#Thess also talks too much

[thessalian]

Thess vs Written-Down Shenanigans

Hey, guess what?!? It’s that time of year again - the Steam Next Fest. Which is why I currently have a dozen demos in the download queue, with more to come. So that’s going to be a thing that I talk about for awhile. Though it’s honestly unfair as hell, in my view - every year they taunt me with the new shiny, on or around my birthday, and I play the things and love the things (sometimes, anyway) and then I can’t get them anyway because they’re not out yet. Hell, one of the ones from the last Next Fest is only coming out at the end of next month. Anyway, point is my wish list is going to get stupid again and I’ll be talking about Games Coming Soon To A PC Near You for most of the week, probably.

Also, speaking of things I’m probably going to talk a lot about, I was considering opening up a side-blog for my various culinary shenanigans. You know, sharing some recipes, charting my various experiments, giving a run-down on various kitchen utensils and why I find them useful, tips for spoonies in the kitchen, stuff like that. Just I’m having one of those “And why the hell is anyone interested in this?” moments. But fuck it; even if it’s just a place for my own reference it’s probably worth it. ...Right?

Anyway, I know it’s late but I’m still sore and I have demos downloading and it’d be nice to play at least one of them before I crash for the night. Shenanigaaaaaans.

[insanely-lovely-and-random]

Alrightyy saw Challengers for numero uno tonight and these are some thoughts/things that really got me the second time round!

*Thess are just my opinions the film can be read however anyone else wants

Okay so hear me out.. Tashi is such a dom, Art is such a sub and Patrick is such a switch and oooh it got me how at the beginning it felt like he was Arts dom, then he finds this girl he thinks is fantastic and maybe he thinks she could be the glue to bring him and Art and her all together BUT then it totally fricken backfires and instead he loses both. Art the little puppy he is starts wagging his tail in Zendayas direction and next thing ya know he's got a new owner and Patricks a thing of the past much to his palable distress. I mean christ boyos living in his car and starving, boys a mess since his lost his dom and sub poor boyo, so now various things I noticed some of which I feel back up my argument haha

Gosh theres so many little moments, Patricks thing for Art seems so obvious yet Art seems totally clueless.

1) Patrick is defos bi, not just because he just so is but also cause he matches with a guy on his dating app during his swiping.

2) The doubles match they play in the past? Gosh they're all over eachother! And Pats clearly in charge of that relationship and Art seems totally cool with that (for then anyways..)

3) When him and Art are watching Tashis game at the vert beginning Patrick grabs Arts leg in exhilaration. I mean he always seems to be touching or in the space of his boy for christs sake.

4) When Tashi mentions the fact Arts going to Stamford Patrick noticeably makes a face, you could say its because shes paying attention to Art instead of him or that hes upset because shes going to college instead of going profesh BUT I really didnt read it that way. To me it looked like he was upset Art was going to college, they've been together for years after all and now their splitting up, poor boyo.

5) When Zendaya asks if theres anything going on between then, Art laughs and says no BUT Patrick??? Science and he looks down, hell he wishes there was summat.

6) He taught Art to jerk off. Fucking hell.

7) There kiss man, all three of then and then just Art and Pat, just soo much chemistry.

8) When he reveals he slwpt with Zendaya to Art, and Arts smile drops. I think he's heartbroke at him sleeping with the girl he likes but I also see it as pain at being left out. These two people he's entwined with and now he's outside looking in. I also think If Patrick had seen that reaction he'd have seen a looot sooner that his relationship with Tashi might backfire greatly.

9) Patrick vsiting Stamford, first person he goes to see, his girlfriend maybe..? NOPE hes too busy chasing Art around the tennis court 😭

10) There's a ton of hot moments in this film. And the hottest? To me? That bloody stool grab with his foot. He wants Art close, he always bloody does! And the churros christ! And once again showing Art who's top so to speak, eating his churro, and telling him hes proud of his snakey behaviour. And that it makes his relationship with Zendaya hotter (I bloody bet it does) He never ever seems to show jealousy about Arts feelings for Zendaya, he points out thay he doesn't see him as competition to her not long after and I BET his doesn't. Cause I think he'd love it if Art was with him and Zendaya.

11) My God this bit gets be cause it gets echoed later. Him and Zendaya are making out and this girl who he's with and cares about is just talking bout his tennis game. And tbf what does he say?? "Weren't you gonna tell me bout Art" hells bells could you be more obvious?? And then the fight, he asks her if she's talking about tennis and her reply "I'm always talking about tennis" and I mention this cause it's gonna be relevant later.

12) The injury happens and everyone loses something. Zendaya has lost her career and ability to play tennis to her full potential. Art loses his best friend and Poor pathetic Patrick lost his bestfriend(and secret love) and his actual girlfriend all in one day!

From here on I cant guarantee my numbered points are in timeline order as the timline stated getting more out of sequence🤣

13) Zendaya and Art in the diner and after hearing Art and Pat dont talk no more saying she's a homewrecker after all. And what does Art say?? Zip. Nada. No denial just silence.

14) Okay lets talk that sauna scene. It was gloriously tragic. Patrick is clearly unaware why Art is THAT hostile towards him. I mean thinking of it from his point of view he'd have more reason to be angry considering the snakey girlfriend behaviour. But he never is angry at Art, not once no matter what he did. Of course we then discover Art is SO pissed cause he knows about Atlanta. Christ I bet pur stupid idiot boy Patrick thinks hes just being cleverly smug with that "when we were teenagers" line but idiot boyo your rubbing salt in the wounds 😭

15) still about the sauna, the naked trying to be top dog like old times but no no no, not anymore. Arts not his to be in charge of anymore. And the camera shows Art as higher while Patrick slouches nearby. Patrick asks him when he's so mad but doesn't get an answer. This scene was tragic to me, Patrick just seems hurt by Arts attitude. Art points out that they're no longer peers and I love this because thats the difference between the Zendaya/boys relationship and Arts and Pats. Pat may have been the dom so to speak with Art but he still saw them as peers. Zendaya doesn't. Thats the main difference in their relationships. Respect.

16) One of my fave damn parts of dialogue in the movie. (I really can't remember exact phrasing but this is how I rememeber it) Art is so sus of Pat, Pat asks him if he misses it, Art says he doesnt. And when Pat says he wasn't talking about tennis, Art says "Your always talking to me about tennis" and oof the punch to my gut that was. And it seemed to Patricks too! His face, this poor boy has twice been talking to the people he cares about, abou their relationship and they just say their talking about tennis, he cant catch a break😭

17) Pats reaction to Zendaya asking him to throw the game, is he offended for himself? Nopeee he's mad that she'd do that to Art. He says something along the lines of fucking him was one thing but to have Arts victory be a lie?? Gross, too far, too much of a betrayal.

18) For the third time, having just fucked Zendaya in the car and she just immediately brings up him throwing the match, like crimeny man this boy is probs sick of this game getting in the way of his relationships haha

19) Ooh that match point is glorious glorious cinema my friends. Patrick is so interesting in this whole match. Him deliberating on if he's gonna tell Art? So juicy and the way he did was fucking hilarious. That unspoken signal? Beauty.

20) Arts reaction? Wow oh wowww. The lad went through the five fricken stages of grief! The denial "fuck off!" the rage, throwing his racket, the bargaining, looking at Zendaya as if to say its not true (when she has no fucking clue what just happened). The depression, those sad sweaty tears 🥲 and then? That gorgeous smile, that acceptance. I think he felt catharsis, his marraige was clearly dysfunctional at this point and maybe knowing she cheated, knowing she'd threatened to leave if he lost, maybe that helped him let go of it. Ripped off the bandage, turned off life support, finally shake the pedestal he'd put his wife on( he compared her to jesus for christs sake). He made it through to the otherside and Patrick was there waiting for him with open arms ()iterally lol)

21) When Pat sees Arts smile? His own blossoms, clearly in relief and exaltation. I truly think he told him not to throw his game but to spur Art on. To finally unlock his potential. And to get the old Art he knew back and it bloody worked. That final back and forth, the pure energy, those sexual grunts all building up to a crescendo of a climax. Hooo boy

22) That goddamn brilliant leap in the air. Art is freed and flying, and Patrick doesn't hesitate he flings his racket to the floor because the thing that mattered to him most was never tennis. And he catches his boy with arms wide and then that embrace. They have finally come back together. It was beautiful. What does losing the match matter to Pat when he finally has his arms all over Art again just like he did in the beginning. We have come full circle.

Hahaha this is purely my own read into the movie and obvs mostly about the Patrick character and how I saw his actions. Now a few little bonus notes I noticed.

Nearly everything the boys eat/drink seems phallic, hotdogs, bananas, churros, even those drink bottles and cigarettes. Boyos are obsessed!

Zendaya on the rock at the beach was very little mermaid. Also in that scene when she said she wouldn't wanna get between em. Art said they didn't love together but Pat says "It's an open relationship" hecks you too obvious boy.

This movies so chock full of foreshadowing too, the story about Cat who got injured a week later. Patrick at Tashis party saying she'd have deals and a foundation which she does but via her relationship with Art instead just really cool script tbh

(Will probs add more when I remember em/see it for third time cause I am planning on that🤣🤣)

[bat-stuff]

Damian Wayne headcanons: “Totally can make girls swoon as long as he’s not standing next to Damian (we’ll talk about Damian’s body and pretty boy features in another post)”, can we get that post discussing Damian’s pretty boy features and how he most likely gets the most people coming after him thx to his perfect mix of Talia and Bruce’s genes (Talia’s brown skin color, her green cat shaped eyes w/long eyelashes, Bruce’s face (tho I headcanon the older dami gets the more he physically resembles Talia until the resemblance is uncanny, or he grows to become a perfect match of both his parents facial features), hairline (unless dami grows his hair out a little more in the future), the Wayne charm etc.)????????? Also how the others (Collin, Jon, & Billy) attractive looks attract others as well?????

