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i’ve been wanting to do this since day one
#team fortress 2#tf2#era.png#idk if i’ll.. tag the characters? its just a silly little meme#i’ll think on it#anyway i guess i’ll ramble a bit in the tags then#mains: i’ve always played sniper but recently picked up engie! i love avoiding conflict forever#fav character: hmm this aussie that i hate (affectionate)#relate to: i relate to the both of them at the exact same time. autistic AND adhd#learn to play: i’m a dedicated healer class player but medic is soo difficult for me for some reason? one day. one day#fav ship: hmmm these bozos that i hate (AFFECTIONATE)#like to draw: spy is just fun to draw :) ignore sniper this isnt about him#NO ID SORRY :( this feels very difficult to write an id for. i am very sory#REQUESTS R STILL BEING WORKED ON BTW i’ll get to posting those soon. thank you. i will stop talking now
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Nightwing's car guy
Dick was doing well to establish himself in Bludhaven. He had an apartment, it was shitty but it was his. He had a day job as police officer, half the people there were in the cartels Nightwing was trying to crack down on, and the other half were in the cartels Nightwing was still trying to trace. He had his suit, still bat-grade, blue instead of the red, yellow, and green Jason got to wear now.
He did't have a cave. Or maybe it should be a nest because the whole bird thing. Burrow? What was the thing owls lived in called? The point is he made due without it. He had his apartment, and he had his supplies stashed away. It wasn't as much as in the Cave, but he didn't have Cave-funding. He could make due.
He didn't have an Oracle in his ear. But that came with the added bonus of not having a Bat either. He could do his own research, find his own information. And it wasn't like he and Babs were totally cut off. It was just only a little weird, because she was technically his ex. Sure she would be in his corner, but she was still his ex. He needed to save some face. Especially since he knew that Bruce and Babs liked to... talk. He could make due.
The only thing Dick was maybe, sorta, just maybe having a little trouble was with his bike. Well it wasn't his bike, it was Nightwing's. Which was precisely the trouble. He'd found a place to stash it, but Dick had never been a car guy... or in this case a bike guy. He would chase his rouges, speeding through the streets, and sure the bike was made for the tight corners and quick turns and the high speeds, and sure it could take a hit or two. But what about three or four? Or five?
Point was Dick needed a car- a bike guy. One that was cheap (he was only a cop), and knew how to not ask questions and keep his mouth shut (again- Nightwing's bike). All that on top of knowing enough on how to fix his bike. (it wasn't exactly the type you could find in store).
But the solution seemed to find him. Which Dick was aware was not generally how it worked, but he would count his blessings. He had been out on patrol, the type that had involved his bike and high speeds. Unfortunately it did not involve the perp in handcuffs and on his way to jail. Dick had been on his tail, could've had him too, if the bike hadn't started sputtering. Dick had done as much as he could for it, but she really needed a pair of eyes that actually knew what they were looking at.
Mumbling curses to himself, Nightwing had been ready to head off to at least catch a dust trail of what operation he'd find himself in next. He could feel the eyes watching him. His hair stood in edge, and when Nightwing turned to look around he couldn't see anyone. Maybe he was being haunted. Trying to arrange his bearings, Nightwing turned back around to get on his bike. When there was suddenly a mop of choppy black hair couched down next to it.
Nightwing blinked at him. How had he managed to get there? "Uh, something you need, man?" Nightwing asked the boy, totally not freaked out.
The boy- teen, he was only a year or two younger than Dick- looked up, large blue eyes staring. As if it was odd for Nightwing to have addressed him. It took him a moment longer to realize that the bike was, in fact, Nightwing's. "You need to change your [important engine part]." He pointed lamely, standing up to his height of only a hair shorter than Dick.
"How do you know that?" Nightwing asked before he could think of the danger the unknown person might pose.
"That's why it was making that sound. It'll put too much pressure on the engine so it won't be able to go as fast it would be otherwise. Which, I take it, would cause you problems." he tipped his head in the direction the rouge had run off in.
Nightwing considered it for just a moment, not wanting the perfect opportunity to get away from him. "Do you know how to fix it?"
