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Bill Cypher x Cyphertologyst!reader

Summary: hc for getting converted to Cyphertology, sorry if it feels unfinished, i waited too long to post it lol
pairing: Bill Cipher x Reader
tw: slight yandere? cult, brainwashing, harm mentioned but not really described
He met you as Silas Birchtree while making another wacky cult in Orchard Lake, Kansas. You were one of the very first belivers which amused him greatly! How was that, it was always you who greased your shoes the best and you who tied your bowtie so hard, you almost couldn't breathe??? Not only that, you even had the most screeching voice from all the converters! Not that he liked you or anything, but that's kinda hot!
While he was slowly getting attached, you on the other hand tried to learn about him as much you could. Who was Silas Birtchtree? Where did he come from? What did he want from this town and why was he oh so charismatic?
You sensed danger, so despite your hatred for bootlicking you tried to get as close as you could to the mysterious man. After all, it's important to keep your friends close and enemys closer.
He even let you be his right hand man! Every time you prized this so called "Bill Cipher" you could feel Silas' unblinking eyes on you. And he fought you were the guillable one!
With time tho, your relationship began to evolve. He didn't let you attend the meetings with other converters, no, he gave you more "special tasks" as he would call them. At first they were just random like making a statue of Bill, shaving you head, medytating at 3 am⦠but then they started to change. With time you found yourself more and more alieneted, rarly spending time with anybody but Silas, sometimes with him only staring at you, not saying a word.
And sometimes the only thing you had to do was to sleep! And for some reason he always knew if you tried not to!
But sleep began to be a chore. A one you didn't particularly like, since you had to lay in complete darkness on an old mat with only your thoughs as a company
The doors were always open but something kept you too scared to leave. You couldn't talk with your friends, nor prepare your family to get out of the town. Instead your only company was a looming, laughing shadow that started to appear in your dreams.
His name was Bill! You couldn't belive it, but he was actually real! You almost convinced yourself that you created him because of Silas' stories! But no! He was there, happy to see "his favorite human" and ready to make your nights actually enjoable! It changed everything!
Which should have been a warning to you. At the time you started to warm up to him, he started to read more and more of your mind. All the lies about your devotion, all your plans to stop Silas and destroy his cult, all your hopes to get your family and friends out of this wretched town.
He was furious.
Aw, You tried to keep your family safe huh? Get them far, far away? Oh well, you don't have to worry about them now, cuz now they are DEAD!
Oh, no, all your friends prefer to bow to him instead of listen to you? Why don't you tell him how much you love him maybe that will make them not kill themselfs as an offering?
When you aren't grateful for freeing you from your stupid human relationshps he decides to get more⦠intimite.
Which means getting into your head of course! He really came to adore you silly creativity and stubborness. He even grew to enjoy it! He tormented you with nightmares and visions until your mind turned into mushy goo and your face was covered in tears!
It was just a a matter of time when you went mad! He could even say he was proud of you - you were more loyal, more clingy and cuddly then ever before! You looked just like a beaten puppy! Oh and you were biting to!
With just a little help, you've became a real henchmaniac, or as humans call it these days - a terrorist! You even killed a random teenager who was crushing on Bill! Aren't you a charmer?
He even got you to become his wife at some point! You would do everything for him, just to not show you⦠the visions. But who cares? You two were now a happy, loving couple, with nothing that could step between you!
Except your death of course. What a shame.
#bill cipher x reader#thetalkingcrow#bill cipher x you#gravity falls x reader#book of bill#yandere bill cipher x reader
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so far I wanna share my opinion about the game since I played it for 30 hours or so. starting with cons bc there's much less of them than pros
cons:
lockpicking. I was speedrunning all the locks in the first game with any skill level, and as much as it feels "unrealistic", it's still a matter of understanding the mechanics. many players got issues with it while others did great, so it was kinda fair. now the lockpicking is so hard with those shaking hands that opening a plot related hard lock took me AN HOUR and dozen reloads since all my lockpicks were breaking like they were made of paper ā and I couldn't leave to work on the skill bc of the quest
horses. they are just slow and awful to control. in kcd1 I could ride from sasau to ratay with pebbles stopping once to let her rest, but now I need to stop every minute to go from the village to trosky castle. annoying af
this game makes me so stressed for the characters that I probably have grey hair by now (not a con actually, it's fun after finishing the quest, but during these i cry like a bitch)
changing block from q to right mouse button. i played kcd1 before the sequel a lot, and many other people probably did that as well, so the need to relearn that complicated combat system is annoying. also I'm fucking tired of pressing x to mount the horse like it was in kcd1 and opening it's stat window. even after 30h of the game I still get confused by it
it depends on the person, but I don't like the interface AT ALL. its just too bright in some places and dull in others so I literally can't see the text sometimes. it just lost the cool drawn vibe and many details are in 3d now (henry poses are fun tho)
the speeck checks feel to high, but I can admit it may be my skill issue
and now the pros!!:
quests!! the first game was really interesting as it is, but kcd2 has insane writing and I just miss how the time passes. the main story (the only thing I play for now bc I speedrun hansry romance) is so intense that I feel any death will be permanent like irl. the plot twists are fun, characters make me love them or hate their guts with nothing in between (spoiler I killed everyone for semine family bc I loved these to grandpas and turned out I was right about it yay!! and so was when the chamberlain asshole died, I cheered so hard). some moments made me go "hey I know [character-name] will be later, they can't die here... can they???šš)
kuttenberg. it's just gorgeous, nothing else to say. haven't seen much of it yet, but it's amazing and my wish to visit czech got even stronger
hans. the best thing for me in this game by far. I would give up anything and enjoy just talking to him for 200 hours, keeping him safe and sound. all the scenes with him make me either feel happy af or literally sobbing from stress because that idiot gets in dangerous situations way too much for my sanity (also third option is being angry like hell at him in the beginning of the game bc he acts like the biggest asshole, but I love him anyway). every reunion with him feels like home and I make henry tear bohemia apart just to save hans from everything (just as it should be). and the option to legit romance him feels like the most right thing to do because he loves henry, henry loves him, and that's it
spoiler!! the option to defenestrate istvan. the most czech way to kill someone, and it's one of the main villains! I was very satisfied
radzig is hot af
literally everything else what I didn't mention. this game is fucking amazing and in most of things are a huge upgrade
HANSRY IS CANON BABY
feel free to share your opinion unless it's bigotry āļøš
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Honestly you're overreacting. The intimacy coordinator thing didn't make waves at all outside on social media. The idea that Anora winning is "dangerous " is utter bs. I do think that intimacy coordinators should be there but making a boogeyman out the film isn't gonna solve anything.
Also "Mikey was probably exploited and doesn't realise" is such a horrifically condescending and insulting way to talk about her, she isn't a child. Unlike those other examples you mentioned, she has the resources for help available to her and has spoken about how safe she felt and how she notes the backlash and look forward to working with ICs in the future. But I guess its Believe All Women until they say something you don't agree with, right?
It wasn't even the only Best Picture nominee to not have one. (And Margaret Qualley has spoken about how horrible filming certain scenes of The Substance were and no one cared). But I know you wouldn't be weighting this pearlclutching post if any of them had won because the Internet didn't tell you to care about them.
Yeah I'm overreacting for understanding the importance of a professional and for not wanting abuse, harassment and uncomfortable situation happening in scenes where the actors are the most vulnerable.
Do you really, really think that the winner of the biggest Hollywood Award doesn't send a message from and for the industry? If not, you're just naive, I'm sorry.
Sure, Mikey is a grown woman but she is still a young and inexperienced actress. And guess what, putting your actress through unnecessary and not artistic shooted sex and nude scenes is kind of exploiting her. And this does not mean he is abusive or a creep, I'm not saying this. But he is a man making a movie about a sensitive topic surrounding women, it's not crazy to think that his male gaze gets in the way of some scenes that could be better if it was a woman directing them.
"but I guess it's believe all women until they say something you don't agree right?" Okay Sean Baker, I see it's you lmao. But seriously tho, it's good that she felt that way and everything. Again, I'm NOT mad at her, not at all. My ""anger"" is towards the director.
Ooh look who is being condescending now... You're probably talking about the Pump It Up scene where Margaret said it was like the hardest scene for her to shot bc of the close ups on her body. But the thing that you seem to not understand is about what is necessary and unnecessary in a scene. For instance, it was necessary for Sue to have this scene exactly the way it was shot? Yes, because she is seen as merchandise other than a person, so she is often shot like that, like a merchandise. And is one of the premises of The Substance. Now for Anora, do we really need all those sex scenes who tell us nothing new about the character or her relationships and are not even "artistically" shot? The movie is supposedly an ally to sex workers and yet reduces their main character into her work and the men in her life. She is basically treated like Sue, the difference is that Coralie Fargeat intended to treat Sue as a merchandise, meanwhile Sean Baker acted all "white savior" thinking he was doing this great help and revolution towards how ppl view sex workers when he was actually doing the same: Treating Anora more as merchandise than person. (At least In the first half of the movie)
And why do i say this? Okay let's talk about Anora. What are Anora's dreams? What are her fears? What does she like to do in her free time? Does she have any hobbies? Or religion? We know little to nothing about Anora besides her work and work relations. And the script doesn't decide if she is supposed to be a baddie or stupidly naive. Sure these two traits can coexist in a character but the way the script does is just not good. In summoring, who is Anora? She is a sex worker who lives with her sister, they don't seem to be close with each other. She also has a beef with the management of the club she works on and beef with a colleague. And she has a Russian background.
In comparison, let's see Ivan. Ivan is rich and comes from a traditional and conservative family. He is that kind of guy that is so rich he doesn't give a F about how much he spends and at a first look he seems really cool and someone you want to be friends with. He likes to challenge/get the attention of his parents, yet at the time is afraid of their punishment. He is impulsive. He likes to play video games, parties and smoking. He is childish and spoiled af, and seems to never really had faced any consequences for his actions. And he doesn't really change, he is the same from start to finish. And Boros, Boros is a family dude who babysits Ivan, and had to deal with his bullshits for years. He is also afraid of Ivan's parents, especially Ivan's mother. We know his family situation may be screwed after he left his grandson baptist to deal with Ivan's bs. He is a decent man.
See the difference?
Anyway....you may not even read all this but still.
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bark bark was led here by Sai relating to a HABIT and supernatural related question
so uh what do you think would happen if HABIT and Dean met?
First YAY SPN MENTION!!!! I have been a spn fan for basically my whole life. I'm not even joking, it came out in 2005 and that's the year I was born. I probably started watching spn when was like 3 years old but I didn't actually like it until I was maybe 8???? But that's what kicked started one of my longest special interests EVER. I made fanart, I made edits, fanfiction ANYTHING I was doing it. I also got a happy birthday wish from Misha himself on my 16th birthday.
I'm gonna write this as if it was a spn episode and not like. if they actually met idk HELP. also a read more bc I said more than I meant to š also If you want me to just talk about how their personalities would go together I genuinely don't think Dean would like Habit at all especially after he learns what Habit has done. Habit might find Sam and Dean really entertaining and he would find it impressive how many monsters they've killed but he'd know they could never beat him and he would play with them until they finally realize that it's better to just stay out of Habit's business. Kinda like what they did w the many monsters they just. let go
Now, first things frist. Sam and Dean are gonna try and kill habit. They're gonna use every method they can to get rid of him, they would obviously do a bunch of research (getting it wrong at first but then dean is all "I TOLD YOU HE WASN'T A REGULAR DEMON" after they try to vanquish him. I doubt even an angel blade could kill habit.) Sam and Dean would literally have to make the godkiller themselves (although they might not be able to do that so they'll find Vinnie and try to force him to join there side) and Vinnie would act all nervous and scared as they bring him to the bunker and he would act as if he was so afraid of Habit but really all hes doing is buying time for habit to come find him.
