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Autopsy Simulator - Autopsy Only Mode
A couple of days ago I played the Autopsy Simulator "Autopsy Only" mode which is still in development. I decided not to stream it because it is extremely buggy and doesn't work that great (yet...maybe).
All I can say is that it doesn't have the same spirit as the main game. It's missing something. It doesn't have that edge that the main story has. You work as an assistant medical examiner and it feels empty without the main examiner overseeing or helping you train. It has no challenge or learning aspect to it so you're just there like, "what the fuck is going on?" There's no driving force to do it is what is comes down to.
Also, if you haven't played the full story mode then you will be absolutely lost in the Autopsy Only mode. Currently, there isn't a tutorial and again, there isn't a character there to oversee your progress and push you to do better (like in actual practical training in any scientific field). It doesn't have to be the main character of the story mode as the main trainer. It can be someone else who has taken his place. I just think that it's currently not in a good playable state.
Will I try the full version when it is released? Of course. I paid for the game and when there is a worthwhile update I will be back. Until then, I won't touch the game not even for the beta.
#autism#actually autistic#disability#disabled#autistic#twitch#live streaming#twitch streamer#streaming#Autopsy Simulator#Autopsy Only Mode#There needs to be some major changes#it feels empty#there's no reason to play it
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cursed kids v2 ⚠️👹
i've been a jjk first years stan since day one and have been wanting to redraw the first art i did featuring the three of them
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#itadori yuuji#fushiguro megumi#kugisaki nobara#yuuji#megumi#nobara#fanart#jjk fanart#im so tired help but theyre DONE im sososoosos pleased with them#even yuuji who dug his heels in to th very end :'>>>#wow 2020 rly was 4 years ago huh#to my credit i still think the designs i came up with in th og r honestly really good???#obv i didn't do a fullbody redraw (n thank god fr that) so i couldn't include All my details and there were some things that i edited#but overall they r solid !!!! i rly regret tht i couldn't include nobara's fishnets dgfhs#gave her her bat instead . equivalent exchange :)#she has one in the original but i specifically remember being bummed that the pose didnt let me show the nails that were in it#so took Full advantage of the new pose here !! she has killed before and will kill again#other changes....yuuji's omamori earring n sword details r New! as is the decision to include his canon scars :> fits the vibe#megumi changed the least?? changed the tassels n colour of his shoulder kanji to match yuuji and gave him a cigarette to fill empty space#other than that i think th majority of his changes r just me getting better at drawing megu#god the edited poses make these designs sing im so happy i did this#these r my kids !!!!! they have grown with me!!!!!#i am very proud and also sleep deprived and i need to not look at these anymore
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#okay i needed to read this#you probably do too#yeah there were many many many suckage occurrences#but it's also helpful to remember there were some fairly major long-term/structural changes for the better as well#and it's worth talking about that as much as the catastrophes
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Genealogy of the Condemned/Convicted novel manga first chapter is done and ready to go!
You can read it here and here (second link is recommended for the notes page specifically).
Things to be aware of with this manga:
This is a short manga of six chapters. It doesn't cover even the entire childhood arc, let alone the whole novel.
Some lines are taken directly from the novel, while others were similar but not identical, and others were changed to fit manga style dialogue bubbles.
Not everything in the manga is 1:1 with the novel, but it's all pretty close.
I hope you enjoy!
Translation by me.
Scans by @suguelya.
Cleaning by Jenners and myself.
Typesetting by me.
#Tales of Vesperia#Yuri Lowell#Flynn Scifo#Genealogy of the Condemned#Genealogy of the Convicted#Danzaisha no Keifu#edit: jenners told me i didn't need to tag her but then reblogged it saying it was her anyway JENNERS I COULD'VE JUST TAGGED YOU LMAOOOOO#Note that I may make some minor tweaks here and there later on#Normally I have a proofreader for my stuff for extra assurance before I release things but they've been very busy#and I already have a huge backlog of work done that I'm waiting for them to look at#However I /will/ add them to the credits once they look it over and I'll#make a post stating any updates made if any major sentence changing things happen. I simply don't want to credit them in advance bc#if I do make any changes I don't want to be unintentionally claiming credit for their eventual contribution#Even if nothing changes I'll still credit them once they look over it#That will be done both here as a post edit and on the credits page#anyway have fun with yuri's gay awakening manga version chapter 1
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Do these characters have chemistry? Honey, these characters have alchemy!
