#The woes of not getting ur fav...

[xxfillerxx]

i’m having the opposite problem as you lol. desperately trying to get a marius ssr because i have 0, and now i have 5 vyns

Perhaps a swap is in order lol

[7weaslesinacoat]

ok, so i just finished the whole red robin run- i’d read most all of it but stopped around issue 24 before picking it back up this year.

and all i can say, is that sigma tim drake needs more attention. omg when i’m reading ANYTHING and lil nerdy twinky red robin OR robin pops up, especially in comparison to damian

(although i love damian too)

i’m like SHOCKED at how weak they make tim drake seem. like he’s the lil boy who needs batman’s approval and is always on the outskirts of the fam- omg the amount of times i see poor depressed sad “i don’t belong” tim in *fanfiction* is wild.

ras al ghul doesn’t only RESPECT tim, but FEARS him. he managed to weasel his lil way into the entire league of assassins computer system and BLEW IT ALL UP. he’s badass, smart, cool, and he pulls SO. MUCH.

and durning the red robin run bruce wasn’t even THERE for 85% of it. and tim, although his main goal during the beginning was to prove batman was alive, functioned ENTIRELY on his own- while being shunned from the superhero community after he THOUGHT he had lost most of his close friends.

he’s not *soft*, he played *ra’s al ghul*- RAS AL GHUL.

tim right now is my fav batfam member. but i’ve always hated the weird ass woe is me, tim. same with the tim that’s damian wayne’s bitch. nearly every fight and encounter since the initial introduction between them tim’s WON.

give me COOL, badass, batman’s EQUAL tim drake. give me unresolved sexual tension WITH CONNER, tim drake. (sorry bernard).

if ur new to comics get off ur booty and read RED ROBIN, or the og young justice (they could never make me hate uuu) and then come back and tell me tim drakes the weakest robin. nuh uh. no way.

anyway- some lil credits from my experience

[koolades-world]

Hi hi! I’m sorta new to tumblr, but I really like ur blog so far <3! I wanna ask if you could do MC coming out to the brothers as trans? Transmasc preferred, but it’s okay for really any gender. I’ve been a little dysphoric lately (cuz I’m transmasc lol) and I know your fics and stories always cheer me up!!

hi! of course! this is a little late, but I hope this still helps. so glad to hear my silly writing cheers you up!

I do remember doing something similar to this but I don’t think it was specified as transmasc or transfem. if this is the same thing, we just have two now haha

Trasnsmasc Mc comes out

Lucifer

if you are going by a new name now, he wants to know

will make sure to update it everywhere in paperwork

he ensure everyone is aware of this change, and anybody who intentionally ignores it will suffer consequences

dead names are dead for a reason, and he wants make sure you feel respected

Mammon

he's the self proclaimed king of fashion

will help you add more gender affirming pieces of clothing to your wardrobe!

if you want, you can steal from his own closet

it can be shared custody clothing or not, he just wants to make you happy <3

Levi

will help you explore media and find your favorite trans characters!

he understands how comforting it can be to have your fav be relatable

he's always ready to listen to your rants and woes

the least he can do for you is be your diligent listener

Satan

if you're interested in HRT and or surgeries, he'll be by your side the entire time

you won't have to pay a cent because he insists on covering it for you. he's firm in his belief that feeling good about yourself should not be locked behind a paywall

he'll help you do your research but all final decisions are up to you

your body, your choice <3

Asmo

say it with me

cute and fun binders!

yes, of course he believes everyone should own neutrals of every type of clothing, just in case but he believes there should be fun counterparts to them too!

if you can't find a binder you really love, he'll work with raphael to make you one you adore!

Beel

if you want to look more masculine, he's more than willing to lend you some workout tips

if it's gender affirming, he will make sure to help you out

you can use his soaps if you want. he's more than happy to share with his favorite person!

he makes sure you're caring for yourself properly of course. he loves you so much

Belphie

he's very aggressive with making sure everyone is using your correct pronouns!

he doesn't even let accidents slide if they don't correct themselves (but of course, if they do, he doesn't get on them haha)

using the correct pronouns isn't that hard

he always includes his pronouns when introducing himself so you aren't the only one to do so and so you don't feel alone

[sciderman]

HI SCI what are ur fav peter comics/runs? i want to get more into his character but idk where to start and go with how writers have been butchering him for so long and theres just so much to sift through. what do i read/avoid? ive also been interested in ben reily and kaine parker if you have any recs for them! except for the current run with "chasm". im not touching that with a 10ft pole

hoooh, i've barely scratched the surface when it comes to reading spider-man - dear god. there's so much of it. i've mainly stuck to the main amazing spider-man series, and there are so many side series i've hardly touched. i'm just getting started on the web of spider-man series - i'll let you know how that goes.

my absolute favourite spider-man comics will always be the original amazing spider-man run from 1963 onwards - particularly college-era pete (70s), and his miserable, self-pitying self.

dear fucking god

i kind of tapered off around the late 80s/90s when it comes to reading spidey - i'm thinking of taking a little bit of a hiatus to read the entirety of the main amazing spider-man run, start-to-finish, just to fill all the blanks in my spidey knowledge. i couldn't tell you a thing about ben or kaine - all the clone stuff terrifies me to tears - hough - i've been avoiding it. for me, my favourite peter parker stuff is the small-potatoes personal soap opera - love woes, getting the grade, paying the bills - so all the clones and the cosmic horror et cetera et cetera is all so much. i much prefer small-scale stories for peter.

