#Then we take it back to SPN and how Dean called Cas a Ken Doll in the early seasons

[orionsangel86]

Just waiting for you to post a separate gainmanverse angel 🍆 meta

LMAO

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I feel like this would become controversial very quickly... Hmm lets see... "Which beloved Neil Gaiman characters have dicks? A Meta Analysis" (I'm cry laughing at this thought!)

Also what if it got back to Neil? I couldn't live with myself!!

I WILL post the nude Morpheus pics for all to see without a hint of shame though if anyone dared me because I am already so amazed no one has done that yet. This man sent his own sex tape to the entire collective unconscious he can stand to have a few nudes leaked on tumblr.com

(Things I learnt from Overture which I really didn't expect to learn from Overture: The exact shape and heft and manscaping choices of Dream of the Endless's dick and balls. Thanks Overture! I think.)

[selttiks4313]

If I were smart or patient enough I would write the best spn/house au and it would be so so so good you guys.

Imagine if you will…

Non spn/human au

Dean takes care of Sammy (obv) and whenever he’s sick they go to the free clinic. John brings them once or twice. House clocks John as an alcoholic probably. Knows he’s ex military (the way Dean calls him sir etc.) and feels for the boys because we all know houses dad was a pos too. Treats John like shit but good with Sam. (Good in deans eyes, even better in Sam’s)

Eventually John stops coming around (dead? Lost custody? Idk idc) and it’s just Dean at Sammy’s apts. (maybe Bobby or Ellen in an emergency?? House could ask Sam where his brother is etc.)

House and Dean vibe even when he’s young. Dean just wants to get in and get out and not waste his or houses time. Sammy doesn’t complain either which is unlike most kids. House is an ass but Dean enjoys those visits more than when he sees other providers.

(I feel like Dean comes in one day (an adult at drinking age atp) and house wants to kill time to piss off Cuddy and Dean doesn’t wanna go back to work. This is when the primary bonding happens.)

They watch general hospital together in the exam room and talk about dr sexy. They leer at nurses and Cuddy. They talk about deans car and houses bike. Having shitty dads. Music, bad horror movies.

Dean likes Wilson too. He comes around sometimes and seems nice enough. Dean notices something is kinda up with those two but it isn’t his business. Wilson’s third wife sounds unbearable.

They don’t ever hangout or anything. (Unless? Maybe they run into each other at a bar a few times? Moody drinking and talking music or something equally them. But never intentionally hanging out) Their worlds don’t blur that much. I’m thinking more like random hijinx leading them to having several interactions (10+?) over the years.

Charlie breaks an arm or something. Benny needs stitches and won’t let Dean do it. Bobby’s been sick for two months and refuses to be seen until Dean makes him go in. STD check up (House would have a field day with this) IDK just random instances to where they have a bit of familiarity with one another.

I feel like House would call Dean “the ken doll” Winchester. Dean would flirt with Cameron and House would be delighted. Etc etc. Just random instances through out the years where they recognize and respect each other. Nothing more.

Until

Cas gets sick. Weird sick, needs houses expertise sick. No one at the clinic is taking Dean’s concerns about Cas seriously. (I feel like Cas having major personality changes would be Interesting maybe?? Like combo of godstiel/insane Cas. Maybe a seizure or two?? Idk something!) Until Dean sees House in the hallway. House agrees to see him because he likes Dean and he’s bored.

Normal medical malpractice ensues blah blah blah

But

Deans reaction to Cas being sick is unsettling to house. They’re just friends right? This is the guy Deans mentioned to him in passing before?

But why does Dean look at him (Cas) like that? Why is he holding his hand? Why did he brush the hair out of his eyes?

Dean once referred to this Cas guy as his own Wilson. But House doesn’t look at Wilson like that, does he?? *Insert House spiral here*

Wilson also gets nervous watching them together or hearing them talk about each other. I think he and Cas need to bond. Both in love with grumpy men who are too afraid to allow themselves to love.

Oooo Cas reprimanding Dean for being rude in almost identical fashion to how Wilson did to House before they entered the room. That would be hilarious.

Speaking of hilarious. Very funny to imagine the ducklings searching Deans place. (Not the bunker. Maybe Bobbys? Maybe an apt above the roadhouse?)

