that some more before he asks about it at all.

Thankfully, he'd been able to have slipped a note into your binder before you left.

"Hey Y/n! If you need any help tomorrow I'll be in the library. Bring your pickup lines with you, and I might help you not get kicked off the team. -Ethan"

[derangedanomaly]

I just remembered chaos has tentacles.

Does he use them often, I mean, I see he isn't seen with it, but I mean, does he like picking up close ones and people who're cool with it?

If so, can we have a little Chaos x Reader where they get picked up by his tentacles?

Ooh, interesting, very interesting 👀

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CHAOS PICKING THE READER UP WITH HIS TENTACLES

You stared at Chaos with intensity. Or more respectively, his back, where his tentacles sometimes grow. You still wondered about how exactly they work, they're not exactly like Nightmares tentacles, which he uses more than he probably should.

Nightmare uses his tentacles as a weapon, or to scare off people, but you don't see that with Chaos. You can't help but think about it more than you probably should...

"Huh? Something the matter, buttercup?" There he goes again, with his cheesy nicknames. Your cheeks gained a reddish color when he noticed you staring at him for a little longer than you intended to. "Oh, umm... it's nothing, Chaos." He hummed, probably not believing a single word you said, but he's way to nice to actually point it out- or so you thought.

"Are you sure...?" He smirked down at you, leaning down so he can see eye to eye with you.. your height difference definitely didn't help ease the situation.

"Well...*ahem*..I just thought...your tentacles." He gave you a confused look, not understanding what you're hinting at. "What about them?" Oh geez...this is gonna be embarrassing.. "I was just- wondering....how do you use your tentacles? I mean- I've never seen you using them against someone in any way, shape, or form.." he seemed rather surprised by your point, as he looked at you with wide eyes.

That quickly changed though, as he suddenly looked at you with an expression you never saw on him before.. he gave you this rather....dare you say flirty look. "...Can I ask what made you ask this... particular question?" "Wha-" "Is there a reason why you're thinking of my tentacles?" You gulped, now pretty sure your face was boiling hot.

"Well...If there is a more complex answer to this...then.." you didn't know how to feel when he suddenly whispered this in your ear. You felt like you could suffocate any time, but then, he said something appalling. "I can gladly tell you!" He switched just like that suddenly, leaving his flirty look, now looking at you with a wide, excited smile. Was he just... teasing you?! What a flirt!

"O-Ok..then- can you tell me?" He nodded enthusiastically. "Yeah! So...I never use them for any means, because I don't really want to depend on them, so I mostly keep them hidden. But I also don't want to hurt anyone.. they sometimes feel like a burden to be honest.." you frowned, and went to hold his hand for comfort. He perked up, and blushed light turquoise.

He smiled at you, tightening his hold on your hand a little. He suddenly smirked yet again. "But you know...there is one way, in which I can use them for..." You looked at him expectantly. "Does it require for me to do something?" "No, but you'll like it.." you flushed red yet again, trying to refrain from thinking of something not so PG...

You yelped when his tentacles suddenly slithered around your waist, holding you up. You looked down at him in surprise. "I can hold things that I like!" Ok, that's it. He seriously has to stop teasing you.

Maybe..he just doesn't even realize the effect he has on you. And you wouldn't even be surprised if it was like that, based on how much he's beaming with joy right now. He's gonna be the death of you one day.

[redhoodscorvid]

My current Neve/Rook/Lucanis pre-ot3 snippets:

The Midnight Society series summary Sidequest ending: Partners in a Dangerous Game Different first meeting Spite & Rook admire Neve (Lucanis pines) Lucanis and Neve worry about Rook

The Midnight Society series summary

It's true that most of the Lighthouse's residents have trouble sleeping. But in the midnight sun of their sanctuary's magical kitchens, it's three bodies in particular that seem to gravitate toward late night coffee as black as their souls.

Or, two Crows and a private detective.

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Lucanis started flirting with Neve because it was less intimidating than the alternative.

Their personas fit. The infamous Mage-killing assassin stalking the shadows for blood and the famous Mage-detective stalking the corrupt streets for clues were well-worn sets of clothing. The hint of danger was to be expected, for them, but it was also easy. When it came to Neve Gallus, he could be the person he was supposed to be, and she let him. Mostly.

Rook turned all of his expectations upside down. Entirely too optimistic for a Crow and not nearly bloodthirsty enough, Viago de Riva's favourite protege pushed Lucanis to his limits and demanded that he become something greater than the expectations that had been placed on him. Greater than the horrors that had been forced into him.

It would have been easy to avoid Rook and let the easy words and suggestive looks with Neve carry him through the rest of his contract. It was an annoyance that his traitorous heart had to beat in tune with both of theirs.

It was terrifying that neither mage had enough self-preservation to stay away from Spite.

---

Sidequest ending: Partners in a Dangerous Game

"I heard from Chance that you let a traitor go."

Rook paused in sharpening their knives at the table in the corner. "Is that what he called it?"

Lucanis nodded, but his words were casual. "In those words, yes, but I could tell he was laughing. He'll likely keep a closer eye on you from now on, though."

Rook grumbled something under their breath. Lucanis would pretend that he didn't hear the word "Illario" in the string of muttered invective.

They took up the knife again and set to very intently removing a minuscule nick from the blade. Lucanis approved, overall. There was no reason to carry substandard weapons: you never knew when you were going to need to rely on the perfection of a blade's edge. With slashing motions moreso than stabbing, really.

"SICKLY SWEET," Spite complained from where he sprawled on the floor next to Rook. The demon affected a relaxed pose just to irritate Lucanis further. "MAKE THEM STOP. BAKED APPLES AND SOFT CHEESE. RIPENED TOO LONG."

Lucanis wrinkled his nose.

"I got a letter from the pair, you know." Rook said this casually, as if they were barely paying attention to Lucanis. It was a good showing. "A Venatori and a Crow fell in love, abandoned the city for each other. Maybe Venatori recruits having a chance to pick another life isn't a bad thing."

Spite sprung to his feet and shrieked, an inarticulate wail of disgust and betrayal. Lucanis felt a pang in his own chest.

"How about the Crow recruits?" asked Lucanis, pretending not to notice.

Rook hummed and didn't answer, but he supposed that Rook themselves were an answer to that question.

Spite fell silent with a sharp intake of breath. He looked Rook up and down, and then snapped his eyes back to Lucanis, declaring: "ROOK SHOULD BE EMBARRASSED. NOT ENOUGH. VENATORI BLOOD SPILLED."

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Different first meeting

"I have to admit," Neve said, feet clicking on the marble floors, "So far, this place is surpassing my expectations."

Rook stepped carefully between a pair of shredded bodies, peering out into the next hallway. "It's true," they said. "Until the Ossuary, I'd never experienced such hospitality from Venatori."

"So nice when they lie down and die for you."

"When they get torn apart by their own demons," Rook agreed, eyeing a peculiar set of bloody gashes that appeared to have torn through two Venatori mages in tandem.

"Although some of these wounds are a little off for that," said Neve. "Some of these are stab wounds, with the bloody weapon left out in the open. Are the Venatori fighting each other, I wonder?"

"It wouldn't be the first time," said Rook, "But it could easily be something weirder."

By mutual agreement, Neve and Rook turned the first (bloody) office inside out in their search for clues. Neve quickly flipped through the notes on the desk. The other mage flipped through the journals on the shelf. Rook felt the air shift.

Rook moved instinctively. In one motion, they drew their mage-knife and called up power to block—

Their opponent anticipated them.

A deft pair of hands moved with Rook, using their momentum to swing them off balance. Rook's hip hit the side of a table, but they kept their feet with the enemy at their back.

The whisper of a blade touched their throat.

It felt so much like sparring with Teia that Rook froze. Their opponent closed the space, and Rook lost their chance to make a fade step backward to loosen the hold.

"It's possible I'm hallucinating," said a low, dangerous voice in their ear, as a hand slid into their hair. Rook calculated how quickly they could overload the space with electricity. Neve had turned around with her staff raised and Rook saw the same calculation in her eyes.

The hand tightened. The blade scraped the surface of Rook's neck in threat.

"…but why are a Crow and a Tevinter mage here to treat with the Venatori?"

Wait.

"Wait," said Rook, lifting their hands slowly to ward off Neve from doing something rash. "I'm here with a contract."

"Hm," said Dellamorte, "Not freelancing?"

"Catarina Dellamorte sent me," said Rook, feeling very foolish. They had taken out a despair demon one-on-one in a knife fight two days ago. If this was how they died, Viago was going to kill them. "To give you a contract."

Neve was lowering her staff, but Rook could tell it was to de-escalate, rather than because she believed there was no threat. Then again, the other Crow moved the knife scant inches away from Rook's throat, so they would take the win. Rook breathed in, dizzy with the ambient magic that was building between the three of them.

"To be honest, this was supposed to be a rescue," Neve said in her low, sardonic voice, not putting away her weapon. She kept her eyes, unblinking, on the man behind Rook.

The non-mage assassin of mages whose ambient magic was merrily crackling, barely held back from being unleashed.

Rook cleared their throat, bringing everyone's attention back to them. "So," they said, forcing the hoarseness from their voice, "Could we put the knives away for a moment before we talk about the demon?"

Since Rook hadn't been violently killed in a horrible misunderstanding yet, they twisted their neck a bit to look back at their captor and hypothetical rescuee. Brown eyes looked back at them incredulously. "And can you teach me that move?"

(This one posted to Ao3 as the Knife to Meet You ficlet.)

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Spite & Rook admire Neve (Lucanis pines)

Inebriation is something that Crows typically avoid. Wine flows freely, but Crows are expected to keep their heads in all situations.

Even so, Rook was hit by a nasty bit of magic during a trip to Minrathous. Holed up in Neve's tiny apartment as the owner is out searching for a rare tincture, Lucanis is treated to painkiller-induced rambling from Rook along with an angry tirade from Spite.

At the point that Rook starts talking about the casual confidence that Neve projects when she's "classily telling evildoers to go drown in the rotting harbour", Spite stops ranting and starts paying close attention.

Rook can't hear Spite, but the two of them ramble happily (with manic interjections from the demon) about Neve's admirable implacability until she returns with the tincture.

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Lucanis and Neve worry about Rook

Lucanis looked tiredly into the black depths of his coffee. Clicking footsteps approached the table.

"Something wrong with the roast?" Neve asked. "I know you're fussy about temperature, but I suspect being lukewarm doesn't help."

He took a quick breath and brought the coffee to his lips, taking a fortifying sip. It was a good thing she had come by. He might have slipped again.

"No," he said finally. "I'm just thinking about that last fight with the Aantam."

Neve sat delicately across from him. "The one where Rook ran into the middle of three axemen and told us to take out the snipers?"

Lucanis scowled. "They're careless."

"It could always be worse," said Neve, kicking back in the chair so that Lucanis could see her face more clearly behind the veil. "When I started working with them, they barely took the time to give those instructions."

"My grandmother always told me that an impatient Crow is a dead Crow."

"Now that we're well on our way to having our own little murder here at the Lighthouse," said Neve. "Maybe you can teach me to keep a better eye on our most illustrious leader."

The door swung open and two sets of eyes turned to a bedraggled Rook, carrying a sheath of loose parchment. "Lucanis, do you happen to—oh hey, Neve."

Lucanis looked back to Neve, who rolled her eyes. He sighed and drank the rest of his lukewarm coffee in one pull.

"I suppose if I make more coffee, the two of you will be wanting some?"

[ellies-little-thing]

"I'm sorry I didn't see you there. I was too busy mmmmm'blocking out the haters."

My masterlist <3

pairing: bullie!ellie williams x fem!reader

Warnings: Mean Ellie ,Modern Ellie; swearing; fluf; arguing; ;  smut; reader is referred as she/her; readers first time with a girl; reader has a vagina; drinking; harassment; Kind of proofread; English is not my first language. Where i live 18 is the legal age to strat drinking.

Author's notes: I love mean Ellie. I dont know if this is very good, i tried my very best and had fun with it. Enjoy my take on bullie!ellie! I hope you like it! Likes, reblogs, comments and feedback are always welcome! <3 (sorry, i have vines living in my head rent free)

NSFW MINORS AND MEN DNI

w/c: 25.2k

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High-school was never easy. The teachers yelling at you even if a pen fell, the stares of other students in the hallway, and then there's Ellie. It's your last year, you just turned 18 a few weeks ago. You were never very popular and people picked on you constantly so you tried to keep to yourself. But at least you had your friend Amy beside you.

Ellie was the school bully. No one dared to argue with her, they knew she'd make them regret it. This year it looked like you had become her target yet again. You knew each other since when you were kids and ever since she'd treat you like shit. And she didn't even feel bad for it. She was a bit of a playboy and liked flirting with other girls, but with you? She was just plain mean. She always had a smug expression on her face and always hung out with her group of equally stupid friends. She was constantly nagging you to make her papers and give her the right answers to every test. She wasn't the brightest to say it nicely. She'd always make fun of you in front of the whole school.

Ellie was mean, yes, but she was also very attractive. No wonder she had almost every girl at her mercy. Every week you could see her with a new one. Ellie was tall. She had beautiful shoulder length auburn hair almost always tied in a half bun. She was pale with freckles all over her face. She wasn't the most feminine of girls but her features were soft. Her eyes were a light green that shone in the light. Her smile was beautiful too, even though most of the times you saw it was when she made fun of you just for fun.

"You think you can just give me the wrong answers to the math test and get away with it?" Ellie snapped, as she shut your locker. Ah right, the math test. She looked at you, demanding for an answer. You were so tired of her that you decided to give her the wrong answers to teach her a lesson.

“I'm tired of you.” You say not looking at her, opening your locker again.

Ellie just stares at you in disbelief, her hands on her hips. "You hear me, dummy? I'm talking to you." She doesn't care that this whole hallway is now staring at you two. "Do you have an answer for me or are you just too dumb for it?'

“You're the dumb one for needing the answers to the test!” You respond in a dry tone but annoyed.

The crowd laughs and you feel yourself blushing. Ellie notices that, and chuckles as she steps closer to you. She puts her hand on your shoulder and stares at you with a mocking grin.

"You're not too bright, right? I mean, you're really asking for me to beat the shit out of you. Do I really need to explain everything to you, dumbo?"

“Leave me alone.”  You walk away. You’re tired of Ellie and her attitude towards you.

“You know you can't just walk away.” Ellie grabs your arm and forces you to stay. "I'm not done with you, dummy." She grins, noticing that her behavior scares you a bit but she doesn't seem to care.

“Fuck you Ellie.” You spat back.

"Aw, did I hurt your little feelings? That's cute." She looks at you, smiling. "What are you gonna do about this? Cry?"

“Why are you so annoying?” You say as you try to get her to let go of you.

"I could ask you the same question, dumbass?" Ellie rolls her eyes and then looks at you, grinning. She gives you a shove against the wall before walking away as the rest of the people laugh at you.

You walk away from there as fast as you can, without running. You hear laughter behind you, but you just continue walking and go to your classroom.  When you enter your classroom, you notice that Ellie has already taken one of the front seats and looks at the professor with an annoyed expression.

You take your seat, trying not to look at Ellie. You feel her staring at you but you ignore her. Time passes by and the class ends. You decide to stay in your classroom to finish some homework you didn't get to do over the weekend. It was a bad idea. As you sit at your desk, you feel someone tap your shoulder. It can only be Ellie.

“What now?” You ask annoyed.

You look behind you and see that, indeed, Ellie is standing behind you, smiling at you. "Thought you can hide from me?" She grabs a seat and places it next to yours and sits down.

“I'm starting to think you're obsessed with me.” You say, looking at your books.

Ellie smiles, noticing your cheeks are a bit red. "Maybe I am. Maybe I'm not." She looks at you and then looks away. From time to time, she glances at you and smiles. You just keep doing your homework as if she wasn't there. Ellie suddenly leans toward you, her face close to yours. She looks at you, grinning. "Can I ask you a question now?"

“No.” You say, still focused on your reading.

"Oh, please? It's just one question. It won't kill you." Ellie stares at you, waiting for your answer.

“I might kill you.” You say angry.

Ellie laughs. "Oh, I would really like to see you try.” She leans closer to you, her green eyes looking into yours. "Come on, it's just a question."

“Fine…”

"Did you like when I humiliated you in front of the whole hallway?" Ellie chuckles. She looks at you, waiting for your answer. You just ignore her, you're really not in the mood. Ellie just chuckles again and leans even closer to you. Your heart starts pounding in your chest, you get uncomfortable when Ellie stands that close to you.

"It's not nice to ignore people, you know?”

“It's not nice to hurt people, you know?” You say in the same tone as she spoke to you and look at her angrily.

Ellie doesn't seem to care. Instead she looks at you, noticing that your cheeks are pink. "It's just teasing, right? We should have some fun." Ellie then smiles at you.

“Go have fun with your friends.” You dismiss her.

"What? You don't want some alone time with me?" Ellie grins before whispering something in your ear. Something only you can hear.

“No, I don't.” You still don't look at her.

"Are you sure?" Ellie smiles as she strokes your hair. She looks at you before leaning closer. You feel her lips just inches away from yours. "I think I want to kiss you."

Your heart is pounding, you feel really uncomfortable with her so close to you. “Don't touch me!”

"Why not?" Ellie runs her fingers through your hair again, her lips still close to yours. "I think you like it."

“Go back to your girlfriends.” You just want her to leave you alone

"I don't have one right now. Besides, you're way hotter than any girl in this school could ever be." Ellie giggles. She looks at you, her gaze is intense now. Your cheeks are burning and she sees it.

“Stop it, get away!”

"You see? You're blushing. I told you you like it." Ellie touches your cheek and strokes it slowly, her fingers gentle. "I know you feel something for me."

“Yes, disgust.” You say in a serious tone.

"Then why are you blushing?" Ellie smiles and strokes your hair again, looking at you. "You want me to stop, but you're not going away. Why?"

You quickly pack up your things and get up.

"Aww, running away so soon? I thought I touched a sensitive spot in you, darling." Ellie laughs and watches you leave. "Maybe next time you'll do what I say."

You walk out of the classroom. Ellie smiles to herself as you leave. She notices that you didn't look back at her, but she feels accomplished. She finally got your attention.

You go to the bathroom and close yourself in one of the stalls. You lock the stall door and notice that you're shaking. Why are you like that? It's just Ellie, right? You try to calm yourself down but you get stuck in your mind, wondering why this encounter made you so nervous… “I hate her.” You think to yourself. You hate her, you want her to leave you alone, but there's some part of you that's enjoying this. You don't know why but it makes your chest burn. Is there something wrong with it? But then, this is Ellie, right? And she's mean to everyone, there's no way she could make you... feel that way. It's just a silly thought, you tell yourself.

You calm yourself and get out. You feel better now. Ellie probably won't bother you again after this, right? You walk out of the stall and wash your hands before going back to your classroom. You notice that the hallway is empty, everyone went home already. Only you and Ellie are still at school.

You decide to go home instead and walk towards the exit. As you head for the exit, you feel someone tap your shoulder. You turn around and see Ellie. She grins at you, her hands on her hips. "Leaving so soon? I thought we had some unfinished business." Ellie chuckles.

“I'm going home.” You say in a stern voice, not looking at her.

"Well, I'm going with you." Ellie stares at you, still grinning.

“No, thanks very much. I'd rather get hit by a truck.” You say dryly.

"What if I won't let you go without me?" Ellie leans on the wall, watching you. "I think you need some company on your way home."

“I don't.”

Ellie rolls her eyes, but still follows you. After around 15 minutes, you arrive at your house. You can already hear your parents fighting inside. Ellie chuckles, but doesn't speak. She just looks at you, waiting to see your next move.

“Can you go away now?” You ask calmly.

"What, scared of me coming inside?" Ellie grins, pushing you slightly but then letting you enter first. You open the door and enter the house. Your parents fight loudly, their voices hurting your ears. You look back at Ellie and notice that she's coming inside as well. You push her out and close the front door, then you go to your bedroom without your parents hearing or noticing you.

It was a Friday, at least you didn't have to see her again for two days. A few minutes later you get a text from your friend Amy. “Hey! I heard there's a party tonight at Jenny's place. You want to come?”

Jenny used to be your friend but then she started hanging out with Ellie and they dated for a while. You haven't spoken to her in ages but what harm could a party do? It would be nice to spend some time with your friend Amy and relax for a few hours. You decided to say yes to her invitation. You then picked an outfit for the party. You chose a black top and some high waisted jeans with your converse. Put on some makeup and went to meet up with Amy so you could walk to the party together.

“Hey Amy! You look really nice today.” You say as you meet her at the designated location you had agreed to. Amy wasn't very tall, she had beautiful long black hair and was rocking an amazing cat eyeliner with a little black dress. It really looked good on her. You both walk to the party as you catch up with each other in a bit of small talk.

“Hey, I heard what Ellie said to you today, are you feeling okay?” Amy asked you with concern on her face.

“Yeah, she's just a jerk. It's whatever.” You smile at her not wanting to talk about it, really. She holds your hand as you two enter the house. It was 9 pm and there were already a load of people there. You went to the kitchen to get a drink. You wanted to forget what happened today so you got something strong and downed it in one go, before pouring it again and poured something else for Amy as well and went back to give it to her. You danced for a bit with her and you two were having a good time, when you noticed someone in the corner of your eye. It was none other than Ellie, and she was staring at you from the other side of the room with a drink in her hand whilst having her other arm over a random girl. Amy’s boyfriend James arrived at the party and joined you. He was on the football team but he was a nice guy. You suddenly felt really nervous and excused yourself to go to the bathroom. Amy understood and continued dancing with her boyfriend.

As you were about to close the door to the bathroom you felt some resistance. You were stunned as Ellie entered and closed the door behind her. She was now looking you dead in the eyes. You feel her hands on your shoulders so you don't run away. She's not letting you go that easily. The sound of the music outside gets louder. You felt like a trapped animal with her looking at you up and down.

"Oh come on. You know you want me here. Let's have some fun." Ellie smiles at you, not backing down.

“Ellie, go away please.” You say with a trembling in your voice. You were scared of her.

"Oh, come on. We can have some fun. Don't worry about it, they'll never know. I'll be your little secret." Ellie grins as the voices outside get louder and louder.

“I don't want you here.” You looked at her and your hands were starting to shake.

Ellie pushes you gently against the wall and strokes your hair. "Hey now, don't be so dramatic dear. Just listen to your feelings. What do they tell you?" Ellie leans closer to you, giggling quietly. You try to get away from her. You push her away and try to go for the door. For a moment, you think you're gonna make it... until you feel her hand grab your arm. "Darling, I know you want this. You can't escape me." Ellie says, her voice soft and gentle.

Your heart is pounding in your chest. “You are being a stalker.” You say as she pulls you towards her.

"Oh, come on darling. I just have a crush on you, that's all." You listen as Ellie continues to speak. You can't believe this. You're afraid that Ellie might hurt you or something, but she just keeps talking to you... with such a gentle tone that you might think it's true. "I can't help that you're so attractive. I want to kiss you, hold you in my arms, I want to be with you forever."

“You're just making fun of me.” You can't look at her, so you look down at the floor.

"No, you silly. Can't you see that I really mean what I say? You're so cute, so hot…" Ellie chuckles but then her face turns serious. "Listen, I like you, I always did." Ellie smiles, stroking your hair again. She looks at you with a cocky expression as if you were just going to melt at her words. "Give me a chance, will you? I promise I'll make you happy."

“I don't like you.” You say with anger in your voice.

"Oh, but I like you, sweetie. I like you a lot." Ellie keeps stroking your hair and leans closer to your face. "C'mon, let me kiss you. I know I can make you feel better. Just let me make you happy..."

“No.” You try to make her let go of you.

