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mxbo · 5 months ago

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Hi! If it’s no trouble for you, could I request a little story about Sniper and a daughter reader? Just some wholesome family fluff ^^

Thanks so much in advance! No worries though if you’re swamped!

HELLO!! “No worries though if you're swamped” JHSHG THIS IS MY FIRST REQUEST EVER, I'M SO EXCITED. And also nervous because I don't want to mess up (that's why I took 5 days to write this) (I wrote it, left it be for a couple of days, read it again, went like “wow this is garbage”, fixed it and THEN posted it).

The request was left a bit ambiguous, so I have a BUNCH of notes and then the little story (which is, btw, not the full length of what I wrote because I accidentally gave Sniper anxiety, so I cut that from the actual story because I feared it wasn't wholesome ahsjah) (if you see “…” in the middle of two paragraphs, yeah that was something that I cut out AHSHh). I REALLY DON'T WANT TO DISAPPOINT, I'M NOT CONFIDENT AT ALL WITH MY WRITING AND DIDN'T THINK I WOULD EVEN GET A WRITING REQUEST, I'M SORRY IF YOU DISLIKE EVEN ONE WORD *explodes*

[First picture: Carl from San Andreas with his hands on his head, except it's me saying “I forgot, I forgot how to write oh no”] [Second picture: Sponge Bob crying, except it's me saying “I promise I'll do better”]

SOME NOTES

English is not my first language, sorry if some things don't make sense TT (let me know if you see any mistakes pls!!)

My requests were mainly open for stamps, userboxes, blinkies and stuff like that, but I did say I'd share my writing if someone asked in my pinned post, so I only have myself to blame heh. And this was actually fun and I enjoyed it, so now I want to do more writing requests. Aka, they're open fr this time HEHE

You're Sniper's daughter, but the story is almost mainly told from the perspective of Sniper (still written in third person for him and second person for the reader, tho, it's just that the story follows Sniper's actions more because idk how to write from the POV of a kid)

I have family issues so if family interactions are portrayed inaccurately that's why, haha /hj

I wanted to write about how Sniper's daughter got to the base and THEN her interactions with the rest of the team, but I've been working on it for 5 days already. This is only the first half, how the reader got to the base TT [I'll continue it if you wish] AND AAAAH THE SECOND HALF IS WHERE I HAD PLANNED MOST OF THE FLUFF AND MOMENTS CATCHING UP WITH SNIPER AAAA (I'm so angry at myself)

CW: Not much, mentions of death because it's TF2 (nobody dies), and the word “fuck” is said like once, but that's it, can't think of anything major

More notes in the end because it's mostly not mentioned/doesn't matter/was cut from the final version

MEET THE SUNSHINE

“Yeah, Mum, I get it. I'll visit when I can,” he muttered.

“Your daughter misses you, you know,” his mum said.

Sniper sighed. “I know, Mum. But I take my job really seriously, and the battle hasn’t ended yet—”

“That battle has been going on for more than three years now!! And we decided you can’t just come home on holidays and expect us to raise your child the rest of the year.”

“We sent her to you” his dad interrupted, “She should be arriving any minute now.”

Sniper's eyes widened, and he nearly dropped the phone. “YOU DID WHAT!? THIS IS A BATTLEFIELD!!” He tried to argue.

They were his parents and he respected them a lot, always trying to get their approval, but were they actually crazy? What did they even consume to think that sending his own daughter, their own granddaughter, to New Mexico, alone, while there’s a fight currently happening there, is a good idea!?

“Oh, don’t worry about that, after speaking to your boss through a nice lady called… Miss Paula? Pauline? She assured us she’ll be safe.” No way Miss Pauling, one of the few people he —and everyone in the team, really— trusted. No fucking way.

Before he could process this bombshell, a commotion erupted outside his room. The “INTRUDER ALERT. BLU SPY IS IN THE BASE” alarm was set off, and it was followed by Soldier shouting “A BLU SPY IS IN THE BASE!?”.

He hung up, not even saying goodbye, because he had the feeling that wasn’t a BLU spy. Actually, he knew it wasn’t a BLU spy, chained to a respawn machine. He had to get to the entrance first and stop the other eight mercenaries from killing you.

…

“WAIT!” He shouted as he pushed Soldier to the side.

He wasn’t the only one in the room; Scout, Spy and Medic, who were faster than Sniper, were also there, also trying to explain to Soldier that this was a child, not a BLU spy.

“Sniper?” asked Spy, a bit curious about why he seemed so scared.

“That’s not a spy…” He said, trying to catch his breath.

“Yes, we figured,” Spy said before getting interrupted.

You slowly opened your eyes and removed your hands from your ears, seeing as the scary man with the big weapon directly pointing at you before didn’t fire and you didn’t explode.

“That’s my-”

You looked around and that’s when you see him! You didn’t get the directions the nice purple lady gave you wrong!!

“DAD!!” You scream as you run over to your dad and hug his legs.

As you squeeze his legs, finally seeing your dad after so long and feeling safe, he doesn’t know how to react.

“-daughter,” he finished his sentence. He’s so relieved you’re ok. He doesn’t know what he would have done if he had found you hurt or worse.

“No frickin’ way…” muttered the Scout.

Soldier, Spy, Medic and also Engie and Pyro, who entered the room after the Sniper, were just as confused as Scout. Well, maybe not Pyro, because it understood something completely different (one shudders to imagine what inhuman thoughts lie behind that mask). But the rest of them were, and, with their eyes, they asked for an explanation. Demanded, even, in Scout’s case, because he couldn’t fathom the idea of Sniper of all people to get a girl, potentially a wife, before him.

…

Scout sighed in relief hearing that Sniper did not, in fact, get a girl before him. That he had found you as a baby one day when returning home and adopted you.

Everyone else just nodded in understanding (Heavy, Pyro), asked him questions (Engie, Medic, Spy) or praised him for doing the correct thing and not leave you to starve (Spy, Soldier, Demo). All while you were drawing in a corner with a pen and paper your dad gave you.

You stopped drawing once your dad had finished talking and introducing you to his team. Maybe he would introduce them to you next!

This was going to be your home for a while, after all.

NOTES P.2

Timeline:

Three years into the gravel war (for the main group of mercenaries’ pov).

You were adopted roughly a year before Sniper was hired. Your adopted family doesn’t know your birthday, but they estimate you’re 4-5 y/o.

Fun fact: I was considering at first (aka the first five seconds of thinking about the request) making the daughter a teenager and then remembered Sniper is 27-ish here so uuuh, nope.

About Sniper in this AU:

He’s a good dad… the three or four times a year he can visit you.

He doesn’t want to be an absent dad, but he’s too dedicated to his job as an assassin for RED.

He tries to convince himself he’s not that absent because he cares about you, talks to you at lest once a week through the phone and makes sure your grandparents treat you correctly.

He wouldn’t have accepted RED’s offer if he had known this job would drag out for so long. He can’t quit now.

About his daughter (you!):

She/her as was requested :D

Not much else to say, you're 4-5 years old so you behave as one.

[Backstory, this is explained in detail during the actual story so spoilers hehe] You were found in a dumpster (sorry lmao) This was not, in fact, mentioned in the story above, so I'll just paste it here:

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As he ran downstairs, his mind was flooded with images of how you came into his life, how he tried to raise you but had to go to this stupid war over a worthless piece of land. He thought it was ok, though, because once it was over he’d make up for the time he was away.

But he wouldn’t be able to do that if you died to one of his own teammates right now.

…

Mick was driving home after a long day under the hot Australian sun, a bit tired from hunting animals down all day but with a smile.

He did a small deviation to pass by a nearby gas station because the fuel gauge hovered dangerously close to empty.

Once the tank was full, he glanced at the convenience store and couldn’t resist grabbing something to eat for the rest of the long ride. He doesn’t remember what he bought, and it honestly doesn’t even matter.

As he was leaving the store, he heard a sound, apart from the flickering neon lights, and he stood there for a second trying to identify. Someone crying, high-pitched voice, coming from the side of the building. “From the side of the building? Next to the dumpster?” He thought.

And he was disgusted that he was right, that someone just got rid of a baby like that, but also glad he found you.

He didn’t know what to do, so he brought you home and asked his parents for help. They all came to the conclusion that they must have abandoned you after noticing that you didn’t grow a moustache like the rest. Mick saw himself on you because he also wasn’t born like most Australians. He remembered having a difficult time as a child trying to adapt without having any facial hair or Australia-shaped chest hair like the rest of the kids and, being an orphan? He knew your childhood would be even worse than his.

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#tf2 sniper #child reader #female reader #team fortress 2 #tf2 #writing #i'm not paranoid at all about sharing this #request

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im-captain-basch · 11 months ago

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What would be your voice fancasts for your version of Donkey Kong/Donkey Kong Country franchise?

Fun fact: the reason I never answered your DM to me with this question is mostly because I was trying to figure out who would be best for who, but also because I was trying to decide if I should make this a public thing or not, so thanks for helping make that choice. XD

I know this says fancasts for my version, but I went more of a "general voice headcanon" route for most of these. Some also have the actual fancasts, or at the very least the people I wouldn't be upset about having be the VAs even if the voice winds up different from what I hear in my head.

I could really only figure out the Kongs, so uh... Ye. Also, all the underlined names are linked to pages to see more of the stuff they've done!

DK: Mark Fischbach. Zero rhyme or reason, other than I spent a full year drawing practically nothing except DKC characters set to GMOD moments, mostly Markiplier's, so now it's all I hear. However, I would not be mad if Richard Yearwood reprises the role (or even Sterling Jarvis).

Diddy: Ben Schwartz. My Diddy is more teenager-adjacent than most people's probably is (around 14), and I'd be lying if I said my hyperfixation with DuckTales 2017 a couple years back didn't have anything to do with that.

Cranky: This one is surprisingly hard to pin down. Here recently I've been imagining him more with Keith David's voice, but in the past I've also imagined David Tennant, Bernard Cribbins, and Aron Tager (his VA in the cartoon), the latter two of whom have both sadly passed in the last couple of years. I'll also happily take Bill Farmer, tho. For me it all depends on the tone and other factors of the situation presented (eg, an AU, the actual game series, others' interpretations, etc).

Funky: Gotta still be Damon D'Olivera, his VA from the cartoon, but I wouldn't be against Phil LaMarr or Greg Eagles voicing him either.

Candy: I do not hate Joy Tanner's voice for her in the cartoon at all. In fact, like Funky, it's mostly all I can hear for her. If I had to choose someone else to fill the role, it'd probably be Jennifer Hale.

Dixie: I think I had the most trouble with her surprisingly. I didn't necessarily like or hate her voice in the cartoon, but I have to go with Mae Whitman on this one. I was thinking along the lines of how Amity from The Owl House sounds, if you wanna know the thought process.

Wrinkly: Wendie Malick is the only voice I've really actively pictured for my specific version of her. The second I heard the line "Wait---those are MY dumb kids!" in The Owl House, my brain has never let the idea drop. However, if there ever actually is a show version of the DKC series that included her, I would not be against Tress MacNeille being her VA.

Swanky: Will Arnett is just how I hear him by default (I blame DK Vine in part). IDK, similar reasons to Diddy in that it has to do with other fixations of mine colliding into my brain. However, here recently my brain has also been tickled by the idea of James Monroe Iglehart being his voice in a version of the show that actually uses him.

Kiddy: OK, so y'all know how my brain runs. Sadly, sometimes I forget about him. However, I feel like Dee Bradley Baker is a safe bet.

Lanky: Rob Paulsen. IDK, even his normal voice just works.

Tiny: Kristen Schaal, solely because sometimes there's moments of her that cross my mind that make me go "Oh that's Louise Belcher (or Mabel Pines) vibes."

Chunky: Of all the actors, voice or otherwise, I've dug through today to find voices for characters I otherwise couldn't picture... I'ma have to give Chunk the monk Richard Horvitz. It also helps that this is literally one of those VAs I grew up hearing, so I can imagine the role working well, although other VAs mentioned throughout this list could potentially also work well.

Originally the Kongs from the actual DKC series proper is all I was gonna do for now, because it's late and brain hurty, but y'all know me a little better than that. I've got at least two bonus people for y'all.

K. Rool: Similar to a couple of characters above, I'd love it if Benedict Campbell could reprise the role, as he's literally the only voice I've been able to hear for him for years. However, that being said, there are a few others I will accept in his place, being Mark Hamill; Keith David (mentioned above); Clancy Brown; and Alex Hirsch.

DK Jr.: You said it was a fancast for my version, so while I know some people think Junior and our DK are the same person, in this instance I don't. I've racked my brain for a while trying to figure out who I best hear as his voice, and I had songs from a certain Disney animated show playing on loop last night and anyway, long story short, Jeremy Jordan is the headcanon voice for my version of him.