I just know they would have lots to say. Forced masculinity comments with the nudie magazines/calendars etc. Surprisingly good/healthy ingredients/food in the house? Dean cooks apparently. Books on mechanical engineering and fantasy/sci-fi novels.

I feel like he and Cas need to be roommates for some reason in this 🤔. Maybe Cas has just moved in? Escaped his family’s religious extremist right wing bs. Maybe he doesn’t even have a room yet??? Maybe he and Dean share.

Ducklings taking bets on if Dean and Cas are dating, besties, or in love but repressed. “Sounds like two other men best friends that we know” *foreman voice*

House saves Cas because of course he does. Dean cries and rests their foreheads together and House feels uncomfy watching this and skedaddles.

Something about seeing them together will push him and/or Wilson to make a move finally. Not sure who or how yet.

I want to write this soooooo bad but I know I’ll never finish it. Someone want to write this for me?? It would be so good I just know it!!!!

[winchesterprincessbride]

The Song Remains the Same

This was written for week #19 of the fantabulous @thing-you-do-with-that-thing SPN Hiatus Writing Challenge. I am using the trope damsel not in distress and ends up saving the day.

 A/N: This story idea has been kicking around in my head for a while now, and it kinda sorta fits the prompt if you use your imagination so here goes. (I’m taking some liberties, I’ll admit.)

Master List

Characters: Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester, Castiel Novak, Meg Masters, Reader Balthazar (mentioned)

Stanford, California 2007

Dean was gonna blow.  It was obvious to everyone around him.  It was just a matter of time.  Patience was not his strong suit, and Balthazar had kept them waiting for over an hour.

“I say he loses it in three….two….” Cas whispered to Sam.

“Meg!” Dean bellowed. “Get out here! Where the hell is he?”

Meg Masters, Castiel’s long-suffering girlfriend, and the band’s sort-of unpaid manager came stomping into the room.  “That stupid fuck!” She shrieked.

“What’s wrong, baby?” Cas asked, trying to console her.

“Balthazar got busted with a buttload of coke.  He violated his parole.  He’s being deported.” Meg said through gritted teeth.

Dean threw his mike across the room.  “Wonderful, just fucking wonderful! We finally have our big break, and now we don’t have a drummer!” Dean looked ready to have an aneurism.

Sam, ever the calmer of the brothers, looked at Meg to solve this problem as she did every other one that came up.

Two years ago, Sam and Cas had met in class at Stanford and had discovered their love of music and decided to form a band.  Sam played the bass, and Cas was a classically trained pianist who also dabbled in keyboards.

Sam was an okay singer, but his older brother Dean was a great one, so he recruited him.  Dean worked as a mechanic so it didn’t take much convincing.  Meg knew a guy named Balthazar who agreed to play drums, but he was hard to control.  He liked drugs, he liked women, and he liked not showing up for stuff.

After two years of playing the college circuit, “The Hunters” had built up a rabid following, mainly due to the guys' looks and charisma.  They had started to really make a name for themselves, and when they were booked to headline the Greek Week festival, things really started looking up.

When Meg had gotten a call that a representative from Death Siren Records was coming to the concert to hear them play, Sam had started to think that maybe they could make it as musicians.  He was barely going to class anymore anyway.  All they needed was their big break, and he would finally make the move and drop out.

He didn’t want to be a lawyer anyway.  He wanted to be a rock star.  Cas had music swimming around in his head 24/7.  Being in a band and writing their music helped him put some of his creativity on paper, and kept him happy.  He didn’t care if he ever went back to school.  

Dean wanted it all.  The money.  The women.  The power.  The adoration.  No one was going to tell him he was just a lowly mechanic anymore.

Meg just wanted them to succeed.  They were her ticket to bigger and better things.  And she was in it for the long haul.

“So where are we gonna find a drummer who can learn our material by Saturday?” Sam asked out loud, shaking his head.

“Let’s break for tonight.  We’re obviously not getting anything done.  Let’s meet back here tomorrow, same time.  And hopefully, I’ll have come up with a solution.  Try not to destroy anything, okay, Dean?” Meg snapped as she snatched up her purse and stalked out.

