#This probably makes no sense to anyone

[glossykris]

I’m clearly in one of those borderline euphoria moods that override some of my avoidant behaviors and while it’s kinda nice to have this confidence for a change I’m also concerned 🤡 Because when the switch up happens and I become more anxious I’m gonna crash so hard. It’s uncomfortable when I impulsively break my own boundaries during euphoria because my avoidant side (/just me normally) is not okay with the things I do in that headspace. This sounds like I have two personalities or something, it’s not like that but sometimes it honestly feels like it.

[orioncarnell]

unfinished duet - richard siken

Sometimes his body doesn't belong to him.

He tries to reclaim.

And he never truly suceeds.

Doomed to be touched no matter what.

But in the end he lived.

And his father didn't.

That matters.

[ftshorty]

My old friend said she misses when I'm "chaotic" (I have so much disdain for that word). "I'm no fun anymore." My ex said she'd give me a call if she ever "got bored" again.

I've been reduced down to entertainment.

2017

My trauma made me feel like things were happening to me. I had no control over things I tried so hard for. I came out of it believing my actions are futile.

2021

I got so much love from fake friends enabling me to self-sabotage. I remember thinking nothing was that big of a deal, I felt so small. I learned I'd get connection if I could give them an exciting time. I confused that for a meaningful supportive connection.

2023

When I process everything, I enter a dark place. It's hard to move on, really. I try to make up for what I've done, but sometimes I still feel like a puppet on string. I'm bound to people's forgiveness, and I'm bound to their desire for entertainment: two sides of the same coin I've been flipping back and forth.

I really wish I had friends who loved me just because and helped me make positive choices. I constantly fight the urge to detach, just so I can feel better for a single moment.

[starbuck]

reading and watching “classic” books and films is such an interesting experience because, before you get into them, when you only know them by name and maybe the vaguest plot outline, they’re intimidating and stuffy and up on a pedestal, but then you finally take the leap and check them out and realize that almost every story that’s achieved such a legendary level of popularity did so because something in its emotional core reached out and grabbed a lot of people by the throat and you are NOT immune.

[ciderjacks]

despite Laios low self esteem making him think that if he’d been eaten, Chilchuck and Marcille wouldn’t have helped Falin,

theres a small part of me that thinks the reason Chilchuck stayed with the party and went back in the dungeon in the first place was because he didn’t want to leave Laios alone. That Laios was moreso the reason he stayed.

[teefigotem]

sorry i'm on a Murderbot Diaries kick again so y'all are getting meta. thinking about that one scene in Network Effect that everyone talks about. you know, the “who the fuck are you” “this is nonstandard communication” aka the one where Three discovers the concept of eldritch horror for the first time. beautiful scene 10/10 no notes.

that being said i’m also thinking about a take i’ve seen a few times saying that ART was way scarier to Three than it was to Murderbot and like. I don’t think that’s completely true. not to say that ART wasn’t mean or scary to Three — being told that someone might peel away your organic parts piece by piece will in fact be terrifying any way you spin in.

but like. okay. ART and Three come to an understanding very quickly in NE, arguably quicker than Murderbot and ART in AC. and some of that is due to the difference in Murderbot and Three’s personalities, but i think a lot of that is due to how ART approaches each situation.

(more under the cut)

so like okay. when ART and Murderbot first meet, Murderbot is entirely a wildcard coming aboard ART, and ART responds the way you would to an unknown, unpredictable threat, i.e. with a blatant but somewhat ambiguous show of force. by dropping its walls ART is doing the equivalent of like. brandishing a powerful weapon in your face. it doesn't explicitly tell Murderbot that it will hurt it. in fact, the only things it says to Murderbot are to tell it that it knows that it's a rogue SecUnit and to warn Murderbot not to hack it. this is the type of approach you'd take with someone who you aren't sure even has the capacity to be reasoned with - it demonstrates that it could crush Murderbot like a bug, because this is the only thing it's confident Murderbot will respond to.

the problem with this, from Murderbot's POV, is that, because the threat is implied rather than explicitly stated, there's no reassurance that if Murderbot doesn't try to hack ART then ART will leave it alone in turn. in fact, it spends the moments after this interaction spiraling about what ART wants with it and whether ART specifically let it on board to torture or kill it. i don't think that was ART's intention with the threat, i think it genuinely did not have the context to realize that Murderbot would take the show of force more as a threat of imminent violence than as a warning against attacking it. but, since it didn't have that context, it approached that interaction like one would approach someone with whom you don't see as an equal and don't have any interest in reasoning with.

contrast that to how ART interacts with Three. on the surface, what it says is scarier. its threats are certainly more violent. but they are also explicitly stated if/then statements: if you hurt these humans, then i will do xyz to you. i do know that in mathematical logic there's still no guarantee made in if/then statements that the then won't come to pass regardless, but the specificity of both the threat and the guidelines provides Three with parameters to follow, and implies that if it does then no harm will come to it.

this was notable to me because ART speaks to Three like a person to be negotiated with from the beginning, and that's. well. because it knows enough by now to know that Three is a person, in a way that i'm not sure it knew about Murderbot before seeing Murderbot's memory files of the governor module. it knows before speaking to them that both Murderbot and Three are rogue SecUnits, but its understanding of what a rogue SecUnit is, what it is capable of, and what it might do has profoundly changed between two interactions. even in their first interaction ART treats Three like a person who may be capable of being dangerous, rather than like a loose cannon who could mindlessly commit violence at any minute.