This means since the spn guys have Vinnie they now have to deal with slenderman bc habit is not there to keep Vinnie safe. The guys will have to deal with Vinnie probably getting taken over and he might even get violent but the guys have so much shit in that bunker they would tie Vinnie down to make sure nothing happens HELP and they might already know Vinnie's story (and habits as well due to research) I feel like they might even ask him questions about fairmount which he can't even answer considering the fact Vinnie can't even remember living that life.
They'd find out they need the Northstar to keep slenderman away and to also "kill" Habit.
and when Habit actually is able to find the bunker, you just know a huge fight is gonna happen, and Habit will kick Sam's ass and send him flying (he could even possess one or both of them if he wanted to but they've been through that before so I think they could fight against it, atleast one of them would. and then we get a brother vs brother fight which only ends when one of them summons Castiel and he's able to break the possession, or atleast he's there to help dean get through It.
meanwhile Habit is just trying to take Vinnie back and after the fight the guys are like "WE WON'T LET YOU KILL HIM!!" to habit bc they believe Vinnie to be a victim and then it's revealed they're actually partners and work together and Vinnie explains how he's bonded with Habit and he can't just leave him and then sam and dean have a moral dilemma on if they should let them go even tho Habit is a horrible monster and yk what. Who are they to get in the way of it... Dean would be all, "Don't you remember Ruby šššš she was a demon and she sucked and you dated her we should not let him go!!" and then Sam is like "okay but you're all buddy buddy with Crowley and he's literally the king of hell (atleast used to be) can you even judge šš" and habit and Vinnie are just. waiting to leave as they argue HELP.
but aside from all that I really don't think Dean and Habit would get along much. Dean would wanna kill him which would make Habit wanna kill dean and they would be taking a bunch of blows at each other and Habit would probably poke around in deans head and bring up a bunch of traumatic shit for him. I think Sam would be really wary bc Habit would probably remind him of Lucifer and it would probably trigger something.
I will say if Sam and Dean were to learn about Evan they would stop trying to kill Habit and they would be trying to bring Evan back without killing Habit. Evan and Dean would really get along I think, atleast for a little bit. Evan doesn't drink or anything and Dean is a severe alcoholic so Evan would just be all "man I think you should slow down on those drinks" and Dean is all "IM FINE I DRINK A NORMAL AMOUNT."
Vinnie and Castiel might get a long really well and Cas and the others would wanna know why Vinnie would wanna stay with something like habit and they learn that Habit has made it seem like he's the only thing that can keep him safe (which is actually not true) and they'll even tell Vinnie that but Vinnie is so content and Happy with Habit that the guys just. Let them go after being like "well just don't kill anymore people" and Vinnie and habit are all "š we won't!!!" and all of them are 100% certain that Vinnie and habit will be killing more people, Sam and Dean just do not have the energy to give a FUCK about those guys anymore they have easier monsters to kill.
Bonus: I think we could maybe see habits true form too, the guys would do research on him and realize that habit is actually this werewolf spider thing and they would take all their werewolf supplies and they would hunt him down but none of it would work. they might just really make habit angry.
I don't think the guys would be all that scared of him, especially when habit is possessing Evan, they are way taller and they're very strong. They would underestimate the power Habit actually holds and it would frustrate them more than it scares them.
Considering they might not be able to kill Habit, they'll probably go the route of making him into a "friend" and being able to call him if they ever needed help with something. They'd get Vinnie's number and then Vinnie and habit would be on there way. They're probably all beat up but they're just happy to have each other again and then camera pans over to Cas and Dean to randomly queerbait the audience and be like "look at how they relate to this gay couple" and then dean goes "I need a drink." and Sam goes, "pour one for me too." and then the episode ends.
ANWYAS HELP TYSM FOR THIS and thank you sai for sending you my way. SPN IS ONE OF MY FAV THINGS EVER It's very important to me and so is emh... I love thinking about my fixations together
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Episode 34 Thoughts Time
Spoilers... obviously
I was very normal about Skrimm this episode :) Very normal. Not feral at all :)) That scene didn't make me feel anything whatsoever. :)))
On that note though, I am mildly concerned about Graveyard Jack. Something felt a little off during that scene, it felt a little more gruesome than maybe it should? Idk tho, the elves might just be fine with being mauled to death. I hope Skrimm save the other barghests at some point tho, that could be really cool. Given the two captive barghests, it's interesting to think that Graveyard Jack was able to escape capture and Drakkar to find Skrimm. I assume he went out looking for someone to help save the other two, but his answer to Elder Nightbloom was concerning. Although, perhaps staying with the elves wouldn't be a good idea for him---he could get captured? Very excited to see where this goes regardless
Anyone know why Barnabos was so keen on stopping the wedding? Like, did I miss something? Or is he really just projecting? Like, buddy, we know you gave up your chance at love, but you don't have to make it everyone else's problem. It's like that one very opinionated guy who just expects everyone to think the same way he does. Idk. I can safely say that Barnabos is my least favorite character. He tries to force people to agree with him too much and it rubs me the wrong way (like "my way is the only/right way").
Daisy's fucked. Like, the Princess of Wrath doesn't know what happened to the Poet (yet), but with the way the crew was talking back to her, she's definitely going to punish them. She's a fucking dragon, she's not gonna take that laying down. And, she already knows Daisy is important to them AND she's shown that she'll use that against her people (the orcs). So, my prediction is that she'll do something or try to do something to Daisy to get back at them and try to force them to fall into line.
This is not to say that I disagree with them, I just think that they really shouldn't have played their hand like that. They could have lied and said Mus was mistaken, that he had mixed up their name or something, you know? Now was not the time to be defiant, simply because doing so could ruin their plans of overthrowing her (or get Daisy killed). I don't think this party has very much foresight... (even tho that should be Jornir's thing, Mr. Odin...)
On that note as well, I feel bad for Musš
He's just a little guy. Like, yeah that wasn't great, but he didn't know the importance of the Poet or what had happened to him AND the crew could have lied about it... idk
Actually, it's funny bc in the last episode, they mentioned how Daisy and Queenie were at the Biting Bastion and that they had to be careful bc of it. And then they do that... Guys please use your heads!
Look, I don't expect them to be heroic all the time, or at all. They're mostly just trying to survive. The only operative that they have that they actually care about comes directly from Drakkar. They're gonna save the world and that's it. They don't have to care about the people of Argentholme, but sometimes, they do things and it's like... guys...
#roy yaps#these are just thoughts pls be nice#i understand things look diffferent in hindsight#like heat of the moment stuff#icebound#loa#legends of avantris
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first up, spiderverse questionsss (super sorry if these arenāt that good, iām not that well versed (hahah *rim-shot*) in the spiderverse franchise, i have watched both movies tho)
whoās your favorite spiderperson? who's your least favorite?
which spider-person has your favorite suit?
how did you feel about the cliffhanger in atsv?
whoās your favorite non-spider character? who's your least favorite?
fmk: doc ock, jessica drew, rio morales (very unserious, you donāt have to answer if you donāt want to)
which movie do you like better??
what's your opinion on miguel oāhara (if you didnāt already mention him already in the first question) ?? (just cause there seems to be a divide, in my circles at least)
if you could be a spider-person, what colors and overall vibe would your suit have??
did you have a reaction to the aaron = prowler twist??
LOVE the pun by the way! i am also not that well versed (BOOM!), so i know a little bit but not much. plus its been a minute so imma do the best i can! if i don't answer anything the way you wanted just let me know and i can answer again! so without further ado...
round one, FIGHT.
this is a great question! great question that is tough to answer (half lie). umm i would say that my favorite is miles bc that's literally my son. he goes through a LOT and i feel for him bc it was never something he asked for, it just happened. but he took it like a champ in my opinion bc if it was me i would have ****** ******. so he is probably my number one favorite. but my LEAST favorite has to be miguel. I'M SORRY I'M SORRY DON'T SHOOT DON'T SHOOT. look i get it, you lost your daughter, but going after a CHILD??? i don't play about my kids, so the fact that that grown-ass man with that loud-ass song kept trying to come for miles when he didn't ask for anything that was happening to him killed me. and miles was so scared tf?!? holding miles down to the point he was STRUGGLING to push him off, unt unt. going after miles when it wasn't even his fault shit got whacked. *coughs* yeah so, miguel ain't my favorite
margos' suit was really cool!! i liked it a lot. her customization?? yeah, give it to me. anything with that cool techy customization style is one of my favs.
the cliffhanger had me gagged! woahhhhhh. i actually went in blind bc i watched atsv first with my friend, then i went back and watched the first movie and had to lay out all the lore for myself (which you can read here if you'd like). safe to say, im very (im)patiently waiting for the third movie shameik please stfu bc i think thereās a lot that can be done with that whole storyline. plus i thought it was really cool (and sad) to see how miles g's world was so different from our miles. it was different different bless it. seeing who he became with the loss of his dad was really interesting. plus miles g cool as hell donāt even joke. the cliffhanger actully led me to one of my fav fics (which you should totally read if you haven't). OH and i better see an apology from EVERYONE btw. especially gwen and peter b, i got beef with them.
favorite non-spider character. hmmm hmm imma say rio? my answers are so basic but imma speak my truth. any mother or mother figure has a special place in my heart. she loves miles down and i love that. i don't think i have a least favorite so imma just say kingpin just because i gotta pick someone. big bowling ball head ass. actually, he really did irritate me now that i think about it. yeah imma say him
GOODBYE⦠ok soooo. WAITT THIS IS HARD ok ok so fuck jessica... marry rio... kill doc ock NOOOO. sigh, it must be done i fear. but then i have weird spider powers that bring her back from the dead and then the three of us have crazyy hot- *gunshot*
um this is a hard question, but for nostalgia's sake imma say the second one, just because i watched it with my friend in the theatres and that was a really special experience bc she was answering all my questions and we both love love spiderman. AND that soundtrack was extra good. but the first one will also always hold a special place in my heart have no fear.
mmk so i lowkey gave my opinion in the first question but i will "expand" on it before they come after me with pitchforks and torches. it's not like i hate him, no that's not it at all. my main issue with him is he's going after a kid who was thrown into this world of spider people by complete accident. imagine being a 15-year-old boy who just wanted to see his friends and crush again (and later finding out that they could have visited you whenever, but they didnāt. which im still pissed about btw) only to have bass boosted master spider 3000 talking down on you and then having the ENTIRE spider society going after you. yeah, me personally imma call it quits and blow everybody up. calling him an anomaly and shit when he himself is ALSO an anomaly bc he wanted to save his daughter and sent a replacement which ended up destroying his universe? yeah ok. so why are YOU mad at miles for wanting to save his dad, being something that he couldn't control and didnāt wanna be in the first place, when youāre the reason you are an anomaly yourself. that pretty much sums it up. now if im wrong feel free to correct me on anything. im just going off memory bc i never did get the comics for myself. i know it seems like i hate him, i don't. i appreciate his character and all that heās for, im just not his biggest fan. i know how contradictory that sounds, my bad
UGH for how bad i wanna be a spider-person i don't think about this enough. the overall vibe i'd be going for...erm. i'd wanna give natural tones and down to earth kind of vibes. like if you saw me just hanging around you'd come sit and talk to me kinda shtick. for colors imma go with what i got i my wardrobe rn- black, brown, green, little bit of dark blue perhaps. eh i dunno. not entirely sure where i'd put my spider logo but i would want it to go down my sides somehow. like maybe small spider on my chest/tummy with really long ass legs going down my sides OR OR wrapped around my back. might have to whip out the sketchbook and design something, but hopefully i answered your question. if not just lemme know
aaron = prowler = me upset. i went NOOOO and had to pause. like, are we deadass? that's what we're doing? oh ok. it hurt my feelings, and i was not happy. even though it was spoiled for me i still wasn't really expecting it bc THAT'S HIS NEPHEW PLEASE HAVE SOME COMPASSION. sigh, and uncle aaron was so good to him ughhhh. he just couldn't catch a break dammit
THIS WAS SO FUN! i love doing things like this and talking about my shows ugh its so fun. thank you for the questions wifey, next part coming soon! and if anyone else has questions for me feel free to ask!!