The next night, everyone had arrived except Meg. She had a late class and had told Cas she could be coming after.  

“She said she might have found us a drummer.  That they were coming by to audition for us.” Cas said happily. “I knew Meg would come through.  She always does.”

“Yeah, but we don’t just need a drummer. We need a great drummer that can learn our whole playlist in 3 days, Cas.” Dean grumbled.

They just hung out, waiting, and when the door opened, three pairs of eyes took in the petite girl that entered.  She looked lost.

“This is a private rehearsal, Sweetheart,” Dean told her in his flirty way.

You rolled your eyes at him. “No kidding! The instruments weren’t a dead giveaway or anything.  I’m looking for Meg.  Is she here?”

Sam jumped down from the stage.  “Can we help you with something?”

“I hear you guys are looking for a drummer?” You asked, giving him the once-over.  Damn, he was tall!

Dean sauntered over to you.  “You are a drummer?” He said doubtfully.

“What’s wrong, handsome? Never seen a girl play the skins before?” You snapped, and he bristled.

Before Dean could say something rude Sam spoke.  “How about you play something for us?” Sam requested.

“Sure. I can do that.”  Just as you pulled out your sticks Meg rushed in.  “Sorry I’m late, guys.  Oh hey, Y/N.  You found it!”

“Yeah, but I’m not sure the Ken doll can handle a female drummer, Meg.”

Dean opened his mouth to protest but Meg just held up a finger.  “Not one word, Dean.  Not until you’ve heard her.  She sings too.”

“Oh really?” Dean said with a raised eyebrow.

Cas smiled at you.  “I’m looking forward to hearing you, play, Y/N.”

You sat down at the drums and took a minute to get yourself comfortable.

They were all staring at you intently, so you just pretended they weren’t there.  You decided to go with “In the Air Tonight” because you felt it was a good song for both your voice and your drumming.

You could have heard a pin drop by the time you were done.  You hadn’t missed a single note, and your voice sounded perfect, even to you.

Cas looked like he wanted to hug you.  “That was amazing!” He said with a smile.

Sam looked stunned like he was seeing the drums played for the first time.  “Wow.  That was pretty impressive.  How long have you been playing?”

“Since I was nine.” You replied with a shrug.  

“It shows.”

“Well, Dean.  I’m sure you have something to say, so out with it.” Meg snapped.

Dean looked you up and down. “Can you dress more like a girl? Like I don’t know, maybe a skirt or something? You're hot, show it off.”

You glared at him. “You try straddling a kit in a skirt. No one tells me what to wear, dude.  It seems to me you need me right now more than I need you.  So what’s it gonna be?”

(Part 2)

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[mycasandstarrs]

SPN 7x09: “How to Win Friends and Influence Monsters”

THEN: Leviathans are confident, smart, and unstoppable. Crowley tips the Winchesters off about Dick, and is stepping aside so the bros can wipe out Dick and the Leviathan. Frank Devereaux and the new lifestyle he’s set up for the boys. Dean is downspiraling and Sam is too.

We got two dumb dumbs “glamping”. What is even the point??

RIP first victim. Killed by unseen monster.

Hammonton, New Jersey.

Back to squatting.

Bobby! I’m gonna cherish every moment you’re on screen. :(

“Weeks, guys. Weeks. We've been living with cold showers, cold Hot Pockets, cold freaking everything. I mean, this is the bottom that we're living in.” That is a new low for them.

Welp. There goes the power.

“Stop trying to wrestle with the big picture, son. You're gonna hurt your head.“ Sage advice, Bobby.

The Jersey Devil!

“Something's out there in the woods. Hey, we're going honest to goodness wilderness hunting. I haven't used my .30-30 in a while.” Bobby’s going back to old roots.

“Sam?”

“High-end camper. TV, A.C., Wi-Fi. Back to nature, zero inconvenience.”

“That’s idiotic.”

It absolutely is.

Biggersons.

Ranger Rick Evans, who is stoned af.

“Come to think of it, I haven't seen Phil in a couple of days. He's supposed to call from whatever station he's checking off.”

“But you think maybe your assistant chief ranger might be missing?”

“I should probably report that.”

w o w

Suited up Bobby. Always a fave of mine.

