#VERY DIFFERENT STORY WITH MY HAPHEPHOBIA

[steampunk-raven]

Me to a medical professional: I have pretty mild allodynia

Medical professionals, without fail: Oh, ok! Unfortunately I can’t do this procedure without touching you, but I’ll be as careful as possible! If anything hurts or is even remotely uncomfortable please let me know, and I’ll stop immediately!

Me to a medical professional: I have very severe haphephobia, which is a phobia of touch. I know you can’t do this procedure without touching me, but please be careful, because if not I will have a very bad panic attack and cause considerable harm to myself and anything around me. Also, I’m probably going to need extra support regardless, because it’s very severe and I’d probably have a panic attack regardless.

Medical professionals, without fail: Sorry baby, I know this kind of thing is hard 🥺 but you’re just going to have to be brave, ok? *proceeds to touch me as much as possible*

haphephobia and allodynia are a hilarious combo to have at the same time lol (also kinda fun to compare)

[buriedyou]

𝐊𝐀𝐙 𝐁𝐑𝐄𝐊𝐊𝐄𝐑.

previously found at: kraaiking, hebzucht, & wraakraai.

This portrayal is in no way ​connected to or written in conjunction with the Grishaverse, ​including both the Six of Crows duology or Netflix's Shadow ​and Bone show. Kaz has been removed from the world entirely and ​rewritten with original lore based on various pieces of media and ​folklore. There is also some inspiration taken from Erin ​Morgenstern's The Night Circus. Much of the writing done on ​this blog will be based in realms of fantasy and will include ​aspects of the supernatural. Much of this story is intentionally misleading and runs in ​circles. Kaz Brekker and Dirtyhands are the same creature. ​Your muse is welcome to question this, to believe them as ​separate entities, or to dismiss any of the legends entirely. I ​welcome any and all of it, and in fact encourage questions both ​IC and OOC. His main arc will always default ​in the real world, but as imagined with fantasy elements. In this ​world, much of the stories that involve Dirtyhands are ​regarded as urban legend. Kaz, when presented as Brekker, ​appears as simply a man and travels very often for business. Much of my inspiration for this ​interpretation comes from various folklore such as stories from ​the Netherlands and different aspects of corvid legends. ​IMPORTANT TO NOTE: Kaz is DISABLED. As a result, he ​walks with a limp and a cane. He is often in a great amount of ​pain, dependent on multiple factors. Kaz is used to ableist ​language directed at him and doesn't care (in fact, he thrives on ​people underestimating him for it), but I will not tolerate it. ​You'll be hardblocked. He also has an extreme case of haphephobia, ​in which he cannot tolerate touch. It is extremely difficult to get ​close to him without his permission, but should your muse ​think to try it, there will likely be consequences. Please keep ​this in mind. Kaz is a very violent character. I will not water him ​down for the sake of a better dynamic or to satisfy egos. I will ​not woobify him. He can and will lash out. If your muse is ​mouthing off and being smart, he's bound to cause injury. On the flip ​side, he's smart. Very much so. And he knows better than to ​strike someone who is very obviously more powerful than he ​is. Plotting is great for discussing these kinds of interactions! ​But if you don't think you (or your muse) can handle his ​aggression and violence, please refrain from interacting.

FULL NAME: Kazimir Rietveld Kaz Brekker SPECIES: Unknown. Presents humanoid. TITLES: Dirtyhands. The Crow King. The Murder. The Father of Blight. GENDER: Non-binary (he/they) PRESENTS AS: Masculine humanoid AGE: Unknown. Presents in 20s DATE OF BIRTH: December 25 PLACE OF BIRTH: Lith, Netherlands ETHNICITY: Dutch (Paternal) & English (Maternal) SOCIAL STATUS: Wealthy criminal and conman RELATIONSHIP STATUS: Committed (Captain Inej Ghafa of the Wraith)

HAIR: Black. Cropped and kept short except for the top, which is kept ​long and swept back from his face. EYES: Black, bottomless, void. Long inky lashes. BODY TYPE: Lean, thin muscle. Wide shoulders typically set in faux ​ease in company. Legs attribute to most of his height. VOICE: Rough and rasping due to trauma in his human ​youth related to smoke damage from fires. Defaults West Country English accent. Natural Southern ​Dutch accent. SCARS: Unknown quantity. Visible notables include slash through left ​eyebrow and across left side of upper lip, over the bridge of the nose, ​two on left cheek, and three on right cheek. TATTOO(S): The Dregs’ Cup & Crow (LEFT INTERIOR FOREARM). ​The letter ‘R’ (RIGHT EXTERIOR BICEP). PIERCING(S): Silver hoop (LEFT EARLOBE).

AILMENTS: PTSD. Paranoia. Depression. Fibromyalgia. Haphephobia. Broken leg (RIGHT). ALIGNMENT: Chaotic neutral ABILITIES: TBD...

CURRENTLY.

the king of the barrel. PRESENT DAY. Generally, Kaz is perceived most often as Brekker. He is a ​businessman with various dealings both attached to him and ​linked to a pseudonym. It’s most likely that your muse will ​encounter them as Brekker. It’s less likely that your muse would come across Dirtyhands, ​though not entirely improbable especially if your muse is non-​human. Meeting him as Dirtyhands is rarely a good thing. Kaz’s primary interest and goal is collecting information ​relevant to their partner’s work. Inej is a deified saint and ​goddess for stolen women and children, and hunts down those ​who would harm these marginalized groups. Kaz finds, swindles, ​and drops these abusers off for her to do with as she pleases. He ​also on occasion has assisted her in relocating those who have ​been misplaced. Kaz, as the businessman, is a known thief and conman, an ​accomplished one at that. He has been hired for work related to ​these skills many times. This is a great plot idea to build on. TO NOTE: He is often accompanied by crows. These are transfigured ​members of his gang, the Dregs. As Kaz, they may present as ​their human forms; otherwise, there is probably a corvid in the ​background wherever Brekker is.

Have you heard the tale of the Crow King? The story of the ​monster who wears many faces and bears many names? Some ​say he is a demon with claws or talons. Others think him merely ​legend. A cautionary tale for naughty children who would do well ​to fear a ghost.

There are many different versions of this story. I could tell you ​the one where the boy killed his whole family in exchange for ​riches beyond measure, but in the wake of such tragedy, he was ​instead cursed to a half-life as a carrion scavenger who would ​never be satisfied in this mortal realm. Or perhaps you would ​enjoy the story of the boy who loved magic and mischief and ​traded his heart for a chance to wield both freely. Of course, ​nothing comes without a cost and the boy would indeed be full of ​magic as much as he would be full of hunger.

It would not matter which way we started. All that really matters ​is that you know this: whatever you hear, it could very well be the ​truth. But it may sooner be a lie.

Take care what you believe...

ASSOCIATED SUPERSTITIONS.

› Hearing six consecutive crow calls is a bad omen.

› If you find a crow nest tipped upside down, it's been abandoned ​and death is imminent on the grounds upon which it was made. ​Crow nests are particular from other bird nests as they often contain ​various trinkets stolen from humans such as spoons, coins, and other ​objects made of metal or other such shiny materials.

› Crows in groups of six or more roosting in town or on personal ​property are a bad omen.

› If you have noticed the lingering company of a crow, you may ​respectfully determine the cause for their interest. Leave a ​sentimental item made of metal, or any item of value to you, at ​the edge of your property. If it's been left alone by the following ​morning, you needn't be concerned. However, if you find that ​your offering has been pilfered, it's too late. You'll be ​remembered. You won't be forgiven.

ALT VERSES TBD...

[willothewispwisteriadawn]

Rambling: Anyone else think it’s important to Kaz Brekker’s character that he ISN’T Aro/Ace?

See, I get nervous making analyses like this because it’s hard not to make it sound aggressively like “how dare you have an head canon?” But I kind of want to share my personal reading of this. I went into SoC thinking Kaz was asexual, because I’d heard that. Then I read his backstory bit from CK and… it basically directly says that he’s not. He’s got trauma-induced haphephobia. As he got older, he really wanted to have physical intimacy with women, and we see this when CK mentions that he was very attracted to a girl named Imogen and wanted to have the relationship with her he saw the other dregs having with their girlfriends and wives.

He set out to try and work through his psychological problems so that he could touch others’ skin again, and he realized he couldn’t practice this because whenever people saw him fail, it compromised his future as a barrel boss by showing an obvious weakness. So he intentionally ruined things with Imogen and went hard on developing the lore behind covering his hands. He let people believe he was just evil, and that he never touches people not because he can’t but because he hates people.

He made a conscious decision to appear to despise intimacy even though he doesn’t because a) skin contact triggers him after what he went through as a kid and b) he knows that any fondness he shows for a person will endanger his Crows. And we see constantly that this concern is incredibly founded, because Kaz uses that tactic against other bosses and Van Eck attempts to do it to him with Inej. And the fact that Van Eck totally buys that Kaz doesn’t care about Inej personally is what saves her from losing her legs! This moment causes a rift between Inej and Kaz, but it also acts as proof that how Kaz acts is necessary, because his enemies are that screwed up.

Idk, I just think it’s incredibly vital to how the book and Kaz himself are written that he is very into the idea of sexual intimacy but is forced not to pursue it. I think that’s what makes the POV of Inej (and all the Crows in differing ways) interesting as well because, from her perspective, she loves Kaz and he only treats her as a purchased asset. He makes a point of putting distance between himself and the Crows. That hurts them but is intended to be a show for the enemies watching. And there’s just great dramatic irony when you get to Kaz’s POV and see that his internal workings are much more complicated than what the other Crows physically see. I think this is why Netflix Kaz seemed different. You can’t depict this part of him outside a book. You have to give him more openly soft moments so the audience realizes he cares since they can’t hear his inner monologues.

But I digress.

And this isn’t to say many different kinds of people can’t still identify with Kaz or individual parts of his story! If there’s one aspect of him that you think represents something you feel, then articulate that! But as a total character, I think something different from aro/ace was written. This is a guy who really *wants* physical intimacy and can’t have it. It’s important to Kaz that his trauma stole something that he wanted, and that’s hard on him— it’s not just that he doesn’t feel the desire. That’s a different experience.

[fantasiasodapop]

Glitch Kisses

Okay, glitch kisses.

Neither Error nor Blue really have had much... romantic interaction--glitch's pain and haphephobia and all--so when they do finally get comfortable enough with another person, they kind of only know what they've seen on TV which won't work because they don't have lips, only bone.

What they do know is that usually, tongues are involved somehow.

Hence why the first time Nightmare agrees to let one of them kiss him, he is sincerely confused when a set of five tentacle tongues flick over his face.

They do the snake's tongue flick with their tongues over his teeth and he very sincerely perplexed.