on the topic of young adult peter parker - untold tales of spider-man is a fun little series that kind of summarises a lot from peter's early days of spider-manning in a short, sweet limited run. it's a lot of fun. peter's so pathetic.

in the same vein - spider-man blue is a fan-favourite limited series - revisits peter's college era days, from the lens of an older peter parker reminiscing over gwen. really poignant. really sweet.

the straczynski run of amazing spider-man from the early 2000s is pretty great if you're looking for something more contemporary, following an adult peter facing adult hardships - he's the cool, emotionally mature peter parker that is so very satisfying to see after all the young adult melodrama – oh, and teacher peter parker, my love, my light, my everything.

if you're looking for something contemporary and entry-level, i really do like the ultimate spider-man comic series by bendis - it's a different peter parker, but he's as much of a little shit (if not more) than 616 peter. it's focused squarely on a young, high-school aged peter, who's in way over his head. and i love him. would die for him.

if anyone has any more recs - particularly for kaine and ben - please drop them in the replies!!

[stonyponyofficial]

violer. may i please havvvvve the following. from the music assks......

14. an unpopular music opinion

23. a song you remember liking as a kid

and a super secret number 31 :3c

hihi hiiiii for the love of celestia hello chart !. here are ur long awaited answers, and the last of the music asks i have for now! always down to talk tunes tho so send em if u got em!

14. another unpopular music opinion

oh noes again! hmm i guess this would be unpopular with a lot of people who are way too pretentious about liking music. not pretentious like us correct music opinion havers here on tumblr we have the perfect amount and kind of pretentiousness, i mean pretentious like ben shapiro saying rap definitionally isnt music. and my opinion does have to do with rap! i guess its just that i tend to actually like a lot more recent rap than older stuff (mostly on account of me not seeking out a lot of older rap but im working on it), which i feel like is the exact opporsite opinion of people who are that kind of person would accept. like if ur a pretentious rap fan (not ben shapiro obviously but the ben shapiro of rap fans i guess), in my mind u like the classics and old school stuff "with substance" but shit on modern day rappers for being too braggy, having "no substance", using too many drugs, or whatever like that wasnt happening at all with older rappers and also just musicians.. like who caares its a fun rap song. fav rappers in this category would probably be ski mask the slump god, lil pump to a degree, and lil yachty. like he straight up took the wock to poland fuck offffffff.

23. a song i remember liking as a kid

well i dont have a handy infographic for the occasion but i do have a litte story! when i was a kid i know i said i mostly just got music from the radio and that is true, but my mom would burn cds for me off limewire a lot with songs i requested. with them being mostly ones i liked that i heard off the radio in the first place. just radio but two steps removed. anyway i dont remember a lot of the songs i had put on those cds as this was before i was 12 and thus part of the but i do remember a few, whihc i will detail for u here! a few newer eminem songs (like post debut stuff but yknow before his peanus got an atti. tude) like not afraid and lose yourself and that one with rihanna, liked me some eminem what can i say. another was california girls by katy perry and shnoop doggy dogg and that probably has the first ever Makes Violet Dance Alone In Her Room Award ever. i also really liked replay a lot when i was a kid. u know. ssShawty like a melodyyy. that one. and then the last one i can remember is Love like Woe by The Ready Set. this one i definitely heard when my sister was watching some vh1 music videos and i just kept getting the chorus stuck in my head as a kid. straight up cognitohazard to 9 year old violer.

31. sing a sonnnggggg

wellll okay since u asked >w< heres some songs i sang :3 (get it ?)

no making fun of me or i think i might go to the past to be raised by wolves instead. to learn their howling ways....

[notwxrriors]

the jotto dynamic is soooo good theyre one of my favs tbh. like especially wo9k jotto?? there is something special about them

jotto is mad underrated, I think their personalities compliment each other so well n there's so much to unpack between them tbh obviously awtto is so good but I think it's really easy to remember that jawns known otto just as long as aws has bc they were all teens together n it's all kinda charming and endearing when u think ab it,

wo9k jotto is special!! ur right!!! jawns like. freshly 18 and dealing w like. the woes of becoming an adult on top of the very teenage struggle of figuring out his sexuality and maybe having feelings for otto bc well. look at him. and otto is coming to really love these goofy ass scene kids he's hanging out with even if they're both so cringe and huge losers co compared to his old friends. otto's definitely more mature than both of them combined tbh and far more experienced in most things. but he finds jawn and aws very sweet and very earnest so he's willing to stick it through for their little band even if they sound like dogshit live.

ofc aws is jawns best friend, keeper of all secrets, but jawn finds otto to be so kind and trustworthy as well, and they become fast friends which jawn is pleased ab but he doesn't really know what to make of the butterflies he gets around otto. it makes him feel so shy but he doesn't rly understand why for a long while.

[spadaaces]

Wukong with my stims based on a prompt from twitter!

[tinylilvalery]

Nandermo shippers: omg the djinn gave Nandor a few more wishes! He can still fix things with his relationship with Guillermo!