Honestly, I totally forgot that Tumblr existed for a while so thess are way overdue. But here we go.

Also, excuse Damian's for being hella long but I've had a lot of time to think about Damian

Ok I also have a feeling that I haven't mentioned this before ...

All my content for these boys is aged up, which means they aren't a gaggle of 12 year olds. I'm imagining them between the ages of 16 and 18 unless otherwise stated.

DAMIAN WAYNE, JON KENT, COLIN WILKES, AND BILLY BATSON FEATURES HEADCANONS

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DAMIAN WAYNE

Damian has green eyes, I know people will argue and say he has blue but his eyes are definitely a dark mossy green.

Though they definitely have the capability of changing color in the sunlight, they light up and turn into lighter shades depending on the lighting and time of day, but personally I think they are a dark mossy green.

I don't want to spend too much time on Damian's eyes but for example, in Gotham they tend to be darker because of the atmosphere, whereas when Damian goes to see Jon in Metropolis, they'll be lighter shades because of the sunlight

He 100% has Talia's eyes, and facial structure. I can see him having more of Bruce's features, but his facial and body structure is closer to Talia.

Strong jawline but softer than Bruce's. Damian looks a bit like Bruce but not as sharp, so to speak. His face is slimmer and more rounded, his eyes are more pointed and are sharper but Bruce's are wider.

Bruce is ruggedly handsome, Damian is flawlessly pretty.

Damian's body structure is closer to Talia's too.

I don't see Damian really being able to pack on muscle mass in the future like Bruce. As Damian gets older his body structure looks a lot like Dick's, he's very well fitted.

He does have nice biceps tho. To the point where when he moves you could feel the muscle flex underneath if you were touching them

(If you haven't experienced this personally with anyone, I highly suggest it. Biceps are hot.)

He doesn't have thick thighs like Jason, but he's still very muscular. Sometimes it's hard to tell unless he's flexing, he's not busting out of his clothes, but he is quite strong.

On to other features, Damian isn't white.

I think we've all established it by now but just to make sure.

His skin is a lot like Talia's, light olive skin. Though, in the summer, if Damian gets even the smallest ounce of light he tans instantly. I'm the winters in Gotham, one might mistake him for white because his skin is lighter but once he's put next to Tim it's easy to see that he's not.

Damian has perfect eyebrows. Nothing else needs to accompany this. His eyebrows are flawless.

Ok, so hair. Another thing I've seen some disagreement on.

I believe Damian's hair is Black, like Bruce. But unlike Bruce it's not coarse and heavy. It's light, wispy and soft. When he was younger at the manor he used to gel it up, but now that he's older he's come to realize that it'll just go wherever he wants and it will be fine.

Damian's voice, which I've kinda already covered, is wide range. He can sound like a little girl or Corpse. He generally leans towards a deeper voice, it vibrates a little so if he's talking while you're touching him in some way you can feel the grumble.

He hums a lot. Not musically, but in response to things. He's taken up a habit of humming into words, like saying "mkay" instead of "okay".

I strongly believe that Damian doesn't laugh, he chuckles. Deep, hearty chuckles that make anyone whose near stop and listen to him laugh. He also snickers and sharply exhales through his nose to make that snorting/snickering sound, I don't know what it's called but I think you can guess what I'm talking about.

Damian doesn't have veiny hands, sorry to disappoint. But his hands are very soft for being a swordsman. His skin is very smooth and he doesn't have many imperfections. No birthmarks because of the Artificial Womb, courtesy of Talia.

Not me going back to his eyes, but he squints a lot. Out of confusion, anger, just looking at something, disgust. His eyes generally take the shape of siren eyes, so it doesn't look unnatural that he gives people sharp looks unintentionally.

His lips are on the thinner side but are still soft. Boy definitely uses chapstick. He doesn't have a big mouth or a little one, he's very well proportioned.

Probably has a plump bottom lip tho

Many know this but he frowns a lot. It's not because he's upset, but it's his thinking face. His eyebrows scrunch together when he's doing this too. If he's thinking about something unpleasant his nose with wrinkle. When Damian's thinking hard he looks very confused and upset.

Nicely shaped abs. He has a long torso

HELLA PRETTY SHOULDERS AND BACK MUSCLES MY GUY

Smells like pine needles and sandalwood. Definitely a rich person scent that's strong but not overpowering.

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BILLY BATSON

Figured I would start with Billy because if we're ranking them, he's the second prettiest.

Personal opinion but you'll see what I mean.

So Billy's eyes are brown. Like a dark, chocolate brown.

Some people might say "Well in the dcau and Young Justice they're blue" but I have a personal belief that they're brown. How many blue eyed superheroes and children of superheroes are there? Too many. They're brown.

In the sun they turn into a dark honey color

DEFINITELY has light freckles across his cheeks, I mean really light tho. You would have to be pretty close to him to see them

Billy's hair is soft, and medium brunette.

it's sort of straight, but kinda wavy

the length of it depends on the season, for instance in the summer he has it cut shorter in the back. But in the winter he lets it grow out a bit more

The skinniest of the bunch but it suits him

He's not SKINNY tho, I mean he's being compared to Superboy, Batman's son, and a Gym Rat Gothamite, cut the little guy some slack

Billy has very slender, lean build. Most likely doesn't have Damian-level muscle but he's still easy on the eyes shirtless

Billy has a a bit of a lopsided smile that sometimes expresses laziness

Teeth smile 100%

He has that sort of soft handsome look

Where Damian is very sharp and defined Billy is smooth

He has softer cheek bones (squishy cheeks) and a defined yet round jawline

Billy has thinner lips

I'm not sure how to describe them honestly

Very calm deep voice, deepest voice of the bunch, adding on to this I imagine that he likes to sing and is the best vocalist in the group

His laugh, contrast to Damian, is boisterous and very open mouthed. He's loud and sometimes it sounds like a cackle, but most of the time Billy has a charming laugh that fills the room

Billy almost smells sugary with a hint of linen. Like warm bed sheets but they were washed next to a bakery.

(He once accidentally stole Mary's Japanese Cherry Blossom lotion and now has this sort of addiction to cherry scented things)

Honestly, Billy smells like a lot of things all the time, so the best description is that he smells very warm and sweet

Boy is part of the super soft hands club

Long. Freaking. Eyelashes.

Like, they might tickle you when you kiss him long

(This isn't a romance headcannon but he would be a great person to kiss, OOOH NEXT POST IDEA)

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JON KENT

Ok so on to Jonathan

So our boys eyes are a sky blue

An open sky in the country, and where some eyes have grey tones, Jon's don't

Dark, black hair that has a loose curl to it

A lot of times it hangs down in his eyes so he developed a tendency to play with his hair

He has one of those headbands that comb/hold back your hair, and he wears it a lot

Wouldn't wear it around the guys, there's no way Colin wouldn't make a little fun of him for it. Damian honestly wouldn't care and Billy would probably buy one once he sees Jon wear it

He has pretty fair skin, but tans often due to being in the Sun at the farm a lot.

Has tan lines on his wrist and ankles from bracelets, he's that kind of guy

I mentioned in a previous post that Jon isn't really big on sweating so our boy probably always smells very clean

His scent is lemony with a hint of linen.

Not that the other boys don't smell clean, Jon is just less musky

Jon us bulkier than Damian and Billy, but smaller than Colin.

Another member of the super soft hands club, as well as the pretty shoulders club

he has a soft voice, but it also holds a lot of energy. He talks fast

the highest pitched voice of the bunch, and for the longest time was slightly squeaky.

lovely sounding voice, can't sing for shit tho. Hes a bit tone deaf.

has DEFINED dimples, the king of dimples

always has a content look on his face, looks and is incredibly friendly

I have a feeling Jon doesn't have completely straight teeth, but still a beautiful, toothy smile

he isn't a mouth breather but has a habit of staring at people with his mouth open a bit.

kinda like a goldfish

lip biter (In the cute/hot way)

(ok so my best comparison for Jon is Dave Lizewski from Kick-Ass. I feel like they would have similar energy. I feel like he and Jon would sound similar as well.)

Toned abs. He doesn't even try, they just happen

nice arms, not super huge but you can visibly see the muscle

His entire vibe is secretly buff nerd boy

loves his glasses, only takes them off when he suits up

they're the round-ish square ones with the iron rim (Dave Lizewski glasses)

sharp jawline, but has a square face

Pouty, thick lips

Jon has fairly big hands, and skinny fingers.

Slightly veiny hands

Has never had a lick of acne in his life so incredibly clean face

Definitely a pretty boy

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COLIN WILKES

Colin is definitely the scraggiliest of the 4

Silly ginger boy

Has straight-ish hair but probably got a perm at some point and it kinda worked for him so he's recently discovered that if he puts stuff in his hair and takes care of it right he has some natural wave

Puppy dog brown eyes that look like melted chocolate

Used to have freckles but they faded as he got older so you only see them if you're extra close

Colin had the widest smile of the group

Never had braces because he couldn't afford it so his teeth are a bit uneven

But they were significantly worse when he was a middle schooler so he's glad they figured themselves out a bit

BIG BOY

THE BIGGEST BOY

This dude has the broadest shoulders of the group, the thickest thighs, the meatiest arms.

Colin is built like a tank

Has the veiniest hands, and they never go away. Just constant veins

Is ALWAYS smirking/smiling.

