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broadway darling 𖦹 LN4
PAIRINGS: lando norris x sainz!reader
SUMMARY: you and lando never met each other in person despite him being best friends with your brother, but when carlos had dragged him to your opening night, he hated to admit it but he was charmed by you.
REMINDERS: this is purely fiction, the way how the character is portrayed in my story does not reflect the person that is portraying my character in real life. always separate fiction from reality, and do not repost or copy my work in any way.
WARNINGS: no use of y/n in the narrations, photo do not belong to me and all photos are taken from pinterest, inconsistencies of photos, use of y/n on the smau, not proofread, magui, profanities, mean comments, and typos
WORD COUNT: 696
FACE CLAIMS: taken from pinterest
AUTHOR’S NOTE: i missed writing for lando 😭 i made this one shot/smau to appease my broadway x f1 racer agenda in my mind, and since i’m a big fan of les miz and hamilton. though let me know if you want part 2 lol i hope you’ll enjoy this one as much as i enjoyed writing it! this one’s for all the theatre girlies out there (i hope i did you justice 🥹)
It was an unspoken rule that opening nights were sacred in your family. The excitement, nerves, and anticipation of the curtain rising for the first time in Melbourne—it was all part of the magic you had fallen in love with since your broadway debut at sixteen. Tonight was no different, the backstage bustle surrounded you, but you remained calm, dressed in your costume for Fantine, the tragic heroine of Les Misérables.
The makeup team finished their final touches, ensuring every detail conveyed the pain and hope of the character. You took a deep breath, whispering a quiet prayer as the stage manager gave the fifteen-minute warning.
In the plush velvet seats of the packed theater, your family had taken their places. Carlos was flanked by your parents on one side and, to your surprise, his best friend, Lando Norris, by his side. You had heard of Lando countless times through Carlos’ stories, seen him in the occasional instagram post or race weekend interview, but never met him in person. Lando was not exactly the type you imagined sitting through a three-hour musical, but there he was, impeccably dressed in a tailored suit, looking slightly out of place but undeniably intrigued.
“I still don’t understand why you brought me with you.” Lando murmured to Carlos as they flipped through the program.
“Because you need culture in your life,” Carlos teased, his voice low to avoid drawing attention. “Besides, it’s my sister. I’m always there to support her.”
Lando just nodded, unsure what to really expect. He had heard of you, of course, Carlos never stopped talking about his little sister’s accomplishments, but he had never seen you perform. Lando wasn’t even sure how someone who belted out ballads for a living would compare to the thrill of racing, but as the curtains rose and you stepped onto the stage, he felt something shift.
When you sang I Dreamed a Dream, the theatre fell silent, and Lando forgot to breathe. He didn’t know much about broadways and musicals, but even he could tell this was something special. There was a rawness in your voice, an honesty that made him feel like you were baring your soul to every person in the audience, him included.
“You good?” Carlos asked, his tone laced with curiosity.
Lando blinked and sat up straighter. “She's…really good.”
“Told you,” Carlos smirked, “she’s a broadway darling for a reason.”
Lando did not respond, his eyes fixed on you as you poured your heart into the performance, and by the time the curtain fell and the audience erupted into applause, he was on his feet, clapping so hard his palms stung. Carlos laughed as he nudged him.
“I think you liked it more than me, mate.” Carlos chuckled.
“She’s, uh, really talented.” Lando flushed, rubbing the back of his neck. Carlos raised an eyebrow but said nothing.
Backstage, you were surrounded by castmates and well-wishers when Carlos arrived, with a bouquet of flowers in hand.
“You killed it out there!” He said, pulling you into a bear hug. “Mamá and Papá are so proud, they couldn’t even stop crying.”
“Thank you,” you smiled, wiping a bit of makeup from your cheek. “It felt good tonight.” You admitted, though your eyes flicked curiously to the familiar figure a few steps behind Carlos.
Carlos caught your glance and stepped aside. “Oh, right, this is Lando. You know him, my best friend.”
“Hello.” You said warmly, extending a hand.
Lando stared at you for a second too long before quickly shaking your hand. “Hey, uh, you were amazing. Like, really amazing.”
“Thank you,” you said, smiling at his slightly awkward demeanor. “I’m glad that you enjoyed it. I never pegged you for a theatre type.”
Carlos snorted. “Oh, he’s not. He didn’t even know who Fantine was before tonight.”