Me, a Colin Robinson lover: Nandor can use a wish to bring Colin Robinson as we knew him back from the dead from his last point of existence! He'd get to keep his character development that he got over the first three seasons! He'd get to keep his relationship development that he had with the others, most importantly Laszlo! None of it would be all just thrown away like it has been! We'd get Colin back! THIS is how Colin Robinson enjoyers can still win-

[padfootastic]

I'd love to hear your thoughts on the fight between Remus and Harry in DH. Because throughout the series we see Remus manipulating Harry by bringing up James, but for the first time, Harry brings up James in a situation that is the most relevant, and Remus goes BERSERK.

hello 💜💜 i’m so sorry for how long this has been lying in my inbox but i’ve got so much to say and not enough time for it 💀

i don’t think anything i say re this will come as a surprise to anyone who knows me lol i feel like that fight was such a good opportunity to show, in narrative, remus at fault without excusing his actions and the text still missed the mark. i’ve talked before about this, but remus always gets off scot free with no consequences or even reproach for any of his shitty actions and i think this comes under the same banner. iirc even hermione’s like ‘wtf harry’ because of his response, right?

but here, we see him acting shitty in a manner u absolutely cannot ignore. i mean, there’s a point to which ur willing to ignore a grown man’s agency and actions, right? and i feel like ‘abandoning ur wife and unborn kid in the middle of a whole war’ is waaaaaay past that point. we can talk all day about how he thought he was in the right, how he might’ve actually brought misfortune to them by virtue of who he was, but that still doesn’t excuse what tonks would’ve been going through, esp considering her own dad pulled a similar stunt.

you bring up such a great point re james. remus had absolutely no problems invoking his name when he wanted to guilt trip harry (i keep saying this but their conversation in poa horrifies me every time i think about it) but the moment he gets it back? it’s all ‘oh woe is me how dare u’. kinda makes me think remus never had to deal w the consequences of his actions (which like,,,am i wrong tho) bc all the misfortune he has, he attributes to his condition and never his own actions. he basically operates on an external locus of control and the people around him keep enabling it. (ofc a lot of this is conjecture + influenced by what i’ve seen in fandom bc we (i?) don’t actually know that much about him & his motivations from the text) and i think when he actually is held accountable, he’ll go straight on the defensive bc he doesn’t know how to handle it.

imo remus is super, super self destructive and not that capable at maintaining healthy relationships. for all that people go on and on about james and sirius being assholes and bullies, remus is actually so much more insidious in terms of being ‘toxic’. i really think harry was so right for doing what he did, not matter how much shit he gets for it, because someone has to. his friends won’t, people in authority aren’t, and he gets to go through life blaming everything except himself.

i feel like this is super unsympathetic to him lol but that scene in dh is actually one of my favs just because someone is finally saying something to Saint Remus and the fact that it’s harry, of all people? u go bby!!! it was also such a thoughtless action on remus’ part bc he’s telling this to a literal orphan who grew up abused and neglected. also!! the way it portrays him on the complete end of the spectrum as james (who we know is the ‘embodiment of bravery’ in the text bc of his actions therefore, remus is an absolute coward which, self professed but now proved further) which really makes u understand harry’s pov too, i think. because he idolised his dad, ykno? and he’s heard remus talk about their bond before, and we know harry’s judged people by comparing (and associating) them to his parents right? so it just makes remus come off even worse.

ultimately, i think it was just another selfish + narrow minded action in a long list that we can attribute to remus. can we explain them? sure. but does that justify it? i personally don’t think so, but others can obv disagree. remus wasn’t thinking of tonks or baby teddy or harry when he offered to accompany them, no matter how much he tried to spin it that way and i think that lying (to both others & himself) is v characteristic of his personality throughout the whole series. he’s a serial manipulator and no one’s safe from it, not even him.

(i’m reading this and it’s so rambly gosh. i hope some of it made sense?)

[letstalkaboutfandomsbaby]

i love ur stuff but i can't share it with my friends because they're skinny so ur like my little skrunkly I can't share with anyone <\3 woe heartbreak madness

Damn 😔 i mean they could read my stuff but it won't be catered to them sksksk there's enough reader fics that cater to skinny ppl, my blog is for the pretty fat bitches who deserve to get dicked down by their favs 💕

[notnctu]

wayv as best friends ❀

a/n: its late but its author doie ❀ hahah im very disappointed in myself for not having anything written for wayv and i literally stanned them first and the most.... sheesh ! go watch the bad alive mv for a culture reset 

kun: best advice ever. hey if you have any problems, he’s always got a solution along with very delicious meals that he personally cooks for yall. also type to remember every detail about you, like your fav things/your birthday/ur phone#. like the ultimate best friend. to have him call you his best friend is equivalent to being acknowledged by the sun! the warmth that grows in your chest from the utter pure love he will always shower you in

ten: this shithead. we all love him still, despite the many heart palpitations he manages to give us in ONE DAY. its a wild card whenever youre with him bc his mood is all over the place. one day he’s swaddling you like his own damn child, the next he’s kicking you to the streets. without a fail tho, he’ll always be the best hype man ever! everr! and such a great support system when helping you achieve your goals

winwin: subtle savage. he’s def the quieter one when meeting new people, but when you two hang out alone he talks like theres no tomorrow. and he’s literally so funny and tells it how it is. if you wanted a genuine perspective, he wont hesitate to lay out the foundation. and you can always count on him to make you feel better, even if it’s just him being him. 

lucas: such a flirt, but not in a bad way? like he’s not actively hitting on you. but he’s def the type to casually compliment you if he sees something he likes. notices when you do something different with your appearance! the reassurance and validation we all need in life tbh he doesnt mean anything romantic/suggestive way, just wants you to know you’re loved!

xiaojun: best listener ever. similarly to kun, he’ll listen to your woes if ever needed to be. you need a shoulder to cry on, he’s got you! you feel angry about something, he’ll hear you out! he just wants to make sure you’re heard and that whatever pent up inside of you is healthily released. he’s def someone who would spend nights in with you to do face masks and watch drama channels

hendery: down ass bitch. he’s always down to do whatever the fuck you want lol want to go hiking? yeah hes down. want to get ice cream? he’s on his way. want to drive to another city? he’s filling up his tank. like homie is a thrill of excitement and a perfect restlessness that has you exploring and loving life with him. trust me when i say, there is never a dull moment with him bc he wont allow for it! 