The guy looked almost offended, "Yeah."
"I'll pay you." Nightwing jumped at the opportunity, "If you fix it."
Any normal person would've said no to a guy dressed in bullet-proof spandex with a blue bird on his chest and a weird mask. "Sure." He shrugged easily, a glimmer of excitement in his eyes as he eyed the vehicle. After a moment, "Name's Danny, by the way. You'd probably need to know that." Danny eyes his suit, "Who are you, like, blue-jay?"
"Nightwing." He corrected easily, his name hadn't made the streets yet.
"The Robin reject?" Was Danny immediate response, eyebrow arched up in amusement.
"The what?"
Danny grimaced, the laugh never leaving his face, "Ooh, sorry. Touchy subject?"
"I am not a Robin reject." Dick couldn't tell this civilian that he was Robin. Had been.
Nightwing's bike ran better than it had since he had moved to Bludhaven after Danny had gotten his hands on it. And Danny's payment of ("i don't trust ur money, just buy me food") lunch had been a steal in return. Maybe next time they should go somewhere a little nicer.
Because the bike was doing so well, after Danny fixed it.
Not for any other reason.
#dpxdc#danny fenton#danny phantom#danny and dick#batfam#dick grayson#batpham#dick his trying to build his crew in bludhaven and danny was the first recruit#danny is currently homeless at 18#but he finally gets a job at an actual mechanic place and gets an apartment#happens to be the same one dick is living in#dick: hm i should greet my new neighbor#dick doesn't know how to feel abt danny (who he totally is not crushing on) moving so close#for work reasons#obviously#it's a uh- reads script- conflict of civilian safety#danny is kinda weirded out by civilian dick#who just keeps trying to find excuses to hang out#since danny's new to town and he's new to town#danny's like 18#and dick is 19#i've been on a danny and dick craze recently#if u couldn't tell from my dick-centric last posts lmao#even the one that was supposed to be abt konner ended up being abt dick#feel free to add
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some stories are written precisely to elicit strong emotions from the reader INCLUDING negative ones. some stories and characters are meant to be upsetting, they are meant to challenge you and make you uncomfortable!! when a story makes you feel Big Feelings sometimes you are meant to sit in those feelings and ask yourself why! fiction is a great space to explore these emotions in a safe environment. you, as the reader, are meant to think critically about the art you are enjoying and that includes asking yourself questions like why has the author presented their art in this way and what are they trying to tell me. and then you get to have fun picking it apart and figuring it out and deciding what, exactly, the art means to you.
#this post has been in my drafts since SEPTEMBER and it just gets more and more relevant lately#and sure sometimes we decide in the end that the art is bad and that we don't like it. that's fine. i'm not arguing anyone's right#to dislike certain things. it's fine!!! but why are you acting like it's a personal offense??? what's going on??#like idk what is in the water these days that people have become so averse to Storytelling#the whole POINT is to make you FEEL SOMETHING!!!#why are you getting mad at artists for making you feel something!!!!#between some of the asks i and other authors get to the recent stuff with mouthwashing and epic saga and fucking nosferatu#NOSFERATU. IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE SCARY???#i really feel like i am losing my mind. i keep thinking of that 'disco elysium but its a little girl looking for her lost cat in the alps'#tweet. like this is really where we're at. people would rather feel Nothing. no one wants to be challenged#no one wants to explore Themes or read social commentary anymore it's so dire#let's all just go read our bland cozy fantasy story with found family and No conflict & nothing interesting to say at all#i'm sure we'll all be safe there#fuck!!!#also this isnt aimed at that anon i got a few days ago this is just like. a general trend i have noticed that is happening Everywhere rn
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somehow i still dont know how to draw him
#ive been playing through 5 with my sister recently and hes been pissing me off BAD#his boss fights are so hard#but he looks so good in this game so its very conflicting for a little gay boy like myself#i need to keep practicing drawing him in this game specifically though ..#his outfits are too stupid for me to Not draw#resident evil#biohazard#albert wesker#fanart#art#re5#-> my art