Nightmare: Surely... Surely this is a glitch thing. Error: Are we doing this right? Blue: Well he isn't mad! I say we go for it.

Blue: You... You taste really good, Nightmare. Nightmare: ... Thank you? Error: He tastes sweet and floral. Blue: Mhm. I like it. Nightmare: ... I'm just gonna take it as a compliment.

Of course, Nightmare has his own weird habits such as his blooming season (a story for another time), so he just assumes this is a glitch custom that he didn't know about and goes along with it.

No one says anything until Geno does.

Blue: Morning, Nighty. *licks face* Nightmare: Morning, Blue. Error: I want some. *licks face* Geno: across the table ... What the hell are you two doing? Nightmare: Wait, is this not normal? Geno: ... Noooooo? Why would this be a thing? Nightmare: I don't know, there are cultural differences between me and normal skeletons, why not glitches? Geno: What cultural differences--Do you mean to tell me you think this is normal for glitches?! Nightmare, what culture would they have even gotten that from?! I get you don't know where Error came from, but Blue’s from Underswap! Nightmare: But... But I thought I was doing this right— Geno: No one licks other peoples' faces, you three!

Geno is unfortunately the only other glitch that they talk to on a regular basis and he only has one tongue, so he certainly does not do this. He's the only one in the Glitch-Parasite family that doesn't have the extra tongues.

This gets even worse when Dream finds out.

Dream: Are you... LICKING my brother?! Blue! Blue: I DON'T KNOW HOW TO KISS AND ERROR DID IT FIRST AND NIGHTMARE DIDN'T SAY ANYTHING SO I JUST WENT WITH IT! Dream: Error! Error: I DON'T KNOW HOW SKELETONS KISS! I'VE NEVER KISSED BEFORE! I PANICKED! Nightmare: More importantly HOW DID YOU GET INTO MY HOUSE? Ink: Aww, last time I licked a person they screamed at me! *pouts* Error: It's because you don't have the extra tongues, Squid. *sticks out said tongues* Ink: ... *snaps his fingers* I can probably fix that. Dream: INK DON'T YOU DARE.

Thus Ink became envious of the glitches for their tongues, and Error and Starberror/Blueberry learned that licking people is only okay if you love them.

[tabbywaslost]

Error heard about it and now decides to just stay in the anti-void and not leave unless absolutely necessary and people start making wild conspiracy theories about why he isn't seen as much

Cross can disguise himself well bc he almost looks exactly like Classic, even the red eye and scar are gone now so it isn't as bad for Cross but once people figure out that it's him, it becomes a war between his fans and his haters

People sit down and watch the battles between the good guys and the bad guys and Error looks at Blue for 0.3 nanoseconds during a fight and people start shipping them being like "OH MY GOD, DID YOU SEE HOW HE LOOKED AT HIM?? HE'S IN LOVE WITH BLUE."

The communities on the undernet are also dedicated to figuring out their backstories, their motives and their love life and the Bad Sanses and Star Sanses make fake accounts and joined communities to laugh at the hilarious theories that people make and not correct them, like some people would be like "Do you see how unmotivated Ink looks these days?? Do you see how he has been looking at Error and fighting against Error more? What if he had a crush on Error but upon seeing Error in love with Blue he became sad and doesn't wanna face the bad guys anymore in fear of seeing his love who doesn't love him back??"

Their fanbases are friggin unhinged and their fanbases grew and became absolutely ginormous because of the theories that spread on the internet about them and it's also some cool fighting action, so why not?

I also believe it's exceptionally horrible for Error because even if he disguises himself, his floating error thingies and the fact that his voice glitches and he physically lags is a dead giveaway and his interesting color palette is also impossible to hide and he has haphephobia too

And there will be wars on "which character is better" shtick and people will beat you up if you say your favorite is like Scoundrel or any of the more "underground" guys like Fresh, Scoundrel, Fell, etc. you're gonna have to fight in order to have them as your favorite

"Guys, I kinda like Fell because he's cool and I think he's my favori-"

"NO???? INK IS THE GUARDIAN OF ALL AUS. THEREFORE HE IS BETTER. DREAM IS THE GUARDIAN OF POSITIVITY, THEREFORE HE IS BETTER. BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH"

And then there will be the biggest shipping wars you'll ever see in your life.

"Error/Ink are very clearly in love because they fight the most meaning they wanna see each other the most so they scramble for excuses to see each other!"

"No, Error/Blue and Nightmare/Ink are the superior ships! Error always looks at Blue softly and they almost never attack each other therefore they are so in love they don't wanna hurt each other and Nightmare/Ink because Nightmare feeds off of negativity and Ink is very clearly depressed as we can determine from the pain in his eyes!"

"I ship Dust/Killer because I think they would be cute together"

"FUCKEN HELL NO. KILLER IS VERY CLEARLY HITTING ON DREAM AND DREAM VERY CLEARLY LIKES DUST, SO THERE WOULD BE DRAMA BETWEEN DUST AND KILLER BECAUSE KILLER'S CRUSH IS GOING FOR DUST AND DUST ISN'T STOPPING IT."

And then there are the wildest conspiracy theories ever

"The Star Sanses and The Bad Sanses are actually working together and they are putting up this whole shtick of being enemies just so they can fool us"

"Blueberry was an orphan and nobody at school liked him therefore he decided to become a hero and he was in the same class as Dust and they were childhood best friends but Dust took a different route and became a villain and now they can't stand seeing each other on the battlefield"

"Cross is actually a robot controlled by the Star Sanses to fool the Bad Sanses"

And they'd have those sad anime edits with the songs "Past Lives" and "Moral of The Story" and most importantly any Mitski song

They'd have full accounts dedicated to posting clips and edits of them

They'd have people dressing up as them and pretending to be them or pretending to know them

They'd have the wildest Wattpad fanfictions written of them like for example a fanfiction called "Traitors" or something and it's about Cross cheating on Dust or smth with Blueberry and then betraying Blueberry only to go to Dream making both Cross and Dream traitors because Dream knew about Blueberry and Cross being a thing and Ink covered up for them so that makes him a traitor as well and because of that, Blueberry leaves the Star Sanses and join the Bad Sanses and starts dating Dust who ends up cheating on him with Killer or something and at the end of the fanfiction, Blueberry gets with Fresh or smth and Cross, Dream, Ink and Dust have slow and painful deaths for their betrayal and the worst part is that this fanfiction was released like exactly 37 minutes and 29 seconds ago and it already has 581 million reads

And they'd have headcanons and stuff

And people start wearing cosplays of them and wear these cosplays at conventions, so you'd see like 173627189372810 people cosplaying Horror

They'd also have animation memes and stuff made of them and people would even make shops or stuff dedicated to them and the second friggin Horror's birthday goes public or smth, everybody goes batshit crazy and they start celebrating that day every year as if it's their last day on earth because Horror is headcanoned as a lonely guy who had bad parents as a kid and wants to change for the better so he is really loved amongst the community

I have far too many ideas and it's 1.42 A.M. rn.

This is absolutely beautiful, OP. I love it

Goodnight

do you think that the bad sanses and the star sanses have whole ass fanclubs that follow their every move

the fanclubs are made up OCs and simps and self inserts and people who are just obsessed with these characters. they cannot leave their respective aus because the fans will find them. both teams regularly have stalker fans breaking into their homes. there are whole communities on the undernet dedicated to the teams. as soon as they are spotted in the multiverse update accounts tweet about whete they were spotted. it's like theyre multiversal celebrities except it's a protectors of aus, 2 emotion guardians who have beef, and a few random mortals that these immortal people dragged along

for the star sanses its a lot more freaky and scary. swap had to get ink to find a way to keep his underswap protected from all the people who would swarm the au and bother him in his day to day life. dream struggles with being able to help the people in danger who actually need help because every tine he enters an au people always swarm him for his autograph and photos (he has it the WORST with his positive aura making more people like him too 😭😭😭) ink tries to do this job but then he just gets distracted by the swarm of people gawking at the fact that OMG the protector of aus is here holy crap!!! and then he has to find a clever way to escape the swarm. it's really not fun for the stars

the bad sanses on the other hand have come up with a way to (kinda) avoid the fans. nightmare sends out the gang to go on missions with costumes and secret identities and stuff. 50% of the time missions fail because the costums get ruined or the fans are just smart enough to figure out the bad sanses are here 💀 killer started off enjoying all the attention but after a good month of thr fans swarming him it started to piss him off. dust tries to teleport away every time a fan spots him but thenANOTHER fan sees him. it's like a sick game of hide and seek for him. horror immediately gives up on the mission as soon as he's spotted because theres no point. nightmare has given all of them free reign to kill thhose stupid fans (even if it gets rid of negativity he CANT PROGRESS WITH HIS EVIL PLANS WHEN THERES LITERAL WALLS OF PEOPLE STOPPING HIM)

it's misery for all of them

[yukidragon]

SDJ Mafia AU Headcanons

So, anyone ever see this picture by Jambee of Jack from Something’s Wrong with Sunny Day Jack as a mafia boss and Bo from DachaBo as his obedient wise guy? Well, a couple little ideas popped into my head to expand this AphroDesia-themed crossover centered on Jack. I got encouraged to dish out the details twitter, I got encouraged more and more, which made more ideas and, well... I’ve basically got a new AU short story in the works that’ll eventually go in the Sunshine in Another World collection.

Since the original twitter post of my ideas is a pretty ill sorted due to going off into different threads, I decided to compile my thoughts into one easy to read post here on tumblr where there’s no insane word limits to stifle me. Hopefully I managed to gather all the ideas together here. If not, I’ll just have to put them in another headcanon post.

Quick reminder that Something’s Wrong with Sunny Day Jack, DachaBo, and AphroDesia are all Adults Only stories. No one under 18 should be playing in these fandoms, and some of these headcanon ideas will go into pretty dark and/or mature places. You have been warned.

Obligatory tags for @channydraws and @earthgirlaesthetic. If you want to get tagged when I make the next headcanon post, just let me know!

...

The Set Up

The Sunny Family is the biggest and most powerful crime family in the city of St. Valens. As far as the public is aware, it’s a homegrown family owned business that came from humble beginnings with its founders Rise and Shine. They have all sorts of businesses all over the city, ranging from bakeries to thrift stores to yogurt shops. Their public image is as sunny as their family name, and their brand is all colorful smiles and cheerful slogans.

At the head of this family business is Jack, affectionately called Sunny Day Jack when showing up in his friendly public-facing persona. The average citizens are ignorant that the well dressed gentleman with the gorgeous smile is a crime lord, and he’s so gosh darn friendly you would never guess it unless you had ties to the criminal underbelly of the city.