yangyang: he’s a shithead too lmao. he claps back forsure, and always sasses you for doing absolutely nothing. except the difference bwtn him and ten is that he’s a big bratty baby ! hurt his feelings, he’ll fucking choke you out while crying. your friendship consists of you guys always at each other’s throats, but like smothering each other in love until one of yall gives out due to annoyance

[madnessismylover]

My new obsession is the Shall We Date? game Obey Me! ... I have spent ...too much time and money on this game

I spent $20 and got the Solomon The Everlasting Rose moving Arty event UR+ card from demon vouchers.

I'm low key debating buying stuff to try and get the UR Luke birthday event card via rewards. I'm never going to get enough firecrackers to get it via rewards without buying stuff. Like there's no way to get that many items to get those without either using real money or having saved up a heck ton of devil points and AP.

I've saved 160 AP (in the to do 'app') and I have 3 energy drinks but there's no way those will get me the card so I'm saving them for the next event. I happened to get lucky with the Solomon UR+ card and got that via Nightmare (I only got half the pieces from rewards)

I was able to use 10 demon vouchers on Luke's Birthday Event but ended up getting repeats of two SSR cards I already had (which eh I guess is over cause it levels up the skill but I want more cards). I got the What Luke Really Wants card from a single Nightmare use too (honestly can't remember if that was via devil points or a voucher I happened to have).

I'm doing math to figure out how much I need to finish the UR card and there's just no way to get it for free without saving up stuff a lot. At most I'll get 5k firecrackers and I need 7k to get the last card pieces. I'm doing every task 3 times plus the extra 5 from videos a day and I still won't get there.

I'm spending real money I shouldn't be spending for little bursts of serotonin... On a mobile game...

I just wanna share stuff not cause I'm bored.

I'm level 78, I have 150 cards total. (90 memory cards)

2 UR+, 2 UR, 13 SSR, 38 SR, 68 R, 27 N

Here's what I have: (UR+,UR, & SSR)

Colour coded by sin. (There's no yellow so white is yellow.)

⭐ - just means it's one of my favs

🌹- I've unlocked the card's Devil's Flower

UR+

Asmo - Snow Day (Lv. 80)

Solomon - The Everlasting Rose (Lv. 46)

UR

Asmo - That Special Someone (Lv. 30)

Diavalo - A Royal Pajama Party (Lv. 70)

SSR

Levi - Levi the Tailor (Lv. 80) ⭐🌹

Mammon - The Mammon Way (Lv. 72)

Luke - Pajama Party Night (Lv. 71) 🌹

Luke - What Luke Really Wants (Lv. 20)

Luke - Baking with a Bang! (Lv. 20)

Luke - A Job from Michael (Lv. 20)

Lucifer - Lucifer's Private Life (Lv. 70)

Lucifer - Being the Oldest (Lv. 42)

Lucifer - Lucifer's melancholy (Lv. 20)

Belphie - Woes of a Master Artist (Lv. 61) ⭐

Simeon - Purgatory's Pajama Party (Lv. 40)

Barbatos - A Fellow Tea Enthusiast (Lv. 4)

Diavalo - Enchanted Pudding (Lv. 1)

I am so annoyed I barely have any Belphie and/or Levi cards 😭 (so happy I got Levi the Tailor and Woes of a Master Artist) and I have no good Satan or Beel cards X.x

Also as a side note I prefer the original card designs and not the unlocked ones for the cards I have so far xD

[lovenona]

Okay so I only got to get comfy on Tumblr now but, I ReAD PART TWO YESTERDAY AND OOOOMMFFFF

That was so fun and refreshing to read?? Deadass every paragraph went by and I had to go like, 'woe'. The way you pictured it translated perfectly into my brain n like, I imagined it as realistic for once?? So that was weird PGODOSOOFDS

I loved reading that and I won't go too into detail bc boRing but, I loved it >:)) and I honestly can't wait for more additions to the pirate universe KskaKakeksksk

- a flustered glasses anon (im sorry for the somewhat half assed messages, it's 3 am currently and I'm quite tired h00h00)

I'm totally not thinking about my faves with stubble, whAt?

No but like,,, Kuroo and bokutoooo, atsumuuu, tErU??? sukUnA with STUBBLE??¿¿? timeskip jean turned my gay friend straight, and that man has so much power I will worship him willingly, like holy fuck (cadet jean is also cute ok, just <3333)

glasses anon welcome back love of my life apple of my eye

i am SO glad u liked it!!!! truly ur opinion is so highly valued to me as my official anon do not be afraid to go into detail because i love word vomiting about the writing process and screaming abt this universe with y'all and i find it rly interesting what ppl think and how they interpret what’s going on!! 

n also....babe u really just coming into my inbox and listing all of my favs huh gonna go lie down now and think about sukuna with stubble because he hasn’t shaved in a few days and im crying now can you imagine sukuna, big scary man with four arms, running the most terrifying pirate ship on the sea, with pink stubble that matches his stupid pink hair I'll see myself out

[stillwooozy]

there is not going to be a positive ending to AoT

manga spoilers ig

knowing(?) that isayama does plan for not everyone to die.. doesnt meant its going to be a “good future” or whatever

whoeever lives is going to “teach us” a moral lesson or some shit. probably w/ a badly written monologue. looking back on their woes but also, ig optimistically? learning from their “mistakes” - aka - Isayama flat out telling the readers the morality of the story.. which is pretty clear, moral relativism is a big theme, dangers of ignorance, so forth.