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Something that’s always missing whenever people talk about Lyanna and the Kingsguard at the Tower of Joy is that these things should always circle back to Jon Snow. He’s our main character here. Rhaegar and Lyanna, as well as the Kingsguard, are all dead. They were dead before this story began. This tiny section of text is meant to give color to Jon — who is alive, and whose story is currently unfolding. The events at the Tower of Joy, told entirely through Ned’s fever dream for a reason, essentially serve as one thing: fantasy protagonist myth building 101. Three wise men, a legendary magical sword, some of the greatest knights of an era, a dying queen lady, the end of an age, a dead prince, a dead king, and then here comes a soon to be completely orphaned prince whose life hangs on the balance and whose survival depends on the compassion of one lord and his wizard friend. GRRM is literally retelling King Arthur’s backstory through Jon. This whole thing is one giant literary allusion to Uther and Igraine and the boy king Arthur, to Lancelot and his Joyous Guard, to Guinevere, and to tragic romances. It reads as an ode to Arthurian fantasy and is meant to backdrop the main protagonist’s fantastical origins. The Kingsguard are there to play into that. Their presence at the Tower, in that moment, was never about Lyanna; not solely, anyway. Their presence is tied to Rhaegar’s last surviving male child, and the language used suggests that they had chosen their king, for better or worse. Any discussion surrounding the Kingsguard’s presence at the Tower that focuses on anyone but Jon completely misses the point imo.
#idk yall im just a lil annoyed rn lmaooo#I feel like there are a lot of readings and arguments that have nothing to do with the actual purpose of the text#just people straight up ignoring what’s already in the text and then imposing their own reading#like ned’s fever dream speaks to his trauma fr but like a big main takeaway is:#oh the kg literally have a million other places to be and a million other things to do so why are they here in particular?#why have they remained here of all places??#oh they are doing their duty as they see it….which is to guard the king…..who is now baby jon like?????#it’s almost spelled out for us in the text why do yall have to create new cannon about evil kingsguard following evil rhaegar??#asoiaf#jon snow#lyanna stark#the tower of joy#valyrianscrolls#“the kingsguard were evil for keeping lya from her brother!111”#hmmmm neddard i agot — lyanna was scared shitless until ned made his promises#I wonder why she’d be scared? I wonder if anything happened recently to rhaegar’s children to make her scared?#no she was definitely scared of the kingsguard there 🙃#I do want to say too that this is a world where brother and sister go to war (dance of the dragons)#or brother vs brother (stannis vs renly) among other examples of familial conflicts#ned fought and won a war for robert whose rule was solidified in the targ heirs’ blood#him being lya’s brother at that moment doesn’t mean shit
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I just had a lightbulb moment where I realized that a huge part of what never ended up fully clicking for me about the story in C3 is it kept telling me things without effectively showing them.
#luck’s personal opinions#this is honestly about more than the gods debate#I think some of the characters journeys and internal conflicts fell victim to this too#cr discourse#I’ve been critiquing a lot recently so I want to clarify that I’ve definitely enjoyed C3#certainly enough to watch the whole thing!#but I had to be honest that I didn’t grip me like CR has in the past and I was interested in examining why
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I'm done holding onto these...
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ShockOp brain... I'm obsessed 😩💔
#shockop#senator shockwave#orion pax#transformers ships#I've been seeing so much ShockOp art recently my heart will explode 😭😔💔#compiled a bunch of old doodles uwu#very conflicted if Shockwave is taller than Orion or same height...
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Arthur you need to shave!!!
#malevolent#malevolent podcast#arthur lester#john doe#Dani art#I’m still v conflicted by recent developments but I love these guys lmao
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Yes, perhaps the prophecy shouldn’t be fulfilled.
Ik-soo pretty much just told Yona to gather the Four Dragons because it’s her destiny (or something). Right up until Zeno pulled his shit, there wasn’t a peep about the other parts of the prophecy.
And thanks to Zeno, we also learned that Yona wasn’t even the original recipient of the prophecy!
Hiryuu was given the prophecy directly by the Dragon Gods themselves.
Please remember, these gods are not the nice sort. The gods don’t care about the mortal realm or humans. They only cared for Hiryuu. And they want him to come home.