Has a look on his face that always makes it seem like he'd done something bad and he's proud of it

Obviously he hasn't but it somehow lands him in trouble 9/10 times

Colin is the palest of the group, not just because he roasts like a turkey in the son but because he obviously lives in Gotham, where sunlight doesn't exist

Like Billy, his lips are on the thinner side, but they're NEVER chapped. Loves chapstick, probably would eat it

Colin has a fairly round face, when he was younger he had huge gigantinormous ears, but by 15 he had grown into them

If any of the boys had a glow up it was Colin, he went from Kiddo to Daddy within a summer

Smells like grass and mahogany. Also lysol. Sometimes leather. It depends on what time of day it is.

In the morning, it's lysol and leather because that's when he goes to the gym. But after he showers it's mahogany and like Irish spring. But by the end of the day, for some reason he smells like grass and no one can figure out why

Colin's just kinda strange

His voice is lower than Jon's, but slightly higher than Billy's. (When he's Abuse his voice is much, much deeper)

It's rumbly

Has the best morning voice

When Colin laughs, it's a cackle. He sounds like a hyena

Definitely has toned muscles. The most defined muscles of the group

Has ENORMOUS hands

Rough and calloused from weightlifting but the rest of him is fairly soft

Rougher face because he shaves, puberty hit him HARD

He's not pretty, he's hot

[gr1an]

you’re actually 100000% right about gemtho being compatible they are both the right amount of chaotic and giggly and chill and with the same level of yes-and energy

it’s what made their hangouts in the decked out lobby so fascinating because it was always just like “oh these two vibe so much more than anyone else previously thought” “oh thess two are literally just chatting but the amount of mutual respect that translates into constantly teasing each other is crazy”

i was watching someone else’s recent episode (maybe it was wels?) where etho was trying to trade for a glass permit and he was SO weird and awkward (/endearing) like it was suuuuuch a dramatic difference than when he talks to people he’s comfortable with (esp gem!) so i also 100% back up your agoraphobic etho hc

it’s just. so cute how silly he gets with her and he wouldn’t get to that point if he wasn’t extremely comfortable and didn’t feel like they were on the same page

YEAH I NOTICED THE GLASS TRADING DIFFERENCE IN TODAYS EPISODE TOO!!

him getting her attention by running into her with riptide like 3 times was so cute like he wouldn’t do that with anyone else he’s so obvious /lh

also hell yeah my agoraphobic etho agenda is spreading

[lyranova]

Ooo, let's see 🤔

Well, I do think about Cotf with you, because it's one of your biggest and most popular works! So, I'd have to say next gen and OCs!

But I also think about how sweet you are, and all the funny bits you include into your fics

Tho angst is there too, because... Zera and the think Llyr has going on with Neva (*bonks Llyr so hard with a news paper; Edna Mode lvl bonk*)

Am I already incoherent enough since we're talking about the TM? XD

Hiya Laura!

Ahwjwjwj I think a lot of people associate me with COTF because its my biggest and most popular work (which it wasn’t supposed to be tbh 😅😆)! But not many with my OC’s aside from all of you guys here!

🙈 Ahwjwjwjs thank you 🥺, and I really do try to include funny bits and humor into my fics even though I’m personally not very funny. I just like to make people laugh or I insert it when I think somethings getting a bit too serious and the mood needs to be lightened 😆!

Agwjwwj poor Zera with all her angst 😭, i honestly feel bad for all the angst I’ve put here through because of how much I like her…but in my defense I made that decision long before I gave her a name and personality 🤣! And Llyr…yeah that little bas-, punk…he’s got issues that he needs to resolve (in Fractured and in an AU) cause otherwise I might have to punt him into the ocean /lh!

QHWKSOZKWKWKWKWK!! Now I’m imagining you standing on the table, hitting him on the head, going “pull yourself together!” 🤣👏!

Hqjwjwjs I think thess are very good TM’s that i’m not too sure I deserve 🥺, and I thank you so much for being so sweet Laura 🥺🫂💕!

[lindajenni]

oct 6

abiding in Christ (a repeat daily)

"the steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; His mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness." lam 3:22-23 esv

this is the word of the Lord from the book of lamentations. not necessarily a book one would go to for comfort. and yet there is comfort in those words. if we will only let it. the whole word of God is profitable and comforting. even those times of chastisement which the flesh may dread but will greatly profit from. what did king david say? "thy rod and staff they comfort me." psa 23:4 thy rod a symbol of strength and protection. the staff a symbol of guidance and loving kindness.

you know, i love those mornings when the Lord awakens me early to share His leading for the day. my mind scrambles to grasp and retain all His is speaking so i may recall it when i sit down to share with all of you also.

these are the times i treasure. yet there are those times when i must stare at my computer without any concept of where i will be going. this was one of those and only you can determine the value of my words. it is then we must depend entirely on the Holy Spirit and where He is leading. "for the Holy Spirit will teach you in that very hour what you ought to say." luke 12:12 in those times, inevitably i will later receive confirmation from another source that i was "in tune"; that i was listening to the right voice; my Father's voice.

that is why it is so important to stay close to our Lord. we are urged to "rejoice always, pray without ceasing, in everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you." 1 thess 5:16-18 this is not just a past time to pursue, it is our very life and existence.

i think it was a monk named brother lawrence that wrote a book years ago entitled "pacticing the presence of God"? as one's mind would slowly drift to other things, they must center it back on Him. i also remember a story about the old saint, smith wigglesworth. he was riding in a car with someone and they were discussing many things. suddenly smith blurted out, "stop. we haven't talked about Jesus for 15 minutes". and what does His word have to say? "speaking to one another in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing and making melody in your heart to the Lord". eph 5:19 and yes, that "pray without ceasing" thing also.

these habits do not come naturally in our fallen state. they must be cultivated; tended to and watered as a garden must be. i don't know about you, but the scriptures i used to loving quote, can quickly slip from recall if not visited frequently. "solid food belongs to those who are of full age, that is, those who by reason of use have their senses exercised to discern both good and evil." heb 5:14 that is His word - reason of use, exercised. our spirit needs it as our body does. practice may not make perfect but it surely helps. so practice His presence.

stop and consider: where do you go for comfort and assurance? where is your "eye" in the midst of the storm? it is only there you will find what you need most. one could almost read matt 24 and luke 21 as if they were the daily paper.

then there remains much that is hidden and not reported. it is happening around the world in various places. the earth is reeling with ferocious results. flooding, storms, storms, tornadoes. hurricanes, volcanic eruptions, all signs the earth too is eager for the "new birth". wars and rumors of wars dominate the news cycle. maybe these things have not yet touched your neck of the woods. i am reminded of the sneak previews they advertise in movie theaters - "coming soon to a theater near you".

there is no "safety" in this life. remember the parable: "the ground of a certain rich man yielded an abundant harvest. he thought to himself, ‘what shall i do? i have no place to store my crops.' then he said, ‘this is what i’ll do. i will tear down my barns and build bigger ones, and there i will store my surplus grain. and i’ll say to myself, “you have plenty of grain laid up for many years. take life easy; eat, drink and be merry." but God said to him, ‘you fool! this very night your life will be demanded from you. then who will get what you have prepared for yourself?’" luke 12:16-20

as they say, "we have brought nothing into this world and we shall take nothing with us". only that which we have stored up in heaven. where is your treasure stored? as my life has narrowed down to the "necessities", i realize how much was never really needed, only wanted. now, all i need is Him and He fulfills all my "wants".

[makeste]

BnHA Chapter 310: A Tale of Two Kacchans

Previously on BnHA: Flashback!Deku was all, “hey, you know what sounds like a good decision? Abandoning my studies at the safest place in the country so that the bad guy who wants to find me and kill me has literally nothing standing in his way of doing that.” All Might was all, “I fucking knew you were going to say some bullshit like that so whatever, but I’M COMING WITH YOU and I’m also going to invite the Hawksquad to come with us, mostly so that I can steal Jeanist’s car.” Jeanist was all, “okay fine you can borrow my car, All Might, but only if you wear jeans.” All Might was all, “okay sure” and he wore jeans and also sunglasses and a leather jacket and it was pretty rad. Anyway so now they’re out there fighting crime and hunting down the LoV and stuff, and absolutely none of it is going to end well, I’m just letting you know now. But I guess we’ll let them enjoy it while it lasts.

Today on BnHA: Horikoshi is all “happy belated Kacchan’s Birthday makeste, here’s the flashback you really wanted at long last,” and proceeds to pull the old vestige flashback out of the kitchen drawer and upend its contents all over my Friday afternoon without the slightest bit of warning. OFA III is all “WHAT’S UP I’M JUST SOME GUY, HELLO,” and okay?? Hello yourself. OFA II, on the other hand, is all, “okay yeah I have different hair and stuff, but I’m like 98% sure I’m either Bakugou or his goddamn twin, I mean look at me.” Which, yeah. I looked, and he really is though you guys. Anyway though, so he and OFA II basically just showed up in the First (who goes by Yoichi now)’s prison cell one day all “HEY THERE, WE’RE HERE TO SAVE YOU, APPARENTLY, ALTHOUGH WE SEEM REAL CONFUSED ABOUT IT TBH BUT HEY.” And so they saved him, and Yoichi was all “hey nice to meet you do you want to join my super-exclusive Saving The World Club”, and so they did, and then the chapter ended lol. I would have said yes too.