But also my hope is we can hear more of the perspective of Jean/Armin/Connie who... at their core... try to be good

sometimes that goodness is selfish. and their human characters, not these... angels or whatever. but ya know, they are more or less alive (sorry Levi is kinda in this camp but we already got his retrospective POV and he is in the ‘less alive’ camp) .. so maybe Jean or Connie will survive or something, offer a bit of “hope” - mostly bleakness - & mostly a chance to see a “laymans” perspective - who was thrusted into it all & remained an average human being. if that makes sense. not special.

but guys my trauma in this life is meager to anything ur favs experienced. not wishing em death but.... a living ending doesnt mean its going to be much more positive. as in hopeful? can Eren “end the cycle” or will his actions of violence merely start a “new cycle” of hatered - that will include ignorance - and we’ll only have ~2 or so characters to look back on how this came to be. which is really fucking bleak.

but a bleak ending is the only thing that could tie this shitty final arc together nicely. no “Eren good guy” shit. Eren’s compelling because he’s a weird/interesting character w/ insane drive... not that hes morally superior than anyone else. he is special cuz of circumstances and shit, right time right place, and he has the mindset that let him... complete the “titan/ymir cycle” via the rumbling. but his core humanity is very much so... not special.

ik, time loop theory and all. Which is kinda canon. But doesnt mean Eren is innately special or wholly uneffected (or omnipotent) by external circumstances. he only gets his god-mode PATHS powers at a very certain point, and his control is still limited. but anyways - Eren can “end the cycle” because hes the best Attack Titan to ever happen to exist...... not that he’s necessarrily the “best person” out of the billions in the world to exist. none of it works that way.

#compatablism

determism is compatible w/ free will

end debate

i mean it depends on ur defintion of determism i suppose

But... eren is & aot is very much so.. compatablist. Imo. Eren is free - his life is predetermined.

[izbans]

💖 hollow knight and undertale (even tho i already know ur favorite hollow knigjt character BAJSJR here is a chance to dote on hornet)

ok, fav character!! i knew that all along!!

hollow knight: honestly? i have hornet as my icon bc i like her design but cornifer is my favorite. he's just so happy to be in hallownest!! he really sees the whole nightmare of a kingdom as a huge adventure, and he's like one of three characters that DOESN'T get a bad ending!! like if u buy all his maps he literally just goes home and goes to bed and u can see him sleeping in the background of his shop, it's really cute :)

Undertale: oh god there are so many good characters. like, ok. papyrus is a rlly funny character who does a good job both fitting the "more than he seems" archetype AND have a super entertaining character. chara does a great job going from just "ha ha cute indie game has funny narration" to "oh my god you poor kid" and their existence just. it feels like it really ties together the game:s ideas and themes for me! i don't know i like them a lot

but if i had to pick one SPECIFIC character i love the most, it'd be mad mew mew. just. a non-awful steryotype of a trans character?? and they're a cute catgirl?? and they don't go "oh woe is me i was born in a shitty body and now i shall Perish"?? like ok we all love mettaton but let's be real he is Absolutely a steryotype, and probably the closest thing the game has to a Genuine Villain (literal fucking death squads in his ending!! holy shit toby!!) but mad mew mew is just somebody who's rlly happy in their new identity and body and it makes me feel good!!

[lavender-annd-lilac]

Author's Note: Its been like two years and I'm still not over this song.

Dude, exile was my fav song from folklore😍. Like, it was Red-era good. Honestly, delete that track w Ed Sheeran and replace it with exile lol. (Jk… I liked it but if there can only be 2 duets then “the last time” is the superior song)

but instead of putting criminals away, he was in-house counsel for a big pharma firm.

Wow @ this shade but like… I can’t say big pharma isn’t evil haha

He’d lost his home, while someone else had found a haven

He’s really doing the “woe is me” thing here huh

it had taken three whiskeys- neat- before he could even begin to believe it. And then another two to propel him out the doors

Blood alcohol level: u better be calling an Uber to get home

Him. His predecessor.

The Windows XP to his Windows Vista

“Here at the wedding, or here?” Andy probed,

This is such a lawyer ass question lol… like tell me ur a lawyer without telling me ur a lawyer lol

“Clearly not as good as you,” he nodded to her engagement ring;

He needs to check his hydration levels bc this is salty af

“And that was on you anyway,” she continued pointedly,

Yaaass girl, give him that reverse uno card

“Five fucking years and I still don’t get it where it went wrong.”

Like ok… I get “not being over” someone, but if 5years later ur like “ya idk what happened” it’s kind of a red flag. Imagine the Enron dudes being like “huh, wonder what we did wrong” 5 years after the fact lmao

“I don’t get it,” he shook his head, “Its like everyone knew but me,”

I CANT 😭😭😂😂 this is like the person that thinks everyone they meet is an asshole without realizing that means he is actually the asshole 😵‍💫

“Yeah, that’s the problem,” she sniffled, “Everyone knew but you,” her voice broke pitifull

If this was a sitcom/a Rachel and Ross interaction on Friends, they would play the laugh track here

“I was up for a promotion,” he argued firmly, “You know that.”

*Justin Timberlake falsetto* cry me a river 🎶

“I’m sorry, I should have been better. ”

Ugh, I hate when ppl say vague stuff like this lol. It’s like virtue signalling without putting any effort into identifying WHAT u should have been better at.