Yona dying and returning to the heavens is a distinct possibility, and is pretty much in line with what the gods want!
The prophecy doesn’t even guarantee peace or a happily ever after.
What is the prophecy even about? And why should we want it fulfilled?
The Final Arc
Are people really surprised that Akatsuki no Yona will come to an end soon? What more is for Yona to do than resolving the issue that continued for about 2000 years? She know is aware of the feelings and secrets of most of her friends (Zeno, the dragon warriors, Hak) and opponents (Soo Won, his followers, Keishuk ect...)...The countries around Kouka are not that much of a problem anymore...
Still....the first image, where Yona is already the Queen of Kouka....the dragon warriors seem to have vanished and I do not see Hak either. Is Soo Won already dead in that time? Is it a definite future or something Yona can still change?...The way how it appeared that this Yona who is already queen seemed to tell the story...
Maybe the prophecy was not supposed to come true...
#Recent chapters cast a lot of doubt over the prophecy#‘What is the ‘darkness’?#Soowon’s coup?#No that’s being shown as a good thing#The recent conflicts?#But these conflicts are neither new or special#Except the parts the dragons are involved in#But even that doesn’t exactly qualifies as ‘ Darkness fall across the Land’#And then Zeno went and cast doubt on the one part of the prophecy we all thought we got down#Was the part about the Four Dragons gathering and restating the vow#referring to Yona going around gathering the dragons at the beginning of the story#Or had it only begun with Zeno gathering the dragons in the chalice?#And there’s the sword and shield of the king finally revealed#And they’re King Hiryuu’s literal sword#and the amulet the gods gave to protect him#(which Hiryuu handed off to his /other/ shield (aka Zeno)#things are getting more and more ominous by the chapter#what is even the point of the prophecy#will it bring peace and happiness#or tragedy?#akatsuki no yona#yona of the dawn#akayona spoilers#akayona#princess yona#zeno ouryuu#king hiryuu
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Idk if there'll ever be a line that failed to live up to its potential more than, "They called me the Dread Wolf. What will they call you when this is over?"
#da4 critical#tas talks#the most fun part abt trespasser besides the solas scene was teagan rightfully being pissed that the Inquisition still occupies forts#in ferelden 2 years after the conflict is over. and how recently they as a country were under foreign control#i rly wanted to be able to be hated as rook more than i feel i was able to#i liked that strife thought my veil jumper sucked and was mad when i showed up i wish more reasonable ppl hated me#even if i dont agree with their reasons for doing so#my desire for the ritual releasing the gods to not just be solas's fault has everything to do with it making rook more interesting#it being solas's fault does barely anything for his story when SO MUCH is his fault but it being rook's fault does far more for hers#or theirs ig but im thinking abt my rook#i actually couldnt tell you when this line was said in game (im pretty sure i heard it) which is a shame
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thought too hard about Walter's callsign being different while he was actively piloting so here's that
#i like him#been thinking about the jupiter wars recently. sucker for vaugely mentioned conflicts#late night doodles with ratborne#ac6#armored core#ac6 spoilers#i guesss??#handler walter
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BG3 has two of the most thoughtful, unapologetic, no holds barred depictions of men with abusive female partners I've every seen (Wyll + Mizora and Gale + Mystra), which is so rare to see in any media but especially video games, and some of the Larian writers seem determined to convince me it was 100% by accident
#and like with mystra they even managed to do it without demonizing women as a whole!!#like wow if I could believe y'all did that on purpose I'd be impressed!#i know mizora isn't technically wyll's partner but you know what I mean#imo larian is running into a similar trap bioware has fallen into#where they are waaayyyy too present in their fan communities#bc like nearly everything the writers said about the game recently has made me go :/#and I think a large part of what they're doing is trying to appeal to a specific and very weird part of their fanbase#i'm conflicted bc on one hand i'd love to get a patch to give some of the underwritten companions more content#but on the other hand I like what we have and really *really* don't want them to change/take it#bg3#wyll ravengard#gale of waterdeep#marie speaks
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ok anyway. Spanner time!!! funny lil mirror-dreamworld false-sun snake autism changeling. Of all my flondon/sskies characters I think they're definitely having the most fun, they are just thriving and vibing forever. The High Wilderness is a playground full of such interesting flora with a lot of fascinating stories to tell!