oh my sweet lord?? I didn’t realize we were getting a color page this week, but LOOK AT THIS

this could have been a fucking volume cover. I’m almost mad that it wasn’t, lol but I mean fkldjslklk just look at it??! Horikoshi out here spoiling us and making sure we’re well fed since next week the manga is on break for Golden Week. well this will certainly help to tide me over. hot damn look at those colors

so now it’s raining on some dumb building in the middle of somewhere

is this where the Hawksquad has set up camp for the night? or are we actually cutting back to the League? that’d be unexpected (but not unwelcome)

ffff nevermind dammit it’s just more random citizens under attack

feels like this is the third or fourth scene we’ve had of civilians being Under Attack since this arc started. I mean no offense, but I think we get it by this point. it’s the end times, etc. etc. we’re well aware that things have gone to shit

so apparently these two guys are facing off against a girl with a mutant quirk. and she’s telling them that she’s not a monster and she was just scared, oh shit. I believe her btw, you can see it in her face

but these assholes don’t believe her at all and they’re pointing what looks to be some type of support item gun at her

you know what’s interesting, is that this kind of random quirk discrimination is the exact kind of thing PLF and the like were swearing up and down they’d put a stop to with their glorious revolution. it’s almost like those guys were completely full of shit. huh

so yeah, fortunately for this woman someone is stepping in and intervening before she can be blasted to bits by this trigger-happy asshole for absolutely no fucking reason

looks like a hero actually stepped in and saved her?? but no that can’t be, heroes are the ones that ruin everything and make everything worse, or so I understand. lol where did all of this sarcasm come from out of nowhere dlkdsjlk I’m sorry guys I just suddenly got swept up in the hypocrisy of certain people’s philosophies out of the blue idek

anyway so it is of course Deku saving her, and now he’s trying to talk thess jerks down all diplomatically instead of just kicking their asses, which is certainly a choice

MOTHERFUCKER I’M

fucking impossible to miss the real world parallels here. shit. this woman nearly died for her crime of Walking While Having A Mutant Quirk huh. and meanwhile Deku is just letting this guy scurry away and even letting him keep that fucking bazooka of his, like, ????

fucking hell she’s crying!!

lmao this chapter is actively trying to make me mad now huh. that’s some genuine righteous anger I’m feeling on behalf of this fictional ferret lady whom I only met two minutes ago. girl you are not the one who needs to explain herself here!! you didn’t do anything wrong holy fuck. everything about this situation sucks so much

fkKJKLMMMHFGH

“I’m sorry I made you upset, please enjoy this panel of tiny!floating!Deku hefting this lady’s massive beach umbrella up for her like the fucking gentleman he is” well okay then thank you sir

and JUST LIKE THAT the tension is broken and I’m entirely incapable of taking the rest of this conversation seriously because Deku’s trying to be all calming and authoritative, but now the illusion has been broken because I know he only comes up to like her knees

“well thanks again for saving me young man. I’ll leave you to it, I’m sure you’ve got more important things to do like protecting your Lucky Charms cereal from all those greedy children”

oh hey All Might

you wouldn’t have just let that guy with the bazooka just walk away to commit more attempted murders would you?? man

OH MY GOD DEKU IS IMMEDIATELY DITCHING HIM AGAIN

I ~CANNOT STAY HERE~ oh, well, sorry to keep you detained I know you’re busy

dfslkjlk oh my god

fucking told you Deku didn’t pack any food lol. it’s literally all notebooks in that bag you guys. he couldn’t just leave them all in his dorm room when he left, because what if someone tried to read them and came across one of the pages where he absentmindedly doodled Kacchan’s name surrounded by little tiny hearts oh gosh

AWWWWW

I needed this Horikoshi. thank you for this wholesome soul-cleansing interaction after all of that bullshit earlier

so now Deku’s climbing up this tall building to eat his lunchbox more dramatically. Tokoyami would be proud

and Banjou is saying that society right now is just like in The Good Old Days (read: bad old days) when quirk society was even more of a mess than it is now

which is exactly how AFO likes it, no doubt

so now Deku’s having a whole conversation with Banjou seemingly out loud lol, weird. and he’s basically saying that they don’t have any clues as to where TomurAFO and the League are hiding right now, and none of the Tartarus escapees they’ve found knew anything either

mmmmmfmhm, marge simpson noises

but you think you can?? you, alone, by yourself?? you think you stand a chance?? I just need you to think this all through a bit more kid

Deku it is NOT JUST YOUR RESPONSIBILITY ALONE, PLEASE REALIZE THIS ALREADY. YOU MAY BE THE CHOSEN ONE, BUT EVEN THE CHOSEN ONE NEEDS HIS FRIENDS BY HIS SIDE GODDAMMIT

and of course my pleading is all in vain, because he’s a fictional character who can’t fucking hear me, and also because I’m pretty sure there’s only one character who is going to actually be able to get him to hear reason here. I’ve been saying it, and I’ll keep saying it lol. so until then I guess I’ll just have to be patient

anyway so it appears we’re segueing into another flashback??? HORIKOSHI PLEASE GIVE ME SOME BAKUCRUMBS BEFORE THE TWO WEEK BREAK, I BEG YOU

dlKSDJLFKWJELKGHSLGKLEKJLFKHLGK

YES, THANK YOU, I KNOW WHERE THIS FUCKING IS LOL, IT’S NOT LIKE I’VE BEEN OBSESSED WITH FINDING OUT WHAT HAPPENS IN THE REST OF THIS SCENE OR ANYTHING LMAO. BUT ANYWAYS DON’T MIND ME, YOU WERE SAYING??

oh my god oh my god I’m not readyyyyy, but also FUCK YEAH I AM SO FUCKING READY LOL LET’S DO THIS

YOU GUYS

I’M ABOUT TO STEP IN THAT ROOM AND YEET ONE OF THOSE FUCKING CHAIRS AT YOU ALL

NOOOOO

I’M ABOUT TO GRAB BANJOU’S GOGGLES AND STRETCH THEM OUT AND SNAP THEM BACK SO THEY SMACK THE SHIT OUT OF HIS FOREHEAD!!! IT’S WHAT HE DESERVES!!! I’M ABOUT TO MOVE TO JAPAN AND GET A JOB WITH DOORDASH AND FIND OUT WHAT HORIKOSHI LIKES TO ORDER FOR LUNCH SO I CAN BE THE ONE TO DELIVER IT SO THAT WHEN HE OPENS THE DOOR I CAN FINALLY ASK HIM “HEY WHAT THE FUCK” IN PERSON

AHHH NO EVERYBODY SHHHHH STOP TALKING!!!!

SOMEONE PLEASE TELL THAT PERSON SCREAMING AT THE TOP OF THEIR LUNGS IN THE BACKGROUND TO SHUT THE FUCK UP, OH WAIT, THAT’S ME

(」゜ロ゜)」 щ(゜ロ゜щ)

LOL THIS FUCKING ASSHOLE!!! LOOK AT YOU!!! YOU’RE NOT KIRISHIMA OR SHINSOU OR IIDA IN A WIG OR ANYBODY LOL. YOU’RE JUST A DUDE. BROOOOO ABOUT FUCKING TIME, WHAT’S GOOD

I CAN’T SCROLL DOWN AHHHH BUT I HAVE TO BUT IT’S TOO INTENSE AHHHHHHH

I CAN SEE THE TOP OF HIS SPIKY HEAD, IT’S FINALLY THAT TIME AHHHHHHHH OKAY I’M GONNA DO IT HERE GOES

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

IT’S HIM. IT FUCKING REALLY FUCKIGN IS HIM OH MY GOD. OH MY GOD. WHY AM I SO SHOCKED LMAO I’M THE ONE WHO’S BEEN SAYING THIS THE WHOLE DAMN TIME LMAO. OH GOD. O H MY FUCKING GOD

well okay then sir. so are you an ~ancestor~ or a Kacchan from another timeline or so what’s your deal then

YOICHI WHO IS YOICHI

YOICHI ALWAYS KNOWS WHAT’S UP. LMAO WHO IS YOICHI

(ETA: I’m going to punch myself in the face lmao. he’s Yoichi. he, the First. that’s his name. name reveal at long last what what!!)

MORE IMPORTANTLY SHOULD I BE IMAGINING NOBU’S VOICE RIGHT NOW BECAUSE LMAO I AM ANYWAY BUT YEAH

(ETA: I actually think he’s going to end up being voiced by Nobuhiko whether he ends up being Kacchan or not, just because it fits right in with the general “identical in almost every way” aesthetic he’s got going on.)

TUMBLR HOW WE LIKING OUR ANGSTY ALTERNATE UNIVERSE KACCHAN?? EVERYONE HATED YOU SO MUCH BEFORE THEY EVEN MET YOU, BUT THEY FORGOT TO CONSIDER THE POSSIBILITY THAT YOU MIGHT BE HOT LMAO WHAT A TWIST

“some bright-eyed brat” oh come on. IT’S GOTTA BE HIM LOL

oh my god you all are probably TIRED AS FUCK of all my screaming but I’M SORRY IMMA HAVE TO DO IT ONE LAST TIME BECAUSE...

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

that face. that expression!! THE FACT THAT HE’S OUT HERE OPENING DOORS WITH HIS FEET, LIKE HOLY SHIT!! JUST ADMIT THE JIG IS UP ALREADY

and so they really are the ones who busted First out of his jail cell huh

so how did they know you were in the room?? why did they come and break you out?? and how, pray tell, did they know to get you to transfer OFA to them?? hmmmMMMMMMMM

oh MY GOD

you guys. oh my god. it’s too much. every last bit of it lines up exactly with the Bakuverse theory sdkjfj I’m short-circuiting. it’s really fucking happening oh my lord

HELLO SEXY ALTERNATE UNIVERSE KACCHAN WITH HIS SEXY FUCKING SCAR, FUCK YEAH WE REALLY ARE EATING GOOD THIS CHAPTER

HELL YEAH WE’RE GOING. WE’RE GOING FULL SPEED YOU GUYS. LMAO I’M SO FUCKING HYPED RIGHT NOW I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MYSELF WEFKJLDKFFFF

SO, EVERYONE, LET’S RECAP. -- ACTUALLY NO, I STARTED TO WRITE UP A LIST, BUT I IMMEDIATELY REALIZED IT REALLY JUST NEEDS TO GO IN ITS OWN THREAD. SO I MADE IT AND POSTED IT, AND NOW I’M FINISHING UP THIS HOT MESS OF A RECAP POST. SO NOW WE’RE BACK TO THIS ONE FINAL PANEL OF DEKU EATING HIS KATSU ALL SERIOUS

YES SIR. YES SIR, WE GOING, FULL SPEED AHEAD, WHATEVER, IDK WTF IS HAPPENING BUT YES!!

lol, anyways so as I said in my other post, mysterious sexy guys with tragic pasts are what bring us together as a fandom, so whatever your thoughts are on the rest of it, let’s just rejoice in that. it’s what we deserve

[zmayadw]

Hello to all :)

Time for the next part!