“Hey, I know now.” Lando muttered as he shot Carlos a look, which made you laugh.
“Well, it’s nice to finally meet you, Lando,” you said. “Thank you for coming.”
As you turned your attention back to Carlos to discuss dinner plans, Lando just stood there, hands shoved into his trouser pockets, feeling like he had just been hit by a train.
ynsainz
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ynsainz do you hear the people sing? 🇫🇷❤️
opening night of les misérables in melbourne was nothing short of magical. i’m so grateful for the chance to bring fantine’s story to life again and share it with the people i love the most. a night that i’ll never forget! ❤️✨
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carlossainz55 incredible, hermanita! Proud doesn’t even begin to cover it ❤️
ynsainz AAAAAHHH LOVE YOU 🥺❤️
iamrebeccad you.are.amazing! GIRL THOSE PIPES YOU HAVE!!
ynsainz rebeccaaa, thank you so much!! i’m glad that you were able to come 🥺❤️
iamrebeccad of course! wouldn’t miss it for the world!!! 🥰
landonorris amazing show last night! first theatre experience and definitely won’t be the last 👏🏻🙌🏻
ynsainz thank you lando! glad that les miz was your first theatre experience. well, hoping to see you again soon! 😆
lesmizofficial opening night couldn’t have been more better, it was unforgettable! you’ve brought fantine to life in a way that will resonate for years to come. the team couldn’t be prouder of you! ❤️
ynsainz thank you, les misérables! 🥺❤️
username1 PERFECTION PERFECTION PERFECTION
username2 carlos wasn’t lying when he said he’s sister a star 🥹 i came for the sainz connection and left absolutely blown away by your TALENT!!!!
username3 an icon, a legend, a queen!!!!!!
username4 I STILL CANT BELIEVE THAT I WATCHED YOU LIVE 😭😭😭😭
username4 I NEED TO SEE YOU ON LES MIZ TOUR I CANT LET THIS PASS BY 😭😭😭
username5 THE MEMES 😭😭😭
username6 THEATRE KIDS UNITE!!!
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f1gossip is there something more than just racing between lando norris and the sainz family?
spotted: lando norris attending the opening night of les miserables in melbourne with none other than carlos sainz and his family just days before the aussie grand prix weekend.
the mclaren driver, who’s usually more focused on the track than the theatre, seemed to be all flirty and smiles as he mingled with carlos’ little sister, ynsainz—the broadway darling herself! rumors have been swirling around ever since lando was seen front and center at the opening night, and now, it’s got us wondering…is there something between the two off-track?
while lando’s always kept his private life under the wraps, this cozy night with the sainz fam is raising some eyebrows. could les miserables be just the beginning? are we seeing a new f1 power couple in the making?
drop your thoughts below! ❤️
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username7 okay, but if lando is really into her, can we talk about what an upgrade this is from his usual dating rumors? she’s a literal goddess. broadway, west end, and disney??? ma’am.
username8 so lando’s in attendance at les miz in melbourne? okay, that’s cool, but is it bad that i care more about her perfomance than this so-called gossip? priorities, people!
username9 not at all!! everyone here in the comsec acting like they personally know lando or y/n lmao what a bunch of losers
username10 this is a bit of stretch, don’t you guys think? maybe he’s genuinely wanted to be there for support. he’s literally best friends with carlos and close with the sainz, is it now bad to support a best friend’s family member? not every guy and girl showing support or hanging out equates to dating.
username9 SPEAK YOUR TRUTH!!!
username1 finally, someone saying relevant here for once!!!
username11 can we please stop making everything a love story? maybe she’s just being nice and lando’s just being lando
username12 oh you are so sick for tagging the people involved in your nonsense gossip!!! leave them alone!!!!
username13 now why us, broadway fans, suddenly being dragged into an f1 drama? can we just stay away from this and focus on supporting her and appreciating her talent? we don’t need this kind of drama
username14 lol lando is just tagging along with carlos like they usually do! NOT EVERYTHING HAS TO BE A SHIP NOR A DATING RUMOR!