Since Jack’s biggest issue in normal continuity is that he can’t be seen/heard/felt by anyone but his sunshine, it would be fitting that his AU counterpart would have a similar issue even as a big bad scary mafia boss. Specifically, he suffers from haphephobia or a similar condition. He can’t stand the touch of other people, as it feels horrible to him, akin to something like insects crawling under his skin, and he wears gloves specifically because of it.

Sadly, this leaves Jack feeling very touch starved, even as he’s repulsed by it. It’s a contrary thing, wanting to know the pleasure others feel from such physical intimacy. Even in this universe he wants to be seen, heard, felt, and loved. At best he can tolerate touch from those he’s closest to even if it’s repulsive. At worst, he feels like he wants to rip his own skin off.

Of course very few people know about this. Most just know not to touch the boss unless he touches you first. Sometimes Jack has to pretend it doesn’t bother him at all, especially when he’s dealing with people he needs to make nice with. He’ll shake hands with a smile, but as soon as the meeting is over and he no longer has to keep his pleasant persona in place, he’ll toss his gloves away for one of his underlings to burn and put on a fresh, clean pair.

Then one day an accident happens. Someone working for his family - some random low level nobody clown - runs around a corner at exactly the wrong time and bumps into him. Worse, their hand touched his skin directly on the wrist in the process.

His obedient wise guy and attack dog Bo knows no one touches the big boss, and he’s on this low level clown in seconds. Touching Jack is taboo, and those who do it without his consent suffer and suffer bad. He’s ready to dish out the punishment, and he wrenches them into a painful hold.

See, it was a funny thing. When this person touched Jack? They felt… warm. It wasn’t repulsive at all. It was pleasant even. It’s a shock to Jack, but he recovers quickly to immediately order Bo to let them go. He wants that mongrel’s filthy paws off them right now.

Bo obeys immediately, dropping the person to the floor, who is absolutely terrified and in pain from the rough treatment. Jack softens his tone and helps them stand up. Jack’s friendly persona is on full display, gentle and magnanimous as a good boss should be. He asks if they’re alright and then learns her name is Alice. How pretty…

Bo watches this in the background, stunned. Even with gloves on, the boss man will avoid even handshakes unless it’s a calculated decision. Yet, Jack is helping this random nobody up and putting his hands on them? Did the boss get into some drugs or something?

Jack is aware of the reaction and does not care. He doesn’t even look Bo’s way. He’s too focused on Alice, admiring the warm hand he’s holding, so small and delicate in his grasp. It doesn’t matter who this person is or what position she had in the family business. She’s his now.

It’s only fitting that Alice’s job in this AU is a reflection of what she has in the regular universe. After all, what difference is there really between a low level grunt in a clown family and a minimum wage clown at a yogurt shop? Or at least she was a low level grunt until Jack found her.

 Alice owes the Sunny Family a debt, and has been working it off as best she can for years, doing whatever was asked of her, no matter how she hated the bloody work. She was bounced around various tasks and grunt work, but eventually found something of a position as a sniper.

Alice’s plan has always been to keep her head down, repay her debt, and finally leave this criminal life and corrupt city behind her for good. Too bad for her that’s never going to happen now. Jack finally found his sunshine, and he’s never going to let her go.

Alice is aware of who Jack is. Who isn’t? Everyone in St. Valens knows his face and his front-facing reputation. Even as a low level grunt of the Sunny Family she is well aware of his darker side. While he does have a reputation of being a relatively “friendlier” and more “compassionate” mob boss than the ones heading other groups in the city, she’s well aware that he has blood on those gloved hands of his…

Needless to say, Alice is shocked by how friendly Jack is being to her. She’s still scared at first, since she knows no one touches Jack, yet she stupidly ran into him because she was running late for a meeting with her boss (someone far, far down the chain beneath Jack). She expects some ghastly punishment, especially when he invites her to his office, despite how kindly he’s acting. Is this some sort of twisted leadup before the boot comes down on her neck? Either way, she has no choice but to go with him…

But the punishment never comes. Jack is warm and friendly. They talk over snacks and light conversation that is mostly just him asking about her. Oh, sure, he’ll get to read over every scrap of dirt they have on Alice later on, but he’s genuinely interested in getting to know her in her own words. After all… she’s going to be his assistant now.

Cue spit take.

Alice can’t believe it. Instead of getting punished she’s getting promoted? Why?

Jack smiles even as he helps her clean up, as it’s the perfect excuse to touch her again and relish in the fact that he can. He just says that he likes seeing her sunny face and thinks they could be good friends.

Thus begins a working relationship between a mob boss and his assistant. Despite having so much power over her, Jack wants Alice to want to touch him just as badly as he wants to touch her, and he’s going to gently encourage her in that direction. After all, he knows all too well how repulsive a non-consenting touch is...

Falling into a Life of Crime

How Alice wound up in debt to the Sunny Family was due to the actions of a rival criminal organization, specifically one that engaged in human trafficking. Alice was one of those unfortunate people trafficked while in her late teens.

Alice’s face is scarred in this universe as well, though it’s more severe. It’s the the result of her attempt to escape the kidnappers. In the process of her escape she managed to alert the Sunny Family (unintentionally) of the location where the gang was hiding. It was fortuitous for the Sunny Family, as they were a gang that were on their hit list, and they were having some trouble tracking down those rats.

After wiping out this gang, Sunny family ~magnanimously~ saved all these poor victims as well. How nice of them! Of course, it's only right that the people they saved pay the family back for their kindness, right?

Alice’s medical bills racked her personal debt up pretty high, but she owes the family. What can she do but whatever they tell her? She learned very quickly how things work in the corrupt city of St. Valens...

Alice doesn’t let anyone see her scarred face if she can help it. Jack, naturally, is going to want to lower her guard and get her to trust him enough to see it... even though he already knows what it looks like. There are files on everyone who owes the family debt...

Because of this debt, Alice is even more of a tightwad than the regular universe. She barely spends money if she can help it, wanting out of her debt as soon as possible. Even the mask she covers her face is cheap. It’s a good thing Phantom of the Opera is such a popular play so plastic masks that cover the right half of the face are so common, huh?

At the very least, Alice eventually was able to make contact with her family back home while working for the Sunny Family. They don’t know the full truth of what she’s gotten into for their own safety and because she doesn’t want them to know of the things she’s had to do in order to work off her debt. It’s hard keeping them in the dark, but it’s for their safety, and she can’t go back home to them until the debt is paid.

Extended Cast

Like in the regular universe, Ian has a decent sized role in Alice’s life as her childhood friend. He came to the city to find her and she confided in him about her debt. To help her reduce that debt, he’s gotten work as an entertainer at a night club for good money.

I’m waffling back and forth if Ian and Alice are exes in this universe. I’m leaning towards not if only because Ian cheating on Alice would feel a lot more unforgivable in this universe, so it might be best that they didn’t. Not that there weren’t sparks of attraction between them.

Speaking of sparks of attraction, there’s some with the owner of the night club as well. Shaun runs a goth (and cat) themed night club with the best acts in town... or at least he wants them to be. He’s working on it, but it can be hard to make it big in the city of St. Valens. Still, the club is doing decently well and he can afford to give his little princess Moon Pie some help to get around despite being blind.

In a reversal of the regular continuity, it’s Ian who introduces Shaun to Alice rather than the other way around. A night club is a good place for a mafia sniper to relax after a rough day, especially when it’s in good company.

Shaun’s family is decently well off in the city. While not a crime family per say, they do have some connections, because sometimes dead men do tell tales and coroners are good at burying secrets for the living if the price is right. Why, it might even be enough money to help their son afford owning his own night club.

Since AphroDesia has people with TV heads and this AU has human/dog hybrids, I can say that Shaun invested a lot of money in some sort of science/magic solution that lets Moon Pie be able to switch between being a cat and a cute little girl with pigtails. Because that’s cute and I like the image. She’s still blind, but she can at least get around better and communicate her needs. What more could a good cat dad want?

The Sunny Family

The Sunny Family includes Jack’s family and friends from the SunnyTime Town AU, as well as the SunnyTime Crew members. Rise and Shine started the crime family and are, in essence, retired right now, with Jack taking over in their stead. Although Jane is the older sibling, she declined to take the role in the spotlight and left that to her little brother.

The family is still involved in the family business, even though Jack is in charge of the whole operation. In fact, they’ll be pretty curious about this “sunshine” that he’s suddenly gotten so touchy feely with considering his issues with being touched...

Buddy is Jack’s childhood friend and the only person, outside of his parents and sibling, whose touch he could tolerate. This is a fact that he takes advantage of and he has a bit of a playful relationship with Jack. Keeping with his belt theme, his weapon of choice is a garrote wire.

I don’t have too many details sorted out for the rest of the Sunny Family members yet, but I imagine that’ll change the more I play with this AU.

Bo

While Bo isn’t an AI in this universe, he is still of artificial origins, just biological rather than electronic. Bo is the result of scientific experiments, because why not have mad scientists in a mafia AU? Bo is genetically spliced with a dog to increase his physical abilities, particularly his senses. He’s the best “sniffer” the Sunny Family has, and is very useful for Jack as his attack dog.

Bo and Jack don’t exactly have the most harmonious relationship. This dog wants to be a lone wolf, but he knows well enough not to pull on his leash too hard to avoid the consequences. He isn’t about to let his “master” put him down without a fight. One day, this alpha is going to be his own top dog.

Still, Alice is going to interest Bo simply because of the obsession his “untouchable” boss has on her. It’s particularly curious how touchy feely Jack is being with her, which sparks Bo’s curiosity. Although, the relationship Bo will have with Alice isn’t exactly going to be harmonious either. Alice doesn’t appreciate Bo's harassment, or his nickname for her - squeaky toy.

Based off of the audio dramas made of him in this universe, Bo is a bit more promiscuous than his regular universe. He’s also a bit more hardcore when it comes to sex and violence. Still, once he finds his puppy in this universe, his attention will laser focus on them, and chances are he’s going to get thoughts of breeding and pups.

Until then, Bo does get suggestive with Alice, thinking he can have “fun” with her and annoy the boss at the same time. However, Jack isn’t going to let his dog hump his sunshine, and the “no touching” rule is going to apply to Alice as well.

Oh, and fun fact, the scientist who had created Bo originally is dead. Bo worked very hard to make sure of that.

I’m still playing around with Bo’s story and his puppy. I got some good suggestions that has left me undecided on what would be the most interesting dynamic there. I’ll have to let those thoughts simmer a bit longer, I suppose.

Overall

Like in SDJ, the main focus in this AU is Jack and his sunshine. Also, like the regular universe, there’s a heavy emphasis on Jack not doing anything Alice doesn’t want him to... and doing things she doesn’t know about “for her own good.” He also will do whatever it takes to prove that he’s all she needs...