Wish you all a wonderful evening! :)

CALL OF THE RAVEN

PART 13

We continued enjoying our time, as Aurora got more crowded with people. At some point Cleo showed up, coming to say hi to us, as she was here to meet with Hannah and the others . She had one drink with us before going to sit with them, telling how she is bussy helping her mom at the Gates of Hope with redecorating and other stuff, but she hopes all will be done soon, so we can finaly meet in peace. As it got more crowded with people, Phil was busy and also didnt have much time to have fun with us. Jessy was in a quite good mood, joking and drinking, it was nice seeing her like that.The music playing was good. There was a mixture of everything, from 80's till present day. A song started and Jessy grabbed my hand „Ohhh, lets dance, Maya, i love this song!“ I had no chance to say anything, as Jessy lead me half way to the dance floor already. She started dancing, and i couldnt do anythign but join her. And we had fun. I needed this, i tought, just some simple fun with good friends. Dan joined us from time to time, showing off his killer dancing skills. Phil was passing by us few times, going to one of the booths or tables, always winking at me with that devilish grin of his. One of the times, as Jessy and me wer dancing Phil came from behind me, wraping his free hand arround my waist and squeezing agains me. We just moved with the rhythm of the music for a while, before he groaned at my ear „Arghh, as much as i would love to stay here with you gorgeous, but work is calling.“ I grined at him, as he let go of me slowely „Aww, next time then.“ As much as i liked it, i hoped Jake didnt see this. I wouldnt want him to get the wrong idea about Phil and me. I really wanted to know where i stand with him, but this noncomunication between us wasnt helping. Lily told me to be patient, but as i told Jessy, my patiance is running short. I leaned to Jessy telling her i need to go sit down for a while, and we returned at the bar. Dan and Thomas wer there talking, and both got up from the stools letting us sit as we came. Thomas smiled at us „You two really got it going on tonight.“ He turned to Dan saying teasingly „You better be careful,man, and keep her close to you“ He pointed at Jessy „They wer smoking hot on the floor, dont let someone steel her.“ Jessy grined at Thomas „Let him sweat a little, he might appriciate me more then.“ „Awww, babe, dont be cruel, you know i appriciate you.“ Dan told her, being dramatic as always, making a puppy face. „Ohh, shus it, you big goof, and lets dance.“ She told him, taking him by the hand to the dance floor. Thomas turned to me „So, can i presume all is good between Lily and you now?“ „I guess you can.“ I told him, and he smiled „Thats good to heare.“ A waiter came with two drinks, handing them to Thomas. „Guess then soon we can all get together again, without any drama.“ „Definatly!“ i said, smiling. He smiled back „Good. Well, have fun, Maya, see you arround.“ I waved at the waiter asking for a mineral water, i was really thursty from all the dancing. I checked my phone, it was after 3, and i noticed a missed call sign. I opened the call log, and when i saw it was another of those hidden numbers, my mood darkened all of a sudden. What is going on here, i touhgt, thess calls are starting to get me worried. Jessy and Dan returned from dancing, and i decided i had enough for the night. This thing shook me up good, and i doubted i could enjoy the evening anymore. I told Jessy i'd be going, to wich she protested a bit, but hugged me and said to call her for coffee any time im up for it. I took my things, waving them goodby. As i was near the entrance, i saw Phil, so i waved at him, he winked and made a phone gesture with his hand, suggesting we'll be talking soon.

As i left the Aurora, cool night air washed over me, so i put my jacket on. I got to my car,  just leaning on the side of it, my mind still thinking of those damn calls. They are starting to freak me out a bit, and that sinister feeling started to creep up to me again. I closed my eyes, taking a deep breath, when a voice said „Are you ok?“ I opened my eyes, seeing Jake standing infront of me. I managed to barely make a smile at him „Yeah, im fine.“ He was looking at me, those deep eyes scaning every inch of my face, like he knew what i said wasnt true. „Just tired, i guess.“ I added, giving him a bit bigger smile, wich seemed to make him belive me. He leaned on the car next to me, and we just stood there in silence for a while. I get restless every time im close to him, my hands itch to just grab him and pull him closer. „You look good, by the way.“ He said after a while, giving me a shy look. His words snaped me from my fantasizing, and  i smiled and winked at him „Thanks, glad you noticed.“ „Ofcourse i did, i do have eyes, you know.“ He said teasingly. I turned towards him making a gesture of bevilderment as i said „Oh my, he can joke!“ „I try my best.“ He said, smiling. Oh that beautiful smile, i tought again, making me smile, too. „You going back in?“ he asked. „No.“ I started „I'm actualy contemplating should i walk or drive back to the motel.“ „And how's that going for you?“ he asked, raising an eyebrow at me. „Well, considering im still standing here doing non of the above, i would say not good.“ I replied, sighing desperatly. He chuckled at me „Hmm, well, how about I drive you back to the motel?“ I looked at him surprised, not really expecting it „You would do that?“ He smiled shyly at me „I would“ pausing a bit, before adding „For you.“ My heart started beeting like crazy, and i could feel heet comming to my cheeks. This night really is interesting. „Umm, well, sure, i'd like that.“ I told him. „But, you dont mind walking back again?“ i asked. „No, its fine.“ „Alright then, lets go.“ I told him, taking my keys out of my purse handing them to him. Our palms touched as i gave him the keys, and our eyes met. He moved his hand slowly away, taking the key, giving me goosebumps. I barely glued myself of the car to let him get in. I got in myself as he started the car and we drow from the Auroras parking. It wouldnt take us long to the motel, and i wished the ride wasnt that short. I noticed he was driving slower then you would normaly drive, as if sharing my toughts himself. I felt nervous, my head was blank, i didnt know what to say. All of a sudden, a tought crossed my mind. „Hey, Jake, can i ask you something?“ „Sure.“ He said, sounding relieved the awkward silence got broken. „Well, i just tought, i havent had a chance to ask you before. Wern't you in some kind of trouble, if im not mistaken?“ i paused before continuing. „I mean, we never discussed it any further. And since you're here at Duskwood for quite some time now already, i was just wondering what's up with all that.“ „You're right“ he started, glancing shortly at me, focusing back on the road „Short version: lets say i made a deal with some people, making sure i'll be left at peace.“ „A deal“ i started „You didnt threaten anyone, or something like that?“ „What?“ he said, „Ofcourse not! What made you ask that?“ „Hey, its a legit question.“ I told him, rising my hands up. „You can understand why a tought like that might cross my mind.“ He was silent for a moment before saying „Ok, fair enough. But, no, i didnt threaten anyone, if that makes you feel better.“ „It does. I just dont want for things to get complex for you again.“ I said, adding after a little pause, my voice getting a bit sadder „Or you dissapearing again.“ He looked at me with such tenderness, slowing the drive even more now „Dont worry, Maya, i'm not going anywhere.“ I smiled at him „Good.“ He turned his head, focusing on the road again, and i realized we came at the motel. He parked close to my room. Neither of us was eager to leave the car, so we just sat there in silence for a moment. I had a felling he wanted to say something, but wasnt sure about it. I finaly managed to force myself to leave the car. I was about to pull the door handle, when Jake suddenly said „Wait.“ I turned towards him. „Can i ask you something now?“ „Sure“ i said, even tho i had a feeling i wouldnt really like the question. He got all nervouse, but finaly asked „You and Phil.. is there something happening?“ Oh,no,no,no, i tought, why he had to ask it. The night would end perfectly without this. I groaned pleadingly at him „Ugh, can we not talk about Phil now, please.“ „Why not?“ he asked, and i noticed his nervousness intensifing. „Because i dont know what to tell you, Jake.“ „How about the truth?“ he said. „I cant do that.“ He looked at me confused „Why not?“ „Because i myself dont know what the truth is.“ I groaned, leaving the car. He left the car, closing the door and walking over to me handing me the keys „What do you mean?“ „I mean, i'm a mess, Jake.“ I started „I dont know what to think any more. You want the truth? Fine. Yes, i like Phil, i cant denie it. We clicked, i feel good arround him, thats the truth.“  My words  stung him, and he barely managed to say „I see.“ He leaned with his back against the car, steadying himself. But i wasnt finished yet. „And then there's you, Jake“ i started, my voice full of compassion and tenderness. He looked at me, his eyes meeting mine. „I like you, too. I like you so much, that it hurts.“ I paused a bit before i continued. „Im drawn to you like a magnet, i cant pull off. But, its like, every time the magnets are about to connect, one switches polarity and the other is thrown aback. Its driving me insane! With Phil, everything flows easy. But with you, its everything but easy.“ „Maya, i know i'm not the easiest person..“ he started to say, but i held my fingers to his lips, not leting him speak.They wer so soft and warm, i had to focuse hard on what i wanted to say. „I know, its not easy for you to open up, to let people in. I get it. And i know i said i can wait, that i'll be patiente. But my patiance is fading. I dont know how much longer i can go on like this, Jake. Its tearing me up inside.“ As i said it, i leaned my forehead to his, putting both of my arms to his chest,leaning against him. We just stayed like that for a while. Being this close to him, and the warmth of his body radiating - i felt serene. His heart was beeting fast, probably matching mine. I could stay like this forever, i tought, but i needed to continue. I was waiting for this, to finaly tell him what was on my mind. „I need to know what might be of us.“ I said „If there even exists the posibility of 'us'.“ We stayed like that for a while more, non of us daraing to move or speak, before i slowely pulled away from him. I sighed „You dont have to say anything now. Just, think about what i said. You know where to find me if you want to talk.“ I leaned to him, giving him a kiss on the cheek „Good night, Jake. Thanks for the ride.“ I turned walking slowly towards my room, when i heard him say „Good night, Maya, sweet dreams.“ I turned back, not stopping in my steps, giving him one more smile, him smiling back. I hoped me opening up like this will make him finaly understand the depths of my feelings. I knew there was a posibility he might not feel the same, but i didnt care of it now. I did what i could, i told him how i feel, now he holds all the cards. I unlocked my door and entered the room, kicking my boots off, throwing myself on the bed. What an interesting night it was, i tought smiling, covering myself with blanket and letting sleep take over me.