#Impossible to actually work in canon unless some really major changes happen#it needs a miracle#it needs magic#but boy oh boy is it fascinating#it's more than chemistry#It's alchemy#call the fic authors mad scientists#we see the vision#pro shipping#fandom#fandom community#fandom things#fandom culture#helnik#doomed love#darklina#darkolai#tomione#in another life#in another universe#dc comics#bat boys#marvel#marvel mcu#mcu#avengers#hotd#house of the dragon#hazbin hotel#teen titans
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what is your favorite thing about charles and your favorite thing about erik? separately, as in what you like most about their characters :]
a devious question this one is, my friend!!! it's hard enough for me to explain my thoughts cohesively, but having to pick ONE thing i particularly love is difficult. with characters like charles and erik, theres been so much done with their characters over the decades and so they have so many components to them that make them so interesting and fun to observe. BUT I TRY FOR YOU TODAY. under the cut i kinda ramble and the size of this text box makin me anxious
i think if i were to be simple and broad, what i enjoy most about charles is his determination to help others, even if he isn't really thanked and/or if people don't even like him. ofc, this isn't to say he hasn't done wrong- to be honest, the fact he does wrong/questionable things at times is another aspect of him i really enjoy, maybe because- broadly speaking- he's meant to be altruistic (intent vs outcome and all that). i don't know if that's super exciting to most people, but it is for me
as for erik, my reason for liking him is easier to explain tbh. To Be Simple And Broad, his progression from villain to antihero over the decades has been fun to observe (as much as i have so far anyhow) and analyze. i think to be a bit more specific, him using his rage and pain as justifications for his villainous actions is definitely what compels me the most: hurt people hurt and the sort, an idea i've always found interesting (something something vicious cycles and the like). yet now, he recognizes this wasn't really. A Just Thing To Do and is beginning to change that, which i enjoy
#snap chats#may you forgive me anon i always feel awkward explaining things AVELKJEAKLJ#i feel esp awkward cause i haven't read toooo much of the comics yet- like ive read. an ok amount so far krakoa wise#can you guys tell im fighting god himself to Not write a fuckin. NOVEL#im so sorry i have an over-explaining problem my mom was mean to me growing up but anyways#i definitely want to read more and more outside krakoa. the more i read the more im fascinated by these two and their history#but to continue my prattling. as if the three paragraphs above arent enough This Is Not A Thesis RELAX#i think a. 'poignant' moment i think adds to what i like about charles too is that soliloquy where he recognizes people dont like him#yet he could always be worse- like if he's bad now to others imagine if he really just said Fuck It All#it's simple but so am i whaddyagonnadoboutit. i mean that point itself could be discussed but i'm trying to keep this brief bear with me#i so bad want to know what issue that's from tho all i know is that it's from krakoa but i neeeed the whole context#i think like. an additional bullet point to charles i also like is his loneliness#and i say this cause- I Say From My Amateur-Psychology Armchair- it's a component of why he's so earnest to help#but im keeping this point in the tags until i can confidently verify that with myself after some more reading#Unfortunately a favorite pass time of mine is psychoanalyzing characters like why else you think i major in psychology smh#im going to force myself to cap the post here because i ended up typing like 20 more tags just rambling#and as i said id like to keep this simple and clean !!!!! i have sat here for like four hours answering this ngl#ignore the fact half that time was spent getting distracted by solitaire and riffling cards ok I Am Very Easily Distracted#but fr when it comes to charles and erik- charles esp imo#i feel like i need to write a whole paper just so i can mention the nuances of the characters and like. EVERYTHING#because again six decades is A Lot of time for writing decisions to be made and for their characters to change over time#im a glazer but i wanna be a nuanced glazer yk. is that glazing at that point-- w/e anyway#its a lot. so today you will have to tolerate a very Blah answer from me which i must apologize for#down the line once ive read a comfortable amount more varying from multiple eras maybe ill revisit this question more in depth#as of right now tho .... chat i wanna get legion of x so bad i skimmed it and hhhhhhhhim gonna throw UP#i need to shake charles like a ragdoll BUT ANYWAY. bye bye for now lovelies !!!!!!!#please forgive me if i didnt answer your question efficiently ..#here i am saying i wanted to keep the tag count brief and yet !!! jesus christ. shut up My God I REACHED THE TAG LIMIT