Like, imagine u design a crappy car that gets recalled and ur just like ummm I should have made it a better car 😂 dude, do u even know what went wrong? Was it the engine? The brakes? The cup holder??

“I want to be better,”

“I can be better

She should have lawyered back and asked him to specify BETTER AT WHAT smh

“I miss you,” he elicited, “I lost everything when you left,”

A lot of “I”s in this conversation huh 😒

“I couldn’t admit it because…..then I'd have to accept that I threw everything away. My second act,”

“My second act” lol @ him lamenting his lost potential 🙄

“But its too late now.”

Kitchen is closed, bitch!!! Get outta here 👋

she promised herself it was the right thing to do- even if deep down, she knew it wasn’t. 

Me: …but even deeper down, it was actually right tho

Haha this was sooo good and deserves more than my immature comments lol but that’s all I got 😅

I actually loved the ending bc I was just reading this other post about Eugene Onegin and (spoilers for a 200 y/o Russian novelized poem) in that story the female love interest does pretty much the same thing - like she acknowledges that she still has feelings for him but she’s also like “but I got my own life now and I shouldn’t have to give it up for u so byeeeee Felicia”

I’m definitely a hypocrite tho bc sometimes I’m like “u need to give him a 7th chance!!!🥺” lmao

For some reason, the worse the person is, the more inclined I feel towards them having a redemption arc haha. Maybe it’s bc there’s more of a visible change in behaviour? Like previous hostage-taking, murderous cannibal is now just a regular cannibal? Good job buddy! Distant ex is now… a repentant but still kind of defensive ex? Meh…. 😅

Exile

Andy Barber x Reader

Author's Note: Its been like two years and I'm still not over this song. Summary: Five years after their break-up, one person's still reeling while the other's moved on. Warnings: Angst. Masterlists

It must have been ages since he’d last seen her; three, four years? Maybe five. It felt like a lifetime ago though, and still, he was stuck. Andy was stuck; stuck in a moment that might have been reduced to chump change for her, stuck in the hurt of their end, stuck in the confusion of their strange reality. How could one person feel like home one minute than become like a stranger the next?

Andy still didn’t understand where, or when, it all went wrong. 

But it obviously had and now Y/n had found someone that could do better by her. From what he’d gathered, his replacement was also an attorney, but instead of putting criminals away, he was in-house counsel for a big pharma firm. Allen? Adam? Aiden? Andy couldn’t quite remember his name, though, he was sure he’d heard it when he’d asked another guest to confirm that he was in fact, seeing Y/n across the room, wrapped up elegantly in crimson satin.

“Oh, yeah. It’s her. She’s here with her finacee….”

Fiancee. 

He couldn’t believe his ears when he’d heard it; Y/n was engaged while he was still trying to pick up the pieces. He’d lost his home, while someone else had found a haven- he wondered if the man knew how lucky he was; back then, Andy hadn’t. The news had been like a sucker punch in the gut and it had taken three whiskeys- neat- before he could even begin to believe it. And then another two to propel him out the doors when she slipped away to the balcony, following her the way he should have all those years ago. 

She’d spotted him from the minute they’d entered, and at the sight of Andy, Y/n had shifted uncomfortably in Aaron’s embrace. He’d asked if she was okay and she’d lied and said yes, but really, Y/n was quaking inside. Figures that the first big event that she and her fiancee attend since getting engaged involved her ex, and not just any ex; Andy Barber, the only one she regretted breaking up with. 

Though, it wasn’t like he’d given her much of a choice; for the most part, Y/n had felt lonelier in that relationship than she’d been while she was single. 

“You okay?” He glanced down at her, easily picking up on her discomfort. Affectionately, he rubbed his hand up and down the small of her back, following her gaze before adding anything to his earlier concern, “Wait,” he knitted his brows, “Is that him?”

Him. His predecessor. In Aaron’s mind, the one that had, by some sort of divine consequence, made their relationship that much more worth it. Because of the carnage Andy had wrecked, Aaron had worked that much harder.

Still, without effort, she loved him. 

“Yeah,” she elicited, “I didn’t think he kept in contact with Tammy and Greg,” Y/n mused absently, glancing down at the dry bubbly half filling her delicate champagne flute. 

“Is this hard for you?” Aaron probed, bending to press a kiss to the top of her head, all while she kept her gaze trained on Andy, who suddenly looked ready to punch through walls- his pain always had a way of getting muddled with fury. She’d wanted him to see a therapist, he’d been adamant that he didn’t need one- or her. “I know its been a while but……” 

But she’d once made a messiah of Andy in her mind; he was on a pedestal and she’d excused so much in the name of protecting what they had , until the grief of it all had become cigarette burns on her soul by their end.

“No,” she shook her head, finally breaking eye contact with Andy to meet Aaron’s hazel gaze, “Its not hard. Why would it be?” She drew in a large gulp of her champagne, all but finishing off the glass. 

He knitted his brows, “Because….nothing. I’m glad you’re good,” he bent a bit lower, while Y/n tipped her chin, meeting his lips. It was a short one, though, she struggled to get through it; suddenly, Andy was all she could think about. When they broke, Y/n glanced back towards where he’d been standing, across the room only to find that the anger in his expression had melted away, making room for something else;

Jealousy? 

Apathy?

If he was anything like the man she’d left behind, it would remain indecipherable; he had a knack for hiding what he was really feeling under stoicism. When they’d first met, she’d called it brooding and thought it gave him the most attractive edge but towards the end of their relationship, it had become one of their most glaring points of contention. 