username15 she’s just probably using him for clout lmfao
username16 i don’t ship it, but if carlos approves, i guess it’s fine
username2 ????? weirdo
username17 she’s been killing it on broadway since she was young. why do people always have to reduce talented women to ‘who they’re dating/involved’ with? do better people, you all are really embarrassing
username18 honestly, i don’t really care who she’s dating. just give me tickets to see her next performance 😭
username3 oh you’re so really for this
username4 why do broadway tickets have to be so expensive 😭😭😭
username5 bank heist plan meeting at my house at 8pm, pull up
username6 time to sell feet pics 😔💔
username19 she’s just gonna use lando for fame just like *coughs* magui *coughs* and besides, she wouldn’t be famous if it weren’t for carlos LMAO what a nepo baby
username7 DON’T YOU EVER COMPARED THAT VILE AND WRETCHED WOMAN TO Y/N! THE BLANTANT DISRESPECT. SHES BEEN SELLING OUT THEATRE BEFORE YOU COULD SPELL BROADWAY. CARLOS MAY BE HER BROTHER BUT HER TALENT GOT WHERE SHE IS RIGHT NOW. SIT THE FUCK DOWN. I HOPE YOU CHOKE ON THAT COUGH OF YOURS.
username8 username7 SLAYED, ATE, DEVOURED, LEFT NO CRUMBS
username20 yeah, i don’t really trust her. she’s probs only interested in lando bc of the clout that comes with being an f1 wag
username9 you DISGUST me. clout? clout??? mary, she’s the one with standing ovations every night. meanwhile, you’re hating from your couch. maybe try again.
username21 LANDO IN SPECS 😭😭😭 HES SO DREAMY 🥺🥺🥺
username10 people out here are tearing each other apart and so close in inciting civil war, while you’re out here commenting lando looks good in specs is so REAL 😭😭😭
username11 the vibe i bring to the function:
username22 the whole comsec got me laughing my ass off 😭 y’all are really bursting your nerves over this gossip that is completely baseless 😭😭😭 it’s NORMAL for him to hang out with carlos’ family and show support to carlos’ family member. like what the other commenter said, not everything has to be a dating rumor 😭😭😭
username12 EXACTLY.
username22 these people need to unclench their asshole. like omfg relax, brenda!
username23 if this is true, i don’t like it. lando needs someone who understands his world, not some theatre diva who’s only there for the spotlight
username13 ???? theatre diva ???? she’s literally been called the voice of this generation, a generational talent. she DOESNT need lando or his world, she has her own. stay bitter, though
username24 why are people so mean? she’s insanely talented and gorgeous.
username14 some people are just really fucking opinionated, like they know lando personally and that their opinions would matter. well news flash, lando wouldn’t even bat an eyelash at you nor date you all. fucking weirdos
username25 welp, this isn’t the comment section that i was expecting at all 🧍🏻♀️
username26 is this a civil war between f1 stans and broadway stans? 😭😭😭😭
username27 vroom vroom kids vs. theatre kids
username28 this post alone had incited a civil war between f1 stans and broadway stans 😭
#f1#formula 1#formula one#f1 fanfic#f1 fic#f1 imagine#f1 x reader#formula 1 fanfic#formula 1 imagine#formula 1 x reader#lando norris#lando norris 4#ln4#lando norris smau#lando norris fic#lando norris one shot#lando norris fanfic#lando norris imagine#lando norris x reader#lando norris x female!reader#lando norris x sainz!reader#lando norris x actress!reader#lando norris x y/n#lando norris x you#ln4 one shot#ln4 imagine#ln4 fic#ln4 fluff#ln4 x you#ln4 x reader
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⚡️Solar return chart 2022⚡️
Hello I’m am back with SR Chart observation as I promised from 2022, these are just personal observations and experiences if you haven’t experienced any sorts of things that’s complete fine. These are not facts neither predictions so don’t panic and think that the same situation will manifest for you. Alright ??? 😉
yeah let’s just get into it ! 🫶🏽
⚡️Cancer Rising:
This placement literally made me emotionally expressive and MOODY more than ever. From the start of that year i stayed at home for literally 3- 4 months after I dropped out of school. I very much enjoyed being at home with my family, cooking, cleaning doing domestic stuff . It was very interesting how the people in my environment started being very supportive and protective over my well-being like those of a little child. I definitely expressed my emotions openly : like randomly crying , huge outburst of laughter , or simply smiling a lot. I felt more caring and nurturing towards others . Thought about moving out surfaced a lot. Cancer is a very comforting energy but since it’s ruled by the moon there a lot of drastic unstable changes that could occur in once live.