Alice has a new position of power, respect, and more money. This should mean that she could repay her debt sooner, but the goal of leaving this bloody life of crime seems to be getting further and further away from her. She had to take on a new loan for the sake of some crisis going on back home with her family, but Jack was only to happy to help, and he assured her that it would be fine. She’s making more money now for far less brutal work, and isn’t it so much nicer by his side?

It seems things just keep happening to keep Alice working for the Sunny Family. It’s a good thing Jack is such a kind boss and friend to her.

“Don’t worry, sunshine, you can depend on Sunny Day Jack to help you with everything you need!”

The gifts and perks Jack gives Alice are so nice, almost too nice. At least now she can trade the cheap plastic Phantom of the Opera mask for much nicer masks her new boss gifted her. Nicer clothes, a nicer home to live in (which is Jack’s home in a bedroom adjacent to his), better food, more security... It’s like a dream come true. Maybe it won’t be so bad to be his assistant. But is it too good to be true?

Still, Jack does seem to just be pretty... eccentric. For example, after a business deal where he shook hands with a politician, he discarded his gloves and asked for a hand massage from Alice. He seems to really like getting massages from her. She finds it odd, but it certainly beat her previous jobs. Plus his hands are so nice and warm and it kind of feels nice, and his smiles are so sweet... Though it does make her flustered when he does little things like touch her chin or brush back her hair. At the same time, it feels good to have such attention paid to her after feeling like a nobody for so many years in this scummy city...

For Jack, Alice is priceless. Nothing erases the unpleasant feeling of other people on his skin better than her. The more he gets to know her, the more she is a ray of light in this dark city, and he’s not about to let anyone take his sunshine away, not in this world or any other.

[thebadgerclan]

SFW Alphabet: Kaz Brekker

Requested by Anonymous

A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

With his fear of touch, it takes Kaz a while to be comfortable with physical affection, but he slowly gets there.  It starts slowly, with him holding your hand with his gloves on, putting an arm around your shoulders and waist, then holding your hand without the gloves, kissing your forehead, cheeks, and eventually your lips.  After a few months of working through his fear, he’s open to holding you for longer periods of time.  Kaz wants so badly to be physically affectionate with you, but with his phobia, it’s slow going, but he does get there

B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)

Kaz doesn’t really do “friends”, more like allies.  But to have him as an ally, someone you knew you can rely on, that carries a lot of weight in the Barrell.  If you ever find yourself in a tight spot, you know you can call on Kaz for help, and he’ll be there, usually with a few other members of the Dregs

C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)

Like I said in A, physical affection is something that you and Kaz have to work towards.  But once he’s comfortable with cuddling, it easily becomes one of his favorite things.  He likes to spoon you, his arms around your waist, nose buried in your hair, legs entwined.  Kaz also likes it when you lay facing him, your head buried in his chest, his hands rubbing your back.  He might not admit it, but on bad days, whether with his leg or his phobia, he loved being the little spoon, letting you hold him close and shut out the outside world

D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)

Kaz does want to settle down, but with the Dregs, it’s not really a possibility.  So you settle for sharing a room and spending every night in each other’s arms.  But you do talk about what your future will be like when Kaz eventually gets a big payout from a job: a mansion, fancy clothes, a massive diamond ring (that’s Kaz’s addition).  He cooks well enough to keep himself alive, but to be honest, he’s not the best

E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?) I feel like he’d be really cold and practical about it, but he’d cry when he’s alone.  “This isn’t working, Y/N,” he says.  “We can’t be together and work together, pick one.”  Once he’s alone in his room at the Slat, he breaks down, knowing he just lost the only good thing in his life since Jordie

F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)

Kaz fully intends to marry you, once he has enough money for a proper ceremony, one that meets every single one of the dreams you’ve had since childhood.  He gets you a simple ring, a small diamond on a silver band, and asks you to marry him.  It’s a simple proposal, but it’s romantic all the same.  “Y/N, darling, I love you more than anything else in this world.  Marry me, please, my love, make me your husband.”  He proposes after 2ish years of dating, well after he’s gotten over his fear of touch (with you at least)

G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

Kaz has a reputation for being ruthless and violent, but with you, he’s sweet, tender, and unbelievably gentle.  Once again, once he’s over his phobia, his touch is always gentle and tender.  He never raises his voice at you, he never even thinks about hurting you.  You are his treasure, worth more than any amount of money (and when I say “over his phobia”, I mean he’s comfortable with touching you, I know that he has deep seated trauma that will never go away.  But, in my opinion, Kaz is able to work through his trauma and work towards being able to touch his girl),

H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)

Again, after working through his phobia, Kaz LOVES hugs.  Your arms are a sanctuary, a place where he can ignore the hustle and bustle of Ketterdam, work from the Crow Club and the Dregs, and anything that’s bothering him.  He’ll often come up to you and pull you into his arms, chin resting atop your head.  His hugs are warm and safe, you know that when you’re in his arms, nothing can hurt you

I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)

After about 8 months, Kaz is at the point that he’s able to hold your hand without his gloves.  You’d been so patient and understanding with him, and he took your hand, risking pressing a kiss to the back of it (something else he’d recently become comfortable with was kissing your cheek and forehead).  “Thank you for being so patient with me, Y/N, I love you so much.  My girl, I love you.”

J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)

Kaz gets jealous very easily.  If anyone gets too close to you, he’s on edge.  Even if it’s Jesper, who has little to no interest in any female, Kaz still is jealous.  He comes to your side, either taking your hand, putting an arm around your shoulders, or pulling you flush against him (depending on where he’s at in terms of working through his trauma)

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

Tentative at first, when kissing is new to him.  Light, short pecks on your forehead and cheeks, before progressing to your lips.  Then they linger for a few seconds, mainly on your lips, and eventually, he gets to the point where he wants to kiss you every waking second, lips on yours until he nearly passes out.  Once he’s really comfortable with kissing, his kisses are passionate, the love he has for you palpable in the inches between you.  Kaz likes to kiss you basically everywhere: forehead, cheek, nose, lips, neck, other intimate areas ;D.  He likes to be kissed on the cheek, jaw, neck, lips (duh), and his hands. You’re one of very few people who get to see and touch his hands, so having you kiss them makes his heart flutter

L = Little ones (How are they around children?)

Honestly, he hates them.  I mean, remember what he said to that little girl in Crooked Kingdom?  He just doesn’t like them, there’s not much room to elaborate on that.

M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)

Most mornings, you wake to Kaz’s lips against your temple, his arms around your middle.  “Good morning, my love.”  He is loath to get out of bed in the mornings and leave your embrace, but he’s got a club to run.  Even so, he’ll spend an extra 20 minutes or so just holding you, soaking in your love and presence (This is all after he’s comfortable w/ touch, btw)

N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)

(Same as above, after Kaz is comfortable w/ touch)  Kaz tends to work late, so most nights, you have to drag him to bed.  You wrap your arms around his shoulders, kissing his neck.  “Come to bed, Kaz.  It’s late.”  He’ll sigh, moan about how much work he has to do, but he;ll let you herd him into bed

O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

A loooooooooong time, both in regards to physical touch and the trauma he’s been through.  You know that he’s been through a lot, and you don’t push him, because you know that Kaz will tell you when he’s ready.  And sure enough, he does.  Slowly, he tells you about Jordie, the plague, how Rollins swindled him, everything about his past.  Time is your best friend in a relationship with Kaz

P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)

In general, fairly fast, but with you, he’s hardly angry.  On a job, Kaz can’t afford to be too patient, when he needs something, he needs it now, and he’s not afraid to do whatever he needs to get it.  But you’re a different story, with you, Kaz has endless patience.  He might snap at you at the start of your relationship, but he always apologizes immediately afterwards.  Love is new to him, so he needs you to be patient as well.

Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?) Kaz has the memory of an elephant, he has to with the jobs he does,  So he remembers every single thing you tell him, important or not.

R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)

Cliche, but the first time he kissed you.  Kaz was finally comfortable enough with that level of intimacy, and he’d removed his gloves, cupped your face in his hands, and kissed you, a long, sweet, lingering kiss.  He cried, but they were happy tears.

S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)

You’re dating the Bastard of the Barrell, Kaz is insanely protective of you.  Whenever you go somewhere without Kaz, he has a few members of the Dregs trail you, at a distance, just to make sure that if something happens, you’re protected.  But if he can, Kaz goes everywhere with you, you on his arm, glaring at anyone who might dare cross you, as if to say “Hands off, she’s mine”

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

Kaz leads a busy life, so proper dates don’t happen all that often.  But when they do, Kaz goes all out, he books a reservation at the best restaurant in Ketterdam, roses, expensive wine, the works.  Other date type things are like a private dinner in his office and simple gifts, like candy and things you’ve mentioned you want

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)

It’s not a bad habit, but it’s definitely an obstacle in a relationship: his haphephobia.  He can be a little rough around the edges, and he’s pretty resistant to the idea of a relationship until he realizes how hard he’s fallen for you

V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)

Kaz is always dressed and groomed immaculately.  A fitted three piece suit, his hair slicked back, fedora, leather gloves, shoes shined to a mirror gleam.  He takes pride in his appearance, he came from nothing, and he’s built a little empire for himself, and he’s damn proud of it

W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)

At first he thinks he wouldn’t, but then there’s a job that goes south, and you get hurt, and I’m talking badly hurt.  Life-threateningly bad.  Nina patches you up in seconds, but you’re unconscious and weak for a few days.  Kaz doesn’t leave your side once, his hand clutching yours.  “Please, Y/N,” he begs to your sleeping form.  “Please be alright.  I can’t live without you.  I love you, Y/N, I love you so much.  Please, wake up, my love.”

X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)

On your 9 month anniversary, Kaz got a third tattoo.  Above the crow and cup, next to the capital R, now resides your initials

Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)

Kaz cannot be with someone who doesn’t respect his boundaries.  If you take his hand without thinking before he’s alright with it, but release it immediately and apologize, he’s shaken but alright.  But if you do it and don’t let go or don’t apologize, it’s a massive dealbreaker

Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?)

Kaz has trouble sleeping in storms, the rain reminds him of the tide on the Reaper’s Barge.  But cuddle him and he’s out like a light

[thedelusionreaderbitch]

Kaz brekker x reader In The Rain

A/N: So this is going to be interesting... So because Kaz has some problems with touching people I thought I would make the reader suffer as well... The reader in this story has problems with skin contact as well and was abused as a kid so beware! Also this was also posted on my wattpad account you can find me on wattpad @ kk123huff!

Warnings: Bad writing, CHILDHOOD ABUSE, HARASSMENT, language, HAPHEPHOBIA, SEXUAL ABUSE, THE MENAGERIE, THE READER THINKS OF HERSELF AS NOT GOOD ENOUGH YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL IN EVERY WAY FOLKS! Some angst then some fluff near the end. You have been warned!