Still, she couldn’t help but wonder what it would have been like if she’d stayed; would he have ever changed? Or would they have gone to that wedding as strangers living in the same house- as opposed to strangers that stared at each other from across the room. 

“I’m just gonna run to the restroom,” Y/n smiled tightly, finishing off the remainder of her champagne, handing her glass over to Aaron before slipping away. She didn’t know why she excused herself or lied about it, she actually had no intention of going to the restroom, nor did she think that it was wise to be alone with her own thoughts, not when they’d been run amuck with memories that were as sharp as broken glass……and others that were as delicate as daisies. Yet, despite that, as her fiancee took her empty glass, Y/n bent her head and crossed the large room, only glancing backwards to ensure that he’d turned to chat with someone else before heading for the balcony doors instead of the hall that would lead to the ladies room.

The frigid air hit her face, as well as the skin let exposed by her one shoulder gown, in a rush as a gentle gust of wind stirred the city the minute Y/n stepped onto the balcony, shutting the door behind herself. Inhaling deeply, she took a few quick steps towards the railing, only stopping when she could grab the cold wrought iron in her hands. 

She shouldn’t have gone to that wedding, it wasn't enough to think he'd stopped hanging out with their friends. 

She shouldn’t be giving that much consideration to a man who hadn’t appreciated her worth. 

She shouldn’t-

“Hey,” the sound of an all too familiar voice was enough to make her breath audibly catch in her throat. Instead of turning around, Y/n clutched the railing tighter and squeezed her eyes shut; maybe if she pretended he wasn’t there, he’d go away. 

Maybe she didn’t want him to go away. 

Sucking in a sharp breath, Y/n whipped her head around, taking a moment to drink in Andy, illuminated only by dim city lights and the traces of intimate lighting that seeped out of the door, opened just a sliver. He looked like a dream; dressed to the nines in a tailored tux and when he absently smoothed his hand over the lapel of his coat, she caught a glimpse of cuff links she’d gifted him on his wrists- diamond encrusted horseshoes, for good luck. “Hi,” she breathed, shoulders falling, as if she’d just defeated herself. “I didn’t expect to see you here.”

“Here at the wedding, or here?” Andy probed, finally shutting the door in favor of stepping closer. 

Y/n shrugged; the correct answer might have been ‘both’, but saying it felt wrong somehow, so she didn’t. “How have you been?” 

Andy licked his lips, “Clearly not as good as you,” he nodded to her engagement ring; a stunning trilogy of diamonds set in delicate, twin sapphire encrusted bands. Scoffing, Y/n rolled her eyes; of course one of the first things he’d say to her after five years was a snarky swipe about her moving on. “Sorry,” he mumbled, shaking his head. “I shouldn’t have said that. I’ve been um….” He raked his short nails through his beard, and as she saw him do it, Y/n longed to do the same- she used to love the roughness of his scruff under the softness of her palms. “I guess I’ve been better,” he huffed a lonesome, dry chuckle. 

Frowning, Y/n reached out to grasp his bicep, and while she knew the gesture might have been a tad too intimate, she couldn’t help but look at him and feel like he needed comfort; broken and tired. “What’s wrong?”

He shook one shoulder and threw a glance at her hand on his arm and relented, “You’re gone.”

Y/n sighed again, dropping her hand and taking a step back, “You can’t-”

“I know,” Andy hung his head. 

“And that was on you anyway,” she continued pointedly, the twinge of heartbreak evident in her tone. She hated thinking about it; the moment that she’d come to terms with the fact that Andy was never going to change and being in a relationship with him meant always being kept at an arm’s length. 

“I know,” he threaded his hand through his hair while stuffing his other hand into the pocket of his black slacks, “God,” he hissed, suddenly, driving his side of his fist against the top of the railing, “But I don’t fucking know. We were good, Y/n.”

She shook her head, “Don’t do this Andy,” Y/n reasoned, adding with emphasis, “We’ve done this before,” the whole song and dance; her explaining why she needed to leave and him arguing that he’d thought they were fine. “And its been five years,” she licked her lips, “You’ve had too much to drink and-”

“Its been five years,” he shook his head, “Five fucking years and I still don’t get it where it went wrong. Five years and I  can’t get over you- you were everything, Y/n.”

She scoffed, casting her gaze towards the darkened distance, only illuminated by little yellow and white dots peppered in buildings, “You kept saying that-”

“Because its true,” he promised earnestly, “You were all that I had, you mean everything to me, and you left like it was all nothing.”

“I left because you started acting like were nothing! I was always the last thing on your mind,” exhaling heavily, Y/n shook her head, “You never talked to me-”

“Oh, come on,” Andy scoffed, “We talked-”

“Not about anything that mattered,” Y/n snapped, “You kept everything all…..bottled in. I felt like…..like I was looking at you through a window or something; I never knew what was going on with work, what you were feeling.”

Andy scrubbed his hand over his beard again, shaking his head, “You could have asked.”

“I did,” she stressed, moistening her lips, “But talking to you was like talking to a fucking brick wall,” he glanced away and Y/n could see him resisting fact; refusing to believe that he could have a hand in her leaving,

In their end.

“I don’t get it,” he shook his head, “Its like everyone knew but me,” he slumped his shoulders, and even in the dimness she could see his deep frown.

“Yeah, that’s the problem,” she sniffled, “Everyone knew but you,” her voice broke pitifully, “We’d been falling apart for months; all of our friends could see it, my parents- everyone. And you were just….” Y/n shrugged, “It was like you weren’t even there.”