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I get why people say Wyll/Karlach is enemies-to-lovers but it's missing too many of its signatures for me to agree
By nature, E-t-L's are slow burn. A good chunk of the story waits for one party to discover they're on the wrong side/both parties to realize they have more in common with each other than their factions, then a whole other chunk is dedicated to them learning how to trust each other. The higher the stakes in the story, the slower the burn
Yet everything between Wyll and Karlach is revealed and resolved in a single conversation. There are no lasting consequences of that initial animosity. Both are too good to hold grudges and all the fault lies firmly in hands not their own. Karlach trusts Wyll instantly and he her. Their friendship is so immediate that it's easy to forget that we met Karlach with the intent to kill her
And then there's the source of their quarrel. Wyll was led to believe Karlach's a devil seeking destruction and Karlach was just trying to go home. The thing that sets them against each other isn't their own beliefs or loyalties or anything deep seated and personal, it's the chain of command, something they're both eager to be rid of by the time we meet them. While it gives them something in common, it leaves them with nothing to unpack or overcome together
Compare that to the king of E-t-L's, Zutara of Avatar the Last Airbender. Zuko spent most of the show's runtime trying to capture the Avatar to guarantee the Fire Nation's total conquest, something Katara wants to prevent at all costs. When the two are stuck together by happenstance, they lash out at each other only to bond over their lost mothers. Then Zuko betrays her, something Katara does not forget and does not forgive until he proves himself much, much later. Afterwards, they support each other, watch over the others together, and make a damn good team against Azula. Perfect, should have been canon, fuck Bryke
Honestly, I think Wyllach is just Faerûn's version of a meet-cute
#baldur's gate 3#yodeling into the void#karlach cliffgate#wyll ravengard#ive always found it difficult to justify killing karlach once you learn abt her backstory#outside of being an apathetic murderhobo what reason is there to kill someone trying to flee a war they never wanted to join?#i think some elements could have been salvaged if karlach had genuinely been a fiend#perhaps another cambion to contrast mizora and raphael#or maybe an alu-fiend for variety?#hells even a straight up succubus to really make the player wonder if she's going to be a threat if allowed to live#adds to the whole monsters in the making bit going on#her backstory and abilities would have to be altered but i dont think her personality would need to change at all#itd be neat to see a devil that isnt a business major#and i really like that one rewrite post where Wyll's relationship w Mizora is less antagonistic bc she's yknow.#actually being manipulative in her affection rather than whatever the fuck she's doing in canon#and the reason wyll is so susceptible to it is bc he believes so strongly in the good in everyone. even devils#and karlach being a devil whilst also a genuinely good person would open his eye to the fact that Mizora is Not Good#especially not good for him#i like wyllach but it doesn't intrigue me quite like wyllstarion or wyllzel#those two ships have that zing of 'by all accounts i should kill you for being a threat to innocents yet i cant help but fall for you'#fiend!karlach would fit right into that particular lovely niche#ngl the more i think abt it the more i want fiend!karlach#toss in werewolf!shadowheart and you'll have an entire party consisting of nightmare fuel and gale#make him be like sole human freddie in the eldritch scooby gang lmaoooo
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how come I love leading class and reading groups and small groups and lectures and conference papers and book clubs
and I HATE leading Women's Bible Study