#alex speaks #asks #yourstrulylightstar283 #fun fact: this took me hours to do because I got lost in bill farmer's filmography #donkey kong #donkey kong country #anyway did y'all know ben campbell was also the voice of papa bear in the berenstein bears because i didn't #headcanons #headcanon #why alex hirsch? because why not #anyway i didn't wanna put him in the list because he's not really a character canon to dkc but asari is either rob gavagan or b dylan holli

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celestialsun123 · 8 months ago

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Okay, tumblr is my ‘safe space’ other than my room, so I’m going to talk and anyone who wants to can listen. Aka all the stuff I’m gonna say will take up a lot of room so take a look under the ‘keep reading’ if you care enough to lol

There are a couple of JIC trigger warnings: mentions of church/religious settings (not talked about in a negative way), doctors, uhh there’s a time where I talk about someone yelling at me?

without further ado, here's my vent for the day.

I stress out so much over liking anything posted by autistic people. I’m so sorry, I have literally nothing against you, I just freak out for no reason cause once I heard someone on YouTube say ‘if you aren’t autistic your opinion is completely invalid here’ and I’ve taken it to heart ��

I will go to like a post but then go ‘wait… that explicitly says it’s about autistic people/autism… I can’t! I don’t count!’ (And I am so salty about stuff like that cause I’ve thought to myself ‘well what if I’m agreeing about something that they approve of?’ But it still isn’t enough to justify it to myself.) (again, I HAVE NOTHING AGAINST Y'ALL)

I was considering asking my doctor if I should get evaluated for stuff but I also really don’t want to because what if they just say ‘nope, you’re normal. Why’d you even bother?’ And I KNOW I’m not neurotypical because I have GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder) and there is no WAY it’s normal to feel like your entire day has been completely and utterly ruined by someone not telling you clearly that if you didn’t go eat the leftovers of your family that you wanted, it’d be passed on to the others.

Oops, that’s not where that was meant to go, but I’m keeping it.

My original point BEING, I have a feeling I don’t JUST have GAD, I wanna get evaluated for Autism and ADHD, but the imposter syndrome (can I even use that here? I’m not autistic so does that mean it’s… rejection or something?) is too much and I’m gonna wimp out of bringing it up to the doctors. I’m fairly certain I have ADHD tho, cause everything I’ve watched I’ve basically agreed with. (And yeah, the internet isn’t good source material, but there are some good people on there.)

Also I'm so worried that I'm just copying people. Like, I didn't used to stim until AFTER I learned about autism and ADHD, so what's to say that I'm not just copy pasting? And that's not genuine and it's probably also rude.

Oh and on the topic of being too sensitive for my own good, let’s talk about how I deal with people scolding me. (Other than my parents.)

I genuine want to cry any time it happens. I had some pretty bad experiences of that kind of thing (maybe like 3-4 years ago?) and they happen to be some of the only clear memories I have of pandemic times cause everything kinda blurs together from that time. The clearest one and the one that affected (is that the right one?) me the most was when some of the neighborhood kids got in trouble for hurting each other from a tree in my sibling’s best friend’s yard. I was a witness, but I wasn’t paying a ton of attention to the situation. The sibling’s best friend’s mom asked me to tell my version of the story, so I did. I tried my best not to twist anything and to make it clear that I wasn’t sure about anything. Without me noticing (cause my back was turned) one of the kids mom’s (the one who had done the potential hurting) came up behind us and started yelling at me for ‘lying for no reason’ and ‘being rude’ and how ‘her kid would never do anything wrong, so if I wanted to go tell lies for fun she would go and tell my parents.’ Y’know, the kind of thing you tell semi-kids.

So from then on, I tend to have to choke back tears when not my parents scold me.

Another time (this week actually) was when I was scolded for acting my age at church. Now, I’m not a CHILD, so I see where the person was coming from. But I was also having fun with my friends. We were joking around, and one of the old people came up and scolded us. I thought I was fine till I got home and then realized that stimming in any way, even in my room, now felt childish and horrible and like I shouldn’t be doing it. (I’ve gotten over this, I’m back to normal. Ish.)

So yeah. I guess I take things too seriously? And it REALLY frustrates me. Like I can’t just let things go, can I? No, cause that’d be EASY.

Also, don’t you just hate it when you feel the urge to stim (hand flapping specifically in this case) but your muscles/wrist is in pain for no explicable reason?

#personal vent #people can be so harsh #but then again maybe I’m being too sensitive #anxiety #generalized anxiety disorder #well… maybe I’m not sensitive maybe I’m just anxious

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nogenderbee · 2 years ago

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Beeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, yk the request I sent in for the lovely obey me boys (I'm a simp😔) could you do that same idea with the PJSK boys at all?? (Witch! reader x the boys (separate)

Omg no worries, I got you bestie ✨ like the one with obey me, it was super fun to write! I'm trying to cut on rambling sooo yeah, I hope you enjoy <3

Akito, Toya, Tsukasa, Rui with witch!reader

TagList: @bleachtheidiot @vodka-glrl @yulikesminori @kuzui5201314 @miya-akane @alicewinterway18

⊱ sorry to break it up to you but Akito would definitely make fun of you for that

⊱ of course his bullying would be different if the two of you are in a closer relationship from the one if you didn't

⊱ like, he's not the one to bully a stranger but he'll give you comments at first when you're friends or lovers since he's sure it's not even working

⊱ but prove him wrong and he'll stop right there, like you don't even have to summon a demon or anything, it's enough if your prediction will be true few times

⊱ seriously tho, you make him interested and scared at the same time

⊱ he'll definitely try to hold you back from ever summoning a demon but beside that, he doesn't mind anything

"As long as you're not summoning anything, it all should be good. So do what you want!"

⊱ if you ever will need any crystals or herbs, he'll still laugh from you for needing such a things but on the next day he'll give you just the ones you needed

⊱ if you need someone to help you practice, he'll refuse for a long time but with enough begging, he'll finally agree

⊱ Toya supported you in that and he really seemed to be interested in it but he never actually believed it...

⊱ he really thought it's just some kind of play but since it made you happy, he decided to go along with it

⊱ since then, he brought you any materials you needed but when you started mentioning rituals, it was too much for him

⊱ don't get him wrong, he wants you to have fun but he also wants you to be safe so there's no way he'd let you to that

⊱ but he thinks other stuff are pretty fun, like he doesn't mind being your assistant with future telling or maybe even making charms at all

⊱ he'll still think that it's just a play, no matter for how long this stays with you, he only starts analyzing it all when one of your predictions happen to be true

⊱ he proceeds to immidietly ask you about that and when he discovers you never were just playing around, he'll apologize for that

"YN... I'm sorry if this comes out as rude but all of those... predictions, rituals and all, they never were just a play, were they?"

⊱ but he's still very helpful, even after discovering it's not just a play, like you just have to name what you need and he'll get you just that

⊱ another one that doesn't believe you at first...

⊱ Tsukasa will think that you're playing but like... acting rather than child's play

⊱ he'll shiver on even slight mention about ghosts, summoning and all that prediction stuff

⊱ but he'll never say no to being your assistant with them, like he helped Rui test his inventions, is there something wor- you want to summon WHAT?!!

"YN, don't be funny! I'm a star, remember? And a star isn't afraid of anythi- AAAAAAAH WHAT IS THIS?!!!!!!!"

⊱ yeah, he'll shiver the most at any ritual and summoning stuff but he'll still help with them if you want him to

⊱ sorry to break it up to you but all the time he acted like he truly believes in all that stuff, he was lying... it was just his acting skills...

⊱ but once he discovers that it's not just a play thanks to seeing it with his own eyes, he'll literally scream

⊱ but don't worry, he'll get used to it in the end and maybe you can't count at him to help you with everything but he'll still try to help you with some things if you could use some help

⊱ finally! Someone who immidietly believes you and is even excited about it!

⊱ yeah, Rui is the type to immiscible believe you even if he hasn't seen this with his own eyes

⊱ sure, maybe at first he's using his acting skills just a tiny little bit but as soon as he sees it's your passion, he's happy as long as you are

⊱ he also suggested you SO MANY inventions he could do that should help you with all your witchcraft, so it's up to you if you accept it or not

⊱ honestly, he'll be happy to help you with anything, mostly to return the favor but also because he's genuinely interested

⊱ he won't mind any ritual although he probably will get slightly scared at first... but isn't adrenaline mimo exciting?

⊱ he also doesn't have problem with getting you any resources if they're along his way or if he even has them at home

"Hmmm... give me a moment... I think I should actually have that... oh, here it is! Is that what you needed? If so you can take it! I don't use it anyway."

⊱ honestly, at this point you might also get him into witchcraft and it'll go surprisingly easy

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madrone33 · 11 months ago

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I'm so glad the PJO show stuck the landing. I've seen a lot of shows lately that have a habit of, uh, not doing that, so I'm really happy I liked the finale episode!

(Also because I watched it with my mum, and she hasn't seen anything but the first two episodes and my rambling recaps, so I'm glad my show didn't disappoint me in front of her lol)

MAJOR SPOILERS for the PJO finale past this point!

There are only two things I can think of that I didn't really like, and that Gabe's- whole thing, basically, soz. I get why they toned him down for the visual format, and I'm not trying to undercut the actual abuse that is still happening, I just personally like Sally turning her piece of shit abusive husband to stone and then selling his statue to get money for a degree lol.

And then also the dropped police plot line is a bit iffy. They probs cut it for time or smth, but it just felt weirdly unresolved. Like, they set it up so well, and then they don't follow through at all, just straight up don't mention it again. Idk, maybe they'll bring it back for the 2nd season? Not sure how that'd work tho. It's a minor issue, but it did feel strange to me.

The rest of it was very well done though, imo!

It starts with Luke saying The Thing but different?? Giving The Last Day of Summer from The Lightning Thief musical vibes fr fr.

The fight with Ares was hella cool, with the awesome wave, and the choreography was pretty well done to my completely inexperienced eye. The ichor looked cool, very handy that it's gold so they can show 'blood' on screen and still keep it PG lol. I was cheering Percy on so hard.

They did the flashbacks so well. Honestly, every episode's done the flashbacks well, but Luke? Oh yeah. As soon as he showed up on screen, helping Percy, preparing him, I knew the end of the episode was gonna hit so hard.

The trio is still amazing. They play off of each other so well, and all their actors are so talented!

The necklace!!

Ok, Percy had zero chill on Olympus. He straight up said his shit to Zeus, knowing he'd probably be killed for it and not giving a single fuck because that was his world and his friends and his mum that were going to be hurt if this stupid war continued, and he was going to make Zeus listen even if it killed him.

And then Poseidon steps in and surrenders and when I tell you I audibly gasped I'm not kidding. Like- The gods don't just back down when they're fighting, that's not how their power dynamic works, how the glory system works, how their pride and respect and status works. I'm probs not explaining it very well 'cause it's like 1:30 am rn, (I really should stop writing these essays at midnight lol) but yeah. Poseidon was giving up a lot. And he didn't care. Because that was his son, and his son was worth more than any glory could give him.

Also, funny side note: after they started speaking what I assume is greek, and then switched back to english, my brain for some reason decided to completely forgot my native language and just- didn't process english anymore. I kid you not, it just registered as sounds without meaning. Completely alien. I sat there without understanding the next four sentences they said until my brain clicked back in and I was like, ohhh, they're speaking english. And then I had to rewind and listen to it again lol.

Zeus smugly saying he'll announce his "swift and crushing victory" and Poseidon rolling his eyes was so sibling energy lol.

... So, does Poseidon yeeting Percy back to camp without answering mean he's too overcome by emotion to say 'yes' or that he's too guilty to admit 'no'?

I like how all the cheering and clapping is muffled out by the music at first, because Percy's still shocked that he's actually alive. It's only when Annabeth hugs him that he fully processes the fact that he's safe.

Gonna be honest, I'd completely forgotten that they thought Clarisse was the Lightning Thief. They did a good job of reminding me though.

Yeah, Luke's betrayal was executed better here than the books imo. First of all, the lighting is immaculate. The past episodes had an issue with night scenes and being super dark, but the fireworks lighting up selective scenes really works.

I like how Percy figures it out first, and almost challenges Luke to deny it. And Luke is- not prepared. He had a plan. He was going to ease into this. And it hurts all the more because Percy is scared and angry and betrayed and Luke never wanted to hurt him.

What's done so well is that you can see how Luke didn't want to fight- and then Percy mentioned Hermes and Luke just snapped. Trigger button. Wrong thing to say. Now, suddenly Percy wasn't the 12 year old kid Luke was trying to save and help, he was just someone who'd said the name of That Man and now Luke was just bitter pain and rage.

Also, Percy accidentally cutting Luke - with a sword that can't even harm him anyway - and immediately apologising, and then Luke only seeing a weakness to exploit and going in for the kill. That hurt.