Summary: The crows are on a mission (Matthias is alive) and the crows don't know you very well (well expect for Kaz you and him have known each for years and he's technically your boyfriend but the other crows have no idea!!!) It's a dangerous mission (well when is it not hehe.) And Kaz is going to die but you save him! Let's see what will be revealed to the rest of the crows because of this dilemma. The reader also can turn into a creature like; wings come out of her back claws produce and she gets horns and a tail, and Fangs. She has a healing factor, kinda like Spiderman's, and she can touch people and they can die, and she basically has a mix between Alina's powers and the Darklings powers that I call moonlight magic. All her senses are amped up and same with her strength, agility, speed the whole shebang. Cheesy I know. But anyways onward and enjoy!

(All rights go to Leigh Bardugo and You I just own the plot!)

Reader p.o.v.

Running in the rain sucks. Especially when your running from the Blacktips. Especially when there are Blacktips chasing you and another group of people named the Hunters. Especially when those people were hired by Tante Helen. So to start off today I was going on a mission with Kaz and his crow friends, to officially end the Blacktips and whip them out  completely. Then to give the mission a good start none of the crows (besides Kaz) were trusting me at all. And I didn't expect them to but when I mean trust I mean like mission level of trust so they would at least trust my capability or at least trust Kaz. But they absolutely did not!    

Which is fine, because why would they trust a monster? Not that they know I'm one (again besides Kaz.)

So when we went to ambush their leader (the Blacktip's) there was no one there.

Well Kaz's entire plan just about went up in flames in those couple moments.

So we scope the area a bit till this guy jumps me and holds a knife to my throat.

Fantastic. This day is just perfect.

Being held right up against a man that's not Kaz with a history in the menagerie may off set me a tinsy bit. Screw you guy. Then it was fine though because I hit a spot on his neck to make his hand go numb so he drop the dagger and with his knife I killed him. Slit throat of course.

The irony that comes with living.

Then at least 33 men because apparently the Blacktips are sexist come into the abandoned warehouse. Kaz turned to us gave us a nod and we ran. While we're running for our lives these guys (there's about 8 of them) which call themselves the Hunters as they yelled what they wanted at us and came pouncing towards me. And of course they wanted to kill me.

So life is just amazing right now, and running in the rain sucks. Screw the rain saint/god because I'm going to tear their eyeball out if I meant them in death.

I run around a corner with the rest of the crows following because I can run inhumanly fast (well not really just faster then the average human.) Then I run into a weird sort of field thing that was close the the warehouse so we can fight and know where everyone is because their is a lot of people who want to kill me and Kaz. Great.

You could just let your other side out and this could be done in minutes. A voice in my head whispers.

Shut up. I think to myself. Everyone hates a monster. I think as I take a quick glance over to Kaz.

The crows and I gather ourselves together, I look to Kaz; "We could still end this, the Blacktips's leader is here." I nod my head over to the big bulky man with dirty blonde hair and redish pale skin looking for our hiding spot.

Kaz's gaze is on mine unwavering with those topaz eyes with that strike of green in them every now and then. "We could." He says

"But..." Nina says. I glance over to her quickly, but what? So I say exactly what I think.

"But what?" I snap slightly annoyed- we should be getting a move on there's 41 people to take down we have to get going.

"Those guys wanted to kill you Y/n, it's not safe for anyone here it could be potentially fatal to this job."

I shrug my shoulders uncaring, who would care if I died? Kaz might for a while. I sneak a glance at Inej. But he has her, and I know she's 100 times better than I am Kaz just needs to see that.

"Who isn't after to kill me these days? Plus a jobs a job, I die, I die, there's nothing anyone can do about that. If I'm going to die might as well do it fighting, also you don't just stop a job you keep on going regardless. It doesn't matter if I'm a casualty as long as the job got done then it's fine."

Everyone looks at me with a face of shock apparently not expecting that answer.

"So what's the plan." I snap yet again being set of guard by that damn man.

Kaz sighs knowing he can't stop me. "Okay..." He starts talking. "I know how we're going to get out of this."

_________________Mild time skip like 25mins top, and your just about to start the plan____________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________

Sorry that was weird, onward!

I take Kaz's hand and squeeze it slightly but let it go just as fast. Just a reminder that I needed - even if he had the gloves. He glances over to me and his face is a mix of emotion;  worry, love, anger, and some more I couldn't identify.

Love? He could never love you. The voice hissed. You will never be enough, you monster! The voice laughed. You must be going insane! I growl slightly. Quiet. Fine suit yourself to your madness you inhuman.

Kaz looks over to me and his mouth quirks up a little bit and he nods at me.

"Come on let's go show them what a murder of crows look like." I grin sadistically.

We come barging out of our hiding spot hitting them at all ends. I pull out my knives and charge towards the Hunters.

I slash my knife onto one of their arms and the man growls in pain, as I place another cut right on his thigh. He nods his head and 7 other men come to back him up. I cock my head to the side and grin.

"Well boys, it looks like it might not be a fair fight for you!" And with that I'm off. I pounce on the one beside the one I already injured and with two knives in each hand like claws coming out of my skin I slash his throat open and he drops to the ground dead.

Then 3 come at me this time while 4 come around to my back. Not a chance kiddos.

I jump really high into the air then with amazing speed come down onto 2 guys killing them on impact. Now the other five are pissed at me for killing 2 guys at once great. They circle around me, it's like their trying to Hunt a predator with their sloppy movements and mindsets mind you.

"We we're sent in here by Tante Helen to bring you to her or to at least kill you." The man smiles.

"It may be easier than we thought." Okay so you can call me whatever you want I don't care but never tell me I can't kill you. It's the only thing I seem to be good at.

I howl out into the open and I can feel the transformation already.

Dark black feathery wings spout from my back like flowers on steroids, I feel my teeth take the shape of some deadly fangs, of brown-red cat like tail comes out from under, horns warp around my head like warping paper, and majestic claws form onto my nails.

The men look at me in fear and a certain blood lust is there that wasn't before.

"You ready boys."

It's a mess of bodies and I think there's only 4 guys left, I jump on one of them tear off his head blood splattering all over me even though it probably didn't matter because there was blood all over my body at this point. I stick my claws into the other chest and he slowly falls to the floor chocking on his own blood.

Then I see it.

It's obviously another man but the difference here is that he has a gun trained on Kaz while he's occupied with the other boy.

And he's pulling the trigger.

Without so much as a second thought my wings lift up and take flight and with a boost of moonlight magic I fly right into Kaz causing him to slip and kill the other man.

Oh and I got shot.

Blood sputters from my chest and I fall to the ground. Kaz whips towards me and yells; "Y/n!"

Or least I think he did everything is a bit hazy right now. I feel myself transform back into my normal human form. And Kaz cradles me in his arms and I realize with a first he doesn't have his gloves on. He commands something to Jesper about killing the last man and something to Nina and Inej about finding healers.

"It's going to be okay Y/n stay with me damn it!" But it sounded slow and hazy - it must be that damn rain. Suddenly I gasp in realization. I could use my moonlight magic to heal myself. In my excitement I accidentally kissed Kaz.

We haven't kissed before think that neither of us we're ready but by the saints, I never wanted to stop.

His lips we're gentle and soft against mine, they shifted with mine as if we were meant to fit together. It was all the stars in the universe coming down on us, it was binding us yet it was destroying everything around. Beautiful destruction.  

Oh and I healed myself while this happened.

We pulled away running out of air and because Kaz thought I was still dying.

"Moonlight magic it helped me heal some of the way, my healing factor will do the rest." I manage to say with Kaz so close to me.  He raises his eyebrow, then Kaz fucking Brekker gives me a full on relived smile.

Then in that moment we realized we had an audience.

Fuck this shit.

Kaz picks me up (what the fuck) but I'm secretly glad because I don't think I could even stand up right now. The crows faces are just priceless I giggle a little and right now it doesn't even matter to me that I showed them the monster, Kaz trusts them so I should take that leap. Plus Kaz and I just toke a big step in our relationship I couldn't be happier.

"Meet my girlfriend."

Their faces transform into surprised and even more shock, but a little bit of pride too. And I smile because for the first time in years the voices in my head are speechless.

So that's that I guess. I honestly suck at writing for Kaz and there may be a part 2! We will see... 🤪

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-thedelusionreaderbitch

[spookyheaad]

Haphephobia talk

BIG TRIGGER WARNING: brief mentions of rape/coercion, mentions of suicidal ideation, self harm, physical and mental abuse, as well as dehumanization. This one is kinda heavy.

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Hi again! Currently horizontal on my couch because I have full body aches from the second covid shot and my head is killing me, but I expected this to happen as it’s normal for the second vaccine to knock you out for a day or two.

Anyway, I had a realization earlier that I write both Gild Tesoro of “One Piece”, as well as Death from “Darksiders” with Haphephobia - which is “a fear of touching or being touched”. While I write them with this phobia, it manifests within them differently, and I figured I would share some differences, and headcanons for both characters (it’s been so long since I’ve talked about my sassy depressed Nephilim husband; I miss you, Death ❤️❤️). Also with Death, I ship him with an OC I created, named Zemira. I don’t think I’ve shared a lot about her on tumblr, but I’ll be making a whole post about her another time; just know I’ll be mentioning her occasionally.

So I’ll be talking about Death’s haphephobia first, it’s a little more heavy (deadass trigger warning here for the brief mentions of rape. Skip this part if you need to):

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So I must start out with the obligatory mentioning of that accursed chapter from The Abomination Vault:

Death and War have to seek out Lilith and gain information from her. Death is viciously adamant for War to stay outside & away from that woman, but war protests and wishes to come in with him. Death, nearly resorting to beating his brother into submission, demands him to stay outside, and War finally relents.

When the eldest Horseman goes in to see Lilith, one of the first things she says to him is something along the lines of “this isn’t a social call, is it?”. I truly forget what else is mentioned, but there are a few times where Lilith tries to mention things of a (supposed) sexual nature towards Death, and he abruptly and angrily cuts her off. The one thing I remember Lilith saying to Death was her saying that Death was always a “sensitive boy” which makes my stomach fucking churn.

What is heavily implied in this scene, to me, is that Death and Lilith at some point in the past, had sexual encounters with one another that Death is very much extremely embarrassed and ashamed of, and with Lilith’s ability to seduce any being regardless if they want to partake or not, it’s safe to say that Death could have possibly been coerced into said sexual activity. Lilith’s ability to seduce is described almost like a date-rape drug to me, it causes people to fall under some kind of spell or go into a trance; what is a big uh-oh to me is when Death describes that War would be weak to Lilith’s wiles, or her tricks. So she is definitely capable of coercing people in any way to get what she wants. Also fucking keep in mind that Lilith refers to Death as her SON, which adds a whole new level of “what the fuck” to that situation; it’s just icky.