“Hey, uh, douchewad, a hostess will seat you. Do I look like a freaking hostess?“

“Do you want to look like a hostess?”

What exactly was Brandon’s problem??

Dean...hon.

“Sidewinder soup and salad combo goes to Big Bird. TDK slammer for Ken doll. And a little heart-smart for creepy uncle.”

I wouldn’t tip at all, fuck this dude.

“New Pepperjack Turducken Slammer.”  Dean would fall for that.

“Bunch of birds shoved up inside each other. Shouldn't play God like that.” hahahaa.

Bobby in his element.

Sharing old stories.

“You used to take us hunting. Remember? Dad had a case, he'd just dump us on you. Shoot, you must have taught us most of the outdoor tracking we know.”

“Yeah, what I could get to stick. I never could get you little grubs to pull a trigger on a single deer.”

They found Phil.

And now the monster has Ranger Rick.

“It's got him up in the trees. Lights off.”

“What?”

“Wait, Bobby, you think that's really a good idea?”

“Shut up, shut off, and listen.”

Bobby is a fucking legend.

“Damn thing’s eating Rick.”

“Man, I liked Rick.”

Not now, Dean. But that was the first indicator that he was stoned.

Bobby shot and hit that thing with both eyes closed, WHAT A LEGEND.

That thing is literally the most disgusting looking thing ever.

RIP monster. Killed by Sam, Dean, and Bobby.

Gerald Browder.

Ranger Rick, pine cone, a pack of gum with the wrapper still on, more humans, a cat’s head. Things found in Gerald’s stomach.

I mean...this is disgusting.

“Is that right? Do rats shake their ass, or is it something else? Eh.”

fff ahahaha. I love stoned!Dean.

I love how they swan wrapped it.

“I'm fine! I -- I actually feel great. The best I've felt in a couple months. Cas? Black goo? I don't even care anymore. And you know what's even better? I don't care that I don't care.” Iconic.

EWW. That is literally like that one episode of Spongebob.

“I think you pissed of my sandwich.” hahaha.

“If I wasn't so chilled out right now, I would puke.” lmaaooo. I love ya, honey.

Now Dean’s wiped out.

Sam worries about Dean.

“... and we lost Cas. I mean, you ever feel like he's -- he's going through the same motions but he's not the same Dean, you know?”

“You know, you worry about him. All he does is worry about you. Who's left to live their own life here?”

I’ll die on the “Bobby was a good father to Sam and Dean” hill.

Sam’s hand cut coping mechanism.

Get in the car!

Brandon! You turd.

Dean’s up again.

Edgar’s back.

So is Dr. Gaines!

RIP weirdo gross monsters. Burned to death.

Bobby had his heart to heart with Sam. Now it’s Dean’s turn.

“I've seen a lot of hunters live and die. You're starting to talk like one of the dead ones, Dean.”

Can you imagine Bobby trying to deal with S13 “just lost Cas and Mary” Dean?? He’d go out of his mind with worry.

Ouch, a Ben and Lisa mention.

“Now, you find your reasons to get back in the game. I don't care if it's love or spite or a ten-dollar bet.”

“You die before me and I’ll kill ya.” A little too late for that Bobbers, but I know what you mean. And I also know that you don’t have to worry about that...

The Montage of Dick Roman.

“The Rise of Dick” huehuehue

“A vocal member of the NRA and a steadfast supporter of the second amendment--” Dick Roman would fit right in today, jeez.

“Remember when Crowley kept going on about hating Dick? I thought he was just being general.” Really??

“The food additive that I've introduced into the Turducken has a near-100% rate of effectiveness. Once the subject tries it, they crave more within a few hours. With the very first dose, it starts to work on their DNA, slowing their metabolism, causing weight gain, and dampening their emotional range, which makes them perfectly complacent.” Thank god Sam and Bobby stopped Dean from eating anymore.

RIP grandma.

“I want to turn this little mistake into a big fat teachable moment. Will you help me with that?” He’s dead.

“Listen, sir, I will do anything. I will give anything to make this right.” Shouldn’t have said that.

RIP Leviathan Dr. Gaines. Death by bibbing.

NOO, they got Bobby. God no, it’s coming.