Ok wait imma copy paste a small ramble I posted earlier to here because it stands true. Here we go:

A bit rambling, a might not make much sense, but had a thought about that scene when Annabeth saves Percy and reveals herself. There's two things that stuck out to me; she didn't let herself show any emotion but anger, and she'd been there the whole time but only interfered just then.

She'd been suspicious enough of something to go against the plan and follow them. She heard Luke confess his betrayal while invisible and alone. She heard his true feelings about the gods, about their parents, and now after everything - after Athena. After Percy - she understood him so much more and so much less at the same time. She'd been locked in shocked grief that froze her, and the only thing that snapped her out of it was seeing Percy beneath the blade of the person they'd both trusted, and the need to protect burnt away the numbness long enough for her to compartmentalise and lock away everything but anger so she could move.

Luke's face though. Oof. All I could think was "She's like a little sister to me." (Don't crucify me if that's not his exact wording, it's almost 2am now, I'm tiiiired.) But yeah, the fact that he probably could've taken them both if he truly wanted, but the moment he saw her and her betrayed, furious face, and then looked down and saw the kid he'd been about to kill- He just ran.

The parting of ways, with the trio at Thalia's tree, bright plans for the future, hugging and smiling and making a pact to come back to each other, no matter what- that was so toothrottingly sweet.

And then the cabin scene? Heartwarming af. The mother and son duo is just. You can feel their desperate relief and love for each other. It's so good.

A bit wary when Kronos showed up, wasn't sure if the whole prior stuff was 'just a dream' but I'm guessing Percy was just remembering how they reunited, and Kronos hijacked his nice memory. That was well done, too. Percy was just so Done with this guy, like c'mon, give the kid a break. And then him waking up with his mum again - like I said; they're so sweet. The fact that this happens often enough for them to have a dedicated book lmao. Also, him calling Kronos grandpa was on point.

It exits out of the window Sally was sitting on! And it's raining!! (Also, another side note, but whenever something exits with a window I just think of The Last of Us episode 3).

Ok so they have to make a second season. It's the law. They gotta.

Hmm. Think that's everything I can think of saying now lol.

(Thank you for everyone who worked hard on this! Even if I don't like some stuff, I know that so many hours of work was poured into this and I appreciate it so much!)

EDIT: OH WAIT I almost forgot Ares completely out of pocket line about Percy's mum, and yeah, no way was he getting out of that now, asshole. Also, the way Percy and Luke's parents are a trigger. The character similarities are similying~

#pjo #percy jackson and the olympians #long post #my posts #reaction #essay #rambles

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sharonisthebettercarter · 1 year ago

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If Homelander was so smart he himself and fans claim him to be, especially believing Supers are superior to average humans, Why Becca a lesser, weaker human? He should be smart enough at the time to realize mere mortals break easily and don't last very long. If he wanted a heir (I mean, he's gonna start liking the idea of having a legacy, a respectable lineage), he would've done it with supe women only, since they don't break that easily and last longer. If he's that impatient and desperate to have a superior offspring, I think it's safe to assume he's gonna start forcing himself on them repeatedly at this point because at least that said heir will ensure he's respected and more perfect than Ryan, since that offspring won't be half mere-mortal and a full-blooded supe. Then again, it's possible he'll be too tired to continue trying regardless, and force Ryan and the supe wife shitlander chooses for him bear him grandchildren, when they're sexually mature.

ew... anon what the fuck. ya really had to go and ask this question, didn't you...

ugh, ick, okay fine, i'll answer it, but what the fuck, and uh... what the fuck

it's because homelander didn't *care* about having an *heir* when he assaulted becca. he didn't even know he *could* have one so that's not why he did it.

on a side note and please for the love of fuck do not actually answer this because i'm only asking so you take a moment to consider what you just proposed

but why do you think a rapist would rape to 'procure an heir' anyhow??? maybe if they're in a relationship with the victim, but if it's a random stranger that gets convicted, it's a 5% chance they succeed and they're not gonna get rights to a kid born from that. pregnancy isn't as much a simple 'one and done' thing or as easy as people seem to think it is to get there. (a healthy couple that is legit trying has a 30% chance to succeed in the first month)

there are a number of reasons rapists will rape.

if we asked homelander specifically why he assaulted becca, his very bullshit answer could be as simple as 'she smelled nice' or 'she was pretty' or 'her husband insulted me' or 'why not' or 'because it was a fucking tuesday'

because even tho the correct answer is 'i'm a fuckhead who wanted to hurt someone', the reality is that in his head, he is a 'god' and he can do whatever the fuck he wants, so if the mood struck him, WHY THE FUCK NOT (ew, hate framing it this way but...)

this is the reality of that situation.

something something about that quote that ends with 'but for me it was tuesday', occam's razor.

homelander didn't give enough shits to put any thought into what he did nor did he think it would amount to anything, so boredom is your best bet for an explanation there

and this also has next to nothing to do with intelligence, this would be a matter of his own self perception (due to upbringing) and lack of understanding/care for consent (which is an educational issue), but thanks for the whole... eugenics rationale i guess??? (ew why and still what the fuck)

homelander has also stated that he wouldn't force himself on his own kind, more specifically, his exact words to maeve are:

"i respect what you are even if you don't, i would never force myself on you."

before he proceeds to tell her that he will harvest her eggs, so the whole eugenics mindset is there, but only *after* he learns that he *can* in fact have kids (see s1 ep7, the perceived sterility is briefly mentioned in his conversation with vogelbaum)

otherwise, and as gross as this is, i would say that homelander probably has the same if not similar mindset that zeus (greek god) would have... which is not great, but probably the most realistic outlook on this shit.

but again.

WHY?????

#rape #tw sa #homelander #becca butcher #ew #gross #anon why #zeus #eugenics #apparently #occam's razor #can we please not #like why is this even a question #you literally asked me 'if he's so smart then why didn't he think to do this really weird statistically unlikely messed up thing i came up'#ANON.#WHY????

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frederickkatz · 27 days ago

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Texts: Sparky (Cameron) & Freddie

@cameronslaw

Freddie: Hey Sparky

Freddie: feeling better? More focused now?

Cam: hi

Cam: yeah I guess?

Cam: still don't get why that was bad, I was feeling pretty nice yesterday ._.

Cam: you don't need to worry tho, I'm back to my asshole self according to Alise 😛

Cam: how are you?

Freddie: Good. I'm glad to hear that

Freddie: cause you were high as kite. You weren't your normal self, and it freaked out your brother to the point he called me so that's not a good thing in my book

Freddie: besides, you always say you have a reputation to keep and I'm pretty sure that doesn't include you being submissive in public

Freddie: Poor Alise. We freaked her out too when we told her you had food reaction so I could take you back to your place

Freddie: be nice to her, she was worried even if she had no idea

Freddie: I'm ok. Kinda upset with myself but that's to be expected

Cam: wait, is that why you came over to pick me up?

Cam: bc Dev called you????

Cam: ...fair point

Cam: I'll be nice

Cam: I'm sorry, I'm the one who clung to that high

Cam: I didn't think it'd be so bad

Cam: or noticeable

Cam: please don't be upset with yourself 🫂 I had such an awesome time at your place, I'd be devastated if it was tainted in your mind

Freddie: Yes. Devon sounded very worried and it made me worry something had happened

Freddie: but when I saw you I knew exactly what it was and obviously I didn't tell your brother, I only assured him I hadn't drugged you and that it was a normal reaction

Freddie: Good. Thanks

Freddie: it's ok. I understand why you did it. I'd rather you not to when you're supposed to go back to your normal days

Freddie: We're gonna have to be careful with how high we let you float. Maybe we should sleep the way we did last time, I think maybe that was part of why you were still feeling so floaty

Freddie: Cam, when you submit to me, it's my responsibility to keep you safe and bring you back completely and this is the second time I have failed it. Of course I'm upset

Freddie: Don't worry, I'm not regretting anything we did or feel bad about any of it. It's just the fact that I missed the signs again and that puts you at risk and I want you to be safe

Cam: oh! that's why he was so convinced I had been bitten by a vamp! I thought it was just bc of the bite mark on my shoulder

Cam: thanks for not telling him tho

Cam: ...but I really liked sleeping like that ): once the torture part went away, it was absurdly cozy

Cam: I'm really sorry, I didn't think it'd be dangerous or anything, I just

Cam: I guess I just wanted it to last a little longer

Cam: but I won't hold onto it anymore, if I'm not supposed to, when I'm alone

Cam: I understand 🫂

Freddie: yeah. it was a similar reaction or at least the one he knows from Adam. I'm hoping he didn't see your shoulder

Freddie: nothing to thank me for. I'm aware it's not something you want anyone to know

Freddie: other than Trevor I suppose

Freddie: I did too but it's not something we can do that often. At least not when you have to go back to your normal day the next morning

Freddie: it's dangerous cause if someone else knows and notices, they can try to take advantage of you, and I'd never want that

Freddie: I know, but I trust next time you feel needy to want to stay floating you'll tell me, and we'll figure it out ok?

Freddie: thanks

Freddie: did you have lunch already?

Cam: I can't say I remember if he did, but why would it be bad if he had? I mean, it's just a bite, not something like my collar

Cam: yeah lol have I told you Trev asked me about it? like, logistics and all, seemed possibly kinda into it o.o

Cam: ...we should take some vacation time then, to have a hide away like that (:

Cam: oh

Cam: that makes sense

Cam: it was actually kinda hard to say no to people that morning, now that you mention it 🤔

Cam: I will 🫂 and I'm sorry

Cam: I haven't yet, no, why?

Freddie: I don't know. I just didn't think it was something you'd want him to know about

Freddie: you really liked the collar, didn't you?

Freddie: really? did you give him any details?

Freddie: that sounds great... there would be a strict no clothes rule tho

Freddie: yeah, that's exactly why cause it's hard to focus and you're easily convinced of things, you're not completely aware to consent anything. That's why I always tell you what we'll do and explain everything before you're floating, so you're fully conscious and that's why you have safe words

Freddie: it's ok baby

Freddie: you need to eat something and keep drinking water. That'll help you focus better

Cam: I'd rather he doesn't know about the power dynamic part, but I'd never hide your marks on me

Cam: I did (:

Cam: I was a bit vague, but yeah, I hope that's ok? He was very curious about it, he just never trusted someone enough to try it out

Cam: obviously, my bag would be packed with just protein bars and lube lol

Cam: that makes A LOT of sense

Cam: I know you don't believe it much rn, but you really are wonderful at taking care of me, did I ever tell you that?

[five minutes later]

[screen shot of an Ifood order of a beef shawarma, followed by a close up picture of a plastic cup with water]

Cam: on it!

Freddie: well for me it's part of it that's why I thought you didn't want him to see the marks either

Freddie: good. I'm glad cause it was custom made just for you

Freddie: it's ok. He's smart not to try it with someone he didn't trust enough. it can get dangerous, and some people abuse of the power dynamic

Freddie: just lube. I'll make sure to feed you

Freddie: I know I'm not good at explaining myself most of the time but I'm glad you see why I do the things the way I do

Freddie: thanks baby, I'm glad you think so

Freddie: Good boy! I'm glad you're eating some protein, it'll help with the sore arms

Cam: omg was it really?? now it feels even more special

Cam: I'd imagine so. So it was just you know, harmless curiosity I think

Cam: lmao alright then just a gym bag full of lube

Cam: you're getting better at that lately 😛 but yes, I do (most of the time)

Cam: (:

Cam: oh LEMME TELL YOU ABOUT SORE

Cam: as long as I'm with you, I'm never hitting the gym AGAIN

Cam: Jesus Christ on a unicycle, every muscle in my body feels like I've gone through a massive work out

Cam: AND I JUST STAYED STILL FREDDIE

Freddie: it is special. I've never given anyone a collar before

Freddie: I don't think it's so harmless... have you asked him what role he feels more attracted to?

Freddie: lmao sounds extreme but it will do

Freddie: good, I' glad about that

Freddie: whoever said staying still requires no effort has clearly never done it

Freddie: but it's a good sore? one you'd like to feel again?

Freddie: what about your ass? is it sore too?

Cam: really? wow

Cam: well, I've never received one before either, so 😊

Cam: oh, Trevor is on my side of the spectrum, don't worry lol he's not stealing me from you anytime soon

Cam: definitely, I'm gonna get very defined muscles just by behaving, wait and see lol

Cam: yes, it's a sore like when you have a bruise, you know? a good sore

Cam: my ass is a bit more delicate lol but it's good, it just aches a bit depending on what I do

Cam: but thankfully my office chair is very comfortable lol

Cam: did your neck heal?

Freddie: see? then it is special

Freddie: I kinda figured but I didn't want to assume

Freddie: He's probably more submissive than you

Freddie: not like you need it, you are perfectly defined already

Freddie: good

Freddie: sorry, maybe we should have gotten longer breaks

Freddie: good. I'm glad it is comfortable

Freddie: it did. It was already healed yesterday but you didn't notice

Cam: as if I'd have been collared before, when I told you I've never done something like this before you lmao

Cam: I'd think so, at least with me he is, but I don't want to assume you know?