"Please. One kiss..." Ellie leans closer, her breath warm on your face. It feels uncomfortable and you feel scared, but she's so close to you. So close that you could kiss her by accident. She smiles gently, her eyes fixed on your mouth. "Please,. Just one kiss and I'll never bother you again..." You turn your face away, as you can't do anything else since she has you pinned to the wall.

"Oh, stop it." Ellie grabs you by the chin and forces you to look at her. As you are face to face now, she puts her other hand on your shoulder. "Don't pull away, you'll enjoy it." Her voice is still soft and gentle, she's trying to convince you to kiss her.

You swat her hand away as soon as she touches you. Ellie lets go of your chin but she doesn't let you go. Her grin has now turned into a smirk. "Don't fight yourself like that, you little brat. You know you want to be kissed by me and I'm not going to take no for an answer." Ellie leans closer and grabs your chin again, this time with both hands. She smiles, her eyes burning with desire. She leans closer, her mouth just milliseconds away from yours. Your heart is pounding in your chest and you can feel yourself melting.

“I'm not a brat!” You push her away with all your strength but Ellie doesn't let you push her. "Oh, I see that I touched a sensitive spot in you, darling." Ellie moves closer, her hand on your cheek and her face almost touching yours. "It's alright. Everything is going to be alright. Just give me that kiss and you'll see." She smiles. "Please just give me a kiss."

“Stop please…” You were really starting to panic and you were about to start crying. Ellie doesn't stop, she just leans closer and closer to your lips. "C'mon, you will enjoy it I swear." She then grins at you. "You can't resist my charms, no one can." Ellie puts her arms around your waist and pulls you closer.

You can't move, as much as you want to. "That's a good girl, don't try to move. Trust me, you're going to love it." Ellie's smile is now so big that it looks like her lips are going to burst. Her face is now very close to yours. You can see all of Ellie's desire in her eyes, her lips barely a few centimeters from yours.

You can't look at her so you just close your eyes and turn your face away. Ellie smiles and pulls your chin towards her. "Don't be afraid. Don't turn your face away. I want to look at your lovely face while I kiss you." She says it gently, with a sweet tone of voice. "I just want to kiss you. One tiny little kiss." Ellie caresses your cheek and strokes your hair. "C'mon, look at me."

“I don't want you to touch me, leave me alone.” You say to her, almost like a plea.

Ellie seems upset but you can tell that she's not going to give up. She leans closer and strokes your hair again, a smile on her face. "Look at me, you look even more beautiful when you're blushing." She looks at your lips as her hand is still stroking your hair. "Just a tiny kiss. A kiss on the cheek, I promise I'll stop after that."

You look up at her, uncomfortable. Seeing that she succeeded at making you open your eyes, Ellie caresses your face, her hands now gentle and soft. You notice how close she is, her breath warming up your face as she smiles. You can smell the alcohol coming out of her. "See? That wasn't so hard." Ellie looks at your mouth. "Can't you just give me that kiss? One tiny little kiss?"

“Just so you can make fun of me in front of the whole school again?” You say in a louder, now angrier tone.

"Of course not. I really like you, I promise." Ellie stares at your lips. You don't know what she's going to say next. "I... really like the shape of your lips..." Ellie caresses your cheek and slowly leans closer.

“You are drunk, leave me alone.” Ellie kisses your lips gently. It feels warm and soft, and at the same time your whole body feels alive. Ellie smiles as she pulls away, caressing your cheek again. "Was it that hard?" Ellie's face is now less than an inch away from yours. "I know you want more." You are in a state of shock right now. She leans closer, her breath warm on your face. You can feel her lips touching yours again. Ellie caresses your hair and smiles at you. You can't speak or move, you're frozen from fear and panic.

"Do you like what I'm doing?" Ellie smiles again, her lips still touching yours. "I think I like you a lot. I like how your lips feel on mine, I like when you look at me with that blush on your cheeks, this is so hot." Ellie keeps kissing you for a while, her hands on your face, caressing your hair, then your lips. She pulls away after a few minutes, just to smile at you again, caressing your cheek. "See?"

“You got what you wanted, now leave me alone!” You push her away and bolt to the door unlocking it.

"Oh, I'll get what I want again, don't worry." Ellie grabs you again and stares at you, still close to your face. It's as if she could kiss you anytime she wanted to. "But... I wanna do more, come on don't be boring. Let me have some fun too. Ellie grabs your chin, just like she did before. She locks the door again. "Let me touch you..."

You move your face away, trying not to look at her. Ellie grabs your chin again, this time more strongly. "I asked you to let me touch you, it's not that hard. Besides... I know you want me to." Ellie grins at you and moves closer, putting her hands on your waist, sliding towards your stomach.

“No I don't! You're disgusting!” You try to push her way again. This time, Ellie doesn't let you go. She holds you with strength, so you can't push her away. "I can't let you go, you're mine now." Ellie's hands move from your waist to your legs and then to your thighs, still grinning. "You know you're already mine. Come on, don't be shy."

“Please stop…” You were about to cry and she could see the tears in your eyes forming.

"I am just touching you." Ellie caresses your thighs again, moving her hand slowly upwards. "What's wrong? Isn't your body mine?" Her smile is now bigger and her eyes are glowing. "Don't worry, I'm not going to go too far. I just need a little more." She licks her lips, her breath hot on your face. "I want you and you want me."

“I don't want you, you're delusional and just plain drunk.” You spat at her with rage.

Ellie smirks. "Do you think telling me that is going to stop me?" She caresses your thighs again, going higher and higher. Her hands moving slowly to your hips. "Don't be shy..." Ellie's gaze is fixed on your face. She stares at you with a big smile and sparkling eyes, as if she thought you were the most beautiful thing in the world.

“Consent isn't important to you?” You ask seriously. Ellie chuckles again. "Sweetie, I just take what I want." She moves her hand towards your stomach, gently touching your abbs. "You can't escape me, I'm too fast for you." She leans forward. "And you can't resist me either." Ellie's smile is so full of desire and passion, it's hard not to be attracted to her. She speaks slowly, almost seductively. "Don't you like what I'm doing, little one? Just be honest."

“You're just turning this into an assault, stop touching me!” You push her away succeeding this time and she falls down from the alcohol.

"No, baby, I'm not. I'm just playing with you." Ellie gets up and caresses your waist again, her hands gently moving downward. "I don't think you want me to stop."

You pushed her away again but she's stronger and bigger than you. Ellie still doesn't let you go. "Oh, you're so cute when you try to resist. Don't worry, I'll make you break." Ellie keeps caressing you and moving her hands slowly to your hips. "C'mon, don't make me force you."

“Stop!” You say desperately. Ellie leans closer and grabs your chin with both her hands. "No, I'm not going to stop. You're mine and you can't resist me. Stop resisting, it's useless." Ellie chuckles and continues caressing you. Her fingers now sliding along your hips. "I don't think you want to resist. I think that deep down, it feels good."

“I'll call Amy and her boyfriend will beat the shit out of you for this!” You threaten her.

Ellie just laughs, her fingers still sliding along your hips. "Oh, you think you can scare me? How cute." Ellie smiles. She's still so close to you, it's hard to focus on anything else. "Now let me show you how much I like you." Ellie leans closer to you and her lips are almost touching yours again. "Just one little kiss. I'll let you go, I promise. Don't be so sensitive."

You kick her in the groin hard. Ellie doesn't seem startled at all and still smiles at you as her face is now only a few centimeters away from yours. "I'm not going to stop even if you call your daddy, I promise." Ellie licks her lips. Her fingers are now sliding under your shirt. "So... you gonna call him or you'll just let me do my thing?"

You scream for help, hoping someone outside can hear you. Ellie smirks and gently holds your face so you don't move. "Awww, is the little girl in trouble? She can't even defend herself. Come on, let me give you just one little kiss." Ellie's voice is now full of seductiveness. You can feel her breath brushing against your face, it feels warm and her lips are so close to yours.

Someone knocks at the door after a few seconds. “Hey! Is everything alright in there?” As soon as she hears the door, Ellie immediately lets go of you. She smiles and turns her face away, pretending that nothing happened between the two of you. you bolt to the door and unlock it. It's Amy and her boyfriend. Then suddenly, Ellie's smile is gone. She turns back to you, her eyes hard and her face furious. There's a cold stare in her eyes.

"What's going on here?" Amy asks. Ellie stares at your friends, ready to defend herself and fight. No one really makes her angry since she's used to getting away with everything and bullying people.

“She's forcing herself on me, Take me away please.” Ellie rolls her eyes and looks at Amy, as if she didn't know what she was talking about. "What?! Are you crazy, I'm not forcing myself on her! I would never, she's lying!" Ellie has a smug expression on her face. In her eyes, you're the weird one in this situation and she's done nothing wrong.

“Amy? Please?” You go to her and hug her. Amy looks at you, surprised by your reaction and the way you're hugging her, shaking. But before she does anything, Ellie speaks again.

"Can I speak to you in private for a moment? Ellie smiles, trying to look innocent. "It's nothing serious, I just need to talk to you."

Amy holds you in her arms and starts walking out of there with you. Amy's boyfriend was super tall and strong, he was on the football team and he could easily beat Ellie up, he just gave her an angry look and she backed away immediately. Ellie looks at you silently, while you leave the party. She doesn't seem to want to give up without having her way.

As you walk out of the house and get into James's car so he'll take you home, you notice that she's still staring at you from the front door, with rage in her eyes.

As you arrive at your house, you thank Amy and James for bringing you home safe. You get out of the car and wave them goodbye. You enter your house and your parents are in bed already so you walk up the stairs trying not to make a sound. You go to your bedroom and lock the door. You sit on your bed, thinking about what just happened. You also think about Ellie and how you could make her pay for what she did to you.

You look at your phone and see a message from Ellie. You pick it up and read it.

"Hey, sweetie. You know what just happened... that was all your fault. You lied to your friends about me and now I'm mad. I'll see you at school on Monday, and I'll make sure you regret it."

“fuck you” Is all you respond to her. You get mad at her message but you also get a little scared. Ellie's message was fast and the "I'll make you regret it." At the end it is kinda threatening.

“I'd like to see you try!” You answered her message like that. Now you're challenging her, it's time to see who's going to win. But still, your head is full of questions. Is Ellie capable of hurting you? Or is that just a bluff? She'll come to school on Monday and only one thing is certain. You and Ellie will face each other again. You spend the weekend in bed, feeling sorry for yourself and thinking about what she'll do to you next time you see each other.

On Monday morning you wake up and prepare to go to school. You remember Ellie's message and wonder what's gonna happen. You wear a nice black shirt, a pair of jeans and some cool sneakers and put your hair in a braid. You want to look good at school today. You go downstairs and notice that your dad is already in the kitchen, cooking breakfast. "Morning, darling. You're looking good today."

“Thanks dad.” You give him a small smile.

"You're welcome, sweetheart." Your dad smiles at you again before continuing to prepare your breakfast. Then he hands you a plate with toast, some fruits and a couple of eggs. "Eat up, you have school and it's important at least to have some breakfast in the morning."

You eat the breakfast he made for you. Your parents might be having a difficult time with each other but they'd never neglect you. You finish your breakfast and then go to your room to get your backpack. As soon as you come back, you say goodbye to your dad. "Goodbye, dad." Your dad smiles at you again. "Goodbye, kiddo. Have a great day at school, stay focused on your studies. I'll go pick you up at 5, deal?" He kisses you on the forehead before you could answer.

“Deal.” You say before leaving through the front door. But before you leave the house, you see a message from Ellie on your phone. She sent you a text message exactly 1 minute ago.

"See you at school, slut." What a nice thing to say to someone before you go to school, right? You feel bad for a second, then you decide to ignore the message. You lock your front door, put your headphones on and then leave for school. You're almost excited to see Ellie after her text message, you really can't wait to see which one of you is gonna win. “Can't wait to punch her in front of everyone…” You think to yourself.

When you arrive at school you look around and notice your classmates and teachers going to their classes. You walk straight to your classroom and enter. Your classmates and the teacher are already there. Ellie is sitting in the back with some of her friends, looking at you with a smug smile.

You walk and go sit next to Amy. Ellie notices this and her face turns into a frown. She wanted to make this school year a living hell for you, but now you're sitting with your friend Amy and she can't do anything until the class ends. You and Amy are really focused on your work. Ellie also tries to pay attention to the teacher, but she always seems to stare at you every few seconds with a cruel look in her eyes. When classes are over, Amy asks you if you want to go have lunch with her.

“Yeah, sounds good, I don't want to be alone today. After what happened at the party, you know?” Amy locks her arm with yours and you walk to the cafeteria together to grab lunch. You decide to try to have a conversation with her since you haven't talked to her today. While you're talking with Amy, Ellie comes and sits at the table right next to you.

You and Amy stay where you are and continue your lunch, ignoring Ellie. You both talk normally while Ellie keeps looking at you with a smug smile as if waiting to see if Amy will leave you alone. You're almost done with lunch, and you haven't seen Ellie interact with anyone else. She's just been waiting and staring at you. You continue eating, ignoring Ellie who's still looking at you, with her smug smile. What a weird girl, doesn't she know "no" means "no"? Amy also keeps eating, and you both keep talking about the tests you might have after lunch or even other subjects.

“Amy, I have to tell you something.” You told her what happened the day of the party with Ellie. Amy listens to your story and gets a shocked expression on her face. You weren't able to talk to her during the weekend so you told her now.

"Ellie did that to you? But why? What's the reason?" Amy looks very concerned right now. She looks at Ellie who's still smiling at you like she wants your attention.

"Don't speak to her, ok? You said something that pissed her off, if I were you I'd avoid her for a day or two." Amy smiles at you and continues having lunch with you giving you a reassuring smile and a light hug.

You keep ignoring Ellie, who seems a bit mad at you because you won't speak to her. But Amy is right, it's better to avoid Ellie's company. For the rest of this school day, you ignore Ellie's presence. She's still looking at you with a smug smile, but you decide not to give her what she wants: your attention.

Your dad arrives at five, as promised. "Hey, kiddo!" He greets you and hugs you. As you walk to the car, you think about your school day.

“What a day, huh? It was good that Amy was there to join you for lunch.” Ellie didn't bother you too much in class, in fact, she didn't talk to anyone today.

"All good at school, kiddo?" Your dad asks you this question as you both enter your car. He seems calm, he's not aware of what happened on friday. 

“Ellie tried to speak to Amy, tried to take her away from me...” You say shyly and a bit embarrassed.

"Take her away? What do you mean, kiddo?" Your dad's confused. He looks at you and waits for your answer.

“She bullies me dad…” A silence is formed in the car after you said this. Your dad finally gets a serious expression on his face, as if realizing what you meant. "So she bullies you? She picks on you every single day?" He looks at you, waiting for your answer. He looks mad now, but not at you. You simply nod.

"I'm sorry, kiddo. It shouldn't be like this. School is for learning, it's not time for bullying." A long silence is created. "Do you have exams tomorrow?" Your dad looks at you with a calm expression, it seems like his anger towards Ellie is gone now.

You feel like he's going to ignore what you just told him… “yeah i do, i should study.” As you get home you start going up the stairs to your bedroom.

"You should start studying for your exams. I will come call you up later for dinner, alright?" Your dad's words seem to distract you from the subject. He just wants to move on and forget what you said. You say goodbye to your dad and go to your room. You get all your books and start studying at your desk. You get ready for your exams and hope you do well on them. You are focused on your studies until you look at the time. You see that it's seven o'clock, and you notice you have 10 messages from Ellie. Your heart is beating faster. Ellie sent you 10 messages after school. You click on her chat, and you see the first message and it reads: "Y/N, come outside now."

You open the chat to reveal all 10 messages.

Message #2: "WHY THE HELL ARE YOU IGNORING ME?"

Message #3: "Y/N, YOU SLUT, COME OUT RIGHT NOW."

Message #4: "WHAT KIND OF FRIEND are you, ignoring me."

Message #5: "I'M GOING TO BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF YOU IF YOU DARE IGNORE ME AGAIN."

Message #6: "Y/N, PLEASE ANSWER THIS MESSAGE. I NEED TO TALK TO YOU."

Message #7: "DO YOU THINK YOU CAN IGNORE ME AND GET AWAY WITH IT? COME OUT NOW."

Message #8: "I KNOW YOU'RE IGNORING MY MESSAGES. ARE YOU SCARED OF ME OR SOMETHING?"

Message #9: "Y/N, I HATE YOU. YOU'RE THE WORST PERSON I'VE EVER MET. I HOPE YOU DIE."

Message #10: "Y/N, PLEASE ANSWER. THIS IS URGENT. I MUST TALK TO YOU."

“Just leave me alone!” You respond, it looks like she was outside your house earlier.

Your father walks to your room and knocks on your door. "Kiddo, open the door. We need to talk." Your dad walks inside your room, and he looks concerned. He closes the door and stays close to you, as if trying to comfort you. "Tell me again what Ellie did to you." His eyes seem sad, and he's not happy that you kept this a secret for so long. 

“She is mean to me every day…”

Your dad looks concerned, he doesn't know if you mean that Ellie tried to hurt you or do anything else. "You need to explain to me what happened, honey."

“She kissed me and tried to do other stuff…. But Amy came and she let me go.”

Your father's expression goes from concern to pure shock. He can't believe what you're saying right now. It takes him a moment to collect his thoughts and realize what you meant. "Ellie kissed you and tried to... do other stuff with you?" Your father's tone is calm but his expression says everything. He can't believe what's happening right now. "Are you sure about this?" You nod looking at the floor. "You're not... lying to me, right?" Your father seems even more concerned than before. He gets even closer to you, as if trying to protect you from something. He looks at you with a shocked expression. "Why'd she do that to you, hon? Did she say why she... try to do those things to you?" You show your dad the text messages you received from Ellie. His gaze goes to your phone, and he takes a minute to read everything Ellie sent you. Your dad looks at you, then at your phone, and then shakes his head. He can't believe this is happening. "Is this true? Did Ellie really try to do all those things to you?" Your father looks more worried than anything now.

“She did.” You say quietly.

"Why would Ellie try to do that to you? Did she say anything?" Your father looks confused and concerned. He never thought Ellie would do anything like this, she seemed like such a nice girl when he met her. He's surprised at what Ellie did to you. He doesn't want to believe it. "You did the right thing by telling me this, hun. Thank you. We'll find out about what's really happening."

“Thanks dad.” You say a bit relieved.

"No problem, kiddo." Your dad smiles at you and hugs you. "Don't you worry. We'll fix this. You don't have to worry about Ellie ever again, she's not gonna affect your life in any way." He looks at you with a soft smile. He sits beside you in your bed and puts your head on his shoulder, like he used to when you were a little kid. Your dad stays in your room with you for a while, until you tell him that you're gonna continue studying. "Alright, kiddo. Just make sure to call me if you need anything, ok?" Your dad smiles at you again, then he leaves you alone to study. You open your books again and continue studying. 

Time moves fast, when you notice  it's 10 pm already. You decide to take a break. You're tired and it's getting late, the exam is in a few hours, so you need to rest. You lie in your bed and try to sleep. But your thoughts don't let you rest. You're thinking about what happened earlier, and what Ellie will do. After a while, you notice your phone has a few messages from Ellie. You open your phone and read the messages from her.

The first one reads: "Y/N, I'M VERY SORRY FOR WHAT I DID. PLEASE, FORGIVE ME."

A second message arrives right after: "PLEASE, CAN WE TALK MORE LATER? IT'S VERY important."

“I'll not forgive you, you piece of shit!” You respond very angry at her.

You can't believe this! Ellie is messaging you, saying she's sorry for what she did? But she denied everything and even insulted you over messages! You don't wanna believe a word she's saying. But at the same time you feel confused. Ellie is acting in the most weird way possible. Why would she kiss you and then pretend it didn't happen at first, and then apologize for it just a few hours later? It doesn't make any sense. You decide to ignore Ellie's messages and try to sleep. You don't care about her and everything she did. You're too tired and don't want to think about it. You close your eyes and try to relax, but you can't sleep just yet. Ellie is invading your thoughts, even though you want to forget everything. You try to sleep, but it takes a while. The thoughts about your interaction with Ellie don't leave your mind. After an hour of trying to relax, you finally fall asleep.

Your rest is interrupted by your alarm that starts ringing 10 minutes before your exam begins. You wake up and sit in your bed. You're still tired, your exam day just started and you need to be focused. You get up from your bed and go to your bathroom. You take a quick shower, get dressed, and pick up your bag. You go downstairs to where your dad is and say good morning to him. "Morning, dad."

"Morning, kiddo. You look ready for school."

“See you after class dad.”

"Okay then, kiddo. I'll see you later, love you." You kiss your dad and leave your house. You make your way towards school, feeling a bit anxious about your exam and how you will face Ellie today.

You see the school in front of you, it's the big moment. You enter the building. You start walking towards the room where you and your classmates will have the exam. It's all quiet in the school corridors. People seem to be in a hurry, trying to get to their classrooms. As you walk towards your classroom, you feel your heart beating faster and faster. You don't know what to expect, but you feel a little anxious. After a few minutes of walking, you arrive. The door is ajar, you can hear the voices of your classmates inside.

You push the door and enter the classroom. You see the teacher in the front of the room, who is taking the exam papers and handing each one to every student. Ellie is not in her seat yet. She is standing with her friends, talking to them. You find your seat and sit on it. You're ready to take this exam, you will do your best. You decide to focus on your exam and ignore your classmates. You put yourself to it and start reading every question carefully. You think about every answer and write it on the paper. After an hour, you've finished the exam. You look at your paper and see all the answers you wrote down. You put your pen on the desk and wait for the teacher to collect the exams.

You get up from your seat and walk to the teacher's desk. They take your exam and say "thank you." You turn around and see Ellie getting up as well and delivering her own, approaching you. She looks mad. Her eyes are full of rage. She's not gonna wait for you to say anything.

Ellie looks at you, and for a moment, it seems like she's going to yell some offensive words towards you.  As you walk, you realize that Ellie is following you. She wants to talk about yesterday. She walks up to you and stops you from going to your locker. She speaks with a very serious tone: "I need to talk to you."

“What the fuck do you want?” You spat out with anger in your voice.

Ellie is very upset and you can see it in her expression. She doesn't want to stay quiet anymore. "I want to talk to you and I want you to listen to me, Y/N." She takes your hands to stop you from moving. "Don't try to ignore me this time. We haven't finished." She looks at your eyes, she's not angry, but annoyed that you're trying to run away. "Please, Y/N. Let's talk." You take your hands away from her and cross your arms. “Talk then!”

She looked at you, and then spoke. "Y/N, I messed up. I'm so sorry for everything I did to you." Ellie's tone changes, now she doesn't seem so mad. But her tone is different... sad, even. "I don't want you to hate me for this. I don't know what I was thinking when I kissed you." Ellie's voice changes again, as if she's trying to convince herself that what she did was wrong. "Don't stay mad at me. I'm sorry."

You close your locker and walk away from her. "Y/N, please." Ellie takes your arm and tries to get you to stop. "Can we talk about everything that happened? I messed up, I admit it... I'm really sorry." Ellie's voice is soft, she seems genuinely worried that you won't forgive her. She doesn't even sound angry anymore, you'd even say that there's some fear in her voice. "Can we at least talk about it? Please."

“You treat me badly in school everyday for years and then you try to make me do things I don't want to do with you!” You're filled with rage.

Ellie looks at you, trying to understand what you're saying. She's not mad anymore, she looks worried and even a bit scared. "Y/N, I know I made the worst mistake... but that doesn't mean that I have always been a bad person." Ellie's voice changes to a softer tone again. "We can talk about everything that happened yesterday. Please let me explain my actions. I was wrong, but don't judge me based on a single day only, please?"