[vaskasrkt]

I have a concept up for debate:

So I believe Vision has at least a little memory of before west view, even if he doesn't know it consciously.

In episode 6, he changes to his MCU outfit, how he looked in infinity War. But how would he know what that costume looks like, enough to accurately change it all the way back. Also, the energy to change his outfit comes straight from his stone, showing its a retained memory, considering the mind stone is what gives him life.

I will say, I don't think he remembers dying, I don't think he remembers any of the specifics of what happened before Westview. I just think his subconscious knows minor details.

If he knows absolutely nothing from before Westview, how does he know who he is, that hes in love with Wanda, how does he know Wanda?

He said himself that Wanda can't control his thoughts, so surely if she can't access his mind, she can't implant those memories of himself and her in there...

And she even said herself in episode 7, Right? "if he doesn't want to be here, there's nothing I can do about it"

Also, the fact that he asked who the imposter Pietro was too, when he had no memory of Pietro before Westview. It could be possible that he just knows Wanda isn't sure about pietro being who he says he is, however, Vision isn't the type to straight up call someone an imposter when he doesn't know for sure.

I think Vision is going to start to remember, kind of like a trauma response.

With trauma response, you can argue "but vision is synthetic, he has no brain to create a trauma response." However, with that logic, he would not be able to fall in love.

I have a lot of questions about Vision in particular. I just think he's an incredibly deep character, and I feel like his mind retains more information than he's aware of. He's been inactive/dead for 2 years, his brain probably needs time to reboot back up, kinda like amnesia being common in coma patients.

There's also the whole theory about the name of the cinema in episode 6 being the name of a poem, that poem being an analogy for Wanda trying to fully resurrect Vision because she feels partly responsible for what happened to him. I believe the reason Vision can't leave the Hex is because Wanda is creating him another full mind stone so he can leave it eventually. Wanda has immense power, and the Grand Sorceress states that "the universe cannot exist without the stones". Energy cannot be destroyed or created, but can take different shapes.

The mind stone was confirmed "destroyed" in the MCU by Marvel. Where did Steve take it? It belongs in Vision. He can't just take it out and put it back and expect nothing to happen, it kills Vision to take the stone from him.

Wanda will listen to what Monica has to say, but when Monica asks Wanda to stop, she says no and she's certain about it. I believe the Hex is Wanda's way of creating Vision another mind stone so he can live in the real world again. She's drawing the mind stone's energy to create it another physical form.

Also, Wanda doesn't want more people in the Hex because it takes more and more of her energy to control those people, it's why the further away from the centre they are the less active they are. A powerline can only supply so much power. It's probably why everything around her is breaking in episode 7. She doesn't have enough power to keep it all up anymore whilst still making visions stone fully powered.

What Monica went through when gaining her powers is what Carol went through to get hers. The Hex's perimeter has the same type of power as an infinity stone. There are 6 infinity stones, and 6 points on the Hex's perimeter.

Oop, and Agatha is only interested in whether Wanda can bring back Vision fully because she's a witch, she on and off works with Mephisto in the comics, and she wants to mind stone to gain more power!

This is mostly just a brain dump, and I'm not super knowledgeable on what actually happened to the stones afterwards etc, but I hope thess convoluted few theories make sense!! If anyone wants to talk abt these theories and add maybe some comic context, since I haven't read them, I'd love to hear your opinions.

[illgiveyouahint]

I just wanted to stop by to say something about the most recent development in druck- as someone who suffers from a PTSD related dissociative disorder, I tried at one point to drink away my apathy, but from what I remember, it never worked and I just kept drinking and drinking. The hangover and the strain the next day was my first experience with a full on breakdown, and my first instance of being admitted to a ward (which caused a whole other set of traumatic issues, but that's not relevant) I feel like they're showing nora trying to escape her head, and I'm wondering if they might go down a similar path as my own experience. just some speculation to cope with my worry 😅😅 i hope you have a great day!

Hello anon,

I'm so sorry you had to experience all of that. Yeah alcohol is something people often use because they feel like they can escape from their situation or just to forget for few hours. I imagine this is what Nora is trying to do. I mean everything else she tried so far didn't work, maybe this will, right? Of course, that's never the solution. I wonder if this is truly the first time Nora has tried alcohol or if she's ever had it before. In any case, she seems to try to solve her problems with it which of course is not good. However, I don't think Druck will go as far as what you experienced. I don't think Nora will be admitted. Not only because we only have 2,5 episodes left but also because that's not exactly a hopeful thing to offer teenagers. Druck, just like Skam, is aware of the target audience and since they are on public television they have a duty to young viewers to show them content that is relatable to them but also to show them hope. To show them that while life is hard, there are ways how you can reach out, how you can deal with these problems. we haven't seen Even be admitted or even seen Even be picked up by the police because again that is too traumatic. In fact, I remember Julie Andem talking about that entire clip with Even and Isak in the hotel and how some of her team thought that even that was too much. I remember her tweeting the Alt er Love immediately afterwards to appease the viewers that this will have a happy ending. Because thess shows know that kids need to hear that they can get through this. And that has always been the message and will be the message here too.

But to get back to Nora's drinking. I don't know if they're gonna explore it further. I would love if they at some point made a point of early alcohol abuse and how alcoholism can be hereditary because when they first introduced Zoe and I saw her talking/showing drinking almost daily that was my first thought. Also because I hate how much is alcoholism normalised (especially in countries like Germany and Czechia). So I would love for them to talk about it. And especially how then it relates to Nora's mental illness as well.

Idk I just hope Nora is gonna find help soon. And that she's gonna talk to the girls as well. I hate that she's cutting them off even if I understand why. But like I just want my Cashqueens back you know.

This is once again too long. Sorry. I'm unable to write short messages. I hope you have a great day too anon 💛

[anamakara]

Can we know more about Fell!Nic's backstory?

OH!!!!! Okey !!.

I Will try my best to explaing It òwó ✨✨

Okey ,so , I'm not very got at narrating and making this type of shits but....i Will try to explaing at LEAST , his childhood :3

Okey we start:

• Memories of a bull

So, we start that our Nicolás ...was always part of a mafia all his live (what a concident that actually he had a Mafia in his dead Life too)...there were a very "normal" family(if we could say that) the father , the mother and only one son...

Nicolás was born in a very closed environment , at first, theirs parents try to educated him in publics schools (but people treat him like a bad Guy...so he always ended in troubles and finnally his parents had to teach him by his own)...but ...even if people thought that he was just....a problematic child....he also loves to read and learn others things....that why he always stays inside of his House ....just reading and try to be like the normal kids....but you know...he couldn't have friends for....his family.....(the Normals people known that his family was part of one of the most dangerous Mafias in the world)

And talking about the Mafia ...(we have so much to talk about the theme , but just gonna say one thing) , the Boss was his father , "El Toro " (he had a name, but people scareds to call him , he was to ..... powerfull) and just saying that his Mafia was part of something more Big...(but that , is other story) so ,. The father....we not gonna lie , he was a total asshole with his sons ....he wanted him only for be the Boss of his family when he died , so he teach him to be like him, but Nic' wasn't that world , he didn't want to be like his father , he didn't want to be like....a Monster...

For example, when Nicolai was very Young, his father force him to kill a dog , to prove that Nic' was a cold-blood like him ....(but our bullman didn't do It,...so his father ended It for him...)

Or , when Nic' forgets to cut his hair , his father always force him too for It (because he said that he looks like a woman ,and his father only wanna see him like a masculine figure) and of course , Nic' never call him "father" because he doesn't deserved It , and that's make him more angry for that....

He could kill his son and adopt other to be the Boss of his Mafia ? , True ,but it's was a personal thing, (blo*d , you know )

.....

And the worse thing that thesse..."man" could did is ....kill his own wife , in front of his son....do you know the feeling of see your most important person in your Life been kill by a beast?!?? (His mother was the only thing that Nic' had in his Life ...and she gone...) He gets in such shock ... that why he hates the Word "papito" and also....this is a reason why he sometimes feels very unconftable when a woman gets near of him ....he don't hates women... he's only ....feels......agh....

So i think this is over for now ....at least i tell something ....*sight*

[thessalian]

Thess vs Performance Review 2024

Well, performance review finally happened. Not that I was particularly stressed about it - honestly, I don't have the energy for that shit. I know damn well they can't afford to lose me, and that must translate to a good performance review, right? I mean, surely they know as well as I do how much they can't afford to have me not doing even the hours I currently do.

...I had no idea quite how much they understood that. Not even last year's apparent triumph.