Cam: pfff no need to compliment my looks handsome, you've already got me in your bed 😛

Cam: I don't think it has so much to do with breaks, it's more like I'm not used to be in that position 🤔 but my body will get used to it in no time!

Cam: if we keep having those kinds of sessions, I mean

Cam: oh that's good, I didn't mean to hurt you

Freddie: Well I know you haven't that's why I figured it should be perfect and unique just for you

Freddie: really? well that's interesting

Freddie: I'm not. I'm just stating facts

Freddie: we'll try different positions next time

Freddie: did you like the bondage bar?

Freddie: we will if you want us to

Freddie: it's ok, you didn't hurt me. It feels good

Cam: I loved it :3 tho I was sad I had to take it off .-.

Cam: ...why interesting?

Cam: in that case, thanks :3

Cam: was that the thing on the ceiling? it was really different, I think, to be hanging o.o but a fun different

Cam: I think it made me feel a lot more vulnerable than usual, and that's saying a lot

Cam: of course I want to, have you not been listening this whole time? lmao

Freddie: maybe if you're good you'll earn one that you can wear under your clothes, tho you'd have to talk about it with Trevor first cause those can be taken out of contexts as a sign of property

Freddie: cause I'm having a hard time see you dominating him

Freddie: 😉

Freddie: yeap! I remember you said you didn't want to be hanging upside down but there are many way to be hanging up 😏

Freddie: was it a bad feeling? were you uncomfortable or scared at any time?

Freddie: no, I am, just making sure

Freddie: we did say we wouldn't be assuming things

Cam: wait are you serious????

Cam: Cam: lmao oh no not like that! it's just that

Cam: when it's me and Trevor, usually I’m the one in charge

Cam: and he relishes giving up control to me in bed, and I like to make him lose it, so I don't have a problem taking that control, even if now I know it's not my nature with you, idk if that makes sense?

Cam: but it's nothing kinky or proper with safewords or anything, just us both having fun

Cam: not at all! I thought I’d be more scared of it, tbh, being bound like that but turns out I really trust you

Cam: like actually, really really trust you

Cam: so I wasn't scared at all, just vulnerable

Cam: but I knew you'd have my back no matter what happened, so it was really nice

Cam: really intimate

Cam: and for the sake of not assuming things, lemme type it out so you can print screen it and check it whenever you doubt it:

Cam: our last session was my favorite so far, I wouldn't change a thing about it (even if I complain about being sore or tired, I still liked being sore and tired for you)

Freddie: I am but you'd have to earn it. That's not one that is given just because. And you need to clear it out with Trevor first

Freddie: interesting... it sounds like something I'd like to see

Freddie: it doesn't have to be kinky. Our very first session was not kinky at all. It's all just about the trust and control

Freddie: good. That's a really good thing. I'm glad you know in the end I'm really taking care of you

Freddie: that's good to hear. It was my favorite so far too

Cam: I’ll be extra good then!!

Cam: wait, back up a moment, you'd like to see it? like, me and Trevor or...?

Cam: true true, god, that sounds like it was ages ago

Cam: you're always taking care of me, I know that (:

Cam: was it what you expected it'd be?

Freddie: Good. We'll see then 😏

Freddie: yeap. I'd like to see you taking charge with someone more submissive than you

Freddie: but it's just a comment. It's not like it's an option

Freddie: for me it feels like it was just yesterday. I have a very vivid memory

Freddie: good

Freddie: it overpassed my expectations

Cam: I mean

Cam: it might be an option

Cam: if you would actually want it to be

Cam: well, you've lived for ages, so it makes sense that a few months ago feels like the other day for you

Cam: it feels like a long time ago for me bc I feel like I’m not the same person I was that day

Cam: bc I’ve discovered so many things about myself since then

Cam: oh really? how so?

Freddie: are you saying that just because you have an exhibitionism strike? Cause I think it's something you'd have to talk with Trevor first

Freddie: yeah that actually happens. sometimes time get blurred together

Freddie: good things I hope

Freddie: are you fishing for compliments now?

Freddie: you were fantastic. You gave in so perfectly and so naturally that every single second of it was pleasure

Cam: of course I’d have to talk to Trevor first lol, but I have the feeling he's still curious about it all, so if it's something you're interested and he also is, it could be an option

Cam: if you'd like it to be an option

Cam: the best things (:

Cam: I’m actually really not fishing for compliments, I just

Cam: idk I wanted to know if you felt what I did, I guess

Cam: thank you tho (: for the compliments

Freddie: Good. Just mention it to him. I have the feeling he has that exhibitionism strike too

Freddie: or maybe he's a Voyeurs and he'd like to watch

Freddie: and I'd be ok with that too

Freddie: good! I'm glad

Freddie: I know, I was teasing you

Freddie: well it doesn't feel the same, but it was probably just as pleasurable for me as it was for you if not more

Freddie: you're welcome baby boy

Cam: fuck ok I need to ask this in the most straight-forward way possible so we're clear

Cam: there's a difference between being ok and wanting something

Cam: would that be something you'd want to do, or something you'd be ok doing, Freddie? Like, getting Trevor involved in something like this

Cam: considering it's something he'd like to do, as well, I mean

Cam: you're mean!!! you know how I get with those kinds of compliments!!!

Cam: "if not more"!?

Freddie: I can't say that I want your partner in any way but if it's something YOU want and you'd like and it would make you happy, I'd be very much ok with it

Freddie: is it something you'd like?

Freddie: I'm not being mean! I was honest

Freddie: well I enjoyed it immensely and it really surpassed my expectations by far

Cam: when you put it like this, it sounds like something crazy I’m offering

Cam: I think so? I mean, it's embarrassing, but we've been over how I might have a slightly exhibitionist thingy going on

Cam: if the subject comes up, I’ll talk to him about it and see what he thinks

Cam: thanks for always being so accommodating to me

Cam: no no I meant like

Cam: if it was more pleasurable to you than it was to me, I’m pretty sure you'd be dead, Freddie lol

Freddie: it's not crazy. It's something some couples do. It's not new to me but it might be for you or him

Freddie: ok. It's totally up to you Cam

Freddie: nothing to thank me for

Freddie: well I am immortal so 😏

Cam: have you done it before? in a Ds setting, this kind of thing with someone watching?

Cam: EXACTLY

Cam: that's how much you made me feel good, you'd be DEAD FREDDIE

Freddie: not on a Ds context, no but I've been part threesomes and origies

Freddie: lol good thing you'll never have to worry about it

Cam: what am I asking, you're basically the god of horniness, of course you've been to orgies lmao

Cam: true, my Freddie is the most unbreakable of Freddies (:

Freddie: Origies we're very common back in the day

Freddie: 😆 that's probably true

Cam: see? I'm right all around today

Cam: done!

Cam: [picture of shawarma wrappers and an empty plastic cup]

Cam: now, sadly, I need to go back to work 💔

Cam: ttyl?

Freddie: definitely sharper today

Freddie: good boy! I'm glad you're fed and focused

Freddie: it's ok. I'll have to go to work too. I'm gonna be out of town the rest of the week btw

Freddie: but I'll text you when I get back ok?

Freddie: you can text me, but time zone might make it a bit complicated, but I'll reply

Freddie: be good!

Cam: oh ok!

Cam: I'll keep that in mind, thanks for letting me know

Cam: I hope you have fun on your trip, even if it's work 😛

Cam: I'll be waiting to hear all about it when you're back 🫂

Cam: please take care tho?

Freddie: anytime

Freddie: working with Warren isn't fun but thanks

Freddie: it'll be boring, but I'll try

Freddie: I always do

Freddie: take care too

#texts: cameron

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fizzywashere87 · 8 months ago

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It Was Fun While it Lasted Pt.2

notes: telhas teez. Warnings!: Breakups, crying, physical pain, angst. Also this isn't an x reader

Pt.1 | M.List

A few days after Valentines day, she gets a text from her friend (MS). Her and (MS) don't text a whole lot, so it was probably something important.

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(MS): @^@ - (Her): heyy wsp? - (MS): yk @D@(\/) E1$@^3D likes u. - (Her): uhm tf i barely talk to him? (Her): how do yk? - (MS): everyone is saying bro - (Her): oh damn _

(MS): ik (MS): @^@ u can't like him - (Her): why? - (MS): he's weird (MS): we used to like each other a while ago - (Her): OMG FR?? - (MS): ya (MS): i'm not telling u not to like him bc i used to like him (MS): but once he's done with you he talks sooo much shit - (Her): i won't i promise - (MS): he's ugly and fat i promise (MS): wallah u can do sm better tho (MS): ur so cute - (Her): tyyy <3 i won't like him dw

The conversation went something like that. She doesn't remember exactly, but this was what she took away from the conversation.

It's probably been a few weeks now, she only can remember certain bits and pieces now, but we can skip, for her sake, to when something had actually happened. Something probably slightly worth mentioning.

She's in math class, bored, not listening to anything the teacher was saying. (AS) grabs her attention, causing her to turn her head to look at the boy seated beside her.

"Do you like him?"

She shakes her head 'no' causing him to tut lightly.

"He's a cutie, you should like him."

Finally, after having enough, she still decides to play dumb for a bit until she has more information. Though, it's more than safe to ask one question. "Why do you keep asking me about him?" A small smile that probably meant 'oh shit' came across his face as she asked him. Fighting her own smile so she could play dumb until he answered. He just shrugs and she decides to force it out of him. "He likes me, doesn't he?" Another wider smile on his face. Yep. That explains why he added her on Snapchat.

"Bro, why don't you like him?" He asks in a 'come on' type of tone. She didn't have a huge reason for not liking him. He was cute, she wanted to give him a chance. Though she was facing a lot of internal conflict. She's not even allowed to date, would she be willing to break rules for a boy she barely knew?

"I don't even know him," She answered honestly, she's not the type to just like anyone, and her gut feeling was telling her not to do it.

"Then get to know him!!" (AS) replied, all but throwing his hands on the desk.

"Okay, bro." She shrugged turning back to her math book as if she was going to write anything in it, still unsure. Though she really wanted to despite the feeling in her gut, which was against this idea almost entirely. She's made the decision to go against that.

The rest of the day, she had a plan in mind, she was going to smile and wave at him tomorrow. Yeah. She can afford friendly flirting, and if it doesn't go right, she can easily mask it as something else she'll come up with on the spot.

Basketball practice went normally, they ran through drills they were going to go through in the game which was after school tomorrow. The coach wasn't there but that was okay, (AM), the assistant coach was there and would be there for the game the next day. Two hours, and it was 5:30, meaning they could go to the locker rooms, change, and go home. And the team did just that.

She was a bit more excited to go to sleep that night, knowing that the next day would be intriguing. Before she fell asleep, she planned how she was going to execute this, most likely would be in her second hour class because that's the first class she has with him.

The next day, she couldn't wait to get out of first hour, and get right to second hour. As she was let out of her ELA classroom, she went straight to her locker to grab her Arabic binder before making her trip all the way to the hallway her Arabic class was in.

When she arrived in the classroom, she set her stuff down and looked to see his stuff was on his desk and she left the room for the little amount of passing time she had left.

Coming back to the classroom, she started on her bellwork as did everyone else who walked in. Including him. The rest of that time, she was looking for an opportunity to at least make eye contact with him. This wasn't natural honestly. If anyone knew she had planned all this she probably would've left the country.

During their work time on an assignment, her teacher comes up to her, a poster in hand, and asks if she can borrow her chair for a second. Confused, though she has an idea of what she may need it for, she nods and gets up, getting a 'thank you habibti' in thanks.

WAIT!

This is perfect!!!

Her plan!!

He has to be looking right now! She's practically standing in front of his desk!

She quickly builds up the courage to look at him, knowing he's staring right now, she looks at him.

As she looks at him, they lock eyes. He doesn't smile, until she gives him a bright smile and waves at him with her hand by her hip. Her heart speeds up instantly and her face heats up as he smiles and waves back.

She didn't plan for that.

As she goes back to her seat, she focuses on her steps so she doesn't trip on accident. Sitting down, and presuming her work, her mind begins to wander the slightest bit. Why can't she stop smiling? What the hell? There's no way somebody could ever catch feelings that quickly right? God, this is gonna hurt so bad when it's over and I'm gonna be the idiot for letting it happen- But the way he smiled at her- it was more than possible at this point.

The rest of the class, she would occasionally look back at him, a few times he would look at her and give her that same smile causing her to smile again and look away involuntary. She went to her next class a lot happier than she started, excited for fourth hour, where she would see him again. She leaves her third hour and goes to lunch, choosing to stay quiet, once again, about what happened.