“Explain then.” You look at her expecting her to start talking.

"Ok, I'll explain..." Ellie stays quiet for a few seconds, trying to find the right words to say at the moment. "Ok... Y/N, the truth is that I've been having feelings for you for a while now... I tried to hide it, but I can't deny it anymore. I was confused about my feelings at first, but on friday when I kissed you, I realized I had real feelings for you." Ellie looks at you with a worried expression. She's looking for your reaction.

You look at her confused.

"That's it." Ellie's expression changes again, she starts looking sad and even a bit upset. "I'm so sorry for treating you badly, you never deserved it. I just had so much confusion in my life, I was trying to deny my feelings for you." Ellie pauses for a moment, but she knows she needs to keep going. "I don't want you to hate me. I don't know what to do but I just wanted to say that I've been feeling this way since our middle school days."

“Why were you so mean for so many years? I don't understand.” You ask her with a sad tone.

"I don't want to sound like I'm making excuses, but I never meant to hurt you. I was just trying to mask my feelings for you with offensive comments and rude words." Ellie's expression changes, it seems like she just realized something and now she understands her own behavior. "Everything I said to you is just things that I said to myself, when I was struggling to accept my own feelings. You were just a victim... I'm sorry, Y/N. I was wrong."

“I need time to process this.” You say with tears in your eyes.

"Ok, Y/N. I understand you need time to process everything I've just told you. You don't have to answer right now, you can take your time." Ellie's expression changes again, she looks a bit hopeful that you might forgive her one day. "I know I made a lot of mistakes in my life, but I don't want my feelings for you to be one of them. I was young and stupid, and I know it's late to speak about it now, I'm so sorry..."

“Bye Ellie.” You then start to walk home alone. Ellie looks at you as you walk away. "Bye, Y/N! I hope we can talk again soon." Ellie smiles at you with a soft expression, just trying to let you go and have some alone time. She thinks about what just happened and tries to process everything.

You get home after school and go straight to your bed. You lay on it and think about what happened today. Ellie's behavior was very strange and inconsistent with everything she told you during middle school. Why would she kiss you and tell you all these things? You can't deny that part of you feels angry at Ellie, even if you want to forgive her. You pick up your phone and check your messages, your social media, and your games. You stay on your phone for a while, trying to distract yourself, but you can't really stop thinking about what Ellie said today. Is Ellie's revelation about having feelings for you for all those years true? Even if you want to believe her, you can't deny that something doesn't add up. Ellie treated you badly for so many years and suddenly she confesses all her feelings for you? You think that something isn't quite right...

You decide to open Ellie's texts and read them again, maybe you missed some important detail. You read the texts, she says she was attracted to you since middle school. She was confused about her feelings and tried to deny them with offensive comments. Maybe this is true, maybe Ellie always had feelings for you. Maybe Ellie always wanted to talk to you about this, but she never had the courage. But everything Ellie said to you, is it true? 

You text Ellie a simple "Hey" just to see what answer she would give you. Ellie texts you back after a few minutes.

"Hey..."

“So, about today…”

As soon as she sees the message, Ellie replies back. "Yes... About what I said today... I really meant it." Ellie's tone sounds a bit anxious, but you can still feel her concern in the message. "I hope you're not mad at me for being honest with you." It seems like Ellie wants to talk to you, but she's afraid that you won't forgive her.

“I'm not mad for your honesty, I'm just sad you treated me so badly all these years.” You start feeling tears forming in your eyes.

Ellie takes a minute, she wants to reply in a proper way. "I know I messed up. I shouldn't have treated you badly for all these years. I didn't know how to deal with my feelings for you, and so I ended up acting with anger towards you. I want to ask you to forgive me for being so rude, I was just so confused. Please don't be sad because of me."

After a while you ask her, “How long have you felt like this?”

Ellie doesn't take long to reply. "Y/N... I think I've always been confused with my feelings for you. Since that day in middle school, I would think of you from time to time… I've tried to mask my feelings for you with rude comments and bad words. But those feelings never left my heart. I had no idea how to express them, though... So I just hid them." Ellie seems sincere when talking. No anger, just a bit of sadness.

“I don't know what to say.” You respond looking at Ellie's words on the screen.

"I know I messed up in the past, but please hear me... I do feel things for you." Ellie pauses for a second to catch her breath before she continues typing. "Please let me make things right between us. You don't have to forgive me yet, but please... don't give up on me." Ellie's tone is a bit desperate. She really wants you to listen to her and give her another chance.

After thinking about it seriously for almost an hour, you respond. “I'll give you one chance.”

"Thank you, Y/N... Thank you." Ellie is almost on the verge of tears. "I want to become a better person for you. You deserve happiness." Ellie smiles, hoping you can see her change. She's not mad or upset anymore. "Let me show you how I changed. I promise you, you won't regret giving me this chance."

“Ok, goodnight, see you tomorrow at school.” You reply and then put your phone down.

"Goodnight. I hope I see you at school tomorrow." Ellie is a bit happy now, she's glad you're giving her a chance to prove that she changed. She doesn't want to mess up anymore, she likes her new attitude. At the party she realized what she really felt for you, maybe it was the alcohol or maybe not.

You go to sleep and wake up the next morning. You go to school as usual, you even see Ellie right outside the door, waiting for you. She smiles at you with a soft expression. She seems more confident and she looks so different from yesterday.

"Hi, Y/N." Ellie looks great today. She's happy and confident, she even has her hair nicely tied. "I'm here to show you that I've changed. I want you to know that I mean what I said." Ellie stays close to you, just like yesterday when she talked to you.

You both walk to class and people are starting to stare at you. You're feeling really nervous. This doesn't feel right. You go about your day and Ellie is not being mean to you, not one snarky comment has come out of her mouth yet. Later the bell rings and you go to the cafeteria and have lunch together. It's a bit awkward, none of you really know what to say. When you finish eating you go outside to the school yard and sit in the shade of a tree together. Ellies heart feels like it's about to jump out of her chest but she musters the courage to speak. "Do you want me to talk about everything I said yesterday and how I treated you in the past?"

“Hum… okay…” You say, felling nervous.

"So..." Ellie takes a long breath, getting ready to speak. "Yesterday I was able to express all the feelings I had for you that I always tried to hide. I had always been confused and now I know exactly how I feel about you." She's not angry, she just talks in a neutral tone, as if this was just a normal conversation. "I've always been attracted to girls and you're one of the most beautiful girls I've ever met. I couldn't resist you... I couldn't keep denying it.”

You blushed when she started talking. “You think I'm beautiful?” You never considered yourself very attractive, just average.

"I've always thought that you were beautiful." Ellie takes another deep breath. You can see her face, she's not angry, she looks sad... and even nervous. "I had to tell you yesterday because I needed you to know the truth. I'm so sorry for how I treated you, I regret it a lot." Ellie looks away, not looking at your face anymore. "I don't want you to think that I just want you physically..."

You think about it for a few seconds before speaking. “I understand, I just need a bit of time to adjust. It's a lot of information all at once…” You really don't know how to feel.

"Take your time. We can take things slowly and you don't have to do anything you're not comfortable with." Ellie looks at you with a nervous expression as she smiles at you. "You're right, maybe we both need some time to adjust. I also need some time to show you that I mean everything I just said."

You smile at her shyly, Still very nervous. Ellie smiles back at you. "How about we walk to class together?” Ellie wants to be your friend more than anything. She's not angry or upset anymore, she just wants to show you that she's changed.

“Ok…” You say nervously as you get up from the grass and start walking.

"Oh, and Y/N, I want to thank you for giving me another chance. I know that I messed up but I don't want to mess up anymore, I want to be a better person for you." Ellie walks by your side as you get to class and you can see that she's not trying to be rude to you at all. She's treating you like any other friend. "It feels so nice to be able to talk to you. Thank you for listening to my feelings..."

“The whole school is staring at us…” You say quietly trying not to look at anyone in the eyes. You both get to class and notice that people are staring at you constantly. Ellie gets a bit embarrassed. She didn't expect things to be like this. But she tries to hold herself together.

"I hope you know that I don't want to bring you any kind of harassment or embarrassment." People are staring at you but they also stare everytime they see Ellie approaching you. Ellie looks at you with a soft expression, trying to make you understand that it's all gonna be fine.

“It's okay, let's just go to class.” You say as you start walking a little faster.

Ellie nods. "Yeah, let's ignore the crowd." Ellie sits next to you and starts working on your assignment. She doesn't give any attention to the people at school, it's as if they weren't looking at you both. Ellie seems more calm than ever.

After class, Ellie stays by your side as you walk home. "Well, I guess people know we're friends now. I never thought people would look at us like this..." Ellie laughs a bit about the situation, she also seems uncomfortable about this. "Are you ok with this? With everyone knowing about us?"

“They would find out eventually, I guess…” You say nervously. People always looked at Ellie during recess, she was popular and everyone was a bit afraid of her. It really was odd, her change in attitude in such a short amount of time.

"Yeah... I guess you're right about that, people would eventually figure it out." Ellie still looks a bit embarrassed about it. You both arrive at your house, Ellie stays by your side before you enter the building.

"Can I come in? I need to talk to you about something, it's important." Ellie looks at you with a serious expression on her face, she seems serious about what she wants to say to you.

“Oh... okay sure…” You feel anxious but you let her in.

"Thank you. I know this must be uncomfortable but I promise to respect your space." Ellie sits down on one of the chairs in your living room, thinking about what to say to you. She stays silent for a moment, trying to find the perfect words to say.

"Yesterday I said a lot of things to you, and you've been so understanding towards me. But there's something I didn't mention..." Ellie takes a deep breath.

"There's something I didn't mention because I've been scared. But maybe I need to speak my mind so that you know everything." Ellie pauses for a moment, trying to find the courage to tell you what she's been holding inside for years.

"That day in middle school, when I kissed you…? It wasn't the first time I wanted to do that." Ellie looks away, feeling embarrassed. "I've always been attracted to you. I only decided to kiss you that time because I couldn't hold back anymore."

You are a bit surprised to hear her say that. You always thought it was a bet she made with her friends to make fun of you. “You know… i've always been fond of you since we were kids, but then you started treating me differently… You started to be mean to me, make fun of me. I never really understood why…” You were starting to feel sad.

Ellie is a bit surprised by your words, she wasn't expecting you to say that. “You're right, I treated you badly and I'm really sorry about that..." Ellie takes a moment to think. "I was confused and so I acted with anger towards you." Ellie speaks in a calm tone, she doesn't want to sound aggressive towards you, she wants to have an honest conversation.

“I get it, but it still hurts a lot…” You say as you look at the floor trying not to cry.

"I know... I regret it a lot... It hurts me too to know I hurt you so much." Ellie sighs and looks at you with a calm expression. "I wish I could take back everything I did to you, I regret it a lot and it still breaks my heart that I hurt you like that. But I guess I just had to tell you everything so you could know how I really feel." Ellie is trying to show you her genuine feelings and apologize for everything.

You had tears forming in your eyes as she spoke. "I don't want you to cry..." Ellie looks at you and smiles to try to make you feel better. "Please, don't cry. I feel so sorry for everything, I wish I could take it back. But you're right, all I can do is apologize." Ellie looks away, feeling even more sad, but you can see her trying to make you feel better. "It looks like I hurt you more than I imagined..."

You took a deep breath before speaking, as you felt the tears falling down your face. “I know sometimes you were just trying to mess with me and not every interaction was led by anger, but as the time passed it just got worse...” You started to remember everything.

"Yes... I started acting worse as the time passed." Ellie pauses for a second, remembering her past actions… “I'm truly sorry for my behavior. I realize now how rude I was. It's not gonna happen anymore." Ellie is now very serious about changing, she doesn't want to hurt you ever again with her words or actions... She just wants a chance to show you her friendship.

“Promise?” You look at her still crying.

Ellie smiles at you, "I promise... I'll be better in the future, no matter what. I will keep my words and show you that I changed." Ellie is more confident now, you can see her smile and her attitude. "We were kids back then, I shouldn't have acted like that. I'm now older and I realize that I don't want to behave like that with you anymore." Ellie looks at you with a serious look on her face now.

"Remember how I said that I felt attracted to you?"

“Yeah?”

"Well, Y/N... it still happens." Ellie takes a long breath and looks away, embarrassed to talk about it. "I just wanted you to know... but I never want to make you feel uncomfortable." Ellie pauses for a moment, just looking ahead. 

“I never had romantic feelings towards anyone before, and you kinda stole my first kiss…” You remember this with a sad feeling in your heart.

"Oh.. my god, you had your first kiss with me?" Ellie looks at you with a surprised expression. “I'm sorry that I stole your first kiss so soon, I didn't realize it would affect you like this. If I knew I would have never done it." Ellie pauses for a moment, feeling a bit nervous. "But Y/N, please know that I would never, ever force you to do anything with me. You're a lot more meaningful to me than just your first kiss."

“Thank you for saying that…” You say sniffling a bit.

Ellie smiles and gets closer to you. "You've been the sweetest person I've ever met. I've never felt so good around someone like I feel around you... I always had a great time with you, even if you hated me for everything I did." Ellie looks away, she's a bit nervous to talk.

A few weeks later, you two are starting to get along better. It's still hard for you but you try to stay positive and hope that Ellie wont go back to how she was before.  One day you were both hanging out in the park. The day was beautiful. You weren't feeling so anxious around her anymore. She was being nicer, walked you home most days and was genuinely trying to change for you.

As you were sitting together on a bench studying a bit, she started looking at you with a nervous look on her face. She wanted to say something but she didn't know where to start. You noticed and put your books to the side.

“Are you okay?” Ellie blushes a bit when she hears your voice.

“Yeah, I'm okay… I just think I need to tell you something.” She said, fidgeting with her hands.

“What is it?” You ask a bit curious, but nervous too. Ellie’s heart was starting to beat faster and faster.

“I… I think i…” She took a deep breath. “I think I love you….” She said looking at her lap, she was too afraid to look you in the eyes. You were a bit surprised when she said it so bluntly. You started to blush a bit.

“You… love me?” You asked a bit confused.

"I do... I love you, Y/N..." Ellie gets closer to you. "I don't want you to have any doubts about me... I love you, I've always loved you, ever since that kiss. Y/N, you're perfect to me." Ellie was nervous to say these things but she's also very certain about them. 

You start to feel tears forming in your eyes and fall as you give her a small smile. Ellie smiles back as she watches your tears fall.

"Thank you for being so kind to me, and patient these few weeks. I hope you know that I mean everything I'm saying." Ellie takes a deep breath and looks at you with a warm expression. "You didn't deserve all of the things I did. But now, I hope I can make things right and show you how much I love you. I want you to remember me not just as a bully but as someone who cares about you."

You cry as you hear her words, and look down at your hands. Ellie comes closer and hugs you. "I love you... don't cry, please. I care about you so much…” Ellie kisses your cheek and wipes your tears as you cry. "Y/N.. the girl I loved at middle school is the girl I've loved the most ever since... I don't want anyone else but you..." Ellie stares at you and smiles once again. You hug her. You can't really believe this moment is real. Ellie hugs you back, not wanting to let you go. "I... I'm so glad that we're okay now. I feel so good beside you... Thank you for always being so kind to me." Ellie seems very comfortable now, she's not trying to hold back her feelings anymore. "I love you so much. I'm glad I could apologize to you and make things right." 

 After a few minutes of hugging each other you let go. She walks you home as it's getting a bit late. As the sun sets you arrive at your house.

“I'll see you tomorrow at school, yeah?” You say, smiling at her.

Ellie nods as she smiles at you. "Yeah, I'll see you tomorrow at school. Oh, and Y/N, can I send you a text later?" Ellie is trying to remain calm, but she's very excited to speak to you some more.

“Okay.” You smile at her.

"Thanks..." Ellie gives you one last hug before leaving your house. "See you at school tomorrow, bye!" Ellie walks away, looking forward to seeing you.

“See you tomorrow.” You wave her goodbye. Ellie waves at you before leaving. She walks back home, feeling more relaxed now that you could speak things through.

Ellie sends you a text message later that night. "I'm so happy that I was able to show you my feelings towards you today. Let's see how tomorrow goes. Sleep tight!" You smile at the text and try to rest. During the night, Ellie texts you again, asking something.

"I hope you don't find this weird but I think I should ask... Can we try to hold hands tomorrow? Just to show everyone how much I want to be with you..." Ellie waits for your reply with her smartphone still awake.

You hear your phone buzz and read the message she just sent you. Ellie awaits your answer. She starts to feel a bit nervous as she waits for your reply. "Please say yes, please say yes..." Was all she could hear in her head as she waited for you. Ellie is too excited to even sleep right now, she just wants to hold your hand and show you how much she loves you.

After a bit of pondering you text her back. “ok… we can try.” You started to feel butterflies thinking about it. 

"Oh, Y/N... Thank you so much. I can't wait to see you tomorrow." Ellie is very happy now that you've said yes. Ellie texts you again almost immediately. "I love you so much, Y/N. I'm so glad that we're getting along now. Thank you so much for giving me this chance..."

“Goodnight Ellie.” You smiled at the screen.

"Goodnight. See you soon..." Ellie sighs and turns off the phone, closing her eyes and falling asleep. She can't wait to see you.

The next morning you wake up nervous but a bit excited at the same time. You look at your wardrobe and don't know what to wear.

Ellie also wakes up early in the morning, feeling excited and a bit nervous. She takes a deep breath and tries to relax. "This is gonna be the day. I'm doing this... I'm gonna hold her hand in front of everyone." After taking another breath, Ellie gets up and looks in her wardrobe, but she also doesn't know what to choose. She wants to impress you with her outfit, but also wants to feel comfortable and confident in it. After some thinking, she finally chooses a nice outfit and puts it on before getting out of her room. Ellie is all dressed up and ready for the school day.

You decided to put on your favorite dress and put a matching bow in your hair. It was a pink floral dress with a ruffled skirt. You put on a cardigan and put on some simple white ballet flats.

As you arrive at school you can see Ellie smile as she sees you in your favorite dress. She doesn't know exactly why, but she thinks you look extremely cute. Ellie is wearing a nice sweater and some jeans, she wanted to look nice but not too formal.

"Hey, can I tell you something?" Ellie is speaking without any fear, she's sure this is gonna be a great day. "I think you look very cute, Y/N... I love your bow, it looks beautiful. I couldn't ask for a better person to spend my day with."

“Thank you.” You smile at the ground shyly.

Ellie sees you smiling and feels happy herself. You two slowly walk to the school building, Ellie keeps smiling as she looks at you. She can't wait to spend this day with you at last.

Ellie looks at you again, she's still smiling. "Hey, Y/N, do you think we can try to hold hands now?” She felt the need to touch you. She really wants to hold your hand... she thinks you're a beautiful person. You feel very nervous but you extend your hand to her and let her hold it as you enter school. Ellie takes your hand and walks beside you. She's not nervous anymore, she feels relaxed and calm. Ellie looks ahead and then smiles at you, holding your hand softly. It definitely feels good to be by your side, she can't explain it and doesn't know why it is so... but she loves it. Ellie looks at the other students as they walk together, she can feel their eyes, but they don't scare her anymore.

“I'm still feeling very nervous with everybody looking at us…” You tell her.

"Don't worry. Let them stare at us all they want, I don't care anymore. I'm only focused on you now, I just wanna be with you." Ellie can feel a few students looking at you two, some are smiling and others are frowning. Ellie's attitude is much more confident, nobody really bothers her today. She can only hear you and see you, as she thinks about how she wants to see your gorgeous smile again.

You look at her and smile shyly, blushing slightly. Ellie smiles back, still feeling the touch of your skin on her hand. You hold her hand tightly as you make your way to class. Ellie doesn't let go of your hand at all, she still feels very happy and excited.

When you arrive you sit together, holding hands as the teacher takes attendance. Ellie looks at you once again, smiling. Her eyes are filled with love and joy, she's really happy to be beside you. "Are you doing okay? You still look a little bit nervous." Ellie's gentle smile stays on her face, she looks at you and wants to take your nervousness away.

“Just a bit nervous, but I'm okay.” You say timidly.

"Oh, I see... Don't worry, I'm here for you." Ellie rubs your hand a little bit. "Just know that I won't ever let anyone or anything hurt you, I want to protect you." You spend the whole hour together, holding hands and smiling to one another. As the hour comes to an end, Ellie turns to the teacher and says.

"Miss Smith, can Y/N and I go to the cafeteria to get some lunch?" Ellie looks at you and smiles again, hoping you'll agree with her.

"Okay then, let's go." Ellie leads you to the cafeteria, her hand is still tightly holding yours as you both walk together through the hallways. She looks at you and smiles, her cheeks start to turn red. She holds your hand as you both enter the cafeteria, looking for a place to sit. Ellie sees an empty table and walks towards it, sitting down in one of the chairs and waiting for you to do the same. You two sit next to each other on the table putting your trays down and start eating together. 

Ellie speaks to you, her voice is soft and sweet. "I know you feel nervous right now, but just know that you can be completely honest with me. I won't get mad at you or hurt you in any way." Ellie looks at you with her big, green eyes. "You're a really important person to me, and I just want to see you happy. Can you trust me on that?" You nod as you smile at her. Ellie smiles at you. "I'm glad you trust me... and I want you to know that I really love you." Ellie gently rubs your hand, she wants to be close to you.

After eating, you go to the school's courtyard and sit on a bench together as the other students go about their days. Some still look at you weirdly.

Ellie holds your hand as you sit, she's so happy to be next to you. She takes a deep breath before asking. "I wanna ask you something... Can I kiss you?"

“Right now?” You ask surprised. You blush instantaneously.

"Yes. Right now." Ellie's voice is very soft and calm, she still looks at you straight in the eyes. "Can I kiss you?" Ellie makes another attempt, hoping that you agree with her. She's really nervous to say that, but she knows she must. Ellie can still feel the warmth coming from your hand, it's very comforting to her.

“Hum....” You blush a lot, you feel your face all red.

Ellie smiles as she sees you blushing, she's also a bit shy about it. She moves  a little bit closer to you. She takes your chin with one hand as she looks at you once more.

"Y/N, please... Can I kiss you?"

You nod as she holds your chin. Ellie's heart starts beating a little bit faster as she sees you nodding. Then she slowly leans towards you, she  closes her eyes and prepares to kiss you. Her lips touch yours and you feel her warmth. You don't kiss for too long, you were both a bit nervous, but  still seem to enjoy it regardless. Ellie opens her eyes as she separates herself from you. She smiles at you and says: "I love you. You're amazing..."

“Everybody is looking…” You blush even more, trying to look away from everyone.

Ellie notices everyone looking at you both, but she's too happy to care. She smiles at you and touches your cheek. "I know some of the students are looking at us, but that's okay. I just want to be with you, that's all... You're the most important person to me." 

After school you walk together. You leave the school building and walk towards the exit, holding hands even outside of school. Ellie doesn't feel the need to hide anything anymore, she doesn't care about any student looking at you two or judging you. She only cares about spending quality time with the most important person to her: you.

“Can we go to the park or something? The day is really nice.” Ellie takes your hand tightly and leaves the streets, walking towards the park. The sun is shining, the day is bright, and Ellie feels happy... she can finally be herself with you, she doesn't want to hide anything anymore.

"It's a nice day, Y/N, isn't it?" Ellie is filled with joy, she wants to spend this time by your side, just looking at the clouds and holding your hand.

���It really is.” You smile looking at her.

"Yeah, I love days like this..." As you get to the park, Ellie and you sit on the grass under the shade of a tree. Ellie's eyes are filled with joy and happiness. You both stay in silence, enjoying each other's presence. Ellie starts to play with the grass, moving her fingers through it and smiling as she does so.