⚡️Moon , North Node in the 12th house:
This placement brought a profound sense of isolation and introspection. I found myself naturally drawn to solitude, spending hours meditating, practicing yoga, or simply enjoying peaceful moments in nature. It felt like a spiritual awakening—connecting deeply with my intuition and exploring dreams that often felt like messages from a higher source. Meditation and Manifestation became a daily practice. While these moments of stillness were empowering, they also highlighted an inner restlessness and a desire to understand my true purpose. This phase was about healing, embracing the unknown, and surrendering to the flow of life.
⚡️Sun, Neptune, Jupiter in the 10th house:
Career and life path became the central focus during this time. I found myself dreaming bigger, envisioning a life where my efforts and aspirations aligned perfectly. I applied to different companies and got a new good job, I was in my hustling and bag area it was pretty good and productive year. I started thinking about the impact I wanted to have in the world like how I wanted to be perceived and what achievements I wanted to be known for. It was all about refining my goals, building a stronger work ethic, and setting the stage for future success.
⚡️SR Rising in natal 3rd house:
Communication became a major theme since I had went to a lot of interviews, had to reintroduce myself to different people which pushed me out of my comfort zone. Also writing job applications, or reconnecting with siblings, it felt like the universe was nudging me to refine my voice and share my thoughts more clearly. Short-distance travels were frequent, giving me a sense of curiosity.
⚡️Venus, Mars, Pluto in the 8th house:
Now these placements fucked meee upppp and I really mean they fucked my life up and turned it to 180
With Pluto being in my 8th house, the intensity of this year was amplified 10x. The 8th house rules transformation, trauma, money, intimacy, and taboo topics, so this energy hit hard. At the start, I was determined to open a bank and savings account, but it took forever with endless complications. I became obsessed with earning money—whether through my own efforts or others' help. Mars pushed me to focus on loans, investments, and financial security, while Venus amplified my desire for deep, soul-bonding relationships, intimacy, and, let’s be real... a lot of … Pluto, however, had other plans, flipping my world upside down. It made me face every fear and trauma regarding death, losing loved ones, intimacy, change, love, and even illness. I got sick for six months straight, lost friends, stability, and other things. It led to a mild depression, but in true 8th house fashion, I rose stronger. Now, I feel like Wonder Woman nothing and no one can shake me. I survived the storm, and that’s power. 💪🔥
⚡️Saturn in the 9th house:
Soo with this Saturn placement your girl has been hustling for good grades in school to not fail for the year. like since then I hated going to school bc it very stressful, and bad for my well-being , like I was always tense and stressed bc of school, in our normal societal living that is very much expected from us but honestly I just wasn’t having it. And even when i changed to another school it was the same shit like the environment and people were very cold ,strict and depressing I honestly didn’t had a nice time at school but at least I was motivated to study and learn as much as I can but at the end I decided to rather drop out because it was fucking with mental health. Also traveling long as hours for work and school purposes drove me crazy, that’s an area where I have been very disciplined at but It definitely took patience and determination to get there ;) .
⚡️Uranus, Chiron in the 11th house:
Guese who tf lost all their friends suddenly ??? And had a hard time fitting in new social groups because they felt different from everyone else:
🙋🏽♀️
(but no for real the energy is 10x intensified bc I have it natally additionaly Saturn is transiting my natal 11th house so yeah 🙁) not only did I loose most of friends but when engaging with different kinds of social groups I felt so uncomfortable and weird, like I had a very detached feeling. I hated to even be surrounded by groups of ppl that don’t hold the same value to mine or I that I can’t engage in intellectual topic of my interest. I was mostly bored asf when in interactions and stoped giving a fuck about trying too fit in and please their expectation and needs, I surely saw also trough the fake persona of a lot of ppl that I encountered and distanced myself even more. But It was that easy being all alone and isolated.