If she was being honest, she was slightly in denial about liking him, I mean, she was just being friendly, right? Friendly to a cute boy who definitely likes her. But, he likes her back, she's going to want to date him, people are going to be talking about it, and she's not sure if she wants that yet. Plus, (MS) said he's no good, but maybe he'll be different?

She's in her fourth hour now, 'starting' her bellwork, giving him a few glances though not getting that same eye contact. (That was okay, class had just started). A few minutes pass by, before (AS) speaks up, "You said 'hi' to him?" That prompted the smile on her face, that she quickly wiped off. Damn, he already told his friends, about a smile?

"Yeah?" She answers, playing the 'confused as to why he would be asking card' taking a small glance at him quicker than (AS) could catch.

"Do you like him?"

She did not want to answer that question.

"I don't know." Faking a stroke was probably the better plan.

"Why not bro." (AS) sighs, "You should like him."

She sighed. "I don't know bro." For someone who didn't know, she seemed to know she was going to tell him to come to her basketball game. Real smooth.

The rest of class he didn't really look at her, which was understandable, some of his friends were in that class, (AS) and (AA) were one of those friends. She let class go on, giggling when (MA) said something to get herself sent out in the hallway, giggling when (AS), (HB), and (AA) argued with the teacher over stupid things. Though she was really waiting for after class so she could catch him and follow through with her second genius plan.

After class, she took her time packing her stuff, stalling for him, she took her time because he was talking to the teacher. However when she seen he was finished, finally, she took a small breath, her heart racing, she walked up to him.

"@D@(\/)," She spoke up, causing him to look up at her and smile which pushed one across her own face.

"Yeah?" He answered, waiting to hear what she had to say. This was it, this was it, this was IT! Don't stutter please.

"Are you coming to the game later?" She asked leaving room for herself to read his response, her heart was still racing.

"Maybe," He shrugged, smiling a bit more. She liked how much he smiled, she liked it a lot.

"Come." She let her smile turn into a smirk as he nodded, she had so much fucking rizz!! Let's fucking go!!! We're locked in! She better drop AT LEAST twelve today!

"Alright." He smiled and she grinned and waved at him before walking away. She ran to (YC)'s locker where she was getting her stuff for her fifth hour, and she rapidly tapped her friend on the shoulder,

"I told him to come to my game!!" She hops in place excitedly, smiling as (YC) looked at her in shock.

"For real?! Say wallah." (YC) said, smiling a bit.

"Wallah!!" She grinned excitedly as she hugged (YC) and ran to her own locker to grab her stuff for her fifth hour.

She went to her fifth hour a lot happier than she was before. As she dropped her stuff on her desk and walked out, she seen him in a crowd of boys, and (HZ) and (ME) went up to her,

"You told 31$@^3D to come to your game?" (ME) asked, smiling a bit as her cheeks heated up.

"No," She shrugged contradicting her verbal answer, obviously she did and they knew. Fake a stroke, it probably would work right about now, he obviously told them, dumbass. She made eye contact with him and flashed him a small smile.

Her fifth hour wasn't much better, (HZ) wouldn't keep his mouth shut and now (AB) knew about it, and (MD) tried to force it out of her friend. She decided say she didn't know if she liked him yet. She obviously didn't want to say no, then his friends would tell him that and it would give her a headache, and she didn't exactly want everyone to go around talking about her. If that information got back home, she'd be in a lot of trouble, not for liking another, but for dating at her young age.

Whilst thinking of excuses she could give her mom if this got back home, she couldn't help but think about how her basketball game might go, especially since he would be coming to watch her play.

This is prolly gonna hurt a lot when it's over.

#fizzytried #fizzyshatitout #type shit #based on real life events #kinda shit but i gotta finish it now #love story #angst #break up

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blindecho6 · 11 months ago

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Historian who travels around the world and records the events that are happening. Also a writer.

Different coloring version under the cut (and lore as always) :d

I couldn't decide between this and the above colors, so I had a friend choose for me. I like this one too, so I wanted to share even tho it's not shaded :d

Now for lore:

Human that got the ability to live very long (in short. long version in different paragraph). She was always fascinated by the history of the world she decided the best way to archive it is to travel around the world and exirience it first hand. Wrote many books about history going into much details of the events she was a part of she's considered the authority when it comes to past events. Basically if you have history on any level in school you ar sure to have either a book writen or co-athored by her. She likes to collect different pisn, but keeps most of them in her bag (wears only a few at a time, since she doesn't want to loose them). Originally form the same neighbouring country as "hole in the neck/abusive father" girl (I really need to start giving my oc's proper names :|) from this post, but knows most of the languages used across the world and she visited most of the countries there too.

I'm losing the words as I'm typing it (probably due to the late hour being 2am), so it might be a bit wonky in explanation, but I'll do my best.

Her ability is basically "You will stop aging at X years old, but you are still a mortal so anything else can still kill you". This ability was "distributed" to every person who awakend their powers in a specific timeframe, which was just few minutes. Due to this "system error" a large amout of people got this specific ability, just with different X values. She was one of the lucky ones and her X value was 28, but there were people with this value anywhere in between 7 and ~500 years. She always respond's that that's her age, but knows very well they are asking about how long she lived. She keeps that information a secret, which isnt't much of a secret but if you can't be bothered to a bit of a research she can't be bothered to answear you.

She had to learn basic fighting skill (some people didn't liked how truthful her recollections were), but avoids conflict whenever possible. At some point most people stopped bothering with that and accepted that she will write and publish the truth thet she saw. At the begginign she had to derss like/pretend to be a man to publish her books (because "women know nothing abouth history") and kept doing it later for consistency (like, she kept publishing under male name, not dressing. She hated pretending to be a man). She became some kind of an icon for a part of a trans community because of this whole "pretending to be a man" stuff. She never was nor considers herself to be trans, but if that helps people she doesn't mind being idolized that way.

She's also a writer like I mentioned. She writes books of any genre (whatever is on her mind at any given point) and publishes them under her real name. She always carried 4 notebooks with her. One for actual history stuff, one for her books, one as a diary and the last just for regular notes. Whenever a notebook is filled she replaces it with a new one.

She publishes all her book through one and the same company over all the years and have a contract with them, where they will publish her diaries too, but only after her death, so they keep them stored somwhere safe for later).

The archivist deleth harpy (I don't think I have a lore post about her, but I def posted her design before. I should probably make a lore post about her too...) has one whole floor in her library dedicated to all the books published by her and whenever they meet, she complains about the ungodly amount of books she wrote and that soon she wouldn't have a place to keep them (she always will, since she can easly just make the floor bigger). The harpy actually really likes her books and is very happy that she has someone who does some part of collecting "history" for her.

She's not interested in any romantic relationships with anyone (still likes romantic gestures tho), but doesn't mind to fuck with other women >:)

PS. I didn't forget to color her bag. I didn't color it on purpose. I just couldn't be bothered xd

#really long lore post #but it's hidden behind read more so click it with caution #oc #gamborgia universum #my art #my post

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castle-dominion · 2 years ago

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c3x24 knockout. Wasn't the last episode in this storyline knockout too? No, knockdown.

Plot heavy episode, after all, it is the finale.

RC: Hey, guys, I could use a hand. *Esposito & Ryan applaud* Ryan wearing a sweater again. Weekly is v often. their faces drop when they mention him

The ring <3 Lol the "special" & the "usual" & the excellent choice madame. I love it. An hour ago today? Why they all cheering? Oh bc he's the cop. "He" was going to get around to me Ugh he gives him a minute & lays down politely, like this is honestly so respectful of a murder. He's have more blood probably. I remember looking like that. I am now remembering that. You know, for weeks, possibly even a month or several months I could smell blood. The first day, even the first week bc i was still healing, I thought that the smell of blood was just there for real. The bathroom must have smelled like metal; iron & copper; idk how my family didn't notice anything. Maybe it was all in my head now that I think about it. Then later I realized that it was just a hallucination. Sometimes I'd get a whiff of blood & it would remind me of that night, other times I would remember it & suddenly I could smell it. Again, in the earlier days I thought that maybe the smell was real & I just didn't notice it until I thought about it. Figuring out I was getting hallucinations shocked me. Did I just give myself ptsd? I wish I had a photo. I considered it but my phone was in the other room & I wasn't going to go get it. All that blood. Looking back, even tho I'm (sort of) clean now, I want that photo. I wanted a reference for murder scenes in my writing or in drawing, I wanted to see the progress of what I had done, now that I can't remember it as well I want to know what it really looked like & how far I actually got. I used to get nauseous every time I thought about it, even though I was fine with gore. Now all I have is the scar. You know, I used to make jokes when picking raspberries or cutting beets, I said it looked like a murder scene. During this time I realized how wrong I was. Anyway I wrote a fictional story basically transcribing my experiences, just so I'd have a record of it if my memory faded, it was already getting muddy when I wrote it. Now reading it I can barely see it. I remember it though. I remember it. At least I don't get blood olfactory hallucinations anymore. Back to the episode!

Wow it's been four months? Yeah he has an employer. idek who that employer is. Wait if she was 16 & it's been 12 years then she's only 28... alexis is 17 & if he had her at minimum 18 that would be 35 minimum. Well that fits the half plus seven rule. She's 28? 21x2=42 which sounds just as accurate for castle tbh. Yeah cool. Tho tbh the half plus seven rule does fall apart the more you age since people's brains still go thru development phases even tho the most & biggest were from ages -1 to 25.

He technically isn't hal lockwood hence why they called him john doe. OH NO FLASHBANGS. Those things are not good. Even the guys breaking him out would have been affected, even if they covered their ears & closed their eyes. (You only have two hands, two would have to be for your ears & so all you can do is close ur eyes & even so it is bright & loud & there is a physical boom. She asks "where" but how does the lady know what she means? Where is it safe? Where did they go? Where are you hurt? Poor helicopter guy. was he piloting?

Just like, check ur inbox? Can't be real names, must be code. That's why espt made that face! Just like my Mumma! She has her emergency radio license or smth like that. She's the one who taught me the nato phoenetic alphabet. Having seen this. His face when the third cop is mentioned. they were just talking abt street justice cops & monty is saying they should take him out rn rn.

JE: He says he wouldn’t have even known anybody had used it if it weren’t for the bullet holes. XD Does she know or is she speculating? No ofc she is not, but she is ok enough & ok enough to work.

Jim Beckett! & This will be the scene from the deleted scenes in the previous episode. You're so right Mr Beckett. Her life is def worth more than her mom's death. I love Jim sm. Here is his quote btw: What happens when she finds him? I’ve already lost my wife over this. I’ve already lost – (he stops) No, look. It took me years, but I’ve made my peace with that. But Katie? She won’t listen to me. And she won’t back down. Not unless someone can convince her that her life is worth more than her mother’s death.

& wow both her parents are lawyers, she was even considering becoming a lawyer. No wonder she's so pretty & educated.

Didn't sleep at all or slept a little bit? No, not Ryker!

He gon be dead. Yep he dead.

That's why the wound is so bad, GSWs are so much worse in the exit wound Death fist 4 poster (btw I like how ryan takes off his tie & stuff when he wears his vest, unbuttons a bit)

See? If u treat someone with respect then they respect u too. Aw that's actually kinda sweet. Crushing on Beckett.

Ok our theory is currently that the third cop is the employer, the one holding lockwood's leash Ok that's valid you've been angry over johanna's death for twelve years but also ryan was frickin tortured by this guy I think he wants him around as much as u do, esp since he's also mad on your behalf (tho ig she could also be mad on his behalf then...)

I like ryan's elbow patches. (Suit tie & jeans) What was that little look from ryan? Keep in mind I've seen this before, when I say this: {RM is encouraging them to find the third cop, claiming that the 3c must have the money to hire dick coonan to clean up the mess} Yeah they've been here all day & between the four of them a six pack isn't too much. It's late. They deserve it. JE walking in with a case of beer behind his back: Sir. Uh, I know we're still officially on duty, but RM: Authorized KR: Sláinte (health in Gaeilge; pronounced slAn-chuh)* RC: Nice work. Ooh, those are cold. These are really cold. KR : Yeah, we keep them in evidence, refrigerated storage. (they just keep booze in refrigerated evidence storage??) RC: Isn't that where you keep the-- JE: Don't worry about it. RC: (*Irish Gaelic is pronounced (in English) 'gay-lik'. The (Scottish) Gaelic name for (Scottish) Gaelic is Gàidhlig, pronounced 'gaa-lik', not to be confused with the Irish (Gaelic) name for Irish (Gaelic), which is written Gaeilge and pronounced 'gail-gyuh'.) (clipping)

Beer: *casually reveals smth* Calls him a dirtbag SOB, {like my dude, y r u sending em out to find that info?} ((We get to see the meeting in a future season!)) Love. Everyone knows they love each other.