#woah i wrote more than expected my b#this was mad fun#and i can't wait to do the next one already#how to tag hmm#ehhhhh#q and a#q & a#spiderverse#spiderman into the spiderverse#spiderman across the spiderverse#itsv#atsv#spiderman itsv#spiderman atsv#across the spiderverse#into the spider verse#miles morales#miles g morales#miguel o'hara#uncle aaron#prowler#peter b parker#gwen stacy#gi speaks#gi's ask box
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Jerome with reader who can sing really well? Hell yea
When you first stayed over at his, or more, when he first stayed over at yours (because he only has hideouts lol) you two planned on preparing dinner together.
You had so much fun, dancing around to your shared playlist while the soup cooked.
Jerome then offered to put out the plates so you could take a nice shower after that long day of yours.
You always sang in the bathroom. (I do that often lol u don't get me outta the bathroom in less than at least 2 hours.)
It was one of your safe spaces and it had an amazing acoustic almost like a staircase in a huge building.
You turned on your small speaker in the bathroom and sang along, letting all the stress from that day wash away with the vibrato in your voice.
You never noticed that you could hear yourself singing from all over the house because how could you when you were the one to sing?
When Jerome noticed it, he first thought it was just the music track and not you singing. He loves the song tho and so he got closer to the bathroom door until he eventually noticed that it was you singing.
You had an amazing voice. You liked to sing many genres but that day you went with something a little more classic, voila by Barbara Pravi but in the version of Emma Kok and Andre Rieu.
He was so touched by your singing, by all the emotion and effort you put into every single note, that he literally shed aĀ fuckin' tear.
He let it slide for some time and didn't mention it. He just enjoyed it every time you sang for yourself.
Until one day he had such a rough and exhausting day that he came home ( he already moved in with you by that time) and you cared for him obviously. He just wanted to be held by you and so you sat on the couch, his favorite soup made, as he layed with his upper body on your lap, his head laying on your chest and you hugging him so you kinda cradled him and he told you about his day. After talking about it, he let out an exhausted sigh and you, being the overcaring queen you are, asked him what you could do or get to make him feel better.
There was a moment of silence. You thought he was thinking about it but he just contemplated whether to bring it up and ask or if he should just stay quiet.
But he really thought that would make him feel better, so he asked you to sing something for him. Just something calm and quiet to soothe his nerves.
You were a little surprised but agreed obviously. Anything to make him feel better.
After that, he complimented you for your amazing voice and that became a thing when he was exhausted. He always laid in your arms like a little child, but it was actually so cute. You loved how he wasn't scared to show a vulnerable side of himself to you and how he trusted you with every single bit of his being.
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Sorry, I haven't updated for a bit. School's taking up sum time, ya know :)
Anyway, have a nice rest of the weekend.
Bye :)
#spotify#wattpad#fanfiction#jerome valeska#fanfic#gotham#jerome valeska x reader#gotham fanfiction#gotham x reader#the dark knight#jim gordon#victor zsasz#dcu#ed nygma#gotham jerome#jerome x reader#jerome imagine#jerome valeska imagine
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Hi! If itās no trouble for you, could I request a little story about Sniper and a daughter reader? Just some wholesome family fluff ^^
Thanks so much in advance! No worries though if youāre swamped!
HELLO!! āNo worries though if you're swampedā JHSHG THIS IS MY FIRST REQUEST EVER, I'M SO EXCITED. And also nervous because I don't want to mess up (that's why I took 5 days to write this) (I wrote it, left it be for a couple of days, read it again, went like āwow this is garbageā, fixed it and THEN posted it).
The request was left a bit ambiguous, so I have a BUNCH of notes and then the little story (which is, btw, not the full length of what I wrote because I accidentally gave Sniper anxiety, so I cut that from the actual story because I feared it wasn't wholesome ahsjah) (if you see āā¦ā in the middle of two paragraphs, yeah that was something that I cut out AHSHh). I REALLY DON'T WANT TO DISAPPOINT, I'M NOT CONFIDENT AT ALL WITH MY WRITING AND DIDN'T THINK I WOULD EVEN GET A WRITING REQUEST, I'M SORRY IF YOU DISLIKE EVEN ONE WORD *explodes*
[First picture: Carl from San Andreas with his hands on his head, except it's me saying āI forgot, I forgot how to write oh noā] [Second picture: Sponge Bob crying, except it's me saying āI promise I'll do betterā]
SOME NOTES
English is not my first language, sorry if some things don't make sense TT (let me know if you see any mistakes pls!!)
My requests were mainly open for stamps, userboxes, blinkies and stuff like that, but I did say I'd share my writing if someone asked in my pinned post, so I only have myself to blame heh. And this was actually fun and I enjoyed it, so now I want to do more writing requests. Aka, they're open fr this time HEHE
You're Sniper's daughter, but the story is almost mainly told from the perspective of Sniper (still written in third person for him and second person for the reader, tho, it's just that the story follows Sniper's actions more because idk how to write from the POV of a kid)
I have family issues so if family interactions are portrayed inaccurately that's why, haha /hj
I wanted to write about how Sniper's daughter got to the base and THEN her interactions with the rest of the team, but I've been working on it for 5 days already. This is only the first half, how the reader got to the base TT [I'll continue it if you wish] AND AAAAH THE SECOND HALF IS WHERE I HAD PLANNED MOST OF THE FLUFF AND MOMENTS CATCHING UP WITH SNIPER AAAA (I'm so angry at myself)
CW: Not much, mentions of death because it's TF2 (nobody dies), and the word āfuckā is said like once, but that's it, can't think of anything major
More notes in the end because it's mostly not mentioned/doesn't matter/was cut from the final version
MEET THE SUNSHINE
āYeah, Mum, I get it. I'll visit when I can,ā he muttered.
āYour daughter misses you, you know,ā his mum said.
Sniper sighed. āI know, Mum. But I take my job really seriously, and the battle hasnāt ended yetāā
āThat battle has been going on for more than three years now!! And we decided you canāt just come home on holidays and expect us to raise your child the rest of the year.ā
āWe sent her to youā his dad interrupted, āShe should be arriving any minute now.ā
Sniper's eyes widened, and he nearly dropped the phone. āYOU DID WHAT!? THIS IS A BATTLEFIELD!!ā He tried to argue.Ā
They were his parents and he respected them a lot, always trying to get their approval, but were they actually crazy? What did they even consume to think that sending his own daughter, their own granddaughter, to New Mexico, alone, while thereās a fight currently happening there, is a good idea!?
āOh, donāt worry about that, after speaking to your boss through a nice lady called⦠Miss Paula? Pauline? She assured us sheāll be safe.ā No way Miss Pauling, one of the few people he āand everyone in the team, reallyā trusted. No fucking way.
Before he could process this bombshell, a commotion erupted outside his room. The āINTRUDER ALERT. BLU SPY IS IN THE BASEā alarm was set off, and it was followed by Soldier shouting āA BLU SPY IS IN THE BASE!?ā.
He hung up, not even saying goodbye, because he had the feeling that wasnāt a BLU spy. Actually, he knew it wasnāt a BLU spy, chained to a respawn machine. He had to get to the entrance first and stop the other eight mercenaries from killing you.
ā¦
āWAIT!ā He shouted as he pushed Soldier to the side.
He wasnāt the only one in the room; Scout, Spy and Medic, who were faster than Sniper, were also there, also trying to explain to Soldier that this was a child, not a BLU spy.
āSniper?ā asked Spy, a bit curious about why he seemed so scared.
āThatās not a spyā¦ā He said, trying to catch his breath.
āYes, we figured,ā Spy said before getting interrupted.
You slowly opened your eyes and removed your hands from your ears, seeing as the scary man with the big weapon directly pointing at you before didnāt fire and you didnāt explode.
āThatās my-ā
You looked around and thatās when you see him! You didnāt get the directions the nice purple lady gave you wrong!!
āDAD!!ā You scream as you run over to your dad and hug his legs.
As you squeeze his legs, finally seeing your dad after so long and feeling safe, he doesnāt know how to react.
ā-daughter,ā he finished his sentence. Heās so relieved youāre ok. He doesnāt know what he would have done if he had found you hurt or worse.
āNo frickinā wayā¦ā muttered the Scout.
Soldier, Spy, Medic and also Engie and Pyro, who entered the room after the Sniper, were just as confused as Scout. Well, maybe not Pyro, because it understood something completely different (one shudders to imagine what inhuman thoughts lie behind that mask). But the rest of them were, and, with their eyes, they asked for an explanation. Demanded, even, in Scoutās case, because he couldnāt fathom the idea of Sniper of all people to get a girl, potentially a wife, before him.
ā¦
Scout sighed in relief hearing that Sniper did not, in fact, get a girl before him. That he had found you as a baby one day when returning home and adopted you.
Everyone else just nodded in understanding (Heavy, Pyro), asked him questions (Engie, Medic, Spy) or praised him for doing the correct thing and not leave you to starve (Spy, Soldier, Demo). All while you were drawing in a corner with a pen and paper your dad gave you.
You stopped drawing once your dad had finished talking and introducing you to his team. Maybe he would introduce them to you next!Ā
This was going to be your home for a while, after all.
NOTES P.2
Timeline:
Three years into the gravel war (for the main group of mercenariesā pov).
You were adopted roughly a year before Sniper was hired. Your adopted family doesnāt know your birthday, but they estimate youāre 4-5 y/o.
Fun fact: I was considering at first (aka the first five seconds of thinking about the request) making the daughter a teenager and then remembered Sniper is 27-ish here so uuuh, nope.
About Sniper in this AU:
Heās a good dad⦠the three or four times a year he can visit you.
He doesnāt want to be an absent dad, but heās too dedicated to his job as an assassin for RED.
He tries to convince himself heās not that absent because he cares about you, talks to you at lest once a week through the phone and makes sure your grandparents treat you correctly.
He wouldnāt have accepted REDās offer if he had known this job would drag out for so long. He canāt quit now.
About his daughter (you!):
She/her as was requested :D
Not much else to say, you're 4-5 years old so you behave as one.
[Backstory, this is explained in detail during the actual story so spoilers hehe] You were found in a dumpster (sorry lmao) This was not, in fact, mentioned in the story above, so I'll just paste it here:
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As he ran downstairs, his mind was flooded with images of how you came into his life, how he tried to raise you but had to go to this stupid war over a worthless piece of land. He thought it was ok, though, because once it was over heād make up for the time he was away.Ā
But he wouldnāt be able to do that if you died to one of his own teammates right now.
ā¦
Mick was driving home after a long day under the hot Australian sun, a bit tired from hunting animals down all day but with a smile.