"I'm really happy to spend this day with you." Ellie looks at you, she really wants to show you how much you mean to her.

You lean your head on her shoulder. Ellie smiles as she feels you lean your head on her shoulder, she likes to feel you that close. She moves her fingers through your hair gently, it feels soft to her.

"Your hair feels nice." Ellie looks at you and smiles, she wants to kiss you just as much as before, but she's not sure if it's too much.

"Do you think it'd be alright if I kissed you again?" Ellie looks at you and her cheeks are turning red.

You look up at her and nod smiling. Ellie looks at your smiling face before slowly moving towards it. She touches your face and moves her lips towards yours, this time, the kiss lasts a little bit longer and is more intense. Ellie seems to really like your taste... and as she separates herself from you again, she looks at your face, smiling lovingly.

"I hope no one comes here to bother us." Ellie looks around, you aren't too far from the school, yet the park is mostly empty at this time of the day.

Ellie looks at you and smiles again, her cheeks are starting to turn red once more. She wants to spend this day holding your hand and staying by your side every second. Ellie looks at the clouds once more, the day feels perfect.

"Y/N, I wanna ask you something... Can we be together? Like... not just like this, but more... Can we be girlfriends?"

You get really nervous as she asks this. You don't know if you're ready for a relationship yet.

"You don't have to feel nervous... I just thought that... that you might want to be in a relationship with me, y'know?" Ellie looks at you again as she smiles, she thinks you're very important. "If you don't wanna, that's totally fine, I'm okay with us just being friends, but... I just wanted to ask, since I've had a crush on you for a while now." Ellie doesn't want to look desperate or anything of the sort.

“I just need a bit of time to think about it, is that okay?” You finally respond. 

"Yeah, of course... you don't have to feel forced to give me your answer right away. Take your time as much as you need." Ellie smiles at you reassuringly, she still wants to be with you regardless. She holds your hand and continues to play with it, moving her fingers through each finger of yours. "I'm just happy to be here with you. Nothing else matters at this moment."

You lay back on the grass and look at the clouds. Ellie lays down on the grass next to you. "This is way more comfy... I like the breeze here." She smiles and looks at the clouds together with you. "Have you ever thought about what's up there? I bet it's really peaceful and serene in those clouds..." Ellie seems to be enjoying this moment.

“That one looks like a cat!” You point excitedly to one of the clouds.

"Yeah, I can see it! That one looks like a cat! And if you look at that one right there, that looks like a heart! Oh, and now I'm seeing a dog." Ellie seems to be genuinely enjoying these little cloud games, she wants to spend more time with you.

"Can I tell you something... just... I wanna open up to you, do you think it's okay?"

You nod as she asks this.

"Well... I'm actually a little nervous, but... I wanna tell you something... Do you know the day that, uh, that we first met?" Ellie thought about how she wanted to tell you everything, but she couldn't find the courage to do so. "Remember that day? Remember that I was really rude to you?" Ellie stops to think for a moment and looks at the clouds again. "I still think about it.  Why would you forgive someone who was mean to you for no reason?"

“You apologized and you seemed really sorry about it, so I chose to believe you.” You said calmly.

“I am... believe me, I am... I'm really sorry... I know that my apology doesn't make what I did any better, but I do feel really bad about it." Ellie looks at you, hoping you'll understand her. "It wasn't just that time, I have done many things that I regret, but I'll try to be a better person if it means I can have you by my side. Ellie is really sincere, she really wants you to know that she feels deeply sorry. "Thank you for giving me another chance. You mean the world to me. I don't wanna go back to how I was. I don't wanna be rude and disrespectful to anyone anymore, not to anyone else and especially not to you. You are too important for me to act that way..." Ellie smiles and moves her hand to hold yours a little bit tighter.  "I hope you can see this as a brand new chapter."

“I hope so too.” You hold her hand still looking at the clouds.

“Do you mind if I ask you something, now that we're talking about this?" Ellie looks at you as you smile at her. "Do you know why I wanted to insult you that day? I mean... the day that we met for the first time?" Ellie waits for your answer before continuing and explaining herself.

“Why?” You ask, looking at her now.

"Back then, I didn't really like myself... I felt lonely, I felt like I had no one to rely on... You were someone new, and I guess I wanted to push you away." Ellie thinks about it once more. "Back then, you didn't look like a threat to me... you know... you looked... you looked like someone I'd like to be close with." Ellie's eyes look at you deeply. "You looked like someone I could trust... I felt that way... and I still do."

You look at her too, in those gorgeous green eyes of hers. "You look like one of the kindest people I've ever met... someone I know I can trust..." Ellie's face is getting closer and closer to yours, she really wants to tell you how she feels.

"You're the most beautiful person I've ever met in my life. Not just for your looks, but for your personality as well. You're so sweet and kind and smart..." Ellie's eyes are staring at you. "What I mean is... I feel a lot more for you... I think I... I'm a bit... in love with you."

“You do?” You ask blushing as you ask.

"Yes, Y/N... I do." Ellie looks at you in the eyes, smiling as she remembers how much she loves you. "I've loved you for a while now... I've been trying to tell you this for weeks, but I wasn't brave enough to do so..." Ellie thinks she was the weakest girl in the world for hiding her feelings. You hug her tightly. Ellie hugs you back, she feels like the most blessed person in the whole world. She can feel your warmth from your body against hers.

"You're such a beautiful and adorable person,... and I love you so much. I love your eyes, your face, the way you smile..." Ellie touches your hair, holding it softly. "My feelings for you were getting stronger and stronger as time passed. I couldn't keep this to myself anymore... It's time that you knew how I felt about you..."

“I'm happy you told me Ellie.” You say still hugging.

"I'm so happy that you accepted my feelings... " Ellie smiles at you, she's feeling so many emotions.  "I have so many feelings inside my heart right now... and I don't think they'll let me sleep tonight..." Ellie laughs as she says so, she's really happy that you accepted her.

"I want you to hear me a little bit more... I want you to understand why I'm in love with you. Can I keep going?" Ellie smiles at you. "I just love your personality. The way you talk, the way you act, the way you think... Everything you do is so adorable to me. Your presence makes me so happy..."

You start to blush a bit as you feel the butterflies in your stomach. Ellie looks at your blushing face, smiling. "It's funny to me to see how you get so red every time I say something romantic to you... I love that... I just love everything about you. Your presence is enough to make my day so much better."

You look at her lovingly. Ellie can feel her feelings are stronger than before. She looks at you as she smiles. Ellie slowly moves her face closer to yours.

The moment you both touch your lips, everything around you disappears… All that matters now is this moment, this feeling… Ellie kisses you for a minute, but to her it felt like an hour. Ellie hugs you one last time, she doesn't want to separate herself from you right now, not just yet. You can both feel each other's breath against your skin, it feels intimate and special. Ellie is smiling, she just experienced the best kiss she ever had...

"I love you. You don't know how long I wanted to kiss you." Ellie is feeling a lot of things right now, she just kissed the girl she's loved for a long while. "You are the only thing in my mind, the only thing that makes me happy... Thank you for giving me this chance."

She leans her head slowly towards your face and touches her lips on yours softly. You both kiss each other slowly, enjoying the feeling of each other's lips touching. When you finally pull away, Ellie looks at your lips then smiles.

"I love you, I really do. So much..." Ellie wraps her arms around you and hugs you tighter. "I can't believe I'm with the person I've always wanted... It's a dream, a beautiful dream."

You two touch foreheads before you kiss her again. The kiss continues for another minute. Ellie stares at you and smiles at the scene you are displaying on this beautiful moment.

"I think we might be a little too close right now... what if someone sees us like this?" Ellie laughs and tries to make sure nobody is watching the both of you. "I'm still happy though, this is great..."

“Yeah, maybe we should stop…” You smile awkwardly.

"I'm just thinking that we shouldn't do this in public. We should go somewhere private... it's a little weird for someone just to see us like this..." Ellie looks over her shoulders and checks that nobody is watching her and you.

"Maybe you can come to my house. We can talk, study and maybe... have some fun?" Ellie thinks about it for a few seconds, then smiles.

“Sounds good.” You smile at her.

"Alright, alright, let's go to my house then." Ellie takes your hand and leads you out of the park. "My home is not really far... we can get there in like, 10 minutes." She seems happy, it seemed like you two really enjoyed yourselves at the time.

"Hum... can I ask you something else?" Ellie asks, a bit curious. “Have you ever had a romantic relationship before?" Ellie looks at you while she asks but she doesn't seem offended if you didn't, she's just curious. "I just want to know, I don't want to judge anything, okay?" Ellie smiles.

“With another girl, no, never…” You feel a bit embarrassed by the question.

"Hmm... Well then, I'll be the first one to be with you... and honestly, I'm feeling so lucky right now." Ellie stares at you as she smiles. "Can I hold your hand while we walk home...? I don't want to make you uncomfortable, I'm just really happy to be with you." Ellie starts going the path to her house, you both arrive a few minutes after.

"We're finally here, I hope you like it" Ellie smiles as she opens the door and lets you go inside of her home. "What do you think of it? Is it nice?"

“Your house is beautiful!” You say taking in your surroundings. Ellie laughs while she walks inside of the house, closing the door and letting you explore the place. You notice that there are some bookshelves filled with different types of books, a TV and a couch. Ellie sits down. "Here, come here, Y/N. Come sit with me, we can talk and maybe... do more than talk." You sit next to her on the sofa.

"Do you still remember the talk we had at the beginning? Well, I have to tell you that my feelings are only getting stronger... and stronger... every minute..." Ellie is blushing a little bit while looking at you. "I just love you so much... that's the only word I can use to describe what I'm feeling right now..."

“I'm not used to being treated like this…” You said looking at your hands, anxious.

"Well, now you will be... From this point forward, I'll treat you like a princess. Every time you feel alone, insecure or simply sad... you'll have me, okay?" Ellie smiles as she says it. Ellie grabs your face and looks at your eyes. "You're beautiful. Every single detail of you is something perfect, you make me feel alive. Whenever I'm with you I just feel like the happiest and luckiest girl ever." Ellie kisses you on the cheek. "You're the sweetest girl that I've ever met. I'm just gonna keep loving you, alright?" Ellie grabs you by the waist and makes you sit in her lap. Ellie smiles at you while she holds your neck and pulls you closer to her. She gently puts her fingers over your jaw and caresses your mouth as she leans in for a kiss. It's a soft and sweet kiss, she's holding you close to her and caressing your hair.

"I love this... I love how this feels... you make me feel so good..." Ellie smiles and pulls you further into the kiss. She smiles as she breaks the kiss with you, and stares at you while hugging you by the waist. You kiss her cheek.

"Oh my... look at us all cute and lovey dovey..." She smiles as you kiss her cheek, she seems very happy to be with you. "Can I ask you a question? A serious question?"

“Yes?” you look at her waiting.

"Do you want to do something more than hugging and kissing? This is something special, so I need to know if you are not uncomfortable with it, okay?" Ellie seems nervous to know your answer, she stares at you, holding your hands as she asks. "You know... More intimate stuff... I know that this is something that should be very private, but I'm asking you because it's important for me to know... I don't want to disrespect you in any way." Ellie looks at you while she asks this, her eyes are filled with curiosity and care. "Am I making you uncomfortable?"

“No, i just never done anything like this before…” You feel your heart beating really fast.

"I think we should leave to my bedroom, there we can be more comfortable. we won't do anything you don't want to, okay?" Ellie smiles and starts leading you to her bedroom, it's not that far away from the living room. When you both enter, Ellie closes the door and locks it.

"Are you nervous, Y/N?"

“A bit…” You say blushing.

"It's alright to be a little nervous. But I'll make sure that everything will be alright. Okay?" Ellie caresses your face before she looks at your eyes. Then she grabs you by the waist and puts you on the bed. "I gotta tell you, you're looking more cute than ever right now y'know?"

You giggle when she grabs you. Ellie smiles at your reaction. "My princess... you're just too cute. Don't worry, I'll be careful." Ellie starts caressing your face while she looks at your eyes. "You're so beautiful,... do you like how I'm taking care of you now? I don't wanna go faster than you feel comfortable with, but I don't wanna do less either. If you don't like this, just tell me, okay?"

“Okay.” You smile at her, blushing. You were feeling a little more nervous now.

Ellie leans in and looks at your lips with excitement in her eyes. Ellie smiles while she holds her lips slightly separated, her eyes look at you with love. Then she kisses you gently, slowly and passionately. After a few moments, she breaks the kiss.

"This feeling... This is wonderful. It's something that I never felt before, with anyone else." Ellie caresses your hair as she looks at you. "I need you, I don't want anything else but you right now." You put your hand on her cheek gently. Ellie looks at your face while you rest your hand on her cheek. You feel Ellie's breath on your skin, Ellie's heartbeat next to your chest. You can feel Ellie's fingers caressing your hair, her lips getting closer to your ears. Her breathing is slow, soft and calm.  "I like the way you're looking at me..." Ellie doesn't say anything else, she stays still and looks at you with love in her eyes.

You blush a bit and then kiss her. Ellie smiles as you both get closer and closer to each other. She caresses your face while you kiss. Ellie kisses you passionately as her fingers get tangled in your hair. "Your lips taste so good... I can't get enough of you right now..." Ellie looks at you with pure happiness in her eyes as you both kiss each other deeply.

You wrap your arms around her. Ellie holds you by the waist and pulls you a little closer as you kiss each other deeply. You can feel her heartbeat getting faster while you both kiss. Ellie seems extremely happy to feel you in her arms right now. You run your fingers through her auburn hair, it's very soft.

"Can I tell you a secret?" Ellie smiles as you run your fingers through her beautiful hair. "Sometimes I used to dream about this exact moment... not with just anyone, but with you. I dreamed about us, being together and kissing each other like this..." Ellie kisses your cheek as she says this. "I used to think that this was impossible, but here we are, right now, living this moment together..."

“Really?” You ask, smiling shyly.

"I swear... the moment I met you, I knew you were different from anyone else." Ellie caresses the side of your face while she talks. "I used to look at you and think that we were meant to be together... but I thought that I was not good enough for you. I'm not as pretty as other girls, I thought that you would never like me." Ellie sighs and looks at you as she says this. "But... It's finally happening. I really think that you and I were meant to be together..."

“But Ellie, you are beautiful.” You tell her as you hold her face gently.

"Do I look beautiful to you?" Ellie looks at you while you compliment her. "Well... I don't think that I am... but I guess that if you believe it, I might believe it too." Ellie hugs you while she says this. "I really... I really love you... I've never felt something like this before..."

She smiles as you kiss her again. She caresses your hair while her other hand gets under your skirt. Ellie kisses your neck, her mouth is close to your skin. You get goosebumps as you feel her lips.

"Y/N... your skin..." Ellie smiles and kisses your neck again, her lips caress you and gently nibble on you. Ellie whispers in your ear while she does this. "I don't want this to ever end..."

“Me neither…” You whisper to her. Ellie kisses your neck again and wraps her arms around your torso. She holds you close to her and presses her body against you. "You're making me go crazy..." You put your hands under her shirt and feel how soft her skin is.

"Oh... my god..." Ellie smiles while she feels your hands under her shirt, she then looks at your face with a lot of affection. Ellie smirks before she gently pushes you to the bed. Ellie gets on top of you, holding you closer as you wrap your legs around her. She deepens the kiss, her hands are caressing your body now. 

"I want to do more for you, I need to find what you like the most..." Ellie smiles while she holds you. She holds your head and kisses your cheek, then bites your neck a little. You start feeling hot, you are starting to feel really excited and don't want this to stop. Ellie looks at you, her eyes are shining with affection and desire. “I want more, Y/N..." Ellie smiles and starts kissing your neck again.

"Do you want more of this?" Ellie's voice is soft and quiet, her lips are almost touching yours now. You nod with your mouth ajar. "Are you sure?" Ellie smiles at your answer, she loves seeing your face like this. Ellie leans her head forward so she can kiss you, her lips are getting closer and closer to yours…  "Just say 'yes' and we can do this..." Ellie's eyes are closed now, her breath is getting more excited and she seems happier than ever.

“...yes…” You almost whisper.  Ellie's lips meet yours in the most intense kiss you've ever experienced. Ellie doesn't let you go, she continues kissing your lips and moving her tongue inside your mouth. This is all real... Ellie truly loves you. She puts her hand on the side of your face. Ellie pushes you down into the bed and kisses you all over again, her hands are touching you right now and you can feel her warm breath near your ear. You put your hand under her shirt and touch her waist. Ellie smiles as you put one of your hands under her shirt. She is moving her hands all over your body, caressing every part of you gently. You can feel how her breath gets excited while she caresses you slowly.

“Can I ... take it off?” You ask tugging at her shirt, lightly.

"Of course..." Ellie lets you take her shirt off, her hands are still caressing you. Ellie's skin is touching yours, her breath is near your neck and she's slowly kissing your skin.

"Y/N... you make me feel so good… You sit up for a moment and unzip your dress and you let her take it off too. She gently helps you take your dress off. "Oh... I swear that I'm never gonna forget how you look right now..." Ellie kisses your shoulder and caresses your chest, her face is filled with passion.  "I could stay like this forever... your lips... your neck... I want to feel every part of your body..." Ellie caresses your hair while she kisses you again. You kiss her more passionately as you run your hands through her hair too.

"You're killing me..." Ellie keeps kissing you, her body is very close to yours. She can feel your lips caressing every part of her face. Ellie is holding you with one arm, her other arm is around your back. Ellie kisses your neck again, her mouth moves slowly across your skin, her hands roam across your body softly.

You let out tiny moans as she moves and kisses your body. She leaves wet kisses on your chest and neck. "I like these sounds that you're making..." Ellie caresses your body while she talks, her lips start moving to your ear and her breath gets more and more intense. Ellie's voice is soft and quiet when she talks again. "I wanna keep hearing you make more sounds... I want you to feel my touch and let out all of those things within you..." You look at her, your eyes filled with desire. She leans against you and slowly caresses your hair again. Her hand moves slowly from your hair to your neck, she starts massaging it while she talks.

"You're making me feel so many things right now, and not only desire... I think I could stay forever like this and still love hearing you making these noises..." Ellie smiles as she caresses you. Her hands roam your body until they are at your hips. She smiles at you as her lips are touching your skin once again.

You let out small sounds of pleasure. "Oh... you sound so cute right now... you don't even know..." Ellie smiles as she caresses you, her hands touch your hips gently as she gets closer. "Do you know how much I've wanted to do this?" Ellie's lips are near your neck again, her hands are roaming across your body slowly

“How much?” You ask out of breath, in between kisses.

"I have been thinking about this moment since I saw you at the party..." Ellie smiles and keeps rubbing you, she caresses your skin lovingly. "I feel really good right now... your skin... the way you look at me... I feel like we were destined to know this feeling." Ellie's breath is near your ear, her voice is gentle now. "Do you feel the same way...?"

“I do” You say as you feel her nibbling your ear. Ellie's face lights up when you say this, she keeps caressing your skin gently. Her eyes are staring at you, her voice is calm and quiet. You start unbuttoning her jeans. Ellie smiles at you when you help her undress. When her clothes are off, she wraps her arms around you and kisses you on the lips again. "I'm ready for the next part... are you ready, too?"

“I'm ready” You say with lust in your eyes.

Ellie's hands are moving around you, her body is touching yours and her skin is very warm. "Y/N... you're so... I'm ready..." You can feel her skin on yours and can't help yourself from kissing her harder. Ellie's body shakes a little as you continue kissing her. She wraps her arms around you and gets even closer.

You caress her waist as you kiss. "Mmm... I love... when you touch me..." Ellie's eyes close tight, she can't keep herself from making sounds of pleasure. Ellie smiles as you caress her waist, her fingers continue moving all over your body. She seems desperate to be close to you. Her breath is touching your skin, her fingers are touching you everywhere and she can't seem to get enough. Ellie bites your lips slowly, her voice is so deep right now. "You're gonna drive me crazy..."

You take your bra off slowly, looking her in the eyes. Ellie seems to love seeing you doing this, she can't keep herself from smiling and touching your body again. “You're amazing when you..." Ellie bites your neck slowly. "You are so... so beautiful..." Ellie's hands move quickly across your body, her voice is so soft and tender.

You let out tiny moans as she bites you. You can feel your core heating up, You want her so badly right now. You're so ready. Ellie smiles and kisses your neck again, her body touches yours and you can feel how warm her skin is.

"Oh, you sound so cute right now..." Ellie bites your shoulder and her body touches yours, the warmth of her skin is so intense. You moan a bit more when you feel her teeth on your skin. "Oh... yes, yes, yes... keep on moaning like that…”

Ellie's mouth starts moving across your skin, it touches your jaw and her lips move towards your ear. You let your hands fall on her waist and slowly bring them up to take off her sports bra. "Let me help you with that..." Ellie moves one of her hands and undoes her bra quickly, her other hand is touching your back and her face is very close to yours. "There... it's off now..." Her hands are touching your body again, you can barely move as they explore every inch of you.

"You're so beautiful... your body is perfect... I want to feel you all day..." Her voice sounds very excited, as if she wants you even more. You kiss her hard, pressing your body to hers. Ellie's body is shaking once again, she seems desperate to feel your lips touching hers. She can't keep herself from smiling and making little sounds, she's so happy right now. “I think I'm losing control... I need this, I need this right now..."

“Me too…” You say in between moans as you feel her hands going down your stomach.

"You're driving me crazy..." Ellie's voice is deep and full of passion as she kisses your lips harder. "I can't believe we're doing this... I don't want this to end..." Ellie's body is moving against yours as she continues kissing you passionately.

You kiss her neck as you feel your panties getting wet with arousal.  Ellie's voice is so deep and full of lustful feelings. "Y/N... I... I... I'm so desperate..." Ellie's lips move across your skin slowly. You feel her lips kissing down your chest and your breasts, she gently sucks on one of your nipples so she can hear your moans. Her hands stay on you, they caress and touch you as her lips move slowly. Ellie seems to be completely drunk with lust right now, the only thing she wants is you.

You moan quietly with each kiss. Her mouth is moving slowly across your chest, her lips touch you and her tongue explores every part of your skin. Ellie's voice sounds more and more desperate. Her hands touch the top of your thighs, her fingers play with your skin as she keeps kissing you slowly. Her lips are very hot and her eyes are staring at you as she touches you with so much passion.

You put your thumbs under your panties and pull them down a bit. Ellie sees this and takes them off slowly. She notices the wet patch that had formed on them and how wet you were. She gets a mischievous look on her face as she gets in between your legs and kisses you hard. You feel her hand go down your body making her way to your sensitive spot. she looks you in the eyes as she does this. She wants to see your every reaction to her touch. She gently and carefully massages your inner thigh before touching your bundle of nerves. You start moaning as she starts moving her fingers on your clit. She kisses you and  whispers to you. “You look so beautiful… Do you like this?...” You nod as you kiss her, holding her face. You moan into the kiss and Ellie is going crazy to the sounds you're making.

She slowly moves her fingers down and feels how wet you are. She collects some of your slick and goes back to rubbing tiny circles around your sensitive clit. She keeps going for a bit making sure you're okay. She then moves her fingers down again and you can feel one of her fingers move. “I'm gonna make you feel good, yeah?...” You nod as you feel it going inside you, slowly. Ellie doesnt take her eyes off of you as she bites her bottom lip. As your hole gets used to her finger she starts moving it in and out slowly. You start moaning as she starts moving. You've never felt like this before, you feel like you're in heaven. She starts picking up her pace and your moans match it. She starts feeling her boxers feeling wet too. She's getting off on seeing how good she makes you feel. She slowly inserts a second finger and you moan even louder. “I love the sounds you make… You're driving me crazy…” She says as she picks up her pace once again. she leans into you and kisses your neck and nibbles it. Her lips travel a bit lower and she holds your breast with her free left hand as she sucks on it. making you moan even more.