#astro notes#astro observations#astrology#astro community#astro placements#astro posts#astroloji#astroblr#solar return chart#solar retun
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[Red & Black Trumpets]
#Cait Directs Les Mis#Les Miserables#I??? Havent shared this image here yet????#HOW??????#It's from rehearsals and we're missing Feuilly :(#But we do see#Bahorel#Prouvaire#Combeferre#Enjolras#Courfeyrac#Bossuet#Joly#Grantaire#Plus other students#Les Amis de l'ABC#Barricade Boys#age span of 12-83#and a decent selection of various genders#Last Supper#Enjolras Christ Energy#This staging was just me living my dreams#Musical Theatre#Community Theatre
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my take on The orv webtoon panel 💥
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#kim dokja#yoo joonghyuk#omniscient reader's viewpoint#orv#fanart#myart#doodle#me drawing this like: i've made a grave mistake kdj looks way too pretty lol#ppl going to a.nime nyc and getting autographs from s.leepy-c just know that i am so jealous of you (lighthearted)#same goes for ppl seeing jk's golden live on stage >< how does it feel to be living my dream#anyway this took ummm 5+ hours.. i definitely respect comic artists for delivering high quality works esp for weekly series#i'm this 🤏 close to caving and reading the orv webnovel just btw. i don't believe i'll be able to hold out for much longer
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the constant internal struggle of do i want 2 take T or do i just wish i were a cis man and ill be miserable either way
#but then ill never know until i do i it#i wont lose anything#but it is so much effort n i am already so tired#also why i steer clear of any trans realization media ive finally made it out of the aching crying clawing stage and i fear it BAJH.. ..#(emotionally)#my insecurities ruin everything#i wish i could just transition and be happy#but all i can think about is will i be uglier#will it make me even worse to the public#will it make my skin rough#im more nonbinary than anything anyways n i always have been#so i dont feel pressured to or anything#but its My wants#that. r so . hard to understand#i dream of just being some guy almost everyday#but then . can i be#would i be#i wish i could shapeshift more than anything#some days i want a body more feminine and others more masculine#but neither are what i have#because theyre both perfect & attractive in my head#and ill never be that#i would like to try hrt and see if it helps. if it makes me like myself or gives me a different perspective#but im scared HJHA.. . i cant even go to the doctor for my anxiety meds#and it makes it feel so Big#and im terrified because of that ill live my life wrong but knowing exactly what was wrong the entire time#and the regret will kill me. i have the privilege to know#but im not acting on it#i already wasted 23 years of my life stuck here . unable to do anything or be myself. will i ever get out will i ever change#will i ever be ok
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I have…. Normal, sane thoughts
#purples art!#my art!#mine!#me!#John juniper#ieytd2#you know that one specific flavour of nightmares characters who are in the show business might have in media#specifically the ones where they’re sitting in front of a live audience experiencing awful things as the audience claps and oohs and aahs#and laughs at them? eternal faceless observers? uncaring callous judgemental?#I want to inflict it upon him#he’ll be sitting in a room with the brightly lit stage and the friendly talk show host#audience hidden by the bright lights#and he’ll detail - like in any other good story where he draws from personal experience - the events of his life until now#the mistakes and horrible awful things and he does it all with a light smile and joking tone#like always. like it’s just a good story for his fans. heavily edited to not be ‘too much’#and as he describes the horrible traumatic things the audience laughs and cheers#his paranoia laid bare for the world to see even as he loses the self assurance and charisma#in the dream they don’t stop#they won’t stop looking at him#laughing. clapping. joking#not even when he breaks down in tears#hmm#maybe I’ll write it
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i kind of hate art. i can never make anythin.g i enjoy anymore. all i can draw nowadays is souless anime boy twink adopts for money. money money money. i dont even want money. i hate twinks. i hate drawing them .i hate the people that buy them. i hate my life
#my one irl friend just got accepted into a prestigious university#and it made me think. wow#theyre doing something with their life#and here i am#wiith not even a hs education#my only skill being art#which i can barely do#like damn#we were once at the exact same stage in life talking about undertale or whatever the fuck at recess. same prospects#who would of thought#we would go in inverse directions with our lives#its almost funny#maybe when they become the first non binary president they will remember me and be like lol what a loser#a girl can dream#funny how things work out
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Some like it hot is a very funny film god I love motion pictures
#i do i really do#my dream was always to be involved with them in some way I always wanted to be in a movie#but I'm not a good actor and i have terrible stage fright and oh I'm just not made for it#I'm just really not it's a shame but such is life#to be an entertainer you have to be entertaining and I'm just really really boring i have no charisma and barely any charme it's a shame#but if those were the cards i was dealt then until I find a way to cheat the system I will have to live with it#pwople don't value films as an art form enough they're wonderful#everything you could want out of a storytelling#except maybe narrator commentary#if books had all the visually expressive opportunity of movies and movies had all the insight of books i think that would be marvellous#movies and the theater will always be like a summer romance to me#wonderful but leading nowhere#i really like movies though i really do