After aging out of the Regiment gang, Spanner and Kerry spent some time on zailing crews. In the High Wilderness conflicts they pretty quickly sided with the Tacketies. Adaptable and surprisingly effective, they proved themselves very useful to the cause, albeit quite eccentric. The duo earned their shared position, after a few attempts to utilize their skillsets on separate crews proved that - as much as they tend to egg each other on in making impulsive reckless decisions - not having the other to balance them out creates disasters much worse for everyone involved!
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In the top left are some quick details. In the style of other Fallen London characters, Spanner's epithet is 'the Incandescent Mirror'. Spanner uses they/them mostly but also any other pronouns, they're around 20 years old and around 5 feet 6 inches tall. They're not human, but a mysterious one-of-a-kind Parabola hybrid. Their role is as co-captain of a Tackety locomotive.
Near the main illustration are these notes: "Spanner's penchant for wearing blue is a holdover from the uniforms of the Regiment, the urchin gang in which they grew up alongside their adoptive brother Kerry. Kerry is the other captain of their shared train, Spanner's best friend, and the basis for their human appearance."
Above the two panels of Spanner hissing with a cat is this note: "Cats and Spanner don't tend to get along... Felines always seem to recognize the 'Parabolan serpent' in them, and no amount of negotiation has ever convinced a cat that Spanner has absolutely no allegiance to any fingerkings. And no connection at all, probably."
The last notes are next to the illustrations of Spanner with their inner metalwork and sunshine showing + Spanner chatting with plants: "Beneath the human veneer is a skeleton of metal, glass, and cosmogone. Their body is malleable and fluid, able to take on new forms at will. Spanner's been 'human' for most of their life, so they're very used to and comfortable with this shape. Their first and other default resembles some sort of constricting snake. Anything radically different than these requires a lot of study and practice to convincingly mimic. They don't inherently know where the joints should be."
"Even when not visible, Spanner is constantly exuding cosmogone radiation. To humans, it's a little chillier than true sunlight. To plants, it's about as good as or better than the real deal, and fungi benefit too. It vastly enhances their growth, and they draw closer to hungrily feast on the raw energy. Spanner is content with this, given their fascination with all flora & funga."
"Through an innate, automatic ability to Absorb Ambient Vibes (taking in residual, surface level feelings/emotions/senses around them), Spanner is uniquely able to communicate with plantlife. They are VERY excited to be in the Reach, where growing things are so abundant, although... Reach flora tend to be quite intense and volatile, flourishing aggressively and clamouring for the slightest hint og sunlight. In Spanner's hands, a verdant seed becomes a bomb. Not that this will stop them from greeting the local greenery =)"
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#fallen london#fallen london oc#sunless skies#image#alt text#described#my art#my characters#char: spanner#i realized at some point putting together the alt text that i forgot to do the art fixes i wanted to#oh well#spanner my silly :]#do they conflict with some obscure fallen london lore... its possible. but i do what i want forever <3 i have fun#they don't know their exact origin but my current idea involves a devil and a dying fingerking and the parabolan sun#so maybe theyre part devil too. and maybe thats the justification for their shapeshifting/human disguise#and also why Spanner 'Is' enough to survive outside the mirrors when the Is-Not cant. theyre kind of the perfect ideal for a fingerking#something like that#hi anyone reading these o/ also i realized recently that You're on Fire - They Might Be Giants is very Spanner vibes
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strike’s over time to post weird little doodles from this summer
#911 lone star#911lonestar#911 ls fanart#911 lone star fanart#marjan marwani#carlos reyes#tk strand#iinryer art#(having some conflicted feelings about how to move forward w ls stuff due to responses to recent events)#(but for now im just going to post stuff I did this summer and couldn’t share and I’ll go from there ig)
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[WIP] Some more updates!!!
I've been quiet recently, but got a bunch of stuff in the works for y'all!!
I'm still working on those paper puppets for a little project regarding intertwined opposites (Possibly one of the most ambitious things I've ever worked on so far) and found a proper way to introduce that new au I'm working on!!