[koumori-1999]

this is actually a horrible VA joke no one asked for

[mirabritart]

Can I suggest a character for the anti ai thing if you have the time? Anya Waynwood, the baddest bitch from sansa’s vale plotline 🙏🏻

Everybody really quick go say thank you to "A Search of Ice and Fire" for existing and being the most useful singular reference in like any fandom ever. Being able to search and read through every mention of Lady Waynwood made this way easier!

So here we have the Lady of Ironoaks and like 10% of a horse.

[kiwiaok]

neil josten is a bit of a creature in my mind, but not in any sensible way. he’s a creature because how many person-suits can you drape over your skeleton before the human part dissolves and you’re just a mix of crooked teeth and mismatched skin tissue? he’s a creature because his eyes hold galaxies and because his words are talons and beaks. and he’s a creature because he deserves a pair of mischievous horns peeking out of the flurry of his hair. but he’s also completely human (unless you see him bathed in the moonlight from the corner of your eye. then he’s mist and haze and rust and old creaking door)

[fred-the-dinosaur]

ok, I started writing this in response to someone in particular but it felt unfair to single them out when the reason I was moved say something was because they were like the seventh person saying the same thing in a day.

To all the people like me, who had never heard of those YouTubers. Yeah, I get the vibe. I'd never heard of him either! Or any of the others. But so what ? Firstly, someone else you like is probably doing the same thing, and Secondly, on this scale? You probably HAVE HEARD of him. You just didn't know.

As turns out, I HAD heard of him.

I was so sure I hadn't. Lucky me for being so disconnected from the internet zeitgeist that I am insulated from its fallout! lol. Except I had read @vaspider 's post rejecting his spreading of Leibowitz's statements about 'boring people dying of aids', someone who at the time was struggling uphill against public opinion. Someone else I follow had a Hannibal video plagiarized last year by a big youtuber who turned out to also be him. My wife and I love watching verilybitchie, guess who also got a video ripped off by somerton?

And, like, you're right about how the fuck did people not take more issue with the 'nazis so hot' shit. But lots of people believed him, and spread it wide enough that you might have seen it. I am sure I've seen other, less explicitly awful takes of his crossing my dash, even passed them on, takes that were not even particularly horrifying, just misleading or untrue or stolen and taken out of context. Takes that are distorting the narrative of queer history on tumblr, beyond.

I'm not pointing fingers, just worried the impact of the video is getting lost. I wish someone who could write better and sound less grumpy doing it had written this instead. I just hadn't seen anyone else say exactly this yet. Specifically that, like me, you probably have heard of him, or more importantly his influence. Lots of other people you like got their stuff stolen by him.

And if you really have never met him or the consequences of his actions. then you've met someone else just like him.

I'd never 'heard' of him. So what?

[chiyana]

Bruce: now, for the last part of this meeting

Dick, Jason, Tim, Stephanie, Damian, Cass, and Duke: ?

Bruce: -turns around to bring up a power point presentation, the title card of which just reads 'Please Be Normal About Tim'-

Bruce: -turns back around-

Bruce: ...Tim why are you the only one still here

Tim: I just like power point presentations

[acetheta]

thinking about how leo goes mad over jason the same way beryl did over zeus

[qulizalfos]

"jinx adopting isha lmao" yes okay but the vicious cycle of silco taking jinx under his wing when she was at her absolute lowest and observing her spiral out of control from a quilted leather chair and jinx killing silco and jinx still grappling with his death and jinx is unmoored and her face is splashed over every wanted poster plastered to grimy walls in the lanes. because you're a jinx - vi had no fucking idea. and then isha falls on jinx's head and knocks her to the floor to escape people who want her dead and jinx puts a bullet in each because it's what she does but isha sticks around. isha throws herself in vi's way because jinx was teetering on the brink of death and swaying in its favor and jinx screams "NO!" and there's a trembling gun in vi's face and a small finger on the trigger. and jinx sees powder between them. she remembers sobbing, tackling silco in a hug and now isha's blubbering with her hands around her and of course jinx knows exactly how this goes so jinx sees her own death. no, no, no, this isn't how it's supposed to- but it really couldn't have gone any other way. you are your fathers child etc.

[not-that-debonair]

Love the characterisation of U-1146 as a bit of an awkward loser and tbf he definitely is, but also on top of that canonically this guy has charisma for days. He knows everyone (except Memory B ironically). He’s friends with everyone (even after scaring them shitless). He gets along with so many people he got punched in the face for getting along with too many people. He got called a friend repeatedly by a guy he murdered twice. Need I go on.

[howlsofbloodhounds]

killer sans the type of bitch to guilt trip himself into shit just to be able to allow himself to have it

[harukapologist]

I don't think I'll ever finish this so have a 1sec long poorly animated Haruka from like December :3