He did a small deviation to pass by a nearby gas station because the fuel gauge hovered dangerously close to empty.Ā
Once the tank was full, he glanced at the convenience store and couldnāt resist grabbing something to eat for the rest of the long ride. He doesnāt remember what he bought, and it honestly doesnāt even matter.Ā
As he was leaving the store, he heard a sound, apart from the flickering neon lights, and he stood there for a second trying to identify. Someone crying, high-pitched voice, coming from the side of the building. āFrom the side of the building? Next to the dumpster?ā He thought.Ā
And he was disgusted that he was right, that someone just got rid of a baby like that, but also glad he found you.
He didnāt know what to do, so he brought you home and asked his parents for help. They all came to the conclusion that they must have abandoned you after noticing that you didnāt grow a moustache like the rest. Mick saw himself on you because he also wasnāt born like most Australians. He remembered having a difficult time as a child trying to adapt without having any facial hair or Australia-shaped chest hair like the rest of the kids and, being an orphan? He knew your childhood would be even worse than his.
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What would be your voice fancasts for your version of Donkey Kong/Donkey Kong Country franchise?
Fun fact: the reason I never answered your DM to me with this question is mostly because I was trying to figure out who would be best for who, but also because I was trying to decide if I should make this a public thing or not, so thanks for helping make that choice. XD
I know this says fancasts for my version, but I went more of a "general voice headcanon" route for most of these. Some also have the actual fancasts, or at the very least the people I wouldn't be upset about having be the VAs even if the voice winds up different from what I hear in my head.
I could really only figure out the Kongs, so uh... Ye. Also, all the underlined names are linked to pages to see more of the stuff they've done!
DK: Mark Fischbach. Zero rhyme or reason, other than I spent a full year drawing practically nothing except DKC characters set to GMOD moments, mostly Markiplier's, so now it's all I hear. However, I would not be mad if Richard Yearwood reprises the role (or even Sterling Jarvis).
Diddy: Ben Schwartz. My Diddy is more teenager-adjacent than most people's probably is (around 14), and I'd be lying if I said my hyperfixation with DuckTales 2017 a couple years back didn't have anything to do with that.
Cranky: This one is surprisingly hard to pin down. Here recently I've been imagining him more with Keith David's voice, but in the past I've also imagined David Tennant, Bernard Cribbins, and Aron Tager (his VA in the cartoon), the latter two of whom have both sadly passed in the last couple of years. I'll also happily take Bill Farmer, tho. For me it all depends on the tone and other factors of the situation presented (eg, an AU, the actual game series, others' interpretations, etc).
Funky: Gotta still be Damon D'Olivera, his VA from the cartoon, but I wouldn't be against Phil LaMarr or Greg Eagles voicing him either.
Candy: I do not hate Joy Tanner's voice for her in the cartoon at all. In fact, like Funky, it's mostly all I can hear for her. If I had to choose someone else to fill the role, it'd probably be Jennifer Hale.
Dixie: I think I had the most trouble with her surprisingly. I didn't necessarily like or hate her voice in the cartoon, but I have to go with Mae Whitman on this one. I was thinking along the lines of how Amity from The Owl House sounds, if you wanna know the thought process.
Wrinkly: Wendie Malick is the only voice I've really actively pictured for my specific version of her. The second I heard the line "Wait---those are MY dumb kids!" in The Owl House, my brain has never let the idea drop. However, if there ever actually is a show version of the DKC series that included her, I would not be against Tress MacNeille being her VA.
Swanky: Will Arnett is just how I hear him by default (I blame DK Vine in part). IDK, similar reasons to Diddy in that it has to do with other fixations of mine colliding into my brain. However, here recently my brain has also been tickled by the idea of James Monroe Iglehart being his voice in a version of the show that actually uses him.
Kiddy: OK, so y'all know how my brain runs. Sadly, sometimes I forget about him. However, I feel like Dee Bradley Baker is a safe bet.
Lanky: Rob Paulsen. IDK, even his normal voice just works.
Tiny: Kristen Schaal, solely because sometimes there's moments of her that cross my mind that make me go "Oh that's Louise Belcher (or Mabel Pines) vibes."
Chunky: Of all the actors, voice or otherwise, I've dug through today to find voices for characters I otherwise couldn't picture... I'ma have to give Chunk the monk Richard Horvitz. It also helps that this is literally one of those VAs I grew up hearing, so I can imagine the role working well, although other VAs mentioned throughout this list could potentially also work well.

Originally the Kongs from the actual DKC series proper is all I was gonna do for now, because it's late and brain hurty, but y'all know me a little better than that. I've got at least two bonus people for y'all.
K. Rool: Similar to a couple of characters above, I'd love it if Benedict Campbell could reprise the role, as he's literally the only voice I've been able to hear for him for years. However, that being said, there are a few others I will accept in his place, being Mark Hamill; Keith David (mentioned above); Clancy Brown; and Alex Hirsch.
DK Jr.: You said it was a fancast for my version, so while I know some people think Junior and our DK are the same person, in this instance I don't. I've racked my brain for a while trying to figure out who I best hear as his voice, and I had songs from a certain Disney animated show playing on loop last night and anyway, long story short, Jeremy Jordan is the headcanon voice for my version of him.
#alex speaks#asks#yourstrulylightstar283#fun fact: this took me hours to do because I got lost in bill farmer's filmography#donkey kong#donkey kong country#anyway did y'all know ben campbell was also the voice of papa bear in the berenstein bears because i didn't#headcanons#headcanon#why alex hirsch? because why not#anyway i didn't wanna put him in the list because he's not really a character canon to dkc but asari is either rob gavagan or b dylan holli
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I'm so glad the PJO show stuck the landing. I've seen a lot of shows lately that have a habit of, uh, not doing that, so I'm really happy I liked the finale episode!
(Also because I watched it with my mum, and she hasn't seen anything but the first two episodes and my rambling recaps, so I'm glad my show didn't disappoint me in front of her lol)
MAJOR SPOILERS for the PJO finale past this point!
There are only two things I can think of that I didn't really like, and that Gabe's- whole thing, basically, soz. I get why they toned him down for the visual format, and I'm not trying to undercut the actual abuse that is still happening, I just personally like Sally turning her piece of shit abusive husband to stone and then selling his statue to get money for a degree lol.
And then also the dropped police plot line is a bit iffy. They probs cut it for time or smth, but it just felt weirdly unresolved. Like, they set it up so well, and then they don't follow through at all, just straight up don't mention it again. Idk, maybe they'll bring it back for the 2nd season? Not sure how that'd work tho. It's a minor issue, but it did feel strange to me.
The rest of it was very well done though, imo!
It starts with Luke saying The Thing but different?? Giving The Last Day of Summer from The Lightning Thief musical vibes fr fr.
The fight with Ares was hella cool, with the awesome wave, and the choreography was pretty well done to my completely inexperienced eye. The ichor looked cool, very handy that it's gold so they can show 'blood' on screen and still keep it PG lol. I was cheering Percy on so hard.
They did the flashbacks so well. Honestly, every episode's done the flashbacks well, but Luke? Oh yeah. As soon as he showed up on screen, helping Percy, preparing him, I knew the end of the episode was gonna hit so hard.
The trio is still amazing. They play off of each other so well, and all their actors are so talented!
The necklace!!
Ok, Percy had zero chill on Olympus. He straight up said his shit to Zeus, knowing he'd probably be killed for it and not giving a single fuck because that was his world and his friends and his mum that were going to be hurt if this stupid war continued, and he was going to make Zeus listen even if it killed him.
And then Poseidon steps in and surrenders and when I tell you I audibly gasped I'm not kidding. Like- The gods don't just back down when they're fighting, that's not how their power dynamic works, how the glory system works, how their pride and respect and status works. I'm probs not explaining it very well 'cause it's like 1:30 am rn, (I really should stop writing these essays at midnight lol) but yeah. Poseidon was giving up a lot. And he didn't care. Because that was his son, and his son was worth more than any glory could give him.
Also, funny side note: after they started speaking what I assume is greek, and then switched back to english, my brain for some reason decided to completely forgot my native language and just- didn't process english anymore. I kid you not, it just registered as sounds without meaning. Completely alien. I sat there without understanding the next four sentences they said until my brain clicked back in and I was like, ohhh, they're speaking english. And then I had to rewind and listen to it again lol.
Zeus smugly saying he'll announce his "swift and crushing victory" and Poseidon rolling his eyes was so sibling energy lol.
... So, does Poseidon yeeting Percy back to camp without answering mean he's too overcome by emotion to say 'yes' or that he's too guilty to admit 'no'?
I like how all the cheering and clapping is muffled out by the music at first, because Percy's still shocked that he's actually alive. It's only when Annabeth hugs him that he fully processes the fact that he's safe.
Gonna be honest, I'd completely forgotten that they thought Clarisse was the Lightning Thief. They did a good job of reminding me though.
Yeah, Luke's betrayal was executed better here than the books imo. First of all, the lighting is immaculate. The past episodes had an issue with night scenes and being super dark, but the fireworks lighting up selective scenes really works.
I like how Percy figures it out first, and almost challenges Luke to deny it. And Luke is- not prepared. He had a plan. He was going to ease into this. And it hurts all the more because Percy is scared and angry and betrayed and Luke never wanted to hurt him.
What's done so well is that you can see how Luke didn't want to fight- and then Percy mentioned Hermes and Luke just snapped. Trigger button. Wrong thing to say. Now, suddenly Percy wasn't the 12 year old kid Luke was trying to save and help, he was just someone who'd said the name of That Man and now Luke was just bitter pain and rage.
Also, Percy accidentally cutting Luke - with a sword that can't even harm him anyway - and immediately apologising, and then Luke only seeing a weakness to exploit and going in for the kill. That hurt.
Ok wait imma copy paste a small ramble I posted earlier to here because it stands true. Here we go:
A bit rambling, a might not make much sense, but had a thought about that scene when Annabeth saves Percy and reveals herself. There's two things that stuck out to me; she didn't let herself show any emotion but anger, and she'd been there the whole time but only interfered just then.
She'd been suspicious enough of something to go against the plan and follow them. She heard Luke confess his betrayal while invisible and alone. She heard his true feelings about the gods, about their parents, and now after everything - after Athena. After Percy - she understood him so much more and so much less at the same time. She'd been locked in shocked grief that froze her, and the only thing that snapped her out of it was seeing Percy beneath the blade of the person they'd both trusted, and the need to protect burnt away the numbness long enough for her to compartmentalise and lock away everything but anger so she could move.
Luke's face though. Oof. All I could think was "She's like a little sister to me." (Don't crucify me if that's not his exact wording, it's almost 2am now, I'm tiiiired.) But yeah, the fact that he probably could've taken them both if he truly wanted, but the moment he saw her and her betrayed, furious face, and then looked down and saw the kid he'd been about to kill- He just ran.
The parting of ways, with the trio at Thalia's tree, bright plans for the future, hugging and smiling and making a pact to come back to each other, no matter what- that was so toothrottingly sweet.
And then the cabin scene? Heartwarming af. The mother and son duo is just. You can feel their desperate relief and love for each other. It's so good.
A bit wary when Kronos showed up, wasn't sure if the whole prior stuff was 'just a dream' but I'm guessing Percy was just remembering how they reunited, and Kronos hijacked his nice memory. That was well done, too. Percy was just so Done with this guy, like c'mon, give the kid a break. And then him waking up with his mum again - like I said; they're so sweet. The fact that this happens often enough for them to have a dedicated book lmao. Also, him calling Kronos grandpa was on point.
It exits out of the window Sally was sitting on! And it's raining!! (Also, another side note, but whenever something exits with a window I just think of The Last of Us episode 3).
Ok so they have to make a second season. It's the law. They gotta.
Hmm. Think that's everything I can think of saying now lol.
(Thank you for everyone who worked hard on this! Even if I don't like some stuff, I know that so many hours of work was poured into this and I appreciate it so much!)