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Laying in bed wishing I was in a field full of milkweed collecting seeds
#out of queue#ani rambles#i wanna learn how to collect seeds from more plants#and get better at plant id so i can know what i’m looking at even if its in the seeding stage#and then find the plants to collect seeds from during seeding stage#unfortunately I live in THE BIGGEST FUCKING CITY IN FLORIDA so the chances of me just quick and easy finding a whimsical patch of wildflower#is uh. fuckin nonexistent#the closest ive got that I know of is my backyard which is A: not big and B: mostly dead after the heatwave and my utter lack of ability to#remember to water a garden once we hit June or July#TO MY CREDIT I had my graduate capstone project so I was FUCKING BUSY but STILL#i keep dreaming that I have a wholeass ziploc bag full of swamp milkweed seeds from my backyard#meanwhile out of the eight swamp milkweed plants i’ve obtained over the course of the year you wanna know how many went to seed?#FUCKING NONE OF THEM#BECAUSE I SUCK AT WATERING THINGS#and also the aphids went fucking nuts AND I FORGOT TO SPRAY THEM OFF WITH WATER BC I SUCK AT WATERING THINGS
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About to be a little #fandom critical while I’m still mildly delirious
One of my biggest pet peeves is people who draw/write cquackity and cpurpled as friends or even just like on good terms that aren’t forced
you can’t look me in the eyes and tell me that alex “no one will remember you” quackity and purpled “I don’t think there will ever be a point in time where I respect you as a person” bedwars are friends
#About to rant in the tags#Like#i understand if they have a mildly positive relationship due to just living and working in the same place#And because purpled was faking friendliness to make himself less suspicious#But they do not like each other. They are not friends. Let alone found family#mcyt#dsmp#dream smp#purpled#quackity#c!purpled#c!quackity#fandom critical#las nevadas#Like I’m all about dynamics that don’t exist have you seen my golden duo posts but this one always bugs me#purpled did not say “I’m going to fucking kill you” and kill Quackitys best friend and team up with stage duo to blow up las nevadas#For you to tell me “yeah they’re friends :)” “they have a family dynamic :):)”#There’s no genuine heat behind this I’m just tired#Also Quackity did not blow up purpleds house and watch him murder slime and CHEER AND CLAP WHEN HE DIED for you to tell me he cares about#him#like. they fucking hate each other. they’re mean little assholes who do not get along#this being said I have read fics and things where they have a friendlier dynamic but those were NOT canon compliant#If you made it down here thank you for coming to my ted talk#10piecetalks
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cons of going to a “good schoolTM”: insane workload, unbearable classmates, next to no support when you have any kind of extenuating circumstances Including literal hospitalization, etc
pros of going to a “good schoolTM”: the 9-5 lifestyle is genuinely a major improvement
#taylor.txt#the extenuating circumstances point was not me btw. i know someone who had his degree delayed an entire year because of two weeks in psych#we’re in a co-op program or else maybe it wouldve just been one semester but. lol#i hate it here…i hate it#but hey…at least i have the world’s shittiest health insurance!#some of my classmates say they dont feel like working full-time is easier than going to school full-time but it so is#for me. anyway. even when i fumbled my time management bad on the field and make no mistake i was incredibly busy plus i chose a field#notorious for Unpaid Overtime and Taking Your Work Home. even then. it was still easier than this#i would never do undergrad again. i loved everything i learned. i took interesting and awesome classes#but i would never ever do it again. miserable overworked spent most of it friendless until i got on the field#i have a friend who keeps being like idk how you did 4 physics classes this sem and im like girl we are education students…thats an average#semester for a physics major. how must THEY feel#also i have to say just you know. generally. ive worked full-time while living with my parents#AND while living alone. and 50 hours a week was incredibly manageable in the former arrangement. i even wrote and edited an entire novel#in the beginning stages of a pandemic while working 50 hours a week of retail and fast food hell. 40 hours full-time with weekends off#while living alone though? thats hard. i still managed to go to the gym almost every day#currently? i cant get out of bed in the morning. i am putting in 12 hour days and then goinng to bed unable to sleep because im so stressed#i have dreams about school. tangentially theres a really good marxist poem i read last year about this phenomenon in workers#ANYWAY. i have just 8 more days 4 exams 1 research paper and video project#i think i can pass and then thats it. my next semester is hell but just because scheduling the actual classes will be easy#and then i get to go back on the field and actually want to wake up every day. lol#and 8 days from now i will have my christmas shopping done and my apartment will be clean and i will be a fanfic writing machine#also my friends and i booked a demolition room so im sure that will be beneficial kfldjfldndks