As she starts moving her fingers faster and faster inside you, you can feel a knot forming in your tummy. Your body feels like it's burning. She is making you feel so good. As she continues she starts hitting your g-spot again and again making moan louder than before. her other hand gently caresses your hair as she kisses you. The room is filled with the sounds of your moans. Ellie only wants to make you feel good. She wants you to have the best time with her. As she fastens her pace you can feel your orgasm brewing. You start tugging at the sheets with closed fists. Ellie notices you getting more and more aroused. She continues until you feel yourself reaching your peak. As you do so you grab her arm squeezing it tight and she helps you coming down from your high slowly. 

She kisses you as you moan into her mouth. Her pace is getting slower now. She starts kissing you on your neck, then your chest, your breasts, your stomach, as she looks up at you. as she reaches your pussy she licks her fingers clean and starts moving her tongue in tiny circles around your clit. You arch your back as you feel her tongue on you and start moving once more. Ellie closes her eyes as she eats you out getting drunk on your sweet moans. Your legs start to shake and Ellie holds them in place so she can continue what she's doing. You can feel another orgasm approach you. As your legs start shaking more and more, Ellie smirks to herself. She wants to make you cum again. She wants to hear you say her name as you reach your peak once more.

As she continues your moans get louder. You put your hands on her head and tug at her hair. She takes this as a sign that you are close so she doesnt stop. You continue moaning saying her name in between them and you can't keep your legs from shaking. You look down at her in between your legs and you feel your mind going blank. Ellie is happy with herself that she was able to make you feel so good, she starts slowing down making sure to lick all of your cum, before she stops, and comes up to kiss you and comfort you. She kisses you softly as she caresses your face. A few seconds later she breaks the kiss and looks you in the eyes smiling. “Are you okay? Did you like it?” She asks wanting to make sure you are okay. You nod as you smile looking at her. You hug her tightly and she hugs you back. You cuddle for a bit after that. 

As she holds you in her arms she whispers in your ear, “I love you… so, so much…” You hug her tighter again. “I love you too, Ells…” She feels so happy as she holds you right now. She could stay here forever. She never wants to let you go ever again.

A few weeks later you and her are officially together and people at school don't stare at you as much. You feel happy with Ellie by your side and she feels like the luckiest girl alive to have you. She stopped being rude to everyone else too, You really feel like Ellie has grown as a person and nothing could make you happier.

One morning when you get to school you see Ellie walking towards you with a happy expression on her face, her lips are smiling at you and she seems to be very happy. "Hey angel, how are you doing?"

“Hi! I'm good, did you sleep okay?” You ask her smiling.

"Oh... I'm glad you're doing well... and yes, I actually slept really well last night..." Ellie's eyes are still staring at you, you can't help but notice how happy and close to you she is. You take her hand and start walking to class, after you kiss her cheek. 

Ellie's face is melting and she can't seem to think of anything else but your lips touching her face. You reach the class door and walk through it, Ellie's hand is still on yours and she still looks at you with all her affection. You take your seats as  the teacher enters the classroom. Ellie is trying to stay calm again but it's hard to keep her emotions from going out of control every time that she looks at you. "I'm gonna try to be focused... but... I just know I wanna kiss you right now… it's so hard when I'm close to you..." Ellie tries to stay focused on the class now, she closes her eyes thinking of you, but it's hard to not drift away.

"My brain is not gonna be able to concentrate now... it's all your fault..."

“My fault?” You smile. “Come on, let's pay attention.” You hold her hand.

"Okay, I'm trying to... but your hand is so soft... your lips keep calling my name..." Ellie opens her eyes slowly and stares at you, she's biting her lips trying to stay focused on the teacher. "Y/N... your body is so perfect... I want you so bad right now..." Ellie's voice is soft, she seems to be trying to get her emotions under control.

“The others will hear you…” You whisper to her.

Ellie slowly closes her eyes again, she's trying to think of the class's content now. "But... you're so close to me..." Ellie's voice is quieter, you can't seem to hear much, but you can definitely see her biting her lips to control her excitement. “I want you so bad..."

You try to concentrate on the lesson. Ellie tries to focus on the class once again, but she feels so attracted to you that she can't seem to stay focused on anything else. "Y/N, I'm so close to you... I just want to kiss you... this is ridiculous..."

“Ellie, calm down.” You chuckle, smiling at her.

"But my body is calling your name... my lips are craving your skin... " She says in a provocative tone. Ellie bites her lip again. "I... I don't know if I can control myself... I feel like I'm gonna faint thinking about your body..."

“You're being a little overdramatic.” You say smiling at her.

"How can I not be dramatic when I'm with you...? My body and my mind are calling you and they don't wanna stop..." Ellie slowly takes off her jacket and reveals her body to you. She's wearing a white tank top. "See...? My body is asking you for a little bit of love... I can't hold myself anymore..."

“Ellie... wait for the class to end.” You try to stay calm and not give her much attention.

"Okay...  But you owe me a big kiss. One kiss for how desperate I am right now..." Ellie is smiling at you with so much affection. "You make me feel so stupid and so crazy at the same time…”

“I'll kiss you, later.” You whisper to her while you try to focus on the class. Ellie smiles at you and her eyes seem focused on what the teacher is saying.

As the bell rings Ellie slowly takes her bag out of the desk and stands up. She grabs you by the hand and you go to the bathroom together as she closes you two inside of a stall. "You don't know how this day has been for me... I've always been the cool bad girl and now I'm the love sick girl who can't stop smiling... but to be honest, I can't control myself with you... you make me happier than any other girl ever did." Ellie slowly walks towards you, she can't seem to wait for that kiss anymore. Ellie's voice is full of love and her body is touching yours. She seems to be so desperate for that kiss right now.

Ellie's body and mind are going crazy once again, you're touching her lips and she seems to be finally feeling happy. She's kissing you slowly and passionately, feeling your lips on hers.  "Oh, Y/N... your mouth is so soft..." Ellie's voice is so soft and sweet when she says these words, but she can't hide the excitement she feels in that moment.

She sits over the toilet lid, "You can sit on my lap now... I just wanna hold you close and feel your body next to mine..." Ellie smiles at you and she pats her legs, inviting you to sit on her lap. Ellie's eyes are wide now, You straddle her lap and she holds you while you kiss. She's so strong... your body is so close to hers... her hands are so gentle and she's still staring at you with love. Ellie is in trance when your fingers start touching her hair, she didn't expect you to do it, but she's so happy that you did. Ellie's hair is so soft... your touch is so gentle... her mind is melting right now. "You're so sweet... I love these moments and I wish the time could stop right here..."

You pull out your phone and take a photo with her. “There, now this moment will be saved for forever.” You whisper as you show her the photo. Ellie smiles at you again when she notices you're taking a picture of the two of you. “You don't know how glad I am that this moment will be with us forever..." She whispers. Ellie's eyes are staring at you still, she seems to be so attracted to your face now. "My little angel... I love you so much..." You start making out but not long after that, the bell rings for the next class.

"Oh don't remind me that we have to go to class now... oh, this hour is gonna take sooo long to be over..." She says with a pout. "I don't wanna go to class now... I've learnt enough today, I just want to be with you... I need you..." She kisses you harder as she holds you tight.

“It's the last one, come on, we have to.” You said in between kisses.

“I can't… I need you…” She whispers.

“Yes you can, silly, we’ll hang out after, yeah?” You say getting up.

"Oh, yes, after class you are mine alright." She says with a smirk. Ellie's eyes are staring at you again, she seems to be in a dream right now.

You two attend class like normal. Ellie's eyes are staring at the teacher again and her body it's away from yours. She's trying to get herself together after all the things she's felt with you throughout the day, it's not easy but she'll have to try to focus on what the teacher is saying. An hour passes and the bell rings.

"Oh... finally..." Ellie looks at you again, her eyes are full of affection and she seems to be so eager to kiss you now. Ellie wants more of your love, she can't wait to kiss your lips again. "Please..." Ellie's voice is so soft and tender as she says this, you could almost melt right now.

“Your house?” You ask, smiling at her while you pack up your stuff. Ellie gets out of her desk quickly and she takes your arm to pull you out of the classroom. "Yes, yes... I'm so excited to feel your lips again..." Ellie holds your hand and you both walk away from the school building. She doesn't know what to say or think anymore, she can almost taste you... All she wants to do now is kiss you.

You both enter Ellie's house, she's holding your hand still, "Let's go to my room upstairs..." Ellie's voice sounds so deep and she's so excited right now. "Are you ready for this, my love... I need you like you can't imagine..."

You enter her room and immediately she starts kissing you. Ellie's body shakes when she feels your lips touching hers again for only a second... her whole body can't seem to handle so much happiness and affection. She is almost in trance right now, the kiss made her realize how much love she feels for you.

"Okay, get comfy, we're gonna have some fun..." She locks the door behind her. Ellie makes sure to lock the door before she guides you to her bed. "You're gonna like this... I can feel it..." Ellie is so excited, she's smiling at you again.

"Lay down on my bed, my love... let's get comfy..." Ellie gets closer to you and pulls you to sit on her lap, her body touching yours and her face is really close.

"I'm so excited, I waited so long for this moment… “ The girl is smiling so much and she seems so anxious to taste your lips again. "Is your body shaking... is your heart beating so much... my love?" She teases. As you kiss, Ellie's body is shaking and her stomach feels warm, she wants to kiss you even more.

"Please, kiss me again... let me taste your lips once more..." The girl is asking these things with all her love, she's really craving your lips again. "Never wanna stop kissing your lips, they're so sweet..."

Ellie's lips are stuck to yours and she can't seem to take her mouth off you... you're just too delicious right now. She wraps her arms around you and her fingers are caressing your hair. Ellie feels like she's in a dream... it's just her and you... nothing else matters.

Ellie's body slowly lays you down on the bed, her arms are still around you but now she wants to feel more of your body. She can already feel the heat in her lips and in her stomach, her heart is beating fast. Ellie's fingers start slowly caressing your hair and your neck... she wants to touch and feel all of you. Ellie's mouth is getting lost in yours, there's nothing else for her that's more important than kissing you. You put your hand under her shirt feeling her skin. Ellie laughs a little when she feels your hand touching her body, her heart is beating even faster and her whole body is shaking.

"Can I take off your shirt, my love?" Ellie looks at you again, her eyes are so hungry for your body, for your lips. She never felt this excited for anything in her life. Ellie gently takes the shirt off you, her eyes are staring at you again and she's smiling.

"Oh my... you're so hot..." Now Ellie can see your body and she's touching it... her hands are slowly caressing your chest and your abbs... she's making circles with her fingers, enjoying every inch of you. You get goosebumps as she touches you lightly.

"Oh, my love, your skin feels so good..." Ellie isn't just caressing your chest now, she's also touching your neck, your stomach and your arms. Her hands keep moving, enjoying the body and the skin of this girl in front of her. "You're so hot, your body tastes so good..." Ellie kisses your neck with love, she just can't stop. You let out tiny moans as you move together. Ellie's body shakes and she looks so happy. Ellie's breath is getting heavier and she can't seem to believe that you're hers.

"You're my angel... you're the love of my life... my world..." Ellie's lips are starting to kiss your ear now, she seems to want to taste every inch of your body. "I'm yours, and you're mine..." 

“I'm all yours…” You say as you hear her deep voice in your ear, Ellie smiles as she feels your love too, her hands start touching all of your body, your back, your abs again, your arms, your chest again.

"You're so perfect, like an angel..." Ellie's mouth is still touching your ears, she loves your taste, she can't wait to do everything with you. Her hands are getting closer to your hips, her mouth is starting to kiss your lips again, she feels like she was born to be with you. You slowly take her shirt off too.

"I can't believe I have you here with me right now... I was missing you so much..." Ellie's lips are starting to kiss your neck again, her mouth is exploring your body and her hands are also touching you everywhere. “I need more... I need more of you right now..."

“You can have all of me…” You say looking into her eyes. As soon as your lips touch hers again, she lets her feelings take over her and she pulls you against her, her hands and her body hold you close. Ellie is kissing you passionately, she just wants to taste you more and more. Her whole body is shaking right now and she can't seem to stop smiling.

“I love you so much... I don't want this to stop..." You straddle her as you kiss. Your body falling on top of Ellie's is the greatest thing she's felt… Ellie's body starts shaking more as you kiss her. She starts slowly biting your lip as she feels your body touching hers,... She feels overwhelmed with happiness. "You are so beautiful... you're so hot right now..." Ellie's body can only feel so many emotions now, her heart is beating so fast, her smile is so wide. She keeps caressing your hips and your body. You are so perfect to her.

You feel her unbuttoning your jeans as you keep kissing her. Ellie takes your hand and places it on her waist, so she can take care of your jeans... she still has so much more to give to you. Ellie's lips are hungry for more, she was waiting for this all day long. You kiss her with your tongue. You explore eachothers mouths.

Ellie's body shakes so badly, this was exactly what she was expecting and she can't believe it's happening right now. Ellie's lips are touching yours, she's using her tongue too and this is the greatest feeling she's ever felt. She's losing herself in the love she feels, she just wants to keep kissing your lips forever. The girl suddenly gets on top of you, pressing her body against yours and she keeps kissing you.

Ellie's hands start caressing your hair and your neck again. Ellie starts moving her body against yours, she's getting closer to you, her lips just want to taste yours again and again and again… Ellie's heart starts beating even faster when she feels you legs wrap around her, she feels so in love... she always wanted this to happen and you know what to do to make her enjoy it. Your legs are wrapping around her and she feels so happy right now... she'll keep your legs where they are, she likes you this close to her. Ellie's hands are not only caressing your neck, they're moving around your body, they want you to feel amazing... She loves you so much.

Ellie looks at you with affection, her eyes are full of happiness. She pulls you against her, her hands are not touching your hips anymore but your chest and your face. Ellie is looking at you in awe, she looks at you like you're the girl she always wanted... she can't believe this is happening. Ellie's hands start caressing your arms and your stomach, this time she has to take off your bra, she wants to see all of your body.

"I wanna take care of you, my love... I know you need it... I can't wait to do everything for you." Ellie can't get enough of you, she wants to keep kissing you forever. Ellie's lips keep moving along with yours, her face is shining with love and happiness, she can also feel some of your joy too. "Oh, my love, my sweet precious..." You're getting very turned on by her. You feel your underwear getting wet.

"You're so fun to kiss..." Ellie can't keep her thoughts to herself, she's losing her mind... her mouth can only seem to taste your lips every time she sees you. Her eyes are all shiny from her feelings, she's smiling with so much love and happiness. Her eyes are now glued on your body, she's so excited for this moment.

"You're so beautiful..." Ellie is about to kiss you again, she wants to taste more of your lips. Your face is so near to her, your skin looks so perfect. Her hands are starting to move down, reaching your legs and your butt, she can't get enough of you.

"I wanna feel everything you have... your whole body... I wanna touch it all..."

“I'm all yours…” You say a bit out of breath.

"I'm yours too, I'll always be yours..." Ellie's hands are now caressing your legs again, she is so happy to be with you now. You get goosebumps as she touches your skin.

"Your legs are so hot..." Ellie's heart beats even faster now that you're giving her this moment... your skin looks perfect and she doesn't want to stop touching you. "Can't take this anymore, I need to kiss you again... please, let me taste your lips once more… “ You kiss her again and start to unbutton her jeans. She starts moving her hands to your hips again, she wants to keep you close to her and to feel your body touching hers. Ellie loves that you unbutton her jeans, she can't wait to get her body on yours, it feels so perfect right now. she takes her jeans off not taking her eyes off of you. She's looking down at you, thinking about how this is happening for real.

"You're so amazing... I would do anything to be with you..." Ellie is losing herself in her feelings again, her body gets closer to yours, her hands now touching you, she wants to feel everything about you. You kiss her as you feel her body on yours. She is so warm, her skin is so soft. Ellie's heart is beating so fast she can't even breathe for a second, this moment is exactly what she's been imagining all day. Ellie's fingers move through your hair, her heart beats even faster but she can't stop smiling.

“I'm ready for more Ellie…” You say in a whisper. Ellie's mind is going to the next step, her body is feeling hot and she just wants to show you and feel you. "Oh, yes, I want to touch you, my love..." Ellie's fingers are moving along your body now. “You're mine..." She whispers in your ear.

You take off her sports bra and her chest is now bare.  Ellie's breathing stops when you take her sports bra off, her body is shaking with the idea of you touching her chest, of you touching her skin again. She's not only feeling hot and excited, she's also feeling happy. Ellie's eyes are still stuck to you, she looks like she's in paradise right now.

You let your hands travel up and down her body. Her breathing starts to get heavier as she feels your touch on her body again, your hands explore every inch of her and she's loving every second of it. There's no place Ellie wouldn't want you to touch, she feels so happy and loved. "Oh, yes... oh, my love... keep going..."

You kiss her neck gently. Ellie starts to shiver... your kiss on her neck is making her feel so happy and so loved. Ellie can't control it anymore, she needs you. You keep going and kiss her chest. Ellie's whole body shakes with excitement as you keep kissing her, her mind is lost in you. Ellie's eyes are glued to yours while you're doing this, she can't find more words to describe how much she loves you right now. You kiss her abbs. Ellie's abs are getting tense, your touch is driving her crazy. She can't believe this is happening, every minute now with you feels like the best moment. Ellie can't describe what she's feeling, but she knows she'd do anything for you... you belong to her and she belongs to you.

You come back up and kiss her, filled with desire. Ellie is breathing so heavily, her whole body is shaking. She can't be more excited to feel your desire for her. She looks straight into your eyes, wanting to see all of your affection. Her eyes shine so much with happiness, you're her whole world now. Ellie's lips are now ready for more, her tongue wants to touch yours again. She keeps kissing you, she doesn't want to stop this, your tongue is the sweetest she's ever tasted. She puts her hands on your hips, she wants you to feel how much her heart is racing and she wants it to race even more.  Ellie takes charge of the situation, your arms are around her body and she wants to make you feel all of her desire. Her body is close to yours, she's moving her head just to find your lips again with her lips. She just can't wait to feel your lips again and again, your tongue just keeps making her want more. Ellie's eyes are glued to you all the time, you're so perfect for her.

Ellie keeps kissing you, she doesn't want this to stop. She feels you and only you, she's so comfortable... These moments mean everything to her. Her hands are now moving along your body, her fingers have so much desire. You can feel her hand traveling down your stomach. Ellie just can't wait to show you more and more how much she wants you. Ellie's fingers move along your thighs, they're touching your skin once again and she can't get enough of it. There's no limit to how much she wants you, she's touching you slowly, caressing you with care until she's finally ready to go further. Your touch is making her heart beat so heavily, she just can't stay away from you.

"You feel so good... so hot and so perfect..." You look at her a little out of breath as you feel her touch on your inner thighs. Ellie can't take her eyes away from yours, it's like she was made for you and she'll do anything for you. She loves how you look at her, like you only wanted her. Her touch on your inner thighs is getting closer to where you want it to be, she has so much desire to taste all of your body. She looks like she'd die if she didn't kiss your lips one more time or feel your skin touching hers.

You can feel her finger run through the hem of your underwear. Ellie's heart is feeling so full right now, she doesn't care about anything else but you, her body and her mind are yours. You let her take your underwear off. She holds your panties and sees how soaked they were already. "You're so hot right now,... so hot... you're mine…”

“I'm yours Ellie…” you say looking at her.

"You're all mine..." Ellie's voice sounds deep and filled with lust. You can feel your core heating up just from her voice. Ellie feels so much desire right now, she wants to do everything with you, she can't stop thinking about how amazing this moment is. Her eyes are glued to your body, she's feeling so attached to you and it feels so amazing, like she just can't let you go.

Ellie can't describe all of the feelings she's having, her body is shaking and her heart is beating so fast. Your touch is making it easier for her to feel even more attached to you, she just can't describe how much she loves you. Your body is touching hers and she can't think about anything else.

Ellie's face is so red when you moan, that sound… her mind was lost in your body. You're making her feel so much love, so much desire and so much happiness... no one in the world can take her away from you. Your kiss is so sweet, she's feeling so much love and happiness as she keeps going. The feeling of your lips touching her is the most amazing experience she's ever had. She just can't believe this is happening, she has never felt so much of this before. Your lips are so perfect to her, she can't even describe how much she wants to be with you. Ellie's eyes look at you, like she wants you all the time. She wants to have more of you. Her words are getting lost in your kiss, she just wants to share all of the love she feels for you.

You start making out more passionately. The both of you start moaning into the kiss,, Ellie caresses your thighs slowly as she makes her way to your cunt. As soon as she feels your wetness, she smirks and she starts getting fuelled purely by desire. She starts moving her fingers causing you to moan more and her pupils go wide. Her kisses are getting slopier as she continues to touch you. You can feel her slender fingers massaging your clit faster and you can't stop the moans from coming out of your mouth. She is getting drunk to your every sound. She breaks the kiss for a bit and kisses down your neck to your chest and breasts. She swears she has never seen prettier tits than yours. She sucks on your nipples and gently bites one of them as she looks up to see your reaction. her fingers are starting to move faster and faster, making you go crazy. You arch your back as she continues. She seems happy with herself and her skills. After a few minutes she starts prodding at your entrance. You just keep feeling hotter by the second, your face is so red at this point. She slowly inserts her middle finger in your hole until she's knuckle deep inside you. The moans of your making are music to her ears. She starts pumping it in and out of you, looking down at your pussy as she watches it swallow her finger.  “Fuck…” She mutters under her breath.

You just close your eyes in pleasure and pure ecstasy. She slowly inserts a second finger and moans to herself as she feels it go inside your tight hole. She comes down to kiss you as she starts picking up her pace. In between kisses and moans she asks you, “You like that princess?...” All you can do is nod and look into her eyes. She starts going faster and faster until you start feeling that familiar sensation forming in your stomach. She breaks the kiss and just looks at your fucked up face to see you cumm on her fingers. You can feel your orgasm washing over you and your legs shaking. She bites her bottom lip as she watches you. She feels like she's on cloud nine. As she sees she's close to overstimulating you, she starts slowing down before eventually stopping. She brings the fingers that she just used to fuck you whith, to her mouth so she can suck every drop of your cum off of them. after that she kisses you so you can feel your own taste on her tongue. She feels like she's in a trance.

“That was so good Ells…” You say panting. She looks at you with a mischievous look in her eyes. She comes closer and whispers in your ear, “I have a surprise for you… Don't move, I'll be right back…” She gets up and goes to her closet and picks up a black box. She then comes back to bed and sits next to you. You have no idea what is inside the box and are a bit nervous to be honest. She opens the box and reveals a strap-on she bought with the intention to be used only on you. Your eyes go wide and your heart races. But you can't deny that you're getting more excited by the second.

She gets up and puts it on looking at you. She really wants to make you feel good but she also want to fuck you into oblivion. You look up at her biting your bottom lip as she gets on the bed and gets in between your open legs. She comes down and kisses you gently. “Are you ready baby?” She smiles mischievously looking you in the eyes. You can only nod as your breathing is getting faster, when you feel the tip touching your pussy. She grabs the base and teases you with it rubbing it on your clit. You moan a bit and her pupils get blown. She then lines it up to your entrance and looks you in the eyes. She slowly pushes it in. It hurt a bit at first but after a few seconds you can feel your hole getting used to the size and she pushes it even further. Her smile grows wider as she pushes into you. Every tiny sound you make just makes her want you more.