EDIT: OH WAIT I almost forgot Ares completely out of pocket line about Percy's mum, and yeah, no way was he getting out of that now, asshole. Also, the way Percy and Luke's parents are a trigger. The character similarities are similying~
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Texts: Sparky (Cameron) & Freddie
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Freddie: Hey Sparky
Freddie: feeling better? More focused now?
Cam: hi
Cam: yeah I guess?
Cam: still don't get why that was bad, I was feeling pretty nice yesterday ._.
Cam: you don't need to worry tho, I'm back to my asshole self according to Alise š
Cam: how are you?
Freddie: Good. I'm glad to hear that
Freddie: cause you were high as kite. You weren't your normal self, and it freaked out your brother to the point he called me so that's not a good thing in my book
Freddie: besides, you always say you have a reputation to keep and I'm pretty sure that doesn't include you being submissive in public
Freddie: Poor Alise. We freaked her out too when we told her you had food reaction so I could take you back to your place
Freddie: be nice to her, she was worried even if she had no idea
Freddie: I'm ok. Kinda upset with myself but that's to be expected
Cam: wait, is that why you came over to pick me up?
Cam: bc Dev called you????
Cam: ...fair point
Cam: I'll be nice
Cam: I'm sorry, I'm the one who clung to that high
Cam: I didn't think it'd be so bad
Cam: or noticeable
Cam: please don't be upset with yourself š« I had such an awesome time at your place, I'd be devastated if it was tainted in your mind
Freddie: Yes. Devon sounded very worried and it made me worry something had happened
Freddie: but when I saw you I knew exactly what it was and obviously I didn't tell your brother, I only assured him I hadn't drugged you and that it was a normal reaction
Freddie: Good. Thanks
Freddie: it's ok. I understand why you did it. I'd rather you not to when you're supposed to go back to your normal days
Freddie: We're gonna have to be careful with how high we let you float. Maybe we should sleep the way we did last time, I think maybe that was part of why you were still feeling so floaty
Freddie: Cam, when you submit to me, it's my responsibility to keep you safe and bring you back completely and this is the second time I have failed it. Of course I'm upset
Freddie: Don't worry, I'm not regretting anything we did or feel bad about any of it. It's just the fact that I missed the signs again and that puts you at risk and I want you to be safe
Cam: oh! that's why he was so convinced I had been bitten by a vamp! I thought it was just bc of the bite mark on my shoulder
Cam: thanks for not telling him tho
Cam: ...but I really liked sleeping like that ): once the torture part went away, it was absurdly cozy
Cam: I'm really sorry, I didn't think it'd be dangerous or anything, I just
Cam: I guess I just wanted it to last a little longer
Cam: but I won't hold onto it anymore, if I'm not supposed to, when I'm alone
Cam: I understand š«
Freddie: yeah. it was a similar reaction or at least the one he knows from Adam. I'm hoping he didn't see your shoulder
Freddie: nothing to thank me for. I'm aware it's not something you want anyone to know
Freddie: other than Trevor I suppose
Freddie: I did too but it's not something we can do that often. At least not when you have to go back to your normal day the next morning
Freddie: it's dangerous cause if someone else knows and notices, they can try to take advantage of you, and I'd never want that
Freddie: I know, but I trust next time you feel needy to want to stay floating you'll tell me, and we'll figure it out ok?
Freddie: thanks
Freddie: did you have lunch already?
Cam: I can't say I remember if he did, but why would it be bad if he had? I mean, it's just a bite, not something like my collar
Cam: yeah lol have I told you Trev asked me about it? like, logistics and all, seemed possibly kinda into it o.o
Cam: ...we should take some vacation time then, to have a hide away like that (:
Cam: oh
Cam: that makes sense
Cam: it was actually kinda hard to say no to people that morning, now that you mention it š¤
Cam: I will š« and I'm sorry
Cam: I haven't yet, no, why?
Freddie: I don't know. I just didn't think it was something you'd want him to know about
Freddie: you really liked the collar, didn't you?
Freddie: really? did you give him any details?
Freddie: that sounds great... there would be a strict no clothes rule tho
Freddie: yeah, that's exactly why cause it's hard to focus and you're easily convinced of things, you're not completely aware to consent anything. That's why I always tell you what we'll do and explain everything before you're floating, so you're fully conscious and that's why you have safe words
Freddie: it's ok baby
Freddie: you need to eat something and keep drinking water. That'll help you focus better
Cam: I'd rather he doesn't know about the power dynamic part, but I'd never hide your marks on me
Cam: I did (:
Cam: I was a bit vague, but yeah, I hope that's ok? He was very curious about it, he just never trusted someone enough to try it out
Cam: obviously, my bag would be packed with just protein bars and lube lol
Cam: that makes A LOT of sense
Cam: I know you don't believe it much rn, but you really are wonderful at taking care of me, did I ever tell you that?
[five minutes later]
[screen shot of an Ifood order of a beef shawarma, followed by a close up picture of a plastic cup with water]
Cam: on it!
Freddie: well for me it's part of it that's why I thought you didn't want him to see the marks either
Freddie: good. I'm glad cause it was custom made just for you
Freddie: it's ok. He's smart not to try it with someone he didn't trust enough. it can get dangerous, and some people abuse of the power dynamic
Freddie: just lube. I'll make sure to feed you
Freddie: I know I'm not good at explaining myself most of the time but I'm glad you see why I do the things the way I do
Freddie: thanks baby, I'm glad you think so
Freddie: Good boy! I'm glad you're eating some protein, it'll help with the sore arms
Cam: omg was it really?? now it feels even more special
Cam: I'd imagine so. So it was just you know, harmless curiosity I think
Cam: lmao alright then just a gym bag full of lube
Cam: you're getting better at that lately š but yes, I do (most of the time)
Cam: (:
Cam: oh LEMME TELL YOU ABOUT SORE
Cam: as long as I'm with you, I'm never hitting the gym AGAIN
Cam: Jesus Christ on a unicycle, every muscle in my body feels like I've gone through a massive work out
Cam: AND I JUST STAYED STILL FREDDIE
Freddie: it is special. I've never given anyone a collar before
Freddie: I don't think it's so harmless... have you asked him what role he feels more attracted to?
Freddie: lmao sounds extreme but it will do
Freddie: good, I' glad about that
Freddie: whoever said staying still requires no effort has clearly never done it
Freddie: but it's a good sore? one you'd like to feel again?
Freddie: what about your ass? is it sore too?
Cam: really? wow
Cam: well, I've never received one before either, so š
Cam: oh, Trevor is on my side of the spectrum, don't worry lol he's not stealing me from you anytime soon
Cam: definitely, I'm gonna get very defined muscles just by behaving, wait and see lol
Cam: yes, it's a sore like when you have a bruise, you know? a good sore
Cam: my ass is a bit more delicate lol but it's good, it just aches a bit depending on what I do
Cam: but thankfully my office chair is very comfortable lol
Cam: did your neck heal?
Freddie: see? then it is special
Freddie: I kinda figured but I didn't want to assume
Freddie: He's probably more submissive than you
Freddie: not like you need it, you are perfectly defined already
Freddie: good
Freddie: sorry, maybe we should have gotten longer breaks
Freddie: good. I'm glad it is comfortable
Freddie: it did. It was already healed yesterday but you didn't notice
Cam: as if I'd have been collared before, when I told you I've never done something like this before you lmao
Cam: I'd think so, at least with me he is, but I don't want to assume you know?
Cam: pfff no need to compliment my looks handsome, you've already got me in your bed š
Cam: I don't think it has so much to do with breaks, it's more like I'm not used to be in that position š¤ but my body will get used to it in no time!
Cam: if we keep having those kinds of sessions, I mean
Cam: oh that's good, I didn't mean to hurt you
Freddie: Well I know you haven't that's why I figured it should be perfect and unique just for you
Freddie: really? well that's interesting
Freddie: I'm not. I'm just stating facts
Freddie: we'll try different positions next time
Freddie: did you like the bondage bar?
Freddie: we will if you want us to
Freddie: it's ok, you didn't hurt me. It feels good
Cam: I loved it :3 tho I was sad I had to take it off .-.
Cam: ...why interesting?
Cam: in that case, thanks :3
Cam: was that the thing on the ceiling? it was really different, I think, to be hanging o.o but a fun different
Cam: I think it made me feel a lot more vulnerable than usual, and that's saying a lot
Cam: of course I want to, have you not been listening this whole time? lmao
Freddie: maybe if you're good you'll earn one that you can wear under your clothes, tho you'd have to talk about it with Trevor first cause those can be taken out of contexts as a sign of property
Freddie: cause I'm having a hard time see you dominating him
Freddie: š
Freddie: yeap! I remember you said you didn't want to be hanging upside down but there are many way to be hanging up š
Freddie: was it a bad feeling? were you uncomfortable or scared at any time?
Freddie: no, I am, just making sure
Freddie: we did say we wouldn't be assuming things
Cam: wait are you serious????
Cam: Cam: lmao oh no not like that! it's just that
Cam: when it's me and Trevor, usually Iām the one in charge
Cam: and he relishes giving up control to me in bed, and I like to make him lose it, so I don't have a problem taking that control, even if now I know it's not my nature with you, idk if that makes sense?
Cam: but it's nothing kinky or proper with safewords or anything, just us both having fun
Cam: not at all! I thought Iād be more scared of it, tbh, being bound like that but turnsĀ out I really trust you
Cam: like actually, really really trust you
Cam: so I wasn't scared at all, just vulnerable
Cam: but I knew you'd have my back no matter what happened, so it was really nice
Cam: really intimate
Cam: and for the sake of not assuming things, lemme type it out so you can print screen it and check it whenever you doubt it:
Cam: our last session was my favorite so far, I wouldn't change a thing about itĀ (even if I complain about being sore or tired, I still liked being sore and tired for you)
Freddie: I am but you'd have to earn it. That's not one that is given just because. And you need to clear it out with Trevor first
Freddie: interesting... it sounds like something I'd like to see
Freddie: it doesn't have to be kinky. Our very first session was not kinky at all. It's all just about the trust and control
Freddie: good. That's a really good thing. I'm glad you know in the end I'm really taking care of you
Freddie: that's good to hear. It was my favorite so far too
Cam: Iāll be extra good then!!
Cam: wait, back up a moment, you'd like to see it? like, me and Trevor or...?
Cam: true true, god, that sounds like it was ages ago
Cam: you're always taking care of me, I know that (:
Cam: was it what you expected it'd be?
Freddie: Good. We'll see then š
Freddie: yeap. I'd like to see you taking charge with someone more submissive than you
Freddie: but it's just a comment. It's not like it's an option
Freddie: for me it feels like it was just yesterday. I have a very vivid memory
Freddie: good
Freddie: it overpassed my expectations
Cam: I mean
Cam: it might be an option
Cam: if you would actually want it to be
Cam: well, you've lived for ages, so it makes sense that a few months ago feels like the other day for you
Cam: it feels like a long time ago for me bc I feel like Iām not the same person I was that day
Cam: bc Iāve discovered so many things about myself since then
Cam: oh really? how so?
Freddie: are you saying that just because you have an exhibitionism strike? Cause I think it's something you'd have to talk with Trevor first
Freddie: yeah that actually happens. sometimes time get blurred together
Freddie: good things I hope
Freddie: are you fishing for compliments now?