That rubber tree plant The kiss was for a disguise & frozen in each other's arms was for wamrth & bc friends can do that too! She's right tho, it IS her life. (just like the s8 premier) It is the end of s3 so it has been 3 years now? (maybe 2.5 bc the first season was short?) You deserve to be happy, but in that tone? Ooh How over? He is not going to abandon you.

Man's angry! Martha <3 <3 I can see how he might feel it is his fault even tho he's not the one trying to kill everyone. He drug it back up. (could clip but I won't)

I love when she calls him by his first name, it is so intense & personal, he is her second dad. He supports her so much so well. He really is good for her, helping her laugh, bringing in outside ideas... Hug her. acab lol But seriously hug her. You are her dad.

Old guys, probably retired they say. Miami! Wow ryan's cheekbones in this lighting... KR says he DOESN'T believe a "badge" is behind this. (Metonymy) {keep this detail in mind} (But then ryan is the first to crack abt you know who)

Oh no he's the third cop isn't he? {yeah he is} lol order off the menu (so roy made a deal with The Big Bad Guy to protect beckett) He would SO be found out B'y god's got nothing to do with this

What about the son? The way u hold someone intimately lets you put a thumb over their lips & kiss them That's an old timey gun. I like it. Another old timey gun.

Wow it's already been all day! Nothing eventful happened all day... At least miami dade got back to them this evening. Going out w/o telling her? I mean ok.

Big sad.

Bro's still wearing an nypd sweatshirt? Tight is a good word. Some rookie? Young enough to not be retired yet Could he have maybe misremembered the name if there were 40 others he needed to know the names of too & it's been 10 years? Montague maybe? He looks so baby *gulp* Rips up the photo, tbh that's rude

[JE is walking out into the alley] KR Hey! You know it's him. (He looks like he's about to cry.) Montgomery's our third cop. He's the one who altered those records. JE How can you even say that? How can you even think that?! Montgomery brought us on to Homicide! What do we got? A picture!?! KR (whispered/strained) Think about it. (Nromal but strained) Why else did he want us to take Lockwood out? Because Lockwood leads us to him! (Hun he told u to go after the third cop.) He's been lying to us. (Espt also looks like he might cry.) He's been lying to us the whole time. [JE shakes his head, mouthing what I think is "I'm out" & turns around to start walking away.] KR Hey! [Ryan grabs Espt's shoulder] JE Get off me! [Espt punches Ryan & turns around again. They fight. KR grabs him from the back & pushes him into the wall/truck/whatever that thing is. Espt pushes around & gets Ryan pinned to the truck with his hands on his shirt. & not in a sexy way. JE is yelling, holding KR's face & has his fist next to his head.] KR Go ahead! Go ahead! [JE throws Ryan's head to the side as he lets him go. They both lean against the wall, breathing heavily. They both look emotionally ruined.] KR Beckett.

AAAAAAGHHDSKJFSDHJ THIS IS MAKING ME INSANE & then they just don't talk about it.

Please don't let him be the one to kill her Girl set ur phone to vibrate, u'r a cop, this stuff can be dangerous. Why cock the gun? You can't put your family thru going to jail but this happens? (So babe you uh, don't they have ballistics for all nypd guns? when they pull the slug?)

A second chance <3 Who is the "he" They might have come even if Beckett didn't show up, as long as he said he got her there. Then again, they were probs watching. He is her dad so much Good on him to bring in Castle (of all people, he brought castle, even after kicking castle out) Oof this is where I stand They probs saw three figures there & probs even know he means to kill them. Castle is great he just picked her up like that! She was flailing & kicking & he just did what the captain said! Beauty!

(so lockwood has a bunch of people here too? Lockwood is not The Only One y'all) So there are four ppl there. Didn't they kill the two guys with Lockwood during the previous relevant episode? KB & RC came in to save JE & KR & they ended up shooting two of lockwood's people? Now lockwood has four more. Shoot from the hip... RM: You got that ass-backwards, boy, you can't hide from me.

love how they brought back the ass backwards line How did he shoot all of them so fast? Also with a gun like that wouldn't he have to cock it every time? Or maybe not, it was old fashioned, not old. It probably has the mechanism set so that the back thingy & the trigger are attached to pull back too. lockwood got shot, he's back up & running now? Love the music btw. Noooo not behindy! I saw to that. You're done, Lockwood, we both are. & that's why he had a sixshot & a second gun! ...Which was just up his sleeve like that & definitely dangerous

How did u know that was the last shot? What if lockwood was still alive (again) & now he's coming to kill you? At least she is wearing short heels Check his pulse maybe?

Lol acab. I'd just as well watch the Helena music video.

Is this beckett's apatment? I can't tell. Family. Doesn't include his legal family tho apparently. & you have accepted castle back? You know it's weird, Espt & Ryan are like Becket's little brothers (& big brothers) sometimes, they give Castle the cold shoulder in defense of Beckett; other times they are brothers with Castle, they have said "mom & dad [are] fighting" as if caskett is a relationship & those two are the kids, sometimes the captain is the dad. It's just so good to me. So good. Found family is lowkey cliche but I love it still. (But this means u can't tell alexis, martha, lanie, jim, or anyone, bc they are extended "family" not immediate "family" right?)

Who's the guy behind Espt there? Also why didn't Esposito shave?? I feel like Castle should be wearing a hat, just to fit in. Not a hat like theirs, but some sort of trilby maybe. Tbh I really like seeing the pigs in their blankets. Not only because I like fancy stuff (I say wearing the same dirty jeanjacket with holes in it like some crustpunk) but also bc I like seeing them in hats, speaking as a hat wearer myself. & who's the guy behind Ryan?

Crying quietly, 👌 love it You don't necessarily owe it to him, you owe it to his family, you owe it to them to get the pension & access to the widows+orphans fund & w/e.

I like how they let Castle carry the casket even tho he is not a cop. Ok my man definitely needs a hat, he really looks out of place. Aw the poor family. yk acab even tho he be dead. I mean best wishes to him & the families+friends. Like tbh big acab moments. A huge funeral for him? Ok how many ppl there actually knew him personally? How much of this is just because he was a fellow enforcer of the law? How much of it is REAL & how much of it enforces an institution where brotherhood takes priority? Btw did they teach castle how to do the proper stepping for the fancy parts of walking around & turning the way they do? I thought Royce did that. KB: You might find someone to stand with you *looks over to Rick* How did rick actually see that tho? I'm glad he didn't jump in front of a bullet, it hit her first. ALSO LANIE BEING HELP BACK BY ESPOSITO Girl that's not how you save someone. U might want to put pressure on the wound or wear gloves if u have any (like airplanes) & do NOT put your hands on the grass like that

Ok cool. Now I'm actually going to watch season one bc I never had the chance to liveblog that.

Ok now I've also gathered all my clips from s3 yay

#mom no look #castle s3 spoilers #castle 3x24 spoilers #castle 3x24 quote #the roy montgomery episode

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shima-draws · 6 years ago

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Some pals and I started a thing called Sin Sunday lmao and I drew more smut today combined than I ever have in my entire life

#I'm sweating.#I GOT LOTS OF PRACTICE IN WITH ANATOMY SO THAT'S GOOD LMAOOOOO #MAN #What a time #You should have SEEN the things they drew najdnakdsmka #Ridiculous #The Shrek one was the worst. Thanks Sam #I'll never recover from that #I laughed so hard I cried #I drew some good stuff tho lol #Spicy. SUPER SPICY #Oh my god I gotta use the citrus scale to tag this huh #Tho I didn't really mention anything so I should be safe actually #Shima speaks

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One of the things that really gets to be about that post about how Katara wants to be fun is that she doesn't get that in her relationship with Aang? She constantly has to mother thanks to him. Either mother him while he's having fun and she has to try and get him to take lire more seriously and then she eventually gets left alone to mother two small children while he flies off with the third.

And while Zuko isn't shown to be as exciting as Aang in ATLA, he's shown to be funny. And he's learning to have fun himself. Katara doesn't have to mother him and I would have loved to see them organically learn to have fun together after they defeated Ozai

You've said it perfectly anon. In my opinion, the problem isn’t necessarily that Katara doesn't know how to have fun, it's that she feels the need to be responsible to the point that she can’t have fun.

For a long time I've struggled with that myself. I don't feel like I'm a particularly fun person and that's especially true around people who are younger than me or act more recklessly. I can’t make myself let go of that responsibility for fear that something will happen to the others around me because I wasn't making sure everyone stayed safe. It's a tad bit unreasonable (probably more than a bit tho lol), but it's something that’s really hard for me. You get the comments of "Oh wow you're so mature for your age!" and people thinking that you're a senior in high school when you're actually a freshman just because of the way you carry yourself. All that pressure mounts quickly, cementing that motherly role of responsibility in place.

I’m able to have a lot more fun now that my friends are older and less immature. They aren't going to do something unspeakable foolish (probably) and I don't feel the need to be on my guard. I adore them. I feel like if Aang actually had an arc within the show regarding this, I would hate Kata*ng slightly less, but alas, he does not. Aang is shown time and time again to go along with whatever is the most fun whether that be scamming with Toph, running around Kyoshi with a fan club, or even attending a festival in the Fire Nation when they're trying to keep a low profile. That is the exact behavior that would make me go "I have to make sure no one does anything to get hurt" because let's be real, two of the three things I just listed could have heavy consequences.

One of Katara's biggest driving forces and characteristics is her passion. She wants to fight, she wants to protect the people around her, she wants the people she loves to be happy, she wants justice and equality, and she wants to make the world as she thinks it should be. That is so admirable and I don't think it's a stretch to say that a personality like that is loud and can get tiring to people. I've mentioned it before, but I've dated someone like Aang, someone who didn't like conflict or taking up space in a room when it wasn't positive. It does not mesh well. I always felt like I was just annoying and should get over things-- or even that the things I was upset about weren't a big a deal at all and I was just a drama queen. It really hurts to be stuck in that loop, and to see Aang not fully support that side of Katara is painful. Going with the flow isn’t for everyone. It’s not for me, and it’s definitely not for Katara, aka the girl who brawled with a grown man to prove a point, knowing that she would absolutely lose. You shouldn’t be with someone who isn’t able to support your battles. They don’t even necessarily have to be fighting by your side. They can hold your flowers and cheer you on while you beat the shit out of all of the Pakkus you’ll face in life.

Aang is shown to be uneasy when Angry, Passionate Katara rears her powerful head, but Zuko is uniquely not. Most of the other characters within the show are at least a little caught off guard when Katara slips from her kind and compassionate demeanor, but not our lovely boy Zuko. I think that scene in “The Southern Raiders” is the perfect example of this. She is yelling and scolding him and instead of retreating or curling into himself, Zuko listens. He’s not inherently afraid because this isn’t how Katara usually is, which may be due to the fact that he’s seen both sides of her with about the same level of familiarity within the catacombs, but either way he’s able to actually think about what she’s saying. Zuko not being afraid of her when she’s not calm and at ease is a very powerful message to me at least because I feel like I can find someone who isn’t afraid of how intense I am. There are people who don’t need me to be more palatable to their particular levels of intensity. The idea that a women does not have to bend her personality to fit her partner’s idea of who she is or what she should be is one that should be more mainstream, and it’s a huge inspiration to me in my own life. A lot of the Zutara fanfiction I’ve read (and I’ve read a lot) is very empowering to me in that sense-- Katara and Zuko are able to unapologetically be themselves with the other and won’t let anyone tell them otherwise. It’s amazing and a wonderful example to girls and women of any and all ages (and anyone else for that matter. Everyone deserves a good partner if they want one).

Everything I just discussed so far is a huge part of the reason I ship Zutara. It's been said before that Zuko is the only member of the Gaang (besides like... Suki lol) that Katara does not mother within the show. It's also implied that Zuko helps Katara be an authority figure in the group, earning them the legendary "Momtara" and "Dadko" titles. I would want that kind of support for myself and since I relate to Katara, I see Zuko as a much better and more equal partner for her than Aang. And that's nothing against Aang! I despise what he became in book 3 but our baby boy in book 1 had so much potential for growth and change. I adore that Aang and I'll never get tired of blaming Bryke for twisting his character into the incel they can only aspire to be.

Zutara is a ship that has dozens and dozens of reasons to support it. I've seen very few ships with as much backing as Zutara. From the way two compliment each other within the show to the subvert lore the show has that parallels Zutara, there's a lot to love, and to me it also has the appeal of being something a real life person would want in their relationship. They understand each other, they apologize to each other, they grow together, they love unconditionally-- that's all so beautiful.