Or maybe, it was like she wasn’t there. 

“Do you know what that felt like?" Her shoulders slumped and she gestured absently with her hands, "You’d come home and barely say anything. We’d have dinner together and you’d work right through it- wouldn’t even notice if I got up,” she sighed, “When we went out, you’d spend half the time answering emails- or doing literally anything else. God," Y/n scoffed, "I honestly started to think that you thought the weather was more interesting than I was,” she chuckled dryly, “I don’t know if you were lazy or just comfortable, but it hurt like hell.”

“I was up for a promotion,” he argued firmly, “You know that.”

“Yeah, well that doesn’t mean I stopped existing," her tone was firm, despite the pain weighing it down, "I’m not a toy, you can’t just put me away when you don't have time to play,” knitting her brows furiously, Y/n folded her arms.

“That wasn’t how I meant it-”

“Well that’s how it felt,” she countered evenly.

Andy didn’t speak for a while and Y/n suspected that it was because he didn’t really have a way to defend himself that time. The silence must have persisted for at least five or six minutes, until he said softly, “I’m sorry, I should have been better. ”

Still angry, Y/n scoffed and swiped at her eyes, “Yeah, you should have,” so they could have stayed together, because as much as she hated to admit it, she still thought of him. 

“I want to be better,” hesitantly, Andy reached out for her hand, and despite knowing that it wasn’t entirely appropriate, she let him have it. “I can be better, I know it. You know it,” he professed earnestly. Andy lifted her hand between them, and spared a moment to glance down at her ring, before stepping closer. She knew she should have stepped back, or even just pulled away. But she didn’t, instead, when he bent his head a little, Y/n tipped her chin and tried to meet his eyes.

“Andy…..” She rasped when his lips had gravitated so close to hers that she could almost taste the liquor on them. 

He brought his free hand up to her face, touching her jaw in a backhanded caress and, unwittingly, Y/n leaned into his touch. “I miss you,” he elicited, “I lost everything when you left,” his nose was touching hers and Y/n’s breathing was heavy in anticipation of what was to come. 

Shutting her eyes tightly, she felt a warm trickle seep from her tangled lashes; every memory she’d made with him flitted through her mind like a film on a projector. Every date, every kiss, every ‘I love you’. They’d had so many good times, and in that moment, standing so close to him, the bad ones seemed muted. “Don’t do this,” she pleaded weakly, knowing that there wasn’t enough will in her veins to tug her away from him, “Please.”

Y/n wanted to kiss him. She missed him too. 

“I can’t stop thinking about you,” he choked out, tightening his grip on her hand a moment before interlocking their fingers, “Do you think about me?” There was an urgency in the question, one that almost hurt her to hear. 

“Of course I do,” she admitted, breath hitching, “But you hurt me.”

“I didn’t mean to. I promise, I would never want to hurt you,” his thumb shifted to swipe her slow tears away and Andy sniffled softly, “If I could do it all again….” He didn’t need to finish for her to know where he was going; she’d only thought the same thing for the past five years.

“But you can’t,” her voice was thick with emotion as the realization dawned upon her; he was five years too late. She had a fiancee, her life had gone on after she’d walked out of that door and it wasn’t fair to Aaron, the man who never let her question his affections, to stand there with Andy like that. A strained sob broke from her lips as Y/n finally stumbled backwards, pulling her hand away from his so she could point weakly, “You can’t just apologize and expect everything to change.” Aaron was kind and sweet, he listened and let her in. They were solid,  he was safe- he didn’t deserve her betrayal. 

Maybe if they'd seen each other again before she’d gotten engaged. Maybe if he’d reached out after she’d left.

Maybe if he’d actually cared instead of throwing his hands up in defeat as she walked to her car.

“I should go back inside,” her low tone was husky and Y/n struggled to come by the words, “It was….it was good seeing you Andy,” swallowing thickly, Y/n turned away, headed back towards the doors. 

“You want the truth? You wanna know how I really am? You wanna know how I fucking feel?” Andy began desperately as she closed her hand in on the knob, “Bad. I feel bad, I’ve been bad; I’ve feel like shit everyday because….because I pushed away the one person that actually gave a damn about me. And I’ve known it for a damn long time but I couldn’t admit it, not even just now. I couldn’t admit it because…..” His voice broke, “I couldn’t admit it because…..then I'd have to accept that I threw everything away. My second act, " he gestured widely, outstretching his arms before dropping them heavily at his side, "The first person that took a chance on me after my life went to shit.” He paused for a minute, and Y/n couldn’t bare to look at him knowing there’d been pain written all over his face, “All those people in there, all of them- they only give a shit about me because of you. I couldn’t do that on my own; get myself together, move on, make friends.”

When she’d met him, Andy had practically been a shell; caught in a work/home cycle with not even a trace of a social life. He was still reeling from losing Laurie and Jacob and it had taken months- almost a year- of work on her end for him to even entertain her offer to grab lunch together. She used to joke that she’d wore him down while Andy adamantly argued that he’d only refused for so long because he’d thought she was only asking him out on a pity date. 

“I get that I’m not your problem anymore,” he added in a moment of tense silence, “But-”

“You were never a problem,” Y/n countered without turning around. Turning the knob, she tugged the door open, “But its too late now.”

Too late for apologies, too late for him to decide to work on himself. 

Too late for her to turn back. 

Clenching her jaw, Y/n headed back into the main room, desperately trying to keep it together. Like it had the first time, leaving Andy broke her heart, but like she had the first time, she promised herself it was the right thing to do- even if deep down, she knew it wasn’t.