I feel that Death, because of this run in (or run-ins) with Lilith, developed a massive fear of being touched, which is backed up in canon in Darksiders 2. He does not allow anyone to physically touch him under any circumstance; when Death arrived in the Makers’ realm, Eideard touched his chest where the amulet pieces are embedded. Death recoils quickly and with a venomous growl, states: “Don’t touch me!”

Then of course when he goes to visit Lilith, she touches his chest as well, and he physically pushes her hand away from his body. She also refers to herself as Death’s mother, and Death angrily states: “You are not my mother!” Also from the moment Death sets foot in Lilith’s domain, he is not thrilled to be there, and acts very different towards her; more defensive, more on guard it seems.

So this headcanon stems from all of that; he will not let anyone touch him, it’s just that severe. Where my OC comes in, I actually have a story on AO3 titled “Haphephobia” and it shows how Death & Zemira try to get past this aversion to touch, so 1.) Zemira can give him affection and 2.) Death can allow himself to be loved. I’ll link it here:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/29860320/chapters/73476759

Death cannot even bring himself to hold her hand in the very beginning. So Zemira started there, holding his hand, physical closeness, and very slowly, started working to larger forms of touch. Obviously this gave Death massive amounts of anxiety, so this is why the process is extremely slow. It makes it even more important to go slow because Death tries to hide any weak emotions, so the physical and mental stress he puts himself under is tenfold.

I think that’s all for Death. His Haphephobia is extremely severe, from the specific traumas he has experienced, possibly being forced into sexual activity with his god damn “”mother””, as well as hiding his sensitivity and kindness (my headcanons for why he does that is a whole other post waiting to be written) and just not believing he is deserving of such love and care.

Ok, now for Tesoro (specific Trigger warnings here for mentions of self-harm, suicidal ideation, physical/mental abuse)

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So I just recently realized that I wrote Tesoro with symptoms of Haphephobia; also compared to Death, it isn’t as severe or debilitating, but no less harmful to the person going through it.

For Tesoro I think it was sparked by a mix of guilt and insecurity, obviously as well as his past abuse from both his mother and the Celestial Dragons. But in Film Gold it’s obvious that he doesn’t have an issue with being touched, I’m referencing the scene with the pool girls. I think in canon, he’s on high alert when someone goes to touch him, especially if it’s someone he is not familiar with, or does not like. It’s more of an automatic thing that he learned to suppress over time, especially because he absolutely craves attention and affection, and his fear of touch gets in the way of that.

So in a way, he did learn how to work through it, but it wasn’t proper or healthy, and because of that it’s still there in the back of his mind. I also believe that he doesn’t like people pinning him by the wrists/hands/arms or holding him down in any way, or being bound (sexual or non sexual, he does not like it). It triggers severe panic and flashbacks, so, it’s a big no.

In terms of if he were to be around Stella, it becomes heightened. It’s not that he’s afraid of her; he knows her well. He is afraid for her sake, that he would hurt her in some way simply by allowing her to touch him. All through his life, Tesoro was made to feel like he wasn’t worth the space he took up in his existence. His mother did not love him, the one person that could have given him some form of gentle gesture. She instead hurt him, screamed at him, made him feel worthless. Then we all know about the celestial dragons; they didn’t even see Tesoro as a human, and that mixed with the beatings from both the celestial dragons and his mother, he is weary to allow others to get close.

After Stella died, In his heart of hearts Tesoro genuinely thought that he was unloveable, mainly because of his mother. The one woman who brought him into this world didn’t care about his dreams or his well-being, so then how can anyone else? Then, when he found the single person that cared about him, she was whisked away from him without a second thought. Tesoro feels doomed to observe yet never experience the love and kindness that the world had to offer.

That mixed with Haphephobia makes him very cautious of others, and in the case of Stella, vehemently afraid. He loves her, and she loves him in return; Tesoro knows this full well, (we’re headed to the “if Stella survived” AU) after they reunite he is so afraid to touch her and it’s painful to him when she touches his body. It’s another source of frustration and anger because he knows that he is still in love with her, but his own body is trying to push her away. He would tear open his body for the apprehension to leave, to finally feel the comfort he yearned for within Stella’s embrace. No more fear, no more being brought to tears because he felt he didn’t deserve her kindness, no more guilt.

Both he & Death feel unloveable but for different reasons:

Death feels unloveable because of the atrocities he has committed, specifically the Nephilim Genocide & the creation of the Grand Abominations. He feels knee-crushing amounts of guilt for taking part in such events, and he puts up a facade of being an uncaring monster, when he is very much the opposite. He has kindness to give, yet is afraid to show it because of that idea that he is to be seen as nothing but an attack dog for the Charred Council. But this is also the same Nephilim who was so tired of making things that took life, and chose to make something that gave life instead, and gifted said item to his sister, Fury. This is the same Nephilim who took his own life to prove that his youngest brother War did not start the apocalypse. He cares so deeply, has insurmountable love to give, yet feels incapable of doing so.

Tesoro thinks he is unloveable because the world conditioned him to view himself as such. The extreme abuse he suffered told him that he is trash; an afterthought whose only use is as a punching bag or a wasted body to rend flesh from. Ants had more worth in this world than he, and Tesoro knew it. All it took was Stella, one person, for him to see that he is worthy of such a thing, that nothing that went on in their pasts was his fault, and that he does deserve to be given gentle touches, soft reassuring hugs, feather-light kisses, and that he is able to be loved.

[zirkkun-uthcs]

What about Ink and Error falling in love with the same person 👀 btw love your blog, you write for the characters that people hardly see in x readers, so thank you!

Ooh, a very fun prompt! I'm an absolute sucker for love triangles. Also thank you!! I'm glad you enjoy my character selection hehe, I always feel like my AU choices are so different from the norm that nobody really likes them as much, but I'm glad to see that's not the case!

also my apologies, this got a little long, aaaaa I get too invested in love triangles

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So Ink and Error are the weirdest pair of frenemies you'll ever see. One day they'll be trying to kill each other over Ink doing something purely to piss off Error, the next you'll see them hanging out calmly as if nothing ever happened. If you ask them how they feel about the other, Ink's response will be a carefree, "Error's fun to mess with!", while Error's will be "Ink is a piece of shit." They could literally be sitting next to each other, enjoying the other's company, and still give these exact answers.

With them seeing each other so much, it's no surprise that they both came across the same person and fall for them at the very same time. Error knew immediately what he was feeling, and rejected it just as fast, trying desperately to delete his own emotions, even though he knew that wasn't possible. Ink, on the other hand, has absolutely no idea, and is so oblivious to not only his own feelings, but accidental flirting as well, and can't understand for the life of him why you'll get so flustered over what he thinks is just a simple sentence. This infuriates Error for a few reasons: one, why of all people does he have to compete with Ink for your heart. Two, why of all people is Ink this much of an emotional dumbass.

They'll go back and forth between you, never interacting with you as a pair. More than likely, you probably had no idea who either of them were before they started hanging out with you all the time, so their sudden constant presence is a little ominous. It feels so weirdly timed, like a story -- one day, you'll be with Ink at the park while he loosely rambles about one thing or another, maybe sketching out some scenes while you're there; the next you'll be with Error, who's grumpily doing his best to try and cater to something you want to do, but man is he both awkward and quiet while trying. You also find out about his haphephobia very quickly, and he usually keeps at least a 1-2 ft (0.3-0.6 m) radius around you at all times.

Error, while hanging out with you, definitely tries his best. He's been a victim to emotions before -- and frankly, he knows he wouldn't have even bothered getting close to you if it wasn't for the fact he was competing against Ink. He can't like you be swooned by a dumbass like him. But the problem is that he has absolutely no idea how to aporoach this. What do people do when they like someone? Do they hang out? Do they get stuff for them? You'll probably get a lot of weird mixed messages, and maybe a plethora of hand-knit things.

Ink is also going to be extremely unclear and give just as many mixed messages as Error, if not more, and he is not once going to acknowledge how he feels. It's difficult for him to discern what of his feelings is artificial and what has manifested from the ink he's drank, and especially without drinking his pink or purple vials, those being care and attraction, he has absolutely no idea that the reason he's so happy and feels bubbly around you is because he likes you, since his emotions are pretty much inside like "Uhhh where's the caring emotion?? Not here?? Okay, so we don't care. Just happy."

One day they'll both meet up with you, unintentionally, and Error will be the first one to snap and get mad at Ink. They'll probably babble on in some sort of argument for a while -- c'mon guys this is awkward you were just trying to eat lunch -- before Error will break and just confess on the spot. When he realizes what he's done, it's too late, so, fuck it, he confesses on Ink's behalf as well, which confuses both Ink and you tremendously. Error just scolds at Ink for being a dumbass and not realizing what his emotions meant, and when it's explained, Ink says something like "Ohhhh! THAT'S what that feeling is?" and probably just laugh it off. He doesn't even feel shame or embarrassed.

Error just furiously demands you make a choice: him or Ink. Technically, you do have two more options, being none and both.

If you pick Error, he's going to have so many feelings at once he won't know what to process first. His face has bluescreened and his eyes are not visible amongst the errors. He wants to rub it in Ink's face that someone can care about him, he's baffled by the idea that someone would genuinely like him, and he's worried you'll not be okay with him and his haphephobia. Physical contact is a thing in relationships, right? Now he's panicking. Oh God what has he done. Meanwhile, though, Ink doesn't care. He only thought of you as a friend anyway, but that is in part because he had no idea what was he was feeling and just kinda labeled it that way.

If you pick Ink, suddenly it will click. Suddenly, the concept of being happy around someone specific will click in his head, overwhelm him entirely, and -- ah, there he goes, he's puked up ink again. Er, you still happy with your choice? Ink doesn't say much of anything; he's not been so silent in so long, but the silence is just echoing in his skull as he thinks about the fact that someone so genuinely cares about him. Should he... try to do the same? No, he thinks, he doesn't want to create any artificial care by downing a bottle of pink love paint. That would be wrong. Error, on the other hand, is internally furious, but mostly at himself. He immediately goes back to the Anti-Void before he snaps.

If you choose both, they'll be taken aback, neither of them expecting that response. Error will first try to tell you that didn't answer the question, but if you persist in saying you can't pick between the two, he'll shut himself down. Ink, once he registers what you said, is incredibly open to the idea, but Error takes a bit more coaxing to warm up to the idea, but even still he might need some time. The idea of dating the same person as Ink bothers him greatly. He'd probably be more okay with it if it was literally anyone else. ...okay, literally anyone other than Ink or Fresh. But, eventually, he'll cave to his own emotions and try it.