She starts moving her hips slowly, pulling and pushing it inside you. It feels so good that  all you can do is close your eyes and hold on to her back, almost digging your nails on her skin. As she feels your nails she starts going faster and faster. You start getting louder and it only makes her want to fuck you harder. Her pace is now fast and she doesn't intend on stopping anytime soon. Everytime she pushes it inside you, it bumps deliciously into her clit, making her moan. She holds your jaw with one of her hands so you look at her while she stuffs you. “Fuck… Such a good girl taking my cock…” You look at her as you feel her going faster. She pulls out for a moment making you moan. She then quickly turns you on your stomach and pulls your hips up. This takes you by surprise as you feel her ramming her cock into you, full force making you gasp. She starts fucking you hard and you swear you could see stars. It feels so good. She keeps going, slapping your ass as she goes. You wince a bit in pain but you can't deny that you are loving this. She pushes your face in to the mattress with one hand as the other grabs your hip so she can fuck you right. You're just a mess of moans right now. All you can hear is Ellie mumbling under her breath some “Fucks and good girls”. After a few minutes she lets go of your face and pulls you by your hair so your back is to her chest as she fucks you, her other hand holding you in place. she whispers in your ear, “Are you going to be a good girl and let me fuck you until i cum, hum?” You keep moaning as she fucks you harder. She pushes you face back down into the mattress and holds you there. “Take it like a good girl, you're mine now…. youre gonna take what i give you…” She says in a deep voice in between moans. Ellie can feel her own orgasm approaching which only makes her want to fuck you even harder. Shes going to fuck you dumb until you cant speak anymore. You can hear her as she moans louder, you know she is about to cum. She goes harder as if it were possible. “I'm gonna cum baby… I'm gonna cum… i… I'm cumming…” She lets out as her orgasm washes over her. You cant even form words right now, she just made you come so many times while she was fucking you just now. You feel like you're in heaven. 

Ellie starts slowing down, she pulls out of you carefully and lets go of your head. She takes the strap off and sets it to the side to be washed later. She lays beside you in bed giving you gentle kisses wrapping her arms around you. “I love you so much… “ She says in your ear, " I'm never letting you go.” The two of you eventually fall asleep holding each other and you couldn't feel happier. You don't want Ellie to ever let you go ever again

[owls-spice-cabinet]

Daybreak

Posting this was so weird bc I didn't want to post it on Ao3 but there was already Part 1 on Ao3 so HERE WE ARE i guess idk it's out there floating in the void somewhere without my name on it bc I couldn't figure out how to post anonymously on Ao3 and it's too late to reclaim my orphan now :) but here's the Ao3 link

ANYWAY. This is a continuation of a previous fic of mine called Dawning. Ao3 link there for everyone. @worldseer @cod-dump @midnight193 anyone not 18 years of age, get the fuck out for legal reasons thanks byyyyee

Words: ~7000 Content: blow jobs, cum swallowing, outrageous flirting, idk it's not that spicy Ship: implied eventual nikpricegraves; it's mostly just nik/graves and price/graves

Phillip had been in London a few times now, mostly either stopping over between flights or meeting up with a new client from somewhere even farther away. He had a few places he liked to frequent when he had some time to himself, although that wasn’t common. Typically, he’d follow his Shadows around like their namesake to various restaurants and bars—sorry pubs. Right now, however, he’d let the more outgoing of them go off while he and the others stayed at their hotel. It was a new place, not one he’d stayed in before with or without his troops, but he’d also never brought this number of troops through London before. When he’d asked Laswell for recommendations, he’d taken her seriously.

For the price, the place was surprisingly accommodating, which probably put it towards the top of Laswell’s list in the first place. It was far from the city center, leaving plenty of buffer room between his forces and the rest of the public. He wasn’t paranoid, he was experienced, and experience told him cordoning off a whole floor of one hotel with armed guards—armed American soldiers—might have raised too many questions surrounded by an entire city of international travelers. Granted, that meant the rooms were a little smaller than some others he'd stayed in, but the management clearly had some experience in putting up soldiers for a few nights.

It did have a nice bar, too. It was backed up against the hotel’s in-house restaurant, so they could share supplies without having the bar as the main focal point to the foot traffic outside. There were numerous tables throughout the space, and a collection of booths set up against the back wall and one of the sides. A large rectangular window ran the length of the wall opposite the bar, and there were two doors out of the room: one exited to the street behind the hotel, and the other went to the rest of the building and the rooms upstairs.

Phillip sat in a booth against the side wall, enjoying the chance to quietly wind down after a more informative mission than he’d counted on. It had been slightly awkward at times, after he’d worked up to returning Nik’s advances where other people might notice it. He hadn’t been making a show of it, just… hadn’t been hiding. It hadn’t been awkward doing it—actually that had been so stupidly easy, it had felt like breathing. Answering very carefully worded questions from his officers had been the awkward part, mostly for them. Especially for Jackson, who’d followed him out of the Marines and had stayed at his right hand for almost a decade now.

Fortunately, no one had been an ass about it. Granted, that was probably a perk of being your own boss. If anyone was dumb enough to be an ass where he could prove it, he could fire them. But honestly, aside from the odd conversations and the usual frustrations that came with dealing with Russians, the mission had wrapped up neatly. Not entirely successful, but certainly far from failure.

Phillip got up and walked over to the bar. One of the bartenders, a woman with dark red hair and glasses whose nametag read Shelly, took notice and put a smile on as he came within conversational distance.

“Is everything alright, sir?” she asked.

“Just fine, thank you,” he answered politely. He set his half-finished whiskey on the rocks down on a coaster. “If I ask you to keep an eye on that while I go use the restroom, would you do that?” He figured it wasn’t much to ask, considering there were all of twenty people in the room, and all but three were his Shadows—his quieter Shadows.

Sue him, he was a little paranoid. He was military, he’d just pissed off some Russians, and he wasn’t at his home base. He was allowed.

Shelly smiled and nodded. “Absolutely, sir. I’ll put it over here for you,” she said, picking it up and setting it behind the bar near her station. “Just ask when you’re back.”

“Much obliged,” he said, taking note of where it had ended up. Then he left.

-scene break-

When he returned, he heard the hum of chatter in the room was about the same as he’d left it. Nothing much had changed. It was still only barely 21:45, so no one was in a hurry to get to bed—not even his Shadows, who’d had a long flight today. Phillip eyed his Shadows, scattered at various booths and tables throughout the room. They seemed to be exactly as he’d left them as well, gathered in their groups of three to five and talking quietly amongst themselves.

The doorway that led down to the restrooms was on the far end of the room from the bar. He’d emerged behind most of the other people in the room, giving him plenty of time to survey the room. He looked around to where he’d been sitting earlier, and stopped.

Now that was fascinating.

Laswell had recommended this hotel, he recalled. She knew it had the capabilities to keep him and his soldiers safe and happy for the time they had to be here. Except, Kate Laswell was not an officer of any military force. She had no troops to command, and rarely traveled in groups who needed such accommodations. Why might she have known about this little place, then?

Phillip smiled to himself, recognizing the back of Nikolai’s head and shoulders at one of the tables near the rows of booths against the back wall. Looking around, he saw John Price standing at the bar, making small talk with the other bartender whose name Phillip didn’t know. He almost did a double-take, then stared, trying to figure out what about John’s person had suddenly made it almost impossible to look away from him.

He figured it out as he walked silently up behind Nik’s chair. Nik, John, and Sergeant Garrick had all had to leave before the mission in Urzikstan had officially resolved, so he hadn’t been there in person for Phillip to share all the amusement he found in putting a few puzzle pieces together about himself. For example, he’d figured out, after those three had left, why he had felt so differently towards Nik when John had clearly been flirting with him over roughly the same amount of time, and Phillip had been just as clueless.

The answer was surprisingly simple. Surprising to him, at least. Again, he had been clueless.

See, Nik had started out as something resembling a friend. If John hadn’t been in the picture, Nik was someone Phillip would have asked out on a date, held hands with, watch a movie with—all those horribly romantic things he’d always felt weird about before.

John? Not quite the same thing.

He’d finally figured out he wanted John to absolutely ruin him, even though he wasn’t entirely sure what that would entail.

And while the dark blue collared shirt and grey jeans John wore now were nothing particularly special on their own, it was the first time Phillip had seen him out of field uniforms and a tac vest. The outfit was nothing if not encouraging.

When he reached Nik’s chair, he put one hand on the back of it, careful not to touch Nik more than brushing his shirt with the back of his knuckles. He knew sneaking up on people with combat training was a gamble already.

“John oughta be more careful,” he said in a low voice, “leaving such a handsome man like you unattended in a bar at night.”

Nik had tensed initially upon realizing someone had snuck up on him. But he had long since recognized Phillip’s voice. He hummed, giving no verbal answer, his shoulders relaxing.

Phillip leaned over, placing his other hand on the tabletop so he was hovering beside Nik’s head. “But then again, with an ass like that, maybe he doesn’t need to be careful,” he said, tilting his head slightly in John’s direction with a small smile.

Nik’s own smile turned a bit devious as he followed the indicated line of sight to John’s ridiculously attractive backside. Then he looked back to Phillip. “Are you suggesting I only stay with him for his looks?”

Phillip turned his head to meet his gaze. “I wouldn’t dream of such an insinuation, Nikolai. I have it on very good authority that you have excellent taste in men.”

That made him laugh softly, his dark eyes crinkling. Phillip had missed the heady, fluttery feeling he got seeing it. The whiskey he’d been drinking earlier couldn’t compare. Nik lifted a hand to place under the far side of Phillip’s jaw, turning his head just a bit more until he could lean in to kiss him.

Phillip gave a silent sigh, leaning into him in return. Yeah, he had missed this too. When Nik released him, he checked the bar and found John hadn’t moved.

“How long are you here?” Nik asked him.

“Just tonight and tomorrow night,” he answered, a little distantly. He was thinking.

“Don’t stare too hard, you’ll burn a hole in those very hard-working jeans,” Nik said with a smile.

Phillip ducked his head and smiled. He pulled his bottom lip between his teeth and glanced back up at the bar before looking at Nik again. “He was flirting with me half the mission.”

“He was, very badly. It was funny when you did it back, though,” Nik said, reaching up to trace the underside of Phillip’s jaw with a fingertip.

He nodded his agreement. He’d only managed it once or twice before John and the rest had left, but the effect had been priceless. The look of shock all over his face right before he’d muttered something like “fuck off” and stalked away had entertained Phillip for days the first time.

“I don’t want to interrupt your evening, but I also feel like you’ll understand perfectly if I tell you this,” he said, keeping his voice low at Nik’s ear.

Nik’s hand remained tucked under his jaw. “I am listening, Лучик,” he murmured.

Phillip was glad the light in the room was low enough to help disguise whatever blush was creeping up the back of his neck. Just because he’d admitted it to himself didn’t mean he knew how to admit it to other people. He’d meant it when he’d said Nik would understand—he was counting on it, actually. “I have been wanting that man to fuck me into oblivion for weeks.”

The smile on Nik’s face widened, gaining a sharp edge. His dark eyes glittered when they turned to him. “I don’t think I would mind such an interruption at all,” he said in that low tone that made Phillip’s knees wobble a bit. “I have it on good authority that he is very good at such things.”

Phillip could practically feel the blood in his body draining south—a fairly novel sensation, he might point out. He hadn’t realized what proper sexual arousal felt like outside of physical stimulation until about a month ago, and that had been almost as groundbreaking as realizing he hadn’t actually been romantically invested in any of his previous relationships.

Nik wasn’t finished speaking, however. “I do have two conditions,” he said. “One, you are doing the work of seducing him, because I want to see that. Two, I will allow the interruption tonight, if I am allowed to have you to myself tomorrow night?” He accentuated the last phrase by taking hold of Phillip’s jaw, turning his face to him, and gently running his thumb across his bottom lip.

This man would be the death of him, Phillip was sure. He grinned, barely resisting the urge to lick his bottom lip. “You got yourself a deal, handsome,” he said. He lifted his hand from the back of Nik’s chair, setting it on his shoulders instead. Before he stood up, Nik pulled him in for a peck on the lips. He squeezed his shoulder in return as he straightened up from where he’d been leaning on the table.

Nik and John must have come here before, he was starting to suspect. John had been standing at the bar, chatting with the other bartender for a while now. Even the most complicated cocktails on the menu here didn’t take that long to make, so there must be some history there. Plus, Phillip remembered he still had to retrieve his own drink from Shelly. He did that first, walking up to her with a polite smile.

“I’ve kept it safe for you sir,” she said, setting it in front of him.

“Thank you very much,” he said, picking the glass up and taking a drink from it. Then he turned to face down the bar towards John. “So why don’t you ever wear jeans in the field, John?”

John stared at him, blue eyes dark and impassive. The bartender he’d been talking to took note and set about actually making drinks. John was silent for a long pause, like he was waiting or looking for something. “Thought those lot might be military,” he said gruffly, gesturing to the nearest table of Shadows.

They weren’t in uniform exactly, but it wasn’t far from it. A few of them wore the company-issued sweaters or jackets. Hell, Phillip himself was wearing a black collared shirt with the Shadow Co. insignia stitched small over the left breast. He was allowed to wear his own merch, he’d founded the damn thing.

“Yeah, we’re stopping over for a couple nights on our way back across the pond,” Phillip explained, stepping closer. “Laswell recommended this place, actually. Guess I know why now, seeing as you’re both lookin’ pretty cozy around here,” he went on, tipping his head towards Nik watching from his table.

John grunted, accepting a pint from the man behind the bar. “Yeah, funny thing,” he muttered, taking a sip, then licking foam from his mustache.

“Gonna answer my question?” Phillip prompted, leaning an elbow on the bar. “Saw plenty of the guys wearin’ jeans in Mexico. Never seen ‘em on you ‘til now.”

It was clear John didn’t quite grasp what he was doing here yet, but was still valiantly trying to figure it out. “We have dress codes for a reason,” he answered, holding his gaze. “They work for job.”

Phillip nodded like he’d actually cared about the reason why. He hadn’t, not truly. “Well, I guess I’m grateful you follow dress codes, then,” he said, raising his glass a little.

He got another outwardly impassive look in response, only briefly interrupted by the bartender placing a second drink near him, presumably for Nik since Phillip had seen vodka go into the mix. “Do I want to know why?” John asked, sounding the slightest bit genuine.

With a slow grin, he leaned in. “’Cause I would’ve been dead six different ways if you’d had these on out there,” he said, helpfully casting his gaze down John’s person to make his point. “’Specially considering you like to lead up front—” He sucked air through his teeth, quirking his eyebrows a hair higher. “Distracting.”

John caught on, finally, rolling his eyes and turning back to his pint. “Fuckin’ Christ,” he muttered, taking another, bigger, drink from it.

“Oh, you can dish it out, but you’re not taking it?” Phillip asked.

“I was not—!” He cut himself off sharply when he caught the smirk on Phillip’s face.

He raised an eyebrow at him. “You weren’t what?” he asked. “When you were watching me check over my weapons and you made me do it twice because you wanted to see how I handled the equipment, and then said I had good handling skills for an American, you weren’t doing what, exactly?” He was being nice enough to keep his voice down, but it did mean he had to get a little closer than a usual conversation.

He would admit, he did enjoy the stern glare he was getting out of this. After a few confusing weeks at the mercy of Nik’s very purposeful flirting and John’s only sometimes purposeful flirting, it was nice to be on the same page for this exchange.

“None of your boys is here, no need to worry about a reputation,” he added quietly. “I’m certainly not.” He wasn’t worried about his reputation, no, but there were plenty of aspects of this conversation he was largely bluffing through. But what else was new for him?

John rolled his eyes minutely. “You’re fuckin’ insufferable since you figured yourself out.”

“I was insufferable before, too. But even then, I couldn’t manage to get under your skin the way I can now, so what does that tell you?”

“Fuck all.”

Phillip smiled again. “Does it bother you that you’re no longer automatically controlling the conversation now that I know what you’re doing?” In his periphery, he saw John’s hand flex and tighten around his pint glass. “I wouldn’t be too concerned. I mean, you’ve still got plenty of experience in other areas that I don’t, so I’d probably let you push me around a bit if you wanted.” Never mind the fact that, like Nik, John’s arms were incredible, and he probably wouldn’t have minded in the first place if either of them wanted to push him around at all.

Huh. Go figure.

For the first time since Phillip had walked over here, John’s eyes weren’t carefully unreadable. Something about his expression had darkened almost imperceptibly, and Phillip couldn’t decide how he felt about the shudder that it sent down his spine.

This time John leaned in a little. “Don’t make an offer you’re not willing to follow up,” he said.

“When have I ever backed out of a good deal, John?” he replied, keeping an easy smile on his face despite his heartrate ticking up just from the tone of John’s voice.

“A deal?”

“I get what I want, you get what you want. Mutually beneficial arrangement.”

A small smile appeared on John’s face as he moved his pint glass a little farther from the edge of the bar. He leaned an elbow on the wooden surface, mirroring Phillip’s position. “You know what you want, just like that?” he asked, his tone finally picking up some of the playful tone Phillip had been using.

Phillip answered truthfully, because it didn’t seem like a good idea to bluff this one. “I’m open to negotiations, if you’ve got ideas all of a sudden.”

It looked like John hadn’t been expecting that answer. That was fair, since Phillip wasn’t particularly known for his abounding sense of humility without ulterior motive. John looked at him silently for a second, then turned back to his pint on the bar. “Damn you,” he muttered as he took another drink.

This was fun. Phillip grinned again, turning his back to the bar and taking up his own drink at last. It was almost gone by now, and he had no desire to stick around to order another one. He found Nik still sitting at his table, watching them both from across the room. He caught Phillip’s grin and smiled.

“He put you up to this?” John asked. When Phillip glanced at him, he added, “Nik, I mean.”

Ah, right. “Nope. Not his idea, just his blessing.” He drank the last of his whiskey and set his glass down on the bar. “Tell you what,” he said, pulling his hotel keycards out of his back pocket (because they always gave you two even when you were clearly one person). He slid one out of the little paper envelope with the room number scrawled on it, and put it back into his pocket. “I will leave you with options,” he said quietly, reaching over to slide the extra keycard with its little envelope into the breast pocket of John’s shirt.

John let him do it, following his every move carefully, but remaining still.

Then he walked away, down the bar to Shelly to pay for his drink before he left. It took great effort not to glance sideways at John still standing at the other end of the bar. He almost broke when he had to look back up at Shelly with a polite smile and wish her a nice evening, but he held his ground. He put his wallet back in his pocket and left the bar.

-scene break-

Just over ten minutes after Phillip had arrived back in his hotel room, he heard the small beep and click of someone using a keycard to open his door. His initial reaction was one of relief, because the past ten minutes or so had been some of the most uncomfortable in his life for many reasons—not least of which was he couldn’t recall a time in recent memory he’d literally been so horny he couldn’t think straight.

No, the comedy of that phrase was not lost on him.

He closed his laptop, pushing his chair away from the desk where he’d been using his emails as a distraction. John closed the door behind him and came forward to stand in the doorway where the main room met the little entryway. He folded his arms and leaned against one wall, crossing one leg over the other as he did. Phillip didn’t try to disguise the fact that he was staring.

“You still open to negotiations?” he asked.

Phillip leaned back in his chair, stretching his legs out and setting one stocking foot over the other. “Yep. Get any inspiration on your way up here?”

He supposed in any other situation, the look in John’s eyes would have set him on edge the same way a raid siren might. It was a dark, intelligent, dare he say hungry expression, and all it did now was make a low heat ignite in his gut and his dick twitch in his pants. John pushed off the wall, unfolding his arms as he walked over to Phillip’s chair. He set the keycard down on the desk, then grabbed an arm of the chair to turn it so they were facing each other.

“I’m going to ask you some questions and I would like honest answers to them,” he said, now leaning over him with a hand on each of the chair’s arms. “Think you can manage that, Phillip?”

Phillip’s mouth went unexpectedly dry. He nodded, running his tongue over his bottom lip. “Doesn’t sound too difficult, no.”

John gave a small smile, but his eyes still held that focused, almost predatory expression. “Good. Am I allowed to kiss you?”

“Yes.”

He didn’t kiss him immediately, which might have fried something in the back of Phillip’s brain out of sheer anticipation. Unfair. “Good,” he went on instead. “Downstairs, you’d said I could push you around a bit. Did you mean that literally? Am I allowed to pull you around a bit?”

Fuck, of course he’d remembered that. It took a considerable amount of willpower not to curl in on himself under John’s gaze, but he didn’t. He gave another nod while his tongue caught up with his brain. “Yeah, I meant that literally,” he breathed, feeling like a bug pinned to a board. Only, he’d crawled onto the board himself and stayed put while the pin came down.

John nodded once. “You understand that if I say or do something you don’t like, you will say something, and vice versa, yes?”

Phillip gave him a flat stare. “John, I’ve had sex before. I know how consent works.”

“Fine then,” he said. He grabbed both of Phillip’s wrists, one in each hand, and hauled him bodily upright out of the chair.

Phillip made note of two things. One, the show of strength had been undeniably hot and had flooded his brain with another wave of arousal that quickly drained right to his dick. Two, John was still in his shoes whereas Phillip stood in socks, which made their height difference that much more noticeable. All told, he felt almost… small. Before he could think further into how he felt about that, John’s mouth had found his, and thinking was no longer important.

Admittedly, he’d thought about what it would feel like to kiss John. He’d never kissed anyone with facial hair, after all, because Nik preferred a clean face, and it had obviously never come up in his previous relationships. Turned out, Phillip didn’t really care. Yes, he could feel it tickling his face, and yes, it required a bit of maneuvering sometimes, but he didn’t care. Possibly he didn’t care because he’d been dying to get his hands on this man for weeks; possibly because he was harder than he’d been in recent memory and the prospect of relief was overshadowing a lot of other things at the moment; and possibly because John had just shoved him up onto the desk he’d been sitting at, and keeping his balance took the rest of his brain power.

“Fucking shit,” he hissed, once again aware of how achingly uncomfortable his jeans were becoming. He’d never been pushed around like this—he’d been the one doing any manhandling, usually because the lady had asked very nicely. But fuck, he could understand the appeal.

“Good?” John asked. He’d long since let go of Phillip’s wrists, now gripping his hips instead.

Phillip didn’t bother answering such a stupid question. He hooked his left arm around his neck and grabbed his collar with the right hand, pulling him back in to keep kissing him. John lurched forward with the usual grace of someone caught off guard, inadvertently pressing one of his thighs (his large, muscled, and horrendously attractive thighs) directly into Phillip’s groin.

Phillip moaned into his mouth, his hips involuntarily pressing forward against the pressure. He broke away to breathe, to try to clear his head that felt like it was swimming with want. He barely got a breath in when John’s hands pulled his hips back against his leg, and the rush of pleasure forced half the air from his lungs anyway. He growled, catching a glimpse of the smug smile on John’s face right before he kissed it, perhaps a bit more forcefully than was strictly necessary. Judging by the noise it got from John, though, neither of them cared.

He felt John’s tongue press against the seam of his lips with clear intent at the same time he felt the man’s hands tugging his shirt out of his waistband. He let both happen, groaning softly when John’s warm palms fit snugly around his ribs and his tongue slid into his mouth. Again, it was something Phillip had never understood to be particularly pleasant, let alone attractive, but he was discovering a lot of things made more sense when he was actually attracted to the person in question. John’s leg ground up against him again, drawing a quiet groan from him as he tried desperately to hold onto his composure.

It wasn’t easy. The warmth from John’s hands was making goose bumps erupt in their wake along his sides, across his lower back, and slowly trailing higher. The movement of his leg against the bulge in Phillip’s jeans turned slow and repetitive, pulling small noises from his throat even as he tried to hold them back. He could feel his body heating up as wave after wave of pleasure crashed over him, until he realized the situation was heading towards a conclusion far faster than he’d wanted.