#the actual leading is i guess fine although i STRUGGLE to actually lead#because they're all older than me and kind of friends and confident#and entirely unused to being steered and led so they just take off chatting and comforting each other#and mostly want to talk about their lives way more than about the topic#also our discussion guide is quite meh#but even worse I think is the texting all week long#i don't want to be constantly getting texts! noise! distraction! everyone checking in about everything!#and i recognize that it's a beautiful support in many ways and stay at home moms are lonely#but also. i can't do ANYTHING without that text thread popping up#feels like there's absolutely no boundaries#and they all have problems they always want to talk about#and this year not only do i have most of my previous women with problems i also have one with some really major issues#that i haven't dealt with personally and i need a lot of wisdom and care in leading her well#i need to change my tires! i need to be able to read on my phone and not be constantly reminded of the people i'm helping!#the only way i've remained stable this long in life is by keeping problems in separate spaces!#sigh. and with that i will go do yoga and get immersed in a conference paper#and not think about problems#(can you tell the time of women approaches me)
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A biomed student, a graphic design student, and a theology student walk into a bar…
The drawing without a background + the sketch because I’m not suuuuper jazzed about how it looks with one but it looked too empty without it
Disclaimer: the background is from Pexels
Also, I tried asking ChatGPT to finish the joke for me:
#itsa modern/college au yeehaw#in this AU Vash is actually a grad student and Wolfwood is too but re: the whole Wolfwood age dilemma that may change#AU: Safe Haven#trigun OC#Trigun x OC#group: the sanctity you bring#trigun stampede#Vash#Vash the stampede#Wolfwood#nicholas d wolfwood#tristamp#trigun#only drew this cause I needed to swap out some photos on character ai but also I do have an actual college au#maybe some day I’ll actually work on it#Wolfwood’s anatomy is still pretty wonky but I’m getttinngggf better at drawing their faces#slowly but surely#I would’ve added em but I don’t know what major she’d be :-( as of rn don’t think she’d go to college#honestly don’t know what occupation she’d have in a modern setting#maybe she owns the bar they frequent idk#MQ art
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Was the curse of hatred actually a real thing? or did danzo just demonize the uchiha;s anger? idk, being murderously angry or just angry in general is a reasonable and human response to oppression and genocide.
The "Curse of Hatred" Analysis
An interesting question. The Curse of Hatred looks dumb at first glance but there are also many misconceptions surrounding it.
Since it is such a hot mess to begin with, I will try to focus mostly on the in-universe canon and lore rather than making it even more complicated by bringing in too much real-world logic and criticizing Kishimoto.
There's a bunch of rambling in the tags though.
Kishimoto's Intentions
Whenever we talk about the "Curse of Hatred" the fandom will usually apply terms such as "racism", "bigotry" and "pseudoscience" - particularly in reference to Tobirama.
Again, I don't want to bring too much irl logic into this but I feel like we need to make a clear distinction between intention and interpretation over here. "[insert character] was a racist" and "the Uchiha were justified" is a valid interpretation of the story. But at the same time, I doubt that this was ever intended by Kishimoto.
I have talked about this at length in another post of mine, in which I analyzed Kishimoto's most likely intent and how exactly this information is relevant to us with a look at authorial intent in fiction. But the TL;DR version is that Japan is not exactly very sensitized to themes of racism and the "Curse of Hatred" is never framed as racist propaganda but exposition only. The lore also lines up with Kishimoto's personal views on how grudges are responsible for war (instead of corruption or racism) and the Uchiha's curse might be a metaphor for that.
In other words, the Curse of Hatred is real in canon. Even if it's a massive red flag and deserves to be criticized.
What Is The "Curse of Hatred" Even?
I have to admit, it's been a while since the last time I watched Naruto from start to finish, so I had to use the sources listed by the wiki rather than relying on my own findings and I might be biased. Because of that, I'd prefer everybody to regard my findings as headcanon or interpretation (especially further toward the end) rather than undisputed fact.
As far as I remember, the exact wording "Curse of Hatred" is only ever used by Obito. While not using the same wording, the curse is also referenced by Itachi, Hagoromo, and Tobirama who each have their own understanding of it. Unfortunately, we have no idea where exactly this wording or concept originated and we have no idea what exactly causes the Curse of Hatred that Obito refers to.