“Dean, there are at least four Leviathans out there. We don't even know how to kill one.” You know how to slow them down.

Bobby pretending to be unconscious, haha.

“So you got Dick Roman.”

“We can have whoever we want. We could have you, for example. If you were worth the effort.”

Ooohhh, I’m being reminded on why I hate this jackass.

“Like the late, great, actual Dick Roman used to say to the whores he'd kick out of the presidential suite... ‘cute don't quite hack it, sugar.’” Real Dick Roman was an asshole too.

“I'm gonna eat you, Bob.” I know for a fact you won’t, so fuck you.

The power of Power Clean!

Bobby should’ve just taken the files and the loaded gun and gotten out of there sooner.

Fuck, Bobby saved Sam there.

Bobby run!

Oh god, I know it’s coming. My stomach’s in knots.

There it went.

Fuck me.

[mycasandstarrs]

SPN 4x10: “Heaven and Hell”

Eugh, Uriel.

“You’re some heartless sons of bitches, you know that?”

“As a matter of fact we are. And?”

OOOOHHHH FUCK YES. S4!CAS WAS SO GREAT.

Hmm, Cas has a rather interesting reaction to Uriel saying “She’s worse than this abomination you’ve been screwing.”

Cas kinda looking like he doesn’t want to be there.

Uriel goes after Ruby, Dean goes after Uriel, and Cas calmly approaches Sam.

Sam’s first time calling him Cas!

lmao, Cas just put him to sleep. He thought “You really thought you could call me Cas? Sorry, our friendship has to be at a Level 10 to unlock that upgrade.”

Our first angel banishment.

Dean helps Ruby up, in one of 5 moments of solidarity between them.

This is the first time Dean sees the angel banishment sigil...but he goes on to credit Cas for it.

To Bobby’s!

Hmmm, Dean thanked Ruby a lot quicker there for the hex bags.

And Ruby looks...happy about that. B u t knowing her, she might be happy that she can further infiltrate and manipulate them more now.

Oh Dean, don’t lie. Even if it’s just to keep her happy.

Lmao, Dean asked about the car first. Sam reassures him she’s fine.

Bobby’s in the Dominican! Unlike Sam and Dean, I hope he’s on vacation because he most certainly deserves one.

Huh, so at 2 years old Anna sensed her dad wasn’t her real dad and that her real father was “wanted to kill her mad.” Yikes.

“You’re confusing porn with reality again.” ...what were the other times?

lmao Ruby.

Pamela!

“Any chance I can dick over an angel, I’m taking it.” hoo boy, who’s gonna tell her?

I loved Pamela’s sense of humor.

Sam hangs out by the door, close to Ruby. Dean is closer to Anna.

Oh boy, this ain’t going well.

Wow, Dean.

The change in demeanor from Anna Milton to Anna the angel is incredible.

Anna was the boss of them.

“I disobeyed...which, for us, is about the worst thing you can do. I fell.”

The first mention of an angel’s grace.

Ruby silently freaking out, lol.

“You’re pretty buff for a nerd.” She ain’t wrong.

Ruby’s tapping out. Well, she’s suggesting it.

Alastair AKA “Picasso with a razor.”

Oohh crap, the demon blood mention.

Conversations between Sam and Ruby always tend to go downhill somehow.

And now the other side of the coin: Dean and Anna.

Dean wants to know why he was saved. Hoo goodness.

“Why would you fall?”

“There’s loyalty...forgiveness...love.”

(I could have sworn there was a gifset of Cas displaying those traits.)

Anna doesn’t want to be an angel.

“Feeling are overrated.” lowkey same, lol

“Beats being an angel.”

I just keep thinking about S9, human Cas, and the conversation he and Dean have after Cas takes another angel’s grace as his own. I keep thinking about Dean asking Cas if he’s sure that he wants to be an angel again; did Dean remember this conversation with Anna? 

Dean’s idea of angels: “You guys are powerful and perfect. You don’t doubt yourselves or God or anything.” This could only come from what he’s seen from Cas...and Uriel.

At this point, only 4 angels have seen God.

Anna is practically complaining about her people watching job vs Cas who tells Sam in S8 “it never gets old”. AKA Cas always seemed to enjoy it.

Sam the interrupter.