Before the review even got underway, it was, "Oh, hey, did you ever hear back about that monitor you asked about?" When my response was, "Nooooooo and I did ask again back in July, and I also noticed it's been giving me headaches that sometimes spark migraines", Scruffman was very much on it. As an aside - just to have it on record, as we were talking about equipment - I mentioned that I'd figured out why I kept having the electronic patient record system crash on me. It's not the server that's lacking memory - it's this very old i5-running POS laptop. I checked out Task Manager earlier, and it turns out that that fucking machine is quite often hitting 100% CPU and RAM capacity. Like, regularly. I mean, it's hardly a surprise, when you think about it - Windows is now rolling out some of its AI features onto Win10 machines, which is a resource hog right there on top of Win10's usual bloat, plus the various security features that have to be running on a machine handling patient data. But that old Dell just can't handle that shit without horking occasionally, in the same way you shouldn't feed very small children whole grapes - you have to cut them in half first.

Anyway, Scruffman was very much, "Oh, okay, we should be proactive about this because we want you to have all the tools you need." I was ... a little stunned, but said I'd email him a summary of our conversation about my current equipment so he could escalate it to Head Honcho. He was, again, very jazzed about this. I swallowed my surprised blink as best I could, and on we went.

Honestly, I wasn't surprised for long, because we got right into the "core values" section, which ranks a bunch of workplace stuff from Needs Improvement to Exceeds Expectations. I actually put "Exceeds Expectations" on a few more things this year than I did last year, and Scruffman told me it still wasn't enough. We had the same conversation where I explained that I just have very high expectations of myself. But he said something different this year. This year, he said, "Yeah, just I really want to make sure you get the maximum possible money because we really love having you and would really hate to lose you".

So ... I ... can apparently expect a raise?!? For some reason, this blows me entirely away. There's not a lot of that about these days. But ... I mean, hey, if he thinks I've earned ALL THE RAISE, I'm not going to argue with him.

Anyway, upshot was that I am apparently magnificent. Which ... I guess. I do my job to the best of my abilities and this is somehow some kind of miracle. Then again, given...

Yeah, there was a conversation about the others too. My dedication to prioritising workload properly (urgent cases, then chronologically) was lauded, and I did point out the cherry-picking going on. (Seriously, it only takes a look at the archives to see it. We're still on yesterday's long-ass bullshit and New Girl was grabbing the short-and-easys from today before yesterday's typing was finished. I can't blame Temp for this one because she wasn't in today, but I figure she does similar.) Let's just say that Scruffman was not pleased. He very seldom gets grim and determined-looking, but I guess given today's performance review, there was a feel of, "Okay, we're going to have to actually do something about this shit because this is the one thing that my star secretary complains about and it probably needs to stop". I can't expect him to stop it completely, mind - he'd have to be hovering over their shoulder at all times - but the fact that he's going to have a word at all is saying something.

Not that that helped at the end of today, or anything. By the time my performance review meeting was finished, my forms signed off by both parties, and my overworked ass was sitting back down ... well. There was almost nothing in the queue that didn't top five minutes. The first three on the list were 9, 6, and 20 minutes respectively. (Yeah, you read right - twenty fucking minutes. Of course it was Breast Guy.) Now, my meeting was in the afternoon, I still had some mid-length but persnickety stuff in my queue, there was a five-minute urgent case that no one wanted to touch, and I hoped that someone would pick up at least one or two of the longer ones by the time I was done. Just so that it wouldn't all be sitting there for the duration. Nope. New Girl picked up a thirty-second one from this morning at about 4pm and was gone after that. (I still don't know what hours she works, but I have a feeling it's not as many as her contract states...). Goblin tried, but ... nope. I did the nine and six minute ones, which took a half-hour between them because they were from one of our worst word salad individuals. I could obviously make it make sense - that's my job - but it takes time. So ... well, that twenty minute long Breast Guy monstrosity is someone else's problem.

Thing is ... there's a reason I try not to do long dictations at the end of the day. It's because by then, I'm tired and usually having pain flares. Today's no different, but I had to vent a bit. And maybe brag a tiny bit.

Anyway, happy Halloween / Veilguard day! I'm pondering treating myself to takeaway. I did good. (And also I hurt a lot and not-cooking feels like a thing.)

[courtroom-adjourned-system]

What's going on???

Meet the alters!💕

Thess: I am the Host of the system. I don't really know how to introduce myself,,, but I like talking to people so if you want to, you can talk to me! My pronouns are they/she [blog: @candythess ]

Eliah: YO nice to meet y'all, you can call me Deidara/Deidy too :) I'm one of the caretakers (and a co-host too, we think, but idk?) of this hell of a place, I'm pretty much the most socially approachable one, PLEASE TALK TO ME I LOVE FRIENDS (if you're asking, no I'm not a fictive, but before finding out abt the system Thess used to call me "Braincell Deidara") Mu pronouns are he/them! [blog: @chain-n-whip it doesn't find my acc but search for it if you're interested! ;) ]

Jun: Pleased to meet you. I am the persecutor of this system, and I hate being here. I don't like talking that much in general. It's very rare to have conversations with me. Pronouns used: they/them. [Blog: I don't think I really need one, but I will see if I want to get it in the future.]

Mafuyu: Hello there!! 💕 I'm the other caretaker of the system, and I also speak for our protector, The Samurai, because he speaks in a, uhmm, too sophisticated way... I'm pretty new here, but, I guess, if you want to be friends, I don't bite! My pronouns are she/her <3 [blog: sadly haven't got one :( ]

Benny: Hi... I'm Benny... I'm the little one, and I'm very shy... So please don't ask me many things, it gets me pretty nervous... I'm a boy... [Thess: we don't let him have a blog yet because he's too young]

Osamu: I'm Samu, yer cooking man lmao. Yeah I'm Osamu Miya, the better twin. I luv rice. Dunno English that well but the others help me. I'm a fictive, theyre tellin' me. Pronouns he/him. [blog: want one but don't have it yet]

Draco: Greetings, I am the one and only Draco Malfoy. I suppose I am what they call a fictive, even though I find the name dregading. What am I doing here? I don't know and I want to go away. Don't talk to me, unless you're a Pureblood. Pronouns are he/him.

Tokoyami: Hello. You can already read my surname, and I would like to be called Tokoyamu-kun from people who speak to me, but I do not mind Fumikage, either. Questions and trying to be friends are allowed, I'm not as dangerous as you think I am. My pronouns are he/him, and no, I don't have a blog. I'm sorry.

We all hope we can make new System (and non!) friends, hope you all feel the same way~

[theyrealllegends]

A Day at the funfair

This is my entry for @dtfrogertaylor ‘s amazing “A Night at the Fandom” writing event thing which I’m obsessed with and enjoyed so much! Thank you, love!! So, @picking-up-the-glass Hi, I’m Thess and I’ve been your anon and if you still want to, I’ll remain sending you asks or messages and you can always, always reach out if you wanna talk, too! You’re really cute and I hope you have fun reading this and enjoy it, too! (Like, your request? I went all in with it and now I can only hope you like it!)

Have fun, kiddo!

Roger’s POV:

The phone woke me up and I moaned when I turned in my bed because I really couldn’t be bothered to get up and talk right now. It had been a late night yesterday and all I wanted was a chilled Saturday and another good gig tonight.

“Rog, it’s for you!”, I heard Freddie call from the hallway and with a deep sigh, I sat up.

“One second!”, I told Fred so I could grab something to wear before he’d storm into my room. My head was spinning a little and I felt extremely tired when I forced myself on my feet and slowly made my way to the telephone in the hallway.

“Roger Taylor?”, I mumbled.

“Hey Rog”, I heard a whisper and I stood straighter immediately.

“Love, are you alright?”, I asked, a bit scared of the answer.

“I don’t know”, she explained. “Mum and her new boyfriend are arguing, I think it’s bad.”

“I’ll come and get you, baby, don’t move until I’m there, okay?”

“‘Kay, Rog”, she whispered and I made sure the phone was hung up properly before I started swearing.

“Can anyone in this shitplace drive?”, I asked, forcing myself not to waste more time.

“Where to?”, Brian asked from Fred’s and my couch and I’d never been happier to see him. He was one of the more lightweight drinkers, so he never overdid it and should be sober by now.

“My sister just called and I need to go home and get her. And it’s an hour drive, I’m not prepared for that”, I explained while I poured myself a coffee.

“You never talked about having a sister”, Mary said and I just shrugged it off. Brian and Fred knew about her but I didn’t talk about her that often because I didn’t really want to admit that I missed her and worried about her often. She had been four when our mother got divorced from our father and I knew it was better for my mum and sister but she still missed our dad because she didn’t precisely know what he’d been capable off. There had been times where I’d been scared I’d become a violent drunk, too but my friends and various girls had told me, I was a rather loving drunk so I guessed I was fine. Except that my mum met another guy that seemed to be better for her first but later started being a total asshead that was scaring my little sister when he was yelling at my mom. So I quickly got ready and gave Brian my carkeys who was guessing how serious the situation was because I didn’t complain about him driving my beloved Alpha for once.

He went a bit faster than allowed and I was thankful for that and I guess I fell asleep somewhere on the road because when I looked around the next time, we were close to the neighbourhood in my hometown.

“Good I brought you here before”, I mumbled and Brian chuckled.

“Yeah, lucky-you could take a nap then”, he said and parked my car next to the house we moved into after my parents’ divorce. I unlocked the door as silently as I could master and heard my mum’s new boyfriend, Greg or something, yell at her upstairs. But the phone was in the living room and I could see my sister hide unter the dining table, the phone on the floor next to her.

“Hey, little, here I am”, I whispered and she crawled out from under the table to be able to greet me.

“Thank you for coming”, she said shaking and I hugged her tighter.

“It’s alright, love, I’d always come get you.”