Hiruzen, Koharu, Homura, and even Danzo, while potentially influenced by Tobirama's teachings, do not reference the Curse of Hatred at all, at least not in relation to the Uchiha Clan itself.
Now here's the first one of my findings: The Curse of Hatred is supposed to be some sort of involuntary biological or cultural inclination causing Uchihas to become consumed by hatred but it is also something voluntary - a Nindo. While the former could be considered a "curse" in the traditional sense, the latter is definitely not.
For the Nindo, it is supposed to be some sort of antithesis to the Will of Fire. Because of that, it is not limited to the Uchiha but, according to Tobirama and Obito, closely associated. As explained later on in this post, most Uchihas do not follow this Nindo.
Core aspects of the Curse of Hatred as a Nindo:
Valuing a precious few above the many
Directing your hatred at those who took away your precious few
Growing stronger from those feelings of hatred (for the Uchiha, reflected in the form of the Sharingan)
A Biological Inclination?
Now back to Tobirama's theory, due to the narrative framing, we will assume his words to be truthful for the sake of this analysis. However, I will provide links to other people's posts delving into the fantasy racism discussion.
Tobirama is racist and his theories cannot be trusted.
Tobirama is not racist and there is validity to his theories.
I myself do not completely agree with either of these, but they might be interesting reads for you. If you do not agree with either of them, please keep it to yourself and do not bother the original creators.
Tobirama's theory goes as follows:
The Uchiha feel love and hate more strongly than other individuals
The strength of the Sharingan and the Uchihas' hatred are correlated
In a fit of hatred, odds are an Uchiha will commit evil
It is nowhere mentioned that the Uchiha are more likely to feel hate - only that their hatred is worse than the average person's and puts them at risk of being swayed by hateful ideologies.
A Cultural Inclination?
Aside from Tobirama's theory, multiple characters comment on the historical origin behind the Curse of Hatred.
We are talking, of course, about Indra. Obito explains that Indra's values and his hatred (particularly what later became the Nindo of the Curse of Hatred) were passed down to his descendants - the Uchiha clan. Tobirama's exposition implies the same thing.
Tobirama states that there "used to be a thought that [...] the basis of the Uchiha clan's strength was the power of their jutsu". It is very similar to Hagorormo's description of his son.
If this is correct, that would mean that the importance placed on powerful jutsu by the Uchiha Clan does inadvertently promote hatred due to the close correlation between hatred and the Sharingan.
But then again, in the story, it is shown that many Uchiha were not particularly fond of perpetuating hate and it is also implied that to avoid hatred, they sealed their emotions away. My interpretation is that they recognized the pain that hate could cause and then took steps to avoid it.
The Reincarnation Cycle
Sticking with Indra, another explanation that is frequently brought up is Indra's and Ashura's reincarnation cycle, which has also been described as curse-like or haunting and neverending. A fate seemingly set in stone.
There is not much more to say, other than that this theory suggests that Indra's reincarnates are just naturally inclined towards lusting for power.
The True Origin
Now, here's another thing that's constantly being overlooked. Aside from Obito's exposition in chapter 462 on the Curse of Hatred Nindo, Tobirama's exposition in chapter 619 on the Uchiha's tendency to follow said Nindo, and even Hagoromo's exposition on the reincarnation cycle in chapter 670, we get a vital piece of exposition in chapter 681.
Ladies, gentlemen, and anything in between. May I introduce to you...
...the real Curse of Hatred.
Or at the very least what I believe is the real reason why the "Curse of Hatred" exists in the world of Naruto.
From the very beginning, Zetsu approached Indra to take advantage of his hatred and turn it into a tool for his own purposes. He then did that again and again. He focused on the Uchiha in particular - Either because of the previously mentioned reasons (i.e. the Uchiha / incarnates have a tendency to become obsessed with hatred and power) or because the Uchiha were otherwise easy to take advantage of / manipulate (through Hagoromo's stone tablet that was left in the Uchihas' possession, an ill reputation thanks to Indra's / their ancestors' actions, etc).