Freddie: you were fantastic. You gave in so perfectly and so naturally that every single second of it was pleasure
Cam: of course Iād have to talk to Trevor first lol, but I have the feeling he's still curious about it all, so if it's something you're interested and he also is, it could be an option
Cam: if you'd like it to be an option
Cam: the best things (:
Cam: Iām actually really not fishing for compliments, I just
Cam: idk I wanted to know if you felt what I did, I guess
Cam: thank you tho (: for the compliments
Freddie: Good. Just mention it to him. I have the feeling he has that exhibitionism strike too
Freddie: or maybe he's a Voyeurs and he'd like to watch
Freddie: and I'd be ok with that too
Freddie: good! I'm glad
Freddie: I know, I was teasing you
Freddie: well it doesn't feel the same, but it was probably just as pleasurable for me as it was for you if not more
Freddie: you're welcome baby boy
Cam: fuck ok I need to ask this in the most straight-forward way possible so we're clear
Cam: there's a difference between being ok and wanting something
Cam: would that be something you'd want to do, or something you'd be ok doing, Freddie? Like, getting Trevor involved in something like this
Cam: considering it's something he'd like to do, as well, I mean
Cam: you're mean!!! you know how I get with those kinds of compliments!!!
Cam: "if not more"!?
Freddie: I can't say that I want your partner in any way but if it's something YOU want and you'd like and it would make you happy, I'd be very much ok with it
Freddie: is it something you'd like?
Freddie: I'm not being mean! I was honest
Freddie: well I enjoyed it immensely and it really surpassed my expectations by far
Cam: when you put it like this, it sounds like something crazy Iām offering
Cam: I think so? I mean, it's embarrassing, but we've been over how I might have a slightly exhibitionist thingy going on
Cam: if the subject comes up, Iāll talk to him about it and see what he thinks
Cam: thanks for always being so accommodating to me
Cam: no no I meant like
Cam: if it was more pleasurable to you than it was to me, Iām pretty sure you'd be dead, Freddie lol
Freddie: it's not crazy. It's something some couples do. It's not new to me but it might be for you or him
Freddie: ok. It's totally up to you Cam
Freddie: nothing to thank me for
Freddie: well I am immortal so š
Cam: have you done it before? in a Ds setting, this kind of thing with someone watching?
Cam: EXACTLY
Cam: that's how much you made me feel good, you'd be DEAD FREDDIE
Freddie: not on a Ds context, no but I've been part threesomes and origies
Freddie: lol good thing you'll never have to worry about it
Cam: what am I asking, you're basically the god of horniness, of course you've been to orgies lmao
Cam: true, my Freddie is the most unbreakable of Freddies (:
Freddie: Origies we're very common back in the day
Freddie: š that's probablyĀ true
Cam: see? I'm right all around today
Cam: done!
Cam: [picture of shawarma wrappers and an empty plastic cup]
Cam: now, sadly, I need to go back to work š
Cam: ttyl?
Freddie: definitely sharper today
Freddie: good boy! I'm glad you're fed and focused
Freddie: it's ok. I'll have to go to work too. I'm gonna be out of town the rest of the week btw
Freddie: but I'll text you when I get back ok?
Freddie: you can text me, but time zone might make it a bitĀ complicated, but I'll reply
Freddie: be good!
Cam: oh ok!
Cam: I'll keep that in mind, thanks for letting me know
Cam: I hope you have fun on your trip, even if it's work š
Cam: I'll be waiting to hear all about it when you're back š«
Cam: please take care tho?
Freddie: anytime
Freddie: working with Warren isn't fun but thanks
Freddie: it'll be boring, but I'll try
Freddie: I always do
Freddie: take care too
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It Was Fun While it Lasted Pt.2
notes: telhas teez. Warnings!: Breakups, crying, physical pain, angst. Also this isn't an x reader
Pt.1 | M.List
A few days after Valentines day, she gets a text from her friend (MS). Her and (MS) don't text a whole lot, so it was probably something important.
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(MS): @^@ - (Her): heyy wsp? - (MS): yk @D@(\/) E1$@^3D likes u. - (Her): uhm tf i barely talk to him? (Her): how do yk? - (MS): everyone is saying bro - (Her): oh damn _
(MS): ik (MS): @^@ u can't like him - (Her): why? - (MS): he's weird (MS): we used to like each other a while ago - (Her): OMG FR?? - (MS): ya (MS): i'm not telling u not to like him bc i used to like him (MS): but once he's done with you he talks sooo much shit - (Her): i won't i promise - (MS): he's ugly and fat i promise (MS): wallah u can do sm better tho (MS): ur so cute - (Her): tyyy <3 i won't like him dw
The conversation went something like that. She doesn't remember exactly, but this was what she took away from the conversation.
It's probably been a few weeks now, she only can remember certain bits and pieces now, but we can skip, for her sake, to when something had actually happened. Something probably slightly worth mentioning.
She's in math class, bored, not listening to anything the teacher was saying. (AS) grabs her attention, causing her to turn her head to look at the boy seated beside her.
"Do you like him?"
She shakes her head 'no' causing him to tut lightly.
"He's a cutie, you should like him."
Finally, after having enough, she still decides to play dumb for a bit until she has more information. Though, it's more than safe to ask one question. "Why do you keep asking me about him?" A small smile that probably meant 'oh shit' came across his face as she asked him. Fighting her own smile so she could play dumb until he answered. He just shrugs and she decides to force it out of him. "He likes me, doesn't he?" Another wider smile on his face. Yep. That explains why he added her on Snapchat.
"Bro, why don't you like him?" He asks in a 'come on' type of tone. She didn't have a huge reason for not liking him. He was cute, she wanted to give him a chance. Though she was facing a lot of internal conflict. She's not even allowed to date, would she be willing to break rules for a boy she barely knew?
"I don't even know him," She answered honestly, she's not the type to just like anyone, and her gut feeling was telling her not to do it.
"Then get to know him!!" (AS) replied, all but throwing his hands on the desk.
"Okay, bro." She shrugged turning back to her math book as if she was going to write anything in it, still unsure. Though she really wanted to despite the feeling in her gut, which was against this idea almost entirely. She's made the decision to go against that.
The rest of the day, she had a plan in mind, she was going to smile and wave at him tomorrow. Yeah. She can afford friendly flirting, and if it doesn't go right, she can easily mask it as something else she'll come up with on the spot.
Basketball practice went normally, they ran through drills they were going to go through in the game which was after school tomorrow. The coach wasn't there but that was okay, (AM), the assistant coach was there and would be there for the game the next day. Two hours, and it was 5:30, meaning they could go to the locker rooms, change, and go home. And the team did just that.
She was a bit more excited to go to sleep that night, knowing that the next day would be intriguing. Before she fell asleep, she planned how she was going to execute this, most likely would be in her second hour class because that's the first class she has with him.
The next day, she couldn't wait to get out of first hour, and get right to second hour. As she was let out of her ELA classroom, she went straight to her locker to grab her Arabic binder before making her trip all the way to the hallway her Arabic class was in.
When she arrived in the classroom, she set her stuff down and looked to see his stuff was on his desk and she left the room for the little amount of passing time she had left.
Coming back to the classroom, she started on her bellwork as did everyone else who walked in. Including him. The rest of that time, she was looking for an opportunity to at least make eye contact with him. This wasn't natural honestly. If anyone knew she had planned all this she probably would've left the country.
During their work time on an assignment, her teacher comes up to her, a poster in hand, and asks if she can borrow her chair for a second. Confused, though she has an idea of what she may need it for, she nods and gets up, getting a 'thank you habibti' in thanks.
WAIT!
This is perfect!!!
Her plan!!
He has to be looking right now! She's practically standing in front of his desk!
She quickly builds up the courage to look at him, knowing he's staring right now, she looks at him.
As she looks at him, they lock eyes. He doesn't smile, until she gives him a bright smile and waves at him with her hand by her hip. Her heart speeds up instantly and her face heats up as he smiles and waves back.
She didn't plan for that.
As she goes back to her seat, she focuses on her steps so she doesn't trip on accident. Sitting down, and presuming her work, her mind begins to wander the slightest bit. Why can't she stop smiling? What the hell? There's no way somebody could ever catch feelings that quickly right? God, this is gonna hurt so bad when it's over and I'm gonna be the idiot for letting it happen- But the way he smiled at her- it was more than possible at this point.
The rest of the class, she would occasionally look back at him, a few times he would look at her and give her that same smile causing her to smile again and look away involuntary. She went to her next class a lot happier than she started, excited for fourth hour, where she would see him again. She leaves her third hour and goes to lunch, choosing to stay quiet, once again, about what happened.
If she was being honest, she was slightly in denial about liking him, I mean, she was just being friendly, right? Friendly to a cute boy who definitely likes her. But, he likes her back, she's going to want to date him, people are going to be talking about it, and she's not sure if she wants that yet. Plus, (MS) said he's no good, but maybe he'll be different?
She's in her fourth hour now, 'starting' her bellwork, giving him a few glances though not getting that same eye contact. (That was okay, class had just started). A few minutes pass by, before (AS) speaks up, "You said 'hi' to him?" That prompted the smile on her face, that she quickly wiped off. Damn, he already told his friends, about a smile?
"Yeah?" She answers, playing the 'confused as to why he would be asking card' taking a small glance at him quicker than (AS) could catch.
"Do you like him?"
She did not want to answer that question.
"I don't know." Faking a stroke was probably the better plan.
"Why not bro." (AS) sighs, "You should like him."
She sighed. "I don't know bro." For someone who didn't know, she seemed to know she was going to tell him to come to her basketball game. Real smooth.
The rest of class he didn't really look at her, which was understandable, some of his friends were in that class, (AS) and (AA) were one of those friends. She let class go on, giggling when (MA) said something to get herself sent out in the hallway, giggling when (AS), (HB), and (AA) argued with the teacher over stupid things. Though she was really waiting for after class so she could catch him and follow through with her second genius plan.
After class, she took her time packing her stuff, stalling for him, she took her time because he was talking to the teacher. However when she seen he was finished, finally, she took a small breath, her heart racing, she walked up to him.
"@D@(\/)," She spoke up, causing him to look up at her and smile which pushed one across her own face.
"Yeah?" He answered, waiting to hear what she had to say. This was it, this was it, this was IT! Don't stutter please.
"Are you coming to the game later?" She asked leaving room for herself to read his response, her heart was still racing.
"Maybe," He shrugged, smiling a bit more. She liked how much he smiled, she liked it a lot.
"Come." She let her smile turn into a smirk as he nodded, she had so much fucking rizz!! Let's fucking go!!! We're locked in! She better drop AT LEAST twelve today!
"Alright." He smiled and she grinned and waved at him before walking away. She ran to (YC)'s locker where she was getting her stuff for her fifth hour, and she rapidly tapped her friend on the shoulder,
"I told him to come to my game!!" She hops in place excitedly, smiling as (YC) looked at her in shock.
"For real?! Say wallah." (YC) said, smiling a bit.
"Wallah!!" She grinned excitedly as she hugged (YC) and ran to her own locker to grab her stuff for her fifth hour.
She went to her fifth hour a lot happier than she was before. As she dropped her stuff on her desk and walked out, she seen him in a crowd of boys, and (HZ) and (ME) went up to her,
"You told 31$@^3D to come to your game?" (ME) asked, smiling a bit as her cheeks heated up.
"No," She shrugged contradicting her verbal answer, obviously she did and they knew. Fake a stroke, it probably would work right about now, he obviously told them, dumbass. She made eye contact with him and flashed him a small smile.
Her fifth hour wasn't much better, (HZ) wouldn't keep his mouth shut and now (AB) knew about it, and (MD) tried to force it out of her friend. She decided say she didn't know if she liked him yet. She obviously didn't want to say no, then his friends would tell him that and it would give her a headache, and she didn't exactly want everyone to go around talking about her. If that information got back home, she'd be in a lot of trouble, not for liking another, but for dating at her young age.