“Let’s go”, she said, taking my hand and pulling me to the door. Brian followed us back to my car while there was no sight of my mum or her new guy and I was glad I didn’t see that pig because I probably wasn’t ready for a fight when I couldn’t even drive but I was also worried my mum would freak out, looking for my sister.

“We’ll call mum once we get to my place so she knows you’re safe with me, okay?”, I explained and my sister nodded while she got in the back of my car.

“This is Brian, by the way, a friend of mine”, I told her when I sat next to her in the back and she smiled, holding my hand again.

“Nice to meet you Brian, I’m Jordyn”, she introduced herself and it made me smile that she was growing into a beautiful and strong young girl.

Freddie obviously went crazy over her as well when she made her way to our kitchen and sat on the couch we’d put there since we didn’t have space for a living room.

“You’re so pretty!”, he gushed over her hair and sat next to her to tell her stories no twelve-year old that I called my sister should hear.

“Jordy, don’t listen to him, no matter what he says. Also, do you want tea, kiddo?”

“You got hot chocolate?”, she replied with a smile and I started searching our cabinets until I really found a box of cocoa powder I might be able to prepare her hot chocolate with.

“So, what are you gonna do today?”, she asked when I brought her drink and my tea over to her and sat down in a chair.

“I’ll have to play at our gig tonight and I really need to eat before that”, I said and she snorted.

“Great idea, Rog sounds like a plan to fill our day.”

“Go easy on me, kiddo, I’m an old man that needs rest!”

“I wanna go to a fun fair or something!”, she said as if she didn’t hear me and I rubbed my face with a deep sigh.

“There is an AMAZING fun fair near Thames river”, Freddie told her and I gritted my teeth. I wouldn’t get my ass out of that plan now, thanks to him.

“Sure, fun fair we go”, I agreed because I knew, in the end, I’d never be able to deny her any wishes.

“Oh and I’d love to join you!”, Fred said. “I wasn’t there in forever.”

“Fred, you’ve been there last week”, Brian teased him with a grin.

“See, it’s been forever!”, he pushed and I grinned when Jordyn started to look confused.

“They’re always messing with each other, kiddo, just don’t listen to them. Queen is going to take you to a fun fair!”

“Queen? Last time we talked you said you band’s name was smile.”

“You’re a smart young lady”, Brian said because she really figured that out fast but she shrugged it off.

“Yeah but last time we talked Freddie wasn’t our lead singer, either. And he didn’t think Smile was big enough.”

“I never said it wasn’t “big” enough!”, he corrected me. “I needed something more outrageous!”, he said to Jordyn with exaggerated gestures, making her giggle.

I took a shower while Brian and Jordyn made lunch and Freddie tried not to sabotage their cooking for two minutes. I called our mom and told the phone’s answering machine that Jordyn was with me and I’d take care of her until Greg calmed down again, whenever that would be. Then we all had the biggest serving of spaghetti we could master and after lunch, we got ready to take my sister to the fun fair near Thames. She and Freddie were equally as excited when we got into one of the Ferris wheel’s glass gondolas that were lifted up in the sky, granting us an amazing view of London, I could admit that as well. Just because I didn’t freak out the way Fred did, didn’t mean I didn’t enjoy the time we spent together, holding my sister’s hand so she wouldn’t get lost and being with her while she had a good day. I smiled to myself because it meant the world to me. And when I took her to my gig that night, John immediately allowed her to sit on his amplifier on the side of the stage so she’d have the best view and no drunks could stumble into her or anything. I was perfectly happy and she looked like she had a great time, so I was glad I brought her here, too.

[yesnonsense]

You know what I think was a big mistake? Making the PDX101-rigged votes scandal public. This scandal is so manipulative and hateful. Its causes innocent people to get hate just for trying to actually get fame and as we all know, finding fame in the Kpop industry is hard, it honestly makes life tougher for every single trainee that worked really hard on the show. Its now difficult for the members that made and for the trainees that didnt. And there is all this talk about disbanding? What for? This is what I dont get. So many people are saying disband? Thess groups should disband, why? Someone please tell me why? Seriously why? What does that save? What does that do? It doesnt make anything better. It doesnt change that fact these trainees also worked as hard as the ones that didnt make it. It doesnt change the fact that the trainees that didnt make already made plans to start or continue their careers. And it also doesnt change the fact that WE ALL KNEW THAT THE VOTES AND THE SHOW WAS RIGGED AND BASICALLY SCRIPTED. WHY ARE YOU SHOCKED AND ANGRY NOW? WHEN WE KNEW IT ALREADY? You cant tell me that the trainees didnt know themselves. With how shady the kpop industry is, they must of had a inkling of knowing how the ending would turn out. Cause that would be just naive and frankly, kinda odd, with the amount of scandals that come out of the kpop industry of how shady the place is, it would be really odd not to know, even as a new trainees. And this isnt the first incident that we know of that includes companies liking some trainees over others. It literally happens all the time in the kpop industry. Look at the amount of trainees that dont make it because the company prefer the other trainee to them or how many members get overshadowed in their own groups. And thats the problem with this disband logic. The reason behind this 'they should disband' bull is that its has taken peoples money and that it is unfair to the trainees that were meant to make but didnt, right? My problem with this logic is that it is one-sided. Yes, it is unfair to people whose money got taken and was used on people who they didnt vote for. That is unfair. But guess what? So, is everything in life. And dont we all know it. Anyway, it is also unfair to the trainees that did make it. It is also unfair to the parents of those trainees, their friends and family and their fans, too. Are you saying that their vote doesnt matter? That their time and energy AND MONEY doesnt matter? So only the people who didnt get in were the main people who matter? Nope, nope, no, makes no sense. If you say, its unfair to the family and fans of the trainees that didnt make it and therefore should disband, then you are just pitying them. Giving them pity doesnt solve anything. It doesnt make them famous, it doesnt change anything at all. And everyone needs to realise that the reason why everyones goes onto the show is fame. And that just because they dont make it to the final doesnt mean that they dont get fame. I mean, look at NU'EST, JBJ95 (and essentially JBJ), Jeong Sewoon, Samuel, Jinhyuk and the several idols that are actually well-known now even though they didnt make it to the final line-up. So, really who does disbanding really benefit? Truly, no one. The groups would have then spent all their time, energy and effort to essentially benefitting no one. They would just get hate. It doesnt mean that the companies would be punished anyways. Reality most likely being that this wont be a huge blow as these companies are actually huge. It just makes no sense to disband. At all. I kinda find it funny that nobody talks about a groups disbanding when there are groups who have had much worse and nuch disgusting scandals and yet this, while huge on its own, is what calls for a disbandment? Really? Do you know what would be a good solution? Ask the trainees that were in the top twenty for their opinion. Because, they were the ones who were "cheated out of being in the final group," right? If they are the ones being treated unfairly, then they should have the final say. And that is my rough take on this dumb shit scandal that should of stayed behind doors cause its creating such a mess. I mean, look at my essay that doesnt even cover every point that I want to make.

[sasshole-for-rent]

10 Happy Things

I was tagged by @ladylike-foxes

Making people happy and being there when people need me. Being the reason that someone smiled or laughed that day, gives me so much fucking endorphins and serotonin it's insane. It's kinda like crack to me.

Collecting dice. I blame @sylveonne for my new buying habits but I must have all the pretty click-clacks!! Especially if they fit my character's aesthetic because then it's a double win!

Critical Role and the campaigns (Liminality and Olivance) with my friends that have sprung up in lieu of it. It showed me that family doesn't have to be blood, it can be the nerds you find along the way. ♡♡ #isitthursdayyet

Stardew Valley. God. This game sucks me in and I can be content just watering crops and throwing quarts at the npcs to get them to like me. Also Sebastian and Abigal... my poor little bisexual heart.

Commissioning + Reblogging Art. I fucking love art and artists. It makes it even better if I am friends with the people that do crazy talented art, *cough* @ladylike-foxes I mean have you seen how she does details. I love that when I see her art, I can zoom and see all thess tiny details and be like "holy fuck, how??? Magic???" Plus, I can throw love and money, then cry because the art is so fucking good and stare at it for days, and cry some more!! Just like also be there for them when they are going through shit and trying to help them out of it! ♡♡

Uh. Coffee. I can drink this shit forever. Its probably why I am this tiny human or whatever. Tea is good too. I like just holding the mug in my hands and absorbing the warmth into my reptilian body.

Anything metaphysical. I can literally light my candles, incense, and just talk to the elements when I am having a shit day or doubting my life choices. They don't say much, but the elements are wonderful listeners. My room is such a safe haven for me. It was when I was younger but for a different reason entirely. I no longer live in a toxic environment but it's still the one place I can feel at peace.

Sex. This might be too much, but sex gives me such a high. Along with snuggling naked. Just intimacy, I suppose. The fact that you can know someone that deeply and know what makes them hot and unsteady is a gift. The soft voices and the way skin can be more than just skin. Sorry... I'll shut up now.

Fanfiction. Reading in general I suppose. I just love it so much. I am reading one right now called For A Long Time Looking At Stars. It's a slow burn and it's so fucking good. The characters are relatable and so well written. Its sucked me in and I have been fucking up my sleep schedule because of it. Plus. Sometimes reading a certain fanfiction makes me like characters I didn't really care for and make my opinion do a 180 because they were written so well.

My cat. Blue is this ancient cat that used to hate everyone, but warmed up to our family and to me when I moved in with my grandma. Now she follows me around when I am home and my grandma says she cries when I am gone. I just love her so much. Sometimes she gets lost and cries when I am in the other room and I have to call her and she comes trotting out looking for the source of my voice.

Tagging @dismalzelenka @laraslandlockedblues @calwyne @suzumicchi @thevikingwoman @galadrieljones