If you choose neither, well. Genuinely, they don't care. Error's going to be a bit mad at himself for bringing himself this far down the line for no result, all just because Ink pissed him off, but he is definitely not concerned about the fact he just got rejected. Ink just never really cared to begin with. He's fine with just being friends. He probably wouldn't even care if you told him to never talk to you again in your life. He'd just be like "Okay!" and leave. No point in arguing.

[seapandora]

Trepidation

Steve x  g/n|reader

Haphephobia - the fear of touch

Warnings: Mentions of Haphephobia, domestic assault (mentioned as a previous happening), some swearing probably, fluff (if that needs a warning), angst (there probably is some of that in here somewhere)

A/N: This one is for people who suffer from the fear of touch. I honestly did a spin-the-wheel on which phobia. I have a few more phobias I kind of want to explore a bit, a few I suffer from myself. I decided to use the pronouns they/them for this reader. I´m so sorry if that offends anyone, it is not my intention to do so. If you'd like to see this as a she/her or he/him, make sure to contact me and I´ll put those up as well! If you guys would like to see that, make sure you tell me! Share, comment, like, if you enjoyed reading it! GIF-cred to owner!

Summary: Y/N suffers from Haphephobia, the fear of being touched. Steve helps the reader through a particular episode caused by another avenger, by mistake.

Y/N had arrived at the compound very quietly. No one knew they were there until they sat in a pre-mission-meeting with the rest of the avengers. Well, apart from people who had seen them in the halls and what not, but that was rare. They kept to themselves mostly, and rarely went outside their room.

Steve had been the first one to introduce himself and he had stretched out a hand for Y/N to shake, they didn´t however. At first he thought it was a bit rude of them to not shake his hand, but as he got to know them he had realized why. Most who got to know Y/n realized why they had never shaken their hands.

Peter was a different story however. He wasn't exactly touchy, but he was young and sometimes had a hard time understanding others, and their boundaries. As soon as he had seen Y/N he had walked over to them and hugged them. Y/N had frozen solid in their place and had worn a face of shock at the interaction. Steve had to drag Peter off them and made sure they were okay, which they weren't.

That was just this morning and Y/N was now in their room. The hug had put them in a pretty bad mental state, they had been very scared. A knock on their door brought them out of their trance. They looked up just in time for the Captain to come in. He was their partner, had been for quite some time now, as well.

“Hey there sweetheart,” he said with a smile and closed the door behind him before he sat down on Y/N´s bed. Y/N was in their bed under the covers holding a huge Stitch plush. Something Steve knew was a coping mechanism for Y/N. They didn't like touch, in fact they had a phobia of being touched.

Haphephobia, which Steve, before Y/N, had never heard of was the fear of touch. Y/N was deadly afraid of being touched, and it stemmed from past trauma. As a child Y/N had been badly abused by their parents, and later on by scientists who had turned them into something similar to Wanda.

“How are you feeling?” He asked, and although he wanted nothing more than to put a hand on their hip he knew better. They needed their space right now, at least physically, but he also knew they needed him close mentally.

Steve was really the only person who could touch Y/N. Bucky and Sam could get passes as well, but not very often and if they touched Y/N it was on accident. They had both learned to not touch them at any cost, just to keep them comfortable, and respecting their fear was the least they could do. Animals however weren't an issue, so Bucky' cat, Alpine, was one of Y/Ns favorite individuals in the compound. Alpine was very cuddly but would hurt a fly.

“I´m feeling a little drained. I´ve been doing so well these past few weeks, and then he just came up and hugged me. I freaked out,” they explained and Steve nodded and sighed softly. “He´s very sorry, he didn't know. I hope it's okay that I told him about your phobia,” Steve said and frowned. Y/N looked at him and hummed before they reached out to sooth the frown between his eyebrows. “Don´t frown love, it doesn't suit you,” they whispered before they patted the bed beside them.

Steve laid down besides them but waited for them to cuddle up to him rather than the other way around. It was just normal now, he didn't think twice about it. Y/N quickly curled up to his side and placed their head on his chest right over his heart. The trust Y/N had in him made his heart beat just a bit faster. He gently wrapped his arms around Y/N and kissed their forehead.

Y/N looked up at him and tilted their head. “Thank you Steve, having met you and getting to know you has been the best thing in my life. You made me realize that I am worthy of feeling happy and safe,” they whispered and Steve could feel tears form in his eyes. How did they always make him sound like a hero? He had done nothing more than what was expected and they acted as if he had given them the entire world.

“It's what you deserve love, you deserve everything. You deserve to feel safe, and you deserve to be touched the proper way. I will never let anyone hurt you, not even the trepidation can hurt you as long as I´m here,” he said and gently kissed Y/N. They smiled against his lips and Steve couldn't help but smile back. “I will help you overcome this Y/N. You may never fully allow others to touch you, but we will get through the trauma. We will come out stronger, because we will be together. Always!”

Y/N smiled and nodded. They knew they could get through this as long as they had Steve on their side. He wasn't just Captain America. He was the Captain of their heart.

[arts-n-anarchy]

The Worst Night Ever (Chapter 1)

The Best  Worst Night Ever 

Summary: Error makes the biggest mistake of his life by inviting Ink to stay in the anti-void for the night.

Pairing: Queerplatonic Errorink

Warnings: Mild language, Haphephobia, some fluffy™️ content

Word count: TBD

A/N: I read a post a while ago about Queerplatonic Errorink and I could not resist writing a fic about it! Just a heads up, this is taking on the headcanon I have that the doodle sphere works like the sun and it lightens and darkens throughout the “day.”  Enjoy!

“Wait, did I fall asleep again?”

Error swatted his sweater off of his stomach, and flattened out the shirt between it. He looked through the door into the anti-void and noticed that the radiant yellow of the Doodle Sphere that he had last remembered had started to fade to more of a mustard color, less vibrant than before.

“I guess I did.” He huffed, reaching over to his side to grab an unfinished doll of Underswap Sans that he made with his strings. The lookalike was fully constructed up until the torso, at which he had tied together the ends and called it a day. But now that his mind was fully refreshed, he thought that it would be better to continue working on it to give him something to do rather than just sit around for another few hours.

As he grabbed his strings out from his eye sockets and started working, he found that his fingers were slightly stiff from vehemently weaving and constructing. He was no stranger to overworked fingers, as he had dozens of dolls of various anomalies strung up around the anti-void. But on this day he had no tolerance for anything that would burden him more than his empty world was already burdening him today.

Error had practically done all he could to wreck the AUs. But every time he thought that his work was done, Ink would swoop in out of nowhere and fix everything instantly. That got his gears grinding for a couple of weeks, but now he was simply too burnt out. Plus, the crushing feeling of failure and disappointment had started to hit him too. So here he was, sitting in the anti-void for 24 hours of the day, contemplating whether or not it was worth it to even live.

He was amazed at how Ink was able to keep pressing on and keep doing good, considering the things that he had to deal with every day too. Ink has no soul, so he has to try and make up for that by being the most selfless and well-rounded person he could be. Even though he was still an asshole, Error had to admit that he was doing better at accomplishing that than the normal outcode would. If it had not been for him being able to catch his drugs so he can have them whenever he needs them, he would not be the “hero” that he is today. None of his charades would have started and he would have just been a nobody.

Error was set up to be a nobody, just an anomaly Sans that got glitched out of his AU. But because he was able to get his strings when he fully glitched out, he was able to gain the power and control he needed to be able to bring order and eliminate anomalies that had nothing of what he had. He saw in others what people saw of him. Just a regular person, who has no capability of doing anything worthwhile. If that is the case, then they need to make way for something that would actually make a difference. Ink thought that everything in the multiverse deserved to live a happy life and make their mark. Error scoffed at the thought of this.

“Well then why do you treat people like they’re just background characters in your story?” He said, almost bending his finger a little too far back. He relaxed slightly, his back slouching slightly and going a little slower in his work. He needed to clear all thoughts of Ink from his head to be able to stay calm.

A faint voice soon came within earshot:

“Oh, Broomy! You’re too much!”

Error turned his head to the door to see Ink sitting in the middle of the Doodle Sphere, clutching his brush next to him and smiling widely. Ink threw his head back, chuckling loudly.

Error’s busy fingers came to a halt as he looked down at the ground. Then he got an idea. An awful idea. An absolutely wonderful, awful idea. Maybe, he thought, I could play with him a little bit. Poke some fun at him. He’s obviously got nothing to do, just like me.

But, he had to come up with an excuse for conversation. He didn’t want Ink to be suspicious of him and he didn’t want Ink to think that he actually wanted to have a friendly chat. He tossed and turned ideas in his mind when he finally came up with the idea of using Ink as a reference for a doll for him he was creating. He stood up, dropped the blueberry doll, and stepped into the light.

“Hey, Ink,” a choppy voice said. Ink turned his head around to see Error standing not quite over him, but a couple of feet away so that he wasn’t too close to him.

“Yeah?” Ink said, getting up as Error asked his question.

“I need a reference for a doll I’m making—“

Without skipping a beat, Ink deadpanned, “Is it me?”

“Uh… yeah.”

“Why would you make another one of me?” Ink raised an eyebrow.

“Uh…” Error tugged at his scarf, trying to think of something sensible to say. “…I lost my old one.”

Even though it sounded very forced and nervous, Ink bought it enough for the subject to be dropped.

“Okay. Well, I’ll do it!”

As soon as Ink stepped into the anti-void, he realized he had forgotten why he never went there.

He jerked his head around the landscape to find that there was absolutely nothing in the area. The barrenness of the place started to pound at his head, closing in on every side. The seemingly endless white started to stretch and shrink, and he finally dropped his brush in panic.

He was sweating heavily, and he was breathing hard. “It’s COMPLETELY EMPTY!” He curled up into a ball on the ground, tucking his head into his knees. If anything was to move forward, Error would need to give him his brush again.

Error tried to pick up Ink’s brush, but he almost dropped it. It felt like he was competing in a lifting championship, and he was losing. Badly.

Error soon enough was able to set the brush on the ground next to Ink, and Ink quickly snapped out of his trance. He swept up his brush with a swish of his arm, and turned to Error. “Is it okay if I do a little decorating?”

“Sure, whatever.” He waved Ink off. As long as he didn’t trash the place, or get in the way of his own stuff, he really didn’t care. Plus, he needed to let him have his fun before Error ruined it all.

[lyranekota]

Day 28: Error by @loverofpiggies

ok... as i said i like the bad guys and error is definitly one of my favourits. And it doesn´t matter wich version of him because... i read stories with very different versions an i loved (nearly) all of them!

I just love this destroyer for his design too! Its very different from the most but at the same time not as over designt as some characters in this fandom.