In order to achieve his goal (awakening a Rinnegan), he had to somehow combine both Indra's and Ashura's power. It is implied that for this purpose, he instigated, perpetuated, and escalated wars and conflicts between Senju and Uchiha by pitting their reincarnates against each other. But unlike the wars he caused, Zetsu went unnoticed by the history books. Basically, he kept haunting the clans like a curse.
And without a doubt, had Zetsu never been there, 99% of the Uchihas' problems would not exist - regardless of what ideals, genes, or history the Uchiha hold. Indra's declaration of war, centuries of conflict, Madara's defection, Obito losing Rin, the Kyubi attack, the Uchiha massacre, Sasuke's defection, the 4th Great Shinobi War. All of these were directly caused by Zetsu or set off by a resulting chain reaction.
You could even think this further. Assuming the Uchiha clan really came across as "cursed", perhaps Tobirama's, Obito's, Hagoromo's and everybody else's explanations were just desperate attempts to make sense of anything. They didn't know that Zetsu was pulling the strings, so perhaps they tried to explain the Uchiha Clan's history in some other way. One that made sense without that missing variable.
What is actually going on here is, of course, uncertain. There are basically no definitive explanations on the matter and right now it looks like all of the above could be true and at the same time none.
#ask#naruto discussion#naruto ask#anon#naruto#analysis#curse of hatred#not going over the 'it's just racism' theory because that one has no support in the story#i have actually thought about this topic for some time haha#this was the perfect prompt i needed to post this#the curse of hatred lore makes sense in-universe but from an irl perspective it is raising some major red flags that cannot be denied#also feel free to add something in case you are more knowledgable on the topic than i am#ie race theory or whatever it is called#'race theory' CAN make sense in a fictional universe though#like 'vampires are naturally unempathetic towards humans' because they cannot relate to the lives of humans due to themselves being immorta#but as soon as you try to apply it to our world as an analogy it immediately crumbles#i'd also like to add that i am probably viewing tobirama through rose-tinted glasses as i am reading tobirama-centric fanfic#where he is characterized as a very interesting and also kind-hearted character#notably “Like a Pebble (Thrown In the River)”#and “In The Dancing Of Fire In The Curve Of Old Bones”#also adding that sasuke's hatred towards the village and shinobi system is entirely justified#but his actions are not#the genocide on the uchiha cannot be justified and the perpetrators deserved to be punished and the system was in dire need of change#but jfc solving genocide with ANOTHER genocide is not the answer
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And here she actually is
*jazz hands*
an actual sprite for Emi, if you can believe it
Smushed together from different bits and pieces thanks to @alchemivich's assets. Hair is from pngimg with a CC BY-NC 4.0 license, I'll put the link in the replies.
Thanks to Deuce, random dormless background student, Cater, Azul and random Styx scientist for their contributions for making this happen.
Tagging @scint1llat3 @diodellet @moonyasnow @bibi-cha
If anyone else would like to tagged for Emi stuff, please let me know!
You can find more information on my yuusona Emi here on the masterlist.
#ner talks#ner makes#twisted wonderland#twst oc#twst yuusona#emi lind#ngl I'm really proud of this one#like sure I'm sure there would've been easier ways to do some of the things I did#considering the amount of time I spent on this#(I mean also like the fact that she's got ears in there which I didn't even need in the end oof)#(but guess she's ready for if I ever fiddle with her in the future?)#and yeah sure the hair doesn't match twst's style#and sure I could change the shoes and fiddle with a few other details but honestly#this most certainly does the job#(plus like beggars can't be choosers so this well represents what she might be wearing when first arriving)#this kinda makes me wanna pick up some photo manip course or something ngl#also I really hope I managed to make the birth marks look like birthmarks instead of pimples oof#look forward to finding random stray pixels and other nonsense once I post this#but looking at the physical description post I did of her earlier I *think* I got all the major things
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Kind of hard to ask as anon
But you doing ok?
Need to vent?