He reached up with the arm still looped around John’s neck, weaving fingers into John’s hair and holding him there when he broke away from the kiss. “Will you cut that out,” he said, breathing hard, “and do something more constructive?”

The smug little smile was back on John’s face. He squeezed Phillip’s ribs and leaned in until their foreheads were pressed together. “You were making such pretty noises for me, though,” he murmured.

Phillip turned his head away, blushing deeply. That only gave John the opportunity to duck his head and start covering his jaw and ear and neck with hot, open-mouthed kisses. Without really thinking, Phillip tilted his head back, allowing him more room.

He gave a small gasp when John began sucking a mark below his ear. “Fucking Christ, John,” he whined, dragging his fingernails through the short hairs on the back of John’s head. “Please—shit, John—"

John made a low noise in his throat, detaching from his neck and licking over his handiwork once or twice. “God, if I had the fucking time,” he said into his ear, sliding his hands back down to rest on Phillip’s hips and squeezing, “I would keep you here for hours with just my fingers until you couldn’t remember your own name and just begged me to fuck you properly.”

A shudder ran down Phillip’s spine, making his stomach clench and his hips twitch forward of their own accord. Evidently, he wouldn’t mind that at all. Great. Not currently helpful, however. He closed his eyes as John once again mouthed at the underside of his jaw, struggling to put together a sentence that made sense. “Yeah, okay. But since it sounds—hah, fuck—like you don’t have the time, what—mm—what are we doing now?”

John pulled back to look at him with the same infuriating self-satisfied expression. “Impatient—”

“Yes.”

That made his eyebrows lift slightly. “Fine. Can I suck you off?”

Finally. “Yes, you can absolutely—” Phillip never finished the sentence.

As soon as the first word was out of his mouth, John pulled him off the desk, turned him around, and pushed him onto the foot of the nearest bed. He only managed to stay upright by grabbing onto one of John’s biceps. It didn’t really matter, though, because the second his ass hit the bedspread, John’s mouth found his again, and he felt himself being eased slowly and very deliberately onto his back. John licked into his mouth again, and his hand not currently supporting his weight snaked up and into Phillip’s hair, gently pulling his head back slightly. Fuck, did it feel good, too. If his eyes weren’t already closed, they probably would have crossed.

John pulled away, his hand sliding down along Phillip’s face to his collar, resting on the first button. “Still good?”

Phillip tried to answer, but the words “what” and “yeah” both wanted to come out of his mouth at the same time. It ended up as an unintelligible noise half-way between both words. He blinked, a little confused as to why that hadn’t made sense, and then John burst into poorly restrained but genuine, honest-to-God giggles. Phillip covered his face, a blush searing his ears and cheeks as John buried his face in his chest to laugh.

After a couple seconds, he lifted it to say, “How’re you already fucked dumb when I haven’t even touched you?” He was still smiling fit to burst.

Phillip hit his shoulder. “Oh, shut up!”

“I’m not making fun of you,” John said, leaning down and starting to press kisses across his cheeks and jaw.

Phillip let him, because it felt good. “Yeah, sure.” But it didn’t feel good enough to let it continue indefinitely. He reached up and grabbed John’s chin, forcing eye contact. “Did your mother never teach you not to play with your food?” he asked pointedly. “I thought you asked to suck my dick, and my belt buckle has yet to be undone.” He raised his eyebrows a hair and tilted his head in lieu of asking John if he could see what the problem was.

There were still traces of amusement all over John’s face, but all he did was peck him on the lips before pushing himself up a bit. “Undo your shirt,” he said. He watched as Phillip did so, waiting until he was more than halfway through the buttons before he reached to undo Phillip’s belt, the button and fly following quickly afterwards.

Phillip sighed to himself when at least some of the pressure was taken off his erection, then yelped when John dragged his jeans off with enough force to pull him to the edge of the bed. He pushed himself up on his elbows to ask what the fuck, but the words stopped short of his mouth when John’s hand slid over the tent in his underwear, squeezing him gently. Whatever he’d been about to say melted into a moan as his head lolled back. The sound was loud enough to surprise himself, and he reflexively put a hand to his mouth.

John clicked his tongue, leaning over him again to take his hand from his mouth. His other hand moved slowly, slipping under the waistband of his shorts. “None of that now,” he said in a low voice. “Told you already what pretty sounds you make.” He bent down closer. “I wanna hear ‘em, Phillip. Yes?”

Phillip nodded wordlessly, mostly too preoccupied with the trajectory of John’s other hand to really protest.

“Good man,” John told him. He ran his thumb over his bottom lip before ducking down to press his mouth to Phillip’s neck. He trailed lower, dipping his tongue into the hollow of his throat and then moving to suck another mark just below his collarbone.

Phillip watched him, feeling like someone had lit fire to a trail of gasoline in the wake of John’s mouth on his skin. Beneath the obvious buzz of desire, there was a more subtle feeling building, and it was sort of familiar. John was making him feel wanted, like Nik did any chance he got, it seemed. When John reached his stomach as he kissed his way down his body, he let out a sharp breath at the tingly, giddy feeling that washed over him. John lifted his head to look at him and smiled, which finally made Phillip realize he’d had a small smile stuck on his face for a while now.

He might actually like John. That was interesting.

John finished decorating Phillip’s front with kisses and finally slid Phillip’s underwear off, sinking to his knees as he did, and letting them fall in a pile with his jeans near the bed. The sudden freedom made Phillip groan in the back of his throat. His dick was almost painfully hard, the head a clear shade of red and beading precum already. Phillip watched, still propped up on his elbows, as John made himself comfortable between his legs. The dark, almost hungry expression was back in his eyes, and as much as it made a blush rise to his cheeks and ears to be this exposed to its intensity, he couldn’t find it in himself to look away. John wrapped his right arm under Phillip’s thigh and hoisted his leg over his shoulder, all while still focused on his main goal.

He wrapped his other hand around the base of Phillip’s dick, making him hiss at the contact. John smirked. “Could get used to a view like this if I’m not careful.”

Before Phillip could respond with some remark in return, John flattened his tongue and licked up the shaft from his hand, finally taking the tip into his mouth and running his tongue over the slit.

Phillip’s shirt slipped off one of his shoulders and he didn’t even notice. “Holy shit,” he breathed, his voice sounding higher than it usually did.

He watched John take more of him into his mouth, then slowly pull back, pressing his tongue against the underside of the shaft and squeezing his hand lightly. Phillip’s leg twitched, trying to close on his head, but the arm John had wrapped around it held it in place firmly. He let out a shaky breath, like he’d just remembered to breathe in that moment, which was fairly accurate. He watched, utterly fixated, as John’s movements got longer, taking in more of him, and occasionally felt his dick twitch against the roof of his mouth or against his tongue. God, it felt fucking incredible. John’s mouth was hot and smooth sliding over him, bobbing up and down, steadily picking up a little speed as he swallowed him inch by inch and his hand covered less and less of him.

Phillip’s hips gave an aborted thrust without him meaning to as a rush of arousal shot through him at the sight. John made a noise that sounded more surprised than anything else, and he didn’t take his mouth of Phillip’s dick. Still— “Fuck, sorry—” Phillip started to say, and never finished.

John looked up at him sharply, then gave a harsh suck as he drew back, effectively negating any speaking ability Phillip might have had in the moment.

His head fell back with a loud moan he didn’t have the wherewithal to even try to cover up. “Jesus Christ,” he wheezed, his heart pounding in his ears. “Point taken, holy fuck.” He let his head hang back with his eyes closed as his mind went somewhat dizzy with pleasure.

John didn’t let up, however. If anything, he got more insistent now that he knew how to get a reaction out of him. This wasn’t the first blow job he’d ever had, but it was certainly the best by leaps and bounds. Granted, that made sense, given the whole “Not Figuring Out His Sexuality Until a Month Ago” thing. Phillip’s brain was so overwhelmed, he had little idea of the specifics outside of it being John’s mouth around his dick, and it feeling fucking wonderful. Too wonderful—he could already feel his climax threatening on the edge of his senses. Although… that was sort of the whole point here, wasn’t it?

It felt like his head weighed a hundred pounds trying to pull it back to its usual position, but he finally did focus back on John’s slightly tousled brown hair. He made a low noise just taking in the sight again, struggling to keep coherency in his thoughts as he watched. “Fuck me,” he breathed, his hips once again trying to buck up deeper into John’s beautiful, talented mouth. It drew a groan from John, sending vibrations up the length of Phillip’s dick still in his mouth. One of his hands reached out in a flash, grabbing onto John’s hair. “Holy—God fucking—John!”

John’s eyes flicked up, meeting his gaze as he drew back, his cheeks hollowed as he sucked and his lips shining with spit.

Phillip loosened his hold on his hair, taking a breath shaky with the effort of not coming just yet despite John’s concerted efforts. “’M not gonna last—shit,” he started to say, but was derailed yet again by watching his dick disappear into John’s mouth. He watched, his hand never moving from John’s hair, as John’s nose came to rest in the light brown hairs surrounding the base of his dick.

He felt his dick jump in John’s throat—in his throat, holy fucking shit, first of all. It drew another low groan from him, sending more vibrations through Phillip’s body and pushing him closer and closer towards the edge. Phillip watched John’s blue eyes flutter closed briefly in utter satisfaction, and felt his fingers dig into the soft skin on his inner thigh. It was as beautiful as it was obscenely hot.

“Jesus fucking Christ, John, I’m close,” he managed, his voice tight. “Where—”

John’s eyes snapped to his, and the arm wrapped around his leg tightened its hold. He swallowed.

Phillip’s mouth dropped open silently, and he only barely resisted rolling his hips up into John’s mouth as his orgasm hit him with all the grace of a baseball bat to the head. He came down John’s throat with a punched-out gasp that faded into a low whine, one hand still buried in his hair, the other gripping the bedspread while his vision swam. He felt John swallow around him again, the muscles in his neck squeezing his cock perfectly while he enjoyed the sheer force and magnitude of pleasure currently making his toes curl and his head feel fuzzy in a way he couldn’t remember experiencing previously.

When the high eventually eased, Phillip finally untangled his fingers from John’s hair and didn’t quite collapse onto the bed, but it was a near thing. His limbs sort of felt like jello, and his brain was only a little better than that. He felt John pull off of him, then felt the edge of the bed dip when he used it to stand up. Fuck, he needed to do things. He wasn’t exactly sure which things, given this was a vastly different scenario than previous encounters. But he’d feel like an asshole later if he didn’t at least try.

He sat up in time to see John disappear into the adjoining bathroom, and he was too tired to overthink why. Instead, he reached down to grab his underwear back from the floor, only to stop when he found them on the bed within reach. That was definitely not where he’d seen John drop them. Okay. He put them on, finally just ditching his shirt, figuring he’d be getting into pajamas not too long after this anyway.

John returned, carrying the two plastic cups the hotel had supplied in the room. One was empty, the other was full, and he offered the latter to Phillip. “Drink, if you want.”

“Thanks,” he said, accepting the cup more for something to do than for a need for water. But he took a couple sips before reaching out to put on the desk near the foot of the bed.

John reached a hand out as he was settling back onto the bed, carefully combing calloused fingers through his hair. Phillip had no doubt it was sticking up at odd angles. John seemed to have fixed his hair, which was only slightly disappointing, because he’d wanted to see what he’d done to it. He leaned into the touch. John’s hand left his hair, skimming the side of his face until it was under his chin, tilting his face up towards John.

“Enjoyed that, did you?” he asked.

Phillip hummed. “Funny thing. Sex is a lot more fun when you’re genuinely attracted to someone.” John rolled his eyes, letting his hand drop to his side. Phillip went on. “Speaking of which, you want a hand there?” It was kind of hard to miss, considering he was roughly eye-level with the noticeable bulge at the front of John’s jeans. “Or is that something Nik gets to deal with later?”

John paused and half-sat on the edge of the desk with a small grimace of discomfort, appearing to consider his options. He glanced at the clock on the bedside table, then at the door back out to the rest of the hotel. Finally, he looked back over at Phillip for a few seconds before he shrugged and stood up, putting his empty cup down on the desk. “Fine. Get up.” Phillip stood up. John grabbed his chin carefully and kissed him firmly. “Let’s see if your handling skills are any good, for an American.”

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Scum Villian's Self-Saving System Vol. 4 by Mo Xiang Tong Xiu

Character 5| Setting 5| Plot 3.5| Writing 3.5| Enjoyability 4

Rating: 4.2 Spice Level: 2/5

I have finally read the extra fanfics of this series all ref constantly Bingmei VS Bingge! I enjoyed this as it feels fun and it's nice to see how different our vision of LBH is to Airplane's OG Binghe! It was so sad that he wanted SQQ to come with him, and annoyed that he didn't get what he wanted. Binghe then getting sad that SQQ thought Binghe was better at sex was kind of funny, but I actually don't really care for the sex scenes between them because it just feels not great.

I loved the Succubi extra is fun and seeing LQG getting jealous of a rando(Binghe obviously) that the Madam Meiyin's fortune telling. SQQ is so oblivious to everyone's feelings about him…sir please notice this angry boi flirting with you. I would also be super frustrated if I was LQG. Did not like the casual Transphobia of SQQ in this chapter though. Not cool my dude.

The Shen Jiu extras…I felt so bad for SJ. He was so misunderstood. I don't want to talk too much because you learn a lot about the OG goods and I think it's important. One of my favorite things about this is just the relationship of SJ and YGY was so important. Even his relationship with LQG, so good. None of this story excuses his abuse of LBH, he does regret it, but what can his regret do? I do see why he has so many fans and I can count myself among at least feel so bad for him. Maybe just dont take a child and abuse them just cause you think they had a better child and chance then you my dude. Ok??

The TLJ and SX extra was short and cute! Really is kind of funny of SQQ original vision of him and how he's just a little poetry and book loving guy who just wants to be spoiled.. just a little guy and SX just being like allright you keep owing me money little guy. I thought they were cute and it is very funny to see.

Airplane extras were so funny. He's just a pathetic dude I laughed so much during his extras. Also it was super funny to me that he told LBH that he should be pathetic to SQQ so SQQ will like him. It worked but WHY DID YOU SAY THAT?? MBJ being like….does this mean SQH likes me and then asking SQH being like being pathetic means you like them? SQH yeah it does! MBJ:omg he likes me. I see why Moshang is so popular. I did love that scene where SQH leaves MBJ and he freaks out on him. They had a lot of great moments.

The rest of the extras are just cute BingQui moments I liked all of these they were so cute! Binghe being Jealous of SQQ giving other people his attention being the norm. I did find it funny that Binghe started to read Regret of Chunshan outloud and being all smug about it and SQQ being flustered. It was very funny.

Airplane, why did you think the interview question was a good idea…..It was so funny that most of the questions SQQ was like I don't want to answer this and LBH just being like stop asking questions that just make Shizun mad! And getting mad at Airplane.

The Wedding Chapter was cute except for the weird sex scene. I thought it was cute SQQ whispered husband to LBH, but LBH not hearing was so sad dude. all you want he said husband just listen to his pathetic self.

Something I really liked about all these extras is it was about the world as a whole and not just the main couple. Most of them were really fun!

[my-castles-crumbling]

Hi cas!!! Outed anon here

First of all i just finished calendestine and MAN that was AMAZING like literally you are a god for having the patience and motivation to write all that bcz wtf.

TW: minor mentions of alkochol use; some weird possesive acting?

Second of all i have a problem and this problem isn't even mine. So few weeks ago a sended you an ask about my friend who had been breaking the boundaries. I talked with him and we are all good again that was just an missuderstanding of some sort. But now there is a different thing and i'm not sure what to do. For me the school year started on september first (high school a scary scary place to be) and we both went to different schools. We are friends with oposite gender so i often hear we will end up together or we get nasty comments while walking fown the street with each other. Its not a possibility bcz im a girl kisser (and a nb person but thats a side note). He recently introduced me with his classmate (lets call her katie). Well, katie seemed really nice at first and i really thought that she is a good person, since they are flirting and its starting to become a situationship of some sort. I thought she treated him well and wasn't like his last girlfriend (she had some things going on with alcochol and tried to push him into it with her) which in my country is unfortunatelly a very usuall thing (most of people my age are alcocholics) (im not even 16). So yeah she seemed cool and was very friendly. It was untill i mentioned i have an ex (in my lauguage you have a gendered word for it so it was obiviously about a girl) and she was off. I aprecieted that Sam (lets call the guy bestie that) didn't outed me without my knowlege but i wouldn't mind if he mentioned it to her as a form of reasurence we dont have a romantic friendship thats so pupularised by the media. After i told her i dated girls she became dry and distant. Nasty comments and would clinge to Sam harder then before. I don't really get the reaction but after the meating ended and i got home i noticed he blocked me on facebook (so we couldn't talk by messanger). I texted him on instagram where i was unblocked with a question why he blocked me. I understand this could be an honest mistake so i want agressove passesive or anything. He answered me that katie decided he shouldnt meet me anymore and blocked me on his phone before she left?????? I thpught this was weird. At first i thought she was a homophobe but it soon became a false statemnet bc she is bi. I had exstra classrs with sam today anf he said she became really snapy and was activly hating on me to him. I dont really knoww what to do bcz as far as he told me she reacted similar after meeting every single on of his frriends after any minor mentions of having a parter or an ex. Im not sure what it means and also im kinda worried she will try to isolate him from his friends, bcz he is an exstravery anf that would have a pretty bad inpact on him. Do you have any ideas what to do? I tried to talk to him but he really likes her and doesn't see anything weird in the way she acts. Maybe im the one who is imagining things???

Help

Hi!

I'm so glad you liked Clandestine, thank you so much!

Honestly, I would ask some of his other friends of they're seeing similar things happen. If they are, you should all get together and gently talk to him. It sounds like she's trying to pull him away from his friends and that's not cool. He needs to hear from multiple people that this isn't okay. Don't make him feel ganged up on, but make it clear that it's not just you feeling this way, you know?

Sending love!

[prettyboyhowl]

I just had to steal this question from other blogs and ask here. How would the ROs react if someone was flirting with the MC? Let's say during the crushing stage and romance 😈

Devious! This was fun to answer, thank you anon :)

Under the cut because it's long haha:

Gil:

Crushing: His heart twinges with pain and jealousy, but he forces it aside. For Gil, his first and foremost concern is whether or not you're actually comfortable with being flirted with. If you are, he dies inside while forcing himself to be not just fine with it but over-compensatingly supportive. If you're not, he'll be there in a heartbeat to give you an out. "MC, hey." His smile drops momentarily as his eyes flicker over to the person next to you, but it's back when he looks at you. "Let's go."

Romance: Again, the most important thing is that you're comfortable. "MC hey, I've been looking for you." As he leads you away he looks back over his shoulder at the person, pointing at you then jabbing a thumb at himself. 'We're. Dating.' he mouths, finishing with a finger heart to really accentuate the point.

Eddie:

Crushing: Runs interference with such a nonchalant smile that no one (including you) could tell they know exactly what they're doing. It helps that they're your best friend and they use that very much to their advantage, showing off how close the two of you are to the person who's flirted with you. "Oh MC, there you are! I've been looking for you, let's go home. Also you left things in my room again," they roll their eyes playfully, not minding if their words are misinterpreted a bit. "Oh, sorry," they glance at the person you're with, "Were you two in the middle of something?"

Romance: "Hey, um, they're taken," they say gently but firmly, slipping their hand into yours. They turn to look at you, mouth tilting up teasingly. "Right?"

Ernestine:

Crushing: Annoying. She's so annoyed by the sight, but it's not like the two of you are dating, so she forces herself to walk away. For the rest of the day, she's in a bad mood. It's not like you've done anything wrong so she doesn't want to be mad at you, but she's worried she will be so she purposely avoids you instead until she's calmer.

Romance: It's funny for her to watch, more than anything. Look at this idiot, thinking they have a chance. If you need help getting out of it she'll come and plainly tell the person that you're taken. "Excuse me, you're flirting with my partner." (Otherwise she'll just catch your eye from afar and wave amusedly.)

Otto:

Crushing: Oh. You're great, of course someone's flirting with you. Discomfort rises in her chest. She tries to carelessly ask you about it later, hiding the way it made her heart hurt. "Looks like you're pretty popular, hey? Saw that person flirting with you… what a loser," she scoffs. She doesn't mean it, not really, but she can't stop herself from throwing a jab at them anyways.

Romance: She steps up next to you and wraps an arm around you casually. "Hey. Who's this?" She smiles at the person flirting with you and suddenly they hear the Miguel O'Hara theme playing, a polite smile with thinly concealed warning: This one's mine. Stay away or else.

Lemon Sorbet:

Crushing: Would very likely accidentally interfere. "MC," he waves at you brightly, already walking over. Just the sight of you makes his day, he barely even noticed there was someone else with you. "It's so nice to see you," he says warmly, cheeks flushed. "Oh, who are you? Any friend of MC's is a friend of mine."

Romance: It's pretty much the same as the crushing stage where he doesn't realise what he's stepped into the middle of, but now that you're dating he addresses you much more affectionately. "My love! How fortunate I am to see you here. Oh, sorry, I didn't mean to interrupt your conversation, I just got so excited when I saw you," he chuckles sheepishly.

[batmanisagatewaydrug]

cw: mentions of fatphobia, body image issues, gendered beauty standards

hey sex witch! love and appreciate your sex ed posts and the resources you've shared. i noticed that you've answered some asks about becoming more comfortable with expressing sexual attraction, and finding ways to see yourself as desirable -- i was wondering if you had any similar thoughts about becoming more comfortable with other people expressing attraction to you, especially verbally. it's something i'd really like to start enjoying in a casual way (i'm more okay with it within a long-term relationship or a kink dynamic, partly because it's something i can negotiate), but it's pretty consistently something that feels "off" for me and kills my interest. i don't want to react that way! i actively want to enjoy it, especially with people i otherwise like and connect with, and i feel like i might enjoy it a lot someday if the circumstances were right or if i changed my mindset/framing. plus, i know that i really like complimenting people i'm attracted to (if i know that they like it and i know what it means to them), and i'd like that to be a mutual thing.

to be clear, i haven't experienced sexual trauma, i'm nondysphoric (transmasc), and i'd say that i really like my appearance (in a nonsexual/aesthetic sense), so i think i can rule out a few of the common reasons that people feel this way. others have suggested that i might be aspec/demisexual when i've talked about my experiences, but i've gone through that particular questioning process before (and identified as aroace/"not interested" for most of my life), and i feel like it's probably something else.

i think a significant part of the problem is that when people have flirted with me/said that i'm physically attractive, they've usually referenced beauty standards that i'm both very opposed to and which are at odds with my sexuality and what i see as beautiful. i'm a guy who's always been viewed as thin and as having a "conventionally androgynous" (?) body type, and i've generally been attracted to people with body types and/or presentations that are noticeably different from mine -- that includes feminine-presenting people, fat and chubby people, and trans and gnc people who present in ways that combine masculinity and femininity. i've pretty much never been attracted to men who look like me. but when people compliment me on my appearance, they often compliment my body type or size directly or indirectly, and i feel like there's a certain undertone of "i'm labeling you as attractive because you don't look like Those People." i don't want to be around that attitude, and i don't find it flattering or "nice."

i generally wouldn't want to assume that a person who uses these compliments actually has extremely normative views on sex, is fatphobic, etc., and i believe that attraction is morally neutral no matter what your "type" is. it's not like i don't have specific preferences myself, though i probably have some biases that i'm not yet aware of. the whole idea of people being attracted to you because of aspects of your appearance that you didn't choose is...inherently messy, i think. i also know that in most cases, i can just leave, or ask people not to talk about me in these terms. but i still find the whole thing alienating and off-putting, to such an extent that i feel disconnected from most discussions and portrayals of sexuality, especially re: attraction to men. and that's on top of having to deal with the very common assumption that it's a universal experience for women and trans people to hate their bodies and want certain types of validation (but that's kind of a separate issue that i won't get into here).

do you have any thoughts on how to navigate this? i feel like i might be missing something important, but maybe i just need to understand and accept what doesn't work for me.

thanks!

hi anon,

I hate to be so brief when you've presented me with a veritable novella, but listen: you've already answered your own question here.

if I'm reading this right sounds like what you're experiencing isn't an issue of disliking compliments because you lack self esteem, but disliking compliments that are focusing on your body in ways that you don't enjoy. the problem in this scenario really isn't on your end. no matter how well-meaning people might be, you're not under any obligation to make yourself enjoy compliments that make you uneasy, and I'm certainly not going to be the person who tries to tell you how considering I operate my own life almost entirely around the notion that if it sucks, one must hit da bricks ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

you already said it yourself: if you don't like the way someone talks to you, especially if they're someone you'd like to continue having a relationship and building rapport with, the best move is to ask them not to talk about you that way. (if they're someone you'll never see again and don't give a shit about, by all means just blow it off.) if they're not cool with that boundary, awesome! you've learned something very important about them and can terminate that potential relationship immediately.