And his haphephobia makes him a very intresting charakter for working with him too! Especially when it comes to ships~

[birdybirp]

Hey so I just re read your story again and like man, it hits different every time like I already know what is gonna happen(of what is published so far) and I’m still crying! And the current last chapter omg I pass away every time I read it, I 100% agree with Evelyn hearing “I love you” instead of thank you and ugh I can’t wait til they actually say it I can only imagine the feels 😩

Ahhh it makes me happy that people are still reading it even though I haven't updated in a while! I got a job and a cat and school taking up my time, but it's encouraging to know people still care enough to revisit it.

And it's not secret that I am a slut for Very Dramatic Love Confessions, so it's a safe bet that one will happen in Haphephobia

[capiturecs]

Magical AU Recs (part 1)

Still backing up my re-lists. :D This is the first part of the Magical AU recs. These are fics in which something from canon is different. Ex: Harry or Draco got sorted into a different house. Draco has a different mission in 6th year. The mission goes differently. Voldemort wins, etc. Basically not Muggles AU, but Magical/Canon AUs. :) Underneath the Underneath by dirty_darella (NC-17, 23K) Summary: AU: Hogwarts has never been boring for Harry Potter, and sixth year is shaping up to be no different. A mystery, a (slightly uncomfortable) budding romance between old friends, and a botched up Potions accident. It might be more bearable if only Malfoy wasn't such a pain. (AU: Different Version of the Sixth Year) Beautiful Stranger,  Beautifully Familiar & Always and Forever by silentauror (NC-17, 23,8K adding all parts) Summary: AU! Plot cliches galore, in smut form! 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How would you start a ship story? Any tips?

That depends on what kind of story you want to write. Is it a drabble? A longer one-shot? A multi-chapter? When in their relationship?

It also depends on your writing style. If you’re relatively new to writing (and I am counted into that) you probably will change your style every now and then so you’ll have chance to try a lot of different ways.

 I’ll put this under the cut because it got a bit long. There’s also a few minor spoilers for a few of my fics.

Two examples of a little longer one-shots about first meetings I’ve written are…

Errotic:The first time Error had showed up in Underlust, he had been disgusted and frankly horrified. It had been quite easy for Lust to see. The exact moment the other realized the nature of his universe… it hadn’t been pretty. Especially since some really horny Snowdin citizens had come by and triggered Error’s haphephobia. Badly. Many people had almost died that day, and Lust had never seen such a frightening panic attack. 

Spicyhoney:Stretch stood hid behind an alley, watching the people walking by. This was one of the nicer parts of the town, so it was obvious he did not belong here. His tattered, torn clothes and dirty face was easy enough to spot. He had done his best to clean himself up, but hadn’t managed very well. Yet, he was desperate.

As you can see, they’re done quite differently. The first one is written with Tell, not Show. I tell you what happens, and I begin immediately in the middle of the story. I show you directly into a (non-graphic) panic attack in the first few sentences. Both characters are immediately introduced; it’s obvious this story is going to be about Error and Lust. Not until about half-way into the story do I start to show you what happens rather than tell you.

The Spicyhoney-one is more subtle. I start with showing you the situation we’re in rather than telling you a story. We’re still going quickly into the meeting with the love-interest (Fell), but it happens a few paragraphs in rather than in the first sentence or two. (As he walked past the next person, who was carrying a heavy box, he quickly moved his hand to grab the wallet sticking up from his victim’s backpocket). It’s not even obvious it’s Fell at first. It could’ve been a random person. There’s not any romance happening either until after a huge time-skip in the end.

Another example is NRS; in this story Red isn’t even directly introduced until we’re over a thousand words into the first chapter. In this story, he’s introduced by coming with food to Razz who is now a prisoner. There’s absolutely no romantic interest either, to begin with. Only resentment from Razz and amusement from Red:

Suddenly it knocked on the door, and thesound of a key in the key hole reached him. He froze. It opened, and in yetanother skeleton came. This one was shorter and sturdier than the one he hadfought, but still taller than Razz, irritatingly enough. The pirate startled ashe saw Razz on his feet, before grinning widely.

“good, yer awake,” he drawled, and held upa tray on which a mug and a few sandwiches laid. “boss said ya oughta wake upsoon.”

“WHO ARE YOU?” Razz demanded,backing a few steps until he stood against the wall.

So the story starts with some telling yells about protecting the princess (Razz) and then we get to see Razz in his cabin where he’s supposedly safe from the pirate attack.

The cabin was small and dark. Only an oil lamp lightened up the room and made it possible to see. The only furniture in the room was three bunks and a chest of drawers. Razz paced the room nervously. He detested being locked in. Yet, he knew there was nothing he could do about it. As the princess, he had to be kept safe in situations like these. Even so, it felt awful to be protected and safe while his guards fought for him. He couldn’t even watch and see which of them died. Once Razz was queen he could ride to the battlefield when he so wished, but not before that. He couldn’t wait.

Drabbles, on the other hand, should be started in the middle. Even though hardly any of my drabbles actually are drabbles. Throw us directly into the action:

Kustard”ey, sans, look a’ this!”

The loud call made Sans peek out from behind the huge clothes racks he had been going through. The sight that met him made him snort. His husband was fighting to get a huge sweater over his head. It was hideous. The sweater was black and depicted a green ribcage decorated like a Christmas tree with gifts beneath. Once it sat where it was supposed to, Red grinned triumphantly at Sans. Sans, meanwhile, could hardly believe his eyes when he saw the joyous expression on the other’s face.

There’s no build-up. You can also do this with a longer story, of course, but it’s especially important in a short one so things actually happen. Starting with someone speaking works a lot of the time, so that is a recommendation.

Hmm, what else?

I wrote this fic that was supposed to be Cherryblossom, but then I got bored and finished it before it could really turn into romance. This story starts with Red walking through the forest, being all cold and tired and annoyed. Four short paragraphs in, we’re introduced to Papyrus.

”OH. HELLO!” This time, Red did jump at the unexpected sound. Frantically, he tried to spot whoever had spoken. Nothing. There was a sound of someone clearing their throat, and he looked up. In one of the trees the source of the light was… hanging. A skeleton, like him. They looked a bit like his brother, just less sharp. And they appeared to be stuck. Red blinked in shock as he studied the stranger. They were wearing a long, white robe, a red scarf, and a kind smile. Then there were the wings. The stranger had great, feathery wings on their back. White but kind of sparkling gold.

To be perfectly honest, starting a romance isn’t so different from starting any other kind of story. Try to catch your reader’s interest as soon as possible so they don’t get bored - preferably already with the first sentence, but this is hard - and don’t get too lenghty. 

Make sure that the characters interactions are realistic; the I’ll-do-anything-for you kind of love by first eyesight isn’t exactly a common occurence in real life. Now we’re not talking the infatuation one can get in the early stages of a relationship or during a crush, but rather I’ll give my life for your happiness. It’s not exactly healthy either. So don’t rush things. Don’t make your character sad for years to come because someone they’ve known for one day doesn’t love them back, so to speak. That is an easy way to make me lose interest for a story, at least.

Try to let the relationship build up. Let them be friends, not only lovers. At least if you’re writing a healthy relationship. Otherwise feel free to ignore what I just said.

If they’re already in a relationship in your story, try to show early that they truly love each other. My Errotic-fics tend to be very Telling in the beginning, like this one:

Memories.

Flashes of two lives intertwined to one.

The first time they met. Those panic-attacks. Holding hands the first time; hugging, kissing. His soul fluttered slightly at those. It had been such a long time since those initial tentative touches. Having sex, carefully, slowly, for Error’s sake. Lust had made him scream, like promised.

Little things, like eating popcorn on the couch and cleaning up said popcorns after a popcorn war.

In this fic, they’ve already been together for many, many years. Centuries. Personally, I think these sentences gives a certain feeling of tenderness. The story has just begun, but I did my best to so quickly as possible show that they truly love each other. 

That is the main point of the story, after all. The love and the memories they have shared during their very long relationship. Honestly, I think I’m already here preparing the reader for bittersweetness and fluffy angst. Because this beginning gives, according to me, a feeling that “alright something’s going on here”. Of course, I’m the writer, so I might be completely wrong.

Otherwise the ending wouldn’t be as sad, after all. *wink wink*And sad, that was what I wanted it to be. A lovely sad. Bittersweet. Looking at the comments, I think I succeeded. 

You can also do it in a much less serious way, of course. By jokes and pranks and wrestling and laughing together. Unless your story is meant to be solemn this is actually recommended. Like this drabble I wrote a couple months ago;

RottenberryRazz grinned as he picked up the sugarbowl, pouring it all into the trash. Normally he wouldn’t waste all this food; he had grown up in a world of limited resources after all, but this was totally worth it. He’d make Blue regret tricking him yesterday. Filling the bowl with salt instead he put it back in it’s place and began preparing breakfast. Now he could only wait.

Just as he had finished the pancakes and the coffee was standing on the table his husband walked into the kitchen. Blue looked just as energic and cheerful as always, giving him a big grin.

”Morning love.” He said and kissed Razz’s cheek. Razz felt his usual grin melt into a sincere smile. There was few people who actually could make him really smile, but Blue always managed. He was so lucky to have him. Still. Revenge was soon to be served.

The first few sentences are important. They will set the mood for your story. If you want it to be humorous, try to make that clear quickly. By starting with a light-hearted situation, for example. Perhaps your OTP/OT3 is having a pun war or looking at bunnies in a pet store? If you want it to be sad, try to build up to it. 

Then of course there’s the concept of changing mood in the middle of the story, or even the end of it. It’s a great thing to do. Amazing. It’ll shock your reader and I recommend it. Just do it logically.

This Genodust drabble doesn’t start out sad. It starts out happy. Which only makes the ending more heart-breaking, because this isn’t a lovely kind of sad.

The Void was empty and silent, but it didn’t feel as cold and lonely as usual. Not when Geno was lying with his head in Dust’s lap, watching Outertale’s stars through a screen. He had been happier these last months than he could remember being since he kind-of-died. Dust stared at the stars in awe. This was the first time he saw them.

While this Classicberry is thoroughly happy because I needed happy when writing it (thanks to Kamari and The Last Laugh which I need to re-read). It starts happy and it continues to be happy, following the mood set in the beginning.

Blue smiled as he rolled around where he was resting in Sans’ arms. Looking at his husband’s – his husband, how amazing was that, he was married and soul-bonded to Sans – peaceful face. Sans never looked quite as peaceful as he did when he slept next to Blue, and he adored it. He knew that Sans still had awful nightmares sometimes, about dust and blood and RESETs, despite them having ended a long time ago but Sans had told him he never slept as well as he did when he either held Blue or was being held by Blue.

I need to wrap this up now, it’s getting too long. It also covered a bit more than the beginning… Oops? I got enthusiastic. I hope it’s helpful!