Hi very kind and thoughtful of you to ask, i am doing mmmmm suboptimal but i do not need to vent to a person per se, so much as i need to say absolutely insane shit in my tags and have everyone pretend not to see <3
#my stuff#asks#this is the problem with using tumblr as a multi-role platform bc when i want to talk about my fcuking metnal illness i stress-#about my online friends judging me for it#not in like a mean sense but just that it feels like it would change their opinion of me#like on tumblr u can say you have adhd or autism (i have the latter and likely the former)#but anything more intense is regarded as sketchy#so when i’m having symptoms disease of an additional metnal illness it’s like hmmm i don’t think i’m supposed to talk about that#mostly because the majority of the time it’s something i mask over#and do subconsciously until i get particularly tired or stressed or fatigued#so when i get to those states i’m trying extra hard not to blindside everyone with what a fucking mutant i am under the surface#like yippee hooray more ammunition for some transphobe to use in 3 weeks next time i get anon hate#anyways im. tired. i need more tattoos. i need a vacation. i need a forever hug. i need to feel cute. i need things to just be okay#i need to not be fractured into so many snapping pieces i need to know what is expected of us#i need to not feel like an adult babysitting a child who’s actually controlling me#i feel weak and undisciplined but i know fixing those won’t fill the hole gnawing my heart#im going to bed. blegh.
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you know what? i'm posting the fic this week the earlier the better because fuck it + i must be cleansed + come over and shoot me in the head if i don't do it
#i need that exorcism for real i can't keep dragging its dead (??) weight forward etcetera#i say no to major changes and that wouldn't be a good idea anyway sometimes you have to say yup! this was it from me#and this was it🩷 i swear on my fucking life i just need one more scene (tiny) and some kind of finishing sentence that works#and to read it over critically but not too much#cause as i said no major changes we won't be getting caught up in dumb shit.#and that's it. worse things have been made . before#i have to follow my own philosophy and believe that bad incest fic or a sorry attempt at freak shit is better than no attempt#because yeah sure fuck this fuck me but MORE importantly FUCK anyone who wants us silent and thinks us dangerous and immoral#where was i. oh right this is my basic human right therefore it's worth something. not Something as in actual something but “not nothing”#so suck it😁#good night everyone#kata.txt
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message to all everyone: you are gonna get there. you can get there. I never thought I would get there either and now I have. went back and forth about how to word this post but tbh I just want to honestly say. keep fucking trying out of spite if nothing else because maybe things will in fact get fucking better and it's worth sticking around to find out.
#context I just made a major life change that I'd been needing to do for a long long time#and only just recently got the opportunity to#pigeon.txt#hope#I guess#this isn't gonna fix everything#it's gonna be rough and recovery is not a linear path#but. BUT!#we did it.#addendum: some of you might know the specifics#for privacy/safety reasons pls do not post what it is publicly kthxbye
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Hey, y’all. I’m gonna be deleting tumblr off my phone and probably not accessing it for a couple of days.
Things keep happening that are making me very uncomfortable and are affecting my mental health. It’s mostly just a personal thing, so I’m gonna take some time to work on it.
I’m not gonna be off for very long, hopefully, as I truly do love writing and sharing my stories with y’all. I just need to take a break for a little while so I stay safe.
I love and appreciate you all and am so grateful for the support and love I’ve gotten on my stories.
Thanks 💛
#this really is mostly just a personal thing#i just need to get some issues under control before i can continue being on here#i also might be making some major theme changes to my blog when i get back#i’ll still be a harry potter blog but i have some themes and boundaries i want to add#love you all so much
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nothing to this, i just like putting her in situations
#i saw the words time loop on something. went oo i like those. and boom. thoughts of melia#i need to put her in a slot machine#general thoughts on this are just that shes stuck in a time loop going from the day before goldenwood forest to before .karma#with each timeline varying in length#and some being paragon and some being renegade. who knows#but she doesnt learn anything she doesnt already know and she cant change anything major#so yea that means she gets to watch jenner die over and over again. yippie#and she also has to deal with being in the past past for 3 years everytime as well. loser#idk. i just dont like her and think its fun to think about her in situations#oh and also hapi does not loop with her. she is completely alone in this.#maybe. idk i havent thought about what would be funnier
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