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#i'm seeing taylor in two days and even though i am not a hardcore fan now#i used to be when i was 15-17 so i truly feel like i'll be living my past self's dream soon#and she's bringing to south america the same show she's doing anywhere else and that is SO RARE u guys you have no idea#harry's never done it and it's one of the things that annoys me the most about him and his team#i'm talking about stage/production not about him personally#obvs but just to clarify
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snowblood is outright the metalcore song of all time I don't know what it is about that song specifically but it has everything
#only thing i want from it is a bass playthrough lol#the guitar playthrough lives rent free in my head and on my phone but i need the bass and also the drums ones#but yeah. the intro starting out ominous then the rest of the instruments coming in then the verse riff of all time#and jt starting the verse with 'blood starved machine in a feeding frenzy' then jesse with the clean chorus#then finishing the chrous and going back to playing the verse riff effortlessly live (its a hard riff he said it is himself)#and the tremolo riff and mini breakdown before second chorus which leads straight into a classic jesse cash guitar solo#then the bridge/buildup part with the buried distant cleans then the 'sleepless nights hearing voices... the dead are not dreaming-#-can't you hear them screaming?' and breakdown! then breakdown intensifies! the energy on stage is at its peak! and it ends. just like that.#but like. the screaming? brutal. the cleans? on point. the guitars? impossible as always. the bass? felt deep in the bones.#the drums? written better and better. the lyrics? metal as fuck. the ambience? suitably ominous. the band as a whole? immaculate.#its not even their best song or my favourite but it is metalcore song of all time and erra song of the moment#erra#metalcore#i am incredibly normal about their music as you can probably tell (i want jesse cash to teach me guitar)
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tell me why i had a dream the other night that i had an affair with matty healy when i have not thought about that man for more than two minutes in my life
#i saw him live like pretty close to the stage (small venue) as a teenager and i still know shit all about him#and i have never fantasised about him even once#and yet in my dream i like. borrowed his skirt (??) and he saved me from danger and i hid out at his house#and we had a Thing and then some girls told me he was bad news but i was like. he seems different than u think#and i started to accidentally fall in love with him and we weren’t communicating about anything#just having rly intense nights with his friends and family and alone while i hid out at his house#and i rode on the back of his motorcycle#and like suddenly was In His Celebrity Life without meaning to be. and i was on my way to his concert to wait backstage and he’d like#kind of been ignoring me for a day or two? being weird and distant even tho i was in his house. and i was rly confused#and this girl told me he had commitment issues and i was like ok#and all of them were rly sad that he stopped calling them and i was like ‘i’m not rly a part of this group i wasn’t even a fan rly’#’this happened accidentally why do i feel so confused rn’#why did i have such a complicated dream about this man I Don’t Even Know Him
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Maybe I should've been an actress. I get lost in delusions and I don't like being seen as myself.
#tales from diana#it's hard not to think about the theater with all this shakespeare ive watched and read this year#and well a whole lot of other plays too. schiller and calderon and racine and lots of restoration comedy#i can't help but think god i do wanna be in there#i thought i never wanted to do anything of that again after how bad it was for me in high school#can't help it tho. a girl has dreams#that's all i do i live in dreams that's all i do i live in dreams#could any of you have pictured me as an actress? i mean an elegant stage actress#playing tragic queens or witty ingenues i mean#i can but what can i say. im not exactly unbiased and objective#i really am not in any meaning of the word well lately. not at all#and i just wanna shut out the world and put it in a box for later#i still want it. i want the world. but i want it in my safe keeping#life has been disobeying me lately. it needs to go to its room and reflect
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#i had a dream that i was seeing louis live#last night#and he took a walk around the audience#i didn’t want him to see me so i sat down#but he still noticed me and commented that it was nice to see old people attending his shows#and i was like bitch??? you’re only two years younger than me i am not old???#and he just laughed and then i woke up#also he had some guy on the stage in a white dog suit#you know. like a mascot.#and the mascot was wearing a hockey jersey that read harry styles on the back#and i thought great. this is gonna do numbers on tumblr i’m already annoyed.#JHJHJHDSFSFF#honestly freud would’ve had a field day with me and my dreams#anyway i’m not seeing louis live and after this dream i never will#jhjhj okay i’m kidding i’m kidding#well i mean i don’t plan on seeing louis live#at the moment niall is the only former 1D member i am willing to give my hard earned money
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