I know if the Kata*ngers find this they'll shit all over me for "projecting" but I think it's really important for people to relate to the characters they see on screen and see bits of themselves littered throughout. It makes a story more compelling and is infinitely more inspiring. Struggles that I see Katara have are ones I've seen in my own life-- at one point when I was a bit younger I even hated Katara because I saw so much of myself in her. These stories mean more than canonicity and more than what value a writer assigns to the character. It’s very clear that Bryke only saw Katara as Aang’s motivation and prize, which is so harmful! No person anywhere is a prize in any regard to anyone. It’s horrifying that this was displayed to people as ‘romance.” Katara is a character that is so vastly important for female representation (as well as other forms of representation) and as I briefly mentioned, Katara is a character who was very inspiring to me. She is a character that was able to give me more confidence in myself and realize that I am not an annoyance for speaking up when something feels/is wrong.

That was a long ramble and I hope it’s somewhat pleasing to you anon lol. I hope you’re doing well out there in the world <3

#cilla rambled #zutara #pro zutara #pro katara #she really helped me no joke #i don't think i would be who i am rn without her #and i am a new era fan lol #anti kataang #anti aang #we're being safe here today #i'm not here to bother aang stans #anti bryke #i hate bryke #i don't know how they ruined katara's character in lok so thoroughly #it's impressive in a negative way

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juminsmysticmc · 3 years ago

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Hello! Can you do a rfa+minor trio any type of angst with a happy ending? Love your hc!! They are amazing❤❤

RFA + Minor Trio with an angst scenario - happy end

Hey! So, this left so many possibilities open ahahhaha, I didn’t really know what to decide on! Hope you still like it tho! By the way, @annbourbon made me come up with a story. The request I was sent by them/ the story they told me made us agree on a request. Since I suddenly thought this could fit in well in this request, I decided to use their request for Jumin’s story. This was their request:

I'm sorry it took me so long. I'm new relatively new on Tumblr and I didn't know how to submit anything. I'm the girl whose dad almost makes her tortilla because of bad driving in middle of a flood. Can you make a story about Jumin Han driving with MC in middle of a flood? I'm imagining a full Fast and Furious while it's pouring and MC trying to calm down Jumin and he gets lost being so close to home. (?) or in a place they're supposed to know very well. I'm not sure what else to say. But whatever you do it's okay. I'll be just terrified and happy to survive.💀🤣

I hope both of you like the outcoming of all of the stories! Tell me your opinion, please!

Trigger Warnings, this writing contains mention of car accidents, stalking, breakups, fire, hospitals, children’s kidnapping

Jumin

,,Shouldn’t you rather call a taxi to drive you home?’’ Jaehee asked the both of you. The assistant was currently trying to help Jumin out of a situation no one knew of - Jumin Han was not only bad at taking pictures, the young CEO in line was also a bad driver.

He was just about to agree to that idea if you didn’t tell her that you would love to see your handsome husband behind a wheel.

Jumin, overjoyed by your wish, suddenly forgot that he didn’t touch the leather of the wheel for way too much time and instead smiled at you before he walked off with you to the garage of the big company, deciding that he would take a company car.

Jaehee, however, wasn't really sure if this was the best idea and instead decided to plan something on her own…

Jumin opened the door of the black car for you, making sure that you were seated comfortably in your seat before he walked around the car to sit down himself.

,,The seatbelt first,’’ he smiled, making sure that everything was safe for you, the most precious thing he cared for in his life.

,,I’m excited to see how you will drive,’’ you giggled, and suddenly Jumin remembered that he was actually a very bad driver.

Would you leave him for this fact?

Jumin decided to start the motor, just for the car to suddenly move forward and turn off again with a strong shaking movement.

You gasped and Jumin freezed.

,,Did you forget to leave your feet on the pedal?’’ you asked Jumin.

Ah, pedals, he needs the pedals too, true.

,,Sorry, I… I forgot,’’ he said, nodding to himself and stepping on the pedal before starting the car for the second time.

,,Let me bring you home, my love,’’ he said and smiled at you before his face turned all serious again, ready to take off to drive to your shared home.

,,Are you sure that…you know where we’re heading to?’’ you asked him, your voice trembling as you were trying to hold onto something.

The raindrops fell heavily on the black car while the windshield wipers tried to wipe away the water that made it impossible for Jumin to see anything in the darkness.

,,I think we should stop here and call a taxi, Jumin,’’ you gasped, sounding hysterical.

Jumin, however, not really realizing that he was putting your life in danger, kept trying to tell you everything was okay, even though the car broke down again because he stepped on the wrong pedal for the third time in a row.

,,No! We don’t know where the heck we are at the moment. You seem way too unstable to drive and I want you to NOW stop the car!’’ you hissed. For the first time ever, Jumin heard you yell at him and so of course, he had to look over to you with big eyes, while still driving.

A fatal mistake, the next thing you heard was a honk, Jumin drastically turning the car to your right and then an impact before darkness.

,,MC?!’’ Jumin gasped, as soon as he opened his eyes.

He could not move. He felt as if he was trapped.

His heart was beating like crazy as he quickly turned his head to his right.

,,Assistant Kang…?’’ he whispered. You were getting treated by Jaehee, who just put a bandage on your cheek.

,,I am thanking the Lords that I made someone drive behind your car, Mr. Han. Why didn’t you go directly home?’’ she asked the black haired man who was trying to understand the situation.

The both of you were currently stuck and firefighters had to open the car.

Luckily, neither one of you was seriously injured, something no one could really believe.

,,We were driving around in front of our home, Jumin. We…we were just too stupid to realize,’’ you groaned, annoyed.

Jumin was still feeling bad and embarrassed, but more than happy to see later on that you weren’t hurt anywhere.

,,I promise I will never drive again, my love,’’ he gasped.

Zen

,,We installed cameras, we hired Jumin’s bodyguards, we changed the keys, we went on private mode on instagram, and still these things happen! This isn’t normal! Please take care of it!’’ Zen hissed over the phone.

However, the police were still not willing to help either of you.

You were sitting on the couch, your arms around your knees as Jaehee was patting your back.

It was three in the morning, thank God you were still chatting in the chatroom with Jaehee and Seven despite it being way too late for you to be awake.

Only thanks to that, you could hear someone trying to break in and could wake up Zen and alarm the two RFA members in the chatroom, who immediately were on their way to yours and Zen’s place.

Luckily nothing happened, but the sick stalker who was haunting you for over a month now, was still able to leave a letter for you.

,,You look beautiful while you’re sleeping in the white robe. You shouldn’t stay awake this late,’’ the letter said, which was something that gave you chills.

,,Nothing! They won’t come!’’ Zen groaned angrily, tossing his phone to the other side of the couch while Seven was checking the door.

,,I brought some cameras with me. I will install them and then check on them. Whenever something seems off, I will be able to take action,’’ Seven said.

Zen’s eyes went back to you.

You were so frightened that you were even unable to cry.

,,Jagiya…I’m so sorry,’’ he whispered, taking the spot next to you and slowly taking you in his arms, making Jaehee stop comforting you.

You placed your hand on Zen’s before your eyes met his. ,,It isn’t your fault, Hyun,’’ you promised him.

,,I…I just hope that we soon will be able to find out who it is…’’

Days went by after the accident and nothing happened anymore for five days.

Thinking that the CCTV was able to make him give up, both you and Zen felt a bit better now.

However, you were still cautious.

,,I hate going to work on my day off. My work-life-balance is getting harmed!’’ he whined, putting on his pants.

You smirked, observing the skin of your boyfriend. Of course, this didn’t go unnoticed by Zen.

,,Wait here for me, princess,’’ he chuckled as soon as he saw your lustful eyes.

,,Wait here for me. Let me just take care of this problem,’’ the director said to Zen as soon as he arrived to have a meeting with the director.

The short moment, however, passed by and Zen was already waiting for his boss for half an hour.

Being woken up suddenly by the call, Zen’s eyes felt rather heavy and after blinking three times, he finally gave in, closing his eyes to take a short nap while waiting.

,,HYUN! HYUN, HELP ME! NO!!’’ - ,,MC?!’’ Zen gasped, his eyes wide open, trying to get adjusted to the light in the room he was waiting in.

Zen rubbed his eyes. His heart was still beating like crazy as he tried to check how much time had passed.

,,Half an hour, fuck you, honestly!’’ Zen cussed and took his helmet, dialing Seven’s number on his way out to his bike.

,,The camera has been hacked and off the whole day and I just realized now…!’’ Seven said. Zen could hear the aggressive keyboard hitting as his friend was probably trying to check why nothing was working.

This made Zen feel even worse.

His dream was making him go crazy and the worst was that after he cut the call with Seven, you weren’t picking up either…

,,MC?! MC, WHERE ARE YOU?!’’ Zen called as soon as he got off of his bike, not caring that his beloved bike just fell on the grass.

The door was open and you weren’t to be seen anywhere his eyes could reach at the moment.

He could feel himself not getting enough air to breathe, scared something could have happened while he was gone.

Zen barged into every room of the shared home the both of you had until he finally found you, scared on your bed while this man was standing in front of you.

Zen didn’t hesitate to jump on top of the stranger, crashing to the floor.

,,Hyun!’’ you finally cried out.

,,I got him, Princess, don’t worry,’’ he gasped.

Finally, the police arrived to take care of the stranger and Zen could hold you in his arms again.

,,No one will ever be able to hurt you, Mc. None will ever be able to scare you like that again…I promise, I will protect you.’’

Yoosung

,,This is just…I don’t know what to call it!’’ you said to your husband.

His face was red in anger as he just glared at you.

,,It’s childish, that’s it!’’ you told him, moving your arms up and down.

,,Okay, and what do you want me to do now?’’ Yoosung asked you, annoyed that you were once again so moody.

,,What I want you to do? Yoosung, for God’s sake I am your wife! You need to take my side! You have to sleep with me in bed at the end of the day, not with your mom! It’s not okay that she keeps making decisions for the both of us! It’s our marriage!’’ you repeated.

,,I understand you, Mc, but my mom is a very wise woman. She just wanted to give her advice. You’re my wife, but she’s my mother too! You can’t talk bad about her!’’ Yoosung defended her.

You gasped, as you never ever dared to speak bad about your mother-in-law, not in the past and neither in this discussion.

The reason why you and Yoosung were fighting at the moment was simply over the fact that his mother decided that you would celebrate New Years at her home this year, despite you wanting to have a new year with your family too.

Since it would be too stressful, you then said that they should all just come to your place. However, this wasn’t that good of an idea and that’s how the discussion found its roots.

Your mother-in-law wanted her children at her home and you wanted to see your family for once too.

Since your idea wasn’t welcome, you then said that you and Yoosung would have New Years separated. This however, was the worst you could possibly say.

After you and your mother-in-law got into an argument and Yoosung didn’t even take your side, the both of you kept arguing at home.

Now the both of you were standing angrily in front of each other.

You sighed as you looked away from your husband.

,,I don’t know if I can live with you like that,’’ you said as your voice was trembling.

Yoosung was still way too angry to realize your pain.

,,I…I don’t want to argue with my husband. This is not how I imagined my life,’’ you said as you were fighting your tears.

,,Don’t you realize that I also have a family? I’m neglecting my mother! I didn’t see my father, Yoosung! We never go to my family! It’s making me sad!’’ you hissed, hitting your chest.

,,That’s not true…’’ Yoosung suddenly mumbled. The blond boy looked to the floor as he adjusted the red glasses he was wearing.

He was suddenly all flustered as he realized that you perhaps were right.

,,But you don’t want to understand,’’ you whimpered and before Yoosung could stop you, you were already out the door.

Time passed, minutes turned into hours, Yoosung had enough time to think about the last discussion and all that was left in his heart was sadness.

,,Mc, please, please come home!’’ he whined as once again his phone call wasn’t picked up.

Yoosung, desperate at this point, nervously walked from one door to the other one.

A thousand thoughts haunted him, his eyes met the clock all the time, observing how the seconds passed slowly.

,,Lisa, what have I done…?’’ he asked the cat, slowly tearing up as he went on his knees.

He was scared that something happened, that once again he lost someone he loved. You wouldn’t jump from a cliff like Rika, would you? You were different people after all, but perhaps, what if you too, taken from your sadness, would decide to not return to him?

Never ever?

His heart skipped a beat, he jumped up and took his jacket, ready to head out, hoping that he could still find you after he let you go in that state.

Suddenly, just when he opened the door, someone else was trying to push it open too.

Yoosung met your eyes, your swollen red eyes while he looked at you with big, surprised eyes.

,,Mc…’’ he whispered, his voice trembling.

,,Yoosung…’’ you hiccuped and hugged him.

Just now, Yoosung saw that a police officer was standing behind you.

It turned out that someone tried to rob your purse.

You fought back, but as soon as the adrenaline left your body, you became a total wreck.

Yoosung could only hold you while the police officer finished a few documents.

,,I’m sorry,’’ he whispered, kissing the top of your head.

What would have happened if the person had a knife? You would be gone from this world and your parents wouldn’t have even had the opportunity to see you one last time because of him.

Luckily, the argument was sorted out. Yoosung totally supported you and in the end, New Years was very fun at your guys’ house with even the RFA joining you…

Jaehee

,,What do you want for dinner?’’ Jaehee asked you while the both of you were cleaning up the coffee shop the both of you owned.