Whilst thinking of excuses she could give her mom if this got back home, she couldn't help but think about how her basketball game might go, especially since he would be coming to watch her play.
This is prolly gonna hurt a lot when it's over.
#fizzytried#fizzyshatitout#type shit#based on real life events#kinda shit but i gotta finish it now#love story#angst#break up
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Historian who travels around the world and records the events that are happening. Also a writer.
Different coloring version under the cut (and lore as always) :d
I couldn't decide between this and the above colors, so I had a friend choose for me. I like this one too, so I wanted to share even tho it's not shaded :d
Now for lore:
Human that got the ability to live very long (in short. long version in different paragraph). She was always fascinated by the history of the world she decided the best way to archive it is to travel around the world and exirience it first hand. Wrote many books about history going into much details of the events she was a part of she's considered the authority when it comes to past events. Basically if you have history on any level in school you ar sure to have either a book writen or co-athored by her. She likes to collect different pisn, but keeps most of them in her bag (wears only a few at a time, since she doesn't want to loose them). Originally form the same neighbouring country as "hole in the neck/abusive father" girl (I really need to start giving my oc's proper names :|) from this post, but knows most of the languages used across the world and she visited most of the countries there too.
I'm losing the words as I'm typing it (probably due to the late hour being 2am), so it might be a bit wonky in explanation, but I'll do my best.
Her ability is basically "You will stop aging at X years old, but you are still a mortal so anything else can still kill you". This ability was "distributed" to every person who awakend their powers in a specific timeframe, which was just few minutes. Due to this "system error" a large amout of people got this specific ability, just with different X values. She was one of the lucky ones and her X value was 28, but there were people with this value anywhere in between 7 and ~500 years. She always respond's that that's her age, but knows very well they are asking about how long she lived. She keeps that information a secret, which isnt't much of a secret but if you can't be bothered to a bit of a research she can't be bothered to answear you.
She had to learn basic fighting skill (some people didn't liked how truthful her recollections were), but avoids conflict whenever possible. At some point most people stopped bothering with that and accepted that she will write and publish the truth thet she saw. At the begginign she had to derss like/pretend to be a man to publish her books (because "women know nothing abouth history") and kept doing it later for consistency (like, she kept publishing under male name, not dressing. She hated pretending to be a man). She became some kind of an icon for a part of a trans community because of this whole "pretending to be a man" stuff. She never was nor considers herself to be trans, but if that helps people she doesn't mind being idolized that way.
She's also a writer like I mentioned. She writes books of any genre (whatever is on her mind at any given point) and publishes them under her real name. She always carried 4 notebooks with her. One for actual history stuff, one for her books, one as a diary and the last just for regular notes. Whenever a notebook is filled she replaces it with a new one.
She publishes all her book through one and the same company over all the years and have a contract with them, where they will publish her diaries too, but only after her death, so they keep them stored somwhere safe for later).
The archivist deleth harpy (I don't think I have a lore post about her, but I def posted her design before. I should probably make a lore post about her too...) has one whole floor in her library dedicated to all the books published by her and whenever they meet, she complains about the ungodly amount of books she wrote and that soon she wouldn't have a place to keep them (she always will, since she can easly just make the floor bigger). The harpy actually really likes her books and is very happy that she has someone who does some part of collecting "history" for her.
She's not interested in any romantic relationships with anyone (still likes romantic gestures tho), but doesn't mind to fuck with other women >:)
PS. I didn't forget to color her bag. I didn't color it on purpose. I just couldn't be bothered xd
#really long lore post#but it's hidden behind read more so click it with caution#oc#gamborgia universum#my art#my post
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c3x24 knockout. Wasn't the last episode in this storyline knockout too? No, knockdown.
Plot heavy episode, after all, it is the finale.
RC: Hey, guys, I could use a hand. *Esposito & Ryan applaud* Ryan wearing a sweater again. Weekly is v often. their faces drop when they mention him
The ring <3 Lol the "special" & the "usual" & the excellent choice madame. I love it. An hour ago today? Why they all cheering? Oh bc he's the cop. "He" was going to get around to me Ugh he gives him a minute & lays down politely, like this is honestly so respectful of a murder. He's have more blood probably. I remember looking like that. I am now remembering that. You know, for weeks, possibly even a month or several months I could smell blood. The first day, even the first week bc i was still healing, I thought that the smell of blood was just there for real. The bathroom must have smelled like metal; iron & copper; idk how my family didn't notice anything. Maybe it was all in my head now that I think about it. Then later I realized that it was just a hallucination. Sometimes I'd get a whiff of blood & it would remind me of that night, other times I would remember it & suddenly I could smell it. Again, in the earlier days I thought that maybe the smell was real & I just didn't notice it until I thought about it. Figuring out I was getting hallucinations shocked me. Did I just give myself ptsd? I wish I had a photo. I considered it but my phone was in the other room & I wasn't going to go get it. All that blood. Looking back, even tho I'm (sort of) clean now, I want that photo. I wanted a reference for murder scenes in my writing or in drawing, I wanted to see the progress of what I had done, now that I can't remember it as well I want to know what it really looked like & how far I actually got. I used to get nauseous every time I thought about it, even though I was fine with gore. Now all I have is the scar. You know, I used to make jokes when picking raspberries or cutting beets, I said it looked like a murder scene. During this time I realized how wrong I was. Anyway I wrote a fictional story basically transcribing my experiences, just so I'd have a record of it if my memory faded, it was already getting muddy when I wrote it. Now reading it I can barely see it. I remember it though. I remember it. At least I don't get blood olfactory hallucinations anymore. Back to the episode!
Wow it's been four months? Yeah he has an employer. idek who that employer is. Wait if she was 16 & it's been 12 years then she's only 28... alexis is 17 & if he had her at minimum 18 that would be 35 minimum. Well that fits the half plus seven rule. She's 28? 21x2=42 which sounds just as accurate for castle tbh. Yeah cool. Tho tbh the half plus seven rule does fall apart the more you age since people's brains still go thru development phases even tho the most & biggest were from ages -1 to 25.
He technically isn't hal lockwood hence why they called him john doe. OH NO FLASHBANGS. Those things are not good. Even the guys breaking him out would have been affected, even if they covered their ears & closed their eyes. (You only have two hands, two would have to be for your ears & so all you can do is close ur eyes & even so it is bright & loud & there is a physical boom. She asks "where" but how does the lady know what she means? Where is it safe? Where did they go? Where are you hurt? Poor helicopter guy. was he piloting?
Just like, check ur inbox? Can't be real names, must be code. That's why espt made that face! Just like my Mumma! She has her emergency radio license or smth like that. She's the one who taught me the nato phoenetic alphabet. Having seen this. His face when the third cop is mentioned. they were just talking abt street justice cops & monty is saying they should take him out rn rn.
JE: He says he wouldnāt have even known anybody had used it if it werenāt for the bullet holes. XD Does she know or is she speculating? No ofc she is not, but she is ok enough & ok enough to work.
Jim Beckett! & This will be the scene from the deleted scenes in the previous episode. You're so right Mr Beckett. Her life is def worth more than her mom's death. I love Jim sm. Here is his quote btw: What happens when she finds him? Iāve already lost my wife over this. Iāve already lost ā (he stops) No, look. It took me years, but Iāve made my peace with that. But Katie? She wonāt listen to me. And she wonāt back down. Not unless someone can convince her that her life is worth more than her motherās death.
& wow both her parents are lawyers, she was even considering becoming a lawyer. No wonder she's so pretty & educated.
Didn't sleep at all or slept a little bit? No, not Ryker!
He gon be dead. Yep he dead.
That's why the wound is so bad, GSWs are so much worse in the exit wound Death fist 4 poster (btw I like how ryan takes off his tie & stuff when he wears his vest, unbuttons a bit)
See? If u treat someone with respect then they respect u too. Aw that's actually kinda sweet. Crushing on Beckett.
Ok our theory is currently that the third cop is the employer, the one holding lockwood's leash Ok that's valid you've been angry over johanna's death for twelve years but also ryan was frickin tortured by this guy I think he wants him around as much as u do, esp since he's also mad on your behalf (tho ig she could also be mad on his behalf then...)
I like ryan's elbow patches. (Suit tie & jeans) What was that little look from ryan? Keep in mind I've seen this before, when I say this: {RM is encouraging them to find the third cop, claiming that the 3c must have the money to hire dick coonan to clean up the mess} Yeah they've been here all day & between the four of them a six pack isn't too much. It's late. They deserve it. JE walking in with a case of beer behind his back: Sir. Uh, I know we're still officially on duty, but RM: Authorized KR: SlÔinte (health in Gaeilge; pronounced slAn-chuh)* RC: Nice work. Ooh, those are cold. These are really cold. KR : Yeah, we keep them in evidence, refrigerated storage. (they just keep booze in refrigerated evidence storage??) RC: Isn't that where you keep the-- JE: Don't worry about it. RC: (*Irish Gaelic is pronounced (in English) 'gay-lik'. The (Scottish) Gaelic name for (Scottish) Gaelic is Gà idhlig, pronounced 'gaa-lik', not to be confused with the Irish (Gaelic) name for Irish (Gaelic), which is written Gaeilge and pronounced 'gail-gyuh'.) (clipping)
Beer: *casually reveals smth* Calls him a dirtbag SOB, {like my dude, y r u sending em out to find that info?} ((We get to see the meeting in a future season!)) Love. Everyone knows they love each other.
That rubber tree plant The kiss was for a disguise & frozen in each other's arms was for wamrth & bc friends can do that too! She's right tho, it IS her life. (just like the s8 premier) It is the end of s3 so it has been 3 years now? (maybe 2.5 bc the first season was short?) You deserve to be happy, but in that tone? Ooh How over? He is not going to abandon you.
Man's angry! Martha <3 <3 I can see how he might feel it is his fault even tho he's not the one trying to kill everyone. He drug it back up. (could clip but I won't)
I love when she calls him by his first name, it is so intense & personal, he is her second dad. He supports her so much so well. He really is good for her, helping her laugh, bringing in outside ideas... Hug her. acab lol But seriously hug her. You are her dad.
Old guys, probably retired they say. Miami! Wow ryan's cheekbones in this lighting... KR says he DOESN'T believe a "badge" is behind this. (Metonymy) {keep this detail in mind} (But then ryan is the first to crack abt you know who)
Oh no he's the third cop isn't he? {yeah he is} lol order off the menu (so roy made a deal with The Big Bad Guy to protect beckett) He would SO be found out B'y god's got nothing to do with this
What about the son? The way u hold someone intimately lets you put a thumb over their lips & kiss them That's an old timey gun. I like it. Another old timey gun.
Wow it's already been all day! Nothing eventful happened all day... At least miami dade got back to them this evening. Going out w/o telling her? I mean ok.
Big sad.
Bro's still wearing an nypd sweatshirt? Tight is a good word. Some rookie? Young enough to not be retired yet Could he have maybe misremembered the name if there were 40 others he needed to know the names of too & it's been 10 years? Montague maybe? He looks so baby *gulp* Rips up the photo, tbh that's rude
[JE is walking out into the alley] KR Hey! You know it's him. (He looks like he's about to cry.) Montgomery's our third cop. He's the one who altered those records. JE How can you even say that? How can you even think that?! Montgomery brought us on to Homicide! What do we got? A picture!?! KR (whispered/strained) Think about it. (Nromal but strained) Why else did he want us to take Lockwood out? Because Lockwood leads us to him! (Hun he told u to go after the third cop.) He's been lying to us. (Espt also looks like he might cry.) He's been lying to us the whole time. [JE shakes his head, mouthing what I think is "I'm out" & turns around to start walking away.] KR Hey! [Ryan grabs Espt's shoulder] JE Get off me! [Espt punches Ryan & turns around again. They fight. KR grabs him from the back & pushes him into the wall/truck/whatever that thing is. Espt pushes around & gets Ryan pinned to the truck with his hands on his shirt. & not in a sexy way. JE is yelling, holding KR's face & has his fist next to his head.] KR Go ahead! Go ahead! [JE throws Ryan's head to the side as he lets him go. They both lean against the wall, breathing heavily. They both look emotionally ruined.] KR Beckett.