An interesting take on Team Free Will.

He’s actually got a point. “It’s just an angel and a demon riding in the backseat. It’s like the setup to a bad joke...or a Penthouse Forum letter.”

Again with the porn.

The grace is gone. Everyone collectively has a “well, shit” moment.

“Dean Winchester gives us Anna by midnight or we hurl him back to damnation.” Damn, ok.

Dean wanted to get Bobby back, hahaha. 

Oh lord, it’s about to happen.

“Maybe I don’t deserve to be saved.”

“Don’t talk like that.”

“We’ve all done things we gotta pay for.”

Something inside of me cried out in pain when Dean looked so surprised that someone went to caress his face gently. Oh, honey.

Yeah yeah yeah, kiss him and get on with the sex.

“Ready for Love” by Bad Company. You know what, I still can’t listen to this song without getting hot and bothered. This show ruined me.

Oh my god, the back muscles. i need all the holy water and the forgiveness of our lord and savior.

Oh look CAS’ HANDPRINT In fine print you can see: “Don’t touch. Property of Castiel.”

And the Titanic thing, ha ha.

Ruby sneaking out...

Alastair.

“We must revoke your membership.”

Ruby tried to bargain for her and the Winchester’s safety.

But it was a trap, of course it was.

Uriel...you’re a pain in my ass.

Oh, it’s a dream.

“See he has this weakness. He likes you.”

oooohhhhhh!!!!!! Dean’s facceee!!!!!!

(x)

Dean tries to lie about Anna having her grace and it backfires spectacularly. 

Oohhh, the taunting about having sex with Anna...which gives us the”Ken doll” taunt, which we’ll be hearing again.

“This is a whole lot bigger than the plans we got for you, Dean.You can be replaced.” 

Being Michael’s vessel would definitely qualify as “bigger plans”.

Adam is currently around soo....

(And hell, in Apocalypse AU, John died before he could father Sam, Dean OR Adam. When the time came for the Apocalypse to start, they *did* get someone else, a non Winchester...Uriel wasn’t kidding or bluffing.)

Poor choice of words, Dean. 

I hate Ruby...but I can’t stand to see her being tortured like this.

And I have to admire her smarts here.

Dean’s drinking.

Dean brought the angels...

The most subtle indication that Dean is the reason the angels are here: Cas’ gaze.

Dean and Anna kiss...AND IF YOU TRY TO TELL ME THAT THE LOOK IN CAS’ FACE ISN’T JEALOUSY, I WILL CLOG MY EARS SO I CAN’T HEAR YOU.

Ruby brings the demons.

“You sanctimonious, fanatical prick.”

Hot damn, I love me some S4 commanding Cas. “Leave now...or we lay you to waste.”

Cas went straight for Alastair!

And nearly died for it too!

RIP random demon.

Dean saves Cas! (Probably because of the whole “he likes you” thing. Besides Anna, Cas is the only other “good angel” Dean can have on their side, the only angel they can possibly get through to. But still, as a Destiel shipper, I’m overjoyed that Dean chose to save him.)

(x)

RIP random demon #2.

Anna takes her grace.

Good lord, Cas is beautiful.

Anna and Alastair are gone.

Awww, I half expected Cas to join the brothers.

Oh, it was Sam’s plan! I somehow never noticed this before???

Shit, he’s quoting Ruby.

It’s kinda neat how both Dean and Ruby know Anna’s truly miserable about being an angel again.

OH NOOOO NOT THIS SCENE.

I want to hug Dean so badly.

The fact that Dean even tried to keep count of how many souls he tortured and then he just lost count...

“for 30 years” is the single worst line of the monologue. It’s at least top 3 for me, because as soon as he says it, complete dread takes over. When you thought it couldn’t get worse, you’re neck deep in it.

Sam offers a feeble assurance with “At least you held out 30 years”. That’s the best thing can Sam could say, and I’m not saying there’s something better...except for maybe nothing at all.

With what Dean has gone through, now wonder he shuts out the pain and squashes down feelings. Confronting them hurts too damn much. i get it.

Jensen’s acting is absolutely phenomenal, he deserves every acting award for this.

No wonder I avoid this episode like the plague.

And finally, I want to hug Dean so very badly.