Here are two more paper puppets for the big pmv
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And a few sneak peaks for the new au!!
(Doodles+notes alongside a silly little meme with a sprite edit of pewpaw)
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I'm working on an info post for it, progress has been slow however since I wanna prioritize the pmv again (Started it on june, stagnated a long period, and went back to work on it. I'm dead set on finishing it this summer AND stubborn/silly).
[Personal reminder: Beetle stop starting wips when you're already busy/silly]
#Another note here#Intertwines opposites is by far my most fleshed out au whfbebf#I've started to lose interest in storybook recently#mostly because I can't think out new story beats and lack motivation#so I've set it aside for now to work on something fresh#I like character focus and more simple narratives hsrbwbfb#Intertwined Opposites has one but I'm still figuring out a story line for this other one here#won't spoil but it's revolving around statements and misteries#I don't think it'll have a proper conclusion either...mayhaps....#Maybe up to interpretation or more vague if I give it a “”ending“”#There isn't a conflict in the first place shfhdhf it's much more simple in concept#that's all I'm gonna say for now#/silly#beetle's ramblings#cookie run kingdom#pure vanilla cookie#crk au#intertwined opposites au#- .- .--. . ... - .-. -.-- .----. ... / .-- .. ... .--. . .-. ... au#I'll give y'all a little hint#ok I'll stop rambling now gsbeugjdhg#beetle's art#white lily cookie
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the below is excerpted from Ivan's conversation with Satan in The Brothers Karamazov, Sec. 4.11.9 (The Devil. Ivan Fyodorvich's Nightmare):
I, for instance, demand simply and directly that I be destroyed. No, they say, live, because without you there would be nothing. If everything on earth were sensible, nothing would happen. Without you there would be no events, and there must be events. And so I serve grudgingly, for the sake of events, and I do the unreasonble on others. People take this whole comedy for something serious, despite all their undeniable intelligence. That is their tragedy. Well, they suffer, of course, but...still, they live, they live really, not in fantasy; for suffering is life. Without suffering, what pleasure would there be in it—everything would turn into an endless prayer service: holy, but a bit dull. And me? I suffer, and still do not live. I am an x in an indeterminte equation. I am some sort of ghost of life that has lost all ends and beginnings, and I've finally even forgotten what to call myself. [...] Mephistopheles, when he comes to Faust, testifies of himself that he desires evil, yet does only good. Well, let him do as he likes, it's quite the opposite with me. I am perhaps the only man in all of nature who loves the truth and sincerely desires good.
oh, so bsd!fyodor isn't a christ figure. he's a satanic figure, as projected by ivan karamazov. which makes sense, considering everyone calls him a demon. and how he behaves. and his role as an instigator and adversary. and his schism between selves. and his comment that perfection is boring because he can't observe man's karma through perfection. and his aspect on earth as a parasite incarnated in and through those who've killed. and that he suffers but does not live. and that time he convinced ace to hang himself. okay.
(natsume is a buddhist, and also a cat, for whom there is levity and significance in embracing the absence of inherent existence and nature. so i can understand, now, why V was so concerned with him in The Untold Origins.)
#bsd#bsd fyodor#bungou stray dogs#i finally got to the chapter with ivan's conversation with the devil#on which asagiri said he based fyodor#and yeah. he did. i see it. a lot makes sense now.#even why he looked so disgusted with atsushi so recently.#that's just. ivan and his manifestation of satan.#you and me and the devil makes three etc etc#it's also why he works with those who are desperate for or grappling with life in some respect#or nathaniel hawthorne who is arthur dimmesdale whose whole bit is guilt and sin and succumbing to internal conflict#and why fyodor wants the book so badly. because (1) he's suffering through incarnations but never really living#and (2) he's seeking to be reconciled and end his quadrillion kilometers#it also explains his fixation on atsushi#whose skill relentlessly chases life and is triggered by immense suffering#fyodor just doesn't know the secret is all.#the secret that could reconcile him.#that's also why everyone in bsd is so young#their satan was born out of a 24 year old's liberal arts anxiety
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