You stopped scrubbing the table and looked at the clock.

It was already so late and honestly, you didn’t really enjoy cooking. Besides, you already felt pretty hungry.

,,Wanna grab some takeout?’’ you asked her, looking over to her again.

Jaehee’s eyebrows went up, smirking at you as she was shaking her head. ,,Listen, who was the person who judged me years ago because of my bad eating habits?’’ she asked you, making you think of the times when you first came into the RFA, asking her to take care of her meals while working under Jumin.

,,Okay, you’re right…Maybe you could grab a pizza at the shop across the street?’’ you asked her.

Jaehee was still thinking of the old days. Back then she never thought that the both of you could come to become such a great couple. Starting a coffee shop with you wasn’t even an option at that time.

But the more Jaehee came to know you better, the more she came to feel attracted to you and the more she wanted to share her dream with you.

And even though she was scared at first, leaving Jumin and starting something totally new on her own, she knew that with your support, nothing would be impossible.

And indeed, years later everything turned out to be more than perfect.

Of course, it was also due to your studies.

,,Okay, then I will bring you a pizza,’’ she smiled and took off the apron.

,,By the way, the candles in the kitchen aren’t blown out yet,’’ she warned you.

Perhaps at the time, she should have blown them out herself.

Perhaps, if Jaehee would have acted differently, the big accident would have never happened.

But no one would ever find out because destiny wasn’t changed, but happened just like it was supposed to happen.

For some reason, you put away her apron, blew out three out of four candles, and put the apron just over the candle which was overseen by you.

Of course you just noticed the fire in the kitchen when it was too late.

And since this shop meant a lot to the both of you, instead of saving your life and running out, you tried to take care of the fire.

,,No no no no, please, this is Jaehee’s dream!’’ you cursed yourself and tried to not lose the whole kitchen into the flames, slowly putting yourself in danger.

You weren’t sure how long you were already trying to take care of the fire. Somehow, you lost track of time.

At some point, you even realized that there was nothing you could do and fell on your knees, crying uncontrollably.

,,So this is how I will die…?’’ you asked yourself, coughing as the smoke was making it harder and harder to breathe, making you slowly lose consciousness…

,,Please! I beg you! My girlfriend is in there!’’ Jaehee begged the fireman, her hands holding onto his jacket, the pizza on the floor, not edible anymore.

By the time she finally paid for the pizza, the fire had already spread too much and of course, the arrival of the firetruck was delayed even more.

There was no way that the men could now enter the building anymore, despite Jaehee telling them that you were probably still in the hot inferno.

Her tears were rolling down her cheeks as she gasped and sobbed louder.

There was no way she would let you die there, alone in that scary place. She promised you to stay by your side as you feared to stay alone one day.

And Jaehee wanted to at least keep her last promise.

,,YOU CAN’T ENTER THERE!’’ a fireman yelled when he noticed that Jaehee was getting ready.

The men were holding her back while Jaehee screamed your name, cried for you, and tried to get away from them.

,,MC!!’’ she yelled a last time, before the building was coming down. Jaehee just watched the building breaking down, her future with you as well.

So maybe her dream was a nightmare?

If she wouldn’t have tried to go for her dreams, would you be still alive now…?

,,A SURVIVOR!’’ a manly voice said, making Jaehee look up again.

Paramedics tried to help that little thing, black from the smoke.

,,Mc…’’ Jaehee gasped.

Perhaps, the dream that just turned into a nightmare, was more like a miracle…

Saeyoung

,,It’s the third day in a row and you are once again running a fever, Mc,’’ he said, the cold towel on your forehead as you tried to calm down.

You were feeling sick. You felt as if you would throw up any minute now and no matter what you did, nothing would help you.

,,Maybe we should visit a doctor,’’ he said and looked at the watch, debating with himself whether to bring you to the hospital or not.

,,Mhh, no, let’s wait for tomorrow,’’ you whispered, closing your eyes as your head was spinning.

You felt weak, sick, and tired.

The only thing you wished for was to sleep, but no matter what you did to get rest, it made you feel even worse.

By now, Saeyoung was worried that it was something severe, but you just didn’t want to visit a doctor yet.

,,Why wait more? You aren’t feeling well!’’ he argued.

,,Saeyoung, the hospital fee will be high,’’ you told him and turned your head to not see his face anymore.

Saeyoung suddenly had the odd feeling that you knew something he still wasn’t aware of.

,,Okay, let me bring you tea,’’ he whispered before he kissed your forehead and quickly headed towards the kitchen to prepare the tea.

However, he quickly noticed that you fell asleep.

Taking the tea back with him, which he wasn’t planning on drinking, he decided to instead reread the old background check he did back then when you first entered the RFA, noticing something odd.

,,What are these?’’ Saeran asked, behind his brother as he watched over the red-haired man’s shoulders.

,,I don’t know, but the data is locked. I can’t access the hospital’s data…’’ he whispered and suddenly, the fear of you being heavily sick just became stronger and stronger.

Whatever information he couldn’t open, it was surely something related to your sickness right now.

Without hesitating, the red-haired man entered your room and took you in his arms, waking you up.

,,What are you doing?’’ you asked him. Your head was still spinning and you just felt worse after sleeping for a few minutes.

You quickly gave up arguing with him and instead tried not to throw up in his care as he silently drove you to the nearest hospital.

Just after the doctor assured you that you were healthy and it was just a normal infection, he could feel rest assured.

,,Why didn’t you trust me when I told you that I was alright? I mean, I’m not going to pay that fee!’’ you hissed, regretting your reaction immediately after you felt a big headache.

,,I…there was data which was locked…’’ he mumbled, driving home as softly as possible, fearing you could really throw up in his car.

Later on, Saeyoung noticed that he didn’t open your data but Jumin’s, which was locked since he was a very important person…

Saeran

The young boy observed you as you typed something on your laptop, probably answering some emails for the RFA as you were in charge of preparing the next RFA Party.

Saeran, who had the day off, silently observed you.

Somehow he had the feeling that he couldn’t approach you and that you built up a high wall around you.

For the first time ever since he met you, he didn’t have the courage to speak to you, approach you, or ask you to go out with him.

Perhaps he wasn’t afraid of approaching you, but more-so feared the fact that you could possibly reject him.

,,Mc?’’ Saeran called out for you, his voice trembling.

Without looking up you nodded, signaling him to speak, making him even more nervous.

Saeran didn’t say anything, but just observed you as you kept typing on your keyboard.

At some point, you decided to look up.

You sighed as you looked at your boyfriend. ,,Why call me out and stay silent afterward? Say something if you call me,’’ you told him.

Saeran didn’t know how to feel about your words or the way you were talking to him.

Were you annoyed?

Was this the end? Did he somehow annoy you so much that you would now leave him?

Or were you already at the verge of leaving?

Saeran put his hand on his chest. Everything was feeling so tight around there as his lips began to tremble.

,,No, sorry…nothing,’’ he mumbled.

As soon as you said these words, your eyes were once again down on your display.

Hours went by and Saeran didn’t really know what to do with his free day since you were so distant, so he decided to clean up your shared bedroom.

,,Huh?’’ Saeran gasped, holding a ticket in his hands.

Without thinking, the man approached you with tears in his eyes as he asked you what the meaning of this was.

,,Are you going to leave me, Mc? Is it because I failed to find Saeyoung? Am I annoying? Will you really leave me?’’ he asked you.

You were still kind of perplexed by his sudden rage before you looked closer at the tickets.

,,Saeran, how would I be able to leave? Like, can I even go to the past?’’ you asked your boyfriend who just noticed that the ticket fell just off from your decorated wall in your room.

,,I’m sorry, I should have told you to go on a date… or at least I should have helped you…’’ Saeran whispered when you were sitting in his lap later in the evening, explaining why you were so distant.

The guest you wanted to invite was a rather complicated one and you really needed him to somehow fight against the prime minister.

The two of you luckily sorted out the misunderstanding and at least were able to enjoy the last moments together that evening…

Jihyun

It all happened so quickly.

One moment ago, Lucy was holding Jihyun’s hand while you were looking at some baby clothes for your newborn.

And in the next moment, Lucy let go of her father’s hand.

Jihyun, who just watched you walking off since the baby had to be fed, thought that the little girl was going to walk with her mom.

However, he was wrong.

After you returned from feeding the newborn baby ten minutes later, the two of you noticed that the girl the two of you adopted was gone.

,,Where’s Lucy?’’ you asked your husband, your voice a bit annoyed as you hated it when children were left unattended.

Your eyes quickly searched for the girl with the brown hair as you were holding the mint-haired baby in your arms.

,,Didn’t she walk off with you?’’ Jihyun asked you back.

Just now, the both of you realized what happened.

Your face was filled with horror and panic as you immediately began to call out for Lucy.

,,How could you be so irresponsible?!’’ you hissed, feeling rage.

Your eyes were teary as you called out once again for Lucy.

You began to ask every stranger for the little girl who was with you just a few minutes ago while Jihyun was feeling guilty because of his mistake.

He quickly informed the staff.

People were positioned at all doors so that no one could possibly go without being seen.

However, the possibility that Lucy was already gone was high. Too high.

The panic hit you hard as you began to sob, Jihyun next to you, holding you tightly in his arms as he called Jumin to get some bodyguards to check the surroundings of the building of the mall the both of you were in.

,,What if they kidnapped her? Oh God, they- what if-’’ you didn’t dare to say it out loud, your head filled with worries. The more you thought about it, the more you lost hope.

,,MOMMY!’’ the girl suddenly exclaimed.

You quickly turned around, seeing a young woman walking with Lucy towards you and Jihyun.

,,LUCY!’’ you cried and ran towards the stranger, hugging your daughter, the baby still in your arms as you sobbed harder.

,,I found her with the candies,’’ the stranger explained before you thanked her ten thousand times.

Jihyun made sure to give the young woman a reward before he told everyone that Lucy was back again.

Since then, the two of you made sure to double-check who the children were with and you and Jihyun also apologized to each other…

Vanderwood

,,How does it feel being in love?’’ Yoosung asked out of the blue while you were preparing dinner. Saeyoung and Saeran looked up from their phones, trying to get new software on the RFA chatroom while Vanderwood tried to help you out with the food.

You didn’t say a word to the blond boy who was getting teased by the twins, something your boyfriend took as a warning.

,,Love is just an imagination,’’ you said to Yoosung after he told everyone who he had a crush on lately and how their dates went.

The long-haired man turned his head around to you, his heart beating like crazy as he felt hurt by the words you just said.

Even he himself had the feeling that the both of you were something special, had a special bond, and were deeply in love.

Hearing these harsh words from you, however, made him feel as if his love was one-sided.

And suddenly, the evening was just a horrible way of ending the day.

Vanderwood was in a bad mood and everyone could sense the sudden change of atmosphere.

Even you could sense that your boyfriend was suddenly different.

His facial expression showed you that he felt bugged by something, but you could never imagine that he was in rage by your comment.

You didn’t even realize that your comment hurt his feelings.

Just after the three boys left your apartment to go back home, you and Vanderwood had the chance to talk.

You guys had the chance to talk - he, however, chose a different way.

,,Why are you packing your stuff? I thought you wanted to stay over till Monday,’’ you asked him, putting the plates together.

The two of you still weren’t living together and so Vanderwood often stayed over.

,,I thought,’’ he said as he looked up, looking even angrier now, ,,you might need some time alone,’’ he finished his sentence.

,,Why would I?’’ you asked him, putting the things you had in your hands away, slowly approaching him.

Your heart was pounding very quickly and suddenly your fear of losing someone kicked in.

You were scared of making new bonds, but it was even scarier to let go of that bond, to know that the person you loved left you.

You couldn’t stand the feeling of being left alone, having the feeling that you weren’t good enough.

That you made a mistake, that you made that person go.

And Vanderwood knew well enough.

,,I thought, love is just imagination? This is what you told Yoosung earlier. I…I know that you hate to cut off bonds, that you’re scared, but I can’t live my life like this…’’ he mumbled, putting even more clothes in his bag.

,,Vanderwood, wait…wait!’’ you hiccuped, quickly grabbing his shirt.

Your hands were trembling. You were already crying and Vanderwood was suddenly worried if this was the right way.

,,Don’t leave,’’ you whispered, ,,don’t leave me, I can explain…’’ you groaned.

He stayed and quickly afterwards regretted his words.

In fact, you told him, crying in his lap, that Yoosung already told you separately about the person he was seeing and that the two of you had an argument because you were sure that the person he was seeing was just using him for his kindness.

,,I said these things to him because I wanted to tell him once again that what he feels isn’t true love… but loving the idea of being needed by that person…’’

The misunderstanding was solved quickly, however, Vanderwood felt even worse for causing you such great pain…

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