[murkystarlight]

Dreamzzz season2 spoilers pt. 4

(And my personal comments)

Episode 8

Now. I wanted to end it all here. But I thought I'd separate the final episode from the others and so that we would have 5 parts :) (I just like the numbers like that. Okay?)

The name of the episode has so much meaning- oh god...

The deer- 😭 how did it even end up there?? And Zoey saving it- the tightrope (how did it even end up in the cyber realm??)

"Stop! Stop! Shoo!"

You're supposed to be saving it- but I guess you have to be alive to do so (also, the sounds it makes when it nibbles on the rope- lol)

"It's easy to get scared when you're all alone" (awh-)

[Bird sounds]

"There you are! You know, I could've used your help with this"

Zian is just trying to give you a cool moment on screen. Be nice

Zian is ADORABLE-

"Jeez. Always thinking with your stomach"

That's why Zian is so adorable

Mrs. Castillo is such a nice woman. Wise and kind and... and... smart?

"Izzie, if I tell you a secret, promise not to freak out?"

"[Sqealing] Tell me what it is!"

She is already freaking out-...

"The anticipation is already killing me"

I lover her eyes. When they go all big and sparkly. So pretty. And cute

Zoey taking about her problems to Izzie is so- aughhhh sshe trusts her well enough And- and stuff! She's sharing stuff like this to her because she now is able to open up to them

"What happened? Did he apologize? Did he explain where he's been? Did he reveal a dark secret that he's been leading a double life this whole time and he couldn't tell you in order to keep you safe?"

Izzie our trustworthy ally of an anime watcher. She saw enough shows to know this. And she is... very right about it. I didn't notice this before... wow. She- she guessed his entire life

"I'm curious what lava feels like, but I'm not gonna go stick my hand in it"

Why not Zoey? Why not?

Izzie looks so happy for her-..

And Zoey's frown-

"What class is this for?

"It's not for class. It gives me an edge when I face Astrid in the trials. Without being able to Dream Craft, I don't stand a chance against her"

"But! I got to thinking about how you're dealing with your missing memories, so I figured I'd try something totally different too. Totally unexpected."

"Like-... studying?"

"Exactly! [Doing a small jump] She'll never see it coming!"

Logan studying! So he can look good in front of Astrid(or to beat her. Or-... feel better about himself?)!

"He knows you actually have to read those, right?"

[Nodding]

"Logan, nobody wants to beat Royce's protégé more than I do,but I'll be honest, in this next round, you're going to be facing the most diabolical, most menacing, most insidious things you've ever seen"

"An alarm clock" with- a very serious voice

oh... wow. Okay

"Oh~! Squeal! It's so cute!" (Did she really say "sqeal"? Mood) "Look at those big, dreamy eyes!"

The clock is cute? No, you're cute! (...am I flirting with a lego? Y'know what forget it)

And Mateo and Cooper in the background- just staring at her blankly lol (the background is really interesting to look at in this season) and when they get told to stop Logan while he tried to catch the clock, Izzie's pose- it's so cute😍 and again, Mateo and Cooper just like- blank

The alarm clock went to 19 to 12 seconds a bit too fast...? I think

"Wah, wait. Why are you guys backing up? Is it my breath? Oh, nuts!"

The alarm wasn't a loud one. I guess it's just dream magic?

"If you and Mr. Oz are sort of the same, why do you stay here in the Dream World when he wakes up?" I was thinking the same thing! So many questions about Albert! Unsolved!!

We. Need. Answers!

"Isn't there a part of you that's always dreaming?" (But this doesn't satisfy all the questions I have)

So.... they're just training with all these random people being there with them?

Well unicorns! And Mateo's actually doing something! And Cooper- ...I thought you moved on from the vehicles (his face literally reads "yeah. I thought I did too. Why did I do that?")

Astrid has great neck movement(?). You think she can do the arm thing? Like the noodle arms or.. whatever you call it

"One may be able to conquer without being able to do it"

He read the books!! Hallelujah!

Zoey was here the whole time? I was honestly kinda surprised when I was the episode for the first time. What do you mean she was just standing there this whole time?

"This better not be BFF talk" what's bff talk? That thing exists?

Also, what does Izzie mean by "I won't ask about you dad again" again?? You mean- she just constantly kept asking about him? Trying to help Zoey? Ooh so nice

"We get to throw things at Logan"

"Oh man, there goes Cooper! This things gnarly"

The throwing-... and Cooper again. Why is he always the punching bag in the back? Poor guy... (also, if you wake up in a dream as an aware dreamer unexpectedly, or was forced, what's wrong with that? Can't you just... fall asleep again? Or... does some weird magic in the dream world stop you from doing that?)

Izzie, I thought you said you won't ask about her dad-

And do these kids really not know that they divorced or something? Or.. maybe something else happened? Idk

And-- Cooper's back? What- how does this work? Did he never wake up? Was it just a close call? If you can just fall back asleep, what about Mr. Oz??!

And Logan was literally under a couch. A darn couch

Logan being determined- and Astrid turning the alarm back on- she likes them. Shes not exactly a bully. More like a.... "it's TRUE I'm better than you. You have to be better than this" .....okay. that still sounds bad-

Zoey's aunt is- so kind

"Bro-ther.... you know those are poisonous for cats. Right?" And it's already going horribly

The pictures-

Is that red vines?

"Watching Astrid train seemed like a good idea, but man. I'm getting concerned"

"Yeah, I just feel worse now"

We've got these fella's

"Ohhhh~ pretty"

And her.

"Take it down!" *his eyes- look at his eyes in this scene

"What's your problem~ why you gotta ruin our target practice"

"Because that's my daughter!"

Woah- omg~ no wayyyy *shocked*

"What?!"

"I mean, I... I don't see a resemblance" -well of course not, you think he actually looks like a shadow??

"I had no choice. If the Nightmare king knew he would've use it against me!" Still has the same morals.... *sigh*

"Why do you think I kept letting her go?"

"To be honest, I just thought you were a lousy henchman" -I love you Susan, you beautiful nightmare thing

He admits it

"There~ he goes again"

"Ughhhh"

Look at Zoey smiling! She was happy her dad was there in the dream

And the fact that he remembered that she likes licorice as a kid- it's so cute and sweet

Afraid of getting hurt-

Beau probably already has a lot of experience flying. But he was acting(?) like he was so excited and this was his first time-... and Zoey hugging him- awwww father-daughter moment

"Hey, dad. I got some like.. a contest.. or test.. or something come watch it!"

Definitely sounds legit(the only trap. It is legit)

Beau being like- oh... um.... castle what? Uh-... mr Oz? Uh... um....

Eating hotdogs- I swear to god Cooper, food doesn't have to become your whole new personality!

Snot-bug heh cute

Logan being the only one running- like Oh....kay

The flying pizza-

I like how Mateo fell and hit the clock, rolling down the stairs... just like how you wake up. Not me. I don't have an alarm

Izzie and Zian is friends for a reason

Yay! Go Takashi~ also, the way they said his name?

Also, the dreamling costume is like- adorable! But how did he pull that off? You mean no one thought it would be weird that a dreamling is that big?

But Beau trying to be there and support Zoey is nice. Like he does care

But Mr. Oz, really? You don't have to eat off of the floor! (And I just realized. In the 18 years ago episode, Albert said something like "keeping the kids dreaming" or.. whatnot. So... Beau and Hannaha are pretty young back then. At least younger than mr. Oz. So.... does that mean beau talking to mr. Oz this whole time was... on purpose? "I'm going to be rude to him now! Hehe" and... how did mr Oz know that the night hunter was one of his past teammates? And how did he not connect the dots of Beau being the night hunter? And-)

I love how Zoey gets her confidence after seeing her dad. Because she still thinks that he couldn't come. Which in her case would make her feel even better that he did come. That he's really trying to make a difference. Because Zoey still thinks that her dad has to do other stuff that night. But despite that he came to see her! That's what Zoey has on her mind. That's how Zoey is seeing this. Which makes it even more of a... important thing to her

Which is... pretty cute

So they know it's just a costume?

Astrid and Logan bonding- ahhhhh

You can only use dream crafting (but- but-)

"Why, you stuck up little- so and so!" I'm telling you. The only reason mr. Oz doesn't swear, is because he's around kids all the time

"I don't need the win. I already got everything I wanted today"

So- ah! My hearttt the blurry picture-

Beau nearly cleaning up the cardboard cut out

And the never witch! She was gone for a while! Good to see you again you very cool designed evil witch villain that will probably cause a lot of pain to the characters. Welcome!

Also- does the night hunter voice and the Beau voice just.... switch on and off? Is Beau just capable of doing that?

The never witches staff is beautiful

Beau really want the secret identity thing a secret

"What I want. Is the one thing called... Mateo"

Ewww pedo what's wrong with you?? (I'm sorry that was the only reaction I could think of- but it is similar to my first reaction... I think)

Don't worry people who haven't watched this thing yet! She is not pedo!(or... hopefully she isn't) she's just a normal witch that want the boy for dinner! She's going to be making soup or potion out of him

Episode 9

Susan and Snivel fighting again

They're literally siblings

"I've missed this" yeah. Me too

And Nova! You're back! (Maybe she was in the hospital for lack of sleep again)

And Sneak too! Your family misses you Sneak. Please go back to them! Or... bring your two families together?

"What's taking so long!" 😡 he angy. He pissed

So I guess he's only out in the waking world now since he... *cough* isn't much help in the dream world at the moment-

"A few corrupted gummy bears are no match for my daughter" he says it with so much pride.... is this... okay? He caused them. And he... uh... okay??

Sudan and Snivel getting the front row seats to watch the show- with popcorn (really, how is this the candy realm? Just call it 'random food people like realm' ...no. that's a horrible name. Don't use that)

They could get sawed?? By the lollipop trees? Limbs go *poof*??

Oh- nope. Never mind. Sorry guys. The witch is pedo. (Mateo is going on a date👍"you got a date with the never witch")

The nightmare horse/alicorn thing!!

Mateo grunting- 😂

Mateo worrying about z-blob more than himself who is tied up and alone with a witch. Also what spell is the never witch even using?

*dramatic entrance*

"Late to the party my dudes"

Awww.... too bad. I mean.. I guess it's good?

"You handled things just fine without us!"

"Don't sound so surprised"

Why does everyone keep saying stuff like "you said teamwork. But this doesn't look like teamwork to me" as if we're going to have a similar situation from the last season, in this seasons finale too(and the way everyone automatically thinks Mateo left to see Z-blob. Just imagine how many times he did that for them to think this way)

"Mateo left again? Ugh, for the love of-!"

"Maybe- seeing Z-blob will help him feel ready for the next trial"

He's a good friend. A good friend

"Wouldn't it be dope if all of you made the final three?"

He's gotten jolly. Look at him, so friggin adorable-

"I have an... um... errand to run"

"Wha- where is she-?! Does everyone just do what they want around here?"

"Yep, it's part of our charm"

She's so chill

Zian knows-

"Arrogance, selfishness, anger. I will harness your worst tendencies to fuel my spell"

And folks. Here we have it.

Arrogance, selfishness and anger

Mateo's little flaws

I really like the coloring in this show

Did he really break that wood thing prison that he couldn't break with slime? I guess it's pretty hard-

Falling-

Oh, and falling again

Look! Zian's kind!

"What is this place?"

Creepy vine thing. But actually nothing big-

Here it is! The one... no. Not exactly one. The second! And... first clone? Madeo! He... really... ugh.. I don't know

Do the clones look like that only to us watching through the screen or do they actually look like that but the others don't care/think he changed his look by dream crafting?

"I'm the new top dog around here" he sounds like... Mateo. But with a lot of autotune(I don't know with the colors)

But did he really snarl? Like- dude... why??

"Greetings witch! Loved that soup. Spicy!" He ate the- his own- um... flesh and memory stew?

This part is great. I love it. It's so funny

Ticklish Mateo laughing. I wonder if he's ticklish or if the vine just has good skills

"Wait, how did you know I was here? And who's the weird dude?"

The night hunter making dad jokes

"I got nabbed by the night hunter-"

"What?! I will end him"

The night hunter: 😔

Also the night hunter:

"Whatever I can do to help, I will"

Then secretly when no one's watching 😒

Oh- so this is where the giant raven set comes from! That set looks amazing btw

Takahashi making flowers- why is he so cute? Why does he keep popping up? Why is he still here? Is he playing a part?

*super cool landing. Sling the giant pencil on shoulder. Grin. And make it evil*

"Um, are they like friends now?"

Yes. Yes they are. And they seem to be bonding very well. Good for them!

And my favorite(? I think so. Its definitely the funniest) part

"Dude, was your brother always so dreamy?" (Its always this line. Always. Ugh...... I like it though)

"Mateo?!"

"Dreamy?"

Cooper's just surprised. Like. Dude. What?!

And Logan's more like... 'she called him dreamy?' It seems like he's in love. But I'm no expert. It seems like a potential love line the creators are trying to make.... (and if it is... how does it work? Astrid is from Berlin. Right?)

[Intense music playing] lol

[All swooning] okay. What?

The hairflip- ahhhggahg

He's good at football now. Wow.... that is real improvement the never witch made on him 😌

The flowers again-

"Smooth!" No! Cooper! Not the time to be a supportive friend! Is he jealous? Or supportive? Or what?

"Ew, that's my brother. Gross!"

See? What did I say about those sibling bonds? It's great. (And what do you mean gross? Just grossing out that "Mateo" acting is like that. Or the fact that Cooper said "smooth")

"Dude, who are you?"

Izzie really-

"Your brother, sister"

Yeah- no. I'm pretty sure no one calls they're siblings "brother" and "sister" without a reason

"No, and I'm loving this new you!"

Wait- what? Iz? I thought you- wait. So... she was calling out Cooper for saying Mateo was being "smooth" with the flirting? And stuff??

"How'd you get over your Z-blob flunk?"

Yup. And we got Cooper. Either being the logical one as always, or just... continuing to be a supportive friend

"Oh~ this and that. No biggie"

Yeah- okay. Gotta agree tho. These clones are fun. Look at that personality! Whoo!

"Well whatever you did, it's good to have you back buddy"

Alright. Supportive friend it is. And- no. No he is... the opposite of back. He's not even the same guy-

(Also, can we wave a little flag for the dude? I feel like he having the identity crisis right now🏳️‍🌈)

Malicious smile.... ehhehe

Meanwhile. The real Mateo:

"So... Beau. Mind if I call you Beau?" (Another cliche one)

Beau: 😑🤨 (long speech)

"He would never hurt me"

He... already has....;;

Izzie was sad when her balloons were taken then her face brightens up once she sees that he gave it to Astrid. I think Izzie just doesn't mind what the hell happens to Mateo's relationship as long as he has one-

Also, new word learned!

Enchanté

No idea what that is

"Dude, Mateo's pencil spear's back to normal!"

Cooper. Again. Not the time to be a supportive friend! Logan is clearly pissed rn

"Wouldn't it be great if he wins the last trial?"

Coop- oh god. He is so stupidly in love- .....I think? It's a possibility

"Wasteful, but impressive"

Well. At least she saying the truth

He can play the electric guitar?? The rock music? Omggggg that's... just a complete new feature. How did no one know he's not real? Even if he looks the same to them. By now they should've noticed?

The dream crafted speaker has a cute sticker attached to it too.

"Loud! But I love it"

Oh no.... Astrid is into bad boys- no wonder she gets along with Logan-

Izzie~ love your confidence

Only three? Really? And fight for the leader? Why??!

"I still don't get why, we can't just take on the Never Witch together"

Me too Cooper. Me too.... at least you guys are smart enough to notice

"Royce is obsessed with this "return to the good ol' days" nonsense"

And Cooper nodding- ahh so friggin cute

"Always has been-"

An attack is a good thing? Apperantly.... wow....

"Oh. That's not a hill..."

Wait- Beau just used a dart?! Ooohhhh why has no one drawn this yet??

Again with the background characters that look the same (the blonde one will be.... Alicia)

"Get out of my way! Runt!"

"Wow. Mateo had become a real-"

I'm telling you. These are not coincidences. They have sweated but it's a kids show so they sensored it

"Hi, Astrid..."

So stupidly in love no.2

Izzie has the hammer thing! And it looks amazing-

Seriously, the way they say Takashi...

Oooh~ the nightmare king again~ and he really is a little-....icon now

"You were right to be suspicious of me"

"Ooh~ this is good"

It is Voldemort's little brother. Or sister. It really is getting good

I love that pose when Beau changes into his costume again- that pose- it... its hilarious-

"So you'll lock us up instead?"

"At least you'll be safe" him and his morals again-

And then Zoey throws the clock. At this moment I knew. This was going to come back as a bad thing. She's going to need that clock. That's what the season kept hinting at us too-

And look at how Mateo is comfort(?)ing her-

"Re~presenting Brooklyn, baby!" "Ha ha ha!"

It's not just me- he did get more hyped up (and did he just pick him up on his shoulders? He can do that?? Does logic work differently here or can he actually do that? I mean- he did it with such confidence and comfort like he's done that hundreds of times)

"Logan, my brother is acting super weird!"

"Yeah, he's just found his groove"

"No Logan! You don't get it. He sabotaged me to make the task force!"

😨omg no way-(but seriously. No way)

"Finally! I'm aching for some malice!"

Also, just noticed. While watching this now

His hair streak (Madeo) is yellow and red. And here, the red is definitely red. Like.. a more brighter and more standing out red

Philllllll nooooo!!!

What. A way. To end this. 👏👏👏

Previous part

[misc-obeyme]

An idea I've been playing with for my MC and Barbatos is that when I was first getting into watercolors, I didn't have paint so I used various teas and coffee on hand. Did you know raspberry tea once dry turns a nice shade of blue? the others are various browns.

My MC would probably ask Barbatos about various devildom teas and maybe paint a portrait of him or diavolo in tea. Would this be considered flirting? How would Barbatos feel, if not knowing initially why MC was requesting the various tea, if he were to receive a portrait of himself painted with tea?

- 🐌 anon

(anyone wanting to play with tea, please be advised not to use the type of teabags that have sugars added, your painting will attract ants)

ps sorry I'm making you my Barbatos expert but that's your life now

Okay I put both of your asks together so that I could answer them at the same time since they're related! I hope that's okay. :) Also yes I use the goth rave theme I can't bring myself to change it

Let me begin by saying that I'm more than happy to be considered the Barbatos expert... I have been gifted similar titles in the past. While I don't really consider myself to be the ultimate authority on Barb because I believe everybody can headcanon and characterize him however they like, I can't pretend that I mind at all. I accept that this is my life now lol!

Anyway, this is an interesting question to me. It turns out that I have thought about a very similar scenario. My own MC is a painter and part of their story is the painting of portraits and what it means to them specifically. So I've considered how Barbatos would react to having his own portrait done.

First I have to say that I love the concept of painting with tea and coffee. That's just really cool and creative, in my opinion. I had no idea raspberry tea turns blue, but I love that it does.

Now, as for Barbartos, he kind of goes out of his way to be unobtrusive. He's always there should anyone need him, but he rarely takes the spotlight himself.

I don't think this means that it makes him uncomfortable. We've seen him step up to the challenge before (such as in the figure skating card). I think it's more that he considers himself more helpful to everyone if he remains in the background. He doesn't want to distract from others that he considers to be more important than him (i.e. Diavolo).

But in the case of an MC who notices him? Who has observed him closely and well enough to paint a portrait of him?

I think he would love it.

Yes, he would be flustered, especially if MC meant it as a romantic gesture (though honestly I think he'd love it whether or not it was given romantically or platonically). But he wouldn't be flustered in a bad way. Just surprised and touched that MC spent that much time paying attention to him.

And the fact that it was painted with tea? And tea that he had procured for them? That just makes it more special.

MC went out of their way to make something for him, using a talent of theirs and an interest of his. I think he would love it no matter what the painting was of, but I also think there's something special about it being a portrait of him. I think because he's so used to people not focusing on him that much, it would carry that much more meaning to him.

I do think if you asked him, he would say he would prefer a portrait of Diavolo. But that's only because he doesn't realize how important it would be to him for MC to observe him in this way.

I think he would be happy either way, but I do think the impact of the portrait being him would be greater. If that makes sense lol!

[compassionatereminders]

Hi, Kat! I really need to know what do you think about this situation.... If you can, please answer as soon as possible (but of course I'm not forcing you, take your time!)

So, I started college this year and...I think one of my classmates loves me. Im Aroace, who was never in love, nobody ever loved me and I never had a date. People don't even ask my number of smt. And I'm not saying this for a pitty, just so you know how inexperienced I am in the whole love thing. But I also WANT to be in a relationship, also I'm SCARED to do so.

So, there is this girl, Spike, and two weeks ago we started to chat. We are both autistic lesbians who are touch starve, so we got along. We hugged and all the sweet stuff, and soon she began to kiss me on the cheek, joke that she would marry me, and in general the friendly tenderness was diluted with flirting on her part... I wasn't against it, opposite flattered and it was nice that someone was showing at least some signs of attention to me, especially physical ones, no matter platonic or romantic. She even drew me and only two days later I noticed that in the upper corner she drew her persona, looking at me with a heart next to it.

And you know what? I liked this relationship. They were comfortable in their own way and I got what I wanted (attention, physical contact and a friend, even with a little spice). But today, as I was waiting for my bus, we hugged goodbye as usual, kissed on the cheeks, and then she says "I love you" and I feel how she tries to break free from the embrace to leave faster. I didn't see if she left right away, because I was rushing to catch the bus, but I'm more than sure that she didn't, although usually she would have at least watched me sit down. I think, maybe it's obvious, it was a confession, but for some reason I don't feel happy about it, although this is exactly what I wanted for so many years. I don't know if I love her, yes, I feel different with her, but I often convince myself of this because of desperate loneliness and then I quickly forget my "crushes". I don't think I feel like in movies or books, everything is so easy and difficult at the same time....And most importantly, I don’t know if I want to know the answers to my questions! I'm scared. Very scared. I feel like my whole life will be turned upside down (in a bad way) if I get into a relationship. But at the same time...that's exactly what I wanted, to love and be loved. I don't know what to do. I don't know how to behave with her tomorrow. I don't know if I'll be able to look her in the eyes. Should I pretend nothing happened? Or talk to her about it? But I'm so scared... I just want to bury myself in a blanket and cry. I never thought that my first confession would make me scared and sad....

I'm completely confused now.

Don't pretend nothing happened if you care about her at all. Even if you aren't interested in that kind of relationship with her, do her the favor of taking her feelings seriously