#Too Busy to Grieve.

[butts-bouncing-on-the-beltway]

I know that people are rarely their best selves at a funeral, but do you ever just watch your family move through the process of mourning the Patriarch and have a sudden and violent and vivid understanding of Why Everyone Is The Way They Are

[eri-pl]

So I was thinking about Doriath again, and about how I'm pretty sure C&C never told any of their brothers anything except "we duelled Beren and imprisoned Luthien to stop her from interfering" (which is an obvious understatement, but the others would not compensate enough for it, I think they would imagine some unhonorable fighting and murde attempt, and that's it).

And I thought about Caranthir, who was there with those two (it's a common fanon that 3 Cs died in roughly the same time and place and the other brothers weren't there).

About Dior, charging at Celegorm and calling him out, and Caranthir, the always easy to anger Caranthir, yelling "How dare you!" and running at Dior and getting stabbed by one of the Sindar, and the last thing he sees is Celegorm's extremely guilty face confirming everything Dior just said, :(

And the other brothers never even learned (Elwing did not know, I think, it's not a story you tell to children), maybe Maglor learned eventually, from Elrond's historical notes (let's not even get into Elrond's feelings about it) compiled from fragments of tales of the Sindar who survived.

And then in the Halls of Mandos, "you tried to do what—"

[unblissfulawareness]

I need to know where the hell Carl was that he didn't at least hear his 4-5 year old son screaming.

[ahxiang]

i feel for this guy and having to get out of the house that reminds him of his dead wife, but telling his children "i didn't leave you" when he v much did is honestly so fucked up

[squishosaur]

hey man. i'm just saying. why would we put inexperienced teenagers with over-inflated egos and obvious emotional issues into combat classes and make them claw their way to the top of their dorms and expect things to just run smoothly. who actually thought this

[silusvesuius]

nelvas Problematiq*eyes roll back into my skull* *falls flat on my face with cardboard cutout physics* ((7 hours later)) *wakes up in barren wasteland* I know everything now.

[luna-lacking]

home sweet home !!!

[sleevebuscemii]

i dont think he is but i think there’s a possibility that coach ben is alive and is just in serious hiding because of the absolute social outcry and backlash that he faced when they were finally rescued and everyone realized these kids had a literal actual adult with them the whole time but he was too gay and useless to prevent a single atrocity

[dragmiire]

obviously ganondorf can make mimics of other people who are alive/dead for fucked up reasons, but consider:

making a replica of someone who has died/disappeared as a tool of comfort. it's still fucked up but in a new, fun way!

i.e. in genshin, so long as he knows what they look like and has a description of how they act, he could make a mimic of the traveler's sibling. delightfully fucked up enrichment for a lonely heart!

[scream-mans-friend]

the past two years ive been both employed damn near close to full time and going through a dense degree program, but my office internship is now over and I am hunting for a full time gig which does fill some of my days, but i still have not had this much free time in a long while. so im finally circling some of my fic ideas/drabbles like a shark that smells blood in the water and im finally developing the plot so it has an actual story that i feel good about...

[mars-ipan]

do u ever have a Thought and ur like “well that was either a profound moment of self awareness or the most stupid bullshit i’ve ever come up with”

[loserboyfriendrjl]

when i die, don't look for me in the sunsets...

sirius — look for me in the sky. i know it's a cliché, but there is where you will see me. am i scared of death? no, of course not. i am endless, i am invincible, i am bright; i am the brightest star, actually. i will reach out for you, and i will light up your way. you will find me.

james — look for me in the sky. you will see the sun, bright and scorching. i will warm you up when you will grieve for me, and i will bring closure to you. i might be gone, but i haven't left you alone. i am here, still. and i always will be.

remus — look for me in the river. see the stones, smooth and cold. look at the water, running. its way is freedom, isn't it? it's all ended; it's over. however, that does not mean you can't go on. fall in love. live. without me. we'll meet again soon.

peter — look for me somewhere quiet. there is beauty in quiet, although some people can't see it. it's peaceful. come sit with me, won't you? death is imminent, of course; however, why won't we make the most of life?

dorcas — look for me in my lover's arms. i have been deceived so many times, death does not scare me anymore; it's the last bit of closure i have. look for me in the little things, where i hide. many do not see me, yet i am here. you just have to look for me.

lily — look for me at home. everything has a start and an ending, and i am always coming back. look for me where i can be myself, where everything is warm. look for me at home. maybe, one day, it will be ours to share.

mary — look for me somewhere bright. the sky, maybe. or somewhere colourful. it helps me forget how alone i am, really. i forget about the loneliness that aches in me. someday, i wish you'd search for me. for now, grieve.

marlene — look for me somewhere loud. it helps me forget. scared of death? of course, so i don't think of it. i let myself be washed away with adrenaline, pumped through my brain, and with a moment of pleasure. life is short, after all.

[rotisseries]

well. if nothing else. at least we have akutagawa august

THANK GODDDDDDDDDD

[windor-truffle]

*chants in increasing volume* ghost AU ghost AU GHOST AU GHOST AU

[funeralmourners]

i can’t believe louis didn’t get the ick from the pathetic way lestat was clutching that piece of wood

[romance-rambles]

i've been awake on and off since 3am but—

here me out: cael + a "superman kiss," aka kissing someone as he's erasing their memories. where someone is likely mc [some kind of au?] or an oc i've been begrudgingly working on.

just—the anguish of living with that knowledge, willingly sacrificing yourself so she does not have to suffer? this silent understanding that he is A Bad Idea because whatever knowledge he was trying to erase is directly tied to him. i'm not entirely coherent rn but cael does has this underlying selflessness as it pertains to mc so—

obviously this would be like, godheim-era cael. but for some reason, there's a confession—there's something going on and they've both been avoiding it?? and cael dismisses it because. it's not what seems to align with her mother's wishes??

hell, i'm thinking of it now and it could even be some kind of scenario where he (somehow) takes a lover while in godheim. doesn't have to love her—he just needs her because of her connections and is it really any different from what's going on with mc?

then she finds out about what he's really doing so he wipes all her memories of him but every reset is usually after he's committed himself to the act. so he's suffering because she'll always find out but he doesn't know why that makes him upset. oh, i wonder.