AAAAAAGHHDSKJFSDHJ THIS IS MAKING ME INSANE & then they just don't talk about it.
Please don't let him be the one to kill her Girl set ur phone to vibrate, u'r a cop, this stuff can be dangerous. Why cock the gun? You can't put your family thru going to jail but this happens? (So babe you uh, don't they have ballistics for all nypd guns? when they pull the slug?)
A second chance <3 Who is the "he" They might have come even if Beckett didn't show up, as long as he said he got her there. Then again, they were probs watching. He is her dad so much Good on him to bring in Castle (of all people, he brought castle, even after kicking castle out) Oof this is where I stand They probs saw three figures there & probs even know he means to kill them. Castle is great he just picked her up like that! She was flailing & kicking & he just did what the captain said! Beauty!
(so lockwood has a bunch of people here too? Lockwood is not The Only One y'all) So there are four ppl there. Didn't they kill the two guys with Lockwood during the previous relevant episode? KB & RC came in to save JE & KR & they ended up shooting two of lockwood's people? Now lockwood has four more. Shoot from the hip... RM: You got that ass-backwards, boy, you can't hide from me.
love how they brought back the ass backwards line How did he shoot all of them so fast? Also with a gun like that wouldn't he have to cock it every time? Or maybe not, it was old fashioned, not old. It probably has the mechanism set so that the back thingy & the trigger are attached to pull back too. lockwood got shot, he's back up & running now? Love the music btw. Noooo not behindy! I saw to that. You're done, Lockwood, we both are. & that's why he had a sixshot & a second gun! ...Which was just up his sleeve like that & definitely dangerous
How did u know that was the last shot? What if lockwood was still alive (again) & now he's coming to kill you? At least she is wearing short heels Check his pulse maybe?
Lol acab. I'd just as well watch the Helena music video.
Is this beckett's apatment? I can't tell. Family. Doesn't include his legal family tho apparently. & you have accepted castle back? You know it's weird, Espt & Ryan are like Becket's little brothers (& big brothers) sometimes, they give Castle the cold shoulder in defense of Beckett; other times they are brothers with Castle, they have said "mom & dad [are] fighting" as if caskett is a relationship & those two are the kids, sometimes the captain is the dad. It's just so good to me. So good. Found family is lowkey cliche but I love it still. (But this means u can't tell alexis, martha, lanie, jim, or anyone, bc they are extended "family" not immediate "family" right?)
Who's the guy behind Espt there? Also why didn't Esposito shave?? I feel like Castle should be wearing a hat, just to fit in. Not a hat like theirs, but some sort of trilby maybe. Tbh I really like seeing the pigs in their blankets. Not only because I like fancy stuff (I say wearing the same dirty jeanjacket with holes in it like some crustpunk) but also bc I like seeing them in hats, speaking as a hat wearer myself. & who's the guy behind Ryan?
Crying quietly, š love it You don't necessarily owe it to him, you owe it to his family, you owe it to them to get the pension & access to the widows+orphans fund & w/e.
I like how they let Castle carry the casket even tho he is not a cop. Ok my man definitely needs a hat, he really looks out of place. Aw the poor family. yk acab even tho he be dead. I mean best wishes to him & the families+friends. Like tbh big acab moments. A huge funeral for him? Ok how many ppl there actually knew him personally? How much of this is just because he was a fellow enforcer of the law? How much of it is REAL & how much of it enforces an institution where brotherhood takes priority? Btw did they teach castle how to do the proper stepping for the fancy parts of walking around & turning the way they do? I thought Royce did that. KB: You might find someone to stand with you *looks over to Rick* How did rick actually see that tho? I'm glad he didn't jump in front of a bullet, it hit her first. ALSO LANIE BEING HELP BACK BY ESPOSITO Girl that's not how you save someone. U might want to put pressure on the wound or wear gloves if u have any (like airplanes) & do NOT put your hands on the grass like that
Ok cool. Now I'm actually going to watch season one bc I never had the chance to liveblog that.
Ok now I've also gathered all my clips from s3 yay
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Some pals and I started a thing called Sin Sunday lmao and I drew more smut today combined than I ever have in my entire life
#I'm sweating.#I GOT LOTS OF PRACTICE IN WITH ANATOMY SO THAT'S GOOD LMAOOOOO#MAN#What a time#You should have SEEN the things they drew najdnakdsmka#Ridiculous#The Shrek one was the worst. Thanks Sam#I'll never recover from that#I laughed so hard I cried#I drew some good stuff tho lol#Spicy. SUPER SPICY#Oh my god I gotta use the citrus scale to tag this huh#Tho I didn't really mention anything so I should be safe actually#Shima speaks
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One of the things that really gets to be about that post about how Katara wants to be fun is that she doesn't get that in her relationship with Aang? She constantly has to mother thanks to him. Either mother him while he's having fun and she has to try and get him to take lire more seriously and then she eventually gets left alone to mother two small children while he flies off with the third.
And while Zuko isn't shown to be as exciting as Aang in ATLA, he's shown to be funny. And he's learning to have fun himself. Katara doesn't have to mother him and I would have loved to see them organically learn to have fun together after they defeated Ozai
You've said it perfectly anon. In my opinion, the problem isnāt necessarily that Katara doesn't know how to have fun, it's that she feels the need to be responsible to the point that she canāt have fun.
For a long time I've struggled with that myself. I don't feel like I'm a particularly fun person and that's especially true around people who are younger than me or act more recklessly. I canāt make myself let go of that responsibility for fear that something will happen to the others around me because I wasn't making sure everyone stayed safe. It's a tad bit unreasonable (probably more than a bit tho lol), but it's something thatās really hard for me. You get the comments of "Oh wow you're so mature for your age!" and people thinking that you're a senior in high school when you're actually a freshman just because of the way you carry yourself. All that pressure mounts quickly, cementing that motherly role of responsibility in place.
Iām able to have a lot more fun now that my friends are older and less immature. They aren't going to do something unspeakable foolish (probably) and I don't feel the need to be on my guard. I adore them. I feel like if Aang actually had an arc within the show regarding this, I would hate Kata*ng slightly less, but alas, he does not. Aang is shown time and time again to go along with whatever is the most fun whether that be scamming with Toph, running around Kyoshi with a fan club, or even attending a festival in the Fire Nation when they're trying to keep a low profile. That is the exact behavior that would make me go "I have to make sure no one does anything to get hurt" because let's be real, two of the three things I just listed could have heavy consequences.
One of Katara's biggest driving forces and characteristics is her passion. She wants to fight, she wants to protect the people around her, she wants the people she loves to be happy, she wants justice and equality, and she wants to make the world as she thinks it should be. That is so admirable and I don't think it's a stretch to say that a personality like that is loud and can get tiring to people. I've mentioned it before, but I've dated someone like Aang, someone who didn't like conflict or taking up space in a room when it wasn't positive. It does not mesh well. I always felt like I was just annoying and should get over things-- or even that the things I was upset about weren't a big a deal at all and I was just a drama queen. It really hurts to be stuck in that loop, and to see Aang not fully support that side of Katara is painful. Going with the flow isnāt for everyone. Itās not for me, and itās definitely not for Katara, aka the girl who brawled with a grown man to prove a point, knowing that she would absolutely lose. You shouldnāt be with someone who isnāt able to support your battles. They donāt even necessarily have to be fighting by your side. They can hold your flowers and cheer you on while you beat the shit out of all of the Pakkus youāll face in life.Ā
Aang is shown to be uneasy when Angry, Passionate Katara rears her powerful head, but Zuko is uniquely not. Most of the other characters within the show are at least a little caught off guard when Katara slips from her kind and compassionate demeanor, but not our lovely boy Zuko. I think that scene inĀ āThe Southern Raidersā is the perfect example of this. She is yelling and scolding him and instead of retreating or curling into himself, Zuko listens. Heās not inherently afraid because this isnāt how Katara usually is, which may be due to the fact that heās seen both sides of her with about the same level of familiarity within the catacombs, but either way heās able to actually think about what sheās saying. Zuko not being afraid of her when sheās not calm and at ease is a very powerful message to me at least because I feel like I can find someone who isnāt afraid of how intense I am. There are people who donāt need me to be more palatable to their particular levels of intensity. The idea that a women does not have to bend her personality to fit her partnerās idea of who she is or what she should be is one that should be more mainstream, and itās a huge inspiration to me in my own life. A lot of the Zutara fanfiction Iāve read (and Iāve read a lot) is very empowering to me in that sense-- Katara and Zuko are able to unapologetically be themselves with the other and wonāt let anyone tell them otherwise. Itās amazing and a wonderful example to girls and women of any and all ages (and anyone else for that matter. Everyone deserves a good partner if they want one).
Everything I just discussed so far is a huge part of the reason I ship Zutara. It's been said before that Zuko is the only member of the Gaang (besides like... Suki lol) that Katara does not mother within the show. It's also implied that Zuko helps Katara be an authority figure in the group, earning them the legendary "Momtara" and "Dadko" titles. I would want that kind of support for myself and since I relate to Katara, I see Zuko as a much better and more equal partner for her than Aang.Ā And that's nothing against Aang! I despise what he became in book 3 but our baby boy in book 1 had so much potential for growth and change. I adore that Aang and I'll never get tired of blaming Bryke for twisting his character into the incel they can only aspire to be.
Zutara is a ship that has dozens and dozens of reasons to support it. I've seen very few ships with as much backing as Zutara. From the way two compliment each other within the show to the subvert lore the show has that parallels Zutara, there's a lot to love, and to me it also has the appeal of being something a real life person would want in their relationship. They understand each other, they apologize to each other, they grow together, they love unconditionally-- that's all so beautiful.
I know if the Kata*ngers find this they'll shit all over me for "projecting" but I think it's really important for people to relate to the characters they see on screen and see bits of themselves littered throughout. It makes a story more compelling and is infinitely more inspiring. Struggles that I see Katara have are ones I've seen in my own life-- at one point when I was a bit younger I even hated Katara because I saw so much of myself in her. These stories mean more than canonicity and more than what value a writer assigns to the character. Itās very clear that Bryke only saw Katara as Aangās motivation and prize, which is so harmful! No person anywhere is a prize in any regard to anyone. Itās horrifying that this was displayed to people asĀ āromance.ā Katara is a character that is so vastly important for female representation (as well as other forms of representation) and as I briefly mentioned, Katara is a character who was very inspiring to me. She is a character that was able to give me more confidence in myself and realize that I am not an annoyance for speaking up when something feels/is wrong.
That was a long ramble and I hope itās somewhat pleasing to you anon lol. I hope youāre doing well out there in the world <3
#cilla rambled#zutara#pro zutara#pro katara#she really helped me no joke#i don't think i would be who i am rn without her#and i am a new era fan lol#anti kataang#anti aang#we're being safe here today#i'm not here to bother aang stans#anti bryke#i hate bryke#i don't know how they ruined katara's character in lok so thoroughly#it's impressive in a negative way
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